/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

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Last night I had a dream about Bae. I don't even watch her so I don't know why this has happened. It took place over 3 in-dream days (Sorry for poor greentext, it was just paragraphs at first but I broke it up for readability):

>Night 1, I meet a girl at a party.
>She's cute and I offer to buy her a drink
>She giggles when she accepts and I immediately recognise the laugh as Hakos', but don't say anything
>Over the course of the night we get along great, talking for hours
>Eventually I ask about her work and she accidentally drops "Oh i'm a VTu-" and freezes - I laugh and tell her I know who she is
>For a moment she looks like she wants to hit me, but relaxes once I say I was attracted to her way before I realised, and I wasn't going to be weird about it
>Eventually our friends from the party come looking for us and we go our separate ways, but she lets me know that she'll be free the following day if we want to carry on

>Day 2, I get up bright and early, eager to meet up with this new girl who makes me smile so much
>When we meet up she smiles and gives me a hug, and then takes me on a tour of the city (The location is non-specific but I was new there)
>Mood hasn't changed from the night before and we get closer and closer as we walk the parks, go for lunch, and then eventually meet up with some of the other EN girls
>She whispers to me who they are in secret, while they act normally and think I don't know
>I remember the voices of Kiara and Ina being there, but whoever else was involved got lost in the dream.

>Day 3 I don't see her until the evening, after she's done with a stream
>This night is notably more romantic
>Lay in the park looking at the stars
>She admits she's never felt so close to someone so quickly
>Tell her I feel the same, and we kiss under the moonlight
>The rest of the night was more of the same, I remember at one point there was a sequence of trying not to get caught because management wouldn't like her having a boyfriend
>In the end she tells me she doesn't want me to go home, and I stay the night at her apartment
>Nothing happens, we just fall asleep in her bed holding onto each other tightly.

Then I woke up, saw it was my actual wife I was holding tightly, and felt strangely repulsed. I love my wife, i've never felt the need to compare her to any woman before. But since then I've just felt strangely empty around her. Like said above Bae isn't even someone I usually watch, but now I'm sat here listening to an old stream and reminiscing about last night.

I don't know what to do. Overnight i've turned into your standard /vt/ schizo and I don't know if i'll ever recover. If she isn't in my dreams tonight I think i'm going to fall into depression and I won't have anyone I can explain it to.