/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.15609020]

I'm looking for literature that will help me out of the despair I constantly feel. I am constantly depressed and feel no joy in anything. Please recommend something that might help.

[Anonymous No.15609028]

>>15609020
The Conspiracy Against the Human Race

[Anonymous No.15609039]

>>15609020

[Anonymous No.15609042]

>>15609020
The Myth of Sisyphus

[Anonymous No.15609054]

>>15609020
Is there a wojak variant for every single pathetic faggot on this site? Holy fuck all of you suck so much dick I'm going to invent a way to kill someone over the internet.

[Anonymous No.15609067]

>Is there a wojak variant for every single pathetic faggot on this site? Holy fuck all of you suck so much dick I'm going to invent a way to kill someone over the internet.

[Anonymous No.15609071]

>>15609020
If you're pic related, what could really help you is The Denial of Death.
It sounds like a troll blackpill shit like >>15609028 but it actually makes you realize that you can take control of your life if you have faith in yourself, because literally everything in life is faith.
I don't know how exactly, but it really helped me get my life get back on track, give it a read.

[Anonymous No.15609081]

>>15609020
dostoyevsky

[Anonymous No.15609084]

>>15609071
Thank you.

[Anonymous No.15609090]

There's nothing wrong with being lazy, the problem is our protestant workaholic society. Monkeys don't feel shame for lounging around and playing with their balls, they eat the bananas nature gives them, laugh, and play

[Anonymous No.15609104]

>>15609067
>>Is there a wojak variant for every single pathetic faggot on this site? Holy fuck all of you suck so much dick I'm going to invent a way to kill someone over the internet.

[Anonymous No.15609114]

Is there a book about hating your parent’s mediocrity, and consequently hating your own genetic predisposition to mediocrity while simultaneously catching glimpses of higher, more self-actualised people you’ll never relate to?

[Anonymous No.15609115]

>>15609071
It's funny how you called TCATHR "troll blackpill shit" while the denial of death is even more nihilistic in some ways.

[Anonymous No.15609124]

>>15609020
Live for something bigger if you can.

[Anonymous No.15609128]

>>15609020
Fun thing, that's me although I got two master degree in mathematics and am 3/4 of the way into a PhD. What people say about the value of hard work is true, but at the same time it's also a big meme that doesn't solve the fundamental issues. Life is confusing.

[Anonymous No.15609135]

>>15609128
Work is just a game, there's nothing wrong with it but it's still fundamentally a game.

[Anonymous No.15609138]

>>15609128
Then where do you get the motivation to get shit done?

[Anonymous No.15609142]

>>15609020
this is literally me what the fuck please delete this

[Anonymous No.15609149]

>>15609114
is that limmy?

[Anonymous No.15609151]

>>15609128
Are you into PDEs?

[Anonymous No.15609157]

I feel you OP, but I think my biggest problem in life stems from the fact that I don't know where I want to be or what I want to achieve, and not because I don't have enough motivation or whatever. Does anyone here who has went through a similar struggle have a word of advice for me?

[Anonymous No.15609158]

>>15609020
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I haven't read it in a few years, but it is a motivating book. It has a "the secret" vibe. If you enjoy it you will have a urge to take chances and "listen to the universe" for few days. As you can tell it is aimed at females.

[Anonymous No.15609165]

>>15609157
Is there something you want to do or see ? If there is, and its possible on a material plane, why not do it, even if its frightening ?

[Anonymous No.15609169]

>>15609158
>As you can tell it is aimed at females.
You say that like it's a bad thing.

[Anonymous No.15609176]

>>15609115
The difference is that Ligotti literally made that book to make you feel like shit while The Denial of Death is a honest effort to find out the big "whys" of humanity and it lets you into several whitepill insights that can positively impact your life and worldview
.

[Anonymous No.15609189]

>>15609169
I'm preempting the criticism that the takeaway from the book is "listen to the universe" and that the book has a instathot vibe. It's a good book, go read it.

[Anonymous No.15609203]

>>15609176
>The difference is that Ligotti literally made that book to make you feel like shit
How so?

[Anonymous No.15609208]

>>15609189
Bold of you to assume I haven't already.

