Write whats on your mind

[Anonymous No.18269447]

[Anonymous No.18269453]

i want to have a beer so badly right now but its 4:47pm and i only have 2 more questions on my javascript assignment

[Anonymous No.18269462]

brilliance

[Anonymous No.18269476]

>>18269453
You can code on one beer.

[Anonymous No.18269477]

>>18269447
You know what it is lads, I'm thinking of going back to my roots from when I was like 4-5 years old and get really autistically into birds. It's time to buy some fuckin binoculars and a copy of The Peregrine

[Anonymous No.18269481]

DRKANJE KURCA
PIČKICE

[Anonymous No.18269484]

>>18269453
How is a beer going to stop you from finishing your work?

[Anonymous No.18269501]

>>18269481
Uzmi nedrkpilulu

[Anonymous No.18269512]

jacobs epistle in the new testament was perfect

[Anonymous No.18269523]

>>18269484
>>18269476
its not about that lol

[Anonymous No.18269594]

>>18269447
I struggle to fall asleep, I struggle to wake up. I’m always tired, I’m slow at everything except eating. My poop is sticky and infamously smelly. I go hungry, but too lazy to fix the food. I would rather not think about the imperfections of my diet anyway. And the exercise that I was supposed to do today, but that would be imperfect, too. I hope that I have thyroid problems, gluten intolerance, something that can be cured by simply changing what I consume. I would not like to believe that I am this weak without some particular disease that holds me back. But I don’t know what I will do about the ADHD symptoms of excessive thinking and analysis paralysis and procrastination

[Anonymous No.18269598]

I don't jerk off very often
I avoid porn and any imagery of undressed women
but in my heart I'm really a coomer. In my heart I really just want all of it. I think I even envy those who have it.
I'm abstaining because of religion, and I've worked at this for some time. But still, at heart, I am a coomer.

[Anonymous No.18269607]

>>18269598
This wouldn't be a problem if you had a wife/girlfriend

[Anonymous No.18269613]

I wish I had boys instead of girls; no matter what they do -i ts your fault in some way. I'm thinking that transsexuals want to be women so they can be responsible for nothing.

[Anonymous No.18269620]

Going outside is a good thing to do

[Anonymous No.18269618]

>>18269607
This is inaccurate.

[Anonymous No.18269621]

>>18269175
my point, dumbfuck, is that results vary wildly between therapists and you're better off paying a shaman, because there's no quality control.

>>18269300
more like
>most people have mixed results with therapy
>don't waste time with this bullshit

[Anonymous No.18269626]

>>18269607
I've realized I am probably one of those who should marry. I think the first thing I should do is start working out properly and lose the gut

[Anonymous No.18269634]

>>18269613
just beat them, lmao

[Anonymous No.18269639]

>>18269626
Godspeed, Anon.

[Anonymous No.18269645]

>>18269639
looks wonderful desu

[Anonymous No.18269809]

It's an unrelated article.
Within the banner headline.

[Anonymous No.18269832]

>>18269626
Just some advice, losing the gut is gonna be very dependent on you putting the fork down. Exercise is great, especially running, makes me feel great. But still, you gotta put the fork down. And whenever I exercise I feel like eating more. You gotta build up that resistance to hunger.

[Anonymous No.18269972]

Shelley is incredibly mediocre and seems like amateur hour after reading Keats and Wordsworth.

[Anonymous No.18269992]

Don't particularly feel like doing anything.

[Anonymous No.18270004]

I ate too much now I feel really really uncomfortable. I'm lying on the floor hoping I won't throw up or burst.

[Anonymous No.18270020]

>>18269598
I feel this describes me too, but I think it will eventually go away after long enough a time.

[Anonymous No.18270025]

>>18270004
Have a bath.

[Anonymous No.18270036]

>>18270020
Im hoping the same for myself, i very rarely indulge in sexual thinking, but I want it to go away entirely lol.

[Anonymous No.18270085]

>>18269447
I fell in love with an alt-girl, and she ghosted me after like 3 months of dating. I no longer find any other woman attractive and I don't want to be with anyone else.

[Anonymous No.18270088]

>>18270085
How did it go so wrong?

[Anonymous No.18270101]

>>18269594
Probably can be changed by what you consume and how you consume it. Slow down when you eat, your body will be better able to process the food if you slow down and chew it well. Poor diet can screw up sleep, could easily just be that you are missing something your body needs. Honestly, you just sound like you are depressed and need to get off your ass, stop looking for the quick and easy fix, do the work, see the changes, accomplish something. Does wonders for depression.

[Anonymous No.18270105]

>>18270088
Nothing went wrong. We were fine and everything was going well. We got along, we talked daily, we enjoyed each others company. One day, she just left. No explanation or anything, so now I just have to accept an ending with no conclusion.

[Anonymous No.18270115]

I met this girl and I really like her and she likes me but I have genital herpes and I don’t know how she will react when I tell her.

[Anonymous No.18270123]

>>18269477
Do it big anon, I’m rooting for you and the birbs

[Anonymous No.18270134]

>>18269613
>I'm thinking that transsexuals want to be women so they can be responsible for nothing.
This is my main thought as well, that combined with the perceived support they’ll get as a woman, considering women are praised more then men. This would lean into the idea we see a lot of not typically feminine males transitioning like when they get out of the marines and shit. All you have to do to not worry about responsibility anymore is grow your hair and wear a skirt? Doesn’t sound too bad.

[Anonymous No.18270156]

>>18270105
I had to go through something similar anon. Just this past winter, met a girl, we talk everyday, hang out all the time, sleep over at each other’s places. One day after hanging out all weekend she kisses me goodbye and says I’ll see you tomorrow.

And after that I never saw her again. She barely texted me back the next week and 4 days after I saw her she said wasn’t ready to be with anyone.

Point is women are crazy, and do this shit all the time. Dont over think it.

[Anonymous No.18270193]

>>18269447
I have these wants to be this outdoorsmen type of guy, be able to camp with little gear, build and live in a cabin eventually, Ted without the bombs kinda thing.

The only issue is I really dislike bugs and being dirty, which are two things absolutely guarenteed about being outside in that way. This makes me think I don’t actually want to be an outdoorsman and it’s some ego thing.

[Anonymous No.18270211]

My mother is an abusive fat idiot who spreads misery to everyone she knows. When she dies it will be a great weight off the world in every sense of the term. There should be more lit featuring truly repulsive women.

[Anonymous No.18270229]

>>18269453
Earn the beer, finish your work.

[Anonymous No.18270237]

I hope I can find the motivation to get back into my poetry writing. I'd like to have a collection finished by the end of the year but I've encountered a writers block the past couple months due to heavy work life.

[Anonymous No.18270240]

>>18269447
My life has been a series of minute bad choices that have accumulated into a tragicomic middle act. At the same time, success or greatness seems to have been within reach countless times. I have to wonder if God is doing all this to test me.

[Anonymous No.18270248]

>>18270211
What she did to you, if I may ask?

[Anonymous No.18270270]

>>18270248
She flies into rages at the drop of a dime or whenever any effort is required of her for anything. Screams at people, berates them, general emotional abuse stuff. She's a self-indulgent narcissist who makes no real effort to ever be a better person. When I was very young she'd be physically violent towards me also whereas now she just screams. That I would go to prison is the only reason I don't smother her or push her down some stairs.

[Anonymous No.18270277]

>Sonoko was actually in my arms. Breathing quickly, she blushed red as fire and closed her eyes. Her lips were childishly beautiful. But they aroused no desire in me. And yet I kept hoping that something would happen within me at any moment—surely when I actually kiss her, surely then I will discover my normality, my unfeigned love.The machine was rushing onward. No one could stop it.
>I covered her lips with mine. A second passed. There is not the slightest sensation of pleasure. Two seconds. It is just the same. Three seconds. . . . I understood everything.
Mishima...

[Anonymous No.18270289]

I tried writing on MDMA and it was a profound experience. My emotions had total clarity as if I knew what they were for the first time. It was as if thought and emotion fused and became one. Everything I wrote seemed so true and genuine, it came directly from the heart and so it had a deeper truth than bloodless abstract ideas. Shame it melts your brain with frequent use. Who knows where I could go with it if it this weren't just an experimental exercise but a regular part of my writing routine. Nothing good comes without a price.

[Anonymous No.18270311]

>>18269447
I'm about to graduate with a Master's (English lit, got memed) in September, and have no real idea what to do about work and money. Going to apply for a publishing internship, but there's maybe a 5% chance of getting it - then plan B is adjunct teaching, but that barely pays. I don't wanna be the "world expert on Husserl who lives in his car" from that one meme.

[Anonymous No.18270316]

>>18270311
Congrats. Be happy and do what makes you happy, money will follow.

[Anonymous No.18270318]

>>18269447
i just ordered a ticket for the art museum, i'm very excited. this is my first time going to the art museum by myself, feel like i'm going to get lost in there somehow.

[Anonymous No.18270340]

>>18270134
Truth. This can be tested on any social media platform by using a picture of a woman and have her take pictures for you now and again. People will literally buy you shit. It's insane. I can't imagining it working for some of the walking atrocities I've seen masquerading as women but it's certainly easier to get stuff done. I just send my oldest daughter into stores to get anything I need if a dudes behind the counter because they will invent discounts.

[Anonymous No.18270348]

>>18270270
Sorry to hear that bro. My mom was the same when I was younger. Few things can fuck a young man up like a crazy mother. She had the shortest fuse and a restive temperament, she would say the meanest things to her own children and sometimes get physical. What kind of petty soul acts as a tyrant to their own children?

