/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I've gotta be an odd one out in this fanbase because the more I oshi Yumi, the less I want to lewd or jerk off to her. This happened to Watame, this happened to Juna, now it's happening to Yumi... I can feel horny and crave GFE from Alias and Petalight just fine, but any time I touch my dick when I see Yumi art, I feel ashamed... I don't want to hold my dick anymore, I want to hold a lightstick and cheer her on at the top of my lungs... Is this GFE? It feels different... Am I a Gosling for her...? Am I gay...? Or is this something else...? If she does GFE horny ASMR, how will I feel...? I used to feel excited, now I feel depressed at the thought... Who exactly is Yumi to me now...