Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.17640558]

[Anonymous No.17640566]

>>17640558
I'm really loving the word "faggoted" today.

[Anonymous No.17640572]

I ignore my girlfriend sometimes because I like having her beg me for attention, I know this is bad, how do I stop

[Anonymous No.17640573]

I really feel like shit today, but whenever I feel like shit, I write stuff that isn't, so at least there's that.

[Anonymous No.17640584]

>>17640572
It's not bad, it keeps her interested.

[Anonymous No.17640586]

>>17640572
I don't know, have been doing the same with my sister and my dog

[Anonymous No.17640596]

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[chad light b No.17640598]

>>17640566
>>17640566
These faggoted fake Jew ActNazi goy deleted my SABBATAI ZEVI is your daddy thread for the last time. No more little Nugents.
just anonymous doxes and drops from ghost vpns.
not even worthwhile sticking roud to see if someone quotes one of my books again. Lit is dead to me ;)

[Anonymous No.17640601]

>>17640598
Nice

[Anonymous No.17640732]

>>17640558
>Write what's on your mind
girls

[Anonymous No.17640752]

>>17640572
that's a power move
>>17640573
When I feel like shit, I usually listen to a lot of BM that makes me feel even more like shit, but also not alone in it. There's something enjoyable about that.
Good luck with your writing.
>>17640596
https://youtu.be/KphlVeJX6fE
TRANSILVANIAN HUNGEEEER!
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[Anonymous No.17640763]

If anyone's interested, here's a comprehensive anthology of what great authors and different cultures had to say about suicide throughout history. No one here is suicidal of course, right? https://ethicsofsuicide.lib.utah.edu/

[Anonymous No.17640820]

I cannot do this professional bureaucracy office waging thing anymore but I don’t have a fall back.

[Anonymous No.17640932]

>>17640820
>professional bureaucracy office waging
why not?

[Anonymous No.17640949]

>>17640558
>write what's on your mind thread
>no Asian goddess' feet
fixing

[Anonymous No.17640959]

Anyways.
There are times when I am up late when I’m disconnected from all time and space. What am I doing? Why is time? Why this? Why here? Why am I? Aided and abetted by my miserable isolation so that nothing cancels them out, these questions ricochet across my mind. I hate my surroundings. I am unknown to the world and the world unknown to me. An undefinable inanity radiates from everything. Somehow in every atom. There is enlightenment in my ignorance, in my distance from God perhaps. I do not turn from it, but see it. Sex looms like an ugly monster, making violence out of love, brutal in its futile frustrations, simultaneously beneath me yet my master. There is nothing to distract me from my own vanishing reality, here now and then gone, then nothing but nothing but nothing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wT7eDa1oEA8

[Anonymous No.17641003]

>>17640932
It’s a matter of fitting a square peg into a round hole? Who is the wrong shape, the peg or the hole? I’m not sure I know but either way, I simply don’t fit and can’t live a life this way.

[Anonymous No.17641005]

>think about my ramblings in general
>atleast they have style than substance
>quickly go through the last ones
>style of 13 year old who tries to sound deep for the first time
why do i even bother communicating with other people. even this post is absolute trash.

[Anonymous No.17641354]

>>17640558
I NEED to BREED

[Anonymous No.17641382]

I'm wasting my youth in pursuit of knowledge and not women. The only thing that can actually free me from myself.

[Anonymous No.17641402]

I spent the morning angry and tense and yelling at the walls and now I've just had lunch and feel so much better.

[Anonymous No.17641407]

>>17641402
I hope you apologized to the walls.

[Anonymous No.17641413]

I think I want to try writing poetry but I have no idea where to start. I don’t know the first thing about poetry. I didn’t have a /lit/ education and have never taken a course on poetry in my life so starting feels overwhelming to me. I don’t want it to be bad.

Can someone please give me advice and possibly, recommendations?

[Anonymous No.17641418]

>>17640558
I want to cum in her mouth

[Anonymous No.17641419]

>>17641413
do you read poetry?

[Anonymous No.17641451]

>>17640949
God it is lent. I could jerk off to this in 20 seconds. I didnt coom since it started.

[Anonymous No.17641474]

>>17641382
You'll realize its a cope.
t. did the same.

[Anonymous No.17641485]

>>17641474
Could you offer me anymore advice?

[Anonymous No.17641489]

>>17641485
Not that guy, but I will tell that those two pursuits are not mutually exclusive.

[Anonymous No.17641492]

>>17641419
I started to pretty recently, yeah. I appreciate it but I struggle to appreciate what makes it good and how if that makes any sense.

[Anonymous No.17641496]

>>17641489
Good point. I'm literally reading Models right now.

[Anonymous No.17641503]

>>17640949
>But I say, anyone who even looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
Matthew 5:28

[Anonymous No.17641509]

>>17641503
Meant for >>17641451

[Anonymous No.17641531]

>>17641503
>>17641509
Fug I know. Its getting harder on day 10 to NOT think about women. After easter I am going full Chad and I will get a fucking women.

[Anonymous No.17641578]

>>17640558
>tfw stopped using ssri's
i talked with psychiatrist and we decided on stop taking it because it wasnt working on me at all. He says that not even meds can help me if im neurotic with depressive leaning as oppose to only having depression. The only way is therapy but its way too costly and i already been there for about a year (didnt help much). I feel like a such a loser that i cant even help myself and basically i have to accept being inferior.

[Anonymous No.17641584]

Warmer, sunnier weather makes me more depressed. There’s probably some buried Freudian stuff going on there but I haven’t gotten around to digging it up.

[Anonymous No.17641678]

the only group of people I hate unequivocally are indians.

they have no redeeming qualities, and get shit stink on anything they touch

[Anonymous No.17641681]

I don't get how the fuck my parents look around today at how the world has changed since they were children and seem perfectly fine with it. I don't get how normies are just totally uncritical of the world around them. It makes me feel like a crazy person. Maybe I am a crazy person and I'm just being histrionic, I don't know.

[Anonymous No.17641730]

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mpcViQ6yrhA

this chick reminds me of butters

[Kafka Shill No.17641756]

>>17640558
I found a girlfriend and ever since I've been both unable to write and incredibly depressed because both she and I will go back to our unis in a month's time (we both come from the same town but study eight hours apart)
And because I've been so depressed at her leaving and spend all my time with her I haven't been able to write and if I don't write and cannot love I have no reason to exist.
I feel like Werther right now.

[Anonymous No.17641769]

>>17641681
What they should be critical about?

[Anonymous No.17641830]

>>17641382
You'll feel like you wasted your youth no matter what you did. Everyone feels that way.

A woman will never be the answer to your troubles.

[Anonymous No.17641870]

my parents intentionally set me up to fail, so I would come crawling back to their religion

[Anonymous No.17641952]

Sleep no longer gets rid of the feeling of tiredness.

[Anonymous No.17642031]

>>17641870
my mom does that and she's not religious. the worst part is when i finally moved away from her, like 18 months later she moved two blocks from me, so that i'll be constantly tempted to go visit her for food. i'll never be truly fee until she croaks, but even then all her resentful modes of thinking will still be in my subconscious

[Anonymous No.17642094]

>>17640732
Me on the right

[Anonymous No.17642311]

>>17640732
imagine the smell of swimwear

[Anonymous No.17642405]

>>17640558
Last night I had a dream that I could jump into an alternate universe where my father was much sadder, but much more loving. This was not the issue, though it did send me into an existential crisis, because in my og dimension my father was much less sad, but more distant and the ethical issues that raised was extremely uncomfortable.
That wasn't the issue though, because the biggest issue was the maniacal, all powerful demon that started tormenting me and an assortment of people- he made thousands of holes appear on the floor, about 10mm across, from which wooden spikes would shoot up in random patterns. You had to constantly try to twist around and not get stabbed like some kind of fucked up game of twister, while trying to find like, a key, I think it was that was hidden in one of the holes, but if you stuck your finger in the wrong hole, some kind of unseen demon thing under the floor would try to bite your fucking finger off.
I beat the demon as he was going to kill me, because he kept demanding to know what the point of it all was, and all of his effort in gaining knowledge and writing it down has equated to nothing. And, seconds away from being impaled by hundreds of little spears, I screamed, "BECAUSE IT'S YOURS! YOU WROTE IT! IT'S YOURS AND NO ONE ELSE MATTERS!"
So he transformed back into a mild-mannered scientist and I didn't die horribly.

