/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>So I called up mane-chan
>"Need PP energy"
>He said, "We haven't had that spirit here
>Since 2023"

>>71096848
please save me too yagoo sama..

I feel like I've fallen into a extremely unhealthy state of love for Pomu, whenever I think about her graduation my heart genuinely aches. I'm constantly thinking about her and getting depressed over how I'll never really be a part of her life. It's slightly frightening because I've never felt this way over a real girl, but instead I'm feeling like this over an anime fairy girl on the internet, it's frustrating that I can't feel like this over someone I actually know. Even if a real girl was interested in me (not happening) I feel like I would just compare her to how I feel about Pomu and how much I like about her and find anyone else wanting in comparison. I mean what other girl would be so accepting of me being a loser, degenerate otaku? There's very very few out there I'd imagine. So much about Pomu's personality is just perfect to me. Then all this is coupled with the nagging feeling that Pomu would probably really dislike me if she knew me, I mean I'm a weird, very negative, NEET, depressed, chan user type, I'm probably representative of the type people she dislikes in these kinds of communities.

Sorry for the deranged blogposting but I felt like I had to get this out somewhere and maybe someone else feels similarly.