Mind what's on your right.

[Anonymous No.11845109]

Write what's on your mind.

[Anonymous No.11845118]

>>11845109
the sentence "whats on my mind whats on my mind what is on my mind" on repeat in my head

[Anonymous No.11845121]

>>11845109
The NPC meme is making me a physicialist
Also, I don't know if I should complete my studies in Italy or continue in my shitty country

[Anonymous No.11845264]

>>11845109
can someone just tell me whether to be a normie socialist or a shut-in reactionary because im tired of the mental strain of straddling both

[Anonymous No.11845283]

>>11845109
>mind what's on your right
That water bottle is looking oddly suspicious...

[Anonymous No.11845306]

>>11845264
Be an outgoing extravagent reactionary monarchist, it works quite well. I live in a big east-coast liberal city and if you are a smooth talker girls become fixated when they hear some chad waxing poetically at a bar about absolute monarchies because they're never heard anything like it in their lives and they throw themselves at you.

[Anonymous No.11845323]

two nights ago I finished my second draft. its so much worse than the first im afraid to touch it again, but now Im too embarrassed to try to publish it

[Anonymous No.11845445]

>>11845306
shit man, im in the uk so i think being a reactionary monarchist wouldn't really shock people, they'd just think you were way too into the royal family (not a reputation i'd ever want to cultivate)

might fuck around and become a pretty full-on eco-reactionary at some point in the future, but that would probably entail losing all my friends and alienating my family so i dont know

i'm temperamentally a leftist and a socialist, i just think democracy is mostly retarded and that nationalism is a profound liberatory tool. but whenever you try and broach any of that with people it just turns into "uh so youre a *national socialist*?" and i mean yeah i guess but not in the way they're implying

[Anonymous No.11845502]

>>11845109
I wish I had beautiful white friends with pretty faces, young and intelligent with bright futures. Instead of swirling in my own shit pool. It feels like it's already too late for me. Now I just have to make art and let it speak for itself, hopefully garnering the attention of my fantasy friends. I am so alone

[Anonymous No.11845588]

I wrote again for the first time in far too long and it wasn’t worth the ink of the pen it was written with - am I completely barren of creativity or measure of ability? It’s sunken my mood

[Anonymous No.11845753]

>>11845264
Stop being a retard and do whatever the fuck you feel like, no one else cares. Are you a human or a puppet?

[Anonymous No.11845762]

>>11845109
Said this already in the last thread but I can't stop thinking about that book I said I'd write a year ago because the ideas for it are still bouncing around in my head all this time. I'm too much of a lazy shit to put it onto paper though.

[Anonymous No.11845778]

>>11845264
stop being a slave to ideology

https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/robert-anton-wilson-left-and-right-a-non-euclidean-perspective

[Anonymous No.11845785]

I'm currently sabotaging myself so I can blame something else for my lack of success in university. I just can't find the motivation to do anything whatsoever and it's seriously pathetic.

[Anonymous No.11845788]

"Damn, this tea is good"

I'm drinking extra strong tea with milk now.

[Anonymous No.11845795]

I'm procrastinating editing my short story. I think it's actually pretty good (or will be, once I edit it) and was toying with the idea of submitting it somewhere for the hell of it, but none of that can happen unless I actually fucking edit.

[Anonymous No.11845799]

>>11845264
Be an actual socialist who accuses the normie larpers of being counterrevolutionary (which they are)>>11845788

[Anonymous No.11845802]

>>11845788
I think I'll make some tea, thanks for the reminder anon

[Anonymous No.11845813]

>>11845264
Be an actual socialist who accuses the normie larpers of being counterrevolutionary

[Anonymous No.11845833]

self-deliverance.

[Anonymous No.11845841]

SCHOOL STARTS AND I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK AAAAAAAA

[Anonymous No.11845846]

>>11845802
*wink*

[Anonymous No.11845849]

You know that "AAA I'M SO FUCKING HORNY AND LONELY" poster who's been shitting up the site recently? Replace "horny and lonely" with "tired and weary" and that's me.

[Anonymous No.11845860]

>>11845849
Listen to mr tambourine man while wistfully looking out your window at the autumn scenery

[Anonymous No.11845867]

I'm trying to work through whether it's better to look up if this sunscreen destroys coral and use it anyway or just to use it and not to know. I can't buy more right now, and I'm pretty sure giving myself skin cancer over this small amount of sunscreen killing the coral in this particular situation is the wrong choice. I've already spent too much time thinking about this though, so making wrong choices seems to be inevitable here.

[Anonymous No.11846177]

war looms over velveteen scatology inside the tiny tree with the tiny carpenter. the surgeon checks into her hotel to starve in the cold.

[Anonymous No.11846187]

>>11845860
I'd rather not thanks

[Anonymous No.11846435]

>>11845109
I had an outline for a story that I had been working off and on with for the past few months. I looked at it yesterday and was just over it. So now I'm back at square one.

