It’s all gone

[Anonymous No.13730898]

I wasted it. I got my mechanical engineering degree but I never applied to one job, I was so afraid and humiliated and I didn’t think anyone would ever want me to work for them. I didn’t feel like I could be an engineer, I felt too stupid to ever think I could provide enough value to a company to pay for my salary.

Now I make 11 dollars an hour working ina warehouse. People have finally stopped asking me if I’m going to find an engineering job. All those years, money, and effort, wasted.

[Anonymous No.13730904]

You stupid fuck.

[Anonymous No.13730909]

Nice going retard

[Anonymous No.13730911]

Clinical depression?

[Anonymous No.13730915]

I'm so happy I got a borderline useless degree instead of one with expectations lmao

[Anonymous No.13730918]

Just lie and get a technician job

[Anonymous No.13730921]

>>13730898
Hey man, if I didn't recognize something eerily familiar in your post, I wouldn't reply. But my uncle went through a similar thing. Obviously very bright. Obviously talented when it comes to physics and mathematics. But the formal education aspect of it simply destroyed his personality. I strongly suggest you pursue a career in your field. Give it 2 years. If it doesn't work out, pursue your passion without apology.

[Anonymous No.13730933]

>>13730921
What do you mean by it destroyed his personality? And how did that happen?

[Anonymous No.13730945]

>>13730898
bullshit. fuck em. you weren't meant to be an engineer, you were meant for better. you weren't meant to whither away on the vine in some cuck cubicle. you never would've got the chance to engineer anything beautiful anyway.

[Anonymous No.13730959]

Try and pull yourself out you got an engineering degree. You could do a lot with that I would go and work as a contractor. Start at a job you can maybe get your own company in. You got to get your bareings talk to people your co workers family friends. Try and get yourself up and above where you are now. Even if you didn't have an engineering degree if you work in construction theres a lot of opportunities to move up. It is hard but what have you got to lose you would be sore but there would be a lot of things that could go your way talk to your bosses and co worker at your job now ask them for advice. Ask your boss how he got where he is now. People value a good hardworking employee worker when your at home rest. Enjoy yourself being with people is best if you feel this bad and without worth maybe see a therapist too because it seems you've got a lot on your mind.

[Anonymous No.13730960]

I have 2 years until I get the same degree.
I'm a fake, I'm an imposter, I cram to pass, and sometimes, I even get good grades, but I have no technical skills, and I forget all the theory that I learn. Why would anyone give me a well paid, highly responsible position, when a Pajeet could probably do everything that I could, but better.
Wat do?

[Anonymous No.13730963]

>>13730933
Since he was a teenager, he was recognized as having very high intelligence. He followed the expected route from farm kid to engineering student (which was remarkably common in western Canada in the 1980s). By the time he reached third year, he had something approaching a mental breakdown, but he finished school. And he is a well-paid engineer today with a family. But he may or may not be schizophrenic...we aren't quite sure. He speaks with a disarming candour. He is extremely knowledgeable on religious and political matters (which I think is attributable to his hobbies rather than his career), and his words swing like a pendulum between profound insight and incoherence.

[Anonymous No.13730974]

>>13730960
drop out, lift weights, read, wait.

[Anonymous No.13730977]

Don't know if this goes for engineering students too, but for business/ecobomics/finance there is always this bullshit "need at least 2years of experience", "must fit into the culture". Fucking bullshit.

[Anonymous No.13731006]

>>13730915
Same. Although my situation is quite similar to OP's, my degree is meme-tier so there was nothing to waste to begin with.

[Anonymous No.13731026]

>>13730974
I've been lifting for years, I fell for the /lit/ meme and started reading as well, but I feel like books are just escapism. Lifting made me happy for a while, but now it's like washing teeth, it's just something I have to do.
Dropping out is not an option since I'm poor, I could put even less emphasis on grades though.
Kind of an autist so I have a lot of free alone time, just don't know what's the optimal thing to do with it.
Thanks for the reply, I appreciate it

[Anonymous No.13731035]

>>13730960
I was the exact same way. I would just copy the homework from some solution manual if I turned it in at all, then I’d cram the night before an exam and go in and get a B or somewhere just above the average and the average would be so low they’d grade it on a curve. My GPA was a 3.5 when I graduated, I simply didn’t care. I remember laying on the floor of my apartment at 3 AM the night before my heat transfer exam, I was too anxious to even open my textbook. I learned it all well enough to get an above average grade on the exam and that was that.

