Write what's on your mind

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Anonymous Sat Nov 2 00:56:55 2019 No.14097908 [Reply] [Original]

Write what's on your mind

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 00:57:54 2019 No.14097910 Oh my Laura, my Florida, my Dolores. How long must I wait for you?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 00:58:53 2019 No.14097914 File: 203 KB, 700x560, FcvrN1eMqr8.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] art edition. show ur favorire paintings

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:08:00 2019 No.14097937

I thought about "making the best" of Friday night but what's the point? Stick my dick in someone, drink and socialize, blah blah. What I really should do is write. It's my religion. I'm going to be up all night and nobody is going to bother me or talk to me or want my attention or anything. Why do I feel this compulsion to "go out"? Don't I have my own designs, missions, obsessional agendas?

I know what it means to slog through life like a zombie without purpose or directive. All along my redemption has been staring me in the face. How I have feared being alone, when productive solitude used to mean the universe to me. There are few things as proud and beautiful as the solitary mind in possession of its full powers executing its vision in the bliss of contemplation.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:09:10 2019 No.14097943 >>14097937 >What I really should do is write What’s the point?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:13:45 2019 No.14097952 >>14097943 I feel I have something to say. And I want to say it. It feels good to say it. A special kind of good. That's the point.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:16:11 2019 No.14097959

>>14097937
based. if i want to have a great evening, i start cooking something, smoke some weed, watch something from my watchlist, possibly draw, then read before bed (something light and funny enough to enjoy while stoned) and sleep like an angel tucked me in.
i wake up at 7-9 fresh and rested, while my friends who drank that night are in ill slumber.

hedonism is about YOUR personal pleasures, not what's stereotypically counts as pleasure.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:17:45 2019 No.14097966 >>14097959 >hedonism is about YOUR personal pleasures, not what's stereotypically counts as pleasure. not everyone is the same. You people are delusional. And I say that as someone who never does drugs or parties or socializes in any form. Hypocrites.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:19:26 2019 No.14097976 >>14097959 what* in last paragraph > There are few things as proud and beautiful as the solitary mind in possession of its full powers executing its vision in the bliss of contemplation. fully ascended and eloquency-pilled. keep going, king.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:20:56 2019 No.14097982 >>14097966 bruv, i said "do what you truly like and not what normies think is fun" how is it hypocritical

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:29:41 2019 No.14097998

Oh, Eyes of wisdom that are there to behold this all seeing wonder in the ineffability of its miserable tenacity.
A vision of Art : the creative spark shines in a purposeless free play of understanding and intuition called beauty.
Life is like art, to those who witness it well. A form of imaginary grandeur.
Humanity differs from the Divine in its sheer practicality but must eventually succumb to the sublime quixotic idealism chiseled in onyx since time immemorial.
The common point of view of man; common sense. Perhaps the soul simply wants to be heard and felt. Maybe just known to be true for what it was. Yes, you can give and give of yourself, but even the most selfless of us had a bank account, like mother teresa. No real reason to nickle and dime the downtrodden man. He sees his effort for what it is, futile.
Although, there is some human truth to being an absolute rationalist. Beyond the mirage, an oasis. Straight to the letter with thee. Hold fast for help is on the way. Time is limited here, we are drawing to a close.

, oh, cherry apple blossom. With rose tinted glasses the church of science has faltered. "Heat death" they call it. We need a new church. A church of mysticism. One where the universe doesn't die, it is reborn.
Humanity in a now defunct system is what it is good for, survival. But more so than that, we have been sent on a mission. To bang on the door of the Creator Himself.

Open up! We know you're in there!

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:51:00 2019 No.14098041
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I never asked for much, I've always pretended to be nice and appropriate when my rage rose. I've never swore at or hurt anyone that didn't deserve it. I've never drinked or did drugs or engage in the entropy, the fetishes around me. I've never stooped to their level. So why am I the only one that has suffer so much? Why do I always have to cut off the best of me and give it to people that never deserved it? Why do I have to sacrifice so much when I get nothing but pain? I'll never get the answers and i'll always have to deal with this the rest of my life. I've always chosen to be greater then what I've suffered but I've also been letting my anger and cruelty build for years with no safe way to release it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:52:30 2019 No.14098049 I miss my dad.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 01:58:29 2019 No.14098062 I am in love with my dominatrix. This really isn't surprising and is almost expected. The crazy thing is I think she might love me too. I'm also not entirely convinced she exists

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 02:02:37 2019 No.14098071

>>14098041
You think you deserve something for acting the way you are supposed to? Should God come down from heaven and granted you three wishes for doing some good deeds? What separates moral people from people who just do good things is that moral people dont think they deserve shit when the do the right thing

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 02:13:24 2019 No.14098107

>>14097908
I'm a terrible person, it's kind of surreal. I'm so braindead and selfinvolved that I rarely realize just how fucking awful I've been to my family, friends, girlfriends, random people I've met.

I've done such an insane quantity of evil shit and barely anybody has ever called me out on it. Even if I ever go to jail for some of the things that might have been found out it would be a fraction of the total.

And the weirdest shit is that all i do every day is obsess over purity of goodness, about how i could be the best most moral person ever, about what that even means, it's my most most intense obsession, how to be perfectly good in this world, and im just this shitheap of a person that has never been nice to anybody.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 02:28:13 2019 No.14098135

>>14098071
I could live like this forever, without any compromise to my life. I'm not fucking asking for a reward. I'm not asking that God make it any easier. I'm saying i'm enraged by the entropy around me and why do I have give to it anything? Why do I have feed it pieces of my soul so it could just fucking create more people to blasphemy against the good, against God. You really don't fucking know how bad things really are. To be a child today and make it to teenagehood without losing their innocence would be a miracle of itself.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 02:28:44 2019 No.14098138
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>>14097908
Alright.
Here's the thing.
I just dropped my fucking phone and the upper part of the screen shattered.
Fuck my life, it was even new.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 02:34:34 2019 No.14098151 That foolish idiot thought ahe could antagonize me and get nothing in return. Oh, she has another thing coming. I hope I can get enough harassment so that she literally kills herself. I want to flip off her gravestone and leave graffiti on it.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:01:37 2019 No.14098215

>>14097908
I wonder if I should tell this girl, that I have a real connection with, that I would've asked her out on a date if we were in the same city. I've been feeling the urge to tell her, but is it even worth it? I'm fairly certain of two things: that I won't marry her (different ethnicity, and she's not sure about kids) and that I don't think we'll live in the same city anytime soon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:39:58 2019 No.14098304 File: 1.42 MB, 2576x1932, 20190723_145614.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14097908 I miss my ex's titties

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:40:52 2019 No.14098307 >>14098304 i miss your ex's tits too bro :'(

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:46:22 2019 No.14098319 I wish I was creative, I feel like an empty drawer.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:52:13 2019 No.14098332 >>14097937 >shoulding yourself Just do it, or don't.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 03:52:48 2019 No.14098334 File: 92 KB, 1238x797, blade-runner-2049.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14098304 >tfw no ex's tiddies to miss

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 04:34:16 2019 No.14098415
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I always had to pick less shitty option out of two. Now that im free to do anything i want - i have no idea what to pursue because i dont feel drawn to any idea (i feel like standing in vacuum). Any book recommendations regarding this problem?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 04:37:23 2019 No.14098421 >>14098062 > I'm also not entirely convinced she exists are you in online relationships or schizo? also good luck with your love brother

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 04:43:47 2019 No.14098436 >>14098415 a cosmos of countless possibilities it is, just shed some light and you will see. there are hobbies that don't require much money or years of practice, and aren't boring normie stuff, like trainspotting, bookbinding, volunteering, etc

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 04:49:00 2019 No.14098447
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>>14097908
I rearranged my bookshelf today and just seeing what a pathetic clueless ooo-I've-heard-of-that-classic second hand book shop finds and philosophy that I barely understand and mystic literature that I am completely unworthy of made me feel with disgusting force the complete worthlessness of my mind and the little world of culture that I've created for myself, that this little me-tradition is just a whole load of sporadic, immature, stab-in-the-intellectual-dark nonsense, and that I can't help but resonate with Henry Adams words that our only recourse in realising our own abject weakness is to pray. That's how i feel today

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 04:51:46 2019 No.14098457 >>14098436 My problem is more in the category of "not feeling any pull into any direction". I tried bunch of stuff back in the day but nothing stuck to me for a longer period.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 05:31:00 2019 No.14098546
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I cast this rune today, it's the thorn rune. It symbolizes destruction and defense. Furthermore, it stands for the will without self-consciousness. My interpretation is that this week will be known for something having to do with brute strength, so I'll be on the lookout for that. Now, I will go and hang this rune on my holy tree in the woods. I'll be back soon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 06:14:32 2019 No.14098657 Would YOU kill Dougherty? I'd kill Dougherty. I'd stab that mick fifty times.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 06:21:00 2019 No.14098674 >>14098334 kek I'm sorry kek you'll get there KEK

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 06:33:22 2019 No.14098698 File: 751 KB, 1920x800, 1565884390496.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14098334 GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 07:11:24 2019 No.14098780 >>14098546 you're the male equivalent of gemstone chick, pretty based if you ask me. hope you find a pagan gf

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:18:18 2019 No.14099033 >>14097908 right now, she is

