/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I shot out a lot of cum to this
https://youtu.be/HqMalCLE72Y?t=6315

I have unhealthy fantasies where I dream I'll get together with fictional characters, or idealized versions of a real person.

>>62391224
I have masturbated to Shiori every day since her debut

>>62391224
Am mostly a holo watcher but I sometimes watch nijiEN(pomu, rosemi, alban) and I feel bad for some members.
Not everyone there deserves the hate.

>>62391479

>>62391224
I keep telling myself I'm not pathetic enough to fall for my oshi and yet I have dreams about her.

>>62391292
h-hot

>>62391517
Yeah, Wosemi is cute. But thats about it for nijien

>>62391224
Watching VTubers has made me distrust women more than I already did.

>>62391638
How?

>>62391224
I got into the hololive rabbit hole thanks to holocure when it came to steam

Now I can't get out

>>62391659
I guess it would be more accurate to say the rrats that are verifiable increased my distrust. Like Froot cheating on her husband as an example.

>>62391224
I gosling too easily and need to constant stop watching chuubas to detach myself frequently

>>62391659
NTA, but realizing that women are capable of lying to the degree Vtubers do has made me distrustful of all women

>>62391224
I haven't felt like watching streams so I stopped supporting my indie oshi

>>62391224
I'm watching only clips and I can't force myself to watch the archives, yet I'm larping as Gosling

>>62391224
I don’t care if a chuuba does homocollabs or has a boyfriend at all, yet Fauna’s real talk made me drop her completely. Which is weird, because if she was an open cleanup slut and a meth addict, i wouldn’t drop her.

>>62391224
Not a sister but I watch homos and I think they're pretty entertaining.

a chuuba insulted a random guy in chat and I was hit with collateral damage, haven't watched her since.
seriously, if you know nothing about a random troll talking shit, don't just throw random insults in the dark expecting him to get hurt, you're just insulting your own audience for no fucking reason.

>>62391714
Which one is your Holocure Main and who is your oshi?

>>62392036
>Fauna’s real talk made me drop her completely.
What specifically did you find so offensive to drop her?

>>62392365
Did she say his dick was small and you caught a stray? Or that he lives in his mother's basement?

I've truly being a gosling for a chuuba only once, and ever since that specific vtuber turned out to be a whore, I've been jumping from vtuber to vtuber to fill that whole, but it never seems to work. I guess I'm stuck with a fucking vtuber that doesn't even stream anymore, and I don't know if I will develop the feelings I had for that vtuber ever again.

>>62392764
t. mate

>>62392764
kill yourself Gabe

>>62391224
I’m one of my oshi’s biggest paypigs

>>62391224
I only started watching IRyS because of her AI Chatbot

>>62392365
yeah, they should be careful about calling people 30 year old virgins, that's most of their audience too

Whenever a vtuber is laughing to where you hear her laughter breathe into the mic, I imagine a waft of air on my face and breathe in

>>62392630
I first beat stage 3 hard with Miko so she's my main there

>oshi
Miko but Sakamata is also growing on me

>>62393243
>Migo on both counts
yea im thinkin based tasted, she's who originally pulled me into Hololive as well

>>62392365
>a chuuba insulted a random guy in chat and I was hit with collateral damage, haven't watched her since.
Yeah, this happened to me as well. Instantly dropped. (Not even out of spite, I just lost all desire to watch.)

>>62393147
You joke, but that was close to it in my case. Normally I wouldn't mind so much but it felt especially mean-spirited and genuine. It's a really dicey topic.

>>62392764
clock...

>>62391224
I used my real name and address when I ordered merch from my favorite 2view.

>>62391224
I don't buy into the whole /u/baiting part of this hobby. And shipfagging and shipwars in general are passé.

>>62393815
Oh boy looks like you're on the spreadsheet

>>62391224
I'm a unicorn for Mori

>>62393817
You don't have to "buy into" yuribaiting to enjoy it.

>>62393942
How?

>>62391224
Gura should sing THAT song done by Ui because I genuinely want to see if its only popular because of "loli model".

my favorite vtuber lets her misandry slip through sometimes

>>62394136
I live with alot of denial honestly but I'm too far in now to stop

>>62394223
Kanata...

>>62394223
It's more funny when they're misogynist and keep going on about how dumb their fellow women are.

>>62394223
I watched a vtuber on twitch talk about how a mysoginist man tried to humble her and she went on a rant about how men are insecure and feel the need to belittle women to feel as if they have a chance only to reveal after 10 minutes of talking that the guy didn't even say anything, he simply stopped repplying when she sent him unsolicited nudes. she's a gold medalist in mental gymnastics.

>>62391224
I was invited to a special private discord with the parasocial fans of a certain chuuba, but I'm personally not parasocial at all. I view chuubas as only entertainment. I just have a well-paying job and figured I should supacha for something I'm entertained by.

I've been there for months now and I don't really get it, but I haven't left, because I laugh at all the absolutely crazy gosling posting. It weirds me the hell out, but it's also kind of hilarious seeing peoples' thoughts.

>>62392709
your dick isn't big and you still live at your parents.

I've never had sexual thoughts about any vtuber and think anyone who does is weird and ruins the overall vibe of the fanbase.

>>62394016
That's the thing, I don't enjoy it at all.

>>62395315
I'm sorry you had to find out about being gay this way anon.

I miss Gura ….

>>62391224
since t90 and theviper are back on twitch i've been practically deserting vtuber streams.

>>62395038
Yes, and? I've made peace with it. Have you?

>62395471
For me it's been Tasting History and the NHRL. Only watch one indie now cause the VTuber market is more saturated than a 6M Nitric Acid solution.

>>62394388
Not quite, shes an en indie.
>>62394917
Shes never ragged like that or at her chat even its more offhand comments about men now and again.

I used to go "haha wakipai" as a joke, but I've started to unironically find it attractive. I blame the sheep.

>>62395400
That's a damn shame.

>>62391224
I Love Gura!

>>62395161
They're women. How is it weird to have sexual thoughts about women? Even normalfags have sexual thoughts about celebrities.

>>62396333
Working as intended.

