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Write What's On Your Mind Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:07:28 2023 No.21593182 [Reply] [Original]

/wwoym/ Dat Astroid edition

previous thread >>21586890

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:12:02 2023 No.21593212 >>21593182 How is your relationship with your dad, anon?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:12:06 2023 No.21593214 Is anyone here normal? At all?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:14:48 2023 No.21593234 >>21593212 Dad is emotionally distant.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:19:42 2023 No.21593260 >>21593212 Great, thanks for asking.

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:23:26 2023 No.21593274

>>21593182
sorry for spamming this place up
hello folks im in a pickle and so as there is no /lit/sqt/ please hear me out
As im enrolling for a new job in a pozzed tech firm, the HR asked me to concoct a card with mugshot and some credo, a quote or self descriptive message for an introductionary bcc mail for my colleagues.
I would like to go with "all happy families are alike etc" or "no man is an island etc etc".
The citation should express my attitude towards people/work/life goals which honestly is that every man deserves to be gassed or so, but i'd rather keep it to myself, together with that im a lone wolf and a misantrophic.
I have to come up with a self description that's pozzed, encaptures right attitude towards work(bugmen mentality), it should not be too söy, but it has to have a dash of genuinity and orginality too.
I think some oriental citation would be a match.
i could take hitler too

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:23:53 2023 No.21593275

>Think about your hero
>Imagine him looking him over your shoulder as you work on what you're MAKING
>if you are making nothing, imagine him looking over at what you're DOING
>Would he be pleased? Would be feel disgusted?
>If he would feel revolted at what he sees, why is he still your hero? In what way are you imitating him?
Just answer the questions if possible instead of talking about the implications of why your hero shouldn't necessarily endorse your work etc. Just respond to the "he's still my hero because and I imitate him in ths way" question

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:24:00 2023 No.21593278 >>21593212 Dad is time/spatially distant. Existentially challenged, you might say.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:26:01 2023 No.21593290 File: 1.70 MB, 800x652, 1578011906597.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] The only thing i have is oneself, but i don't seem to perticularly like myself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:26:38 2023 No.21593293 >>21593275 Ive never had a hero and I have nothing to do

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:27:15 2023 No.21593296 >>21593275 I dont have a hero

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:27:32 2023 No.21593298 >>21593212 It improved so much over the past 4 years that the me of 2019 would faint from shock

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:28:23 2023 No.21593301 >>21593275 Thank you very much for what you wrote it made me realise that God is looking at me all the time and I need to improve.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:29:21 2023 No.21593306 A small, irrational thing that annoys me about my housemate is that he always locks the balcony door even though we live on the 5th floor. There is no way to reach our balcony outside of helicopter or cherry picker. Why does he lock it?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:31:02 2023 No.21593314 >>21593306 >housemate Is this what kids call them now?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:31:25 2023 No.21593315 >>21593306 Why dont you ask him

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:33:03 2023 No.21593326 >>21593212 I haven't had a conversation with him since I was probably 10. I'm 28 now, and we've always lived in the same house. Sometimes we don't even speak to each other for entire months, so that's that.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:34:04 2023 No.21593331 >Be me >sexting a dude >he goes off on a tangent about how life would have been better if the Axis had won WWII Bro I wanted BWC not a political manifesto

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:38:27 2023 No.21593354
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Just had my first date like ever. I'm 22/M with no romance/love experience. Is it normal to feel like you're unworthy of seeing someone? Physically I am pretty attractive it seems but man socially I'm kinda a wreck, which makes my dating/romance life so fucking hard.
The date went surprisingly well, no awkward silence which was my biggest fear. Plenty of stuff to talk about. She was genuinely sweet and she seemed like she has a great life with lots of friends. I just feel like I wouldn't fit in, that I'm "boring".
I mentioned to her once that I don't really like clubbing and that I stay in my room most of the time and she said she sympathizes with that. She initiated the date and is a really fast texter, so I'm thinking maybe she does genuinely like me.
And even though the date wasn't bad I just feel like I may have turned her off somehow. She's really into hentai and like lesbian romance mangas for some reason and I've never been into that, she kept asking me if I had read this or that manga or if I remember some anime girl and I could kinda tell that my continueous "no" was a little disappointing her. It just seems like she's crazy about these things whereas for me it's just something casual. We browsed through manga stores and I mentioned berserk and she said a guy friend of hers warned her about berserk fans lol.
Anyways I'm not sure if I'm tearing myself apart for no reason or if it's normal to feel this way. Part of me wants to text her and see if she's down for more but another part is like really scared because it's all so new to me and I can't read her mind. Idk Is it even relatable what I'm saying here?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:38:33 2023 No.21593356 >>21593301 >tfw according to Orthodox Christianity, you can drive your guardian angel away if you act shitty enough

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:39:01 2023 No.21593357 >>21593331 thats very gay

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:42:33 2023 No.21593371 >>21593314 It's what they're called in my country, unless you're making some joke about being gay or whatever. I always found it weird that Americans tend to say roommate even when you don't share a room.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:43:59 2023 No.21593375 >>21593371 We're I'm from they're called "handlers."

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:44:14 2023 No.21593377 >>21593315 I have and he doesn't have an answer. Just a habit I suppose. I'm not sure why I find it so weird but I do. It feels unnecessarily paranoid.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:45:15 2023 No.21593381 >>21593375 Homosexuals, you mean?

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:45:40 2023 No.21593383

>>21593354
>seemed like she has a great life with lots of friends.
While her social life probably is more active than yours, keep in mind that she's probably exaggerating. Her life isnt a constant party and she does have alone time, voluntary or not.
>that I stay in my room most of the time and she said she sympathizes with that
Interesting reaction. Theres a possiblity that she fetishizes you for being a loner sad boy.
>into hentai and like lesbian romance mangas for some reason
Really big red flag
>text her and see if she's down for more but another part is like really scared because it's all so new to me and I can't read her mind.
Dont worry about reading her mind. No one is a mind reader, you're not supposed to be able to do that. If you want more bee urself and ask her out again. If she says no, no big deal. Being incompatible isn't a negative reflection on you. It just means you guys are different. Dont overthink it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:46:56 2023 No.21593390 >>21593377 Why are you asking us to answer for your roommates behavior when your roommate has already explained his behavior?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:49:37 2023 No.21593399 >>21593390 When did I ask you to answer for my roommates behaviour cunt. It's called a rhetorical question.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 21:55:12 2023 No.21593418 >>21593399 Well it was a stupid question

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:00:13 2023 No.21593441 >go to AA >everyone is committing suicide by cigarette HUH??

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:01:41 2023 No.21593451 >>21593441 Gotta satisfy the death drive somehow

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:03:00 2023 No.21593458

I'm sick of how obsessed with sex everything is and how everyone takes that for granted. When I see people trying to post images of softcore porn on 4chan I just see silly girls. Im tired of people defaulting to stuff like that when they try to connect to strangers. I just wish all the noise would stop. I just wish the world was something more.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:05:50 2023 No.21593472 >>21593212 I already blogged about him last thread. He's kinda nuts

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:08:23 2023 No.21593484 Will a bachelor's in Philosophy help me start a career or am I gonna need post graduate education to ever do anything other than retail

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:11:29 2023 No.21593502 >>21593354 >Just had my first date like ever. I'm 22/M with no romance/love experience. Who the fuck cares? Is this what the internet is now? A glorified episode of Oprah?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:12:25 2023 No.21593508 >>21593484 Minor in CS and get a job that way

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:21:35 2023 No.21593537 >>21593508 I'd rather die

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:25:05 2023 No.21593552 File: 43 KB, 645x773, Rly.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >my scat erotica written for masturbatory purposes only accidentally turned into a philosophical critique of hedonism again FUCK

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:27:08 2023 No.21593558
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>>21593502
>Go to a thread about anons writing what's on their mind
>complain about anons writing what's on their mind

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:28:13 2023 No.21593562

Im sick of how people are so constantly so fucking full of them. For the past 9 months im going over such a fucking internal battle i cant even fathom it. So basically im trying to distance myself from this bullshit instagram and facebook whoring. Everything is about glorifying yourself on social media and every day when i started to internalize, its getting better but its fucking my mind. Its like everything revolves around it. There is no genuine friendships like it used to be when you were a little shit. Back then everything felt so genuine. Now its like everytime i login once in a while i see the fakeness in everything and everywhere. Fucking getting sick of it

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:34:34 2023 No.21593577 The last few years have done a number on my mental health and my living situation. Just about every aspect of my life has continuously gotten worse. I’ve gotten worse.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:40:08 2023 No.21593598 >>21593552 >mfw my Blacked interracial alternate history setting is so interesting in its own right that I drop the porn and just write the history This actually happened

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:40:08 2023 No.21593597

What I just did was completely unremarkable. It wasnt anything a normal person would do, but it's nothing worth noting either. Yet, I will put it in my mind to remember forever. It's special to me, and no one else, without me it'd be lost forever, like so many of of my other memories. I like feeling like I have total power over my own mind. It feels like I have power over reality in general

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:43:19 2023 No.21593615

>>21593562
Delete instagram and fb and other such narcissism simulators. Only log in one more time to get rid of them for good. There are still genuine people and you are still able to connect with them in a meaningful way, but it is more difficult now.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:51:51 2023 No.21593646 for the past 3 days I've been doing mental math everyday to train my concentration. I've been adding 15 minutes a day. I just did 1 hour. I can already feel the benefits, this is far superior to reading when it comes to learning to concentrate.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:54:22 2023 No.21593655 I think I’ll kill myself

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:58:13 2023 No.21593672 >>21593274 "All toasters toast toast."

