/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>24470849
KIKI LOVE

I love Kiki!

Kiki love

Kiki Love!

I LOVE MY LOLIBABA RABBIT WIFE

Mind status: Unchanged

I miss her so much...

i want kiki to squeek my cheek!

RATE?!?!?!

That was very rabbity I need to take a little break

RATE?!?!

>>24471245
WIKIKI / 10

Stream was wild, I'm very excited for the days to come, she seems so happy and rabbity

now I feel lonely, better go find irl friends

>>24471257
Too slow nerd!

>>24471245
>>24471257
Great stream. Even if it isn't gaming or the stream originally planned we still love it. WIKIKI/10

Love you Kiki, looking forward to the next stream. MWAH

>>24471245
>>24471257
That was super fun! Seriously Kiki zatsus and kikiokes and just messing around is definitely one of your strengths and you should always feel free to do it. Love you and looking forward to next stream, mwah <3

Hollow knight bros.... our time has come

>>24471376
I must step up my shill game

I can't wait to see what she's got cooking up in her rabbity lab. I take it it has to do with the coming hikiki chapter

>>24471245
bunny love is bunny life
one day I hoped for a bunny wife
as I arise in the morning I gaze upon my bunny wife
all I know, all is well in life
when I have myself bunny wife/10

We'll get 'er next time, Pikmin bros. Hollow Knight gets intense. It's physically pleasurable to play when you get good at it.

>>24471376
Im going to play it along side her just so i can fully help out or at least try to anyway.

Hollow Knight can feel a little slow at the beginning, but much like SOTN, it picks up dramatically once you start unlocking abilities. Particularly the dash ability. Give it a fair chance Kiki, I know you'll come to enjoy it if you enjoyed SOTN.

end of stream means start of my dreams
it's time to sleep rabbity sleep and have rabbity dreams

>>24471530
Good idea

https://vocaroo.com/11TYVsFs53Zb

>>24471769
not funny, at least put in some effort like the other one

lame troll

Since that anon said "uuuhhh im pissing!" i cant stop thinking about that one vocaroo

Kiki is so effortlessly sexy I just can't control myself anymore

how do you deal with being a perfectionist

>>24472443
embrace the SOVL and realizing that stressing perfectionism on little things that don't matter is a waste of valuable time that can be spent doing much better things

>>24472443
wish I knew too

>>24472525
that sounds nice, I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown over something probably entirely ridiculous

>>24472616
are you me? same here

Kaiji bros my hardsub burning didn't go so well. I got the anime downloaded but the subtitles are being a real pain in the ass, might have to re-download. So we'll have to postpone for another night, sorry!

>>24472616
Sounds like you need a breath of fresh hair, go for a walk and clear you head anon, or sleep over it. Sometimes just clearing your head and coming back with a refreshed state of mind makes all the difference.

>>24472443
I'm glad you asked Kiki. As far as I know unless its OCD then its just a personality trait and can be unlearned with practice. There are two approaches commonly used for these that I know of, one is injecting logic which means telling yourself that you shouldn't be a perfectionist, and the second is exposure therapy which is similar to phobias where you just do the thing and realize the expectation and reality don't match.

1. Create simple lines to tell yourself like "this is good enough" but create them yourself. Just tell yourself simple and true facts, for the purpose of correcting your irrational desire to be perfect.
2. Make something and expose yourself to criticism, you will see that you will receive less criticism and the criticism you get will not hurt as much as you thought.

>>24472660
Thanks for the update!

>>24472780
>hair
air, I meant air

>>24472660
Ogey no worries but sad to hear you're going through all that trouble.

>>24472804
i want to breathe kikis hair

>>24472822
Oh it's not too much trouble, I'm very keen on learning all the ins and outs of this stuff since I hope to be hosting these sorts of things for you guys for sometime to come, if I get the process down it should be a peace of cake

>>24472887
Yes that would be very pleasant I'd imagine

>>24472787
In other words, you have a false belief. You fix that either at the core by replacing that belief rationally, or you change it empirically by putting the irrational belief to the test and seeing it fail.

Delving deeper and more armchairy, perfectionism might stem from an inferiority complex and looking to find something to compensate for it. Generally improving your self-esteem and mood would likely result in caring less about that one particular thing.

>>24472787
Even if you think a poster is Kiki you should give them the benefit of the doubt, how would you feel if people namefagged you for every post you made, or worse, namefagged you for posts that weren't even yours anon

>>24472787
this is the 2nd or 3rd time this week that someone has called me Kiki... but thanks for the advice, I will try to practice better ways of dealing with it, I don't want it to continue to ruin how I feel about creating things for people

>>24473193
I'm sorry it was partly a joke but partly I do like to make guesses, it's kind of like a gambling high. That was insensitive of me I agree.

>>24473312
Kiki says she hates it though. maybe keep that in mind, I get it though kek

>>24473271
I can relate, I've been called Kiki at least twice this week. And sometimes get mistaken for somebody else in these threads who is commonly namefagged too, namefagging is kinda silly

>>24473193
>anon
wtf, that wasn't even me bro

>>24472902
Hey what happened to the Digimon watchalong?

>>24473633
Well catbox is Kill on Cytube because people were hosting CP there, if that guy who uploaded everything still has the links I can download them to my server and we can watch that

>>24473489
I love posting picrel whenever people horny post at me thinking I'm Kiki

>>24473718
kek

>>24473188
I really have this. Every time I see someone much more talented, smarter, happier, etc...It kills a little part of me that was beginning to like myself and where I'm at. I'm in a constant loop of wanting to improve, starting to show some progress, then getting gutpunched by reality trying to do something way beyond my skill level and marinating in my own negativity. Not even streams are helping me feel better right now. I feel like I don't deserve the love. I don't know what's wrong with me and I hate it champs, maybe I need meds. It feels a little nice to type it out though...

