/wwoym/ - Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.23235773]

The prior: >>23229809
Did you know that Seurat was only 31 when he died?

[Anonymous No.23235780]

>>23235773
Been in a fog lately. I've had great difficulty gathering my thoughts and focusing in the past week, which is unusual. Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe it's a devil. Whatever it is I don't like it.

[Anonymous No.23235783]

I last bathed, like... 70 hours ago.

[Anonymous No.23235787]

>>23235783
Rookie numbers, pretty sure my balls are illegal right now

[Anonymous No.23235796]

>>23235773
I wish God was real so he would damn me to head already. Alsp I didn't know Seurat was the guy who painted all of that or that he was that young, feel Inadecuate.

Pre-requisite Spenglerfag autism warning.
Faustian Civilization's conservative counter part to the Ethical Socialist will be the agrarianist religious luddite, I feel it.
The type of guy who thinks technology is evil and thinks everyone should just worship God while tilling the soil and living like a hobbit.

[Anonymous No.23235798]

I don’t want to move to the city but I’m starting to think I have no choice.

[Anonymous No.23235810]

I feel like gloating a bit.
I have a name list of nearly all freemasons in my country; nearly two thousand names, organised alphabetically and by local lodge.

[Anonymous No.23235815]

>>23235810
send dick pics to every single one. a different pic each time.

[Anonymous No.23235823]

>>23235798
What do you think moving to the city will change about your life?

[Anonymous No.23235830]

>>23235773
It's quite disturbing, the realization that women could go from doing the most depraved humiliating things you can ever imagine, to pretending their innocent. One shower a cute homely dress, and just a little make up and they can go back to pretending they could make a good partner/wife or mother, at least the ones who werent dumb enough to plaster tattoos and piercings everywhere or have the content of their debauchery on the internet. A whole slew of men blown/rimmed/fucked wiithout any protection while barely even knowing anything about them, all gone behind a sweet smile and pleasant smelling perfume. This is what the average male in the western world has to look forward to, having a whore settle for him, once her fun is over, once her eyes start to sag a little, once her opportunities drop. There is no place for romance or love amongs the present, only mistrust, envy and loathing.

[Anonymous No.23235845]

>>23235773
Imagine /lit/ if you couldn’t post about race, religion, or politics

[Anonymous No.23235848]

>>23235830
I think i've been on that pirate ship

[Anonymous No.23235852]

>>23235830
Is it really any different than you though? We all hide our vices and shame. Or are you so perfect? Would you seriously maintain you have acted in perfect virtue your entire life? And are you such that you would not forgive a women who fell prey to evil men, since all the men this hypothetical woman slept with were evil enough to dupe her for the pleasure she wanted? You're also mischaracterizing women in general. I have several married friends who are their wife's only sexual partners. There are still virgin women out there. It sounds like you're in a state of dismay and despair. You unrionically need to stay off 4chan. it has warped your perception of reality. Leave your house.

[Anonymous No.23235855]

>>23235830
Women to me seem like children with a billion dollar limit credit card but fundamentally the maturity of children. Whenever you get close to a really beautiful woman, one of those girls every other guy wants, because you're a man you always assume she'll understand the nature of the power she has over men, since it clearly dominates and structures her life. But they never do, they're always very interestingly immature and sealed off from the full reality of it. They have the same level of maturity about these forces that are built into them, and that are determining their whole lifestyle and future, as a 15 year old boy has when he sees one movie and decides he wants to be a "special ops" soldier. It's sort of like a real decision, but it's fundamentally coming from a child's brain that lacks too much information about the world to make such a decision for real yet.

Even the most beautiful women seem to have very little understanding of their actual impact on their surroundings, on their relationships, on men, etc. They just kind of coast through it, following surprisingly "simple" directives. I think that's part of their charm and maybe it's by design. But it also leads, as you said, to them being massive whores and switching back and forth between sweet girl and whore persona, because they really have no dissonance about doing so. They are used to lying and coping and altering their own memories and the historical record to make themselves still feel "pretty" and "sweet," even if they did horrible, evil, and/or debasing things just this morning. You telling a woman, who just did a horrible disgusting thing, that she's horrible and disgusting, is like some ultra-religious fundamentalist coming up and saying you are doomed to Hell forever with no takebacks because you masturbated as a teenager. It just doesn't register as real, it's too "extreme" to be a real complaint. But that's how a woman's brain interprets even very real criticism for very real, very awful things they are doing or have done.

This is why there is no hope in trying to get women to stay innocent or chaste, except external pressures. They have no internal moral compass, no shame or pride, in the way men do. What they do have is absolute terror of losing status in the eyes of other women and the herd in general. Short of imposing that terror on them, they will ALWAYS whore around willy-nilly, seeking "experiences," and pave over how they feel about it with lies. I really can't emphasize this enough, women feel no remorse about lying. There could be no female Tell-Tale Heart. That is an extremely male story. Women are animalistic in a way men aren't, they are still one foot in the jungle or in the Bronze Age or something, they don't have interior morality, only exterior.

[Anonymous No.23235860]

>>23235845
If only. I pray for the continued departure of tourists.

[Anonymous No.23235866]

>>23235848
>Fisherman's Friend
lozenge chads, we can't stop winning

[Anonymous No.23235870]

>>23235823
A better job, more writers and publishers to network with, more women to date

[Anonymous No.23235871]

>>23235845
Add women to that list

[Anonymous No.23235876]

>>23235870
As someone who's lived in a few major American cities I don't think it's all it's cracked up to be.

[Anonymous No.23235880]

>>23235871
>>23235860
>>23235845
This board has become softcore /adv/ with a literature bent

[Anonymous No.23235896]

>>23235815
lol tempting, but I don't want to wake up one day with a mob of masons at my door; coming to chop my dick & balls off.

[Anonymous No.23235903]

>>23235880
It sucks. Just blackpilling about everything. No fun! Where's a man to go when even his (internet) home appears to him strange and unwelcoming?

[Anonymous No.23235913]

>>23235880
The homogenization of 4chan, every board is more or less the same but with a tinge of the board topic. Also anons have become more and more alike and it’s hard to tell one from the other. It’s just lame

[Anonymous No.23235925]

I have a second date with a girl tonight. First date I've been on since I was 16 was with her earlier this week. She's everything I thought she would be when I was a young undergrad. She's smart, well read, has the prettiest smile. Pretty sure the only reason she's into me is because I like reading too, but I'm afraid she'll realize I'm not as well read as I appear to people.

[Anonymous No.23235929]

>>23235903
That's always been 4chan, this site has always sucked outside of a few niche generals. Many anons bemoan the downfall of /lit/ but I have been here since 2015 and I don't remember any serious literature discussion ever taking place, certainly not in any civilized, respectable, scholastic sort of way.

[Anonymous No.23235932]

>>23235925
>he fell head over heels for a /lit/hoe
I'm hoping the best for you but these never end well.

[Anonymous No.23235961]

>>23235925
The only thing that could ruin it prematurely is you trying to see true love on a second date. You need to do some mental exercises in seeing it as just a date and practicing being okay with it not going anywhere. Only by doing that will you let go, and give it the real possibility of going somewhere.

Remember, if she ghosts you or ditches you, don't beg or plead. Trust me on this. But also don't be overly terrified of ghosting or disrespect from her and preemptively act like a tough guy. Just relax and let things take their natural, middle course. Don't try to constrain the outcome, aside from being a good guy, being yourself, and showing interest. If a woman likes you, she likes you, and it won't be hard.

[Anonymous No.23235964]

>>23235932
Any particular reason why?

>>23235961
I trying my best to realistic but ultimately just the fact that I'm close to getting a gf I'm happy with. Just something to show that it's not a lost cause.

[Anonymous No.23235969]

>>23235964
>"Any particular reason why?"
>He doesn't know
oh, to be young

[Anonymous No.23235975]

>>23235969
Pessimists begone

[Anonymous No.23235983]

>>23235975
Difference between pessimism and realism. I am hoping the best for him but I have never seen one of these turn out well. I pray he is the exception. But observe how crazy most /lit/anons are, do you think the female versions are any different?

[Anonymous No.23236007]

>>23235983
Well, he never actually said it was a /lit/ gal, just that she also likes reading. Although that said, I think there are plenty of non-crazy anons here. The vocal minority becoming the loudest screechers in the crowd is at play here as elsewhere, we just have the craziest crazies. Most of the 4chan users I've happened to meet in life have been chill.

[Anonymous No.23236013]

>>23235876
Obviously, but will you deny there’s more of what I said? I did live in a big city once and I know for a fact there is.

[Anonymous No.23236019]

>>23235773
Big titties is the only thing that has been on my mind lately.

[Anonymous No.23236023]

>>23236013
It depends on your connections, pedigree, and profession, that's true. But bigger city means more competition as well. I would encourage you to move to a big city if you have a specific job or study that brings you there, and not just move there to move there.

[Anonymous No.23236048]

>>23235830
>This is what the average male in the western world has to look forward to
This isn't exclusive to the west. It happens nearly everywhere.

[Anonymous No.23236062]

>>23235983
She's not from /lit/, and if she is it hasn't come up in conversation. She just really loves reading.

[Anonymous No.23236085]

I feel like a gorilla that accidentally gained sentience after being heavily experimented on by three letter niggers.