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:59:17 2023 No.21593676 >>21593182 I just realized that my father is old and that my mother is lonely I don't know why but I am stricken with such immense sadness

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 22:59:46 2023 No.21593678 >>21593354 >texts fast >guy friend >dyke porn into le trash it goes

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:00:19 2023 No.21593681 >>21593646 share routine

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:01:00 2023 No.21593683 >>21593597 what did you just do?

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:03:53 2023 No.21593689

>>21593681
I started out just generating random three digits numbers and prime factorizing them but that got overly annoying so now I've been using this website https://jalu.ch/coding/math-trainer/ to multiply two digit numbers. I'll probably move up to three digits in a couple of day.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:07:52 2023 No.21593700 >>21593689 gnarly shit how long does it take you to multiply say 29x65 in your head? is there a pro strat to follow?

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Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:16:23 2023 No.21593728

>>21593700
it took me 45 seconds to do that though idk how fast it would be if I hadn't just been doing it for an hour. I haven't googled any method yet, I just use distributive property and do 29 * 65 = 20*60 + 20*5 + 9*60 + 9*5. Though it's also sometimes faster to just factor the numbers, for example doing 48*70 as (2*8*3)*(35*2) and then doing all the small number into the bigger number first, as in 35*8*3*2*2.

I assume that when I get to three digits the distributive property will become a lot harder so I have been trying to come up with a better method but if I can't I will look one up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:24:24 2023 No.21593757 >>21593728 I'm a massive retard and I just did 30x65-65 and it took me like 10 seconds while drunk

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:28:24 2023 No.21593762 >>21593558 New fags who don't understand and think /lit/ is just their private discord server.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:28:26 2023 No.21593763 >>21593757 do it for an hour straight and then see how fast you can do it. it exhausts your ability to focus and you spend like 10 seconds a time with your mind blank repeating the numbers trying to get your brain to do a simple multiplication.

Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:29:29 2023 No.21593766

Now that z-library is gone, where do you find books to download? I know that libgen is a great source too and Anna's Archive is nice but I've seen that there apparently is a new domain for z-library. However, it now requires for me to register and I am hesitant to do that on a page that was seized...
I also can only find that book on z-library, not on the other two pages I mentioned...

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:36:00 2023 No.21593789 >>21593728 Fair enough laddy Keep growing that brain of yours

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:37:22 2023 No.21593796 Have you guys ever met someone from North or South Dakota? Like honestly. What the fuck is going on over there. You never hear of anyone coming from there.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:54:08 2023 No.21593870 >>21593766 are you dumb dude register with a temporary email its not like it wants your cc

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:55:08 2023 No.21593873 >>21593796 now that you mention it... no

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:55:58 2023 No.21593881 >>21593870 Sure but still... it would have access to my IP and stuff and now I've gotten kinda more wary. Not that I worry about z-lib, I worry about whoever seized the site

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:56:25 2023 No.21593884 >>21593881 >it would have access to my IP no it wouldnt, its on tor.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:59:20 2023 No.21593897 >>21593884 No, bro, I mean this one: https://z-lib.is/ That's what I meant by "new domain".

>>	Anonymous Mon Jan 30 23:59:37 2023 No.21593901 >>21593897 yeah so just use it over tor...

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:00:49 2023 No.21593905 >>21593881 Why are you worried if they have your IP? They don’t go after the small fry. Or do you want weird or degenerate literature?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:00:57 2023 No.21593906 >>21593873 like i dont even know anyone who knows anyone from there

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:01:28 2023 No.21593908 >>21593897 they dont have my book on there, its not the real zlib

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:01:33 2023 No.21593911

Been thinkin bout the desanctification and designification of modern customs. The reduction of everything to sterile disposable commodities, without history or a story. The lack of sacred objects and reverence of them. Complete dysphoric alienation from the foundations of higher community. Demystifying consciousness so as to clear it of its airy possibilities and render it into an instrument of rationality subordinate to soulless production. The digital butchering of the individual's acts into items of compartmented and dissociated data, themselves commodities separable from the doer. The draining away of authentic connection and the predictive processing which terminates all magical serendipity by imposing algorithmic regularity on the spontaneous to stifle it.

I really feel that over time we are becoming less, that the human spirit is fading over the generations and growing more hollow with the marrow sucked out of us.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:04:29 2023 No.21593920 >>21593905 Nah, mostly political science stuff or just some normal novels. Well, why do they care if I torrent a film or a game? Why would they care less if I download a book?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:05:03 2023 No.21593924 >>21593920 You wouldn't download a book!

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:05:53 2023 No.21593926

The increase in information, raw data, and the subordination of society to information, seems to coincide with the death of meaning. With lasting and permanent significance. Whatever does not flow, build up, multiply, in an information nexus, is now considered inert, dead, obsolete.

The erasure of the tangible and the destruction of Presence evaporates the context in which human beings naturally understand themselves. We are left floating in a void.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:11:23 2023 No.21593948 i find homophobia in women kind of arousing as a bi man. I have this fantasy of an extremely homophobic woman raping me to cure my homosuxuality What do u guys think about that?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:12:48 2023 No.21593953

>>21593926
But of course there's the paradox: for this constant information stream of "technological progress" is no substitute for truth. It is there and then gone. It has no permanency. The next update invalidates the previous. The rapid speeds at which it moves makes it unknowable. It has no stable, coherent reality. It is inhuman because it is only an information system, symbols as computers understand them, not the living symbols of language.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:13:34 2023 No.21593958 >>21593948 What about an extremely homosexual man raping you to cure you of your repressed homosexuality?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:18:59 2023 No.21593987

>>21593958
But of course there's the paradox: for this constant rape stream of "homosexual progress" is no substitute for vagina. It is there and then comes. It has no pussy. The next fag misgenders the previous. The rapid speeds at which it sucks dick makes it unknowable. It has no stable, coherent sexuality. It is inhuman because it is only a faggot.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:20:43 2023 No.21593995 >>21593873 >>21593906 I'm thinking of moving there just because I'm poor.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:23:52 2023 No.21594006

>>21593212
I love him and respect him now, but as a child I feel he took very little interest in me. I still find it hard to really connect with him. I think he’s slightly autistic and a bit of a narcissist too. I see that this is where much of my own narcissistic autism comes from. But I still love him, and I rarely hear him say it but I know he loves me too.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:24:13 2023 No.21594009 >>21594006 faaaaag

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:25:19 2023 No.21594011 >>21593212 My dad was a chronic alcoholic and died of a heart attack 8 months ago.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:27:33 2023 No.21594016 >>21593354 I disagree with the other anon. Don't throw it out but also don't find yourself getting overly attached. It can sneak up on you if you start late in life so to speak.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:28:15 2023 No.21594019 >>21593924 Wait, what?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:28:33 2023 No.21594020 >>21593655 just keep standing anon

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:29:41 2023 No.21594024 >>21594020 I'm already dead

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:30:05 2023 No.21594026
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I really contemplate suicide sometimes. I feel the only thing keeping me from actually carrying it out, is the fantasy that things may soon be better. But this is what I have been telling myself for years, and at the possibility of making my life better, I will either do nothing or make the worst possible choice. It is as if I unconsciously want to die, and even if I sometime hold hopes in my inner monologue, I only act in a way that will hurt me somehow, that will make my life worse.

Overall, I have nothing. I see people having normal lives, and it's as if that door is closed for me, if it was ever open. This leads to resentment, which leads to further isolation.

At the moment, I believe will significantly improve if I get a job, but I have been applying for months, have only got a few interviews, and no one has hired me. The neet years, and having no work experience, really put an end to all chance of ever getting a job.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:31:39 2023 No.21594034 >>21594009 Working class

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:32:15 2023 No.21594039 >>21594034 there hasnt been a middle class since reagan

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:33:22 2023 No.21594042 >>21594026 one must imagine wojak happy

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:52:53 2023 No.21594111 File: 69 KB, 615x900, 4371489378.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Is this edition good?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:53:13 2023 No.21594112

>>21593958
sorta, if its a masc top i want to be called a fag and locked in a chastity cage, but i only wanna get topped by straight acting dudes, and maybe while im crossdressing

if its a qt twinky bottom i dont want to be dominated at all. i wouldnt wanna dominate him either, just gentle tenderness (this is the only sort of person i would actually want to date and love)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 00:59:51 2023 No.21594132 >>21594112 Stop watching porn

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:02:51 2023 No.21594145 >>21593796 I've met someone from Nebraska

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:09:56 2023 No.21594165 File: 212 KB, 894x1400, 1644190507788.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] actual picture of a water addict trying to get you to drink a glass of water

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:11:22 2023 No.21594170 >>21594111 Read the Christopher S. Morrissey translation.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:12:25 2023 No.21594173 >>21594132 i am actually doing a sexual fast atm for spiritual cleansing and to strenghten my will, but people have been degenerate fags long before porn dude

