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[Anonymous No.21543467]

Rain edition
So, anon, what's it?
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[Anonymous No.21543478]

I barely came here in the last 4 months
life is just as shit, just occupied with a shit job I hate

[Anonymous No.21543480]

university resumes tomorrow and so does my despair

[Anonymous No.21543487]

My coworker yesterday didn't realise how low down her camera was and you could clearly see her sitting in her underwear. The problem is she is the last person on the planet you would want to see in her underwear.

[Anonymous No.21543488]

>>21543478
What's the job? Why is it shit?

[Anonymous No.21543499]

>>21543467
Been reading Don Quixote.

Almost finished the first part after taking a while to get into the groove (been reading tstoy and dostoyevsky the past year lol) and now I'm quite enjoying it. Should I get straight onto part 2 or give it a break before going back

[Anonymous No.21543509]

>>21543467
New interns at work were discussing how much they hate the smell of weed when their neighbors smoke. I’m gonna have to play my cards close with this bunch.

[Anonymous No.21543543]

>>21543467
I do not know whether foreskin restoration is a sin or not.

Being circumcised is brought a great deal of psychological distress and a deep sense of violation and betrayal for a while. The modern version of the procedure is outright mutilation with the complete excision of a highly complex and innervated structure that not only protects the penis from desensitisation and the elements but also facilitates intercourse between husband and wife so that it is not abrasive to the woman. There are a number of studies which highlight how the bare contact of keratinised glans causes irritation and discomfort to the woman and scrapes out all the lubrication that also facilitates the act. The same studies also have women themselves confirm this and the degree of discomfort it brings. Obviously marriage isn’t merely about sex but it is a key part of bringing a man and woman together in a loving relationship and to facilitate fruitfulness. Plus a poor sex will often translate into poor relations in other aspects of the marriage.

I say modern version because circumcision in the Biblical context was only the cutting of the very end of the foreskin so as to leave the overall structure and function together as God designed it (brit milah). In effect, it was a ritual minor cut with spiritual significance and the prefigurement of baptism and the circumcision of the heart as St Paul puts it. It was only when the Pharisees seethed at Jews pulling down their foreskin to enter into Greek gymnasiums that they decided to just cut off the whole prepuce off to make the process of restoration far more difficult (brit periah). Jews themselves admit that the modern iteration is an innovation in their own texts. Theologically, I cannot see the process other than one that destroys God’s design of the human what intentions He had for its function. I view it as a mockery of God.

What also messes me up is the fact that I was strapped down when I was born and had a healthy part of my body excised for no reason and subject to extreme pain. I cannot see it as anything other than a profound violation and mutilation. That thought really messes me up too.

However, I can also see the perspective that foreskin restoration should be avoided due to potentially lustful desires that may arise, that it would take time away from God and that I may be placing stock in things of this world and creating an idol. But then again we don’t condemn a woman who has had a mastectomy to have reconstructive surgery to restore a part of her body. Also my whole intention about engaging in restoration is for me to offer my body to the woman I marry - I have no desire to engage in sexually licentious activity.

I’ve tried to speak to a contact a priest about this via email given that I can’t take to one in person given certain circumstances at the moment but none have responded so I guess I’m just venting here so mock away.

[Anonymous No.21543545]

>>21543467
I just had an amazing date, he slid his hand on my waist. I haven't felt the touch of a man in ages before today.

[Anonymous No.21543559]

Americans are becoming too poor to move to new areas for work. This is a recent trend that isn't discussed very much. But part of the whole 'labor shortage' issue has to do with potential workers being too poor to relocate.

Most normie/wagie jobs do not offer very much in terms of relocation expenses. And until recently, this simply wasn't a necessity, since workers were expected to have enough savings to cover moving costs, to cover the cost of housing/apartment rentals in their new area for a few months, etc.

But this is simply no longer the case. So many workers are living on such thin margins that they do not have the capital required to relocate to a new region for a new job. This reduces the 'mobility of labor,' which is something that has traditionally been very high in the US. Instead, the new model is more like regional serfdom, in which people get locked into specific areas because they cannot finance a move into a new area.

It's an interesting development. Americans are often (correctly) accused of being rootless wanderers with no real ties to specific communities, but perhaps increasing poverty will force more of them to stay in place. Employers got used to having a highly-mobile, on-demand labor force. They will have to adapt.

[Anonymous No.21543627]

why are LGBTQ activists like this?

[Anonymous No.21543641]

>>21543627
Because most gays were abused as children and now repeat the cycle. Pretty sure these people are very very overrepresented in child abuse statistics

[Anonymous No.21543654]

>>21543488
>What's the job?
It is somewhat complicated, the place was originally a cybercafe that had also fixed computers, notebooks and electronic stuff and helped people with internet-related stuff like helping them pay bills online or send emails, but since the space for cybercafes reduced a lot as people had more access to laptops and smartphones, the owner started to offer printing services.
So my job is a little bit of everything, a lot of it is attending the public, sometimes it is helping old people to print some document they need or some small stuff like this, sometimes it is printing photos, menus, small textbooks, sometimes it is creating simple cards, tickets, among others (only simple stuff, most of it is done by a guy that somewhat of a designer)
I'm also the main responsible for implementing a system for managing budgets, prices and orders.

>Why is it shit?
first, attending the public is hell, everyday we get at least one crazy custumer who is just looking to ruin someone's day
second it is a mess and hte owner, who is also my boss, is unreliable, disorganized, lazy and doesn't give a fucking shit about his own business, there is a lot of things that he centralized at himself and that we depend on him to do, but at the same time he doesn't do shit and in the end we are the ones that get to face someone mad because somethign paid for three weeks ago wasn't done or because he's been asking for the price for something and no one answered him
but the rest of the place is also a fucking mess and it is hell to work there because of it and no one gives a shit because everyone there gave up the second week owrking there and now only work in a constant state of apathy
third, for now I have to swallow it because it is the only place that accepted me given my shit resume, so I'm stuck

[Anonymous No.21543678]

>>21543467
Why does the rain push the road toward deeper elegance in the same primary way it makes navigating more deeply treacherous?
Are we able to detect our own values? our own dreams?
are we made of anything but flesh?

[Anonymous No.21543684]

>>21543627
Why do you care what fags do? Fags are in their own world. Methinks you may be a bit of a faggot yourself

[Anonymous No.21543685]

>>21543543
Yeah the process is wrong but obsessing over it is both narcissistic and hedonistic. "Oh noooo my life is over because X small thing happened even though tens of millions of guys had the same thing and they live happy lives and don't care at all".

Idk, I just can't imagine any reality where stressing over it is meaningful. If you are a Christian, pleasures of the flesh shouldn't matter to you.

[Anonymous No.21543692]

>>21543685
Yeah you're right

[Anonymous No.21543706]

>>21543467
What are the literary ramifications of the Big Four pushing BookTok? This is from Penguin Random House’s page.

[Anonymous No.21543708]

I should probably wash up before heading home

[Anonymous No.21543713]

>>21543559
When a company can't find workers they cry to the government at which point, a collection of niggers gets sent to the job site and suddenly the company has billions of dollars of free funding because their ESG score went up

90% of corporations in America are zombie corporations and every statistic the government puts out is fugazi

Quite frankly, nobody in America has to make anything as long as internationally people continue to use the dollar

[Anonymous No.21543728]

It really doesnt take much to make me happy. Even conditions in which most others are miserable are more than enough for me. But even in spite of that, circumstances in my life have all aligned to give me so much shit that I am constantly miserable. I'm not being dramatic or anything. My life has been worse than most peoples. When ever I start blogposting about how fucked up my life is people accuse me of larping. I cannot relate to nornal people my experiences have been so deranged that there is no condition of my life I can be open about without shame and judgement. And it just keeps coming. Every time I go into a new situation, that situation is basically designed to be as harsh on me is possible. I'm like Job. And I'm just so tired of it.

[Anonymous No.21543736]

>>21543706
let's consider. who has control of the situation here? I think it's TikTok, wouldn't you agree? the audience is captive. how much do you see the demographics with disposable income (teens and wives) on TikTok vs on publishing websites? if the algorithm picks up a book, that book will see sales. publishers care about sales, not book quality. I think this doesn't mean much other than the marketing for a book should now shift toward shilling on TikTok. as for literary ramifications, consider the ship captain. is the natural leader the one who is best at gaining power, or the one who is a true navigator? of course those who are excellent at garnering attention have always controlled what books get sold, but this will make this more pronounced. So I presume more poor books will sell well. but hopefully, more people find joy in books. don't be fooled, you are brainwashed too. you get book recommendations from 4chan.

[Anonymous No.21543748]

What aesthetic are you larping as today?

[Anonymous No.21543767]

>>21543748
a loser

[Anonymous No.21543773]

>>21543728
>It really doesnt take much to make me happy.
is that true?

[Anonymous No.21543777]

>>21543767
I said larping

[Anonymous No.21543778]

>>21543773
Yes.

[Anonymous No.21543783]

Any anons who are actually into reading literature in the Philly area?

[Anonymous No.21543784]

>>21543736
>you get book recommendations from 4chan.
That’s a fair assumption but I just like word of mouth. That’s a bit different to algorithms and the fake “discussion” on TikTok even if we aren’t that much better for book discussion.

[Anonymous No.21543785]

>>21543748
business casual. got a few comments about it. i usually dress in very casual clothing. now that you mention it I kinda feel self-conscious about it... why is it odd to my friends when I dress well?

[Anonymous No.21543789]

>>21543748
Today I am my true self. Bitter, miserable, desperate, lonely, going nowhere. An all around sack of shit.

[Anonymous No.21543793]

>>21543784
>That’s a bit different to algorithms and the fake “discussion” on TikTok even if we aren’t that much better for book discussion.
i relent I agree on this point, and I take recs from here as well. i guess what I was getting at is you are not immune to propaganda. and the money machine s really good at propagandizing the spending of money. look at >>>/g/iemg where they spend money on headphones but it seems they almost do it to feel a sense of community.... I'm no better, I spend my money on books and school so I can feel like I am an intellectual, when in reality I am likely just a poor man biding time.