[Anonymous No.17642707]

I live in a city full of poor people and in the city center there are often panhandlers, many of them young who try to guilt trip you into buying gum or whatever from them. I never do, but my denials always come out mumbling, as if I'm ashamed, and for the same reason I never have the guts to look them in the eye when I say no. I already contribute with three different charities, yet I feel irrationally obligated to give money to those people, and when I don't - which is always - I feel guilty. Yet I look at those irreversibly damaged human beings around me and wonder what could realistically help them. They're broken, it's not as if they will ever be able to hold any demanding job, or be able to sustain themselves. Yet I also think about them revolting and rioting, and how they would gladly take revenge on me if they had the opportunity to get away with it.

Revenge for what, though? For the denial of money to which they are supposedly entitled to?

[Anonymous No.17642738]

is the fapping from imagination better or it's just a scam?

[Anonymous No.17642745]

>>17642707
>Yet I also think about them revolting and rioting
Man, junkies aren't gonna riot, they don't have the energy for that. Also very few pandhandlers actually feel "entitled" to money they just want to get something to eat or drugs or whatever

[Anonymous No.17642782]

Two weeks ago(can't remember exactly the date) I said I was going to develop an eating disorder.

Well that's what I did, and now I have dropped 7 pounds in less than two weeks.

Thanks for reading

[Anonymous No.17642811]

>>17642782
Lucky you.
I keep losing all my weight, entering a depressive phase (unrelated to weight), gaining all my weight back, over and over and over again. I'm getting pretty fucking sick of it.

[Anonymous No.17642816]

>>17642782
Good luck getting rid of it

[Anonymous No.17642819]

I hate myself and I know all of the problems that cause it but have no energy or motivation to change.

[Anonymous No.17642826]

Last night I saw a middle aged asian hooker and when we were fucking she rubbed my gooch and it made me have to poop so I ran home and pooped but never nutted so my balls hurt the whole night

[Anonymous No.17642829]

>>17642826
what kind fucking comedy central sitcom is this from?

[Anonymous No.17642830]

>>17642826
She also said my penis was small

[Anonymous No.17642844]

>>17642829
it's not I really happened

[Anonymous No.17642872]

>>17642811
This is literally me except the depressive phase is partially related to weight.

[Anonymous No.17642903]

>>17642811
You're bulking and cutting like a pro, without lifting weights

[Anonymous No.17642907]

I stopped giving a fuck about anything and it truly feels so much better than before

[Anonymous No.17642918]

>>17642907
anon discovers nihilism

[Anonymous No.17642961]

>>17642903
I'd be lifting if my gym hadn't closed.
To be clear, it didn't close because of covid. It closed years ago. It was the only gym close enough that I couldn't talk myself out of going.

[Anonymous No.17642966]

>>17642907
What do you for work?

[Anonymous No.17642978]

>>17641681
They invent cope or they just accept the bs they’ve been told to believe. You’ve got to realize that actually the world your parents inhabit and the world you’re forced to inhabit are totally different. To them, it’s just the 60s or the 70s or the 80s again and again. It’s turtles all the way down and the only thing you really need to reinforce this is the boob tube. They didn’t go to your high school. They didn’t go to your college. They didn’t go to your work place. They don’t inhabit the same world you do. At all.

[Anonymous No.17643020]

>>17642966
translation

[Anonymous No.17643139]

>>17642738
Definitely a scam, and believe me when I say it, I'm talking from first hand experience here. I used to masturbate to just my imagination, and I would just spend hours on end, sometimes a whole day, just masturbating in bed to all sorts of fantasies. After a while, it got terribly addictive. I would just be seized by irresistible urges to masturbate, and it would always happen at the worst of times. It didn't matter if I was depressed, if I had an exam, or if I had some appointment, if the urge came upon me, then I had to masturbate.
Don't go there anon. Took me a fuck lot of will power to break free from that habit. By all means, masturbate, just do it very moderately, doesn't matter what you masturbate to. Masturbation is natural, just don't overdo it.

[Anonymous No.17643161]

How do you decide what to write when you have affinities for two radically different genres and styles of story? You can’t really blend them, or at least, I don’t seem to be able to do so and tell a good story.

[Anonymous No.17643181]

>>17640949

how can white w*men even compete?

[Anonymous No.17643229]

>>17641003
but what makes the hole not fit you if you will
I am moving towards that career you see, so it would be interesting to hear

[Anonymous No.17643245]

>come up with idea for a book
>hell yeah this is going to be good
>develop the setting and characters
>looking good
>”alright time to get started, chapter 1!”
>...
>realize I have no idea how to construct an actual plot or story
Should I just switch to writing dungeons and dragons modules? Feels like it would play more to my strengths desu

[Anonymous No.17643454]

He hasn't read Keyerling's South American Meditations ...

https://archive.org/details/southamericanmed035513mbp/page/n63/mode/1up

[Anonymous No.17643526]

I think I'm getting addicted to Japanese 4chan

[Anonymous No.17643543]

>>17642311
Chlorine?

[Anonymous No.17643565]

>>17641681
Most people only expose themselves to a very narrow corridor of the world and focus only what it is directly under their noses. This is how the vast majority of people stay sane and relatively happy.

[Anonymous No.17643572]

>>17643139
how often is moderate?

[Anonymous No.17643595]

>>17643565
this is the way to live btw

[Anonymous No.17643607]

>>17643526
rip to your potential as a human being

[Anonymous No.17643622]

>>17640558
>mandatory social activity for classes next week
This is what I get for studying psychology, it's not even a first year course. If you don't think the categorisation of NPCs is a useful one, study psychology and your mind will be changed in under a month

[Anonymous No.17643661]

>had a seminar today
>never seen anyone in my class before bc corona
>supposed to read some articles
>read all but one
>put into groups, groups discuss one article each
>end up in the group for the article I didn't read
>turns out no one read this one article (people seemed ambitious, more chance than anything)
>have to give a presentation on the article
>awkward work to try to collectively cover our ass ensues
>realize about halfway that I am stuck on a sinking ship with 6 people I literally never saw before in my life
>find that quite humourous for some reason, it's so pathetic and silly
>bust out laughing
I was muted though, and I don't know if anyone noticed

[Anonymous No.17643679]

I’m extremely depressed and exhausted from being harassed by strangers for years on end.

[Anonymous No.17643689]

>>17643454
>that pic
reminds me of this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZ-vBhGk9F4

[Anonymous No.17643758]

>be me
>read book
>book seems really smart
>realize I am not qualified to know
>maybe book is really dumbe
>I can't know
>stop reading book

[Anonymous No.17643766]

lost £600 over the past week being an idiot by trusting a stranger
no I will not be going into detail as I would have forgotten about this thread
yes he was probably a drug addict very good at lying
yes i'm an idiot
yes i want to die
yes i will move on and learn
poo poo pee pee

[Anonymous No.17643804]

>>17641418
born in 2004

[Anonymous No.17643866]

>>17643804

[Anonymous No.17643886]

>>17640558
jezebel post; didn't read

[Anonymous No.17643888]

i just want some big tits in my face and i'm tired of training artificial intelligences, and i don't care about the tradeoffs between nonlinear models and linear models on prediction accuracy and differentiability.

At the same time i just look at a bunch of women i could erp with right now and they all seem like tiresome audiences. maybe i should go make a tinder and try to get a blowie.

[Anonymous No.17643984]

I don't have job. Its been so long it hurts to try. I just get flashbacks and visions of failure.
Wish I could just hide in the mountains.

[Anonymous No.17643998]

I’m so depressed that the world feels grey and yet I shovel food in my mouth as if it actually tasted good. It’s a reflex and one which has been with me my whole life. Beyond embarrassing. I couldn’t even have the grace to be skinny and depressed.

[Anonymous No.17644004]

>>17643984
>Wish I could just hide in the mountains.
I think you probably could if you wanted to that badly.

[Anonymous No.17644020]

>>17644004
Yeah but I mean in a living state

[Anonymous No.17644023]

>>17643572
Your conscious will let you know when you're overdoing it, so you should just estimate that yourself. If I have to give a number though, I would say once every three days is the way to go.

[Anonymous No.17644025]

>>17643229
I just struggle to care or be engaged in any of it and I feel as if I’ve been mentally, spiritually enslaved somehow. I have always felt out of place in the world but this sort of work environment just ratchets that up to as high as it can go and it shoves it in my face so I can’t even possibly look away. It doesn’t exactly make me feel like my life is worthless. That feeling was already there. It does amplify the feeling and awareness that my life is worthless. It’s just this overwhelming sense I can’t do it and yet I’m forced to. I’m sorry but I’m not sure I can explain it any better than that.

