/sci/ - Science & Math

>do computer science at a technical university
>50h per week workload if you want to stay on top
>free time has to be spent on personal projects or you will not land a decent job later
>92% male which means you will stay a kissless virgin during college
>only clubs around campus are hackathon, game development or robotics teams, all male
>tech industry is all male which means you will stay a kissless virgin forever
>the pay ultimately doesn't off-set never having a family
I love CS but the loneliness is crushing me.

Hypothetically what would be the easiest way to get a Terminal illness? Something that doesn't take years/decades like Alcoholism or being a morbidly obese lardtard.

I am 20 year old dropout with chemistry major.. How i became a brainlet ?
When i was young i spent hours in libraries reading books about physics and astronomy. I was that nerd kid type who got bullied sometimes. I couldn't wait to grow to be an adult. I wanted to do so many things in life like building robots and exploring space.. I know i was naive. After getting into higher education i realised i am stupid compared to my peers. How to cope with being a brainlet?