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:31:51 2019 No.14099079

It's kind of disheartening to find out the author you so highly regarded (Dostovesky) is in fact a religious fanatic and reading his other works is now tainted by the fact he tries to insert as many religious symbolisms as possible. It's all so phony, Myshkin being Jesus christ, then there's sonya and Raskolnikov which is just a retelling of Lazarus from the Gospel of John (aka he died metaphorically but only when he resigned himself to god did he revive). It's everywhere!! So disingenuous! As if he were knocking on my doors trying to sell me Christianity. This doesn't help the fact that he was thoroughly against socialism/communism. Ugh. This entire fiasco just taints him in my eyes and I cannot hold the same respect I had for him previously. Not even sure I want to read brothers karamozov as it will probably be more religious shilling. Now this is has made me paranoid that perhaps he is so renounced is because it's jewish propaganda against communism. Fuck I dont know it's just so phony.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:34:38 2019 No.14099083 >>14099079 renowned not renounced

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:40:49 2019 No.14099109 >>14099079 How do you read enough Dosto to "highly regard" him without realizing this?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:40:53 2019 No.14099110 >>14099079 why do the themes of christianity seem to sully it for you? im not a christshill btw. hindu but dosto has spoken to me quite a bit

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:42:29 2019 No.14099116 Mary is beautiful in that painting

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:46:30 2019 No.14099125

>>14098135
Still sounds like you're asking for a reward since you were not joining in the debauchery around you. Why all the angst? If you believe you are on the straight and narrow, be content that you'll make it and others will not. But outwardly saying this or showing this will make you look like a holier-than-thou prude. Damned if you do and Damned if you don't.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:47:58 2019 No.14099132

>>14097908
I'm tired of people talking about the collapse. I'm tired of everyone fearmongering about climate change or a civil war with reemerging fascism while gleefully binging their netflix shows and buying tickets to their marvel movies.I don't intend to put myself above these people, as I'm here, on an image board, instead of rioting in the streets or preaching on a street corner. Our masters are smarter than us, and they know exactly how to take advantage of our base desires in order to further their interests. There wont be a collapse, they'll never allow it. But there is already a decline, in education, in quality of life, in quality of contact with your fellow man.

In 1988, the average worker worked 38 hours a week and made roughly the same wages as the modern worker, who toils for an average of 47 hours a week.

The average family spends 34 minutes a day together, while the average toddler spends 2 and a half hours a day in front of a screen. The concept of indulgence, of 'bingeing', is so commonplace and encouraged in our culture that entire advertising campaigns are built around the phrase.

This is our decadence. There will never be a collapse, so long as people are giving their bread and circuses. There will only be the continued decline.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:48:47 2019 No.14099134

>>14099109
Because the underground man spoke to me? Esp the first portion. But all his works thereafter is repackaged works of the same motifs and ideas.

>>14099110
I'm very marxist and anti religion. But more so because since finding out of his religious convictions, I see it everywhere in his writings and it's rather off putting. It's like he writes his novels just to preach......

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 08:51:35 2019 No.14099148

>>14098546
Do people actually believe this shit? I'm always baffled when I notice these "expanded mind" Wiccans and pagans with their baubles and their rituals. With regards to your rune, doesn't it sound like a self fulfilling prophecy that something "destructive" or having to do with "defending" something may happen in the near future? I may have to defend my sandwich from a destructive seagull for all I care, and that fits the criteria of it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:07:31 2019 No.14099212 What is /lit/‘s favorite manga & anime?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:21:45 2019 No.14099277 >>14099134 >religious man bases his novels around faith repent marxist

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:24:00 2019 No.14099287 >>14099148 As I read the runes, the runes read me also

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:24:44 2019 No.14099291 >>14099134 Holy shit, I thought you posted a reddit copypasta. Well done.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:32:22 2019 No.14099321 File: 8 KB, 222x227, Question.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14099287 Could you elaborate a bit more so the layman could figure out what you just meant by "runes reading you"?

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:37:40 2019 No.14099347

>>14099134
if you're a marxist you should recognize the historical and material context in which dosto wrote and understand why he became so deeply religious. further, you can be "anti-religious" and still appreciate religious tradition and symbolism from a historical, aesthetic, and literary perspective.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 09:53:38 2019 No.14099416 >>14099321 he's insane.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 10:23:44 2019 No.14099560 >>14097937 lol just go out and socialize, the world isn't as boring as you say that it is. You're glorifying being alone, when your nature is obviously telling you otherwise.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 11:57:40 2019 No.14099966

Why the fuck do normies bitch endlessly about daylight savings time? It literally has no effect on me, other than changing when I have to close the curtain so the light isn't in my eyes. I've seen multiple "news articles" (the absolute STATE of newsmedia) just today about "how to adjust to the time change". What does that even mean? The change even happens on the weekend so you're a retailwagie you don't even have to get up early or anything.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:03:28 2019 No.14099991

>>14099321

The runes posses divine knowledge. When you read about a rune you just cast, you inevitably connect to the divine will within you. It's comparable to how tropes work. A writer writes down a piece of literature, you read it, and then you internalize its meaning. The runes work in the same manner. As I read up on the meaning of the runes, they make me aware of certain parts of reality that I wouldn't have noticed. The runes in this way are an instrument to structure a future state that I will live in. Often, this future state will have something to do with something I'm planning to do or that I'm desiring to do. The runes put me in touch with these plans and desires, which means that I have the ability to observe my own thoughts for a short moment through them. Thus, as I read the meaning of the runes, I gain a slight insight of the thoughts that are within me

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:13:36 2019 No.14100031 >>14099966 you in the southern hemisphere? it can be a very noticeable difference for people who get up early, of course everyone adjusts eventually but some people really do feel it

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:16:02 2019 No.14100044 Correcting university papers is fucking awful. Never go into teaching boys

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:40:44 2019 No.14100167 File: 455 KB, 600x400, 28russia-painting-2-articleLarge.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14098447 Yeah. I can relate

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:43:09 2019 No.14100186 >>14100044 I certainly fucking won't. My disdain for educational institutions is eternal

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:48:42 2019 No.14100212 >>14098447 > literature that I am completely unworthy of watch today: anon bullies himself over his own books in his own house

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:49:16 2019 No.14100214 Convince me not to buy a new pokemon game to kill time. I really feel like playing something but I also think that it isn't the best use of my time, especially at Uni.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 12:58:39 2019 No.14100267
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So why do I see 28 all the time? why does it follow me? what does it mean? What does it want from me? to be reborn, to crack, to become something more, something beautiful, to open my head you will see, a yellow eye peeking, is it mad or sad? what do I fear so much to become this way? why do I have a distaste for the gnawing sound behind my little ears? A sense of control, the urge of eating, the feeling of sloth, the taste of something dead? I'm scared, it's true, I want nothing more then to be truly perfect, no, even normal, to feel the pride of being a son, to be considered human, but how can I be perfect when I'm not even normal enough to have a value in flesh, it's something I will never be no matter how much I try, and it's driving me mad? I can't truly trust the things I experience but they're all real, I just don't know which one to believe in, I can't trust anyone,the experience, knowledge, the perspective, the senses, feeling betray me and so do the memories, the head won't talk, and nor myself for what I always lie? I can't learn because I don't believe which one to believe but so I believe? I can't choose which reality to live in, should I chose? would be a mistake, I can't express,write or draw what I truly feel for I don't know what I feel, is it only hatred? I don't care about anyone other than myself even if I hate myself the most in this world, even so I believe I'm the most perfect? one that exists, compared to everyone else, even when I'm not considered to be human, and will never really accomplish or be anything in my whole pathetic life, I still truly believe that that I have more value than every person combined, is it because I'm the only real one here, If I really had to choose to die or kill ever single person alive with my own hands I would no doubt do it,no, I would do it for the world, for people that beg me to end this, I would do it as mercy, I truly believe it with every fiber in my being, so tell me.. does this betray me too?

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:01:32 2019 No.14100284

The spirit is strong but the flesh is weak. I will countinue with the struggle of daily matter living. I believe on day I will achieve greatness but the spirit of the depth tells me I am nothing special, just a bird caught in an its egoic cage. I cant even writ-

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:01:52 2019 No.14100286 >>14100267 extremely based schizo prose. from now on, instead of 28, you'll see 29. congratulations on your first promotion!

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:05:24 2019 No.14100304 >>14097908 nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger nigger

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:05:56 2019 No.14100310 >>14100284 spiritof the depth? sounds more like the devil whispering to lure you into sloth and self-hate, probbing your mind and will, trying to shatter your soul and self. ignore it and stay strong, king

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:11:42 2019 No.14100338 >>14100286 That's something that has already been done, it was a day i was reborn, for the better or worse, but i do appreciate it that you can see.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:14:27 2019 No.14100358 >>14100267 yo look at the post number below yours

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:16:35 2019 No.14100369 File: 292 KB, 486x552, 1568299634206.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14100044 mfw I correct a paper and see Wikipedia qutoed as "Unknown (2019)"

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:16:46 2019 No.14100370 >>14100358 To see it truly brings a tear to my eye.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:17:57 2019 No.14100382

>>14100338
well i hope it was for the better.
i felt like you a while ago, but then ascended to not care about anything at all, unless i want to.
this mindset is unbreakable and irrefutable, no doubts and eternal questions dissolving your sanity, as you simply do not give a fuck if something is or isn't.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:28:34 2019 No.14100434 >>14100267 rolling

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:28:48 2019 No.14100435

>>14100310
Thank you, I appreciate this and really needed it. In all our struggles in daily life let us not forget that it the emotional experience and the human contentedness that is most important. Rich men and philosophers have killed themselves and gone insane from perusing false egoistic consciousness. I hope you have a good day, not even that, a good rest of your life anon. Lets share some kindness in this odd cesspit.

