/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.12358517]

write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.12358523]

>>12358517
Fuck off to /pol/ with this faggot

[Anonymous No.12358531]

>>12358523
No need for the homophobia dude

[Anonymous No.12358533]

I can't think when I'm offended. Please trigger another board.

[Anonymous No.12358539]

>>12358523
Imagine being this upset about someone with an art degree not being a worthless suicidal failure like you

[Anonymous No.12358541]

>>12358517
I need to go to sleep now.
I have things to do tomorrow morning.
Dammit, I can't stoo watching youtube /out/ videos.

[Anonymous No.12358543]

Sam had a gavin mcinnes-esque turn. Started out carefree and funny, got into politics, and is now a cringe machine. Not to compare hyde with peak gavin, just a similiar arc.

[Anonymous No.12358551]

>>12358541
Can you link some good ones please

[Anonymous No.12358558]

>>12358543
t.

[Anonymous No.12358569]

>>12358551
Not him but Zachary Fowler

[Anonymous No.12358587]

>>12358558
He's right unfortunately. His show was great, but after losing it, he made a turn for the worse

[Anonymous No.12358599]

>>12358523
yeah dude, why didn't you post some jewish high level intellectual like andrea dvorkin or ginsberg instead.

[Anonymous No.12358617]

>>12358558
Why would i be a communist

[Anonymous No.12358645]

I don't know how to hide jezebels and porn images, I don't know if it's even possible without removing all the image posts.

[Anonymous No.12358648]

People should drink more milk. Black coffee is the only coffee, does not work with milk, not what God wanted. Go for almonds, they're great. I don't understand economics at all.

[gyangsta fi lyfe No.12358652]

bun di bumbaclot battyman

[Anonymous No.12358654]

>>12358645
Of course it isn't possible. Unless you develop some Google tier machine learning browser add-on

[Anonymous No.12358656]

I'm consistently disappointed by how current institutions and systems are explained (religion, government, philosophy etc). When you really sit down and study why the way things are, more often then not they make sense causally and are optimum solution for the time and place more often than not. But ask anyone that is a proponent for that Institution and isn't an expert or directly in charge of it and you'll get a predictable ideological response or a surface level observation that was very little to do with the actual function of said system. Why are there so few people that actually understand what they support and why?

I probably didn't do this question justice and might write more about later

[Anonymous No.12358674]

>>12358656
>Why are there so few people that actually understand what they support and why?

Because studying something thoroughly takes a lot of time and so people tend to support or oppose something (regardless if they are correct in doing so or not) when they only have half of the facts?

[Anonymous No.12358678]

I read the first chapter of Stoner this morning. I broke down sobbing hysterically by the second to last paragraph.

[Anonymous No.12358685]

>>12358678
>he's addicted to fucking weed

[Anonymous No.12358687]

>>12358523
sperg

[Anonymous No.12358691]

Anime is objectively garbage

[Anonymous No.12358695]

i'm sick of my girlfriend and her histrionics, but i'm afraid of breaking up with her because don't want to be alone again

i'm fat ugly and weird and i legitimately think that i could end up alone forever if i did break up with her

[Anonymous No.12358698]

>>12358685
>not a single mention of loldudeweed in the first chapter
wow, great post quality

[Anonymous No.12358704]

>>12358695
>breaking up with a woman for being a woman

[Anonymous No.12358708]

>>12358698
So this is the state of the "intellectuals" of /lit/

[Anonymous No.12358720]

>>12358695
If you were able to get one girlfriend what makes you think you couldn’t do it again. Dump her ass. Any time a woman is the one getting dumped something right is happening. They deserve all the anguish we can give.

[Anonymous No.12358730]

>>12358587
You guys weren't impressed by that Christmas trailer? I got pretty excited, but maybe that's just nostalgia. crush500 2 was better than 1

[Anonymous No.12358736]

>>12358704
maybe i'll get a feminine bf instead

[Anonymous No.12358746]

I crossed the UC Davis quad after taking an exam. The temperature as measured by the raspi thermometer at my apartment was 48 degrees Fahrenheit and my IQ as measured by the WAIS-IV was 127. I crossed the bike path and boarded a bright red Unitrans bus. I placed myself into a "slot" by the window (I think of the bus seats as slots in which people fit). The bus filled with people and left almost on time at 5:11 PM. After arriving at my apartment, I paid rent and sold some bitcoin to make sure I had cash for next month. Inside of a warm blanket-tent, I used my laptop to read the Illiad by Homer.

[Anonymous No.12358777]

On the fence about going to law school... any lawyers or current law students with advice? Whatever I hear tends to be very doom-and-gloom but I genuinely enjoy reading court opinions and learning about different judicial philosophies. I feel like I could read Scalia's dissents for hours, and I'm not even very conservative. His dissent in Obergefell made me unironically think same-sex marriage is probably not a constitutional right, and I've been pro-gay marriage for as long as I can remember.

[Anonymous No.12358794]

>>12358777
If you're white and committed to continuing to stop being a dumb self-hating faggot then yes. If you're a spic I hope I get to kill you myself in the 2020s.

[Anonymous No.12358803]

My estranged mother has tried to kill herself 6 times in the last month and I don't feel like I can ignore her calls, but I know she'll only continue the same destructive behaviors as always. I feel though as answering her is only giving her what she wants and validating her cries for attention.

[Anonymous No.12358826]

>>12358736
Girlfriends (male) are patrician tier

[Anonymous No.12358839]

>>12358777
You sound like you have an actual genuine interest in Law and despite the pessimism lawyers can still earn very well.

[Anonymous No.12358875]

I have a lot to say but the moment I open these threads I realize it's pointless.

[Anonymous No.12358916]

Why wouldn't you respond to someone's cry for help? it¡s basic empathy.
If you're afraid that just going there won't do anything and it will repeat over and over again, then fix what you do once there. Ignoring someone in pain isn't a human thing.

[Anonymous No.12359023]

"[...] The bourgeois is also the typa asshole who mixes up morality and legality. Some times he sprinkles a bit of religion in there. You know, the type of fella who'd have ya believe that a banker or a swimsuit moddel are more respectable than a drug dealer or a prostitute. What, some rat who speculates, makes up some cash to steal it back from those he managed to convince they needed it and widens with a shamelessly jovial zeal the wealth gap, or a chick who's doing nothing if perpetuating millenia of objectifying women contributing little else than showing that her parents were lucky when they scrambled their gametes, would be more respectable than those hard-working folk who give it their all risking body and soul on the daily to provide services pertaining almost to the realm of the very bit of happiness which people couldn't live without, in an environment made dangerous and violent by the illegality they've been uh relegated to?"
"Fuck you. I know you and I aren't so unlike. Don't pretend you're one of em extreme middlebrow relativist faggots."

[Anonymous No.12359034]

>>12358803
>answering her is only giving her what she wants and validating her cries for attention
think better about this you incel fucking autist

[Anonymous No.12359063]

>>12359034
t. has never known a dysfunctional piece of shit person. Anon is righteous even caring about this.
>incel
So you think he wants to fuck his mom?

[Anonymous No.12359080]

hey /lit/, where do I find a girl like this?

[Anonymous No.12359100]

>>12358826
jesus christ what the fuck is that

[Anonymous No.12359107]

>>12359100
the guy telling you you haven't understood foucault.

[Anonymous No.12359122]

I busted a copious nut to a very pretty asian trap getting fucked in the arse, even though I have a meeting tomorrow that I shall now be paranoid at without my no-wanking test high. I struggle and fail to leave behind my fleshy mortal coil, my brain is too small and unrefined to do that, so I fall for every female and female imitation, 2 dimensional, 3 dimensional, black, white, yellow dick no dick thing I see.

I need a fucking GIRLFRIEND

[Anonymous No.12359136]

>>12359122
>trap
you're not worthy of an actual woman you fucking degenerate.

[Anonymous No.12359151]

>>12359136
fuck you

[Anonymous No.12359154]

>>12359080
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

[Anonymous No.12359158]

i saw this amazing comment on slashdot that was like a really good /lit/ post but now i cant find it shit was far out i know one of u fuckers wrote it

[Anonymous No.12359180]

>>12359154
what’s funny?