I don't really watch lives. I'm a clipwatching faggot.
Also I look into the chubas PL to see if they're lewd so I can cum to them. I'm sorry

>>62397605
>I'm a clipwatching faggot.
based and same, i don't got time to watch an entire stream when you work fulltime

>>62392764
Same
I can't tell you how many chuubas I've watched chasing even a fraction of how my oshi made me feel
I'm convinced at this point it's a fool's errand

>>62391224
*cums into speak-thru holes*

>>62391292
Is she literally just masturbating for an hour?

>>62391224
I'd get it off into Marine's chest, if you know what i mean

>>62398308
Yes
It’s a 1 hour endurance using some vibrator
She was still easily talking with her chat in the beginning near the start of the hour, but closer to the end she was unable to communicate and was reduced to animalistic moaning, as you probably heard

>>62391292
Someone is going to marry this one day.

>>62400038
You're probably hoping to be that someone, aren't you anon?

>>62400421
Marriage is a sham. Not for me.

>>62396333
The irony pipeline is real. Never pretend to be retarded or else you'll becoming retarded.

>>62391224
I started out liking the cunny meme because I thought it was funny and ridiculous and now it's fried my brain to the point where it turns me on.

I stopped watching my old oshi after she reincarnated because I hate her new model

I stopped watching Hololive. Peko and Pol were the last bastion, but my Polka membership is running out end of this month.

>>62391224
I recently got a job and have this small female co-worker, who is at perfect standing blowjob height, discreetly (not really) making fun of me along with my other co-workers via body language.
Now, everytime I see her, all I can think about is violently and brutally having sex with her just like those loli hentai(s) I love so much.
Good thing I'm a virgin and a pussy, else I'd be in fucking prison already.
But yeah, the job is going great and I can finally buy memberships now.

Interacting with vtubers made me unironically hate women a lot less.
...for a few years, until the kayfabe and oppressive moral standards broke down, and I came to realize that they are just women with a different manipulation strategy.

>>62394917
>>62395904
Name please kek

>>62400521
you'd marry her if you had the chance, don't even lie

>>62400768
o-only 2D rite?

>>62400934
Why?

>>62401201
Yes they are more likeable under oppressive rules and standards, however, that does not mean you actually like the women, you like the standard or caricature of them. I'd rather have something authentic even if it's transactional because I know that women are as shitty of people as men are.
That being said, you can only love a shitter as much as your nature lets you love a shitter. I'll watch my oshi's streams, but I will never spend money on her, I know she has millions of other men to do that for her. But I still love her in the only way I can; by jacking off aggressively to her smut feeling 0 shame about objectifying a woman who wants, to some degree, to be objectified.

>>62401492
I will never give half my shit to a woman.
I would only marry a vtuber if she were richer than I so I can take half of her shit and give her at least 2 years worth of content for her followers and a clear villian for her to base her career and life around.
In this way, I've still won at the end of the day.

>>62401841
I just lost interest and my oshi streams too many hours for me to realistically keep up with other chuubas now. I probably will still keep an eye out for peko or polka streams that seem interesting.

>>62401492
don't settle for a hoe anon, it's only gonna give you trouble

I don't watch vods
Nothing any individual vtuber has done is actually drama worthy

>>62402233
that's actually where im at with it now. just lost interest in watching a woman play games she clearly does not give a shit about.

>>62391224
I want to kiss and lick Kanata's tummy lots, and then kiss her while having gentle sex, petite girls make me hard.

>>62391224
I actually watch streams and I actually pay for concerts and I actually listen to original songs

>>62401286
I wont i still enjoy her the most of all chuubas despite the flaw because her voice and zatsu serenades me still. Plus its an infrequent thing.

(almost) every night at 8PM I hop on Discord and do ERP as Marine. There are three guys I regularly chat with and I literally multitask sometimes to help all three of them cum. I dont get anything out of it and theyve been extremely needy and demanding lately, but I dont want to delete my account since I have Nitro. I wasnt like this before discovering Marine

I like to crossdress as my oshi and put on her streams while i jerk off to porn

>>62403368
hot

>>62402079
I have standards for myself. I wish more people had the same self-respect, but it's in short supply these days. Authentically horrible people are still horrible people, and no amount of window dressing (or coomer baiting) will change that.

>>62404679
>Has standards
>posts on 4chan

>>62404826
The internet has gone to shit. 4chan has gone to shit too, but its somehow the only place that feels like home.

>>62405004
We are running out of places to go

>>62391224
I used to be a Nijifag back in 2021. It took me until that fag Uki disrupted a girls only offcollab to realize that I needed to go back, and stick to only Hololive. This story unfortunately doesn't end on its happy ending quite yet, though. I was back to only Hololive, yes, but do you want to know which girl I went back to first and foremost? Fucking Kronii. Mere months before that menhera retard Vesper ruined her. Needless to say I needed help. Thankfully, Fauna was there to safe me. I'm now happy with my white girl triad of Fauna, Mumei, and Nerissa, and I'm happy these dark times are fully behind me.

I've been using a voice changer with vtuber models to larp as a girl in VRChat. Girls really do have life on easy mode. Now everyone I meet is nice to me, wants to give me attention, and to follow me around everywhere. Technology is really amazing. I talked to a friend of mine with it on for around an hour and he said it sounded completely natural. I have an extremely deep voice so this is really a game changer. I feel like my natural voice intimidates people and makes me sound too old to be playing games. I can hear hints of my accent with the voice changer and it's not a perfect replica of the vtuber's voices, but no one doubts that I'm a much younger female when I use it.

>>62391224
I want to get on Marine's chest

>>62405803
I think it's more attractive people than just girls, but alot of guys on the internet tend to assume every girl they meet online is an attractive person.

I kiss my Mori dakimakura good night before going to sleep every night.

>>62405803
>g a voice changer with vtuber models to larp as a girl in VRChat.

>>62401817

>>62405803
>Girls really do have SOCIAL LIFE on easy mode.
Fixed that for ya!

>>62391224
Sometimes I do wish my particular community could just pack up and disappear without a trace, with everyone here forgetting about it in short order.

>>62405344
>Vesper ruined her
Don't lie, she ruined herself. If it wasn't Vesper, it would've been someone else.

I get anxious seeing my oshi stream on her rm instead of her vtuber. Even though I watch both

I've been missing more streams than I've been watching and I don't feel like catching up

>>62407201
Maybe the streams just aren't that interesting anymore since the pandemic.