To make matters somehow worse there were times when she would be motherly towards me, only a parent who is truly defective lacks that instinct. She would go into rages and then melodramatically sob and apologize. I guess this is what people mean by "gaslighting"

She had a difficult life, and things were dark for her then. People in hell act like devils. I can see how she got that way. I also admit I was a hellion and just as stubborn and unwilling to back down from a fight as she was, making escalation unavoidable. I was the only one to call her out on her bullshit and I remember being enraged at having to be subordinated to someone who is so irrational and obviously wrong. The one positive effect of that resistance I suppose is that it made me question authority and form my own perspectives.

Anyway we patched things up over time and age has mellowed her out quite a bit. I got lucky. Your mother is not the kind of person you're supposed to hate.

[Anonymous No.18270360]

My GF tooked a "morning after" pill yesterday and now she's acting like a crazy evil bitch. I don't know what they be puting on these things but jesus everytime she takes it she start acting crazy. Now she thinks I cheated on her and it's breaking up with me. Thing is I know she'll come down to her senses eventually so it's no biggie, but it's really absurd how one pill can make such drastic change in her behavior.

[Anonymous No.18270371]

>>18270360
Women can be like this without a pill. They are emotional bombs and the shrapnel is anger and tears.

[Anonymous No.18270378]

>>18270289
>melts your brain
Debunked. Pure MDMA is one of the safer drugs

[Anonymous No.18270391]

>>18270270
I'm sorry for you, anon. Try to be more stoic and don't mind your mother's outbursts. Quarrels only create a tense atmosphere in your family. I hope you get along well with your mom someday.

[Anonymous No.18270405]

Big heavy boobs.

[Anonymous No.18270412]

Women have rape fantasies. COVID porn hub viral searches...hmmm. can I grope women at the store and be thanked for it if I wear a mask?
Genius or madness?

[Anonymous No.18270418]

>>18269447
adriana

[Anonymous No.18270422]

>>18270371
Yes, kinda true. But these pill makes it 10x worst. I will never coom in her pussy again.

[Anonymous No.18270424]

>>18270378
Try finding pure MDMA though. Most of what you find on the streets is adulterated. And it absolutely does burn out your serotonin receptors if you use it heavily. Less so for men, however. Don't make me link to research papers.

[Anonymous No.18270428]

>>18270360
The morning after pill turns her body so toxic it kills the baby. Dingus.

[Anonymous No.18270443]

>>18270378
does lsd fry your brain?

[Anonymous No.18270456]

>>18270422
It's a good idea. When she asks why, tell her 'because it only kills one potential child'

[Anonymous No.18270461]

>>18270443
Anything fun does.

[Anonymous No.18270923]

I am a desperately lonely and neurotic woman with a kind heart, somebody please betroth me, all I want is to read poetry to a man who won't try to sleep with bpd e-girls from discord whose self-injurious capers are so extensive that they cannot even recall that they have had my boyfriend's inconstant phallus between their lips, lips they've inflated artificially, presumably through self-absorption

Send tweet

[Anonymous No.18270931]

One time I had a dream my high school got taken over guys with machine guns and body armor. We were all brought to the gym. A girl I liked in and I were selected, so they dragged us to the center and took turns beating the shit out of us. I remember the tears in her eyes and I was powerless to help her.

[Anonymous No.18270935]

>>18269598
What religion?

[Anonymous No.18271043]

Every time I see a "Blacked" or "Made for BBC" post I have incredibly racist thoughts. I am beginning to suspect that this is the intention of those posts, and that they are actually posted by white supremacists as a form of reverse psychology.

[Anonymous No.18271068]

I've been really bad about writing in my journal lately and don't like it. I can maybe get down five pages a week. I just feel so disinterested in myself and think that even if I enjoy my thoughts or experiences or readings, they're just not going to amount to anything on paper. I try to remind myself that mountain climbers who spent all day in extreme conditions still had the time and will to record what happened each night.

[Anonymous No.18271070]

>>18271043
I suspect that such posters can be divided into these categories:
>False-flagging /pol/tards: ~17%
>Baiting Indians/Asians/Arabs: 70%
>People with an actual fetish for Black men: ~ 10%
>Actual Black people: < 2%
>Women: < 1%

[Anonymous No.18271117]

>>18270318
Have fun!

[Anonymous No.18271163]

>>18270318

[Anonymous No.18271173]

>>18269447
Long distance relationships are not worth the future pain

[Anonymous No.18271184]

if i look at the news at all i get trigged by how misleading and spun it all is. i can maybe get through the wsj, but i'm trying to limit myself to just the financial times if i can help it.

[Anonymous No.18271239]

i watched the death in venice movie and it's wicked boring but also super comfy at the same time.

[Anonymous No.18271256]

>>18271173
A plane ticket for a weeklong fuck fest with a girl you've been courting long distance is pretty cheap if you're not a third worlder, and it's worth it for sure.

What went wrong anon?

[Anonymous No.18271268]

This living with parents thing just isn’t going to work. I’m too old.

[Anonymous No.18271315]

>>18271043
Sort of related, but I was thinking recently about how people can be made to identify with a strawman depiction of themselves and how this has becoming something of an artform online.
Like, if you have ever had an exchange with someone who, it turns out, is only interested in misrepresenting you then you know how incredibly frustrating it can be.
When you recognize this the smart thing to do is disengage and save your time for something else, but it can be tempting to just throw up your hands and dismissively agree - but even if you do this in a obviously mocking way they will intentionally misinterpret you yet again, this time as you conceding to their position.
I was thinking about how this has been used to political ends on multiple levels. I remember some meme I saw that depicted a cartoon SJW calling everyone Nazis, and then one of the people goes "okay fine, I'm a nazi now" and this was meant to explain the rise of the Alt-Right.

More broadly it seems to be a memetic technic for corralling people in to accepting the position of antagonist for your own ends.
I think the Chad Yes meme is a follow up to this, as its most common usage is just affirming a position you are mostly incapable of articulating (because you got mindfucked into accepting it) in the face of critique. It just reaffirms your debilitating conditioning. Of course it is sometimes the reverse, a time saving factor against people seeking to misinterpret you, but it runs the risk of making you just as mushbrained if relied on too much. So you end up with this discourse of people just affirming and identifying the most disingenuous caricatures of each other. This allows the Graph 'n' Stats guy to swing in, play adult in the room, and win over the normies with little to any resistance.


I don't think that this is unrelated to the phenomenon, which started with consumer corps like Denny's but quickly moved to PACs and NGOs, of recruiting prodigious content creators, like people running Twitter and Facebook meme accounts to produce propaganda and run memetic psyops.

[Anonymous No.18271377]

>>18269447
the artist's curse has a strong hold on me. I keep swinging between liking my novel and it being total shit whyareyouevenwastingyourtimeomgyouresofuckingdump

[Anonymous No.18271383]

>>18270931
dark

[Anonymous No.18271384]

>>18271173
>future pain
What pain might that be? My now wife and I were in a long distance relationship while i finished graduate school. We saw each other about every 3 months. I think the longest was 5 months. Married 6 years this August with a kid and house.

[Anonymous No.18271393]

>>18271315
insightful post

[Anonymous No.18271399]

>>18269477
I saw a cardinal today after a rain shower and wrote a poem about it.
Birds are cool anon, you should do it. Deep dive into birds. There is nothing to be lost, and so much to gain. Is there one place on land, besides mountains maybe, that doesn't have birbs? I always admired the autists that have passions way beyond what is considered normal. Who else can you ask about all the mecha figures that have come out since 1980?
There was a post by an anon a while ago who said the most beautiful thing to him was a bird landing on his windowsill, staying for a few minutes, and flying away. I wish I saved it

[Anonymous No.18271422]

>>18271399
i used to have a 3rd floor apartment with a big tree next to the window and my futon was right next to the window so when i'd lay in bed in the summer it would feel like i was in the tree with the squirrels, there was something so comfy about it, sometimes i would dream i live in the trees. now i have windows that face a street and it's just noisy.

[Anonymous No.18271442]

>>18271163
i'm going to the art institute of chicago, so I'm planning to recreate this scene when i get there.

[Anonymous No.18271444]

>>18271315
>Agree and Amplify
That is what they called it originally. I had its origins in the Manosphere, I think Heartiste, and it was literally meant to be when a woman says you are terrible you say no I am a monster, a serial killer, etc rather than justify yourself to her.
And yeah it got picked up as a rhetorical device in the early 2010's, I saw it discussed among NRx and Proto Alt Right crowds circa 2013.
I don't think there has ever really been a proper accounting of the influence the manosphere/redpill/self-help had on online politics, not in a way that deals with how much of their rhetorical tricks and techniques formed the substratum on which debates took place.

[Anonymous No.18271450]

>>18271422
That sucks man I'm sorry. I really feel we as humans are more connected to nature than we realize. I am building a house and it is on a decent piece of land. I was mowing there this last weekend and stopped for a break. All I could here was birds, wind through the trees. It was an amazing feeling so I finished mowing then just sat there for around 1.5 hours just listening to the nature.

[Anonymous No.18271452]

>>18270318
Which art museum anon?

[Anonymous No.18271465]

>>18271399
cardinals are almost mystical, I consider them my good luck symbol. I enjoy the songs that birds make, I also like it when they communicate in the morning. reminds me of two frenchmen scrutinizing their daily breakfast.

[Anonymous No.18271495]

I’m writing a sci-fi/slice of life comic at the moment, and a big thing was going to be meeting people and developing a sense of community and family as it went, but ever since I’ve started I’ve been dealing with really unpleasant social interactions. My family has suddenly turned and been at each others throats, and every time I go do something out and about it seems I come across conflict or really shady people. I’ve all but completely lost my inspiration, but I also don’t just want to abandon my work and use this as an excuse to procrastinate more.