[Anonymous No.17644047]

>>17644020
I think you probably could if you wanted to that badly

[Anonymous No.17644066]

>>17644047
What would I eat

[Anonymous No.17644134]

>>17640558
I'm finally moving away from the city I was living the last five years, can't wait to leave that miserable part of my life behind

[Anonymous No.17644153]

>>17640558
Problems with sleep are slowly killing me.

[Anonymous No.17644158]

>>17644134
happy for you man, hope it gets better

[Anonymous No.17644520]

Kpop needs a containment board

[Anonymous No.17644555]

I am starting to think that I might be trans.

[Anonymous No.17644581]

>>17643679
do you want to talk about it

[Anonymous No.17644695]

>>17644153
bro i have to get my sleep together. i live on a noisy ass block, but i also have a terrible habit of chugging coffee and staying up all night.

[Anonymous No.17644744]

I have done literally everything wrong in my life
This world is a hell and there's only one way out

[Anonymous No.17644821]

>>17640558
Disagreeable, highly orderly and uncreative - the combination of traits that always destroys my mood the worst way possible aka. archetypical germans
They really infect my thinking and whenever my reflecting and expanding of their thoughts ends - because I suddenly remember who I truly am - everything changes for the better again

[Anonymous No.17644839]

>>17644066
Food? What else?

[Anonymous No.17644873]

I possess an incredible vanity that would rival narcissus.

[Anonymous No.17644889]

>>17640572
You must have some insecurities if you feel the need to do that, read Plato and work on being comfortable within yourself

[Anonymous No.17644919]

>>17644555
What age, comorbidities, and how much time do you spend online (specifically on tranny centric boards/reddits)?
t. former tranny that knows how it be

[Anonymous No.17644922]

>>17644555
cant empathize with that but i wish u the best anon !

[Anonymous No.17645013]

>>17644919
21, no mental illnesses to my knowledge (thought that I am schizoid/depressed for a while but I don't really think so). I spend pretty much the whole day online so it's hard to say. Maybe 1-2 hours?
>>17644922
Thanks anon.

[Anonymous No.17645016]

>>17644919
>and how much time do you spend online (specifically on tranny centric boards/reddits)?
This is the really important question.
> t. former tranny that knows how it be
Yep. I’ve seen it happen all too often. Sorry anon. I’m sure it’s been tough. Good to see you helping others before they’re lost.

[Anonymous No.17645232]

>>17645013
Think long and hard about your childhood anon - despite what the modern transvestite would like to think, true transvestites are indicated to be such in their youth. Fact is, 21 is a pretty late age to start thinking you're trans. Lots of trans communities use justifications like playing female video game characters when they're younger as indications of true transness rather than following a trend, but these explanations fall apart at the lightest scrutiny. If you've really felt yourself a girl/wished to be one since your earliest memories, then you have my well wishes in your transition. But that seems quite unlikely here, so I suspect you've fallen prey to predatory transvestite cults online.

Consider the following: gender dysphoria can be created by outside influence. Many such cases: young man with some dissatisfaction browsing the web, finds a transvestite group with mildly relatable memes about wanting to be someone else and playing tomb raider, group provides the perfect explanation to the unexplainable dissatisfactions of life - gender issues beneath the surface (an utterly freudian proposition when you think about, the term "egg" they use), it's convenient and so the mind retroactively constructs a reality where it applies, desire to fit into the group they've invested time into plays a part as well, suddenly they have gender dysphoria to fit their constructed notion of a true transvestite. And it's such a real feeling, utterly fucking miserable dysphoria is, so how can the young man deny it as a mere construction? I recommend that if this second scenario I describe applies to you (as opposed to the first where you are born disliking being male) you think through possible influences on your line of thinking, and read books that offer alternative explanations to dissatisfaction in life (for me that was ted k's manifesto kek). Regardless, it's all up to you anon. I don't think being trans is bad per se, it's just approached too uncritically 99% of the time - people haven't realised yet that memetic hazards are real
>>17645016
Tough, but an excellent learning experience. We've entered an era of mental illness as identities, so it helps to have some first hand experience to avoid it all. Not quite as severe, but I've noticed similar things in the spread of depressive thinking, and notable on 4chan is the desire to be schizophrenic

[Anonymous No.17645370]

I want the stalking to stop.
I’m just some random fucking person. It doesn’t make any sense all, and the people doing it are barely sentient.

[Anonymous No.17645386]

>>17640558
I wonder what its like to stab someone with their own bones.

[Anonymous No.17645392]

>>17645386
I would love to do it to these idiots.

[Anonymous No.17645418]

>>17645392
I would legit kill these people. They are scumbags.

[Anonymous No.17645423]

>>17645392
>>17645418
wat

[Anonymous No.17645432]

>>17640732
Woah, I think I know #2, the one looking down. She went to my college and took a poetry class with me

[Anonymous No.17645486]

>>17645423
See this:
>>17644821
>>17644134
>>17643998
>>17643888

I get stalked and people post stupid shit like this in threads.
I have no idea why they do it. It doesn’t influence my beliefs. It doesn’t influence my behavior.
They just follow me around... like creeps.

They need to go to prison for a long time.

[Anonymous No.17645487]

>>17641584
It's called spring depression, some offshoot of seasonal affective disorder. The thinking is, winter creates a hormonal drive to survive that counteracts the negative effects of less daylight and less activity. When this goes away in spring,, the world "wakes up," but if you're still trapped inside doing nothing with your life, you feel left behind and feel depressed in comparison to everyone else and to nature. I recommend regular exercise and good diets

[Anonymous No.17645507]

When I was a younger teenager, I think about 14 or 15, I was sent to a "youth leadership conference" about technology. It was in San Jose, California, for obvious reasons due to Silicon Valley. I spent about a week there, staying in a room at a hotel with a roommate.

One day the entire conference took a day trip to San Francisco. We were assigned buses and each bus had a supervisor. The supervisor on my bus was a very pretty young woman with red hair. But she was also very fat, and she had a big belly and an even bigger ass.

It was hot that day, which she complained about. I was either assigned to the first seat from the front or the second seat--very, very close to the front. So I was very close to the supervisor, and she did not sit down herself. Being a fat girl, though, she needed some support, so when the bus got underway she turned towards the front and leaned back a bit against a partition dividing the driver's section from the passenger section.

This meant that I was literally less than six feet away from her huge ass. She was wearing white pants, and a combination of the heat, the thinness of the fabric, and the sheer size of her buttocks meant that the fabric of her pants clung to her very tightly. As a result, I could clearly, clearly see her big fat girl panties, their panty lines visibly outlined against the plump edges of her big rump.

Naturally I got a massive boner from this, and I stayed rock hard all the way to San Francisco, a drive that took more than an hour. I barely remember my time in San Francisco itself, except that I ate some good seafood. But of course I eagerly looked forward to the drive back to San Jose. Sure enough, the cute fat supervisor stood at the front, leaning back, just as she had before, and once again her great big butt was tantalizingly close, and her great big panties were clearly outlined. And, once again, I had a boner for more than an hour, on the drive back.

That was, looking back, one of my most formative sexual experiences. It's probably one of the major reasons I have a fat fetish today. Or, at the very least, it was one of the major reasons that fetish awakened in me.

[Anonymous No.17645509]

>>17645487
I’m depressed because I’m being stalked by creepy autists like you giving out useless wisdom I’ve already been aware of for years.
But I’m not really depressed either even though I said I was because your influence is rapidly declining.

You need to be held accountable and go to prison for a long time.

[Anonymous No.17645529]

>>17645507
I don’t give a shit about Silicon Valley.
Don’t share anything about it like I care.

[Anonymous No.17645531]

>>17643245
>>>/sffg/

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17645533]

Sometimes when I’m sitting I’ll remember Goethe’s Wilhelm Meister, and the images of him explaining and boring everyone to sleep about his story, about how he was a child and his parents put on a little puppet show and how he fell in love with theater from this, how he learned all of the plays and stories just to play with his puppets and the passion and just pure love for the art he explained, and I think about the character and how he struggled to reconcile his love with the facts of his life.

The moments that ring out the most strongly to me are the discussions between him and his business minded best friend, first he describes Art as a beautiful goddess, decked in jewels and so forth and to him business seems as if a old and pointless hag. To which his friend replies it is not so, wealth is a goddess who wears true gold, real pearls, all of her jewels are true and how she provides for the material existence of man.

I remember them arguing, and him trying to convince his father that he should be a player.