>>62391224
I was improving myself but fell right back into /vt/

>>62407110
Why do you get anxious

I fell deeply in love with Yuukoku Roberu. Seriously. I translated his stuff, commented on his vids and got hearts, talked with him on stream via comments, played games with him when he did open lobby to chatters, bought his merch, even moved to Japan and met with special guests he had on his stream irl like that one doctor.

But I cannot fucking stand Mea, and the fact that he is so close with her and collabs so much with her drives me fucking crazy. I keep waiting for him to dump her ass like he does with his never ending revolving door of female friends he slurps up like the animare or VOMS girls, but he's still. Fucking. Talking to her. And the lovey dovey cover they did together sent me over the edge. I don't know what to do. Ive never loved and hated someone so much. I honestly want to enter Hololive just so I can meet him and destroy his life from the inside of the company.

...well, that's all I've got! Here's a pic of a stray cat I ran into in Tokyo.

I bought a dick review from my oshi, and I'm thinking about buying a cum tribute review once her official onahole arrives.

>>62405344
>Fauna, Mumei and Nerissa
>doesheknow.jpg

>>62408838
I tried doing this and did manage to mostly stop watching vtubers and coming here (I actually avoided this place and vtubers for a whole two months.) but after two or three productive days I just swapped this hobby for video games and random youtube videos instead. I only came here today because a vtuber I like did a rare karaoke stream that I decided to watch. I probably won't be on /vt/ again for weeks due to shitty video games. I think I have no self control.

>>62412556
Wow an actual menhera
That’s pretty neat

>>62414569
You are through the looking glass, anon.

>>62391224
I'm 18 and I want to share my first kiss with a girl who's just as inexperienced. Girls at my school, dating apps, Discord and clubs seem to have had that experience when they were younger already, so where do I find a girl in my age range that probably is the same as me? Finding her online would be preferred because that seems to imply they're somewhat introverted.

>>62391811
Don't worry, they will always let you down eventually, and you'll feel less Gosling each time.
The only ones that will never you let you down are the ones already graduated.

>>62415246
nigger just fuck whoever or you will end up virgin at 30

>>62415517
we dont wanna get aids or stds bro.
no whores allowed

>>62415896
>he fell for the std meme
stds aren't real bro.

I got laid off and haven't been able to find a new job so I'm on the verge of just giving into my menhera thoughts and giving up on ever making real $, selling everything I own, breaking off all contact with everyone I know, and being an Eigo teacher somewhere in Asia.

>>62414095
Oh shut your yapper mr rrat peddler.

An anon in a general thread /here/ triggered my autism when he announced that he had a youtube chat archiver that followed ~60 or so channels and archived the chatlogs of all videos on the channels. I couldn't get the idea of how it was done out of my head so I spent about a month and a half developing my own version of it. I finished it about six months ago and have archived the chatlogs of 52,140 videos. Even though I spent a lot of time developing it I have hardly ever gotten any use out of it. The most fun I had with it was reading the logs of some guy who kept calling Kronii his ex and would come into her chat talking about how she broke his heart.

>>62420737
Lol

>>62391224
I want to join Holostars but worry that my vtuber dreams are just that, pipe dreams

>>62391224
test

>>62412556
That cat is judging you for salivating at roberu lewds

>>62391224
I love my kamioshi but always managed to keep my possessive schizo tendencies under control since she's not really that kind of streamer. Yet recently one of her chuuba mutuals has gotten me wrapped entirely around her fingers with how parasocial and lewd she is. Her behavior is unhinged and not at all healthy with how much she obsesses over her fans, even keeping a spreadsheet of their accounts. But when she directs it at me and enables my behavior I cant help but fall further for her honeyed words. I knew she had me right where she wanted me today when I sent her a marro about being jealous of her being in VC but leaving and not coming back when I joined. Instead of being repulsed or put off by it (the appropriate response) she begged to DM to talk about it where she assured me she didnt talk with them much and that she was okay with me DMing her to come back if it happens again. And beyond that she said she would republish a VOD where she was horny and making all kinds of lewd comments at my request. She's firmly got her hooks in me and knows it but I dont think I mind as long as she keeps feeding my desperate longing for female attention.
Thanks for reading my blogpost, anons. Dont be like me, for your own sakes.

>>62403368
Based

So, I have a great kamioshi. Creative, does great ASMR, can go for long hours streaming. She is really good. I, however, wanted to touch even less grass than what she allowed me to. So I oshihen'd to one of her friends that went all in. As in even going as far as making coom-worthy content. Driven by lust and a desire to feel loved, I told this new girl tons of sweet and lewd things. Confessed my love for her. Spent some money for her.
I'm not entirely sure how it happened, but at some point I realized I wasn't actually in love with this girl but forcing things to get the best experience possible out of it. After that I couldn't bring myself to write daily maros like I used to.
I also started watching my kamioshi again, nstantly noticed how much of a comfier and funnier time I was having with her compared to the new girl.

Halfway through writing this I noticed how similar it starts to >>62433969

>>62412796
Well don't leave us hanging man, what did she say?

i lost count on how many times ive coomed to that akari mmd where she's in a recording

>>62391224
I only watch Advent, Fauna and Henya from ENs.
Sometimes Kiara.

>>62402143
prenups exist

>>62412556
I’ve been wondering how you’ve been, Robeschizo. I hope everything’s well. The cat is cute! I also hope he stops hanging out with Mea. Did you buy any of the host club voice packs? He was really cute in it.

>>62391224
Why am I confessing to a women?

I am the like schizo in the KFP thread. I am not one of the namefags people in that thread think is the culprit. I feel bad and anxious when Kiara or my favorite indie chuba don't give me likes or hearts on yt.

i wish you lot would stop using 'SEAniggers' as an insult eveytime you see anti holo shit
though its not 100% wrong, everybody here knows that all of those bait/anti holo threads always coming from philippines
bannedvtubermemes is filipino
depressednousagi is filipino
doxxdiscord are filipinos
as thai, it's legit hurt me everytime you clumped me with them with an insult, atleast be specific

>>62448061
As a flip myself, I can attest that it's most likely either cushy city life kids up north that have nothing going on in their lives that they resort to this sort of retardation or it's poorfags that have likely done drugs during their teen years acting out their mental delusions online.

