/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.7822122]

>be me, 20 year old uni student
>social anxiety disorder
>teacher is talking about Crime and Punishment
>know everything he's saying, understand perfectly
>asks who's read it
>put my hand up slightly
>asks what the surprising turn is in relation to the idea that social conventions can be broken by extraordinary individuals
>want so desperately just to say that he becomes guilty, and this shows that conscience is the voice of God, as is Dosto's style
>instead just stutter "it's been a while since I read it"
>teacher looks disappointed

Why is this the way, /lit/?

[Anonymous No.7822238]

I honestly don't know why it is that way. I honestly don't know why you came up with an answer and then said something completely different, as if you can't control your own mouth.

[Anonymous No.7822370]

You might want to consult a specialist so you can train your self-control in social situations. Or maybe it's a different kind of dysfunction. I never did seek help and kind of feel like I'm too old for it now.

[Anonymous No.7822859]

It's a problem I've always had, too self-conscious to speak in class.

[Anonymous No.7822871]

>>7822122
Oh well. The only real advantage of giving the answer you wanted to give has all to do with pride. Be thankful of your humble subconscious. It's better this way.

[Anonymous No.7822877]

You don't have a disorder. You're just a faggot.

[Anonymous No.7822892]

Because you came up with that answer after the fact and are misremembering the event.

[Anonymous No.7822900]

>>7822877
>>>/b/

[Anonymous No.7822952]

>>7822877
wew lads

[Anonymous No.7823075]

>>7822122
Oh OP... Same exact boat buddy. Similar scenario as well, different book. It fucking sucks but you're not alone.

God I just remembered during my first year as well, had a huge crush on my English Lit. Professor, super intelligent cool and calm dude. Lectures were held in small classes. He comes up to me after class one day and asks me why I don't participate or comment more in class, my work is really good etc. and I couldn't even make eye contact but tried but kept looking away and as much as I tried to sound normal my voice was just super low and I probably looked like some kind of addict to him.

Same-ish scenario by the end of the course, class planned on having a little party type thing in class and I quietly slipped out and he came after like "anon, not staying?" and I just mumbled an excuse and left and oh god how am I still alive.

[Anonymous No.7823085]

>>7823075
throughout my time at school/college people just implicitly assumed i didnt want to do the parties and events so i wasnt invited
i just had no clue how to communicate with people, i think i went months at a time without ever saying a word

[Anonymous No.7823101]

>>7823085

[Anonymous No.7823108]

>>7823075
Mate you've recognized that you have a problem so you're already half way to solving it. Now you just need to go out and learn how to function socially. Just start to try talking to people normally a little bit more every day, and maintain eye contact! Lack of eye contact makes any interaction awkward.

If you really think that your anxiety will prevent you from doing this, read some Taoist or Stoic literature first. I personally like Meditations even though /lit/ tends to dismiss it.

[Anonymous No.7823109]

>>7822877
yeah but he is O pee after all

[Anonymous No.7823161]

>>7823075
gay patrician

[Anonymous No.7823288]

>>7823108
Thank you friend. I've only just started meditations actually, I'll be picking up the others soon.

The thing with the eye contact is it doesn't happen all the time but when it does I swear it's like someone physically grabbing your head and jerking it to the side so you'll stop looking at them. Not even being figurative, it's exactly what it feels like.

It sucks because I could tell he was being accommodating kinda like if I had a question in class he'd always come by where I was sitting so I wasn't talking "at" the class if that makes sense? And he'd rarely do it for anyone else and it made me feel even worse ughh...

>>7823161
Female actually, but I am bi so I will take that title thanks.

[Anonymous No.7823385]

>>7823288
>Female actually
kill yourself

>but I am bi so I will take that title thanks
seriously fucking kill yourself you have no fucking idea what it's like to actually be gay fuckin reeeeeeeeeee

[Anonymous No.7823388]

>>7823385
Ah, I was waiting for you.

Wry*

[Anonymous No.7823525]

>>7822122
>be me, 10 years ago, high school student in his last year
>analyzing a poem as school test
>the poem was about ww2 and possibilities of ww3, and warn the reader about how shitty war is
>the only yes-no question asked "this poem express hope?"
>check yes
few days later, during the correction in class, the teacher
>"so guys, in all the class only 2 of you have answered yes to the last question, anon (me) and X (she had a score of 10/10 in every class for all the academic life)"
>all the class looked at me
>"so anon, explain us, why you've said yes"
>red as a tomato "cause if you put a warning on the street you must hope that the others follow it"
>silence of maybe 4 seconds
>the teacher with open eyes "Oh! sounds legit anon, good! good!. Now, we can go on..."
The day after, at the beginning of the lesson
>"So, anon, i've checked online and not a single critic says that that poem express hope. Sorry, your opinion was wrong"
>in my mind i remembered the day before the test, an entire lesson spended, by that same teacher, in saying to us to not value the opinion of the critics over ours
>say nothing for not enbarrass the teacher and/or sound pridefull, in the same time think that maybe I'm silent only because i'm a coward.
>while i was thinking this, the lesson starts, the moment for any answer is passed.