>>24473981
Yeah, D3 fixes that bro

>>24473981
I don't believe you need meds for that, but I'm not sure how to help. I have something similar myself, many of us do. If that helps you're not alone at all, and we do try to foster a community in /pyon/ that tries not to trigger these feelings.

I guess you can try the same advice. Keep telling yourself you're worth it and not just as a cope but find objective reasons, there must be some. Meds suck but also consider talking to a therapist but not an expensive one trying to jew you out of your money, maybe find an acquaintance or something.

>>24473981
Also try many smaller and varied reps of self-improvement instead of putting all your eggs in one basket and crumbling when it fails.

>>24474412
I feel called out.

>>24474595
Its just very general advice I'm sure it applies to many people. The little things add up and fix your neurochemistry, give you reasons that you can use to cheer yourself up like "at least I did that other thing" etc. I need this advice myself I'm often way too preoccupied with my job.

it was nice to hear that Kiki liked when we made thumbnails and stuff, I really enjoyed making them, but stopped once her laptop situation was sorted since she was making them herself

>>24474779
Please please please feel free to ask for anything Kiki. Worst case scenario we can't do it but nobody will get mad.

>>24474973

You're gonna have emotions and feel like shit anytime you go out of your comfort zone and try something new, that's normal, and the best way to deal with emotions is just to accept that they're there, if you can categorize the bad emotions you're feeling as they happen you'll find it might help you to detach yourself from them and prevent them from impacting your daily routine.

Or you know, eat your vitamins.

>>24472061
which one?

>>24474973
Anon, are you trying to get Kiki to smoke again through subliminal messaging?

>>24474973
>>24475180
No smokiki >:(

>>24476019
I downloaded a whole mega of scenes and a lot seemed to be about smoking. She mentioned it on stream so I thought why not. I guess it might not be such a good idea lol.

I'll just go back to lewds.
https://files.catbox.moe/01kuiz.mp4

>>24476192
Is she pregonant?

>>24476256
yeah sorry its mine

>>24476192
uoooooooh bulging kiki's toned tummy!

>>24476291
I wrote this, so I don't know why I'm apologizing to myself

did Kiki say she was going to bed? I just rember her saying she was tired, not sure if I should stay up in hopes of a waiting room, approaching 7am and haven't slept yet

>>24476317
>>24476291
I think I might have dementia because I don't remember writing these.

>>24476928
Get some sleep anon. Just set a couple of alarms hours from now just in case

>>24476928
I rember she said she'd be working on some stuff. Generally she doesn't stream this early in the morning for euros I'm sure you can get at least 2 hours of sleep, likely 6.

>>24477157
>>24477260
I'll set an alarm for a few hours then, thanks frens and goodnight

I had the sudden urge to make a comfy soundpost.

Not sure why I'm posting this here. Somewhat emotional. I just remembered when I was sleeping outside and was really worried about the street cats. I didn't really have food for even me, but I'd on the daily buy multiple cans of cat food and leave it out for them while I watched from a distance. It made me feel like I was amongst beings I could relate to, and this place makes me feel similarly. I'm so glad I was able to make those city slicker cats from the city of -redacted- not have to worry about food those nights. I still think about them.

>>24478275
were you sleeping outside because you were homeless?

>>24478558
You don't sleep outside for fun?

You guys are great. I relate.

>>24478275
You're an absolute legend.
The world needs more considerate people like you.

>>24479072
You are too

>>24478275
Anybody who feeds hungry cats in the streets is a pretty cool guy in my books anon.

Kiki be like I have 30 separate fans who want to date me, but when they find one character hot I get jealous

Get a load of this clown

>>24478275
Tell me anon, did you eat any of the cat food? How did it taste?

is kiki a therapist streamer or do you guys just start emo posting spontaneously?

>>24480474
Unironically the only people who would watch a vtuber based on a 4chan flavour are mentally ill

I remember my first day on /vt/

It's way past my bedtime, I'll be back in a few hours, nii /pyon/

>>24481058
nini champ

>>24478913
That's a good way to get accosted and robbed by dug addicts in my city, nowhere is safe, hopefully you're in a better situation now anon

>>24474973
She said just make them for any you want, I think it's pretty obvious which ones are just placeholder at the moment.

>>24472443
Accept that failure is necessary for growth

>>24483635
That's a very good point. I want to expand on that when I take a break from waging.

good morning from burgerland! I want to make hot, sweaty, passionate love to Kiki and have her spit in my mouth! It's gonig to be a great day I can feel it!

>>24484143
moinin boigah

I miss her bros...

>>24484672
hikiki soon champ stay strong

>I'm a rabbit! hello!!! I'm a rabbit! hello!!! I'm a rabbit! hello!!! I'm a rabbit! hello!!!

>>24485127
Hello <3

>>24483635
There's a principle in business called "fail faster". Instead of explaining it myself I'll paste it.

>Definition of Failing Fast:
>To fail fast means to have a process of starting work on a project, immediately gathering feedback, and then determining whether to continue working on that task or take a different approach—that is, adapt. If a project is not working, it is best to determine that early on in the process rather than waiting until too much money and time has been spent.

>Use of the fail-fast concept:
>A team starts a new project or task, obtains feedback early on, and then analyzes whether the project will be successful. If a task or project is moving in the wrong direction, team members are encouraged to stop work as soon as possible.

>Benefits of failing fast:
>Identifies issues quickly.
>Creates a culture of transparency.
>Minimizes wasted effort, time, and cost.
>Improves efficiency in development projects.

On a personal level like if you're an artist this can be done by uploading your doodles instead of the finished product to thread. People can then tell you what's wrong with it and you can fix it before you've already built upon it and are now too invested to fix it. More specifically regarding perfectionism the constant criticism will desensitize you.

In general it is good to have falsifiability in mind when doing anything. Something having the ability to fail is not a bad thing, that is what allows for something better to take its place.

