Write What's On Your Mind

[Anonymous No.19191897]

Write What's On Your Mind

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[Anonymous No.19191938]

>>19191897
Where the xi Jing ping of weed smoking?

[Anonymous No.19192050]

does anyone else really struggle to talk about books verbally? its not just with literature sometimes i really struggle to find words to talk to people in general. I'm much better at expressing myself over writing but its still frustrating because I feel like some people have walked away from conversations with me thinking i'm stupid because i cant speak a coherent thought without stuttering and stumbling.

[Anonymous No.19192075]

>>19191897
I wish I hadn't forgotten to eat breakfast in my rush to leave for work. Probably gonna end up either starving or gobbling up my leftovers early.

>>19192050
Try organizing your conversation like a simple paragraph in an essay. Briefly address the topic and build on it with supporting details.

"Did you like Book X?"
Important step here: take a second to think.
"I enjoyed reading Book X, but it didn't have much depth to it. For example, when..."

[Anonymous No.19192210]

Why don't people ever speak a sustained language in speech most of the time? I always feel like I'm getting a little dirty when I use a vulgar expression or a popular turn of phrase. However, I can see that people like to speak well and they all try to answer me in the register I use except for those who are really embarrassed to speak strictly. Why do people have so little self-esteem that they do not apply themselves to eloquence when they look at it with great deference?

[Anonymous No.19192215]

Has anyone actually refuted CS Lewis? What if the super ego is just God? And the devil exists in the ego? The ID is original sin?

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.19192239]

An anon asked me on the other thread concerning Michel Henry, Jean-Luc Marion, Francois Laruelle.

This is not an easy and quick thing, I would say the major development of them is around two major topics, the question of what is “I” and its phenomenological-theological implications and the source of “I” in the given. Henry’s analysis will broadly demonstrate and elaborate on the point that the “life” in the experience and the I is the real presence of the Holy Spirit, Marion will further the Husserlian and Heideggerian reduction to the given, putting it prior to ego, object, being and all other categories, laruelle will make the given and the source of the given in the real his primary method of overcoming what he calls auto-position. Auto-position is the major problem of all systems of philosophy in that they will either make the one thing/truth something which is a part of the system which replicates/unfolds itself and thus binds it to time, reason and so forth, Laruelle would argue all models prior to the non-philosophy model approach the one from a position divided from the one thing, by asserting the primacy of the given we approach a much more radical theory of the unity of God/nature, since it has never split, only been divided by means of reason and this methodology would be one such remedy to it to without having to forsake thought in a kind of apophatic mode. Laruelle’s work obviously is much vaster than this because he’s trying to develop a philosophy that is ontologically beyond all others, containing them as all products of the auto-position of the one/real, just strands of possible conception, various divisions of the one. I believe by direct integration of Hegelian/boehme’s ontology and the aussersein ontology of meinong we can push laruelle’s model even further and not even need to necessarily reject the products of auto-position.

[Anonymous No.19192286]

Going a little bit extra ROM on leg extensions makes them burn like hell. Holy shit i cant walk

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19192291]

WOW. WOW. WOW. WOW.
https://youtu.be/RHa07adEmOg

[Anonymous No.19192299]

>>19192215
Can you tell me what reading material you're working off of.

I never really bought into Freudian philosophies, but the id, ego, and super ego might have been the sliver of his work that I can understand and get behind.

[Anonymous No.19192338]

>>19192291
You cant get n floweri from a vape

[Anonymous No.19192352]

>>19192338
Not with that attitude

[Anonymous No.19192419]

what should I order for lunch?

[Anonymous No.19192433]

>>19192419
Fish tacos.

[Anonymous No.19192478]

>>19192419
Burger, fries, strawberry shake

[Anonymous No.19192480]

>>19192419
pizza and tacos

[Anonymous No.19192537]

>>19192433
a winrar is you! nice dubs

[Anonymous No.19192682]

>>19192299
Mere Christianity, The screwtape letters and the penguin Freud reader. It's just an idea I came up with myself though.

[Anonymous No.19192691]

>>19192419
A can of whoop ass.

[Anonymous No.19192752]

Waiting at a bus stop has the same melancholy idleness that I have carried with me like a fire through my whole life. The tender feeling of anxious dislocation is probably something close to the true dimension of existence, if I dare even wonder.

Based on nothing whatsoever that would satisfy the people who charge themselves with investigating such claims, and with no elaboration except between God and myself, I have long concluded that my thoughts are sacred.

[Anonymous No.19192761]

>>19192752
>melancholy idleness that I have carried with me like a fire
Odd simile. Fires are exciting and energetic

[Anonymous No.19192762]

>>19192215
>Is the superego God?
I see no probably here. Only the eggheads that are constantly pained with defining terms into tangible, irreducible corner would have a problem with that.

[Anonymous No.19192774]

Woke up twice from nightmares last night. Don't remember the first, but in the second I got stabbed. I miss sleep.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19192775]

>>19191938
Here

[Anonymous No.19192777]

>>19192775
rare tripfag

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19192789]

>>19192777
Am i one of the good ones or one of the bad ones

[Anonymous No.19192794]

>>19192789
dunno I just like your name

[Anonymous No.19192825]

>>19192762
?

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19192830]

>>19192794
It started as a "hahaha i smoke a lot of weed" meme at first but now ive realized i legitimately have an unhealthy weed addiction that im struggling to curb and the name has become a curse

[Anonymous No.19192835]

>>19191789
Even when I go with my friends to a bar or something the most alcohol I'll drink is a Highball. I just fucking hate the stuff, got drunk a few times and it just made me miserable. Same reason I can't take painkillers, my brain just screams at me for the entire time that something is wrong.

[Anonymous No.19192839]

WAKE UP TO REALITY

[Anonymous No.19192852]

>>19192774
I keep waking up from dreams where someone is touching my toes. i swear I can briefly see a shadow standing over my feet.

[Anonymous No.19192869]

wtf is going on with picrel?
Who runs them, and why do they have such a broad hold on so many people's opinions? It creeps my out, like an emerging cult. Like this unpronounceable syllable is the name of some new "God of Science".
>look them up
>funded by bill gates
Okay, fellas, schizo answers only

[Anonymous No.19192879]

>>19192869
>he can't pronounce Kurzgesagt
midwit detected

[Anonymous No.19192905]

>>19192869
Who

[Anonymous No.19192923]

>>19192869
pop-science shows have been around forever

[Anonymous No.19193063]

>>19192215
God can not be defined. to be defined would be to have a limit. nothing that can be known can be God.

[Anonymous No.19193138]

I keep getting mistaken for a girl and I'm not even trying.

I wonder if I should actually put some effort into it and start an Onlyfans account. I wonder how much I could make on the side...

[Anonymous No.19193232]

>>19192239
Thanks for replying. I don't know if you noticed, but you wrote almost as clearly as an analytic philosopher. Can you also give a reading list of their essential works? Thanks again

[Anonymous No.19193238]

>>19192215
>What if the super ego is just God
This is basically Jung.

[Anonymous No.19193274]

>>19192789
I feel like becoming a tripfag just to see what it’s like

[Anonymous No.19193296]

I imagine the french cringe over the Quebecois, but they underestimate the potential casus bellum

[Anonymous No.19193298]

I wish I grew up poor. I wish id experienced true hunger. Abuse. Neglect. I wish id grown up as a minority. I wish id faced persecution and discrimination. I wish id gotten bullied. Beat up. Jumped. I bet I would have turned out better. Instead I had it easy. And I am nobody.

[Anonymous No.19193306]

>>19193298
if you honestly feel like you're nobody you probably didn't have it as nice as you think desu senpai

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19193312]

>>19193274
Its fun. I've rarely experienced any hate.
Sometimes I turn it off though.

[Anonymous No.19193323]

>>19193298
you're a fucking headcase

t. has the "life" you wish you had

[Anonymous No.19193340]

>>19193323
and how are you now

[Anonymous No.19193370]

my grandpa is old. he is hosting what he thinks will be his last family dinner party this weekend. he's spry for his age, but he thinks this is the last one. I don't want to go because my mother will be there. I understand that this sounds like some movie-plot, now me and mom have to learn to get along and everything, for grandpa. But I have had both waking and sleeping dreams of killing her in the last month or so. Graphic stuff. I really do not think it will make the dinner party better that I go.

[Anonymous No.19193378]

>>19193370
Maybe go and avoid/ignore her?

[Anonymous No.19193415]

Looks like she deleted her Whatsapp (or simply changed number) without telling me anything, though she might've simply grown so indifferent towards me she didn't even consider it. Sad when people just disappear though I don't blame her. Never met her but texted quite a lot over three years only to fizzle out like that, think I still hoped I could repair our relations. Back to square one with no one to even text with. Really don't want to invest energy into online communities but it's looking like I don't have much option unless I want to kill myself with loneliness

[Anonymous No.19193416]

>>19193378
that's what I mean, I imagine that will make the evening quite unpleasant. the idea now is that I visit grandpa later next week, but I think he will be quite upset with me. He doesn't really know anything of what goes on with me and mom I don't think, and I don't really want to be the one to tell him, given that it is his daughter and all. Basically I don't really think my mom was ever capable of fulfilling the role. She is functional in society, but there is something severely lacking in our relationship, and I really feel like she just wants me to say things so she doesn't have to think about me, she doesn't want to know. I think she thinks she loves me, but I do not tihnk she does at all. She has more or less knowingly (she has confirmed as much) let me be destroyed by mental illness, while I asked for help which she ignored for years. And now she wants to be my mom, but it is pretty fucking late and I still feel like she just wants me to say nice things so she doesn't have to care, while she has leaned heavily on me for emotional support.

