/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Who?

>>10628712
Who are you

>>10628776
>>10628780
fair enough.

>>10628816
Are you on drugs or something? What do you want? Help, help on what?

>Reddit spacing
Go back

>>10628843
Perspective. Or anything really. Call me names, tell me what I look like to you from what you know of my. anything.

>>10628866
I'm a reddit fag, what else did you expect?

retard types like an edgy 14 year old atheist

You use a lot of commas and short sentences
Stop doing that

>>10628895
Are you just some 2view? Don't expect anyone to have heard of you at all.

>>10628895
I only know that you tried to take down melody because she got too big or something, dunno. Maybe you want to give us your perspective on that.

>>10628712
For the faggots going "Literally who??" this is the (apparently Vtuber) guy who spent over 40k on that VShojo whore Melody. This is his TwitLonger. Scroll all the way down to see his DMs.
http://www.twitlonger.com/show/n_1srr2s9?new_post=true

nice blogpost. See you in three days

Why don't you take medicine? I heard that helps unmanageable BPD. Also do DBT therapy if you aren't. Seriously if you aren't doing DBT therapy you fucking wasted money on all your therapists and they're merely milking you for money, talk therapy/vent sessions do nothing for BPD and some therapists take advantage of people with mental problems by trapping them into endless vent sessions.

>>10628712
>Anyways, yes, it is I, BetrayedMussel
Is this proofs?

>BOOHOOO LOOK AT ME I'M SO SELF AWARE ABOUT WHAT A PATHETIC SACK OF SHIT I AM
>THIS MEANS I'M IMMUNE TO YOUR CRITICISM

>>10628935
No, I will not.

>>10628941
Stopped streaming forever ago. I never expected anyone to know me outside of Melody's streams.

>>10628948
Take down was never my intent. I became an attention whore, and she too the brunt of it.

>>10628988
60mp PROzac, 300 mgbuPROPion Hydrocloride Daily. Among others I've tried.

>>10629000
>I will verify myself in almost any means that is requested of me, not much left of reasons for me to care in that vein.
Preference?

>>10629131
Ok but DBT therapy? You cannot just take medicine without proper weekly therapy if you're this bad. You may as well be taking sugar pills. Did no one instruct you how psychiatric medicine is supposed to supplement recovery instead of just plain old taking it and whining to your therapist instead of building coping mechanisms. and hurry up with your answers before this thread is deleted I hate reading about people going through the wrong therapy.

>>10628712
Why the fuck did you block me on twitter

...What is going on?

>>10629185
add 2 periods to the end of your twitter bio

>>10628958
That's really cringy i want to feel bad because i was in a similar position once but i never, ever tried to hurt someone else. I hope this dude gets help, he sounds like a soon to be shooter. Though /vt/ getting their own shooter added to the 4chan chart would be hilarious.

>>10628958
> this is the (apparently Vtuber) guy who spent over 40k on that VShojo whore Melody. This is his TwitLonger. Scroll all the way down to see his DMs.
Thank you for the context, but also what the fuck

>>10628712
Mussel go seek help.
As one of the ex-science team member myself i beg you to get some fucking help dude. Last time i saw you you were self-hating vchuuba streaming to yourself and crying on Twitter. And you repeat about "becoming a better person" for at least a year and still you are stuck where you are.
EVEN FUCKING OCHADOJI GET OUT OF HIS SHIT, ACKNOWLEDGED HIS WEAKNESSES AND GOT BETTER.

>>10629238
Oh right, Therapy. Over the last year I have worked with 17 different Therapists I had been assigned or recommended. Like all American medical bullshit, I got next to know where with it. Still working on that part. I am stubborn so some things come slower than most.

>>10629302
I don't even know who you are. But look again. Undid that mistake weeks ago.

>>10629322
Go have a look.

>>10629411
Professionals aren't getting anywhere with me. The rest of the internet doesn't care. 4chan has no filter. I'm here for some blunt words.

>>10629385
I've threatened enough people. The only one at risk is myself.

>>10629322
>He did it

>>10629521
I have been getting help for the past year. I have yet to see progress, so I'm looking for some more.
>EVEN FUCKING OCHADOJI GET OUT OF HIS SHIT, ACKNOWLEDGED HIS WEAKNESSES AND GOT BETTER.
I'm not Ochadoji.

>>10629521
For people not knowing - Betrayed Mussel is a dude that like over a year ago was one of Melody's top simps. Wasted thousands of dollars just to get close to Melody but then started acting creepy and got threw out of her fanbase for it. In cringe-worthy, pathetic and pointless attempt to become "better person" he became vtuber... except he still was beating himself up for everything, was streaming to nobody, and was having menhera attacks on Twitter making biggest Menhera looks sane.

Ocha was in similar point and was putting himself into debts for vchuubas but people had enough and purged him from everywhere. Today he's variety streamer and uses money to become good, valuable guy.