[Anonymous No.12359190]

[Chorus: Playboi Carti]
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Hoe, you talk too much, fuck my money up
Come fuck money up, let's fuck some money up
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Your hoe talk too much, I just wanna bust
Come over to fuck, hoe, I'm like what's up
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Money countin' up, hoe, come count it up
I'm gon' spent these bucks, you gon' come to fuck
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Up in Follies, boy, spent a couple bucks
Fuck a stripper hoe, I'm like, nigga, for what?
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what

[Verse 1: UnoTheActivist]
I don't give a fuck, keep that .40 tucked
Nigga, try your luck, what, what
Nigga knuck, get bucked, dersert leave you stuck
And that choppa up, what, what
We don't give no fucks, run up in ya crib, and tie up ya mom
What, what, I don't never sweat
And I got a weapon, leave a nigga wet, what, what
Leave a nigga wet, what, what (molly!)
Disrespect my set, I got hella checks
I be sippin' Tech, what, what
Hoe, you not my hoe, get it through yo' head
Only want the neck, what, what
Choppas with a pointer, why you fallin' short
Call in my report, what, what
You call him, I report him, what, what
Audi sit on Forgis, what, what, what
Sit on Forgis

[Chorus: Playboi Carti]
Your hoe talk too much, I just wanna bust
Come over to fuck, hoe, I'm like what's up
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Money countin' up, hoe, come count it up
I'm gon' spent these bucks, you gon' come to fuck
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
Up in Follies, boy, spent a couple bucks
Fuck a stripper hoe (molly!), I'm like, nigga, for what?
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what
What, what, what, what

[Anonymous No.12359197]

>>12359158
fuck yeah i found it:

>Could be.
>I am not in your time zone so it is very late for me and slashdot has suddenly just stopped making sense (it is very late at night). Usually when this happens I get up and walk around apprehensively yet happy to finally be off the computer after such a long session. I lie in bed, wondering if I will sleep. My wife says do you need a pill or something? I give her a dirty look and drift off. When I wake up the TV is on showing a baseball game. My wife offers me a cup of coffee and a breakfast sandwich. NO! I throw them on the floor. The baseball game keeps changing in odd ways. The players are different. Even the guy at bat suddenly has a new uniform. Oh my god is this a football game? Why do they have bats? I collapse again and wake up to the test pattern on the TV playing the test tone we know so well, even though we might not realize it. I fumble for the remote and turn the sound down.

u cant tell me thats not fire

[Anonymous No.12359240]

>>12359100
She's my sweet and pure internet gf, she's from Canada you wouldn't know her

[Anonymous No.12359355]

I drew a montaigne, I hope you like him.

[Anonymous No.12359362]

These riots in France have me intrigued. The balls on these protestors! They drove some minister from a building the other day. It's serious. They truly don't give a fuck and the police are acting like a bunch of amateurs.
I sort of love it. Macron is so obviously two faced and it didn't take long for them to take matters into their own hands. And I love that France realizes beating the shit out of your government if they play tricks is a valid option.
Here's the classic part: the government is actually considering backtracking on their shitty policies! They might actually throw working people a bone! If that isn't a lesson for the world, I don't know what is. Not that I'm inciting (take your valium FBI) , I'm just pointing out how incredibly effective breaking things can be when those things are the embodiment of a systematic lie.

[Anonymous No.12359380]

>>12359362
>And I love that France realizes beating the shit out of your government if they play tricks is a valid option.
>americans telling the world how to deal with government
you might want to start by having a basic democracy, electing your leaders, having parties, and so on.

[Anonymous No.12359400]

>>12358599
>jewish
Cool it with the antisemitic remarks

[Anonymous No.12359401]

>>12359362
you sound like a chubby boomer.

[Anonymous No.12359402]

>>12359380
>everybody I don't like is American

[Anonymous No.12359538]

>>12358803
I have read that ketamine can cure strong depression, try to give it a chance it might save your mom and give you peace :)

[Anonymous No.12359540]

>>12358746

everything's fine about this post except for the iq test. why did you have to reveal yourself as the idiot you are, anon.

[Anonymous No.12359557]

>>12358523
>>12358543
Waaaaaaaaaah
You people are the same types to reply to something completely unrelated "Go back to /r9k/ incel" when you're probably reddit crossposter's who've been on this site for maybe a month

[Anonymous No.12359560]

Is it bad that I like Sam even more for his politics? Anti-white and anti-male liberals make me mad.

[Anonymous No.12360057]

Life is weird.
I'm ready to drop out of university after one semester since I've hated every minute of it and made almost no friends. I'm considering leaving my current girlfriend for another woman, who would be much more socially acceptable to my family but also is probably too depressed for a relationship. I've spoken at great length to my siblings and we all want to leave home, yet none of us have money to do so. We all feel like we will amount to nothing, which feels very likely.
I've done extensive research and I can find no records whatsoever of the house I remember watching burn to the ground. I really don't know of any other ways to find out about it. Any suggestions?
Sorry about disjointed rambling.

[Anonymous No.12360097]

>Maybe dullness is associated with psychic pain. Because something that's dull or opaque fails to provide enough stimulation to distract people from some other, deeper type of pain that is always there, if only in an ambient low-level way, and which most of us spend nearly all our time and energy trying to distract ourselves from.

[Anonymous No.12360121]

>>12359557
Incels are peak reddit. The pushback is just natives protecting what's theirs.

[Anonymous No.12360133]

my grandfather died and im upset

[Anonymous No.12360149]

>>12358523
>the go back to /pol/ meme is has become the current most succesful bait formula
This is 4channel though, you could at least keep to your own site

[Anonymous No.12360156]

>>12359380
Europe doesn't appear to have its shit together either.

>>12359401
You sound unintelligent.

[Anonymous No.12360162]

>>12358517
I'd like to be a great poet, but I don't spend enough time writing or reading poetry. Also, I have no clue what I'll do after college and this kills me because I know that soon my free ride will end and I will have to work and give up my comfy NEET lifestyle of reading, meditating, walking my dog, browsing /lit/ and doing pretty much nothing else.

[Anonymous No.12360167]

>>12360149
MDE sam hide headquarters is literally on reddit you mong.

[Anonymous No.12360176]

I want to die.

[Anonymous No.12360178]

>>12360167
so is the headquarters for creepo chap house whatts your point

[Anonymous No.12360179]

>>12360167
when did I claim otherwise?

[Anonymous No.12360182]

>>12359380
>having parties

[Anonymous No.12360183]

>>12360176
For real or like r/meirl want to die

[Anonymous No.12360189]

>>12360176
i want a nuru massage by a big boned eastern european chubster with huge hangers, blonde hair and a prominent chin.

[Anonymous No.12360201]

>>12358517
I just finished Thus Spoke Zarathustra and I'm finding it hard to believe in anything other than full on dictatorial fascism.
Contemplating.

[Anonymous No.12360203]

>>12360121
Being a virgin after it's expected of you to have had sex lies deep in 4chan culture. Calling yourself an incel or using that word at all is reddit af tho

[Anonymous No.12360204]

>>12360189
Why do you want the trashiest race of Europe?

[Anonymous No.12360206]

>>12360201
Take the AI monarch pill.

[Anonymous No.12360213]

>>12359380
> democracy
> elections
> parties
> so on

sigh.

[Anonymous No.12360218]

>>12360203
its true 4chan always defined itself as the opissite of a "normie" but what is the the name for that exactly idk i know opposite is misspelled but i dont feel like right clicking on the squiggly redline sry

[Anonymous No.12360226]

>>12360204
I cannot get it up in the face of classical continental beauty but I perform fine with crude slavic fertility.

[Anonymous No.12360231]

>>12360206
Not completely opposed to Monarchy, its essentially the same as a dictator, but my one issue is how do you ensure that the following royal generations wont be degenrates and take us right back to square 1?
In a fascist dictatorship at least you can try to implement some kind of meritocracy based heirarchy that minimises the chance of corruption (not that there is ever a cure for corruption)

[Anonymous No.12360238]

>>12360206
Ah nvm you said AI
Lol
I somehow dont think an AI would have our best interests at heart unless its a programmed VI that abides by the laws of robotics, but then how would it adapt and learn
Idk sounds like its too confusing

[Anonymous No.12360240]

>>12360231
With monarchy, God is the answer to all your questions, pal.

[Anonymous No.12360245]

>>12360240
God is dead tho

[Anonymous No.12360246]

>>12360245
cringe and bluepilled.

[Anonymous No.12360249]

>>12360218
Well, the /r9k/ term is robot. most 4channers would probably be considered cyborgs. however, /r9k/ is pretty much a reddit colony itself

[Anonymous No.12360250]

one of my roommates rooms is like a clown car like no matter how many dudes and thots leave there always another one left, every time i think there gone and whip it out to fap there another one in there, its kind of weird at this point, these are not big rooms

[Anonymous No.12360254]

>>12360250
>having room mates
This is an adult board.

[Anonymous No.12360257]

>>12360254
how's the tendies this evening? did mom microwave em just right?

[Anonymous No.12360268]

>>12360183
I don't know. Sometimes I want to actually cease to exist permanently and forever and sometimes I just want a different life.

