How to escape the doom, guyz?

[Anonymous No.15441170]

I'm so close to killing myself.

René Guenon opened my eyes to the modern world, the reign of quantity. About the fact that history would be a long defeat for a long time to come.

Theodore Kaczsynki explained to me why because of the techno-industrial society nothing will improve in the near future.

Guy Débord showed me that I was living in a consuming and spectacular illusion.

The Buddha, Heraclitus and Whitehead demonstrated to me the conditionality of consciousness and how the vedantic atman was still not the Absolute.

Emil Cioran made me feel the cosmic despair.
Carlo Michelstaedter explained to me the Buddhist dukkha like no other, explaining to me the inanity of all our leaps forward.

The Münchhausen trilemma struck me with a fatal scepticism, leaving me without hope of a rational way out.

Help, I can't take it anymore.

I'm alone in the darkness

[Anonymous No.15441188]

>>15441170
Upboated cause this post was f*cking epic, bro

Edit:Thanks for the gold!

[Anonymous No.15441223]

>>15441170
read Kierkegaard & Nietzsche? I dunno.

[Anonymous No.15441248]

Eat only spicy food, drink nothing but hard liquor and water, walk at least 10 miles a day. The way will be shown to you.

[Anonymous No.15441251]

>>15441248
Oh yeah, and clean your room and wash your penis.

[Anonymous No.15441257]

>>15441248
the way of what? shitting pure blood lol?

[Anonymous No.15441273]

If you genuinely think traditional metaphysics have value, then suicide would be a horrible choice, for it would stain your soul for multiple lifetimes. Maybe become initiated into a tradition that speaks to you so that the line remains alive for the righteous people of future generations.

[Anonymous No.15441278]

>>15441170
>The Buddha, Heraclitus and Whitehead demonstrated to me the conditionality of consciousness and how the vedantic atman was still not the Absolute.
lol did you even read Shankara? he btfo'd all those fags

[Anonymous No.15441288]

>>15441188
fpbp

[Anonymous No.15441290]

>>15441278
>>/lit/thread/S15288268

[Anonymous No.15441324]

>>15441278

[Anonymous No.15441364]

>>15441290

If Buddha's teaching is correct and the truth, then why do you want to kill yourself?

>ye shall know them by their fruits

[Anonymous No.15441370]

>>15441290
If there is nothing permanent, then how is reincarnation possible? What is being reincarnated? Was that just a noble lie the Buddha threw out to prevent his religion being mere nihilism?

[Anonymous No.15441381]

>>15441364
Too much samvega https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/NobleStrategy/Section0004.html

[Anonymous No.15441386]

>>15441370
>If there is nothing permanent, then how is reincarnation possible? What is being reincarnated? Was that just a noble lie the Buddha threw out to prevent his religion being mere nihilism?

>Imagine not understanding Buddhism at this point.
Read InTBW by Bhikkhu Bodhi

[Anonymous No.15441393]

>>15441386
In The Buddha's Words*

[Anonymous No.15441432]

>>15441257
That;s only the beginning, stay strong and push through

[Anonymous No.15441450]

>>15441290
>>/lit/thread/S15288268

>The Buddha experimented the cosmic consciousness, and discovered that it was still not the Absolute that he was looking for
refuted here
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291415

>And he is quite right: consciousness being what perceives, how could it be permanent and static, when our perceptions are constantly changing? Consciousness is a flow, a river of instants and experiences that we reify in a fixed substance, in a self. Like the river of Heraclitus, consciousness gives us a sense of unity as it is constantly changing. Consciousness is also a relationship; there is never perception without perceived, subject without object. What is relational is conditioned.
refuted here
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291441
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291446
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291454
and here
>>/lit/thread/S15423231#p15431804

>>15441381
That studying Buddhism and process philosophy has made you want to kill yourself and has put you into such a position of distress should be a good clue that they are garbage. This is a problem you have to face on your own, nobody one can do it for you or save you for you. But at a certain point when you understand that something is unhelpful and causing problems you should abandon it and move on. If you have never read through any of Shankara's works then maybe you should check some of them out just to challenge your own views and to expose yourself to a different viewpoint. Who knows, you might even stop feeling suicidal.

https://estudantedavedanta.net/Eight-Upanisads-Vol-1.pdf
https://estudantedavedanta.net/Eight-Upanisads-vol2.pdf

[Anonymous No.15441471]

Take the Bible pill, anon.

