/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.12666192]

ITT: Describe your life and other anons give you book recommendations based on it

>college dropout
>short, fat, pug-face, small dick, hispanic
>living with parents, 24 years old
>kissless and hugless virgin, no friends
>work at subway where my boss and coworkers constantly make passive aggressive jokes about me
>woke up at noon and then got in bitter argument with my mom for the 20th day in a row
>ate a bunch of poptarts for breakfast, felt like complete shit
>took a massive dump while watching clips of the bee movie and then jacked off, but missed and was out of toilet paper so I had to use the toilet paper roll to wipe my ass and clean up the cum everywhere
>want to become a writer but haven't read a full book in months, always starting them but getting bored and dropping them
>the last book i finished was siddartha because it's like 100 pages and super easy
>started a goodreads challenge for a book a week and then changed it to one book/year because of my constant anxiety about it
>wanted to spend last year learning a new language but learned only very basic japanese, spent most of my time watching anime and jacking off to hentai and JAV
>lungs and head hurts constantly and i feel nauseous 24/7 because of my nicotine addiction
>spend like two-three hours planning out my plan for this year and downloading various textbooks and creating study guides and book reading lists that I will never follow
>jack off again and then eat a bunch of hot pockets
>start to read a new book but then put it down and open my computer and spend the rest of my day alternating between watching bbc cuck porn and posting about Whitney Ryan books and various other low energy memes on /lit/ while chuckling to myself
>it is now almost 3 in the morning

[Anonymous No.12666215]

The attention revolution.

[Anonymous No.12666224]

>NEET stuck without high school exam
>Average height, blonde, blue eyed, not ugly as far as I can objectively tell
>Hate myself anyway
>Feel grotesque
>Has friends, but don't trust them or feel comfortable around them.
>Addicted to drugs, not even real drugs, just cannabis
>No motivation to do anything at all
>Hate myself too much to be sexually healthy
>Can't go to bed, wake up, or fulfil basic human tasks

[Anonymous No.12666228]

>I work
>I read
>I metabolize
>I sleep
>I repeat
Book 4 dis feel?

[Anonymous No.12666232]

>>12666228
Georges Perec - Un homme qui dort

[Anonymous No.12666327]

>>12666192
Old pasta, I like it.

[Anonymous No.12666908]

>cute twink
>balding at 23
>finasteride still not working so well after 7 months
Fuck, I’ll have to go joe Rogan mode don’t I?

[Anonymous No.12666919]

>>12666192
culture of critique

[Anonymous No.12667173]

>>12666908
being fit is the only treatment for baldness
t. balding 23 year old

[Anonymous No.12667180]

>>12666908
You're not a cute twink at 23, you're just an over the hill weird looking man

[Anonymous No.12667198]

>>12666908
Lean into some sleazecore shit dude.
Embrace it.

[Anonymous No.12667236]

>>12666192
>Medical student
>Tall, nordic/jewish heritage, lifting and swimming hobbies. I'm quite stronk.
>Living in a rental house in a giant west coast city with my gf of 7 years (started dating in hs), now both 24 yo.
>My dad called me the other day and told me (again) that I better not fuck up my medical education because "if I have to face the real world I'm fucked"
>Called me this morning to apologize, this happens every couple months
>This sort of psychological fuckery has made me miserable but successful, every once in a while my parents drop some words in my ear about how I am worthless, can't do shit, spoiled, soft, useless, etc, and then apologize a few days later
>Their belief seems to be that once shit gets real I'm going to crumble, and as yet it has not gotten real
>Followed by an earnest apology, but initiated by an earnest condemnation
>So I always have a lot of motivation but a general state of guilt and low self esteem, they're pretty smart people and I believe their honest thoughts are that I'm weak, the sentiment builds up in them and pressure releases every couple weeks through action or conversation, then they feel bad and apologize
>Thankfully my girlfriend is this incredibly sweet mommy who takes care of me when I'm at my emotional lowest, not eating or sleeping, working out and studying manically, joking a lot about suicide and overthinking every single social interaction
>These manic states have served me incredibly well in academics, which is sort of fucked up when you think about it because no way it's healthy
>In exchange I help her out when she goes through her shit which I will not go into here but it's equivalent
>We (as a couple) fit in quite well socially in our hyperliberal city, a lot of people like us
>i.e. We like art films, visit art museums and galleries quite frequently, dress and act cosmopolitan as fuck, have a lot of friends
>Also we are low-key preppers, over wokeness and talk shit on the way home in the car whenever we meet someone obsessed with SJW talking points or anti-west bullshit
>We might be unironic libertarians, except a belief in the utility of policy in preserving quality of life among individual people and families
>She judges the fuck out of her peers who endorse sex-positive feminism, sex work, strippers, etc.
You know how a liberal is just conservative before they get mugged? We didn't get mugged but I think we embody this idea of having to deal with liberal bullshit all the time and just getting over it. Take that persona and mix in Caucasian tigermom/dad and you have me.
Currently reading:
>Moby Dick
>Capitalist Realism
>Purity
Weird thinking about myself this much. I'm like four cups of coffee deep, otherwise I'm not this blogposty/narcissistic. Beg your pardon.
Hit me with them recs

[Anonymous No.12667246]

>>12666192
-haunted - Chuck Palahniuk. Just go ahead and read all Chuck Palahniuk
>>12666224
At swim two birds - flann o'brian

[Anonymous No.12667265]

>>12666228
Everybody should read hitchhikers guide to galaxy by douglas adams. Is personal favorite I recommend to everybody

[Anonymous No.12667295]

>>12667236
As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner.
Hamlet by Shakespeare
The house of the scorpion by Nancy Farmer
The great Gatsby by f Scott Fitzgerald
The idiot by fyodor dostoevsky.
Want more? You will be busy for at least a month I reckon

[Anonymous No.12667302]

>>12667295
I've actually read all of these. I enjoyed them a lot though, you've got a good instinct for this.
Care to provide a few more?

[Anonymous No.12667304]

>>12667295
House of the scorpion was actually taught in my middle school, weirdly.

[Anonymous No.12667399]

>>12667302
Thank you, I will but let me green text first.
>mutt Venezuelan white male
>can't speak spanish
>biological father disconnected. Becomes a bigamist
>Venezuela goes to ruin, no ties to father, no ties to family, no ties to heritage
>finds out i have young sibling in Venezuela. I only know siblings name
>meanwhile life is privileged in America
>don't plan on university
>get full ethnic scholarship to university for winning bubble sheet
>goes to university
>hates the university just like I thought I would
>drop out, lose scholarship, owe money
>hates university even more. Bitter.
>gets a job at a restaurant.
>happy.
>first time in a long time
>maintains career. happy. Gets by.
>still needs brain activity. Likes political commentary satire and philosophy
>needs book recommends

[Anonymous No.12667412]

>>12667304
I read it in middle school voluntary. I thought it was bad ass

[Anonymous No.12667433]

>>12667399
Get into poetry.
The Waste Land
Best of Yeats
Leaves of Grass
etc
And read more challenging novels and ideas, check out some midcentury prestige fiction
2666
The Stranger
Capote
etc

[Anonymous No.12667460]

I wanted to throw a Bret Easton Ellis novel in there somewhere, but I couldn't pick lol

[Anonymous No.12667466]

>>12667433
I have the stranger on my shelf ! That is worthy of a revisit

[Anonymous No.12667475]

>>12666224
I am legend by Richard Matheson

[Anonymous No.12667539]

>>12666908
>bald twink
I recommend to you some Oscar Wilde.
First, the picture of Dorian Gray, and then the importance of being earnest.

[Anonymous No.12667605]

>>12666192
Atlas Shrugged

[Anonymous No.12667637]

>25
>slightly above average looks
>no higher education
>cruise by on odd jobs
>dont really have any plans to ever attend school since I gave up the dream job meme and dont have enough interest in anything
>barely talk to anyone who isnt my gf and losing touch with old friends and getting more socially retarded by the day
>still live at home

Failed normie books i guess?

[Anonymous No.12667729]

>>12667637
>failed normie
Play it as it lays by Joan didion. Only two hundred pages. Short chapters

[Anonymous No.12667750]

>>12667637
>failed normie who regresses
Something Wicked This Way Comes - Ray Bradbury

[Anonymous No.12667914]

>>12666192
>early 20s lower middle class white guy
>at business school surrounded by wealthy peers, upper middle class and loaded international students
>study hard, get good grades, self educate in the canon and work out in spare time
>still get passed over for any and all good jobs for kids with connected wealthy parents or prior experience based off those connections except for minor public bureaucrat roles
>becomes increasingly difficult to cope and start to seduce random women and drinking excessively just to take mind off things

Pls don't say Jude the Obscure

[Anonymous No.12667924]

>>12667637
Melancholy of Resistance

[Anonymous No.12668690]

>23 year old male
>Graduated college last spring, still living at home
>Originally planned on law school at some point
>Quit my job as a paralegal a few weeks ago, now trying to go into finance
>Currently unemployed but have had a few interviews at financial firms
>Girls say I'm a solid 8.5/10 but haven't had sex since college
>Just want to move out of my parents house and make lots of money
>Recently finished The Canterbury Tales, really liked it

[Anonymous No.12668948]

> 27
> 75/100 looks
> STEM pilled
> made good dough working at a startup and decided to say fuck it and travel
> been doing that for over a year, savings almost gone
> no fucks given
> last book is Gravitys Rainbow

[Anonymous No.12669014]

>>12667914
Jude the Blacked.
Sandor Marai's the Stranger
Conspiracy of Dunces

[Anonymous No.12669187]

>>12668690
Fuck off normalfag

[Anonymous No.12669683]

>>12666192
Damn I hope you're LARPing, this is some depressing ass shit.

[Anonymous No.12669712]

>>12666228
>I read
>I repeat
Bait.

