Write what's on your mind: Birthday edition

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Anonymous Tue Oct 1 15:38:54 2019 No.13918214 [Reply] [Original]

Write what's on your mind: Birthday edition

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 15:41:42 2019 No.13918230 The cripplechan refugees need to be made to leave.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 15:55:43 2019 No.13918330 It just started raining.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 15:56:56 2019 No.13918339 I wonder what God has in store for me.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:03:11 2019 No.13918383 I caught a headcold and I find myself oddly enjoying the achy languor of it relative to my pacy restlessness in health.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:04:19 2019 No.13918395

My wife asked me how to make
the growing darkness sitting
in the corner of the room
to go away; to escape
those faces in the corner
of her eyes that get closer
when you look the other way
but I didn't know
just don't think of them
that's all I could say.

Just wrote this and feel like shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:05:29 2019 No.13918405 >>13918395 >and feel like shit You should: imagine writing poetry without meter.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:06:14 2019 No.13918409 Does turning 16 make 4chan legal or do I have to wait til 18?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:07:10 2019 No.13918411 >>13918405 Go away gramps

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:09:01 2019 No.13918420 >>13918409 4chan is american, so 18.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:13:49 2019 No.13918449 >>13918409 The Holden Caulfield of today is a /b/tard.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:24:47 2019 No.13918505
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>>13918214
She is always on my mind. Soon I will see her, and I will be overcome with love, as I always am around her. But I can’t approach her. I must wait.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:25:11 2019 No.13918506 god I hate woman so goddam much

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:41:42 2019 No.13918598 I want to sleep. Captcha are annoying.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:50:13 2019 No.13918647 >>13918214 europeans originated from africa whether i like it or not

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:51:04 2019 No.13918653 >>13918330 Lucky. October rain is the comfiest

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 16:54:07 2019 No.13918669 >>13918330 autumn is my favorite season. the smell of burned wood, falling leafs, leaving birds. overall dying nature is beautiful in its own way.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:22:18 2019 No.13918817
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Last years have only been disapointment in myself. Wasting every chance I was given by life. I am a miserable self haiting failure, that can't quit this fucking pixelated pleasure. I can't say I was content with my life, but the constant dopamine hits were enough to being comfortable in my own failure. I feel like the years of sel inflicted pavlovian conditioning rewritten my brain. That I will always stay in this semi somaesque state. I became wanker, destroyer of ambition. One day I will wake up, bening lonely, middle age man, that realised that he wasted his life. I will cry, I will shout at the sky, I will spit in the mirror. And then, will watch it again, because what else is there to do at this point.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:30:45 2019 No.13918863 >>13918669 Me too. The colors in the trees are just starting to get nice. There's a frost warning for tonight, second this week.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:32:39 2019 No.13918870

>>13918214
I don't know whether I want to be an ascetic beggar or an author. Just writing it out though I think beggar is the ticket. Thanks for the advice anons!

>>13918395
How can women be attracted to someone who writes such shit? Also how can you be sad if you have a wife? Count your fucking blessings you entitled cunt!

>>13918817
Work on it or whinge.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:40:30 2019 No.13918903 >>13918411 Actually I'm 12

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:42:11 2019 No.13918914 File: 58 KB, 1000x1000, 1569888322129.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Had a panic attack at work. Got to leave early. I'm drinking some phenibut tea and eating Gouda cheese with crackers and I don't feel like killing myself, for now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:43:18 2019 No.13918918 If I was a hardcore Machiavellian and my aim were to scheme something to send a person's life down the drain, I'd literally want the person to act the way I'm acting right now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:44:21 2019 No.13918928 >>13918420 Shes japanese now so 14

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:48:17 2019 No.13918956 Fenomenology is just the only source of true knowledge. Stop analizing the fenomenon and you'll die knowing nothing.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:48:23 2019 No.13918958 >>13918669 >i like my weather like my soul, dark and cold

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 17:54:47 2019 No.13918988 >>13918870 Unironically, have sex

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 18:07:08 2019 No.13919056 >>13918214 Thinking about a book I've wanted to write forever but I need advice on tackling it. Don't know if I should make a new thread of find a relevant megathread. I never browse this board.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 18:50:25 2019 No.13919271 >>13918914 What is a repper?

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 18:55:04 2019 No.13919297

Sometimes wandering though neighborhoods around here makes me feel like I'm on Tatooine. The corners hum with exotic languages that perk up the ear ("mub da mo bidda te dat tum muhfugen bix nood cof bin dub ho muhfugga") , the nose tickles at the scent of garbage, exhaust and diapers. A sojourning, enigmatic homeless man shits in the street. Glistening like sweaty stalagmites the buildings shoot up into the sky, marvels of engineering. I happily hand over my taxes to help facilitate this noble experiment in diversity. I am in a rapture; here I am, I made it! The Greatest City in the World.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:00:35 2019 No.13919326 >>13919271 Someone that knows they are trans but doesn't have to the courage to do anything about it. A repressor

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:04:40 2019 No.13919341 File: 225 KB, 2048x1536, wellsaid.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13918214 Why is the church split between the Filioque and why can't they come to terms with each other?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:12:40 2019 No.13919362 >>13919326 That sonds like a non-stop torture 24/7. A loop of self hate and identity based anxiety. Also add the guilt based with on passing time, and paralysing aspect of the guilt and not doing anything because of it.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:18:14 2019 No.13919399
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>>13919326
>knows they are trans
>knows
>trans
This board can't be filled with this much naive trash, can it? There are only 2 sexes/genders. Please drop the meme, the trend is over. There are no exceptions. Go outside, breath in some reality. It's not real.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:45:29 2019 No.13919520

>>13919362
Consider the plight of the man who experiences anatomic autogynephilia and severe gender dysphoria. Since early childhood, he has secretly wished to be a female. He is erotically aroused by women and is also erotically aroused by the idea of being a woman himself. In both cases, however, his feelings go far beyond simple erotic arousal: He admires women, fi nds them beautiful, adores their bodies, and habitually falls in love with them. He also envies them and wants to have—wants to embody —all the admirable, beautiful features he loves in them. He wants to live in a body like theirs and lead a life like theirs. At the same time, he knows that he is not naturally feminine. When he considers
the adjectives that describe the women he habitually falls in love with—agreeable,
affiliative, cooperative, empathetic, gentle, graceful, nurturant, pliant, tactful, tender—he realizes that most of these adjectives do not describe him. He tends to be
competitive, dominant, independent, linear, logical, and tough-minded. He might wish he were more feminine, but his personality is not naturally feminine. When he is honest with himself, he also realizes that he never falls in love with men and only feels attracted to men when he is in the midst of an autogynephilic reverie. He has
cross-dressed for years and still does at times, but he finds that it offers him limited satisfaction: Even wearing women’s attire, he still inhabits his unwanted male body and still has his ugly, embarrassing male genitalia. Falling in love with a woman or having sex with a woman sometimes makes his autogynephilic desires go into remission for a time, but these remissions are always temporary: His autogyne-
philic feelings always return. And every time he has an orgasm, he is reminded of
two facts: Having a woman’s body is the most erotic thing he can imagine—and he
doesn’t have one.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:46:31 2019 No.13919527

>>13919520
His circumstances force him to consider the existential question: Could he live a
happier, more meaningful, more rewarding life as a woman—as a transsexual woman? Or would he be better off continuing to live as a man? >This is a genuine dilemma, because neither option is really satisfactory.
Continuing to live as a
man would be the easier, less expensive, and safer option: That way he could
keep his job, his reputation, his friends, and perhaps his marriage, if he has one.
Continuing to live as a man wouldn’t kill him; he has, after all, done it for years. He
could continue to live a life of quiet desperation. But he would still experience
signi fi cant and often severe gender dysphoria, perhaps every day of his life.
Eventually he would become an old man who had never tried to live his dream. He
knows that what older adults invariably regret is not what they have done but what they failed to do when they had the opportunity. The thought of wasting the only life he will ever have is sad and frightening

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:48:10 2019 No.13919539 >>13918214 I’m having a really bad depressive episode right now. Just feel terrible, and I kinda want to end it. I don’t know what to do.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:48:27 2019 No.13919541

>>13919527
Alternatively, he could pursue sex reassignment. That way, he could at least tell himself that he had tried to live his dream. And, if he were to succeed in some measure, how great would that be? How many people can say that they achieved, in some measure, what they wanted most? If he successfully transitioned, he would finally be playing on the right team, the women’s team; and those awful male genitalia would be gone forever. But he also knows that he would never have a normal life as a woman: He would always be an oddity, albeit perhaps a fascinating or even admirable oddity. And he could easily lose any of the things that currently make his life comfortable and safe: his job, his reputation, his friends, his family. Moreover, the kind of womanhood he could achieve would inevitably be shoddy and inadequate: He would never be able to completely erase the masculinizing effects of testosterone on his body and brain, nor the masculinizing effects of decades of living in society as a man. For an autogynephilic gender dysphoric man to be willing to try to rebuild his life around his paraphilia by pursuing sex reassignment, despite the genuine risks and inevitable limitations involved, he usually needs to be both very brave and very desperate.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:56:22 2019 No.13919599 My skull