[Anonymous No.15441483]

>>15441450
>Consciousness is also a relationship; there is never perception without perceived, subject without object. What is relational is conditioned.

Wtf
So based

[Anonymous No.15441505]

>>15441483
So consciousness is conditioned
Son its not the absolute

[Anonymous No.15441608]

>>15441505
When Vedanta says consciousness is eternal they are talking about a transcendental consciousness, since Buddha never admitted the possibility of transcendental consciousness, why would you assume that the consciousness Buddha talked about is the same transcendental consciousness Vedanta is talking about? Buddha specifically described different types of sensory consciousness like ear-consciousness, eye-consciousness etc none of which correspond to the Vedantic transcendental consciousness and then you are mistakenly taking the Buddhist pronouncements about the transient nature of ear-consciousness etc as refuting the Vedantic transcendental consciousness, which they don't; Vedanta similarly admits that ear-consciousness and so on are transient and not the Self.

In the one section in the whole Pali Canon where Buddha encounters the idea of an unborn absolute consciousness in his debate with Brahma-baka instead of offering refutations of it he relies on his supernatural powers involving turning invisible and reading Brahma's mind to convince the audience watching the debate that he is right.

https://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/mn/mn.049.than.html

[Anonymous No.15441622]

>>15441608
>since Buddha never admitted the possibility of transcendental consciousness

Wrong
Infinite consciousness of the arupajhanas : atman-brahman

[Anonymous No.15441629]

>>15441608
You do not answer the argument of this quotation which shows that consciousness is relational, therefore conditioned, therefore not absolute.

It's pure logic.

[Anonymous No.15441729]

Become a bloomer

[Anonymous No.15441733]

[Anonymous No.15441743]

Realize that everything is exactly as it should be, and that your expectations are delusional

[Anonymous No.15441753]

>>15441733
>think that drug trips have any ontological or metaphysical value
Not based

[Anonymous No.15441819]

>>15441622
>Infinite consciousness of the arupajhanas
The Jhanas are temporary states of meditation that one enters into and leaves; it is an effect caused by certain meditation practices which the mind experiences. They do not correspond to the transcendental consciousness which is the Vedantic Atman, which is unchanging, is not an effect, and it is not something that the mind experiences as an object of awareness like the Jhanas are. I didn't mean Buddha never talked about "transcendental states of consciousness" but rather an ontologically transcendent Consciousness

>>15441629
If you read the archived posts linked to in this post >>15441450
you'll see why it has been refuted, I didn't copy and post the same paragraphs of text here and simply linked to them so as not to spam the thread. At the end of the day you could kill yourself and I would be indifferent, you are just another anonymous poster to me. But since you talked about feeling suicidal and attributed it to Buddhism and process philosophy, I thought the least I could do was offer another perspective, you can take or leave it, but if you stick with those views and continue to feel suicidal and miserable, you have only yourself to blame.

[Anonymous No.15441844]

>>15441819
>If you read the archived posts linked to in this post >>15441450 #
>you'll see why it has been refuted

Ty anon but i dont see the answer to this argument in particular in your links
God bless you

[Anonymous No.15442020]

>>15441844
in these three posts
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291441
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291446
>>/lit/thread/S15288268#p15291454

It is explained how we can tell that consciousness is one and unchanging.

and to OP: the only way to really know in the end which perspective is right is to read the literature of both sides. Instead of arguing with me just try reading some of Shankara's commentaries such as the ones linked at the end of this post >>15441450 (they all can be found for free online) with an open mind and see if you can find any reasoning and arguments that you disagree with

[Anonymous No.15442139]

Read a book about hero's journey and understand that we all are just a way for universal mind to perceive possibilities. Pain is something ego has made up, a signal of changes and controversy in yourself that became a shield. You must lower it and read about the pains and feel.