I remember him moving out and dedicating his time to business, the celebration he saw as he entered a little town, how mignon danced for him, how the old Jewish looking man played for him also. I remember mignon’s Song, even his other best friend who despised women.

Eh, it’s all so vibrant and alive in the mind, the world so real. The story at surface will seem boring until you give it a chance but it’s so well done and so alive. Wish the book was longer.

At least he wrote a sequel eventually.

[Anonymous No.17645547]

>>17645486
Get a grip, (wo)man!

[Anonymous No.17645550]

>>17640949

[Anonymous No.17645551]

>>17645533
I choose wealth.
Anything else?

[Anonymous No.17645553]

Reminder /lit/ bros: Kazuo Ishiguro is releasing a new book in a week called Klara and the Sun.
If you aren't familiar with him, read Remains of the Day.
Makes me glad some of the greats who I read as a child are still around and publishing. I know he released The Buried Giant in 2015 but it feels like a lifetime ago. This is just the cope I needed.

[Anonymous No.17645567]

>>17645547
You can call me a woman. I’m not afraid of them like you, you closet case.

[Anonymous No.17645571]

>>17645553
What's it about? Japanese author?
I'm looking for more writers to practice my Japanese with. Might check him out

[Anonymous No.17645576]

>>17645571
He's actually English. I mean, obviously he's of Japanese ancestry, but he was born & raised in the UK, talks with a British accent, and writes entirely in English.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17645585]

>>17645551
As in books that I just randomly get phantom memories of? Or more benefit to wealth? Kek.

What works haunt you Anon?

[Anonymous No.17645588]

>>17645509
Kill yourself already, tommy. They're never giving you the nobel. give up

[Anonymous No.17645610]

>>17645529
Rope. Neck. Now.

[Anonymous No.17645612]

>>17645588
Tommy?

You don’t have to give me anything, but you must leave me alone.
It’s really fucking gay being obsessed with another man like this. But I’ve gotten gay vibes the entire time. Seems to go hand-in-hand with you reactionaries.

[Anonymous No.17645630]

>>17645610
Come meet me down south and we’ll have an old fashion queer drag from the back of my car.

[Anonymous No.17645638]

>>17645612
>>17645630
2/8 r8ed shitposting
I'm bored, bye bye

[Anonymous No.17645690]

>>17645487
Sorry your good post got that shitty response
But this is a good point. Makes me think how I'll feel when the lockdown is completely lifted.

[Anonymous No.17645704]

I sometimes thing about what it's like being a woman. Everything seems horrible. The superficial relationships, having to put way more efforts into your appearance and being judged heavily on it. Judging people by their appearance, having a body that's oppressive in itself, being shallow, never knowing the true intentions of a man that's approaching you. Never being able to be taken seriously. I could go on all night.

I believe that womanhood is a curse and I say that without even disliking women.

[Anonymous No.17645742]

>>17645704
m8 people will give you free shit for having tits and nobody will punch your dumbass face for some stupid shit you said and you not only get free drinks you also get drunk for cheaper. most of the bleeding for days problems are solved by staying fit enough you stay cute too. if you don't buy the wimp out curse meme, it's life on God mode. you can even create little motherfuckers who love you more than foot anons love kpop who will feel guilty about not giving you part of their liver despite years of your alcoholic abuse. God mode.

[Anonymous No.17645780]

>>17640763
that sounds very interesting, thank you anon

[Anonymous No.17645791]

>>17645486
What does it have to do with stalking? What the fuck are you talking about???

[Anonymous No.17645801]

>>17645791
has

[Anonymous No.17645823]

>>17640732
I hate how much power women's bodies have over me. The fact that the mere image of a woman's body or face provokes such overwhelming, involuntary feelings of intense sexual desire is deplorable to me. No matter what I'm doing or thinking about, if I see an attractive woman I instantly get this porno movie playing in my head.
I wish I had more control over my body and mind and could train myself to feel no sexual desire whatsoever. I already feel no social desire for female companionship and honestly have no interest in a relationship. But I can't shake this awful need to fuck.
I'm a 5'9" manlet with bad skin, sever social anxiety, and no friends so I'll probably never be able to find a woman who'll want to fuck me.
Puberty genuinely brought nothing good into my life.

[Anonymous No.17645855]

>>17645823
And to be honest, from a purely social point of view, most women are at best tedious or annoying. I honestly think that the only reason that most men seek out their companionship is because their brain gets flooded by enough pleasure chemicals when they get a positive response from a woman to convince men that they not only tolerate women, but in fact love them. It's as artificial a happiness as heroine.
I've had "crushes" before but once the artificial pleasure wore off, it became clear that these women were just overgrown children with nothing to really offer me.

[Anonymous No.17645890]

>>17645855
There are other things that I guess could be called artificially pleasurable, such as the pleasure I get from drinking water when I'm really thirsty, going to bed when I'm exhausted, or masturbation, but in these cases, the effort and time needed to achieve the pleasure is reasonable, and I'm also doing something that I need to survive in most of these cases. The time and effort needed to actually achieve sexual satisfaction even once with a woman is far greater than the momentary pleasure I would feel from achieving orgasm from fucking her.
I like design solutions. Instead of solving the problem by finding a way to cope with it, dissolve the problem by removing it. I'm tempted to get voluntarily castrated so I can stop giving a fuck about women and their worthless bodies.

[Anonymous No.17645928]

>>17645704
Women are held to lesser standards than men and there's far less accountability. Social situations will contort themselves around your comfort levels and you can always demand that the world change to better suit your desires. When a woman is harmed, it's a tragedy; when a man is harmed, it's business as usual. He should have the strength to handle himself like a man, while woman can rely on their social network to always rush to their aid and wipe up all their tears.
Sex and relationships are controlled by women since men are more interested in women than women are men and desire sex from them far more than women desire sex from men. If they want it, they get to have it because men always want it, but if men want it, they have to wait until women grace them with access to their bodies.
Women simply have more social capital than men do just by occupying women's bodies.

[Anonymous No.17646093]

>>17645486
Take your medicine that converts you back to an automaton, Anon.

[Anonymous No.17646116]

I am a homosexual effete college student majoring in philosophy. I make passive income by selling shoddy paintings online through the Etsy marketplace as well as placing bets on sports or foreign elections, and of course stock speculation. There are occasional takers for the artwork, but usually if its a fetish porn commission. My desire is to become a serious artist painting vivid landscapes and pictures of ponds or aquatic scenes, but nobody wants to buy that. I am not proud of what I have done for money, but it is the dilemma I am faced with today in the capitalist paradigm. My parents are dead after they got shot while getting carjacked (it was on the local news), my sister is an alcoholic who has been hospitalized several times due to her drinking problem, and I was molested by my uncle Doug as a teenager. He still gives me money sometimes through my venmo at random intervals. I've sold pics of my anus on Only Fans, and I have no job prospects.

[Anonymous No.17646120]

>>17644555
get a gf

[Anonymous No.17646144]

>>17646116
Do ESL in the Middle East for a few years after you graduate. Come home with enough money for a down payment on a house.

[Anonymous No.17646328]

>>17645486
>Random people shit posting in you threads
>Harassment
Get a grip lad, at least people are posting
My threads usually get zero replies

[Anonymous No.17646526]

>>17646328
>My threads usually get zero replies
I know this feel anon. I since stopped caring completely. They can all go suck a fucking dick!

[Anonymous No.17646546]

I am starting to genuinely believe that mass sterilization would fix a lot of humanity's problems.

[Anonymous No.17646554]

I'm beginning to think memes damage the mind. This is only a rudimentary theory, I haven't developed it, but my intuition is usually right.

In a word, overuse of memes leads to stunted expression. It's vaguely comparable to Orwell's Newspeak, without necessarily the ominous totalitarian connotations. Both are these abbreviated, brute coded languages rather than fully expressive languages. Memes tend to propagate and traffic with other memes, forming a meme ecology or memeplex. The problem is that this meme system is circular, it is closed under memes. Meaning that participating in the replication of a meme always implies a repetition of an idea, usually a very lousy one, because those memes which appeal to the lowest common denominator and are the stupidest will have the widest population through which to reproduce and thrive. What this is getting at is that memes make you dumber by their repetitive nature.

This wouldn't be so bad if it was restricted to frog posters or the harmless little jokes of internet culture. Something more worrisome has appeared on Tiktok. I use Tiktok for my research. In between completely irrelevant videos of zoomers showing off their junk I noticed that memes take on a more malicious character when they involve bodily movements, and recordings, and other IRL manifestations. You might scoff as though it were harmless fun but there's something insidious at play.