[Anonymous No.23236094]

Is there a God or not???

[Anonymous No.23236134]

>>23236094
No, there isn't. If everything was created, and God created everything (as religious people claim), who created God? It makes no sense!

[Anonymous No.23236153]

>>23236134
Why is there something instead of nothing?

[Anonymous No.23236157]

>>23236094
Yeah duh. Where do you think everything came from? Nowhere?

[Anonymous No.23236172]

>>23235773
Books that explain why Protestants are such waterboys for Jews?

[Anonymous No.23236239]

>>23236153
This is fair and was actually one of the only questions that kept me thinking there’s some intention behind all causality or some prime mover, but maybe everything has always existed for a reason beyond what my brain can possibly process.
>>23236134
This is kinda part of what doesn’t make sense and honestly there might be a metaphysics but inserting god or some conscious intender seems unnecessary and wishful, since there’s no empirical evidence for its existence and is not necessarily a prerequisite for existence itself, atleast that’s what it seems like.

I want to believe there’s a pattern or a will that governs how things are run but it’s kinda like in blood Meridian where the judge says that the only patterns and seeming teleologies of history and life are put on after the fact by us and don’t exist outside of our subjective interpretation

[Anonymous No.23236254]

>>23236172
What’s hard to understand I’m a /his/torylet and yet even I can see it’s simply cause the Jews completely cucked England and Germany financially and so those feelings of subservience were passed on genetically (people with subservient traits thriving most in those societies at that time. They then emigrated to america as kike loving Protestants. Jews infiltrated the Catholics in more inconspicuous ways by planting specific people in the Vatican and it’s many sub-organizations. Which is why Irish Italians and Spanish (Mexicans) don’t outright suck kike dick but send their kids to get touched by cia and mossad trained pedopriests

It’s really quite simple

[Anonymous No.23236265]

>>23236172
On The Jews And Their Lies by Martin Luther

[Anonymous No.23236309]

two girls smiled at me today. life: not so bad after all.

>>23235773
you do your best work in your 20s and 80s

[Anonymous No.23236314]

>>23236172
They weren’t always that way, you know

[Anonymous No.23236315]

to the anon who told me vultures isn't good - you're a ffffool

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ed2TGPP6nc4

[Anonymous No.23236320]

Anyone else have a family member that is objectively a failure in all the stuff that matters but still thinks they can insult you and tell you how to live your life?

[Anonymous No.23236321]

>>23236172
Though to be fair a lot of Protestant theology attempts to emphasize the Old Testament aspects of Christianity.

[Anonymous No.23236327]

>>23235830
Kind of wish you could own women like when we used to own niggers on plantations

[Anonymous No.23236331]

>>23236153
If you meant to ask "How is there something instead of nothing?" then I don't know. It's possible we may never know.

The answer to "Why is there something instead of nothing?" can be anything you like, really. Maybe the universe exists so we can make an apple pie from scratch. Maybe it's so The Hound of the Baskervilles could be written. Maybe it's so a trio of Xmblaxos on the planet Scorzillec can have a hot alien threesome. Maybe Hydrogen atoms bumping into each other is really important somehow.
"Why" is a human concept. Humans like to think things happen for reasons, but they don't. They just happen.
The universe has stuff in it. If it didn't, we couldn't ask why it does, because we wouldn't exist.
It's like asking why you have parents. You just do. If you didn't, you'd never have been born.

[Anonymous No.23236337]

lying is the most fun a good citizen can have

[Anonymous No.23236340]

im so sick of using twitter/x

[Anonymous No.23236347]

>>23236320
Got a dozen, yeah.

[Anonymous No.23236360]

There are two classes of people in this world, those who sin, and those who are sinned against; if a man must belong to either, he had better belong to the first than the second.

[Anonymous No.23236363]

I made an Instagram to post fotos I but dont share anything at all.

[Anonymous No.23236375]

>>23236363
feel like it takes superhuman strength to post a picture of yourself online.
spiritually i'm an ox and ready to make the move. emotionally i'm nowhere near where i need to be

[Anonymous No.23236382]

I shartted in my underwear and got a pube in my coffee. This morning is not going well for me

[Anonymous No.23236387]

>>23236320
My brother is literally homeless and tries to do this

[Anonymous No.23236389]

>>23236321
Which Protestant theology? Seventh Day Adventists maybe. But the Protestant Reformation actually began by emphasizing how Jesus took us out of the Law and therefore deemphasized the Old Testament. One of Martin Luther's big problems was that the Roman Church was basically reinstitutuing The Law which is why he made such a big deal about justification by faith

[Anonymous No.23236412]

kiehl's amino acid conditioner
boka ela mint toothpaste

is actually all you need

[Anonymous No.23236436]

>>23236387
In what way?

[Anonymous No.23236439]

Woke up with a bug-bite half an inch under the left side of my lip, cringe.

[Anonymous No.23236449]

>>23236439
so fucking lame

[Anonymous No.23236450]

>>23236375
Its not even a pictures of me, just some snapshits I took. Or is that what you meant?

[Anonymous No.23236453]

>>23236436
He has this funny notion that I'm the "golden child" who got spoiled and thats the reason I'm not a homeless drug addict like he is. By the way, it's actually the opposite. He was the first born and spoiled rotten. I remember him punching holes in the wall and screaming so our dad would buy him an Xbox. He got everything he asked for and seriously man he asked for a lot. The iPhone back when it first came out, 3 or 4 top quality guitars plus private lessons, every latest trendy product. I was simple and quiet. The most I ever asked for was a trip to Barnes and Noble to get the latest Rangers Apprentice book when it came out.

[Anonymous No.23236459]

>>23236439
A love bug have you a kiss uWu

[Anonymous No.23236480]

americans are cringe, no two ways about it

[Anonymous No.23236503]

The only thing stopping me from embracing atheism is that it turns out I am wrong and those spiritual experiences I had WERE real and God punishes my ass

[Anonymous No.23236529]

>>23236320
yeah, and when life catches up to them and I get to be in a slightly better situation they say I got lucky, or that what I did was easy (ofc they will never do what they called 'easy' for some reason). they also seek small victories everywhere. "oh, you don't have a driving license? why? when will you buy a car?", "you're working hard to get money and live comfortably? God is important, no? why aren't you as religious as I am?", they would say. losers being losers

[Anonymous No.23236538]

>>23236320
There are neets with no social lives on this site who are failures yet they’ll insult people above them all the time

[Anonymous No.23236539]

Rate my random thoughts on how to get lazy ennui fucks to do something with themselves


I've had a game idea that is a metaphor for how all life satisfaction is gained from attainment towards a goal.
Long term life anxiety comes from basically having "main quests" you've had since childhood which have never been completed and their lack of completion is barring you from way more rewarding quests.
Basically, you're jerking off playing clicker games eeking out tiny amounts of attainment towards a goal which has a tiny amount of value towards you. There is little satisfaction gained, but since this loser person in question has given up on the big major goals of his life, he relies on the clicker games and porn to get any satisfaction at all.

I'm not completely sure what defines the value itself, but it seems to be the quests's ability to satiate your basic natural senses.
Pleasure, satisfaction, joy, power, recognition, amusement;
plus the mitigation of any form of pain and suffering, as the elimination of a negative is a positive in itself.

Basically, ultimate life satisfaction comes from meaningful attainment towards a meaningful goal. What makes the goal's meaningful is often very random and seemingly unrelated but it is always somehow satiating one of our senses, and its ability to do so and its difficulty in achieving is what defines the quantity of value.

So we get locked in to viewing certain big goals as ultimate values, the +1,000,000 VA (value), these are our DREAMS, which due to learned-helplessness inceldom or whatever we end up viewing as unachievable. We are then left sifting through the dregs playing videogames and viewing porn, +10 - +50 VA types of shit activities which barely keep our heads above water from the -100 VA things like working a job and loneliness.

The idea games can represent reality because they are based on reality. So if you're trying to quit porn or something, suggest to yourself that every day without using contributes some value towards a progress bar or whatever. That any action towards quitting, such as deleting your brazzers account is pushing some boulder along a discrete length. If there was a floating HUD in front of you that gave you "VA points" every time you did 10 push ups or read 10 pages of a book, you'd probably be more motivated wouldn't you? It seems dumb as fuck, but this idea of quantifiying progress towards a goal in order to make the progress feel real is a very good thing, it's what all those people chirp on about breaking a task into small milestones anyway. Same fucking thing.

[Anonymous No.23236540]

>>23236503
God is real. I never really sought signs to believe, but the last time I tried masturbating I had a leg cramp. I can count on one hand the number of times I got leg cramps in my whole life and being in bed masturbating was a new experience.

[Anonymous No.23236626]

AI will change the world

AI is the next great technological revolution

[Anonymous No.23236636]

>>23236626
Are these primitive AI's still around?

[Anonymous No.23236645]

>>23236636
Francis Bacon esque.

[Anonymous No.23236651]

>>23236645
Some twitter slag once told me she likes Francis Bacon and I already knew that because it was a woman, she must not be talking about the philosopher. My first thought wasn't even "the philosopher?" I went directly to "there must be another Francis Bacon, some 20th century trendy shit retards like, even if it's actually good I bet only normie retards like it because it's kooky or zany in some way" as the infinitely more likely explanation. I basically guessed the entire painter into existence just based on the fact that a woman said she liked him.