[Anonymous No.15442587]

>>15441170
just read harry potter lmao

[Anonymous No.15442597]

Read Spinoza's Ethics and you will affirm life once more

[Anonymous No.15442622]

>>15441170
Imagine me, I'm disgusted that you want to kill yourself, it's pathetic to me, but I also love that you exist with your own little independent thoughts about our shared reality

I love you OP and if you want to talk we can

[Anonymous No.15442765]

>>15441471
I try anon
I love catholicism
But its hard to fully believe it after reading guenon

[Anonymous No.15442778]

>>15442622
ty anon i love u too

[Anonymous No.15443595]

>>15441273
The real blackpill is being read-up enough on astrophysics that you know the most recent evidence post-2011 points to a Big Rip or heat death being more likely and the cyclic model being ruled most likely false; there is no rebirth, this existence is an aberration

[Anonymous No.15443606]

>>15442765
>I love catholicism
based

[Anonymous No.15443622]

>>15443595
stemcel midwit

[Anonymous No.15443626]

>>15443595
>you know the most recent evidence post-2011 points to a Big Rip or heat death being more likely and the cyclic model being ruled most likely false; there is no rebirth, this existence is an aberration
the second law of thermodynamics is probabilistic, not ontological. Poincare's recurrence theorem shows that the universe, even after a heat death, will surely go back to its initial state.

[Anonymous No.15443637]

>>15443595
>implying that after the universe rips apart or has a heath death that God/the One/Brahman etc can't just take the scattered pieces and make a new one all over again

[Anonymous No.15443657]

>>15441170
It sounds to me like you've only been reading one pessimistic side of philosophy.
Read the Stoics
Read the Greeks (the real Greeks, Aristotle and Plato)
Read the Enlightenment folk (not just the real, substantive ones but the second-rate ones like Schiller)
Don't be such an edgy teenager.

[Anonymous No.15443719]

>>15441248
I got schizophrenia diagnosed thanks to that. Except I like coffee way too much.

But like some zarathrusta guy said, I consider myself healthy...to a certain extent

[Anonymous No.15444159]

>>15443719
>Except I like coffee way too much.

[Anonymous No.15444177]

>>15441170
Read something that isn't pessimistic cultural critique

[Anonymous No.15444591]

OP I was blackpilled for awhile by Ted. He's right about everything, and the future does look bleak. But improving yourself and being a progenitor for a better future of human society will make it easier to cope.

[Anonymous No.15444797]

>>15443657
best post by miles

[Anonymous No.15444984]

>>15444797
i think some of miles' earlier work is better

[Anonymous No.15445625]

Yeah it's impermanent but it's also pweddy to behold fwend.

Go outside and listen to yourself that is beyond Worts. I thinks you've wed enough

pic unrelated

[Anonymous No.15445778]

>>15441170
Read this book.

>A thoroughly healthy man is religious in a quite different way from an unhealthy one. His religion is a full-blooded optimism expressing itself in the joy of life and serene happiness. His mind seems impenetrable to worries. His greatest joy is to overcome difficulties and to turn the desert into an oasis. His very presence makes itself felt in all directions. He radiates confidence and seems, without a word or gesture, to inspire a new and brighter outlook upon life.
>Health laughs at psycho-analysis and all the theories about mental healing. It looks upon life inherently as a whole, and on "living" as a great gift. Its chief aim is to produce more life and to create new values in a constant endeavour to reach "Higher still and higher" in all its activities.
>It is only life in its decline and decay that contemplates itself and discovers death.
>To health life is eternal.

[Anonymous No.15445780]

>>15441170
Now you're ready for Derrida

[Anonymous No.15445786]

>>15441170
Look up Transformation Mastery

[Anonymous No.15445840]

>>15443637
>implying this universe isn’t anything but scattered pieces of God and we will be upset and angsty until we all return to the primordial state

[Anonymous No.15445853]

>>15441170
Anonymous, I TOLD YOU, repeatedly I told you all.

[Anonymous No.15446941]

>>15445853
what

[Anonymous No.15446959]

>>15441170
Love is the only answer I have found

[Anonymous No.15447026]

The real issue is time OP, you are already aware of this
How do we manage time? How do we make it pass more swiftly and peacefully?

[Anonymous No.15447060]

>>15446959
>>15447026
Love, time, faire have all been made limited on purpose

[Do it No.15447111]

Do it

[Anonymous No.15447137]

>>15443626
This. There's a big empty mahakalpa and all this shit starts again.

[Anonymous No.15447171]

>>15441170
It gives me a warm glow to see natural selection at work.
Jump off a cliff, anon.

[Anonymous No.15447221]

>>15447171
this
some people are just genetic failures and no amount of coping will solve their endless pain and suffering. it is recommended to just get it over with

[Anonymous No.15447297]

To be very clear, you're not all "alone in the darkness" – a life weary melancholy in the learned has been a thing for quite some time; Ecclesiastes, Problems of Aristotle, Ficino's Three Books on Life, Burton's Anatomy of Melancholy etc.