[Anonymous No.12360269]

>>12360133
Condolences

[Anonymous No.12360272]

i made about 600 bucks on mechanical turk in 2018, thats like less than 2 dollars a day, but its so addictive to fuck around on, and then when you transfer the money to your amazon gift card balance you feel like you are ordering books guilt free, but really you're just buying them with a subminimum wage third world data entry job, my news years resolution is to make significantly less money on mturk this year, like none preferably, but i already got ten bucks what should i cop? used copy of faust? idk

[Anonymous No.12360278]

i'm getting a fucking cold i have a scratchy throat this sucks ass

[Anonymous No.12360281]

>>12360133
Sorry to hear anon

[Anonymous No.12360292]

If you read this post I hope you have a nice evening and feel comfy

[Anonymous No.12360294]

>>12360268
Well, stay busy, there is nothing that can better bring back your sense of self worth than meaningful work

[Anonymous No.12360301]

>>12360294
I'm schizophrenic, my capacity for meaningful work basically evaporated in 2015-2016.

[Anonymous No.12360304]

>>12358695

I had a girlfriend who engaged in histrionics and broke up with her about two years ago now. I'm a little lonely sometimes but it was worth it for sure. I don't know how some people can stay with someone who irritates them so much. Fear of loneliness I suppose, but there are far worse fates than being by yourself for awhile

[Anonymous No.12360317]

i shit i just realized i shitposted for like an hour without https on, creepers no doubt sniffed my packets, why do fags have to do that, who gives a shit what other mother fuckers do on the network sheesh

[Anonymous No.12360323]

>>12360317
4channel is a mainstream social media site, it's safe to post here.

[Anonymous No.12360333]

>>12360317
like dont u hate it when u go to like hypnotube or sth and then hear laughter down the hall its like u mind ur own packets mf the worst part is dns requests are not encrypted so u cant do shit except vpn but thats sketchy for other reasons

[Anonymous No.12360336]

>>12360201
"But the state lies in all languages of good and evil; and whatever it says it lies; and whatever it has it has stolen. False is everything in it; with stolen teeth it bites, the biting one. False are even its bowels. Confusion of language of good and evil; this sign I give to you as the sign of the state. Truly, the will to death, indicates this sign! Truly, it beckons to the preachers of death! Many too many are born: for the superfluous ones was the state devised! See just how it entices them to it, the many-too-many! How it swallows and chews and re-chews them! “On earth there is nothing greater than I: it is I who am the regulating finger of God.”—thus roars the monster."

[Anonymous No.12360339]

>>12360323
no but when u post it goes across the network in plaintext any autist with a sniffer can read ur whole shit

[Anonymous No.12360344]

>>12360339
that's fucked man, i'd love to avoid explaining andy sixx memes to normies desu.

[Anonymous No.12360351]

>>12360336
You cant not have some form of "state" though
This is the thing that always confused me about Nietzsche philosophies with a hammer but doesnt provide answers

[Anonymous No.12360368]

I'm trying to think of a practical act of food-related wizardry for my MC to learn. I already have conjuring a cooking fire, performing the infinite chocolate trick, and creating the elixir of life, I just need to think of one more.

I've got a handfull of ideas but I can't figure out how to fit the good ones into the plot, and the rest are kind of shitty
>undoing cooking mistakes (e.g. unbaking a cake)
>cooking anything (e.g. cooking rocks)
>turning water into wine (or visa-versa)
>purifying spoiled/poisoned food

[Anonymous No.12360384]

>>12360351
Nietzsche did want the State, just not the cult of the State that the Reich had devolved into. He was at no point an anarchist and rebukes anarchy repeatedly throughout his writings.
>>12360304
my downstairs neighbors gf just stepped in dog shit and screamed bloody murder on her way to her car.

[Anonymous No.12360394]

Why do half the girls I know post almost daily dumb shit like “ in a situation where you need to punch someone in self defense hit twice!” As if we’re living in some mad max superdome. It makes me want to beat them to death.

[Anonymous No.12360395]

>>12360384
Thats what I thought
The state he's referring to in that chapter isnt the kind of state the fascist state devolved into though
The reich, perhaps it did in war time

[Anonymous No.12360408]

>>12360368
protip: you want small and dumb tricks for an MC, that way the reader doesn't predict a million potential uses and there's curiosity in seeing how it's used.

[Anonymous No.12360421]

>>12360395
No, i'm paraphrasing Mussolini and relating it to the disposition of the Nazi elites, their propaganda and the German public during the interwar buildup years. It became even worse once total mobilization occurred in the 40's though.
>>12360394
they don't, you're just low disgust threshold and have pent up anxiety. getting in a bar fight (but not telling you, just saying hypothetically) would do you some good.
>>12360408
the 100 iq solution to smart characters

[Anonymous No.12360438]

>>12360394
Girls want to show that they "understand guys"
Girls are allowed to display "ornamental" violent tendencies to a much greater extent than men without anyone kicking their ass for it

The result is a hyperinflation of violence peacocking by women

[Anonymous No.12360439]

>>12360421
What specifically in the pre-war era was so bad about the fascist state?

[Anonymous No.12360542]

>>12360439
people being beaten, imprisoned or murdered for disagreeing with the state?

[Anonymous No.12360566]

Texting my qt crush for a second date but she responds so slowly like we’re talking hour long delays between responses and that makes me nervous plus she’s so cute and I like her and that makes me nervous and she’s single at an age where in our culture it’s surprising so she’s probably not had luck with men so maybe I don’t need to be nervous but I’m nervous gonna try ice skating ice skating is a foolproof thing you know she has to hold your hand it’s worked for me before got that other girl into me but I wasn’t really into her since I had another crush at the time but it better work this time with this crush otherwise well I guess nothing bad would really happen I’m still young and popular enough and have options and money enough but wow she still hasn’t responded this is awful I’ll see her tomorrow anyway face to face is better I won’t freeze up there even if she is cute and she is cute and I haven’t kissed a girl in a year didn’t much feel the need life was going on but now it’s undeniable and I need her lips and I can’t stop thinking I really really can’t stop picturing my hand on her waist it’s like magnets my hand is meant to be there to hold her and you know she has a cute neck too not every attractive girl has a neck that you’d call cute but she does and if I don’t kiss it soon I’ll be very put out

[Anonymous No.12360568]

Canadians are angels.

[Anonymous No.12360570]

>>12360542
Things that didnt happen?

[Anonymous No.12360574]

>>12360133
Sucks. Mine was kaput before I was even born.

[Anonymous No.12360585]

kinda hate women tbqhwyl

[Anonymous No.12360613]

>>12359122
>he fell for the trap porn meme
Never gonna make it.

[Anonymous No.12360614]

holy shit pizzagate is real!

https://www.democracynow.org/2019/1/4/how_trumps_labor_secretary_cut_a

https://www.democracynow.org/2019/1/4/perversion_of_justice_the_shocking_story

[Anonymous No.12360621]

>>12360133
Sorry to hear that, mate.
It gets better, you’ll reach a point where the memories will make you smile instead of weep.

[Anonymous No.12360789]

>>12358543
It always had political undertones you lying sack of shit.

[Anonymous No.12360808]

>>12359023
>bourgeois

Has there ever been a more potent warning you're about to read a bunch of bitter drivel?

[Anonymous No.12360818]

>>12360808
i had high expectations when the first sentence contained both "bourgeois" and "typa" but then it went no where such a let down

[Anonymous No.12360823]

>>12360818
DON'T YOU TELL ME YOU'RE BETTER THAN ME FOR NOT BEING A WALKING FUCKHOLE! PEOPLE LIKE FUCKING MY MOUTH!

[Anonymous No.12360828]

I used to experience prolonged periods of time where I felt what I would characterize as a sort of crushing emptiness -- a terrible emotional pain that seemingly arose from nothing -- which I interpreted as something inside of me calling for my destruction. A lot changed. The pain still comes, but it doesn't cripple me. And there's a lot of variance to it -- a new pain each time, a new pain every wave. Sometimes pain comes from engagement. Sometimes it comes from nowhere. Sometimes it goes away. If I pay attention, I can remember that pain goes away.

[Anonymous No.12360845]

>>12360585
Women are all of the vice of men with none of the virtue.

[Anonymous No.12360846]

>>12360823
do u ever see those stickers around town with kermit the frog that say "sex in the mouth" what the fuck are those

[Anonymous No.12360868]

>>12360846
I have no idea, I live in rural Texas. There is no "around town", and I'm damn glad. Taking an icon for children and associating with sodomy...why? I highly doubt they're getting a real thrill out of it, they're just sort of doing it, running through the motions of a blunted debauchery. Yeah, fuck "town".