>>10628712
>I will verify myself in almost any means that is requested of me
Sharpie in the pooper!

>>10629737
Tempting

>>10628712
Here's a (You), attentionfag, I have a feeling you need them

>>10629793
I don't follow. I agree that I am an attentionfag though.

>>10629601
>last year
>17
You need to research how to get a case manager or something at this point. Because you don't know how to find a therapist that fits your needs. Not even my friend who has BPD has gone through that many therapists. What the fuck are you doing in those sessions, telling them you're killing yourself tomorrow?

>>10629793
Why do you think he's here asking for "help"

>>10628712
What do you hope to gain by coming here?

>>10629891
Already have one. They are about as useful as the therapists. Being in such a "remote" area also means getting new ones is even harder.

>>10629980
No clue. I will take anything at this point.

>>10628712
Son I'll be honest with you and I think you know damn well this: ''Vtubers are a leech that suck the life out of you'' chat is a synonim of money for them, there is no (You) only the collective hivemind that is chat who are also yes men. The only way to get close to one is becoming a Vtuber yourself and miraculously be successful enough to get close to one, the so called Vtuber community is conformed with them, chat and simps are never part of it.

Leave Vtubers, download some games, play them, try FFXIV, get into a group and meet people there and play games for yourself, because you know damn well that watching someone else play a game on stream sounds absolutely retarded

>>10629872
I'm saying that I think you're in a low, pathetic place if you're resorting to 4chan of all places for attention, and if so, maybe you need it.

Are You a incel? Do You have irl Friends? How fit are You? Were You happy before discovering melody?

>>10630060
Someone didn't read the twitlonger I made.
http://www.twitlonger.com/show/n_1srr2s9?new_post=true

VTubing isn't why I was there. or what keeps bringing me back.

>>10630031
Maybe you should go inpatient to a fancy facility with all that fuckyou money you own instead of dumping it on Melody, get some high tier care instead of going to therapists in whatever retarded remote area you live in. You have money right? Fucking use it

MEDS

Stop LARPing

>>10629185
Take a picture of your dick with 'BlessedMussel' written on it.

>>10630158
>Are You a incel?
I wouldnt claim to be one. The blame lies with me and I have good reasons for it regardless.
>Do You have irl Friends? How fit are You? Were You happy before discovering melody?
No.

>>10630212
That's where I was for the majority of last October. All be it, I was forced due to my suicide attempt. I am in no way well off enough to go of my own volition. I just had more money than I needed to live within my own means.

as a female vtuber, I can say pretty confidently that Melody will literally never appreciate you in the way you want her to, no matter how much money you give her. Never even think about doing it again. Step away from the internet, nothing you have done here is positive. It is clear you only are doing this to get recognition.

>>10630315
do you recognize that you are not mentally healthy?

>>10628712
Dis you?

https://www.reddit.com/r/r4r/comments/pmmfmn/26m4f_southern_california_area_willing_to_drive/

>>10630315
Start lifting

>>10628712
I knew there was a thread before but I dismissed as just another petty drama VShojo gets into, but seeing this thread and reading his tweets and twitlonger, it actually makes me feel very sad

Mussel, I don’t know if it’s too much to ask but just wanting to comprehend you man, what’s been of your life before Melody? I feel it’s obvious you have reached rock bottom way before all of this crap happened

>>10630404
I had hoped that it wouldnt have been about the money. But, I agree. I'm trying to move past that.

>>10630420
Most of the time. yes. I know there is something wrong with me and am trying to narrow it down more and more each day. but I am stubborn so progress is slow.

>>10630476
Yeah, you want to cuddle faggot?

>>10630486
Please don't feel sad. I'ts not something you need to worry over. To be honest, finding Melody was what pulled me from rock bottom several times. at least until I put myself back there.

did you just make this so people talk to you

So you live in Southern California yet can't get to a good enough mental hospital to get your issues worked out despite California being the hotspot for therapists and neurologists as well as ketamine therapy and electromagnetic therapy.

>>10630628
>but I am stubborn so progress is slow.
perhaps you should leave the job to someone else then.

>>10630315
How old are you? Are You a coomer? Get Your test levels checked. Start lifting

Make sure you're getting enough vitamin D every day. A multivitamin is enough. A lot of people go nuts in certain climates because they're not getting enough vitamin D.

>>10630666
It's possible. Wasn't thinking of it that way.

>>10630721
Not everyone that lives in SoCal lives in LA, or San Diego.

>>10630825
Why do you think I've been posting a bunch of shit?

>>10630904
27. Dafuq? what levels?

>>10630991
THen drive you idiot or use your simp money for a ride

>>10630991
>Why do you think I've been posting a bunch of shit?
you think niggas on 4chan are gonna help you with your mental problems? kek

>>10628712
Where'd you get all your money?