I don't understand the concept of "leeching." What, two Chuubas like vollabing with each other? A chuuba was excited to collab with a kouhai and did it ASAP?

>>62447425
I'm a bit better now. I went back to America to be with family and got back on meds and started counseling. I decided it was probably best to stop watching Roberu for a while because the way I was acting wasn't healthy. I still love and hate him, but it's not like I really know him and it's not fair to other regulars or the talent himself that I act like this. Also got very pissed when vesper and magni graduated, that didn't help. I watch bettel and shinri every now and then but I'm afraid to get invested because they might become horndogs or graduate and I'll feel betrayed all over again.

......so yeah, that's where I'm at.

>>62391224
I FAP TO MY OSHIIS cuckolding me.

>>62391224
I've been slacking on reps to masturbate.

>>62391224
I didn't like Shiori's debut but she quickly became my favourite holomem aside from Fauna
I have been tempted to commission porn of my real oshi because there's basically none

I'm going to shoot out a lot of cum to this

>>62403368
Stream WHEN

>>62391224
I mainly watch my holo oshi through clips since i cant understand nipspeak which makes her chatter amount to white noise in the background

I hate seeing anons talking about joining holostars when they have no desire to do anything idol like or even improve their singing at all. Most of those posts are not serious but I see a lot of them when I'm in the archive and wonder how someone can miss part of the appeal so much, without the creative streams and idol related things you a vtuber limited by bullshit japanese permissions.

>>62391224
I just pretend to resent nijiniggers. In my opinion they are just young and stupid and who hasn't done fucked up shit when they were a kid?
I truly believe they will grow up and see the world for what it is. I just hope egging them on might develop them faster.

>>62391224
Used to frequent /#/ it was pretty solid in 2021 and somewhat chill even at times. Always a bit of a ohnonono shitpost place with back and forth tribalism always a bit inset, was a great place that also aggregated news from other corpos/threads and it wasnt that bad or overrun yet. Shifting started around Luxiem but it still wasnt that bad. Luxiem started to grow so tribalism started to amp a bit between EN fanbases but it was just a bit of numberfagging. Then Noctyx came and the discord leak which drove numberfagging into full tribalism overload in the thread. Around this time outside of Gura the guys in NijiEN started to do well numberswise compared to HoloEN causing absolute shitposting between EN to boil creating a bunch of bad faith posters on both parties whos only goal was to churn and bait but the thread was still somewhat usable.

Then came the next punch, holostars english. Cross gender collabs started the real collapse of thread quality with wedges driven between even fanbases inside the same corpo and generally lower numbers for most of holoEN soured alot of thread atmosphere. Around this time NijiEN had its share of missteps culminating in their numbers lowering too but at this point it doesnt matter thread is straight up out for blood at all times.

Due to excessive faggotry of baitposters over the year you cant even mention other corpos even small or indie unless its to straight shit on them without being called a shill or similar. The thread speed is always multiple times faster than it was in 2021 at all hours of the day. By the end of 2022 the thread is unusable. A shame. Id assume its not gotten better by how fast the threads still are and how dogshit the catalog remains with alot of similar posting styles and points latestage 2022 /#/ used to exhibit.

>>62455679
I’m glad you’re improving yourself in such a mature way. I hope that you can find happiness out there. Here’s a stray cat.

>>62391224
For me, Anya is the most erotic member of hololive and planted the seeds of ESL fetishism into my brain that have since blossomed into a beautiful tree. The word stuffs gets me as hard as a fucking battering ram.
>>62453640
Me neither, it especially sucks when it results in chuubas becoming hesitant to collab with each other but it seems to be one of the two general conclusions any collab pairing gets, either death through distance or death through people cynically shitposting about the frequency of collabs. Reminds me of pairings like Kobo and Ollie, Gura and Kiara, Pekora and Moona, and probably any other pairing that exists with a sizeable enough number difference.

>>62412556
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vioECDPtrdA&t=2810s
Get cucked Robeschizo

I feel bad when nobody responds to my bait.

>>62412556
oh hi Bae

>>62391224
after 3 years of being pure, i finally jerked off to a chuuba
it was miori celesta
THOSE FAT FUCKING TITTIES WHILE MAKING KISSY NOISES, WTF

>>62412556
there aren't that many roberu clipper/translators

who dis?

>>62391558
A few weeks ago I had a dream that I was back in highschool and that Fauna was my class mate and that she was really really nice and caring to me.
I don't even consider her my oshi.
I never had dreams about any other vtuber.

>>62463087
I know I'll get there. I think the lack of access to my meds and social isolation was really making me lose it in Japan. Plus everybody was REALLY pushing alcohol which was difficult for me. Now I know how to handle things better.

Thank you for the cat picture. I'm getting ready to go to therapy tomorrow again. Hopefully one day I can stop being so ridiculous and go back to loving people and things normally.

>Take adderall years ago (didn't abuse it, never took more than 15mg twice a day)
>Get life sorted out, get tons of confidence, lose weight, all of my crippling social anxiety went away, my ocd went away
>Find a gf and move in together
>Stop taking adderall because I was sick of the evening crashes
>gf gradually loses all respect for me as I transform back into an anxious OCD mess with low self esteem. start gaining weight again, can barely focus on any of the skills I developed while I was on adderall. Feel crippling social anxiety just going outside
>gf dumps me
>in the pit of despair, I discover vtubers
>have been coping ever since

>>62453640
>>62465871
I think the accusation is bullshit 95% of the time when leveled against chuubas but I think I understand why people are mad.

It's wanting someone you care for not being taken advantage of.
They think the "leecher" is insincere. "They don't wanna collab because they like the other party and think it would be fun, but only because they want attention an attract a larger audience.
Imagine you had a successful son and some of his friends seem to only hang around cause of his money and connections. You wouldn't want people like that in your sons circle of friends, right?

>>62392036
huh? care to show?

