/Write What's On Your Mind/

[Anonymous No.15642462]

"But if I am to truly understand Christ, I must realize how Christ actually lived only his own life, and imitated no one. He did not emulate any model.

If I thus truly imitate Christ, I do not imitate anyone, I emulate no one, but go my own way, and I will also no longer call myself a Christian. Initially, I wanted to emulate and imitate Christ by living my life, while observing his precepts. A voice in me protested against this and wanted to remind me that my time also had its prophets who struggle against the yoke with which the past burdens us. I did not succeed in uniting Christ with the prophets of this time. The one demands bearing, the other discarding; the one commands submission, the other the will. How should I think of this contradiction without doing injustice to the either? What I could not conjoin in my mind probably lends itself to living one after the other."

Carl Jung. The Red Book: A Reader's Edition. p. 332.

[Anonymous No.15642471]

fuck im bored senpai

[Anonymous No.15642493]

>>15642462
Being conservative without any relativism is literally subjecting yourself to mental torture

[Anonymous No.15642526]

It's funny, this whole "defund the police" debate has a way of showing people's true colors.

Right wingers have an absolute shit view of human nature as liars, killers, and thieves (based mostly on fear and projection). Left wingers have a rosy eyed view of human nature, mostly based on how they wish people were rather than how they actually are.


It's why right wingers think the purge breaks out the moment you get rid of the police, and left wingers think things will be safer without cops long term. Neither is true.

[Anonymous No.15642572]

>>15642526
>left wingers think things will be safer without cops long term
Why wouldn’t they be? Because right-wingers are gonna incite violence to prove a point that doesn’t benefit them? This isn’t the first time leftists have thought about policing, nor will it be the last.

[Anonymous No.15642618]

>>15642526
>Right wingers have an absolute shit view of human nature as liars, killers, and thieves (based mostly on fear and projection).
No they correctly believe that a small percentage of evil people will wreak havoc if they aren't policed.

[Anonymous No.15642676]

>>15642493
Can you explain why you need relativism to be a mentally healthy conservative?

[Anonymous No.15642711]

>>15642676
http://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/robert-anton-wilson-neurological-relativism

This would do a better job of explaining it than I could

[Anonymous No.15642748]

I don't understand how any right-thinking person can support abortion. It's abhorrent and repulsive and truly evil to me. I would be perfectly happy if the United States fought a civil war over the issue of abortion. I would be fine balkanizing the country and fighting an ugly conflict if, at the end of it, abortion was ended forever.

[Anonymous No.15642774]

>>15642618
I agree. When I say neither is true, I was referring to both extremes - many conservatives will tell you that abolishing police will immediately lead to a purge-style movement or complete anarchy. The truth lies somewhere in the middle, but it's impossible to be a centrist these days.

[Anonymous No.15642787]

>>15642748
Do you consider birth control evil?

[Anonymous No.15642788]

>>15642572
Right wingers are often older, whiter, concentrated in rural areas, and have stable jobs/families. If you're saying they will incite violence to disprove leftists, I don't buy that logic.

[Anonymous No.15642789]

>>15642526
The cops being mildly overtaxed has led to my once mostly-safe neighborhood being overrun by "youths" every hour of the day and starting fights and committing crimes

You don't understand what large cities in America are like, the blacks are basically Orks from Warhammer 40,000

[Anonymous No.15642804]

>>15642774
The Right are more correct in that there are born psychopaths who you can't fix and the only real solution to these people is to kill or imprison them. The Left seem to think that it's always environment that causes this, and they have a bizarre tendency to fetishize these psychopathic criminals.

Also the effects of the abolition of police are entirely dependent on whether the population is legally allowed to arm and defend themselves or not. Allowing criminals to run free while the population are disarmed is anarcho-tyranny.

[Anonymous No.15642824]

>>15642788
>If you're saying they will incite violence to disprove leftists, I don't buy that logic.
I wouldn’t either, because normally that’d be stupid to do. The problem with right-wingers is how ironic they are and their lack of or refusal to practice awareness

[Anonymous No.15642834]

>>15642804
Criminals would be going through rehabilitation, and I don’t see how their capability of violence is that big of an issue if they wouldn’t be armed either

[Anonymous No.15642859]

>>15642787
der der derp duh duh derp derpo duh

[Anonymous No.15642868]

>>15642804
IDK much about politics but I feel like leftists would only claim that criminals are products of society, and if we had a better society there would be no criminals. for them i assume it's related to economics purely, but i assume a smart leftist would recognize crime is deeper than economics and its cultural.

[Anonymous No.15642869]

>>15642748
How do justify this without involving divine command for human value?

[Anonymous No.15642890]

>>15642748
I agree

You know what I think is even worse? The recent wave of far right wingers (people you generally see on /pol/) who think abortion is tolerable since it reduces the population of black americans, citing statistics such as the fact more black babies are aborted rather than born in NYC. These people are essentially hinging their decision on whether the murder of babies is fine so long as it helps their own desired demographics. Then again, the founder of Planned Parenthood was infamously a eugenicist herself, so this isn't any entirely new phenomenon.

[Anonymous No.15642911]

>when a concession you were forced to make earlier in an argument saves you from an even bigger problem later in the argument
who knew this would feel so good.

[Anonymous No.15643682]

This is what's on my mind. My mind has this very paragraph. But it doesn't appear to be, for I am writing this. Writing like this, it won't seem like it. However, indeed, it's what's on my mind.

[Anonymous No.15643933]

Buzzati's short stories are fantastic. Rich prose, but not overwhelming, bizarre coincidences, sadness and horror, but also a sense of hope, and they often left me with a smile after I finished them. Thank you Dino Buzzati.

[Anonymous No.15643956]

>>15642748
What's wrong with it? There are many instances where society condones murder so what's wrong with these specific murders exactly?

[Anonymous No.15644801]

Tried eating my own cum and it was actually not that bad, so now I eat it occasionally after masturbating. I don't really get why a girl would be opposed to swallowing after a blowjob or why people think it's gross. No homo.

[Anonymous No.15644821]

>>15644801
facialed and cumpilled

[Anonymous No.15644831]

>>15642462
Just wrote this in another thread.
Alongside police reform, the concept of systemic racism is considered to be the main focus of current protests. This concept defines racism as an aspect of western socialization that is responsible for racial disparities. Statistics of these disparities and lessons on racist policies of the past are used to support the concept. The existence of these disparities and policies is well known and not likely to be denied; however, without current policies to point to, it is hard to grasp what is being fought against. The use of statistics implies that protesters are simply frustrated with reality, but the heavy focus on race will not ease their frustrations. Instead, protesters should look towards changes that improve the quality of living for all citizens of their countries. Racism is an issue that can only be solved by growth. Resistance will likely have an effect opposite of what is intended.

[Anonymous No.15644835]

I identify with the Conqueror in Camus' Myth of Sisyphus. Amoral, sustained self improvement with no final goal, meaning or afterlife pretentions is what keeps me from killing myself. No reason to do this, but it's what I do.

[Anonymous No.15644854]

I don't feel like I am good enough for Christ

[Anonymous No.15644861]

>>15644854
No one is. Christ came for those who are sick, not those who are well.

[Anonymous No.15644894]

>>15642748
I support it because I'm an antinatalist. The usual feminist arguments about bodily autonomy, clump of cells, etc. are all bullshit. It's scientifically indisputable that a fetus is a human organism.

[Anonymous No.15644907]

>>15644801
Cum tastes like salty mucous and it's only good if you're horny... o-or, so my friend tells me haha

[Anonymous No.15644915]

>>15642834
Except if criminals want to find a gun, they will find a way no matter what. You can't snaps the millions of guns in America out of existence. This is why even extreme measures of gun control wouldn't work in reality.

[Anonymous No.15644937]

>>15644907
I think it has a slightly nutty taste to it (no pun intended). The only thing that's bad is that it makes the back of throat fill kind of sticky afterwards.

[Anonymous No.15644988]

>>15644937
I guess it has to do with diet. It may just be that you're been eating a lot of nuts lately (no pun intended) so it tastes like that. Then again, i'm no cum sommelier. But yeah, it also leaves a weird texture on your tongue, like it's kinda dry. If you've tried to wash cum off with water, i imagine something similar is happening at the back of your throat which is why it feels sticky.

[Anonymous No.15645004]

>>15644988
I've read that your diet does affect its taste. Who knows, I'm not a connoisseur either.

[Anonymous No.15645043]

>>15642493
>Being conservative ... is literally subjecting yourself to mental torture
fixed it for you

[Anonymous No.15645046]

>>15645004
I've heard citrus fruits and pineapple can improve the flavour.

[Anonymous No.15646462]

i got into med school after much blood and sweat, got a really high percentile in the med entry test so i know for sure i'm getting into my first choice med school

but it feels weird, i don't know if i'm being an ungrateful cunt, or maybe it hasn't hit me yet, even though a few days ago i was suicidal over not potentially passing the exam, i feel nothing much about it
i felt relief when i opened the results, seeing my grade but after that it was nothing
now i'm worrying about other stuff in life, almost in the same depressive state
it's like i'm a hamster in a wheel, keep going but never completely satisifed. i wonder if it'll be like this for my entire life, always craving the next thing

[Anonymous No.15646523]

My best friend tried to kill herself last sunday, ut i was able to save her, despite living 6 hours apart. I am desperate to see her but i haven't been able to. I have been really down lately because of that. We spent her "last" minutes on videocall and i saw her taking all of those pills. I need to be distracted to not think about that but nothing does it.
Coincidence is beautiful. She is alive out of pure luck.

[Anonymous No.15646628]

I want to write something gut-wrenching, something were I can pour all of my anxieties and fears, my disgust for the brutal, random, meaningless horrors of life.
Ever since I had a bad trip while watching the news about Kobe Bryant's death, I've become obsessed with the thought of seeing your own death through obituaries and news articles. What would Kobe have thought if he, at a young age, away from the fame and the money he acquired, had a glimpse of the news talking about how he and his family would die in a tragic helicopter accident? What would the victims of a serial killer think of seeing themselves as part of a long list of horrifying crimes? What would be the reaction of a parent seeing that one day, far into the future, a horrible faith awaited his children?
The awareness of death taken to the next level of terror.

[Anonymous No.15646850]

I have discovered things which are wholly novel for the understanding of history. At 19 my life is complete; it is an ineffable source of consolation to be leaving my adolescence with more joy than I entered it.

[Anonymous No.15646884]

>>15646850
Will you keep this knowledge to yourself?

[Anonymous No.15647011]

>>15646884
No, though I doubt that it will be recognised. It is beautifully simple, but requires one to know a laughable amount of prerequisite knowledge.

[Anonymous No.15647069]

I wish I had the patience to read the Bible and the Qur'an but I can barely finish normal books without losing interest.