10 years after, i don't even remember the title of the poem, but from time to time I feel vividly that silence and a voice in my head screams "coward, you've defended your opinion".
But I know if I could go back in time I would be silent again. Stupid spooks

[Anonymous No.7824838]

>>7823525
Nothing to do with literature, but:
>in university biology lab
>have to answer questions in our workbooks after the practical assessment is done
>they make in clear for one question, both in the writing and a verbal confirmation, that it's an opinion and can't be wrong
>the question is "do you think preserving (native tree that exists in one forest and supports equally useless birds) is important?"
>say no, because 99% of humans will never even see or appreciate them, and thousands of dollars are poured into conservation efforts that could be better used elsewhere
>treehugging lab monkey marks me "incorrect" for that question
>don't bother to say anything about it because I know there's no point

[Anonymous No.7824844]

God I hate you faggots

>be in uni
>any class, happens all the time
>professor asks a basic question
>No one answers
>I raise my hand and give the correct answer
>brief back and forth with the professor if necessary
>Next question the same scene repeats
>while getting out of class overhear other students saying "who does anon think he is, I knew that answer too"

Well guess what faggot, you are in fucking university. If you know something raise your fucking faggot hand and say it, you are supposed to be an adult.

[Anonymous No.7824852]

>>7823085
stop this please

[Anonymous No.7824859]

>>7824844
>uni
>raising hands

kek, what?

[Anonymous No.7824870]

>>7824859

[Anonymous No.7824872]

>>7824859
Do you just interrupt people speaking?
Or blurt out your answer without signaling to your interlocutor where you are located?
Are American universities without a speck of manners?

[Anonymous No.7824878]

>be in seminar
>professor puts us into groups,
>one group to do a presentation on a section of a book
>one group to find "key words"
>my group to come up with questions relating to the presentation for discussion
>time comes. no-one in my group has come up with any questions, five minutes before seminar begins
>skim read the section of the book
>scribble down five questions, hand them out to my group to put forward
>professor says they were the best questions of any group so far
>say nothing
>group buys me drinks at the SU
>go home alone
>drink bottle of wine and play minecraft until I hallucinate cubes

[Anonymous No.7824880]

>at uni
>due to give presentation
>public speaking not my forte so work really hard to be prepared
>"who's presenting today?"
>before I can speak a girl stands up and walks to the front of the class
>the window where I can say something is closing but I'm confused, wonder if I got something wrong
>sit in silence as she gives presentation
>decide to wait 'til after class then speak to the teacher
>he bolts out of the room before I can talk
>try to draft email to him, can't get the wording right
>"I'll send it tomorrow"
>"I'll send it tomorrow"
>semester ends
>get 0 for presentation, nearly fail class

[Anonymous No.7824883]

>>7824878
how come you hadn't thought of any questions before the time came?

[Anonymous No.7824885]

>>7824883
I hadn't even read the text, I was hoping someone else would do it. We all were.

[Anonymous No.7824886]

>>7822859
Nobody cares and they'll forget it anyway

[Anonymous No.7824887]

>>7824872
No we have a discussion. When one person finishes talking another starts. No need to raise hands like schoolchildren.

[Anonymous No.7824888]

>>7824880
What the fuck man? that makes no sense.

[Anonymous No.7824889]

>>7824887
And you do that in 80+ person groups?
Do you take a number beforehand?

[Anonymous No.7824893]

>>7824889
>80+ person groups
American schools, everybody!

[Anonymous No.7824894]

>>7823385
bi erasure WEW
check&kek your're privilelge mate

[Anonymous No.7824896]

>>7824889
No, in a lecture we listen to the lecturer speak, because that's what a lecture is.

[Anonymous No.7824905]

>>7824880
>I'll send it tomorrow
Don't take the devil's bait

[Anonymous No.7824906]

>>7824896
>lecturer asks a question
>I don't answer because I'm here to listen!

Okay.

[Anonymous No.7824909]

>>7824906
>lecturer asks non-rhetorical question

Literally never happened. That's what seminars are for.

[Anonymous No.7824911]

>>7824844
oh so youre that fucking idiot who has a debate with the teacher in every lecture so we never get through all the slides

tip: everyone in your class hates you

[Anonymous No.7824913]

>>7822122
I daresay that in that situation you felt a high degree of socially-evaluative stress, which mostly arose from unrealistic cognitions. You might have thought things like "If I'm wrong, will the teacher think I'm an idiot? Will my peers think I'm stupid? Even if I get it right, will my peers think that I'm showing off?". In short, you were very worried about what other people would think of you. Therefore you took the easy way out and deflected attention, because no one would criticise you for not having that information in your immediate memory if you hadn't read the book in a while.