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:56:28 2019 No.13919600
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I'm wearing a The Smiths t-shirt that I bought when I was 14. It's so old, grainy and full of holes, but I cant get to ever trow in the garbage. I didn't went to Uni today because it was too hot and I was feeling a bit melancholic. Maybe it's because I didn't eat well today. Went to pay some bills in the morning and only eat some bananas and had a cup of coffe. Came home and eat some pancakes but they tasted like shit, maybe because they were in the refrigerator for too long. Anyway, Instead of going to Uni, I've stayed in home reading Adolfo Bioy Casares and driking beer. Had a nap too.
I have a 20 pages paper to write and I can't get the motivation to do it. It's for the next month, but I know I should start now. Maybe If I write a page a day it will be ok.
I'm generally not a sad person anymore, but sometimes I have some of these days, where I feel kinda empty, melancholic. This happens from time to time and it scares everytime, because in the back of my mind there's this voice that keeps telling me "hey, remember this feeling? It will come back one day and you will feel like this for a long, long time, just like before". I don't know what to writte anymore. I'm going to read some more and wait to the River x Boca match. I hope I wake up feeling better tomorrow.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 19:59:52 2019 No.13919622 >>13918230 This. Just look at the increase in bait posts and /b/ tier trolling. I have nothing against them personally, but they need to go back to their own website.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:01:46 2019 No.13919629

>>13919541
So none of the options are satisfactory, I assume? I may sound like a /pol/tard, but I get now why suicide rates among trans people are so high. How cand a person deal with such prospects and emotions accompanying them? How one stays sane or functional?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:03:45 2019 No.13919635 >>13919520 >>13919527 >>13919541 It's fascinating condition to observe, indeed. Is there any fiction books written on the topic? I would love to read (or write about this).

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:08:52 2019 No.13919660

>>13919635
What I posted is an excerpt from AA Lawrence's "Men trapped in Men's Bodies". You can get a free eBook on her website. I don't know of any fictional books about this, I would be *extremely* interested in reading them though. What I posted describes my own life in a way that nothing else I've ever read has

>>13919629
That's why so many of us are constantly suicidal, alcoholic, homeless or on drugs. Getting constant panic attacks about it lately so I'm thinking of just going down to my local informed consent clinic and getting on hormone replacement therapy, at least I'll stop aging as a male. I'm not worried about infertility (the only real reason I would be trepidatious about transition) because my life has been such a hellish experience that I wouldn't wish it on anyone else

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:20:03 2019 No.13919716
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Do any of you feel like you were experiencing life on “autopilot?” I mean, going through life passively, never exerting too much intellectual force, just because you had to? Did you ever wonder how things came so easy to you and why everyone else paled in comparison? Did you ever escape from that state of being? What was your moment of absolute nadir (or apotheosis)? I would love to know.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:46:02 2019 No.13919836 Whenever I have some time by myself I start thinking of how little affection I’ve received in my life and I feel like crying wherever I am. I don’t want to cry in public, but I feel like I’ll just break anytime.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:48:20 2019 No.13919846 My thirteen years old male cousin has been taking a shower in our house for twenty minutes now. I'm extremely tempted to embarrass him by asking why it takes him so long to jack off

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:51:45 2019 No.13919867 >>13919660 However, it isn't sexual for all trans people. Some of them were programmed with female qualities but ended up male, so they grow up feeling wrong. What about them, why do they kill themselves?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:54:08 2019 No.13919881 >>13919867 I'm not androphilic so I can't really say much about that, but the ones I've talked to definitely have dysphoria also and suffer from discrimination, plus body issues

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:54:10 2019 No.13919882 File: 75 KB, 951x1054, 1563977568110.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13919846 Come one man, we all had to go through that phase. Let the kid be, he'll figure out how to jack off in more efficient ways as time goes on.

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:56:54 2019 No.13919897

It's strange to realize more growth is impossible. I have basically reached my intellectual, social, and spiritual limit. The sad part is, they aren't much. In fact, I'm much farther behind than I ever anticipated. So long to dreams of gradschool and interesting work I guess.
On a more /lit/ note, Blood Meridian is really good. The biblical type imagery is really interesting, and provides an interesting contrast with the surroundings etc. throughout the book. I just read the bit with the burning tree in the snowstorm.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 20:57:48 2019 No.13919900 >>13918903 reported

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:20:35 2019 No.13920042

>>13918214
Sometimes I feel like there are too many perspectives and ideas to ever understand anything. Too much information, too much, too much. It makes me want to just go to sleep and wake up and not think about everything and anything for once, to just relax my mind.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:22:15 2019 No.13920048 >>13918230 >>13919622 i never considered this; must be why theres been such a big flood of awful posts these days. get em out!

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:26:19 2019 No.13920066 >>13919600 >"hey, remember this feeling? It will come back one day and you will feel like this for a long, long time, just like before". Your voice is right. Sorry. Good luck. Sleeping does help though, for a while.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:27:51 2019 No.13920072 >>13919897 How do you know you've reached your limit? >>13918230 What's cripplechan?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:37:02 2019 No.13920126 >>13920072 No matter how much time/effort I put into things I dont see any improvement

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:39:40 2019 No.13920146 >>13918505 Dude, you know Jennifer Connelly?

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:40:07 2019 No.13920148

>>13920066
Well, it's not like I don't know about that, I mean life is mostly suffering. I just can't help to get some anxiety when I think that it will happen again. What it's going to be the cause of my next phase of suffering? How I would cope? Did I learned anything from the last time? These are the kinda of questions I ask myself during these moments.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 21:48:03 2019 No.13920185 >>13920126 How do you measure improvement?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:03:14 2019 No.13920267 File: 126 KB, 995x802, fairy bread.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] do you think that Moot really hated Australians?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:04:52 2019 No.13920277 >>13918505 based mentally ill pedoposter

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:06:22 2019 No.13920290 >>13919539 literally get help anon.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:07:12 2019 No.13920293 >>13918214 he shoulda been pushin the boulder

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:08:15 2019 No.13920302 >>13919539 get help, you deserve it

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:10:32 2019 No.13920313 >>13920267 Yes, it's a prison colony after all.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:16:11 2019 No.13920341 >>13920146 No she looks like my future wife

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:36:34 2019 No.13920444 >>13920185 Increase in quality of whatever I'm doing

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:51:35 2019 No.13920517 I fell in love this morning. Tonight, I am heartbroken. I am the best sort of puppy to kick. I make just the right sound when I squeal.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 22:53:50 2019 No.13920529 >>13918214 Why bother now, if all women are the same?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:04:02 2019 No.13920586 >>13919660 >>13918505 >>13918870 >>13918928 >>13918956 >>13920341 >>13920517 Isn't it funny that basically all of human experience centers around women?

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:10:31 2019 No.13920614 >>13920586 except the half of humans who are women, whose experience centres around men

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:26:47 2019 No.13920679 >>13920586 i'm pretty sure all of human experience centers around me.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:48:06 2019 No.13920746 >>13918214 Its midnight, a fucking big truck just passed by making a lot of noise, and I cant fall back asleep cus my college roommate is snoring. Feelsplebm8s I guess I go back to reading with some jazzy soothing music

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:48:43 2019 No.13920749

"Gee Mr, Stark, I don't know about this." Peter protested as the billionaire playboy fondled his privates through his tights.

"Relax kid, I've done this with all the Avengers." Tony said, squeezing his balls.

"Even the Hulk?" Peter asked.

"Specially the Hulk." Tony pressed his lips against Peter's. His breath reeked of Jose Cuervo and little orphan boys privates.

"MR STARK NOOOO!" Peter screamed as he woke up from a cold sweat. He couldn't tell if it was repressed memories resurfacing or if it was just his latent homosexual desires for his diseased mentor.

"Come back to bed, Peter." his gay lover Tom Hardy mumbled half asleep.

"AHHHH!" Peter screamed, waking up from a dream within a dream.

"That's what she said." Deadpool said as he banged Aunt May in the other room. But not the hot Marisa Tomei Aunt May, instead it was the Aunt May from the Sam Raimi films.

"Go back to bed, Peter. I have to film some scenes for Euphoria in the morning." Zendaya said.

Saim Raimi walked into the room and looked at Peter, and then at Zendaya and then back at Peter. "Who's the ni-

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:53:06 2019 No.13920756 File: 422 KB, 1195x1600, Antonio_Salazar-1.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13920749 Wut?

Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:55:42 2019 No.13920764

Why is it that I am only inspired to write after experiencing a vivid dream? Each attempt to create a short story tends to fail whenever it is based upon an idea in the day, while a dreamt story has thousands more of words. It bothers me knowing that my writing could be limited by something like this

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:59:55 2019 No.13920773 >>13920764 If you can’t write, read. If you can’t read, think. If you have something to say, then you can write.