I will never have sex
I am a pathetic virgin who doesn't understand how to connect with people
I engage in lifting and have the audacity to call it my hobby knowing full well I secretly hope at some point in the future I can declare myself fit and I will also magically become social because this is a fantasy born of the desperation I feel when I hear everyone around me involved in systems I will never understand engaging in the consummation of love that I disdain as slutty because I’m afraid if I can't find a reason to dismiss rampant sexuality I won't have any grounds to lie to myself and say that my involuntary abstinence is in some twisted mangled way a good thing in the end I believe that proceeding down the path of arbitrary engagement will lead to some form of rehabilitation where I slowly overcome my social anxiety but the truth is I choose not to improve for fear that my already existing inability to communicate should not be exposed, and this creates a feedback loop where I find myself unable to involve myself in other people's lives for the very reason I’m insecure in the first place
In the end I am the culmination of the biological desires for a human being to form a family unit and the hardwired drive for sexual gratification mixing with a cultural obsession with pure true love and ultimate selfless devotion to another human being fuelled by an obsession with anime as an outlet for the emotional variety I don't experience in real life
I am a failed human being
I am a failed psyche
This is my fault

Watching vtubers may not have cured my misogyny, but reading /vt/ made me realize how much projection common misogynist talking points and insults carry. Sure, some of it is jealous 2views, but no chance in hell all of the gossiping and shittalking is carried out by local femanons alone.

>>62411110
She’s can get real menhera in her rm that ends up affecting her vtuber. So seeing that rm notification pop up has a is she having a breakdown moment.

>>62394388
never seen a single clip of her shitting on men, there's that one where she says that male models don't interest her, but outside that never seen her saying stuff like ´´i hate men´´, not collabing with the stars doesn't count.

>>62470842
It doesn't matter what any of them say. Everything is a lie to keep up an image you fool.

>>62471213
ok then, where's the proof of Kanata hating the heimins for example?

>>62391224
I have masturbated to anime characters getting dicked down.

>>62470090
I'll pay a hooker to rape you. You'll be ok anon. You shall be saved

>>62471311
Why on earth would I have any proof of that? Just because X isn't demonstrable doesn't mean not!X magically becomes true. Christ this site is full of children who can't help but get offended whenever someone disagrees with them and jump to some stupid dichotemy.

My most used Koikatsu Chara studio card is Suisei

I haven't watched another member of Hololive stream at all, I only ever watch my oshi and when she isn't around it basically means I don't care. It made me realize I'm not even really a fan of hololive, I just check them out to kill time before my oshi is on who just so happens to be in hololive. I started watching at least 2 indie vtubers that I find way more interesting than most hololive members and they actually get to do what they want. After watching holoEN for 3 years I just realized corporate vtubing is kind of boring and very repetitive, the restrictions really destroy good or cool ideas for streams.

I'm usually in /hlgg/ but lately I'm only there out of habit, I find most of them are too into worshipping the company instead of enjoying streamers individually and it doesn't sit right with me, so I've been sticking to my oshi's split instead a lot more and making OC and such for them. I genuinely do not find the rest of the holo members to be entertaining and their terrible game choices doesn't help, though that part isn't really their fault since they need to ask a fax machine guy to ask for game permissions which takes him like 4 months+ to do because Japan brain. Basically, my oshi just so happens to be in hololive but I'm not really enjoying the other members, I'm more inclined to browsing and discovering indie vtubers to watch while my oshi isn't streaming. It was a slow and gradual process but I just sort of realized most of holo is very boring and indies are just better in terms of entertainment value.

>>62391224
I stream on two twitch channels
on one I stream with a female avatar and a voice changer when dysphoria hits
on other I pretend to be the chaddest man ever when "nevermind I actually like being a man" hits
I really fucking wish this confusion in my head and constant flipflopping would stop aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>which channels
I'm not telling you you dumb niggers

>>62391224
I've achieved some success but I'm too mentally ill to have close friends or a romantic partner. Their lives improve when I'm gone. I think I make the world an objectively worse place to exist in, but I know killing myself would lead to negative consequences for others. I'll keep existing and making the world worse until I die. Only friend pushed me away finally and I'm back to being in a manic depression. I'll cut myself later to get back to functioning before streaming. I just wish I were dead so I didn't need to keep messing up everyone's lives more. I've only made this world a worse and worse place. My parents always told me this was true growing up, and seeing it reflected in others has been hard. But I was too proud to accept it when I was young and to kill myself when I was still a shut in. Now I'm stuck.

>>62461554
something something pretend to be a retard something something attract actual retards
get fucked

I don't actually care about vtubers anymore, and am just waiting for Gura to graduate so I can finally tap out of this "hobby" for good.

>>62466476
This except when i post my art or edits

>>62392764
Based I hate Kronii too

>>62467254
Come home, Sapling-kun.

>>62470090
>I am a failed human being
>I am a failed psyche
By who's standards?

>>62391224
I have no oshis anymore and honestly it feels great. When I was membered to her I felt really pressured to tune in to her streams despite her playing a game that I don't care about. Now I can just look at the timestamps/clips and watch the good parts. I no longer have to waste my time watching the entire thing and having my chat ignored. When I was asked the reason why I stopped membering by Youtube I was gonna select the "I don't feel appreciated" option but somehow I didn't

I nutted to this twice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZQ0B3Gt1hQ

>>62473020
>I really fucking wish this confusion
There does not have to be confusion. Instead of letting the internet tell you that you HAVE to pick one extreme or the other, why not just learn to love the fact that you're a man that loves cosplaying as a woman. You don't have to just be trans or just be straight or whatever. If you go back and forth, then learn to love that you like being a man some days and need that easy and unquestionable validation that women get other days.
Just look at Mori, somedays she's black, other days she's a California white girl, other days she's a Texan girl and other days she a Japanese Shotacon. If Mori can do it with race you can do it with gender. Believe in yourself crossdresser-san.

>>62473813
>I think I make the world an objectively worse place to exist in
Adopt this mindset then.

I miss my toxic, disgusting, dishonest, autistic Oshi. No one will ever fill my heart the same way, but I will never ever watch her again.

>>62391224
I have developed a female to male rimjob fetish

>>62474785
Pls be female

I get off to mori being a fatass

>>62474781
>disgusting
Chloe?

>>62391224
Me and some other guys anti our oshi /here/ while supporting her on twitter and stream, sometimes we also falseflag in maros pretending to be a guy we don't like. Gotten a few fags banned that way, feels really nice.

>>62474845
Mori is a pawg
We all know what she’s built for

>>62475319
No she's a indie at the moment grifter.
What nasty shit Chloe do?