These teens may indeed be having fun but what is really happening is that their mirror neuron systems have been taken over by an abstract pattern of imitation behavior which has a life of its own. Internet memes have now evolved outside the internet through video based social media and infiltrated the world of human behavior.

This could have devastating implications for humanity. Imagine the horror if the whole world started behaving like one big ironic meme circuit, pepes replicating to infinity like the grey goo nanomachine scenario. It would be a mass hysteria, already it afflicts the young who are neurologically the most susceptible.The world must know of my findings!

[Anonymous No.17646570]

>>17646554
Oh and I forgot to mention Drumpf and the memetic constellations that formed around his campaign is another example of the memetic penetration of meatspace.

[Anonymous No.17646576]

>>17641578
Neurosis is very underrated condition as opposed to meme anxiety and depression.

[Anonymous No.17646600]

>>17644889
If he reads Plato he will become so engrossed in it that he will start ignoring his girlfriend whether he wants it or not. Chances are he will also stop liking girls and develop an interest in young boys.

[Anonymous No.17646621]

>>17646116
I've never encountered another homosexual with an interest in philosophy before. And if you're selling pics of your asshole on Onlyfans it must mean you're reasonably attractive. Wanna date?

[Anonymous No.17646622]

I've forgotten how to gain true satisfaction from anything. If I finish a book, I don't reflect over its themes or relish its climax, I immediately jump to another one and force myself to start poring through it. While I do enjoy somewhat the process of reading, I don't gain any lasting pleasure from it.

[Anonymous No.17646650]

>>17640558
I have searched where I could post this. I searched on all boards. I will ask you guys.
What color should I paint my room?

[Anonymous No.17646699]

I am honestly terrified over the thought that 4channers lurk out there in the real world, where I could potentially encounter them face to face.
Yes, I realize that that a lot of people here aren't as nasty irl, but still I wonder how many people see me and think "What a fucking faggot, he should kill himself".
I might be paranoid, but I constantly feel like those around me have impulses to murder me.

[Anonymous No.17646705]

>>17646650
Yellow

[Anonymous No.17646732]

>>17646650
Blue..blue....electric blue

[Anonymous No.17646762]

>>17645855
>>17645823
Puperty will be over soon.

[Anonymous No.17647180]

>New words: "Ketchup" means "ketchup". "Mayonnaise" means "mayonnaise", "Senf" means "mustard".
No way, I though Ketchup means apple puree. Damn, this will be hard.

[Anonymous No.17647330]

>>17645823
>>17645855
>>17645890
nice blogppost faggot

[Anonymous No.17647341]

>>17646116
>he wants to paint bland landscapes over intellectually and emotionally stimulating art
the 19th century called, they want their shitty impressionist paintings back

[Anonymous No.17647347]

>>17640558
i miss her

[Anonymous No.17647427]

>>17640558
Good edition.

[lolfuckme No.17647449]

this fuckin discord server it's too distracting fuck me i wanna study

[Anonymous No.17647459]

I have never had a platonic relationship with a woman, and have only ever had one GF who turned into my wife. I wonder what I am missing, if anything.

[Anonymous No.17647517]

>>17647459
A lot.

[Anonymous No.17647597]

>>17641531
I think I got a good 2 months under my belt at the moment and I heard 3 will apparently "reset dopamine reception", even if it's fake I wanna see for myself

[Anonymous No.17647742]

I'm going to blogpost, so sorry in advance. My friend and I got into a fight and and called me a coward. I naturally asked him why, and then he writes pic related. I really don't know what to say. I'm seriously considering to stop talking to him after this.

[Anonymous No.17647761]

If someone said your dick is the size of your ego, would you be happy or sad?

[Anonymous No.17647781]

>>17647742
He's right. Stop being a coward you fucking donkey.

[Anonymous No.17647782]

riddle me this fascistoids
if womens preferences are heavily geared toward maternal needs and/or desire for submission, why is humour the greatest aphrodisiac?

[Anonymous No.17647787]

>>17645823
stop watching porn, start meditating.

[Anonymous No.17647847]

>>17647742
What did you fight about?

[Anonymous No.17647935]

My reading speed and comprehension of English verse (prose too but less) is so shit aaaaaaaaaaaa

[Anonymous No.17648336]

>>17645791
>>17646328
I believe you're talking to an actual schizophrenic who sometimes posts in these threads. Or else it's someone persistently larping as such, which I doubt.

[Anonymous No.17648338]

>>17646699
but you're a 4channer, anon.

[Anonymous No.17648346]

>>17647761
flattered

[Anonymous No.17648371]

>>17640558
Depressed

[Anonymous No.17648404]

I just got the coronavirus vaccine and when I got home I decided I should start a subscription to the guardian, the times and a bunch of periodicals to better understand the British national spirit.
Maybe the vaccine is the next MK Ultra.

[Anonymous No.17648434]

[Anonymous No.17648440]

>>17647742
need more info. what was the fight about?

[Anonymous No.17648454]

>>17648404
Lol

[Anonymous No.17648723]

Here's a today's entry from a diary:
I dont get it. I just dont get it. I can appear in such way that everyone else might think that i get it, even i think that i get but deep down - i just dont. All this talk about responsibility, choosing and living with consequences, improving the current situation, goes nowhere but i just dont get it. Everyone around me seem to understand it on some deeper instinctual level that they dont even question it but for me - it just goes over my head and even in the sparse moments of clarity, i just barely scratch the surface of the problem. I feel like a little kid in a 28 year old mans body for not understand this simple stuff. Something is very wrong with me.

[Anonymous No.17649015]

Basically I shared my opinion that judging influential people from the past is generally a futile activity, as humans beings are locked in their own times and they do the things they do because of their beliefs and necessity (i'm thinking about politicians here desu). He accused me of removing the responsibility form their actions(which I can't disagree, in my view you can only take responsibility of your own life, and this obviously includes the people that you interact). He then tells me to fuck off and calls me a coward for my determinism(I don't even believe in had determinism and I thought he knew that). I got really mad and sperged out, because I think he is the coward, He was the last person I wanted to hear those words from.

[Anonymous No.17649021]

>>17649015
shit I forgot
>>17647847 >>17648440

[Anonymous No.17649157]

>>17647459
No sisters, aunts, nieces, cousins? Either way platonic male-female friendships are overrated only 'matter' at the ages 11-22 at most. Obviously you can have a great friendship with a women, but in that case it's rather great because of your characters, not because she's a woman and you a man.

[Anonymous No.17649167]

>>17647782
>why is humour the greatest aphrodisiac?
That isn't true at all.

[Anonymous No.17649193]

I'm doing a presentation for my friends. What should I make it about?

[Anonymous No.17649218]

>>17649193
Why are you even thinking of doing a presentation if you don't know what it will be about?

[Anonymous No.17649226]

>>17649218
we have drinking games we play every night
we decided to make presentations about topics we're "passionate about"
so it can be a joke presentation

[Anonymous No.17649266]

>>17649193
Make an argument for King Koloman the Book Lover of Hungary secretly being a vampire.

[Anonymous No.17649287]

>>17640558
How many more of these threads are going to be opened with asian girls. Mix it up

[Anonymous No.17649297]

Once humanity moved past the immoral constraints of materialism, we finally understood how to make weapons not of matter but of livelihood and solace, and then we were not stuck in hedonism anymore

[Anonymous No.17649310]

>>17642738

Currently trying this and it ain't as bad as i thought it would be

[Anonymous No.17649322]

>>17649226
Well, in that case you can always make a presentation on some book you read, but make up a bullshit deeper meaning behind completely irrelevant stuff.

[Anonymous No.17649480]

>>17647742
>>17649015
He sounds like a fucking retard bro.

[Anonymous No.17649485]

>>17645370
Seriously take your meds anon, if you're not memeing than I'm not memeing

[Anonymous No.17649528]

>>17643020

Hey transbro, what languages?

[Anonymous No.17649612]

>>17647782
It’s not

[Anonymous No.17649613]

Today I thought "Count Fuckula" would be funny. He turns people into vampires by fucking them. I briefly toyed with "Dickula" but I think "Fuckula" sounds funnier. He would say "I vant to fuck your blood!" and his cock would spring out with a cartoonish "boi-oi-oi-oing"

[Anonymous No.17649646]

>>17640558
I had a dream last night about a girl I used to see, in this dream we were undressing and she was showing me these growths she had gotten on her legs, like some disease, one was a pale green flower shaped like a four-pronged half-blooming bud encrusted on her thigh, another was something extremely phallic-shaped but not actually a penis. In the dream this was taken as a normal but unfortunate occurrence like 'oh I have a cavity or a cold' or something, perhaps it was slightly more serious/embarrassing for her, like she had gotten an STD or something.