[Anonymous No.15647076]

I constantly look up pictures of corpses, the smiling faces of victims in the photos that appear on the news, I analyze the faces of murderers and rapists. I read about how people die and how people suffer and how people kill. Random murders, natural disasters, accidents. I take all of this is in with horror. It leaves me feeling sick to my stomach and empty for hours. I get high and I imagine being the victim and the murderer, I try to get myself in the extreme position of the moments before death, feeling the hands of a killer wrapped firmly around my neck as he stares deep into my eyes with sexual gratification and joy. I see the smiling faces of people in photos, accompanied by family and friend, and then getting torn to pieces by lunatics days or months afterwards and only getting a pale reflection of the hopelessness and absolute terror that falls on the heart of the victim and the family of the victim who have to live on knowing how it all ended for their little daughter or their brother or their father. It makes me feel like I go insane with terror and sadness and sometimes I cry.

[Anonymous No.15647175]

>>15647011
>>15646850
douche chills

[Anonymous No.15647835]

>>15644801
>>15644907
>>15644937
>>15644988
>>15645004
>>15645046
>/lit/ - Cum Connoisseurs and Semen Tasting Notes

[Anonymous No.15648266]

My thoughts have been caught in the maelstrom of her memory. No matter where I go the currents suck me back into a state of melancholy. Mid-step, mid-chew, or mid-shit these treasured images will project themselves onto my screen. The soft, gentle naps, her expectant gaze while I cooked, even her ass-centric stride as she turned away. I do not remember her in totality, I know. She once shit on my bed in a fit of anger, but I still miss that cat.

[Anonymous No.15648291]

I’ve gotten a terrible paper cut and no matter what I do I cannot stop using hand sanitizer on it. I’m not certain but I think I’ve also developed spontaneous AIDS and hemophilia, and so I’m very worried about where I should point my finger.

[Anonymous No.15648574]

I wish I could go get Starbucks without having to order in advance

[Anonymous No.15649066]

>>15646850
>>15647011
it sounds as you don't expect society to understand your thoughts, but what restrains you from sharing your newfound ideas with us educated anons?
>inb4 hehe you fell for my bait

[Anonymous No.15649086]

Tianeptine lifted me out of this long depression and into a warm and fuzzy mania. My head feels like it's detached from my body and suspended in the middle of a wind tunnel. It's a good feeling. My body is itching. Blasting some early 2000s Japanese easy listening and trying to work on some poetry I plan on submitting to a local contest

[Anonymous No.15649562]

>twitch.tv/woke

Aww shit bros, another statue about to drop. They got the rope on it and everything. Quick!

[Anonymous No.15649698]

>>15642789
I've lived in large cities on both coasts.

That's just not true. You're a racist with fear in your heart. That's on you, man.

[Anonymous No.15649736]

>>15649698
You are factually incorrect. Your anecdotes aren't of interest. Go to 3:10.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGTUcS-yQtQ

[Anonymous No.15650507]

The Republic is really a bit slow until Book III. Why shouldn't the weak and simple die off? Why should they be treated with anything but contempt? Socrates was a smart man.

[Anonymous No.15650547]

The problem with society is that we can't go back now; we've lost all them skills we would have had as a fish.

[Anonymous No.15650579]

I hate myself.thank goodness I have internet access to use porn as escapism

[Anonymous No.15650611]

Officer lardass, I should have been nicer to you so I could kill your brat. I would have stabbed her a hundred times like Cheri Jo Bates. Man is the most dangerous animal of all.

[Anonymous No.15650730]

Even yoir geriatric mick grandad wishes you were never born, mongrel. If it were up to him you would have been strangled in the cradle. Never forget it. You are nothing to him just as you are nothing to me and never will be. In front of everyone you are proclaimed trash like the simpleton you are.

[Anonymous No.15651785]

It's amazing how there are so many websites for dating but not a single one for making friends. I suspect this is because even if your intentions are pure and you start one for that end, people are going to start using it to try and fuck people.
I don't know where to meet people anymore. Omegle is cancerous and full of underage and pedos. 4chan doesn't exactly facilitate meeting new people. Most games that I play I do with friends I already have, and either way I am not interesting in making more friends to play games with.
Like, I would love to meet somebody that's studying something vastly different or comes from a country I know nothing about. But that's not going to fucking happen anymore.

[Anonymous No.15651813]

>>15649066
One Glubb cycle is three Strauss-Howe generational cycles.

[Anonymous No.15651841]

>>15642824
Well of course it would be right-wingers, because you're a lunatic who will label everything a right-wing act so long as you have to do no self-reflection.

[Anonymous No.15651843]

>>15651785
Hobbies. Something like a sport or craft that has you in regularly meeting with the same group of people is the way you make new friends. Well, for most people the process is having friends introduce them to their friends and so on, but that isn't an option for everyone. I think friendships is basically a factor of:
>proximity
>shared interests
>personality
The more in common, the better. Structured hobbies get you proximity with regularity and at least one shared interest, so after that it is just personality and closing the gap on the other two. You may not make friends, but you should at least make acquaintances. It also gets you meeting quite a diverse group of people. You just need to go outside.

[Anonymous No.15651866]

>>15651843
I don't have hobbies and I have no time for any.

[Anonymous No.15651962]

>>15651866
If you don't have the time to meet new people then you shouldn't be surprised that you have trouble meeting new people.
Maybe try an IRC or tranny-discord. Or get a pen-pal.

[Anonymous No.15652034]

The Middle English of the Canterbury Tales is nigh incomprehensible without a guide next to the original, but I find Wycliffe's Middle English Bible to be not only understandable aside from a handful of words, but also just really fun to read.

[Anonymous No.15652503]

I have lost all desire for courtship with the opposite gender.

[Anonymous No.15652526]

>>15652503
I wanted to pos pic but forgot

[Anonymous No.15652557]

I'm about to graduate medical school after 6 years of training.

never really wanted to be a doctor, but kind of put that thought out of my head all these years.

now I'm about to enter 40+ hour work weeks, surrounded by people who think an MD = INTELLIGENT and will go home and blast their minds with reality tv until they fall asleep and then go back to work with those false ringing tones of politeness.

I am about to enter slavery and it kills me that I do so willingly (more or less).


Got a girlfriend who loves me a lot and I love her a lot too. We wish we were simple rural farmers in simpler times with our small family. No place in the world for me it feels.

[Anonymous No.15652595]

A few nights ago I had a dream I had a girlfriend. She was happy to be in my prescence and seemed genuinely excited to go on a date with me. My heart was pounding the whole time. I was disappointing when I woke up, but it felt amazing in the moment.

[Anonymous No.15652657]

>>15642834

How do you propose getting all the guns away from black people? And how do you propose to reform what is a genetic predisposition towards low impulse control and violence in black people?

[Anonymous No.15654031]

>>15652557
It's possible to live a simple, rural life anon. I've bought some land and I'm in the process of building a small homestead, and when I'm finished me and my wife plan to start a family. It's hard work, but very possible.

[Anonymous No.15654744]

Why are you all so stupid? This is a genuine question. Like when that turk retard whined that her brothers made fun of her for being on the internet. You don't expect me to give a shit do you? Did I tell your 80 IQ ass to post here? Did I tell you to? I must admit though I like that I can mock all of you in front of your friends and family and you just have to sit there and take it. I can literally say "vege is an ugly retard with tiny boobs" and all of her friends read it and agree.

[Anonymous No.15654866]

What do you all think of veges boobs? Arent they tiny mosquito bites? Hahahahhahaha

[Anonymous No.15654916]

I just released my first book, and I have no idea how to promote it. When people put stuff out, they think it'll magically find its way into people's hands, but that's just not the case.

[Anonymous No.15654929]

>>15654916
Start presenting it to your local library, maybe in your bookclub and with close friends/ family. It will find its way up :)

[Anonymous No.15655068]

I wish i wouldnt be so sexually repressed to the degree that im completely disinterested in any sexual stuff.

[Anonymous No.15655127]

>>15654929
Yeah, I think that's a solid way to go at the local level. Amazon's blocked me from running ads for it because I originally listed it as "explicit" (never do that, regardless of what's in your book), so I've lost my primary advertising route.

[Anonymous No.15655138]

>>15652557
You can become a rural GP and do something close to what you're envisioning.

[Anonymous No.15655151]

7337 - call her up right now. She LOVES trans and would love to spend the day with a trans getting to know them. Call her up. She would love that.

[Anonymous No.15655273]

If she refuses tell her she has to. She would love that. She koves crossdressers.

[Anonymous No.15655277]

Nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger.nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigher nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigher nihher nigger nigger nigger

[Anonymous No.15655279]

>>15646462
If you don't mind, could you elaborate a bit more on your situation and upbringing? I find myself almost exactly in your shoes, right down to the borderline-suicidal hysterics and catastrophizing over the potential of failure, but feeling utter apathy when I inevitably do fine, or better than fine. The process repeats with each and every hurdle of life, as though there's some physical, neurological blockage of incorporating positive feedback into my self-evaluations. You are literally me, except a year or two into the future, hopefully.

[Anonymous No.15655295]

>>15655151
>>15655273
What’s a kove

[Anonymous No.15655355]

>>15655068
Why do you think you are sexually repressed anon?

[Anonymous No.15655390]

>>15655295
You should spend your time with the crossdresser. You would fucking love it. You love crossdressing and mumus and bazinga. You should go do that.

[Anonymous No.15655402]

I was thinking about birds and how they fly

[Anonymous No.15655424]

>>15655402
gay

[Anonymous No.15655447]

>>15651841
Is this big enough for you?

[Anonymous No.15655552]

>>15642526
Yet you go to rural conservative communities, and they're proud of being virtually self-sufficient and having basically zero regular patrols. Republicans are anti-police when democrats are pro-police, which has been most of the time until the last 6 months or so (remember the term "police-state"?) Democrats become anti-police and suddenly republicans are pro-police. American politics is driven by ignorant people who think they're in a battle of objective good vs objective evil, there's a critical lack of relativism and pragmatism across the entire populace. They've literally been turned into a group of pawns that are easily whipped up by their leaders' words into any kind of incident that can be then used to convince them to believe and advocate anything the leaders' want. There is no rational output from the US populace and democratic process, it's just a game played by high-level mafias to collect information on and manipulate the general public.

>>15642618
>he actually thinks that a small percentage of evil people aren't wreaking havoc right now
They're called the political class.

[Anonymous No.15655563]

>>15642748
If you can justify killing for war then why can't you justify killing an unborn child?

[Anonymous No.15655602]

>>15646462
You don't believe in what you're doing, hence you're afraid of the known failure but not pleased by success. It would help if you found something to motivate your greed, since you presumably became a doctor for the money, that you can then think about as your reward for success.

