/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>54644973
I think I've slowly gotten brainwashed into wanting more than just a hug from Axel- even that took months to admit- but now I want to be picked up under my arms like how you do with cats, and I don't know what to do about that.

I made a Jesse Pinkman toploader that I wanted to send in with a letter, but then I remembered that Cover doesn't allow presents, and denied me when I asked directly. So now I just have a Jesse Pinkman Toploader.

I thought I would be able to stop crying about Axel's karaoke, but I just saw random fanart of him and now I'm almost sobbing again. I'm just so happy that he's blessed enough to have these emotions towards his position. Axel really loves his spot in Tempus, and he loves the axelotls so. SO. Much. He's a bit awkward at voicing it, which I get. I can't speak well and tell people, seriously without joking, that I love them out loud, but his actions, his drive, the way he just brings up whatever topic and speaks his mind about anything that crosses it. Him always wanting to beat us up or whatever. It's all his love for us axelotls, the tempura, the boys, Tempus- everything. I don't cry much, but somehow I have these past two days 4 times today haha more than in the last 2 months combined- not for a bad reason, just too much emotion. I really love Axel man. I'm so happy that he's found a place for himself and can enjoy his life to the fullest. Thank you Axel.

I realized I didn't actually prepare my heart for the inevitably of Axel's one year celebration, it's tomorrow, technically, but we're looking back today which is going to make me cry harder. I can feel it. I don't know what to do my heart feels like a microwave.

>>53362529
Oh.

My friend is offering to help buy me some Axel merch at AX, including the hoodie, but I don't know what size I'm supposed to get. It's supposed to be slightly oversized so is a small should be more than fine, but I'm wondering if a medium would be better? Or if that'd be too big...