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:13:33 2023 No.21594179

>>21593212
Managed to be absent from mine and my brother’s lives despite living at the same house as us. Never had a single positive word for me and is dismissive or negative about anything I do. He also didn’t gave a single fuck when I spent two years living hell to the point I thought about killing myself daily multiple times a day. My brother craves his attention to a ridiculous degree and I aim to stop striving for his approval and listening to his words since looking for the former or giving consideration to the latter have never done anything to me besides harm. Oh, he also never taught us shit and now I’m an adult man who has never ridden a bike and is ashamed of learning how to do so. All that being said, I don’t resent him. He is what he is and that’s that. I hope to live well despite lacking a father figure and to be a better one if I ever have sons of my own.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:18:44 2023 No.21594198 >>21594020 I’m not sure I see the point in that

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:19:49 2023 No.21594203 >>21594026 I used to feel like you and then I got older and I felt exactly the same but older so more despairing. Destiny usually intervenes for young people. So in lieu of destiny do yourself a favor and take initiative while you’re young.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:25:06 2023 No.21594222 I don’t like myself.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:29:34 2023 No.21594234

>>21594222
I'm pretty sure the gist of this thread is to express your feelings in a novel or at least interesting way.
May I suggest some alternatives:
>I feel like a dog turd wrapped in tinfoil
>I am an inside out asshole
>I hate myself because I tend to stink of old salami and the smell won't come out
>I'm a leech, a parasite, a tapeworm. I have latched myself to the intestines of life and its bile is rotting my flesh open

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:32:11 2023 No.21594246 >>21594234 Like myself? I do not!

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:39:04 2023 No.21594262 >>21594173 You're a very particular type of pervert and I'm sure it's down to porn

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:39:13 2023 No.21594263

>>21593354
part of feeling like you're "boring" or not fitting in might relate to a reluctance of yours to express your own interests. I doubt you don't have any, could just be vidya or reading or cooking, but if you're really feeling like a blank slate maybe ask if the two of you can head out to one of her events (party, manga and hang, whatever), or try to do something you like with her.
I'm pretty sure the other anon is right and she might be fetishizing/ romanticizing you to some degree, but as long as the both of you (esp you, v important) are enjoying and having fun together then whatever. just relax anon

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:40:10 2023 No.21594265 >>21594234 I'm brooding, like unflushed piss

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:50:35 2023 No.21594294

I had a weird dream last night. I was infiltrating what I think was a wedding in North Korea. There was no obvious indicator it was North Korea, I just kept hearing people near me say this was North Korea. I was walking through a hedge maze at day. Everyone there was Asian and wearing silk robes. I think there was classical music playing in the background but I can't remember. I remember a lady escorting me. I kept reminding myself not to have an outburst or I'll get in trouble. I remember walking through what looked like an average one-floor suburban house at one point. At some point I reached a house that I deemed was a safe place and hanged out with a bunch of tweens (I don't know why but I think I mentally still see myself as a child even though I'm 22). I talked about a bunch of video levels, the details of which I can't remember and then I woke up at like 10 in the morning. I don't know what any of that meant. I keep having dreams where I'm walking through an labyrinth-like environment trying to evade something. I don't know what it is, just that something bad will happen if I encounter it. Why do I keep having these dreams? Why can't I have a good dream? The best dream I had that I remember was me crossdressing in front of a friend of my sister's house.

Tell me about your dreams.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:54:39 2023 No.21594310 >>21594294 it's satan beckoning you deeper and deeper into his labyrinth. since youre halfway to becoming a tranny, I'd say he's succeeding.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:58:26 2023 No.21594318 >>21594310 What does that have to do with anything? Those were separate dreams. I had the crossdressing dream five years ago. What about the Koreans, the hedge maze, the children, the video games?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 01:59:17 2023 No.21594321 >>21594318 I dunno it sounds like the plot to a Gardner novel

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 02:02:35 2023 No.21594329 they want me to be christian but i find it boring

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 02:16:20 2023 No.21594357 There is a woman on my team maybe early to mid 40s but she dresses and talks like a teenage girl. It is really off-putting.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 02:18:36 2023 No.21594361

>>21594026
A few years back I used to measure the quality of my days by how much I thought about killing myself. On a good day it would be only three or four times, on a bad day it was practically non-stop.
Now, I’m telling you all this for one reason: this fantasy that something will happen and things will get better? You are that something. Yeah, maybe one day some crazy external circumstance can save you, but the fact is: you have the power to save yourself all the time. You don’t need to wait for external salvation because the salvation that comes from within is always available to you.
>Overall, I have nothing. I see people having normal lives, and it's as if that door is closed for me, if it was ever open. This leads to resentment, which leads to further isolation
Believe me, I know. But you gotta move, anon. It doesn’t need to be drastic, just small changes that amount to a lot after the months go by. There are almost no closed doors, and most of the ones you think are closed remain so only in your mind. Comparing yourself to others will do you no favors. Also, when you start to leave this pit you’re into - even just a little - you’ll feel such a surge of gratitude that any feelings of resentment and spite will melt away.
>The neet years, and having no work experience, really put an end to all chance of ever getting a job.
That fucks us, but it’s not unsurmountable. There are ways out, keep an eye for them. In my case I’m aiming for a very specific job in my country that doesn’t give a fuck about previous job history but requires proficiency in a bunch of uncommon skills. I know some neet anons managed to land jobs in tech and grind from there.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 02:47:33 2023 No.21594446 I'm too prudish for normalfags but I'm not prudish enough for my Christian friends. I'm in this grey zone where I want to party moderately and thafs offputting to everyone else

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 02:56:56 2023 No.21594475

girlfriend and i only have sex once every few weeks at this point. i've talked to her about it and she acts like she feels bad but then nothing changes. always thinking about breaking up or cheating, then we do, and i forget about it until i start ruminating again a couple of weeks longer. can't go on like this anons

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:01:27 2023 No.21594491 >>21594475 to clarify, we've lived together for a few years, families are close, etc. which makes the whole thing worse

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:01:28 2023 No.21594492 >>21594475 Take the initiative to spend time with her less and she’ll start to put out again, even initiate it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:03:47 2023 No.21594498 Yeah, I would do things differently if I could do them over.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:06:59 2023 No.21594509 >>21594498 Story of my life

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:08:20 2023 No.21594516 I say that I would do things differently, but desu knowing me, I would probably do everything exactly the same

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:08:45 2023 No.21594517

>>21594492
that's actually what tends to happen already, although i don't do it on purpose. i start getting withdrawn and moody (i'm naturally pretty aloof anyway) and she gets correspondingly touchy feely. then the cycle repeats. it doesn't feel great though, more like a pity fuck

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:29:04 2023 No.21594576 I’m unemployed and depressed and the only things I wanna do besides lifting are completely useless stuff like making youtube videos about obsucre games I like and writing fanfiction

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:33:16 2023 No.21594588 Did you guys know you can get super good at whistling? I always thought it was just a little trick but it's like an entire instrument

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 03:35:42 2023 No.21594593 >>21593948 I think your fantasy is quite arousing

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:11:19 2023 No.21594669

>>21594294
I have some weird dreams myself as well. Not nightmares usually, just weird dreams. Like I could at one moment be hanging out with friends and at another moment I could be chucking grenades through a window in a hailstorm of bullets. And then, I could start befriending or talking about some random topic with the enemies that just a moment ago were aiming to shoot me. And then, I might be in another location altogether without really being confused or anything. It all just makes sense in the dream even though it doesn't make sense in the waking world

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:24:47 2023 No.21594700 I have the body of a little girl, but the mind of a 30-year-old NEET man.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:33:03 2023 No.21594723
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>get rejected to a job I applied to
>got accepted to the very next one I apply to
>got rejected by a girl I liked
>got intimate with the next girl I liked
This better not be a fucking pattern in my life. I don't wanna deal with cycle of being rejected first to get accepted for something else again and again.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:40:36 2023 No.21594750 >>21594498 What would you do differently?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:42:55 2023 No.21594755 >>21594723 Can't make a spreadsheet with two data points.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 04:47:15 2023 No.21594773 >>21594755 My point is I'm hoping these two cases are a one off thing and not going to be a reoccurring theme of my life.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:17:29 2023 No.21594855

>>21593948
Hot femdom scenario and probably not as uncommon a fantasy as you might think.
My own variation envisions an absolutely female dominated society that is extremely homophobic. The fun catch being bisexuality is perfectly fine. Naturally their solution to the "depravity" of pure lesbianism is to employ male slaves a sort of medical prophylactic.
>What do u guys think about that?
Plausibility is irrelevant to fantasy. Enjoy the fantasy.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:23:00 2023 No.21594865 >>21594669 stop reading airport novels

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:24:33 2023 No.21594874 >>21593298 >2019 is 4 years ago GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHDD DAAAAAMNNNNNNN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT there is no recovery

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:27:14 2023 No.21594884 File: 66 KB, 740x710, 1644200450835.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:50:57 2023 No.21594926 I literally love being a white nationalist. God bless every European ethnonationalist reading this. You are changing the world just by having principles. Stay strong, my friend. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHs3vD_Sn8M

