/sci/ - Science & Math

Oh fuck, life is so shit, I just can't take it anymore, every day is more and more suffering and stress, I can't have peace. Why did God fucked me over so much? Despite being born with a weak health and several mental problems I also grew up to be a failure in everything and depised by my own family, what the fuck is this? Why the fuck me? Why couldn't I be a little happy? I'm 23 but I feel like I've already wasted every chance that I once had, now all that's left for me is either meaningless hope that someday something will change or simply accepting death, and right now I'm getting closer and closer to the latter.

>halfway through my math degree
>GPA is 1,24

Is it over for me? Can I still be accepted for a masters in a nice uni? I'm on one of the best unis in the country but I already gave up on building a career here kek

>>11477741
AAAAAAAH FUUUUCK

I can't fucking stand this shitty life anymore, I'm a fucking brainlet I'm never making a breakthrough in mathematics, I'll never crave my name in history.

But that's OK. It really is. That would be fine by me if only I could have a little happiness in life, why nobody loves me? I want a fucking girlfriend to love, to depend on me, anyone, why can't I even have that motherfucker fucking piece of shit? I was born a brainlet and on top of that I'm not dear or important to anyone else.

WHAT KIND OF FUCKING LIFE IS THIS GOD? WHY WAS I FUCKED UP LIKE THAT? LET ME AT LEAST HAVE SOMEONE THAT LOVES ME, I WOULD BE FINE WITH MY EXISTENCE, WITH MY MEDIOCRITY IF I AT LEAST HAD A FEMALE THAT LOVED ME DEEPLY. I WOULD ABANDON ALL MY DREAMS FOR HER, FUUUCK.

I'll never have that will I? Having so much self-counciousness is hard, I can't cope with failure, if at least I had intelligence I could make my dreams come true