>>10630991
Too much porn fry your brain. kills your motivation. Check your testosterone levels

What a faggot lol

This guy needs a chiropractor. Clearly he is suffering from faggotry of the spine.

>>10629185
tweet I am here

Do you still watch Melody?

>>10630302
Faggot.

>>10631787
>uncut

>>10631691
She banned him again today because he couldn't help but start donating again.

>>10631084
Hard enough getting referred to get one out there. You think American healthcare grows on trees?

>>10631106
You have any better ideas? Redditfags didn't give me anything to work with at all.

>>10631582
have a look.

>>10631691
Took a look into the stream today, just because of how I was feeling. prior to that it's been months. The last one I watched fully was her b-day stream. with months again in between that.

>>10631898
Silenced in chat by Heg, not banned.

>Expecting help from 4chan.

God, please kill me before I ever fall this low.

>>10631805
what you want to see the whole thing? I am cut faggot.

>>10631960
>You have any better ideas? Redditfags didn't give me anything to work with at all.
how about a trained medical professional? i don't mean one of those cali faggots, i mean someone who actually knows a thing or two about situations like yours.

>>10631787
Abayo niggerfaggot

Where did you get your money from?

>>10631960
Have you tried the rope? It solves all problems.

>>10632103
Working? I have a decent job, and had nothing to spend the money on. what's the point of having it if it's just sitting there.

>>10632133
The rope on my wrist is the one that I tried it with
>>10631787

>>10631960
kek okay, but did you really have to show your dick doe

>>10632212
Was that a question? I was asked to verify.

I still don't get why someone would write such an OP and not explain who the fuck he is and why should I care. I'm not gonna spend 15min reading every comment in the hope of some kind of explanation.

>>10632318
>>10629721
>>10629411
>>10628958

>>10632275
nah just thought it was a little extreme and gay. Did you ever send Mel those types of pics?

>>10632397
All of the DM's I sent are in the twitlonger. and no, not my thing.

>>10632445
Have you tried being funny? People like people that are funny?

>>10632445
okay. what other VTubers are you into or is Mel the only one that made you Gosling.

lol fag

>I cant afford good healthcare or therapists
>I have decent money and nothing to spend it on
??????

So from what i understand Mussel decided to be a creep again, shower Melody with money and cringe and got banned again.
>>10629715
Yes, you're not like Ocha. Ocha actually grew some guts, understanded his position and fact that V-Shojo thots are not that cute and worth attention and just decided to go and do his own shit. YOU'RE NOT EVEN FUCKING CLOSE.

Also, lesser known funfact - Melody's husband is pretty big lawyer. I hope that he will get to it and you'll get into jail for basically harassing and stalking her online. You deserve and need it.

>>10632629
On occasion. I am more witty than funny. but no one wants to talk to an asshole that already hurt them.


>>10632647
I watch almost all of the VShojo girls, but Mel was the focus. I did donate to all of them, but not nearly to the scale.

>>10632714
>Melody's husband is pretty big lawyer.
Didn't even know she was married. Wow. I'm happy for her.

>>10632775

Are you jewish?

>>10632886
Raised to be mormon. Learned of some if its cult secrets. Am no atheist

>>10632775
>Didn't even know she was married.
Lmfao

>>10632928
>Raised to be mormon.
oh god, that explains some of the brain issues.
you have my sympathy

>>10628712
literally who?

>>10632998
Don't waste it on me. Great religion to raise kids, not a great one for adults. Once you get past all the cult stuff.

>>10633056
>>10632375

If you can't watch a streamer without being a psycho why don't you just play video games or something

>>10633110
I wish it was as simple as that. What do you think I have been doing all this time?

>>10633152
Crying and screaming I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I CHANGED MYSELF!!!11111
This time you do it on 4chan tho.

>>10633180
When did I ever say that I have managed to change? I'm opening up more avenues for help and advice.

>>10631787
>no timestamp
nice larp faggot. In what /soc/ thread did you find this?

>>10633212
Play a better videogame.

>>10628712
I've been in a vaguely similar position of being chased from a community, expect people believed I also commited a crime on top of that. Talking about actual med prescriptions and year long struggles and all doesn't change anything, at best no one will care but you, at worst it'll be used later agaisnt you to show how you're not to be interacted with and the crazy one.
You're probably grasping here at a last hope of getting attention because because without that there's only the void and your mistakes left with you, even negative attention is better than nothing right.
Plus I imagine you were used to the attention from the donations and all was gone and an empty streaming what can't replace that.
So yeah you're probably fucked, ever since something of that kind happened it's been a downard trend mentally and physically and everywhere, you just lose little you had left an go from bad to worse, good luck tho.

hello newfriend but >>>/adv/ is two blocks down. You see, this isn't the suicide hotline board

>>10633419
You're right. I think I have known this for a long time. I'm grasping at smoke in the hope that it becomes flowers.