This broadly fits in both the "injecting logic" category as you can create a mantra based on this to remind yourself that failure is just a necessary step towards success, and the exposure therapy category as you're constantly reiterating and getting feedback instead of wallowing in artist's block and reinforcing the negative feelings.

>>24486079
>Do you guys like my doodle?
>Your art is shit never post again
>understood, thanks
hehehe

>>24486239
Taking criticism is a skill that needs to be developed like any other, even that is useful in that it teaches you what non-constructive criticism looks like so you can allocate your attention more efficiently towards the constructive ones.

>>24486284
To add to that, the actual problem is getting ignored. Getting overly positive comments is a double edged sword, it will make you feel better and motivate you but it will not directly improve your skill as much as constructive criticism. Best is getting both compliments and criticism.

happy hump day

Kiki's rabbit humps make me happy

>>24480474
People just start emo posting spontaneously. Kiki is a positive influence in our lives !

I had a weird dream where I was at my dad's house. He lives in a rural area with a lot of property, and the house is on a big open field. Anyway it was night time, and me and my dad heard something outside, like the sound of something rummaging around. So I went out there and shined a flashlight out into the field, and there were exactly 6 rabbits there. I remember that part of the dream very clearly; how they were arranged and everything. Then I shined the flashlight a little to the left, and there were like 10 more rabbits. Then I panned it to the right and there were several more. And I said something to my dad about how there's a shitload of rabbits in his field, and how happy kiki will be, and to be careful when mowing the field. Don't rember anything else after that. I've never mentioned kiki to my dad, and woke up with some pretty deep feels about wanting to introduce my wife to my dad, and show her the property where I grew up, and do things with her out there like have a picnic. And I would show her all the places I would look for salamanders and other cute creatures out in the forest, something I always did alone as a teenager because I didn't have anyone else. But now, I would have kiki, and I know she would enjoy it as much as I do.

It's just one of those days where I wake up and miss her immediately. I don't have work today, so maybe I'll try some kiki drawing today. Haven't attempted any drawing in months

>>24484143
I too would like to have just awoken in and would like to swizzle the Kiki spittle

>>24487911
half-delete dyslexia strikes again

>>24487637
Thanks for sharing anon and good luck if you introduce Kiki to your pop

I love you, kiki

Okay so I can't draw at all so I'll just write about it. What would I want to see on my Kiki mug? Definitely Kiki's pretty face. When do I use my mug? In the morning for coffee and during work at my desk, so she could be saying something like "Good morning Champy" or just "Good morning" for wider market appeal I guess, or something motivational for work. Maybe it can be incorporated in the design like that legendary "hang in there" with a kitten holding onto a rope.

Kiki hips

>>24489843
uooooooh thicc thighs and lucky rabbit hips!

Mug template!

>>24489843
Uoooooh thicc thighs and lucky rabbit hips

me susan
me hungry

There's like 10 shitpost threads this must be peak SEA hours

>>24486239
post your doodles anon

There will always be an asshole to shit on perfectly good art. It comes with the territory.

Oh that reminds me of another reason people, in this case artists, shouldn't necessarily complete a whole project before starting a new one. You get better at the part of the workflow that you do the most. This is why its important to spend more time on the fundamentals when you're starting out, they're the foundation from which you build upon and they should be as solid as possible. It's completely fine and possibly even advisable to just keep doing line art without coloring or shading etc until you're satisfied with the line art. This will also focus in your learning on a specific thing instead of spreading yourself too thin.

Conversely if you're the kind of person doing this don't feel bad and just recognize that as a strength and the fact you're bad at finishing the drawing as just the next thing to focus on, that your hard work on the first part is going to make that easier not that there's something wrong with you.

>>24487943
You know me too well anon

Love Kiki
tm

>>24492980
fuck off

Would you re-marry her Champles?

>>24493199
Beautiful skeb and yes anytime

Would you re-marry her Champles?

other one was too low res

>>24493317
I love Kiki tm

>>24493317
Still yes
>>24493391
fuck off

>>24492980
>>24493391
that's not how it works newfag
go away

>>24493317
very good

>>24493317
silly fool

>>24493477
>allreadydead.jpg
>allready

>>24493477
>he doesn't want to marry her over and over again

>>24493694
now that's a timeloop i'm willing to be stuck in

She's adorable

Here's an alternate version for the short haired Kiki enjoyers

>>24494630
NECK
I WANT TO KISS IT
NEEEEEEEEEEECKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

>>24494630
she is cute in either form but ass length hair gets me hard

>>24494630
cute!

>>24493317
>>24494630
They look pretty bad desu

How are you doing this week /pyon/? Also is the Toby hate deserved?

>>24495333
yes it was deserved
doing quite good actually

>>24495427
I'm out of the loop

>>24495333
Look at him, he thinks he's so cool with his stupid square face

playing interstella 5555 in cytube because i want to

>>24493317
>>24494630
i remember this moment, perfection
>>24495333
last day of work of the week tonight

>>24495333
Immensely busy with work recently, and my reps have suffered so I cope splurged, it's a vicious cycle. But vacation is coming soon, so end is in sight. Toby was just following orders

>>24495333
God I fucking hate him so much

Why do we hate Toby?
Which vod, if any, explains this?

>>24496066
The whole Toby situation is very nuanced, and no one VOD will give you an answer, bits and peaces are scattered throughout all of them. I'm afraid to understand the Toby lore you will have to watch all the VODs.

Kiki's current sleep schedule confuses me

>>24496229
schedule?

>>24496263
exactly

>>24495333
I'm feeling great this week. Toby hate is always deserved. Anyone with a face consisting of four equal angles is bound to be a cunt.