[Anonymous No.15609278]

>>15609071
http://libgen.is/book/index.php?md5=8FB7B7C7E450F6B27FCE11B7C46CADA0

For everyone with too much inertia to even look for it.

[Anonymous No.15609283]

>>15609203
It's been a while since I read it but I recall two big parts:
He literally says in the early pages of the book that it's deliberately created to instill horror (not sure if those were the precise words) and that it's an utterly pessimistic book.
The last part were he describes dying in a vehicular misadventure. The moment of consummate disaster, when the puppets turn to face the puppet master.
Not to mention page after page of describing how miserable everything is.
If that's not designed to make you feel like shit then I don't know what's the point of the book.

[Anonymous No.15609326]

>>15609283
I read it and it was fedora shit, it didn't make me feel bad, The Mysterious Stranger by Mark Twain made me feel like shit

[Anonymous No.15609331]

>>15609283
I felt way more shitty after reading the denial of death than the Conspiracy.
Both of these books aren't much different from each other.

[Anonymous No.15609372]

>>15609020
I know how you feel, I can recommend what's helped me through those times.
For books that might grant catharsis to your current state, and will help you see the beauty in your suffering
Knut Hamsun - Hunger
Celine - Journey to the End of the Night
Faulkner - As I Lay Dying
Kawabata - Snow Country
Once you've got some strength and want to look away from suffering
Plato - Phaedrus, Gorgias, Phaedo (all of them but give these a chance)
Aristotle - Nicomachean Ethics
The Gospel According to John
Augustine - Confessions

[Anonymous No.15609383]

>>15609020
Look up Transformation Mastery

[Anonymous No.15609395]

>>15609331
I dunno, neither of those books made me feel like shit, but I could take a lot of positive things from the denial of death (faith in yourself, expanding my worldview beyond group-based copes, removing prejudice from my mind). Ligotti just inspired me to watch True Detective.

[Anonymous No.15609401]

>>15609395
Based

[Anonymous No.15609772]

>>15609395
I've read the book basically embraces death anxiety and Terror Management Theory, which is described as follows:

>The most obvious examples of cultural values that assuage death anxiety are those that purport to offer literal immortality (e.g. belief in afterlife, religion). However, TMT also argues that other cultural values – including those that are seemingly unrelated to death – offer symbolic immortality. For example, values of national identity, posterity, cultural perspectives on sex, and human superiority over animals have been linked to death concerns. In many cases these values are thought to offer symbolic immortality either a) by providing the sense that one is part of something greater that will ultimately outlive the individual (e.g. country, lineage, species), or b) by making one's symbolic identity superior to biological nature (i.e. you are a personality, which makes you more than a glob of cells).

>The most obvious examples of cultural values that assuage death anxiety are those that purport to offer literal immortality (e.g. belief in afterlife, religion). However, TMT also argues that other cultural values – including those that are seemingly unrelated to death – offer symbolic immortality. For example, values of national identity, posterity, cultural perspectives on sex, and human superiority over animals[6] have been linked to death concerns. In many cases these values are thought to offer symbolic immortality either a) by providing the sense that one is part of something greater that will ultimately outlive the individual (e.g. country, lineage, species), or b) by making one's symbolic identity superior to biological nature (i.e. you are a personality, which makes you more than a glob of cells).

When I read about the basic theory behind The Denial of Death, it makes it sound like literally everything we do and believe in is just a cope, group-based or not. What exceptions could there be? Just seems depressing as fuck dude

[Anonymous No.15609788]

>>15609395
>>15609772
Oops, I reposted the second paragraph twice when I meant for this to be the second one:

>TMT is derived from anthropologist Ernest Becker's 1973 Pulitzer Prize-winning work of nonfiction The Denial of Death, in which Becker argues most human action is taken to ignore or avoid the inevitability of death. The terror of absolute annihilation creates such a profound – albeit subconscious – anxiety in people that they spend their lives attempting to make sense of it. On large scales, societies build symbols: laws, religious meaning systems, cultures, and belief systems to explain the significance of life, define what makes certain characteristics, skills, and talents extraordinary, reward others whom they find exemplify certain attributes, and punish or kill others who do not adhere to their cultural worldview. On an individual level, self-esteem provides a buffer against death-related anxiety.