>>	Anonymous Tue Oct 1 23:59:56 2019 No.13920774 >>13920756 It's sociopolitical commentary on the human condition.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:02:44 2019 No.13920782 >>13920774 How social, political and human was a tale of iron man fucking hulk?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:06:36 2019 No.13920791

>>13920773
>If you have something to say, then you can write
That's the problem, you see. Each attempt leads to another forked path, and anything worth committing to ends up becoming entirely unrelated to my actual experiences. The only thing that all these fragments could result in is a Book of Disquiet, Cioran-esque, etc. type work, but that could also go horribly wrong.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:08:54 2019 No.13920800 >>13920782 Iron Man represents the ineffectual bourgeoisie who squander their privileges and how a capitalist society holds down the proletariat, or the Hulk, even though he's the most important cog in society that holds the system together.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:11:59 2019 No.13920808 I'm signing up for muay thai hopefully soon. I've gymed for like 3 months any tips on some exercises I can do while I wait to get started?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:14:08 2019 No.13920813 >>13920791 Why are you writing?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:32:23 2019 No.13920858 >>13920808 Read the greeks!

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:39:53 2019 No.13920875 File: 6 KB, 390x470, toplel3.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13920749 >latent homosexual desires for his diseased mentor >diseased

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 00:43:20 2019 No.13920887 >>13920808 Do a HIIT regimen to increase your stamina and vo2 max. I recommend at least three 30-minute sessions per week, on the days you aren't lifting heavy. All you need is a yoga mat. Pull-up bar optional.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 02:48:26 2019 No.13921205 >>13919539 Get in line, anon.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 02:52:07 2019 No.13921215 File: 75 KB, 625x463, bored.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'm so bored. I just want to talk to somebody. Is there anybody out there?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 02:53:16 2019 No.13921219 >>13920749 Get off my board Quentin

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:08:04 2019 No.13921257 >>13921215 Yes, what do you want to talk about?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:08:28 2019 No.13921258 The past tense of 'reach' really should be 'roached'.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:11:01 2019 No.13921265 >>13920808 brutal cardio and legs. stamina, like the other anon said

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:18:07 2019 No.13921276 I feel like I should be pursuing some form of art, but I'm so indecisive I can never stick with one thing for more than a few days.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:19:01 2019 No.13921277

>>13918214
The sad part about my life is that it's completely book ended by both a depressing past and a depressing future. I cant escape it at all. I have no good memories and I really don't have anything to look forward too. I know a good percentage of it is my fault, but now its too late to change the course my life is on.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:19:45 2019 No.13921279 >>13921276 I know exactly what I should be pursuing, have for a while now, but I've done nothing about it. Is that better or worse, do you think?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:22:40 2019 No.13921281

>>13921277
>but now its too late to change the course my life is on.
It isn't. Unless you're physically restrained, the only person stopping you is yourself. I know it sounds very cliche. But it's true. Not doing anything is the easy, cowardly way out, just float along, tell yourself you're a determinist, put your hands over your ears and go "LA LA LA THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO". Self fulfilling prophecy. Either do or don't. But don't tell yourself it's anyone's choice but your own.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:22:50 2019 No.13921283 >>13921257 Anything. What are you up to? What's the weather like? What are you reading?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:47:08 2019 No.13921328

>>13921281
Definitely not blaming others, but I have given up on any hope of another person having a positive effect on my life. I often think about how nice it would be to make someone happy, but I know too much and anything besides being alone and miserable would be a lie. Its the ultimate underlying truth of my life and I am cursed because of it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:51:19 2019 No.13921338 >>13920586 You mean sexuality?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 03:54:07 2019 No.13921343

>>13921328
>I often think about how nice it would be to make someone happy, but I know too much and anything besides being alone and miserable would be a lie.
You can find happiness and love through giving. *Giving is never a lie.* Selfless love is a choice. It begins with an action, and the emotion comes later, not the other way around.
If no one's coming to save you, why don't you go and save them, and maybe save yourself by the act? Give, and you'll receive. If you only want to receive, misery is all you'll get. Hence your current worldview. Realize that other people in the world are just as miserable as you are. Maybe they're too stupid to see that you need help, and how it could be given to you. Just like you're too stupid to see it in them. You can choose to bring someone happiness, if you want, you just have to forsake your own Want that has brought you only despair.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 04:29:01 2019 No.13921408 File: 530 KB, 600x600, 3113344ecd198e06fa95abe807c917e7.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Everybody says 'have sex'. Why does nobody ever say 'have love'?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 04:31:38 2019 No.13921412 >>13918214 I wish my book would get published so I had a chance at making a career of writing.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:04:08 2019 No.13921734 >>13918598 Good thing going to bed doesn't require solving a captcha (yet)

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:05:52 2019 No.13921743 >>13921408 Because love is not possessive, it cannot be owned.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:07:49 2019 No.13921752 >>13918230 Find me a replacement for /christian/ and I'll happily leave.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:09:09 2019 No.13921758 >>13921752 Based. I miss it, I miss the lottery/Finn spammer

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:11:59 2019 No.13921770 >>13921743 You can't possess sex either any more than you can possess walking or breathing. You can do it, but you can't hold it in your hands or anything.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:28:39 2019 No.13921819

>>13921283
Not him, but the weather is very autumn these days and it feels good. Also my main season on the farm is about to end next week, which is always a relief as I can get started on smaller projects before the snow comes. I'm not reading anything right now due to some overworking, but I intend to read Pale Fire soon. I had started it as an ebook but I thought it was annoying to navigate and since it seems like an amazing book, I ordered a paper copy.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 07:29:36 2019 No.13921826 >>13921770 what if i had a rape cave with some girls i keep in it haha now that would very criminal haha.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 08:05:59 2019 No.13921920 >>13921819 Do you work on a farm, or is it your own? It's warming up where I am, and I'm grateful. Winter really sucks. I haven't ever read any Nabokov, sorry. What are you planning on doing over the winter?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 09:11:55 2019 No.13922093 >>13921920 I own a farm yes, market farming with CSA and all the stuff. In the winter I usually plan the next season while growing microgreens for supermarkets. You're in the southern hemisphere?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 10:02:40 2019 No.13922195 >>13922093 What do you grow? I worked on an organic farm for a long time and actually really miss it.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:04:38 2019 No.13922398

>>13922195
My main income is from CSA, so I grow a little bit of everything, a little over 30 varieties of vegetables and fruits. It's really nice and rewarding but some gruelling work. When the snow comes the season is definitely over, it feels so good though to calm down for a couple of weeks.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:14:38 2019 No.13922437 >nofap day 4 OH GOD I CANT TAKE IT.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:15:48 2019 No.13922442 >>13922437 the first week of nofap is the most interesting. i find that after 7-10 days, it becomes much easier and doesn't feel like a challenge. the first 5 days are something though.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:18:14 2019 No.13922454

>>13918214
I'm utterly fucking obsessed with a girl I haven't even met, we talked through the dms and I managed to miss every single shot of flirting she threw at me. Now are conversations are lacking as fuck and shes blew me off a couple times by not responding for a few days despite me seeing her active. I know this sounds pathetic but I can't get her off my mind no matter how impossible it more and more becomes. I don't doubt that if I ever meet her I can get a fresh start or manage to grow in some way for her to contact me but for now I'm stuck in limbo waiting for a response that will never come. I often fucking double text just to talk back and forth for a bit then get ghosted. It's not like our conversations are dry neither, we got really close in a short amount of time and I doubt she HATES talking to me. Its just might be nuisance to her because I'm already categorized as a friend in her mind and I don't know her IRL enough for our conversations to have weight. Should I just give up until i'm contacted again/meet her? She's hardly active on her IG but manages to see my stories the instant I put them up. I got a small sign of compassion from her and have never been able to give it up since. And it's not that i'm ugly it's usually pretty easy for me to get a girl to fall in love with me but the one girl I LIKE is just straight up someone I've never met and sees me nothing more than a randie friend that hit up her DMs. I've never simped this hard what the fuck is going on

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:19:36 2019 No.13922458
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I will never travel hours from home to an English city with medieval heritage, in order to begin my university studies as an 18 year old full of of youthful optimism. I will never meet a big titted raven-haired ingenue English Literature student through friendship circles, begin dating and steal kisses under stone arches and in coffee shops in-between heartfelt discussions concerning the western canon. I will never go as a couple to a friend's Halloween party and get sucked off by a slutty witch wearing purple stockings in one of the many bathrooms of a country mansion, before returning to drinking games with a close knit circle of friends. I will never embrace the post-graduation future with confidence and take my rightful place in society. I will never spend Christmas at the family home of my future wife during the winter break in our studies, watching old movies in front of a roaring logfire, and will never spend rainy autumnal days in old lecture halls counting down the hours until the pub where my best friend is waiting to be rescued by the brotherly love of human kindness following a messy breakup.
Why. Even. Live.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:24:53 2019 No.13922478

>>13922454
God you sound fucking pathetic and in the dumps right now. Yes, try to forget about her and attract her attention somehow for you to contact her if you REALLY feel so inclined to try to get intimate with her. But honestly this sounds like some fluke love/a challenge to you. In all serious getting with her at this point my be impossible unless you talk again and you manage to flirt with her, and even then, sending a double text is fucking pathetic. She doesent hate you, just lost any interest she had at all.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:41:53 2019 No.13922515 >>13922454 you're just not successful enough.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:44:03 2019 No.13922523

Spending time here is as fruitful as the books I read. The books that I read as a search for something. I tell myself I read without purpose but perhaps I read to compensate for my average at best intelligence. There's nothing special about reading words. There's nothing special about me. Even books are nothing special. There's only a minuscule amount of books that are good. Think about how many books there are. I could write a book. It will be a terrible book but a book nonetheless.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:49:23 2019 No.13922539 >>13922442 Last time i lost i went for 2 weeks and then i was bored and thought "hey, why not fap?" and i did. And i was back in that same fap routine

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 11:50:27 2019 No.13922543 >>13922515 I wish this was the reason but I managed to get a few things published into a literary magazine and showed her but she ultimately seemed unimpressed. I just don't know what this one wants..