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 05:54:25 2023 No.21594931 >>21593911 You're a great writer. You put into words how I feel alot of the time but couldn't ever be able to articulate so clearly and poeticly

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 06:34:30 2023 No.21595028 >>21594865 What is an airport novel? A novel about airports?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 06:49:00 2023 No.21595069 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QE-KfhG6BQ

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 06:56:03 2023 No.21595082 File: 13 KB, 224x216, C93EBC42-22ED-4E97-9962-B13595D0EA59.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>21594926

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 07:05:35 2023 No.21595113 The boundary between a human being and the paper wrapped plastic drinking straws at Taco Bell that you can get for free.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 07:09:06 2023 No.21595124 Would all my problems be solved if I had a cute loyal girlfriend?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 07:30:15 2023 No.21595181 >>21595113 Back when I was into meditation, at my peak I felt like I was starting to understand what it was like to be my nose

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 08:08:05 2023 No.21595269

I'm not sure if the agepill is realizing that you're still young or realizing that you're already too old. I admit that it's formulated in a dangerously reductive manner, as it is ignoring the vast nuances that are inherent to any real life situation, but it does keep me up at night. Even if the former has a slight cynical edge to it thanks to the contemporary consumerist social engineering blasting the message of grabbing on to your youth with all your might as you still can, it doesn't necessarily mean that at its core it is any more true or false. It's all wrapped by fear/cowardice anyway. One of the reasons why I've remained a NEET for so long until recently is the fear of signing away the most precious resource of all, Time, to a venture that would ultimately turn to an overall deficit in the long run. I worry a lot about doing a job that would not allow me to pursue what I really care about the most, despite me not being good at it for now. A job that would eat away at your soul to the point where you wouldn't have any love left to spread. But that's just the nature of our circumstances now, there's not much that we could do about it is there? Might as well plunge into any field and have faith that these circumstances, these factors that will always remain beyond your reach, wouldn't play a rotten game against you. Gotta face adversity somehow, otherwise there would be no manhood to wax about.
I hope to get an entry into humanitarian aid through this degree. That would probably be more beneficial to life itself than the rest of my self-centered "artistic" leanings. Or if I really was worth a damn, I'd find a way to synthesize the two into an object worth contemplating. That's it, worth. Maybe that's what I'm looking for. Justifying my own chain of decisions so far in life. That's the deepest appeal of art for me, the idea that I could bring all of my experiences into one transcendental package, something that will go much farther beyond my self and my own perspectives. Scraping away the wisdom that could be found hiding behind the textures of the happenings of my life. That should serve goodness, shouldn't it? Do you think art could work for the good of the world? Or do you think it's bound to remain perverse? I'd love to hear your answers anons, as I haven't figured that out either.
If you've read this, thank you, and may God bless you all.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 08:09:15 2023 No.21595273 File: 29 KB, 375x612, images - 2023-01-30T123408.419.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Why the fuck would any person of self worth come into a shit thread like this? Disgusting and pathetic. Slavery should not have stopped.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 09:12:35 2023 No.21595432

Been seeing a girl for the last 2 weeks who is would be way out of my league in terms of looks if she wasn't an emotionally unstable new age wiccatard. I have absorbed enough esoteric bullshit from schizoposters here over the years that I can actually impress her.

So, thank you, schizos.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 09:39:01 2023 No.21595465 File: 450 KB, 1080x1068, Screenshot_2022-10-17-15-13-22-56_1c337646f29875672b5a61192b9010f9.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>21594263 Ty anon. The first especially rings very true. I'll try not to overthink

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 09:40:59 2023 No.21595468

I'M DEPRESSSSSSSSSSSED

But I'll get better.

About 2/3rds through Ulysses. Just finished the play script chapter. Honestly some of these chapters are great - like the one on the beach - but most of them are an unentertaining slog. And I've read Portrait like 5 times.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 10:28:29 2023 No.21595526

I'm one of the good metabolizers of tramadol, so it gets me pretty high in a very enjoyable way and is dirt cheap.
That means I sometimes go on binges, because the withdrawals are basically nothing as well, just 2-3 days of feeling malaise and apathy, and with some real emotional lability and hair-trigger creative impulses, like all the sedated thoughts from the last few weeks come bursting through with sobriety. It actually makes it a great time to engage with art. Completely different from when I still did heroin or oxycodone, and would spend a week of withdrawals in hellish pain and misery.
The strangest of the symptoms however, really fucking top-tier weird, is that I can hear my eyeballs move. Whenever I shift my eyes, it is audible with a sound that is exactly like if I rapidly stroked a piece of sandpaper over wood. Lasts 2-3 days like the rest, but it is like something out of Poe.
I'm still so teenage-tier enamored with drugs and all aspects of both fun and misery of them. God I love them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 10:36:42 2023 No.21595541 The 90s, and to a much lesser extent, the 00s, were the absolute best moment to live as a westerner.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 10:47:14 2023 No.21595553 >>21595541 For me, GTA 3 is the best example of early 00's.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 10:48:52 2023 No.21595555 >>21593356 So basically no one has a guardian angel then

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:10:37 2023 No.21595594

The key to change is to actually want it. The reason we don't make the changes we dream about is because we don't actually want to change. We find the old self comfortable, even if we say we don't like it. The truth is that we do like it. Then why change? That's the thought. I know hypothetically I would be happier or more fulfilled or whatever if I change, but maybe I would be losing something fundamentally me.

The risk is if you don't change what's comfortable now will be painful in the future.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:11:41 2023 No.21595597 >>21595555 Quads of inconvenient truths

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:13:08 2023 No.21595602

This girl I knew used to be so pretty. In the span of 6 years she has become grotesquely obese. I don't know how it happened to be honest. I understand a bit of weight gain, but she looks like she has been eating five burgers a day since the time I last saw her.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:17:28 2023 No.21595609

>>21595594
I say this all the time. It’s like an alcoholic who laments being unable to quit but in truth he loves drinking, he just wishes it wasn’t so rough on his health and his wife didn’t nag him about it all the time.
Doing any change in your life is easier if you want/hate the thing itself, not its results.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:20:14 2023 No.21595616

A huge reason for men being the creative people they were and have been over centuries, with respect to science, art, poetry/literature, philosophy, etc. is due to the biological pangs longing for sex and love. For females it was simply about saying yes. (I'm talking cavemen centuries and much much earlier.) That's like studying for a test you know the answers to. You're gonna pass but you're still kinda dumb.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:22:38 2023 No.21595621

>>21595616
The pangs are part of it. Besides the literal god Aristotle I would assume having sexual relations would hamper your progress in most things. But then again, maybe the sex and relations are a motivator to keep doing what you're doing. I'm drinking a little.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:23:57 2023 No.21595625 >>21595621 I snapped out of it and got it: Aristotle was an exception. We're talking generalizations over eons with long lasting effects from humble beginnings.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:30:17 2023 No.21595634 I don’t know what to do for work anymore. Nothing seems to work out for me and I’m far past the age where I can remain hopeful that something will click. I should end things.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:32:34 2023 No.21595637 ASMR is my opium den

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:39:25 2023 No.21595651 File: 900 KB, 1000x627, 70acf636d37e819ffefe78a8fa2fbbb2.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >ability to have anyone you want narrate your books with the new ai voice synthesis technology future is here boys

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 11:52:21 2023 No.21595673

I'm in a constant state of being unable to convey how I feel about my life and the universe we live in. I am assaulted by thoughts, regrets and fears non-stop. I have objectively ruined my life and don't have the inner strength to "pick up my cross". I find it impossible to accept I have free will and full responsibility for my actions. Nostalgia is a distortion and my life story seems somehow unreal, it's all just the result of media and cultural influence, I have no real self, no real thoughts. I have given up on God, I can't do it anymore.

As I phonepost this stilted rubbish I'm so frustrated that I can't explain what I feel inside. I wish I could meet someone who understood, just. I believe some people are born with a terrible sensitivity which is a curse. The human race absolutely terrify me, complete hypnosis, completely lost. And I'm just sat here cowering.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:32:29 2023 No.21595746 File: 147 KB, 923x800, F8AC532A-B65A-4D95-9E0E-075657D56754.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I really do hate everything. I’m not sure how to like things again?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:47:03 2023 No.21595777 >>21595746 music and certain drugs (weed, acid, ketamine) work well as mental reboots for me

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:53:41 2023 No.21595795
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>>21594294
Many didn't want to fight in a corrupt zog war so men came house to house, locked us in a shipping container then forced us to clear minefields.
My dreams usually come true btw

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:55:31 2023 No.21595802 Benefits might be getting cut soon and l might have to get a job

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:58:46 2023 No.21595804 >>21593796 I'm from North Dakota, AMA

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 12:58:49 2023 No.21595805 >>21594361 you're really nice and understanding, Thank you anon <3

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:23:14 2023 No.21595859

I hate the infection of a text onto a song. The music could mean so many different things, could be used for so many greater things, but you can't since the closed minded people won't be able to ignore the meaning forced onto the track. The instrumentals alone won't hit as well. Maybe people should just sing in the style of their language while only making meaningless sounds.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:38:27 2023 No.21595907 >>21594179 Why did boomers fail so badly at parenting? Man hands on misery to man.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:47:18 2023 No.21595929 >>21595541 1985-September 10,2001