I guess my question is, how do I develop inspiration or base characters off something genuine when I’m not experiencing it at the moment and haven’t for a while? I feel like if I were to keep writing this story now it would come across as fake or have artificial feelings attached to it. Should I just write what I want to see in people rather than what I’ve been seeing in them lately?

[Anonymous No.18271515]

I feel I've been left behind (and in all honesty I have been) and it feels like everything is just going to shit at the same time. My exams go shit but everyone I know is out having fun and still not caring about their exams, I might as well fail desu but why does no one else seem to worry if they're in the same boat as me. Failing in an online sem what a fuckin joke. I haven't read or written in two months I just have no motivation for it now while others have been consistently reading and talking about what they read, and I hate that I wish they'd stop but why would they? At the same time something’s gone wrong with my mouth and am in constant pain and I can't eat or talk without more pain either. Its all just going bad at the same time I don't know what to do.

[Anonymous No.18271518]

I have no idea whether I should try to get into finance or tech with a masters

[Anonymous No.18271532]

>>18271450
I truly believe anyone with a connection and interest in nature is the biggest sign of a PC. NPC’s don’t care about it at all

[Anonymous No.18271551]

>>18271452
art institute of chicago, mainly going for monet's exhibition and to gaze at some greek statues.

[Anonymous No.18271560]

>>18271532
damn ive never thought about it this way holy shit

[Anonymous No.18271579]

Shit year but life is finally starting to look up. I got vaccinated, summer is coming, I'm in the best shape of my life, and my job lets me read all day. Life is good

[Anonymous No.18271590]

Is this the bird watching thread? Today I saw a black-and-white warbler and the way it was climbing up a tree was pretty weird it looked like the movement of an insect more than a bird.

[Anonymous No.18271594]

>>18271465
>I enjoy the songs that birds make
Anon, so do I
I have this opinion that the best composers in the world have never captured the majesty of a birb chorus in the morning. Its kind of silly to me, the greatest minds in the world cant compete with a little birb that just is.
The only birds I dont like are geese. Cocky little bastards

[Anonymous No.18271616]

>>18271560
Honestly, some have a fake level of interest like
>oh yeah I love hiking
Yet have gone hiking once in their lives and it was for an hour at the local park that had a wooded section and were in their phone the whole time.

Nature is the true NPC filter

[Anonymous No.18271633]

>>18271594
>the best composers in the world have never captured the majesty of a birb chorus in the morning
It is the hubris of man to attempt to imitate perfection. What the most select human minds fail to do, the average song bird performs flawlessly

[Anonymous No.18271704]

>>18271616
Yea I totally know what you mean by the fake stuff. I have a friend who is geologist and man, that dude loves nature. Like I enjoy primitive camping and being outside. But this dude does something outside ever. single. day. Camping, hiking, climbing, mountain biking. You name it. All. Year. Long. I honestly have trouble getting him to commit to things because he leaves his phone in is car or at home cuz he is always outside. That dude will be a fucking tree when he dies.

[Anonymous No.18271727]

>>18271551
dont touch the dicks

[Anonymous No.18271728]

>>18271551
touch the dicks anon

[Anonymous No.18271735]

>>18271704
It really is apparent, and I’m not saying you need to be like your friend who loves it with every fiber of his being, but just being able to take a second out of your day like you said, slow down, listen to the birds and genuinely appreciate it is a huge ticker for critical/rational thinking and skills, as well as simply soul that are lacking in NPCs

[Anonymous No.18271746]

>>18271728
i bet they're smooth

[Anonymous No.18271748]

>>18271735
indeed, stay groovy anon

[Anonymous No.18271770]

>>18269447
It wasn't mutual. Not even close. I tell myself it's for the better. She'll never say she feels bad about it and she'll never say that she deserved it.
Did I want her to feel bad or did I just want to move on?
It's late at night now and for the first time in a while I feel scared and alone.
How could so much change in a week?
I'll move on i promise but there will always be that feeling that she'll never know how bad I felt. To me that's worse than the split.
She'll pick up the last of her belongings tommorow and that will be it.

[Anonymous No.18271780]

>>18271748
You as well fren, godspeed

[Anonymous No.18271799]

I'm sick of everything good and enjoyable being used as a tool.

I'm sick of everything being reduced to statistics, data, and archetypes that can all be easily categorized and pulled out to dismiss a person's arguments and used as justification to mercilessly shit on them.

I'm sick of seeing snakes and quasi-nihilists portray themselves as empathic champions of reason and truth without actually doing anything actually meaningful cause they want to be seen as the good guys.

I'm sick of the anger.

I'm sick of the poison.

I'm sick of all this plaguing my mind, affecting the things I wanna make for people to just enjoy.

I want to bloom despite all the doom, but they make it so hard and often find it funny.

[Anonymous No.18271838]

What's a good job to work while writing in the evenings or on your days off? We all need to pay the bills, no?

[Anonymous No.18271841]

>I can’t feel vibes or ‘feelings’ about things anymore. Like before I’d play a game and there’d be a vibe or something to it. Same with just going different places I feel nothing now everything feels exactly the same no matter what
Do any of you guys relate to this?

[Anonymous No.18271872]

>>18271841
i'm going to guess that you've overstimulated your brain with media consumption and therefore numbed it to new experiences

[Anonymous No.18271882]

>>18271841
Yeah it comes with age. Eventually everything just meshes together. You go down a farm road once and it's as if you've seen all of them. Games are amazing at first because it's new and exciting but then everything from story line to graphics all just look the same. Playing multiplayer is worse because it's the same maps played hundreds of times . Then there are games where you have to grind hours to level up. The list goes on. Basically alot of things closely resemble eachother and kinda destroys the immersion.

[Anonymous No.18271883]

>>18271841
I can relate anon. I had these thoughts for a long time, thinking the whole world and life was trivial
Hamlet said it best when he said "How weary, stale, flat, and unprofitable seem to me all the uses of this world!"
I wish I could help, but I found joy in my fight for faith, which I realize isn't for everyone

[Anonymous No.18271911]

>>18271872
I don't think it's natural really. For instance when you're a kid and open a book, the first few lines can hit you emotionally like a bullet and suck you into the story. Now I've read all these famous authors like Dickens and Camus and Flaubert and nothing impacts me even a little, it's the same emotional resonance as watching paint dry. The overstimulation theory maybe makes sense, but this doesn't happen to everyone. If it did, everyone would abandon literature and see it as pointless.

[Anonymous No.18271922]

>>18271551
Dang man I'm jealous. It's been a while since I've been there. There used to be a really cool medieval fresco on a wall. They literally slapped a medieval chapel wall onto their own wall. Pretty rad. Check it out. Also, touch the dicks.

[Anonymous No.18271931]

>>18271911
it happens to most people these days. the masses brains' have been totally fried by constant screen use. people who regularly read literature are very rare, even on this board dedicated to the subject

[Anonymous No.18271947]

>>18271931
It makes sense to a degree, but has it been proven? Frequent use of actual stimulant drugs is linked to frying the reward system but has it been proven for stuff like social media use and TV?

[Anonymous No.18271950]

>>18271841
I know what you're talking about but I can't relate. I still get vibes from things even though most of the time I'm not interested in anything, and I've fried my brain with years of 12+ hours a day of internet browsing and porn, and I want to kill myself every day.

[Anonymous No.18271989]

1400, bitch, you know I smoke a pole
With 6ix9ine, bitch, you know we smoke them poles
Smoke a pole, smoke a pole, poke a scrote
You talk down, we gon' let that shit go
Let him blow, let him blow, let him blow
Grab the scrote, grab the scrote, grab the scrote
2 2 3 inches and I put 'em to your nose
Let it go, bitch, we let that shit go

Yeah, and send cumshots off at your dome
Pussy boy, we'll pull up at your home
You're home alone, home alone, home alone
Hide your chromosome, bitch, chromosome, uh (tranny cock!)
Balling White Iverson, talking Post Malone
Haha, yeah, 14, yeah, 14, yeah, aye, uh
Smoke a pole, smoke a pole, poke a scrote
Let it go, let it go, let it go
(Smoke a cock, aaaah)

[6ix9ine:]
(SCUUUM GAAANG)
I'm toting big shit (big dick)
Get your ass split (shit dick)
4-5, I call that the big bitch (big dick)
We don't miss shit (trap shit)
Get your nips licked (trap shit)
Hollow tip, hit you with a glass dick
Big fun on the cum, that's a pump with a red head
Catch him in the bed while he sleep, that's a wet dream
(That's a wet dream)
This nigga tryna fuck me
Close range cumshots, fuck where the chest be
If a nigga try to test me, I suck him (suck him)
Put a hole in his head, he a dolphin (rapist fish)
Pull up to the block, you don't want it (that's that dummy thicc)
Pull up with the cock, you won't want it (brrrah!)
I leave a nigga flat, no whooty
Scum Gang dick, we on it, you don't want it (ooh, ooh)

[Trippie Redd:]
1400, bitch, you know I smoke a pole
With 6ix9ine, bitch, you know we smoke them poles
Smoke a pole, smoke a pole, poke a scrote
You hang down, we gon' let that dick go (grrrat!)
Let me blow, let me blow, let me blow (let that dick go)
Grab the scrote, grab the scrote grab the scrote
223 inches and I put 'em to your nose (to your nose)
Let it go, bitch, we let that dick go

[Anonymous No.18271991]

I'm 40% of the way through Under the Volcano, and it's great. But honestly, as an alcoholic who has almost 8 months sober, I'm not sure it was technically the best idea to read it lol. Brings back memories, and as fucked up as it sounds, ever the descriptions of delerium tremens sort of causes cravings just because it so accurately describes those feelings associated with alcohol use, not because those specific symptoms are pleasurable, because of course they aren't. I never had anything quite as bad as what's described in the book, but I was starting to get there this last go-round. And this is part of why I stopped, I never want to reach that point. It's just a slow painful death

[Anonymous No.18272000]

>>18271911
I'm absolutely numbed by stimulus exposure but I find it still affects me, poetry especially, but I can get an emotional impact from reading even dumb genre fiction. For example I read an Orson Scott Card book last week for some reason and there was a scene where a tribe of aliens is murdered by humans in retaliation for an alien murdering a human. The thing is though that this particular tribe was not the tribe that killed the human, and the aliens were actually preparing to go fight said tribe in honor of their pact with the humans. The aliens are small in stature and technologically primitive so they get destroyed by the humans. This idea of these little creatures planning to defend their human friends and then getting murdered by them unironically upset me, like it ruined my mood. I know this is kind of facile emotional manipulation but it doesn't make me not feel something because i can actually imagine these creatures in my head.

