/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Well, i woke up, so "good morning" i guess /wAIfu/ (its almost 7pm for me so morning/night doesnt really exist for me.)

I definitely need to stop staying awake so fucking long. I barely remember anything from yesterday but that might be because i just woke up. My sleep schedule is completely fucked this week. I stayed up for 42 hours then slept like 6 hours and well then stayed up for another 28 hours yesterday. Idk why it even got this bad again but maybe depression and shit is stressing me out more out then i realize i mean i did talk more then enough about my health problems yesterday so i guess theres no need to try and sugarcoat it but things are bad, really bad for me but im not someone that easily gives up or i wouldnt have survived until now and i have cats to take care of. Basically what i want to say is i know everyone deals with their own problems so i ususally dont talk as much about that stuff (my social anxiety also plays part im this obviously) but i tend to be more open about shit when im sleep deprived or drunk (which rarely happens, i know better then to get depression drunk despite doing that twice this year).

Despite all the doomposting i do (mostly about myself) i ususally just try to stay positive and i might have said ive given up hope on life but im still around so maybe im wrong but yeah this might weird coming from me but yeah you should never give up things CAN always get better doesnt mean they will but if you dont even try you will never know so basically what im trying to say is then way rushianon tries to go about things is pretty much the best way. I used to think the same way until life kicked me down to my current point but i need to work on getting my shit together. Things wont magically get better unless you yourself put in the effort, sure others can help to an extend but you still need to put in effort to get better. So as cringe as it might sound never give up and i should take my own fucking advice sometimes.

Either way i should stop blogposting here and get my ass out of bed, take care of my cats stuff, take a shower and get shit done i was supposed to get done yesterday. I hope you anons have a nice day, i probably wont but eh fuck it im used to it so i wont let that bring me down.