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:47:18 2023 No.21595930 File: 428 KB, 512x384, 1672904719751543.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>21593278 We can't all be geniuses I suppose

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:49:10 2023 No.21595939 >>21595907 >spoiled retards complain about men who fed them for 20 years because they think they know better based on mass media tropes No American has ever visited the real world. It's completely alien to them.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:52:09 2023 No.21595947 Saw a video about the disappearance of a teenager, likely trafficked. I can't die without bringing about some justice in this world.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 13:53:03 2023 No.21595952 >>21595526 >I'm one of the good metabolizers of tramadol Lucky duck

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jan 31 14:03:55 2023 No.21595987 File: 6 KB, 250x250, tired.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I have offended God and mankind.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 14:25:50 2023 No.21596055 >>21595987 That includes me!!! I am offended.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 15:02:10 2023 No.21596199 I got 9 hours of sleep but I'm still tired

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 15:05:56 2023 No.21596216 https://vocaroo.com/18EgFs6wUoVY

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 15:10:17 2023 No.21596234 >>21595594 I don't think you have to like it you just have to fear change more than you dislike what you want to change. Its "the devil you know" mentality plus a pessimistic world view and low self confidence made into a perfect storm of suffering.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 15:21:46 2023 No.21596261 >>21593212 My dad is the closest thing I have to a "best friend" >we call each other faggots

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:02:45 2023 No.21596370
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>>21593182
I just found out that they discovered the Endurance- the whole thing unrotted. Imagine being on the crew that found it. Searching for it, but people have been searching for it for a 100 years. And then you find it, and it's there, it's right there, nearly intact, rising out of the murk. Just IMAGINE. I can't take it. I'm hyperventilating.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:08:34 2023 No.21596386 >>21596199 I recommend anaerobic exercise

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:12:37 2023 No.21596392 >>21596216 Very nice... Let's see /lit/'s vocaroo.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:16:51 2023 No.21596398 File: 525 KB, 640x480, 1667916725065.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >her pussy lay fallow

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:18:02 2023 No.21596401 Is it really that bad of an idea to leave a job without another job? I have a few years of experience and enough money to last about a year without income.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:23:43 2023 No.21596412 >>21596370 fucking hell i'd've found this interesting but your autistic anorak obsession post has put me well off now i think it's lame

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:26:08 2023 No.21596421 >>21596412 hey fuck you too

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:28:02 2023 No.21596426 I'm running out of mental bandwidth. I'm becoming retarded. I feel like a guttering candle. All the fuel I had has burned.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:35:17 2023 No.21596443 >>21596421 >Just IMAGINE. I can't take it. I'm hyperventilating. don't you ever listen to yourself

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:35:29 2023 No.21596446 >>21596401 Depends on the job market near you and which jobs you are ready to take of course. But you seem to have a good situation with regard to cash to cushion the fall in income.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:37:13 2023 No.21596455 >>21596443 You clearly aren't imaging being on the crew that found it as they found it. You fat wet blanket.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:39:11 2023 No.21596459 >>21596446 That’s basically what I’m thinking. I have an idea of what I should do too so it’s not like I’m lost. I just might have nothing to show for it after a year and I’m not a kid anymore.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:43:24 2023 No.21596472 >>21596455 weirdos who carry on like this should be ashamed of themselves. sorry but we're all adults here

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:44:39 2023 No.21596476 >>21596472 dull and vapid

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:48:18 2023 No.21596487 >>21596476 hang on let me get my inhaler

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 16:53:41 2023 No.21596500 >>21596426 Embrace it. You're trying to force something instead of using what you have effectively.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:03:45 2023 No.21596536

I'm so fucking envious of people who don't get nervous. Being in the opposite side of stress tolerance, I see it as a sort of superpower.
Like if I could choose between that, teleportation, flying and seeing through walls, I'd take not getting nervous.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:09:20 2023 No.21596558 >>21594475 I haven't had sex for a couple of years. You should be able to cope.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:27:20 2023 No.21596614 I would very much like to take you all out for dinner but it just doesn't seem possible.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:37:58 2023 No.21596648 The sun and moon transform day to night, but what transforms the mind?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:40:01 2023 No.21596656 >>21596500 If I'm "forcing it" just to operate normally there's gotta be something wrong.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:41:40 2023 No.21596659
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If for a moment we think of life as a drama where the characters involved have arcs of their own, and men's usually involves them realizing their true potential, and as the culmination/side effect of that process, they "get the girl" (think of the stereotypical fairy tales with the dragonslaying prince), what drama does a woman's life have, since she does not need to become anything to either find a partner or be accepted by their milieu? They have neither outside pressure nor an internal drive to become anything more than they by default are. Does that mean that women's lives have no real developmental drama, no character arc? What would a woman's bildungsroman even be like, what bildung does a woman even need, really, when everyone is fine with them simply being rather than becoming anything?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 17:53:48 2023 No.21596691 >>21596656 You can "operate normally" as a retarded garbage man. If you have the potential for more you want to build yourself up over time without forcing anything to express prematurely and burning out.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:02:01 2023 No.21596714

>>21596234
In my own personal case it's the fear of abandoning certain "promises" or "potentials" that have been attached to the only way of life I've drifted into. The idea that this particular version of my self could ideally reach a certain desirable point is incredibly intoxicating, and it's been such a safe little corner of my mind that not letting it go seems more appealing to the immediate senses. I have yet to triumph over cowardice, and I'm getting more and more hopeless about it with each passing year.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:09:22 2023 No.21596734

>>21596659
>she does not need to become anything to either find a partner or be accepted by their milieu
Those are methods not goals. She needs to become a mother and a house. The male is experimental so there's no simple goal like that.
The female is conservative and adapts to local norms, she is the backbone of the actual community. The male is the explorer, he mostly fails miserably and dies in a ditch but has rare heroic successes that change everything.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:17:48 2023 No.21596753

I'm really hating this speech class. I hate being looked at and noticed and open and vulnerable. I just want to sit quietly in the back of class and get on with life.
And then I see all these people connecting and talking and making friends and I have to walk past everyone quietly trying to get away without looking like I'm trying to escape. I hate school. It's beating my psyche down.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:22:04 2023 No.21596770 test

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:23:35 2023 No.21596774
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I'm thinking of applying for a job at a coffee shop or something because I'm so isolated and alone. Thoughts? Is there any other job like this that has a lot of social interaction?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 18:39:06 2023 No.21596811

My dad does this thing where he tells me which bathrooms Im allowed to use, which couches Im allowed to sit on, which tvs I can watch, and which appliances I can touch. Its pretty dehumanizing but I cant move out because housing costs are fucking insane

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:13:33 2023 No.21596898 >>21594700 >I have the body of a little girl no you don't

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:13:50 2023 No.21596899 >>21596774 Library work has lots of social interaction. And I'd say it's probably a lot more varied and less stressful work as well

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:22:22 2023 No.21596916 >>21594700 LONDON O N D O N

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:29:10 2023 No.21596934
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Reading blackpill incel content ruined my life.

First, between 20 and 25, I completely stopped pursuing women. Because I firmly believed no woman will ever look at me - because I am not ripped, my jaw is not perfectly angular, my eyes and brows dont look like those of an alpha hunter male and all the other blackpill checkboxes.

With 25, I found out by utter luck that some women find me very attractive, despite not looking like what incels consider the perfect male. I even got multiple women to choose from at some point and picked one that's just so, so precious. A very pretty, shy, genuinely smart programming/science/anime nerd that's basically the wet dream of every male loner, only that she chose me over many other men aggressively courting her.

Everything is amazing. We have such a chemistry and human connection, I believe not every married couple achieves this level of mutual understanding that we developed over just six weeks.

But the catch is - she is a very shy virgin, very strict about everything she does with men (again, she managed to make it as a handholdless, hugless, kissless virgin to 21 as a pretty girl men will drool over, thats how disciplined she is). So she's highly unlikely to have sex with me early into our relationship, even if she does like me a lot. If I were a normal, healthy individual not exposed to incelism and obsession with virginity, I would give her all the time in the world.

But years of incel propaganda rotted my brain. I feel like pressuring this wonderful, innocent girl into sex JUST so I can tick a box in my mind and no longer be a loser in the eyes of blackpilled incels and sex-crazed people. I feel like I have to fuck her before we part, or else or (already wonderful) relationship will be worth nothing. I cannot be happy and content until I do.

Thanks for reading my blog, don't forget to upvote and subscribe.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:34:43 2023 No.21596950 >>21596934 good you lucked out.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:38:06 2023 No.21596956

>>21596934
Get her to hit you in the head with something large, heavy, and blunt. Hopefully that will force the retarded incel brainwashing out of you. If you attempt something like that right now, which from what you're telling us goes against her very strong sense of values, you'll probably destabilize what you have.
Don't feel pressured to rush things. Take it slow and enjoy the very precious relationship you currently have. Let things develop naturally.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:40:05 2023 No.21596960

I have so much trouble getting out of bed each morning. I can honestly say for the last 10 years, every single say without exaggeration has been miserable. Not sure why I persist. I’m waiting for some sort of miracle that won’t ever happened. I think I’ve waited long enough.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:41:06 2023 No.21596963 >>21596899 Nobody goes to the library in my country, maybe the book store.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:43:53 2023 No.21596972

>>21596934
Someone who suffered similar shit that you did and found a beautiful virgin gf( who is now my pregnant wife btw ). My advice: wait until marriage and be strong. Dating is a vetting process for marriage. You shouldn’t have sex with someone unless you are willing to have kids with them and you shouldn’t have kids with someone unless you are married, hence wait till marriage.