[Anonymous No.15655631]

Nerds will always try to recreate Monty Python scenes or if they are younger Rick and Morty "jokes." It is always these two shows. I have seen it not once but multiple times. If you have ever recreated jokes from those shows you should be in prison.

[Anonymous No.15655679]

>>15655068
Seems a bit self-contradictory. You say you wish you weren't repressed, but at the same time you say you're disinterested, the former already implies interest. The most likely reason is that the sexual stuff you allow yourself to be exposed to is not of interest to you. Maybe try looking at things that you usually avoid.

[Anonymous No.15655833]

>>15642462
That quote is nonsense. Carl Jung was no Christian preacher.

1. Corinthians 11: Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ. 2 I praise you for remembering me in everything and for holding to the traditions just as I passed them on to you. 3 But I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.

None of us is wholly creative and individual and only instead follow and imitate the person above ourselves in a hierarchy. Son follows his father, the father his father (or fathers in the plural comprising of his ancestors, culture, traditions), and ultimately Christ following and doing the works of his Father, God. Thus we submit ourselves to those who come before us.

[Anonymous No.15655883]

>>15655355
I feel like im repressing myself in a way that makes me avoid all situations which contain sexual tension. Its too unknown to better bury it.
>>15655679
that would involve doing anything with girls. its way too scary, also emotions, lust or passion might pose a threat to my self-control.

[Anonymous No.15655923]

I just had Greek yogurt with pineapple for the first time and it was fucking amazing.

[Anonymous No.15655968]

>>15655883
>what is porn
If you're just talking about being socially avoidant then that's another matter than sexual repression.

[Anonymous No.15656012]

>>15655883
>emotions, lust or passion might pose a threat to my self-control.
What do you think might happen in a worst case scenario?

[Anonymous No.15656212]

Imagine being such a pathetic loser that the only woman who wants you is a literal retard that has a giant kike nose and watches sitcoms and charlie brown kid's cartoons.

[Anonymous No.15656261]

But really to be serious you should call that fat kid Zuber. He is literally your actual step-son. I am not. I am some guy who just wants to be left alone and not to watch kiddie cartoons with a fat lardass dork and a crossdresser. So once more, get in touch with your real actual step-son. He needs to be in your lives.

[Anonymous No.15656572]

I want to know if anon got accepted for the apartment hoped for

[Anonymous No.15656624]

I hope they don't find him.

[Anonymous No.15656830]

I'm 25 years old now. Is this the age where people discover their true political leanings or has 4chan finally completed it's job of radicalizing me?
I notice the change when I finally unfollow pages or get out of facebook groups that I was once a part of. Is SJW culture claiming and corrupting the things that I enjoyed, or is it just me getting tired of the mainstream narrative?
I’ve grown to despise (most of) the permaculture people, enviromentalists, artist peers, and I can’t see myself dating a girl around my age anytime soon. I don’t feel comfortable around them, and I’m sure I wouldn’t be welcome among them anyway once I open my mouth. It’s all a big echo chamber, and underneath the sensible, friendly facade, lies tirany and the desire to silence everyone else. The political agenda doesn’t have to be subtle anymore, it has now (or was I just late to realize?) asserted itself as the norm and the foremost value.
Once I wanted to become an illustrator. The desire to get away from everyone started to manifest itself in “homesteading fantasies” and now I’ve given up the art career to become an agronomist and na engineer. From artist to engineer, that’s kind of symbolic.

[Anonymous No.15657009]

I walked straight past my crush from seven years ago and didn't scared of anything
not too bad of a day

[Anonymous No.15657166]

It's always on the weekends when I have my existential moments, not crisis's, just moments. A few minutes where I think about my life and what I'm doing, somethings I'm not doing and maybe should be, somethings I'm doing and maybe should not be. Hard to tell if they are moments of clarity, or insanity. I'll choose to embrace them for now.

[Anonymous No.15657243]

Just finished King Lear, what a book, the first time I've cried in years, and for such a small book. I already want to reread it so I can better appreciate the prose, the Gentleman's description of Cordelia's beauty is some of the best writing I've read this year. Moving on to Paradise lost now in a gorgeous hard-back leather edition printed in the 1880s.

[Anonymous No.15657256]

I’m not a successful person, and haven’t been in 23 years of living so far. I haven’t succeeded in school, in sports, in work, in social and sexual relationships, in money or in my aspirations. There are probably many reasons why, from nature to nurture and everything in between, though none of them have been from want of trying. The only things that give me hope are that I can admit this to myself, and that tomorrow, I will try again.

[Anonymous No.15657274]

There is hardly a single thread on /lit/ about literature. It has been bad for a while, but never really THIS bad.

Why are the jannies so shitty at what they do?
Nearly everything is off topic, religion/politics, bait, or some mix of everything.

Bizarre times we live in.

[Anonymous No.15657292]

>>15657274
Kek

[Anonymous No.15657851]

I'm getting really tired of the multitude.

[Anonymous No.15657878]

>>15657851
So what comes after that?

[Anonymous No.15658176]

I don't know when, but I will certainly end killing myself. I'll probably write a couple more books, send them to some publishers and die. This way, maybe, I'll get some recognition - everyone loves a suicidal artist!

[Anonymous No.15658237]

>>15658176
At least wait until you're somewhat recognized before killing yourself. That way you become a "tortured soul", rather than "fucking loser failure of an author who accomplished nothing and yeeted himself out of the corporeal realm".

[Anonymous No.15658514]

I grew up in a house with a very rationalist bent.
I remember one of my main worries as a kid was that we already reached the end of history and that there was nothing for me to do if I grew up to be an adult. When I saw stories on TV about corrupt politicians I immediately dismissed them, because I couldn't imagine a person in a position of power lying without being condemned and taken out of office.
More importantly, I always heard these people talking about the CIA and thought they were insane conspiracy theorists. When I heard rightwingers and leftists talking about CIA "psyops" I thought they were just raving ideologues that completely lost the thread. Especially when people like Alex Jones and others spoke about CIA smuggling cocaine and other shit - God, I thought they were legitimately losing their minds.
>mfw it turns out the media is all fake, that the CIA toppled entire nations, and conducted psyops on everybody including Americans, that the only voices of dissent allowed either on the right or left are useful idiots that aren't a threat to American imperialism
Here's this nice ass to go along with the unpleasantness of this post.
I want to wake up from this timeline.

[Anonymous No.15658586]

I'm sorry but I don't think you really understand how absolutely annoying and unfunny you really are. If someone is making a thread on a philosopher or art film they want to discuss that thing not your crappy abortion of a stand up humor attempt. That SNL guy was absolutely right. Why even reply if you have nothing of substance to add to the discussion?

[Anonymous No.15658877]

>>15656830
Just stop browsing /pol/

[Anonymous No.15658909]

Been thinking about my dearly departed friend again, probably too much. I am wary of getting sucked back into that mess of emotions again, but they meant so much to me that it is difficult not to reminisce sometimes. I wish life had worked out differently for him.

[Anonymous No.15659036]

>>15655968
I have no problem with porn. I guess the problem for me being sexual with actual, real people because i feel this desire is not a part of me.
>>15656012
I'd run away all together from the situation.

[Anonymous No.15659062]

>>15655883
What do you like best about girls?

[Anonymous No.15659173]

>>15659062
thats a tough question, i guess the fact that they're the opposite gender interests me, the way they dress and having different body. however overly sexual things like flirting doesnt make feel comfortable.

[Anonymous No.15659337]

>>15657274
Corona Tourists. Just take a break from the board till posting rate returns to normal, like i have. You can check at 4stats(dot)io.

[Anonymous No.15660084]

bump

[Anonymous No.15660215]

>>15659062
for me, its the boobies

[Anonymous No.15660618]

>>15654031
hey! me to, chickens soon :)

[Anonymous No.15660642]

Everything in my mind is suffused with you, and it will be this way until I die. I chose you when I was young. I wanted to choose. I still want to have chosen. And I still crave freedom, the freedom to do right, to be godly, to have honor. But I am incapable of justifying that freedom. I have failed at every turn. People like me should not be free to choose who they love, should not be allowed to love twice. We become hardened and sick in the aftermath of the first love, rags dipped in tung oil and left outside to dry. You'll never remember me again, but I will remember you forever.

"Forever" is not hyperbolic. I think we must have met before we were.

[Anonymous No.15660686]

The five senses make their reports, and the faculties of reason process them in turn, allowing the self to make decisions regarding the world around it, and they see only back and forth, flatly, but when the gift is truly given the self perceives as if seeing through clear water to the bottom, but there is no bottom, and rather than become darker with the depths one sees only a clearer and clearer light, a depth beyond depth.

[Anonymous No.15660844]

>>15643682
Decent.
Coffee is on my mind. Have a nice day, anons

[Anonymous No.15660891]

>>15660686
>The five senses
which five?

[Anonymous No.15661357]

Going to take back the reins of my life, anons.

[Anonymous No.15661581]

>>15642890
It's so absurd. "Women's rights" built on the blood and bones of non-whites. What a joke.

[Anonymous No.15661603]

I’m trying but I don’t know how to, I’ve got nowhere to go

[Anonymous No.15661615]

>>15642462
I have an idea and I think it's a good idea. It's about a homeless man and his conflict with the Church. I just don't know how to keep going. I don't know where to draw ideas from now that I've become stuck on chapter four.

[Anonymous No.15661641]

>>15661615
Maybe there’s something else happening to him in the background at the same time, that could serve as a buffer

[Anonymous No.15662430]

I'm starting to think that having romantic relationships and a family just aren't in my future. I struggle with intense body dysmorphia and dysphoria, I'm more self conscious about myself at 24 than I was as a teen. I don't think I'll ever feel comfortable in my body.

And that's okay. I'm trying to sublimate my energy in aesthetics. Photography, calligraphy, listening to the birds and the carriole near my house, the scent of plants. And of course, my trusty Pessoa.

All of my life is a cope and I'm becoming okay with that. I'm not suicidal like I used to be, thunderstorms and lilac bushes keep me from that now.

I'm not a person, not like the ones you see on the street, who you can tell have never really struggled or come to terms with their finitude, you can see it on their faces. They walk through life in a pleasant somnambulance. Never really conscious of anything except the next meal or fucking.

Not really sure why I'm writing this out, it feels so juvenile

[Anonymous No.15662431]

>>15661603
Going for going sake?

[Anonymous No.15662556]

>>15662430
>I'm not a person, not like the ones you see on the street, who you can tell have never really struggled or come to terms with their finitude, you can see it on their faces. They walk through life in a pleasant somnambulance. Never really conscious of anything except the next meal or fucking.
cringe

[Anonymous No.15662613]

>>15662556
I don't disagree

[Anonymous No.15662878]

>>15662613
blackpill 'in this moment I am euphoric' tier post

[Anonymous No.15663151]

>>15642748
i don't think abortion is worse than birth control, when done early enough. ending the potential of a life with no brain or heart is as evil as taking a plan b oral contraceptive. i don't understand how any right thinking person could have a problem with it.