[Anonymous No.19193460]

tfw you realize you actually are having a hard life

[Anonymous No.19193473]

>>19193460
you can now read bukowski

[Anonymous No.19193479]

>>19193416
You pretty much described my relationship with my father. Now I understand where those dreams came from kek.

[Anonymous No.19193498]

>>19193479
wa_gmi

[Anonymous No.19193504]

>>19193498
ah shit the spoiler didn't work

[Anonymous No.19193525]

I want to join the Orthodox Church because after learning about theology and philosophy and the history of the church, I think it really is the one true church.
But there are no Orthodox churches where I live. I live with my parents and they are Baptists. The closest Orthodox church is hundreds of miles away and I have no way of going there on my own.

[Anonymous No.19193545]

>>19193340
Still poor so I can't get married or have anything approximating a social life. My skin is terrible from poor diet and lack of hygiene when I was younger. I don't have the money to buy nice clothes or present myself nicely. Work nights Fri-Mon in an Amazon warehouse to pay for my tuition and living expenses while I study. I don't get nearly enough sleep and 2 months ago I tore something in my left shoulder unloading 50 pound boxes for 4 hours straight. Doctor told me I'd have to stop working for at least a month and if I lose my job I'm fucked. Can't rely on my parents for help and if anything my family relies most heavily on me, I have to be the adult, I have to be the parent. I mediate disputes, I give my brother and my sisters guidance, I help them with their homework and I do the food shopping and meal planning.

You're right in that I was lucky for being born into a situation where I have a motivation, I didn't have to find it because the unfortunate circumstances of my birth forced it upon me. It's also cowardly, I deliberately(on some level) numb myself through exhaustion. Working allows me to focus solely on the task at hand and whenever I am not(School or Job) I'm too tired to do anything other than read for pleasure or rest. I have a lot of unresolved things internally and it's an excuse to hide from them. You've got the supposedly comfy life with free time but can't get over wallowing in negative emotion(as an escape) to examine what's inside of you? I don't get it man.

[Anonymous No.19193560]

>>19192752
i think your pic is people waiting at a bus stop
>Based on nothing whatsoever that would satisfy the people who charge themselves with investigating such claims, and with no elaboration except between God and myself, I have long concluded that my thoughts are sacred.
thanks anon, that's superb

[Anonymous No.19193603]

>>19193545
I am sorry you have to go through that anon. My wishes to lead a life of difficulty were obviously exaggerated but my point is basically: Hard times create strong people.
You are a strong man, I am a weak man.
You have motivation and drive and purpose. I have nothing.
I am an overripe tomato that is slowly rotting. You are a green tomato that is slowly ripening to perfection.
I have a feeling you will see better days in the future. Good luck anon.

[Anonymous No.19193639]

>>19193603
Thanks for the kind words but I don't agree.

[Anonymous No.19193669]

I wonder: do people who believe in stuff like Posadism or that Hitler escaped to a base in outer space, or that the elite are Satanists, etc. ACTUALLY believe in that stuff or are they LARPing?

[Anonymous No.19193679]

>>19193669
>or that the elite are Satanists
This one is true.

[Anonymous No.19193712]

今日も生きてたはずなのに
それを感じることがない
それを感じることがない

[Anonymous No.19193727]

I'm going to the art museum in a couple hours.

[Anonymous No.19193728]

>>19193712
I wish I knew Japanese. My dream when it comes to foreign languages would be to have enough skill to write an essay in Japanese.

[Anonymous No.19193732]

>>19193727
Cool! Anything you hoping to see in particular?

[Anonymous No.19193750]

I realized after 23 years of living on this earth that I have a competitive streak. I also know that I incline to laziness. Consolidating both these traits is possible. I've done it before by curbing Laziness by sheer force of self-discipline, and the ego boost I received from outperforming everyone just made me soar. It was truly euphoric.
But then, when you're lazy, and you wallow in your laziness, life becomes an endless cycle of seethe at the fact that everyone had long since stomped you to the curb and moved on.

[Anonymous No.19193802]

jesus fuck I only just started this job and im already certain im going to be fired. i don't know what im going to do. the first screw up was on me. i own up to that. the second I didn't even do anything wrong. i dont know how saying "im worried about the time crunch" was overstepping my bounds. now its the third time and i have nobody to blame but myself. i want to throw myself into fucking traffic. i cant believe i blew it just like that!

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19193913]

now imp art of this problem as far as i can tell

[Anonymous No.19193930]

>>19192050
https://socialpronow.com/blog/books-making-conversation/

[Anonymous No.19193937]

>>19191897
I can't stop thinking about the impact my high school english teacher had on my entire life. I was struggling with severe depression at the time from being abused as a child. I wrote some essays and he gave me 100% each time, and spoke to me after class about how talented I was when writing. Obviously looking back it was nothing noteworthy but for the class it was good in his eyes. I started spending my lunch in his class talking about philosophy and history for the entire hour every day. He told me to read the republic and some classics. I ended up pursuing literature and kept writing. It was the first time I was praised. If I publish a book, I'll thank him in the foreword.

[Anonymous No.19193955]

28 years of virginry my brethren

*sips*

ah... a fine loneliness it is

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19193959]

>>/lit/thread/S19060792#p19068017 pardon my hubrisss ………….

[Anonymous No.19193960]

>>19191897
I had an unusual/unpleasant childhood, not here to blogpost, but suffice to say I never even made it to middleschool and was isolated more of my life. As an adult I'm trying to play catchup and learn as much about the world and how humans work as possible so I can get to living my life without making it painfully obvious I'm grossly uneducated. I'm curious and I love learning but I'm horrible at it and missing a ton of base knowledge. Any suggestions on where to start?

[Anonymous No.19193965]

>>19193937
What a lovely story anon, I can only agree with your teacher.
It would sure make him proud if you’d publish it.

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19193982]

>>19193960
people just auto-pilot through school, you don’t exactly learn anything
just meet ppl in the “real world” ig?

[stranger in an even stranger l(...) No.19194040]

I'd be happy for one moment of my lifetime

[Anonymous No.19194044]

>>19193960
it's never too late to start your education

[Anonymous No.19194075]

>>19193982
>>19194044
That's what I'm trying to do but I'm working at a massive deficit of information here. I learned about ancient rome a few months ago, I thought centurions were just a fallout new vegas thing for the longest time. It's embarrassing to realize stuff like that at my age. I just don't know where to begin.

[Anonymous No.19194100]

Why are there so many tripcode faggots in this thread. What's with this board and this stupid trend. They're not even clever fucking names

[Anonymous No.19194109]

>>19191897
I cannot find worthy enemies, and therefore I cannot die a worthy death. The scene from the Three Kingdoms show after some battle where Liu Bei lost (I forget which one) and he wonders if he'll get a proper burial come to mind.

[Anonymous No.19194202]

set against a backdrop of unending twilight

[Anonymous No.19194295]

>>19194100
When I get home I’ll make a tripcode for me :)

Btw if you think this board has too many tripcodes you should check out /lgbt/

[バイポラーたん !Gh99z/1SzU No.19194306]

>>19194100
posting with my trip now just to piss you off

[Anonymous No.19194422]

I'm learning the hard way that trying to write a philosophy paper while guzzling gin generally doesn't mix.

[Anonymous No.19194426]

>>19194295
>Btw if you think this board has too many tripcodes you should check out /lgbt/
Wait a minute, I'm noticing a correlation

[Anonymous No.19194438]

>>19194109
>cannot find worthy enemies, and therefore I cannot die a worthy death.
I can sympathize with such struggle. None can match my titanic warrior's spirit and so like Diogenes I wander the streets with a lamp never finding that which I seek.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19194484]

>>19194100
we're just people man. we're just like you. we just crave a little more attention

[Anonymous No.19194487]

Maybe I’ll move to New York.

[Anonymous No.19194492]

>>19194487
I am a Cali boy but sometimes I daydream about moving to Boston.

[Anonymous No.19194493]

>>19194438
I think we disagree somewhat, I don't think I'm really all that unique or particularly amazing, I don't think anyone can die a death worthy of themselves no matter what they are like, because no one has a worthy enemy in this sterile world order.

[Anonymous No.19194497]

>>19194492
I like Boston actually. Of all the American cities I’ve been to it’s probably the only one I actually like somewhat.