>>62475585
stinky Chloe?

>>62475585
A severe lack a showering. (which for me is a good thing)

>>62461554
I feel the same.
/#/ used to be relatively good, but the homos and the Nijidiscord screenshot killed the quality of the thread. Now everything is about homos, tribalfagging or some dumb drama.
So much fun, I remember when an anon shilled the mother indie Vtuber, and his/her story got progressively weirder. Something like this is so rare now.
Worst of all, I can't really leave because it's still relatively useful and I like to see how Vtuber or companies grow larger and larger, not because of competition, but because I have genuine interest in them at large. I fucking hate how schizos and shitposters ruined the thread.

>>62474742
But I don't want anyone to suffer. I don't have it in me to want others to hurt because of my deficiencies.

I don't consider myself a normie in any capacity, I fit all the qualifications for being worse than most of the disgusting loner NEETs on this board, only difference is I've had one long term relationship that ended years back.

I consider myself a full fledged unicorn for my oshi but not once ever really felt jealous or angry about stuff like males or whore speak or whatever. It just seems really silly to get mad over all that stuff when you can just ignore it and watch the GFE content they focus on anyway.

Also too many of you give too much power to autistic women, I've met some 2views that get talked about alot in certain threads /here/ via discord friend circles, and most of them are so obnoxiously autistic and stupid that you wouldn't believe that their the same girls that have generals worshiping them, or calling them conniving sluts

>>62476020
i feel like I just watched an entire rom-com anime happen

/Here/ chuubas used to be a really cool concept this board and /trash/ era /wvt/ had. Some had some really interesting starts like Koopa Fortuna being based of a /hlgg/ schizo post. They had fun generals and mostly felt /here/ in the sense of being into actual 4chan culture over whatever /vt/ is ranting about.

Now every /here/tuber needs to either be a part of Pipkin Pippa's clique or farming /vt/ drama to get attention, really sucks to see a cool subculture completely ruined by dramafags.

>>62394223
what corp?

I hate women, so much

My oshi's split has deteriorated in number of posters and quality but I can't let go. I will continue to be a reasonable person with how and what I post in my oshi's name.

>>62391224
I am the anon who went through the crash twinsanity tomboy childhood friend thing at /ybg/ like a year or two ago.
>Update?
Girl got married recently, fuck me. I shouldn't have seen that. I wasn't mentally ready to KNOW that information.

I am genuinely worthless. Not in a meme way, but an actual leech on society with zero skills who only lives because my family won't allow me to die.

>>62476712
I kinda get what you mean. The old /here/tubers felt like anons who have been here for ages, started really getting into vtubers through /jp/, and decided to become chuubas themselves. These nu-/here/tubers give off the impression of newfags who just want to cater to the 4chinz for an audience, especially now that there's a dedicated board for them to pander to.

>>62478722
Time to pick up a trade fren.

>>62478834
If I were capable of that I already would be, and not here. What few aptitudes I have are intellectual.

>>62391224
I made the Monoe rrats.

>>62478714
What?

>>62467805
take adderall again. Modern life is not made for being uncaffeinated at the very least

>>62479224
Not that anon but I have a similar issue with regular anxiety and I can't drink coffee or get drunk or get high because my BP can reach 140/90 often without much problem even while doing jackshit.

>>62479438
Not a MD but wouldn't nicotine works? I remember some tech bros using it as a nootropic because it has almost no body effects

>>62394473
Care to share some chuubas like that?

>>62412556
Bae...

>>62391224
I fucking hate /hlgg/

>>62479711
This
While it's not in any way a coping mechanism that should be recommended, I have pretty extreme social anxiety and found that smoking helps immensely with dealing with that. Helps stop me from getting the shakes and sweating in public when the anxiety hits.

>>62415896
stds are real but as long as you use protection you will be fine.
You can never have enough protection.
Also, seriously, you will spend less on protection than raising and actual kid.

>>62479894
I honestly can't believe global teamates are still as annoying as they were back in 2020. There's less of them now, but holy fuck, they laid that thread to waste and they're still going.

>>62471407
Share plz.

>>62473020
TBF, you only have one life, do whatever you want. Just not anything illegal and don't betray yourself.
It's not like they can see the real you behind the screen at all. The tech is good enough to avoid that.

>>62479711
Gonna research that. Thanks. Still, I know you have to be careful with anything like CBD or nicotine because of how people can derail their life for it.

>>62479935
>buttercookie
>anxious
my confession is laughing a lil at this anon

>>62480197
CBD is a muscle relaxant that is proven to work extremely well with multiple forms of anxiety. It also isn't an addictive substance or have any outword health defects, unless you have chronic asthma but that goes for all oral based smokes.
It's legalized pretty much everywhere except these 3 specific states in North America (Idaho, Nebraska, and South Dakota)

Keep in mind though that legal doesn't necessarily mean you it won't pop up on a drug test, depending on where you work, and there's still companies/schools/etc that put CBD up there with pot or H, so keep that in mind. But if above doesn't apply to you i'd 100% look into CBD carts or joints.

>>62391224
I caused another fan to nuke their account because they noticed I had them blocked on youtube chat. My oshi is small so there aren't many chatters. This person would send messages like these, one after another
Huh?
Ooh!
Ahaha!
Sparkle emoji
Yeah!
Turtle emoji
It was distracting so I blocked them. Later I see that on twitter they are having a meltdown about how I hate them. They know I blocked because they always have streams open on 2 devices.
I suspect my oshi has private twitter list of fans or something because next day oshi casually brings up how it's good for personal wellbeing to mute people if you don't like what they write, oshi mutes people all the time for sake of curating timeline. Afterwards the fan deletes their account and hasn't been seen in the chat since

There's only a single vtuber I would actually sex, she's a hag with fat tits and given the chance (which is incredibly low) I would purposefully impregnate her just so that I can turn her into a literal cow. I know it's a little vague, but I hope she sees this.

>>62480581
I have also heard wonders about CBD oil.

>>62391224
>confess
never!

>>62480853
brag some more why doncha?

kek

>>62480853
Everytime I feel bad about myself, I remember that I'm not a sniffling crybaby like 80% of indietuber chats. Mad props to these 2views for being able to stomach some of these manchildren.