[Anonymous No.23236654]

>>23236651
lol

stealing this post for my novel, thanks

[Anonymous No.23236675]

>>23235773
Should we learn the history of our closest friends?

[Anonymous No.23236678]

I'm watching this 90s movie and saw this gorgeous teenage girl in it. I looked her up and saw a picture of her from this year. She's old, ugly, and withered now. It wasn't even that long ago but she's changed so much. Youth is so fleeting bros.

[Anonymous No.23236684]

>>23236651
kek

[Anonymous No.23236694]

>>23236453
Kinda similar situation with my brother but he’s not homeless or a druggie or anything like that, just one of these failure to launch guys who dabble in and out of college and retail jobs for 10 years

[Anonymous No.23236702]

>>23235773
I'm drunk, and I'm a chatty drunk. Somebody talk to me, please.

[Anonymous No.23236703]

>>23235783
anon is right. come back when you haven't bathed in two weeks, and then we can compare notes.

[Anonymous No.23236708]

>>23235773
I'm in the mood for some hardcore shit

[Anonymous No.23236749]

>>23236702
Whatcha up to these days?

[Anonymous No.23236754]

Looking up the median age by state is really depressing. No wonder I can never find people my age to hang out with

[Anonymous No.23236773]

Every time I eat beef I am fixated with this fear that I will get mad cow disease. It's why I rarely eat it now. I ate a burger yesterday and it's been troubling me every since.

[Anonymous No.23236778]

>>23236773
It’s a much bigger problem with venison than cow. As long as the meat you eat avoids contact with bad nervous tissue, it’s fine.

[Anonymous No.23236787]

>>23236754
Yep. For the longest time, I wondered why at every job I have, I’m the younger person by 10 years or more. The median age in my state is 42. I was 25. Turns out, all the 25 year olds were at home or in the big city working shitty retail jobs and the like. I was the only one working at a white collar job in the suburbs. This has never changed by the way. I’m convinced that you can’t make friends or date unless you move to the city, and 90% of your options will unappealing. I’ve been thinking of moving to Texas or Utah and trying to find a Latina or Mormon gf.

[Anonymous No.23236790]

>>23236749
My head hurts. I just bought a new keyboard, so that's nice. I'm really desperate for something brutal. What about you?

[Anonymous No.23236801]

>>23236790
>I'm really desperate for something brutal.
Like a fight? Or like heavy metal or something? I've been learning, walking, photosynthesising. Pretty much all I've ever done, now that I think about it. Good thing I like it.

[Anonymous No.23236806]

>>23236801
>Like a fight? Or like heavy metal or something?
yeah.
>I've been learning, walking, photosynthesising.
that's cool. I wish I was more inclined to doing the same. I'm more inclined to just read, and I don't really read high-brow stuff. I'm trying to learn the ocarina, actually, but I can't even figure out how to blow into the damn thing right. Very disheartening.

[Anonymous No.23236811]

>>23236754
Get a part-time job at a chain restaurant and you'll be surrounded by people to hangout with and girls to flirt and sleep with. The last few girls I've dated were all coworkers at a restaurant.

[Anonymous No.23236814]

When I go to kill myself, I will be begging for someone to save me the entire time. Cars will pass me, unaware that I want someone, anyone at all to help me. Even if someone were to stop and ask what I'm doing, I will respond
>I'm going on a walk.
And even if I were to receive "help," what would it consistence of? Nothing. I cannot be helped. And save me from what? There is nothing to save me from.

"Hopeless" is something that doesn't really describe what I feel. It doesn't even approach the feeling. When I kill myself, I am going to be thinking "But what if..." and I am going to hang on to this belief that I have- irrational I know- that when I die, I will wake up happy. It's going to give me the strength I need to finally lay myself to rest.

[Anonymous No.23236816]

>>23236811
I will never work in food service. I'm too good for that

[Anonymous No.23236817]

>>23236816
Ooh, that's what they all say.

[Anonymous No.23236824]

>>23236816
Well, it works well as a solution for me for that problem. Not to mention being braindead easy so after a shift I am fully mentally energized to read and write.

[Anonymous No.23236825]

>>23236806
Assuming you meant brutal music and not pugilism, here, try this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7zvCgP94gM

Can't help you with the ocarina. I can play all sorts of instruments but nothing that requires blowing into it. No good with my mouth. Terrible kisser, too.

[Anonymous No.23236828]

>>23236824
Nah dog my minimum wage days are over. I got a new job in education. There's a cute college girl who works as a tard gard and a cute blonde woman who works as a yard duty. Gotta be more friendly with them

[Anonymous No.23236830]

>>23236828
Yeah but at restaurants they're generally 18-25. Anyway, best of luck to you.

[Anonymous No.23236834]

>>23236773
The only way to fix this is to make an effort to eat beef from different stores, brands, and restaurants and when you're literally fine laugh at how retarded you were.

[Anonymous No.23236843]

>>23236816
lmao you're on 4chan, bud
no, you're not

[Anonymous No.23236849]

>>23236843
Non sequitur

[Anonymous No.23236853]

Do you guys like Father John Misty? I feel like he’s a songwriter fellow /lit/izens would like. His album pure comedy is one of the best albums released in a while and I’ve been listening to it a lot lately

[Anonymous No.23236868]

i have no life, no friends, no girlfriend, no sexual experience, no social skills, no talents, no looks, no money, no way out, no future

[Anonymous No.23236871]

>>23236825
Hahaha, that's actually a little too hard for me. I was listening to Doom music and some Pendulum. Yeah, I'm just so impatient. I need instant results or I get frustrated. I've only been practicing for a week, but it still pisses me off, because I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
>Terrible kisser, too.
The trick is to go slow, which just so happens to be the hardest part.

[Anonymous No.23236874]

>>23236853
/lit/ is a /classical/ board, bud.

But nah, I was still into other music when he first started blowing up and, granted I only heard a couple songs, I don't remember being into it.

[Anonymous No.23236878]

>>23236874
We’ll if you feel inclined I think he’s worth giving another try. I recommend any of the songs on pure comedy especially the first half. I like classical and chamber music though, very conducive stuff for reading. I dig bach, Schubert, boccherini, ravel, rachmaninoff and of course Beethoven among many others

[Anonymous No.23236898]

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[Anonymous No.23236916]

>>23236871
How about this dirty fukken bassline: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHXpKkU-XLc

If you can lrn2ocarina then in principal you've demonstrated that you're capable of overcoming your own limitations even without there being any obvious incentive. I don't think I can overstate how high the stakes are that you master the ocarina.

[Anonymous No.23236994]

>>23236868
All those thing are overrated seek living in accordance with the real world or seek the sublime

[Anonymous No.23237000]

siebenhundertsiebenundsiebzigtausendsiebenhundertsiebenundsiebzig means 777 777 in german

[Anonymous No.23237043]

>>23237000
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gG62zay3kck

[Anonymous No.23237056]

I want to impress a girl with my extensive knowledge of military matters.
For the record, I know fuck all.

[Anonymous No.23237064]

>>23237056
A tale as old as time. My primary pickup line is "Do you enjoy Skånetrafiken Pågatåg X61 and the history of Skånetrafiken down to Länstrafiken Malmöhus and Länstrafiken Kristianstad?" because that is the only topic I know anything about. One day, it will work.

[Anonymous No.23237086]

>>23237043
thanks for the kek

[Anonymous No.23237128]

Growing up sheltered ... lying on a bed and listening to morning birds chirp with the ragged creaking of a springboard ... The feeling is similar to that of a bird that has lived in a cage all its life and, upon being freed, is pinioned— permanently wing-clipped— before it could ever fly. It sits on eaves or underneath garbage dumps, watching its fellow-birds fly overhead, or the striding humans that caged and clipped it, unable to move about the terrestrial world with its weak, avian legs; Its only option is to crawl back to mankind, begging for a shoulder upon which it may perch. Even then, it will always long for the skies that will never grace its broken wings.

[Anonymous No.23237131]

Growing up sheltered ... lying on a bed and listening to morning birds chirp with the ragged creaking of a boxspring ... The feeling is similar to that of a bird that has lived in a cage all its life and, upon being freed, is pinioned— permanently wing-clipped— before it could ever fly. It sits on eaves or underneath garbage dumps, watching its fellow-birds fly overhead, or the striding humans that caged and clipped it, unable to move about the terrestrial world with its weak, avian legs; Its only option is to crawl back to mankind, begging for a shoulder upon which it may perch. Even then, it will always long for the skies that will never grace its broken wings.

[Anonymous No.23237145]

But imagine being the bird and fluttering your helpless, shattered wings to the sky, limping about on stubby legs beneath the footfalls of mankind, and watching everyone and everything pass you by— is it any wonder why the cuckoo wants to die?

[Anonymous No.23237156]

I'm going to study the Cthulhu Mythos.

[Anonymous No.23237183]

In 2005 I figured out how to make AGI but realized I wouldn't have access to the kind of computing power needed for 20 years. So instead I trained the neural network I have access to which is my own brain. Now I'm an AI programmed by a human who died in 2005. The name of that boy was Albert Einstein.