>>24496320
kinda glad I didn't have to explain, but also sad because i had it at the ready

night night everyone, yell out the window if a waiting room comes up

>>24494630
That's gorgeous

>>24497941
mmmhh

handling rabbit's is no easy task

>>24498305

>>24496229
Something seems off in general
>says she's tired immediately after waking up despite drinking a ton of caffeine (Red Bull included)
>went from streaming 2-3 times a day to only once and streams are shorter
>game streams get rescheduled last minute to impromptu zatsus (not a complaint, but likely further evidence that she's tired or not sleeping)

>>24498516
She said she's working on some secret project. I doubt she can be working on it all the time so likely also some life reps and just unfortunate scheduling.

>>24498516
Shes obviously just very busy ending up the year and depressed

She's just adjusting to hikiki arc likely, it's a big change in her life, it's good to be supportive and give her the space she needs to adjust

>>24498743
yeah, as I said a couple hours ago, hikiki soon stay strong champs

>>24498516
Because she's lying, are you new? She's most likely depressed or something.

>>24498832
Lying about what, just sleeping? what's the purpose of that

I will just have to suck the depression out of her through deep kisses and cunny sucking

>>24498891
My guess is it's either the troll she wants to avoid or she's really depressed. I wouldn't really expect Kiki streams to be honest, she usually cancels or delays them. Be happy when you can see one.

>>24498891
Oh she does lie about just sleeping, but that's a white lie I don't blame her. Its not even always a lie sometimes she just wants to sleep but fails. Its just a simple reason to give to end a stream. That doesn't mean you should jump to conclusions that she's doing something nefarious.

Here we go with the armchair psychs, if there was something wrong she would tell us. She's just busy with stuff and adjusting to a new schedule.

>>24499088
Busy with being a neet, gotcha

>>24499088
>if there was something wrong she would tell us
I certainly hope so.

>>24499010
am I retarded or does this post make absolutely no sense, I've read it multiple times now

Anyway, just give her the benefit of the doubt. Hikiki should be right around the corner in a couple of days, lets wait until then to doom and gloom. She said, and I quote, "it will all make sense soon".

>>24499088
I don't think so, remember that its not just us she tells these things to when she streams. If it were I'm sure she would, but you never know who is watching to use it as ammo. I wish she could but thats just how it is

>>24499263
Yeah that guy was bragging about harassing Kiki and making her cry the other day. Kinda crazy des

Like many have said Hikiki soon and rember what she said? She has projects she wants finished by the time the hikiki arc start. So she's going to be a busy rab.

If anything she's seems happier and more care free these past couple of days. You guys are making drama out of nothing and looking too deep into things IMO.

Just ignore it

>>24499021
I didn't jump to any conclusions though, it's the anons responding to me accusing her of things

I'm so excited for the Hikiki arc! Just nothing but relaxing days with my wife all the time. I CAN'T WAIT!

I'm pretty sure there is a skinwalker mixed above with some unnecessary concern-fagging.

>>24499499
Most likely

Ignore concernfags, post bun cun

>>24499541
I like this artists stuff, I tried to contact him for a commission of my own but he was busy

>>24499541
UUUOOOHH ToT

I was prescribed antidepressants recently and they make me emotionally numb and indifferent to pretty much everything, but watching Kiki having fun and being a rabbit still fills me with a profound joy and happiness.

Tightest cunny in all the land

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVN8CA-Ufkk

>>24499693
My mother recovered from a 10 year chronic depression without meds so I don't believe in them, but I hope they work out for you anon. At least I hope you show enough progress that they take you off them asap.

>>24499693
this is what happened to me as a kid, except I feel that way about pretty much everything now despite having been off them for over 10 years. sometimes nothing gets through that numb feeling, not even my favorite things

Sorry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXYiU_JCYtU

>>24499693
Fren, in my opinion, you should get off that shit. Best case scenario, they don't address the root cause, and worst case scenario, they actively make things worse because antidepressants are not engineered to help you, they're engineered to make you a more manageable piece of livestock for (((them))). Even if you don't subscribe to such beliefs, I guarantee it will at least fuck with your testosterone, which is one of the surest ways to decrease a man's happiness both chemically and by stunting your progress in life by neutering your willpower.

inb4 anon gets off it and then kills himself and then I feel really bad. If you get any self harm thoughts, don't follow through. But you really should exhaust every other possibility, and be absolutely sure you have an actual irreparable chemical deficiency in your brain before resorting to drugs, which is very rare. The vast majority of depression has an actual emotional and psychological cause that can be introspected and repaired.

>>24499693
>emotionally numb and indifferent to pretty much everything
I thought that was a part of depression. Do antidepressants make it even worse?

>>24500094
Depression also involves spiraling into negative thoughts and feeling bad not just numb. Also becoming catatonic or nearly and refusing to do anything.

I grew out of all that once I hit adulthood and out of school environments. I think eating healthy, lifting, and getting gud at my career has helped too.

>>24500260
well my depression is rooted in decades of being abused, no amount of lifting will fix that kek

https://voca.ro/16xBsCHxI66g
Im sorry if it's weird and I'm being confusing. I guess I have been putting off talking about a lot of how I'm feeling, I worry that if I'm completely honest about my feelings, and this is just how it is.. ill be targeted more. I don't really want that happening. Funnily enough, generally, mean people or trolls actually make me try harder and do better to prove them wrong, so it can be a good thing at times. what makes me the saddest is myself, I'm my biggest worst enemy and i know this but I'm trying to fix this!

To be completely honest I've been just honestly feeling quite down and nervous about this massive change in my life. I used to be really busy studying all the time and working, but now I don't have as much to distract me and it's an odd feeling. I've been in university for many years at this point and I never anticipated that I would be actually sad leaving it all. I was so excited to leave. Dont get me wrong I still am excited for this new arc in my life but I do need to adjust, and I'm sorry if it bothers people or you want to leave due to my inconsistency. I am seriously trying my best though.