>>62480853
>nukes his account because a random viewer didn't like him, not even the chuuba
My god, some people are sensitive.

bump

>>62475345
Neme...

I’m so tired of donothons. It shouldn’t be up to the viewers to crowdfund things. $500 for a voice pack unlock? What kind of chicanery is this?

>>62479730
lumi the lemon whore

when jerma said he was retired, i broke
im so burnt on this event after pikamee and nina and sana and desu i cant even be done with it
but i just have nothing left to look forward to
when his costachondritis break was going, i looked forward to his comeback and it never really materialized fully but he was there
i figured this was the same, but i was looking forward to something and he just says "you can consider me retired" and the disappointment is crushing me

>>62478722
>>62478954
>intellectual.
Then become a teacher? And not a government one. Sell a course on how to start a business in 2024 to desperate wantreprenuers. Never actually start a business yourself other than the course selling.

>>62489656
Honestly, same with regards to the Jerma thing. I’m not really sure what other streams or online video content to watch anymore. Guess it’s time to branch out, but I don’t really know what to look for since I don’t really play any new games anymore, so I’m never really watching people for the games but rather for the specific person I’ve already grown accustomed to watching
But anon, you gotta find something productive to do that motivates you everyday

>>62459324
I'm someone who wants to do idol creative stuff but I don't have a computer of my own and when I plan my streams and videos in advance I become my own worst enemy by not actually finishing and uploading anything.

>>62489656
it's a good thing jerma retired, was tired of seeing his troon twitter fanbase spam his dogshit memes everywhere

>>62476712
I wouldn't call pippa a /here/tuber in the sense that most of her content seems catered towards non vtubing demographics like kiwifarms or "Anime girl does x" fans over anything.

>>62489656
jerma is kill?

>>62405803
what the actual fuck are you me

>>62391292
same

Recently I've been fucking a breast toy while watching chuubas with large tits just live stream. Even better if they have a underboob entrance.
It goes well with my emotionless sex/ignore fetish. It's probably the best use I had from those toys, but the post nut clarity shame of cumming to a girl whos just talking, kinda hits hard.

>>62476712
For as much deserved shit as she got, there were a couple of weeks last year and this year where Mel Nekomata had some really chill streams where she was reading her own threads live and we had some nice discussions. Of course it was never going to last because she's an unironic menhera and because of her lolcow-tier antis, but I still miss those times.

>>62391224
I can't stop thinking about shioris upper arm. I want to kiss it and bite it so bad

>>62461554
>Id assume its not gotten better by how fast the threads still are and how dogshit the catalog remains with alot of similar posting styles and points latestage 2022 /#/ used to exhibit.
Correct usually the posts made there are just copy pasted as the OP of a thread without any change

I still love my oshi but watching any chuubas now just feels empty. I don't know what flipped, but some day I just stopped enjoying it.

>>62405344

>>62405344
anon i.....

I have spent most of my free time during the last few weeks using the Koikatsu Chara Studio to make my oshi fuck a dog and suck his cock in every way imaginable

>>62508653
who's your oshi?

>>62508727
Marine

>>62391224
I'm unironically mindbroken about kemono dying and no longer updating 十八番's art.
One of the few artists that is still doing niji lewds.

>>62412556
you would make for an amazing menhera chuuba tho

I don't honestly have any menhera/schizo tendencies, but I purposefully go on threads and act like it on /vt/ because it's fun to be exaggerated.

I don't masturbate to any chuubas or anime. I watch a lot of vtubers but don't feel any emotional connection to anyone on the internet, (although I act to fit in since I like being in the community). I watch niji/holo/indies alike, even sometimes holostars. I'm content with my life physically/socially and have a stable income. I'm just /here/. I'm not sure if I make the place better or worse, but I find it amusing for myself so eh whatever.

>>62477485
indie

>>62508897
What do you mean? Kemono isn't dead.

>>62510455
fantia/fanbox importer has been dead for months

>>62415246
give up bro
better get used to the wizard live style already

>>62508653
share with the thread anon, you sick fuck

>>62391224
I can't find a vtuber to oshi, I always move on about 3 months in. Maybe one day it'll finally happen.

>>62473941
Yeeeaaahh suppose i shouldve saw it coming.
>>62476020
Shame really i mightve still been using it if i didnt stop watching hololive after 4thfes. Its not a great place to browse casually if you arent following hololive closely anymore

>>62394348
>I live with alot of denial
Don't worry, every unicorn does.

>>62489656
yeah, don't even get me started on that shit
for like the whole time there was no updates outside of occassional twitch chat messages
and I don't do discordfaggotry either
so I guess he's just retired now
there's still like, some Star_ TF2 streams or NLs streams
but it's all fucked now

>>62392764
The answer lies in your past.
Remember the first time you felt something similar in your early life.

Then release the stored emotions and change your perception of the event by changing your behavior and it will change your life.

>>62412556
rare stars menhera unicorn woah

I send akasupas to my oshi and then I do anti posting.

`>>62513556
Sure, a few pics of some scenes:

>Regular Marine
https://files.catbox.moe/lfoohn.png
https://files.catbox.moe/k0ytzr.png
https://files.catbox.moe/ss0sj1.png
https://files.catbox.moe/82qtv6.png

>Bunny Marine
https://files.catbox.moe/qcjcx9.png
https://files.catbox.moe/hzad34.png
https://files.catbox.moe/btx45x.png
https://files.catbox.moe/7lhcbh.png

>Beach Marine
https://files.catbox.moe/1pndhz.png
https://files.catbox.moe/8o4bhw.png
https://files.catbox.moe/z58p4n.png
https://files.catbox.moe/y8889p.png
https://files.catbox.moe/om3507.png

>Bonus: Beach Botan
https://files.catbox.moe/50b1mc.png
https://files.catbox.moe/56m99a.png
https://files.catbox.moe/0tmgdk.png`

>>62521517
damn she got that dog in her

>>62515700
The trick is to stick around even if you start feeling tired of your oshi or the content

>>62405344
With your track record, please stay away from my oshi. Thanks.

I can't see/hear a woman vtuber without thinking about sex. I want to fuck all of Hololive. How do I stop this behavior?