[Anonymous No.19194561]

Sometimes I really feel difficult dealing with people, I really feel out of place and "different"

[Anonymous No.19194573]

Idk if I can ever visit my parents again fucked up as it sounds lol. They're too much of a "memento mori." I'm visiting them now and just looking at the grimace of weariness on my father's aging face and the death mask my mom is wearing as she rots alive is too much to bear.

I still have some vitality in me yet. I am a young man, with a good deal of fight in me. I may not be in my youthful prime in terms of raw physicality, I have a good strong body and am sound of mind. I do not need reminders that I will one day go the way of all flesh.

[Anonymous No.19194582]

>>19194493
>I don't think I'm really all that unique or particularly amazing,
Neither do I, I was just being ridiculous. Although I do think I have a particularly fighty and strong willed aspect to me, I was just joking.
In terms of worthy enemies, the only worthy enemy is someone who wrongs you. Consider yourself lucky that you are not well versed in the logic of vengeance. I've had people cross me before and all I could see is blood. It's a profound emotion. It's one of the few things that stir me from my turtle-like apathy.

[Anonymous No.19194596]

>>19194573
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKWAPi9Tn04

[Anonymous No.19194632]

>>19194582
Although let me elaborate, most, if not all people who have wronged me are unworthy of me in terms of the comparative size of souls. They are unworthy in all respects, they are only worthy of becoming a target of my animosity because of their wrongdoings. A "worthy foe" who wrongs me would suggest someone who is right to wrong me, but I behave justly and with reason in all cases excluding insanity. Therefore anyone who wrongs me is unworthy of me, but they are certainly worthy of my wrath and I will take a certain unspeakable pleasure in destroying them as I will view them as the catalyst for all that I have lost and all the misfortune in my life and work inexorably towards their ruination with great pleasure and purpose.

In short a "worthy foe" is one who has a legitimate reason to oppose me. But because I have honor, I am never wronged by a truly "worthy" foe.

[Anonymous No.19194647]

My dad watches these awful streaming service zoomer shows on netflix and hbo and whatever. He complains about all the woke shit in these modern shows, shoving gays in your face, feminism, white guilt, etc., but he won't stop watching. He never watches anything good. Just this awful crap. It is like he wants to be outraged all the time. I don't understand why he is like this.

[Anonymous No.19194658]

>>19194582
>>19194632
I think taking an enemy to be someone who has inherently wronged you or grafting a moral dimension onto the category in itself is a part of why we've gotten to where we are man.

[Anonymous No.19194661]

>>19194647
Your dad would like this site very much

[Anonymous No.19194696]

>>19194596
Not sure how I feel about such Confucianist spooks as filial piety. I owe my parents to the extent that I owe them and feel I must pay them back for the effort of raising me, especially me as a ruthless hellion, a truly ruthless and cold-blooded teenager, and so on. But also many of my psychological problems can be traced to the ineptitude and weakness of my parents, I find the fact that I am indentured to them by fact of biological origin contestable.

Also, I will probably end up better off than my parents because I am smarter than them both added together squared and then times 1000. If I end up successful enoough, I will not be petty and ensure they are taken care of in their "golden" (read: rusty) years. I cannot hold my parents in contempt any more than I can hold the entire universe in contempt. Even though they were always the parent to me as time goes one I become more the parent to them and they become more the child to me, if that makes sense

[Anonymous No.19194699]

i wonder how feasible it is to make a whole open world rpg by myself in something like godot
i'd only tolerate dedicating a year or 2 at most on developing it though

[Anonymous No.19194705]

>>19191897
How do I find a cute third positionist boyfriend to read Ezra Pound with?

[Anonymous No.19194706]

>>19194658
So should we take the path of Christ and turn the other cheek? I can perhaps see the wisdom in that, I just don't have the constitution for it. Maybe I'm just an ignorant pagan, bit if someone is stabbing me to death I want to make sure I am stabbing them to death as I go out.

Although I do not pretend to have a profound understanding and enlightenment as a great sage of all time such as Christ. Certaintly Christ is wiser than me.

[Anonymous No.19194710]

>>19194647
My uncle is the same lol
>Hates Blacks, complains about them all the time
>Loses his shit if a bunch of ads have Blacks in them
>Loves the NBA
He's literally paying to watch 4-5 black dudes play 4-5 black dudes, why is he surprised when all the ads have black people in them

[Anonymous No.19194740]

>>19194705
there needs to be a village voice ads section equivalent for /lit/izens so all the lonely anons can find their true loves

[Anonymous No.19194784]

>feel lonely or bored
>try talking to people
>they realize I'm depressed and boring and cut contact
>pain occurs
>pain subsides
>repeat

[Anonymous No.19194806]

>>19194706
>So should we take the path of Christ and turn the other cheek? I can perhaps see the wisdom in that, I just don't have the constitution for it. Maybe I'm just an ignorant pagan, bit if someone is stabbing me to death I want to make sure I am stabbing them to death as I go out.
My point is quite the opposite, Christians and Pagan of yore had an understanding that their enemies weren't within their structure, they accepted the existence of the capital o Other. What I desire is an enemy as developed as I hope to be, to see people who disagree with me in such a sorry state makes this difficult.

[Anonymous No.19194889]

I had a wet dream where I was fucking a loli in a park. I don't even jack off to loli shit.

[Anonymous No.19194908]

> want to be a writer
> not born in my country’s capital
> don’t move there for Uni
> don’t move there after Uni either
It’s over.

[Anonymous No.19194922]

Never let someone infect you with their fear. This is a basic concept and one that would do you well to write down. Never let someone inject fear into you without questioning it. Fear is only the lack of a solution. There is no fear for that which is understood. To believe someone else's fear is to believe you are as helpless as they. And having nothing but fear is no way to overcome a formidable problem.

[Anonymous No.19194930]

>>19194889
Way too much /b/

[Anonymous No.19194931]

>>19191897
No one giving feedback in /WG/ so I've come here.

(Started this while waiting for a train, saw one pass by the station, and then continued writing it while I was aboard a train to the city.)

Sitting on the station platform I am taken back to the amusement park trips of my youth, where in the noonday sun the highpitched whine and surge of rollercoasters would wear on against the metal tracks above in a grating dissonance, only for it all to taper off into nothing just as quickly as it emerged. Now I wait for a train. If the platform were made of wood and not concrete, I'm sure that the rumbling could be felt from at least a mile off, if not more. By the time I hear the groan of metal accumulate out of the silence and feel anticipation swelling, it has already cut through distance with an otherworldly brutality, all time and space evaporated in its wake. In that split second when hearing and seeing have converged, existence communicates itself through this sullen rush and roar, until it passes and there is nothing left to see or hear.

I am now on the seat of a train. The window is partly opaque and lined with the dried and swirling remnants of vapor at one side and breaking out into a streaked craquelure at another, like ghostly lichen stretched across a pane of thin rock. I pass residential areas, towns unsure of their suburbanhood, parking lots, while the sun beats down and casts an oblique glow on the passing affair. The window a bleary screen to a rapid conveyor belt of sights, as the filmstrip unspools to reveal houses, fields, restaurants, places sharing nothing but adjacency to the tracks, absorbing some of its mockery of time by proximity.

[Anonymous No.19194941]

All fear worthy of the name should be home grown or "endogenous" it should overflow and overcome your fundamental resources and essence. It should never be something that someone else can give you, as that is a great shame. The only fears that one is worthy of are the fears of the cosmos, the fears of existence and being, the absurdity of it all. Animal fear is just that. It is no more and no less, and no human is the master of animal fear.
Think of the absolute which you might fear. And think of how you would respond to it. You only fear it because you lack the power to prevent it. By logic, the fear of death is thus wholly irrational. It ought to be beyond reason to fear death as it is inevitable regardless of one's choices. One might then argue that of course the fear of death is irrational, as emotions, certainly fear, are irrational. That simply does not hold up. The fear of the spider or the snake's venom is entirely rational. Emotions have a logic. It is only when such emotions *overcome the capacity to deal with them * that they become truly irrational.

There are only two basic fears. Fear of death and fear of the night. Anyone can conquer the fear of the night. Fear of death is somewhat other, but it is indeed possible to conquer it and it has been indeed humanly conquered. Such heroes have lived in human memory as great martyrs and saints as they have conquered the basic threat of all humanity, which is fear of death. Proving to us all what bravery looks like and challenging us to overcome.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19194945]

Im drunk at a pub tryna read The Nose ajd its just not happenign. Im going to continue tryinf though

[Anonymous No.19194954]

>>19194930
Haven't browsed that board in years.

[Anonymous No.19194957]

>>19194889
you're on a list now, anon.

[Anonymous No.19195063]

>>19194957
>I SWEAR OFFICER, SHE'S LITERALLY A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION

[Anonymous No.19195069]

>>19194889
I had a dream where I was trying to fuck a tranny but he turned me down because he had a gf. The gf was actually an attractive woman

[Anonymous No.19195072]

This past week, I discovered that an online game I was obsessed with as a kid got a revival. For a few years, that game was my obsession: every day after school I went straight to my computer and play it until nightfall. When one summer I went to stay at my grandma's for a month, she had a PC in the guestroom so I spent nearly the whole time in there playing that game, my eyes glued to the screen. Grandma was upset with me for not going out to play with the other kids, but I absolutely loved it, her internet was much better than mine at home and I was having an amazing time, I was so happy. The only other specific memory I have from that game other than game-related stuff is when one of my friends in-game confessed to me he was suicidal. I was a dumb kid and had no idea what to tell him. It wasn't that weird, but I didn't understand him at all.