Also read the Bible and be Christian.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:53:49 2023 No.21597001 >>21596963 Go to a library some time during "busy hours" of the day and I guarantee there will be people. Especially if it's a modern library with CDs, computers, 3D printers and music spaces and whatnot. People really do use these spaces.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:55:06 2023 No.21597008 >>21596972 >found a beautiful virgin gf( who is now my pregnant wife btw Pregnant wife yes, pregnant from you no.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 19:56:40 2023 No.21597013 My mind is a stew

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:11:57 2023 No.21597051

>>21595952
It's nice enough, and there seems to be a natural end to the binges, where I stop making as much of whatever enzyme it is that turns it into actually good O-DSMT. In-built brakes is a nice thing in an opioid.

But to be honest, I did not intend to end my binge here. I bought a few more blister sheets of pills recently from my regular suppliers. I was a bit surprised by the manufacturer which I had never heard of - I thought it legit enough since they were in professional blisters and all. Googling it, I found out that the medical company doesn't exist, the only paper trail to the brand name, "Santeria" is extremely shady imitations of darknet markets (on the clearweb, because the sellers are incompetent). Turns out they are homemade and manufactured to look like real medicine via blisterpacks clandestinely, and apparently, a lot of the people who taken it have tested positive for methadone. Digging a bit deeper, it appears that the pills contain dipyanone, a novel RC-opioid much like methadone, but instead of more euphoria, it has even greater respiratory depression and a longer duration of action, meaning it will very much kill you dead if you do it daily from an accumulating dose.

One of the reasons I chose tramadol was because I thought it wouldn't be worthwhile to fake them with shitty untested RC opioids or fentanyl, but my God the entire market is fucked beyond belief, even in Europe.
Digging even deeper, it turns out "Santeria", the brand name, is the name of a syncretistic spiritualist caribbean religion that believes in sacrificing to spirits and voodoo. Satanic and sinister little fuckers, these pills.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:27:17 2023 No.21597091 https://vocaroo.com/13yWhbyRtGjH The world of man is breaking down just as predicted. Next week this week will be an almost forgotten memory, a time long ago when our world still had some fragile connection to reality.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:28:05 2023 No.21597094 What happens in Indianapolis?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:32:07 2023 No.21597102 >>21597013 I have added paprika. It doesn't do much but it's there

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:35:18 2023 No.21597119 >>21593212 Good, but it means interacting with others is harder. How can you relate to someone who, for the major part of their entire lives, characterise everything around them as their parents whom they hate?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 20:37:40 2023 No.21597130 >>21597119 most people don't hate their parents

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:15:27 2023 No.21597231 >>21596774 Having colleagues is wonderful anon, if they're cool you can befriend them, if they suck you don't have to do anything but be profesionally courteous around them.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:19:18 2023 No.21597251

>>21593182
Sure, yeah go ahead and get it out of the way. Make a “Black” version of everything. Every franchise. Every character from pop culture. Have a remake of every established IP with an all black cast. Black Superman? Black Forrest Gump? Black Mission Impossible? Black National Treasure? Black Waterworld. Everything. Just make a Black version of everything. They will all bomb and fail, but who cares. Just blame it on racist Nazis and Review Bombers. Just keep making Black reboots of everything. Then maybe, just maybe, after they’ve run out of old ideas to reboot we might get something original or new.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:24:08 2023 No.21597274

I get a lot of shit when I bluntly state that the USA has never been more powerful than it is today. People will point to the USA’s de-industrialization, its opiate-death crisis, its falling living standards, its disappearing middle class, crumbling infrastructure, the growing divide between red and blue states, and the collective meltdown of half of America thanks to Trump’s surprise win in 2016. All of these points are valid, but they also mean fuck all in the greater scheme of things.

To effect change (at its most conservative, or revolution at is most liberal), a segment of the elites need to defect to the side of those seeking change. The USA today is a picture of elites united in total. Bipartisan consensus on all matters imperial is the rule, with intelligence agencies in bed with both media and Silicon Valley. Those who diverge from “the current thing” are quickly cast out of good company, with some losing their jobs and becoming unpersoned. All centres of power (with the notable exception of maybe the massive NYPD) are firmly onside, happily conforming to ever-changing prevailing narratives that find their way into laws, into schooling, and into corporate governance.

“But half of the country hates this!” Sure, but they don’t matter. Flyover America can rot for all they care, so long as the lights aren’t turned off in the places that count. The idea that the people matter was easily laid to rest with how easily the Trump Administration was subverted through the joint action of the intelligence/security servies with the mainstream media, NGOs, the judiciary, and various planted agents within the actual Trump Regime. They then went on to “fortify” the 2020 election to ensure that such a wrong result could not be repeated. If it is repeated again, they will simply subvert once more, as they got away with it the first time and are still in the same positions of power.

It does not matter to the elites whether Peoria, Illinois or Topeka, Kansas is seeing growth or regeneration. This does not impact the concerns of those in power on the federal level because these are national concerns that have for some time taken a back seat to imperial concerns. John McWilliams in Greenville, South Carolina is as relevant to them as Jose Cortes in Arica, Chile, or Dieter Schliemann from Dortmund, Germany: they are all imperial subjects.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:24:17 2023 No.21597275 >>21597051 I just meant it's nice you're not puking everywhere

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:26:02 2023 No.21597282 I have sleep apnoea.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:26:19 2023 No.21597284 >>21597274 >American hoping they've shown up in the news elsewhere K

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:26:45 2023 No.21597286 >>21597274 america is in decline and the multipolar world is coming. eat shit

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:41:56 2023 No.21597333 File: 92 KB, 1920x1080, VF_NickLand.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>21597091 this nigga is right about everything and it's becoming more apparent by the day

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:42:07 2023 No.21597335

>>21597286
I doubt it. America’s power is so overwhelming that they literally tell us that they will lie to us to promote their own security interests and dare us to do something about it. Big Tech is the lynchpin that effects US military, economic, and socio-cultural control over its own country and those of its allies.

You have Russia fighting its war in Ukraine with one hand tied behind its own back (its unwillingness to send in overwhelming force), but the Americans are fighting this proxy war with not just one hand tied behind its back, but with another four fingers on the other hand as well. Happy to fight to the last Ukrainian, America is using their massive stockpiles of weapons alongside real-time intel to hamper Russian efforts in that country. US policy planners know that the Ukrainians cannot win this war on the ground, but they can make it as bloody as possible for the Russians. When combined with symbolic strikes like that on the Moskva naval flagship in tandem with their overwhelming dominance on the propaganda plane of battle, the USA can also diminish the reputation of Russia’s armed forces in the eyes of many (but not all).

To further compound matters, the USA has placed the monetary cost of this conflict entirely on the shoulders of its European satrapies. US-Russia trade amounted to very little not just in the run up to the Russian invasion of Ukraine, but in years prior as well. Europe, on the other hand, has had its arm twisted to reduce trade with Russia over the years to reflect the increasing strain of ties between its American lord and Moscow. Just today, Germany reported a record historical high of 30% producer price inflation, and this was from last month. The blame is laid on skyrocketing energy prices. Just think what will happen if the USA gets its way and the EU approves an embargo on Russian oil (this vote is coming up next week). Europe is seeing inflation galloping across the continent, as the USA just looks on and tells them to tighten their belts to ‘save democracy’, while planning to sell them overpriced American LNG to replace Russian gas which powers many of Europe’s economies. This is a flex.

And the flexing on Europe doesn’t stop there, I am certain that US policy planners in the Treasury Department have been thinking up ways to make succulent sanction China, and their confident threats to sanction Beijing tell me that they have thought it through.

Openly telling everyone that they will lie to us to make Russia bleed and openly threatening to sanction China at the same time for not breaking with Russia is a big, glowing red sign indicating hubris. For some, this will suggest desperation on the part of the USA to maintain its global standing. To me, it suggests that the USA is confident in its own power, having put Russia onto the Europeans to allow itself to effect its Pivot to Asia once and for all.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:45:44 2023 No.21597352 >>21597335 >Anglo Ameriphile imagines the rest of the world is permanently on fire and lava Uhhuh

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:47:26 2023 No.21597358 >>21597335 to me it tells me that the people up top are delusional and doubling down on losing and you are just a bootlicking moron

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:52:23 2023 No.21597381 I wish I didn't have to live with a stranger. It doesn't help that our apartment is pretty tiny. I just want to be alone.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:54:14 2023 No.21597385

stopped jerking off and im wondering if i should deny myself more, im thinking i could starve myself to near death, maybe quit smoking cold turkey although that sounds hard but thats the point. maybe quit the internet and other entertainment if i really want to push myself

anyone done hardcore self denial?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 21:56:46 2023 No.21597391
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>>21597274
Does it really count as true power when you're locked into one course of action at all times? i.e. feeding the market beast. Empires of old had some degree of autonomy, they could prioritize any number of vectors with their power. Modern america literally can't, we saw this when neo-liberalism gutted public institutions in service of capital.