[Anonymous No.12669939]

>>12666192
>18yo hapa male in last year of highschool
6-8/10 looks
>shy and introverted
>upper-middle class
>financially stable household: never worked a day in my life but my parents raised me miserly, which I'm grateful for
>precociously well read: read and know more than even my English teachers, often correct them in class---known as a living, breathing dictionary and encyclopaedia
>have dreams of travelling abroad and teaching in Japan but feels unachievable because of intense shyness
>multilingual
>naturally a straight A student
>have a small friendship group but feel isolated from even them
>friends brag about sex but I don't feel glad for them, only envious
>top 1% in penis-size and IQ but don't know any women because all my friends are from an all-boys school
>obsessed with sex and intimacy but can't initiate social relationships due to social anxiety, depression, impostor syndrome, and inferiority complex.
>tried lifting for 2 years: doesn't work but now I'm well-built and depressed
>self-medicating with SJW and it helps a bit
>mum has cancer and will die within a year
>still can't get over my vain suffering
>reading Virginia Woolf's 'To the Lighthouse'
>Last read: complete works of Seneca

[Anonymous No.12669947]

>>12666192
>>12666192
>>12666192
>18yo hapa male in last year of highschool
>6-8/10 looks
>shy and introverted
>precociously well read: read and know more than even my English teachers, often correct them in class---known as a living, breathing dictionary and encyclopaedia
>have dreams of travelling abroad and teaching in Japan but feels unachievable because of intense shyness
>multilingual
>naturally a straight A student
>have a small friendship group but feel isolated from even them
>friends brag about sex but I don't feel glad for them, only envious
>top 1% in penis-size and IQ but don't know any women because all my friends are from an all-boys school
>obsessed with sex and intimacy but can't initiate social relationships due to social anxiety, depression, impostor syndrome, and inferiority complex.
>tried lifting for 2 years: doesn't work but now I'm well-built and depressed
>self-medicating with SJW and it helps a bit
>mum has cancer and will die within a year
>still can't get over my vain suffering
>reading Virginia Woolf's 'To the Lighthouse'
>Last read: complete works of Seneca

[Anonymous No.12669953]

>>12667236
how did you meet ur gf

[Anonymous No.12670013]

>>12669947
My Twisted World

[Anonymous No.12670036]

>18yo white carpenter
>model looks but tentative on actually applying for agencies
>work long hours
>Exhausted majority of the time
>extremely strict diet
>workout is pure cardio 3 -5 times a week
>In a perfect world I would be a philosopher.
>Will never afford to go to uni/ loans
>Hate construction work but I know deep down I wont amount to anything else
>No friends and no social life at all.
>I have no clue what being young feels like
>I dont enjoy having fun
>I think of myself as an aesthetic rather than an actual person
>Current read is Critique of Pure Reason. I'm struggling greatly with it.

[Anonymous No.12670063]

>>12669953
my latin teacher made showing disney's hercules last the first two weeks of class and we just ditched and hung out near the school. She was easily the hottest girl in there so my main goal for that course was to get her out the door. Invited her to my band's show the next week to move the hangouts out of school context.
I haven't been hanging out in this thread all day promise.

[Anonymous No.12670074]

>>12670013
read that and could relate to an uncanny degree. hope I don't end up like that.

[Anonymous No.12670115]

>>12666192
12 Rules for Life

[Anonymous No.12670127]

>>12669947
From what I read, I'm a white version of you, and I may have some advice for you. Give yourself earnestly to your friendships. If you can't do that with the current relationships find new ones.
I had this disease, this sort of depersonalization/ ironic detachment/ overintellectualization of most situations/ desire to be differentiate self from others/ life is super fucking hard but I'm also dealing with it the exact wrong way thing?
Only cure I found is unironic dedication to your life as it is today. Force yourself to socially engage with your mom and friends the way you force yourself to pick up heavy assweights, care about their emotions, try your best to forgive fuckups and idiocy. If you're like me you have to earnestly and with great effort be as moral, humble, good, and gentle a guy as possible. Old school.
For me the other option was spiritual or literal suicide. It takes a bunch of awareness and you fuck up a lot (A LOT and you feel worse about it than ever because you realize that fucking up too much would lead to an ultimate permanent type of failure, forgive yourself anyway) but starts feeling significantly better about 3-5 weeks in.
I'm 24. If we have the same problem, hopefully the same solution works. Discovered it as a last ditch effort. I've been feeling a lot better since about your age.

[Anonymous No.12670187]

>>12666192
Wtf happened to the hehe guy?

[Anonymous No.12670210]

>>12670127
Know a guy who is currently becoming a schizophrenic. He’s far down that path you described.

[Anonymous No.12670226]

>>12666192
I recognize this pasta

[Anonymous No.12670237]

>>12667173
Tuck is that you?

[Anonymous No.12670246]

>finally finishing college after 6 years
>a coke habit that comes and goes
>avid outdoorsman
>Grew up in Kentucky

please don't suggest HST I've read plenty of him

[Anonymous No.12670310]

>>12666224
House of Leaves might be for you.
heres mine
>am 19,turn 20 in 1 month
>suicidal virgin with no social skills, no highschool memories, and no future joins the US Air Force
>still virgin, regained my old ability to make people laugh with a dry sense of humor, still depressed with no future
>enjoy fiction and history so i can insert myself into those worlds and save everyone

[Anonymous No.12670321]

>>12670310
>>12666224
i forgot to add that its possible but unlikely that by reading this book your mental health will be worse off. Iit just depends on the location you decide to read it at.

[Anonymous No.12670412]

>21
>tall and thin, attractive enough to get a lot of attractive matches on tinder but never talk to them
>dropped out of college after freshman year
>been living with friend and his parents for 2 and a half years
>been working a specialized construction trade for a year and a half and am good/trustworthy enough to do jobs on my own
>broke up with beautiful and sweet gf of 2 years 3 months ago because she was boring and never wanted to make big moves and she still sends me posts on instagram
>rarely ever talk to or hang out with friend i live with since we work opposite schedules
>dont consistently talk to anyone but parents
>have money/income to buy house to flip and probably will but want to quit job and travel to meet beautiful girls and make music
>never read books but frequently read entire wiki pages about (works of) philosophy and plot synopses of fiction works

i think theres still hope for me

[Anonymous No.12670643]

>>12670321
pseud as fuck

[Anonymous No.12670702]

>>12670412
Fuck you.

[Anonymous No.12671088]

>History German major, almost done
>Upper middle class/ middle class nordic af
>Probably attractive, but intimidated by romance, blames it on modernity
>Repeatedly fallen in love w/ girls who don't feel the same
>Know some girls are into me, but still too intimidated
>Had a gf for two months, but never really had strong feelings for her
>Wondering if I could have used my college years better (socially)
>Just now seeing how much weed has harmed me
>Bad at reading for leisure, trying to improve
>Last read Heart of Darkness
>Know I am smart, but intimidated by my own
expectations
>Plagued by feelings of uncertainty and confusion
>at least I am not super depressed
>decided to become a writer even though it will likely never pay my loans
>going to teach English in Austria in the meantime, hopefully
>probably should be happier, but hardly ever able to appreciate what I have
>constantly suppressing emotion
>Have fleeting visions of myself exploding or melting
I don't even need a rec, I just wanted to vent

[Anonymous No.12671173]

>English Major, film studies and russian language and culture minor.
>Always depressed but get out of it due to watching art film/ reading occasionally.
>Have some close friends but secretly never feel truly connected to them.
>Virgin, but not hugless or kissless :^)!
>Last book was Solaris by Lem

[Anonymous No.12671199]

>19, M
>Joining the Airforce soon, hopefully, if the one little thing that could disqualify me, they hopefully just brush past
>working in a carpentry shop, enjoy all of it honestly
>reading more than ever before, starting woth the greeks
>going to the gym on a consistent schedule
>just all around hopeful for the future, loving it lads
>nogf tho

[Anonymous No.12671209]

>>12670246
I think we would get along really well anon

[Anonymous No.12671322]

>24 y.o. former mental patient living at home
>extremely isolated, and that's a good thing
>giving community college another try
>nearly done w/ first half of a CS degree
>really just want to read and write though
>short story is coming along
>abandoned it like a month ago but came back to it with better ideas
>I think I can pull it off, maybe submit it somewhere
>reading at a fairly steady clip (one short novel a week, sometimes two if I know I'm going to tackle something bigger in the next week)
>working out and lifting, lost nearly 30 lbs of fat since year began
>watched Brooklyn today
>people don't actually fall in love like that, do they? that's why it's movie, so we the public can fantasize about lives we didn't live
>thinking it could be nice to try a practice girlfriend
>but really I want a sensible Irish wife with good hips
>trying to get more involved with my parish
>not sure I believe in God, but I sometimes do
>will sign up for RCIA in April, never was confirmed
>hoping I'm just a late bloomer, not a permanently stunted manchild
>grades are good, pills are working
>many assignments due next week, then spring break
>balding, but have been shaving my head for a while and don't really care
>I am not really an objectionable person, some people might even find me interesting or attractive in certain circumstances
>moving forward

[Anonymous No.12671357]

>>12671322
Sounds like you're trying to take steps to improve yourself and are actually succeeding. You're definitely just a late bloomer. Keep working on the writing.

[Anonymous No.12671384]

>>12671199
>hopefully, if the one little thing that could disqualify me, they hopefully just brush past
Can I go ahead and guess that you had a mental illness in high school? I tried the same thing with the Royal Marines and was declared medically unfit.