Anyway, this game got a revival. The community now is way smaller, but on the plus side, all the content that used to cost a monthly subscription is free now, and they've added new content too. The game plays just like it did back when I loved it, and everything about this seems great. In fact I never got bored of the game originally, it just died due to lack of updates, so theoretically I could get hooked again. Yet when I played a round, it didn't feel the same. The visuals, the music, the graphics, everything is as I remember - but the magic is gone. When I was a kid, all these elements of the game coalesced into an exciting feeling that really swept me away - a whole greater than the sum of its parts. Now there's just the parts. This is honestly my experience with everything now.

I understand what my friend back then was feeling a little better now.

[Anonymous No.19195074]

>>19195069
Even in your dreams, you're a loser.

[Anonymous No.19195090]

>>19195072
That magic of childhood is something really special.

[Anonymous No.19195096]

>cried at work again
i hate being an office wageslave. i just sit at my desk and cry half the day.

[Anonymous No.19195108]

saw the new james bond movie. the plot was retarded but it was cool watching daniel craig shoot people, and lea seydoux is hot.

[Anonymous No.19195112]

>>19195108
you can say this about every james bond movie

[Anonymous No.19195114]

>>19195096
I want to give you a cuddle.

[Anonymous No.19195122]

any books on the problem with prisons in the U.S? I was shocked to find out the U.S has the most prisoners on the entire planet

[Anonymous No.19195127]

>>19195114
does management like sadbois
i think theyre gonna fire me if i keep it up but i cant stop crying all the time. why shouldn't i cry? it's all just so awful

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195131]

>>19195096
Plot your escape

[Anonymous No.19195133]

>>19195127
why cry? there's nothing at the workplace you can't handle anon

[Anonymous No.19195134]

>>19195072
Your post is precisely why I am reluctant to buy games from my childhood that are re-released or remastered. I'll remember everything, the story, the music, etc. But the moment I had playing the game when I was but a child will no longer be there. It just won't be the same anymore.
Okami HD is on sale right now, and I have very fond memories of playing it in my common room while my sister played Dido's music in the background. It's not price that's the problem, its the memories.

[Anonymous No.19195143]

>>19195072
>>19195134
I tried replaying Halo recently. It's a lonely experience with a friend to do the co-op campaign with.

[Anonymous No.19195145]

it hurts to fucking swallow, I already used up a tissue box, I've had two mugs of tea, Fuck

[Anonymous No.19195150]

>>19195145
what happened anon, was your boyfriend too rough last night?

[Anonymous No.19195179]

>>19195131
trying. tfw born poorfag
>>19195133
>born on this earth
>waste youth in a child-prison "school" being harassed and poor and locked inside while living in a total ghetto shithole with nothing to do
>waste young adulthood studying more stupid shit and being poor and wearing clothes that dont fit and being too poor to enjoy what other people can enjoy
>wasting rest of young adulthood being underpaid and worked like a slave while the boss tells us how lazy and ungrateful we are and they lance us for taking 5 extra minutes at break and complain how much our health insurance costs them
>all my expenses increase with inflation but my pay doesn't
>this is life, all i do is work, can't even afford a house or family or anything
>trading my limited lifespan and health for peasant pay so one day when i'm old broken and in horrible agony i might not have to work anymore until i get so sick i die
>not sure why i bother being alive, all i do i suffer, then recover just enough over a weekend to go suffer some more
>the world is a giant prison cradle to grave, everything good is out of my reach, and i do nothing but suffer while being strung along that something good might someday happen
>would rather have never been born, only not suiciding because of sunk cost fallacy and know it
>think about all of this while at work and cant stop crying
>get humiliated that i'm crying in public as an adult and that makes me cry even more
>just want to go home but only thing at home is my laptop, cant afford to go anywhere or do anything

[Anonymous No.19195182]

>>19195122

[Anonymous No.19195192]

>>19195179
you have the strength inside you to manage this situation anon

[Anonymous No.19195211]

Well I went and talked to my brother about his suicide attempt. Some of his childhood friends were there too. Told my dad as well.
I dont really know what to think. All day he seemed very happy as if nothing happened. Like, everyone came to have a party for him. It was weird. Later in the night we staged an intervention style sit down and told him how we feel and what we think. At a certain point he tried to argue back but quickly suppressed it. It's really weird. At first he acted as if the fact that he didnt drink for the paat five days was some kind of great evidence of him turning around his life. But he stopped the hostility and then just assented to everything we said. I dont think he was being sincere. I sense bad days ahead

[Anonymous No.19195216]

>>19195096
what is your job

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195225]

>>19195179
Me too.

[Anonymous No.19195232]

>>19195122
We are at the same time too harsh on crime and not harsh enough. For crimes less than murder/rape/Madoff-tier corruption, we are far too harsh. Rather than punishment we should focus on rehabilitation. Stuff like anger management, drug addiction treatment, relationship counseling, job training, artistic education, etc. instead of jailtime.

As for crimes like murder, or massive white-collar crime, or rape, extreme abuse, etc.? Death, with some alternatives depending on the victims' wishes.

[Anonymous No.19195233]

>>19195211
If you want a suicidal person to really listen to what you are saying, you first have to make them feel they are being understood. I dunno what he's going through but unless he thinks you get what his problem is chances are he will ignore whatever you suggest

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195239]

>>19195122
The current president of the US wrote a crime bill in the 90s that Clinton signed into law. This law included things like “three strikes” exploded the prison population so bad the private prison industry had to assist (Clinton foundation invests in that industry fyi). I don’t know of any books written about all this, but I’m sure they’re kept on the really low shelves

>>19195182
Ass

[Anonymous No.19195242]

https://youtu.be/J8fsI46Lodw

[Anonymous No.19195246]

>>19195233
I think he's just retarded and doent really undersyand what suicide means. He's mentally ill and emotionally stunted. the suicide attempt was to spite someone over something very very petty.

[Anonymous No.19195249]

>>19195239
Oh give it a break Butters, we all know blacks comit more crime

[Anonymous No.19195267]

>friggin sweet, this girl gave me her number and I didn’t even ask for it, she must find me special
>she’s only taking art and theater classes, she must be the creative type haha
>bleached hair hells ya
>tongue piercing brooooo you know what that means
>she says the reason she doesn’t have any female friends is because girls are too judgmental? damn that shit sucks
>she passed out on our date again? she must be having too much fun with me
>I guess she was right when she said don’t worry about her past, cuz I’m her future she said haha!
Why was I like this

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195271]

>>19195249
One robbery, one traffic citation, and a cop who decides to bust you for vagrancy and you’re looking at 30 years in a private prison.

Read de Cleyre and try to put yourself in their shoes. Prison is for manufacturing crime

[Anonymous No.19195291]

I have a problem where everytime I try to do something I think about climate change and I get demotivated/demoralized.

>Hmm, I should learn this language, I'd love to be able to read in it
>Why bother? Climate change is coming and society will collapse and I'll be too busy trying to survive to use a language which isn't spoken here

>Hmm, I should write this story I'm always thinking about
>Why bother? Climate change is coming and civilization is going to collapse, there's no point

>Hmm, I should try to exercise more
>Why bother? I'm gonna die by 2050 anyway because of climate change

I know it's a bad mindset but how do I escape it? I'm genuinely more worried about climate change than death.

[Anonymous No.19195294]

>>19195271
>One robbery
oh boy

[Anonymous No.19195299]

>>19195291
Maybe do something about climate change.

[Anonymous No.19195306]

https://youtu.be/fD0b7qcwRKs?t=84

[Anonymous No.19195315]

>>19195299
I can't, I am not Xi Jinping, or Modi, or whoever runs America at the end of the day.

[Anonymous No.19195316]

>>19195291
if climate change is truly coming then you best live it up before it happens, because after it does, you'll wish you were dead if you aren't killed outright

[Anonymous No.19195327]

>>19195291
>>19195316
Climate change won't be that bad for the majority of the Western civilization. Nations such as Canada or Russia may even profit tremendously.

[Anonymous No.19195335]

>>19195267
reality hurts

[Anonymous No.19195340]

>>19195267
i dont understand, do you have chlamydia now or something?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195348]

>>19195327
>the bargaining phase

[Anonymous No.19195352]

>>19195348
Bargaining for what. I just do not understand this doom and gloom mindset. Much like most things in life, humanity will manage just fine.

[Anonymous No.19195374]

>>19195271
I never robbed anyone

[Anonymous No.19195379]

>>19195316
I guess. There's an anxiety to it though.

>>19195352
>Collapse of global economy
>4 billion refugees on their way to Europe and America
>Drought, famine, natural disasters
We in the first world are doomed.