Competition is essentially the enemy of freedom.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:00:25 2023 No.21597411 >>21597333 trips of truth

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:07:25 2023 No.21597431
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>>21597358
I don’t see you adding anything substantial, the only ones who are desperate here is the Populist Right and the Third-world Leftists who are dick riding every non-western power they see like a battered whore. The radicalized, believing that the regime is their greatest enemy (which is true, incidentally) are openly now cheering for the Chinese in the hopes that an embarrassment for the Biden administration or an all-out war will lead to destabilization and opportunity for them. Many times, this plays into the very well-developed — one might say overdeveloped — thanatic impulse of the online. Other times it’s messiah complex. With Donald Trump having failed and turned to pure grifting, and with Putin’s Russia being consistently shown incapable of posing a serious threat, the hopium addicts have turned yellowed sclerae towards glorious Chairman Xi, who’ll karate-chop the gay unipolar world order, et cetera. I’m unimpressed.

Sanctions inflation is the new corporate concept of ESG (Environmental, Social, Governance) in which western concepts used to flex their power. The Chinese have already warned against any sanctions, saying bluntly that any threat to its gas and oil imports will be considered threats to its own national security. Once thoughtfully applied will bring dangers to the Chinese developmental wise.

https://www.scmp.com/news/china/article/3170907/us-sanctions-china-aiding-russia-could-be-counterproductive-advisory

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:14:57 2023 No.21597472 >>21597385 >starving yourself to near death is one thing, but if you really want to push yourself, quit the internet Definitely quit the internet, that's clearly necessary

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:23:26 2023 No.21597501 Do you guys believe there are any concepts that are too complex for any human to understand them? I think economics is approaching that point.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:30:38 2023 No.21597528 Listening to old music I used to listen to in high school brings on such intense emotion I hardly know what to do with it or myself.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:35:03 2023 No.21597544 >>21593182 What's that book about the after life I keep seeing posted about? The one that looks at NDEs etc. - no bible or qu'ran friends pls

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:41:03 2023 No.21597560
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I've been a fan of the Distributist on YouTube for quite some time. His old videos were well put together and presented well constructed arguments, but lately I feel like his videos are just political preaching with some appeals to authority thrown in. It's all so frustrating. For a while he was the only political commentator I could stand and now it's I find his videos obnoxious and abrasive. Does/did anyone here watch his stuff? Thoughts?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:44:33 2023 No.21597569 >>21597501 God and the universe.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:45:18 2023 No.21597572 >>21597569 I understand both fully

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:48:00 2023 No.21597578 >>21597385 Starving yourself can have real damaging impacts on your health. It's not just feeling very hungry. Your hair will fall out and a bunch of other shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:49:49 2023 No.21597587 >>21597578 This. If you're going for extreme self-denial try something cooler like sleep deprivation. You start hallucinating spiderwebs and shit

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:50:05 2023 No.21597589

>>21597335
>To further compound matters, the USA has placed the monetary cost of this conflict entirely on the shoulders of its European satrapies. US-Russia trade amounted to very little not just in the run up to the Russian invasion of Ukraine, but in years prior as well. Europe, on the other hand, has had its arm twisted to reduce trade with Russia over the years to reflect the increasing strain of ties between its American lord and Moscow. Just today, Germany reported a record historical high of 30% producer price inflation, and this was from last month. The blame is laid on skyrocketing energy prices. Just think what will happen if the USA gets its way and the EU approves an embargo on Russian oil (this vote is coming up next week). Europe is seeing inflation galloping across the continent, as the USA just looks on and tells them to tighten their belts to ‘save democracy’, while planning to sell them overpriced American LNG to replace Russian gas which powers many of Europe’s economies. This is a flex.
Yep, Europe is the fall guy for all the economic hardships that come about as trade and diplomacy between Russia and European countries is demolished. And perhaps the most symbolic (and economically and politically speaking the most debilitating) blow to East-West relations was the destruction of the Nord Stream pipelines. Now Germany, and downstream other countries as well, cannot rely on Russian energy trade even if they wanted to. That trade route for gas is now gone for good, and of course Uncle Sam swoops in with the convenient, albeit many times as expensive solution -- LNG. This will weaken Europe's industry and populace considerably while USA will reap the benefits. Over time, unless alternative cheap sources of energy are found, Europe will experience rampant deindustrialization. Industy will move to places like the USA or perhaps even China where costs aren't prohibitive.

It's a sad state of affairs for Europe to get hooked into Washington's machinations. If war escalates, Europe will once again be the battleground. The short-sightedness in policy is palpable.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:52:06 2023 No.21597593

>>21593212
My dad left our Family when I was 10, because he was drug dealer at the time and the police was on his ass. So he went to Argentina, then Bolivia and then Argentina again. In the meantime, he got at least two woman pregnant and made 4 kids. Last time I saw him was in 2020, after ten years without seing him. It was kinda weird and he's still an asshole, who cheats on his wife (whom he has 3 kids) with a 22 years old who lives like four blocks away his house. My brothers are fucking savages and besides cheating, he has also another woman, whom he recently had a baby too. He's a madman and very irresponsible human being, but I somehow admired his freedom. But at the same time, I know him leaving was the best thing, because he's a terrible role model. Nowadays I think his involved in cock figths and drug dealing again.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:54:57 2023 No.21597607 >>21597528 What kind of music?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:55:05 2023 No.21597608 > meet a nice girl > check her social media > she’s a party girl Everytime

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:55:13 2023 No.21597609 I worship three Gods. Kynla, Ahmeh, and Myself.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:58:23 2023 No.21597623 >>21596934 >genuinely smart programming/science/anime nerd lmfao yeah right i'm sure she's super into all those things and totally not posturing you traded the black pill for the blue one. also reddit spacing cringe

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:58:42 2023 No.21597626 I made the decision to be a public servant but 4 years later I’m basically broke and I can’t say I’ve even made much of a difference.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 22:58:53 2023 No.21597627 [DELETED]

>>21597385
i used to train combat sports with a kid who would smoke cigarettes when he did have a fight and then would quit for training camp just cuz he felt the resisting nicotine withdrawal would make more willful. he wasn't near pro, but he had one of the most devestating knockouts i'd seen an amateur do, like the opponent dropped cold like a dead guy. he woke up and walked out of the ring, but everyone went silent when he dropped. that dude was a rich kid too, i guess he was into thrill seeking or needing some discipline since his wealthy family afforded him any material wish.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:01:43 2023 No.21597635 >>21597091 thats that got to do with monday night football

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:03:31 2023 No.21597644 >>21597385 When I got off pills, I quit drinking, smoking, coffee, everything. I moved into a spartan studio apartment. Cancelled my phone bill, my internet, threw my laptop in the trash. Exercised for hours everyday. In retrospect it wasn’t healthy.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:04:09 2023 No.21597646

>>21596934
>very pretty, shy, genuinely smart programming/science/anime nerd
>wet dream of every male loner
That's just you projecting onto her, basically you're having a narcissistic fantasy and not realizing it. It's not that special
She's just mirroring you

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:07:58 2023 No.21597666 >>21597431 can you just fuck off to /pol/ already neither this board nor this thread is here for you to get up on your soapbox. i dont give a shit about your blackpills. doomer boomer pee pee poomer. get bent

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:09:24 2023 No.21597676

>>21593182
i am filled with anxiety today, for no particular reason. the tasks that normally occupy my day, that i would normally have no reaction to, now terrify me. I wonder if I can complete them, or if
i will fail and spiral into a terrible life. there is an unpleasant humming in my chest and my heart is beating rapidly. i tried vaping to calm myself, but the nicotine made everything worse. There are periods of calm, but every 5 minutes the anxiety returns. Financial worries are piling up; the gas bill was especially high last month. my life is fine on paper, however, so why am I so anxious?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:10:13 2023 No.21597681

>>21597544
Why an Afterlife Obviously Exists by Jens Amberts. I too read it after seeing that one anon's posts about it. I remain unconvinced but it was decent food for thought. More crucially I found the writing to be dull and monotonous, with dry repetitions of the same very specific philosophical phrases over and over again bogging down the flow of the book at many turns. The highlight was the quotes of different NDEs from various sources sprinkled across the book which brought some much-needed personality to accompany the author's own writing.

The arguments put forth are persuasive but not compelling enough to make justice to the title of the book in my opinion. For example, Amberts shrugs off the argument that these NDEs could simply be the work of a rattled brain by saying (paraphrasing), 'Even if an afterlife as seen in an NDE is not actually real it might as well be real because deep NDE experiencers invariably become convinced of the reality of their experience', yet this of course says nothing of the actual objective reality of their experience. Still, despite these criticisms I don't regret reading this book. Many intriguing arguments and facts were put forth by Amberts and I was left in wonder of the mind's complexities -- or indeed, the nature of existence -- yet not understood. I just wish it was more concise and more interestingly written.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:11:55 2023 No.21597690 >>21596934 Amazed more anons aren't noticing this is a troon larp

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:12:44 2023 No.21597692 >>21597528 relatable

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:15:36 2023 No.21597706 Why can't we revive ancient Greek boxing?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:18:12 2023 No.21597717
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>>21593182
Post an author/poet/playwright.
Try to estimate their power level.
Did they ever reveal this power level to the world?
Have you revealed your power level about this writer?
I'll start.
>Ezra Pound
>over 9000
>Yes, which is why they went to St Elizabeths.
>Yes; it ruined a date for me and a girl stopped talking to me once I revealed a knowledge in Agasizz and Aryanism.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:19:05 2023 No.21597719 >>21597706 greco-roman wrestling is used by mma ppl all the time. not sure the greeks had a great striking tradition tho.