So even on an individual level, what does life have to offer besides a cope..?

[Anonymous No.15609819]

[Anonymous No.15609866]

>>15609020
Reading won't help you. Try volunteering or something that helps someone else.
>>15609028
cringe
>>15609039
dismissive
>>15609042
boomer
>>15609054
gay
>>15609067
gayer
>>15609071
decent
>>15609081
cringe
>>15609084
based
>>15609090
fuck you
>>15609104
stale
>>15609114
>>15609115
>>15609124
>>15609128
>>15609135
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>>15609157
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>>15609401
>>15609772
>>15609788
I stopped reading. Love - Forever Changes

[Anonymous No.15609873]

>>15609138
I used to think mathematics was my calling and I had to study it as far as I could. I also enjoyed studying it (and I still do).
Throughout the years I came to realize that I'm not good enough to make a real contribution to pure mathematics, even a relatively modest one. The current level of competition is too hard for me. So I had to settle for applied mathematics, which is still cool. Then I realized most of what I'm doing is so applied it has very little mathematics in it. And I'm not sure I would have qualified for an applied subject with substantial mathematical work. Now I just feel like a failure (and I'm one, rather objectively) and I have little motivation for anything.

So to answer your question, the motivation slowly dried out as a result of continuous failure and the meaninglessness of my current woek. There's nothing within my abilities that I would care to do as far as I can see. Of course we're all myopic when it comes to our abilities, but still it's looking pretty bad.

>>15609135
That's probably it, yes.

>>15609151
No, I'm doing applied statistics (don't laugh). I studied theoretical statistics which is mathematically solid in some areas. But as I say above, my actual work contains almost no mathematics, it's disheartening.

[Anonymous No.15609888]

>>15609020
>20s
> tfw in 30s

[Anonymous No.15609895]

>>15609888
I know how you feel.

[Anonymous No.15609917]

Here's a book I don't see recommended much. Go read modern man search for soul by Jung.

[Anonymous No.15609933]

>>15609888
This.

[Anonymous No.15609945]

>>15609819
bruh when the fuck did my watch become a symbol for failure nu-contrarian males

[Anonymous No.15609955]

>>15609888
Me too
nice trips

[Anonymous No.15609996]

>>15609819
Only 20% of this image applies to me. That is unfair. Can you make one pertaining to Jews?

[Anonymous No.15610004]

>>15609945
You dodint get the solar radio one plee b

[Anonymous No.15610032]

>>15609020
do you have a kitten?

[Anonymous No.15610039]

>>15609020
Seriously read this. He doesn't even get out of bed within the first forty pages. The book might actually make you feel worse but at least you might begin to glimpse some idea why.

[Anonymous No.15610052]

>>15609866
It's a pretty good album. Not really my thing, but good nonetheless.

[Anonymous No.15610055]

>>15609020
Seriously read this. He doesn't even get out of bed within the first forty pages. The book might actually make you feel worse but at least you might begin to glimpse some idea why

[Anonymous No.15610061]

>>15610039
If you mean Oblomov then based

[Anonymous No.15610108]

that wojack is fucking pathetic and needs to get it together

[Anonymous No.15610260]

>>15610052
Glad you like it. One of few albums where i don't skip around. Too bad /mu/ brothers don't see,,,

[Anonymous No.15610302]

>>15609866
cunt

[Anonymous No.15610334]

>>15609866
what a nigger response after a series of decent posts kys

[Anonymous No.15610546]

>>15609819
i guess i was doomed when i first listened to amnesiac when i was 15

[Anonymous No.15610591]

>>15609772
>>15609788
It's about accepting that fact and making the most out of it. Once you know about this shit and you understand that everything is a cope you can use this knowledge to:
-Avoid falling prey to manipulative ideologies
-Avoid getting absorbed into us vs them mentalities that generate hate towards others
-Understand that everyone is literally as clueless and scared as you are, they are just doing a literal confidence trick that (you) can pull off if you're smart enough
-It's all about faith, if you have faith in yourself you can literally do whatever you want
Fear of fear is for brainlets. It's like reading the last messiah: you can either look at the "rules" Zapffe sets down as an affirmation of the meaninglessness of life and die like the deer with big antlers, or you can see it as a way to coping your way out of all your fears and shaping your retardedly big antlers in a way that is useful for you.