[Anonymous No.11846441]

>>11846435
I hate that feeling

[Anonymous No.11846442]

I want to find another album with the same vibe as hissing fauna

[Anonymous No.11846449]

>>11845264
Don't talk politics with random people you autist, unless you strongly suspect they agree with you. If politics comes up with strangers just nod and smile

[Anonymous No.11846451]

>>11846441
I'm in an empty space now where I want to get back on the horse but can't find the spark to jump in. I have a ton of ideas but no impetus to realize them. Nothing is striking me like when I started that outline. It's aggravating.

[Anonymous No.11846454]

>>11845306
This is the biggest reason to become chad through weight lifting, fashion, social skills practice, etc.

Once your that attractive you can basically have whatever radical beliefs you want and nobody will think you're a disgusting autist for having them

[Anonymous No.11846539]

A lot of normies suffer from the same feelings of loneliness and isolating that anons here complain about, they just lack the framework or insight to put their problems to words and / or cope with it by immersing themselves in hedonism and debauchery.

[Anonymous No.11846556]

>>11846442
Passion Pit - Gossamer for similarly juxtaposed mental breakdown lyrics with sweet pop melodies
Apples in Stereo - New Magnetic Wonder is the most underrated Elephant Six release

One of them should do something for you

[Anonymous No.11846592]

how can i overcome my armpit fetish?

[Anonymous No.11846601]

Everywhere I look I see constant normalization of sexual immorality.

All the talk of sugar daddies, all the fucking whores all the parties and and the lack of any sense of modesty is driving me batshit. I'm fucking sick of hearing about young women who fuck older men for money just because their youtube and instagram idols do it. I feel fucking sick in my stomach every time I come across anything to do with prostitution, which forced me to drop Merchant of Venice. Couldn't handle all the talk of selling flesh.

Had to drop a girl I really liked because she told me that she fucked an older dude for money and that we would never be exclusive. She doesn't even need the money, her parents pay for everything she could ever need. She just does it, I guess because it's trendy. It makes me feel fucking sick.

[Anonymous No.11846602]

>>11846592
Stop frequenting 4chan
Have sex
Be a decent human being again

Not necessarily in that order

[Anonymous No.11846611]

How many threads of these do we need? There's been three today.

I'm glad I got some writing done today. I'm writing a pretty compelling piece about some recent technological developments and how they will impact the field of engineering.

DFW defined a write as "someone who is interested in everything" and I genuinely believe in that definition. Everything is interesting to me, so I am content just to do practically anything. Even if it's wasting a whole day on the internet dicking around with various media, it doesn't feel like a totally wasted day. If anything it may give me something to write about further down the line.

A new article, meme, current event, controversy, political outrage, the internet is my front row seat to all the juicy bullshit people got brewing. Short of spending the money on a bus ticket it's the next best thing to being there yourself.

[Anonymous No.11846617]

>>11846611
*DFW defined a writer

[Anonymous No.11846651]

>>11845109
i know i might get some kind of skewed results from asking this here, but how often would you say you guys drink (alcohol) in a week? like once, twice? less than once a week?

not asking because i think i drink too much necessarily, but i grew up in a house where both parents would drink on a nightly basis, consistently but never to excess. i quickly discovered that wasn't normal but i never really got a handle on what exactly was normal

[Anonymous No.11846666]

>>11845109
I could probably finish that fucking milk in one gulp.

[Anonymous No.11846727]

dunked on some ugly SJW in my lit seminar today. she tried to make some character motivation about internalized sexism or something and as i refuted it she stared at me making this really offended face the whole time. whole rest of the class + the gay professor agreed with me. felt good as fuck. im literally a fucking commie, too, just cant stand these liberals. might fuck this girl I'm sitting next to too. quality day lads.

[Anonymous No.11846760]

>>11846727
Mmm good. I love a bit of debate combat. I remember in my college days I'd waste sjw after sjw. I was such a pariah but the truth is I was a little chad and all those submissive sheep wanted to suck my dick.

My coup de grace was posting this virulent series of screeds in the school newspaper denouncing political correctness. This was back in 2014.

Granted the screeds were rough around the edges. The paper itself publishes all submissions that aren't explicitly hate speech or express criminal intent. It's basically a step above 4chan.

But damn if I didn't lay waste and damn it if I didn't presage the whole 2016 reactionary outburst.

[Anonymous No.11846774]

>>11846187
You're not me.

>>11845849
I, however, am me and after writing that post I started throwing up everywhere and had an attack of diarrhoea so I guess my tiredness wasn't without reason. This is too much information I'm sure you'll agree but whatever.

[Anonymous No.11846781]

>>11846727
>>11846760
Okay, this is epic.

[Anonymous No.11846799]

>>11846727
What story were you talking about?

[Anonymous No.11846965]

Last thread, dancing dead, one more time with feeling

[Anonymous No.11847123]

God i hate goodreads.

[Anonymous No.11847146]

>>11846601
Renounce it entirely. You're above all this.

[Anonymous No.11847199]

I'm somewhat drunk and listening to music, a banger came on and I stood up and started dancing like a madman until a headbob dislodged by headphones and made the music stop.