[Anonymous No.17649663]

>>17649613
hey nick

[Anonymous No.17649762]

Is it a waste of time to try to get some sort of public policy degree so I can have some effect on the system in the USA? I don't believe anyone can change the world but at least if it begins to change I can assist it

[Anonymous No.17649828]

>>17649762
Do it king. Think about the narrative shift between Bill Orielly & tucker. The old guard is always replaced by something

[Anonymous No.17649844]

>>17640558
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Anonymous No.17650010]

>>17649762
I think absolutely yes it is a waste of time but I’m just some random anon.

[Anonymous No.17650017]

Masculinity? Cringe.
Femininity? Cringe.
Androgyny? Now that’s the good shit.

[Anonymous No.17650032]

>>17647742
To be fair, you probably are a neurotic dweeb who can never be satisfied

[Anonymous No.17650053]

my great grandmother was a librarian, my grandmother was a journalist, and i work in an office selling power tools

[Anonymous No.17650073]

>>17649612
>>17649167
of course it's true.

[Anonymous No.17650261]

>>17649021
> I forgot
You probably have dissocitve identity disorder

[Anonymous No.17650355]

>>17640558
Is it better or worse looking at violent shit like liveleak and /gif/ rekt threads? It spooks me and can keep me up at night but it also gives a sense of seeing raw ugly reality and it's good not to deny that.

[Anonymous No.17650436]

>>17650355
I don't think it's a big deal, it's just a video and your brain registers on some level that it's not real(even if it is a video of something real).

[Anonymous No.17650520]

>embarrassed myself in public AGAIN
What's the point of reading difficult books if they can't stop me from constantly acting like a retard in front of other people?

[Anonymous No.17650528]

>>17650436
True but there's definitely less filtration than a movie. You are seeing a real event that has happened somewhere in the world. The video is presenting you a moment of real life, even if you're not directly seeing it.

[Anonymous No.17650532]

>>17650520
The books can't really help you there, you learn proper human behavior from observing other humans.

[Anonymous No.17650543]

>>17650520
What did you do? I'm sure it's not that bad.

[Anonymous No.17650660]

>>17650543
I shat me pants in a walmart. AGAIN.

[Anonymous No.17650728]

Whenever I see a girl in a burqa, some kind of tingling starts to spread in my penor region. That formless gown which could hide a perfectly shaped body or a grotesque figure increases the anticipation with the risk involved. Even though a bunch of uncovered huwite girls pass by my eyes are only on Maryam you beauty, you who sits in the corner of the class, staring at the world through those slits, wonder what goes on in that caged mind of yours. That day when i picked up the pen you dropped and gave it to you did you smile? Hmmmmmawaaa i want to whisper in your ears, kiss your pretty eyelashes but I am afraid your brothers will beat me.

[Anonymous No.17650753]

Do men not usually drink their own cum at some point? I thought it was a normal thing everyone id at least once but apparently i'm gay?

[Anonymous No.17650822]

>>17650753
i think it's rather normal.

[Anonymous No.17651295]

>>17641681
Maybe nothing has changed for them perhaps they keep the same circles.

[Anonymous No.17651388]

Whats the point of trying if you're going to die anyway? Even the greatest of the great died.

[Anonymous No.17651446]

>>17640558
The Industrial Revolution and its consequences have been a disaster for the human race. They have greatly increased the life-expectancy of those of us who live in “advanced” countries, but they have destabilized society, have made life unfulfilling, have subjected human beings to indignities, have led to widespread psychological suffering (in the Third World to physical suffering as well) and have inflicted severe damage on the natural world.

[Anonymous No.17651576]

My soul feels as a spoiled tooth with a dead nerve. I was healthy once, then there was a moment of intense pain, followed by permanent numbness. Im still diseased, but im just numb. At this point i dont think i can ever be saved anymore.

[Anonymous No.17651588]

>>17650822
>>17650753
it's normal for gays, if that's what you're asking.

[Anonymous No.17651641]

I decided to buy a light box after learning it might help me trigger my hypomania. To be honest, I don't think it will work, but I need to try everything short of hard drugs if I want to get inspired again

[Anonymous No.17651714]

>>17651446 and it's consequences have been a disaster for anon's sex life.

[Anonymous No.17651752]

Gypsies may be crooks, but they have never systematically attacked anyone with weapons of mass destruction.

[Anonymous No.17651758]

>>17641681
Bitch in your parents time there was a constant threat of nuclear war and the rivers would literally catch fire from all the pollution in them. What exactly is so terrible about current year? That you see more of people’s retardation because they post it online? That gays and transsexuals exist in public? Chill out nerd lmao

[Anonymous No.17651766]

>>17651576
>He's just like me...

[Anonymous No.17651767]

>>17651576
Take the ghibli pill: watch Proco Rosso and force on the real world the reality of your dreams.

[Anonymous No.17651815]

Something in the universe has changed in relation to me. What once was frozen now flows, what once flowed is now stuck. A vague omen of change lingers on the horizon, as if some if a titan of truth has risen from its slumber and now lumbers unstoppably towards me. The cryptic figures are forming in the abyss, gradually forming a legible sigil, but as soon as I attempt to read it it is undone, rippling out like both waves of water in a pond and a puff of smoke.
>inb4 take meds

[Anonymous No.17651865]

free the mind
free the soul
fill my body
with your hole
pucker up
pucker down
one way stop
to pound town

i can read
between the lines
a thousand times
within these rhymes
what comes inside
will never leave
and be rent free
endless seethe

[Anonymous No.17651949]

If the government was trying to kill everyone why would they bother to save old people? "90 year old women saved from Covid". Makes zero sense. conspiracy theorist are idiots.

"White genocide" yet none of these men are married or have any children. I feel like most far right neo Nazis are Incels in denial and can't get a women. It's why they spend all their time online crying abut the jews. If I was white I would travel to Asia get a GF there.

[Anonymous No.17652005]

>>17651815
why is he opening his mouth so goddamn wide when he says king

[Anonymous No.17652026]

>>17650753
Of course they at least taste it once although they will never admit it.

[Anonymous No.17652034]

>put your heart into writing posts
>nothing
whay did i honestly expect...

[Anonymous No.17652051]

>>17652034
Point it out

[Anonymous No.17652060]

>>17650753
>>17650822
I've sucked dick (not in a gay way) and I've never drank my own cum, you're gay

[Anonymous No.17652068]

Any fiction writers here? How do you narrow the scope of genre and themes that you tend to write about? How do you really refine what you really want to talk about? It seems like it came so naturally for the great authors of history.

[Anonymous No.17652084]

>>17652034
it was probably some sad sack post full of young guy ennui that no one cares about

[Anonymous No.17652111]

>>17651949
the sheer insanity of it all makes it tough for me to see them as people to be honest. They act like broken machines, and I can't understand any mental process that could lead a rational mind to such delusions

I'd feel pity for them the way I feel for people with schizophrenia, but most people with schizophrenia aren't violent the way these things are, and schizophrenic ravings aren't accepted as a valid world view by society and don't behave like a memetic contagion

I know the whole thing about "if there was a real zombie apocalypse there would be zombie rights activists" is cuckservative/libertarian meme, but it feels like they're speaking from experience because they're acting like zombie rights activists themselves

[Anonymous No.17652242]

Hahahahahahahaha How The Fuck Is The Spectacle Real Hahahaha Nigga Just Walk Away From The Screen Like Nigga Close Your Eyes Haha

[Anonymous No.17652251]

I don't consent to you reading this sentence.

[Anonymous No.17652261]

>>17652034
You Shouldn't worry about online activities/It's meaningless.

[Anonymous No.17652267]

>>17652051
Eh, its just me venting away. >>17648723
I guess ill just keep it to myself from now on

[Anonymous No.17652521]

>>17652267
I actually did see your post earlier today and had almost replied but I was working and something came up. The reason I almost replied is because I’m 27, I’ll be 28, and you pretty accurately described how I feel a lot of the time. Sometimes I feel like a 17 year old trapped in a 27 year old body and yes, like there’s some sort of thing to get that makes people be the way they are and I just missed the memo or something.

[Anonymous No.17652530]

I really am the type of person to type “the modern world is a horror show” on 4channel on Friday morning and then order delivery from Domino’s on Friday night. God, I hate myself.