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:23:10 2023 No.21597728

Try reading this all the way through without vomiting
https://www.forbes.com/sites/brucelee/2023/01/28/no-project-veritas-video-doesnt-prove-pfizer-is-mutating-covid-19-who-is-jordon-trishton-walker/
It's like a cross between a tweet and an undergraduate essay

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:24:33 2023 No.21597732 >>21597728 i'm not reading all that shit, but the video from that incident is pretty hilarious if nothing else

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:28:04 2023 No.21597739 >>21597732 He's literally writing shit like >Umm, yikes much?? How desperate are they for astroturf that they can't get someone better than this

>>	Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:45:25 2023 No.21597809 >>21597728 >Try reading this all the way through without vomiting I did. What's the issue?

Anonymous Tue Jan 31 23:57:56 2023 No.21597860

>>21593182
Some girl I hanged out with a few times tried to kill herself last night. She took meds and went to sleep. I think she didn't do it for attention because she told no one and the dose was letal. She dumped her boyfriend and stopped answering so her now-ex called some guy who lived nearby to check on her. She would've died that night if that guy wasn't there because I didn't bother to move my ass to check on her when she told me she got drunk. I even went to the psych ward to bring her stuff because she has no one else. Feeling like shit right now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 00:08:13 2023 No.21597899 >>21597717 fuck off normalfag

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 00:23:33 2023 No.21597949 i feel dead inside

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 00:36:33 2023 No.21598013

>>21597589
>Americans really think fracking is going to destroy Europe first
I swear sometimes it's like talking to North Korean loyalists.
>alternative cheap sources of energy
You know France supplied nuclear sourced energy to the UK because the UK kept building retarded nuclear plants that didn't even work on paper for fucking decades right? No of fucking course not that would involve you watching anything that wasn't rampant propaganda where France is still somewhere in the middle ages and only America has TV.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 00:58:04 2023 No.21598105 I can suppress any sneeze if I want to. Not sure if that makes me special.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:01:47 2023 No.21598121 >>21597899 He said on /lit/, the most normie board.

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:10:17 2023 No.21598151

>>21598013
>implying fracking is going to destroy countries
lol
>France
Yes I do know France is a major supplier of nuclear-fueled energy. But that knowledge adds no more energy to the European industries which are going to have to get it from somewhere to offset the drop in supply from Russia. So far Europe has come out with plans to buy LNG, and increase muh renewable energy production. Which means in practical terms a sustained higher cost of energy in Europe going forward, which is terrible for industrial competitiveness.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:20:31 2023 No.21598187 I'm slacking so much at work that the manager had to reprimand everyone and issue a whole new set of stringent rules

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:23:32 2023 No.21598200

>>21597681
>Even if an afterlife as seen in an NDE is not actually real it might as well be real because deep NDE experiencers invariably become convinced of the reality of their experience', yet this of course says nothing of the actual objective reality of their experience.
I spent hours arguing with the autist who spams this book about that exact line of thinking. NDEs will never be convincing because they are only ever near death and thus the brain activity denies the possibility for a real experience of death

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:34:18 2023 No.21598246

>>21598200
>brain activity
This part interests me though as apparently no observable consistent brain activity has been yet recorded that could be pointed at as definitive proof of an NDE happening in the brain. So it all remains in the realm of mystery. But I remain unconvinced either way

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 01:42:20 2023 No.21598276 >>21597860 Why did she do it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 02:25:37 2023 No.21598405 >>21598151 >It's fine that our water is on fire and Europe is willing to pay to keep it that way >But what's not fine is a temporary power imbalance to France over Germany in one market This is like Uighurs celebrating a rise in global cotton prices.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:12:24 2023 No.21598585 What do you guys to cheer yourselves up? It's been a rough opening month to the year.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:14:33 2023 No.21598593 >>21598585 i lay in bed listening to audiobooks about history or some other shit like that

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:24:54 2023 No.21598631 >>21598405 two weeks I suppose?

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:32:42 2023 No.21598655 File: 41 KB, 600x422, 9fe25f2a11ae3b8f6fad9fda72f78056.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>21593182 First time reading one of these threads. I now realize there are no intellectuals on this board.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:36:02 2023 No.21598664 >>21598585 I get a big fat in n out burger and I'm rude to people in the parking lot

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:37:02 2023 No.21598666 >>21597860 I can save her

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:49:00 2023 No.21598696

>>21593182
The thing that most scares me about aging is becoming slower in my thinking.
I've seen how even 50 year olds think slower in certain ways, and that scares me immensely because it makes me aware that the time to quickly absorb and learn new things is now while I'm young.
The older you get the last plastic your brain becomes, even if you have more accumulated knowledge.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:51:26 2023 No.21598703 >>21597623 Posturing for what? To attract male anime nerds rather than sports/dance/clubbing Chads? In what world does that make sense?

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 03:54:56 2023 No.21598716 >>21598655 >I now realize there are no intellectuals on this board. It took you this long to realize it, so you aren't one, either.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 04:00:54 2023 No.21598733 >>21598696 anaerobic exercise keeps dementia at bay

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 04:01:07 2023 No.21598735 >>21598696 Luckily the amount of stuff worth focusing on intellectually is pretty small

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 04:10:40 2023 No.21598775 >>21598735 I feel like it's the opposite. There's so much interesting shit out there, and not enough time in a lifetime to ever explore all of it. My reading list would probably take several lifetimes to ever get through it all.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 04:22:39 2023 No.21598804 My dreams are killing me. lf l could take a drug and never dream again l would.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 05:15:15 2023 No.21598889 I miss middle school mass Skype calls with kids from different schools. Honestly a lot of my social development was the result of stuff like that.

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 05:35:14 2023 No.21598926

have you ever wondered why literature is in such a dismal state? why every “award-winning” book is the same shallow leftist tripe, all the modern authors banal and derivative, all the literary communities smiling and awful in their corporate political correctness? many have speculated: oh it’s the jews, the internet, the liberal elite… but gentlemen, I have the actual answer for you today: It’s women.

Have you noticed that 99% of contemporary authors are women, or gay? Have you noticed how all the editors, the agents, the powers that be, are women? It was women all along gentlemen, and no one else.

So why the infiltration of leftist ideology, you might ask? Well, obviously because women are natural sheep for the ruling ideology of the day. Being more submissive creatures, their supple minds are easily molded into whatever gets them the most instagram likes. For indeed, that is the natural instinct of the woman. And with women ruling literature, the writing of the day will follow this vaginal logic. No longer will great risks, bold leaps, or original thinking be rewarded. Instead, the conformist, the motherly, the smooth and uncontroversial will be lauded. Oh don’t get me wrong, experimentalism will be accepted, but only of a certain type: the clever, the gimmicky, the ideologically acceptable experiment, in a word, the mere aesthetic of avant garde. But nothing truly new will come forth.

Literature will die with a wimper, or rather, a queef. It survive, for perhaps a few more decades, the same variations of awful stories circling through culture like used tampons in a toilet bowl. And then like all pursuits, the women will give it up, not having the discipline nor the fortitude, but not before ruining it for us all.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 05:40:31 2023 No.21598940 I have an uncontrollable attraction to flat-chested women.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 05:56:12 2023 No.21598983 >>21598703 not that this is necessarily the case but the logic would be the big fish in a small pond angle

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 05:58:25 2023 No.21598993 >>21598940 are you repulsed by tits or just prefer flat women?

Anonymous Wed Feb 1 06:49:34 2023 No.21599096

In two weeks, I'm going to barbecue inside a small tent with a bottle of whiskey and a handful of painkillers. It is the time where I will be most invisible to the world. I'll let the charcoal reduce to embers, then take it inside, and just go to sleep.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 07:32:49 2023 No.21599227 >>21593182 Nigger nigger nigger.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 07:33:10 2023 No.21599229 It's now that I realise how stupid I was to turn her away. It is entirely my fault.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 08:04:22 2023 No.21599306 >>21599096 Why are you killing yourself?

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 08:08:04 2023 No.21599315 >>21599096 >wake up >permanent anoxic brain damage it's over

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 08:08:25 2023 No.21599316 >>21597333 What would your 2k23 summary of what Land has of relevance and influence be?

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 08:21:12 2023 No.21599350 >>21598926 Was about to call you a Chud and some other buzzwords, but you are literally right desu.

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 09:16:37 2023 No.21599512 >>21599511 >>21599511 >>21599511

>>	Anonymous Wed Feb 1 13:18:03 2023 No.21600219 >>21599229 Why did you turn her away? What happened that’s your fault?

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