You should practice identifying and challenging these unrealistic cognitions. For example - "Is my teacher really going to think I'm stupid that I have a different opinion, or is s/he going to be glad that I took an interest and enjoy talking about the book? I'm in a literature class so it stands to reason that the people here are interested in literature, are they really going to have a lesser opinion of me just for stating my opinion? Maybe they'll even be impressed?". Also learn to become aware of these situations where the anxiety increases, don't judge yourself too harshly for experiencing it, and learn to withstand it and let it fade away gently. Mindfulness meditation is good for this. Finally, develop your self-confidence by trying to act in a way that is concordant with your own values. If being interested in literature is a core part of who you are, then what is the harm in putting forward your own opinion? Does it really matter what anyone else thinks about you if you are acting in a way that you are confident is good for you, as a person? All these techniques are processes which develop over time so try your best to apply them, and don't be too harsh on yourself if it takes a while. Congratulate the small successes and watch yourself grow.

t. did a degree in psychology once

[Anonymous No.7824916]

>>7824911
Why are you in higher education if you are not engaging with the subject matter?

[Anonymous No.7824923]

>>7824916
you can 'engage with the subject matter' without spending 20 minutes autistically debating instead of waiting until the end of the lecture by when your questions will probably have been answered

[Anonymous No.7824943]

>>7824913

This is a good post.

Thanks anon.

[Anonymous No.7824947]

>>7824838
you have done right

[Anonymous No.7824951]

>>7824838
> Biology lab
> Saying anything that reduces biodiversity
wew lad

[Anonymous No.7824954]

>>7824889
Lectures have everyone taking a particular course/module, given by a professor
Seminar is a 12 people class taught by a PhD student here

[Anonymous No.7824960]

Seek some help. Colleges usually have campus psychologists. I went there and it helped a lot.

[Anonymous No.7824963]

>>7824838
>>say no, because 99% of humans will never even see or appreciate them, and thousands of dollars are poured into conservation efforts that could be better used elsewhere
>clearly not understanding how ecosystems work
>arguing like an economy major

With thinking that one-dimensional you must be American

[Anonymous No.7824965]

>teacher proclaims you're so quiet infront of the whole class

Let me fucking be. REEEEEEEE

[Anonymous No.7824969]

>>7824838
>important?"
>>say no, because 99% of humans will never even see or appreciate them, and thousands of dollars are poured into conservation efforts that could be better used elsewhere

Its it about appreciation, the loss in biodiversity has a large impact on its local ecosystem, which has an impact in a larger scale. If we keep fucking up the planet like we do now we are going to feel effects, we already are.

[Anonymous No.7824971]

>first seminar
>professor says to get into pairs, get to know the other person quickly
>now take turns around the room stand up and say something interesting about the other person and their name
>everyone does
>my turn
>"this is so-and-so and s/he is doing this course because blah-blah"
>so-and-so stands up
>"this is anon and he finds this thing we're doing right now really uncomfortable"

[Anonymous No.7824975]

>>7824971
Kek, did everyone laugh? Did you laugh? Might have ended up as a nice icebreaker after all.

[Anonymous No.7824976]

>>7824975
There was some nervous, awkward laughter. I suggested that he say it. It's a really horrible way to make people introduce themselves.

[Anonymous No.7824977]

>>7824963
>>7824969
>muh ecosystem

If we have still have all the animals that are directly useful to humans, and common trees that don't fuck around with stupid seed distribution measures, then there won't be any real impact on anything even if all the retarded birds and shit get wiped. Even if I did take your points into account, again, it was a worthless, isolated forest ecosystem that had no effect on anything except itself and the work of a few autistic biologists.

[Anonymous No.7824984]

>>7822238
>>7822859
>>7823075
You guys are just all diseased losers, it's not really something you should be comfortably discussing on an anonymous board, but rather actually going out and socializing, speaking your minds, bettering yourselves

[Anonymous No.7824985]

>>7824977
you don't know whether it's a keystone species, you don't know whether a species "directly useful to humans" depends on that tree, you don't know whether the tree has medical properties, you don't know nothing

[Anonymous No.7825002]

>>7824977
The species that are "directly useful" may depend on the "non-useful" species to survive.

[Anonymous No.7825007]

>>7824977
Wow, I need a retard-break from this board.

[Anonymous No.7825012]

>>7824977
>someone on my board wrote this seriously

[Anonymous No.7825015]

>>7824985
Neither do you.

>>7825002
I honestly can't think of a single example, at least among livestock. Predators that help protect crops from insects are fine, too, but i doubt that many of those are endangered.

>>7825007
>>7825012
Thank you, peanut gallery. Why not try actually thinking about it seriously instead of what popsci tells you?

[Anonymous No.7825017]

>>7825015
>Neither do you.
That is your counter-argument? I give you an F for that, does that trigger your PTSD?

[Anonymous No.7825022]

>>7825017
Great ad hominems, but the fact remains that you're in no position to assert your opinions over mine.

[Anonymous No.7825024]

>>7824889
>80+ person groups
Holy fuck. I thought having a 7 person seminar was big.
>Americans

[Anonymous No.7825067]

>>7825024
My biology and chemistry classes have 150+ students

[Anonymous No.7825081]

>>7825067
I took a couple introductory psychology classes that had about 200 people in them

[Anonymous No.7825083]

>>7825022
you don't even understand ad hominems, how did you get into a university??