I don’t know how to do anything, I don’t have any technical skills. I can solve the little kinematics and dynamics problems, I can do the heat transfer and thermo problems, I can find how much torque you’d need to apply on some shaft to create some sort of deflection further down, but I don’t have any ability to do anything with these things. And that’s why I never applied. I didn’t feel like a real engineer, I felt like some sort of fake, like I’d be the odd man out if I ever got the chance to work, but I never thought I’d even get an interview. I have no practical experience in engineering because of that, I never applied to any internships or did any clubs, I was too humiliated and afraid to even try.

[Anonymous No.13731066]

>>13730898
I have these feelings but I also don't care and make $40/hour

Feels like shit being a powerless bourgeois faggot, but what can ya do lol

[Anonymous No.13731067]

>>13731035
Thanks for posting this, I take it as a warning for myself.

[Anonymous No.13731072]

im like most of the people in this thread except my GPA is utter shit and i have 0 social skills, no clue what the hell i'll do after college

[Anonymous No.13731074]

>>13731026
what do you really want though?

[Anonymous No.13731080]

You stupid motherfuckers. Just apply to fucking jobs, you retards. Employers don't expect a new hire to already know everything. Your typical engineering job will require very little technical expertise. Any idiot who can do some math and understand basic physics will be fine.

>boo hoo, muh impostor syndrome
>I'm not a *real* engineer!

Fucking idiot children. I felt that way when I finished my BS, so I spent six years getting a fucking PhD. Even then, I felt no closer to being a real engineer. Now that I've been working for five years, what I've learned is most engineering jobs are so fucking easy and boring. No one will ever challenge you. You can spend half your time day dreaming or writing your novel. You can still have existential angst and depression as you wonder why you bothered getting a degree to do boring and simple work, but at least you can pay your bills.

[Anonymous No.13731082]

>>13731035

like every other job engineering is 1/3 clerical, 1/3 management management or sales, 1/3 actual work. not knowing any engineering will help you advance.

[Anonymous No.13731089]

drop out and join the infanteers

[Anonymous No.13731091]

>>13731080
>he got a trade school phd
holy fuck dude, warn me before you obliterate my sides again

[Anonymous No.13731108]

What do I want? Well, I never really had anything that I wanted to do for long periods of time, just some passing obsessions that would leave as abruptly as they came.
But if I had to think of something, I was always drawn to being a merchant, a jewish trader of sorts, one that makes calculations on a paper towel and rubs his hands. What's my best bet, selling stuff online?
Heh, I'd need money from my cushy engineering job to get the starting capital.

[Anonymous No.13731155]

>>13730898
go see a shrink.

[Anonymous No.13731187]

>>13730898
based, im the same

[Anonymous No.13731228]

>>13731089
This desu. If I were a yank I'd join the military, get a random degree with GI bill and then get some government job thanks to preferential hiring.

[Anonymous No.13731258]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome

[Anonymous No.13731267]

>>13731228
OP already has a four year degree so he could enlist as an officer, then receive tuition repayment assistance and other perks. It's certainly a better option than slaving away at a dead end warehouse job.

[Anonymous No.13731271]

>>13731267
If anon can't apply for an engineering job he can't be an officer

[Anonymous No.13731279]

>>13730974
Read more than fiction*

[Anonymous No.13731282]

great literature-related thread

[Anonymous No.13731287]

>>13731282
great literature-related post.

[Anonymous No.13731291]

>>13731267
how competitive is the procedure to become an officer?

[Anonymous No.13731293]

>>13731258
Not a real thing

>>13731282
Actually this does seem to be related to philosophy in many ways, the sense one has about oneself and how they relate to those around them. Do they really know things or are they just going through the motions?