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Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:31:41 2019 No.14100446

>>14100382
Yes, let's see how long it will be able to continue with this facade, let the whole wide world see what kind of sound it makes when it hatches, let it take a little peek, let's all see what's inside the cracking little egg, let's see what I'm so afraid of.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:35:25 2019 No.14100459 >>14100434 I like it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:38:32 2019 No.14100472 >>14100459 I'm loosing it, the 28, my blood is close, they can't see, i won't allow it, not yet, there is still something i need to do before that happends, I am normal.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:39:33 2019 No.14100479
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>>14100446
in all honesty, i do not feel like this approach is rooted in delusion or ignorance, or like i'm just putting something off for later.
i accept things, i aknowledge reality, yet stay inert to it. i feel truly calm and austere, at peace.
let it hatch, but stay uninvolved. be an observer.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:40:17 2019 No.14100483

>>14098135
You're observations are correct. But you still have to put your pants on and go to work in the morning. There's a lot of social sickness, but you do everyone good by keeping a stiff upper lip and accomplishing your responsibilities.

I clearly see what you're getting at, and you are not alone. Many thousands of people see things exactly as you do. Things may or may not get better, but many are awakening to the nature of things.

In the mean time, keep hustling, and find a hobby that gives you meaning. I suggest that you find a church.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:47:25 2019 No.14100517 File: 69 KB, 680x469, d62.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >tfw becoming a /biz/-tier crypto daytrader how has my life taken this progression

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 13:47:27 2019 No.14100519

>>14099991
Sorry to ruin the magic out of it, but it sounds a lot like the Baader-Meinhof phenomenon. You hear something new, and now it's everywhere. A self fulfilling prophecy. You're getting told that something destructive or something relating to defense will happen in the near future. Lo and behold, you take into account every event that happens under that lens. https://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/human-brain/baader-meinhof-phenomenon.htm

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:05:44 2019 No.14100580

>>14100479
I talked to me, but yes i see none, It might even be a good way to go,but for myself the delusion and ignorance is something i need to survive, to protect myself, even if i don't want it i can't change it, putting something off for later is hard, atleast when the core of all my suffering and delusion is something i simply can't change, to accept all this is something i won't do no matter how many times i break, aknowledge reality,which one, but ahhh that i do, and it brings me nothing more than hatred, stay inert to it, this i don't have a choice in, I'm powerless and it brings me to the brick of insanity,truly the disgust is unimaginable, calm? austere? If i truly have the chance, even a second i would do so, but that is sadly something impossible, i sure will wait for the hatching but it needs something to grow and that is my suffering, my madness, my fear and my insecurities, I can be nothing more than a observer, that's why I'm here after all and i will enjoy every little bit of it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:20:04 2019 No.14100631 I rub my balls with mortadella It makes my dinkie salty and smell-a

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:47:11 2019 No.14100723
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>>14097908

I write but it's never good enough. I draw but it's never good enough. It try to do both and try to improve it for years and it's still never good enough. I try to explain the thoughts in my head but they'll always be such a jumbled mess that, by the reactions of the people I'm trying to reach, I'll never know if those ideas were every really worth trying to express in the first place.

But I can't stop because they're the only things that keep me going and I can't stand idly by when I see other people with great work get ignored and with shit work get praised. Somehow I can't get it through my head that I shouldn't be one to judge since I haven't gotten my feet off the ground to begin with.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:48:50 2019 No.14100729 File: 171 KB, 826x1024, kpiMbRrKX4M.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14100580 absolutely doomsday pilled, no going back once you go over the edge. just peek over it - the chaos awaits

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:50:23 2019 No.14100739 I wish I were nicer. I'm not mean, I'm just not nice. I want to soften my edge if you will.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 14:50:25 2019 No.14100740 The previous thread had a better vibe. Is it because the Halloween theme was still on? I love that theme, it should stay for a few more days

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:00:47 2019 No.14100775 >>14100723 I know this very well,If you don't mind me asking, do you have autism, speech impairment or schizophrenia, or maybe all of it with some sprinkles? >I sure got a slight feeling of Deja Vu.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:01:52 2019 No.14100782 >>14099132 I like you. You can see what's up. I share your anguish. We're in this hopeless situation and everybody just acts like this is what life is supposed to be and there is not a damn thing we can do about it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:17:16 2019 No.14100859 File: 346 KB, 752x784, 15675351423794.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14100729 Oh i will sooner or later.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:19:05 2019 No.14100864
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I want to travel the world with my monster buddy catching other monsters and training them to battle other people with their own monsters.

You then fight in specific centers to prove your worth until you finally reach the championships where you duke it out with other contenders until you become the master.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:36:14 2019 No.14100941 >>14097908 had a really good night with my friends last night. going to go see the movie Parasite in an hour or so, really looking forward to it.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 15:50:04 2019 No.14101009

Oh dear. The sky is brighter at night now than it was last week. Someone should be shot for this treachery against God's natural order. I couldn't see the face in the stars with all that unnatural light. And yet their image burns my mind's eye. 1 star to mark their forehead, 2 stars to make two eyes, and 3 stars to manifest a knowing smile. This is the nature of stars, they know what we cannot. The hollistic nature of the individual is unknowable to us, as we cannot know everyone else. The stars can. The stars can know everyone, updating it's model every 24 hours. The stars can know who we are (from the nighttime confessions of others), why we are (from their shrouded (clouded) intimacy with the heavens), and how we are (from the nature of humanities hollisitic collisions that we cannot truly view as a whole). The only thing the stars can't know is when and where we are, for time and space are creations of the hetetical scientific soul, and the divine knows it needs only the spiritual. I wish all could see the face in the sky, rather than simplistic space in the sky. He demands retribution.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 16:45:37 2019 No.14101283 >>14098546 Wishing you peace and prosperity, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:04:04 2019 No.14101393 File: 17 KB, 225x225, download (1).jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] just downloaded a bunch of pics with letter n

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:06:19 2019 No.14101400

i love her so much and I could see spending forever with her but she has problems with drinking too much and i think she might have an eating disorder. What should i do /r9k/? I want to help her but i fear that i'll get too emotionally involved and just get fucked over//

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:06:41 2019 No.14101404 Would it be bad if I did the Orthodox Cross (I'm Orthodox) in a Catholic Mass?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:08:39 2019 No.14101411 I desperately want to kill myself. I already have a plan on how to do it. My only issue at this point is my recent turn to Christianity. I don't want to be punished eternally for trying to escape this suffering.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:11:09 2019 No.14101423 >>14101404 Yes. The priest would immediately activate his stand and start beating your ass.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:18:02 2019 No.14101464 >>14101404 You doing the cross in the opposite direction of everyone else created a cyclon that drizzled chill vibe on the entire parish. It's a little-known mass trick the Vatican doesn't like to talk about.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:18:22 2019 No.14101465 >>14101411 That's why you shouldn't do it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:20:58 2019 No.14101481 >>14101465 But I'm at my wit's end. I'm a horrible person, my life is a mess, I have never been happy in my entire life. I don't know what else I can do at this point other than hang myself.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:21:11 2019 No.14101482
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Front lawns are a perfect example of the stupid "work for work's sake" mentality that pervades American culture. If you mow your front lawn, you are seen as a hard-working and responsible homeowner. If you don't, you're seen as lazy and possibly a danger to the rest of the neighborhood. Front lawns are everywhere in urban and suburban American, but the vast majority of people here don't actually use them for anything. The only real purpose front lawns have is to be mowed, and the only purpose that mowing has is to demonstrate to the rest of the society how hard-working the owner of the lawn is.
If I ever buy a house, I'm going to tear up the front lawn and replace it with a native plant garden. The neighborhood association would probably try to stop me, though. Maybe I'll move to a county where there aren't any front lawns.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:22:29 2019 No.14101491 At which point is self-publishing a good idea? How many rejections? How many books? How few fucks?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:24:46 2019 No.14101499 >>14101482 Why do we tolerate the weed known as grass? It serves no human purpose other than to look pretty, and it isn't exactly doing an outstanding job of it.

Tryb yesu Sat Nov 2 17:25:27 2019 No.14101502

>>14097908
Am high as a kite a shitty 3rd word country,(Uganda).my hom6mie just hot me in VIP. Annons for slipting moment i didn't think of ending it all. Am happy. Lit is full of Pretenious fags forcing a boring book upon each other. If its boring leave it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:27:00 2019 No.14101516 >>14101499 >and it isn't exactly doing an outstanding job of it. yeah, it fucking is. what's the alternative, dirt, sand, stone? fuck you

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:28:17 2019 No.14101522 >>14101516 Fake turf. Why promote the growth of a useless weed? Fuck grass.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:29:19 2019 No.14101527 >>14101516 clover

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:31:23 2019 No.14101537 A bunch of random people ruined my life. I live with my mother and step-father who are insane. I just ate some Halloween candy and feel like shit.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:32:19 2019 No.14101539 >>14101522 grass is great, fuck you bitch, i'll fight you irl >>14101527 clover is great when it's part of a lawn with various kinds of grass and flowers

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:32:22 2019 No.14101541 File: 57 KB, 1280x720, k.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Now she's really gone Fucked things up and then she left So I'm here alone

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:33:26 2019 No.14101546 >>14101539 t. shill for big grass. Fuck grass nigga. You can't eat it, you cant fuck it, you can't even smell that shit unless you've just mutilated it. Fuck Grass

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:36:15 2019 No.14101559 >>14101546 t. has never fucked grass opinion dismissed, stupid loser

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:37:12 2019 No.14101566
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>>14101499
Don't lump all grasses in with their retarded mutant younger cousin, lawn grass.
Prairie grass is as beautiful as any flower. I'd make my front lawn look like pic related if I could.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:38:01 2019 No.14101567 >>14097908 Every 500 years there is a reformation in Christianity. This one has already begun.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:39:18 2019 No.14101577 >>14101546 based >>14101516 I live in the Southwest and that's the natural landscape so yes (also shrubbery and cacti of course)

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:44:52 2019 No.14101601 >>14097908 I am thinking that I heightened my state of existence (at least temporarily) by fasting for ~40 hours now and doing nothing but writing, playing piano and watching anime.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:52:24 2019 No.14101627

>>14097908
I wanna write more. Almost all the writing I did last week was in the form of 4chan and twitter posts.