[Anonymous No.12360872]

>>12360868
get a load of this fuckin guy

[Anonymous No.12360875]

>>12360872
woah dude FUCKING BASED

[Anonymous No.12360876]

OK i will be honest

Christ please help me into not giving into fap or looking at porn

>inb4 the average christcuck

[Anonymous No.12360884]

there's literally nothing ethical substantive about the feminine

[Anonymous No.12360895]

I didn't answer her call. If it were a few months ago I would have dropped everything to answer her call and let her ramble on about whatever while she gave me no attention and then stopped talking whenever was convenient for her. I grew sick of being her doormat.
I didn't used to believe it, but I've come to realize you can be too nice to people. I was raised on polite manners and kindness but with girls especially, the whole too nice thing is true. You can't give them so much attention, especially if they're not giving you any back, resist the pussy

[Anonymous No.12360949]

I'm fucking done with rationality and logic. It's gotten me nowhere in life and has only made me miserable while I see those who ignore it striving. It's a mental disease that needs to be crushed. Tommorow I'm hitting the gym and starting my ji justu course. All my life I've been the 'smart' one, avoiding confrontation, hindering my inner beast. No more.
My goal for 2018 is to get big enough, and trained enough, to be able to beat the shit out of my older brother. I love him but all my life I've wanted to see his face beg for mercy. It's the last step to finally let go of my adolescent insecurities. I wanna be a mad dog for once in my life, I wanna taste blood

[Anonymous No.12360954]

>>12360949
lmao

[Anonymous No.12360993]

>>12360954
I don't care about cringe anymore. I'm embracing it because I've realized avoiding it makes me unhappy. I'm sick of everything genuine in this world being met with instant ridicule. I will not accept my place in ladder, even if it means the world laughing at me. Avoiding this pain has brought me to my current level of discontent

[Anonymous No.12361026]

>>12358656
curves you dummy

[Anonymous No.12361047]

>>12360097
nice

[Anonymous No.12361069]

>>12360226
I partially understand your pain. May we find what we seek brother.

[Anonymous No.12361151]

How can you say that you know god?
you think we are relevant

[Anonymous No.12361159]

I have no idea what to do with myself this year. How can I be excited about the new year when I know nothing that will truly matter will happen?

[Anonymous No.12361163]

>>12358656
because you don’t know why you think you believe you understand these complex systems anymore than they do because you’re a dumb monkey using barely examined axioms, presuppositions and signs not of your making with the underlying structures informed by evolution and ecology, thermodynamics and stochastic processes beyond your ken. Everything you said is just barking and nothing more, you are worth what any other apeman is worth.

[Anonymous No.12361199]

>>12360057
definitely don't recommend dropping out
best way to make great friends is to join a club, especially a club sport (can be anything, I joined club rowing despite never doing any sports in high school and made some of the best friends I've ever had)

[Anonymous No.12361209]

The usual: Driver’s License, Debit Card, Student ID, a 5 dollar bill.
1 ticket to the Tennessee Aquarium: It was his 26 birthday, and told me to stop having so much fun.
1 polaroid photograph: you got him the camera as a Christmas gift. It’s a picture of him with dead eyes.
2 cards to Piedmont Psychiatric Services: 3 weeks of misery and you still feel broken,
the doctor nearly killed you with Lamictal.
Megrim, 7th edition: 3CMC enchantment that damages 2 for each discard. Not remarkable,
but I like to play dirty.
3 pride flag stickers: from the student gov. organization you joined, but it’s really just a waste of time,
nothing will ever change in this shitty town.
1 red car fuse: 10 amps that lit up the interior of his car. Irrelevant in the grand scheme of things,
but you wanted to propose with it.
The fuse is, was, the most valuable thing in your wallet.
That day was so mundane, so ordinary.
Yet it’s been in your wallet for years.
Now worthless.

[Anonymous No.12361250]

G has got to go to sleep or else he will have an even more heavier battle in the morning. The battle that most of the working class faces on a monday. The lorazepam should be dissolved by now in his blood stream and it should be making his eye is heavy. But like with all drugs the body builds tolerance and it needs more to take effect.

[Anonymous No.12361284]

I’m visiting Japan right now, Hiroshima to be exact. Walking through the gardens outside the art museum and seeing small things like a young couple walking around enjoying themselves, a middle aged man also enjoying the park, two elderly men sitting by the lake talking, and a father and son playing ball, has me thinking how beautiful life, or more specifically humanity, can be.

Sorry if this is jive. I’m still trying to understand it all.

[Anonymous No.12361344]

A guy I hung out with in high school died last night. I stopped hanging out with him once school ended and had only seen him in my uni's cafeteria since then, and had intentionally tried to not hang out with him as I didn't really like him all that much and that he started doing cocaine senior year. I don't know how he died and don't feel upset that he's dead.

[Anonymous No.12361397]

>>12358517
As I feared I didn't sleep enough.
Now I'm terrible shape.
I have to sudy two chapters in a day and I already know I'm gonna spen another sleepless night to catch up.
Why am I always like this ?
Fuck me.

[r/books No.12361400]

I love you, Reader.

[Anonymous No.12361408]

>>12358517
Charls > Sam
Nick > Sam

[Anonymous No.12361410]

>>12358523
Based r/chapotraphouse tourist

[Anonymous No.12361487]

An entire month before her expected delivery date, Martha Thyme was forced into an impromptu delivery wherein her son, christened Justin, was birthed. He was treated at North Hampton Women's and Children's Hospital but sadly passed two weeks hence. Thus concluded the life of the late early Justin Thyme.

[Anonymous No.12361492]

>>12359400
No.

[Anonymous No.12361521]

>>12360439
Everything aesthetically and morally, though not in the sense that mass annihilation of other inferior peoples is distasteful. The unbelievable surrender of agency and submission to something like a parent-child dialectic between the people and the Fuhrer as well as the predicating of the whole ideology on grievance seeking renders it slavish, domestic and smelling of earth and shit. Its not a movement of warrior-poet/artists from the high peaks conquering and repurposing a submissive nihilistic public it was an autocthonous, malignant auto-immune reaction which through the whole race into a paranoid schizophrenic episode. The organization of the social narrative around the State is a defilement and betrayal of the natural relations of elite families and breeds who are warring with and conquering one another, the unnatural uniformity of Nazism is not Nietzschean in any sense and Hitler’s ascent to power is devoid of Napoleon or Caesar’s taciturn, touched climb across the corpses of the most power hungry and violent enemies one could hope for. Hitler was really a propagandist and politician and not so much a warrior or artist, though certainly an excellent actor the construction of thr Nazi state seems an imitation of the tyranny as performance art masterpiece N speaks of and comes of tinny, tinsel and cheap gilding, gaudy, disproportionate monuments and faux greco-roman aesthetics. All of it has an almost Trumpian, niggerish appeal to it. There’s a reason unironic Nazis think like high iq nignogs.

[Anonymous No.12361535]

This girl i know is in a tough situation and i feel powerless, theres not much i can do other than comfort, encourage, or give pieces of advice. I feel like she doesnt understand what im trying to say and only withdrawls. She is unstable, lets put it that way, but i dont blame her. Shes been harmed, she dissapoints her family, and all she sees herself to be is a disappointment. Really bums me the fuck out because she is so intelligent and gifted minded, shes gradually losing it, and i dont know what to do.

[Anonymous No.12361555]

I live in a red American state so we will never get legalised recreational marijuana. Not even a pothead or a dude weed lmao guy. Don't even smoke tobacco (anymore, but I will admit sometimes I want to sit out on my deck and smoke my pipe). I just want to have the freedom to do so. Corporate interest from pharmaceutical companies are holding it back, religious retards and old men (who most likely have their paws in aforementioned pharmaceutical companies) too.

It is disappointing. The funny thing is that I don't even think I'd smoke.

[Anonymous No.12361562]

>>12361487
Quality stuff, anon.

[Anonymous No.12361619]

>>12360292
thanks anon, can't remember the last time I saw a wholesome post in these kinds of treads

[Anonymous No.12361666]

>>12361535
shut the fuck up you pathetic faggot

[Anonymous No.12361676]

>>12360585
imagine the sickening level of sexual deviancy these people must have to post their vile girlfriends doing depraved shit onto leddit for all the other fat greasy neckbeards to see and say "oh wow she's hot bro!"

[Anonymous No.12361829]

>>12360949
>>12360993
calm down naruto

[Anonymous No.12361840]

>>12361829
I shouldn't had laughed so hard at this post
solid timing, anon

[Anonymous No.12361860]

I didn't do my homework so I am skipping uni today. It wouldn't matter that much anyway because I am changing my mayor anyways. I think I'll go eat an burger in one of those chic burger restaurants.

I'd love to have a Hex Maniac GF.