[Anonymous No.7825090]

>>7824844
This desu, do people even into Socratic method? Not that is going to used to its whole extent in university, but you can't expect to just sit there and listen without taking some responsibility for your goddamn ideas. Or are you all afraid to be wrong?

[Anonymous No.7825097]

>>7825090
>Or are you all afraid to be wrong?

Before university, students have it drilled into them that being wrong fucks up their future. Repeating a grade isn't a second chance, it's a death knell. It's no wonder the school system breeds silent regurgitators of content afraid to be wrong or original, because both result in punishment and the revoking of privileges in the standardized education system.

[Anonymous No.7825109]

>>7825015
Really though, you're a shitty biologist if you only think in terms of immediate usefulness to people. Might as well plow the whole world under and farm corn for fuck's sake.

[Anonymous No.7825156]

>>7822122

the fact that you put your hand up is a good thing. keep confronting the social anxiety like that and you gon make it. congradulate yourself whenever you do face it, no matter if you spill your spaghetti. facing it is important.

also, do get introspective, and/or talk to a psychiatrist, they can help with that stuff a lot.

good luck anon, you gon make it

[Anonymous No.7825263]

>>7825015
How do you take a semester of biology and learn absolutely fucking nothing.

[Anonymous No.7825283]

>>7824977
w e w l a d

[Anonymous No.7825421]

>be me
>24-year-old PhD student
>talking about utopia and SF and Darko Suvin's definition of SF as cognitive estrangement
>mention that I while I think Suvin's idea of SF is still the best definition of the genre, I reckon some of his distinctions between fantasy and SF are largely arbitrary
>one of my supervisors agrees, the other doesn't
>they get into an argument
>I sit there and relish the squabble while laughing nervously because I'm an anxious faggot

It was an ok day

[Anonymous No.7825423]

>>7824887
You literally are schoolchildren.

[Anonymous No.7825436]

>>7825081
The school I attended freshman year had a 2000 (that's thousand!) person lecture class.

[Anonymous No.7825477]

>classes filled to the brim with insecure faggots like these
>have to always be the one to respond when the teacher asks a question. Cause fucking nobody will
>if I just stop answering then basic call response answers get through the most unbearable awkward silence like you faggots are all catatonic
>if I keep going on like this then I sound like an arrogant tryhard who thinks he knows everything when in fact I'm carrying the class
Fuck all of you, say something.

[Anonymous No.7825544]

>>7824971
pretty cute desu

[Anonymous No.7825575]

>>7825436
that's our attendance at a football game on a good day. was it MOOC style?

[Anonymous No.7825612]

>>7825477
I usually wait a couple of seconds to see if anyone wants to say anything

[Anonymous No.7825717]

>>7825477
>he reads ahead of the class
>he only answers easy questions
>he stutters every time
>he speaks like a Virgin

Tbh this is why I don't do it

[Anonymous No.7825738]

>>7825717
I'm in a meme class on religion and science this semester and this one guy has to be literally autistic. You can just tell by the inflection in his voice that he goes on reddit and probably was obsessed with fucking Portal 2 when it came out and loves talking about the cool facts he learned from cracked articles in class

[Anonymous No.7825767]

>>7823075
>"anon, not staying?"
no no no no no don't make me remember these things

[Anonymous No.7825791]

reject the frog

[Anonymous No.7825813]

>>7825717
I was going to say stop being so insecure, nobody thinks these things, but then >>7825738 posted so maybe I'm wrong.

[Anonymous No.7825915]

>>7824960
>diagnosed as bi-polar before Uni
>been manageable for most of my life but the stress is starting to make things worse
>start having week long periods of mania/depression
>go to campus psychologist/doctor
>question after question trying to determine if I'm an addict
>treated suspiciously the entire time I'm there
>finally manage to convince them I'm bi-polar
>prescribes generic anti-depressant
>take it for a couple of weeks, no noticeable difference
>go back to pharmacy to refill
>"Sorry anon, you have no refills"
>go back to clinic
>doctor has no openings
>ask to make an appointment
>no openings for a month
>tell them I need a refill
>explain they can't give me one without the doctor's permission


Happened twice now, I just self medicate with marijuana, Chamomile tea and morning meditation.

[Anonymous No.7825932]

>>7825915

>bipolar
>antidepressant

what? that's really dangerous, antidepressants have a high likelihood of causing and exacerbating manias and mixed cycles, your psych is worse than incompetent

[Anonymous No.7825955]

>>7824977
For the sake of our species, stop breathing.

[Anonymous No.7825964]

>>7825015
>uses the term "popsci"
>doesn't know jackshit about science
You need to kill yourself

[Anonymous No.7826030]

>>7823075
It doesn't get better with time. I was always alone in college, speaking solely to a couple of classmates—painfully and as little as possible—and a very restricted circle of “friends” I had since I was in playground. Eventually I made my way through the oral classes, the rare parties I was invited to and my thesis.

Then I went back to a null social life. No contact, no parties, no meeting, no network—due to strong political opinions I was purposely avoiding Facebook and all the other websites—while spending each day reading, walking alone, sleeping and angrily thinking about what I could and should be.