[Anonymous No.15663224]

"They hate us 'cause they anus; they anus 'cause they hate us"

[Anonymous No.15663290]

>>15662431
That’s a hope, and easy to forget apparently, I should just go for a run or walk if nothing else and not worry about all the other things I’m neglecting

[Anonymous No.15663305]

>>15642526
This and /sffg/ are the only threads I browse on this shithole anymore, don't ruin them with politics too
thank you

[Anonymous No.15663362]

>>15663151
You're not ending a potential life with early abortion, you are killing an actual life. A human being doesn't begin to exist when the brain or heart develops but when the zygote is formed from the ovum and sperm. It's a biologically distinct human organism in the state of development and it's the recognition of this fact which leads people to have a problem killing them.

The brain and heart could theoretically stop functioning on a temporary basis, but this wouldn't mean we would stop being a human in those moments. There is something more than just the brain or heart that makes us living beings, and it's called "organic unity" which is when our organs operate together to keep us alive. We don't die when our brains cease to function but when the totality of our organs cease working together. So if we stopping existing as a person when we lose organic unity, it makes sense to say we begin to exist when we achieve organic unity.

When does this organic unity occur? At fertilization a person begins to exist, because at that time the unborn child's parts work together to keep the child growing and living. When the child becomes so complex that he needs a brain to survive, he will simply grow one, because he is a person who can continue developing new organs and new abilities over time. A brain-dead person cannot do this, and that is why the brain-dead are no longer persons, while the unborn, even without a brain, are persons who are merely immature.

[Anonymous No.15663431]

>>15663362
there is no moral problem with killing human beings without brains. they're parasitic, depending on either machines or a womb to keep them alive, but they have no personhood, no personality, no memories. you cause no suffering by killing them. why would you have problem with it?? a fetus is only "human" in your strange, arbitrary definition of personhood. it has the potential to develop into a person but it isn't one

[Anonymous No.15663588]

>>15642462
>still not worthy of dating/marrying the qt daughter of the owner of the local Greek Orthodox Cafe.
Might be time to an hero

[Anonymous No.15663604]

>>15663431
A parasite is a species which lives off another species so it's just not accurate to call a human embryo a parasite. You can say there's no moral problem with killing the unborn all you want but this isn't an argument, merely a declaration. If it's wrong to kill innocent human beings, then there's no reason it shouldn't be wrong to kill all human beings regardless of their level of development. Again if we're going to scientifically accurate, we're not dealing with a potential human being but an actual human in the earliest stages of development.

>"The development of a human begins with fertilization, a process by which the spermatozoon from the male and the oocyte from the female unite to give rise to a new organism, the zygote." [Sadler, T.W. Langman's Medical Embryology. 7th edition. Baltimore: Williams & Wilkins 1995, p. 3]

>"Zygote. This cell, formed by the union of an ovum and a sperm (Gr. zyg tos, yoked together), represents the beginning of a human being. The common expression 'fertilized ovum' refers to the zygote." [Moore, Keith L. and Persaud, T.V.N. Before We Are Born: Essentials of Embryology and Birth Defects. 4th edition. Philadelphia: W.B. Saunders Company, 1993, p. 1]

>"Although life is a continuous process, fertilization is a critical landmark because, under ordinary circumstances, a new, genetically distinct human organism is thereby formed.... The combination of 23 chromosomes present in each pronucleus results in 46 chromosomes in the zygote. Thus the diploid number is restored and the embryonic genome is formed. The embryo now exists as a genetic unity." [O'Rahilly, Ronan and M?ller, Fabiola. Human Embryology & Teratology. 2nd edition. New York: Wiley-Liss, 1996, pp. 8, 29. This textbook lists "pre-embryo" among "discarded and replaced terms" in modern embryology, describing it as "ill-defined and inaccurate" (p. 12}]

If you're going to introduce some new concept of personhood which is distinct from its biological reality then you need to justify it and not just assume it. As it stands, I see no reason to recognize a difference between person and human. Grown adults can lack personality and memories for various reasons but this doesn't give us the right to kill them, neither does a reliance on machines.

[Anonymous No.15663626]

>>15655279
i'm not sure what to say about my situation or upbringing.. getting into med school had been a dream of mine for a couple of years, basically since i was a child and now it's been realized

my upbringing was also fine, i guess i was sort of detached emotionally from my parents but other than that my upbringing was okay, no major events, although i have been feeling "depressed" for as long as i can remember, also very isolated

did you manage to get out of that loop? how?

>>15655602
that's an interesting point, i've always felt like this is what i wanted to do and believed in, hence why i studied so hard for it.

[Anonymous No.15663628]

>>15663431
>mocks an anon for having an arbitrary definition of personhood
>uses a definition of parasitism that would never be acceptable in a biological context

[Anonymous No.15664008]

Constantly treading the line between normal human interactions and trying to convince people that the news is all fake and dictated by the state department.

[Anonymous No.15664019]

>>15664008
Which of the people you talk to would be the most receptive to your redpilling?

[Anonymous No.15664183]

>>15662878
Imagine not expressing how you really feel because you might get compared to Le Wojak Doomer meme
Fuck off

[Anonymous No.15664360]

I will admit I have said some genuinely godawful and atrocious shit none of you deserve. I do genuinely dislike you and don't appreciate your "humor" or company and I can't imagine Cait or anyone else here really would either BUT that isn't an excuse to act like a violent shithead to you. I hope you live a great life with your actual friends.

I should also concede that I shouldn't post stupid, mean things in fiction threads if I want you to not post in my threads.

[Anonymous No.15664434]

>>15663604
so you're saying pulling the plug on brain dead person on life support has the exact same moral consequences as killing a man in the street? because that's fucking retarded. sure a fetus is human in the way a brain dead person is human, but they lack the most important part of being human, which is conciousness. what part of being an early stage human makes it evil to kill them? there is no inherent pain or suffering caused by the action of killing it.

[Anonymous No.15664479]

Also you should really get in touch with your step son. He is your actual step son and should be who you are speaking to. I am not. To your family my only connection is literally just "some guy." We aren't related or step-anything. Your step-son should be your priority.

[Anonymous No.15664498]

>>15664434
The reason it's wrong to kill humans in the earliest stages of development is because consistency demands it. If it's not wrong to kill humans in the earliest stages of life, there's no good logically consistent reason to suppose it's wrong to kill them in any other stage.

If consciousness is what makes us human and gives us value then it should be lawful to kill a sleeping person or anyone in a coma. I promise you if you walk into a hospital and unplug a random persons life support, causing them to die, you will be charged with murder. You can consider it a less heinous crime than killing somebody on the street and a judge might even agree since there's less pain and suffering involved and lighten your sentence but it remains a crime. In both cases you are killing an innocent human being.

[Anonymous No.15664532]

Hi, I'm Anon, and I really want to stop using pornography. That is all.

[Anonymous No.15664650]

>>15664183
>Imagine not expressing how you really feel because you might get compared to Le Wojak Doomer meme
>Fuck off
cringe

[Anonymous No.15664812]

>>15642462
I want to write but don't know where to start, because all I have on my mind is a setting and platitudes that do not match that setting, making me another writer inserting modern ideals into ancient times, but in the opposite sense from the usual, aka libertarian right and all the grit and self reliance that comes with it

[Anonymous No.15664833]

does anyone know how coronameron was compiled? I wonder if the LaTeX source code is available.
Thanks

[Anonymous No.15664915]

Please make me cry, tell me how bad things are for myself

[Anonymous No.15664966]

>>15664498
but the family of that person can often choose to unplug their life support. you can be morally consistent and say killing humans without physical brains is fine, and that the family should decide the difference between killing a human without a brain vs a fully formed one is massive.

mom aborts fetus
>fetus is incapable of cognition
>doesn't feel pain
>is killed
>feels/comprehends nothing

person without brain/severe irreversible brain damage has the plug pulled
>same as fetus

person with brain is killed
>has hopes and dreams
>wants to live
>is capable of thought
>experiences the pain of death

the brain is all we are, that's why you can legally pull the plug on a braindead relative.

[Anonymous No.15664969]

>>15642462
>Write What's On Your Mind
>/lit/
>thread is full of retards not discussing literature in the slightest, instead opting for politics
/pol/ exists for a reason. If you want to discuss politics you can go there. You aren't limited to one board.

[Anonymous No.15664975]

>>15657256
I made it through school, and have a gf. However I would not consider myself successful career-wise. I have zero ambition to find something a bit more satisfying, much less start my own thing.

[Anonymous No.15665028]

>>15646628
Some great themes used for creating true horror are disgust and helplessness. George Bataille's The Sacrifice of the Gibbon is great with these themes. Will post text in thread if interested. Dehumanization of the assailant(s) usually helps reinforce a feeling of helplessness. To call out for help to what seems to you a person, only to be responded to with utter indifference.

[Anonymous No.15665077]

>>15664966
>fetus is incapable of cognition
>doesn't feel pain
>is killed
>feels/comprehends nothing
Everything you do to comfort a newborn is simulacra of his time within the womb. From wrapping to "shhhh" to rocking.

[Anonymous No.15665085]

>>15664966
I don't accept eugenics as morally permissible but even if I did there is a crucial difference between it and abortion, which is that eugenics is killing an unhealthy human being who is already in the process of dying, but abortion is the killing of a healthy human who is just beginning their life. I'm speaking generally of course, there are exceptions but as the saying goes, hard cases make bad law.

Suppose I killed an innocent adult human being who is in a lot of pain, doesn't really have consciousness, and probably doesn't have any future prospects. In this case I would be guilty of murder but I probably wouldn't have a lot of culpability, meaning I'm not very deserving of punishment. Things like consciousness, pain, experiences, and so on can help us determine the level of culpability a person might have for killing somebody else, but they don't tell us whether or not the killing itself was right or wrong. There may not be a lot of culpability in killing a person who is brain dead or unborn, but the crime of killing an innocent person is still there.

[Anonymous No.15665289]

>>15665085
so families pulling the plug on life support for their braindead relatives is a crime? it's not legally considered a crime and i struggle to see how it could be morally considered a crime.
>killing of a healthy human
killing of a brainless senseless human who has no cognition, who probably will turn into a concious human eventually*

killing a human is not an inherently morally bad action, and there are a whole host of scenarios in which killing would be a morally good thing to do.

>>15665077
stupid fucking argument, you can clearly mark the point in time where a fetus develops a brain and sensory organs. i think aborting something with brain and senses is wrong.