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:03:17 2019 No.13922591

The only thing I'm good at writing is about how loathsome I am. Everything is trite nonsense that no one would ever wish to read. I can't even bear to flip through the damn pages without groaning at either my pleasant days or my grave ones, one for their lack of originality or flow, the other for their morose subject matter. I should just give up pretending I have any right to be a reader or a writer, stop pretending and go back to being a factory worker and die from being immobilized under some heavy machinery and be forgotten as the heap of dust I am.
Why did I have to be cursed with a desire I shall never fulfill? Why make a flawed man?
God Giggles, Supreme.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:04:11 2019 No.13922592 >>13922543 Dude, she'll miss the attention you give her anyway. I'm pretty sure I've seen you on /adv/ before too just fucking chill and stop talking to her for a bit.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:08:16 2019 No.13922603 >>13922458 tfw not animu girl y

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:11:29 2019 No.13922615 It's October and my bones making lots of noise

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:17:41 2019 No.13922634 File: 68 KB, 408x569, moot banning aussies.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13920267 Absolutely.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:18:58 2019 No.13922642 >>13922543 The best thing to do is to stop, like this anon says >>13922592. Don't message her. Silence. Nothing. Leave it. Do it out of spite if nothing else. Just don't be a pussy and do it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:31:17 2019 No.13922694 >>13922454 post pic of girl plz

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 12:32:16 2019 No.13922702 >>13922539 kinda the same for me. at some point, there's no more urge so it's just something that you do like that.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 13:26:50 2019 No.13922893 I like asoiaf and think they're good books. There i said it!

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 15:09:21 2019 No.13923392

I feel like I'm too old to learn how to write well. I'm in my 30s and I write like a teenager writing their first fanfic. It's just embarrassing at this point, like that one time I got super into ice hockey so I went to a skating rink because I wanted to learn how to ice skate and a bunch of 8-9 year old kids were literally skating circles around me. And the thing is I was always kinda interested in writing, but I never really learned how to in school. I think in twelve years of grade school, I've only had to do two creative writing/fiction assignments, one was a 20 page short story and the other was a poem. Everything else was read a popular book and write your thoughts about it, or write your thoughts about a certain topic, but never did they teach us about writing fictional stories. I'm 100% certain that not once had they ever tried to teach us how to properly punctuate dialogue between characters because I had to look this shit up when writing my stuff now. Is this weird, were my schools just super ghetto or do they just not bother teaching this stuff at a grade school level?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 15:33:04 2019 No.13923510 Wish i was asexual

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:00:35 2019 No.13923915
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Everything comes to nothing.
I contemplate death (not suicide, just the end of my physical existence ) from time to time. The other day, I had a strong feeling of finality. As if my being was finally realizing (not merely thinking) that death will come. I wasn't afraid, but I did feel a deep pang of regret that I wasn't living as fully as I could be. Many things have been left undone so far, and I have to decide if I should let go of all the old dreams and focus on the spiritual life. I would prefer to do both, but there is only so much time and bills need paying. So I don't know. Sloth seems to be my biggest weakness at the moment. Instead of going forth with intention I just sit here and vegetate. Bepis.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:05:11 2019 No.13923935 I love punk rock or whatever its called >blink 182 >bowling for soup etc its amazing

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:15:42 2019 No.13924000 >>13923392 not a race, nig

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:17:45 2019 No.13924015 >>13923935 Maybe try listening to some real punk Youth Brigade Black Flag Social Distortion The Misfits

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:24:26 2019 No.13924040 >>13924015 maybe some other time, i dont care enough

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:52:08 2019 No.13924155 >>13923915 >"living fully" literally a cope. the greeks were a mistake.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 17:58:43 2019 No.13924173 would it be reasonable to just read the same book over and over again instead of reading other books?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:00:41 2019 No.13924182 >>13924173 Do you enjoy doing that?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:03:51 2019 No.13924200 I genuinely hate everyone who isn't a communist or anarchist. Ancaps aren't anarchist and should be beaten to death. If you litter you also get beaten. If you deny climate change same thing. I'm just sick of this shit.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:04:09 2019 No.13924203 >>13924182 I don't know.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:05:10 2019 No.13924205 >>13924200 That's a little harsh. I'm sure that we could be friends if we got to know eachother.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:07:04 2019 No.13924208 >>13924200 Doesn't that sound kind of authoritarian?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:10:26 2019 No.13924217 >>13922458 I could be the witch. I'm not a girl, but y'know, it's costume.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:13:46 2019 No.13924232 >>13924205 No. >>13924208 It's necessary for now.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:14:39 2019 No.13924236 >>13924155 Thanks for reading my blog. Like and share, and subscribe to my youtube channel

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:17:28 2019 No.13924248 >>13924232 >No. Why not? The world could use more friends.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:20:34 2019 No.13924263 >>13922093 >>13922195 How did you get your jobs? I want to be a farmer too.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:29:29 2019 No.13924280 >>13922093 >You're in the southern hemisphere? Yep. I was going to ask what kind of farm you had but I guess that somebody already did, sorry. What are you going to do over the off-season?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:34:19 2019 No.13924292 I wish I had slept with you the one day after your class when we discussed it. You know the day I am talking about. I would give anything to be your's and I hope you know that. I hate it here. I will love you eternally.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:35:30 2019 No.13924295 The way I treated you and talked to you is just so shameful. I can never forgive myself.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:43:14 2019 No.13924312

>>13918214

i feel quite strongly as if i have broken my brain through my alcoholism, drug usage, and porn/wanking addiction, and that my brain is now irreversably fucked and i am doomed to become another faceless and mediocre member of this cretinous generation who marries an ugly wife and has kids that get bullied

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:44:54 2019 No.13924316
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I went to a bookstore to buy Houellebecq's new book, which recently came out here. I got served by this very cute girl at the counter and I started acting extremely autistically, I probably started speaking in a strange and erratic way as I paid for the book. She seemed so kind and that only made everything worse. I imagine she thought there was something wrong with me, or she probably sees this every time some social retard comes into the store to buy something. I don't really remember what she looked like other than that she had short black hair and a kind face.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:50:50 2019 No.13924332 >>13924316 Black hair looks best on a Zhong Hua girl. Good luck not looking like a total moron next time, champ.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 18:58:19 2019 No.13924357 A fat drunken geriatric and his beaner (grand?)daughter just walked in. Disgusting weirdo

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:07:09 2019 No.13924406 File: 240 KB, 680x690, 1569901087054.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13918214 I feel like my life is falling apart and I've squandered all of my splendor. Whenever I reflect my face twists up and I cry in agony under my breath.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:10:33 2019 No.13924427 >>13924357 Based. Get fucked, zoomer.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:12:24 2019 No.13924437

I'm sad. The world and its people are so cruel. A portion of the population will see a man on his knees and choose to kick him while he's down. The rest of the population will see this happen then look away and pretend this didn't happen. Nobody has a sense of justice and nobody truly cares for another man. The only time people ever care about justice is for the sake of vanity and self-righteousness. How did the world get this way?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:16:08 2019 No.13924452 >>13924437 I have no family and no friends that care about me. I'm going to move from this city and hope that the next one is kinder. If that doesn't fix my problem I'll just kill myself.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:18:16 2019 No.13924457 >>13919846 That's unnecessary and would make you look like a creep. I take 20 minute showers but because I sit in the warm water. How are you sure he's masturbating?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:51:12 2019 No.13924573

I can't believe people are unironically saying that the joker film is going to spur some kind of incel uprising. Hilariously trying to frame it as "too twisted to release" is probably just promoting it further at this point.

Also, I'm confused why it's a "joker" film, it doesn't look like it has much to do with capeshit at all other than being set in the batman city and using the name. Did they just take a non-capeshit screenplay and modify it slightly to get DCbuxs?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:53:35 2019 No.13924579
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"Begs the question" does not mean "raises the question," it means "engages in circular reasoning"

"There are fewer apples on the table," not "There are less apples on the table." "I have three fewer apples," not "I have three less apples." "There are fewer people in the room," not "There are less people." "I have less water than before," but "I see fewer glasses of water."

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 19:57:01 2019 No.13924592

>>13924573
>I can't believe people are unironically saying that the joker film is going to spur some kind of incel uprising. Hilariously trying to frame it as "too twisted to release" is probably just promoting it further at this point.

The entire incel narrative about this movie misses the point, and that's exactly the point. Nobody wants to read into the actual subtext of it, which is "hurt people hurt people" that society's monsters are a reflection of its own monstrosity.
The Joker manifests in the course of the film an inverted self-actualization, he reclaims his life and turns his insanity into a weapon. Incels in contrast wallow in their decrepitude and never manage to take ownership of their lives.