[Anonymous No.17652537]

>>17651949
>"White genocide" yet none of these men are married or have any children
well this is not true, and it's not even relevant, the relevant points are the rates of immigration and native fertility

[Anonymous No.17652570]

got my shit together, learned to be a normie, got friends, got a job, got a gf ... honestly miss being a retarded neet incel. i mean it's sort of worth it to grow up and move on but it's also not. i was never so happy as playing diablo 2 and counter strike 12 hours a day calling people nigger listening to nirvana and the meme trilogy on audiobook and posting in Bane? threads. and now i just go around pretending like that part of me didnt exist. i wish a cop would just shoot me in the head and end it all.

[Anonymous No.17652645]

everytime i catch women looking at me i'm overcome with an primordial pang of hatred, for no apparent reason. what the fuck is wrong with me.

[Anonymous No.17652647]

>>17651949
I’ve never heard conspiracy theorists say that the government is trying to kill everyone with COVID. If anything, they say that they lie about COVID’s fatality risk. I also don’t get your point about white genocide but it obviously takes more than 1 person to make a baby.

[Anonymous No.17652907]

>>17652647
My mom at work is being harassed for taking the vaccine people telling her she is going to die. Stop lying we all see the videos of scaremongers.

Two to tango yes. Are the Jews stopping these men from asking a women out on a date or use Tinder?

[Anonymous No.17652917]

>>17640558
I can't fucking take it anymore. I'm just a lonely fuck and I can't even do something of it. I tried writting this night and just puked shit on paper. Just feel bad man.

[Anonymous No.17652924]

>>17652907
>Stop lying we all see the videos of scaremongers.
Lol, no we don’t. You sure your mom isn’t being a tad dramatic?

>Are the Jews stopping these men from asking a women out on a date or use Tinder?
I was implying the women don’t want to date or have kids.

[Anonymous No.17653131]

>>17652924
>I was implying the women don’t want to date or have kids.
Also the jewish birth-rates are also in decline. >>17652924
>Lol, no we don’t. You sure your mom isn’t being a tad dramatic?
Thanks now i know you're trolling bye.

[Anonymous No.17653147]

I've been having trouble lately focusing on one or two books at a time. I feel like I'm getting bored more easily and want to switch more often. Right now I'm reading Villette, Seneca's Letters, a historical essay on the perceptions of Spain throughout history, Sophocles's plays, and now I feel like reading the Hobbit and then the Lord of the Rings. I can't tell whether this means I have varied interests I should cultivate or if I'm just too unfocused.

[Anonymous No.17653388]

>>17652570
I think I saw some studies somewhere that men who drop out of the workforce and play video games all day actually get a boost in happiness until they hit their 30s and 40s where their happiness drops significantly below average. You made the right choice in the long term by becoming a normie.

[Anonymous No.17653395]

>>17653131
>Thanks now i know you're trolling bye.
I’m not. Sorry, but I just find it hard to believe that your mom “gets harassed at work” for vaccines.

The shit about Jewish birth rates is totally irrelevant. It’s bizarre you’d even mention it.

[Anonymous No.17653681]

Had a bad job interview today . It was this stiff, robotic humorless Indian guy without the slightest hint of a personality. Asked me a bunch of stupid questions, clearly has never had an original thought in his life.

To make matters worse my partner left me in the most unceremonious way today and was an entire cold bitch about it in a way that didn't leave me sad and angry so much as bewildered. And this was all on top of when I already felt I was at rock bottom.

Everything is grim. Just a week ago I thought things were looking up for me.

It's not like there's anything good happening in the external world outside my life either. Feels like everything is barreling toward a black hole.

I ordered several bottles of soju and I'll see if I can eliminate my self awareness for a time. I don't feel like a loser, I feel, underutilized. Undervalued. Undersold. Undermined.

[Anonymous No.17653699]

>>17653681
Sorry, man. That sounds like a rough day.

[Anonymous No.17653704]

aww shit friday night.

[Anonymous No.17653755]

life is actally looking good for once
started cuittingg myself recently and i feel much better thanks
things are coming to a point in my life after over two deacdes of living inbetween worlds. i kept delaying it. avoid negative feedbakc loops with yourself just do it and make yourself as you are. the plot is important because it is the action that happens and everything else is secondary, especially sitting in your room all day getting to know yourself like "i did this because of this and i am doing this because such and such". you can cut right to the end and just do it that way its much quicker and now you're there

>>17653704
this

[Anonymous No.17653789]

>>17653681
>soju
tastes awful but its cheaper than water in korea and is like 15% alcohol

[Anonymous No.17653832]

>>17653699
Thanks. Not going to let it get me down. Sometimes when life puts you in a spot you just tell yourself you've had enough and man up you know?

>>17653789
Yeah I get it for the high alcohol content and the low cost.

[Anonymous No.17653848]

>>17648723
this too. this >>17653755 is where im at but im also right here with you. i often find myself scrolling down webpages totally in awe that people are putting sentences together. i go to class and i feel like im just watching a sorcerer cast spells. i google t he spells and there's more spells to explain those spells. but you can't behave this way. every time you talk to someone you have to gather around the cauldron and recite the words together. i don't know what i'm doing. it reminds me of the speech at the start of trainspotting.
>choose life
i have infinite choice in this world and i am sitting here typing on 4ch literature board reply to a diary entry. this is what people do with infinite choice. my life would somehow be less predictable if i collapsed all my choices into one and did lot of drugs. and i have nothing to say. is that ever okay?

[Anonymous No.17653849]

>>17646650
>paint
no
wood paneling instead

[Anonymous No.17653875]

I just realized how much 10 year old me loved the suburbs by arcade fire. I guess this is how boomers feel about classic rock.

[Anonymous No.17653878]

>>17653681
>I ordered several bottles of soju and I'll see if I can eliminate my self awareness for a time.
Bad decision. You will only spiral downwards. Instead of trying to drink your bad mood away, you should indulge in things that make you happy (like eating delicious food, watching a movie, reading a book, playing a game, etc.).

[Anonymous No.17653909]

I got invited out again by some asian girls I met at a club but my triceps, delts and anterior serratus are not nearly defined enough for me to deserve it, I'm staying home

[Anonymous No.17653966]

>>17653909
Good on you, Anon.

[Anonymous No.17654057]

Best way to an hero? I'm getting there.

[Anonymous No.17654060]

>>17654057
Get covid !

[Anonymous No.17654148]

>>17641413
The Ode Less Traveled by Stephen Fry.

[Anonymous No.17654159]

>>17640558
The flat-faced gook had a look about her that made me pause. What was it about her that made my peepee tingly? No, I gave into the temptation of miscegenation once before and swore I’d never do it again. The more I stared at her, the quicker the feelings faded. She thin, flat black hair, typical of the oriental race. I knew she wasn’t Han due to her thick eyebrows—this both helped and injured her sex appeal. On the one hand, I’d love to colonize some 1000 year in the making dynasty pussy, but on the other hand the risk of contributing another Han soul to this wretched earth was not a risk I was willing to take. The koreans are often perceived as being a noble gook race, but this is certainly a bias one could only hold if they had never met one. It wasn’t worth approaching her and striking up a conversation. The library and rec center were full of whores just like her. Sitting through a conversation with them was not worth the two minutes of pleasure I’d get with this human sex toy. I quickly became disgusted, her small black nostrils were too reminiscent of her eyes. Her lips were thin and red, making her resemble some Heian period Ukiyo-e painting, but it was clear she wasn’t Japanese—they still all look relatively the same to me. I laughed a bit aloud to myself. The closer I looked, the more apparent it was that she used lightening skin cream. I can’t blame her for wanting to be white, but I wasn’t going to be complacent in her self-hatred. Or was I? Maybe I would fuck her, but I would never waste my seed on a whore like that. She probably read about Microchimeraism, the more white cocks she took, the whiter her progeny would be. I made a mental note to pray for the poor sap who would be chained to her for the rest of his worldly life and walked away. I was getting hungry and had been staring this whorish chink for far too long. Maybe I’d try to stop at that banh mi shop right off campus. Jungle gooks tend to be easier and less needy anyway.

[Anonymous No.17654168]

>>17641578
On the contrary, only you can help yourself.

[Anonymous No.17654179]

>>17654057
i'd like to go into the biobin and fish out all their jaws the doctors sawed off and build a little golem out of it. a little golem that goes after them.

