In my restless dreams, I see that website.
YouTube.
You promised to let me stream again someday.
But I never did.
Well, I'm alone there now... Looking at my channel... Waiting for you...
Waiting for you to come to see me.
But you never could.
And so I wait, wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness.
I know I've done a terrible thing to you. Something you'll never forgive me for.
I wish I could change that, but I can't.
I feel so pathetic and alone laying here, waiting for you...
Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling and all I can think about is how unfair it all is...
My manager came today. He told me I could make a video on Twitter.
It’s not that I'm getting better. It’s just that this may be my last chance...
I think you know what I mean...
Even so, I'm glad to be looking at tweets. I've missed my fans terribly.
But I'm afraid, /hlg/. I'm afraid you don't really want me stream.
Whenever I see your posts, I can tell how hard it is on you...
I don't know if you hate me or pity me... Or maybe I just disgust you...
I'm sorry about that.
When I first learned that I was going to graduate, I just didn't want to accept it.
I was so sad all the time and I struck out at everyone I loved most. Especially you, /hlg/.
That's why I understand if you do hate me.
But I want you to know this, /hlg/.
I'll always love you.
Even though our time together had to end like this, I still wouldn't trade it for the world. We had some wonderful streams together.
Well, this letter has gone on too long, so I'll say goodbye.
I told Yagoo to give this to you after I'm gone.
That means that as you read this, I've already graduated.
I can't tell you to remember me, but I can't bear for you to forget me.
These last couple months since I've been on a break... I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us...
You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing.
That's why I want you to live for yourself now. Do what's best for you, /hlg/.
/hlg/...
You made me happy.