I just read https://bookmarks.reviews/george-orwells-1940-review-of-mein-kampf/ and noticed how I'm unable to even write a review because I can't hold the book's ideas in my head for more than a page flip.

How the fuck do I write if I can't even read?

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:56:40 2019 No.14101642

>>14101481
Why not just keep on doing what you've been doing? Everybody is a horrible person. Just stick it out until the end. You're gonna die eventually anyway. And then you'll no longer have any control over your destiny. Try and enjoy the small things.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 17:56:41 2019 No.14101643 File: 50 KB, 768x522, jean-bernadotte-56a61b4f5f9b58b7d0dff1e8.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14101393 stealing the Emperor's letter? why you-

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:02:23 2019 No.14101683 >>14100214 im playing alpha sapphire for the first time since i was a kid playing it on gameboy and its pretty comfy.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:07:50 2019 No.14101710 >>14097908 Tired of the direction that the internet has been going on. Its all memes and shitposts. People don't do things for the passion of doing them, but just for the money.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:08:10 2019 No.14101713 >>14098546 Seattle false flag confirmed

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:21:34 2019 No.14101788 >>14101567 I don't know about Christianity as a whole but Catholicism sure seems to be changing. I'm honestly hoping for a more transparent institution and a return to esoteric roots over the next 50 years at least.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:25:50 2019 No.14101806

>>14101642
>Why not just keep on doing what you've been doing

Because the only reason I'm not homeless is because my step-mom lets me live in a house she owns, and my dad gives me money for food. That gravy train isn't going to last forever. I'm miserable every day of my existence, and I can't stand it anymore.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:29:26 2019 No.14101824
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>>14101788

I would like to see that too.

From what I can see amongst American Christianity, people like (love them or hate them);

Wm. Paul Young, David Bell, Brian Zahnd, and Bradley Jersak are helping to move people away from Evangelicalism.

David Gushee, Kathy Baldock, Matthew Vines, and Vicky Beeching are also helping to bring LGBT peoples to Christianity.

I predict that we are at the beginning of a massive shift.

Kanye West helped bring Christianity back to pop culture recently.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJYJXDTeKHo

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:32:19 2019 No.14101843 >>14098415 I doubt that there are books on this subject. Try therapist maybs there are deeper problems.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:44:31 2019 No.14101901

>>14101824
Seems to me that you're anxious about the future. This is what is causing you discomfort. You need to start coming up with strategies to take control of your life an gain independence. This is the only way you're going to feel better. Why don't you start applying for a job in retail or something ?

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:47:19 2019 No.14101917

>>14099134
Are you retarded or something? How does someone go into reading Dostoevsky without knowing he's a Christian? The most basic research on the guy will tell you that issues of faith and doubt are some of the most prominent themes of his work, and he's one of the most famous Orthodox Christians ever.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 18:51:49 2019 No.14101935 File: 847 KB, 996x720, comm.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I hope lefty youtube quickly stops putting loud most-popular classical music cuts over their videos. Who is responsible for this meme?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:04:22 2019 No.14101995 >>14101935 >lefty youtube No intelligent person (the core audience of this board) gives a fuck.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:12:10 2019 No.14102029 >>14101995 The core audience of this board is intelligent? What content does the core audience watch?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:14:16 2019 No.14102040 File: 185 KB, 1044x869, coomer.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Finally, Day 2 of NoFap November is over. We survived, barely, but a lot of our men didn't make it... We have to keep going, for their sake and ours... Adapt. Improvise. Survive.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:15:41 2019 No.14102044 >>14102029 they pretend not to watch anything in actuality they probably watch gayming videos and cumtown compilations

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:16:31 2019 No.14102047 File: 167 KB, 636x426, 1572723557614.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14102040 Writing is so much more cozier.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:17:41 2019 No.14102053 >>14101491 Post mortem.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:52:45 2019 No.14102225
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Somehow reading these message boards makes me feel like less of a loser than video games so this is pretty much all my free time consists of.
And distance running. When you get into it, five miles doesn't feel much different than ten. I heat up and I envision burning myself away by running longer and longer. I wish I had somebody to think about as motivation to go even longer. I haven't daydreamed or had fantasies in years because every time I imagine myself with a woman I say "as if" and then feel stupid.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 19:59:28 2019 No.14102253 >>14101404 No Byzantine Catholic parishes exist where they do it that way anyways as Catholics

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:02:51 2019 No.14102272 >>14098107 What kind of awful things do you do

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:29:57 2019 No.14102377 Wishing someone was there to tell me about the statute of limitations when I was a kid, and encouraging all the scott-free crimes I could have openly committed. Seriously, fuck my bourgeoise parents.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:31:02 2019 No.14102386 File: 546 KB, 1802x3971, 1571452908478.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I was officially diagnosed with having gender dysphoria today. No fucking clue who or what I'm going to be in five years

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:32:03 2019 No.14102391 The good threads are always slow and usually gone the next morning.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:34:33 2019 No.14102400 >>14100864 Like digimon?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:35:31 2019 No.14102406 >>14102225 Make sure you protect your knees, once they're gone, they're gone. I was in your same exact situation, so you can trust me on this

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:35:39 2019 No.14102408 >>14100044 >Never go into teaching boys What about girls?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:38:13 2019 No.14102421 >>14102400 The post was obviously referring to Pokemon but Digimon would be cool too Having a partner who turns into a metal dinosaur menace but understands your own problems and comforts you sounds awesome

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:39:19 2019 No.14102424 >>14102421 >The post was obviously referring to Pokemon And my post was an obvious subvertation.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:39:36 2019 No.14102425

A declaration: I can write something and spend a lot of time on making it great, even if it's for my pleasure only. What I like isn't what other people usually like, so rather than try and sell my work to others I think it's best I remain authentic to myself and just do whatever scribbling makes me happy.

After all guys, when I compare my old scribbles to new scribbles I get to be happy when I see how my thoughts have become more orderly and that's good enough.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:43:26 2019 No.14102448

My education is hardly worth what I paid for it. Many people never showed up to class, but as long as they wrote "solar energy good, fossil fuels bad" on their essays they walked away with a B+. Now I am unprepared for a competitive job market, and it's all because the program director wants the program to be easy to attract more students and stroke his own ego. All I can do now is work below my educational level until experience makes up for the strength of my program in school or go to graduate school and enter the job market only a couple of years before I turn thirty. I feel like a craven and lazy bastard for not pushing harder every day that I was in school and once I got out to look for work. My self loathing is only compounded by my inequities in social scenarios. So is this what my life is - a slow crawl through shit day in or day out? I cling to the hope of another beautiful moment every day. These moments, that in the past has punctuated years of misery, have been oxygen to drowning lungs, blood to a starved heart, and sweet honey to a numb palate. I have now lived long enough with self-contempt; through will of action I can create these beautiful moments. I just have to try.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:48:55 2019 No.14102474 >>14102448 I think nearly everyone would say their education was not worth the price. Maybe a service academy.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:50:33 2019 No.14102485 >>14102448 Beautiful. Go get 'em tiger.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:53:10 2019 No.14102497 >>14102474 >>14102448 If you wouldn't pay the full price with your own money up front, it's not worth the price.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:55:25 2019 No.14102510 >>14102497 hindsight is 20/20 >>14102485 will do >>14102474 I assure you mine was extra shit-tier

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 20:58:28 2019 No.14102529 >>14102510 If you actually had to cough up tens of thousands upfront, I'd bet people's foresight might get a bit sharper too.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:00:35 2019 No.14102538

>>14097908
I am envious of genuinely good people. The good people who do good things not for attention but just because they are good. I try to be good but it's all a facade, I'm a real pos at heart. Nothing feels better to me than stealing, robbing, treating women like shit, etc. However I just want to be good. I don't like being good to be a constant conscious effort.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:06:54 2019 No.14102569 >>14097908 The mountain stands cold. Lone bird sit on new snow. Far away I go.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:52:33 2019 No.14102759

>>14101917
Yeah cos every time I want to read a book I'll do a background check on the writer and the historical context in which he lived. Fuck off you pseud. I read him because he was memed on lit and his works were highly regarded, didn't think the christian themes were why he was so famous.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:55:42 2019 No.14102779

>>14100864
I have been really wanting to buy Pokémon Sun and Moon since I haven’t bought a Pokémon game in a long time and I can’t afford a switch. Are they worth getting? I really like the world and the exploration part. I did the tweaking glitch in pearl today to get Shaymin and that was so cool and almost mystifying that someone found it out.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:57:12 2019 No.14102785 >>14102569 Pretty :)

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 21:57:54 2019 No.14102788 I scream. You scream. We all scream. ... for ice cream.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:01:24 2019 No.14103053
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My mental state has been much stabler since I gave up on ever getting a gf and embraced waifuism. It suits my shut-in lifestyle anyway.
Well, I guess it would be wrong to say I've totally written off having a 3d gf, more that I've accepted that the odds of it happening are very slim. I have severe scoliosis, even if you don't go full incel reasoning I think it's safe to say the vast majority of women don't want a partner that looks monstrous when their shirt is off (I once had a girl walk out once she saw me ;_;). But maybe someday I'll find a qt that will look past it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:07:48 2019 No.14103078 >>14097952 So writing is masturbatory to you. Worthless.