I genuinely wish you happiness and comfort. You have a better chance than I. Thank you for your kind words.

This is some elaborating larping or some really sad fuck that should get stronger meds and go to outside.
Anyway more proof that vtubers souldnt have dms open or have a fucking discord becasue they cant manage for shit these kind of behaviors.

>>10632714
Ocha got booted because he started shittalking the girls because they weren’t praising his existence anymore. Money isn’t a personality. He’s a double faggot because, instead of standing by his word, he’d try to buddy up to them at the same time. He got caught and they kicked him to the curb

>>10633273
Who the fuck would want to be Mussel

>>10633599
Nobody, but everyone wants to post their dick online

try hypnotherapy

>>10631787
abayo

Literally who tf are you?

>>10633581
Yeah and after getting kicked out he in fact decided to correct himself, drop the simp badge and improve. People actually interract with him, he's a streamer with small but loyal viewerbase and is self-improving with every day.
Ocha and You (i guess it's you Mussel?) are anti-thesis of each other despite both starting from the same fucking place of hopeless, rejected simps. Ocha is climbing from his shitty position and work his hands off to deserve being treated well while you still repeat the same fucking errors and end in feedback loop of menhera attacks.
Never compare yourself to Ocha or any other ex-Science Team people because no matter what you do, you'll end looking super bad.

>>10633693
Wtf are you doing here?

>>10633757
True sorry I'll go back to /trash/

>>10631787
Tiny dick not even horsecock sized. I'm as a woman, disappointed. Also clean your dick it looks dirty and unwashed.

pls wash your dick before taking pics of it, it's not cute.

>>10628895
>redditor

This post is very interesting, and I'm going to let you finish, but do you know Alice alucard is streaming RIGHT NOW?

https://www.twitch.tv/alicealucardvt

Come check Alice!
Find release by giving liberty unto thine eyes.
Examine other beauties.

>>10633871
Based cunnyposter

>>10628712
Who even are you dude

Looks like this threat may have run its course. I appreciate anyone who tried to help. I will try to learn what I can from what you all said.

Going to lurk until thread is gone.

Thank you all for your insight.

>>10633871
I hope this isn't your oshi. If this schizo starts watching her it might be a death sentence.

>>10633928
Ok but hun please wash your dick I can literally smell the musk through my monitor. Fix that shit. Please.

>>10633944
FORTY
THOUSAND
DOLLARS

>>10628712
Not reading all of that

>>10633957
Go back already

>>10633568
it's not a larp sadly, I've been here before and in that state you're just ready to grasp at anything to not end up alone with your mental illness, your mistakes, and your now empty life.
At this point it doesn't matter how pityful one's look as he already lost everything and his pride long ago.

>>10633706
Holy shit. His dick is so far up your ass, you can probably taste it. Or are you actually Ocha, himself? Don’t you have to get up early in the morning to be confused about which military branch you’re in

>>10632775
didnt know she was married hhahahahahaha what a faggot

If you can blow 40k on a vtuber why don't you change your name and became a different person?

To change, completely change up your life. Upend it all and never look back.
Maybe go teach English in Japan and get a boring but qt gf.

What the fuck did I just subject myself to reading all this jesus what a fucking cuck
>captcha: 2k2kr

I'm mildly interested on whatever the fuck this thread is, but not enough to actually read 100 threads of this faggot's self-aggrandazing bullshit. Can someone spoonfeed me the highlights?

>>10634135
he knows melody has a husband and he still gives her 40k. The absolute state of hypermodernity

>>10634140
>spent 40k on a married vshojo girl
>posted unwashed musky dick with name written on it
>depressed redditor

holy shit what a waste of time. its basically a cuck saying >pleeease nooo dont feel sorry for me

well trying to get anyway sympathy and justify his INSANE actions while trying to reach out to schizos /here/. Because reddit tod him to fuck off

>>10634194
>reddit tod him to fuck off
idk if you meant this or if it's a typo but it works wonderfully

>>10633969
kek, love ya pinkma

>>10628712 cringey Westerners and their first-world problems
t.indog

all these 2views out there he could have started a parasocial relationship with and he chose a Vwhore like Melody..what a waste

TLDR for anyone who wants it: >>10629721

Don't feel too bad, you're not the first one to fall for the parasocial trap and you won't be the last. The important part is that you got over it.

>>10628712
If you can afford seek psychological help, I'm not saying this to be mean but to help you. Also try to not engage with melody or even talk about. If you can focus on something else then also try to get her out of your mind as much as possible. Do not feed the obsession. And get psychiatric help to get tools for not getting obsessed with someone/something else again.

>>10628712
stop interacting with anything that reminds you of the object of your obssesion including making threads like this and watching Vtubers at all. Do not feed the addiction.