[Anonymous No.12671490]

>23, turning 24 in a month
>self-taught programmer since age 11
>took a year off after highschool
>dropped out of college (physics) after just one semester, due to a mix of disillusion with life and amphetamine addiction
>did various odd jobs, mainly to help out family friends' businesses
>3 sexual experiences, all of them terrible, all different partners
>severe oneitis for a lesbian
>pretty close friends
>confess feelings
>get rejected and accused of obsession
>am I obsessed? fuck... maybe I am? this is all new to me
>try to distance myself and kill my feefees
>year passes
>still have feefees but I've successfully isolated myself from everyone
>we still see each other sometimes but we're not as close as we used to be
>I have no idea how to revert what I've done and I'm not happy

[Anonymous No.12671581]

level 32 grand wizard
afraid of hair
once killed like 30 grasshoppers with my bare feet

[Anonymous No.12671641]

>>12667236
Tell your parents to fuck off and ghost them if they keep treating you like shit.
If they decide to be nice to you be nice to them but don't act like it's nothing and continue to reward their cuntish behavior by giving them what they want which is control over you.

[Anonymous No.12671696]

>>12666192
>28 years old
>French Jew, rather handsome, girls often flirt with me and vice versa
>Aware enough to notice when it happens, often (but not always) too autistic or lazy to act on it
>Currently pursuing a PhD in statistics
>love mathematics but hate my job and my subject (it's not really mathematics and not that good statistics either)
>living with parents but giving them about 10k a year
>feels like failure in every respect despite apparent success, constant suicide fantasies despite objectively perfect life
>fear death and even moreso sterility (in the physical but also spiritual sense of the word)
>had very soulful relationships in the past but currently emotionally stunted
>it will pass eventually (i hope=
>secretly torn apart by a spiritual, emotional and intellectual complex were I feel infinite callings of all kinds of life but unable to answer any of them
>strong and sometimes paralyzing sense of morals and empathy conjugued with natural narcissism and egoisitc lifestyle
>will sometimes give an day worth of salary to a hobo I just met in the street but can barely bring myself to make small talk with my parents
>kind of a mix of Dostoeivsky, Dante, Baudelaire, Kierkegaard, Conrad, Poincaré, Stendhal and Bernanos
>basically all over the place and trying to maintain all of it without losing any of it
>prone to reading books and thinking thought that will help me cultivate this state
>feels like I'm going to break down soon
>slowly trying to reckon with how I'm too mediocre to live up to my own standards and accept that being a useless pretentious cunt is maybe not that bad

I guees I'm basically typical /lit/fag so come at me

[Anonymous No.12671747]

>>12666192
Esperanza Rising

[Anonymous No.12671758]

All that I really care to say
>have insomnia really bad since I was a kid
>it has now progressed to staying awake for 3+ days relying on the hardly noticeably micro sleeps
>on the days I find rest I notice my mental state deteriorating greatly
>memory shot, attention span decreased, emotional outburst etc
>feel like my cognitive functions have been leaving me in a near catatonic state at best
>enter trance states and zone off thinking of literally nothing
>no emotional connection unless its irrational anger or manic sadness
>I wish to blow my brains out to sleep
>the nights I find myself finally drifting to sleep my narcissistic sister screams and bangs on walls till 6 am, keeping me up for another day minimum.
any books for this feel

[Anonymous No.12671761]

>>12671758
I don't remember any of the books I read idk why I ask.
I just want it to end.

[Anonymous No.12671765]

>>12671758
Zettels Traum

[Anonymous No.12671784]

>18 year old university student
>attending a certain large purple university
>erogefag, started learning nip to read more eroge
>close group of online friends
>draws on the side for money
>distant but good relationship with parents
>slavaboo bent
>I don't have much time for myself now but I still find ways to enjoy myself
>hard to care about the plight of other people but do random acts of charity on a whim
>can't stand hearing other people laughing
>dated someone over the internet once, it was shitty, fuck trust-fund cunts
>i have a shirt with my own art on it, actually rather nice
>not particularly upset about my life, every problem I have can be fixed with a bit of work
>all my notes have drawings on them, cute girls everywhere
>living a comfy life, no complaints here

[Anonymous No.12671785]

>>12671173
wow are you me?

[Anonymous No.12671786]

>>12671761
You don't have to remember them.
>on the days I find rest I notice my mental state deteriorating greatly
So, you are saying that your mental state is worse off when you DO sleep?

[Anonymous No.12671793]

>>12671784
The DSM 5. Specifically on narcissist personality.

[Anonymous No.12671798]

>>12671786
I would say that, as a result of 10+ years, I have permanently fucked my brain. I only manage to notice it when I wake up from sleeping, and only for a few lucid hours. After about 12 hours I go back to my own personal insanity.

[Anonymous No.12671809]

>>12671793
already read a few years back, pretty stale if you ask me

[Anonymous No.12671825]

>>12671809
>if you ask me
Notice I did not ask you.

[Anonymous No.12671834]

>>12666192
>18 and still in Highschool doing higher level(HAVO)
>Have barely read books and never finished them unless it was schoolbooks
>Despite me born in Holland, struggle to speak and properly write dutch(Parents tell me to read fiction books, but i am critical and quit easily if i don't like it)
>No job, too lazy
>Skinny

[Anonymous No.12671854]

>>12671825
what are you going to do about it, buddy?

[Anonymous No.12671858]

>>12671854
Disregard your existence in it's entirety, as God intended.

[Anonymous No.12671931]

>22 year old college drop out
>in the process of suing my school
>girlfriend is more accomplished than me in every way, live with her but she's never home
>being one of the best read person I've ever met is my only real point of pride
>working toward EMT cert, with aim of joining the military in a year or two and working my way up the ranks
>spend most of free time reading, shitposting, and exercising
>despite speaking four languages and running circles intelectually around most college students, am constantly unable to find a decent/fulfilling job
>planning on breaking up with my girlfriend soon and moving into my parents basement so I can save money and focus more energy on reading, writing, praying, and teaching myself mathematics
>thought I'd be further ahead at this point, but life dealt me a couple shitty cards and set me back a few years
>still aiming for fluency in half a dozen languages by the time I'm 25

>>12666908
The Temple of the Golden Pavilion, Yukio Mishima

>>12667236
Gross. Typical mentally ill academic.

>>12667399
A World Restored, Henry Kissinger

>>12667637
Down and Out in Paris and London, George Orwell

>>12667914
The Leopard, Giuseppe Tomasi di Lampedusa

>>12668948
Grammatical Man, Jeremy Campbell

>>12669947
A Hero of Our Time, Mikhail Lermontov. I've developed a ritual of re-reading it every couple years and it always changes my life for the better.

>>12670036
The Sailor Who Fell From Grace with the Sea, Yukio Mishima

>>12671088
The Remains of the Day, Kazuo Ishiguro

>>12671199
Thucydides

>>12671322
A Guide to Kulture, Ezra Pound

>>12671696
The Long Ships, Frans G. Bengtsson. You sad fuck.

[Anonymous No.12671954]

>>12671931
>but life dealt me a couple shitty cards and set me back a few years
Seems like your personality was the entire deck of cards. The lack of self awareness in this thread is truly astonishing.

[Anonymous No.12671971]

>>12671954
t. >>12667236
For what it's worth I very much enjoy my company. If you don't have a book to recommend there's no reason to be rude.

[Anonymous No.12671987]

>>12671971
>For what it's worth I very much enjoy my company.
That was explicitly implied already.
It would only be rude if you see a reason to take offense. It doesn't matter what you read, because it will always be influenced by your own inflated self-importance.
I could give you my personal journal and you could find a way to make it about you.
Your kind is clear as day.

[Anonymous No.12673061]

>>12671971
Yo, I just bumped back into this thread, I'm the med student guy you called gross, I didn't say that your personality was the entire deck of cards because i didn't respond to you at all. Until just now, to let you know you are wrong about me being the one to say that.

[Anonymous No.12673195]

>>12666192
>ugly black gay XXY male
>incredibly nearsighted, can hardly drive
>have stretch marks and cellulite
>low test because of Klinefelters, too poor to get test treatment
>incapable of having children (not like I would even if I weren't sterile)
>micopenis, womanly hips and gyno
>feel disgust and shame looking at myself in the mirror
>naturally introverted, force myself to be social only to relagated to "guy we always make fun of status"
>scrupulously avoid anything that requires me to show any part of my body; would wear hoodies and jeans during heatwaves
>recently developed eczema
>will be a lifelong incel in the truest sense of the term, will never know romance
>graduated STEM but with a mediocre GPA
>porn only makes me sad and disgusted
>drugs and alcohol make me more self-conscious and afraid of loosening up enough for people to learn what a freak I am
>still in touch with straight friends who are all much smarter, better looking, and sucessful than me and take on my role as the punching bag because it is the only social contact I have left
>sitting next to attractive men on a bus is about the only thing I have left to give me some joy
>because of childhood religious indoctrination and my natural disposition I am incapable of killing myself
>most abiding feeling I have left is a hatred of God which periodically turns into shame and guilt whenever I see someone who is homeless or has no limbs because I feel ungrateful, then it morphs back into hate whenever I see two people in a relationship or just any normal well-adjusted individual

[Anonymous No.12673252]

>21 y/o senior in college double majoring in philosophy and history to become a CC professor
>Care more about fitness, self-care, and jiu jitsu more than I do about school/potential career
>Going to boot camp as soon as I graduate so I can try to join Special Forces
>Happily engaged to girlfriend of 8 years
>Victim of the Wim Hof meme
>Great relationship with parents and family, aside from my coked up older sister who I have cut ties with
>Occassionally fall into horrible depression because I hate the mundane life that I live as a college student and just want to get out into the world
>Struggle with an obsession with video games every now and then, even though I no longer find them to be fun
>Dying to try psychedelics but can't yet b/c military soon
>Favorite writer is Camus
>Don't give a shit about money or anything material and really want to pursue anti-consumption lifestyle
>Buddhist

[Anonymous No.12673269]