[Anonymous No.21543800]

I feel like the angry cynical little voice in my head has been fed so much big word philosophy and historical materialism when compared to the little voice that says "c'mon, lets do this!" that my entire subconscious is constantly fighting me. My active thinking brain knows it needs to get work done, it knows it needs to wake up on time, to eat well, to work out, to read books, to ACTUALLY GET FUCKING WORK DONE, to make money, etc. but it's all so trite and difficult these days to care enough to not just say fuck it and die of a heart attack. Looking at all the systems I could set up, the self psycho analysis, the occultism, meditation, etc. None of it sparks revelation in my mind. If everything is incremental, then my current brain is battling years of negative incremental affectations. It's like doing anything has become a struggle. I used to work 8-12 hours a day. I used to study til I closed down the library. I used to lift weights up and down consistently. But it feels like the past few years have completely stripped me of that man I used to be and simply fighting against the daily grind steals all my willpower to fight back against the incremental blight that has become my life. Why can't I believe in myself or think I did a good job at anything? Why can't I respect my own little wins? Why is the articulate negative nacy voice so much stronger than the retard that occasionally cheers me on from the bleachers?

[Anonymous No.21543807]

Soon. I will just need to credit ChatGDP to write for me

[Anonymous No.21543817]

>>21543559
Yep time to redistribute the wealth and implement massive taxes and a wealth cap. The fact 3 people on this Earth own as much as 4,000,000,000 means reality has lost touch with itself. Just think about it for a moment. 3:4,000,000,000 is an insane ratio. I bet your tiny moves with your 16kb RAM can't even visualize four billion.

You guys know there's a yacht out there floating in the ocean that's with $4.3bn? The fucker is a tiny little boat covered in gold ass platinum plating. It speaks volumes about our species when it's more important to have a boat than feed millions of people. Another example of the same kind of bullshit: thousands of private planes all flying to one city so rich inbreds can get together for a gangbang while telling us we're polluting the planet. I'm thinking these planes should never be allowed to fly again and everyone who flew in one of these planes should be arrested. Right now. Do it. Or prove we have a society with no morals and therefore it's free for all kill.

[Anonymous No.21543836]

>>21543817
I agree that these excesses of wealth in only a handful of individuals represents an extreme decadence which must be fought but holy shit we need to STOP feeding all these millions and millions and fucking billions of people.

[Anonymous No.21543841]

Is a supervillain sapping everyone's IQ over time?

[Anonymous No.21543861]

Why has coping been memed into being a bad thing? If you're facing some kind of suffering that can't be reasonably alleviated, finding some way to live with this suffering and reduce its weight on your life is only the proper response.

[Anonymous No.21543868]

>>21543748
Underground Man but it's not even a larp anymore

[Anonymous No.21543881]

I unironically fear the development of AI will ruin society. We'll need to come up with some way to deal with easily-produced AI forgeries affecting even regular people, since some Joe will be able to get an AI to easily produce a video of his neighbour cheating on his wife or something. ChatGPT will most likely be better than real humans and we will grow even more misanthropic and intolerant of each other's failings since we'll never live up to the perfect AI friend.

[Anonymous No.21543890]

>>21543793
That makes two of us with the book and intellectual culture... I can't really afford it now I've moved out but there's something almost non-material and anti-commercial about reading to me, but maybe that's cope. Although I have started just going to the library more. I feel like you can enjoy reading without going to uni, but I always had that fear of missing out. It was a huge waste of money.

[Anonymous No.21543904]

I inspired my favorite band, which is relatively popular in underground circles, to make a 28 minute EP. It sounds schizo but if I explained it in real life you would believe me 100%.

[Anonymous No.21543906]

Why do so many people fail to realize that the problem is America?

If you're looking for the source of the rot, it's right here. The coming apart of the social fabric, the shittiness of modern art, the emptiness of modern life, the loss of romance in the world, it can all be traced to this soulless bugheap of a country. I realized this years ago. Why don't more people realize that the United States isn't the solution to the problem, the United States IS the problem?

[Anonymous No.21543942]

Just as much as the monarchies of old became weak and crippled due to becoming genetically isolated and inbred, our current ruling class with their intellectual isolation, have become psychologically inbred.

[Anonymous No.21544044]

Think it's over bros
>Been getting worse and worse headaches
>Pain becoming more frequent
>Getting so bad now I can't read
>Mostly just sleep when I'm not at the wagey factory

[Anonymous No.21544049]

>>21543467
It blows my mind how prudish this place became. Bizarro world

[Anonymous No.21544058]

We're in a bear market thus my life feel stuck

Anyone else? I've been living the black wojack meme for over a year now

[Anonymous No.21544063]

>>21544049
>this place

Porn has never been allowed on /lit/. What do you mean? If you want the real degenerate shit go to the red boards. Hell, go to /trash/.

[Anonymous No.21544066]

>>21543890
My philosophy courses are no help. The conversations we have are so invigorating I genuinely fear the day when they will end.

[Anonymous No.21544097]

>>21543906
The only thing you can really blame on America is immigrants flooding Europe. The other shit would have happened no matter what, let's be honest.

[Anonymous No.21544100]

audible just made a ton of "modern scholar series" lectures available on audible plus for free. there are a lot of good ones relating to literature, history, religion, etc. for example harold bloom's class on shakespeare is now included. they also have stuff like moby dick, great russian novelists, bible as literature, catholic church in the modern age, and so on.

[Anonymous No.21544106]

I think everyone should make a conscientious effort to spend a lot less time online. The internet is boarding up us into loneliness and making us feel horrible. The worst part is it’s so subtle, so many people can’t even tell it’s the loneliness. Get out there: join a club, volunteer, hangout with friends and family. We are social creatures. So many people prescribe bullshit problems and answers but it feels like for some reason this one doesn’t get spoken as much as it deserves to online. Let’s not forget either that they want you to spend more time online, they make money off your attention, your time spent on their platforms. A lot of the narratives you see being spun on the internet are BULLSHIT. I beg you, get off the internet and go do things in the real world. This has helped me immensely and I’ve cut my internet use down to essentials for the most part. I’m honestly just here to spread the word to some anons.

[Anonymous No.21544112]

[Anonymous No.21544126]

I'm going to tell you some life hack secrets tips
>don't spend too long shitting you're giving yourself roids
>if you don't know how to cook and never plan to learn, get an instant pot for $100
>start using saline spray (not afrin kind, just saline) and drink more water to regularly irrigate sinuses and keep throat and chest clear of phlegm and improve quality of life
>blow your nose more effectively by using less pressure but alternating the pressure by slightly manipulating sinus as you blow to jostle more mucus loose
>masturbate as hard as you possibly can for bigger cums, go at it like you're an ape on PCP raping another ape

[Anonymous No.21544137]

>>21544049
>oh no, all the pedophiles are gone!

[Anonymous No.21544141]

>>21544049
It’s the incels coping

[Anonymous No.21544142]

>>21544126
>don't spend too long shitting you're giving yourself roids
This actually explains a lot

[Anonymous No.21544146]

I shouldn't have looked up images of human botflies laying eggs in people.

[Anonymous No.21544159]

>>21543685
Would you say the same thing to woman who underwent female circumcision?
>If you are a Christian, pleasures of the flesh shouldn't matter to you
It's not about getting one's rocks off at will, it's to do with how a husband and wife come together.

[Anonymous No.21544179]

>>21543654
Sounds like a shit job but while you are stuck in it, why not to make something good out of it? Pretend it's like a game. Try to engage with customers, even if they don't give a fuck. Try to make the interactions playful. Ask dumb questions but be somewhat curious about the subject.

Been there, done that. Had a shitty job like that and the owner was an asshole, but if I didn't change my perspective of the situation, I would have commited sudoku sooner or later.

[Anonymous No.21544181]

>>21544159
Not a good analogy - FGM often ruins a woman's reproductive potential while MGM is largely harmless. That's the entire reason why it happened in the first place, it allowed male Christians to have sex when the time came but discourage them from doing it for fun.

Does anywhere in the Bible say "Sex is supposed to feel really good"? Probably not. Your entire religion is about denial of the flesh, if anything you should be happy the doctors made it a little easier for you.

[Anonymous No.21544205]

>learnt Japanese because they seemed to have a deep culture
>turns out it was smoke and mirrors
>they're like china but more consumerist and less nationalist
>they make the same lame jokes over and over
>they don't understand irony
>any complaint about japan is taken very personally
>they'll never say their genuine thoughts outside of anonymous message boards
>can't tell if they're being friendly or just polite
>they love aesthetics but can't conceive of art as anything but pretty pictures or sounds
>authors like Dazai or Akutagawa are viewed as pretentious and ignored, labeled as high class crap for westerners
>they're atheists, but not in a rejection kind of way; more like a "I never even considered it" sense
>all they really talk about is anime or current events
Maybe my next language will go better... I'm thinking French or German

[Anonymous No.21544232]

The recent innundation of propaganda on the Internet and TV has made me rethink how common it was in a past. There's no way that propaganda wasn't shoved down our throats 24/7 in the past. I was just too young to remember it.

>>21544181
>Does anywhere in the Bible say "Sex is supposed to feel really good"? Probably not. Your entire religion is about denial of the flesh, if anything you should be happy the doctors made it a little easier for you.

St. Paul talked about how married Christian couples should have as much sex as possible due to the temptation otherwise to have sexual relations outside of marriage and hence violate the marital bond. He made an exception for the case where the man and woman explicitly gave up sex for spiritual renewal , the implication being sex is supposed to feel good for men and women, but it is only non-sinful in a context that is within marriage and open to being fruitful("multiply and be fruitful") and centered around genuine love. This is in 1 Corinthians 7 or 13. He also said circumcision is unnecessary and possibly even sinful to force any Christian to go through in Acts. Really, you should have the self conttol to not have sex outside of marriage as a man. Agree with thebpoint on FGM though. Basically, you are supposed to deny the pleasures of the flesh but only the ones that can and will lead you astray from God. Marital sex is perfectly licit form of pleasure that God demands a man and woman joined in holy matrimony partake in since that was always part of His plan anyway, so long as the union is aimed towards marital union and fruitfulness( i.e. the man and woman being joined as one flesh and aiming towards the poasibility of having kids).

[Anonymous No.21544237]

>>21543881
I feel you bro. But I know the answer: To develop an intrinsic distrust of anything that doesn't elevates the human spirit. And to push for it. AI assisted or not.
But have in mind, most people are sheeps, if they believe in politics, they will believe in whatever bullshit you put in front of them. So is our responsability to make people aware of the dangers of AI and how it WILL BE used to manipulate society (whoever doesn't thinks it will be used like this is our enemy: the technocrats and their misled subordinates).

