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I'm an ugly boy. In my country prostitution is regulated but when I go to prostitutes I can't get excited for various reasons:

the report seems like a farce. And it's very mechanical

I am a very anxious type and the thought that I have to "cum" in a period of time (20 minutes) otherwise I have to pay more it makes me anxious.

Unfortunately for me going with prostitutes is the only way to fuck .. needless to say "look for a partner" ... even the ugliest girls don't want me. Furthermore I am schizoid (I tend to avoid social relations) so prostitutes are a good compromise for me (if only I could enjoy them)

I also suffer from anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder which also takes me during sex (the brain thinks "do this" and distracts it while having sex ... delaying ejaculation even more) Apart from the electroshoc and a good psychiatrist ... can testosterone pills help me have more libido and therefore to cum in less time?

I also tried Verdenafil (similr to Viagra) but nothing ... it doesn't get hard. When I masturbate at home on girls I think I get hard.

I suffer of social anxiety
When I am high on alcool (not so high to lose consciousness) I feel great among people and I don't have obssessive toughts
This is because alcool inhibites the production of Glutammate the excitatory neurotrasmetter...but it also increase dopamine and serotonin (a relief if you are depressed)

This monning I was shit ... feeling really depressed (the reason is because I am not attractive and I have a lot of facial defects that require 30'000 to solve them all)

So at the age 29 years I have never had a women I don't like myself if I look at myself in the mirror

This causes me a very depressive state... that I wouldn't wish to the worst enemy what I went trought in this life of non acceptance of my face

It's not that I am dismorfophobic...I am ugly..I have an ugly face and I can't communicate with women.

Trazodone macs me sleepy... doesn't worc...benzos the same.

The only thing that worcs for me is alcool. This morning I have ijested a small quantity (300ml) and I still feel great

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