>27, mostly neet, no college
>live in a decent loft, though that situation is precarious
>girlfriend, 28, is about to get masters in math from a good school
>met her coming on 5 months ago while she had a boyfriend
>injected myself in her life because it improves my chances in life / I was alone, now we’re kind of in love
>spend my time watching Rogan / tech podcasts / think tank talks
>looking for a part time job so I have money to leave the the house without girlfriend paying
>will spend free time coding in the blockchain space
>will propose to gf of things continue going well

[Anonymous No.12673301]

> 22 year old nice looking girl
> moved to a different city to study and get away from old friends
> get along with everyone but only few good friends
> thinking about changing my major to physics
> trauma from past abusive relationship
> commitment and trust issues
> optimistic about life despite the problems i have
> spend too much time with friends and not enough studying
> people say i can be difficult to approach and seem arrogant at first but later realise im very friendly
> love films, books, art and science
> if i could spend the day with anyone in the world i'd choose steven wilson
> get called pretentious because of my taste in films, music etc but idc
> feels like im pretty lucky overall

[Anonymous No.12673309]

>>12673301
Post pic

[Anonymous No.12673315]

>>12666224
Keep the aspidistra flying

[Anonymous No.12673332]

>>12667236
God i fucking hate you, fucking kill yourself you normie shit kill yourself KILL YOURSELF

[Anonymous No.12673344]

>21 years old guy
>Computer Engineering student
>wanna be fit but too lazy
>wanna get good but too lazy
>do everything slowly, like 1 hr warm up 1 hr cooldown for any event
>likes dogs
>likes playing games but bored quickly
>wanna be not lazy but im too lazy

[Anonymous No.12673356]

>>12673344
Sun and Steel by Yukio Mishima

[Anonymous No.12673364]

>>12666192
You are basically the poster boy of 4chin

[Anonymous No.12673512]

>19-year-old skinny manlet
>had an abusive childhood both at home and at school
>never had an official job
>virgin with no friends, but had one fat gf at 16 for 5 months
>yesterday set up a meeting with a prostitute
>arrived at her apartment, but decided to walk away anyway
>no driver's license because I can't bother studying for theory tests
>in the middle of finishing the 12th grade
>currently trying to get funding for my business idea after receiving positive feedback
>no back-up plan if it doesn't work
>enjoy working out, but get injured often
>enjoy junk food
>very lonely and desperate for a connection with people
>only read books if I believe they can help me somehow and currently reading Aristotle's On Rhetoric

[Anonymous No.12673639]

>>12671931
Thanks anon, I'm going to check out Remains later today. What 4 languages do you speak? I am trying to learn Swedish or Dutch, because knowing German will probably make them easier. I also have family members in Finland who speak Swedish as their main language. I want to learn Russian or Japanese next, but other families are so intimidating.

[Anonymous No.12673678]

>>12673512
You can get started on self improvement faster than most people who waste their early twenties. Don't fret too much about being a virgin. After losing mine, I realized that it was more about social validation than anything, for me at least, and I wished that I had waited. I'd honestly recommend a Keto cookbook. A high fat diet helped me overcome a lifelong sugar/carb addiction. At least learn to cook for yourself, it is an attractive and valuable skill.

[Anonymous No.12673693]

> 27 years old.
> Successful investment banker working in New York City.
> Own an expensive apartment in Manhattan.
> Secretary is secretly in love with me.
> Despite all of this, I feel as if my mask of sanity is slipping.
> Sometimes can not control my impulses.

Recommend me a book, please.

[Anonymous No.12673701]

>>12673693
Chess Story

[Anonymous No.12673720]

I already have more than enough to read for the rest of the decade, and for the upcoming one too, thank you very much.
If /lit/ actually engaged with the texts they read, we wouldn't have "rec threads", but you'd be jumping from book to book based on references and recommendations.
Rec threads are the gayest shit ever and should be banned.
Commendaticiis filum delenda est!

[Anonymous No.12673726]

Yes, and some latin nerd will correct me, and I'd like to thank in advance for taking their time to correct it.

[Anonymous No.12673733]

>>12673693

Harry Potter

[Anonymous No.12673754]

>Twenty-Five years old
>Graduate of English
>6'2, auburn hair, gray eyes, thick black glasses, about 180 pounds.
>Live with father in an apartment
>Work as a civil servant for the public library system
>Intermittent faster, drink tea nearly every hour I'm awake.
>Read books, visual novels, and manga; watch anime; play video games; create graphite drawings
>One relationship with a woman in the past which ended horribly after several years
>Concerned with morality, if asked, would state "I want to go to Heaven" being my main goal in life.
>Yet does not participate in a religion, and would make a poor adherent; extremely personal relationship with God. Admires those who follow religion.
>Superstitious, prays often and believes in luck.
>Constantly romanticizes murder, desire to kill people as far back as I can remember
>Interested in stoicism, wants to suppress passion in favour of being a virtuous figure
>Huge faker, obsessed with reading self-help and interpersonal advice books that teach one how to make friends
>Only one friend accomplished.
>Browses 4chan at least four hours a day.

[Anonymous No.12673762]

>>12673301
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.

[Anonymous No.12673821]

>DUDE WEED LMAO
>college drop out
>web developer
>work online and live in rural area near forest
>Castaneda's books are my favorite.

[Anonymous No.12673829]

>>12673301
I want you to post feet even though I don't really care for that type of pictures.

[Anonymous No.12674409]

>>12673252
Get some L S D. Doesn't show up in drug tests.

[Anonymous No.12674427]

>had a life experience where I learned a lot about myself but also created very high expectations for myself with regards to my own self-discipline
>Constantly disappointed in myself nowadays for not being able to meet those standards, yet I'm also unable to remove them from my mind because I know they're true
>stopped hanging out with my friends, have become a recluse who simply pores over his own projects which never get finished

[Anonymous No.12674457]

>19 year old, skinny and pretty short male
>will start studying Law in April
>now I just sit around at home
>read, browse the internet and do push-ups all day long
>talk to myself a lot
>sometimes for as long as half an hour just sitting there and talking to myself
>not a single friend
>hard time connecting to people
>have no problem with talking to them however
>am often told I am very serious/mature for my age
>religious and conservative

No idea what else there is to say about my life.

[Anonymous No.12674563]

>>12674409
it's the whole lying about it thing that pains me though
also, no idea what to do on it

[Anonymous No.12674746]

>>12666192
>private school mediocrity
>nearly died of boredom at university
>had some success with women when I was younger but somehow lost the knack for it
>only had one serious relationship which still to this day scars me
>No serious roots to my home
>Left it all for a business job in manufacturing in SE Asia
and now im posting this here

[Anonymous No.12674765]

>27
>Fat
>CS Degree
>One day left work and isolated myself in my room till they stopped trying to contact me
>Resent my father despite all the money he invested to get me a education
>No friends
>No life
>No regular schedule
>Spend ~20 hours every day in front of my pc doing inconsequential shit
>Sleep for over 10 hours
>Laundry every 2 months
>Sometimes crippling superiority complex
>Sometimes crippling inferiority complex
>For some reason I wont die
>I just wont

[Anonymous No.12675300]

>20
>Immigrant kid who did well at school early on got into good high schools. It's much like young black soccer players doing well in youth teams.
>Do ok in highschool exams, in my final year of neuroscience.
>Success in the form of being a doctor or some health professional is faintly tangible. Since I was doing relatively well at uni
>Have to do some arbitrary test which I feel physically repulsed to
>Hate science hate what I will have to do
>Be happy with the thought of doing a "lesser" job like a nurse of police officer. Emphasis on the ""less"". I don't care for money, just a home and basic necessities is all I want.
>Meet this girl. Make a leap of faith, making such a spontaneous grand gesture of love that I would fall for it myself. It must be love?
>Can't believe what I've done but I have a gf now
>The imperative to embrace and seize the good life which my community preaches becomes more alluring. If this relationship is to continue I want to make her comfortable
>Immense Christian guilt, won't bring myself to have sex before marriage so it kind of screws up my plans to be a loner, on the road
>Stuck between passion and the bottom line, love and freedom, freedom and devotion. Wish I was no decisive, more passionate. Everything is too reasonable everyone too content. I know everyone else shares such struggles but I feel so alone in this immature suffering
>Read BTK (loved the confessions of Dimitri)
>Reading On the Road (love Kerouac, even if his criticized as a writer, I absolutely love him as a man.)

[Anonymous No.12675408]

>18
>in junior year at a decent university cos of muh AP creds
>full ride scholarship
>STEM major
>university is in town surrounded by nothing but dense coniferous wilderness and lakes
>rent shitty one-room cabin in the forest, paid for by awful pizza place job
>have valuable friendships, play rugby at school, live comfortably in my shack, drive a good old shitbox, and have amazing girlfriend who lives on campus
>be 6’0, blonde hair, blue eyes, not unattractive
here’s the kicker lads
>be transgender and closeted and silently entrenched in self-loathing because of it
>everyone just thinks i’m a butch lesbian and i can’t tell anyone otherwise because actually transitioning is currently impossible

[Anonymous No.12676108]

>>12673061
I don't think you're gross, I think your life is gross. The way your parents subtly manipulate you into this academic career, and the way you use this over-socialized careerism to deflect inherited feelings of low self esteem and guilt, the cosmopolitan west coast city lifestyle. All of it is something I saw a lot of while I was university, and seems endemic in academia as a whole. It's a sad state of affairs. No disrespect intended.

FWIW I didn't read the last three lines of your greentext till now. It gets meme'd a lot, but you should really read Industrial Society and It's Future (if you haven't already), I feel like it would resonate with you.

>>12671987
Stifled ambition is a horrible thing, bitterness is expected. The extent you project onto my life is remarkable. Did your father not love you enough as a child?