[Anonymous No.12361885]

>>12361860
aren't fat shy girls fairly common in the US?

[Anonymous No.12361981]

>>12361885
I am in germany, there are just are just as much fat shy girls here. Also I wouldn't call Hex fat, she's anything but fat, she's thicc or curvy, whatever fits better.

[Anonymous No.12362046]

Went to a nerd convention this weekend. You truly have no idea how much of socially inept loser nerd you are until you make a bunch of other loser nerds feel awkward with your presence. I was asking a girl for a picture and trying to direct her, but I just kept mumbling and stuttering everything because I was so nervous. She literally laughed out loud. I don't think she was even trying to be mean on purpose or anything, she still tried her best to accommodate my requests, it's just that I was such a blubbering retard that she literally couldn't help but laugh out loud. I wish I was fucking dead.

[Anonymous No.12362049]

>>12359355
I like him

[Anonymous No.12362052]

>>12358645
Blocking images is the price you need to pay.

[Anonymous No.12362231]

I quit smoking weed on Friday and last night I had my first night terror since 2011. I woke up soaked with sweat and when I fell asleep again I ended up dreaming about playing one on one with Steph Curry and destroying him.

Real mixed bag this bodily purity shit

[Anonymous No.12362321]

>>12360162
Don't you think you've overlooked a step? You become a poet first by writing poetry. And then if they are worth anything, you may be called a good, bad, or mediocre poet based on their merit.

[Anonymous No.12362341]

>>12358517
Went to buy a bus season ticket.
Price was 80~ €.
I handeed over only 50€ but the cashier counted it as 2 bills, so 100€.
I got the change, took my ticket and didn't say a word, letting things happen even if I knew it was wrong.
I got home and told my parents about it, and how it feels wrong and that I should go back and pay.
Dad calls me an idiot, then says I'm just a phony brat that doesn't get the value of money because I don't work and all.
I tell him that It doesn't feel right, so he calls me a phoney again, because I don't work and don't put much effort into studying even thought they work their ass off to pay for my education.
It's always like that.
I would accept taking a job but they don't think I would be capable of that either.
I feel so mediocre.
My chest hurts.

[Anonymous No.12362386]

I like to imagine I'm comfy but the truth of my existence has begun to encroach my delusion. How bleak is my ghostly existence? Must it be this way?

[Anonymous No.12362456]

>>12358523
Based and redpilled

[Anonymous No.12362465]

>>12359197
>"NO! "

[Anonymous No.12362471]

>>12360097
source?

[Anonymous No.12362472]

>>12360949
Anon you won't beat people up with ju jitsu are you out of your mind

[Anonymous No.12362497]

>>12360845

Was Jeanne d'Arc full of vice? And Hildergard von Bingen? What about the Virgin Mary?

[Anonymous No.12362501]

>>12361555
Are you posting from the 70's? big pharma has been heavily investing and pushing recreational marijuana for ages.

[Anonymous No.12362545]

The constructed image of "Chad" that hangs above the minds of people on this sphere of the internet as serving as a burden and shackles on your capacity the communicate with people on all levels. It's something incels created to unknowingly enslave themselves even further, and it's sapping even people on the low but functional spectrum of their capacity for socialization. This meme is a cacodaemon whispering ugly thoughts in your mind, cast it out!

[Anonymous No.12362650]

>>12360949
Cute

[Anonymous No.12362685]

>>12358523
Imagine being such a faggot that you hate Sam Hyde, unironically the funniest comedian in the last decade

[Anonymous No.12362689]

>>12362545
The people who believe too strongly in these memes are already so disconnected from reality and so absorbed in an internet escape bubble that it's to mistake the effect for the cause to claim what you have.
And if you're ugly, and uncool, and socially awkward, you're going to be mistreated and looked down on by a certain class of fortunates. It reinforces a whole cycle of rejection and self-isolation.

The fortunates tend to be clueless and unreflective, --too easy a life will do that to you-- while the misfortunates tend to be keyed into a certain valid if corrupted insight and overly introspective. Trapped in their own misery and inferiority both perceived and bio-socially actual.
Add the internet and the capacity for losers to bandy together online and the result is a culture originated around people's collective sense of rejection and alienation.
And in a culture that worships materiality and physical attractiveness and propagates imagery of stratospheric standards everywhere, you can't quite blame the losers.

[Anonymous No.12362792]

>>12362689
I know there's a class of completely hopeless who cling to those memes as a way of creating some kind of "totem", but I noticed there's more and more people who could otherwise be functional on a low-level dooming themselves to the same abject alienation as the true "untouchables", because they internalize those memes. I'm not saying they need to content themselves with their lot, or that they need to socialize, but plenty of those clearly want to to, but feel somehow trapped, and incapable of changing. And they feel that way because they've been conditioned to internalize modes of thought that makes them seek goals that do not have their best interests in mind. It's already bad what the general culture does to us, add the mental control exerted by niche "meme culture" on the outliers of society and you have a host of men perpetuate themselves in a state of slavery much deeper than normal.

I just wish people would realize how much venom is inoculated at them, and that much of it comes from places they cherish.

[Anonymous No.12362995]

I just shided and farded

[Anonymous No.12363018]

i know 4chans probably the worst place to ask about this, but how the hell do I write a story about a child raised in a racist environment becoming open-minded? I can't make him too racist because then he's not sympathetic, but if he's only a bit ignorant then the message is feeble

[Anonymous No.12363052]

>>12358777
If you're interested in counterarguments to the democratic critique of constitutional rights, I suggest you read Eisgruber's democratic defence.

[Anonymous No.12363101]

>>12358691
People like you need to stop devaluing the word objective. Its gonna be used as loosely as litterally in a year.

[Anonymous No.12363120]

>>12363018
Make it so his racism is tragic, a symptom of alienation, rage, etc.This is probably overdone but it is one way to make reformed racists sympathetic. Or don't, write things differently, risk something. "Racism becoming open-minded" is probably one of the most formulaic genres out there.

[Anonymous No.12363133]

>>12358543
but gavin's not even funny or clever

[Anonymous No.12363158]

>>12363018
Think deeply about what lies at the root of racism, and from that point look to what might change this.

[Anonymous No.12363168]

>>12358517
Another hypothesis for the loss of our advanced forerunner civilizations before 9000-12000BC recently caught my ear, the matter of a solar micro nova. It's really bugging me considering the timing and the currently ongoing magnetic pole shift.

This is so much worse than some gay nuclear war or comet or asteroid or Carrington event that it has me in dire conniptions.

tldr fuck the Sol, hail Luna.

[Anonymous No.12363177]

>>12363018
More interesting would be a story about a child raised in an open-minded environment becoming racist

[Anonymous No.12363190]

>>12358539
>Sam Hyde
>Not a worthless suicidal failure
>His art degree has anything to do with how he makes a living
>he doesn't constantly talk about what a waste of time and money his education was

[Anonymous No.12363200]

>>12362341
Why do you feel you need your parent's permission to do the right thing?

A similar dillemma is encountered in Knut Hamsun's Hunger.

[Anonymous No.12363206]

>>12360949
fucking based.

[Anonymous No.12363221]

>>12360949
Shut up, faggot

[Anonymous No.12363230]

>>12363120
the story has other stuff going on, otherwise I wouldn't be writing it.

the problem is making him racist without making him an asshole. I had an idea for a scene early on where hes given a boxed lunch by a kindly chinese man, but he keeps trying to politely refuse it because he thinks it has dog in it. eventually he takes it because he's starving, and tries eating it by using the chopsticks as skewers, but the moment a stray dog walks by he loses his appetite.

I fee l confident that scene has the tone I want to set for him, but it's a matter of keeping that balance of prejudice and sympathy

[Anonymous No.12363235]

>>12363168
what are you on about

[Anonymous No.12363259]

>>12363018
I can tell you how a child raised in an ultra liberal and far leftist environment becomes a fascist and a race realist after confronting simple facts as that is my own life story but it is entirely inconceivable for any one who knows how things are to ever pretend otherwise.

Perhaps if they have just grown up in that environment without being exposed to the reasons as to why they believe the things they do from their parents, met any niggers or seen actual science they can come out of it for a while. Until they are exposed to one of those factors again, then he will look back to his parents and think "at last i truly see".

[Anonymous No.12363264]

Since I've had the time and space, I've been reading lots (by my standards) of novels lately, but I feel like if I want to become a better reader I need depth, rather than breadth. I feel like I need to re-read a few texts until I have a clearer grasp on what's going on, rather than exposing myself to a lot of different texts, because I don't think I'm smart enough to pick up on all the stuff going on below the surface in a single reading.

I get this impression because I find it very hard to articulate how or why a book makes a certain impression on me, except in terms of plot and characters.