[Anonymous No.21544249]

>>21544181
There are different types of FGM so that's not even true in most cases. But no worries, let's remove the clitoris because that doesn't actually contribute anything practical to conception and childbirth anyway.
>That's the entire reason why it happened in the first place
No it wasn't, it was a mark of the covenant with Abraham. You're superimposing Victorian/Kellog's morality onto it who adopted the Pharisaical practice so as to stop self-abuse which it of course didn't. The theological implication of what you're saying is that God made a mistake in creating the organ in such a way because it would lead people to sin yet God's creation in Genesis is declared "very good".
>Your entire religion is about denial of the flesh, if anything you should be happy the doctors made it a little easier for you
That's just plain wrong:
St John Chrysostom
>Their intercourse accomplishes the joining of their bodies, and they are made one, just as when perfume is mixed with ointment
St Gregory the Theologian
>Are you not yet married in the flesh? Do not fear this consecration; you are pure even after marriage
I do not disagree that self-denial is necessary. Indeed during fast periods for example the couple must abstain from sex. Same with prior to receiving Holy Communion. The position you're taking is anhedonic and almost gnostic. And like I said, sex is NOT the foundation of marriage and any marriage grounded upon this is doomed to fail. Sex in marriage was intended by God to bring man and wife together in love facilitate fruitfulness. It goes hand in hand. Moreover, as I am unmarried, it is incumbent upon me to struggle against this passion especially given the spirit of the age - that I do not deny for a second.

[Anonymous No.21544256]

>>21544232
Decent argument
>>21544249
Not so decent argument

Not really going to bother arguing though. God isn't real; none of this matters.

[Anonymous No.21544257]

>>21544256
My argument is virtually identical with his what are you on about?

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[Anonymous No.21544276]

>>21544205
You should've learned some Japanese history first. Literally the most popular stuff in Japan today is taken from the West, from manga (designs are taken straight from Disney, early American cartoons) to games (Wizardry, Ultima, D&D, Tolkien, Arthurian fantasy, European Middle Ages, Mario is Italian), zombie media based on Romero, American superheroes (My Hero Academia), European Golden Age of Piracy (One Piece), especially from the US.

[Anonymous No.21544279]

>>21544205
I remember when I started to learn japanese and after a year of good steady progress I realized it was a shity culture that didn't appealed to me so I abandonded it because I would never have a real use for it. No regrets taken. Fuck the japanese people and their culture. You will always be a gaijin. Learn russian or any other language is better really. Also, fuck their shitty kanji system, truly a bullshit convoluted writing system that primes memorization rather than logic.

I used to watch anime back then, I was a stupid kid. Now I cringe at the idea of wasting time on passively watching empty entertainment or playing videogays. I still waste time (like I'm doing now) but even writing this is more insightful than watching mindless animus.

[Anonymous No.21544296]

>>21543467
Abortion should be mandatory out of wedlock and within city limits, if the city's population is greater than 50k. If you get divorced then any children must be late-term aborted.

[Anonymous No.21544300]

>>21544205
I feel you. I've gotten more interested in Filipino culture. I still plan on learning Japanese but that's more for the sake of listening to Japanese rock/metal bands I think sound nice like Ningen-Isu, Show-Ya and Kaori Kawamura/SORROW along with possoble shitposting on 2channel. Otherwise, my interest in Japanese culture is nonexistent. I plan on learning Spanish, Tagalog and Hokkien since I find the cultural miscegenation in the Phillipines very interesting. It's like the various cultures blanda'd up to create something unique.

[Anonymous No.21544313]

>>21544276
Well, they did have woodblock prints which are beautiful. Their architecture is gorgeous, their food is great. The Japanese have an uncanny ability to express beauty better than pretty much any other culture. However, the buck stops here.

Contrast them with France for instance. Both cultures share a reputation for beauty, but in French works we find strong dynamics between beauty and the ugly; with life and death. French art is a means of exploring ourselves. I feel that Japanese art functions more as a quick little pressure-release valve for the pressures of their society: Everything is optimistic and cheerful because modern Japanese life really grinds you into the dirt. Maybe pre-Meiji Japan is different, I honestly don't know. I wouldn't be surprised if their art and literature was way better in that period.

>>21544300
I can tell you about 2ch if you want to know. Mostly it's not that interesting

[Anonymous No.21544319]

>>21544300
I am an extremely racist white nationalist and I am utterly convinced that Filipinos are some of the best people on earth. What happened over there? They're surrounded by shitty peoples or, at best, mundane but decent peoples, and then they're really cool.

[Anonymous No.21544345]

Some time ago, in mid-late November, maybe early December, I told myself I would stop using this website and only come back when I've done something meaningful with my life. I have yet to do anything like that. I don't think I ever will. To think that I can do something more than waste my life away in front of a screen ought to be considered as delusions of grandeur. I've returned here because it all seems hopeless again.

>>21543480
University starting again has eliminated some of my despair since it gives me something to do, having to go to class keeps my sleep schedule straight and gives me a reason to take care of myself, but I hate seeing everyone else on campus with friends or partners. I'm a bit glad that those people can be happy and sociable but I'm also incredibly envious. I can't even do one of the most basic human actions of finding someone to spend time with. I feel like I'm in a foreign world anytime I go out in public. It's pathetic and embarrassing.

[Anonymous No.21544348]

>>21544313
How is 2channel like? I don't think it's some mystical Japanese hacker den, but I am curious what it's like.

>>21544319
I just imagine that unlike their neighbors, they were heavily colonized by Spaniards and Americans later on in addition to having large groups of Chinese peoples come in. This combined with the areas native Austronesian populations and Christianization via Spain, leading to a common shared history and culture between all the various groups despite some linguistic and cultural differences, which created a natural unique identity for the Fillipino peoples. I mean, Thailand and Vietnam were also heavily colonized by European powers, for some reason they don't have that same shared cultural history that Fillipinos do. They also are just naturally family-oriented and have a lot of cool cutural relics from ancuent Hindu/Buddhist, Muslim, Hispanic and Austronesian sources. It's just a very vibrant culture that's gone through a lot and still keeps on going. It's something that I'd love to experience before I die.

[Anonymous No.21544363]

>>21544345
i feel you, anon. there is nothing worse than only leaving your room for food or class.

[Anonymous No.21544401]

>>21544345
Anon, dont fuck this up. Go outside, join a club, make friends. I was in your boat 6 years ago and it wrecked me so hard thaf I'm still making up for it

[Anonymous No.21544416]

>>21544348
2channel is mostly like 4chan, but with the following differences:

- Everyone is Japanese
- The site is text-only, organized like a forum so instead of baiting people with pictures you bait people with funny thread titles
- Over 95% of users post from their phone because the desktop interface sucks, there are PC clients but they're less popular nowadays
- 2ch was the biggest site on Japanese internet for many years, so it has the reputation of a "dying site" as more people move to Twitter- it was never the site for nerds like 4chan is (the Japanese site for nerds is futaba)
- 2ch has over 1000 boards but only like 10 are actually used
- All they talk about is current stuff: Seasonal anime, dramas, world cup, food, porn
- The site is way less funny/interesting than 4chan, no one uses irony or wit but still tons of dumb arguments and schizos
- They do have lots of buzzwords though like 4chan and force memes a lot which can be funny I will admit, the newest one is 弱者男性, "weak male"

The main thing that strikes me is how "simple minded" they feel. "You can talk about anything - why do you guys only talk about anime, food, and being a NEET over and over?" Now, I still think there are some Japanese people with really interesting and deep personalities. It's just Japanese culture which is, I hate to admit it, kinda shallow. It's like seeing the world in 2D.

[Anonymous No.21544417]

>>21544313
I agree. I think ukiyo-e is great (more interesting than most Western art of the time), I think they're much better at minimalism than the West, and I love sushi/sashimi, etc. I'm just referring to the popular culture you'd experience through modern Japanese language (which you don't really need for visual media or for eating).

[Anonymous No.21544438]

>>21544416
>You can talk about anything - why do you guys only talk about anime, food, and being a NEET over and over?"

I think if you only visited /a/, /tv/, and /v/ here you would leave with the same impression.

[Anonymous No.21544450]

Ive been so horny lately bros. I'm not sure why but Ive been more horny than Ive been in years

[Anonymous No.21544480]

>>21544417
Well their stuff isn't that derivative. Like I said, they specialize in beauty and sentimentality - stuff which Western art doesn't even focus much on now. Studio Ghibli is great in a very Japanese-specific way.

>>21544438
There is no Japanese /lit/ - only about 10 boards are populated on anonymous chans and they all discuss politics, anime, live streams, etc.
A little /lit/ discussion does happen on small boards, not much though. Maybe it's good discussion, who knows.

[Anonymous No.21544481]

>>21544416
>Now, I still think there are some Japanese people with really interesting and deep personalities. It's just Japanese culture which is, I hate to admit it, kinda shallow. It's like seeing the world in 2D.

Yeah. The only exceptions I can think of off the top of my head are Kaori Kawamura and Joe Yamanaka, who were both hafus (Kaori having a Japanese father and Russian mother and Joe a black Army father he never met and a Japanese mother) who had tough lives due to their status as a hapa in Japan and had a lot of experience with the world at large and put that experience into their music. I'm pretty sure there are more like them (even outside the realm of music), but over all, I think Japanese people are just too small minded in general about the world and everything in it in addition to being extremely materialistic.


I think this might have been different during the Meiji era, but the lead up to WW2, the actual war itself and what occured duting the war and afterwards permanently scarred the Japanese psyche due to the introduction of mass consumerism and the centering of life aroubd one's job and money rather than community/family and tradition. To be fair to Japan, that's very similar to a lot of problems the West is facing: traditional Western culture has been undermined by the same force of hyperactive consumerism and globalism that have effaced a lot of Japanese culture as well. The only difference is that we don't notice it in Japan since we don't live there.

[Anonymous No.21544494]

>>21544480
Howl's Moving Castle is literally a British novel.

[Anonymous No.21544523]

What is it about small countries with modest literary traditions that predisposes them to developing this boring style of indignant political anger and excessive concern with real or imagined political issues? I don't dislike it because I disagree with the author politically but because it is extremely one note and boring, I dislike it even when I agree with the author. Like holy shit why do you need a France or England-sized tradition to have writers and poets who actually explore various topics and emotions besides feminine hysterics? I can't handle all the yellow bile spilling fucking everywhere. It's like if you have nothing new, unique, or interesting to say the next best thing to do is to whine about your politics.

[Anonymous No.21544534]

>>21544205
>authors like Dazai or Akutagawa are viewed as pretentious and ignored, labeled as high class crap for westerners

If you're still around anon, who should I namedrop as japanese authors I read if I ever visit japan and want to impress japanese art hoes? Or should I namedrop western ones?