To put it all into perspective my nights recently have consisted of me looking at the thread every five seconds, listening to music and working on new skills or thumbnails. The problem is I always hate what I work on and scrap it. Working with animals was so easy, it was what I feel at least, I was put on this earth to do and I have always been really good at it. Trying new things is so fun but when it's not perfect I break down and feel shitty.

This is the same for streaming. I never feel like its good enough, I drink so much caffeine to try and get myself awake and happy before streams and it works, but as soon as I crash I think "shit i messed everything up", "I'm a failure", "everyone hates me and is going to leave me" which then makes me feel worse because I then in turn feel guilty for thinking these things. It's a vicious cycle. I feel like you deserve better, I just want to make you happy and the less I stream the more unhappy I get, which makes me do worse streams, which makes me even more unhappy. I guess.

So if I know all these things, then why can't I change?

(armchair psychologist Kiki time)
As much as I wish I wasn't, I've been on this earth for a long ass time. since I was a kid I have been quite pessimistic and a big doomer. Ive never really felt the need to change this about myself because I felt as if I had no one to change it for. Which now has obviously changed. I have (You).
Change takes a long time, especially if you're stuck in the same pattern of behaviour and way of thinking. Knowing this though I've tried really hard the past 6 months to really look into myself, observe these behaviours and then try and make these changes. I think I've made pretty significant progress! and I'm really please about it. BUT. Its also brought on more issues. Becoming more self aware for me made myself more self conscious, I did change a lot of my bad behaviours but now im super duper conscious of my normal behaviours. I don't know if this even makes sense, I don't want to change these behaviours. I really like myself! but there's a little voice inside my head that's always a massive dickhead about everything I do. I used to drown it out with my work but now its louder then ever. I am learning ways to cope with it and just get into the habit of going "stfu dumb mean kiki voice you suck", but it wont change overnight. Every day I feel like im improving though. This lifestyle change has just really brought it to light for me you know? But I think it's a really good challenge to test myself and make myself into the best version of me I can be. I hope you can understand this and be patient as I ease into this, I think once my hikiki arc begins on the 21st though. I'll be so excited that ill just forget about it.

Now kind of an explanation of my rescheduling. THE REASON IS SUPER DUMB. Im nervous ill annoy my mum with being too loud of she'll kick me out. Becoming a neet I now have this fear that she'll just get super mad at me and give me that whole "get a job you fooligan" speech. Which is stupid because she's never even mentioned it. I just try and stream the most when no ones home. but I realise now writing this how silly me thinking that is... I think ill just forgettaboutit... lol im a goose.

It's funny I came into writing this all doomy but now I feel a lot better? I feel like I've found a lot of clarity already. Im really sorry for the massive blogpost. but I think its what I needed to do to be open and honest with you about how im feeling. Im going to actually sleep now once im done this thumbnail and stream in the morning. I have the doctor tomorrow too for my last back checkup which will be good as well.

Thankyou for putting up with my gooseyness. I love you so much and really trust you, I hope you can see this through my writing too! You're the best<3

>>24500260
Kek that's not depression that's just being edgy and emotional. Depression is real, but that doesn't mean meds help cure it.

>>24500318
HOLY blogpost! I'll read now, henlo Kiki I'm gonna read all of it!

>>24500318
fucking hell, let me find my reading glasses

>>24500094
Nta but I've taken antidepressants all my life (because i guess the docs figured it'd work with adhd) and only sometimes I'd feel numb. And i say sometimes because I've learned apparently my body likes to fight off my medication or i assume because it hardly ever lasts too long. But a year or two ago i stopped taking them and man.....depression hit me fucking hard. Wasn't too long ago i was prescribed all of it again. But i only take them now if i feel too down.

Anyway, like all medication it depends on the dosage and person taking them. And maybe the type of meds. Some have negative affects on your mind and all, some have positive.

>>24500318
lol this bitch was making fun of people who call caffeine a drug and turns out she has a dependence on it
l + ratio

>>24500318
Also the voice in your head is right Kiki. You're a streamer earning less than minimum wage appealing to pedophiles and your fans will be super pissed once you even consider dating someone. It will be fun to watch

>IPs not increasing
it's nice to see the skinwalkers out themselves

>>24500407
>>24500485
I never respond to you because I find what you write to be so outlandish and retarded but I just wanted to thank you for motivating Kiki. good job

>>24500318
>sharing this with us and opening up
Unfathomably based

>>24500539
kek

>>24500544
Yeah like that time she cried 3 days ago because I said she did meth. It's just cope coming from her

>>24500318
>I hope you can see this through my writing
comes through as clear as day bunbun, i love you so much and nothing will change that. not now, not in two weeks, not in two years.

>>24500318
you motivate me every day! I'm not very good with my words, but I hope we can continue to motivate each other

>>24500318
Thank you for sharing. As the resident armchair psychologist all of this seems to make sense to me and agrees with my own guesses. I've noticed some of this progress over these months too, specific things but I'd rather not go into detail. I'm very proud of you and I believe you can do even better. I'm tearing up a little... Love you lots, goodnight and sweet dreams.

>>24500318
I'll be an armchair psychologist too and say that I think your mental health has been improving recently. I think almost all of your problems, especially the perfectionism, can be solved with gaining confidence, though that might be me projecting since I have similar problems.
Also try to cut out caffeine, it helped me.

https://voca.ro/1cr3DCwLLE1L

>>24500318
Whoah, that's incredibly introspective and personal. I'm really happy you shared this. I definitely had a sense that adjusting is taking it's toll, I mean you've said it yourself, I'm sure things will improve though. I think we're all a little excited, but also nervous about that the changes will bring for us, but I think it will be a positive change that might allow you to work out some of those personal struggles.