[Anonymous No.15610774]

>>15609819
The person who went through the trouble of making that image just to upset random unknown people on the internet must be a very sad person himself.

[Anonymous No.15610890]

>>15609866
Love - De Capo is also great
I always imagined that Revelation would make a great background song for a long take action scene

[Anonymous No.15610946]

fuck thats me
oof

[Anonymous No.15611086]

serious answer: magic mushrooms

[Anonymous No.15611101]

>>15609071
Denial of Death helped me a lot during my worst existential crisis!

[Anonymous No.15611107]

>>15609054
Wtf is wrong with that dogs face?

[Anonymous No.15611108]

>>15609020
literally fucking me

[Anonymous No.15611109]

>>15611107
Its very pleasing

[Anonymous No.15611152]

I tried, got my degree with top grades and no one wanted to hire me anyway. So, never try.

[Anonymous No.15611172]

>>15609888
>30s
> tfw in 40s

[Anonymous No.15611173]

>>15611152

In the USA you have to either set up internships or go to gradschool. You're fucked if you just focus on your studies

[Anonymous No.15611199]

>>15609819
I don't know why but the including of "Categories for the Working mathematician" in that image cracked me up. It's so specific and improbable yet it rings so true.

Excellent book btw, if a bit dry and outdated in some parts.

[Anonymous No.15611231]

>>15609873
That sucks. The level of competition in math is totally brutal. From what I've seen, pure math gets so specialized and deep that you need to be practically built and groomed for it just to push a little bit forward.

Anyways, maybe you've already considered it, but the whole bayesian thing is really blowing up in my scientific discipline. From what I've seen, there's a ton of interesting work to be done in a bunch of areas there – new MCMC samplers, bayesian deep learning stuff, techniques for modeling likelihoods without closed form solution just to name a few. Plus it seems like it's the type of thing you can train yourself for given a few intermediate shitty jobs, self-teaching, projects, classes etc., and you'd almost definitely pick up a bunch of mL skills along the way.

You asked about books. I don't really know shit about motivational books, but I remember that reading Thus Spoke Zarathustra when I was in college made me really reflect on and change lots of my values. It's cringey and cliche, but it had a serious impact on my life.

[Anonymous No.15611317]

>>15609169
you say that like it's not.

[Anonymous No.15611336]

Every time you add more words to these and every time how humorous it is negatively corresponds to that.

[Anonymous No.15611383]

>>15611336
Man what the fuck is wrong with you? Get your fucking shit together.

[Anonymous No.15611487]

>>15611172
>under 100s
>tfw immortal alchemist in his 400s
Doesn't get any better pueri

[Anonymous No.15611500]

>>15611231
>Anyways, maybe you've already considered it, but the whole bayesian thing is really blowing up in my scientific discipline.
I've always been interested in bayesian stuff, so it's good to know there are viable applications. I've already neck-deep into ML, even though I'll probably never get around to defend my thesis, I might try reorienting my career alongside that kind of methods.

Anyway thanks for taking the time to answer me, that was thoughtful of you.
Out of curiosity are you fully employed right now? Or still in gradschool?

> It's cringey and cliche, but it had a serious impact on my life.
Not that cringy, Nietzsche can be a genuinely uplifting writer. I had a Latin teacher for could fluently read Ovid and Virgil and who still claimed Nietzche helped get him out of depression.

[Anonymous No.15611576]

>>15609945
it's the ol' reliable boomer approved cheap as fuck watch with absolutely NO status symbol value. for only 20 bucks you can say to women 'I have given up on my dreams and I no longer feel touched by social dogma' without even talking to them.

[Anonymous No.15611635]

>>15611500
Of course. Going into a technical discipline can get really depressing. I'm really still not sure if I have what it takes. I know it's a strong possibility that I'll have to give up on academia.

I'm glad to hear you'll consider it though. My first full-time research job was centered around bayesian stuff, and I really loved it.