[Anonymous No.21544535]

>>21544481
Had no idea about those two people, interesting, will look them up.

Re: The Meiji era and WW2, you remind me of the Anpo protests
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anpo_protests
It's interesting how they seemed to have so much defiance and pride, and how this gave way to apathy and complacency as Japan became an economic superpower. Still, it's hard to believe the nature of Japan changed so much over a century.

Honestly, I think this simple world view is just part of the Japanese character: Their version of Buddhism is basically a stripped-down form of Mahayana which rejects extensive scripture, is skeptical of rational thought, and believes apotheosis is found not by adding up, but by stripping away. So they inherited the "Truth is found in simplicity" idea while we inherited all the Christian ideas. It's a theory anyway

[Anonymous No.21544549]

>>21544535
Not the anon you replied to but it always seemed odd to me how the japanese were idealized as a people who managed to hold on to their traditions in some semblance unlike the rest of the industrialized world. Turns out they did so only by hollowing their traditions out and retaining nothing but their shells.

[Anonymous No.21544565]

Food is one of the most interesting topics of discussion if only because as soon as I start to speak/think about it, I become duped into ravenous hunger. I needa comida.

[Anonymous No.21544572]

>>21544534
Japanese girls are tricky. Most of the hot ones won't date foreigners - those who do are either crazy or massive whores. I had a short e-romance with a Japanese BPD girl, she was a great character but believed I was cheating and ended up blocking me. Honestly what you wanna do is just go for the Japanese normie look - literally look up what's trendy in Japan and then buy those clothes, also be skinny and shave your facial hair.

Really I wouldn't recommend it. Japanese girls don't like short flings that much - they avoid Westerners because there's a stereotype about the Romeo that acts like he loves you, fucks you, then takes a quick flight home. So the good Japanese girls won't even give you time of day unless you live there and plan to stay. Even then, very few of those relationships work out, there are too many differences.

If you just wanna fuck one I'd try and find a gaijin lover desu

[Anonymous No.21544574]

>>21543467
There's not enough hours in the night

[Anonymous No.21544584]

>>21544574
Move to Utqiagvik, Alaska.

[Anonymous No.21544586]

>>21544044
If only age knew

[Anonymous No.21544596]

I was wondering why I couldn't hear audio out of my left earbud: it was caked in earwax.

[Anonymous No.21544597]

>>21544572
>Honestly what you wanna do is just go for the Japanese normie look - literally look up what's trendy in Japan and then buy those clothes, also be skinny and shave your facial hair.

Interesting, I heard advice that recommended the complete opposite and leaning into the foreignness of your presence exactly because you'll never not stick out among the japanese as a gaijin even if you dress like they do. Made all the harder if you're relatively well built (not a popular look among men over there from what I gathered) or particularly tall.

[Anonymous No.21544600]

>>21544584
That's a clever response and I want to thank you for it with a reply but I can't think of any good banter at the moment. So I typed this instead.

[Anonymous No.21544608]

>>21544597
If you just want hot/cute asian girls on holiday, head to China. Chinese women have upped their game a lot the past few decades, but Western men are still kinda rare so you have a competitive advantage.

[Anonymous No.21544618]

>>21544608
What sort of point deducement in a woman's social credit score is sex with a gwailo worth in china, I wonder?

[Anonymous No.21544620]

>>21544618
meant to say deduction

[Anonymous No.21544629]

>>21544618
As long as it's not anti-government shit they don't care
Hell I barely even have a sex drive but if I ever find my way to China I'm definitely doing it
Modern Chinese girls are just as hot as Japanese girls really

[Anonymous No.21544674]

>>21544345
University has caused me nothing but despair. My major is useless, I hate commuting, I have no friends. I come home to do nothing but dread my next commute.

[Anonymous No.21544678]

What if aliens are as disgusted by us as we are of cockroaches?

[Anonymous No.21544689]

>>21544205
Consumerism really fucked Japan. It’s actually quite remarkable. Out of any country in the world Japan was most severely transformed by Western media like this anon >>21544276 points out. Not only is their economy largely focused on entertainment and media but none of it is even original. Japanese artists that critiqued Western influence in the country are pretty much extinct, most Japanese casually accept that they’ve disgraced their ancestors. There is no modern equivalent to Mishima or Kawabata or Ozu. They just jack off to lolicon anime porn, study all day and work in offices.

Korean artists on the other hand are extremely critical of Western influence and consumerism so we get films that are modern classics like Parasite and Burning. I wonder if Korea will end up like Japan, a country totally stripped of ambition and dignity. It’s already mostly there but a handful of filmmakers are doing a lot of heavy lifting.

[Anonymous No.21544716]

>>21544689
Korean literature and cinema are better than Japanese right now. But they have a problem with Kpop (they do have great folk music, obviously pop music is every country but Kpop is like Jpop to Japan and its idols), soap operas, plastic surgery (highest per capita worldwide), LoL.

[Anonymous No.21544728]

>>21544716
Yeah their culture is horrific but like I said they have a few artists that are resistant to the encroachment of consumerism, particular Lee Chang Dong. In the end Korea will probably suffer the same fate with its overall culture though. Japan had incredible artists up until the explosion of television and video games in the country around the 1960s-80s, then they dumped all their resources into that shit and shunned artists like Kurosawa

[Anonymous No.21544743]

>>21543748
St Petersburg Russian Silver Age Symbolist Decadence Fag

[Anonymous No.21544760]

>>21544689
You might like this rant on /trv/ I found some time ago, he has some uncommon complaints about Japanese culture that are interesting
https://archive.4plebs.org/trv/thread/2214857/#2217033

I haven't read all his works, but IIRC Soseki deals very explicitly with the Meiji transition and what it meant for society. I've only read Kokoro, it's touched on lightly from what I remember but it's not a main point of that one. But yeah, it is striking how they can just uproot their entire society and pretend it's the same thing by wearing a similar coat of paint. The status quo is definitely set against doing a Western self-reflective style look at this, because in Japan if the higher-ups and society tell you to do stuff you just do it. There has to be some great stuff written about it though, I'm sure.

[Anonymous No.21544775]

>>21544480
Ghibli films are ripped straight out of old Eurokino but then again who cares?

[Anonymous No.21544777]

>>21544760
I think nips are uniquely vulnerable in the current era. If all of the sudden their society decided to import millions of foreigners to counteract falling birth rates no one would even protest - and pretty soon their country would be unrecognizable.

[Anonymous No.21544798]

Killing myself today. My dad is going to call me at around noon. I might do the deed just before so I can hear his voice one last time. Thank you /lit/ for the book recommendations. You guys are the reason why I started reading so many years ago.

[Anonymous No.21544804]

>>21544798
Don't kill yourself.

[Anonymous No.21544809]

>>21544798
Why do you want to kill yourself anon?

[Anonymous No.21544813]

>>21543684
Why are you defending pedophiles?

[Anonymous No.21544840]

>>21544798
Your dad will be devastated. If you care about him, don't leave him.

[Anonymous No.21544876]

Is this edition of Plato's Republic good? I just want something that includes all the books and isn't secretly abridged like several other copies I've seen. Any recommendations from Amazon? Republic + Laws would also work. I prefer the Benjamin Jowett translation.

[Anonymous No.21544903]

>>21543467
Anyone here have advice for dating a woman 8 years my senior?

[Anonymous No.21544932]

I'am thinking of fully giving into the spite and hate festering inside me.

[Anonymous No.21544958]

>>21544903
Drop her and find someone atleast 10 years younger than you

[Anonymous No.21544997]

>>21544903
Yeah, don't. She's gonna have a lot of baggage and misplaced expectations. Like this >>21544958 anon said, find a girl who's decently younger than you. They prefer it anyway.

[Anonymous No.21545051]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.21545054]

I Was Emanated Into The Sensible World By The World-Soul Contemplating The Intellect And The Demiurge Is Also My Childhood Friend?!

[Anonymous No.21545109]

>>21544678
No, the bigger question is why are animals not disgusted by our flabby oily skin? They always seem pretty down to being pet by us.

[Anonymous No.21545115]

Reading Jung is excitement is extremely depressing. The man dedicated his entire life to some pseudoistic notions, failed in his outset, materialised almost no written useful knowledge, and is hailed as a great. The human experience is a scam, I am convinced there is no reward for being anything more than nothing.

[Anonymous No.21545120]

>>21545115
*Is extremely depressing
Stupid autocorrect

[Anonymous No.21545176]

>>21543467
Turner Diaries got banned at your school, go read it.

[Anonymous No.21545186]

>>21545115
>almost no written useful knowledge
archetypes are useful.

[Anonymous No.21545189]

>>21545186
Not his idea, and also extremely obvious. I think we all had the concept of archetypes without investing a life's work.

[Anonymous No.21545191]

>>21543467
that's truly a beautiful painting

[Anonymous No.21545201]

Why can't garbage calart studios making the next zogslop get firebombed by a schizo while those cretins are locked inside?

[Anonymous No.21545211]

>>21545186
And by the way, it's no longer good enough to ramble uselessly page after page. Tick tock humanity, competition arrives. This goes for most subjects too. Have some craftsmanship you dumb pseuds. Stop cozying up to pretend complexity and ""mysterious"" things.

[Anonymous No.21545214]

I hope humanity fails, honestly. Go on. Give me a show.

[Anonymous No.21545238]

I remember /lit/ pre- culture wars. I miss it, bros

[Anonymous No.21545244]

>>21543467
It feels a bit hypocritical to advise someone not to commit suicide when I don't plan too live too much. I guess it has to do with the fact that most people aren't acting rationally, and while I can be certain that I am, I cannot be certain others are.

[Anonymous No.21545255]

I hate women.
Entitlement doesn't even begin to describe it. it verges on total delusion. To the point where they'll write in explicit terms on their profile that they're not interested unless you're a movie star with a perfect personality (by which they mean they'll put up with all her juvenile mentally ill bullshit) -- and then you look at her photos and it's this over-the-hill soccer mom with a potato head, every photo filtered to the point of absurdity -- her body shielded from the camera or presented in angle fraud with boob filter applied -- and you know this cunt is pushing her mid thirties, and you just sit there astonished that anyone could lack self awareness this much.
Then you realize that this is the norm, that it's not even an anomaly, and it's like what the fuck man. They assume everyone is enamored with them, but I feel towards these people are revulsion.