Finally, the job. Long story short, I mail-bombed financial companies in the nearest city and eventually got an offer to work for a fund administrator. I thought this could be the unexpected, last chance I had to live a normal, fulfilling life. So I did. However, it never ceases to be exhausting, painful and almost unbearable. I'm in an excellent team, in which I'm considered one of the funniest and warmest guy and yet… Each minute I carefully think about what I should say, what would happen if I tell the wrong thing, how to walk correctly, how to react, how to behave. Each day is concurrently a nightmare and a great experience. I sometimes wonder if the others act this way, whether I belong to the cursed race of those who are condemned to feel fear and only fear, or if I simply didn't get the tacit agreement everybody must lie to save up the decorum.

Anyway. Man up, you'll never experience something happier.

[Anonymous No.7826049]

>take LSD
>difficult trip but w/e
>social anxiety cured
>????
>PROFIT!!!!

It certainly made me get my shit together.

[Anonymous No.7826068]

>volunteering answers or thoughts
you do it to yourselves

[Anonymous No.7826074]

>>7826049
you didnt have social anxiety

[Anonymous No.7826079]

>>7826074
3 years a NEET too freightened to go outside disagrees with you.

[Anonymous No.7826087]

>>7825813
nah man there's nothing wrong with being the guy who answers all of the questions in class. The problem is when you try having a dialogue with the professor and you can't help yourself from bringing in some cringey meme humor in everything you say.

[Anonymous No.7826095]

>>7826087
>nah man there's nothing wrong with being the guy who answers all of the questions in class
so you're that annoying cunt

[Anonymous No.7826096]

>>7826079
>only 3 years

[Anonymous No.7826114]

>>7826095
No I'm the guy who speaks up once per class somewhere around 2/3rds of the way through it

[Anonymous No.7826120]

>>7826114
you're me then. death is too good for those tryhards who answer every easy and/or rhetorical question like they're geniuses

[Anonymous No.7826135]

>be in 9th grade (like about 6 years ago)
>teacher says that everyone should read (book title) but doesn't mention the author
>raise my hand and say "by (author)?"
>it's correct
>feel like a bad ass for the rest of the year

[Anonymous No.7826139]

>>7822122
> 20 year old
>uni student
>Crime and Punishment
@
>be russian
>7th grade of school (14 yo)
>teacher gives a task to read Crime and Punishment
>Boring as fuck story of a pussy who failed to stand for his own ideas after commiting a perfect crime.

[Anonymous No.7826238]

>>7826120
What are you supposed to do if nobody else is willing to answer even the simplest questions?

[Anonymous No.7826250]

>>7826139
Uroki sdelal?

[Anonymous No.7826378]

>>7823525
What's the poem?

[Anonymous No.7826395]

>>7826238
you have autism

[Anonymous No.7826426]

>>7826030

>Each minute I carefully think about what I should say, what would happen if I tell the wrong thing, how to walk correctly, how to react, how to behave. Each day is concurrently a nightmare and a great experience. I sometimes wonder if the others act this way, whether I belong to the cursed race of those who are condemned to feel fear and only fear, or if I simply didn't get the tacit agreement everybody must lie to save up the decorum.

I know that feel.

[Anonymous No.7826436]

>>7826030
I feel you dude. It's frighteningly easy to appear "normal" while freaking out inside. Most people I meet think I'm relaxed and fun and socially successful, but, like you said, it's all calculated; it's all an act. I almost cried when a friend pointed out that I find something positive in every situation, since I only go out of my way to do that so I can keep at bay the sadness and loneliness that seem to always loom overhead.

[Anonymous No.7826582]

>>7824913
Anon, I am OP, and this was very helpful, thank you - just by the by, I am not in a literature class, it's a module devoted to understanding the trends of Russian intellectual thought in the 19th century for my history degree.

[Anonymous No.7826612]

>>7825477
OP again; the thing is in all of my other classes I am this guy. I answer all the questions, I get 90% of things "right" (it's a very subjective course, so rather than right I usually consider it "sufficiently justified"), especially in my Political Philsophy class where I am without a doubt the smartest student in the room.

And the thing is I know this professor knows I'm clever, he gave me a first on an essay on totalitarian utopian theory, and I have had long discussions with him about Nietzsche and Dostoyevsky before.

My anxiety just comes and goes.

[Anonymous No.7826632]

>>7824859
Hate to break it up to you, but you are probably blissfully unaware of how disruptive and obnoxious you are if you just blurt out your opinions freely during class

[Anonymous No.7826646]

>>7824913
This guy knows what the score is

[Anonymous No.7826664]

>>7826030

Have you read the good book of Knausgårds Struggles? Helped me come to terms with much of what you mentioned.

[Anonymous No.7826705]

>>7824984
You forgot to tell them to just be themselves.

[Anonymous No.7826708]

>>7825423
Burger detected

[Anonymous No.7826712]

>>7823288
>female
>bi
Like every other female in the world.