[Anonymous No.19195383]

>>19195291
You've been successfully demoralized. Climate hysteria has achieved its intended purpose

[Anonymous No.19195387]

>>19195379
>4 billion refugees on their way to Europe and America
It amuses me how you think we just have to allow this. Climate hysteria has achieved another goal: The Great Replacement

[v_v !!+e0M0fBMYzt No.19195393]

>>19195122
https://www.feministes-radicales.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/Angela-Davis-Are_Prisons_Obsolete.pdf

[Anonymous No.19195395]

>>19195387
It's not a question of "having to allow this". Liberal Whites are retards and will let in everyone because they feel guilty for colonization or some inane reason like that. We're screwed.

[Anonymous No.19195432]

>>19195291
>I'm genuinely more worried about climate change than death.
Explain that part…

[Anonymous No.19195435]

>>19195232
The word penitentiary originates from the word penance. We need neither rehabilitation nor punitive sentences. Instead we need sentencing based on the concept of penance. Jail cells are named so because they were intended to resemble the cells inhabited by monks at montestaries. Were prisons more like montestaries then I think we'd be more effective. Penance entails both a punitive and rehabilitative process.

[Anonymous No.19195450]

> things I want to do, change
> haven’t wanted them for years
> never done them, never changed them
> probably never will

[Anonymous No.19195452]

>>19195432
If I die, I die. I'd rather not die, but destiny is what destiny is. But climate change is so much worse. It's my death, and the deaths of my loved ones and friends, the deaths of billions around the world, the destruction of my country, and the destruction of the global ecosystem. The only thing I can think which would be as bad as climate change would be an asteroid hitting Earth or an AI-induced apocalypse.

[Anonymous No.19195453]

COVID really reveals the fault lines in modern consciousness, specifically how it copes with "information and expert" culture. I am radically, unhealthily open-minded, and don't care either way a priori in any controversy, because I have every form of autism ever discovered. I'm perfectly capable of sifting through a world-renowned Johns Hopkins doctor's blatant propagandizing and still coming to the conclusion that he is probably reporting and interpreting the facts honestly, beneath all his propaganda and effeminate editorializing, just as much as I'm capable of determining he's full of shit if he genuinely seems to be, and likewise I'm capable of reading typo-laden blog articles by cranks and making an objective assessment of whether or not the questions they raise are valid or whether they are being unreasonable.

I can do this because I don't care either way, I am not a stupid normie who has to feel for which "side" the author is on so he can see if he's on the same "side." I don't get lost in the weeds or disoriented. It's not hard to ignore the normie emotional distractions and babbling culture war diversions, and just read for content. If the unfairly censored underdog with the heart of gold says that X causes Y, and the smug accredited asshole who spends as much time fellating himself about his MD and WHO sinecure as he does actually debunking "X causes Y" seems to have actually debunked "X causes Y," I don't care. Conversely if eight billion doctors can't honestly answer to X causing Y without scoffing and sputtering like a babby, I'm going to start thinking the blogger crank with the piss-stained sweatpants is onto something regardless of credentials.

This makes it interesting to follow the actual content in all these disputes, while measuring it against the smokescreening, propagandizing, culture war asides, and childish diversionary tactics. A typical online discussion of how to debunk anti-vaxxers' fears of "leaky vaccines" will begin with pro-vaxxers proclaiming their certainty that anti-vaxxers must be wrong while also admitting they have no idea why, and asking for specialists to confirm their foregone conclusion. Then the specialists come in, and while receiving ritual fellatio from the already convinced know-nothings, admit that the leaky vaccine thing is potentially or partially correct, but surround this admission with non sequitur smug rambling about how anti-vaxxers are dumb and ugly.

As a guy who was willing to listen to anybody and hear out any argument, it still took me half an hour to find a decent rebuttal of the Marek's disease thing, and it was still filled with crybaby whinging that anyone would dare to have a concern about it in the first place, it was dripping with condescension, and the author still conceded several things the Marek's disease people are really concerned about (they just express it in muddled way as "are the vaccines leaky?") while masturbating over refuting them on irrelevant technicalities.

[Anonymous No.19195455]

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195470]

>>19195374
>sure I grew up without a father a mother who was always out working, and I skipped out on most of high school to hang with friends who where pretty much abusive hoodlums, and I got mixed up in bag holding for the local gang, and the. I got yelled at by mom to straighten up and get a job, but all I was interested in was smoking pot anymore,
>but I ain’t ever going to grab some petty cash with an empty gun.
Sure, sure. Systemic racism wouldn’t ever lead to systemic poverty, because it isn’t like the government didn’t zone them out for decades and to this day. You haven’t lived the nightmare, anon.

American gulags are fucking real

[Anonymous No.19195473]

>>19195453
I know a conservative who got the vax because her favorite political figures, like Rand Paul and Ben Shapiro got the vax. Her reasoning being that they must know something we don't know if they trust the vaccine. I tried of course to explain how thats a dumb argument and all the risks the vaccine poses bjt she just reploed "oh well if you think you're smarter than them..."
It annoys me. People need experts. People need social signalling to know how to behave.
My social isolation/ostracism has been a curse in many ways. But it has also been a blessing in that even if my thoughts may be limited or midwit at least they are my own.

[Anonymous No.19195480]

>>19195470
Actually I had a really shitty childhood. I still know wrong from right. Dont play that card on me.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195495]

>>19195480
>a really shitty childhood
And what did I just say? I described really really shit childhood. Some people get influenced by some assholes, they get abused, and you know, you need to know now, the prison system makes the outside life worse. This is by design.

[Anonymous No.19195499]

>>19192210
because they don't know how. and they don't read. try not to scrutinize people, though. just because you think you speak "better" than someone doesn't mean that "vulgar" expression doesn't suit some other situation. try and get over your fear of words and dim people.

[Anonymous No.19195500]

>>19195495
>This is by design.
meds

[Anonymous No.19195508]

>>19195495
What I think is really ironic is how an anarchist is so dead set on denying personal agency

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195522]

>>19195500
>There’s no racists left in America

>>19195508
Where? You don’t know much about anarchism

[Anonymous No.19195531]

>>19195522
So anarchists think people have no personal agency but want to abolish all social mechanisms anyway? Sounds really retarded. If people have no control over their own behaviours how do you know you arent conditioned into wanting anarchism?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195559]

>>19195531
Bitch. I’m talking about doing away with the poverty machine. Read some theory before you try to claim I’m inconsistent with my own inclinations.
Of fucking course anarchism wants to ban prisons

https://libcom.org/files/Voltairine_de_Cleyre.pdf

[Anonymous No.19195566]

>>19195559
Dumb. Poverty will always exist and low IQ people, regardless of their race, will always occupy it

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195589]

>>19195566
It didn’t used to exist and it doesn’t have to continue.
Does that bother you? Or would you like such a world and you just can’t accept it’s possible?

[Anonymous No.19195594]

>>19195589
>It didn’t used to exist
i dont think thats true at all

[Anonymous No.19195596]

>>19195589
>people never toiled
What a load of shit

[Anonymous No.19195635]

>>19192210
If the way you type is any indication of the way you speak, then it's because you speak like an autist. Your constructions are stilted and your use of words is inapt. You use a vaguer word when a more specific one is required, only because the vaguer one strikes you as less colloquial.

The point of communication is to communicate. Eloquence must be in service to this end, not an arbitrary end in and of itself.

[Anonymous No.19195644]

What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195648]

>>19195594
Pic

>>19195596
Never said people didn’t work. They worked a hell of a lot less, but they worked. Why change the subject?

[Anonymous No.19195655]

I'm at a historic all time low right now. Unspeakably depressed. After telling you guys and Google, my contacts will be exhausted, less the Samaratins.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195667]

>>19195655
Life crisis of some sort or just a general feeling?

[Anonymous No.19195669]

>>19195644
another day under the sun

[Anonymous No.19195672]

>>19195648
Work is a curse from God. People ALWAYS labored. If you're operating from a shallow concept of poverty then the argument is just semantics

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195681]

>>19195672
Nice simple honest labor isn’t as hard as this fucked up work camp where most jobs are to support the shit system and hoist undeserving elites high above us all. Poverty is man made. It’s pretty clear when you think about it.

[Anonymous No.19195689]

HAAAAAAARK!

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195709]

>>19195689
…a vagrant

[Anonymous No.19195715]

>>19195681
I think your distinction between hard "honest" labor and modern poverty is arbitrary. Why should I view one different from the other? Each requires most of your time and energy to survive. I might say the "honest" labor of the past was even more pressing than today

[Anonymous No.19195729]

I've been in quite the shitty home living situation for a bit over a year now and have no fucking clue what to do to get out of it. I'm dirt poor with no income and not a whole lot in the bank, stuck in a camper in my parent's backyard. My father is psychotic and I never know what any day may bring, as he's liable to pop off at anything with the social skills of an autist, e.g., when it gets too bad, I just leave and sleep in my car somewhere. I can't find a job with my degree in my shitty town nor can I afford to move nor do I have friends to move in with or roommate with. I guess my only option is to play random roommate roulette but I've had shit luck with them in the past. It's hard to hold any job when I'm having to sporadically live out of my car, or my internet is randomly cut off for no reason, to even save money. I've tried research opportunities but I haven't found anything nor can I afford to work for free, really. I genuinely have no clue what to do to escape or change my situation but goddamn do I want to be away from my shitscum father and I hate being forced to come back here or be homeless. My mom doesn't make much and places in town are too expensive to easily move out into. We'd both like to flee but there are no options.

