/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I had a meltdown over vidya again. I put the bedsheets in my mouth and screamed as loud as I could. I'm embarrassed with myself.

I'm done bro, I can't any more, I want out

Nothing in my life has improved in any way for years, despite my attempts to better it. Not only that, my health deteriorated significantly. I don't know how much more I can take before I start slamming my head into a wall or something.

Novelites pray that this scratch card I bought on a whim wins me some money

I want to hurt myself bodily

I want to do horrific things to myself. I want to cut across the entire surface of my body. I want blood and pus to leak out of my every hole. I want to stab myself with knives and let out terrible, painful screams. I want to set myself on fire. I want to grasp and gnaw at my bubbling skin and watch it slide off like a plastic glove. And I want God to be the only witness to this spectacle, so that he knows how much I hate being alive.

It's a beautiful day outside. At least it looks like one. All the greenery and sun could make me happy and feel like life is worth living, that is if I didn't have the body of a dying 80 year old man, the mind of a 14 year old on ritalin, and the soul of a medieval monk excommunicated for masturbating in the chapel, and it wasn't also so fucking cold.

>>75486159
Perfectly evil.

I suffer incredible mental anguish every day that there is no help for.

>>75226274
That's less possible than going back in time...

all my fantasies with Shiori is her liking me but I reject her in some way

I got breath test results, finally. But they say it's negative for bacteria. And I find that hard to believe since I'm experiencing the same symptoms as when I was positive for it. I'm almost thinking they just decided to put a fake amount in there just so I fuck off and stop wasting their time and money.
I have no clue what to do now.

I wish it was possible to build huge floating ramps thorough an entire city and glide on them like on surf_ maps in Source games. I want to surf irl

I woke up again. I wish I hadn't.

>>72658640

Spring is the best season and it's not even close. Winterfags can gtfo now.

>>72521696
I spent 200 on a Unicorn PG two years ago and still haven't even started..

Shiori hasn't said anything about the easter collab right?

new buwead
>>72086657
>>72086657

SHIORI CUTE

Shio EGG