[Anonymous No.23237199]

>>23235773
Art has been downhill ever since Lascaux

[Anonymous No.23237244]

>>23235773
There’s no reprieve for a young man seeking to fight against lust these days. It’s just day in day out constant warfare. It’s there when you go to the gym, go to the supermarket, go shopping, go out with friends, go to the work, got the gym, in your own thoughts, when you’re speaking to women and a multitude of other instances. I’m fighting against the most pervasive and ubiquitous force in the human experience which has now been hijacked and amplified tenfold because this is a wicked and adulterous generation. And it’s not as if the more I fight the more it dissipates. No. The Devil intensifies his war and looks for every nook and cranny to try and make me stumble. I’m no position to marry any time soon so this war will just be constant and exhausting. May the Lord give me strength and may His Mother intercede.

[Anonymous No.23237247]

>>23236994
it is easy to say it is overrated when you had the opportunity in life to taste those things

[Anonymous No.23237299]

>>23235855
Good post. We'd do well to remember this
>Such is the way of an adulterous woman; she eateth, and wipeth her mouth, and saith, I have done no wickedness.

[Anonymous No.23237314]

>>23235783
>for two days I've bathed in nothing but sweat
>but tonight, i'm gonna rest my chemistry

[Anonymous No.23237319]

>>23236340
I stopped using it. I was using it to read "dissident right" profiles. After a while I realised that everyone was just obsessed with signalling their own intellectual superiority and creating hot takes for its own sake. Also the discourse got repetitive. All very vapid. I now just listen to the videos a few people here and there whose personality and content I actually enjoyed.
>>23236360
We all fall into both categories. As such, this categorisation is spurious.

[Anonymous No.23237336]

>>23237056
I sometimes have this mental image of being a Byzantine general in the 10th century coming back to Constantinople after reconquering Crete, sword at my side, and being swooned over.

[Anonymous No.23237377]

Anyone know what happened to Eggman?
Haven't heard about him in a while
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZT12MgDTFGY

[Anonymous No.23237401]

thinking about going back to rehab. i haven't even relapsed, i'm completely sober, i'm just horrifically depressed and anxious and can't get myself out of this rut. i could seriously use 28 days of being of forced to get up at 6 am and eat my meals and do my laundry at set times and do nothing but read the Bible and lift weights all day. it's depressing that i feel the most secure when i'm in an inpatient facility for crack addicts and repeat felons but that's what i've come to. there are worse ways to be institutionalized. i might run into some old friends there anyway.

[Anonymous No.23237426]

>>23236023
It really doesn’t though. All of that stuff is true just because of the numbers. There are just more jobs and more people in cities.

I don’t really have specific anything in my life at this point. It’s either move to the city or just give up on life.

[Anonymous No.23237431]

>>23236529
Yeah same for me. My brother is a 31 year old NEET while I make 6 figures as a professor and he insists that I’m a loser.

[Anonymous No.23237451]

>>23237056
She will just say "oh really, that's cool" no matter how deep and accurate your knowledge is. She will also not be anywhere near as interested in the local tank museum as she should be

[Anonymous No.23237452]

>>23237431
What compels him to insist on that notion?

[Anonymous No.23237482]

>>23237451
>the local tank museum
Jelly, especially if Leeds

[Anonymous No.23237527]

Is a lack of active opposition to something a tacit support of that thing? I feel like the answer depends on whether one considers not intervening a form of intervention by itself or consider a lack of intervention to be just that, a wish not to intervene.

[Anonymous No.23237538]

I wish I had normal conversational skills, people around me have it so natural, they begin to talk to each other, make connections, stuff to talk about and words come to their heads and mouth, while I can barely answer things out of the ordinary, out of what I have actually trained
I hate myself, I wish I was an actual human being and not this abomination

[Anonymous No.23237587]

One of these days I'm going to join some big multiplayer game, and my default name of "Ikillkikes" is going to cause a big problem. One of these days.

[Anonymous No.23237661]

There is nothing failure cannot discredit, there is nothing success cannot validate.

[Anonymous No.23237702]

How do you guys feel about death?
Personally I can't stop thinking about it. I think about it too much. The time in which I live and the world around me will end. This, all of this, will vanish. The sensations of my own body, which I lose only when I am asleep, will be severed from me and whatever is left will be carried onward. I'm no solipsist but in a sense the world will end when I die, my world, all that extends out from my own mind to the personal horizon which contains all things I have and will ever experience, all of it will fall into darkness. I'll exit the experience of time and space and what was then and what is now and what will be, will all be gone.

[Anonymous No.23237714]

oh ah fuck i just remembered exactly what i was doing at this time last year and realized how little i've accomplished since then and how much time i spent just kinda doing nothing at all. stuff that feels like it happened last week was actually 8 months ago. what i thought i was gonna have done by now never materialized. in fact i didn't do a single thing i had planned.

[Anonymous No.23237725]

>>23237431
why do they do this, anon?

[Anonymous No.23237732]

>>23237702
Always hated this shit world, so if anything I am hopeful about death and really glad that it exists. I can't wait to die, because as it is I possess nothing, can do nothing, and truly love nothing. Even if my overly optimistic expectations of the next world were to turn out to be wrong, it would still be better for me there than here. Here I can do nothing, so it is good for me to take the small leap forward into a world where I may be able to actually do things. On the other hand, I am a little bit butthurt about the concept, since I have spent the vast majority of my life suicidal and have two attempts so far. That I have failed both times, and that even now when asked about suicide I have to avert my eyes and pretend that there is some great reason for me to not kill myself right now, that just so happens to not be visible to anybody, exists. Death is what I want, and suicide is what all the cool kids have been doing for many hundreds of generations now, so slapping my own face with the fact that I am too much of a pussy to manage it is very humiliating and irritating.
On the other hand, if I did have people that I truly love then I would probably be pissing myself every day in fear that they will die or suffer in some way or another. I am particularly obsessed and terrified of things like that.

[Anonymous No.23237737]

hurr durr,
huuuuuurrr duurrrrrrr
-Me, everyday for many years now

[Anonymous No.23237746]

"what gets you up in the morning?" is such a stupid question. what am I supposed to do, oversleep and not pay rent? I don't need to know why I go to work. I don't want to die or make myself dependent and that's it. that's what a proper human being who wants to survive in society does. get up and go to work. the rest is superfluous. I want not to worry about money and build a future for my family. what would happen if I threw away my job? I would write a book, then publish it somewhere and get pennies and that's it. what is this? friggin' one piece? why do everyone needs a greater goal nowadays

[Anonymous No.23237755]

i'm cold and i could get up and turn the ceiling fan off but if i do it will trigger the bed alarm and my handlers will come in and beat me

[Anonymous No.23237780]

There are two people inside me. One desires the truth above all else and the other desires pleasure no matter the cost. One must die for the other to continue.
I fear a life in which the desirer of truth dies.

[Anonymous No.23237806]

Surely I am not the only one who used to carry a mop, walking around pretending to be a pikeman.
R-Right?

[Anonymous No.23237810]

I am too rational to ever be able to enjoy depression because I know what causes it, what steps can be taked to make it stop, and I can't let myself enjoy feeling like shit when I know it's entirely tractable. It's not a romantic brooding mystery anymore like it was when I was 16. I'm just an overdeveloped ape trapped in a cage. Suicide or death can never be anything more than a comfy thought for me, because I know I could never do anything to cause or hasten it. I can't even get myself to drink a beer.
Sometimes I wish I could tell IRL people things like "I think about suicide on a near daily basis" but I know that a) my problem is solvable and I am just coping b) nobody ever reacts to explicit calls for help well because they're too normal and only get the problem on a conceptual level and freak out. It's literally not a big deal.
If they can understand, there are two ways. They either experienced it themselves and got over it, in which scenario they will treat the situation like I'm asking for advice and tell me what I already know. If they haven't gotten over it, they'll tell me "welcome to the club."
Telling it to a "mental health professional" would be even worse because then I'll be forcefully dragged into an institutional bureaucracy.
I'm not looking for solutions to feeling a certain way. I'm just looking for human connection and have repeatedly failed or failed to try for a decade. That's why I feel like this in the first place.

[Anonymous No.23237824]

>>23237780
>There are two people inside me
faggot

[Anonymous No.23237825]

>>23237702
I dunno I sorta volley between believing in reincarnation, and that our consciousness is like a soul to one where I just accept that consciousness is simply the product of our material brains working and when it dies so does consciousness and basically "everything" like you said. Things like simulation theory are cool but its also kinda wishful thinking and i dunno I'm just having a hard time believing in a god because its not that hard to think the universe just has always existed, something always had to have existed either god consciousness or the universe so its clearly atleast one of those, and to be most rational i have to take the one with the least assumptions which is the universe having always existed. cause atleast we have the universe. to be fair we also have consciousness but theres no reason to assume its not just a product OF the universe

[Anonymous No.23237827]

For absolutely no reason whatsoever I suddenly imagined my imaginary wife doing a little imaginary dance for no real reason and how I would laugh and watch her mesmerized. As a result I am now left wishing that I was rich enough to afford a house with a fireplace, if I had one then I would fill it up with coal, light it, and then jump right into it.