All in all, I really wish I had the balls to an hero because life has always been suffering and I have no qualia of happiness.

[Anonymous No.19195743]

>>19195452
>the deaths of my loved ones and friends, the deaths of billions around the world, the destruction of my country, and the destruction of the global ecosystem. The only thing I can think which would be as bad as climate change would be an asteroid hitting Earth or an AI-induced apocalypse
None of those are worse than dying yourself.

[« Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » !!bGBGaUpA8kS No.19195745]

>>19195715
You keep mentioning labor when we were talking about poverty.
Poverty doesn’t require your time, it’s a social standing.
And no, again, the work done in the past to live did not take 40 hours a week. It wasn’t stressful unless a predictor was chasing you. The work done in the past also resulted in your immediate satisfaction, not your slave master.

[Anonymous No.19195748]

>>19195667
Your reply really helped me, butterfag, by virtue of reminding me that my situational deficiency of attention is far favorable to your rabid fundamental desperation for it. At least as I continue onward I grow blasè, and the requirements for a hypothetical pleasantry fall ever lower. Your (you) quotia, here and irl, only grows daily, making you more desperate.
I might be closer now, but I guarantee you beat me to rock bottom bitch

[Anonymous No.19195754]

>>19195745
We should clarify terms because apparently we're just talking past each other. What exactly is poverty?

[Anonymous No.19195762]

I was walking in the city, out of a shopping center through a short stub of a street. Up ahead was a very tall mean looking guy, walking the opposite direction. I caught his gaze, then immediately averted it, purely out of self consciousness, pretending to be highly interested in a shut down juice shop to the left. I felt like I'd already lost.
As we passed I caught his gaze, again I averted it - staring straight ahead vaguely. He spat straight ahead just as we finished passing each other, a meaty, loud, powerful spit like someone from a spaghetti western.
The twist? He was black.
Did he spit because he was a mean tough guy? Did he spit because he needed to spit, at that exact moment? Did he spit because he's racist? Or did he spit because he interpreted my spaghetti spilling to be racist? Or was it because I met his gaze at all?
Perhaps I'm just dehydrated and hung over, and was just trying to be tough and failing.

[Anonymous No.19195767]

>>19195762
You're way overthinking

[Anonymous No.19195772]

>>19195743
I disagree. There are things far more valuable than my life in this world. That's not to say I don't value my life. I do really love being alive. But those things I listed are all more important.
>inb4 would you die for those things
I don't know. I'm not chickening out or anything like that, but I honestly don't know. It's easy to say "yeah, I'd die to save the world" but if such a choice comes it will be a painful one. I do love being alive.

>>19195681
Anarchists strike me as being hopelessly naive. If not about their end goals, at least about their chances of enacting their dreams. Would the world be better off as a global community of communes without states to make us clash with one another? Sure. Will that ever happen? No. Look at the Chinese Revolution. Anarchists get curb-stomped by left and right alike. It's a nice dream, but it'll never be more than a dream.

[Anonymous No.19195778]

>>19195772
>Would the world be better off as a global community of communes without states to make us clash with one another?
Not at all. Sounds gross actually

[Anonymous No.19195782]

>>19195745
So if work done in the past were not lighter than work done today, it would disprove your position. But it's possible in many countries today to live and toil like a primitive of the past. Then why does everyone with a choice between the two choose modernity every time? Why do you come here instead of tending a field?

[Anonymous No.19195787]

>>19195772
You can't value anything if you're dead. Any possible value those "more valuable" things may have had disappears upon your death.

[Anonymous No.19195805]

>>19195635
My native language is not English and it seems to me that you are confusing vague with general. The interest of a sustained language is also that it allows to think more conceptually about generalities without having to ask for an inductive approach as the vulgar language would do because of the greater proximity of syntactic and grammatical forms with purely logical structures.
Sustained language allows for a communication that is not only more communicative but also more rigorous by the very fact that it is sustained.

[Anonymous No.19195823]

>>19195787
The world will outlast me, as it has everything which has ever died. I would like for these things like a healthy ecosystem or a thriving civilization, however fleeting, to outlast me.

[Anonymous No.19195833]

>>19195805
I'm not making any sort of mistake between vague and general. Vagueness is when the scope of the word exceeds the scope of what you are trying to indicate. You know what you mean by a word because you know that that thing qualifies for that word as a descriptor; it falls within its scope; but you fail to narrow down the range of possibilities so that your interlocutor can see it as well.

Natural language cannot be a purely logical structure because making logical derivations with any clarity requires that you know the logical space of possibilities exhaustively, and the domain of ideas expressible by language is infinite, or at least too large for this to be possible. This means that you cannot indicate something specific simply by the intersection of many unspecific descriptions the way you can with an actually rigorous logical system like set theory.

At this point in our conversation, for example, I still don't know what you mean by "sustained". You are using the wrong words for the job.

[Anonymous No.19195881]

I pray for the people of Taiwan and China for a peaceful resolution to the crisis. They should not have to suffer for the imperialist ambitions of the mainland.

[Anonymous No.19195886]

>>19195881
the peaceful resolution will be taiwan rejoining china, nearly every country in the world including the us recognizes Taiwan as property of China

it's only being brought up again because of new us aggression towards china

[Anonymous No.19195888]

>>19192210
>>19195833
Let me try to illustrate.

A dictionary definition for sustained might be, "held continuously at a certain level". Well, okay: a certain level of what? Of volume; of prosody; of tone or emotion? Oh, of course—of diction. All right. What level of diction, then? A sustainedly vulgar level? A sustainedly equivocal level? A sustainedly mellifluous level? No, no; I see. A sustainedly elevated level is what you mean. Well, why didn't you say that from the start? It would only have cost you a fraction of a breath. Oh, well; no bother; I've gotten the gist of it.

Except wait. Why have you not adhered to the common practice, the common use of language? Why do you speak in such an unobliging fashion? You are abnormal; therefore I have reason to suspect further abnormalities from you, such as abnormalities of thought. Maybe you don't mean a sustainedly elevated level. Maybe you have some private meaning for what you say that I don't even share in the first place, and in that case it wouldn't do me any good to make the assumption that I knew what you were talking about. After all, even if you believe your use of language is impeccable, I certainly don't share the same confidence.

That's why I say you speak like an autist. You want to reach perfection by ignoring the imperfections, thinking that everyone else could do it too if only they'd actually try. It doesn't work like that. Language is use, and you can only squeeze more out of a word by having more shared assumptions between you and the person you're talking to; not fewer.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19195893]

drunk. very drunk

[Anonymous No.19195897]

>Roommate fucked my oneitis

[Anonymous No.19195918]

>>19195291
Dudes be like "yeah I totally believe climate change will cause global catastrophy within the next 50 years, including the flooding of all coastal cities & environs, that's why I work a white collar job in a coastal metropolis with no survival, agrarian or martial skills, no firearms or bugout bag, or any plan for survival in a drought/famine scenario. But yeah I TOTALLY ACTUALLY BELIEVE THIS WILL HAPPEN, I'm not just externalizing my own destroyed power process and insecurities"

[Anonymous No.19195944]

>>19195897
You had to ask her out and fuck way sooner.

[Anonymous No.19195950]

>>19195246
>I think he's just retarded
gee I wonder why the fuck he wanted to kill himself. more than likely he knows you don't truly give a fuck, so why the fuck should he talk to you. or do you really think he has a sub 35 IQ?

[Anonymous No.19195956]

>>19195327
>Climate change won't be that bad for the majority of the Western civilization
and all the thirdies, they're just gonna sit back and fry?

[Anonymous No.19195965]

i’ve been awake for 24 hours

[Anonymous No.19196028]

No contact for over a week. I keep expecting my obsession to subside but it gets stronger and stronger, particularly at night. When will it end?

[Anonymous No.19196062]

The capacity for art is one of the few defining features that tell man from beast. Art is a product of human culture -- itself the product of thousands of years of human evolution. Therefore, to create and appreciate Art is an essential part of being human. No tyrants, no powers-that-be, no ideologies can oppress humans and their capacity for Art-- that is, until now.

[Anonymous No.19196083]

>>19195145
you just reminded me of how much it sucks to have a sore throat, hang in there anon

[Anonymous No.19196084]

I can't crack consciousness, reality and the universe, and it's fucking with me hard. No I don't want to just get busy with life to get over it. I feel there's something there right under our noses, particularly inside ourselves, that we can't fucking figure out. And I'm not handicapping my curiosity by framing it in an anthropocentric way. Whatever meaning or answer there is for humans should be good enough for all our evolutionary ancestors, dare I say going even beyond abiogenesis all the way back to the Big Bang. I was thinking recently, if you take a specific cut of the past, isn't it true that the fundamental forces of the universe (gravity, electromagnetism, strong and weak nuclear forces) are responsible for abiogenesis, or "life"? If it was responsible for galaxies and planets being formed, and molecules sticking together to make water and other objects, then it must have made organisms possible. But what's the fucking motivation, what's the endgame, if any?