I've also been reading The Opposing Shore(Le rivage des Syrtes) and it is immensely powerful in terms of creating an atmosphere. Hell the book is practically just atmosphere, nothing really happens. If you want a very strong 'vibe' like that other anon was describing I recommend it.

It is just browsing 4chan and posting where I feel nothing at all most of the time. Reading a book will make me react emotionally a lot more

[Anonymous No.18272075]

You know that urge to shit after drinking coffee? I've I've taken to calling it "coffee drops". Because coffee makes your shit drop. Why is it that I have made this connection, you may ask? It doesn't seem all that logical. It's really quite far fetched to call your morning coffee shits "coffee drops". The reason being is that it sounds very much like "cough drops". This is relevant, because after reading this you will remember that connotation, and you will never again be able to hear the phrase "cough drops" without thinking of poop, and this dumb post will live in your head rent free. Happy coffee drops.

[Anonymous No.18272094]

>>18272075

[Anonymous No.18272117]

I was walking toward my house, my garage was on the left side and there was a door, two niggers and
a white whore rush up to the door, ignoring me. one of the niggers is trying to pick lock the door
and he does it really fast. the white whore tells him to hurry up. I say "HEY!" they ignore me and
go in the garage. I rush inside and run down to the basement, which was very large and
unfinished. I remember thinking to myself "why is it unfinished" then i thought "well we are moving
soon." i find my father in his office, and i tell him that a woman and two black guys broke into the
garage, i was hoping he grabbed a gun but he didn't. we rush into the garage, the garage was empty.
which i didn't know until we walked in there. we saw one of the climbing into the drop down ceiling
and i rush up to the ladder to try and grab his feet, but before i do, i see something moving in
ceiling under the mans feet on the horizontal metal support beam. this made me recoil and my father
took my place to try and grab his feet but they got away. i remeber it kind of merged into the metal
support beam, i thought it was a rat, but after that i didn't think anything of it. i remeber
telling my dad, "i wish i had a gun so i could have shot them." he never said anything, i didn't
see him anymore after that. after that it was night time and i was coming down the
stairs and went to the garage and as i opened the garage there was this old indian wearing a war
bonnet staring at me but it was obviously not a real person it was a ghost because he was a bit
transparent and i had and overwhelming sense of dread come over me and i couldn't move in the dream
then i woke up

[Anonymous No.18272137]

Feels like one of those nights where I don't want to sleep because I feel so dissatisfied, so I stay up all night hoping a change comes but nothing does and I spend the next day at work tired as all hell and slightly regretting it

[Anonymous No.18272158]

>>18272137
Same brother. I'll fall asleep eventually probably, but later than usual

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DU6IndADEWI

[Anonymous No.18272214]

I don't enjoy anything, have no passion for my interests, have no real skills, and don't have any major goals for the future. Ideally I'll just stop thinking at some point and become an unconscious robot or simply drop dead.

[Anonymous No.18272220]

>>18269481
maloljetnice

[Anonymous No.18272226]

>>18269477
That's adorable. I hope all goes well.

[Anonymous No.18272272]

>>18269447
Is this a new Rupi Kaur Instagram post?

[Anonymous No.18272278]

>>18269618
Only if you marry the wrong one.

[Anonymous No.18272515]

Yes, yes, time may run in circles, but not in the way you think. You imagine a timeline: from the beginning to the end of the universe - and when we have travelled through the timeline, the pointer jumps back to the beginning. However, only the smallest part of this timeline repeats itself, namely the part that encompasses your life. Past and future, beginning and end of the universe, are only projections that are thrown out of your life sequence and don't have an independent existence outside of your time sequence. When you are born, history is born, and history is a baby of billions of years old - yet only as old as you are.

[Anonymous No.18272549]

>>18270105
>>18270156
They want to feel good by being chased.

[Anonymous No.18272564]

>>18270443
It doesn't kill neurons, it that's what you mean. The biggest risk is it can cause derealization or HPPD
If you're talking about killing neurons and brain receptors, you're thinking of these: amphetamines, cocaine, nitrous, and alcohol. Dunno about benzos

[Anonymous No.18272573]

I'm so tired despite sleeping 8 hours a day and taking supplements.

[Anonymous No.18272574]

>>18269594
Describes my life perfectly. Bravo.

[Anonymous No.18272576]

>>18269447
Nice picture :-)

[Anonymous No.18272588]

>>18271315
Good post, you are on to something for sure. Got any more reflections anon?

[Anonymous No.18272590]

no

[Anonymous No.18272597]

>>18271422
>i used to have a 3rd floor apartment with a big tree next to the window and my futon was right next to the window so when i'd lay in bed in the summer it would feel like i was in the tree with the squirrels
Man, in synergy with nature, embodying that which is in no opposition to the Lord's intention, blooms and thrive like a soft hibiscus amongst insects and arachnids. Boasting its fragility onto the world, to love and be loved.

[Anonymous No.18272605]

Was spooning with a girl and she was getting frisky. I told her I didn't want any and to just go to sleep. She lets up for a minute but then goes at it again, grabs my dick. I give in and fuck her out of obligation. Today I feel dirty and used.

[Anonymous No.18272657]

>>18272605
sounds like you've been r*ped, by social media standards

[Anonymous No.18272664]

>>18272657
Wasn't a big deal though, just annoying how she only cares about my D.

[Anonymous No.18272673]

>>18272605
Been there. It's annoying but whatever, until she goes on about she thought I had feelings for her because I fucked her. Bitch if you grab my dick I'll fuck you, don't read anything more into it than that.

[Anonymous No.18272714]

>>18269447
Just got rejected by the qt book nerd I was seeing.
Think I was texting too much, she said she liked me and it was something else, I didn't ask.
I'm not super upset or anything, just a little blue.

[Anonymous No.18272741]

Maybe I should kill myself.
Haven't had that thought for a while but yesterday I talked about past suicidai-ideation and it triggered this question. I think If I do it today I can actually go through with it. But on the other hand I'm not my past self anymore. Surviving is more interesting. For me it seems like life is good. I wouldn't want to miss out on that.
When did that change of view happen?.

[Anonymous No.18272747]

>>18271495
>what I want to see in people rather than what I’ve been seeing in them
What you see in them is also a part of them. Try to balance it between the expectation and the reality, the eternal with the fleeting. Hope with a dose of realism.

[Anonymous No.18272797]

>>18272741
Thoughts such as those are meaningless to me, now. "We will remember it and laugh". Yes the proverb is true.

[Anonymous No.18272898]

>>18272714
>I'm not super upset or anything, just a little blue.
Understandable. Focus on yourself king.

[Anonymous No.18272926]

I wonder if it is possible to brainwash yourself to do some productive intellectual work
I managed to get into lifting and I can see the benefits
On the other side, I cannot get myself to learn a language for my uni because I think that is not worth the effort, I had to change this mindset to graduate though...
I have no idea how, I am fucked

[Anonymous No.18272938]

I want to teach English online, I have a degree and a TEFL, is there anybody here who has done this before and can recommend a company?

[Anonymous No.18272971]

>>18272573
Could be the supplements. Do you take phenibut? >>18272573

[Anonymous No.18272976]

Kept waking up and dozing off, had a bunch of dreams.
>Navigating through an M.C. Escher building. Upon arriving at the roof, a guy runs past me and jumps to his death. Really sickening splat.
>Sex with a caramel-skinned woman. She told me she was going out with a friend of mine, one I haven’t seen in a long time. She said he talked about me all the time. I promised her I wouldn’t tell him about this as a favor for fucking her.
>Sex with that woman again.
>David Lynch Q&A at the bookstore. I was trying to think of something to say to him. Ended up browsing the store and walking uncomfortably close behind the other people there. They didn’t seem to mind or notice.
>Something with a bird, a dragon and skyscraper. Makes me think of 9/11.

[Anonymous No.18272993]

>>18269447
What the fuck is that on the floor?

[Anonymous No.18272999]

>>18272993
carpet

[Anonymous No.18273016]

>>18270193
Same
I don't mind bugs in general nor do I care about dirt, but I always have my /out/ings ruined by ticks. Fucking hate them, and there's fucking tons of them where I live
Worst thing is that they're not just an annoying nuisance like other insects, but they can actually seriously fuck you up

[Anonymous No.18273042]

>>18269477
>>18271399
My wife and I are having our porch/deck redone, and as the boards were finally removed, we discovered a family of finches had already made a nest underneath the deck. Five newly hatched chicks were being fed by their stressed out parents, their protective cover now gone.

My wife suffered miscarriage twice this year, and we are in our late thirties.

She was very worried about the work disrupting the nest or somehow scaring off the parents so the babies would not survive. She made a little cardboard covering from a canned sparkling water box so that rain would not damage the nest. She called a friend in Germany who was a bird expert and he said not to move the nest, and to give the babies a few weeks to grow before construction resumed.