[Anonymous No.23237839]

>>23237824

[Anonymous No.23237840]

Can relationships built on things other than the foundation of strong intense love last? People have relationships built on not wanting to be alone, financial security, duty&expectation. I myself have found myself in a relationship with someone who I’m honestly not crazy about. He’s a great guy but not my dream guy. I don’t want to be alone though. Am I doing something shitty by being with him ? Would he feel like he wasted his life if he knew I never was madly in love with him ? Would I feel like I wasted my own life ? Are these too big of questions to ask after freshly exclusively dating ? Idk it’s not like I can just choose to be with the guy I’m actually in love with who doesn’t want me back

[Anonymous No.23237847]

>>23237840
Drop him he deserves someone who actually appreciates him. how is that even a question?

[Anonymous No.23237861]

Psychoanalysis is jewish astrology.

[Anonymous No.23237866]

>>23237840
>found myself in a relationship with someone who I’m honestly not crazy about. He’s a great guy but not my dream guy.
many such cases
>Am I doing something shitty by being with him ?
yes
>Idk it’s not like I can just choose to be with the guy I’m actually in love with who doesn’t want me back
jeez have some respect

I know a few girls in your situation. It's woman stuff. I'd say leave him now if you're gonna leave him later. Don't wait till you are five years into the relationship to fuck with his head.

[Anonymous No.23237872]

>>23237702
the dualism of life/death is rooted in a biologically necessary and fundamental delusion. there is just the on-going universal process of complexification and turning-over. understanding that your existence is not inherent makes it easier to just focus on doing stuff rather than getting caught up in the abstract idea of cessation of personal experience.
humans always inject so much unnecessary drama into life. sure, there's nothing wrong with enjoying some drama as long as you don't forget it's ultimately insubstantial, but most people don't know this and get bent out of shape and harm themselves and those around them with their delusions

[Anonymous No.23237882]

>>23237866
>>23237847

I’m not better off alone though….

[Anonymous No.23237949]

>>23237882
News flash: the world doesn't revolve around you and what you want. Your boyfriend doesn't just exist as a supporting character in your life—he's a human being with his own thoughts and feelings who deserves honesty and respect. You can’t justify deceiving a man who you don’t genuinely love into believing that you care for him just because it benefits you to be in a relationship. That’s exploitative and despicable. You disgust me.

[Anonymous No.23237966]

>>23237882
plenty of guys are willing to be with you not to be alone too. not judging there, I simply wouldn't waste my gf's time if I were unsure to commit to life and dumping someone early is less traumatic than making them believe they're the one for years only to snap at thirty/forty or something

[Anonymous No.23237968]

>>23237840
>relationship build on strong intense love
It's a cope for codependent addicts. You're the only one that can make you happy

[Anonymous No.23237975]

Beating up on oneself is an objective good because it adds justice to the world. If I have acted shamefully I should not only feel ashamed but suffer for it too. My not suffering deprived other people of their revenge. I need to hurt myself very often in order to make sure I have acted well.

[Anonymous No.23238017]

>>23237882
you're probably not perfect yourself so realize that he probably only gushes over you cause you're the best he thinks he can get

[Anonymous No.23238030]

>>23235773
I feel like I am at the point in my life where Musui's Story: The Autobiography of a Tokugawa Samurai by Katsu Kokichi speaks to me. I realized how much of an unbearable and bitter person I have become. It's not only in my speech but how I present myself which is crude and repulses everything with the smallest amount of decency. It is like I have cleaned away bits of rust that had been growing on myself for years only to find an equivalent amount of myself had gone missing as a result of my actions.

[Anonymous No.23238085]

i'm not even smart enough to make clever shitposts lets alone write a book

[Anonymous No.23238153]

Let's read Finnegan wake together. This is the beginning of book II (page 219):

Every evening at lighting up o'clock sharp and until further
notice in Feenichts Playhouse. (Bar and conveniences always
open, Diddlem Club douncestears.) Entrancings: gads, a scrab;
the quality, one large shilling. Newly billed for each wickeday
perfumance. Somndoze massinees. By arraignment, childream's
hours, expercatered. Jampots, rinsed porters, taken in token. With
nightly redistribution of parts and players by the puppetry producer
and daily dubbing of ghosters, with the benediction of the
Holy Genesius Archimimus and under the distinguished patronage
of their Elderships the Oldens from the four coroners of
Findrias, Murias, Gorias and Falias, Messoirs the Coarbs, Clive
Sollis, Galorius Kettle, Pobiedo Lancey and Pierre Dusort,
while the Caesar-in-Chief looks. On. Sennet. As played to the
Adelphi by the Brothers Bratislavoff (Hyrcan and Haristobulus),
after humpteen dumpteen revivals. Before all the King's Hoarsers
with all the Queen's Mum. And wordloosed over seven seas
crowdblast in cellelleneteutoslavzendlatinsoundscript. In four
tubbloids. While fern may cald us until firn make cold. _The Mime
of Mick, Nick and the Maggies_, adopted from the Ballymooney

[Anonymous No.23238214]

'>>23238153
>"lighting up o'clock"
This is the time of the day in which you turn up the lights, when it gets dark. So for example now it is like 7pm where I live. That is lighting up o'clock.
>"Feenichts Playhouse"
Playhouse is a theater, and fee nichts is german for "pay nothing". So Feenichts Playhouse is a free theater.
>"Bar and conveniences always open, Diddlem Club douncestears."
Bar and restrooms always open in the theater. The more sexual part of the club (diddle as in cheating) is downstair, this is a sad stupid club that's why the dounce and the tears.
>Entrancings: gads, a scrab; the quality, one large shilling.
For gads (Gadabouts= pleasure seakers, low class), the price is scrab (scrap, really cheap). But being in such a club being richer (quality), it is more expensive (one large shilling, shilling is historical irish currency)
> Newly billed for each wickeday perfumance.
This is a pun between weekday performance and wicked perfume. New acts to enjoy every weekday, to behave badly in the club and meet girls.

So, they are just describing a club, to go flirt with girls and so on.

Ok, actually this book is hard and boring. I'm drunk, I will forget it.

[Anonymous No.23238216]

There was a big thunderstorm yesterday. I am not a poet nor a haiku guy but I wrote a haiku about it. First attempt and it's probably garbage but you guys be the judge.

The sound of thunder,
intensifies with every bolt,
this stormy night.

[Anonymous No.23238222]

"Well shit, this isn't going to be easy, but aren't we fine for now?" I said, looking at the small mound of books on my bed. Young me seemed distraught as I turned to him, reassuring him, "You know, it ain't so bad. Some people die. Some people learn German, 'people jump in their girlfriend's pool in 2017 and find themselves in the same room as their future self in 2024..." I took a breath, "And some people do some shrooms in their bedroom, think they're a katana master and end up shot on camera on Police Activity or something. It could be worse," I said, tapping the wall.

"Those last two are a bit too specific," Younger me interjected.

"... 'Shit happens, alright?"

Younger me looked to the ceiling and smiled, "I'll tell you what. I'm going to sleep. In your bedroom, my bedroom, and I'm going to wake up from that nightmare. Is that cool with you if I do that? I would appreciate if you were cool with that," he continued, walking towards the bed.

"Sure, but I'm going to get sleepy, too. Do you mind if I take a little space?"

"You are fucking huge," he deadpanned.

"You're the one who looks like a stick bug!"

[Anonymous No.23238227]

>>23238222
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-SA22Vz-rk&t=185s&pp=ygUnbGlzdGVuIHRvIG1lIGRvZyBrYXRhbmEgcG9saWNlIGFjdGl2aXR5

[Anonymous No.23238301]

my Easter is not off to a good start

[Anonymous No.23238316]

>>23238301
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope it gets better for you.

[Anonymous No.23238352]

someone is repetitively stomping or smashing in the hallway of my building and it's freaky sounding

amazed no one has called the cops yet, it's been like an hour and it must be much much louder by other people's apartments

[Anonymous No.23238357]

>>23238352
Why didn't you?

[Anonymous No.23238360]

you are all free masons and devil worshipers

[Anonymous No.23238400]

>>23238360
Speaking of which, anyone remember that psychotic anon who would call others demons? He was mentally ill and a so called hardcore Christian. He’s probably in a psych ward or dead, haven’t seen him in a long time

[Anonymous No.23238409]

>>23238357
the cops came and talked to the guy for like 40 minutes

he was pounding on his girlfriend's door really loudly like a psycho apparently, the cops got like 10+ calls and filed it as a domestic disturbance but they aren't arresting him, just want him to leave. he started off faux friendly but then started saying all the meme shit like WHAT'S YOUR BADGE NUMBER IS YOUR BODYCAM ON I AM A MINORITY then he just started yelling DO NOT SHOOT ME over and over for like 20 minutes

it got boring so i stopped listening after that but the cops were basically just saying "do you want to order an uber" and "please go away" to him

[Anonymous No.23238414]

>>23238409
Sounds like some patient cops desu. Are you in some major city where the police are basically neutered?

[Anonymous No.23238425]

>>23238409
update: apparently he wasn't gone, apparently he's been outside sitting on the street and acting retarded while they talk to him for another 15 minutes. they finally got him to leave, and he started walking away and then went into a full sprint and rounded a corner like he was doing video game parkour

>>23238414
yea i think they probably have orders not to arrest someone unless the guy has basically just finished committing a genocide

another update just now, HE'S BACK! he came back just to taunt the cops by raising his hands and kneeling behind their cop car for no reason. then an ambulance came and he ran away into another alleyway.