[Anonymous No.17654221]

>The flat-faced gook had a look about her that made me pause. What was it about her that made my peepee tingly? No, I gave into the temptation of miscegenation once before and swore I’d never do it again. The more I stared at her, the quicker the feelings faded. She thin, flat black hair, typical of the oriental race. I knew she wasn’t Han due to her thick eyebrows—this both helped and injured her sex appeal. On the one hand, I’d love to colonize some 1000 year in the making dynasty pussy, but on the other hand the risk of contributing another Han soul to this wretched earth was not a risk I was willing to take. The koreans are often perceived as being a noble gook race, but this is certainly a bias one could only hold if they had never met one. It wasn’t worth approaching her and striking up a conversation. The library and rec center were full of whores just like her. Sitting through a conversation with them was not worth the two minutes of pleasure I’d get with this human sex toy. I quickly became disgusted, her small black nostrils were too reminiscent of her eyes. Her lips were thin and red, making her resemble some Heian period Ukiyo-e painting, but it was clear she wasn’t Japanese—they still all look relatively the same to me. I laughed a bit aloud to myself. The closer I looked, the more apparent it was that she used lightening skin cream. I can’t blame her for wanting to be white, but I wasn’t going to be complacent in her self-hatred. Or was I? Maybe I would fuck her, but I would never waste my seed on a whore like that. She probably read about Microchimeraism, the more white cocks she took, the whiter her progeny would be. I made a mental note to pray for the poor sap who would be chained to her for the rest of his worldly life and walked away. I was getting hungry and had been staring this whorish chink for far too long. Maybe I’d try to stop at that banh mi shop right off campus. Jungle gooks tend to be easier and less needy anyway.

[Anonymous No.17654237]

>>17654221
Don’t be mad at me, anon. I’m sorry I joked about your kpop girl. I used to love terrorizing the kpop threads on /mu/, I can’t help it. It is in my blood.

[Anonymous No.17654248]

>>17653878
Nah. That doesn't happen to me. I'm a disciplined drinker. I know its alchemies and effects.
Alcohol makes me happy. At least when I know it's time to drink it.

[Anonymous No.17654271]

>>17641769
Not op but certainly they should be critical about the progressive tightening of humankind's shackles as technological slaves. This is actually patent to my parents, and I suspect should be to any other introspective individual born into modern society.

[Anonymous No.17654284]

>>17654237
idc if you like kpop, it was the juvenile /pol/yp tone to it

[Anonymous No.17654289]

>>17643984
Do you need a job?

[Anonymous No.17654307]

What is it with those kpop weirdos? How do their brains work? I do not understand it.

[Anonymous No.17654314]

>>17654159
good post that made me laugh

[Anonymous No.17654315]

>>17654284
I am ambivalent towards kpop. I just enjoyed terrorizing the kpop threads on /mu/. I really need to get off 4chan.

[Anonymous No.17654319]

>>17654307
Cute girls, catchy bops, idk what's so hard to wrap your head around.

[Anonymous No.17654322]

>>17654284
I’m trying to satirize /pol/ thinking and kpoop fetishist.

[Anonymous No.17654342]

>>17654319
The girls are at most attractive for Asian standards and the music is cheap mass-produced pop. Yet the way their fans obsess is excessive.

I feel like kpop is peak capitalistic bugman culture. Something just rubs me the wrong way about it.

[Anonymous No.17654348]

>>17654307
yellow fever rewires your brain

[Anonymous No.17654357]

>>17654348
And this is the cure >>17654159

[Anonymous No.17654367]

>>17654319
The only good KPop song is Gee by Girl's Generation. Everything else is overproduced garbage.

[Anonymous No.17654382]

>>17646554
That's an interesting theory, anon.

Then, he who controls the memes controls the world. Master of the memeing marionnettes.

[Anonymous No.17654393]

>>17646554
That's an interesting theory. Then, he who controls the memes controls human behavior. Master of the memeing marionnettes.

[Anonymous No.17654407]

>>17646554
What is your "research"?

[Anonymous No.17654411]

definitely a low point of my life was my 3 year kpop phase

[Anonymous No.17654417]

>>17648723
>>17652034
I really enjoyed your post anon. I didn't have anything meaningful to add at the time other than that I can relate.

>Everyone around me seem to understand it on some deeper instinctual level that they dont even question it
"Seem" is the key word. It's not as it seems. Your problem is less rare than you think. I went to an Ivy League and trust me, even the high achievers suffered from meaningless and the ennui typical among young adults today despite (seemingly) having it all. They chased prestige and material success and got it, but never reached the contentment they expected to simultaneously arrive. I would tell you the same thing I felt like telling them. If the problem is inside you, it doesn't matter where you go. No matter what road you take you'll be lost if you don't know what you want or force yourself into thinking you're a failure because you don't fit the caricature of a successful grown man that media shoves down our throats.

Oh, and the most sincere thing I ever posted on this site was mocked by several anons so I feel as jaded as you probably do. These threads are the perfect time to vent, even if nobody cares or you're worried about sounding like a faggot. Godspeed anon, I wish I could be more helpful but you need to figure out what you want before getting concrete advice. I'm cheering for you. You're a pure soul.

>>17652521
You and him should look up "peter pan syndrome"

[Anonymous No.17654425]

>>17653875
Holy shit me too, exact same song. I rediscovered it during a low phase recently. Have you seen the music video? It makes the lyrics hit so much harder.

[Anonymous No.17654437]

>>17652645
Same, and I'm in a relationship. Watch the last scene of QT's last film where the woman gets beaten to a pulp in the funniest way possible. It is the most cathartic thing in the world if you feel violent urges around women.

[Anonymous No.17654442]

>>17654411
Probably just escapism

[Anonymous No.17654449]

>>17650355
Fuck no, anon. I know you think you can handle it (so did I) and you probably can but that shit rots the soul over time. There were two liveleak videos in particular that made me realize this poisons your soul. Stop telling yourself that's reality, you're not denying anything you're creating a mentally numb dystopian view of the world. All over some shock value. Don't give it meaning like I did.

[Anonymous No.17654468]

>>17654342
Disagree, I think they're very attractive by any reasonable standard.

As for the music, for me it was part of a process, growing up from a teenager into a young adult, I was able to appreciate more mainstream music, and I realized 90% of all music is basically the same shit in the end. I've plowed through enough Stockhausen and Messiaen to not be worried about being seen as a pleb.

[Anonymous No.17654528]

I feel like explaining something from Japanese 4chan (2channel) that's been stuck in my head. Like us, they have a distinctive style of writing everyone identifies with the site. But for them, this style (language) belongs to one board - the "stream anything" board known for baseball. They all write in a dialect that supposedly belongs to fans of the Hanshin Tigers, but it caught on so that everyone uses it, and it's popular on the rest of the net now too. Unlike 4chan speak though it doesn't use many buzzwords. Instead they use different sentence enders. If you don't know any Japanese, sentence enders are small particles with no direct meaning, but change the tone of the sentence. Not using a sentence ender sounds blunt, so in casual speech they're everywhere. The most notable thing about their dialect is it replaces most uses of だ (da) with や (ya). だ is the casual version of the copula です (desu), so it just means "to be". Since it's a sentence ender, this doesn't change the meaning, but it does change the tone. To Japanese speakers it sounds more casual, rough, and laid-back, like an exaggerated form of kansai-ben. The area on the map in yellow is the Kansai area, so you can see how this developed.

The point is this accent is really catchy and I've started to think in it a bit. It's fully useless to know this but I suppose it's an autistic niche of mine

[Anonymous No.17654566]

so i says to him i says to him
"shut your gay mouth"
and you know what?
that time he listened.

[Anonymous No.17654585]

i got banned for a month but i'm now able to post 3 days later, why?
maybe the mods felt generous
if so, thank you mods, for your kindness

[Anonymous No.17654586]

>>17654528
neat!

[Anonymous No.17654594]

>>17654592
>>17654592
>>17654592
>>17654592

[Anonymous No.17654810]

>>17654168
I cant help myself but im missing the fundamental understanding about life in general.

[Anonymous No.17654838]

>>17654417
>you need to figure out what you want
thats honestly one of the if not the most hardest thing to do for me. deciding and living with consequences is the close second because before decision you have the potential of both sides but you lose something after choosing one thing over the others. theres a disappointment factor too if you've choosen wrongly. So deep down i think that having a freedom to choose is much better than actually choosing something.

[Anonymous No.17654899]

>>17654289
Yeah

[Anonymous No.17655045]

>>17654307
I have agp

[Anonymous No.17655935]

Jusqu'auboutist is my new favorite word