Last night, our dog discovered a tiny baby rabbit and did what dogs do, overjoyed to have a squeaking plaything to toss around for a few minutes. My wife was beside herself. We pried the creature from his jaws, and as it lay there on the grass, we saw it was still breathing, and no visible blood. We pulled our dog inside (I didn't yell at him, she did). After a few hours we went to check to see if the little baby rabbit was still alive.

Approaching the area of the grass where we'd left the rabbit, we saw was gone. Either its tiny body wasn't so badly broken that it could run, or another predator had grabbed it. I told her we would never know what happened to it. We turned back to the house to check on the bird nest.

Our flashlight beams flitted over the demolished deck, expecting to see the baby chicks huddled together in the dark, perhaps the mother clinging to side, watching us warily.

Omega hung there, black and bloated, the nest's sole occupant. Having completed its long climb up the side of the house, the rat snake's belly bulged with four identically sized lumps. On the dirt below, the uneaten chick lay there. Its body half broken and turned away from us, we saw fluids from it's rock-pierced body leaking out clear-white onto the barren soil.

[Anonymous No.18273053]

>>18272999
What's the shiny liquid.
Nice digits.

[Anonymous No.18273063]

>>18272971
I just take zinc+magnesium+calcium and vitamin D

[Anonymous No.18273173]

I currently have two bandaids wrapped around my dick. My life is pretty embarrassing.

[Anonymous No.18273188]

>>18270340
>using your daughters for material gain
that's kinda cucky, man

[Anonymous No.18273198]

>>18273188
actually it's the opposite
*hits pipe*

[Anonymous No.18273207]

>>18273198
What did it do to deserve this treatment, monster? Pipes have suffered enough.

[Anonymous No.18273436]

I came up with an antijoke but don't have tried to post it. Tried reddit but it was shadowbanned. *clears throat*

What's harder than finding a needle in a haystack?

Find an appropriate time for a rape joke.

[Anonymous No.18273456]

[Anonymous No.18273477]

>>18273436
I like it, but it's a little too cerebral to be a "ha ha" funny joke. Secondly the way it is written implies it's a bit of a walking on the edge, knowing what it's talking about is offensive so it has to be careful to not be, which gives too much credence to the party of the "offended" for it to be just purely offensive, blunt edgy humor.

[Anonymous No.18273529]

>>18269447
my housemates buy lots of food and leave it unopened in the fridge to go off. i live on a shoestring and am too awkward to ask them if i can eat it
in many ways this is my entire life. waiting for other people to ask me to say the thing i want to say, and watching as they never do. my sublime passivity.
for some reason i can't stop thinking about the word cum. so thoroughly libidinal, so very fashionable today. a funny word. a pithy word. we talk about cum all the time to mask the fact that we are really very anxious about are small and weak cums that are simply washed away. they are talked big because in reality they are very small. only when sexuality is thoroughly neutered can it enter the public sphere as a harmless bit of fun. the serious answer to this antijoke >>18273436 is lurking in its own having-been-said; now is the perfect time, on an anonymous imageboard for those for whom rape is exclusively a fantasy, exclusively a piece of aesthetic vocabulary to be used in jokes. by becoming purely a symbol for offense it is no longer really offensive. the symbol is now massively proportioned, but the real rape behind the symbol is effectively non-existent here.

[Anonymous No.18273533]

>>18273477
Antijokes tend to be a little cerebral. In general, they're partly driven by the audience's sense of irony. Thanks for the feedback.
I fucked up the grammar. Should have been "Finding an appropriate time for a rape joke."

[Anonymous No.18273547]

Why does everything always seem to happen at once?

[Anonymous No.18273567]

>>18273547
Elaboration and example?

[Anonymous No.18273625]

>>18271315
Very insightful. Write more.

[Anonymous No.18273630]

>>18271377
Stop identifying as an artist, you do it to yourself.

[Anonymous No.18273654]

>>18273529
Get over yourself. Do something physical like breaking rocks or logs or really any form of exercise. It will help you be more assertive.

[Anonymous No.18273755]

I'd really like to know once and for all if religious morality keeps a person from selfishness or not. My gut tells me my society has is becoming more selfish, and it is not very religious. I am pretty sure that in the old world religion fostered to greater altruism, but a lot has changed. I mean I must have seen more tits than even a king could in his lifetime back then.

[Anonymous No.18273791]

>>18270378
t. Hassan

[Anonymous No.18273801]

it's surprising that people don't die more often in mma

[Anonymous No.18273848]

>>18273567
A couple of people I know have had unrelated spouts of poor fortune in different areas of their lives at the same time. You know, work, health, relationships. I've had a couple of similar spots in my own life. It just often seems to be the case that one stroke of poor luck attracts a second, and so on.

[Anonymous No.18273864]

Is it really that silly to aspire to be a great man in today's chaotically diluted world

[Anonymous No.18273903]

can't help but find the recent push for psychedelic drug-paired therapy to be somewhat fishy. just with regular therapy, you are putting yourself in the hands of strangers who have been trained by big academia. now you are under the influence and much more malleable by the same strangers. not a conspiracy theorist but i don't know how to feel about it

[Anonymous No.18273912]

>>18273848
What about good luck?

[Anonymous No.18273915]

>>18273903
That's a good point. I imagine myself undergoing my own life forming drug trips in the hand of someone seeking to guide the experience.
If he's well meaning, it's a good story. If he's not, (or thinks that he is), hm.

[Anonymous No.18273921]

>>18273801
It is. I wonder when we'll see the first death in the UFC. It's bound to happen eventually, right? What a shitshow that'll be.

I guess it has to do with less blows to the head on average, since boxing has plenty of deaths.

[Anonymous No.18273930]

I miss my ukulele
I wonder if I can play jazz improv with a ukulele

[Anonymous No.18273940]

>>18270036
It's not that I want it to go away, I just want full control over my thoughts and urges. Is this realistically attainable?

[Anonymous No.18273941]

>>18273801
we're overdue for a death. imagine if it was one of the women lol.

[Anonymous No.18273958]

>>18270193
you wont know if you don't go for it anon. I am very outdoorsy and enjoy camping. You should try it, good fun if you like it and a reality check if you don't.

[Anonymous No.18273966]

I'm finding it very relieving to remind myself "I am not perfect" whenever I get cringy memories. the only reason I think I deserve to die is because I have some standard I'm not living up to. Well so what, I'm not perfect.

[Anonymous No.18273970]

>>18273930
man, reading books and just playing random shit on my piano is what kept me sane during the lockdown
you better get your uke beck

[Anonymous No.18273974]

>>18273966
Man's gotta learn to be selfish and love himself over anyone else.

[Anonymous No.18273978]

>>18273940
I'm beginning to have this creeping suspicion that the effort is creating something like a neurosis. I think I sexualized women less when I didn't care if I sexualized them or not. Not sure though.

[Anonymous No.18273979]

PLEASE GOD I JUST NEED ANOTHER HOUR TO SLEEP BEFORE WORK

[Anonymous No.18273985]

How do I stop being bitter and angry all the time bros

[Anonymous No.18273997]

>>18271590
Black and white warblers might be my favorite bird. When you remember that they’re basically reptiles under those feathers their movement becomes really weird.

[Anonymous No.18274015]

>>18273755
The culture either adopts collectivism or it adopts individualism. Christianity, as practiced in the west, while more altruistic than the pre-Constantine Rome it arose from, to be sure, which considered altruism a weakness, still places a very high value on individualism, so it tends to be more selfish than say, the more collective oriented cultures of the far East. The belief in individual excellence is key to what allowed, and continues to allow, the west to be so dominating culturally however. It seems there must be some more ideal balance between the two extremes, and indeed, many people live their day to day lives in that middle ground, but we only ever hear about the extremes, so it certainly doesn't seem like it. Defending yours and your friends and family first, however, is a matter of survival, regardless of the culture they are embedded in, so selfishness of some degree or another, is unavoidable, particularly when young and still carving out your place in the world.

The west is much more ego driven than most of the East, considering ego key to identity, while the other half of the world's religions considers ego something to be shed as the key to wisdom. There's a lot of Eastern-style thinking in the teachings of Jesus, but the Cathars lost the war, so we're still holding onto that ego as if it were life and death - and for a lot of us, it is just that.

It takes more than a religion to change a culture's level of selfishness. The culture will adopt whatever best suits its survival in a world of competing cultures, and religions either find a place in that framework, or they die, for they are also subject to competition.

/pseude

[Anonymous No.18274016]

>>18273985
you can't fight what you don't understand, I guess a first step would be to stop trying to just stop your emotions and just spend a little moment after every outburst asking yourself "why did I just do that?"

[Anonymous No.18274077]

>>18274016
I know why i do it. I'm pissed off at things that have negatively affected my life

[Anonymous No.18274137]

>>18274077
well, I'm not about to get into a therapy session on an image board, but I do wish you the best of luck

[Anonymous No.18274144]

4chan is Plato's cave. This website is a cesspool of demoralization, misinformation, bots, just all around fake garbage, shadows on the wall. I have to stop coming here if I want to advance as a human being. The old saying that "I'm here forever" seems like yet another psyop to keep me here and keep me down. I will never know true happiness and self actualization until I quit 4chan.

[Anonymous No.18274150]

>>18273985
Stop hanging around bitter and angry people, that is to say, stop going on 4chan.

[Anonymous No.18274167]

>>18274137
Is therapy really my only option? I hate therapists

[Anonymous No.18274178]

>>18274150
I find myself most bitter and angry when i'm idle. Like, if i'm working on something and let my mind wander or if i'm going on a walk and dont need to focus on anything. I'm fine when i'm busy or distracted.

[Anonymous No.18274183]

>>18274167
Why do you hate therapists?
it's not like going to the doctor, they just help you discover yourself.