[Anonymous No.15665301]

>>15665289
except in certain cases, such as the baby was born with fatal birth defects or will kill the mother in childbirth

[Anonymous No.15665308]

>>15665085
a "baby" inside a woman is hardly anything alive. the "baby" does not experience any existence.

[Anonymous No.15665338]

>>15665289
>i think aborting something with brain and senses is wrong.
Most who support abortion don't care. When you support abortion you help prop these people up. I used to support abortion till I found out most (in the 99th percentile) abortions were elective, without reason. Just have the fucking baby. If you wanted to fuck without creating life you should have used protection. End of story.

[Anonymous No.15665388]

>>15665308
I don't know what this hardly stuff is about, the baby from the moment of conception is in fact, alive.

>>15665289
When I say crime I'm talking about something that is morally wrong, so whether a country recognizes it in their laws is irrelevant. Somebody who pulls the plug on a braindead relative is killing an innocent person, and is thus committing a crime. Whether there should be any culpability in this is another question.

I would agree with you that there are plenty of morally acceptable reasons to kill people, like in self defense for example but that's not what we're talking about here. It's the killing of innocent human beings which is wrong and the prohibition of which no functional society can neglect. Meaning we can't have civilization unless we prohibit the killing of innocent people. I would prohibit this in the most consistent and logical way possible by barring it in all stages of life and development because as we've seen, trying to base the acceptable the limit of killing on things like consciousness or memories does nothing but introduce serious complications and often makes it licit to kill fully functioning adult human beings.

[Anonymous No.15665397]

>>15665338
ohohohoho now we see the truth behind the argument
>used to support abortion before you found out most were elective
so what changed? did you think abortion was morally okay before find out it was a consequence of women being "whores"? most women who abort already have children, contraceptives can and do fail.
would you really rather see a woman go thorough the trauma of childbirth to give another child a life of poverty than to abort? considering you found it okay before that's just retarded

[Anonymous No.15665429]

>>15665388
where exactly is this moment of conception you talk about? 2 cells? 3 cells? when it looks like a lizard? like a human?

[Anonymous No.15665452]

>>15665429
When the sperm and egg cell meet, they form a new organism called a zygote. This is a genetically distinct human being which is in the state of development.

[Anonymous No.15665454]

>>15665388
so you want to disband the military and oil industries of your country, abolish the death penalty, abolish the punishment model of drug rehabilitation and prohibit driving too correct? all of those kill innocent people. it's quite evil to carry on this way if we apply your standards of morality to the society you live in.

[Anonymous No.15665462]

>>15665452
and you seriously claim that this single cell organism is alive? and worth the suffering of the adult who have to procure it for 9 months and an additional 15 years at least?

[Anonymous No.15665473]

>>15665397
>ohohohoho now we see the truth behind the argument
You posture like this is some sort of massive revelation, like this affects anything. Unbearable exultation in your response. Absolutely miserable rodent-like reaction.

I was originally led to believe (by pro abortion activists that most abortions were for nonviable pregnancies and/or were performed within the start of the first trimester. I didn't virulently support it, but I didn't think it should be taken away.
>would you really rather see a woman go thorough the trauma of childbirth to give another child a life of poverty than to abort?

Yes. This is a pathetic materialist argument.

[Anonymous No.15665484]

>>15665462

[Anonymous No.15665509]

>>15665454
Be serious. Killing somebody while driving a car is wrong, especially when it's done intentionally. We probably should prohibit driving to people who kill others, at least in some circumstances. The military, oil industries, death penalty, and drug rehabilitation all have legitimate, licit purposes like self defense on a national level, providing us with energy, punishing the guilty, and helping people get off drugs. That because some people incidentally die while utilizing these things doesn't make them bad and I don't think you would seriously argue the contrary.

You're coming off as very angry and irrational now and it's a shame because I thought we were having a nice conversation.

>>15665462
Well it's not a puppet. It's animated, it's moving, it's growing. It's as alive as it ever will be.

[Anonymous No.15665538]

>>15665509
>You're coming off as very angry and irrational now and it's a shame because I thought we were having a nice conversation.
People like him are incapable of having polite conversation and will resort to insults and conjecture when backed into a corner like so. They will also resort to begging the question, in an effort to control the conversation. Like >>15665397 and >>15665462.

[Anonymous No.15665559]

>>15665473
why? that's just cruel and unnecessary.
most are within the first trimester.
if abortion is okay within the first trimester you should still support it. being mad that women are getting laid without consequence is not a good or consistent moral stance to take retard.

[Anonymous No.15665583]

I seem to have a lot of free time recently, so to fight back boredom I joined this little hippie "Akademia". The other day, they had us put a cardboard box over our head and describe how we felt. Somehow I felt nostalgic.
10/10 went in looking to get some LSD connect and got in touch with my soul

[Anonymous No.15665587]

>>15665509
it is very clear that any activity will yield some risk, and that will result in some amount of death. This should be obvious to everyone.

The next question is to ask how much of a risk are we willing to take. Is it worth it to sacrifice the speed limit so that people can get to their destination faster at the cost of some lives? Every time anyone is stepping on the car they are participating in a death lottery.

Making abortion illegal at all cost is one such peculiar case. Every child born is a risk, given the state of their parent, their society, the economy, their health etc etc

If a parent comes to you and said they do not want this child, that they hate it, why would you allow this woman to have it? Is it better to let a child be born to a woman who hates it or just take the child's live early.

both are clearly risks. Its possible that the child is the next Ramanujan, the next Buddha, someone who will live an extraordinarily fulfilling life.

but that is extremely unlikely, even more unlikely as me hitting a child with my car.

[Anonymous No.15665620]

Is it bad to tell your kids that santa claus exists? I don't have kids but I was thinking about this.

> positives
Its a tradition
It has some sort of magical aspect to it in a world so devoid of the fantastical
> negatives
you are essentially tricking your children
the children are going to doubt other things that the parents tell them once they find out.

[Anonymous No.15665621]

>>15665509
>now you seem angry
yea at the other anon i'm actually enjoying having a reasonable discussion with you. i'm not going to change your mind but i do like the opportunity to refine my views and have them tested

i'm serious though driving is unnecessary and kills roughly 36,560 people a year in the us. limiting the roads to transport trucks only would save those lives, people can and do live without cars. you have to admit that your proposed morality system is a bit too black and white to be applied in the real world
and most swedens model of drug rehabilitation reduces overdose deaths and crime, surely you would support implementing it in your own country?
the death penalty is just unnecessary, it's never been proven to reduce crime, and it kills humans all the same

[Anonymous No.15665662]

>>15665559
You've completely misconstrued the argument. These are VIABLE pregnancies. They will be born without issue. It is not "cruel" and "unnecessary" to bring a life into the world just because they won't be able to consume products. Being poor isn't bad. Suffering is a part of life. I was poor. I suffered and will continue to till I die, just like everyone else. I'm doing fine. If you honestly want a life without suffering you should consider killing yourself. I am not "mad" that women are getting laid without consequence. The point is they care so little about human life that they think it holds the same value as a cheap fuck. The men who've fucked them are as responsible for them getting pregnant as they are. This is a typical "muh misogyny you hate womyn" tier argument and it's embarrassing you actually believe someone would be against abortion simply because they hate women having sex.

If abortion were the ethical choice, abortion activists wouldn't have to obfuscate the point and adapt obscurantist language in order to have the uninformed support them. They would simply state : "I support the killing of the unborn". I do not support the killing of the unborn, and only condoned it when I was ignorant to the issue at hand.

[Anonymous No.15665664]

>>15642462
I just finished watching the Netflix version of The Haunting of Hill House. Now I'm gonna watch porn and jerk off for an hour before I go to sleep to get my mind off it. I know it makes me kind of a pussy bring spooked by ghost stories, but I don't really care, I live in a big old house in the middle of nowhere surrounded by dark woods. It's spooky her, and I do not care if you guys say I'm gay.

[Anonymous No.15665700]

>>15665664
>I do not care if you guys say I'm gay.
We'll see about that you fucking gay faggot homo. Have fun sleeping with your gay husband. Fucking gay person.

[Anonymous No.15665723]

Read Bronze age mindset. Absolute trash. I wasnt expecting much and was still surprised how shit it was.

[Anonymous No.15665726]

>>15665700
We're not married.

[Anonymous No.15665743]

>>15665726
Legitimately though do you like the new Bob Dylan record

[Anonymous No.15665753]

>>15665662
okay, i support the killing of the unborn who are unable to comprehend, think, or experience because it's not morally wrong to end a life that is incapable of thinking, comprehending, or experiencing while it is in first 13 weeks of life in the womb. ending the potential of a life is acceptable, people do that every single time they use contraception.
if you think people should stop having sex, good luck changing fundamental human nature.
it is crueler to subject a woman to childbirth than to end the unfeeling unthinking life of a fetus and therefore end the potential of a human life.

if you think the creation of human life is intrinsically more important than the alleviation of suffering you gotta find a wife and never stop having kids with her, every nut left in your sack is a potential human that you shouldn't deprive of life

[Anonymous No.15665754]

>>15665743
He probably likes it as much as he likes penis.

[Anonymous No.15665756]

>>15665743
Haven't heard it. Don't really like Dylan. Love The Band.

[Anonymous No.15665757]

>>15665754
Does that answer contain even more multitudes?

[Anonymous No.15665777]

>>15665756
Only heard the s/t so far, they are pretty great though

[Anonymous No.15665781]

I don't find anything exciting anymore

[Anonymous No.15665786]

>>15665753
>if you think people should stop having sex
I do not think people should stop having sex. I think people should stop killing the unborn.
>it is crueler to subject a woman to childbirth
Childbirth is a natural function. It is not cruel.
>if you think the creation of human life is intrinsically more important than the alleviation of suffering you gotta find a wife and never stop having kids with her, every nut left in your sack is a potential human that you shouldn't deprive of life
This should be the standard. People should be having as many children as they can. This used to be the norm. My great great great grandfather had 16 siblings, who all died as children, and had 9 children, 6 of which died as children.

[Anonymous No.15665793]

>>15665757
Yeah I don't know man I was just trying to make him care about being called gay.

[Anonymous No.15665892]

This will be the year I get a gf. All the factors, internal and external, have reached the point for it to possible. I’d like to start trying now but I’m still spooked because of the pandemic.