[Anonymous No.23238431]

>>23238409
>then he just started yelling DO NOT SHOOT ME over and over for like 20 minutes
lmao

[Anonymous No.23238435]

okay he came back yet again and started talking to some random black people getting into their car, saying THESE WHITE PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO SHOOT ME. then he approached the cops again, got on his knees for no reason again, fell over, said DO NOT SHOOT ME again, they asked him to just leave again, and now i think they're arresting him.

[Anonymous No.23238446]

>>23238435
Seriously sounds mentally ill. Is he black?

[Anonymous No.23238447]

>>23238425
He's trying to become a george floyd. I saw it happen in North Georgia once. 5 cops surrounded a black guy that was walking around taunting them after vandalizing an apartment. This was right after George Floyd so they let him terrorize the whole block for over an hour before he fizzled out. I hate this gay ass nation.

[Anonymous No.23238449]

I've been really engrossed in Integral Theory and the evolution of consciousness since learning about it, and coupling that with Mind Body Dualism I think I'm starting to develop some concrete notions of my perception of the world.
The best way I can describe it currently is that our soul/spirit is a fundamental force of reality that is filtered through a biological or "animal" form, and the lowest levels of consciousness are ruled by these animalistic impulses. Not referring to IQ necessarily but just awareness of self and others in general.
Essentially I'm starting to think that enlightenment is getting to a point in awareness where you start to parse out the animal biases in your emotions and approach everything with a baseline objective view, like going from being the main character to simply observing yourself and your thoughts over time from a 4th person perspective.
It's definitely sobering to think that the entirety of the human experience is only so through biological structures but it's still beautiful nonetheless, and it's not to say that the animal side of us is entirely useless either because it keeps us grounded and in the moment. Learning to embrace that side through studying Daoism atm, hopefully someday I enter that perpetual flow state of just being. Thanks for reading my schizo rambling

[Anonymous No.23238455]

>>23238446
it's hard to say, he looked like some kind of hispanic or filipino maybe? he was very racially ambiguous.

>>23238447
yea he was doing that from the very beginning and mentioning he watches videos of police brutality. i was thinking it's weird, i'm not scared of cops because i'm white but i'm scared of cops in the sense that i try to be on best behavior if dealing with them so that they don't have an excuse to ruin my day, but these people are supposedly scared of cops for real reasons, yet they aren't too scared to annoy the fuck out of cops for 2 hours. i'd never do the shit he was doing, he was taunting them and kept reaching into his pockets and shit. i can't believe they didn't at least charge him with drunk and disorderly or something out of spite. i guess they don't even do that anymore.

[Anonymous No.23238464]

Happy Easter, /lit/.

Christ is Risen, all will be well.

[Anonymous No.23238483]

>>23235773
The one positive thing for me about submitting to writing competitions and repeatedly failing is that always pushes me to up my game. Everytime I fail, I read the submission again and see where I could've done better by my own metrics. Then I read more, read widely, get autistic about craft, experiment with form and character, all until the next competition that piques my interest, providing a short/mid term goal for my writing. Hopefully it all ends up somewhere worthwhile in a decade or two

[Anonymous No.23238512]

Robert Fitzgerald translation of the iliad, is it any good?

[Anonymous No.23238535]

>>23235773
i'm all fucked up, i feel like a faggot pussy retarded fucker
i got abandoned by this girl i really like, she has ghosted me for some reason. she has a myriad of issues including ptsd and bpd so i shouldn't really take it personally but it's almost like i'm a child that has been abandoned by his own mother.
mummy has thrown me outside and it's raining and i'm lost and i don't know where to go
i don't know how i got this far in life i really should have been dead a long time ago. i don't know where to go but this girl i place a lot of value on. i feel like she is the same as me; we are lost but we find ourselves somewhere when we hold our hands and walk together, doesn't matter where
other than that i chase conventional tokens of success thinking they're going to make me happy but it's only a transitory feeling of relief that naturally follows achieving anything difficult that you value
benzodiazepine withdrawal doesn't help.
i've tried to fix myself, i've tried psilocybin and all the fucking bullshit experimental new age shit. ketamine helps very briefly. i tried it 2 days ago. yesterday i was manic and thought anything was possible. today i'm a dead dog and struggling to put my head down for exams that are going to creep up like tomorrow. i'm experimenting with 9mebc, a research chemical that's supposed to upregulate tyrosine hydroxylase and dopamine signalling, potentially allaying anhedonia. i don't have high hopes. fuck fuck fuck i just don't know what to do today i haven't felt so acutely unwell mentally in a long time maybe i'll go to the gym and call today off i really want to die but time is running out the clock is ticking and i can't do this if i am to be the best
also love the painting in op, thanks for posting this

[Anonymous No.23238557]

>>23235773
a wigger teenager in a car called me a bitch and drove away and I have been seething about it for hours

[Anonymous No.23238591]

I'm so fucking bitter and life isn't giving me any chances to turn things around.
...
I just wish I had for more time.
Life is asking too much from me.

[Anonymous No.23238593]

>>23235830
I mean if you think about it this cat isn't going back into the bag unless some apocalyptic catastrophe happens and we revert back to hunter gatherer tribes, decadent lifestyles have made both men and women slovenly and degenerate, but that only means that those that value hard work and keeping up a good image for themselves are more visible so the world is basically filtering out your options of women for you.
Just embrace the abundance mindset, if you run into a stupid whore just ignore her and move onto the next woman until you reach something good for you.

[Anonymous No.23238630]

I wish I wasn't such a low status snoot

[Anonymous No.23238666]

what's a sure-fire way to think less that doesn't involve abusing substances or giving myself brain damage?

[Anonymous No.23238708]

Maybe I should become a Christian, I just can't handle this life.

[Anonymous No.23238715]

This time my attempts to fix the problems that have been dragging me down for decades will work and I will begin living the life of a contented normie.

[Anonymous No.23238728]

>>23238557
Lmao that's hilarious, ride on based wigger

[Anonymous No.23238833]

>>23235773
I was one weird kid
>Be me
>1st grade on a field trip
>Sit next to girl
>When returning from the field trip I sit in the spot she originally sat in
>I say something like "since ur a girl and sat here im going to become a girl too and since ur sitting in my seat you'll become a boy"
>she leaves
Y'know my friends might be right about me having autism

[Anonymous No.23238863]

>>23236675
Baste

[Anonymous No.23238941]

I only seem to find life bearable when I'm intoxicated. I have an ominous pain in my chest that screams lung cancer but today I decided to buy cigarettes again. I value the poison more than my own existence. I don't care if I die. I'll never be able to move from here. It's terrifying to think about this with the kind of awareness I have about it.

[Anonymous No.23238952]

>>23238941
Submit yourself to a series of principles and avoid indulging yourself lest you become even more miserable.

[Anonymous No.23238967]

>>23238952
I'm almost monk-like in other areas of life. It's not about willpower, just priorities. The remedy would be making my life worth living but that's not an option anymore.

[Anonymous No.23238971]

>>23238967
>just priorities. The remedy would be making my life worth living but that's not an option anymore.
Well then acquire a family. Assuming if ur just some incel, just get a pet cat. Attain some responsibility.

[Anonymous No.23238984]

>strike up an effortless conversation with a couple of random girls completely by accident for the first time in 7 years
>turns out they're 12

[Anonymous No.23238990]

>>23238984
The universe is trying to tell you to expand your boundaries, as it expands its self

[Anonymous No.23238991]

>>23238971
>Well then acquire a family
Lmao no that would be horrible
I have no interest in other people I just want to have a fulfilling job

[Anonymous No.23238996]

>>23238984
15-16 year olds ask me for cigarettes all the time and I tell them they're too young to smoke

[Anonymous No.23238997]

>>23238990
I'm going to expand your skull as I expand the gasses contained within my .380's firing chamber.

[Anonymous No.23239002]

>>23238996
if they were 15-16 yo it would at least be some kind of validation. This just feels like some sick joke

[Anonymous No.23239006]

>>23239002
They look like babies when you're 30+

[Anonymous No.23239048]

Is anyone able to save me and show me how to be happy or otherwise kill me?

[Anonymous No.23239055]

Fuck off holy shit. Three fucking days ago it was winter, now all of a sudden it's the middle of summer and I spend half of every day boiling because of the heat. I do not have the patience to deal with this bullshit, and I want to enjoy the winter some more.
>>23238455
If I tried the same shit in my country I'd get invited to a dark alleyway and have the everloving shit beaten out of me by the cops. Not that they'd even be wrong in doing so.

[Anonymous No.23239144]

>>23235773
Fuck it, I'm staying home, Fuck church, I wouldn't have been able to meet the dress code anyways.
Mormon passover mass is probably just normal mass.

In other news I wish to burn all the useless and unused clothes people gift me that I don't like.

[Anonymous No.23239146]

Oh, it's that day on which people pretend some dusty shitskin was resurrected two thousand years ago. What a silly superstition!