[Anonymous No.7826740]

>>7825477
So much this. If I've said a lot I wait and see if anyone else has the answer to not be "that guy" though.

[Anonymous No.7826764]

>uni
>first year
>extreme social anxiety
>expected it to not be like high school in regards to class participation, presentations, group work and all that social shit
>2 weeks in
>"hey class, today we're going to be grouping up for a project that you will be presenting to the classroom"
>after she finishes speaking I get up and walk out
>never went back
Now I'm living the dream as a 21 year old khv neet.

[Anonymous No.7826773]

>>7822122
>Not just emailing him telling that you have anxiety and that the answer is that he becomes guilty, and this shows that conscience is the voice of God, as is Dosto's style
Anxiety doesn't excuse poor thinking

[Anonymous No.7826826]

>>7826773
Actually it does

Anxiety makes you dumber

[Anonymous No.7826895]

>>7826764
Uni isn't like highschool. Nobody gives a fuck if you're autistic.

[Anonymous No.7826930]

>>7826895

This, group projects aren't that bad in uni really.

[Anonymous No.7826944]

>>7826895
uni is pretty much exactly the same as high school if youre autistic
just there are way more people, so no one can be bothered to bully you

[Anonymous No.7826964]

>>7823288
>Female actually, but I am bi
There are no bisexual females. Only sluts.

[Anonymous No.7826983]

>>7826964
Wow, you're cool :^)

[Anonymous No.7826990]

>>7826983
Never fucking reply to me again unless you're contributing to the thread.

[Anonymous No.7826996]

>>7826983
And you're a slut.

>>7826990
She wasn't replying to you, pretentious faggot. And who the fuck do you think you're scaring?

[Anonymous No.7827017]

>>7826983
>:^)
i hope you get hit by a bus.

lot's of love,

anon

[Anonymous No.7827021]

I didn't speak at all during the first two or three months of a humanities seminar (in which there were maybe 20 people and I sat in the front row). One day I gave like five medium length answers to discussion questions. The room was electric.

I did the same thing in a lit seminar and I think I blew the professor's mind because the class was really apathetic (had a lot of non lit majors) and he seemed constantly disappointed by the level of discourse. I not only nailed the questions but brought in a lot of lit theory. Very proud moment for me.

[Anonymous No.7827053]

>>7823385
Whats up Reddit.

[Anonymous No.7827142]

>>7826944
>there are just way more people there
America, everyone!

[Anonymous No.7827185]

>>7827142
>going to some irrelevant backwater europleb uni that no one has ever heard of
Stay jelly yurofaggot.

[Anonymous No.7827362]

>>7823288
Fuck off whore.

>btw guys i'm a grilllll
>pay attention to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Fuck. Off.
Fuck off.


We seriously do not care. We don't care about your day, we don't care about your boyfriend, we don't care about your issues. One thing we certainly don't care about is your fucking opinions. Jesus Christ, why did you make this post? Did it benefit, inform, arouse concern in ANYONE? No. You posted this because you are a solipsistic whore who thinks she matters because guys like her facebook photos. I can hear you just now, you're thinking "but i don't have fa-" SHUT THE FUCK UP. I don't care about your fucking tumblr either. It's a site where you post pictures of yourself for validation, hell it could be /r9k/ for all that matters - you are still an attention whore. The guys that have called you beautiful on omegle have convinced you that you have any kind of worth, guess what: you don't. You're valued for a vagina. That's it. Nothing else. Why you think owning something that 50% of the human population owns makes your opinions worthy of shit is fucking beyond me.

Words cannot describe the utter amount of hatred I have for you. I cannot stand your vapid personality, the way you look so clueless all the time. You are a literal robot who lives for nothing more than getting validation from random guys on the internet i.e. us, and you think we're going to tolerate you parading your fucking boring thoughts on our board? Think again, cunt. Girls like you are the most boring people anyone could ever meet, because you do nothing but talk about some guy you met on here or what was on tumblr or your hair or some song you supposedly like or just SOME OTHER SHIT WE DON'T CARE ABOUT. Fuck you. You have the audacity to expect us to care when you never provide any interesting discourse or state something interesting, you literally just consume and regurgitate SHIT. We whole heartedly despise you, and you should never forget that.

[Anonymous No.7827410]

>>7823525
Thats horseshit. Why is did the prof feel the need to put you down like that, just because what the critics say? Why wouldn't they let a creative and outside perspective onto the matter.
this this is why academia is failing young people today.

[Anonymous No.7827435]

I found it really easy to break out of my social anxiety phase. All I had to do was bee myself

[Anonymous No.7827455]

>>7824913

Good job m8

[Anonymous No.7827473]

>>7827185
This is what Americans consider a rebuttal.

[Anonymous No.7827475]

>>7827362
is this pasta or just an autist sperging out?

[Anonymous No.7827484]

>>7824977
>He doesn't see inherent value in Nature

[Anonymous No.7827818]

>>7826436
Damn anon
Your positive response to situations helps the subconscious of those around you
Just remember that you've probably made a change for the positive in some of your friends

[Anonymous No.7827830]

>>7827362
pretty good pasta, desu. surprised this is my first time seeing this.