Schopenhauer gives this an excellent treatment in his Aphorisms for the Wisdom of Life, but he is hardly any less melancholic and gloom.

A good antidote, to balance all the existential dread and air headed theorems of the philosophers, is Max Stirner's Ego and It's Own.

Pic related.

Much of the philosophers wailing is, to be blunt, a childish cope for a failed Utopia of their idealistic fetishzation.

I like to remind myself occasionally of Chateaubriand's take on youthful melancholy;

>IfRenédid not exist, I would not write it again; if it were possible for me to destroy it, I would destroy it. It spawned a whole family of René poets and René prose-mongers; all we hear nowadays are pitiful and disjointed phrases; the only subject is gales and storms, and unknown ills moaned out to the clouds and to the night. There's not a fop who has just left college who hasn't dreamt he was the most unfortunate of men; there's not a milksop who hasn't exhausted all life has to offer by the age of sixteen; who hasn't believed himself tormented by his own genius; who, in the abyss of his thoughts, hasn't given himself over to the "wave of passions"; who hasn't struck his pale and dishevelled brow and astonished mankind with a sorrow whose name neither he, nor it, knows

Another final, but important point to make is Le Bon's distinction between theoretical and practical philosophy. I'll spam a quote in the next post and take a nap.

[Anonymous No.15447314]

>>15447297
From the introduction to The Psychology of Crowds;

>It will then be seen that the teachings of pure reason are very often contrary to those of practical reason. There are scarcely any data, even physical, to which this distinction is not applicable. From the point of view of absolute truth a cube or a circle are invariable geometrical figures, rigorously defined by certain formulas. From the point of view of the impression they make on our eye these geometrical figures may assume very varied shapes. By perspective the cube may be transformed into a pyramid or a square, the circle into an ellipse or a straight line. Moreover, the consideration of these fictitious shapes is far more important than that of the real shapes, for it is they and they alone that we see and that can be reproduced by photography or in pictures. In certain cases there is more truth in the unreal than in the real. To present objects with their exact geometrical forms would be to distort nature and render it unrecognisable.

What I'm trying to get at, is that life might look dreadful on paper, but it's not really all that bad.

[Anonymous No.15447320]

>>15447314
not op,thanks dear anon i'm gonna have more stuff to dig into !

[Anonymous No.15447527]

>>15441170
Study zen, forget everything. It wasn't helpful anyways.

[Anonymous No.15447561]

>>15441248
>drink nothing but hard liquor and water, walk at least 10 miles a day.

This reads like a guide on how to turn into a slav.

[Anonymous No.15447648]

>>15445853
fuck off butterfly

[Anonymous No.15447666]

>>15447561
muh slav meme xD let's squat and drink anon what a random meme !
fuck the slavs

[Anonymous No.15448046]

>>15447666
no

[Anonymous No.15448140]

>>15441170
U cant

[Anonymous No.15448225]

>>15441170
You don't read to escape it but mainly to understand you're not alone coping with it

[Anonymous No.15448248]

>Whitehead demonstrated to me the conditionality of consciousness and how the vedantic atman was still not the Absolute.

which book is that?

[Anonymous No.15448270]

>>15448248
his rebuttal of the substance destroys the Vedic atman-brahman
learn about process theology

[Anonymous No.15448427]

>>15448225

[Anonymous No.15448495]

>>15441170
>>15445840
the universe is a differentiation of a single substance. space and time are part of that. the brain (possibly) its height. we are the height of its differentiation, the furthest from god. abominable. everything Other that is created from One is differentiation.

[Anonymous No.15448624]

>>15448495
>t. Brainlet plotinusfag

[Anonymous No.15449231]

>>15448624
Kek

[Anonymous No.15449265]

>>15443595
>Big Rip
If you split quark pairs then you just create two more quark pairs :^)

[Anonymous No.15449589]

>>15441170
have sex

[Anonymous No.15450469]

>>15449589
Lmao

[Anonymous No.15450832]

>>15449589
No

[Anonymous No.15451052]

How do I start to be like you guys
Where did you all learn of all of this

[Anonymous No.15451084]

>>15451052
I'm saying it made me depressed.
And you want to go down the same path?