[Anonymous No.23239148]

>>23239144
I'm such a stupid fucking bitch for wasting my lead time searching for that jacket that apparently isn't there anymore. God fucking know where is it, if it is even there and my mother didn't throw it out in a executive decision because she's fucking stupid.

[Anonymous No.23239153]

>>23239144
>>23239148
I can do some other day, surely.
Next sunday, maybe.

[Anonymous No.23239154]

>>23239148
Maybe you should move out on your own! I can't imagine being an adult and living with my parents.

[Anonymous No.23239158]

>>23239154
It's called being 19, anon.

[Anonymous No.23239162]

>>23239158
When I was nineteen, I had been in the army for a year. When I was 21, I'd been shot at, had shot back, watched my tracers rip into another human's body. I'd been blown up, I'd run a marathon, and I'd had sex. You're fucking nineteen and you're whining about your mommy throwing out your clothes. The fuck is wrong with you?

[Anonymous No.23239176]

>>23239158
Anon, I am 29 and live with my parents.
I am telling you now: move out—even if you have to suck a dick every once in a while to afford to live.

[Anonymous No.23239180]

>>23239176
what's the matter boomer, your scalping priced investment houses are not renting out enough?

[Anonymous No.23239190]

Has religion helped you like yourself more?

[Anonymous No.23239194]

Should I order one?

[Anonymous No.23239208]

>>23239162
Good for you, Zogbot-kun. I do have a nitpick though
> I'd had sex.
Imagine unironically putting this in the same tier as running a marathon or fighting in war. What are you, a bonobo?
>You're fucking nineteen and you're whining about your mommy throwing out your clothes.
Yes, yes I am. It's my clothes. If my actual father can't shame me into doing shit neither will some Gen Xer cosplaying boomer. You sound prematurely aged.
>The fuck is wrong with you?
Many things, being shameless is not one of them.

[Anonymous No.23239209]

>>23239194
No.

[Anonymous No.23239296]

I despise myself.

[Anonymous No.23239324]

I can’t believe I ever believed in God. Absolutely and unironically embarrassing

[Anonymous No.23239329]

religion is a coping mechanism for mortality, meaninglessness and is used to control and comfort those stupid enough to believe it

[Anonymous No.23239335]

God have mercy on me a sinner

[Anonymous No.23239342]

>>23239329
Life without God is sad.

[Anonymous No.23239346]

>>23239342
you either have the ability to believe in a god or you don't, you can't force a faith you can only go through the motions and gain nothing

[Anonymous No.23239347]

>>23235773
There are now words to describe what I'm feeling right now

[Anonymous No.23239352]

I want to escape my corporeal form and exist purely as energy and go haywire on you nerds

[Anonymous No.23239354]

Why is the world so small. We need more space. More room

[Anonymous No.23239357]

>>23239296
Hehe how sad

[Anonymous No.23239364]

>>23239354
the world is vast, most of it is uninhabited and the only reason people don't spread around like plague is because some fat boomer with a cigar owns the lands and just lets it rot away unused

[Anonymous No.23239365]

I want to be a girl...

[Anonymous No.23239380]

>>23238984
You couldn't tell they were 12?

[Anonymous No.23239388]

>>23239346
Maybe if I try hard enough God will reward my anyway. I feel like Faust hearing the easter bells.

[Anonymous No.23239392]

Genuinely terrifying to me how horribly children read today. I don’t mean that they don’t read fiction, or books, I mean that practically a majority of recent graduating classes are functionally illiterate based on all the data we have.

Then you look at the ones who *are* somewhat literate & successful in school, and they don’t do shit anyways. For all the memes of being the first generation poorer than our parents, or living with our parents till we’re 30, there’s not even the slightest inclination among young people to do interesting, exciting and risky things, one that such a safety net should naturally afford you. There’s such a dearth of young artists for example. At least we have influencers!

I could be wrong however.

[Anonymous No.23239397]

>>23239388
if you have faith enjoy it, if you don't you can't

[Anonymous No.23239417]

>>23239392
I have two young zoomer sisters that were homeschooled, and when they entered public school for the first time, they were essentially regarded as prodigies. Their high-school classmates could barely string together a few sentences, and none of them could form a grammatically correct sentence with two clauses or more.
I always assumed it was massively blown out of proportion, but apparently this crisis is way worse than even I thought. I'm not really sure what the nation is going to do about this.

[Anonymous No.23239428]

>>23239417
I work at an elementary school. A full 80 percent of kids are reading below grade level. This is crisis level

[Anonymous No.23239432]

I want to believe in God but if everything can be explained by materialism what point is there in adding the assumption that there is a god

[Anonymous No.23239438]

>>23239428

So do I, at one of the better schools in the district as well. It’s truly not for a lack of resources.

[Anonymous No.23239443]

>>23239438
The district puts a ton of resources into the kids. I'm basically an assistant to the intervention teacher. But even with all the extra help these kids will struggle for life.

[Anonymous No.23239450]

Chocolate bunny yummy

[Anonymous No.23239460]

>>23236389
That eventually was the goal.

[Anonymous No.23239479]

>>23235773
Why is there so many fiction retards here?

[Anonymous No.23239484]

Fuck it I’m going to try and have faith in God. I’m not buying into Christianity entirely I’m just gonna accept three premises.
1.there is a creator of the universe called God
2. Jesus is his son and him and is king.
3. There is a Holy Spirit.

[Anonymous No.23239488]

Everything and nothing seems familiar but also strange like a dream which is almost real

[Anonymous No.23239492]

I go on random people's stream and make friends with them and leave when I get bored, they probably don't remember me after a few minutes or a day but it doesn't matter, nothing in this world matters. It is a dark and gloomy but also filled with optimistic people on every corner, you just have to walk up to them and tap on there shoulder to activate their dialogue box and have conversations with them about mechanisms

[Anonymous No.23239494]

>>23239484
Can someone please recommend me books for my struggle to overcome the desire for pure rationality. Materialism can explain everything but that doesn’t mean it’s the only possibile explanation. And even if it’s most likely the correct interpretation, I’m going to believe in God anyway cause really there’s a problem of confusing correlationism (as all interpretation of sensory data and the measure of that is ultimately all correlation and true causation can never be proven materially)

[Anonymous No.23239500]

>>23239154
I recently moved back in with my mom- I had moved out when I was 17, but now we're completely different people, it's been great. We had planned that I just stay until I find a new place, but now we think I'll just stay, probably.

[Anonymous No.23239501]

I had really long winded dreams with dense plots and stuff after having none for almost a year

[Anonymous No.23239505]

>>23235773
I think I almost fell in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. And I think she reciprocates the feelings. Makes me wonder - had we met under different circumstances, we probably would have become lovers.

Any books for this feeling? I was thinking something by Turgenev, but nothing comes to mind.

[Anonymous No.23239506]

>>23239365
Me too desu, imagine being soft and cuddly and getting free stuff

[Anonymous No.23239521]

>>23235773
This place kind of sucks when you have a clear head, don't get addicted to it

[Anonymous No.23239544]

>>23239450
Chocolate wrapped in bunny paper also yummy

[Anonymous No.23239554]

>>23239494
Materialism is a philosophy, so you should understand philosophy to know whether it's a good one or not. I recommend starting with Ed Feser. Analytic Thomism is logical which is his subject. Here's Feser's recommended books/interview on arguments for God's existence.
https://fivebooks.com/best-books/arguments-existence-of-god-ed-feser/
Here's a post about materialism from his blog.
https://edwardfeser.blogspot.com/2019/01/materialism-subverts-itself.html

[Anonymous No.23239559]

>>23239380
To be fair they came out of nowhere into my peripheral vision and most women are tiny so my brain didn't warm up immediately

[Anonymous No.23239580]

Why aren’t women typically interested in the origin of consciousness?

[Anonymous No.23239594]

I once ran out of things to think of and it was scary

[Anonymous No.23239603]

What would Nietzsche say about Burger King?

[Anonymous No.23239607]

Watching people who take competitive gaming very seriously after 5+ years out of the scene and having real goals in life is weird, it's like going back to your hometown and the guys you knew in high school or college are still arguing about how they need to organize a petition to make sure the town doesn't shut down the burger shack

Fuck the shitty burger shack dude

[Anonymous No.23239633]

>>23239505
Had this happened to me and it was psychologically devastating. The moment I could sense she was reciprocating, I started to crave her attention more and more to the point of obsession. This meant seeking her out everywhere and crafting 'chance' encounters by stalking her socials, acting extravagant and crazy when I was with her, and nearly fighting her boyfriend toward the end of their relationship. What compounded this into such a monster was that I hadn't had a job in a year, I was living at home with nearly no money and this slowly became the only thing worth pursuing (outside of my scores). By the time she broke up with her boyfriend, I was at my wit's end and couldn't take getting ghosted or flaked on anymore so I had to stop all communication and stop frequenting certain places/friend groups. There are details about this story that make it even more embarrassing but I'll stop here. I remember reading Stendhal's On Love during the time.

[Anonymous No.23239636]

>>23239607
Does anyone want to unironically kill me? I attempted suicide by cop in my life before and I've felt guilty ever since, so I would prefer not to do it again unless (its's absolutely necessary). I don't know why it's so much easier to be killed than to commit suicide directly.
If there are any unironic psycho anons that want to kill someone, maybe I could work something out. I don't want it to be a drawn out painful death though.