[Anonymous No.13731294]

>>13731291
not at all

[Anonymous No.13731300]

>>13731294
Getting mixed signals here. Another anon claimed it was very competitive.

[Anonymous No.13731302]

>>13730963
Maybe it's because I just woke up but that's a beautiful description.

[Anonymous No.13731308]

>>13730898
Take the SSI pill.

[Anonymous No.13731309]

>>13731267
definitely wouldn’t want op to be my commander

[Anonymous No.13731315]

So? You can get 3 books off Abe for $11

[Anonymous No.13731325]

>>13731309
Why? Because he has self doubt and you have delusional amounts of confidence?

[Anonymous No.13731341]

what kind of job do you even get with mechanical engineering?

[Anonymous No.13731343]

>>13731341
pretty sure it has to do with typing or somewhat

[Anonymous No.13731353]

>>13731325
I mean to say that if op can’t handle a subordinate position, then he should probably not go straight to command and instead build up to it

[Anonymous No.13731355]

>>13731341
They don't exist. They've all been H1B'd.

[Anonymous No.13731359]

>>13731341
It’s actually probably the broadest field of engineering with the best prospects for employment. Manufacturing, structures, HVAC, automotive, power, anything that needs hardware or a moving part of any kind probably has a mechanical engineer involved somewhere. Likewise they can go into quality engineering or other manufacturing, process oriented fields, and many often end up in management roles.

[Anonymous No.13731368]

>>13731359
Not to mention the aerospace industry and robotics.

[Anonymous No.13731387]

>>13731341
Construction Science grad here
We contract at least one mechanical contractor on every job I've ever worked on. My last project contracted a mechanical and plumbing contractor for 100mil. Most or all of their design team was mechanical engineers, plus the mechanical engineers on the design team that the owner contracted. and then on top of that you have the stamped engineers who work for the city

[Anonymous No.13731419]

>>13730945
Is that St. Patrick's?

[Anonymous No.13731429]

>>13730963
He sounds based af

[Anonymous No.13731430]

>>13730960
This is honestly everyone pursuing a bachelor's degree. Don't sweat it.

[Anonymous No.13731437]

>anthropology degree
>putting away $750+ USD a month in savings
>live in country with cost of living about 20% of America's
>only working part time
>piss easy job

Did I do good?

[Anonymous No.13731444]

>>13731437
what do you do?

[Anonymous No.13731445]

>>13731444
English teacher

[Anonymous No.13731446]

>>13731429
He is one of the three people in my life with whom I can have a serious, honest, and productive conversation.

[Anonymous No.13731447]

>>13730898
I get that feel anon. I'm sorry that you have to go through this. But im sure at least someone will want to hire you-- these jobs are in great demand

[Anonymous No.13731454]

>>13731446
Give us some of his insights. Bless people like him

[Anonymous No.13731460]

>>13731446
does he regularly burst into tirades akin to Dosto's underground man?

[Anonymous No.13731465]

>>13730915
>>13731006
you've wasted a spot in a college. that could have gone to a neglected Latino kid and been put to better use, and that's honestly saying something

[Anonymous No.13731477]

>>13731465
imagine being this gay

[Anonymous No.13731485]

>>13731477
>b-b-but he wouldn't have done anything of importance either!!!
note that I said "and that's honestly saying something"

[Anonymous No.13731490]

>>13730898
Me too brother, except I never even managed to finish my degree.

[Anonymous No.13731491]

>>13731485
what is your telos

[Anonymous No.13731496]

>>13731491
to bait people on the 4th anonymous channel

[Anonymous No.13731519]

>>13731454
There's no way I can do it justice. I don't even want to try. He has a way of characterizing everything in the world through the lens of good and evil; angels and demons; honest and deceitful...not in a caricatured, religious sense, but as a simplified way of understanding the forces that guide human behaviour. The first time he and I had a serious conversation, we were at my grandparents' farm in central Alberta, sitting around the bonfire talking about Quebec separatism. Something from that conversation sparked in me an unending desire to "assess" and "understand" the primitive human desires that made history, politics, and business happen. I've never looked back. When I was 18, I listened to George Carlin talk about the rulers of the world (from the It's Bad for Ya special) and asked my uncle what he thought of it. His response was, at the time, incomprehensible. But I've come to understand it more and more as I've grown up. The wisdom and insights that continue to emerge from him just become fuller and truer with time. It's kind of frightening.
>>13731460
He tiptoes in that realm, to be honest. I've been conversing with him since I was 16. He always seemed crazy or unhinged, but I'm 30 now and more and more of what he says rings true. It makes me wonder how someone who came of age in the 1980s could have such insights without having seen the last ten years unfold. Yet everything that unfolds, year to year, validates his words