[Anonymous No.15451175]

>>15441170
Here's the real answer:

Killing yourself is boring. That's it. No matter how hard they try, no genius edgelord will ever be able overcome the sheer boringness of death. You know that you live, but when you die that is the end of what you can know. Pardon the pun, but Afterlife be damned for the moment; it'll be there, and by god/gods/no-god it'll be there a long time. What's important is that there is experience here in this life, and there may not be outside of it. When you leave this realm, you leave permanently. Do you really want to give up you actual only chance to literally do ANYTHING?

I've been past the brink of suicidality and I've returned scarred but wiser. Learn from my mistakes and those of others, and rise higher than all those whose shoulders you stand on.

[Anonymous No.15451632]

>>15451084
I don't think it'd make me depressed
I don't know what the Absolute is

[Anonymous No.15452238]

>>15441170
If you truly have "doom" then you'd realise it's just depression, you'll seek help or wallow in hte depression

[Anonymous No.15453091]

Just keep looking for a reason anon, you have failed several times, just keep failing and fighting until you eventually die. That's what I do and it has worked for me

[Anonymous No.15453133]

>>15441170
>Theodore Kaczsynki explained to me why because of the techno-industrial society nothing will improve in the near future.

Nothing a tranny homosexual dog rapist has to say os of any interest. Maybe Uncle Ted has a high IQ and good verbal skills in which to rationalize his lack of ability to cope, but at the end of the day he raped AT LEAST one dog to death with a knife, another with a gun, and smeared his own shit on several others. He just wasn't charged with all that because they had him on all those murders.

Fuck him.

In fact, if I ever read in the news that anyone in prison with him fucks Uncle Ted with a knife the way Ted fucked that dog, I will send him a carton of cigarettes. Two cartons if he says "Woof woof" to him afterwards.

[Anonymous No.15453191]

We need a resurgence of romanticism. All of those forces you're talking about are rooted in materialism.

[Anonymous No.15453196]

>>15441170
Go ask Nietzsche about Will to Power.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVoCKLyt2uw

[Anonymous No.15453217]

>>15453133
Are you the faggot that keeps spamming that shit? Last year we had Ted threads without any of this bullshit. kys faggot

[Anonymous No.15453306]

>>15453191
good luck practicing romanticism while not born into wealth. that's how you end up homeless on the streets of san francisco or dying in the woods

[Anonymous No.15453342]

>>15453133
keep skipping your meds, schizoposter, I enjoy your work

[Anonymous No.15453455]

Read Aristotle and Spinoza. You need to realize that there is profundity that isn't dramatic or edgy - maybe a bit drier but more far more practical and comprehensive.
You also need to critically think through everyone you read enough to the point where your interpretation of whatever they were right about is your interpretation and your brain isn't just regurgitating other people's thoughts. If you read Heraclitus, why aren't you thinking more dynamically?
You should be prepared enough before anything you read that even if it is a blackpill and has merit, you have way of thinking where its truth is fundamentally incomplete because many of the thinkers you listed are interesting but really aren't comprehensive enough to base a worldview around. To digest philosophy healthily and maturely you have to be an individual enough thinker not to get knocked off your horse by someone else's speculations, or if you do to be able to get back on.
Being sad or happy isn't proof or an effect of the possession of theoretical truth - it doesn't necessarily indicate intellectual honesty to be depressed - but the latter indicates the possession and practice of practical truth.

[Anonymous No.15453471]

>>15441170

you seem more like an attention whore than someone suffering from suicidal ideation

[Anonymous No.15453674]

>>15443595
Universe is breathing. The heat death is just the universe inhaling and exhaling. It’s cyclical.

[Anonymous No.15453992]

sounds like its time to explore entheogens OP

[Anonymous No.15453993]

>>15453455
I have a big problem with that, I am afraid of starting with philosophy because I think I literally don't have critical thinking, it doesn't matter how much I read, I am never able of elaborate anything original or authentic, despite understanding all what I read, I guess I am just completely unable to think by myself. Is there a way of improving this or I am doomed to be ignorant for the rest of my life?