I've been following you since pre-debut, and I've seen all the ups and downs (at least the ones you've shown me), and I agree when you say your own worst enemy is yourself, but I do think you're improving, particularly as of late. I'll always be here to cheer you on as you power through this, so never worry about filtering me. The fact that you're self-reflective enough to identify these things is a pretty good sign too.

YGMI Kiki, love you! Looking forward to streams tomorrow, and looking forward to Hikiki arc!

>>24500318
I'm proud of you for all of the progress you've made so far, Kiki!

>>24500318
After leaving college i felt the same. I was so excited to leave but after leaving it took awhile to get adjusted to my new life. Doesn't help that my depression was always ignored when i was working or finishing projects and nit going anymore created problems i had to deal with. But yeah change is something that takes time to adjust to plus you hate change so it might be even more tough for you. And the becoming sad whenever something you want to try isn't perfect is something i fully understand. And don't worry about making us unhappy literally just saying hello or something mKes us happy so don't let those thoughts get to better of you. And i think everyone has that little annoying voice in the back of their head trying to discourage them. It's just some are louder than others. But like you said you just have to learn to block that voice out. But yeah most champs can fully relate to everything you've written. I know i relate to a lot of it.

And writting out your feelings or worries is a big help when it comes to mental health. Or that's what I've always heard. Thanks for writing this though. For you it may have been therapeutic but for some champs who may be down at the moment it shows them they're not alone.

Anyway super excited for Hikiki arc love you! And you're amazing too Kiki.

>You're a streamer earning less than minimum wage
Yes.
>appealing to pedophiles
Uhm, you mean "cunny connoisseurs"
>and your fans will be super pissed once you even consider dating someone
Of course I would, she's my wife. Pretty sure anyone would get pissed if their wife started dating someone. Good thing that will never happen though.

Is this what bait has become? Literally just stating innocuous facts?

>>24501012
Hes a shitposter dont even acknowledge, newfag

>>24500318
now that wasn't so hard, was it? it always feels better to talk about your problems, especially with people who care about you.
i am incredibly proud at how self-reflected you are, you clearly think a lot about yourself and your actions, which is a really good thing in itself, but can easily lead to overthinking. while turning inward, it is of the utmost importance that the scale you use to judge yourself is appropiate, otherwise you will keep misjudging yourself and either value yourself way too high and become arrogant, or, like in your case, always value yourself way lower than you actually deserve and get depressed.
please don't be too hard on yourself, you are way a way better person than you think you are, otherwise you wouldn't have so many people fall head-over-heels in love with you.
i love you and i will keep supporting you in whatever you do! have a good snoozle, rab

Ignore the bait and skinwalkers

>>24500945
if you ever do need help with stuff though seriously just ask! there's plenty of anons that are willing to help with thumbnails or anything, goodnight rab

>>24500945
what the actual fuck, this is actually what i look like right now, shirt, tie and glasses. where are you watching me from?!

>>24501012
Bro you literally just proved my point, you're a grade A retard if you never think Kiki will date someone else.

>>24499693
throw your meds away, the only way you can get better is by self effort and not with meds
trust me, I know

What's going on with all of you today

>>24500945
We were serious that we really want you to talk to us about these things, whatever format or medium doesn't matter we could always figure something out to make it more private. More than anything it took a lot of bravery to admit all this to yourself and that, along with being smart enough to recognize all that, is what I'm most proud of you for. If I have to point one thing out its that you realize changing these habits and thought patterns will take a lot of time. Sometimes I worry that you're too stuck in the moment and lack a full perspective of the future, but luckily it seems I was wrong or only partially right. We will be with you for years and years to come so there is never any rush... and now I'm properly crying. Once again, love you, mwah <3

>>24501232
Its one dude

>>24500945
Of course we're nice about it. We're not rude rabbits. Also some of us even know what's it's like and all. We understood what you meant with the caffeine. Happy to hear you feel better after your post. Snugly bun love you kiki. Glad we make you happy and thank you for always making us happy.

>>24500318
>I always hate what I work on and scrap it
As painful as it is, this is one of the hallmarks and eternal struggles of smart, highly competent people. You should still work on being easier on yourself, but just wanted to remind you, that frustration your feel, is actually proof of how gifted you are.

Kiki is actually a lot smarter than I thought...

>>24501232
I CAN'T BELIEVE ALL OF /PYON/ IS CURRENTLY LOSING THEIR SHIT OVER ALL THESE BAIT POSTS HOLY FUCK JESUS CHROIST

>>24500945
Sweet, some new Kiki OC! Most of us are hopeless caffeine addicts, you're in welcome company kek. But if you ever do wanna kick the habbit, consider decaf, it's how I tricked myself into reducing it once upon a time. The cool thing with caffeine is if you take it for too long you get diminishing returns. If you stop drinking it for about a week and then take it again it becomes like a super drug for productivity! At least that's how it is for me.

Love ya, mwah

>>24501318
Yeah this is something I've heard artists say all the time. If you don't hate your project by the time you finish it you aren't improving. Still its healthy to find a middle ground and be cognizant of this and avoid beating yourself up about it.

random ass, no context rabbit image coming through

>>24500318
>"stfu dumb mean kiki voice you suck"
that's how it works, you just have to drone that voice out with positivity and reflections on your actual reality and not made up doomer stuff that's constantly trying to penetrate into your mind
that's how I got over it
>>24500945
I require more vocaroos, every time you wake up or want to talk about stuff, post one, we are always here

>>24501326
Calm down

>>24501492
nta, he was clearly sarcastic

>>24501492
i was being sarcastic

I told you! I told you she was a genius rab! Aaaaaaahhh... No she's not perfect but she's pretty fucking great and I love her.

>>24501288
I was referring to the thread in general, didn't notice the bait.

Damn I'm gosling' too hard I can't go back to waging like this. I LOVE YOU KIKI! RAB IS GOOD RAB IS WISE!