And yet, I can't compel myself to do it. I could probably benefit more just by paying more attention when I do read books, but I derive a lot of my enjoyment from immersion and find it boring or difficult to consciously think about all the devices and techniques that might be at play.

I feel like a pleb, because I think there is some truth in what people say about plot being of secondary, or at least of equal importance to form and style.

I want to be able to enjoy this form, as well as plot, but the fact that I find the process of appreciating it hard or boring makes me think I'm stupid and lazy. And then I don't feel like doing anything at all.

[Anonymous No.12363271]

>>12363235
Things that intellectualmidgets must never know of.

[Anonymous No.12363321]

>>12363230
Do people actually jump to conclusions about things like Asians eating dog? I feel like the racism I see in everyday life runs deeper than these sorts of generalisations. I get the impression that people will actively come up with these sorts of reasons and generalisations about race, but these are only rationalisations, rather than the actual reasons for racism.

But I could be wrong and people could actually believe such things.

[Anonymous No.12363373]

cum calamity leads to insanity

[Anonymous No.12363386]

>>12358730
Whats that? Hit us with a link

[Anonymous No.12363390]

>>12363321
i mean, its set in the early '30s, and the character is about 10. he only knows what hes picked up from stereotypes

[Anonymous No.12363407]

>>12358517
I consistently fail the sample GRE quantitative section questions (like 55-65%, never higher) and I don't even know what grad programs I'm applying to yet which throws into question why I'm even studying for this shit at all. I have no idea what I'm doing and the reason for that seems to be that I'm actually retarded.

Other than this, things are mostly okay. Could be better, certainly. Could also be much worse than it is, so it's cool that it isn't.

[Anonymous No.12363552]

>>12363390

In the set up you describe, his only failing seems to be the fact that he doesn't know that Asians don't really eat dog. This seems to suggest that all racism could be fixed if there wasn't such misinformation.

I think it would be more interesting to investigate why such misinformation gains credibility in the first place. Why would a person believe in a Jewish conspiracy or white people being superior? It certainly doesn't seem like the result of simple misinformation.

[Anonymous No.12363688]

Am i really that wrong for wanting my parents to help me move to a big artistic center and support me while i paint until i make it big?

They refuse to help me with any college outside of community college, i had to pay to send myself to italy, now i'm broke and with nothing but 100 paintings i did last year to my name. All the greats of the past had mommy and daddy supporting them, i wish i could be one of them.

[Anonymous No.12363789]

>>12363552
not exactly. a theme in the story is the difference between ignorance and indifference, and how humanity is the inability to remain indifferent in the absence of ignorance.

the boy is indifferent because he's ignorant, but plenty of characters are indifferent in spite of their awareness

[Anonymous No.12363847]

what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.12363953]

>>12363200
I seek moral guidance from them if not support.
They taught me the rudiments of political living(don't steal, don't hurt other people, mind your business) I'm not sure anymore what that's worth.
I guess it all really comes up to not getting caught.
Wish this didn't cause me as much trouble.
Being ruthless is a an ability or a talent.

[Anonymous No.12364023]

>>12363688

It'd be great of them to do that for you, but if they're not well off to begin with then what they did/are doing is perfectly sensible.

[Anonymous No.12364150]

Kept failing recaptcha because i didn't know that buses were anything except the yellow ones. Apparently people movers are also considered buses.

[Anonymous No.12364523]

I truly wish to be more creative. Sure I have writing but I want to do more. More writing and more other outlets. I have friends who are in drawing circles, who work on their own comics, who are making a living off their photography. I just want one more thing to get decent at and become obsessed with again.

[Anonymous No.12364699]

>>12361344
Damn I think I'm gonna be that guy. Betcha he died from some dumb drug shit.

[Anonymous No.12364710]

Broke up with gf on new years eve
Trying to quit alcohol and porn and get /fit/ but totally lacking motivation
Have a date with a girl this friday and I'm a nervous wreck because I look like shit lately and she is a literal 9/10 bombshell

[Anonymous No.12364712]

>>12364523
>I truly wish to be more creative.
Think different.

[Anonymous No.12364716]

>>12362231
What's it even like to quit smoking weed, aside the dream stuff? I've never tried it.

[Anonymous No.12364726]

>>12364710
Why nye of all days

[Anonymous No.12364729]

>>12358517

I'm trying to think through whether "existence precedes essence" totally negates biologically inherited behaviour/natural instinct or if they can coexist within in the same philosophical outlook.

[Anonymous No.12364737]

>>12364726
Dont know
She picked the worst time to talk
It was mutual but I wasn't going to bring it up until after ny, she didnt seem to care and brought it up anyway

[Anonymous No.12364738]

>>12363407
What are you trying to go to grad school for anon?

[Anonymous No.12364790]

>>12358685
Daschunds are always such fat little shits.

[Anonymous No.12364821]

>>12364712
Will that make me more creative? Or are you trying to tell me I shouldn't force it?

[Anonymous No.12364892]

>>12364821
It takes practice and spontaneuity bro. You actively need to train it like anything else in this world. Those people who doodle an entire page with thousands with different charcters don't learn to do that shit overnight, they draw one thing and then draw something completely different over and over again until something new becomes second nature.

[Anonymous No.12364912]

>>12359190
tune

[Anonymous No.12364919]

>>12363688
>All the greats of the past had mommy and daddy supporting them, i wish i could be one of the
Any art college or artist worth its salt would kick your ass.

[Anonymous No.12364968]

reptilian hologram technology. fatty.

[Anonymous No.12365032]

>>12358517
I am the greatest of /lit/ Randfags
Know who is among you.

[Anonymous No.12365058]

>>12364892
I get that. I think my problem has to do with what outlet of creativity to choose, rather. There are too many making me feel overwhelmed.

[Anonymous No.12365331]

>Trying to find journals to submit to
This isn't fair and I'm about to give up and just start whoring myself on instagram

[Anonymous No.12365345]

>>12358523
Cringe and bluepilled

[Anonymous No.12365396]

>>12365331
Same anon. Let me know if you find any journal at all.

[Anonymous No.12365400]

>>12364738
I don't know anon, that's the million dollar question. Mostly to avoid the "real world" I suppose. My BA (English) doesn't allow for many career opportunities, so I'm looking for an MA that's related but isn't a oneway ride to academia. There aren't many of those, as I'm finding out.

[Anonymous No.12365783]

>>12359540
I never actually had my IQ tested I just thought it would be funny, sorry about that anon.

[Anonymous No.12365863]

>>12365396
I mean, I guess it makes sense the majority of stuff published in smalltime journals is shit, but I thought I might find something I at least kind of liked. I don't have it in me to face rejection after rejection just trying to get included with some mediocre pieces. I mean I'm probably delusional when it comes to the quality of my own work but if I accept that I'll definitely never succeed. Maybe self-promotion is the way to go, it is 2019 after all. Who even reads literary journals other than meme shit like the Paris Review?

[Anonymous No.12365993]

What good is it to hope anymore? For quite some time now I have been afflicted by the thought that no one can ever understand me. Let me be abundantly clear: this is not to say I am some unintelligible genius whose work will only be recognized post mortem. No, I abandoned that idea long ago. Instead I find myself incapable of entertaining the slightest possibility that another person exists in the world who shares my interests with equal passion and ardor. Impossible, fantasy on top of fantasy it seems. Even here where people appear to share my interests I am, of course, driven to consider you all frauds, forgers of an otherwise noble pursuit. I imagine if I were to meet one of you in public and, upon learning of your taste in literature or art, I would immediately dismiss you as little more than a mediocre dilettante, showing no passion for these things in any capacity. What I lack in practical intelligence - of this I am painfully aware - I more than make up for in convincing myself of genuine, authentic devotion. Many of you, no doubt, will disagree with what I've said thus far; I know I would. But, be that as it may, perhaps my inability to sense true love for art, literature, philosophy, or whatever in others signifies my own lack thereof. Every once in a while I'll imagine meeting a famous thinker - Nietzsche, for instance - and try to talk with them about their ideas, only to be blatantly ignored as if I didn't exist. What is this?

[Anonymous No.12366004]

I wish people didn't argue philosophical things like materialism vs spiritualism like they were fucking sports teams.

[Anonymous No.12366086]

It's been a year since I've read anything other than the Ancients. I feel like I'm living in a world of ghosts, but whenever I try to read anything else, even Medieval stuff, it just seems boring and dry to me, and I can never get through anything.

[Anonymous No.12366127]

>>12366004
t. materialist

[Anonymous No.12366165]

>>12366127
Thanks for proving my point.

[Anonymous No.12366175]

>>12366165
Come on now, you don't actually care, do you?