[Anonymous No.18274208]

>>18274144
Leaving the cave does not preclude one from enjoying a good shadow play.

[Anonymous No.18274215]

>>18273985
Change the way you look at the world. If you're bitter and angry, it's a matter of your perspective -the one thing you have control over.

[Anonymous No.18274216]

>>18274144
you're most likely using 4chan as an excuse, I used to blame all my problems on 4chan too, but then one day I just had enough and decided to went outside, did some volunteer work and met some people, my social circle hasn't changed at all, but I'm significantly more positive now.

[Anonymous No.18274228]

>>18274208
the reality is not so black and white. there's truth to be found here hidden amongst all the bullshit and shilling. you just have to learn to filter out the garbage i guess.

[Anonymous No.18274239]

>>18274183
I was court ordered to see one when I was 14 and she was such a bullshitter. I ran circles around her. Was pretty funny desu.
Otherwise, I don't like the whole field out of principle. The whole idea that someone can tell me my feelings and the causes for my feelings as if they know better than me just disgusts me. I've noticed this need for people to pathologize every action people make and it's utterly disturbing. The idea that people are irrational to the point where they don't know their own motives, but some highly trained individual can ascertain for you gives me dystopian vibes.
I should also add that I was raised in an environment of british stoicism. I'm not British myself; my family details are too complicated and extraneous to describe. Being emotional and open and vulnerable is a condition I don't like to be in. I would hate to be exposed to some therapist cunt to dissect like a frog in a biology class. The only reason I can blogpost here is because my statements are separate from my identity, so I don't feel as bad.
>>18274215
I try that but it always feels like a cope

[Anonymous No.18274259]

>>18274239
>The whole idea that someone can tell me my feelings
that's not what therapists do though, maybe you had a bad experience, or maybe you watched too much tv shows, either way if you want to get better, truly want to get better, you'll need to be the one to take the first step and embrace someone with open hands, nobody owes you anything, and no therapist is going to break through your walled off heart to "save you".
It all comes back to that phrase, the only person that can save you is you.

[Anonymous No.18274316]

Is it better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven?
I'd at least think it would be more fun.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q0XEm3SpyZk

[Anonymous No.18274339]

I'm in love again like a helpless retard, my mind says no but is powerless against my heart and testicles

[Anonymous No.18274342]

>>18270085
Anon something similar happened to me three years ago and I'm not over it. The part about not even finding other girls attractive is so true for me. I still dream about her, think about the situations I was in with her. I'd managed to forget for a while but I had dreams that have brought it all back. Feel like I'm going insane

[Anonymous No.18274352]

I don't understand how democracy is supposed to work when people are dumb and easily manipulatable.

[Anonymous No.18274359]

>>18274239
>I ran circles around her. Was pretty funny desu
You're just hurting yourself then, lmao. It's not impressive to lie, they're there to help you. The bitterness you talk about seeps into your elaboration of your worldview. They're trained professionals, they do know better than you.

[Anonymous No.18274373]

>>18274352
one theory is that it is not supposed to work, it is supposed to maintain the illusion that it is working whlie the oligarchy actually runs shit
t. studying polisci and this is what I believe

[Anonymous No.18274390]

>>18273042
>I told her we would never know what happened to it. We turned back to the house to check on the bird nest.
way to calm your wife down, dude. IMO saying it got away and calming her down would've been better. You know better of course, but that doesn't matter.

good story otherwise

[Anonymous No.18274396]

>woke up and started studying
>reading felt like I had molasses in my head
>decided fuck it it's one of those days
>pretty much been shitposting in this thread since then (5 hours or so) while watcing streams
>just remembered I kind of need to study today
we're not gonna make it bros

[Anonymous No.18274443]

>>18274359
I didn't lie tho. She tried to manipulate me so I let her manipulation circle back on her. Story is too complicated to get into depth but she basically told me that I wouldnt let my dad into the therapy session because I had some daddy issues. So I decided to let him into the session because I knew he would make the session a hoot. He came in and took over. After a few minutes the therapist kicked me out and finished the next few sessions with my dad, despite the court mandate being for me. I still consider that a triumph.

[Anonymous No.18274451]

I need to rent a place to stay at least until the end of the year.
I'm considering an hotel right in the middle of the city. It looks kinda tacky, but it is nice enough and I wouldn't need to worry about cleaning my apartment. It has a pool, gym, restaurant, coffee shop and whatever the fuck else. And it is pretty much surrounded by bars and shit. The only problem is that I would need to leave my cats with my parents.
My other option would be to move to a small apartment closer to my parent's home on a calm part of the town. Cats are allowed there and it is a nice place but not too fancy. It is right next to a hipster bar too, so at least there is something going on near it. I feel like this is the most honest option, living in a hotel sounds a bit weird to me despite the convenience. Also, this apartment is a little cheaper, but not too much really.

[Anonymous No.18274470]

>>18274451
Hotels are expensive as fuck. How are you going to afford one for the rest of the year?

[Anonymous No.18274525]

I seriously loathe instant communication.

[Anonymous No.18274531]

>>18274470
There are three small single-room apartments in the hotel that are rented on two month contracts. 3000 bucks for the two months, not that much more expensive than regular apartments where I live.

[Anonymous No.18274532]

>>18269477
birds are divine

[Anonymous No.18274550]

>>18274531
>3000 bucks for the two months,
Fuck sake just get a mortgage

[Anonymous No.18274563]

Ashihara Yoshinobu
Every time a japanese name pops up in my head I fear that its a pornstar name instead of an architect,hopefully I dont make a mistake when talking to colleagues

[Anonymous No.18274564]

deciding what kind of shota yaoi i’m going to fuck my onahole to

[Anonymous No.18274600]

>>18269447
Its my birthday today and I got in a fight with my gf. We were going to get breakfast before I went into work, she woke up a little bit before me and couldn't find this skincare mask thing she wore while she was sleeping. She woke up sweaty so she was going to take a quick shower before we went. She started to get really upset about the mask thing so i suggested that I pick up breakfast and bring it back so she could settle down a bit. She got really really upset snd said "it's your birthday and you dont want to spend any time with me". I told her I'd rather wair go with her and I was just trying to make things easier but she got even more upset and laid down on the ground and kept saying "I don't want to be here". Eventually she calmed down a bit and then took 40 minuted to smoke a bowl (she smokes a lot) during which time we weren't arguing. She took a shower, at this point we wouldn't have time to eat together. And then she got more upset because we couldn't eat together and started saying things like "i don't know why you chode to ruin your birthday" and "I just wanted you to have a nice birthday". We picked up breakfast and I ran into work but we were arguing the whole time. She went to go hang out with her friend and still seems very upset.

Am I in the wrong? I get that I shouldn't have suggested I go pick it up (she was mad because it wasn't part of "the plan") but I really feel like she's overreacting. :( bad birthday

[Anonymous No.18274606]

>>18274600
shut the fuck up you cretin

[Anonymous No.18274621]

>>18274600
>I told her I'd rather wair go with her and I was just trying to make things easier but she got even more upset and laid down on the ground and kept saying "I don't want to be here".
i'm insanely jealous, how did you manage to date six year old? any tips for picking up preteens?

[Anonymous No.18274633]

>>18274621
She is almost 26. She acts like a child when she gets upset...

[Anonymous No.18274640]

>>18274600
Try murder-suicide

[Anonymous No.18274668]

>>18269447
The water on the floor looks much better than the ugly carpet. They should switch to black, smooth tile. It's more sophisticated.

[Anonymous No.18274670]

>>18274600
why even celebrate birthday?
never understood the mentality, I mean if you treat it as an excuse to treat yourself then sure, but people somehow get obsessed over when it happens over why it happens as it that's the important part, seems backwards.

also, she might be cheating on you, she seems needlessly guilty for some reason, like she's trying to make up for something and is angry with herself and in turn angry with you for making her feel that way.

[Anonymous No.18274734]

>>18274670
Its not like I even wanted to really celebrate, she insisted and I thought it would be nice. She's also not cheating on me but last night she was upset that i don't just spew my stream of conciousness at her like she does for me. She's a mess and i need to end it with her

[Anonymous No.18274749]

>>18274734
>She's also not cheating on me
I'm sure you know how that sounds coming from you, but I'm glad you trust her this much

[Anonymous No.18274757]

>>18274734
Your immature pot smoking cunt is a mess? Shocker

[Anonymous No.18274770]

[Pretend I wrote out the lyrics to "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance]

[Anonymous No.18274791]

>>18274749
"The greatest honor in life is to never be cuckolded" - ezra pound...i live my life by this saying, she'd only cheat if she had a reason and I haven't given her one
>>18274757
You're telling me.....thing is when we met she hadn't smoked for months, it wasn't til about a year ago (1 year after we started dating) that she started smoking again, because she lost her job becausw of the pandemic

[Anonymous No.18274800]

>>18274791
Anyway, I'm going to go workout she'll be home in a little bit. I'll let you,guys know how things develop

[Anonymous No.18274812]

>>18274800
hope things work out for you

[Anonymous No.18274830]

>>18274770
Based stuck in adolescence anon

[Anonymous No.18274855]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=307eEn5FZZg

hell yeah summer time in full effect

[Anonymous No.18274861]

i hate a mf that makes a lyric video and the lyrics are wrong wtf

[Anonymous No.18274939]

>>18274791
>women need a logical reason to cheat
Lmao, what? The only thing she needs is the belief she won't be caught.

