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[Anonymous No.18124259]

>be me
>Monday was a typical weekday
>slept in bed for almost 2 hours after work
>did productive stuff in my free time in evening
>woke up today
>started work
>had almost no work to do for most of day
>spent so much time on 4chan
>day was initially comfy but has since become dreary after work
>went for a drive and coffee after work but the magic isn't present; likely because there's so much of the week left
>will likely skip productive stuff this evening to conserve my energy (not in the previous doomed way but in a new, very calm way, where I know I will be fine tomorrow)

My job is so pointless and dreary and the comfiness is being marred by the worry that I'm not normie enough for my coworkers and something bad may be coming down the line.

I have a job interview with another company and I searched for people in a similar position in LinkedIn and the people in the same position are much older than me. It kind of hit home how much of a bubble my large company is and how other places can be wastelands. You can be on £50k and simply be a glossier version of middle aged minimum wage workers. I think I won't be serious about the other job because it looks like an increase in rigmarole. Once I fall through the social cracks in a workplace and I'm resting in the underground soil, there's some comfiness to it. Leaving would just repeat things.

I read some articles during the work day about "pitching a startup" and networking. It was depressing. There is so much to consider these days when doing anything. Bureaucracy is everywhere. It's checklists all the way up or down. Everyone ultimately has to be a middle man because of all the specialised tools and services being used.

[Anonymous No.18124267]

>>18124259
Try the Cybernetic Hypothesis. Its nutty but might align with what you're expressing.

[Anonymous No.18124329]

>>18124259
What the almighty fuck has this to do with any arsing book whatsoever?