[Anonymous No.15665897]

—Ho hum, my good sir, ho hum. 'Tis a day like no other, my good man, since today is my wife's boyfriend's thirtieth birthday.
Swiftly, stout and corpse-fleshed Colonel Uckheart was coming down the alleyway, tipping steeply the end of his newly-purchased fedora acquired from the local antique hat boutique.
—'Tis a day like no other, he repeated, adding slyly, methinks Tyrone shall receiveth a wonderful Nintendo Switch.
—A Ninten-do Switch? Ozymandias Black the Third asked in bewilderment and dismay.
He was his best friend, despite being a Chinaman. There was an eager look in his eyes, as though he wanted to get at the bottom of this before their quick stroll around Detroit. It was a very familiar and homely city, one in which they searched every alcove as children. They were waltzing down a main street, which housed many local Bohemian start-ups and petty bourgeois boutiques.
—But cuck supposed to leceive the Ninten-do Switch, isn't it?
—My good man, you still have yet to comprehend the full relationship of the cuck and the cuckolder, as much as you need to grasp the language of the people whom you live among, and whose land you owe all your newfound prosperity.
Colonel Uckheart swivelled on his heels and turned down a little alleyway full of artisan coffee shops, micro breweries and tucked-away bars.
—Come, come, my good man, he said cheerily to his yellow friend. We shall get at the finer details over a pricey spiced rum.
—Yes, I rike lum.
They sat at a damp wooden table full of used glasses that had salt and lemons on the rims. Uckheart gagged at the thought of cocktails in this weather, instead preferring a fiery beverage to heighten his mood before the grand sexual orgy tonight, of which he was not allowed to take part in, which, to him, was the most exciting part.
—The Switch is for him to tease me with while he fucks my wife's arse full of big fat whopsies and huge bellows, long windy ones, and quick merry cracks. He will then play it before my eyes and make a red-faced bawling child of me.

[Anonymous No.15665898]

>>15665786
human childbirth is a very poorly designed natural function, we're too goddamn wide for the vaginal canal frequently and tear shit apart on the way out.
are you religious? why would you want people to have as many kids as they can? people stopped having so many kids because less of them die in childbirth now.
my grandma had 9 kids and i think it's a terrible thing to do. they lived in poverty and my mom never even got told i love you once. one set of parents do not have the ability to adequately raise insane amounts of kids. that's why outside of religious nutjobs and other flavors of crazy people you don't see families with 6+ kids.

[Anonymous No.15665900]

>>15665777
"Music from Big Pink", "The Band" (the brown album), "Stage Fright", and "Norhtern Lights - Southern Cross", should be obligatory listening for, well, everyone.

[Anonymous No.15665931]

>>15665898
>are you religious? why would you want people to have as many kids as they can? people stopped having so many kids because less of them die in childbirth now.
I am not religious. People should have as many kids as they can because it's their biological function. You don't see families of 6+ kids because people bought into this meme that they needed to move out at 18 and that large families had to belong to some strange religious sect. Having large families is actually very healthy and results in better social cohesion.

[Anonymous No.15665949]

>>15665931
alright but biological function dosen't determine morality. if i went around raping people to have as many kids as possible it would be fulfilling my biological function while being morally reprehensible

[Anonymous No.15665980]

>>15665949
This is a really sad attempt at some sort of "gotcha" and I actually thought we were starting to have some sort of honest conversation. This whole time you've just been trying to poke holes in anything you could without really addressing what I've been saying. It is blatantly obvious that I was not making reference to rape.

[Anonymous No.15666025]

>>15665980
but you are claiming that people should fulfill their biological function and have been appealing to nature throughout our argument.
is it because it is a perversion of the natural order? because you said that you were "led to believe" most abortions were in the first trimester, but that was a lie told by abortion activists. i addressed that with a study that proves most abortions are in the first trimester. you may not like it but i am addressing what you're saying and poking holes in your faulty logic.
why EXACTLY do you think people should stop killing the unborn?

[Anonymous No.15666046]

>>15665980
but you are claiming that people should fulfill their biological function and have been appealing to nature throughout our argument.
you said that you were "led to believe" most abortions were in the first trimester, but that was a lie told by abortion activists. i addressed that with a study that proves most abortions are in the first trimester. you may not like it but i am addressing what you're saying and poking holes in your faulty logic.
why EXACTLY do you think people should stop killing the unborn?
is it because it's a perversion of the natural order?

[Anonymous No.15666082]

In the morning times feels so infinite

At night time feels nothing but a short illusion

[Anonymous No.15666105]

>>15666025
>but you are claiming that people should fulfill their biological function and have been appealing to nature throughout our argument.
I stated that having large families is healthy and results in better social cohesion. The biological function results in larger families.
>is it because it is a perversion of the natural order?
It is absolutely a perversion of the natural order.
> because you said that you were "led to believe" most abortions were in the first trimester, but that was a lie told by abortion activists.
The purpose of that statement was to show that abortion activists were disingenuous. The resulting research into the subject is what made me stop condoning abortion.
>why EXACTLY do you think people should stop killing the unborn?
Because they'd be killing the unborn. Not killing the unborn is the norm. If anyone has to justify their position here it's you.

[Anonymous No.15666138]

>>15666046
You deleted your comment. This >>15666105 was meant for you. I would also like to add that asking me why I think people shouldn't kill the unborn is equivalent to asking me why I think people shouldn't commit suicide.

[Anonymous No.15666160]

>>15666105
okay, killing an unborn with no conciousness or capability to feel pain therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong
having sex with contraception therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong
abstaining from sex when you have to option to impregnate someone therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong

having large families is worse for the children in them and therefore society suffers for having many kids with worse qualities

the alliteration of suffering is more morally right than having as many kids as possible
why shouldn't people commit suicide? there are many scenarios where you yourself would commit suicide, and having such a black and white view of morality is foolish and not applicable to reality.

[Anonymous No.15666201]

>>15666160
alleviation*

[Anonymous No.15666247]

my brother killed himself one year ago

[Anonymous No.15666276]

>>15666247
god bless you and him both, anon

[Anonymous No.15666282]

>>15666276
thanks.

[Anonymous No.15666290]

The more I read about Hitler the closer he seems to resemble myself and I don't know if I can cope with that

[Anonymous No.15666297]

Been snorting ambien throughout the day and working on pixel art. Listening to Ceephax Acid Crew-- no writing or reading today. Been a fun one though

[Anonymous No.15666305]

>>15666160
>okay, killing an unborn with no conciousness or capability to feel pain therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong
This statement is incorrect. Even if it had no consciousness or was unable to feel pain it would be incorrect.
>having sex with contraception therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong
Never said this was morally wrong.
>abstaining from sex when you have to option to impregnate someone therefore ending the potential of human life is not morally wrong
Never said this was morally wrong.
>having large families is worse for the children in them and therefore society suffers for having many kids with worse qualities
This is incorrect, and some screenshot from who-knows-where doesn't prove otherwise.

I have to go on a tangent about this because this is a pervasive behavior within your type. Posting a source from some academic, or journalist, or otherwise, proves nothing, and brings nothing of substance to conversation. Statistical studies especially, are ineffective at best, and falsified at worst. Many of them irreplaceable. Pop science is tripe and only serves to entertain.

>the alliteration of suffering is more morally right than having as many kids as possible
Suffering is a meaningful part of existence.
>why shouldn't people commit suicide?
You've entirely missed the point. I've only said the question is equivalent to asking me why I think people SHOULDN'T kill the unborn. It is the responsibility of the claimant to present an argument, not the other way around.
>and having such a black and white view of morality is foolish and not applicable to reality.
I'm sorry I actually believe in something and am not some sad apathetic wreck that feels the need to whittle down moral standards till they are virtually non-existent.

It's obvious you're not being honest in your argumentation and this is some sort of dopamine fix to you so I'm not going to reply to you any longer.

[Anonymous No.15666397]

>>15666305
you're going off fucking nothing while i'm going off peer reviewed studies you mong, in no way can you claim to be more credible
stop swallowing pol propaganda vomit and people in real life might respect you LMFAO

[Anonymous No.15666464]

the girl that i was obsessed with in highschool would have sex with me because she was afraid that i wouldn't be her friend

[Anonymous No.15666476]

>>15666464
I think that it's hilarious, rage-inducing and emasculating all at the same time. I'm not over it

[Anonymous No.15666621]

I love remembering I’m miserable after I’ve forgotten about it

[Anonymous No.15666988]

>>15666305
Different anon here, it’s an interesting conversation you’re having, and I’d like to jump in. As someone who generally has a pro-choice stance, I couldn’t really give a fuck if it was pro-life eitherway, but my holdings on being completely pro-life are when we have something like being forced to carry the baby of a rapist, abuser, molester, etc. I see the argument that every child deserves a chance at life and shouldn’t be punished for the sins of the father, but this decision also impacts the mother in an extreme way. Why is she getting punished for this? Either way it seems to be a very mixed situation. I would be completely pro life if our orphanage system was better in America, I’ve heard it’s pretty shitty.

[Anonymous No.15667013]

>>15666988
Kill em all imo. I'm pro-death.

[Anonymous No.15667033]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH OH MY GOD WHAT A SHIT DAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA HA AHAHAHA OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! I get that I’m not supposed to be happy BUT is it necessary for God to take a huge shit on my life each time something even slightly good happens to me? I know that’s actually so fucking delusional so I don’t really indulge it but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH BROS I JUST WANT TO CRY INTO MY PILLOW! WHY CAN’T JUST ONE GODDAMN THING GO RIGHT FOR FUCKING ONCE AAAAAAAAAHHHH

[Anonymous No.15667118]

I'm reading a memoir written by someone who has schizophrenia and she talks about what her life was/is like with the disorder. It sounds worse than living in a war zone. Yeah, you have to dodge bullets and watch your back, but even in a place like Yemen there are moments of peace where you can just relax, spots you can go to and things you can do to get away from the gunfire for a little bit.

But with schizophrenia, there are no hideouts and no ceasefires. The voices haunt you all day and you cannot chose to get away from them. You grow to hate yourself something fierce and the voices in your head tell you horrible things, often making you lose control of your life to the point that your appearance changes. You end up looking like someone who crawled out of hell.

I never realized how much I take my mental faculties for granted. Being able to piece my surroundings together in order to create a coherent picture of the world around me is just part of life for me and most of us. It's like breathing air, we figure that it's one of those universal facts of life. I never considered what these people go through, and now the human mind intimidates me. Now, the mind seems like its own, sentient thing that we THINK we have control over. I mean, what if your mind decided to just go crazy on you?

[Anonymous No.15667258]

I just want to work a job that I don’t fucking dred going to the next day. It’s all just so tiresome. I don’t even have to like it, I just don’t want to be in the space where I’m at right now, just anxious and annoyed as hell that I have to go to work tomorrow.

[Anonymous No.15667414]

>>15666988
The only reason Sicilians exist today is because their ancestors kept their rape babies.

[Anonymous No.15667418]

>>15667118
What book?