>>12673639
Spanish, French, Portuguese, and the obvious. My current plan is to work and study for the next ten or so months, live cheaply, and then take off for Italy and North Africa to pick up Italian and Arabic. While learning a whole different family is a pain in the ass, it's also a lot of fun. I've recently been reading a book of rudimentary Ancient Egyptian grammar/vocab and it's quite fascinating. The way you would read their hieroglyphs could be in any direction, but you have to associate the images in the correct way so that you read animal pictographs head to ass. They don't include vowels (much like Arabic, and other Semitic languages), so academics are at a loss as to what the language actually sounded like. The most interesting thing though, is that they would use symbolic pictograms at the end of certain words, to add an extra layer of meaning to it. For example, taxes could be ended with a pictogram of a man with a whip, and while it would be pronounced the same when spoken, it would have an obvious textual political message. The question of how the language developed is also an enigma, because while some words are obviously phonetic and others obviously symbolic, there are a bunch of phonetically composed words which also have symbolic images within them (for example, wine containing the symbol for mouth composed alongside the symbol for wicker stool, while work is literally symbol for soul and the symbol for a loaf of bread composed together). For me what's really helped is to get a good book an a language and really just skim it the first go around. Get a feel for the art of the language, how sentences and words are composed, the regularities and quirks, to try and understand a bit the soul of the language before jumping into the hard work of memorization and practice.

[Anonymous No.12676199]

>>12673195
Knut Hamsun's Hunger.

[Anonymous No.12676222]

>finishing highschool
>18, male, fat, Mexican but I can pass as white
>Unemployed, I want a career in IT, cyber security, or overall computer science
>Have GF of 3 months, both virgins (we intend to keep it that way for a while)

Honestly I haven't read that many books. Currently I'm reading "How to Measure Anything in Cybersecurity Risk". I tried getting CompTIA A+ certified but I failed the first test. A book that helped me study was Mike Meyers A+ Study Guide. If you want something a little less techy I'd recommend the only book I enjoyed from my highschool's library: "Cry, the Beloved Country". And of course I try to read the Bible, but somehow I fail to do so.

[Anonymous No.12676230]

>>12676222
Oh I did it backwards didn't I? I gave recommendations... Oh well I feel dumb now

[Anonymous No.12676231]

>19, middle class white guy.
>Social outcast throughout most of my early life.
>Crave attention, push people away once given it.
>Failed actor, quit as soon as I managed my way into a union.
>University student, mainly studying the humanities.
>Individual study.
>Sit in my room working, reading, or watching videos 8 hours a day.
>Go to gym.
>Watch the news.
>Panic about lack of productivity.
>Drink, sleep, wake-up in a stupor, repeat.

[Anonymous No.12676244]

>22 year old history grad student
>lonely, self-loathing, wants dissolve into nothing, hates the world and everything yet also loves it all, and am capable of genuine joy when I am able to forget myself with friends and my local community
>virgin, borderline bisexual, experimented with both straight and gay sexuality as a teenager but now despise the idea of any sexual expression outside of the confines of the strictest monogamy, all the while fantasising about sex daily
>only live for my vocation (to be an historian) and to support my family and friends

Fuck my shit up senpai

[Anonymous No.12676253]

>>12676108
I keep checking this thread right when you've replied to me.
I understand where you're coming from. The yuppy thing is so played out. If it helps any I actually do enjoy the actual work of my job and the actual benefits of lifestyle of the city. I have goals to make my life conform more to my values once I've payed my dues.
I read uncle ted a while back but I will check it out again. You're right, rereading at this point might be a breath of fresh air.
Best of luck on the EMT and language efforts.

[Anonymous No.12676263]

>>12669947
stfu incel

[Anonymous No.12676267]

>>12676244
Stoner.

[Anonymous No.12676275]

>>12676267
Already read it, twas beautiful

[Anonymous No.12676304]

>>12676108
I definitely want to earn some stripes with living spoken languages before diving into dead ones. The way you describe it makes it sound very stimulating, like a puzzle, but with multiple solutions. It does not seem that there is any modern language like Ancient Egyptian. Traditional Chinese is probably the closest, but as I understand it there is a phonetic and symbolic meaning associated with each character. From the translated novels I have read for school, it seems as if certain names or groupings can be read multiple ways, or fundamentally altered by a slight change. However, the nuance of this is obviously lost in translation. Loving the book btw thanks again.

[Anonymous No.12676341]

>19
>still in hs doing the retarded ib programme
>pretty sure I'm not going to get the diploma because the coordinator hates me
>every day I feel more disinterested
>yet every day I feel angrier
>the only things that keep me from not saying fuck and stop caring about the ib are my own pride and disgust for the programme
>outside of that it's pretty good
>practice karate 3 hours~ per day
>feelsgoodman
>still too angry to die
I feel very edgy and angsty but I suppose it's the stress

[Anonymous No.12676393]

>>12676244
L'Immoraliste

[Anonymous No.12676447]

>>12675408
Ecce Homo

[Anonymous No.12676453]

>36
>virgin
>very autistic
>I tried to be a martial arts actor in the past because it was my dream
>I ended up getting nothing and no work and now I'm past my prime with no real accomplishments
>I live in a crummy apartment with no company besides my computer and my martial arts
>I teach Judo at a McDojo and I've had to soften up because all prior teaching methods led to children dropping the course and I need their parent's money or I aint eating
>none of my subordinates respect me in spite of my skill in their supposed field and my manager talks about me to my face like I'm a material asset
>I rarely eat anymore, I don't bathe, my nights alone are spent wishing I could be with someone, even friends
>I thought I made friends with one of the dads from my work but he ended up blowing me off, and that was three years ago
>I really just want to die but I'm too scared to kill myself and I just want someone to show me that life is worth living

I got a noise complaint the last time I took a shower because I saw my circumcised dick in the mirror and I screamed and started stomping and having a tantrum

[Anonymous No.12676481]

>>12674765
counter strike degree

[Anonymous No.12676486]

>>12676481
>customer surface degree

[Anonymous No.12676500]

>>12666192
>live in western europe
>self loathing because subhuman balkans heritage
>racist and chauvinistic but hate big gov so not fascist
>believe in personal liberty
>americanophile

[Anonymous No.12676540]

>>12676500
Road to Serfdom or others in the Austrian school.

[Anonymous No.12677447]

>25
>nurse at assisted living facility
>substance abuse, alcohol, mdma, lsd, ketamine
>adopted, insane fear of abandonment
>avoid close relationships because abandonment fears, only really have people to get fucked up with
>become easily obsessed with people and then cut them off
>in intensive therapy for derpression
>in love with my therapist because she's the only person I am close to

[Anonymous No.12678219]

>>12671931
>21 year old college student
>sephardic jew with several personality disorders (among them is Avoidant and Schyzotypal)
>studying accounting
>most of my classmates are women, and loves to shit-talk behind my back
>therefore i feel alienated, i can´t connect with people
>thinking about delving myself in krav maga and magick to avoid the pain i have whenever i have to socialize with people

[Anonymous No.12678327]

>22
>recent college grad
>live with parents in dull but comfortable outskirts of major city
>work as social worker with homeless, drug-abusing, and/or mentally ill people in one of the ghetto areas central to the city
>regularly speak with people who are suicidal or schizophrenic
>shit pay
>main hobby is reading
>also regularly give people armchair philosophico-psychotherapeutic advice on /lit/ and webchats
>recent obsession with American Transcendentalism and American identity, spend a lot of time with the American 60's also
>little substantial life plan other than seeking more schooling for more comfortable/lucrative/intellectual work
>at least I haven't felt ennui for a while
>>12666224
Varieties of Religious Experience
>>12667236
Focus on finishing Moby-Dick
>>12667399
Spinoza's Tractatus and Ethics
>>12667637
Tristram Shandy
>>12668690
Get into Shakespeare, start with the good tragedies (Hamlet, Lear, Macbeth)
>>12669947
Read less
>>12670246
Walden
>>12670310
Epicurus
>>12671173
Exercise more
>>12671199
Nicomachean Ethics
>>12671322
What's your dx/rx?
>>12671696
Ecclesiastes
>>12671758
Re: insomnia, consider medication but also do not expose yourself to blue light (electronic screens) or other stimulating media before bed. Try out chamomile and/or magnesium and/or melatonin and see if it helps.
>>12671931
EMT's are actively taken advantage of by the medical industry, make sure to use it as a foothold into something better rather than languishing in that role.
>>12673754
Tolstoy's Confession

This thread is tiring and I couldn't make it any further.

[Anonymous No.12678364]

>went through an edgy phase in highschool
>posted my nudes online because I "didn't give a fuck"
>reputation ruined
>everyone thinks I'm gay
>can't get a girlfriend because I'm the guy who everyone saw naked and basically everyone has me in their phone butt naked clips of me doing some other stupid shit during that phase
>everyone bullies me and I have no balls to fight back

I feel like this is rock bottom for me

[Anonymous No.12678443]

>>12678364
>can't get a girlfriend because I'm the guy who everyone saw naked and basically everyone has me in their phone butt naked clips of me doing some other stupid shit during that phase
lmao
I mean surely not every girl in your town saw your nudes, right?

[Anonymous No.12678477]

>>12666192
>2nd year University studying PPE
> 19 years old, 6'0 manlet, have a tinsy bit of muscle due to landscaping work with my dad.
>1/8 feelipino 1/8 Spanish 1/4 Irish 1/8 German 1/8 Lebanese 1/4 English
>Had friends in highschool but broke off with them because reasons.
>go though a 1 1/2 year long frenless stint
>finally made a friend at university, cool dude. All I need.
>virgin but I have kissed and hugged a girl
>recently got my licence after 4 tries, already had a car.
>Had to lug like 30 bags of rubbish out to the bins because we missed a bin day. (holy shit it was the most putrid experience of my life.)
>Haven't read a book in a couple of months.
>to addicted to 4chan/youtube/steam trifecta of procrastination.
>going to the gym tomorrow.