[Anonymous No.12366203]

>>12366175
Not really, I just wish both sides of such discussions would work together cooperatively to get closer to truth, instead of flinging shit at each other. This goes for both sides. The best way to find the truth is to have both sides clash and see what comes of it, but clash in a way thats beneficial to both. There are things to be learned from the other side.

[Anonymous No.12366225]

>>12366165
t'was a joke friendo

[Anonymous No.12366228]

>>12366225
Sorry, must have a stick up my ass at the moment.

[Anonymous No.12366234]

>>12366203
So like a synthesis then? That can work for some ideas, but what about ideas which aren't communicated through words.

[Anonymous No.12366243]

>>12358517
my pants just pinched my dick skin

[Anonymous No.12366245]

HOLY SHIT EVERYONE'S MADE OF OUT TINY ROBOTS

[Anonymous No.12366248]

>>12366234
>what about ideas which aren't communicated through words.
Such as?

[Anonymous No.12366251]

>>12366248
aesthetic ideas

[Anonymous No.12366258]

>>12366251
I'd assume nothing much can come of discussing ideas that aren't communicated through words in the first place, especially ones where there are opposing sides.

[Anonymous No.12366259]

I don't know what it is this week, I just want to fuck almost every woman I see, buy out every fast food shop I come across and start random fights.

I already had to stop myself from acting outs these thoughs multiple times.

[Anonymous No.12366290]

>>12366258
Opposition isn't the only indicator of how good an idea is. Some ideas are good intuitively, without any discourse involved at all. Music can communicate an idea through feeling, most often felt internally and eclipsed from other points of view.

[Anonymous No.12366305]

>>12366245
*hits the blunt*
yeah bro I love reddit too. Hey do you watch rick and morty?

[Anonymous No.12366313]

>>12366305
Fucks your problem? You don't find anything interesting?

[Anonymous No.12366317]

>>12366313
How can you find anything interesting?

[Anonymous No.12366328]

>>12366313
it's not what you said it's how you said it

[Anonymous No.12366352]

>>12366328
We are composed of microscopic machines that continually reassemble our bodies in a consistent stable pattern. This fact is quite astounding.

[Anonymous No.12366380]

don't know what to put on my resume and application for a job at a book store

[Anonymous No.12366385]

>>12366380
a dickprint in teal ink

[Anonymous No.12366391]

"One-time Indian Springs student finds his way in first job application".>>12366380

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>>12366259
>I just want to fuck almost every woman I see
I got that feeling recently.

[Anonymous No.12366427]

It's cold out there. I don't have money to pay for my electricity, but...
Why do turtles don't have their own bible?

[Anonymous No.12366432]

>>12366245
based biologist

[Anonymous No.12366458]

>>12359401
You sound like you'd have to do a lot of work if young black men had some gumption. Like letting their crazy other friends do all the hard embarrassing shit while they sit back and enjoy it. You know it would be easier to just hand over the reigns rather than having us walk somewhere naked.

[Anonymous No.12366461]

>>12361829
I know you are making fun of me but you're actually on point. Was heavy into naruto as a kid and just recently watched the first few episodes after an almost 13 year hiatus. It made me break down in tears because in almost a second all of my childhood dreams and aspirations, the ethos the main character gives to kids watching in which I internalized, came into the fray and in its comparison to my present state almost destroyed me. I've failed my child self and needed fucking nartuo to make me realize that. I'm no longer the same age as him, but I'm still young enough to turn things around. That shit used to inspire me, now it reminds me of my failures

[Anonymous No.12366474]

I've done some terrible things. I've stolen, lied, hurt people. I remember I took something very important to my mother once, and when she cried, she was more upset than I'd ever seen her. She was standing in the doorway, yelling at me through tears, and I was sitting up in bed, leaning back on my hands, frozen in place, after jumping up and throwing my computer on the ground when I heard her stomping toward my door. I had never seen her so sad, and I don't remember if I had felt any remorse, or sadness, or much of anything at all in that moment. I remember looking in her eye without any care whatsoever, any feeling, it didn't really matter to me then, I never forget it though. She would yell a lot, so would my dad, I don't remember when I stopped feeling afraid of them when they yelled, or when I started to feel that fear again, but I think it started when I intervened in a pointless argument that they were having in the car on the way home from vacation. They always had the same one when we came back from going on a trip anywhere, the stress of travel and rejoining reality always ate away at them I guess. I don't know how elss to describe to you the degree of tension, and pressure in the absolute these situations created, than to try to paint a picture of what these arguments were like. You're in a car, doing 120 on the highway, sitting in the backseat, while your parents are screaming at each other at the top of their lungs. Your father only as focused on driving as he isn't busy wavinf his arms angrily and shouting to point that spittle might as well have been a factor in obscuring the windshield, and your mother, as kind as she is, and just as much of an unmatched mass of stress as your father, is screaming back at him in defense. He had lost the point in his anger long ago and she was only defending herself and her own ego. I guess when I looked her in the eye that day, I didn't want to feel anything. I was only glad to not be afraid anymore. At that moment though, in the car, I yelled back at them, I told them it was the same shit they do everytime we came back from vacation, and we drove home in silence. I guess what I'm saying is, I feel guilty, unendingly remorseful. I feel like I'm hiding in plain sight, naked no matter what I wear or hide behind. And even if you know, I feel like I have to tell you, to make this better, and find a way to let this go without beating myself up for it anymore. I'm afraid that no matter what I do this guilt won't go away, and at this point, I'm letting it stay because I think I deserve it. I don't think I can live like this, I'm running from myself and it doesn't ever stop. I'll figure it out. Thanks.

[Anonymous No.12366476]

>>12366305
>he's too dumb to see god in the material systems of life
Retarded pol poster, go back to 4chan with the rest of your stale rhetoric

[Anonymous No.12366497]

>>12366461
Get a grip autist. Naruto shouldn't inspire anyone, it disguises itself as an underdog story where the main character uses his hard work and determination to prove everyone wrong who thinks he's a failure, when in reality he won the genetic lottery harder than anyone.

[Anonymous No.12366510]

>>12366476
>Someone posts about how the material systems of life are amazing
>Someone else acts as if he said "God is amazing"
Every time.

[Anonymous No.12366527]

I don't think I will ever read something as well written as Lolita

[Anonymous No.12366539]

I just watched Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them and enjoyed it.

[Anonymous No.12366543]

It's a bit mystifying how depression puts you on your ass. And if you don't treat it, it can become your normal perception of how you are. How everything is. Then you'll go through life essentially reduced to a shitty person without knowing something foreign has bedeviled you. You identify with the cruddy self your depression has molded you into. You think that's just how you are, and the immortal shroud of darkness wrapped around your head is how the world is, rather than a cloud of false perceptions brought over your eyes.

I notice this too when I revisit places I used to think I hated when I was depressed when I was not depressed. Suddenly everything is clarified and the little things that make life worthwhile peak out from the corners like little munchins or fairies, and the possibility that things could be different articulates itself.

[Anonymous No.12366599]

>>12366497
I don't like naruto for the reasons you describe, only his attitude which is very beneficial to children watching the show. I aligned myself with kakashi as a kid(though I have no talent). It's the general ethos of the show that I find attractive, even though it itself isn't very good after a couple seasons. It doesn't matter what the reality of the characters are, only what I felt at the time of watching. Those feelings are almost dead now, but I've rediscovered them before they took their final breath. Maybe something can be salvaged...

[Anonymous No.12366669]

>>12366543
Catholics are warned to abide by the rules of worship that the Devil lays for them because God's are merely directionless except towards the demon. If the notion of speaking itself is folly, and rhetoric is vile and cast over with sores, the knowledge remains, yet without a guide. What you believe of religious fervor is that it recognizes, gives to, and yet so many have not given thanks, so many have not confessed truth where I ask it of them.

[Anonymous No.12366691]

>>12366539
Nice. But did you know that Israel is an apartheid state built off the ethnic cleansing of Palestinians?

[Anonymous No.12366728]

>>12366691
True

[Anonymous No.12366754]

>>12366728
I'm glad we see eye to eye on these things, comrade.

[Anonymous No.12366818]

>>12358826
deluded fag

[Anonymous No.12366996]

I’m seriously obsessed with watch skateboarding videos on YouTube and I can barely skate but it’s taken over my mind. It is so fucking cool and I can’t get over it, I’m so excited for it to get back to summer so I can start working on my skills again.

I also want to stop playing games on my computer but i can’t. I’m addicted and the fact all my friends play all the time doesn’t help

>>12360292
Thanks anon, I am comfy posting from my bed

[Anonymous No.12367014]

>>12366996
>I can barely skate but it’s taken over my mind.

Do it anon. Each day you will get better.