[Anonymous No.15667425]

>>15667258
me too anon, me too

[Anonymous No.15667687]

>>15667118
I have bipolar disorder and would give anything to have a normal, well-functioning mind like yours. If only you knew how bad things were...

[Anonymous No.15667786]

>>15642462
I fucking swear I’ll love everybody no matter what try and stop me

[Anonymous No.15667895]

>>15642462
SSSSSSSSIEWIAGHGAAAAAAAAAAGHAGHAGHAGHAWEIUEIUEIUEIUAAAAAAAAAAAAGHANAGAGAGHAAAAAAAAASTUAUAUAGHACHACHACHACHAKHACHAKHACHAKHAJJJJJJileodileodoleodoleodotumdurumburumtumtuMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKHOLAAAAAAAAAAAAMHOLAAAAAAAAAAAABOLAAAAAGHOLAGHAGHAGHAAAAAAAAAAAAASTOMAAAAAAAAASTOMATAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPAAAAAAAAPOTODOROMOLOKOLOMOPOTOROTOROROTOROROTORORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMAGHAAAAAAAAAAAABAGHAAAAAAAAAAAAPAGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAALAGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARAAAARAAAAAAAARAAAAAAAAAAAAAARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALEMAGHASEPTIMAPTALUGOSOGOMONATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPAAAAAAATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHGAHFUCK

[Anonymous No.15667897]

>>15667895
based

[Anonymous No.15667914]

I really like George Winston's album December. When I listen to it I remember hearing my mother play the piano on Sunday mornings before church, and my great-grandmother's house in eastern Idaho, where an old piano sat in the living room, worn from years of use. I wish I had learned to play when I was younger.

[Anonymous No.15667928]

I am watching my grandmother die. She has been good to us and I have good memories of her. Pray for her and our family.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou among women, blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death, amen.

[Anonymous No.15667992]

>>15642462
>Birthday
>Having a sadboi day because robot
>Want to be left alone but mom insists we talk
>Finally cave in and pour out my feelings
>They instantly get denied, made fun of, she turns the conversation around to be about her
>Get mad, keep trying to leave the conversation but she won't let me
>End up shouting at her and now I feel like shit
Fml i've got to get out of this house.
I don't usually incelpost here but honestly didn't know where else to go.

[Anonymous No.15668000]

>>15667928
I feel that man, shits harder than just losing them straight up. Make sure there are no words left unsaid.
That said, can you explain to a non-catholic how the Hail Mary ain't some sacrilegious shit?

[Anonymous No.15668005]

>>15667992
Told my mom to fuck off one time over a decade ago and I still feel bad about it. Depending on what you said you might never stop feeling like shit about it.

[Anonymous No.15668022]

>>15667992
I had the same kind of shit growing up. Getting out has been better for me, but it ain't the end all be all. You have to love your family, but you don't have to like them.

[Anonymous No.15668028]

>>15668005
I know man I feel terrible. We've had arguments before but not like this. I know I need to get out but idk how long it will be. I'll apologise to her anyway but the damage is done I think. I really just wish she left me alone.

[Anonymous No.15668044]

>>15668022
Tbh, and I hate to admit it, I probably can't look after myself too well due to being an incompetent autist so getting out will probably make me miserable too.
I like her most of the time but unfortunately I forgot that I should never open up at all to her.

[Anonymous No.15668073]

>>15668044
shit wrong thread disregard post

[Anonymous No.15668074]

>>15668068
I know it's off subject, that's why I posted it in this thread. Sorry anyway as I said I don't usually post this type of shit.

[Anonymous No.15668078]

It's a good thing a human life is so short.

If it were ten times longer who could justify devoting their life to truth and the big picture when you could devote it to money, social success, yourself?
As it is though, life is short enough to be expendable. I can make a burnt offering of it at the altar. I can afford to lose it. I am rich enough for that.

[Anonymous No.15668081]

>>15668000
not him, but it's supposed to be that the person saying the prayer is asking Mary to pray to God for them, if that makes sense. same reason is used when you pray to saints.

[Anonymous No.15668086]

>>15668074
see >>15668073 sorry was replying to wrong post on wrong thread

[Anonymous No.15668093]

>>15668086
Oh okay lol. It's cool.

[Anonymous No.15668121]

I need to date another fat girl. It's been years since my last fat girlfriend and I'd really like another one. I had a ton (heh) of fun dating the last big girl I dated.

[Anonymous No.15668126]

>>15668044
I'm an incompetent sperg too mang. So I doubly know what it's like. But there's gotta be something in your life that you want to take charge of, something you want to do. That little bit of freedom goes a long way. It all starts with personal responsibility, which while you certainly take it for your actions, you probably don't take it for your inaction which is what you'll need to do if you're ever to leave that situation.

[Anonymous No.15668159]

>>15668126
Thanks man. I'm going to do it for sure now anyway. The rest of my life isn't too bad, it could be a lot worse. I'm just woefully underdeveloped in basic cooking/cleaning/paying bills etc shit. I'll have to take responsibility to learn though, you're right.
How did it go for you moving out then?

[Anonymous No.15668173]

>>15667928
If I could have one wish it would be to bring my grandma and her sister back. I utterly loathe the rest of that family but I miss them. I often remember once when I was a really little kid I accidentally tripped her. She wasn't hurt at all or anything but I still feel bad about it.

[Anonymous No.15668174]

>>15668121
any tips on dating a fat girl? I tried dating sites but every fat girl has at least 100 orbiters.

[Anonymous No.15668187]

>>15668174
go to fatbigdistendedcuntholefatbitchfuckherpussy.gov

[Anonymous No.15668192]

>>15668187
>.gov

My money to the government is subsidizing this?

[Anonymous No.15668212]

>>15668174
Dating sites are shit. You mean the ones where you have to make a profile or some shit, right? Fuck those, they're worthless. You're better off trying your luck with something like Bumble or Tinder. Or, going entirely the other direction, you could try to go out and meet them in the real world. All my girlfriends have been women I've actually met IRL as opposed to using a site.

As far as how to land a big girl, obviously they're everywhere, so just find a bar and be on the lookout. If you can strike up a conversation with her and wring a date out of her, take her to a good restaurant. Not necessarily a NICE restaurant, but one where you know the food is good. If she's fat she clearly likes to eat and likes good food. And if she sees you eating she'll be encouraged to eat too, which will get her out of her shell. Hell, even offer to get dessert at the end. She'll probably go for it if you suggest it and it will make her more comfortable with you.

Also ask her about her hobbies and the movies she likes, standard date stuff.

[Anonymous No.15668223]

>>15668159
Fucking awful. It was like a band-aid that merged with the outside layer of skin but it had to come off anyway. If you want half-decent advice, keep track of your dough for at least 3-4 months keeping in mind how much you spend on the big 3, bills, food, and stupid shit. Work around that to have an idea of what you can afford and try to start out maybe just renting a room. Might not be all that different from your current situation but people are more likely to leave you alone in that scenario and you get used to bill-paying and what not. You got it in you lad, you just gotta see it through.

[Anonymous No.15668224]

>>15668212

[Anonymous No.15668245]

I genuinely think your fanily are a bunch of fucking dorks but I just love my grandma that much. I would put up with dorks and Jame Gumbs to visit her.

[Anonymous No.15668251]

>>15668212
thanks bro

[Anonymous No.15668258]

If I could have had it my way we would have taken care for her from the start and hook nise could stay with her first husband and their fatass lard eating chode having son and the dork and his family coulld stay at the fire station or at the tranny bar and they all would be out of my hair.

[Anonymous No.15668311]

I wish i'd be able to know myself that well so i could easily choose career path. I dont really want to waste my time on doing random things so i just neet away.

[Anonymous No.15668335]

>>15668223
Thanks man. I know it's gonna be painful but i've just got to leave.

[Anonymous No.15668437]

The fact that nonwhites and especially women need their own categories while white men don't. The fact that there's basketball and women's basketball. The fact that we must highlight women in computer science versus "regular" computer science, black writers, women writers, black inventors, etc., etc. The fact that white men have dominated the world, created the basis of civilization, technology, art. It's time for nonwhites and women to rise up. By taking a shortcut and having the white men just give us power.

[Anonymous No.15668443]

>>15668437
The crazy thing is that you are totally free to be as great as you want. But you can never catch up to the tortoise. And we are just getting started.

[Anonymous No.15668448]

I found the music that's sample in the Book Club's Greta Thunberg video. It's from a Starbuck's commercial that was on the TV.

[Anonymous No.15668880]

>>15668448
link me up here, sweetie

[Anonymous No.15669543]

>>15667013
Likewise. The last thing on my mind is the abortion of some random whore's kid. We've got plenty of people as it is.
Plus, these pro-lifers never argue in good faith. They're genuinely disgusting trashbags with no actual morals or interest in helping others. They have no problem advocating for more people to be born, but they don't care about what that means for others that pay taxes - oh wait, I know, because these tend to be the same dumb fucks that think paying taxes is wrong.
When I see pro-life people working their asses off only to donate all their disposable income to "saving babies" then I'll bother to care about what they have to say.
As it stands, there are millions of people you can help right now if you give a fuck about life. Just helping a single homeless person get their shit together would be a more meaningful victory than stopping some random abortion.
I find this sort of empty philosophizing on the internet so fucking boring when nobody gives a fuck about this IRL. Most of these pro-life warriors probably wouldn't quit a match in a game if it meant saving a baby. Give me a fucking break.

[Anonymous No.15669552]

>>15668437
Ask me how I know everything you just shit out with your slimy fingers comes from YouTube videos and no actual research.

[Anonymous No.15669812]

>>15642462
Is that Sergei dragunov lmao

[Anonymous No.15669905]

Not the optimal thread for it but oh well … I think I brainfucked myself and need some help.

How the hell does one handle numbers in (fiction) writing? I recall reading about it a while ago and ended with something like "room number seventeen" but after rereading it … shit just looks off, and being a German, lack of capitalisation and the likes constantly raises my alarms, yet versions with it look bad too, and something like "room No. 17" is just too attention grabbing.

Apologies for severe autism.

[Anonymous No.15669928]

>>15642789

And the Chinese are Tau? The Eldar are Mangy Eurocucks? Chaos is South America (as in south of, not the continent). The tyrannids are WASPs.

[Anonymous No.15670185]

>>15667118
Does it hit hardest in episodes? Does being around trusted people make it any better?

[Anonymous No.15670268]

How do I bring myself to call for a psychiatrist's appointment? It's all I can think of but I am too scare to make the call.

[Anonymous No.15670294]

>>15668078
It's about 50 years too long. If the normal life span of a human would be 30 I'd be happy.