[Anonymous No.21545287]

>>21543684
fucking NONCE
rope yourself
you pedo faggot bastard

[Anonymous No.21545291]

>>21543748
chav

[Anonymous No.21545302]

>>21545255
Don't care didn't read plus you're male

[Anonymous No.21545317]

>>21544232
Before the radio and then later TV things were different, even moreso following the barely decades old public Internet. Modern media is less than a century old, the effects of consuming it are still unknown.
Perhaps you will enjoy Marshall McLuhan...
https://youtu.be/0pcoC2l7ToI

[Anonymous No.21545321]

>>21544798
minecraft

[Anonymous No.21545330]

>>21545255
job listings are like that all the time. some lame company you never heard of wants "masters, 10 years c++, five years machine learning, must have proven record of shipping products, strong knowledge of android internals" blah blah blah. you know they aren't gonna hire anyone even near that. it's just a way to gaslight you when you get to negotiations, and in the case of dating, it's way for them to pretend they have high standards.

[Anonymous No.21545335]

>>21545317
This is amazing, thank you anon.

[Anonymous No.21545351]

>>21545317
based mcluhan poster

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21545367]

when the pendulum swings it cuts

[Anonymous No.21545377]

How do I stop being a tryhard individualist
How do I stop caring what other people think
How do I find beauty in art and how do I find enjoyment in things
I have never cried because of a piece of art
I dont understand poetry
Or music
I cant sit through an album
I am not obsessed with films or video games
I have no deep knowledge about anything
I just scroll and coom and live in a hive of passivity

[Anonymous No.21545379]

someone asking in an offtopic thread that will probably be deleted what the source of a cropped image was from. you can tell it's fall of phaeton due to the horse and carriage in the background which is reminiscent of michaelangelo's but this is an etching so must be later. in fact it's by hendrick goltzius and it apparently at the mount holyoke college art museum.

[Anonymous No.21545425]

I want to pursue studies in theology, but I'm worried that it will be a waste of time and money in the end.

I have a bachelor of science in economics. The first thing I'd look at is a master's in theology, but I would also consider doing a bachelor's first.

[Anonymous No.21545426]

>>21545377
youre a hylic. condolences

[Anonymous No.21545447]

>>21545377
My friend you need what the kikes in psychology call a 'psychotic break' to jump start your unconscious.
Kill a deer and slaughter the animal, leave the sinews and scraps for scavengers but take home the venison.
Eat a good dose of magic mushrooms, make a big fire, offer the venison as a burnt offering to nature's God.
Tell NOBODY what you see in your vision.

That's what I do when things become stale, really livens things up y'know?

If this seems strange then as a precursor you need to leave the towns/cities they are sad and Jewish places, you cannot become Enkidu in those places.

https://youtu.be/mwohk4ZT4R0

[Anonymous No.21545474]

>>21545447
based sun ra poster

[Anonymous No.21545477]

>>21545474
one of my favourite poems
https://youtu.be/x2JR0Jzu8Vg

[Anonymous No.21545490]

I am strange,
my mind is tinted with the colors of madness,
they fight in silent furor in their effort to possess each other,
I am strange.

I have approached a degree of love that is so unwise,
In one world that it is wisdom in another,
I am strange,
I no longer have respect for hate,
I'm stronger than hate.

I'm contemptuous of both those who hate and those who destroy,
I'm not a part of the world which hates and the world which destroys,
I want a better world and not only do I want a better world,
I seek to live a better life,
that I might have a right to be a part of a better world,
if I hate and destroy I have no right to speak of love,
love is greater than hate,
and I have chosen love above all else in the world.

I am strange,
I know a secret truth,
I have a secret rendesvouz,
and the wind touches against my window pane,
come with me! it says, come with me,
I am a force, you are a force.
We are brothers.

Though I am invisible, I cover the leaf when I unravel, no wall can hold me,
nothing can withstand my will. What is your god? What is your desire?

Come my brother, you are dear to me, I cannot come to you in full force,
for you are too weak to contain me, I might lift you from the ground and frighten you,
at this careless moment, I might drop you in my jaw that you want me to come to you,
I cannot approach you in your weakness, I am too strong, come to me! as cautious as you will,
I will accept you, for the spirit of man is more like myself than anything on earth.

All the most I think I am the power for the spirit of man,
for the spirit of man is strong,
no power on earth is greater and no world can contain it,
it will cover the breadth and the width of earth,
for like I, the wind, an aroused spirit is greatly to be feared,
but weapons of that you will cast invisible,
only fools seek to harm the wind,
only fools seek to harm the brother of the wind.

Come spirit of man, I will take you to new worlds,
I will take you to inner unseen worlds,
greater in splendors than anything life contains,
if you are fearful, you will die in your fear,
but if you become as I you will be strong and do as I,
I the wind come and go as I choose,
and none can stop me.

[Anonymous No.21545505]

>>21545490
Weird that this was written by a hateful ass nigga

[Anonymous No.21545528]

>>21545505
Masonic library was the only one letting him inside, it shows.
>He performed regularly at a masonic temple in his home town of Birmingham, Alabama, and – according to his biographer John Szwed – was a regular at Birmingham’s masonic library, one of the few places in the city where African-Americans had unlimited access to books.

Sun Ra's 'living myth' is far more eddifying than most consumer culture and completely /lit/.

https://youtu.be/Y-DH4cDUVLo

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2014/jul/02/secret-jazz-freemason-history-duke-ellington-sun-ra

[Anonymous No.21545710]

>>21543785
Don't let them stop you anon, it is odd to your friends because it is a change and the standards for how men dress are so shockingly low that putting in the slightest bit of effort is highly salient. Keep dressing respectably and you will grow into it and look like you belong in those clothes. I started dressing more business casual daily in my 20s and it's incredible the change in perception it creates. I wear button up shirts from uniqlo tucked into basic pleated pants and just from that some people get the impression I'm old-money aristocracy. Keep it up, clothes make the man

[Anonymous No.21545740]

How do I allow myself to feel?

[Anonymous No.21546039]

>>21543467
If you'll permit me to be a trifle crass?

[Anonymous No.21546094]

What will you do? Will you participate in the divine image and in the hypostasis of monad and indefinite dyad? Or will you participate in the image of the other, and the corrupt union of one and many in the formlessness of unorganized matter, the anti-quintessence?

[Anonymous No.21546099]

Heart attack or heart burn and anxiety?

[Anonymous No.21546101]

>>21546039
>>21546039
very well, I wrote some story:

She became frustrated soon after the marriage. She couldn't bring him to climax easily, and when she pressed he brought up those strange knickers fantasies that she blocked out in her mind like uncle no-no nightmares and bunny killing for dinner in farm forest. She snapped into a smile as he enumerated the numerous events in his day, then explained in detail their granular procedures and consequences, his hollow insect feelings surrounding daintily the mundanity of his repetitive suck-off life. Fat, he came, angry, crying.. She looked askance at her guest in light of the recent cum event, he likewise turned his gaze askance at her. The other two in the room became askance and everyone flickered at hum speed in this mood at each other until a scream and distant mortar explosions, in sequence extinguishes the light then sets the scene for the end of the scene.

[Anonymous No.21546132]

My single biggest regret is entering working office life. I think I can tolerate this for a few more years, but no more.

[Anonymous No.21546225]

Another day of getting paid to do almost nothing. I'm a former manual wagie and this tech shit so based it's unreal. Read a whole book the other day on company time. Today, cleaned my kitchen, watched some comedy shit, did some cooking, lifted weights. Did maybe an hour of work. I know that all things must have an end but this coasting era is comfy af and I'm here for it.

[Anonymous No.21546228]

>>21543467
I'm really angry, and I don't know why

[Anonymous No.21546239]

Every solitary man who still craves for societal connection should do one thing for his own benefit. He should just lunch himself into socializing like a nuke.

What you will discover after """socializing""" I that there is literally nothing special about whole normal faggot bullshit. To be honest whole thing is disgusting and not worth your time. It is same when anons say to incels that they should have sex to see there is nothing special about sex.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.21546327]

new Wikipedia looks so bad, how the fuck does a design like this get approved. way too much padding

[Anonymous No.21546358]

I've never used the word ostensibly but I would like to some day.

[Anonymous No.21546359]

>be 24
>haven't had friends since I was 14 due to mental illness
>tried countless times since but it doesn't work, can't connect to people anymore
>go drinking with people to loosen up, but still can't connect
>don't really feel emotions or loneliness but imagining i'll never socialize again is vaguely sad
Maybe I'll get cured, by a miracle start socializing in my 30s or so
I dunno what to think about this, there's no guide for this kind of problem

[Anonymous No.21546406]

I've never met an intelligent person with tattoos.

[Anonymous No.21546468]

I spent all day yesterday ruminating bejng miserable and today I woke up sick.

[Anonymous No.21546475]

>>21546327
Why the fuck wont you watch Ginger Snaps 2

[Anonymous No.21546500]

Every tripfag on /lit/ fights to the death. Who wins?

[Anonymous No.21546508]

>>21546500
assuming total annihilation i'd say the wider community

[Anonymous No.21546515]

>>21543467
I'm too tired to do anything this evening. I don't know how my father could juggle with so many women and have a very active train of life AND work from tuesday to monday every day of his life. Was he some kind of superhuman? I'm forcing myself to talk to people because I wouldn't do shit and would never advance otherwise, but it is getting hard to handle. I fucking hate pretending I'm fine. My friend said I became bitter ever since my breakup. I think only a sincere hug from a beautiful woman would cure my pessimism and my whining habits.

[Anonymous No.21546632]

>>21546225
I just finished year 4. I’ve been over it for 2 years now. I’ll probably quit before April.

[Anonymous No.21546650]

Someone was rude to me on the internet and I am crying in real life right now. But it's ok since he apologized. I'm too emotional.

[Anonymous No.21546651]

She smokes, "You don't like it? Must suck."
I shake my head as blood continues to rush up my throat and mouth, sputtering in quick motions out of the nearest holes it can find. From a
outside perspective, it must look like somebody is perodically trampling a bottle of very liquid tomato sauce. Or chili perhaps. She looks elsewhere.

Up until a few seconds ago, I had no clue an adult human could bleed liters of blood in such a short amount of time. Staring at the dark-colored blood leaving my body and smoking on the cold pavement, I can certainly attest I saw the miracles of nature today.

She meets my eyes again, "How about I sit there and watch you die?" she asks. She's wearing a skirt reaching a little bit above her knees and is squatting next to me, which means I can see her panties. Her van's are getting completely soaked but she doesn't give a shit. She only gives another puff to her cigarette. I try to nod but I don't have the strength, so I do a little up and down eyes movement instead.