[Anonymous No.15454368]

>>15453993
nigga i'm npc too, i think we are overexposed to analysis and people thinking for us , i asked the same question and got recommended that i walk the greek path
what worked was i was reading dawkins' the selfish gene book , which is a good book if you are interested but any nonefiction would do what i did was at the end of every chapter i opened a word doc and started typing what the author said and what i thought about it ,i can link u the absolute mediocrity that was this doc but what i felt was great ! i can't wait to jump into the mythology book and after that plato
gradually dear anon we will become people ! don't give up friendo

[Anonymous No.15454378]

>>15453993
>>15454368
https://easyupload.io/dxo7z6
i linked this so you can see how primitive and really dumb it sounds but that's just the start
is making a book report the answer ? unfortunately yes !

[Anonymous No.15454506]

>>15453992
I cant
Drug cause me violent bad trip
Even soft drugs like weed

[Anonymous No.15454819]

THE INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION IS BAAAD WE SHOULD GET BACK TO HUNTING AND DIE AT 15 YEARS OLD AFTER FUCKING ALL THE CHILDREN IN THE VILLAGE!!!!!!

[Anonymous No.15454831]

>>15454819
Yes

[Anonymous No.15454886]

>>15454819
yep.

[Anonymous No.15455112]

>>15454819
Based

[Anonymous No.15455267]

No

[Anonymous No.15455331]

>>15441170
Impossible

[Anonymous No.15456463]

>>15455112

[Anonymous No.15456779]

>>15456463
No

[Anonymous No.15457316]

>>15441170
unironically this >>15441248

[Anonymous No.15457388]

>>15441170
have you read the bible yet?

[Anonymous No.15457540]

>>15457388
yes
see:
>>15442765

[Anonymous No.15458157]

>>15441170
Have you tried converting your nihilistic energy into a sense of liberation?

[Anonymous No.15458985]

>>15458157
what? how

[Anonymous No.15459018]

>>15441170
All you need is some Theology and Geometry.

[Anonymous No.15459212]

>>15442597
It's just a last chance for those burnt out on stoics and nietzsche.

[Anonymous No.15459289]

Drop everything and try to join the French Foreign Legion.
Kill yourself if that fails.

[Anonymous No.15459417]

>>15458985

[Anonymous No.15459466]

>>15454368
>>15454378
Thank you anon, I will try. I always hated doing book reports in HS, but if it is the only way of stop being subhuman I will do it

[Anonymous No.15459595]

>>15458985
Just think about it. Isn't it comforting knowing things do not matter? I think it is. Shit happens and you think, "such is life", whatever happens happens; what are you going to do about it? So much effort is put into being negative, I don't think it deserves much thought. It's not like you cant change what has happened.

[chr21328 No.15459668]

>>15441170
Stop thinking in a single Frame, and see the Movie. Read Lighting and the Sun by Devi. You cannot give up, since you need to fight for what is Right. See your self as nobody.

[chr21328 No.15459672]

>>15441170
>vedantic atman
Jiva + Ajiva + Isvara

[chr21328 No.15459679]

>>15441223
>read Kierkegaard
Also consider Siddartha

[Anonymous No.15459700]

>>15451175
>death is ennui
>life is ennui
I wish I knew how to solve the second statement so that it is no longer true.

[chr21328 No.15459701]

>>15441370
>reincarnated
Stream of Awareness and binding Karmas.

[chr21328 No.15459710]

>>15441483
>perception
I think that it better viewed as sender message receiver. The sender being the Almighty,the message - The Matter manifested in fractal form through the aether. The Soul is the receiver. 3 Step, and then the Receiver sends his reaction to the sender.

[chr21328 No.15459724]

>>15441743
>Realize that everything is exactly as it should be, and that your expectations are delusional
Yes.

[Anonymous No.15459747]

>>15454506
>weed
Weed is shit, do DMT

[Anonymous No.15459762]

I don’t know any smart brainiacs whose beliefs I can put into their mouthes to make it sound smarter so I’ll just leave you with something that helped me:

>having a mental breakdown and posting on /sp/ (terrible combo) about how I was going to kill myself on a livestream
>some German faggot comments something to the effect of “do it faggot, I’ll laugh at you burning in hell like I laugh at every coward who resorts to suicide, I won’t feel bad for you and I hope it hurts”
>be so taken aback and utterly offended at this fucking German faggot that I completely lose the desire to off myself just to spite him

Ever since then I decided I wouldn’t give that sociopathic incel German the satisfaction of getting to live on and laugh at me and instead will live as long as I possibly can no matter how bad it gets so I can be the one laughing when he’s dead. Don’t give the German the satisfaction of laughing at you OP.

[Anonymous No.15459798]

>>15459417
Explain