[Anonymous No.12367098]

>>12367014
I plan on it! I’ve got some pads and a helmet as when I first tried back in the fall I was really scared about getting hurt but and was afraid to commit in a lot of instances but now I think I’ll be able to go for a lot more! Thanks anon!

[Anonymous No.12367188]

>>12360585
I like women but this picture is vile and disgusting.

[Anonymous No.12367207]

>>12362792
literally me desu. good post. I'm trying.

[Anonymous No.12367316]

>>12367188
Better?

[Anonymous No.12367564]

I don't want to talk to people about their problems, I have nothing to say and I'm not a good listener. I'm not sure what to say about a person's lack of self-worth or how pointless they feel. They'd be better off pirating a self-help book rather than talking to anyone. The last time I actually tried to give advice to someone they seemed offended by it (what did I do wrong?)

My body seems to have instantly adjusted to waking up early, I didn't have half of the energy I have today a week ago when I was sleeping in constantly. Now I actually have work to do. Coffee would be nice in the morning.

[Anonymous No.12367574]

>>12367316
Help me out here, they're wearing a lot of makeup and abusing lighting to obscure their facial features, are these pictures from the women he is meeting up with that he's contrasting with their homely and subdued demeanor/appearance irl or are these women who are sending him pictures (maybe paying for them since they look like premium snaps) which is contrasting with women he meets on dates? I would normally be able to discern this for myself but women are all converging on the same makeup caked overexposed pheno on the wired

[Anonymous No.12367581]

>>12367316
ah I figured it out, very sad
>>12367564
you're a narcissist, see your second stanza for evidence of my assertion.

[Anonymous No.12367587]

>>12367564
>I don't want to talk to people about their problems
I would like to. But I'm not very good at it and my advice has caused more problems than it solved so I gave up.
>My body seems to have instantly adjusted to waking up early
Well that's good. I like trying to get up before the sun does.
>>12367574
They're the same girl. I guess it's a contrast between their public and private personas.

[Anonymous No.12367615]

>>12363847
this

[Anonymous No.12367729]

All we have are these fantasies. I just want to feel something real.

[Anonymous No.12367852]

>>12358517
just sitting around waiting for my next life.... :/

[Anonymous No.12367900]

>>12367729
connect with nature brah

[Anonymous No.12367929]

>>12366407
For me it's all the time. I thought it was the same for everyone

[Anonymous No.12368240]

>>12364023

My parents are quite wealthy, which still makes it okay for them to not help me i get but it's just annoying.

>>12364919

This is actually very amusing for you to put because I can name as many artists as you'd like me to who were entirely supported by patrons/family and otherwise would've ended up as lawyers or in some family job.

Gustave Courbet is a great example of one of the greatest artists to exist who constantly had to beg his parents when he was in paris and friends for more money because he spent most of it on clothing.

You're a pompous ass, great assumptions.

[Anonymous No.12368245]

>>12368240
based Courbet

[Anonymous No.12368286]

>>12363133
>gavin is not funny
he can be really funny
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTdgHsifK38

[Anonymous No.12368379]

>>12358826
Words of wisdom, boipucci is the elite gentlemen's choice

[Anonymous No.12368587]

>>12358543
you're right. :(
both soldout to israel rip

[Anonymous No.12369248]

>>12360949
r u me?

[Anonymous No.12369259]

I am fed up with my life, i wish i would not have to work to earn money. Life is soo hard

[Anonymous No.12369383]

>>12368240
>You're a pompous ass, great assumptions
I'm an MFA who's attended two art schools. Everyone will tell you that you do whatever it takes including risking your health to make art. If you're only doing it to not be labelled NEET, you have no idea how hard living Courbet was. He used to home to his family to hunt and fish and live like a primitive for a reason: it was not that begging off his parents made him good. Every good art course will tell you first day that if you're not there to work, you will be better off leaving right then. They also tell you there's no guaranteed income and everything from begging off your parents to selling your asshole is acceptable to fund yourself, but that you'll need to sort that out yourself outside of the 20+ hours you'll need to work per day. Try talking to anyone in the industry or training if you want to not be considered not entering employment or training.

[Anonymous No.12369409]

I want a femlegion waifu desu

[Anonymous No.12369426]

maybe I should just take antidepressants and see where that goes

[Anonymous No.12369488]

I've secured the four sides of this room. I'm too worried about the ceiling to address it, and the floor seems to be able to take care of itself.

I'm not sure where this is. There's a washing machine in the corner, but no water lines, no outlet save a small room socket totally unsuited for the big three-pronged plug. This room is like a bit of a hallway that got sealed off, as if they remodeled the building and had no use for it. There's no door but a metal box. It's small, but I must be able to leave through it.
From the right, I hear fighting; some guy has lost his temper with a woman. He says something, and she meekly replies, and he says something again but louder. From the left, I hear a radio, where someone is reading weather reports or stock figures. Behind me, I hear a great number of people walking, and ahead of me, the sound of rushing water. I hear nothing from above, and I'm so afraid that I might that I crawl around on the short rough carpet, shrinking back from it. Above me is a light, and I feel hideously sad because, while its carefully measured design suggests that it was part of a set that surmounted the hall, there is only it, the one. When they closed it off, they must have removed all of these lamps from the hallway, leaving only this, in the leftover room, a clownish anomaly in a closet of mismatched junk. As pathetic as the light is, I don't dare get any closer to the ceiling. I haven't heard anything from it yet and I don't want to.

There the light sits, an old man in a folk costume, between me and whatever horrible thing there is up above. Eventually, I forget what I felt about the light and begin to focus on my bodily discomfort, the way I'm sweating, how the skin of my eyelids has puffed up and bleared my vision, how the words I think must taste like curdled spit; no sooner do they run past my ears than I'm sick of them. I must be ill. I can't be occupying this space legally; soon, the people who own this building will find out I'm here, that I've been crawling around on the floor of their property, thinking awful stale thoughts, and they'll throw me out. I find that I can't get up: I just don't have the strength, neither the will.

I crawl to the corner near the walking persons, between the radio and the foot traffic, and find some rolls of tarp that smells like tire rubber or fresh plastic. I won't unroll them, but I'll lay on them, ignoring the smell. I dream of another blind room, this one with windows, and a peaked ceiling with birch joists, and frost at the edges of the glass panes. But I'm the one imagining it, so I can't get to it.

[Anonymous No.12369513]

>>12366996
same anon, I blame skating vidya

[Anonymous No.12369566]

>>12369426
dude if you wanna actually feel good snort some coke

[Anonymous No.12369640]

>>12369566
yeah and be ready to feel like shit in the morning after. coke is overrated af. take shrooms, anon. they can actually do wonders for your mental health if used in a good enviroment.

[Anonymous No.12369702]

>>12358517
Creating is hard, lads. For hours today, I've been telling myself to stop browsing the net or sleeping to work on my writing project or to do drawing studies. My life has been so full of dull nothingness so far, that it's hard to stop wasting time like I'm so used to. Forcing deadlines upon myself to complete work feels like the correct way to proceed, as it's the only thing that makes me get up my ass and pick up a pen to be productive... But it often feels like throwing darts in the dark. It's like slowly extracting yourself from the same tar pit you've been stuck in for years, decades... Slow and frustrating.
I'll make it anons, I'm certain of it. Whatever it is you want to achieve, I really hope you will make it too.

[Anonymous No.12369770]

>>12358517
I lied to my parents that I passed the semester. Now, the spring semester is about to start and they're about to find out.

[Anonymous No.12369813]

>>12360949
make those normies feel the wrath of your steel, anon

[Anonymous No.12369864]

>>12360993
Cringe is just a term this particular social network will use to shame and control you. Taking control of your life and exercising your will on the world is a good idea.

[Anonymous No.12370108]

>>12369383

Well that's nice and all but you shouldn't be so sensitive that some people would like to be assisted in their art journey financially. Almost every single artist to exist as i mentioned before regardless of the the hard work was funded by somebody before the mid to late 20th century when art became something more accessible to the middle and lower class as well. Monet was a dirty beggar as well who had a wife and kids and was still in debt for most of his life, he also for quite a number of years when living in the countryside only painted 1-2 paintings a week. There's a complete misconception you must have with the fine arts (which i'm going into, not animation). Especially in the modern era you make it however you can, no ones going to care what school you went to and how many hours you put in at the end of the day if your work sucks.

Anyway i appreciate your answer you're obviously very passionate about things but i think you jumped the gun on your judgement about me.

[Anonymous No.12370430]

i'm a bit upset about the way things are

[Anonymous No.12370522]

>>12369513
Yeah it’s actually cool as fuck, part of me is mad I wasn’t into it as a kid

[Anonymous No.12370706]

>>12369259
Do us all a favor and jump off your roof