She gets it and comes closer so she can exhale her menthol-scented cigarette on my face. So close. Heat spreads in my chest, is it happiness? Or is it because it's so cold outside? Her eyes never leave mine as I drift into obscurity.

[Anonymous No.21546695]

[Anonymous No.21546752]

>>21546651
>smokes
>wears vans
Yikes

[Anonymous No.21546761]

>>21544205
I learnt German because I love German culture (and because I have German ancestry) and found basically the exact same thing.
>turns out young Germans have zero interest in their own culture and literature.
>they're obsessed with hiphop and everything American
>they hate their own language and bastardize it with words from English and Arabic
>they will constantly ask you why you bothered learning German and why you like Germany
>there is a seemingly universal opinion that German women are ugly and Syrian women are beautiful
>they complain constantly about their own country and have zero appreciation for the fact that it's basically a paradise compared with everywhere else.
That being said I don't regret learning German because it's a genuinely beautiful country and the older generation still has a real sense of pride and love of high culture. It's just in danger of being lost to their extremely stupid youth.

[Anonymous No.21546767]

>>21546761
Zoomers in all western countries are the scum of the earth.

[Anonymous No.21547005]

>>21546767
The Eastern zoomers are also same thanks to tik tok and Instagram.

[Anonymous No.21547009]

Why are the people who consider themselves the champions of free thought the ones with the safest and least diverse set of views?

Why are the people who consider themselves the champions of free speech the ones who are the most ardent censors and inquisitors?

But most of all, how do they not feel some sort of cognitive dissonance due to these contradictions?

[Anonymous No.21547027]

>>21546761
>they hate their own language and bastardize it with words from English and Arabic

Maybe it just hit my ear wrong the last time I heard it for an extended amount of time but parisian french absolutely has this arabic intonation and cadence to it now. Especially compared to the kind of french people from paris spoke 50+ years before that you can hear in movies, radio, etc.

[Anonymous No.21547066]

>>21547009
it's an interesting question..
I get the feeling they see no potential in the ideas and see themselves as a curator.
Perhaps the sheer amount of information now available has created archivists and copyists with low capacity for creativity?

[Anonymous No.21547070]

>>21544205
>>21546761
This is why you should learn a dead language instead.

[Anonymous No.21547117]

>>21544798
Talked to my dad. I've decided to not kill myself.

[Anonymous No.21547127]

>>21543467
I fucked up my back lifting, it healed, and I fucked it up again doing the same lift within a week.
Don’t get old it’s not worth it.

[Anonymous No.21547137]

>>21543487
I WFH’d for months without realizing that the field of view everyone else saw was somehow larger than the one I saw of myself on the screen. On one side there was a line of a pile of clutter/trash “shoved offscreen” that was clearly visible the entire time.
Zoom is evil.

[Anonymous No.21547140]

>>21543627
For every one of these there are a thousand cases of straight parental rape, but keep clutching those pearls

[Anonymous No.21547235]

>>21543559
I mean more and more work is becoming remote so it's a bit of a moot point if most office monkey jobs are about to move into your home.

I think you're going to see a mass exodus from cities, at least in the US as remote work takes over.

[Anonymous No.21547251]

>>21543861
You aren't facing insurpassable suffering. Thinking you are is actually cope.

[Anonymous No.21547287]

>Get 3 day ban for “replying to off topic garbage” that was up for an hour
>Decided to make a post after the ban, knowing it’s off topic and It’ll probably get moved to /bant/, probably result in a ban for being off topic. W/e.
>Discover rule 8
>It is literally against the rules of this site to complain that the mods don't mod
Holy shit. And people on here cry about the Reddit mods power tripping.

[Anonymous No.21547310]

>>21543467
4channel needs a spin-doctor
Instead of saying "remember your here forever"
Say "In filth you'll find it."
It makes the website sound more like treasure island than a prison drama. Like there's sometimes a golden nugget hidden within the shitposts. But you have to get your hands dirty, by going to the red boards to become a shitpost reading master.

[Anonymous No.21547315]

>>21547287
You must be new here.

[Anonymous No.21547322]

>>21547137
This is why you chuck a background filter on no matter what

[Anonymous No.21547348]

It's comical how much I'm spinning in circles. There is a blindspot in my head, I can't grasp the maze I'm inside. Yet each repeating error feels like a fresh, brandnew decision. Yes I figured it out this time! No I didn't, I already thought that about 5 years ago.

[Anonymous No.21547364]

I've always been neurotic, but now there's also the physical manifestation when I start shaking uncontrollably.
I'm just 24 yo.

[Anonymous No.21547367]

What happened to our education?

[Anonymous No.21547381]

>>21547364
>just 24 yo
I turned 23 relatively recently and feel old

[Anonymous No.21547405]

>>21547381
I'm a different anon. Turned 24 recently. It's really fucking with my head. I bet turning 30 is a real mindfuck

[Anonymous No.21547421]

>>21547348
This is where you leave a yarn to find your way back out.

[Anonymous No.21547432]

>>21547315
I just don't read the rules. Even if I were new here, who gives a fuck? It's all a waste of time.

[Anonymous No.21547444]

I've done it I created a solution to the incel movement, it's to dedicate your life to acquiring knowledge instead of a gf. Now I'm a knowledgecel and my islam larp will commence.

[Anonymous No.21547458]

>>21547381
>>21547405
yeah bruh 24 hit different my dude we old af fr no cap sheeeesh

[Anonymous No.21547471]

>>21547458
Nah, it's a natural consequence of my life circumstances - not the number per se
>t.23 anon

[Anonymous No.21547475]

>>21547458
Fr fr

[Anonymous No.21547482]

>>21547432
>knowing rules is a waste of time
nvgm

[Anonymous No.21547492]

>>21546761
Honestly the German youth are fully German at heart. Germans are idealists: They want - more than anything - to believe in something. This is joined with a level of naïvete or reckless abandon; they will dive headfirst into any new, mystery future so long as it promises hope to them. So they gave us Martin Luther, Hegel, Marx, Nietzsche, and Hitler. But in 1945, something drastic happened - the German youth told that their own culture was evil and wrong. So did they abandon their idealism?

No: They looked elsewhere. Germans are ubiquitous online, and distinguished by a fervent desire to embrace things like Hip Hop - not because it's the trashy hedonistic spectacle that it actually is, but because it is portrayed as some valiant rejection of the mores of American society and police violence, and it's considered deep.

I don't mean this to be patronizing, if it appears that way. Germans are my favorite nationality, I love this trait of theirs. It brings a degree of sincerity and passion to their art which most nations can't even muster. German existentialism is much better than the French existentialism because they truly want the answer. And I feel this quest of theirs epitomizes the whole human race - who doesn't feel like something is missing to life? We all share the same problem, they just understand it most clearly.

[Anonymous No.21547534]

>>21543654
That is so weird to read, I had exactly the same job while a teenager with a boss who sounds exactly the same. This was a while ago (10 years) so people did use the Internet cafe but they were all unbearable. One guy used to come in to Skype with teenage Filipino boys and shout "I love you" to them. I occasionally Google his name to see if he's arrested but nothing so far. I once tried to tell my boss to report him to the police but my boss said that money was money. The same boss would send me out to get his lunch every day - a plain subway sandwich with just cheese and two plain mcdonalds mcflurrys. I hope you can get a better job soon, even just ordinary retail is better than thar.

[Anonymous No.21547541]

>>21544876
Laws is fucking horrible. It includes hilariously self indulgent shit like Plato's armchair civil engineering about the best layout for a city. You might hope "ah but it's a metaphor to illustrate some philosophical point, like how the constitution of the Republic is a metaphor for inner justice" and you would be wrong. I say this as someone who has reread many of Plato's works and consider him a really valuable thinker. Don't read Laws.

[Anonymous No.21547590]

>>21543467
I have a job shadow tomorrow for a book press, and I think I'll either not show up or if I do just purposely make a mess of it or fuck with them. After looking at the trash they publish, I've exactly zero interest in working with them, so I figure might be fun to just screw with them in some way.

[Anonymous No.21547638]

Until we achieve individuation every act we engage in is a wish. This is the new idea I’m working on.

[Anonymous No.21547645]

What do young women today even care about aside from casual sex and careerism

[Anonymous No.21547647]

>>21543559
How much does one need realistically to move?
I was thinking about moving to New Mexico, since i've nothing keeping me where I am and recently landed a remote job.

[Anonymous No.21547648]

>>21545379
weird coincidence there are actually a bunch of hendrick goltzius etching coming up for auction at christies and relatively affordable too with estimates in the low four figures. now i'm paranoid.

[Anonymous No.21547657]

>>21547645
I tried to answer but that covers it honestly

[Anonymous No.21547663]

>>21547645
Same things they always did and men still care about the same things they always did. A lot of people could do with some reminding as to what we are and what we need. There’s a wealth of literature to consult on the matter.

[Anonymous No.21547668]

One is Many; Many, One
One is All and all is One
This is All, that as well
This is all there is to tell.

[Anonymous No.21547669]

>>21547668
you are a pseud and the pseud is you

[Anonymous No.21547673]

>>21547669
the pseuds were right.

[Anonymous No.21547674]

>>21547673
the pseuds are always wrong. it's the dimwits who are right

[Anonymous No.21547676]

>>21547674
I guess that makes you right

[Anonymous No.21547677]

>>21547674
then I'm a dimwit, not a pseud

[Anonymous No.21547686]

>>21547677
Nah that's definitely pseudposting. 90% of /lit/ posters are pseuds, midwits, or dimwits. "One is all" is firmly in the pseud territory.

[Anonymous No.21547687]

>>21547645
girls just wanna have fun

[Anonymous No.21547696]

>>21547686

[Anonymous No.21547709]

I don't like reading philosophy as much as I like doing it myself
I think most of the pleasure comes from having realizations. Being told things is the opposite of that, unless the text is written in such a subtly magnificent way as to make the reader realize stuff for himself without being told.