I'm in grad school right now, but defending is a long way off for me.

>I had a Latin teacher for could fluently read Ovid and Virgil and who still claimed Nietzche helped get him out of depression.
That's pretty cool. He definitely helped me.

[Anonymous No.15611650]

>>15609071
based

[Anonymous No.15612000]

>>15609020
Ouch

[Anonymous No.15612078]

>>15609020
Who told you you shouldn't be depressed? It's a natural state when you take the world around into account.

[Anonymous No.15612085]

couple things i read during my years of solitude and sadness/inaction blablabla
>miserables
just read it, its good for your soul
>karamazov brothers
>quietly the don flows
>east of eden
>grapes of wrath
and couple others you wont know/not in your language, all of these pushes you a little to do SOMETHING, because once your life ends, you wont be able to do anything

[Anonymous No.15612101]

Nietzsche and Mishima. Memed so much here but apparently still no one reads them

[Anonymous No.15612171]

>>15609873
You need to compare yourself outside of your bubble of autistic math geniuses and you'll see that you have a level of intelligence and ability most people don't, including midwits like myself. You could just go into financial mathematics, cash in for a few years and then just NEEt, travel, study maths for your own enjoyment. Life is wide open.

[Anonymous No.15612204]

>>15612171
Thanks, you're right in general. Although financial mathematics is actually very hard, huge pay and lots of technical requirements, hence competition comparable to that of pure math (a classmate of mine who also got two master in maths tried to get hired without avail for an entire year before trying something else).
And being an autistic fuck is a big liability in any case. But you're right that I can probably find a way, at worst I can become a tutor for rich kids.

[Anonymous No.15612221]

>>15609819
>is mean to mom and dad
You're right. I am deeply ashamed of myself, and am improving my ways.

[Anonymous No.15612230]

>>15611107
It was bred to live a life of looking goofy as shit. Slightly less agonizing existence than a pug or other brachycephalic breeds or a bull terriers.

[Anonymous No.15613038]

>>15609071

Based beyond human belief, my favourite book in prison and the one that changed me most as a man - I wouldn’t have gotten through that time without it.

[Anonymous No.15613056]

>>15609158
> The Alchemist
> The Secret

You will die forgotten.

[Anonymous No.15613084]

>>15609158
stale bait reeking like dead fish

[Anonymous No.15613127]

>>15609114
Damn that hurts bro

[Anonymous No.15613395]

>>15609071
Sounds good

[Anonymous No.15613502]

>>15611576
woman like me regardless of my watch anon
shame that's how you have to justify your consoomer purchases

[Anonymous No.15613528]

>>15610032
no why

[Anonymous No.15613543]

>What do I want to do? I don't know...
>What am I supposed to do again?
>Yeah I've been meaning to do that haha..
>This is the day. I'm gonna turn things around

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.15613948]

>>15613056
The Alchemist is good, but its good to know that it has a "the secret" vibe going in.

[Anonymous No.15614180]

>>15609090
Pongo thread?

[Anonymous No.15614640]

>>15609020
Can't Hurt me by David Goggins is what you're looking for. Story of an unremarkable man whose life falls apart in his early 20s and how he developed the drive to turn it around.

[Anonymous No.15615150]

>>15609819

It's scary to me how accurately a stranger can skewer you. No matter how original you think you are, someone can put you in a box. But I wouldn't say I'm in despair about life

[Anonymous No.15615153]

>>15609020
Do 6 grams of mushrooms.

[Anonymous No.15615220]

>>15609020
I'm that pic if you replace the NEET/low IQ part with the fact I've been in school for 20 years, got a BA and a MA and now on way to PhD, but I don't work during the summers. Also I actually cook instead of making ramen. But everything else is the same.

[Anonymous No.15615318]

>>15609090
but how?

[Anonymous No.15615490]

>>15613395
Anon, you need to work on your impulse control. Cancel the order, get your maple syrup coins back, and download the book for free online.

[Anonymous No.15615691]

>>15611107
It's a borzoi. Maximum aerodynamic efficiency.