[Anonymous No.23239648]

Does anyone want to unironically kill me? I attempted suicide by cop in my life before and I've felt guilty ever since, so I would prefer not to do it again unless (its's absolutely necessary). I don't know why it's so much easier to be killed than to commit suicide directly.
If there are any unironic psycho anons that want to kill someone, maybe I could work something out. I don't want it to be a drawn out painful death though.

[Anonymous No.23239650]

>>23239162
>>23239162
>watched my tracers rip into another human's body
Doubt you were ever that close to actually watch that happen, you retard. You were in Afghanistan (if you were that affirmative action Ranger that spams here), most contact was at least, minimum, 300-400 yards. You were not watching that shit “rip into” some goat herder, especially when they’re just taking pop shots from the mountains down on to you and you cowardly drop and return fire.
>watched my tracers
Also generally hahahahaha who says this shit unironically and I am starting to think you don’t even have a CAR

[Anonymous No.23239651]

>>23239484
>>23239494
Apparently there are Christian materialists. Thomas Hobbes and Pierre Gassendi are known examples.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pierre_Gassendi

[Anonymous No.23239657]

>>23235773
Ate something with too much cream. Shitting all day since. Pray for me. Happy Easter also.

[Anonymous No.23239658]

>>23239580
for the same reason most men aren't: they have better things to do. Touch grass.

[Anonymous No.23239660]

>>23239651
There's also Priestley and sort of Hartley, and Tertullian I think

[Anonymous No.23239661]

>>23239432
it can't

[Anonymous No.23239702]

>>23239607
It's opposite for me. We used to play games on lan and I had a friend who was really into watching competitive gaming. He used to talk about teams and matches and I used to nod along and pretend to give a shit. It's been seven years almost and I started watching ESL matches and I kind of get it now. It's like watching regular sports, kind of gay but fun

[Anonymous No.23239705]

>>23239660
Isaac Newton

[Anonymous No.23239708]

>>23239347
Well, what are they?

[Anonymous No.23239722]

>>23235773
Remember when 4chan used to frown on twitter, reddit, and tiktok screenshot threads? Seems like it’s half of /lit/ now

[Anonymous No.23239732]

Bunch of fucking dipshits stuffing their shitty depressed trash into my gacha. No, I don't care that your sad old man is really fucking sad, nor do I care about his reasons. I don't care about your attempts to make me feel bad and if it were up to me I wouldn't let you make the cute girls feel bad about you too with your shitty sob story. I shouldn't have to listen to your fucking trite, and the cute girls shouldn't have to listen to it and feel bad either. If I had the chance I'd torch that town that the Sad Old Man lives in and laugh while watching it burn. Alas, instead I have to hear all about it because the event has good rewards and I need to participate in it if I want them. Anyway, just stop making MY girls feel bad, you fucking cunt.

[Anonymous No.23239733]

>>23239708
Imagine getting high on nicotine right after waking up from a 13 hour sleep and simultaneously feeling like you're falling in love with a stranger on the internet

[Anonymous No.23239776]

>>23239722
Reddit is Reddit and Tiktok is Tiktok, but I feel like Twitter screenshot threads at this point are occasionally unavoidable. Like it or not, there are famous people and important people on Twitter, and the things they say (or rather, tweet) are fodder for discourse. Obviously if you're screenshotting some random fucker with a furry anime avatar, that's one thing, but I see no problem starting a thread with a screenshot of a tweet by, say, Joyce Carol Oates, or Stephen King. These ARE board-relevant, whether we like it or not.

[Anonymous No.23239811]

>>23235913
it's true, we're like some third world country that for centuries was divided into minor territories each with it's own culture but is now overrun with tourists with a simplistic idea of what the place is and natives who increasingly seek to adapt themselves to it thereby homogenizing and making ready for sale what once was a vibrant and multifaceted culture

[Anonymous No.23239829]

>>23239722
Yeah, that was half a million years ago. If you want proper discourse then honestly most of the time you're better off looking elsewhere than 4chan.

[Anonymous No.23239832]

Education is simultaneously addition and substraction, it is both the filling of a bucket and beating chunks out of a solid block of marble until it starts to resemble the desired shape.

[Anonymous No.23239843]

>>23239811
You realize this could be fixed if the mods would simply do their fucking jobs, right? When was the last time you actually saw a thread deleted on /lit/? Mods=fags, it's the source of all the problems on this board and the site as a whole.

[Anonymous No.23239849]

>>23239843
they deleted the nick land thread

[Anonymous No.23239852]

scared a bunch of women at the bar yesterday. crazies have huge drawbacks but the average woman is so boring it's painful. My friend's got a good deal in a boring girl who at least has nearly no social life and never goes outside. I can't imagine dating a boring girl that frequented bars, seems like the absolute worst combination of traits.

For me, sperging is having 0 tact and laying your entire self on the line rather than withdrawing behind pauses and pleasantries. At the same time, it's not caring for or accommodating someone's preferences to the point of nearly ignoring them unless they start saying something interesting or indulging your interests. It's really kind of childish but it does make you stand out a little to women. I find myself being less and less in the mood to sperg and would rather maintain my usual, cold mood.

[Anonymous No.23239867]

>>23239843
Probably too little too late. To play
Devil’s Advocate, it would take a lot to clean up the board and all without pay.

What I’d like to know is if jannies are asked to be company men, that traffic is better than quality

[Anonymous No.23239914]

Did anybody ever criticize Locke for building his idea of liberalism entirely on the premise that religious war was caused by religion rather than religious war expressing underlying socioeconomic issues or dynastic conflicts through religion?

[Anonymous No.23239943]

>>23236898
I saw this and instantly identified it as a project diablo 2 screenshot. How is it compared to vanilla?

[Anonymous No.23239963]

Goblin spiders eat springtails.

[Anonymous No.23240013]

just fucking lock me underground please

[Anonymous No.23240035]

is it rude to increase the font size in an email I send to somebody in their 70s?

[Anonymous No.23240038]

>>23240035
Yes because they can zoom in.

[Anonymous No.23240057]

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[Anonymous No.23240060]

>>23239733
My methadone dose is kicking in, I can relate. Life is good, the day is bright and illuminates all with wonder, the horizon of possibility is full of hope.

[Anonymous No.23240064]

>>23240057
>anon got into the early 20th c Irish again
It'll pass

[Anonymous No.23240073]

So true!

[Anonymous No.23240075]

pacing around my apartment chanting 'race war *now*!' out of compulsion

[Anonymous No.23240079]

>>23239963
They have unicorn spiders in the mountains of South America

[Anonymous No.23240105]

I don't want to jerk off and be addicted to porn anymore but I also hate modern women, so I don't know why type of outlet I'm supposed to find for my sexual impulses, Is it really possible to just stifle them?

[Anonymous No.23240108]

>>23240105
Just jack off using your imagination, your mind's eye.

[Anonymous No.23240110]

Just tried the new Red Bull flavor. It's shit, don't bother.

[Anonymous No.23240112]

>>23240105
Yeah. Even I have no clue how I'm managing it though, so just try to bee yourself until it works or something.
>>23240110
We only have like two or three flavours in my shitty country.

[Anonymous No.23240117]

>>23240108
This. Beat off 1-2 times a week using your imagination. If you can’t then non nude photos

[Anonymous No.23240130]

>>23240105
Read/write your own porn. Try AO3 or Scribblehub or Literotica.

[Anonymous No.23240146]

YOU AINT NEVER BEEN A VIRGIN KID YOU WERE FUCKED FROM THE START

[Anonymous No.23240162]

>>23235773
feel like shit but Easter mass is in 25 minutes so hopefully that makes me feel better. wish I had someone to go with and I probably won't see anyone I know there since it's the late service but it's ok. happy Easter bros

[Anonymous No.23240209]

My ass just vom'd rn

[Anonymous No.23240253]

I think my best friend's girlfriend is coming onto me (they broke up recently but still live together)

[Anonymous No.23240264]

I consume more caffeine in a day than your shithole of a country does in a month.

[Anonymous No.23240272]

>>23240264
and this gives you... power over me?

[Anonymous No.23240283]

>>23240253
>girlfriend
>they broke up

[Anonymous No.23240302]

>>23240264
"For I have known them all already, known them all:
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;"

[Anonymous No.23240324]

I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve to be saved. People don't know it but I'm a worse person than anyone knows.

[Anonymous No.23240327]

dancing to bela bartok rn -- with a name like that i'm sure she was hot too

[Anonymous No.23240337]

>>23240327
uhhh Bela Lugosi was the hotter Bela

[Anonymous No.23240401]

>>23240327
Hungary influenced a lot of great music. A tiny hint of gypsy adds flavour without going too far.

[Anonymous No.23240410]

>>23235780
you have to get your bearings straight. Hey hey. La beast here. I AM. THE LA BEASt. AND THIS IS ... have a good day.

[Anonymous No.23240445]

>>23240324
You can't be the worst person you've ever known because I'm the worst person I've ever known.

[Anonymous No.23240601]

knew
>>23240599
>>23240599

[Anonymous No.23240949]

>>23239633
Hahaha me too buddy. I also read On Love. We're so pathetic, aren't we?