I want a gf and a job so I can go skiiing

After university I want to go teach english in japan.

I hope I get rich off bitcoin so I can be king neet and travel the world reading and seeing the sights.

[Anonymous No.12678488]

>>12670036
Quit working so much and go have some fun, get some friends and fuck some bitches yo.

You will be a better thinker for it, new experiences enlighten the soul.

[Anonymous No.12678498]

>>12678364
You can always move. But I pity you, this generation is going to be full of stories like yours.

[Anonymous No.12678500]

>>12670412
Based as fuck my dude.

[Anonymous No.12678502]

>>12666192
Kek

[Anonymous No.12678648]

>>12678443
Of course they did. Someone made an account on snapchat where they posted nudes of everyone from the area where I live.

[Anonymous No.12678658]

>>12678327
I'm not sure if this exists and I'd be interested in reading it if it did, but maybe some kind of historical account of the cultural and philosophical factors that lead to the cultural milestones of the american midcentury?
Someone to synthesize the massive aesthetic, technological, social and political advances. Maybe that'd be a stretch.

[Anonymous No.12678698]

>>12666192
>27
>high school education
>have had 40 different jobs
>can't hold down a job
>raging alcoholic
>no gf in five years
>slept with over 100 women
>manlet
>big dick
>life feels meaningless
>was on probation for 4.5 years
>have been homeless several times
>molested at 14
>done every drug except heroin
>had eating disorders, cut myself
>my dad pays my rent because i'm too mentally ill to function and otherwise i'd just be homeless
>was falsely accused of rape and lost all my friends years ago
>beat my ex gf and then she started seeing my little brother so i tried to kill myself
>frequently feel suicidal
>go on drinking binges and wake up and freak out about death
>feel trapped in my shitty nightmare of a life and like there's no way out
>complete and utter failure
>impoverished and alone

my life is kind of like no longer human but much worse

[Anonymous No.12678735]

>27
>extremely abusive and horrible childhood
>autistic older brother and narcissistic parents teach me to find flaws and judge other people, for years I copy their arrogance and heartlessness and obsession with power and control rather than learn real social skills (this attitude was just an angry blameful projection of the sadness they felt about their social incompetence)
>bullied in high school
>gay
>have one relationship with my biggest crush, who uses me for sex then drops me within a month, this destroys me
>small dick
>ugly
>have acne since age 13 and it has just never gone away, requires constant management
>receding hairline
>average build, 6ft tall
>socially perceptive and could be competent but too easily triggered into fight or flight because my nervous system is fucked from chronic autistic meltdowns and domestic violence
>can see the weird looks people give me sometimes but too dissociated from my body and feelings to follow the body language and expressions I am displaying
>everything I say is rigidly planned out or thought through because I cannot be spontaneous around people, this makes me seem totally robotic and off tone and insincere to other people.. sometimes when a conversation takes an unexpected turn I go full spaghetti mode
>fundamentally afraid of other people, dealt with trauma and sexuality by withdrawing and playing roleplaying games
>wasted university years playing games, made no friends
>got a good cushy job with a nice career path and was a highly regarded workaholic employee with great prospects but then I quit and am now a NEET

[Anonymous No.12678959]

>>12677447
>>in love with my therapist because she's the only person I am close to
you're aware she must be aware of it? Since, you know, she is a therapist

[Anonymous No.12678966]

>>12678658
I have a copy of Levine's Highbrow/Lowbrow which interestingly suggests that the high art vs. low art divide (at least in America) is artificial and only began to become prevalent in the late 1800's and early 1900's, so it touches a bit on how the culturally American popular sense of aesthetics looked in the 1800's at large, which is pertinent.

I also have a bunch of history of ideas type accounts of America in different time periods saved on my Goodreads, like "Constructung the Self, Constructing America" and "Nature's God The Heretical Origins of the American Republic" and "The Impending Crisis: America Before the Civil War, 1848-1861" which look promising.

Right now I'm mainly focused on the works of major individual thinkers of the era as opposed to broader historical accounts, though.

[Anonymous No.12678982]

>>12666192
>24 year old Mormon (although the new hotness is to say "member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints")
>graduate from BYU in engineering
>move back to LA for a comfy cybersecurity job
>had a few short relationships but nothing that serious
>get asked at every family gathering when I'm going to get a wife
>wonder when I'm going to get a wife
>love Kierkegaard
>know I should download Mormon Tinder (there is such a thing) and start swiping but drag my feet because that's not really my style
>50k words into my commentary on the Book of Mormon, according to my speadsheets at the current rate I'll finish it in November

[Anonymous No.12679108]

>18
>went to an extremely prestigious high school
>poorest person there
>now studying STEM in a shitty college
>got (in my opinion) falsely diagnosed with a psychotic disorder first semester
>decide to start taking psychedelics because what do I have to lose
>now the only motivation I have is to read and take shrooms
>I'm basically talentless so I don't feel bad about it

[Anonymous No.12679149]

just your average socially anxious, neurotic English major

[Anonymous No.12679170]

>>12678735
Gay robot who discovers the gays are in it for sex not love? Read the Odyssey to get an example of heterosexual devotion to wife and country.
>>12678698
You're messed up. For you, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance has the right vibe.
>>12678477
You want travel and luxury? I feel you need Kierkegaard's Either/Or, particularly Part 1. Understand the esthetic better (so you can reject it properly).
>>12678327
Kind of based, I spent some time roaming the streets working with the homeless and crazies myself. One of them once quoted Matthew 10:31 to me and that moment has stuck with me ever since.

[Anonymous No.12679225]

>>12666192
>22 yo
>tall, white, gay, handsome,
>graduated from best uni in my country
>privately educated
>orphan, live alone, unemployed, self sustained
>autistic
>blackpilled, natsoc
>mental issues, stemming from childhood and bad mother
>gymcel
>like philosophy, history, classics
>had no childhood or teen romance
>want to have lots of aryan children but hate women

[Anonymous No.12679252]

>22
>Fell in love and moved to Russia during my last year of college
>Abandoned my International Relations degree for a Russian one so that I could leave uni early
>Live as an English teacher in Moscow, making okay money and saving for a wedding and masters degree in Urban Planning
>Fiance is a hysterical 22yo Jewish mommy that cooks and cleans while we work on her thesis in ancient Mesopotamian languages together
> Everything is good
>Life can be good but had abortion a few months ago, soul crushed
>Constantly depressed and need to keep up with fiancee 's anxiety over the wedding and her thesis, bad job, etc
>Literal hook nosed kike landlord who constantly lies about us having late payments
>Work for an all female company full of communication issues and a lack of organization
>Soul crushing commutes, up to three hours for some jobs
>Want to kill myself because I just want the lust for life I had a year ago, even when I'm happy I fantasize about itfucjfuckfuck

>>12674765
War and Peace
>>12673301
Hero of Our Time

[Anonymous No.12679278]

>>12678982
Read Rough Stone Rolling and the CESletter.
https://cesletter.org/CES-Letter.pdf

Joseph Smith was a conman

[Anonymous No.12679380]

>>12679278
Already read both, well I only got through half of RSR before the library wanted it back. CESletter has some valid historical criticisms (e.g. no pre-Columbian horses), some legitimate concerns (Joseph Smith's marriage practices), and a bunch of dishonest material (complaining about "adieu" being in the Book of Mormon, out-of-place fedoratipping about how the God of the Old Testament is mean and can't exist, etc.). RSR isn't even anti-Mormon really, but it's a worthwhile alternate take on Joseph Smith's history.

[Anonymous No.12679442]

>>12679170
>Kind of based etc.
Thank you, but what should I read?

[Anonymous No.12679522]

>>12679442
Matthew 10:31. If you want more than that then pick a short story collection of your choice, Dubliners if you haven't read it, Ficciones if you haven't read it.

[Anonymous No.12679545]

>>12679225
The Magus

[Anonymous No.12679554]

>>12679380
Yeah.
How can you see how many lies are in the BoM, church in general, and mormon canon and still be an unironic mormon?
Obviously I'm an exmo.

[Anonymous No.12679558]

>23yo American pastyguy
>English major
>diagnosed with autism, clinical depression and mild OCD
>probably have anhedonia
>former benzo addict, kinda wish I was again because at least I was less miserable then
>extremely paranoid, always believe I am being watched, that I left the door unlocked, etc.
>feel like a completely worthless being
>too blind to drive in a country that demands it
>don't know any way out of this hellhole

>>12673693
American Psycho, assuming that's not the joke already

[Anonymous No.12679573]

>>12671834
Please recommend me a book

[Anonymous No.12679597]

>>12679554
I gathered. What do you expect me to say? I'm convinced by spiritual means same as any other believer. I do find the BoM terribly impressive from an intellectual standpoint, though, horses aside.

[Anonymous No.12679610]

>handsome 20 y/o, soon to be 21
>russian living in portugal (broke: the country)
>always been good at math and computers, decided to follow that route
>realized I hate IT people. everyone is a boring workaholic consumed by bad habits. very depressing people
>still signed the 6 month contract to get valuable work experience in a prestigious place (working as a sysadmin/devops dude in the capital's stem university)
>hate train commuting with a burning passion
>still only have high school education because I was drawn to the """hood life""" through the age of 15-18 – ie. drinking copious amounts of alcohol with bad influences, smoking lots of weed and cigarettes
>at some point during this period I was reading redpill shit on reddit, and applying it with great success. grew out of it in the end because I felt it was unnecessarily manipulative, and was always aware that it's all a made up narrative of how people work
>always get super qt girlfriends but I'm a little bit of an egoist and I'm either too bad at commitment or I'm just afraid of it deep down
>still not sure what path I want to follow, but I'm confident I want to go to uni
>circle of friends consists of stoners and low key dealers who accept each others occasional fake nigga personality traits, but stay loyal. we might all be addicts who knows
>militantly implemented hygiene and fitness into my routine very late in life, was never taught much about it. very resentful towards my parents for that, still love my dad
>the more I grow, the less I am against the idea of religion
>got into literature less than a year ago. kinda struggle with finishing stuff
>read models by mark manson. thought it had pretty solid ideas, managed to follow through but forced myself to do it. it was super repetitive
>started reading 12 rules for life. stopped because jp's writing is atrocious
>so far, "mindfulness in plain english" has kept me engaged

[Anonymous No.12679685]

>>12679610
something about spoiled brats that are full of themselves.