[Anonymous No.21547712]

>>21543467
Why do I keep coming back here? Every time it’s worse than expected

[Anonymous No.21547715]

>>21547687
(By fucking Chad and being corporate slaves)

[Anonymous No.21547784]

hard time overcoming executive dysfunction, finna throw everything away because retard

[Anonymous No.21547848]

>>21546359
I have the same problem. No friends since middle school, and just graduated college still friendless.
I've had opportunities in classes and a few occasions, but I just always stay aloof. There was one guy in a class I took in a small class on Modernist lit. who would kind of try and chat me up, but I just remained detached from everyone.
Partly it becomes this self-perpetuating vicious cycle where I remain detached because I'm afraid of the others realizing I have no friends, but the longer I go without friends the more shameful the lifestyle is and the more incapable I become at connecting with people. And it becomes a part of how I perceive myself, which other people readily pick up on.
I remember I did a couple product tests of a social media app, and in both cases the woman I was talking to gradually realized that she was talking to a friendless weirdo shut in.
I could see it on her face once she realized, a look of horror, bafflement, and disgust like she was looking at some strange new type of insect.
It's always the same look.
To get friends you have to pretend like you are the kind of person that has friends, because if they ever find out you are friendless or don't use social media you will immediately be viewed suspiciously or as a weirdo. So the longer one goes friendless, the harder it becomes to ever be accepted.
I'm at a point where I feel like maybe my only option is to accept being a hermit, but I've a feeling down the line I will regret taking this path.

[Anonymous No.21547903]

>>21544798
kill yourself faggot

[Anonymous No.21547908]

>>21547117
double kill yourself double nigger faggot

[Anonymous No.21547919]

>>21546752
She's also smoking menthols and doing upskirts so author anon is writing about a loli who is a killer. It makes much more sense if you imagine a teenager

[Anonymous No.21547927]

Any anons here have experience in the California State Universities? I'm transferring into one soon and I'm not sure which to pick

[Anonymous No.21547983]

Read books in a foreign language that you don't know.

[Anonymous No.21548010]

Is there a name for this rhetorical technique where you praise something you "should" dislike (if you judged them wholly in accordance with your principles) in order to lend credibility to your attack on a third party? Like enlightenment philosophes praising muhammad and islam in order to hammer away at christianity even harder despite the apparent contradiction that if they were wholly honest with their criticisms, islam wouldn't fare the slightest bit better than christianity.

[Anonymous No.21548013]

Architecture is everything.

[Anonymous No.21548029]

>>21548010
Yeah it's called being retarded

[Anonymous No.21548127]

>be tsitsipas
>be greek
>play against someone called griekspoor
>greekspoor
pottery

[Anonymous No.21548132]

>>21548127
woops thought i was on /sp/

[Anonymous No.21548137]

>>21548132
This is a free for all board. Make yourself comfortable

[Anonymous No.21548163]

>First was the goal-directed agency of ancient vertebrates, then came the intentional agency of ancient mammals, followed by the rational agency of ancient great apes, ending finally in the socially normative agency of ancient humans.
What's next?

[Anonymous No.21548182]

>>21543467
I believe that if there were a group of honest intellectuals who could review a person's list of favorite artwork, aspirations, accomplishments, and goals, it would be appropriate to determine whether or not someone is worthy of living. I have a tendency to create lists of my favorite books, art-house films, documentaries, and more, and I write many analyses as well. However, I am aware that this is superficial in some ways, due to the limitations of thought and abstraction, but I am unable to resist this behavior. Why should someone be judged based on things they cannot change, such as their race? Would it not be better to judge them based on their lists, relative to others? Is there something wrong with quantifying and breaking down a person's character in terms of various metrics?

I consider myself an intellectual. One moment of suffering from me is worth the lifetime of blood of the common people. This is because I possess a much deeper and richer metacognitive awareness.

[Anonymous No.21548213]

>>21548182
>I believe that if there were a group of honest intellectuals who could review a person's list of favorite artwork, aspirations, accomplishments, and goals, it would be appropriate to determine whether or not someone is worthy of living
This sentence disqualified you from being intellectual. You're also a total bitch.

[Anonymous No.21548219]

>>21548182
Good bait

[Anonymous No.21548235]

>>21548213
Your list is probably inferior to mine, which indicates a lack of metacognitive awareness.
>>21548219
I am 100% serious.

[Anonymous No.21548241]

>>21548182
>>21548213
>favorite artwork, aspirations, accomplishments, and goals
favorite artwork, passions, and accomplishments*

[Anonymous No.21548247]

>>21548235
My favorite painter is Norman Rockwell, my favorite writer is Anais Nin, my favorite band is The Dogstars, my aspirations are to be content and spread my seed as much as possible. Am I fit to live?

[Anonymous No.21548273]

>>21547590
Based. Tell us how it goes.

[Anonymous No.21548281]

>>21548247
It's not good to ask me because I am biased.

[Anonymous No.21548296]

>>21547492
WOULD BE A SHAME IF A VILLAINOUS PARASITIC HOOK NOSED ELITE WERE TO DESTROY THEM AND THEIR CULTURE

[Anonymous No.21548299]

>>21548247
>>21548281
But yeah, I think you have trash taste and goals in life, but in order for a better assessment, you'd need a longer list with a bigger circle of intellectuals to pass unbiased judgment.

[Anonymous No.21548324]

I feel worse than I have ever felt before. The girl I am in love with in my uni (same major) is now dating my friend from the same course. And basically everybody knows I am in love with her. This is humiliating. How am I supposed to endure this situation for the next three years? Every school related thing from now on is going to be pure agony for me.

[Anonymous No.21548330]

>>21548299
What if I changed my favorite band to Hootie and the Blowfish? The Dogstars I made up

[Anonymous No.21548337]

>>21548324
You don't love her, you're infatuated with the idea of her at best and lustful at worst. At any rate, it's a mental idol. Wish your friend the best and if you can't handle it then just distance yourself a bit until you can get closer to him again without hurting yourself. It sounds like you'll do something stupid if you stay around them too closely.

[Anonymous No.21548341]

>>21548330
I dislike you. To receive a more accurate assessment of your worth, it would be best to have a group of intellectuals evaluate you, rather than relying on one biased opinion. To me, you appear as a transparent, wispy haze, and I am not interested in further communication.

[Anonymous No.21548346]

>>21548341
Oh yeah? Well, your mother cheated on your father with niggers, and one of the niggers beat you with the retard stick when you came out of your mom’s butt

[Anonymous No.21548354]

do you guys ever just get this urge to

[Anonymous No.21548367]

>>21548182
>I have a tendency to create lists
Are you a woman?

[Anonymous No.21548376]

>>21548247
>My favorite painter is Norman Rockwell
........
Mfer likes cheesy postcard paintings. Yeah im gonna say not fit to live.

[Anonymous No.21548377]

>>21548324
Sometimes I regret being a loner and wish I partook in social groups with all their ddrama. Then I see shit like this and remember why I was so misanthropic all this time

[Anonymous No.21548380]

>>21548341
>it would be best to have a group of intellectuals evaluate you
But who would evaluate the intellectuals?

[Anonymous No.21548388]

>>21548367
Creating lists with the intention of being both elite and honest is a masculine act.

[Anonymous No.21548392]

>>21548388
Sitting down and wriritng lists of stuff you like is what women do

[Anonymous No.21548403]

>>21548392
98% of women's lists are crap. The list of an intellectual man far surpasses any woman.
>>21548380
>But who would evaluate the intellectuals?
World Economic Forum

[Anonymous No.21548407]

Schopenhauer and Zapffe are right desu

[Anonymous No.21548408]

Books should cost $1/page.

[Anonymous No.21548411]

>>21548403
Being heavily into making lists is an unironic sign of autism. Your disorder would lead to the group of intellectuals giving you the needle

[Anonymous No.21548413]

>>21548403
>ranking lists by listing them
You are a woman

[Anonymous No.21548418]

[Anonymous No.21548420]

>>21548413
>>21548411
Show your lists. I bet they're trash like your minds.

[Anonymous No.21548426]

>>21548420
Oh shit! A showdown of lists!! /lit/ hasn’t been this exciting since elephantanon

[Anonymous No.21548433]

>tfw no Black Swedish gf literate in Arabic
My romantic desires grow increasingly esoteric

[Anonymous No.21548439]

>>21548420
I'm not a woman so I dont have a bunch of lists on hand

[Anonymous No.21548443]

>>21548439
You will be chipped.
Your list will be in that chip.
There is nothing you can do about it.
And I will be the first to scan and determine your worth.

[Anonymous No.21548444]

>>21548420
Even if this wasn’t corny as fuck, there’s be no point. We both know you would disparage any list put forth and deem yours better so let’s just not do it and save both of our time

[Anonymous No.21548454]

>>21548443
This is the weirdest power fantasy I have ever seen

[Anonymous No.21548459]

>>21548444
Human social interaction is obsolete.
Lists are superior in determining the worth of a person.
Lists of values.
Lists of favorite artwork.
Lists of all books read.
Lists of goals in life.
Etc...

[Anonymous No.21548468]

>>21548454
When I was a kid, I didn't bother with trivialities like social interaction.
I just showed a list of my favorite things asking if anyone shared intersecting interests with me.
I made friends this way. Even got married.
Accept the beauty of the lists.
I have many lists. Many, many lists. I am always looking for friends. When I scan you, that will be the time of judgment.

[Anonymous No.21548592]

DAMN IT I WANT A GF FUCK FUCK FUCK

[Anonymous No.21548615]

>>21543467
Why are the covid unvaxxed mostly men than women?

Why were women more likely to get the vax than guys?

[Anonymous No.21548629]

>>21548615
Why are you obsessed with vaccines? You realize you have to take them if you participate in society? Schools, army, etc. It is very weird how the covid vaccine became political. Anytime anyone talks about it through that lens I instantly disregard them as a sheep blindly listening to their tribe

[Anonymous No.21548643]

I've recently been wondering if, to write a masterpiece, you need to go through some col or tragic stuff to pull from when you write. To that end I'm thinking about throwing my life into turmoil for a few years and coming back from it to make myself a better writer

[Anonymous No.21548795]

Every year goes by, the years get faster and the days feel emptier. Years of my life, gone by, pointless, empty, wasted.

[Anonymous No.21548798]

>>21543467
Why were females more susceptible to getting the covid vax than males?

[Anonymous No.21548802]

>>21548798
Because women are retarded

[Anonymous No.21548815]

i wonder if i have one of those new weak ass covid variants. i'm just tired and sleepy all the time and get random headaches throughout the day. when i wake up in the morning one of my nostrils is slightly stuffy too.

[Anonymous No.21548878]

>>21548815
Back in the old days we would call that a cold

[Anonymous No.21548888]

It is time for medicine rather than complaint.

[Anonymous No.21548894]

>>21548798
>>21548802

Are you going for a pants shitting record here or applying for a special ed scholarship? You subhumans killed your own family members with this fantasy nonsense and yet you're still doubling down. I laughed when your uncles, aunts, grandparents and parents died on the ventilator, I'll laugh when it's you next.