[Anonymous No.7827867]

>>7824885
You were the chump that chickened out lol

[Anonymous No.7828299]

>>7826087
>can't help yourself from bringing in some cringey meme humor
Who does this? Is this like the people who actually say kek out loud to people?

[Anonymous No.7828312]

>>7827867
I'm not really bothered. Free drinks and flattery of my intellect.

[Anonymous No.7828812]

can a lot of people ITT relate to this?

[Anonymous No.7828941]

>>7827410
Awfully sweeping statement you've got there

[Anonymous No.7829034]

>>7828812
yes, entirely, except the doubting about my sexuality
especially the lying part, not big lies or anything, but just general horseshit.
although i'm usually quiet without smoking weed like a sperg

[Anonymous No.7829046]

>>7828812
i even look like that
and every time i go to social events i analyse everything from a perspective of "wow im so above these people, lets just screw around" when in reality im so nervous i barely say anything, and by the end of every night i realise how much more capable everyone is than me in every regard

[Anonymous No.7829323]

>>7826436
>>7826030
Everybody thinks this way. Everybody realizes the difference between inner and outer life: that we can never expel our thoughts into the world with the clarity in which they arrive to us; that when we need them most, our words fail us and fail to embody our complexity. Everyone concludes that the inner life is somehow deeper, more prolific, more truthful. In fact, I think it is the opposite. One is always aware of acting oneself. One always acts as if some other were watching, sometimes even when one is alone, certainly anywhere in public. It is this spectacle, this feeling of being onstage, that confines (or maybe "defines") what we are. We think we are most ourselves at home or making filthy jokes to our closest friends. No, I think we are most "ourselves" in our presentation to the public world. Not in the strict sense of conversations to passersby or acquaintances, in which we must maintain the utmost politeness, but rather in our words and ideas that we inflict upon others. This is nothing more than to say that our ideas are limited to and by our vocabulary (if one does not know the word "edulcorate" then one will struggle to enclose all its denotative and connotative meanings in a single phrase, let alone word). In the same way, our conception of self is limited by the external--our actions and our words. How many bitter souls have taken their delusions of genius to the grave? I say: they are no more geniuses than the man on the corner selling his "street knowledge"--in fact, even less so: at least the cornerman has words. We are not our inner monologue—anyone can be a genius when unhindered by the realities of language. To bring thought into the world manifest as action or language—that is the true self, where the real genius is born. It is our inner monologue that is the “act” we put on to convince ourselves we are smarter or more complex than we are, because it is a social mark of rank to achieve these distinctions. Paradoxically, we are content to own these marks without the essential “reveal” of them to the public world: the social aspect. But without society they are worthless.

tl;dr you're being pathetic; "you" are a better person than you think

[Anonymous No.7829498]

>>7823385
>>7826964
>>7827362

Those are extremely radical views and if you are not trolling, you've lost a grip with reality.
Seek psychiatric help or at very least reconsider your attitude towards women. I'm not even joking.

[Anonymous No.7830001]

>>7829498
your newbadge is showing

[Anonymous No.7831736]

>>7828812
>>7829034
>>7829046
is it like a specific personality type? it's crazy but it gets me down to a t, even the red hair. its spooky

[Anonymous No.7831772]

>>7823075
>end of the year "party" during the last history class
>students give the teacher a bottle of wine and pull out snacks
>just stand around for one hour not talking to anybody

[Anonymous No.7831789]

>>7827435
honestly, yes.

I was a friendless loser who couldn't speak with people. When I first heard of "beeing myself" I thought I should shave my head because hair have always been a problem to me hygiene-wise, and also I had no social capital to lose. So I did shave my head. What happened was that the next day the Paris shooting (at the Bataclan) occured and everyone at the university thought I had shaved my head to sympathize with the victims-an idea which repulsed me.
That day everyone was hushed at the university. People came up to me and talked to me in the corridors, my classmates and phd teacher guys. I made most of my friends that day. I still keep in touch with my first semester teachers because they thought I shaved my head because of a bombing.

tl;dr thanks Daech and also short hair is great

[Anonymous No.7831807]

>>7831789
Kek

[Anonymous No.7831814]

>>7831736
i suppose, im trying to get more exposure tho
i think this in the end will help

[Anonymous No.7831828]

>>7822122

>In art history class (just for the elective credits btw but its still sometimes interesting)
>teacher brings up example of a statue done of Hercules wrestling Antaeus
>teacher starts to explain it but then asks if anyone knows the myth, silence
>I speak up and explain the myth when nobody else does
>sophisticated.jpg
>teacher "thank you anon, very good"

[Anonymous No.7831997]

>in high school
>there's this weird dude in class who never says anything and looks like he's always pissed off
>time for book presentations
>dude: I read this book called (insert book title).
>silence
>teacher: well, what did you think about it?
>dude: it was fucking shit.
>silence
>teacher: ...well, would you recommend that book to anyone?
>dude: no
>silence
>that's it

To this day, I don't know whether to envy or pity that guy. At least he had the guts to speak his mind, unlike you fags.