[Anonymous No.18274956]

>>18274861
it's kinda funny though

[Anonymous No.18274989]

Societies are organized for, and by, neurotic extroverts
However, there is a much larger prevalence of introverts among CEOs than among the general population, so I could be wrong

[Anonymous No.18275079]

>>18274989
it might be because introverts seem more aloof and standoffish which can be good in leaders since no one can get too friendly with you and exploit the niceness to excuse shitty work, people that are super friendly want to be liked, and if you want to be liked, you won't tell a subordinate their work sucks

[Anonymous No.18275091]

>>18269594
Literally me

[Anonymous No.18275166]

>>18274989
could just be that CEOs can afford being introverts

[Anonymous No.18275195]

Okay so to be a foreign attorney in Japan you have to be practicing and licensed in your jurisdiction for a minimum of 2 years. So, got a year and a half. They also focus on top schools, stop grades, and finance/business law.

Damn. It was nice to have an escape dream for twenty minutes.

[Anonymous No.18275197]

Wish I could end my rampant hedonism. At least I’m aware of it and able to attempt changing

[Anonymous No.18275221]

>>18274396
I woke up feeling like dogshit today, hate myself, my life, the world. Forced myself to do some productive stuff around the house, still feel like dogshit anyways. Ngmi bros

[Anonymous No.18275222]

I need to get fired by August and I just do not know what I can do to make that happen. I can’t say the N word or something because I will need employment in the future. It needs to be subtle.

[Anonymous No.18275231]

I hold a lot of resentment towards my father and I don’t know how to let that go or even if I should.

[Anonymous No.18275265]

>>18274390
Tbf I did tell her that it escaped at first but then later on that night I told her we would never know what happened to it, I mean if it was injured it was probable that something ate it, but we would never know, right?

[Anonymous No.18275283]

>>18275221
I went back and got it done. shitting around for 5 hours helped.

[Anonymous No.18275313]

>>18275231
Let's suppose you develop a minor injury in your leg. Nothing serious, maybe a little bit of inflammation or a sprain or something. It's natural in such a case to tense your body and adapt your posture and gait around the pain, even if it's not particularly bad. But in so doing you set yourself up for more pain as your body accommodates this unusual way of being. The pain from tensing and limping can easily become worse and longer lasting than the original injury. To hold on to resentment is to do the same thing with your emotions.

[>>851624495 (OP) No.18275380]

im shiting right now
my poop smells like vomit
my ass smells like VOMIT
omfg this is so bad

theres is no shower soo cant clean my asshole

[Anonymous No.18275409]

>>18269477
https://www.amazon.com/Celestron-Nature-8x42-Binoculars-Dispersion/dp/B00KV718JE/ref=mp_s_a_1_6

bought these for myself recently, been really enjoying them.

[Anonymous No.18275542]

>>18274144
Sounds like your issue spreads beyond 4chan buddy

[Anonymous No.18275606]

There's a girl at my parish who's genuinely beautiful but I've yet to face an opportunity where I can talk to her. I think about her a lot. The first time I ever saw her was last year, sometime after summer. Thought of her made me uninterested in my last relationship which ended in heart ache for myself. When I finish school I will join the Irish army for several years. I'm scared this will cut out a large portion of my life but I'm too scared to lead a normal life (university, 9 to 5). I'm a mess, bros. I'm like Travis Bickle or something. Actually I've been compared to Travis quite a lot. Admittedly, I've lived a regretful life. I'm a social retard. I have limited skills beyond being capable of light manual labour. I do work to improve myself but its hard. No one wants it to be easy. I just feel everything hinges on talking to the girl at church.

[Anonymous No.18275654]

This is my last semester and I basically lost all inclination to study for the upcoming exam. Seems almost pointless.

[Anonymous No.18275680]

I cannot stop being neurotic mess.

[Anonymous No.18275681]

>>18275606
Fuck her right in the pussy and post pics afterwards

[Anonymous No.18275837]

>>18271315
>you are mostly incapable of articulating
if you want to we can engage ideas; you seem like an interesting feller.
>because you got mindfucked into accepting it
the gaslighting is strong in this
most of "the alt-right" didn't just go "okay fine, I'm a nazi now" - it is years of liberal propaganda that made them think more critically. Are they right in every respect? No, some of them still support capitalism - the antithesis of culture, funny enough. But I think they are closer to truth then most political dissidents.
>Like, if you have ever had an exchange with someone who, it turns out, is only interested in misrepresenting you then you know how incredibly frustrating it can be.
>a time saving factor against people seeking to misinterpret you
yes, most just call you chud/incel and don't engage with any ideas.
>This allows the Graph 'n' Stats guy to swing in, play adult in the room, and win over the normies with little to any resistance.
I've never seen this happen.

[Anonymous No.18275863]

I can't stand studying engineering anymore. I hate the professors, I hate the other students and I can't stand doing meaningless tedious computations that I have to turn in 3 to 4 times a week. I'd rather kill myself than work in this field.

[Anonymous No.18275897]

>>18275863
the actual work might not be as lame as the homework dude. computer science classes are filled with the lamest busywork with contrived constraints just to waste your time basically which is why didn't do a computer science degree. most places that are fun to work at as a programmer don't require degrees anymore anyways. i realize shit like civil engineering has all kinds of bureaucratic credentialism mandated by the government so maybe it's different, but for programming college is optional if you're into theoretical shit, otherwise do a fun degree and then code for money not grades.

[Anonymous No.18275901]

>>18275542
cope. this place is a shithole and you know it. you would be happier if you stopped coming here

[Anonymous No.18275912]

>>18275897
I am studying electrical engineering.

[Anonymous No.18275930]

>>18269447
now i can't stop thinking about whatever that is spilled all over the hallway. thanks, OP.

[Anonymous No.18275934]

>>18269447
Birdwatching thread you say?
I saw a Yellowhammer, which is also my state bird, on a tree in my yard a few days back.
Also saw a family of foxes at a fourway stop on a drive back from visiting my dad at dusk.

[Anonymous No.18275950]

>>18273985
This is the natural state within an indutrial society; this isn't to say people weren't bitter and angry before the late XVIII, but it is the permenant condition of modern man. As Baudelaire decribed modernity - the fleeting, ephemeral experience of life in an urban metropolis.

[Anonymous No.18275963]

>>18269447
I'm so fucking sick of the Western governments. They obviously pander the nature born covid origine because nobody profits of having to confront the CCP with developping a biological weapon. The WHO director was bought by China, the WHO is a circus and they didn't even visit the Wuhan virology lab that was funded by the CCP and with US grants by Fauci. Amazon, Facebook, pharma companies are making huge profits while governments are propagating a 90% vaccinatino rate while 60% makes covid pracitcally obsolete in Israel and even that is overkill.YOu could jsut vaccinate all risk groups (old people and comorbidities) and then just let the healthy people get sick, it's not a dangerous virus for most; Im so fucking sick of this world. Also there is evidence of leftists trying to alter elections (ssecretary of state of michigan or oregan I think for example) but nobody will ever take taht seriously. Im not convinced the left swung the elections illegally but they tried to in some districts.

[Anonymous No.18275973]

>>18275897
>the actual work might not be as lame as the homework dude.
No, it will. It always is.

[Anonymous No.18275983]

>>18275313
Your analogy betrays you because we can figure there are situations where a limp may be necessary to get where you’re going, or to simply survive. I do think it’s a bad way of putting it. We are talking about a person, not a rock that I happened to trip over.

[Anonymous No.18275987]

>>18275973
also in biomedical engineering, wanted to do computer brain interfaces but the jews at blackrock already made it so fuck it I guess

>>18275963
I wish I just stopped fucking caring about the news and the world, got into a huge fight with my parents today because I told my mom she had a pea sized brain for believing in a bat origin of covid

im a fucking asshole I just want to be not aware of politics, jews, migrants and have my gf back and not care while whites slowly lose power and happiness

[Anonymous No.18276007]

>>18269523
What's it about then?

[Anonymous No.18276068]

I’m tired of online classes.

[Anonymous No.18276091]

>>18275963
that's why i'm planning to move to one of the red states that didn't have draconian business and mental health destroying lockdowns while letting covid rip through nursing homes and residential care facilities. the teacher's union is so full of shit, too. i'm looking for a tiny little ranch house that i can buy with cash like one hyman roth lives in in the godfather two. my grandmother had a similar house and lived independently until her 90s.

[Anonymous No.18276178]

I wonder how hard it would be to get a job as a fire lookout at the wilderness
just reading books, chilling in my lookout, and hiking and living in complete solitude until you slip off a cliff and die or a bear eats you alive

[Anonymous No.18276182]

>>18275758
this anon is looking for a word that I'm having trouble finding; needing help.

[Anonymous No.18276192]

>>18276178
I wonder if these jobs even still exist, technology probably made them obsolete or something

[Anonymous No.18276210]

>>18269594
You need more discipline. Discipline is true freedom. Freedom from yourself. Left to your own self like this you will continue to rot away. You're your own problem, and your own solution.

[Anonymous No.18276227]

>>18269598
Same. I love sex. I want to share all of my inner fantasies and awesome sexual thoughts with my wife but she wouldn't get it. I'm not talking about kinks. I'm just talking about desires. Thing I want to do and try. Ways I want to make her feel. I want dirty, raunchy, raw, animalistic sex where we're both shitfaced drunk on each other. But she just doesn't get it. She's not like that.

[Anonymous No.18276230]

>>18273042
Nice read but the prose in the last two paragraphs seems a little too self-aware and MFA-ish.

[Anonymous No.18276258]

>>18269626
Intermittent fasting. Do it. It will suck at first but your body will adjust. Don't eat for 16 hours at a time then after, break the fast with LEAN PROTEIN, vegetables, and eat fruit for dessert. Snack on carrots and ranch or whatever. Make it healthy. It will make you feel so much better. I stopped eating sugar and I've lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks. My muffin top is slowly disappearing. And do work out. Even if it's light weight. If you don't use it, you lose it.