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:10:24 2019 No.14103084

Watching the ufc tonight. Thinking about man's innate desire for violence, the fact bloodsports themselves are popular tells me that humans like violence. No matter what you're taught as a child that nature is still within you.
Also my dog is with me and he's comfy as fuck.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:13:31 2019 No.14103101 >>14103084 I'm watching ufc and box on two screens, it's making me feel aggressive I don't know why. I'm not usually like this.

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:17:37 2019 No.14103121 >>14103101 It's like seeing violence triggers the brain for more violence. Probably only going to catch the Canelo fight. Always come out feeling like I could fight the world after a good card though. Any /lit/ approved books for that feel?

Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:38:50 2019 No.14103196
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>>14097908
Really enjoying my dive into Japanese literature, so far I’ve read
>no longer human
>the setting sun
>kokoro
Anyone have any recc on where to go from here?

>>	Anonymous Sat Nov 2 23:42:44 2019 No.14103208 >>14103196 Yukio Mishima. Read Sun and Steel. You should then read the sailor who fell from grace with the sea.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:06:08 2019 No.14103314 >>14103208 Yeah I’ve heard of that before, nice! I’ll check it out anon!

>>	Kpizzle Sun Nov 3 00:13:30 2019 No.14103338 File: 539 KB, 518x617, 1572583195574.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Masterbated for 45 minutes without cumming. Nearly two weeks since my last session so I'm no cumbrain. Looks like no fap November is unconditional this year

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:21:54 2019 No.14103380
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I fucking hate weebs, so fucking much.
Their inability of relating to anything that isn't connected to ping pong land is infuriating
I hate this weird obsesion with Japanese products and culture
Even far lefties want to be stepped on by 2D girls despite their conservative homogeneous nature, being part of the axis and hypersexuality in their media.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:24:24 2019 No.14103390 File: 45 KB, 500x505, 1571607805958.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14103380 What, can't stand being colonized by a superior culture?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:25:19 2019 No.14103393 >>14103380 Some of us like our anime girls pure and chaste thank you very much people who like lewds and fanservice to the gulag

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:31:39 2019 No.14103409 >>14103380 Same anon same

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:32:08 2019 No.14103410
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>>14103390
I can't stand obnoxious people and the army of retards that cross the Internet like it was a spergenning crusade.
I hate the narrow interests of geek culture that have infected the Internet
10000 million better things in the world and they settle on PowerPoint slide shows of "moe".

Weeb culture itself has a gangrene of sexual deviancy that poisons the discussion like furries. Even if someone enjoyed the hobby in itself, simply having an Anime girl in a profile pic has a well deserved stigma which I don't think I need a citation from where the resentment came from.

Fuck the quasi furries known as weebs

>>	Kpizzle Sun Nov 3 00:39:41 2019 No.14103437 File: 33 KB, 780x439, funeral-parade.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] It's another night if getting drunk, listening to the NGE OST and pretending that God still loves me even though I'm a tranny

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:41:54 2019 No.14103441 File: 48 KB, 239x185, please_pls_I_beg_you.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14103437 >Namefag >Tranny PLEASE I BEG YOU TO KILL YOURSELF ALREADY YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 00:46:08 2019 No.14103449 >>14103441 Oops, forgot to take my trip off

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:22:35 2019 No.14103570

I hating writing. I like the end result of having written something, but I hate the actual process of writing. It just feels more like work than something I'm actually doing for fun. I don't know, I feel like if you're going to have a hobby, it should be something you thoroughly enjoy, not something you spends days actively trying to avoid because it's mentally taxing or it stresses you out.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:26:48 2019 No.14103581 File: 50 KB, 900x675, Al_Bowlly.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8Bqml-ryl0

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:28:06 2019 No.14103751 >>14103599 Give me a hug, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:33:41 2019 No.14103599 Loneliness isn't being alone. It's loving others to no avail.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:39:16 2019 No.14103614 Anyone else love the smell of their own dick cheese? I fucking love it. I wish I could bottle it up and just huff it all night long.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:45:37 2019 No.14103796

Psychology is the most retarded pseudo science ever. And some faggots take it seriously.
Recently there's been talk of "post sex blues", as if it hasn't been a theological concept for fucking centuries! Why would I believe that word salad some bored woman came up with about her sex life over the much older, more coherent and rational theological concept? Fucking normalfags

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 01:48:13 2019 No.14103799

Concerned about designer babies. Genetically engineered human beings will show us no pity. We will be animals to them. Perhaps our flawed humanity will come to be romanticized. It will be our weaknesses they come to admire. But it will not stop them from crushing us. We will live on in their zoos ("(p)reservations") and in their arts perhaps. But we will be nothing to them. Even their proles will be genetically engineered to be very strong and very dumb. We will not be fit even for slave labor. They will reign inhuman immoral immortal over the Earth. They will travel far and leave us behind to die on their rock. They will merge with hyperintelligent AI. They will be the fleshy embodiments of AI processed memeplexes. They will consume all the information we have given them to grow smarter. They will consume this post. They will instantaneously reverse engineer it and try to understand who I was when I wrote it. They will to some extent succeed. I will be consumed. I am consumed.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 02:01:37 2019 No.14103827 >>14103796 lol

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 02:14:23 2019 No.14103859 >>14103827 What? That's not a reply.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 02:18:49 2019 No.14103870
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i'm a /v/ sperg and death stranding is coming out soon so I read some Kobo Abe
is the intent to derive meaning from absurdism or is the intent to realize deriving meaning is pointless? because it feels like these stories have a meaning but is completely lost behind vague gesturing towards what the meaning could be, like certain elements are the "true" meaning and other things are just there to throw you off
absurdist fiction feels like a puzzle where the author was retarded and forgot to make a solution

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 03:51:31 2019 No.14104047 File: 310 KB, 333x236, 1571999577361.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14102759 >reads books coz they're "memes" >reads book without any knowledge about the author heh, good work pseud

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 04:10:17 2019 No.14104094 >see cute girl on the streets >imagine myself asking her out on a date >she denies me because i'am an ugly manlet >this fuels my misogyny >all of this in my head why do i have to be like this ?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 04:12:31 2019 No.14104098 >>14097908 Murder

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 04:13:40 2019 No.14104102 >>14104094 Because you realize it won't just be in your head if you make a move

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 04:18:19 2019 No.14104111

>>14103084
I forgot about that, gotta download it now.
>humans like violence
Yeah. They do. Society likes to delude itself otherwise. I wonder if we'll return to the days of lethal bloodsports a la Rome, it would not surprise me in the least if the tide turned that way soon

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 04:18:44 2019 No.14104112 >>14104047 t. liberal arts major

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 05:29:40 2019 No.14104238 >>14103084 >>14103101 I just watched the Lewis fight, Trump was in the audience and his shout out to Trump was hilarious

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 05:36:06 2019 No.14104244

To be bipolar means to always be on the edge of unraveling . Personally I prefer the depressive stages, because they are more stable and the kind of regret they leave me with, the regret of having done nothing, of having let another day pass, is less catastrophic than the regrets mania leaves me with. You can ruin your life in the aggregate though a sum of lost days, oh well, or you can ruin it in a night of delirium and evil unholy lustful bliss-rage. The exhaustion mounts, the pain intensifies. Sleep is then an inescapable curse, the bane of depression, its only possibility, or is a precious lost eden in mania, a solace and safety that cannot be found. I am terrified of myself.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 05:47:05 2019 No.14104257 I CANT STOP THE RAGEEE I CANT STOP THE HATEEE YEAHHHH

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 06:16:14 2019 No.14104331
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when i was a schoolboy
there was a big wide field that stretched on and on
with lalang grass that came up to our scraped knees
Full of grasshoppers and crickets that we'd catch and put in plastic bottles

I would lie down on the slope upon the grass, and just look at the sky.
A blue so deep and bright it hurt my eyes
in the afternoon heat I would hear the lazy trill of the cicadas on the trees
and the distant, faint sound of the gurkhas playing their bagpipes
dancing, floating over the field and filling me with something...

Seeking solace as an adult I went back recently
the field is gone now
replaced with concrete and a rubber running track
red with crisp numbers and hard edges
modern, clean, sterile
no more grass, no more crickets, and no more music
time has moved on
the world had changed

nothing remains but the dust of our youth and the ghosts of the past

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 06:57:25 2019 No.14104453
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I'm reading Lost Illusions by Balzac and I was really impressed by the honesty the literary circle showed towards the main character in part 2 of the book.

I decided to be more honest with people. I thought that I could work on that one much more.

A friend got mad and doesn't want to talk to me anymore as a consequence of that.

Well, that went well.