[Anonymous No.13731526]

>>13731519
He sounds like somehow who thinks he knows more than he does and you sound like someone dumb and gullible enough to take it as gospel.

[Anonymous No.13731539]

>Imposter syndrome sucks so bad!

[Anonymous No.13731568]

>>13730898
I got a similar feeling op. Im in my fifth year and doing an engineering degree too, but I feel like I cant do the job. I have no desire to do what im pursuiting. But, I feel like its too late to change to something else.
The fugg do I do

[Anonymous No.13731574]

>>13731526
That might very well be the case. But I'm a fairly thoughtful person, one who's life has been essentially stunted by my preoccupation with existential and philosophical pursuits, and one of the few remaining joys in my life is talking with my uncle.

[Anonymous No.13731616]

>>13730898
>I make 11 dollars an hour working ina warehouse
That's good. Stop complaining you spoiled middle class faggot.

[Anonymous No.13731638]

>>13730898
>It’s all gone
Do something else, what could you do now about it? cry over the spoiled milk? not everyone get lucky on life, life is about luck anyway (or providence but we can't know). I am on a similar situation than you btw. Life is too futile to lose your mind over it

[Anonymous No.13731652]

>>13731616
Depends where you live. I live in LA county and 11$ an hour is basically impossible to live by

[Anonymous No.13732338]

>>13730898
I studied something that is being pissed on by society. It is paid less than retail but you have better and less hours of work. I actually want to do it and it required 5 years to get masters for it. Now when I look at my notes from uni, after 5 years I finally understand those pages and what they mean. When I was in uni I did the same as you and I didnt even understand what I was learning.

[Anonymous No.13732401]

>finish physics degree
>realize that i never liked physics in the first place
>remain neet for 3 years after graduation
>1/3rd of my life is wasted due to one mistake
books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.13732406]

>>13730960
>>13731035
I'm an electrical engineer. It's widely considered to be the hardest major at out school (It's what our school is known for). I felt like an imposter too. I was in the same position of study the night before and get a B to A-.
Raxing rats isn't easy on the psyche, bros, but the kind of engineering they'll make you do i spiss easy. 90% of the people in your course won't even understand thermodynamics above a pop-science level, and they'll all get jobs. Most of the exams are just apply formula to get answer, unless the professor is exceptionally committed to churning out competent students of engineering.
Think of it this way. You half assed your whole way through engineering, and you still got a 3.5. At least in my major where I study, 3.5 is Cum Laude. You half assed your way into (minimum) the top quarter of your class.
Here's the thing. Most people know a lot less than you. There may be like 10-20 people in your batch that actually understand anything to any siginificant degree. most people are stupider than you. You aren't the imposter. The system doesn't care. It just wants you to participate. Now this might not be great news for you: but you're freed from cultural myths of productivity. You can pay lip service to the system, as you always have, and continue to follow your passions.
I hope I made you feel a little better. Forgive my incoherence.

[Anonymous No.13732409]

>>13730921
>Obviously very bright. Obviously talented when it comes to physics and mathematics.
What if I’m none of those things

[Anonymous No.13732444]

>>13730898
Luke 22:10
He [Jesus] said to them, “Behold, when you have entered the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him into the house that he enters.

[Anonymous No.13732450]

>>13730960
I worked with an EE that was a borderline retard. He tried to write to ROM through the user interface of a product we were building (as a contract manufacturer) and bitched at the customer about it so it became a department wide spectacle. Do not underestimate yourself. You have a long ways to go to match that.

[Anonymous No.13732465]

>>13731091
So? Just adjust the valuation.