>Also, I'm confused why it's a "joker" film, it doesn't look like it has much to do with capeshit
The director said that you can't compete with Marvel doing regular cape shit. Most of the DC movies attempt to be more art-house and creative, to attract those who don't like vanilla cape shit. The Dark Night trilogy attempted something similar. Nobody remembers the acting in capeshit movies, but people Remember Heath Ledger.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:01:50 2019 No.13924613 >>13924263 I just bought a house that has a 4 hectares land and started a farm 8 years ago.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:02:16 2019 No.13924617 >>13924592 >Most Well maybe not most. But they do try to be edgier and darker

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:04:13 2019 No.13924624 I just learned today that a new Nick Cave album will be released in two days and I'm very excited about it. Skeleton Tree was amazing and I hope they're going for the same vibe.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:09:47 2019 No.13924642 >>13923510 I wish I was sexual. I won't be able to have a romantic relationship without sex being something that'll happen at some point.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:11:39 2019 No.13924651

>>13924573
People are only scared of incels and mass shootings because of journalists. Journalism is a dying career and journalists are becoming increasingly desperate. Journalists will create controversies where it doesn't exist just to get some extra clicks. People react more strongly to the novel threat (that is unlikely to affect anyone) than they react to the common threat (which is likely to kill them). People don't care about the heart disease, cancer, and alzheimer's that will kill them, instead they're freaking out over the 0.00000001% chance of dying in a mass shooting that won't happen. The disgusting part of this behavior of journalists creates more problems and solves nothing. There would be less mass shootings if mass shooters weren't given so much attention, mentally ill people are desperate for that attention. The ironic part about "THE DANGEROUS NEW TREND YOUR CHILD IS DEFINITELY PARTAKING IN" section is that children would never find out about this trend if the news didn't cover it. One kid partakes in some dangerous trend, now its overblown all over the news and now all the kids know about it. I hope journalists are aware of how much damage they cause and how much their lives and careers are worth.
That was a bit of a long tangent. Anyways the director of the movie probably understands that incels aren't an actual threat and also understands that he can take advantage of the irrational fear people have over incels.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:20:28 2019 No.13924705 >>13924651 >One kid partakes in some dangerous trend, now its overblown all over the news and now all the kids know about it. I should rephrase that. It isn't a trend until after the news covers it.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:24:44 2019 No.13924726 I'm a fool. Better to convince myself it's what I wanted, though. Surely it's what I wanted? Why would I do it?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:26:12 2019 No.13924736 File: 6 KB, 300x180, serveimage.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13924624 that's great news. thanks, anon

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:29:19 2019 No.13924748 >>13918214 When I'm going and what's the quickest way?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:31:02 2019 No.13924756 My neighbour just went into a killer drum solo at 01:30am. He's good enough that if anyone complains, my stoned ass is going to lie to the cops.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:38:54 2019 No.13924779 >>13918505 9?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:40:45 2019 No.13924788

I'm just gonna let my fingers write whatever comes to mind.

I'm conflicted. I have lots of tension built up in my body.

I feel like the company I work in will end, and I will be fucked. I have already turned in some resumes. No one's called me yet, but this doesn't worry me big time because I'm a teacher and usually teachers are only hired every six months where I'm from, and places that do hiring between hiring seasons should be suspected.

I feel like some spoiled brat, and like less than a man. I feel like some sponge, soft and squishy, and prone to being smashed. I am a failure because I am not that which I could be.

But then what can I do? Well, I can only think of what not to do, and that is to fall into temptation. Vice hurls a man deeper into the abyss, and accelerates his downfall. I am in places higher than most of my peers, but I still am far below where I aim at.

Procrastination and temptation feed off on me. I shall overcome both.

I also started watching anime. I imagine this makes me even less of a man. But does it add to my culture?

I can only wonder. I'll have some tea.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:40:56 2019 No.13924790 >>13919297 nice. got more?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:44:01 2019 No.13924798 >>13924779 yes

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:45:51 2019 No.13924807 File: 22 KB, 324x449, 1569697715822.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13924573 >Yeah, I'd like one ticket for the Joker.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:51:05 2019 No.13924825 File: 11 KB, 262x334, 8chanfounder.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13920072 8ch

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:52:07 2019 No.13924829 >>13918505 your shits pretty entertaining ngl

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 20:56:28 2019 No.13924852 There are two things that motivate me currently: 1. trying to be like cool anime characters 2. trying to be appealing to my 2d anime gf

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:00:44 2019 No.13924867 >>13924788 teacher of what

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:06:45 2019 No.13924891

>>13924790
As a matter of fact I do. I've always been a bit of a flaneur. Thankfully this little patch of overpriced real estate offers no end of walking opportunities.

There are nights when the lights blur filthily with the social contradictions. I pass a pack of models here, a gang of youths there. I slice through their microcosm for a brief second. A man with impossible densities of body hair stands intimately next to me on the train, barely a lover's breath away. A petulant feminist tosses her hair back at me. I read the grime on the sidewalk as dendrologist reads the rings of a tree, layers of gum, cum, and bum splattered about, telling a story.

Better yet when I wander into the accursed hellzones of tourist traps. The sensory bombardment is a violent assault. I can read a tourist from a mile away. The sheepish gait, the bulging eyes, the agape mouthes. I almost want to warn them, "get out while you still can." Of course I don't because every stranger here might as well be encased behind a glacial sheet of ice.
The best of course are the aggressive beggars who insult you when you refuse to patronize them. The very least you can do as the dregs of society is learn how to beg effectively. Is that such a monumental task? To ask without doing anything in return, but to do so politely? If your job is to do nothing but ask, then wouldn't it at least occur to you to ask nicely? And if I am to refuse you the fruits of my wallet, does that really make me worthy of vilification?

I wonder also at the superrich who haunt these corridors, what secrets they are hiding. I almost wish they would point me to the "money river" as Vonnegut called it, the hidden well of easy money that these types draw from because they are part of a certain caste. I might as well ask space aliens to explain their spaceships to me. It's a different world.

Despite it all, despite the offensively beautiful faces, despite the 3am food deliveries from Swiss restaurants (yes there are Swiss restaurants here) despite all the glamor and prestige, I wish I was in the woods, alone and unbothered.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:08:57 2019 No.13924903

>>13924825
He's a smart little cookie. Did you know he wrote an essay advocating eugenics that got published on a fascist website? Because they were the only ones who would publish it. The delicious comedy and irony.

>I am simply asking for compassion from an ignorant society that falsely believes it is unethical to give genetically defective people incentives not to reproduce. I am simply arguing for a world full of healthy, happy children who can play outside with their friends without breaking their legs.

Oof

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:09:37 2019 No.13924907

>>13918505
Update: I’ve fought off my interests in the other girls on campus, though I still look at them and get excited. Today the girl in the gym, the one who shook her hips sexually right in front of me as I was doing pec fly’s, immediately say in the machine in front of me as I was doing probe leg curls. She did no more than 3 low weight exercises. And as soon as I was done with my sets, she left immediately. These things have always happened to me. They’re always “coincidences” somehow, of course, you know. I know that at any time I could pursue these girls and satisfy my lust. How can I get these things out of mind? It’s not so easy in the moment, but now, I’ve set my mind back on her. Eventually I hope to think of her always, but sensory information is much stronger than memory. But I will finally see her with my own eyes soon

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:12:27 2019 No.13924924
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I went to the library to check out some Asian-American YA novels for a research project. They didn't have any so I rented Season 1 of <Ballers>.

It's really awful. I'm literally interrupting this post to stop it and eject the DVD before it kills more of my braincells / soul

For making this and <Bay Watch> I hope the Rock just fucking disappears. I hope his career-arc ends in a Vin DIesel-like obscurity

>>13924891
Of course life is full of violence you thumb sucking civilian.

>>13924788
You are like the same person as me. Everything from Reddit-spacing and being a teache.

I don't drink tea though; and I've seen all the anime I want at this point. My favorite anime's are <Nodame Cantabile> and <Whisper of the Heart> and <The Place Promised in Our Early Days>.

I also like <Full Moon wo Sagashite>

And I have a crush on Sayuri Sawatari.

But mostly nowadays I prefer K-pop girls to anime. I think Koreans are really beautiful and I love them. I like to buy girl groups' albums so I can get their photobooks and little cards to put in my wallet.

Overall though, K-pop is more painful than anime due to the fact that the pop-idols seem "almost" real, with a girl-next-door aura that teases you into believing that it's almost possible.

However that said, the pain inflicted on my heart by the girls' dating other guys, is a good way of learning from experience, to draw one's heart and mind toward what is holy, beyond that which is beautiful.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:19:05 2019 No.13924948 >>13924924 >Of course life is full of violence you thumb sucking civilian. What could that even mean?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:20:44 2019 No.13924963

I'm on vacation this week. Drank my coffee, exercised, showered, ate a healthy vegan breakfast. I've got 14 hours of solid writing time left in the day with no obligations to be anywhere else.

I'm gonna write stories about finding love in unexpected places. I admire authors such as Danielle Steel and Nicholas Sparks. None of the characters I write use curse-words or skip church.

Why do I feel, with all my balls lined up for the next 14hrs, like I'm going to fail?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:21:01 2019 No.13924964 >>13924924 Also, you can't step to this. So don't even try.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:23:27 2019 No.13924979

>>13924948
everything he's talking about is an assault, an encroachment, or a micro aggression. i am trying to gently imply that there are ways to overcome life's violence and master it. in so doing in a symbolic way anon would grow from a hypersensitive, tortured civilian into a tough mature husbandman of his own fate

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:26:19 2019 No.13924996

>>13924867
I teach ESL.