[Anonymous No.18276260]

>>18270004
Smoke some weed or a cigarette lol>>1827010

[Anonymous No.18276281]

>>18276091
https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/248-Ann-St-Harrison-NE-69346/248287161_zpid/
Yer welcome. Mortgage is probably a quarter of your current rent.

[Anonymous No.18276290]

>>18276258
you can just eat nothing at all for like 3 days too. I thought this might be dangerous but it does absolutely nothing to you as far as I can tell.

[Anonymous No.18276519]

>>18276178
>>18276192
They exist, but a lot of fire lookouts have had the job for a long time, and yeah the number of positions is dwindling

[Anonymous No.18276531]

Before you fight me you should know- I, Ximxam, have a twin brother- MixMax- that feels all my pain.

[Anonymous No.18276592]

A guy asked me for directions to the nearest gas station today. I told him "Go underneath that bridge, then straight ahead" and he went off. It wasnt until he went off that i realized i should've said "Go underneath the bridge, then take the first right turn". But it was too late.

[Anonymous No.18276611]

After spending a week in a rural area, i now realize why so much propaganda outlets use wheatfields and nature. I dont think i want to live in a city again.

[Anonymous No.18276633]

>>18274800
Guess anon got cucked
rip

[Anonymous No.18276666]

I wonder what it is about Jesus being the son of God that really riles muslims so. Maybe it is just that the name is taken to be confusing. Muhammad is understood to be pre-eternal, same as Jesus, and is also understood to be a manifestation of the attributes of God, like Jesus. As far as I gather christians think that this pre-eternal attribute-being is equatable to being God, while muslims do not (except some sufis do), so sure that is a big difference, but the thing they are taling about seems like it is the same thing. That is, of course, if I have actually understood any of this.

[Anonymous No.18276669]

>>18274563
This made me chuckle

[Anonymous No.18276681]

>>18275606
You have to talk to her.

[Anonymous No.18276695]

I hate spring and summer. This is too hot and humid.

[Anonymous No.18276701]

>>18276290
Depends on your lifestyle. I do construction work. If I didnt eat for threee days I could not do what I do.
>>18276258
I have two questions. First, can I manage this diet while doing physical labor? And the second is why do have a sudden craving for sugar every night before bed?

[Anonymous No.18276707]

>>18276695
I'll take cold ass weathers over hot weathers any day
I can always put on more clothes, but I can only take off so many until I start taking cold showers

[Anonymous No.18276717]

>>18276695
Live in a less gay climate

[Anonymous No.18276727]

>>18276666
Of all the things that may "rile" Muslims about Christianity, that's about the least of them all.

Though personally I'm with Unitarian line of thinking on the subject. Granting Jesus divinity defeats his message - namely that anyone can be Christ-like, should they so choose.

[Anonymous No.18276734]

>>18276727
>defeats his message
>"The Father and I are One"

[Anonymous No.18276754]

>>18276727
>Of all the things that may "rile" Muslims about Christianity, that's about the least of them all.
is it really? what is a greater problem? the trinity? aren't they kind of related problems?

desu I think the christian message is rather that everyone can be God-like with christ

[Anonymous No.18276763]

>>18276727
>Granting Jesus divinity defeats his message - namely that anyone can be Christ-like, should they so choose.
But this is not his message, we can't become like Christ and we are inherently flawed.

[Anonymous No.18276771]

>>18276227
Have you even tried? Seems like you're having a worrisome lack of communication in your marriage.

[Anonymous No.18276773]

>>18276763
my understanding is that a number of the epistles say that when we are baptised we become like christ as the body of sin dies with christ on the cross, and we are resurrected in spirit, christ being spirit.

[Anonymous No.18276777]

I wanna start my own religion but i feel like it's too difficult to prevent teachings and concepts from contradicting eachother

[Anonymous No.18276783]

>>18276734
The father and everyone are one.

>>18276754
Probably the crusades, the various assassinations, wars, ousting of secular democracies, setting every other nation in the middle east against each other, and an ongoing effort to eliminate Islamic culture in general.

The trinity just becomes a cute eccentricity by way of comparison. I doubt how many ever think about it, and they certainly don't bring it up before they explode themselves at a check point.

[Anonymous No.18276787]

>>18276763
Put aside the mystical mumbo jumbo with the fish and walking on water and visiting hell and all that, and what did Jesus do that any other Jew or gentile couldn't have done?

I mean, yeah, you might not WANT to live the life of Christ, as it's kinda rough, but there's nothing stopping you.

[Anonymous No.18276793]

>>18276777
Those contradictions are key to what makes a religion last.

[Anonymous No.18276795]

>>18276777
In reality, it wouldn't matter, the devoted members will "interpret" the contradiction away

[Anonymous No.18276799]

>>18276783
oh yea no sure, I really just care about the theological

[Anonymous No.18276806]

>>18270277
What?

[Anonymous No.18276807]

>>18269447
New thread

[Anonymous No.18276810]

>>18276799
Islam's problems with Christianity have never been theological in origin.

[Anonymous No.18276823]

>>18276807
Here you go.

[Anonymous No.18276831]

>>18269447
I don't want to do what I have to do, I can't do what I want to do, because I need to do what I have to do first. I do nothing.

[Anonymous No.18276832]

>>18276830
>>18276830
>>18276830

[Anonymous No.18276836]

>>18276823
>>18276803

[Anonymous No.18276850]

people always say "well a lot of people have it worse!". how is that supposed to make me feel better? it just makes me feel more horrible. that we all just suffer more and more. I guarantee you the blind quadriplegic who feels like he's on fire thinks "well it could always be worse". that's not comforting. that's terrifying. this does not make me feel grateful for life, it makes me wish none of us existed in this cruel world.

[Anonymous No.18276861]

>>18276850
>it makes me wish none of us existed in this cruel world.
None of us have anything better to do.

[Anonymous No.18276862]

>>18276823
he was homo, I'd assume

[Anonymous No.18277092]

I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.
I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.
I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.
I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.
I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.
I was more developed 5 years ago than I am today, and I didn't realize it until now.

[Anonymous No.18277377]

>>18270085
Same, only she dated me for four months the summer of last year and she didn't ghost me. She isn't especially eager to hang out with me though. We still talk, but we don't see each other often. She told me she wanted to break up for mental health reasons (she has bipolar, was suicidal, and was admitted to a residential center). In truth, she just lost interest. I don't get how someone can be all over you and want to be by your side all the time one moment and then the next feels nothing

[Anonymous No.18277412]

>>18276717
I live in the Northeastern US

[Anonymous No.18277417]

>>18277412
Thats pretty gay

[Anonymous No.18277594]

Can a communist tranny and a right wing bodybuilder fall in love?

[Anonymous No.18277731]

>>18270085
>I no longer find any other woman attractive
This happened to me and I don't get it. I don't pine or long for this girl anymore, it has been years, it didn't last that long and it rarely ever crosses my mind, but it is like part of my brain just shut off after it ended.
I have dated, been hit on, even hooked up since, but I just don't feel anything and eventually stopped because I was tired of going along with the motions just because it was what I was meant to do.

[Anonymous No.18277738]

>>18271450
based

[Anonymous No.18277790]

>>18277594
Schwarzenegger and Maria Shriver?

[Anonymous No.18277814]

>>18277594
Well, unlike Fascism, love conquers all.

[Anonymous No.18277818]

>>18277377
>she has bipolar, was suicidal, and was admitted to a residential center
>I don't get how someone can be all over you and want to be by your side all the time one moment and then the next feels nothing
When someone has a full identity breakdown like that, they are lucky to hold onto family, let alone lovers. She's no longer the girl you fell in love with.

Consider yourself lucky she let you go - some have the opposite reaction in desperation and will hold onto others with hoops of steel regardless of how they actually feel and what it'll do to them, and that ends up in years to decades of wasted time before a messy divorce and traumatized kids.

But depending on the nature of your break up, she might still be there for you when it comes time for your own life crisis.

[Anonymous No.18277881]

>>18276230
Yeah I tried too hard

[Anonymous No.18277894]

>>18277818
I still talk to her and she seems to be the same girl since before we broke up. The issues she has have been tame since then., no longer being suicidal and no longer having to go to a residential since her outlook on life improved. Personally I don't consider myself lucky. I've been a mess since we broke up and I still love her to an obsessive degree

[Anonymous No.18277984]

>>18277894
There may yet be more pain to ride and learn from.

[Anonymous No.18278021]

>>18277984
You seem to speak from personal experience. What should I expect?

[Anonymous No.18278130]

How do you relate to your parents as an adult? I feel like we still have this child/adult dynamic that has become outdated, and our frame of reference for each other is based on that, and neither my parents nor I really know each other as mature adults and so there is a kind of estrangement that has occurred without anyone intending for it to happen.

[Anonymous No.18278217]

>>18278021
I can't speak to the particulars of your situation, but if I were hazard to guess and read tea leaves, I'd say a long hard road that will eventually lead to another woman who will present difficulties of an entirely different sort, that will in all likelihood pale in comparison to those you make for yourself. But maybe not - my horoscopes always emphasize the horror.

[Anonymous No.18278241]

>>18278130
The good news is I can say with fair confidence that your parents don't know either.

The bad news is... Well... You know that feeling you get when you try to have a real conversation with say, some kid 5-8 - where, yes, they're adorable, but everything they find so amazing just seems so inane to you, as you know where it'll all go and can see the end of each of those fanciful roads without a second thought? That effect doesn't end at that age when you get older. If you're in your 20's and your parents are in their 40's, that's exactly how you sound to them. You don't become an "adult" once you hit 18 for everyone already over that line. It isn't even until your 30's that they are forced to accept you have greater expertise in some areas of life than they do, but your sage wisdom is still comical to those a generation or two older regardless.

Parents never stop being parents. Not even on their death beds. Call it a flaw in the human condition.