It's vastly more employable than a pure academic one, unless he's trying to teach the subject.

[Anonymous No.13732468]

>>13731035
I was a technician for a very long time so I saw a lot of engineers come and go. All except for the crusty old fuckers sucked ass for the first stretch of their term with us. Don't sweat this so much.

[Anonymous No.13732473]

>>13730898
Autism, not even once.

[Anonymous No.13732475]

>>13731300
Ask on /k/ - also checked.

[Anonymous No.13732494]

>>13732444
I dont get it

[Anonymous No.13732503]

>>13731568
Tony Hawk only rose to the top because his father was Frank Hawk. He was one of the few skaters of his era to have the way paved for him. He will be plagued by self-doubt forever because he knows that his peers had to bust ass double time to bridge the gap of the advantages that he had. There will always be the specter of conflict of interest within the NSA also.

[Anonymous No.13732507]

>>13730898
Lmao just become a famous writer (use a non white pseudonym), or start a progressive YouTube channel dressing like a girl.

[Anonymous No.13732603]

>>13731445
What country pays english teachers so well, also you surely needed to pass some exam to teach english ?

[Anonymous No.13732649]

>>13730898
Try again, friend.

[Anonymous No.13732656]

>>13731465
No? The opportunity would only go towards the same meme degree.

[Anonymous No.13732968]

>>13730898
>I didn’t feel like I could be an engineer

I bet those feelings came from outside.

When I finished my degree suddenly tons of people appeared around me giving me stupid advice that would made me fail first year of college if I followed it. They saw an opportunity to hook their useless garbage onto an ongoing process. Some of them were in the same positions as me, but they did not apply themselves during college the way I did and they magically started to think their advice is valuable. Some of it was well meaning but useless regardless. Some of it the product of jealousy.

You are an engineer Anon. Don't let them get in your head. Your title is probably Bachelor of Science in Mechanical Engineering. Carry it as a symbol of what you've accomplished. Don't let them take it away from you. Don't swallow the talk that you need X year of experience so you can call yourself a real engineer or that you need to know everything in the field on account of having the degree.

Isolate your work from other people and start loving the things that are yours. Jump straight into the next phase. You're going to figure the problems out one after another once they appear. It's never too late.

If you can't find anything then learn to code.

[Anonymous No.13733013]

>>13732968
>just code bro xD

[Anonymous No.13733022]

>>13733013
>just have 50 github projects bro[/code]
>just do leetcode for 3 months before applying

[Anonymous No.13733040]

Just build a robot bro and let him do the interview for you. Friend of mine legit did this and got the job that way.

[Anonymous No.13733044]

>>13730898
Maybe no one told you this, but son, I'm proud of you. I'm very glad to know you.

All those big numbers stacked on one another like glass cards and mousetraps, all those functions so far gone from 1+1 I'm glad i never have to look at them.

You have far more balls and brains than I have. I just want you to know. At your age I couldnt dream of anything grander than a pipeline of guinness, and here you are, knowing *why* my car works.

My son, no one is laughing at you. No one's ashamed of you. I never tell you, but all my blokes at the pub know, and all yer mam's hen gaggle too: my son got his papers. My boy. He made it. He can take care of himself.

You're not a hard man. I understand. That's not who you are. You're not uncle Henry. But son, the blokes that are hard men, there's a hundred of them in the docks; at the harbor or the court. But there's only one of you son. You don't need to be there, and if you are, nothing's making you stay.

Here's a pint and a bit of advice I know you're smart enough to take: pack all your work from the university in a file, nice and neat. Thats your resume. Then look up a job in the line you like. Ask me or mam if you need a good word to get you in the door, but look. Decide on your salary before going in. Be ready to take 10% less than the market rate, but no more.

If you get rejected one place, look again. A rejection is a bad breath, a fart. If you whiff once, just hold your breath and leave. No need to breathe it lad.

I love you son. My son.
Drink up.

[Anonymous No.13733047]

>>13732968
Cope. That 60 year old grandpa without a college degree who has been with the company for 40 years is more of an engineer than even some academic with a PhD could ever be.