Ultimately, even if it miraculously clicks for me or someone else 1200 years in the future, why the fuck am I here to witness it? It's a fucking chore. Maybe I'm wrong to think of myself as an individual, separate from the universe and all its processes. Regardless, it's a fucking burden.

Yes I'm a pseud but in my defense I'm not pretending to be anything. I just have questions and thoughts.

[Anonymous No.19196113]

How do i achieve peace with thought that i or someone close to me can at any given moment?

[Anonymous No.19196131]

I'm dying, lads. I won't make it much further than 30. (I'm almost 27 now.) My one saving grace is that I'm incredibly productive as a writer, and I'm lucky enough to have a few women in my life who really care about me. Every day brings the complexities of life, love, and personal erasure into greater focus.

[Anonymous No.19196171]

>>19196113
read chapter 2 of the Bhagavad Gita
"The Supreme Lord said: While you speak words of wisdom, you are mourning for that which is not worthy of grief. The wise lament neither for the living nor for the dead. "

[Anonymous No.19196200]

>>19196084
a tool cannot measure itself, your eye cannot see itself. why should you expect your I to see its I, for consciousness to understand consciousness, a fundamental impossibility?
I'm beginning to think the real problem we're faced with is how enamored we are with our own reason, the dream of Understanding. who are you to understand? knowledge was a mistake

[Anonymous No.19196215]

>>19196131
I'm a little younger and I might be in the same boat. though not in regard to achievements. but good for you. cheers, anon. we're not that unique, anyway. it's the world of the dying.

[Anonymous No.19196335]

>>19195965
any hallucinations? how long do you plan on staying awake

[Anonymous No.19196366]

Any small gesture towards fitting into the system feels like a timid lick of Leviathan's shaft.
I don't know whether this lukewarm state of half-rebellion, if that, is better or even worse than deepthroating it with abandon

[Anonymous No.19196467]

my name is derived from "Yohanan", which means "graced by God". That's wonderful, but it's just that my name is removed by bastardization through so many european languages that it quite literally does not resemble "Yohanan" in any way whatsoever (truly none, but I have found out that it is from the baptist). I don't know if it is worth keeping.

[Anonymous No.19196708]

29 years old virgin reporting in on his upcoming status of wizardry and how it ALMOST got taken away. Yesterday we had a work party which kind of got out of hand for me but in a good way I suppose. So I drank a lot as I usually do to cope with anxiety. Well and for some reason I really got well along with people, it even was fun for me while normally I would just be awkward and silent and stressed. However it happened that I was dancing a lot and rather intimate with my superior at work. She's a hot milf with a east European look and maybe a few too many pounds on her chest but nothing too bad. Well it's not like I have any standards for women as you might imagine but I would objectively consider her more than average, maybe a 7. What's more important is that I felt very much drawn to her because she made me feel save and familiar, filling a void for a moment I carry inside me for decades. Maybe it was like a substitute for motherly love that I always lacked. I never had any intimate contact to women but it just felt 'right' at the moment, how it has to be. However later we went to her apartment, somehow she was interested in me. And it felt like in a dream for me, I couldn't quite understand how this actually happened but there we were. So, she's obviously much more experienced than me and so she has some expectations. That was the moment things fell apart. My thing didn't work. At all. I could melt into her body and caress her but that was it and this obviously wasn't enough for her. I suppose porn and SSRIs ruined me. Well, it was still nice, it's not like she was angry about it but just disappointed. For me it was still beautiful just being there with her. I hope there will be a second chance. Then I need to be prepared. Also I think the alcohol did not help. Or maybe I'm just meant to become a wizard.

[Anonymous No.19196719]

>>19196708
Im afraid it might happen to me but i'll probably be a wizard by then.
t. another 29 khv

[Anonymous No.19196722]

>>19196708
>Also I think the alcohol did not help
you got the "vinballe" as we say, the wine-cock. don't worry about it anon

[Anonymous No.19196931]

After a shitload of people blocked and I've lost plenty of friend I used to to art trades with due to my shitty personality and shit like "I will get better than this person as quickly as I can since they blocked me and now I hate them", I've decided to completely disappear from any sort of social media for a few years until the shitty memories of what I've did disappears. I will basically try to spent those few years drawing and studying and having other hobbies, without any sort of social interaction with other people. I am planning to make my art style totally unrecognizable from what I am now as well, so I can make a new identity for myself and maybe try to befriend people I miss again. Anyone that has tried doing this, who tried to not use the internet for years, can you tell me how it feeled like being in total loneliness? I want to know.

[Anonymous No.19196941]

>>19196708
Damn I had a really similar thing happen and I think it might have to do with the maternal thing. I hooked up with this voluptuous Latina girl at a work party. Really she had a great body, huge tits, really cute, and normally I don’t like fat girls but she wore it well, confidently, and I think she was just being NICE to me. Like damn bitch I’ll be your pet. She invited me to her place, even though obviously she was partied out and tired. I couldn’t get hard— drank a lot because I was building the confidence to touch her—and we just ended up making out. I was burying myself in her tits and stomach. I just prolonged the foreplay until eventually we just fell asleep. I thought I’d be embarrassed, but when we woke up she was still being super nice to me. I realized she seemed like a sad person. She took a shower and got dressed in front of me, and she had these gorgeous saggy but fat bulging tits, and still-slightly-drunk me grabbed her from behind and played with her body. Felt orgasmic to touch her. I didn’t ask for her number, because it was a bit clear the vibe was gone. I got the feeling she’s the type of Latina that’s into skinny white guys, just that. I don’t even know who she was.

[Anonymous No.19197104]

Not a single reply. Every single thread. I am invisible as I am in real life and should have never been born into this world in which I am unseen.

[Anonymous No.19197160]

>>19197104
Which is your post?

[Anonymous No.19197167]

i have found the biggest and quickest filter of character is asking someone if being poor is a choice. their response doesnt actually matter, but how they interpret the question is key

[Anonymous No.19197170]

now, finally, after about a month of rabid emotional intensity, I am beginning to worry that I might be going unstable.

[Anonymous No.19197180]

>>19197170
I've lost maybe 5-6 kgs in that month from just not wanting to eat and having an intense time. I haven't done anything, just remembered, thought, felt, cried. I am seeing a professional, and so far she seems to guage that this is acceptable. I'm not sure she's noticed the weight-loss though. I didn't really feel like eating today either but I realize now that I may be in danger, so I am drinking sugar water. I have a cold, so I have to quarantine motherfucker

[Anonymous No.19197240]

>>19197180
You should buy those nutritional drinks, meal replacement boosters or whatever. It's easier to drink your calories when you have no appetite. Also, get well soon.

[Anonymous No.19197314]

I really regret taking an Economics degree.

[Anonymous No.19197324]

>>19197314
Same but with Physics.

[Anonymous No.19197325]

>>19195944
She was way out of my league anyways, I never had a chance. I just wish it wadn't my roommate who did it

[Anonymous No.19197327]

>>19197314
Why?

[Anonymous No.19197357]

>>19194561
Relatable. Outsider looking in, every time. But I'm not jealous of well adjusted people, I'd rather be me.

[Anonymous No.19197425]

>>19195918
>yeah I totally believe climate change will cause global catastrophy within the next 50 years, including the flooding of all coastal cities & environs, that's why I work a white collar job in a coastal metropolis with no survival, agrarian or martial skills, no firearms or bugout bag, or any plan for survival in a drought/famine scenario.
literally me :|

[Anonymous No.19197587]

>>19197425
Why the fuck is /lit/ so full of normalfags?

[Anonymous No.19197630]

>>19195950
You have no idea what you're talking about. I guess I can't really relate 20 years worth of experience in some short post. I can't really recount the events to you either. Just be content knowing that you made a severely uninformed statement

[Anonymous No.19197643]

I've been binge reading/listening to Buddhist madhymaka talks by Jay Garfield for a day now.

I've come to appreciate the insights bourne from the analysis of Buddhist philosophy quite a lot. This threads subject about what's on the mind particularly resonated with me about what the Buddhist considers a mind or rather what we consider as a mind.
For example, the thread is named what is on "your mind" with the implicit understanding that out minds are not what we consider as our selves but rather something we own like a body, a name, a cloth, a car, our house, etc. The implicit possisive understanding of our minds as separate from our selves digs what we understand as "self" deeper down into a ground that we cannot really look for. What I mean by that is, norminally, when we think of ourselves we go through a ritual of trying to tie down what that self really is and dig deeper ever more to convince us that "that" is our selves. For example, we can say "I'm a fireman, a teacher, a father, a mother, a son" etc as first line of entrenchment on explaining what our self is. Then we may move to our names, "I'm John Smith" or our body by pointing out "I'm me". When that's not convincing enough we move to our memories. "I'm this person who read this post and is writing a comment now". If that's not enough, many dig deeper into association with the mental faculty or the consciousness as our self. "The one that's aware and awake is me" . Even more so, we retreat deeper and deeper to find something that may not be there. So we retreat to an alien supernatural orb of substance called the "soul" when all else fails to convince us. The last refuge of the poorly understood self is to hide away from everything.
The thought process strikes me as a very content understanding of the nature of soul/self that is the center of every human action in history.
Just 2 cent here

[Anonymous No.19197645]

I still dont know what to choose when it comes to life in general. It feels like choosing out of zero options. My heart remains silent as ever.

