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15283484 No.15283484[DELETED]  [Reply] [Original]

Why was it so easy for me to spend hours reading at a time as a kid but now its almost impossible?

>> No.15283489

>>15283484
You can’t stop thinking about death, because it’s more inevitable now than before.

And it only gets worse

>> No.15283494

>>15283489
No, it's because the books he read as a kid were fucking easy to read

>> No.15283502

You must reclaim what was lost,

>> No.15283546

smart phones and social media has ruined your attention span

>> No.15283556

>>15283546
and porn.
and when you were a kid you didn't think of sex all the time

>> No.15283987

As you've continued living and encountered troubles in life, emotional turmoil that you were not able to fully deal with in the moment, your body and psyche has accumulated trauma. This trauma, the pain and hurt you experienced, now exists in your subconscious mind. At the same time your conscious mind has created an ego - a self to show the world - adapted to the trauma you experienced. Thus, your self is now protected, but at the cost of a deep separation. A wall created between what can and what cannot experience. You resist feeling those painful emotions again as a mechanism for survival.

This continues on, and you banish more and more parts of yourself, adapting further, creating a stronger shield and face to show the world until eventually it becomes inevitable: you begin to hate yourself. You consider what you are to be wrong because of what has happened to you. The pain that never went away continues in the deep corners of your mind. It begins to color your experience and your surrounding life begins to change - its quality slowly deteriorating with your self perception. Things you once enjoyed such as reading, things you know are good for you, become harder to take part in because inside you hate yourself.

What you want has now become wrong, because what you feel has now become wrong. The carefree, effortlessness of the child replaced by the adult who knows better. No longer so vulnerable, impressionable, or terribly foolish. The innocent expression gone, the laughter and acceptance gone. The world becomes smaller as your self image of what is allowed becomes more and more narrow. But the pain is leading you back - back to a place you once lost, back to the happiness once abandoned - winding like a road to where an answer might lie, where the self that was forgotten stands with open arms, waiting to be embraced and joined together once again.

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15284012

>>15283987
>Thus, your self is now protected, but at the cost of a deep separation. A wall created between what can and what cannot experience. You resist feeling those painful emotions again as a mechanism for survival.
Hit me hard

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15284038

>>15283987

>> No.15284058

>>15283484

Back then you read hack works by shitty childrens authors, junk food for the brain. Now you're trying to read Nietzsche for meme points and of course you're not getting into it.

>> No.15284075

>>15283556
I can't stop touching my dick, I wake up and my dick is squirming all over the place begging to be abused. If I don't touch myself my dick starts screaming, I can genuinely hear high pitched sine waves coming from my urethra, sometimes it's a deep voice and that scares me. This is why I, OP, cannot read I am stupid, I am retarded, I am a cuck.

>> No.15284085

>>15283546
>>15283556
The simple truth.
>>15283987
A complex lie. Not as esoteric as you think and not even remotely profound. Don't quit your day job