[Anonymous No.12679695]

>>12671834
Where do you live now? What language(s) do you speak apart from Dutch?

[Anonymous No.12679703]

>>12679597
All you need to do is post this nibba
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsmyzC4AkFQ
Also Jan Ships Story of a new Religious Tradition is fucking fantastic if you haven't read it. Read some Graham Hancock or those types to see that your beliefs about ancient American civilization aren't AS crazy as outsiders say. I think his next book is focused on NA. If you read native american legends about the mounds spread across the country, they'll say that ypipo actually built them.
t. a non mormon taking a class on mormonism who also happens to be deeply interested in prehistoric revisionism.

[Anonymous No.12679705]

>>12666192
>live at home with mom, 24
>zero friends/relationships
>schizoaffective
>want to kill myself but to afraid to do it

books for this??

[Anonymous No.12679732]

>21 y.o. male
>single
>finishing a Primary Ed. degree
>speak both Spanish and English.
>have some friends, not too many, though
>kinda identify with the doomer meme
>Last books read: Tolstoi's autobiographical trilogy; Iván Illich's Death; The Shining
>Last films watched: The Oldman and the gun; American Psycho, The Code; The Commuter; Presumed Innocent.
>enjoy nature hiking, cycling, beer and reading

[Anonymous No.12679735]

>>12679703
Thanks for the recs, writing those down.

[Anonymous No.12679750]

>>12679610
Norwegian Wood, by Murakami

>>12679252
Sth by Hemmingway

>>12679225
The Holy Bible

[Anonymous No.12679756]

>>12679732
Morevoer:
>currently reading Trump's Art of the Deal

[Anonymous No.12680212]

>>12679750
>Through Watanabe's reminiscences readers see him develop relationships with two very different women—the beautiful yet emotionally troubled Naoko, and the outgoing, lively Midori
relatable, and sounds like an interesting book. thanks anon

[Anonymous No.12680249]

>21 year old American pre veterinary student
>Trailer trash background but loving family
>Learning disability diagnosed as an adult
>Hid symptoms as child out of shame
>Kicked out gifted program for being a retard
>Almost fail out of community college before getting treatment and pulling shit together
>Manage to transfer into decent uni
>Doing well but have no self esteem
>Constantly feel like uni took pity on me and everyone knows
>Taking creative writing class for required art credits
>Every time I receive a compliment I think that class is joking and they are laughing at me behind my back
>Know it isn't rational but can't shake the thought
>Feel like I can't connect with anyone on a deeper level than casual acquaintances
>Not depressed but have no desire for sex or a romantic relationship at all
>Only interested in stupid /d/ tier impossible fetishes present since early childhood
>Enjoy occasional psychedelic use and regular deep meditation
>Astral projected once, trying to do it again
>Slip into paracosm when listening to music everyday
>Enjoy my studies but afraid I will hate any work I do after college
>Wish I could be a village artisan instead
>Still generally optimistic about world around me
>Like long hikes in the mountains and night walks in town
>Bake bread every week and am pretty good at it
>Only stable goal in life is to thru hike the Appalachian Trail alone one year

[Anonymous No.12680259]

>>12674457
Recommend me a book please. Or is it impossible to recommend something based on a life this boring? I hope not.

[Anonymous No.12680276]

>>12680259
Bartleby the Scrivener

[Anonymous No.12680336]

>>12679695
Good english and mediocre french and turkish a little bit

[Anonymous No.12680352]

>>12680212
you are welcome. Godspeed, ruskibro

>>12680249
Notes from the Underground

>>12680336
The catcher in the rye

[Anonymous No.12680421]

>>12679705
here's a short (criminally underrated) masterpiece that's among the most depressing books ever written
it has very nice (that is, depressive) pages about the relationship between youngmoron and his mom

[Anonymous No.12681228]

>19
>pretty handsome manlet
>spend all my time idling on video games I don't like much or reading
>extremely undisciplined with the ideals of a bushido samurai
>overpowered by lust
>fall in love with women on public transport, think they're staring tentatively at me, they're probably completely oblivious though
>routinely nofap, rarely get above a week, had a wet dream this morning that I'm not sure if it breaks my streak or not
>sexually insecure, average benis
>really want to project an unpretentious intellectual air on 4chan, am actually genuine-humbly faux ignorant irl to avoid embarrassment
>whole youth ahead of me, worry about things like taking care of parents in future and jobs tying me down to a soul and back-breaking banal existence
>kissless
>hugless
>virgin
>no friends, except my dog
>like /out/

I probably just need to fuck a whore I think I read enough

[Anonymous No.12681246]

>>12681228
>I probably just need to fuck a whore

you should, first time i got laid was with a hooker, i was your age so i know how underwhelming is like to be a virgin at that age

[Anonymous No.12681289]

>>12667198
>tfw getting massive widows peak at 21
>tfw planning to go bald next week
>tfw have to wear big thick glasses because eyes are shit
>tfw like wearing flannel
>tfw have biggish beard
Im literally turning into the thing I hate as some part of a sick prank being played on me from the spirits above

[Anonymous No.12681444]

>homeschooled until eighth grade
>abusive father, schizophrenic mother. Constantly told about conspiracies (they believed most of them)
>be left at home for hours at a time, only source of entertainment was non cable tv, reading, and dial up
>finally went to school in 8th grade. All boys catholic school with a reputation for being academic but nobody had any fun (we called ourselves the UChicago of high schools)
>bullied pretty bad because of right wing views from parents. Incredibly depressed in Sophmore year
>started lifting, became absolute unit
>now junior in ivy league university, have a lot more friends, still getting stronger, good grades.
>Only talk to my parents so they'll keep sending me money
>only desire is to escape family life once I can support myself
>currently reading the selected works of Emerson

[Anonymous No.12681452]

>>12681444
Studies in Pessimism

[Anonymous No.12681774]

All you faggots who posted without making recommendations deserve not getting any response.

[Anonymous No.12681799]

>Party out of college
>Party for a year on my own
>Get my shit together
>Get physically fit
>Go back to school
>Forgot how to school
>cycle repeats

[Anonymous No.12681862]

>>12666192
50k in debt 3rd year English undergrad

[Anonymous No.12682300]

>26 year old hispanic guy
>college drop out
>was neet for years but now have retail job paying 18/hr
>live with mom in double wide mobile home, pay for all the bills
>mixed gf with a black kid stays here almost everyday
>struggle with depression and anxiety
>nationalist marxist leninist

[Anonymous No.12682327]

>>12678327
HOW DID YOU KNOW I WAS EXERCISING? could i have a book rec?

[Anonymous No.12682393]

>20 yo virgin who never did anything in high school
>went to college, depressed and OCD, could never focus on work
>start smoking weed to feel better and focus
>works for a while, then i go broke and cant smoke
>grades are even worse than better i started smoking
>drop out of uni
>live with parents, wageslave at food store
>no frens in hometown, no HS frens want to talk to me anyway
>want to read nonfiction but cant focus on it, read tom clancy instead
>so socially isolated cant even buy weed, parents are tired of me stealing their booze
>planning on getting PO box so i can order it online
>have to attend community college because grades so bad, but on pills so wont an hero

>>12681799
rules for penis washing by JB peterson
>>12682300
>nationalist marxist leninist
Beyond Good and Evil. should fix up that slave morality you got there
>>12681228
the evolution of human sexuality by donald symons
>>12681444
checked. mein kampf.

[Anonymous No.12682542]

>>12666192
>lonely mexican university student
>chose the worng career path and is stuck with it
>diagnosed with OCD
>few friends, but a few of them are comfy
>hang out with spergs who play LOL all day
>love analytical philosophy, ex mathlete
>have life threatening asthma, lungs in transient pain every few days
>ghosted by every women who has ever shown in interest in me
books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.12682568]

>>12682542
>love analytical philosophy
hmm
>lonely
>chose the wrong career path
>diagnosed with OCD
>spergs
>ghosted
really gets the noggin joggin

[Anonymous No.12682605]

>>12681774
Some of us made recs in separate posts. Gotta clean your posts before cleaning your room anon.

[Anonymous No.12682622]

>>12682568
I guess you're right, I will however state that the chad thing to do in my position would not be to reevaluate my positions because of a meme,

[Anonymous No.12682625]

>>12666192
>Physicist
>Independently wealthy
>Voluntarily celibate after death of my first love after being with them for 7 years

[Anonymous No.12682645]

>>12682625
>them
faggot spotted
>>12682622
good, anon. now youre thinking like a chad.

[Anonymous No.12682699]

>>12682622
Then stop stating things in terms of whether they're a "chad thing to do," ya dingus.

[Anonymous No.12682706]

>>12682542
>>12682568

[Anonymous No.12683699]

>32
>Lower middleclass background
>Dropped out of school, educated myself a lot instead
>Work at a farm 3 days a week for fun and workout
>Other days i paddle kayak, fish, read, hike, make music and play computer games
>Became rich on bitcoins as I was mining as soon as GPU mining happened
>Failed some investments in altcoins
>Have money to live like this for about 15 more years
>Still depressed most of the year
>No family
>Not so great social life, mostly alone

[Anonymous No.12683816]

>>12683699
>>12682542
>>12682393
>>12682300
And you expect a book to completely change your life? That's what it looks like. You barely post anything about /lit/ only talk about your personal problems. I mean, this thread is for getting recommendations, right? A person can enjoy "Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde" wherever they got some mental issue or not. No book is gonna get you friends, or cure your OCD. Your stories are so specific, you could actually write the first book for that feeling!