[Anonymous No.15670310]

>>15670268
What’s so scary about it? Do you have one already or do you still need one? Psychiatrist as in someone to provide medication or did you need a therapist/psychologist?
Legitimately let me know anon

[Anonymous No.15670373]

>>15670310
I don't have and never had. I am sure though that there is something wrong with me and that I need therapy because I am a complete social cripple. I tried moving and working for several years but all that exposure only made me more miserable, more anxious and more disconnected from everything and now I am back with my parents and can barely leave the house. Right now though medication is even more important to me, my brain is a complete mess and I can't think straight, also I have developed an alcohol problem. That is not very accurate of my situation but I thnk it summarizes the most important ponts.

[Anonymous No.15670388]

>>15670268
I wouldn't do it. You'll go in there, fill out a questionnaire, they'll talk to you for 5 minutes and you'll walk out with at least 1 prescriptions and a bullshit story about brain chemistry because they can apparently tell this without doing any tests. If you're a man you eventually regret it once you realize how feminine the entire thing is. Read the stoics.

[Anonymous No.15670397]

for three months I have lived on a 7-day cycle of increasing anxiety, with the reset happening after our weekly staff meeting each monday....there is also a similar cycle of 21 some days where I become increasingly despondent, with the reset occurring after a phone call with my boss....but even to see the cycle does not help me to resist it

[Anonymous No.15670726]

>>15670373
Too much self medication always bites back, some amount of it I can’t really blame though but it’s best kept to less hard or challenging substances if you’re going through some troubles. Too much of the wrong stuff can disrupt any recovery you need to make, or if you’re taking medication it can even have interactions with that that can be harmful. Find a balance with substances you give yourself, but don’t let them be the only thing that gives you fuel, do nothing at all for some period if that’s what you need, and when you become clearer try to find a way to build yourself back up with a cleaner base.

It’s good to be with parents if you’re in a place where you can’t help yourself like you need to, I can say that from experience. Even if you wish you weren’t, they are helpful for giving yourself structure. Don’t avoid them too much if you can help it, and be open with them about the things you can be. Find things do even if it’s with them, just to at least give yourself something coherent and real to latch onto. If you have any goals, go to them and have them help you hold yourself accountable. If you have any other contacts in your life, try to be open the best you can but more than anything do your best to keep your head in the land of the living. If you’ve been working on working your way up the past years already you are no lost cause, you clearly have an idea of how to look for a way in the world. And the world is obviously rough and bad and everything else but you’re certainly capable of living in it, you don’t sound entirely on your own.

>>15670388
And therapy is a critical thing if you’re at a low point, I can say that from experience myself. I would say from my own mistakes though, if you don’t like a therapist you see, then find a new one. But even just having a professional that you can vent to to help yourself balance out what is bothering your mind with everything outside yourself, this is still good, and you can keep plenty to yourself with them as well if you need to, but it’s still better than keeping everything to yourself.
There are plenty of man non-bitch psychologists too, stoicism is a thing I hear is good so that’s cool too, but there are also psychs that would agree with that as well.
If they mention anything else about meds, you can tell them no also, and it may be annoying, but if you’re able to you can still find a balance with them.
I’d suggest finding a man psychologist, and having it be one focused from a critical angle more than just wanting to chit chat with you. You can get a reference to some from a psychiatrist if you ask, surely. Be upfront about what you don’t want, and try to have it play on the grounds you want. Then once you make progress with this rule book, the idea would be to open yourself up more with as much as you’re able.

[Anonymous No.15670854]

>>15669905
Room number seventeen is proper English.

[Anonymous No.15670928]

>>15670854
Thanks, anon!

[Anonymous No.15671096]

>>15669905
>>15670854
>>15670928
room seventeen also likely works

[Anonymous No.15671264]

>>15667687
Go on seroquel and lithium then

[Anonymous No.15671279]

There's a group of young teenage girls outside my window playing some game where they repeatedly shout the word "penis".
Why must God torture me so?

[Anonymous No.15671555]

>>15670726
I'll se what I can do, much appreciated words. I don't agree with what the other anon said, it's similar to saying that only women can have depression and if a man has it then he should be able to fight it himself thus saying that the depression is just in my head and not real. That sounds very archaic to me from a scientific point of view and further more kind of childish as I am way beyond that point where I care about my masculinity or whatever that anon has in mind. Lay down and rot is not a state that either men or women should find themselves in but both can be affected from this.
The reason why I am hesitant to make the call is a different one. It's the fear that once I go to a doctor for mental issues this will stigmatize me for life and will have very bad and limitizing effects on my future. Once you are officially recorded for being mentally unstable people will start to look down on you. Also I don't want to see myself as just the person who identifies with what a doctor tells him what he is, if it's autistic or schizo or whatever. This is frightening and I might have some as well archaic form of pride which prevents me from seeking help. It's stupid, I know, but it's a thought that blends in with my whole personality and I feel like I have to give up on this personality, which in fact I think I should do as my current perspective on the world does not allow me to take part in it.

[Anonymous No.15671978]

>>15667418
Sorry I replied late. It’s called “The Center Cannot Hold”

[Anonymous No.15672272]

>>15671279
Lol a bunch of whores just outing themselves

[Anonymous No.15672406]

>>15671264
>Seroquel

It helps me sleep and slows my racing thoughts but it's like a lobotomy in a pill form. Then again, that's the trade off with most anti-psychotics I guess.

[Anonymous No.15672420]

Assuming a person is healthy, is there anything worse than being gay with a small d*ck?

[Anonymous No.15672479]

I fucking hate modern job applying. Did the boomers have it easier? This shit feels so vapid, fake and forced

[Anonymous No.15672920]

i keep switching between a normal person and a complete robot that cannot can't understand emotion
i dont wanna go on meds
my manic self invalidates my depressive self and thinks nothing is wrong
my depressive self invalidates my manic self and thinks I need help
fuck you im just going to read fiction and erotica till I die, i'm pretty good at faking the manic at this point.

[Anonymous No.15672985]

I want to quit my job
I want to quit my job
I want to quit my job
maybe tomorrow!

[Anonymous No.15673041]

the need I have to throw myself into the river seems to be separate from my misery

[Anonymous No.15673052]

>>15671555
Doctors are bound by confidentiality, the only people your history will be shared with are other doctors. Yes that can also be exposing, but any professional knows fully well the complexity of every mind they work with, they know how to keep judgement separate from their work, and you don’t have to worry about them judging you beyond any element that involves their practice.
> Once you are officially recorded for being mentally unstable people will start to look down on you
Replace “mentally unstable” with anything else (or keep it), and yeah this is a massive thing for myself, however as far as getting help goes that’s something that this is not even in the picture, you get help for yourself, you don’t need to worry about pride with them. But that feeling is an understandable one. Fixation on image is a hard thing to bear. You can move at your pace with a therapist though. It really, really would be good.
>>15672920
Meds have to be up to you, but you have to be able to find integration for yourself in some way, there’s no shame Inness if that helps, even if that dulls you, you can still be productive. But this is a frank discussion to have with a psychologist, since I can imagine you wouldn’t want this talk with a psychiatrist. Weigh out the benefits and downsides with an external party in front of your face. And honestly, have people externally around you when you can help it, help yourself keep yourself accountable as much as you can with whoever else you already know. There are always ways to draw out a black pill no-hope scenario, don’t let this fact hold you to that extreme.

[Anonymous No.15673081]

>>15672272
It's psychological torture!

[Anonymous No.15673103]

>>15673052
thanks bud, i probably need to see someone anyways. episodes of psychosis are not helping the depressive/manic episodes.

[Anonymous No.15673265]

Not me, but relevant. Not sure what to do now

[Anonymous No.15673359]

>>15673081
I would gladly swap places with you if you know what I mean.

[Anonymous No.15673473]

>>15673265
If this is you or something like it, I want you to be well more than anything, I understand completely, you’re a great friend/etc, and I would love to hang out when you are able. You know how to find me, and I’ll have something up with initials if you need it, but a text would help us both the most I think.
I care about you more than I understand, please be well. I have a lot of fear, I’ll work on that if you will as well.
>>15673359
I know you can do this, I don’t know the future at all but please work on yourself and find me when you’re ready. I know you will be. Just remember me, i know you can find a way to me. I want to say so much, and to stop looking away. Please be well and Good luck with everything dude.

[Anonymous No.15673541]

>>15642748
Forcing people to be born against their consent is abhorrent

[Anonymous No.15673601]

>>15673541
take the lightpill anon, the greatest gift is the gift of life

[Anonymous No.15673621]

>>15673473
It’s my erstwhile girlfriend actually. Myself, I’m not quite as broken as she is, not to mention not in a way that would be visible to others but it still stings.

We were exchanging letters since the place she’s at doesn’t allow phones. She took a turn for the worse so they’ve barred outgoing letters.

Thanks for the kind words however.

Christ I’m lonely

[Anonymous No.15673676]

I have social anxiety and need to get fucked soon

[Anonymous No.15673799]

>>15673676
The worst part is when your anxiety is so severe that you can not even pretend to pretend to be normal anymore. I used to pretend but I just don't have the power to do that anymore.

[Anonymous No.15673821]

>>15673473
I love how the only times in my life I remember someone saying nice things to me were almost all on image boards. Best of luck to you too my man!

[Anonymous No.15673905]

Books for the feel of being able to imagine a good world but being powerless to create it?

[Anonymous No.15674063]

Anyone knows if "understanding power" from Chomsky has a spanish version?

[Anonymous No.15674126]

>girl next to me on the train brushes me with her hair
>instant boner

[Anonymous No.15674303]

>>15674126
for me, its having a long hair fetish
shame few girls here grow to their waist or longer
snifffags are a bit weird tho

[Anonymous No.15674315]

>>15674303
>long hair fetish
Me too anon, long straight hair makes me hnnnngggg. I'm living in Asia currently and all the girls here have amazing long black hair.

[Anonymous No.15674382]

>>15672272
>he doesn't know about the penis game
ngmi

[Anonymous No.15674465]

>>15674382
no anon, they were doing that thing where everyone yells out the thing they want most of all over and over (?)

[Anonymous No.15674819]

im a wreck. i feel like i have no control over whats happening but i have to do all this stupid stuff anyway because im an idiot but i know its probably going to end in disaster no matter what i choose. its the worst. but i hope it all turns toward my favor. this may be the first time i felt like i ever won anything in life. all i can do is move forward.

[Anonymous No.15675143]

>>15674465
it's just a fun little game for kids because saying penis really loud is both embarrassing and carries with it the risk of being chastised by an adult.
>what they desire most in the world
if you unironically think that seek help, you're a late stage cumbrain bound to do some reprehensible shit

[Anonymous No.15675202]

>>15675143
This. Used to do this in highschool in poor neighborhoods with nigger.

[Anonymous No.15675390]

>>15675143
I was only making fun of the other anon

[Anonymous No.15675432]

>>15674819