>>62524834
That might make it worse. My oshi, for example, picked up an addiction to collecting Magic cards and streaming unboxings of them a few months ago. I think it sucks, but I was trying to force myself to watch because of how much I like her as a person and how long I've been a fan of her, and it's incredibly boring. I started skipping those streams, but it creeps into other areas, where she'll talk about it on unrelated streams for hours and hours, or will tweet about it constantly. There was supposed to be a watchalong, but she front loaded it with talking about cards, and I fell asleep and missed part of the movie. I'm already exhausted of it, so I've been trying to figure out who else I can watch, at least until this phase she's in hopefully ends.

>>62526210
Try to talk with an indie. You will soon realize that the model is... just a model. The person using it doesn't look anything like it, and they just treat you nicely because they want your money.

>>62527236
indies are too boring/mentally ill for me to want to mess with
their fans /here/ are also mega fags that are just as mentally ill as them

>>62527543
That's also what I used to think, and then I found a japanese indie that knew enough english to have conversations with. And yes, she was mentally ill, and her fans were as crazy as her, but I managed to become friends with her and we started talking over discord. Biggest mistake I ever did, she was am awful person and manipulative as fuck. Never wanted to fuck a vtuber since then.

>>62527543
Indie /here/ fanbases here are pretty varied. Ones like fallenshadows are just as mentallyill as their oshi but some have alright ones. As for boring if your idea of fun is large events and regular organized group/3d projects and shows then yeah hololive is basically the only real outlet. For standard streaming many are fine i feel unless your enjoyment again derives more from liveposting or reading liveposting on vt because thats basically the only thing i kind or miss from hololive experience myself in a way but can live without it.

Something about Suisei rubs me the wrong way when I warch her these days. Still, at the same I think she's the sexiest vtuber in the world. I guess Suisei has become my parasocial hatewank virtual youtuber.

Chuuba here, partnered and everything on twitch, I average around 70 viewers

I’ve never once gotten a callback from a vtuber company and feel like it might never be in the cards for me.

I should rope like k angel.

>>62521517
please share the card anon

>>62502821
When will you do your upgrade to a full scale real doll molded after your oshi

>>62526450
Ah I know that feeling. Oshi's autistic fixation on subject that you don't care about at all is rough. You could try to focus your thoughts on how cute she is when she gets excited about the dumb cardgame. Kinda have her as a background noise. Nobody's 100% into their oshi at all times

>>62491046
I don't know the first thing about any of that. I'm an armchair ornithologist.

>>62528651
There you go anon: https://files.catbox.moe/q1cz2n.png

To get everything working you need the HF Patch.

>>62529407
Maybe I'll give that a shot, but it's difficult because she may as well be speaking another language when she's going on about it, and there's no way for me to interact with her during any of it. She had a similar fixation with Overwatch 2 for a while, which I also hate, but I loved her enough to install the game and play it with her a bit just for the sake of bonding a little, since it's free. It's rough, because she goes from one autistic fixation to the next, and I have the feeling she's going to get back into Overwatch once they start putting out skins she wants...

>>62412556
I thought only men were capable of goslinging at this level...
Well my hat's off to you anon. That's impressive.

>>62526450
Ganbare anon, my oshi loved to watch random food videos on youtube and it was just hell. She specially enjoyed the ones that showed living animals getting killed just right before being eaten, like the japanese octopus. I was so happy when she announced her graduation.

>>62530689
Jesas... Thankfully mine is above reaction content, so I'll tough it out. I can never see myself dropping or committing oshihen, so at worst, I might go back to listening to podcasts and working out to occupy myself until she hopefully gets it out of her system.

>>62391224
I understand pretty much everything that JP vtubers say, but I can read moonrunes only a little bit I and I'm not gonna even try to say anything in Japanese in the chat. I love my JP oshi but it kinda feels like I'm watching a party from outside the window instead of participating in the party myself, which is a bit sad. Kinda makes me wish there was a good EN vtuber.

>>62530329
You're one sick puppy but I've got one more question until I can start making them myself . Where the hell do you get the dog and associated bits?
And did you find those scenes or make them yourself? they're damn good

>>62531551

Glad you liked them! I do them myself. The dog came with the HF Patch, he is part of the animal pack by HarvexARC (and he is quite popular if you check pixiv). The knot is an accessory from the Dicks pack. I attached the dick to the dog, and then played around with the BetterPenetration plugin to get the penetration actually working:

>https://files.catbox.moe/32yoxh.webm
>https://files.catbox.moe/u9mhp0.webm
>https://files.catbox.moe/wx8tlh.webm
>https://files.catbox.moe/bubptl.webm
>https://files.catbox.moe/7v9whq.webm

It was a pain to learn how to set everything up, but I think the results are good enough.

>>62391224
I unironically believe that Asian people are the master race. It's why JPvtubers, whether corpo or indie, are generally better.

>>62534011
Those sorts of beliefs suffer from a lack of perspective and the fallacy of thinking that the current state of the world is how things will always be from now on. There's been countless civilizations that have at one point looked like the ultimate master race, only to degenerate and face their downfall.

>>62535339
That's actually a surprisingly refreshing take to hear.

>>62391224
sex

Wanna breed marin

>>62541058
This but with Mori

>>62391224
no

>>62521517

>>62391224
I find graduated 2views and download all of their streams. I then rip her voice and use it to train my own personal local AI. After six months of doing this, I got my AI to talk to me and go back and forth. Like Neuro-sama. There isn't much reason for me to do this. I don't want to show her to anyone. She is never coming on stream with me. I just made her to have someone to talk to that's not twitch chat.

>>62545021
How do you find samples without bgm?

>>62391224
im lonely

Iofi is my dick's oshi but I can only find like three with her involving my fetish.

>>62391224
I watch a chuuba strictly because I find their zatsu entertaining. I can't relate to a lot of it but it's fun listening to the passion and enthusiasm.
That being said, I also feel like an outcast amongst her fans. The fans on YT seem like the most shallow people in existence, clamoring for the slightest crumb of attention.
The fans on /vt/ somehow do this weird dance between being decent (for vt standards) to being attentionwhores for the chuuba and wanting the most insane shit from her.

>>62545021
Honestly based, good for you.

>>62391224
Reddit fags in archive and live chats trigger me, especially when watching any Reddit game like portal or undertale from flare.

>>62391224
i fucking love korean women