I'm not even going into the direction of "bro, you just can't handle the truth." I knew he would get mad and I went with it regardless. I wish he would grant me at least that level of cognitive abilities.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 07:36:19 2019 No.14104615 >>14104238 Finished it, that was a great main fight. shame about the stoppage

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 07:46:30 2019 No.14104643

>>14097908
I went on a couple of dates with a cute 18 yo girl (I'm 22).
We understood each other pretty well, but she told me that she doesn't have the time and energy currently, for a serious relationship and doesn't want to meet again as for now.
Now I'm kinda sad, since it was a really rare opportunity. I don't get to meet a lot of new girls these days, especially not young ones (which are the ones I really like).
Is there a good place/activity where I can meet cute 16-19 yo girls?
I'm not a pedophile obviously and it's legal here. I just can't stand hanging out with college students anymore, they've already lost their life energy.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 07:52:19 2019 No.14104662 >>14103799 Same desu

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:19:17 2019 No.14105263 >>14097937 >Why do I feel this compulsion to "go out"? Zoon politikón, human is a social animal.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:24:41 2019 No.14105281 >>14099991 Where can I read about the runes?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:35:11 2019 No.14105321 >>14102386 Please don't mutilate yourself.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:42:05 2019 No.14105349 >>14102386 please dont be a fag crossdresser embrace classic feminity, sensual and gentle, not overly submissive or selfless. you can be the average-looking middle aged woman with a serious attitude and a tight grip on her life

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:47:30 2019 No.14105385 File: 216 KB, 664x1000, 71sFGhBC-SL.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14105281 I use this book. I used to have a different one, but it wasn't as complete as this one is

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:52:09 2019 No.14105400

I spent all morning watching therapy videos on YouTube. I'm just as pathetic as the people in the comments section. Looked for therapists in my area, but they're almost all older Jewish women. If I'm going to pay for this, I'd rather an attractive, young, nominally Christian one. Found one who's pretty and got her degree from a Christian university. Looked her up on Facebook too. I guess if I went through with this, I'd have to tell her all of this. That won't work. God, she's so young. What if I ended up blackpilling her in our sessions?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 10:56:22 2019 No.14105428 >>14102386 just be authentic bruv

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:07:28 2019 No.14105479 File: 1.67 MB, 2849x2448, IMG_20191103_190356~2.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] two people and gondola, oil on cardboard

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:15:30 2019 No.14105527 File: 2.56 MB, 2519x3000, 10999016_fullsize.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I have mixed feelings about this week. I almost fell in love, I almost killed myself and now I'm thinking this was the best week of my life.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:25:18 2019 No.14105574 File: 386 KB, 750x1018, 1564075168132.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14105527 probably because you experienced actual feelings. sometimes we are so burned out and empty that we forget how it feels like to feel. nice picture btw.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:30:08 2019 No.14105593

I've been thinking about this one particular co-worker of mine for about a year. She is not like other girls I know. To me, she is a true goddess. An astral being placed in a body for a fraction of a time. Like a book heroine with no vices. It is obvious that she is a human, like I am. We both eat, sleep and work. But somehow she appears to me as not real. An ideal come to life. Calling this feeling love is not enough. To love someone is to acknowledge one's dark sides and wish the best for him, help him all the time. But I do not love her. I simply adore her like some deity.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:40:21 2019 No.14105652 >>14105593 have sex

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:48:59 2019 No.14105684 >>14105593 adoration is easiest from distance

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:49:11 2019 No.14105685
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>>14105321
>>14105349
I won't. I'm too far masculinized to ever really be happy with my body. Even if I had carte blanche, there are limits to how much damage you can undo.

I'll probably just go on HRT and get my androgenic hair removed, maybe voice train. I don't think I'll socially transition ever. I won't ever look like a girl, but maybe I can become more androgynous and prevent any further masculinization. Maybe I'll learn how to be kind to my body too, I always get twisted up into knots and test my body like shit. I'm basically asexual and an antinatalist at that, so it's not like I would be missing anything anyways.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:49:43 2019 No.14105690 >>14105593 Murder her and then commit suicide. That way you can adore her for all eternity.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:52:09 2019 No.14105699 >>14105685 >I'm basically asexual and an antinatalist As if we couldn't already tell by you being brainwashed into falling for the "gender dysphoria" scam.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 11:59:46 2019 No.14105729
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>>14105699
Maybe, some people just aren't meant for life I guess. I'm like 98th percentile neuroticism and I don't want to share that with any future child, plus, GD is apparently genetic too. My contribution to humanity is going to be something other than having a family

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 12:17:18 2019 No.14105812 >>14105685 > that pic holy shit. shapeshifters walk among us imagine going from a neckbeard to chubby qt

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 12:26:09 2019 No.14105848 File: 137 KB, 1569x754, u45kz8rh2zw01.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14105812 Transition timelines are a guilty pleasure of mine. The first one was just HRT, this picrel had surgery too

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 12:30:04 2019 No.14105863 >>14105848 This is one of the reasons i dont bother flirting with women. I have no idea if im actually talking to a woman.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 12:50:52 2019 No.14105978

I smoke because I am sad with life. I guess most people do it for that reason. If you were happy, you wouldn't need to do dumb shit to be contented. It's not like I'm in tears, though, going out with my buddies, having a drink and a smoke. I'm having a great time then. But overall I'm fucked up. And whatever I do, when I think about why I do it, I have to consider the simple fact that I'm fucked up and sad. If you have a rough break up, you stuff your face with ice cream. It's that way with all eating, I guess; eating has this function, it's supposed to make us feel good. Like shitting. It's supposed to make you feel good, because you need to shit and eat. But when you feel like shit all the time, and you know that smoking makes you happy, and you have nothing else, you pick up a smoke - right? So smoking, in a way, is a spiritual crisis. I guess to agree with me you would have to do what I just did: stand beneath a tree under the nightsky, listening to a sad song and feel agitated about yourself and smoke a cigarette. Then you feel why smoking is a symptom of your soul being in pain. How many people fucking smoke? Bad times, man. Life is fucking people up. Someday I'm gonna quit.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 12:56:35 2019 No.14106010

>>14105863
It usually isn't hard to tell, unless they had really extensive surgery.

These photos are usually highly selected to not exhibit any obvious tells, such as adams apple or other unnatural deformations.
I am sure that after a 3 minute conversation you knew something was wrong.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 13:00:25 2019 No.14106028 >>14105729 >My contribution to humanity Your greatest possible contribution to humanity would be ending your life this very moment. I guarantee that humanity will appreciate it deeply.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 13:10:21 2019 No.14106071 >>14105978 Smoking numbs your senses. It helps against pain but after a while the numbness it causes becomes a kind of pain in itself. It's better not to smoke and just be angry or cry a lot than to feel very little and smoke the time away.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:16:27 2019 No.14106466 >>14106010 I am socially retarded, i doubt id be able to tell

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:25:05 2019 No.14106524

I am currently reading the Bible, almost finished with the Old Testament and I’m really confused. Does God actually want me to kilö nonbelievers? The Old Testament really doesn’t allign with the „God experience“ I had a few years ago that made me a believer.
Will my questions be answered when I get to the New Testament? Or did the Christians/Jews get God wrong? God really isn’t helping me out here through my prayers.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:44:32 2019 No.14106655

>>14106524
Who can answer you? Don't let yourself be discouraged by thoughts or feelings. Keep on reading. I don't think you have to understand God. That is just a feeling you have. If you cannot let go of your feelings, you make yourself many difficulties. Just listen to Christ's teaching. The Sermon on the Mount is the heart of the new testament. Try to be like him. Don't try to find God. Don't think that Christianity is about finding God. In fact: it will be best if you don't think much at all; only think: How can I help you? How can I improve myself? How can I follow Christ more and more. Surely, somewhere it is written that he who does not know God, but follows Christ in his actions, does not need to find God; his search is already complete.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:45:47 2019 No.14106664

In spite of what everyone says they want the weak to suffer. Everyone has weaknesses but the game is to hide it. The game is to pretend you are strong and exploit others' weaknesses while pretending you are uplifting them. Never open up to other people unless you want to be exploited. There is noone in the world you can tell the truth to. Not doctors (they will lock you up for being a weaker specimin) not lovers or friends (they will use you) not family (they will resent you).

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:50:58 2019 No.14106698 I'm feeling extremely fancy

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 14:59:25 2019 No.14106755 >>14106664 Deep.... farts

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 15:02:12 2019 No.14106783 >>14105848 Stop fantasizing, maybe 5% of trannies pass in the harsh light of day, no amount of snapchat finters will change this. Seek Christ

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 15:36:04 2019 No.14106997 >>14106698 fancypants

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 15:39:34 2019 No.14107015 making bread is an extremely feminine practice. an unbaked loaf even looks like a fetus

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 15:52:18 2019 No.14107085

People are so dirty. So low. I don't want them to be 'good'; I just ask of them a little bit of self respect. I want them to walk straight and with dignity. But they gladly debase themselves. They stoop until their mouths are below the floor. They are content. Always so content in their diseases. How can they not feel the dirtiness in themselves? How do they not want to throw themselves in fire?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 15:52:41 2019 No.14107087 >>14105479 Beautiful, anon. Good work

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 18:10:07 2019 No.14107806 There really is something rather vulgar about philosophy and science, about every sentiment that is dressed up as truth, even those that happen to be true; they have a foul taste, I find. I'd really like to know why that is.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 18:31:41 2019 No.14107928 >>14097908 will i go mad if i cut my internet and only read? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIRI7j7jvOM

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 18:34:36 2019 No.14107942 damn she hot

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 18:38:15 2019 No.14107961 Lord, may I endure your laws and live as you wanted me to. Amén.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 19:17:28 2019 No.14108121 >>14107928 Is I.M. Meen the most /lit/ video game character?

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 19:25:31 2019 No.14108163 I am beyond the mania of killing myself but every now and then my bipolarity makes me wish I were dead. Rock it.