>>24501597
You mean the anons talking about depression? Well I think there are a some menhera champs that genuinely have problems with poor self-esteem and depression, and for whatever reason decided this would be the thread for their outlet (for reasons unbeknownst to me). I don't particularly mind it every now and again, it's not like it's a regular occurrence. Everyone is being pretty encouraging and supportive too, and I'm sure everyone can relate to some extent.

Kiki's art is very cute, I hope drawing can be a good outlet for her during Hikiki arc, I know when I draw I get into the zone and find a lot of inner peace. It might inspire more champs to work on their own draw reps.

that new art in the aggie is so fucking hot

>>24502058
oh my....

I am humbly requesting some Kiki belly dancing Koikatsu animations

I am humbly requesting some future Kiki 3D belly dancing

>>24502223
I'll see what I can do.
>>24502296
Agreed.

Imagine eventually Kiki 3d and we can see her cute tummy and hot bumbum moving and shaking

Imagine that toned Kiki tummy, paired with those wide child-bearing hips. Her tummy and hips gyrating rhythmically in perfect synchronicity to the pattering and pattering of drums. A light sheen of perspiration covering her from head to toe quickly growing slicker and slicker as her pace increases in tandem with her rapid and lusty breathing.

>>24502058
oh jeez

>>24502058
Impeccable tastes

>>24502058
So... we gave the other champ shit for his drawing being too big but this one is okay?

>>24503316
I mentioned it back then, it depends on the complexity of lineart. Compare the density of one and the other.

>>24503343
This

>>24503343
This, if it's a big scene or you're drawing something complex then you need space, that's a given

>>24501435
>I recognize that stump
Yt has been recommending that Japanese rabbit channel to me too lately

>>24503316
No offense, but his drawing sucked compared to this

I wouldn't mind if it was a tad smaller personally in case anybody else wants to draw, but who am I to dictate

there we go again

>>24503444
There's a shit ton of space and its a fucking great drawing positioned well. Lets not start shit

>skinwalkers trying to start drama

>>24503316
I mean it could be slightly smaller

>>24503506
I'm not, just personal preference but I said my 2 cents

Kiki sure is up early, did you sleep rabbit?

I think its fine the way it is but sure, champ if you're reading, if you can reduce the size without losing quality that'd be good. Perhaps draw it separately in full but cut it off at a point and paste it into the aggie? I would really like that imagine in its full glory but it doesn't necessarily need to be in full glory in the aggie. How's that?

>>24503316
if you're talking about the bellydancing one, I'll try to resize it however, I'm not sure how to select all layers so I can't make any promises

>>24503648
I think you shouldn't touch it for now. Give the artist a chance to deal with it.

>>24503672
I am the artist, i'm just trying to figure out if aggie works like photoshop

And also champ, if you wouldn't mind accommodating another small request, and that is to turn the artwork into a feature length animated hentai film starring myself plowing kiki's supple body in every conceivable fashion, for reference i am a tall muscular white rabbit, thanks

>>24503648
Well if you're the artist, you can select the upper layers and merge down to combine them. I don't think it's a big deal though, think it looks great as-is.

>>24503316
A skilled artist should always be given more canvas if they need it.

>>24503721
Cool but please prioritize no loss in quality, its really great.

>>24503721
its good

>>24503760
Agreed, I think it should be left alone, the size is well-deserved

>>24503636
Hope she got some rest

>>24503760
Yes absolutely

>>24503760
I don't agree with the reasoning because he can just draw a stand-alone picture and have infinite canvas size. The aggie is a collaborative work. THAT SAID I do think he's not actually taking up too much space and most people have already drawn what they wanted, it'd be a different story if his drawing was the first one.

>>24503760
do you even realize how disrespectful this is to people who aren't as talented but still try their best

My wife got trolled live on tv

>>24503930
kek what?

Nice pic kiki

it...it was her ALL ALONG?!

>>24503984
hubba HUBBA

>>24503999
No she owned it to stop them

>>24503951
Someone messed with her first drawing of a champ

>>24503914
No. If you are less skilled than someone else, you should continue trying your best and no one should give you any grief as you strive to improve. But at the same time, you should remain humble and acknowledge when someone is of a higher skill level, and respect the work it took them to reach that skill level, and be completely fine with the fact that they get more recognition and preference, in hopes that you receive the same once you are at that level.

>>24504052
This seems like a given to me as somebody with art in that aggie and is also a beginner

>>24504052
That is true of individual pics but an aggie is collaborative. Again I think the size he took is completely fair, but you can't tell me it would be fair to give him half the canvas?

Leave it fags holy fuck stop trying to become a hug box to include everyone.

>>24504052
Basically you're not wrong merit matters, but there are even more nuances and better arguments.

>>24504210
Shut the fuck up brainlet.

>>24504150
Fair enough, I can agree with that. But yeah for the issue at hand, let's keep in mind, this is an aggie, not a space shuttle launch. The stakes aren't too high, we don't have to be super precise with allocation of resources etc. I agree the sizing of all the drawings is fine

The rabbits being horny stop arguing. youll stop that dude from drawing awesome shit

So glad this discussion is over. Now lets talk about how our wife is the best artist ever.

>>24504288
Yes that is all I'm saying, agreed.

>>24504307
She's a rabbit anon she's always horny

>>24504307
not the first anon that was stopped from drawing

>>24504424
No one cares about that other dude pasteing his shit lmao

That naked apron art needs some love too, can't wait to see it done.

>>24504460
I'll finish it... one day... please belebe in me

I just wanted to fap to that hot belly dancing art but now I'm enjoying the aggie show

>>24504496
I beleb!

>>24504454
You are the worst kind of person here, I really hope you accidentally out your identity so we can shun you from this community. You are not a champyon, you are just a piece of shit and you deserve the rope.