[Anonymous No.7832199]

>>7822122
Man, I wouldn't have been able to come up with an answer like that. I majored in English, got my degree, and just fucking read books. Still have no idea what those nutcases were talking about.

[Anonymous No.7832202]

>>7832199

thats cur a chick, balls and benis required for critical reading

[Anonymous No.7832205]

>>7823525
I don't understand this story. Why didn't she ask the girl instead of you? What did the girl have to say about it?

[Anonymous No.7832231]

>tfw spent two years as the mysterious outsider
>tfw became "that guy who showed something he shouldn't have on the projector in class" during my senior year

[Anonymous No.7832235]

>>7832231
What was it?

[Anonymous No.7832244]

>>7832231
this is another kind of bait

[Anonymous No.7832256]

>>7832235
I had a long-term crush on a girl in the class who had a distinctive name and one of the few folders on my USB stick was titled "[her name] stories". Someone repeated the name of it out loud but I pretended not to hear and hurriedly looked for where my powerpoint was saved. After the class was over the girl and her two friends rushed away from the class and one time I saw her with four people at a table in the canteen nearby and when I passed she bent over the table and pointed "secretly" up at me and everyone on her table turned to look at me.

[Anonymous No.7832263]

You know what helped me? mushrooms
I microdosed mushrooms one day before class and I got really upbeat and into the discussion, and kept doing that til the effects stuck

[Anonymous No.7832294]

>>7832202
No, I am very masculine. I just don't give a fuck. Especially about you. Suck it.

[Anonymous No.7832308]

>>7832256
That's pretty silly. I didn't write any fanfiction but I was pretty paranoid about something like that happening so I would always double check the USB my presentation was on so that none of my weird folders would show up. I even checked to make sure there were no hidden folders that would randomly display on certain computers, because I saw potential for some bad shit happening there. On top of that I made sure to know exactly where my presentation was so I wouldn't navigate to the wrong place.

[Anonymous No.7832384]

>>7826049
>>7832263
How does one acquire these drugs with social anxiety and no connections?

[Anonymous No.7832406]

>>7832308
>summer holidays
>going to my cousins for two months and their internet is down
>prepare in advance: save tons of porn pics on my computer
>thought it would be smart to always have a usb stick stashed somewhere with all my porn
>end of holidays
>realise I don't know where the usb stick is anymore
>it's got my name, they'll know all the dirty shit I'm into
don't worry the usb stick was actually in my bag all along but the memory of the whole affaire makes my brow hot and prickly

[Anonymous No.7832438]

>>7832384
As long as you have friends who aren't straight edge prudes, you can just ask if they have any connections. If that doesn't work, look up how to use bitcoin and buying drugs off the dark web. I'd recommend starting off with pot though and see how well you can handle just being high.

[Anonymous No.7832451]

>>7832384
I once knew a manlet who picked up girls by drinking lots of beer and hanging around university with his chums. It didn't work once and he now had pancreatitis.
You're better on your ownif you have to take drugs to function. Don't do it for everybody's sake.

[Anonymous No.7832458]

>>7822122

go back to him in his free time and tell him the real answer, with no one else present. You'll feel a sense of closure and may incite a thought provoking and enjoyable conversation. He's a teacher and it's his job to listen to his students - there's probably a chance he's there because he cares about what you have to say. best of luck.

[Anonymous No.7832464]

>>7832438
How safe is buying drugs off of the dark web? Is there any chance it could be traced back to me if I do it correctly?

[Anonymous No.7832495]

>>7824977
what in the fuck is wrong with you

[Anonymous No.7832713]

>>7832464
I don't know, never bought drugs off the dark web myself. I just know you can do it. As long as you do it correctly, you shouldn't be worried about being traced

[Anonymous No.7832723]

>>7832256
jeez that was painful. This is why you write personal shit like that in notebooks

[Anonymous No.7832784]

>>7832256
>>7824977
this is simply pure autism

[Anonymous No.7832813]

>>7823525

What kind of a bogus teacher would single out a student by name like that, because of some check-a-box question? What's more, read online critics just to tell you, you were "wrong"? Why would the teacher give a fuck? And are you seriously telling me a question phrased that way only had two people check yes? Cool story bro, but that never happened.

[Anonymous No.7833258]

>>7832464

you can buy legal LSD-analogs that feel exactly like it but are not explicitly illegal. LSD is as good as mushrooms when it comes to helping solve these kinds of issues but start with a small dose and if it doesn't do much then wait a week and try a little more at once. You can cut the tabs into pieces and take half.

You can find several sites selling 1p-LSD and sometimes LSZ here

https://www.reddit.com/r/RCSources/wiki/vendors

[Anonymous No.7833272]

>>7833258

and to clarify in this post you don't need to use the darknet because they are surface-websites and tens of thousands of people order this stuff with credit cards in their name. Its just that the feds/dea/cops etc don't prioritize intercepting this kind of stuff unless its in huge amounts. If the site you buy it from says they don't list the chemical on the package label it won't be stopped in the mail.