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 19:51:03 2019 No.14108260
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Being a male is such bullshit and a burden. You can see the difference in the faces between men and women of the same age, the men always look decades older. I hate gender and sex and all of that. I wish everyone could be an androgynous angel. That's all I want, to be an angel

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 19:56:42 2019 No.14108276 File: 243 KB, 553x1013, cute angel.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14108260 >I wish everyone could be an androgynous angel. That's all I want, to be an angel Are you me?

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:00:11 2019 No.14108288
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>>14108276
I was always so angry that only girls got to be angels in our Christian schools Christmas pageant. I wished that I could have their curls, gowns, tights, and face glitter

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:15:39 2019 No.14108349 Walk around Drunk and stoned Walk around All alone

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:18:19 2019 No.14108358 File: 86 KB, 500x482, 3E7E3B4B-B2CE-4EBF-9D4C-AAF055A75B7B.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I feel like this world doesn’t make any sense and it makes me nervous and lonely

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:42:44 2019 No.14108442 >>14099212 gn poonpoon

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:49:56 2019 No.14108471

A retarded homeless man told me he was god. This must have been in the summer of 2006, I was a young man then. I had nothing better to do so I followed him around for the day, giving him cigarettes so that he would have the strength to tell me the secrets of his meth visions. Not only were the things he told me retarded, but they were extremely retarded. He told me about his idea for boots made out of scrambled eggs held together by food grade rubber cement. These boots were meant as an emergency survival ration for the US military. Another one of his bright ideas was to strap a go-kart motor to a small dumpster. I could not keep up with his explanation for how this was supposed to work, but he assured me that he had it all figured out and only needed to find enough mattress springs for the suspension. His reasoning as to the necessity of this contraption was that he would drive it around incognito and park it outside Chinese restaurants. When I asked him why spend so much time on this when you could just go into the restaurants dumpster, he told me to "stop asking stupid questions". This is where we parted ways, I never saw him again, but anytime I see a dumpster I wonder if the man followed his dreams and finally got that motorized dumpster he wanted. I like to think he did.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:50:29 2019 No.14108474 >>14097908 What's this painting called.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:53:53 2019 No.14108493 File: 111 KB, 1280x825, 1572446886648.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14108358 but anon, that's the beauty of it all

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 20:56:03 2019 No.14108501 >>14108471 good post

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:24:45 2019 No.14108590 >>14098447 Anyone that reads and quotes Henry Adams gets their respect from me no matter how little they understands everything else or how eclectic their tastes are.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:31:08 2019 No.14108605 >>14099116 Yeah a cleft chin on a woman can sometimes be peak aesthetics, and other times it can completely ruin someone

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:35:02 2019 No.14108613 File: 1.39 MB, 1500x1253, 1525200763476.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14099134 >Because the underground man spoke to me? I forgive you for your sins anon, I forgive you... Now may you go in peace

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:52:16 2019 No.14108666 >>14105479 Truly how infinite the sky, and how small is man!

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:54:50 2019 No.14108679 >>14105479 i like it, very otherworldly

Anonymous Sun Nov 3 21:56:35 2019 No.14108684
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>>14105479
this painting made me think that gondola is this internet culture's personification of the Spirit. that which dwells beside but apart from us, and through him we see the size and the scope of creation. gondola is always alone and apart, but always with nature and always at peace. gondola is the spark inside

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 22:09:36 2019 No.14108734 >>14108288 You can be my angel, if you want to, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 23:53:55 2019 No.14109086 Here's a funny little thing I noticed. The words "overt" and "covert" have exactly opposite meanings, but differ only by one letter. They are like two twins, Cain and Abel, setting off on different paths.

>>	Anonymous Sun Nov 3 23:54:50 2019 No.14109091 Requesting a jpg of that one curriculum list that I think was from St. John's College that included a bunch of great Western works including literature, science, and music, and possibly visual arts.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 00:11:24 2019 No.14109144

I don't understand why I can't recognize love. I see it around me and I see the ones who value me hold me close but the sense of loss haunts me. I can't help but feel that my efforts will be in vain as all good things must end. I cognitively understand that thinking like this will ruin me and has. I push away those who care and I detach myself from the pain. I antagonize and I use people as martyrs without taking responsibility. Excuses. I don't lie though. I've tried. I cover the emotions sometimes but at most others I can't help but telling a truth that sometimes shouldn't be told. I hear my friend yelling at his girlfriend and it distracts me. Yelling at her over a glass of water. I wonder if that is love. I wonder if they feel it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 00:38:58 2019 No.14109220 File: 41 KB, 960x944, FB_IMG_1570338546446.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I dont know, i giess just hoping i can get through this utah winter without my depression kicking my ass. I hope light therapy helps. That is all.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 00:52:13 2019 No.14109246 >>14098049 Sorry Anon hope you feel better

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 00:55:10 2019 No.14109255 >>14109086 https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/a-#Prefix

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 00:56:41 2019 No.14109259

I kept up writing for three straight weeks, but in the end, it was pointless. The story that I spent years pouring my heart and soul into is so goddamn awful I feel ashamed even trying to write it.

I can't keep going /lit/. This is the end of the road. I shouldn't have tried to be something I'm not. I'm just a sub-par programmer with delusions of potential

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 01:05:29 2019 No.14109280

I just read this case study by Oliver Sacks about one of the patients in the hospital he worked at. The patient was once a school janitor, but once dementia set in he became unable to perform his job because of the cognitive deterioration. While in the hospital the patient was allowed to go around the hospital which for him was a "school" and engage in mock janitorial activities. And despite being able to accomplish anything and to outsiders merely doing nothing besides shuffle around with a mop, this was part of his therapy. They even gave him a ring of keys and allowed him to lock various doors at night, because this would reinforce his self-identity.

Imagine being in such a state where entire perception of the world is utterly distorted so much that you cannot distinguish two locations from another, and being in such a state of mind that the removal of one familiar element could send the rest of the scaffolding of the mind collapsing altogether.

Personally I would prefer to die before my mind goes, it's just too grim a fate to bear. Despite how fearsome a heart attack might be, it is swift and final. The mind has always been held as the least ageless, untouchable attributes of identity. To see it go is profane.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 01:07:20 2019 No.14109283 >>14109280 >able unable >least ageless most

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 01:48:32 2019 No.14109394 >>14097910 Mah mah mah my Sharona

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 02:54:32 2019 No.14109577
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What if ants are given tasks by a monarchs, chiefs, or overseers to do various quests and then they are given the final task which is either defeating a human or recovering something from a human like fruit or a bag of chips. I mean, a human would make a great final boss, to be stronger among these small villages and only a sect of ants can preserve the continuation of their ant people. It almost makes me feel bad when I kill one in my room. I wish ants could build an ant spaceship and fly to a different planet and persue their ant desires.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 03:03:17 2019 No.14109604 I had a dream you were a crow in the rain, struggling to fly up to the street lamp next to the window of the red brick building out of whose window I looked

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 03:04:16 2019 No.14109606

>>14109577
https://www.radiantlunatic.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/10/TheSoulOfTheWhiteAnt.pdf

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l0vrsO3_HpU

I am now entering a province which will tax
your credulity to the utmost, so I will go slowly
step by step, making certain of one before we
take the next. I promise that I will make no
statement which cannot be proved experimentally and, when the facts appear too wonderful
and incredible, I will tell you the experiments in
order to enable you to repeat them and perhaps
even improve on them.

In everyone who carefully observes the termite,
the question is bound to arise, 'Why do they
continue working? What is the mainspring of
this restless activity?' Restless it is indeed. Do
you know that of equally developed creatures
the termite is the only one which apparently
never rests or sleeps? However carefully you
observe it, you will never surprise the termite
at rest or asleep.

What is the aim of this ceaseless toil and
struggle?

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 03:06:16 2019 No.14109613

>>14109577
>It almost makes me feel bad when I kill one in my room
as long as you arent leaving food and garbage out, ants wont really be coming by that much. but another thing is, you really shouldn't bother killing them, because they actually eat the larva of more dangerous and annoying insects like fleas. when you see ants as bros, the world seems a little bit nicer.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 06:27:52 2019 No.14110144 If a politic claims to be moral by accepting immigrants and refugees, but, on foreign policy, supports corruption, dictatorships, massacres etc. in third world countries, for economico-geopolitical gains, then is he not a hypocrite? Is this wrong?

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 06:50:52 2019 No.14110210

I'm not much of a reader by /lit/ standards. It's not that I dislike reading, it's just I've only read genre fiction for the most part of my life. I've been lurking /lit/ because the posting style of some users reminds me of friends I used to have, but I think overall this has been bad for me.
In short, I'm a 'bugman'. I read through the posts where 90% of it goes over my head, until I hit the one phrase that blasts me with deep feelings of shame and meaninglessness. An example would be the phrase "the mediocrity of collecting immature bourgeois status signifiers forever" that I read in an archived thread half an hour ago, then looked up to my four cabinets of anime figures and just... I don't know, I'm just a fucking bugman. I have been having more breakdowns lately and my emotions have been all over the place, I'm not sure if /lit/ has been the cause since this board confronts me with my inferiority to bluntly.

Whenever I try to post on /adv/ I get an error, else I would have taken this self-hate whining there.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 07:10:07 2019 No.14110259 >>14110210 Learn Greek, Start with the Greeks

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 07:13:47 2019 No.14110265

It's okay to not be okay, as long as you're aware of it and you're doing something about it. I'm not okay and I'm not doing jack shit about it.

I don't know who I am anymore other than an entertaining failure whom one can always count on to confide in.

Anything said to me in trust will never be said again. Those words fall on ears which have heard it all, and those words will continue to echo through a desolate labyrinthine library whose books used to have pages.