[Anonymous No.15615934]

>>15609114
Eckhart Tolle
I do suggest his audio/video recordings of his live events.
Favorite and most life changing to me: "Transmuting Suffering into Peace"

[Anonymous No.15616358]

bumping the OP's psy op :)

[Anonymous No.15616477]

Do you have a parent (or parents) who were toxic in your youth? Try this book, it'll genuinely help you see that there's a pattern and that trying to fix that pattern is impossible because the only person that you can fix is you. If that's not the case then I'm sorry to hear you feel no joy in life and I hope some anon makes a suggestion that helps.

[Anonymous No.15616536]

>>15613948

Why don’t you go manifest yourself a life, you failure of a man.

[Anonymous No.15616778]

>>15609020
Do people actually relate with the OP pic? Damn I thought I knew what self-loathing is, but I'm nowhere near his level :(

[Anonymous No.15617722]

>>15609020
some nice arabic literature translated of course
like The Committee and The Smell Of It both by Sonallah Ibrahim

[Anonymous No.15617824]

>>15615490
Keku

[Anonymous No.15619062]

>>15609039
Do you really think most of 4chan doesn't fit that pic or did he just offend you? Also your meme is even more stale than his, I've seen it 100x

[Anonymous No.15619078]

>...Anonymous
>06/15/20(Mon)22:39:57 No.15619062
>>>15609039 (You) #
>Do you really think most of 4chan doesn't fit that pic or did he just offend you? Also your meme is even more stale than his, I've seen it 100x

[Anonymous No.15619154]

>>15613038
What'd you go to prison for?

[Anonymous No.15619162]

>>15619078
Good arguments, you really hurt my feelings with that one

[Anonymous No.15619213]

>>15609772
You're not that smart if that's (You're last comment) what you got out of it (the greentext)

[Anonymous No.15619612]

>>15609020
12 rules for life

[Anonymous No.15619620]

>...Anonymous
>06/15/20(Mon)22:54:52 No.15619162
>>>15619078 (You) #
>Good arguments, you really hurt my feelings with that one

[Anonymous No.15619633]

Read Celine

[Anonymous No.15620380]

jordan b peterson's 12 rules of life, white identity by jared taylor

[Anonymous No.15620829]

>>15619154

Manslaughter. I got out after three years, still on probation though.

[Anonymous No.15620869]

>>15616778
You should feel happy then :)

>>15619213
Not him, but what did you get out of that greentext?

>>15611635
I wish you good luck. If you plan ahead and don't neglect networking research can be great, I've seen friends having the time of their life during their PhD. But it's rare, so make sure you have backup plan and the support of friends and family.

[Anonymous No.15620930]

>>15609114
Is that Limmy?

[Anonymous No.15620946]

>>15609114
Everyone in my family is nice but mediocre. The ugliness is really depressing.

[Anonymous No.15620952]

>>15620946
Most people are mediocre by definition. It's hard to accept but most of those you will ever made and in all likelihood yourself aswell are mediocre. Mediocrity is not a sin, however unseemly it can be.

[Anonymous No.15620980]

Inspiration is to overflow.
To become a source of creativity.
Depression is to let this light dissipate without creating anything. To not cause beauty will eventually make yourself lose your receptivity to beauty, dulling the world. You must actualize, or like a muscle atrophy your soul.

[Anonymous No.15622430]

>>15609873
there are people who want to do things and people who want to be things, the second group are never fulfilled

[Anonymous No.15622759]

>>15620869
I am very comfortable in saying that my goal in life is to support an abstract idea, and some of what he is saying is correct. (The vegan stuff a little less so). But anon was somehow taking his analyses to act as if that somehow undermines the logic of motivations of the people he's talking about. Things are obviously more complex then that, and I didn't take it that the author even was trying to do that. He doesn't address the specifics (Being very vague about abstract concepts or people instead of specifically debating ideas or people). How anon took that to mean that this very cursory analysis of one aspect of a side-motiviation that people with an "I am the law" mentality may have is beyond me and smells like Katy the penguin entry-level post-modernism where the focus is on "If I look at things in a meta way, then that means I've undermined them purely by virtue of looking at things in a more meta way then other people are choosing to do even though I have absolutely no substance myself."

[Anonymous No.15623775]

I'm saving up to visit hookers in Germany.
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