[Anonymous No.19197686]

>>19197643
>very coherent understanding

[Anonymous No.19197706]

>>19197630
I apologize. I related to him, I self-inserted.

[Anonymous No.19197720]

>>19197167
tell me more.

[Anonymous No.19197749]

>>19197643
haha the nigga's name is Garfield hahaha he's literally called Garfield lmao. Garfield!!!!!! lol

[Anonymous No.19197755]

>>19197749
WHERES MY FUCKING PIPE

[Anonymous No.19197805]

>go outside
>take a look around
What exactly am i supposed to dread losing to climate change?

[Anonymous No.19197817]

i need a new pack of cigs

[Anonymous No.19197920]

>>19197755
GARFIEEEEELD!

[Anonymous No.19197927]

>>19197805
you won't be able to #livelaughlove as well :P

[Anonymous No.19198192]

>>19195897
>having a oneitis
>having a oneitis that's a whore

holy fuck dude get out of your own head I'm begging you

[Anonymous No.19198345]

Should I quit my job and go to graduate school for literature or should I just quit my job?

[Anonymous No.19198358]

>>19197325
Cope. You didn't even try.

[Anonymous No.19198363]

>>19198345
Honestly, I’ve just noticed that every single notable author since the end of the last world war in the English language either studied formally, taught formally, worked as some sort of writer, or just did odd jobs while they wrote. None of them had a career doing a function like accounting or something that I’m aware of. So my studying literature is just an attempt to escape my career and somehow fix the fact that I ever had one in the first place.

[Anonymous No.19198492]

Maybe the answer lies in dreams. How do i lucid dream? I cant get past the sleep paralysis.

[Anonymous No.19198616]

>>19191897
I always have visions of blue networks of firing electricity in infinite nothingness I feel like I know how reality was created from nothingness but I can't explain it I can only visualize it

[Anonymous No.19198688]

>>19198616
One time i got really high and saw what appeared to be the framing of the universe. It was like a grid that was inside and behind space simulataneously. This framing came from an endless amount of these tunnels through which personalities were always running and merging with each other. Real weird stuff

[Curdie !!odA+MaldFSv No.19198766]

>>19194100
I haven’t tripfagged in a decade, actually forgot that’s it’s something I can do until you mentioned it

[Anonymous No.19198783]

>>19195729
When shit hits the fan you can always take the tedpill and squat

[Anonymous No.19198787]

I have to print out more books and walk around selling them but I still have more social media to setup, hmm, which to do first

[Anonymous No.19198802]

>>19198492
Dream? I can barely sleep.

[Anonymous No.19198819]

today i have learned that I can drink beer and hard alcohol fine but i have no idea how to pace myself with wine, especially on an empty stomach

[Curdie !!odA+MaldFSv No.19198843]

>>19195072
I had the same experience with LOTRO. Tried it again last month and it was downright depressing

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19198868]

>>19195893
hungover. very hungover

[Anonymous No.19198889]

>>19198868
im feeling that. i waited to eat because i was going to get drunk and make a nice meal for myself but i ended up just blacking out for the first time in fucking years and waking up this morning not remembering going to bed

[Anonymous No.19198896]

>>19195956
Yes. People in the Western will drop liberalism like a hot potato once their existence is actually threatened. I have no doubt about that.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19198899]

>>19198889
dude almost the same kinda night. i barely ate anything yesterday. rough

[Anonymous No.19198998]

The inquisitor opened fire on the Princess's. Her leg was barleymissed by the bullet. "I prefer not to use my weapons, little girl," the inquisitor continued to the trembling Princess, "but know that my patience is limited, unlike my authority."

[Anonymous No.19199003]

We're only making plans. For Nigel.

[Anonymous No.19199045]

rewatching I'm Not There. This movie was everything to me in my late teens. I knew every line by heart. Going back to it now so much of it just seems like wanky drivel. But there were two poems in it that I never got as a kid that I really enjoyed a lot now.

"Man that is born of woman
is a few days full of trouble"

[Anonymous No.19199053]

I am so unbelievably sad and anxious. I wanted it to work out. I'm glad I've cut you out though. Never again

[Anonymous No.19199083]

Does anyone else here have depersonalization/derealization here? It would make me feel better knowing there are others

[Anonymous No.19199094]

>>19198899
im getting too old for this shit. my body is not happy with me.

[Anonymous No.19199103]

>>19199083
Im pretty sure I am having problems with this

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19199114]

>>19199094
Dude I feel that every weekend. It use to be so much easier. I use to be able to drink so much more and feel nothing the next day. Now 3-4 pints and I'm fucked the next morning.
Aging sucks.

[Anonymous No.19199174]

>>19199114
yea i have to avoid getting too drunk these days because i get nasty heart palpitations when im hung over now, but things kind of unintentionally spiraled out of control last night. lesson learned i guess

[Anonymous No.19199179]

All of you depressed and anxious faggots should read:

shitkick.ca

The world is about to change

[Anonymous No.19199278]

>>19199179
this fucking guy again

[Anonymous No.19199290]

>>19196200
if brilliant minds for thousands of years haven't cracked it then i have no chance, all any of us can do is literally cope, maybe i should explore inner peace, whatever that means, maybe i can float on my back and let the waves and currents take me, sounds like Taoism

i was thinking last night, what comes first: the thought, or the neurotransmitters shifting? or if there's a separate thing in control? and also that it's amazing to have chemicals moving around in our fleshy brains eliciting thoughts and ideas which are immaterial. just think about that boundary between flesh and the abstract.

[Anonymous No.19199319]

keep listening to a song I recorded over and over. I just think it's really fucking good. I'm not sitting around thinking that that makes me so fucking good. I can't tell if this is narcissism.

[Anonymous No.19199361]

How to keep my workplace but change my job.

[Anonymous No.19199413]

>>19191897
Last night I met a girl on campus who is into classical music and Dostoevsky. I improvised a few short things on the piano today after finding out that she has a boyfriend. Let me know if you would like to hear them.

[Anonymous No.19199422]

>>19199319
You felt a lack in what is out there, and made this song to fill that need. The only downside to listening over and over again is that it accustoms your ears to it so that you can't be objective when it comes to mixing it.

[Anonymous No.19199439]

>>19199174
oh yea I am having some of the worst heart palpitations ive ever experienced just from standing up and walking to the bathroom. getting that drunk was a big mistake looool

[Anonymous No.19199487]

>>19199439
How old are you?

[Anonymous No.19199514]

I want to become a proficient and highly organised note taker for the purposes of journaling, planning, and being a better learner. I'm hoping to have notes for a wide range of topics, not just those I might need to know immediately. Do you anons have any advice or suggested guides for this? I'm going to be getting back into using Emacs and all the new Org gadgets like org-brain, but I'm more interested in theory of note taking and mental retention and less on what tools I ought to use.

[Anonymous No.19199515]

>>19199487
27

[Anonymous No.19199540]

>>19199515
Damn I was doing cocaine and drinking 40oz of Jack all night long at that age and no heart palps

[Anonymous No.19199583]

>>19199540
yea I think its safe to assume that I have some underlying problems that are being exacerbated here

[Anonymous No.19199604]

>>19196335
>any hallucinations?
no i didnt have any

[Anonymous No.19199662]

>>19199083
yes very badly. It's a stress response though. I'm also in medical school and pretty much all the other students said they have issues with it too when we covered it in our psych block.

[Anonymous No.19199666]

>>19199179

If the rest of the book is written like the beginning, it's terrible.

[Anonymous No.19199679]

>>19192050
It's called being an introvert

[Anonymous No.19199711]

I felt like in matters of sexuality and sexual discourse, I am always like a child on his first day of class. Clueless. Nervous. Anxious. Confused. Crying for mommy. Unfocused.

[Anonymous No.19199740]

I think I’ll just try to self teach rather than do the coding bootcamp. If it doesn’t work out then I don’t really care.

[Anonymous No.19199750]

>>19192419
Pozole

[Anonymous No.19199763]

>>19199750
>Pozole
What?

[Anonymous No.19199765]

New thread
>>19199764

[Anonymous No.19199776]

>>19199662
I wonder to what degree other people experience it. For me it's a variable thing and the degree of "off" things feel increases when I go outside, especially in crowded spaces. When I'm in public I know I'm there but I never feel there if that makes sense.

[Anonymous No.19199788]

>>19199776
yeah that makes sense anon. You might be getting subconsciously overwhelmed outside