>>13924924
I've just started. Some friends of mine recommended me a list of animes to watch. I've been prejudiced against anime since my teenage years. I watched a bit of Naruto, but it's so fucking huge I didn't have patience to keep up with it. I watched half of the classic version and like fifty chapters of Shippuden.

So I'm watching Madoka now. It's weird. I looked it up, and apparently it's targeted at adult male audiences, but it's all very... cute. Yet, it is interesting. I'm conflicted.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:30:32 2019 No.13925016 >>13924996 I was you six months ago, now I'm a full blown fucking weeb

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:31:46 2019 No.13925023

>>13924825
>>13924903
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nick_Vujicic

>>13924996
i was prejudiced against anime for the longest time. i'm not a con-attending cosplaying tier fan now but i'm glad i opened my mind. strangely enough my mom also really likes some stuff like <my neighbor totoro> and <cowboy bebop>.

anime's one of the few things everybody in my family still agrees on =/

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:33:59 2019 No.13925035 >>13924907 "We should not touch our idols: their gilding will remain on our hands." - Flaubert

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:38:45 2019 No.13925056 is there a market for really morose bullshit and whiny introspection?

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:39:36 2019 No.13925060 >>13925056 If there were, everyone on /lit/ would be a published author.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:47:01 2019 No.13925098 >>13924907 >I know that at any time I could pursue these girls and satisfy my lust. that's a lie since you're just a lowly pedophile.

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:48:36 2019 No.13925108

>>13925056
yes but you have to at least pretend to have hope, and/or to have gained wisdom or love through you struggles

there are approximately 3 trillion novels that deal with people feeling bad then feeling good, or at least seeming to feel good

you just have to shoehorn the bad stuff into a kind of cinderella story

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:54:24 2019 No.13925128 >>13925108 so i gotta learn to lie convincingly?

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 21:56:22 2019 No.13925136

Finished writing my first book about two weeks ago. Came out to be 286 pages. Took me a year and some months. I thought id take a little break from writing but i found myself with visions of this story i cant shake so i started writing today. I plan on it being a short story. I wrote the first book in first person but this time im narrating in third person. I was a bit weary but i think its not coming out so bad.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:06:43 2019 No.13925174 File: 145 KB, 749x963, 8F18A059-2DD6-421C-AAAF-A720995BA816.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13925098 yeah I bet you thought I was dumb too, but you’re wrong

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:08:12 2019 No.13925182 >>13925174 >36% is considered good so... this is the power of...the american education system? woah.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:11:15 2019 No.13925202 >>13925182 In my year I was ~99.95 percentile. The maximum score is a 36

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:13:31 2019 No.13925214 >>13925202 >can read >can't write >is a pedo checks out

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:16:29 2019 No.13925233 >>13925214 Plato’s dialogues aren’t filled with exceptional writing, but that doesn’t mean they’re lacking in reason.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:21:51 2019 No.13925249 >>13925182 It's out of 36...

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 22:51:16 2019 No.13925362

I was at a New Year's Eve supper in my wife's family last year. At some point, they passed around those very cheap, not sure how you call them, crackers? Looks like a large candy, you pull both ends, they make a loud crack sound and there's some toy or joke or message inside. Well mine had that little horrible toy inside. I think it was supposed to be a lion, small, roughly the size of a quarter. Everything about it was so cheap and wrong. It was grey-beige, you could hardly tell what it was supposed to be, it was incredibly poorly manufactured, the plastic was cheap and there were mold marks and leaks. Really a ghastly, absolutely useless little thing, not even a child would have been happy to get this.

And over the evening, I couldn't help but think about how something like that "lion" came to be. There was a long process behind this thing. At some point, someone had to decide that these plastic lions needed to exist. Someone had to sit down and draw or design it. The plastic molds had to be made and installed somewhere. How did this happen? Did some chinese factory just made a couple millions of these, put them in a warehouse and listed them in some catalog until a cheap cracker company ordered them? All that waste of time and resources.

Does the person who designed the sickly lion still thinks about it sometimes? Or did he completely forget he ever spent time on this?

It makes me nauseous when I think about those things.

Like the other day, I was eating those you know, pepper paste stuffed olives. Then I wondered about how they're actually made, with the hole, the X, the stuffing. Of course, there are YouTube videos that show the process. The pitting process is kind of cool, but the stuffing, man, those olives are hand stuffed.

You have those workers in some faraway sad factory who spend their days just stuffing olives for me to buy on sale at the supermarket. Those workers, they have lives, families. They leave their children in the morning for their 14 hours shifts then get told that they'll spend the week stuffing olives. Maybe they're paid by the number of bottles they fill? Imagine how pointless this all is. Instead of learning something, enjoying life, spending time with their children and loved ones, they stuff olives for hours on end. This time, they'll never get it back, and they might have been doing this for years, decades?

This is all so tiresome.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 23:10:00 2019 No.13925431 >get depressed with being a no-friends shut in >plan to go traveling >date of departure looms >want nothing more than to continue sitting in room watching anime I really hate myself

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 23:11:05 2019 No.13925437

I feel as if time passes by quicker when you age. I don't remember what I felt like a week ago, let alone last month. It's not too bad, I can hardly stay upset at anything. At the same time, most things can't hold my attention for more than a few months. I'm just like one of those FoTMfags aren't I? Fucked up.

The weather was shitty today. Planning to buy a carton of ice cream tomorrow (strawberry). I don't have a fridge in my room so I'll have to eat it in a day. That's fine; I don't trust anyone in my dorm to leave a pint of ice cream alone. Every single year my university decides to stick me in a single instead of a double and I had wanted to go for a double because I'm a cheapskate but I don't think I can stand some normalfag sharing the same living space as me for a year and talking about all the fucks they're fucking. I would have invited someone to be my roommate but I don't have anyone. I was thinking of starting a film club but you can't call it the CASUAL film club because it'd invite casuals who only want to watch Marvel and pause the movie every 10 minutes to explain the plot. Alternative film club? That's not exactly what I'm thinking of either; sounds too arthouse. Dilettante's film club? It's too much.

>>	Anonymous Wed Oct 2 23:13:20 2019 No.13925446 >>13925431 even worse I like to present myself as a cool, adventurous type even though I've left the house twice in the past month

Anonymous Wed Oct 2 23:49:01 2019 No.13925555

>finish book
>sit down and look at my wall of books
>pick one up that was to be next
>read some of it and become disgusted that it's not as complex or enjoyable for its prose
>while reading just to make sure it isn't just post book fatigue from the last, sort out "to read" books
>obsess over books to be read
>stare at wall in frustration
>toss book away
>take up another book and experience the same frustration
>take up another
>shuffle books like a deck of cards
>wonder if it would be better to just reread the book i just read, seemed like a good one
>feel stupid
>get online
>sap myself and restructure my mind for plebthought with pleb idiots who chat in some mindless channel about trash and cucks and how much they hate jews
>try to talk about something in non-pleb language
>get kicked out for being pretentious
>feel depressed
>feel the savage twinge in gut, the desire to end it all
>write in journal
>make fun of self in journal
>feel worse
>have committed to being sober and healthy
>no drugs to escape to
>pace for hours
>come here to post this
>inevitably be ignored or jabbed with some pithy and wise comment that destroys everything i know

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 00:08:42 2019 No.13925593 >>13925555 nice quads. didn't read your post though.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 00:29:16 2019 No.13925652 File: 97 KB, 642x900, 1569645671340.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13924996 It's fun little series. I hope that enjoy it, anon!

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 00:33:28 2019 No.13925665

I remember walking back home at night over the damp sidewalks that reflected back the colors of traffic signals and electric streetlights. The air was cool and seemed to buzz with energy as it flowed around me. It was late and there were barely any sounds, I was in the city but I didn't see a single other person the whole time I was out. I wondered if you could see it too, shining through a starless sky.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 00:53:06 2019 No.13925724

I keep coming across comments I've previously made on other websites and physically cringing. One of them was from only a year ago and I couldn't believe it, only a year ago and I was complete retard. I imagine another year from now I'll be looking back in horror at the shit I'm saying now.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 00:55:00 2019 No.13925732 >>13925724 eventually you'll make your cringe rounds, and realize that you haven't changed a bit. then you'll be really horrified.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:04:28 2019 No.13925761

There's an infinitude of knowledge out there, waiting to be known, and I will never achieve the faustian dream of learning all of it.

I will never have all the skill I want. I will never have all the knowledge I fashion.