>>12679732
>>12679756
May I get a recommendation, please?

[Anonymous No.12684107]

>>12683816
It's obvious that you don't understand the implicit purpose of this thread. Same reason no one's giving you (You)s.

[Anonymous No.12684354]

>>12682327
Leisure: The Basis of Culture

[Anonymous No.12684440]

>New Englander
>no friends, lost all motivation for relationships
>philosophically in between universal reconciliationist Christianity or pure land/zen Buddhism
>politically find myself aligning more and more with primitivsts and anarchists despite knowing these will never work
>studying an asian language at uni
>if I don't land this job I will probably consider killing myself

[Anonymous No.12684572]

>>12666192
>22 yo
>agnostic but really interested in religion, especially in eastern orthodoxy
>would like to read a redpilled non-fiction for a change
>easily put of by books over 500 pages

AKA I would like to learn about religion and history but not wanting to read overly longm, boring books.

[Anonymous No.12684604]

>Get drunk
>Cheat on gf with her twin sister
>Now neither of them want anything to do with me
Books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.12684744]

>>12666224
Are you me?

[Anonymous No.12685631]

>>12684744
Yes.

[Anonymous No.12686815]

>>12671696
Atomized by Michelle the Hooligan

[Anonymous No.12686820]

>>12666192
Brief Wonderous Life of Oscar Wao

[Anonymous No.12687955]

>>12666192
The Holy Bible

[Anonymous No.12687963]

>29 in big city
>Have gf but few friends
>Perpetually unemployed/work freelance in TV
>Obsessed with my own anxiety, phobias & panic
>Things are finally starting to get better
>Feel like I'm awake for the first time in years

[Anonymous No.12688016]

> 23
> live in small town
> Me Too'd by someone I never had sex with who was upset I didn't want to have sex with them
> unable to pursue my career as a result
> stuck working an entry-level job
> getting ready to move across the country, change my name, and assume a new identity
> worry that I have a mental illness that is compelling me to do this

[Anonymous No.12688039]

>>12666192
>17, m
>came out of low point in life recently
>only managed to do it by essentially leaving "my life" behind me
>in most ways ive made myself "better off"
>still feel like less of a person than i used to everyday since
>not even sad, just feel unfull
>nobody to talk to about that kinda shit
>usually never read, but recently became more interested in this kinda stuff as a way of looking inwards i guess
>ambitions are there, but im not satisfied with what iv'e come up with

general shitty school experience (mostly on the loser who keeps fucking things up for himself side) so i hate most stories in that setting

even if im just young and average, hit me with your best recs. sorry i can't really contribute myself, as i've said i dont read much at all

[Anonymous No.12688057]

>>12684572
>I want knowledge but without the effort
You and everyone else, buddy. There's no get-smart-quick scheme to read books. Sorry.

[Anonymous No.12688058]

>Born to and educated depressed wannabe-poet Persian father, wealthy bourgeois Norwegian mother in London
>Father kind of abusive, would beat me and resented the fact that I was a weak, fearful child
>but he forced me to be interested in literature, which I became. Would constantly talk about Nietzsche
>12 years old. Mum divorces father. Her and I move back to Norway
>Go to bourgie international school.
>Had a constant feeling of fear, no friends
>15. Fall in love with girl, a girl who also felt like a deep misunderstood outsider
>We date a bit. She eventually breaks up with me as I was emotionally stunted
>Fall into long depression, but, in an effort to forget about her, learn to socialise decently well and make friends
>Never got over her
>Now studying history in Australia
>Have a pretty wide social circle, but still find it impossible to form any kind of deep connection with people
>22 and Virgin. Tried going out with some girls, but either they realise that there's something wrong with me, or I can't take the intimacy and start ignoring them
>Still madly in love with that one girl from when I was 15. Definitely due to repressed feelings of abandonment or whatever
>Telling myself that I only 'love the idea of her' doesn't make the pain stop
>Absolutely hate myself, loneliness is killing me. Only joy I have is reading pretentious books and telling myself that I'm good smart boi

Give me attention please, I'm starving

[Anonymous No.12688070]

>>12688039
Fuck meme accusations, read Murakami. Kafka on the Shore is good. Hardly deep literature, but I think you'll enjoy it

[Anonymous No.12688096]

>>12688070
thanks man, I honestly didn't know if I was about to get shat on or not, so I really appreciate your genuine recommendations.

[Anonymous No.12688108]

>>12688039
I feel like the simple, beautiful, detached writing of Murakami could do you good. If you want to avoid school settings maybe Wind Up Bird or 1Q84

[Anonymous No.12688135]

>>12688108
sounds great, thank you for your thoughtfulness.

[Anonymous No.12688140]

>>12688058
Check out a manga called Good Night Punpun.
hope you're still here, i feel like it would resonate with you pretty strongly

[Anonymous No.12688191]

>>12669947
>a hapa male obsessed with dick size/looks
who would've thought
anyways
>19 y/o hapa guy 2nd year college
>very few friends, 90% of my social interaction is with my gf and my roommate
>didnt sleep much past few days so drank coffee for the first time in months this morning
>trying to quit fapping but jacked off this afternoon, my bullshit excuse was because i'm sleep deprived
>used to look good but fell for the lifting meme,
now my face is stupid fat
>unhealthily obsessed with my turkish gf and feeling like i'll never understand her to any reasonable degree only strengthens it
>honors english major/course computer science course major
>both disciplines are quality but the people who do computer science are the infested boils of this earth
>still searching for a novel better than Gravity's Rainbow, haven't found one in 2 years of looking (recc's welcome)
>have a million ideas for stories and poems but never seem to have the time/energy/looming deadline to actualize them
>addicted to sleep deprivation
>can't stop browsing the internet
>can't stop reading rilke poems at 2 am and regretting everything

[Anonymous No.12688223]

>>12688191
*insane turkish gf

[Anonymous No.12688277]

>>12688140
Hmm I've never really gotten into manga, but I'll check it out for sure. Thanks for the recommendation

[Anonymous No.12688308]

>>12688277
np, glad i could be of help

[Anonymous No.12688360]

>>12666192
>13 years old
>live with aunt and uncle
>they are dicks, but no others choice cause my parent died when I was very little
>have a cousin who mocks me and hits me
>stay in my room which is more of a closet under the staircase
>feel like I am capable of a lot more than this
>also somehow haven't developed any mental illnesses despite shitty upbringing

[Anonymous No.12688455]

>>12688277
BTW, IDK WHY I SAID THIS JUST NOW, IT'S A SAD ASS STORY, IT'S REALLY NOT A SELF HELP THING

[Anonymous No.12688501]

>23 years old
>neet but graduated with a useless stem degree
>going to fulfil my weeb dreams this april by relocating to japan for a year -- mostly using this time as a buffer to figure out what i want to do and also to get away from the boring shit hole where i currently reside with my step father who i occasionally feel is plotting to kill me and my narcisstic mum who has more of a social life than me despite having her youth and beauty long gone (also pretty sure she avoids staying at home for extended periods of time to avoid the failure that is her only child)
>never been in love but continually find & use lonely desperate men online as emotional tampons
>now too afraid of love because of continual manipulation of said men
>extremely lonely
>but also deeply despise humanity
>spend the majority of my time living life through cute instagram girls, reading meme books recommended by lit, updating my tumblr that no one cares about, and doing squats just so i can camwhore my ass better on soc
>entirely and unapologetically self absorbed
>strive for perfection just so i can look down on all the uglies and dummies around me

[Anonymous No.12688569]

>>12673762
kek

[Anonymous No.12688584]

>>12688360
even if you are LARPing as HP, you're gonna get banned if you call yourself 13

[Anonymous No.12688632]

>>12688191
I don't feel insecure about my looks at all, actually, or at least not in a way that makes me socially anxious. Your life doesn't spark to mind any recommendations.

[Anonymous No.12688654]

>>12688455
What's good about manga? Asking out of general curiosity, not trying to be condescending
From what little I've seen, it seems to rely very heavily on its own sort of tropes. What do you like about it?
I'll check it out for sure though, maybe it'll change my mind of manga

[Anonymous No.12688676]

I can't pick a major because there's nothing I want to do for the rest of my life, but if I'm not making at least kind of serious money I'll have to actually work.

[Anonymous No.12688741]

>>12688654 wow ok... sorry this is taking foreer to type, im just not prepaired to explain my love for what has been one of my favorite hobbies for like 4 years now

uh, kinda hard to speak for the medium as a whole. alot of it is pretty tropey (pun pun isnt one of them), but most ppl start to like seeing them, and how they get spun.

i guess... in the most basic forms, what i love about manga is the visual information in a well-formatted manga, and just the kind of adventures they tell.
sorry it's taking forever just to say so little, but yh

[Anonymous No.12688754]

>>12688741
like, one piece, my favorite manga, is just good fun. it's lighthearted with it's moments, with soulful expressive art, the adventure is the massive epic scale world trotting kind ive loved since before i knew what a manga was. it'll make you feel sad at the sad parts, and great at the happy parts, without any sort of tonal whiplash or anything. the world is well and alive, the sense of adventure is always there... it's great. it has it's fair share of ppl who dislike it, but generally, it's well received. if you ever feel like checking a fun manga out (its nothing too deep but it has it isnt shallow and it def has it's moments) i recommend this one.

honestly, fun is good for you

[Anonymous No.12689157]

>>12667236
Your Ticket Is No Longer Valid, Romain Gary

[Anonymous No.12689162]

>>12669947
my little pony or smtg