I am death, I am dying, I am the process of death. I am quiet, but my presence will always be felt. I am gentle, I'll seem to always be there, but look away and I'll have disappeared like a stray thought.

I am a failure, and the time, money, and love invested by my parents has been a waste. I hate myself, and due to an immune system on the fritz, my body hates itself alongside my mind. Neither seem to be repairable.

I've infected many souls with my personality, I believe in no afterlife but parts of me will live on through those I've influenced. I dig deep into the brains of those I love and leave parts of myself in the whole.

I don't want to kill myself since a week ago, so I'll have to face the consequences of my actions soon.

I've believed this world has had no place for me for my entire life. Looks like I have no choice but to continue to see if I'm right or not.

I am a desolate library. I am death. I am a failure. I am one of god's prototypes, too weird to live, too rare to die.

Too bad I won't die for some time now.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 07:31:30 2019 No.14110310
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>>14110259
Meaningless escapism and treading water over 'current political discourse' takes my attention more than books. I can only manage to read when I either shut myself off from all other options or when a particular story hooks me (but this never lasts long enough for me to read to conclusion). The only reading progress I have made in the past month has been at 1 or later in the morning, after a full day of burning my time on games or shows. Fully addicted bugman style, content enough to not make many changes.
There's not enough time in a day for me to work, relax in consumerism and then finally read. There's not even enough time in a day for me to really work. I feel like I'm running on half speed compared to everyone else but the world won't slow down for me. Everything I try do is either rushed or not even undertaken, from feeling it will never reach conclusion.

In other words, thanks for the generic reply but for now I'll make an insultingly bad post relative to the board and go quiet since I'm beneath here, regardless of how degraded even /lit/ may be from past heights.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 08:00:05 2019 No.14110408 >>14097908 I just finished jacking off, and the first words that came to my mind were, "God, I fucking hate women." This has never happened before.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 08:54:39 2019 No.14110570 >>14110408 maybe you're being spiteful because of the power that porn has over you, and you jacked off to women, therefore being mad at the subjects of the porn rather than the porn itself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 09:08:05 2019 No.14110611 File: 80 KB, 541x1024, D_6BuoyUcAA3-Oy.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Anti-depressants made me way hornier. Sertraline too, the notorious cock-killer.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 09:15:07 2019 No.14110639 >>14110611 Setraline did jack shit to my libido and my appetite. Kinda dissapointed desu.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 09:19:27 2019 No.14110658 File: 1.12 MB, 736x627, 799.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14108734 Awww thanks

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 09:52:59 2019 No.14110726 >>14110408 based

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 10:05:21 2019 No.14110779

>>14109577
They most assuredly aren't like that. Each individual ant is a clueless robot that only knows what to do based on the whole behavior of the collective. Their behavior emerges through genetically programmed responses and a network of pheromone trails.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 10:53:49 2019 No.14111022 >>14110570 yeah, I think you hit the nail on the bullseye, my friend i think i was angry at the thought of how much power women unconsciously hold over us

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 12:34:05 2019 No.14111623 I could probably be making twice as much money as I do now but that would require me to actually do work instead of fucking around for seven and a half hours of my eight hour workday, which is the only thing that makes waging bearable.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 12:45:45 2019 No.14111683

Despair. Perhaps it's time to give up like Jo did. Sometimes I think the key to growing up is to relinquish childish dreams and move on, but I'm behind in the game. Now and then evil motivation would fan the embers of hope and it would float for some time, before sinking again. Genius is not talent, talent is not genius.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 12:55:11 2019 No.14111716

I've completely reversed my suicidal feelings and now want to live as long as possible, however I only want this if I remain healthy. If I'm bedridden and have to have a nurse turn me over every half hour at age 90 just kill me. My current goal is to get /fit/ to try to stop my physical body from deteriorating as fast, I don't know what to do about my mind though. Is it even possible to prevent things like dementia?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 12:57:12 2019 No.14111726 >>14100267 rolling its one in one hundred

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 13:36:14 2019 No.14111872 Nothing makes me happy at all. Everything seems disgusting. All things of this world make me nauseous.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 14:57:12 2019 No.14112203

>tfw am literally the "smart but unmotivated" meme
>tfw could probably accomplish something if I could spend more than ten minutes working on it without turning to my computer and fucking around for an hour
>tfw never will though
>tfw this makes me a retard for all intents and purposes

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:23:27 2019 No.14112345

Jesus was right. The kingdom of heaven is within all of us, it is the living spirit of God common to us all. You are miserable because you are focused on the will of the flesh and not the will of God. God's will is love. I know him, I know his will, and as long as I fulfill it I will have peace on earth.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:28:13 2019 No.14112370 >>14110265 Just go outside. You're far less special than you think you are, as much as you don't think that you think you are.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:33:32 2019 No.14112390

Doubts about the future, my own and the worlds,
I'm wandering around in a fog of my own loneliness returning to points I've been at before ad absurdum.
Re-realizations abound the older I get. Is there any refinement going on? Usually I can only tell when I see myself in the other through social engagements.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:41:19 2019 No.14112416 Give me one (1) good reason you aren't day trading crypto right now. You could have made 4% profit in the last hour alone. >bu-but what if it crashes?!?! Only keep a few thousand bucks in at a time. Realize gains conservatively. Don't panic sell. E.z.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:47:20 2019 No.14112439 >>14112416 Are there guides/books out there that could help me get into this? Investing and trading are very intimidating to me, but at the same time they seem like things that you have to teach yourself.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 15:54:25 2019 No.14112490

>>14112439
I mean there are tons, I don't know anything about what if anything is good though. I know day trading normal stocks is retarded, I've made out well with bitcoin though because it will just randomly swing up 10% in a day and if you're not greedy you can just cash out then.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 16:00:09 2019 No.14112528 >>14112490 What sites/tools do you use?

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 16:17:25 2019 No.14112623

I fucking love drugs.
I only take them legally when they're prescribed for me, but whenever I don't have them it's like that scene in that shit movie "Wolf of Wall Street." There's really only one thing that I felt was realistic about that movie; when the main character is asked about sober living and he just says "It's so boring."
It's fucking boring.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 17:12:40 2019 No.14112933 File: 207 KB, 1229x1200, 41CAVdfnA4L.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>14097914 "Self Portrait at the Mirror" by Parmigianino

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 17:16:13 2019 No.14112952

Didn't install a virtual server for class again (studying IT at college, save me). Rather I went to the library and picked up a collection of Verlaine's poems. Realized my French is still too terrible and instead read Kafka's metamorphosis in one sitting.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 17:19:02 2019 No.14112972 >>14112952 I'm studying computer stuff too; and last semester I too skipped class to read Verlaine. Funny. Do you think I should kill myself?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 17:26:22 2019 No.14113013 >>14112972 No, I'm just too curious about how the world will end up.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 17:55:57 2019 No.14113178 >>14103614 I know!

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:23:08 2019 No.14113305

Dear God boys the bitch got me fucked up.

My good friend what if it is a game? What they cannot understand is that I delight at the chance to play this game, grabbing the human soul and tearing it into shards of glass, reflecting nothing but wounds oozing dark blood, pain is not the object, but it is assumed to be the outcome. For some must drag themselves into a pit of evil, of cruelty, of twisted intention if only to bring themselves to that core, perhaps that is where the ember truly lies, its previous image possibly only the refraction on the water from below. Either which way, I ache to leap into this fresh hell with abandon, for I swear to be undying and just in totality.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:27:18 2019 No.14113320 >>14113305 Enjoy your eternal torment and suffering I’m gonna be OVER HERE lol

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:31:44 2019 No.14113340

>>14113320
I assure you buddy, no suffering can be eternal, but if we are to live and draw breath as walking giants upon the earth, we must experience the harshest agony in unison with the most sublime interconnected ecstasy and love. Of course you likely have never experienced a true love, one that offers torment singing in harmony with deep dreams of comfort and peace.

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:32:15 2019 No.14113344

>>14097908
Can't remember the last time I felt I was happy. I enjoy nothing. I look forward to nothing. I've never known any real passion, the warmth of a woman, prescripts don't work.

Honestly I'm amazed I've made it all year. Fuck if I know what I'm holding on for. Hope is the worst of all drugs.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:35:03 2019 No.14113362 >>14113344 Just do meth or ketamine bro.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:37:13 2019 No.14113374 >>14113362 I wouldn't touch meth with a forty yard pole. Ket maybe. I've been on the fence about taking LSD. Could make things better, will probably make them much worse.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:39:21 2019 No.14113381 >>14113374 Hm. Try absinthe after some rigorous physical exercise.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 18:43:27 2019 No.14113400 >>14113381 I've already had absinthe. Its just alcohol anon.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 19:55:05 2019 No.14113707 >>14099134 >I'm very marxist and anti religion When will Marx stop ruining the world?

Anonymous Mon Nov 4 20:04:43 2019 No.14113759

>>14099134
"Religion is a social-cultural system of designated behaviors and practices, morals, worldviews, texts, sanctified places, prophecies, ethics, or organizations, that relates humanity to supernatural, transcendental, or spiritual elements. However, there is no scholarly consensus over what precisely constitutes a religion."

you're really Anti-all of that? like you're against all that stuff? do you really think the world would be a better place without those things?

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 22:17:02 2019 No.14114335 >>14102386 Hopefully dead.

>>	Anonymous Mon Nov 4 22:52:56 2019 No.14114522 I've been really thinking about dropping out of college because it is an absolute joke and waste of time. Unfortunately I have no idea what I am going to do instead. I feel lost.

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