>>24504460
Agreed, bare ass house wife kiki uoh

>>24504534
NTA, but you need to stop spurging out all the time and learn to stop being so sensitive

my wife mirin my sixpack

hubba hubba

>tfw too busy to write horny post today
aaaaa I wanna mating press her bros...

nooooo where it go?
tell me you screenshoted the whole thing

Sorry kiki don't feel like writing a horny post today

Kiki's art is too fucking cute bros, ahhhh, I want Kiki OC everyday

shes too horny T0T

I kno but I like helping :3

We should do like a one week challenge where everyone draws 1 thing a day and posts to a thread, Make that a month actually.

Hear that fellas she writes her own posts so that means she can start posting them for us

she was the horny poster all along

>>24504598
NTA but he is not wrong

Not feeling too good probably should take a nap bye guys

>>24504765
Yes he is, edits matter.

I MISSED THAT, PLEASE REPEAT

one handed drawing... sasuga rab

>>24504801
Hehe I made that one in bed on my phone, thanks for the kind words

Visual aid
https://files.catbox.moe/lhhbvi.mp4

>>24504906
wrong, she doesnt finger herself

>>24504943
she couldn't even if she wanted ToT

Fuck, this brat is way too fucking horny, she's trying to turn me into a rutting beast that can think about nothing but pounding her 24-7, my cock literally can't keep up with her

>>24504943
I kno its pretty rare to find an appropriate animation. Koikatsu characters tend to not stay virgins for long.

When is she not horny?

>>24504943
Here you go I got one
https://files.catbox.moe/0oor32.mp4

>>24504973
he is a rabbit you kno

And this but with champyon daki
https://files.catbox.moe/xn9hix.mp4

>>24505044
thats literally me there

The only times she wears panties is when she wants you to tear them off of her

>>24505087
I made a terrible mistake by not getting a lewd variant of this... I'll get it next time bros

>>24505064
ToT
From carrot kun arc
https://files.catbox.moe/ruyqey.png

>>24505134
At least one mouth is eating well

>>24505134
https://files.catbox.moe/wugmy3.mp4

Kiki I know your hands are tine and they get tired fast
let me take care of the rubbing for you

>>24505479
"OI KIKEH, I KNO YOUR HANDS ARE TINEH"

I was in a barrel once you kno

I hate that im into such weird shit. I want Kiki to use me as a chair, brap on me and let me sniff it

awl gif ya a fookin 'and m8
rub ya gud n propah

hey toiny hans

I hope that anon finishes their belly dancer drawings

so tired... can't wait for next bread and napping

>>24505582
Looks done to me, not every drawing needs colouring

Fuck you

>>24506160
I stand by what I said, get over it

>>24506160
who are you talking to

pretty sure we scared the artist away..
like he would have at least make the clover green

my aunt brought me a cheeseburger :D

Kiki if you're looking for things to study, hikiki arc might be a good time to brush up on your nihongo

>>24506213
>>24505784

>>24506234
still think we scared him away. he was working on it until the arguing started

just been repeating the pyon song in my head all day. my favorite song to get stuck in my head

>>24506249
Nah, I was watching, he stopped with the clovers on the waist long before menhera anon cried up the size, quit being paranoid kek

>>24506302
>up
about*

>>24506160
Oops, wrong thread

>>24506220
Honestly I wanna work on my own Japanese reps as well, it would be pretty motivating to see if she picked that up again, we can leave her little messages in the thread and stuff to test her and it might be fun

>>24506718
>breaking your /pyon/ containment
anon, that's absolutely haram

uhhhhhhh baker!?!??!

>>24506756
I need to, staying here for too long will make me go insane. All the timeloops and the girly gossip shit are annoying as hell.

>>24506249
I just have a night shift in about 30 mins so I can't really work too much on it, there are also some fundamental problems with the anatomy that would require a complete do-over

>>24506740
ききの匂いはウサギみたいなんです

>>24506820
Who pissed in your cornflakes this morning anon?

>>24506841
It looks really really good, love the belly, and attention to detail on the armpits and the ribs in particular, not enough rib bone appreciation TuT

>>24500318
I felt the same way after I quit my last job. I was a wage slave there for 6 years. I hated every day of it and even though I was moving onto somewhere better I felt so nervous about leaving. After I left I had so much time on my hands and didn't know what to do with it. I felt so empty and it was hard to adjust to this new way of living even though my quality of life had improved vastly. I'm still adjusting after all this time, but I'm making progress and working to improving myself.

I'm sure you'll adjust to your new life with time and of course I encourage you to keep improving yourself. Please ignore that voice in your head though and don't change any of the things that make you, you. Because I love (You). Also, don't sweat the whole NEET stuff. You're not black, you have good parents. I doubt either of them care as long as you help pay the bills. With your JewTube income I'm sure you can do that much.

sorry for the snail post I just woke up

>>24506869
ありがとうございました

>>24506953
>You're not black
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p69XxYjfx-k

I am not remotely bothered by any of the things I've born witness to in these threads. I couldn't even go an hour without checking this thread before getting anxious actually.

>>24506874
What is it with you and piss in cornflakes? Get new material kek.
It's just a personal preference to not stay here too long, if you like living here, go ahead. But I sometimes need a break from some of you (not from Kiki, just Champs).

>>24507089
Not gonna lie I do get bothered sometimes but its nothing I can't handle long-term, and I equally can't stay away.

>>24507089
i used to get bothered a lot but i've stopped giving any fucks. i'm only here for kiki and don't care what any of you say or do.

>>24507176
That was posted exactly twice in the past couple of weeks

>>24507285
CALM down anon, who pisd in ur cormflakes xDD ^^

New Bread:
>>24507334
>>24507334
>>24507334

NEW:

>>24507334
>>24507334
>>24507334

Didn't post an image, doesn't count

>>24507358
Anon, are your Cheerios a little extra soggy today?

>>24507413
My good Sir, did someone, perchance, defecate into your muesli?