Like Fernando Pessoa once said,
>to live is to not attain

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:05:46 2019 No.13925768 >>13925761 The only thing that I want to know, is do you love me?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:06:14 2019 No.13925771 >>13925768 Probably

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:23:21 2019 No.13925819 >>13925771 :)

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:23:30 2019 No.13925821 Got rejected by a crippled girl. Just when I thought my self esteem couldn't get any lower, life somehow finds a way.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:36:19 2019 No.13925849 >>13925821 If it makes you feel any better, I used to reject girls who made moves on me that I actually liked, only because of my severely low self confidence. I'm also retarded.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:37:31 2019 No.13925851 >>13925849 I was super paranoid about smelling bad so I wouldnt even let her hug me. :/ I probably didnt even smell bad and was just paranoid.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:40:13 2019 No.13925858 >>13925851 Wear deodorant then, bozo.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 01:41:56 2019 No.13925863 >>13925849 I did too, because I didn't want them to meet my family. I brought a girl to a Christmas dinner once and it's a nightmare that I never want to repeat.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 02:56:12 2019 No.13926018 >>13925821 I never thought I'd say this, but that sounds like ableism. If it weren't, I don't see how such rejection would lower your self esteem. You don't need low standards to date someone who's disabled. Grow a pair.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:03:19 2019 No.13926036 >>13925849 Jesus christ. This is fucking pathetic. You know who I love so either help me or just give it up already.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:09:50 2019 No.13926051 File: 12 KB, 247x204, 1527484172354.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Just got a $200+ fine in the mail from the government for not voting two years ago.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:12:45 2019 No.13926057 >>13926051 In what country do you get fined for not voting?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:13:49 2019 No.13926062 >>13926057 Australia

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:14:14 2019 No.13926064 >>13926057 He's probably Australian or something.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:20:00 2019 No.13926076 Unf I love when 4channelers call me pathetic.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 03:26:16 2019 No.13926093 >>13926076 Help me get in contact with you know who so I can iron things out between us and I will think you're not pathetic. I will think you're a great person in fact. I would never get angry at you or insult you again.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 05:37:22 2019 No.13926331 Most fiction books are written in the voice of a plump, yelling announcer, walking up and down upon a wooden stage.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 06:28:51 2019 No.13926430 >>13926051 >>13926062 >>13926064 i don't expect much from a prison colony.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 06:33:43 2019 No.13926440 File: 663 KB, 498x280, tenor.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13926430 Rude.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 07:01:42 2019 No.13926515 If I didn't have a fucking family I would have done it by now

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 07:04:52 2019 No.13926528 File: 135 KB, 1000x1000, 1563536508746.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13926051 >mfw it's madatory to vote in Australia >mfw 9% still don't do it >mfw anon has to pay a 200 Aussie bugs fine

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 09:02:35 2019 No.13926914 >>13926528 They should have a "no voting" party >Vote for us so you don't have to!

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 09:03:29 2019 No.13926919 >>13925035 Based flaubert poster.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 09:44:05 2019 No.13927068

I am a midwit; therefore the inconsistencies of my worldview are more apparent than the inconsistencies of a smart persons worldview. I live in a state of constant doubt; if I am consciously talking, I constantly use words like "perhaps", "maybe", or "I suppose". I have no political alignment that I know of; I want people to be happy and to live in a beautiful environment, but I do not know how to achieve it politically; therefore I choose to remain passive; I think it is better not to do anything if you have no clue about what you are doing, especially if your actions could negatively infringe on other peoples lifes. I have given up on philosophy, because it seems too lofty and abstract; which is to say I am not smart enough to understand it. My artistic dreams have become painful; I lack both talent and attitude; still, I say to myself: if I have no time for writing or dreaming about writing, I might as well kill myself; these thoughts are immediately followed by a slight wave of nausea and regret and shame for being a fuckup in the eyes of my mother; even though she supports me and loves me. I dont love her back with the same intensity; sometimes I dont know if I love her at all. I hate what I say when I talk to my friends; I want to be either funny, smart or say nothing at all; I manage neither and remember the days I have spend in a happy-sad way. I have picked up Tolstoys What I Believe. I hope I can become a christian; I dont care for metaphysics or salvation or enlightenment; I just want to have a sun inside my heart.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 09:56:48 2019 No.13927116

As a man of great talent, I have come to expect more from this world than it has to offer me. I look about me, resolved to accentuate it with some traces of my spirit, my boon, but no pedestals exist that support their nature, no foundation by my predecessor rises to the occasion, I am a strangled original.
To breathe the air launched from billows of mediocrity induces to no end a malaise upon my form; concomitance with these articles of filth stifles too my creation. Would that one could find an insular hovel to spend a lifetime building the foundation necessary, only to leap from one flesh to the next to finish the work upon the inevitable exhaustion of that husk, so light the constraints of time would be.
It is certain being there not a conduit established, nor time to craft it, that restive genius latent shall fade with the light of my spirit. It is difficult not to rue the inadequacy of my forefathers to prepare the world for my advent.
I shall respond in kind to their error, by masturbating it all away.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:07:23 2019 No.13927149 On my bench to the right of my pc stands the following. >a empty whiskybottle >a empty peanutbutter jar >megnesium >a hipflask >a bible >alot of waste

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:09:08 2019 No.13927153 >>13927149 >alot you're the only waste in the room, anon.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:12:47 2019 No.13927174

>>13927068
I feel the same way at the moment.
Try to learn something in music. Despite being one of the more physically demanding arts, it relies more on spirit than on mind which, as someone drawn by christianity, you might be comfortable in. My two cents.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:15:49 2019 No.13927182 Nothing much im getting pumped full of antipsychotics which make you pretty uncreative; isnt that wonderful

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:20:40 2019 No.13927200 >>13927149 do you wear the flask on your hip?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:27:17 2019 No.13927228 >>13927153 >only noticing that mistake join him in the basket, dumb uppity pleb

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:28:28 2019 No.13927233 >>13927200 no, it's just very fashionable

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:31:55 2019 No.13927252 >>13927153 rude and uncalled for. ill have you know im not a native english speaker >>13927200 is that a joke? no i wear it inside of my jacket

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 10:58:14 2019 No.13927359

Fuck! I'm getting random nerve pain in my legs now. It's intermittent and I can't tell what triggers it, I've already collapsed from the pain once at my house and I've felt it for the first time at work today. I'm hiding in the bathroom now in case it comes back

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 11:18:01 2019 No.13927458 >>13927359 I'd suggest seeing a fucking physician or something ASAP, unless the prospect of a wheelchair doesn't bother you. I'm not an expert, it just sounds serious, collapsing and all. What's your lifestyle like? Any physical activity at all?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 11:58:02 2019 No.13927656 >>13927458 >What's your lifestyle like? Any physical activity at all? I occasionally go on walks, I'm not overweight or anything

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 11:59:33 2019 No.13927666 >>13927359 Yeah man, just call your doctor and take an appointment like now just in case.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 12:01:54 2019 No.13927681 It makes me sad to know I'll never be pregnant and become the homemaker of a trad family since I was born with a Y chromosome.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 12:07:17 2019 No.13927701 >>13927359 Go to a doctor you stupid retard or I'll kick you down the stairs and you'll have something to complain about

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 12:10:51 2019 No.13927717 >>13927656 >>13927666 >>13927701 Fine, I've already talked to him about it but he just referred me to sports PT

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 12:26:24 2019 No.13927762 >>13927359 don't listen to them anon, just go for a jog. it'll sort itself out.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 12:50:19 2019 No.13927862 >>13927681 It makes me feel wistful and a bit sad to know I will never impregnate you with my seed or watch you swell with our children or massage milk from your aching breasts

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:02:13 2019 No.13927923

Stopped taking the antipsychotics about a month ago after four years. The chemical lobotomy was an acceptable cost, weighed against the terror of hurting someone. No longer afraid of myself. (No longer have anyone close enough to be hurt.) Brain slowly waking up to the world again - the arrival of spring, green shoots from decaying dead selves. Creature stirring in an unsealed tomb. How to unbury oneself?

When the god's jaws close around my neck to shake me like a rabbit, when the fire lights my nerves and synapses and I melt into the crucible - let me sing again and keep singing. Return to me my tongue, lord; you can have everything else.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:09:07 2019 No.13927953 I want to move to japan. I've never even been to japan, but I still want to move there.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:20:34 2019 No.13928007 >>13927953 It could be fun. Id hate to learn the language though, seems very hard. I heard that they have three alphabets

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:25:01 2019 No.13928038

>>13927953
my friend moved to japan. took him literally 8 attempts at the JET program. they wouldn't take him because he's indian and really really dark-skinned. but he learned the s--t out of Japanese, took like the highest level Japanese Proficiency Test.

JET finally accepted his qualifications and assigned him to motherf--kin' downtown BEAUTIFUL Kyoto at an all girls middle school.

He's married now to an older Japanese woman.

>>13927923
I've been on antipsychotics for 3 years now non-stop.