[Anonymous No.21548986]

>>21548815
I'm super glad the covid I got lasted only a couple days and have had no long covid symptoms. Unvaxxed btw.

[Anonymous No.21549093]

I've decided to write here my inner experience. I hear music in both my ears. I feel the keys of the keyboard on my fingers and palm, the wooden desk on my palm and wrist, the plastic armrest on my left elbow, the seat on my butt and thigh, the floor on my left sole and the right side of my right foot, the wetness of saliva filling my mouth occasionally forcing me to swallow, the glasses on my nose and behind my ears, my arms on my chest, my balls on my leg, tingling sensations on my scalp, the slight burn in my eyes from looking at a bright computer monitor for a long period, my chest expanding and contracting, air pushing through my nostrils, the inside of my mouth on my tongue, the cloth of my clothing on my skin, itchiness on my right shoulder, my body getting colder, unaware of how fast time is passing, upright from the ground and stationary, full from eating, and a bit thirsty. I see my computer screen, a web browser, the video game Old School RuneScape in a transparent window using RuneLite and my character chopping magic trees, and the words I type in the once blank field labeled Comment before posting. I don't really smell anything. I'm generally aware of the universe and that there's many things in it that are happening as I have my own subjective experiences. There's speech in my thoughts composed of my own voice about the words I type and reflections on what to type.

[Anonymous No.21549108]

Someone should write a book on the nature of suffering, like An Anatomy of Melancholy but more on the nature of willpower and struggle

[Anonymous No.21549111]

>>21549108
kek, I have some notes on that but I realize it's way too fucking schizo at this point to be salvageable.

[Anonymous No.21549219]

Living is such a straining task. Even though one may find many things to be pleasurable, it in no wise makes up for life's peculiar "qualities." For one, every single moment that that one is not distracted by trivialities they are bombarded with increasingly obsessive thoughts about injustices. The heat of their obsession with injustice reaches such a degree that, from time to time, they are not sure what would happen in the moment. A rash decision to enact justice may bring some minor virtue, but it would result in such a negligible effect that in a moment or less the injustices committed elsewhere would be so great as to make the justice undetectable. True retributive and justicial acts require long term planning and an ability to tame, for however long is necessary, one's rage against injustice.
The plan is, principally, to relieve oneself of bearing conscious witness to the grievances of the world, but also to inspire lasting change. The wait is so long. Each and every day one feels like surrendering their self to the peculiarities, until some other injustice comes to their mind and they are forced by will to press on. One cannot allow oneself to be freed without having done anything to save the multitudes from the suffering that they are unwittingly subjected to or subverting the greater sufferings to come by political and technological developments. Living is worthless, and if it can be exchanged for, if not a certain good, an infinitesimally small chance to avert great suffering, then it is morally impossible not to make the trade.
At the same time, one may not be free from their material desire, and is subjected to a still greater torture of uncertainty. Fears pull the mind in a multitude of directions, tearing it apart and further aggravating that desire to "surrender." This is not a fear of being wrong, but a selfish fear of one's own duties. There is in it, a desire to shirk the duty of reducing suffering by having it reduced, so to speak.

[Anonymous No.21549285]

It's my 29th birthday today. Is there anything good to read on your birthday?

[Anonymous No.21549289]

>>21549285
Happy birthday Mr. Aquarius.

[Anonymous No.21549295]

>>21549285
play some cool games instead

[Anonymous No.21549302]

>>21543467
I had a sudden realization. At around 10 years old I started to become extremely verbally abusive towards my siblings. Every time I finished raging I would go somewhere private and nearly get to tears with shame and regret for what I had done. I knew I was wrong while doing it, and I knew I was wrong afterwards. At around 13-14 I realized my rage was growing rapidly and I would soon be unable to control it, and made a conscious effort not to ever verbally, emotionally, or physically(luckily never did this, but I started thinking about it near the end) harm family. (My family noticed and started relentlessly embarrassing me with comments such as "Wow you're so sweet now!" and "You changed so much!")
Starting around 16 tensions in my family were high because of other reasons and my rage started growing out of control. After my father threatened to kill me with a knife once and a gun another time, I planned to commit patricide and suicide, double homicide and suicide, etc. I hated what I was becoming and cried nightly wishing I were normal. I resolved again not to become a piece of shit again and also to commit suicide (for unrelated reasons, but also because I felt like a monster). Long story short a bunch of shit happened, I ended up in psych, and now I'm here. (psych made things much worse, unrelated though)
I wanted to apologize to my family for being abusive towards them, but I could never bring myself to do it. I felt like the reason must have been pride or arrogance and it made me feel like even more of a piece of shit, but that never seemed quite right. While lying in bed just now, I realized the real reason I never wanted to confess. I am fucking terrified of opening myself up. I don't want them to think I'm emotional about any of this, or that I care about them, or any other thing.

[Anonymous No.21549306]

>>21549289
>>21549295
Thanks. I got drunk and high tonight with two buddies. We all cheers'd at midnight. Tomorrow I'm doing some more drinking and smoking with my bestie who was here tonight. We hung out outside the entire time l'mao, and got pizza, smoked cigarettes, smoked joints, smoked bong rips, s few poppers. I'm honestly surprised I'm not too wasted to type this.

[Anonymous No.21549336]

>>21549306
Did you also suck each others cocks?

[Anonymous No.21549385]

>>21543467
There is a remarkable cruelty in people who deny the importance of beauty, and insist that some vague and ill-defined "inner beauty" or "beauty of the soul" is of greater relevance in explaining life outcomes.

It flies in the face of all the studies that have been done on it, that establish that already from infancy, beautiful babies receive more attention and love all the way up to adulthood. It flies in the face of the studies that establish that beauty matters not only for romantic prospects, but academic achievement and career as well.
Most cruelly, it puts the blame of the failings of ugly people on themselves in the most demeaning manner, implying them to have decidedly ugly souls, rotten souls, repulsive spirits, as that is the remaining explanation for someone who denies that physical beauty is less important than inner beauty. In one move, you have given false hope to uglies, as well as implicitly blamed the consequences of them being born with the wrong looks on their character.

There really is some wanton, almost delighted cruelty in it, though I am not sure it even registers to the people who regurgitate thought-terminating platitudes about inner beauty.

[Anonymous No.21549392]

>>21544179
thanks, I'll try that

>>21547534
thank you
and jesus christ, what a horrible story, I hope that guy went to jail and that you boss paid for helping him

[Anonymous No.21549428]

>>21549302
Sounds like a typical coming-of-age story.
>t.American

All joking aside—I can relate with you to an extent, and although this is unsolicited advice, and a small piece of my own experience and sentiment regarding such feelings—when the right time comes along, don't be afraid to spill your emotions and share what you just said with those family members.
You may even feel embarrassed and like a fool the next day, but believe me when I tell you that you won't regret it, unless you're the type to overthink everything (which you seem to be, but you should still do it anyways). If you're still alive 30 years from now, you'll regret not getting that shit off your chest.

[Anonymous No.21549477]

>>21549428
Thanks for the advice. I will never do that though. It is something I am unshakeably certain of. Everyone in my family knows me as stoic, arrogant, but mostly nice and humorous guy that isn't afraid of anything at all. My little brother and sisters all look up to me too.
I have never and could never tell anyone anything. Even on an imageboard I don't say certain things. The word "vulnerable" is something that physically repulses me when I type it out.

[Anonymous No.21549482]

The same people who are vehemently "anti-racist" would have just been "racist" if they were living a century ago. They are followers, rather than thinkers.

[Anonymous No.21549522]

>>21549482
depends, there's always a super woke percentage of the population, there were people in 1850 who were happy their daughter was rimming niggers and believed black people were equal to whites (which less than 10%, probably less than 1% of people believed).

The average anti racist normie though (who probably hates china and repeats all kinds of propaganda about it because msm says so), yeah.

[Anonymous No.21549552]

Kill all jannies. Tracking down and murdering jannies isn't immoral, allowing them to live is.

[Anonymous No.21549583]

>have to boot up TOR and wait a billion years trying to access whichever mirror isn't being nuked by DDoS to download a book off of z-library
I hate zoomers so much its unreal

[Anonymous No.21549609]

>12,000 smug techlibs laid off at google
oof bummer, learn to code i guess

[Anonymous No.21549624]

>>21549583
You could use that time to shit out all the poop in your asshole, you stinky fucking shithead.

[Anonymous No.21549625]

My dad sent me a link of a 3 hour Shia lecture where the speaker mentions a scenario about a non-believer who became religious. His story jumps from "something must've created the universe, must be GOD" to "the prophet said such and such". How can a theologian present such infant reasoning, with such a? Is this a common occurrence with proselytizing maniacs?

[Anonymous No.21549628]

>>21549625
>with such a?
I'm too tired(drunk?) for this, editing was cut short.

[Anonymous No.21549661]

>>21543467
---- Solaria ---
771
(Creature Comforts)

There's a certain grandeur, elegance, an almost insane luxury
About the far Western conditions I'm used to.

I can hardly feel the weather even from the perspective of this small town,
Huge cottonwood stands vague in the distance

From a sweetly humming car at night, interiors placid beyond belief in this colossal grid,
Massive archives desultorily kept,

Memories of thousands of faces, names, maintained
As if with the permanence of

Constellations, the human sense of music, the best or our species,
The best of everything like the Earth floating in space

And seen as such, singing forever,
Haughtily, comically suave, remotely sociable

As the sun seems to be.

[Anonymous No.21549756]

God...

[Anonymous No.21549781]

>>21549756
What about him?

[Anonymous No.21549791]

>>21549624
>be zoomer
>find out about something really neat but illegal
>publicize it as loud as possible and with the full-spectrum tools of modern mass media to snitch as effectively and fast as possible
>wonder why people hate you
ay lmao fr fr no cap go on with zero pussy and die at your earliest convenience from a straigt bussin fent overdose my brother in christ

[Anonymous No.21549794]

>>21549756
It's not so bad
https://youtu.be/UAuh16uG7Vc?t=130

[Anonymous No.21549811]

new
>>21549808

[Anonymous No.21549812]

>>21548235
>>21548241
>"Intellectual" immediately falls for this other anon clearly trolling him >>21548247 while I'm asleep in bed having called him a total bitch
This isn't helping your case.

[Anonymous No.21550103]

>>21544523
hahah da nisi srbin/hrvat/bosanac mozda

[Anonymous No.21550651]

>>21545176
Yo Stevie! I really liked your book "Rage"!