I know they're fucking with my potential to live a spontaneous, romantic life but that's the price of living with room, board, healthcare, and enough money to buy healthy groceries. Whenever I go off my meds I take to the streets within 48 hours then the police bring me in. IT's a miracle I haven't been hit by a bus or jumped by thugs in my psychotic wandering state.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:26:32 2019 No.13928047 >>13928038 your friend sounds based. I think I'll aim for N1 or equivalent, at least it'll be something to work towards.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:28:26 2019 No.13928059 >>13928038 >JET ??? what is this? some kind of school test?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:29:49 2019 No.13928067 >>13928059 >what is JET https://jetprogramusa.org/ It's literally the sublime object of ten of millions of NEETs' desires.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:31:35 2019 No.13928078 >>13928067 Not clicking that

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:37:21 2019 No.13928096 >>13928038 >I've been on antipsychotics for 3 years now non-stop. why? are you a schizophrenic?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 13:48:32 2019 No.13928150 File: 241 KB, 400x550, hoov-12-01-31-ph05.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13927862 This could have been us, anon ;-;

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 14:00:50 2019 No.13928206 I was serving the drinks that night I saw the creature trying to get inside The thing asked for a free drink Fuck off NIGGER I scream Can't you read the goddamn sign? It's a WHITES ONLY Bar

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 14:58:50 2019 No.13928509 File: 239 KB, 299x398, 1543432373324.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13928067 >represent the USA as a cultural embassador to Japan >USA >culture

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 15:20:22 2019 No.13928655 >>13928509 It's the same people who say this who start crying when their poor country starts watching Hollywood movies and the kids start talking like American niggers.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 15:21:25 2019 No.13928661 >>13928509 >when their poor country starts watching Hollywood movies this is legitimately a bad thing though

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 15:21:28 2019 No.13928662 >>13918214 Bruce Willis

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 16:01:47 2019 No.13928878

>>13928078
>>13928509
It's just a way to live in Japan. Take it or leave it.

>>13928096
That's what my psychiatrist said.

I'm getting a new psychiatrist soon so we'll see if the diagnosis remains or not.

My life isn't that bad honestly. I've been detained for monitoring in the mental hospital 3 times, for about 1-2 weeks each time. It f--king sucks when you think about people having all this power over you. But in every mental hospital and support group I've been to, I'm always the one with a closest to normal life. I still have goals and I'm not hung up on blaming myself or God or one cosmic event. I still have good habits. I read , I write, I have a cat who helps me de-stress, I pick up a little money cat-sitting for neighbors and some tutoring and piano-lessons.

Schizophrenia isn't as hopeless as it might seem. I can go for about a week without feeling hopeless or pathetic, before I have to work through the latest shipment of cosmic negativity.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 16:04:44 2019 No.13928899 >>13928878 One of my brothers has schizophrenia. He did a couple of psychosis in his early twenties, which was very much not fun for anybody. He's been taking his meds for a couple of years now and things are generally pretty ok.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 16:07:46 2019 No.13928927 Armpits are scientifically labeled as an erogenous zone. It’s totally not weird to lick them at all. Deal with it.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 16:08:17 2019 No.13928931 Im a pathetic excuse for a man

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 16:29:42 2019 No.13929055 File: 183 KB, 1080x1350, yooa dress 9.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13928927 in my experience anyone who comes on 4chan and sticks around very long ends up with a pit thing. i'm not sure why.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:37:32 2019 No.13929409 >>13928927 Somebody licked my armpit once. It feels very weird, I'll just say that.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:38:35 2019 No.13929415 Achilles' calling.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:41:34 2019 No.13929432 >>13929415 Is he calling you up for a date?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:43:48 2019 No.13929443 >>13921752 /christian/ was shit anyway. better than most boards, but still shit.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:47:18 2019 No.13929460 File: 94 KB, 589x768, 1522768046374.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] whats a word for a notebook where you write down and compile all the collected information related to a certain project?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:47:53 2019 No.13929467 >>13929460 bible?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:48:43 2019 No.13929472 >>13929460 binder?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:49:32 2019 No.13929477 >>13929460 my diary desu?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:51:19 2019 No.13929491 >>13929467 >>13929472 >>13929477 i knew the pic would work.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:52:04 2019 No.13929494 >>13929491 i didn't even open it

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:52:23 2019 No.13929497 File: 282 KB, 1920x1200, SOTS.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I really wish I had faith in something higher than myself and a more spiritual element to my life. Fuck science, honestly.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:53:39 2019 No.13929504 >>13929497 >Fuck science, honestly Don't blame others for your weakness.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 17:54:23 2019 No.13929508 >>13929491 i'm just bored. was your question answered?

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:03:50 2019 No.13929562
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>>13929508
no. let me expound, though. basically i'm starting this project which will require me to gather a lot of intelligence. not just research information, i mean real-world intelligence about people places and things. for example, imagine i was going to go to every restaurant in a city and meticulously describe every detail of the experience in a notebook - what kind of people were there, where was the bathroom located in relation to the high traffic areas, how the food tasted as well as how it was presented, etc. i have to be very autistic about how i write down all this intelligence, i have to keep every scrap of it contained within the covers of one singular notebook. say i wanted to write an introduction at the beginning of the notebook where i wanted to say something like
>this notebook will serve as a *______* for this project."
what would that word be?

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:10:01 2019 No.13929593 >>13929562 factbook or bible.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:11:04 2019 No.13929599 >>13929562 Encyclopedia.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:11:24 2019 No.13929601

I know I'm preaching to a chorus here but I have to vent anyway.
>some sort of local literature internet channel thing
>topic is about literature that had an impact on your life
>top voted one is Harry Potter
>I comment about it being YA and maybe it not that good to derive greater and deeper value from
>get shat on harder than some other dude who was hating on all the religious texts that are mentioned
How fucking sad. I really thought it was a meme that people identify so hard with HP but now I saw it with my own eyes. Outrageous really.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:12:34 2019 No.13929612 File: 498 KB, 1080x1091, 1568316495395.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>13929599 this is a good one, but i still feel like there is a more perfect word out there. if i can't come up with it, i'll go with encyclopedia.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:13:29 2019 No.13929619 >>13929601 just disassociate yourself from them. i literally don't talk to any normalniggers outisde of work anymore.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:14:53 2019 No.13929626

>>13929601
Look at the top selling books on Amazon and B&N. People who like the classics are in the minority. Most books sold are YA, self-help, suspense/mystery or some other rubbish. I do know a few people irl who read some classics but I wish I knew more

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:26:14 2019 No.13929689 >>13929626 i hope that someday we'll be able to burn massive amounts of this trash. we could have a big festival for it and everything. everything from the KJV to rupi kaur, just burn it all and forget it existed.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:31:15 2019 No.13929705

>>13929619
>>13929626
I wouldn't even complain if they used anything else. Even if it was some garbage self-help how to not give shit/makes you think drivel. Even that would hold some modicum of meaning even if surface meaning. People can read whatever they want for all that I care.
But to treat this completely cashed out franchise in such a reverent and almost sacred manner was just too much. And so many too.
Even when I asked directly what that meaning was I didn't get any answers.
Sad state of affairs really.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:37:53 2019 No.13929748

I'm feeling pretty good. I graduate soon and I got a good grade. I'm working on mixology training at the same time since I don't know what I want to do yet. I think I might wait a year and apply for a postgraduate teaching course up in Manchester since one of my best mate's up there needs a flatmate for next year. I've slowly got myself back into reading regularly again, tomorrow I'm going to get up early, head to the gym then head to a cafe near it and brush up on cocktail training and read some Kerouac.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:48:48 2019 No.13929810 >>13929705 >Even when I asked directly what that meaning was I didn't get any answers. This same thing happens with at least 90% of /lit/ users. Ask them a question and they'll deflect the question and resort to name-calling.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:50:29 2019 No.13929822 >>13929748 sounds like an excellent life you're leading there, anon.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:53:42 2019 No.13929843 >>13929810 shut up nigger

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:57:27 2019 No.13929870 >>13929562 manifesto.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 18:58:18 2019 No.13929874 >>13929562 a pamphlet.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 19:01:30 2019 No.13929899 >>13929870 >>13929874 its for my eyes only, and i'm not trying to propagate an idea, it will mostly just contain raw data

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 19:08:52 2019 No.13929949 Glad, Feel not so great after drinking coffee. Scared of orangutan, work in chocolate shop. Happy after getting home sleep. Eat dinner in the morning.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 19:22:49 2019 No.13930032 >>13929949 >translated from a cave painting found in the south of France

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 20:30:21 2019 No.13930405 I'm drinking tonight and think I might binge on Amazon prime crossdressing things

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 21:19:57 2019 No.13930644 tap tap tap draw three cards nigga you milled yourself time to eco, force buy next round dont go mid or ill kill your blacksmith

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 21:36:55 2019 No.13930710 File: 49 KB, 400x199, 1570151711090.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Goddamn, I wish I was a girl

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 22:09:47 2019 No.13930836 my psychiatrist retired and i have to find a new one. i'm scared of being judged yet again for the long fraught multifaceted story of mental illness. praying i find one who understands where i am and what i have to work with in practical terms.

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 22:21:25 2019 No.13930894 wish vests didn't look so gay, i want to wear one.

Anonymous Thu Oct 3 22:26:33 2019 No.13930917

>>13924573
i dont really think anyone believes this except for facebook boomers. its kind of interesting seeing all these you would think incel type people very interested in the movie, but a lot of "normie" (by 4chan standards i guess) are also really relating to whats been projected on the movie so far. it might be renamed into something else, but i really think incel culture is one that is going to be quite widespread from what ive seen in most 20 somethings. (in america at least)

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 22:46:05 2019 No.13931004 I just got reminded of my cringy high school speech competition retelling of the "The Thing" featuring an incredibly racist Japanese caricature and a non sequitur plot structure

>>	Anonymous Thu Oct 3 23:58:38 2019 No.13931316 >>13929562 enchiridion.

>>	Anonymous Fri Oct 4 00:04:06 2019 No.13931340 >>13929562 cornucopia of data

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