[Anonymous No.11847209]

I wish it wasn't so hard eating healthy.
There's arsenic in rice and most cruciferous vegetables, there's lead in tea, there's onions in "healthy" food supplements, there's oxalates in nuts, carrageenan is used as a thickening agent all the time, TBHQ and BHT are used to preserve most things, if you don't eat organic then you could get poisoned with insecticides and weed killers, sugar is added to everything, and artificial sweeteners like aspartame are used often otherwise. There's trans fats and cholesterol to avoid, there's gluten in fucking everything, there's casein in dairy products, and foods contain so little antioxidants that you almost need to supplement in order to get nutritionist recommended amounts daily.
I don't know what the fuck to eat at all anymore, I'm living in paranoia.

[Anonymous No.11847216]

>>11847209
eat grass fed beef and organic vegetables

[Anonymous No.11847232]

>>11847209
Read the pynch and embrace the paranoiac lifestyle

[Anonymous No.11847261]

>>11847209
Time to go vegan anon.

[Anonymous No.11847281]

>>11845445
>>11845306
>using fringe politics as a fashion accessory and a way to pick up chicks
You are emblematic of the problems with so-called modernity.

>>11846651
Currently about 2-4 drinks per day. Mostly beer or gin cocktails. This is definitely not normal, though I know people who drink way more. None of them really manage to be "functional"

[Anonymous No.11847292]

>>11847209
I can't believe people obsess over this garbage. You'd be adding a few years to your life, at most. And you probably take them off again by worrying so much.

[Anonymous No.11847304]

>>11846651
Generally I'll binge one night a week (tongiht, incidently), sometimes I'll manage to moderate and only get moderatly drunk over two nights.

I'm a fuck though so I doubt I'm much use for your survey

[Anonymous No.11847384]

I really wish i didnt have ADD

[Anonymous No.11847400]

>tfw want to drunk text friends and / or crushes but don't know what to say other than that I miss them

[Anonymous No.11847408]

i jacked off to a compilation of taylor swift on youtube last night

pretty comfy desu

[Anonymous No.11847410]

>>11847400
>tfw just want human contact but can't even hold a basic conversation

[Anonymous No.11847420]

>>11846651
I refuse to drink if I'm having a hard time in life, my dad was a raging alcoholic for like 30 years and I didn't want to be like that. He's teetotal now, thankfully.
If things are fine then I'll go on the odd binge now and then. I still have that fear that I'll start needing to drink to get through the day, so if I do drink like that I'll leave a two week break at least before doing it again.
It's strict, but at least I'm not an alcoholic.

[Anonymous No.11847426]

Should I apologize to her? It's been nearly four months. Does she even want to hear from me? Probably not. But it was me who asked her not to talk to me.

[Anonymous No.11847441]

>>11847420
be careful af m8
t. alcoholic who wasnt careful

[Anonymous No.11847461]

>>11847209
Your diet has been shaped around unhealthy food. After a while your body adapts to it. Your chemistry adapts to the point that your metabolism changes. You get used to it.

And the high salt and fat and sugar concentration in fast food is inherently addictive. Our brains light up like orgasming when we get these reinforcements, since they were so rare in evolutionary time. Obesity and diet related health problems are a result of our brains getting hijacked by modern food production capabilities.

It all comes down to spices man. Take inspiration from Indian cuisine. Most of it is vegetables, but they can make veggies taste sweet or savory depending on the spice. From cinnamon to curry to cardamom you can't go wrong.

[Anonymous No.11847472]

>>11847123
>this really annoyed my inner feminist
Stopped reading right there

[Anonymous No.11847560]

>>11847426
Alright I'm drunk enough that I think Ill do it. Hope it turns out well. Or that she just ignores me, that would be for the best.

[Anonymous No.11847568]

>>11847384
I really wish people would stop telling me to take my ADD medication

[Anonymous No.11847793]

>>11846601
Felt this one

[Anonymous No.11847880]

>>11845109
i'm so fucking tired i haven't slept a wink in two days i'm physically exhausted but my mind won't go to sleep help me

[Anonymous No.11847915]

>>11846601
You think you have it bad? I have to watch this shit society gradually corrupt my innocent little sister. Nothing is more painful to me than seeing a beautiful soul degraded.

[Anonymous No.11847918]

>>11847880
Drink a good bit of tonic water. You'll fall asleep.

[Anonymous No.11847955]

Writing romance is the only thing in my life I've ever been half decent at, but it's never gone anywhere because I'm a moron without a lick of common sense.
I'm also beginning to think I have a deep, pathological fear of talking to women as I actively spurn the very, very few who tolerate me.

[Anonymous No.11847992]

My depression has been worse today than recently. Someone once described depression as a "black hole with teeth" and the image always stuck out in my mind. The image of a involuted, sucking vortex of menace and grief, of sightless, soundless agony in a personal midnight. The slow wrenching and unqualified pain of an emptiness of the soul.

I peer out at the world around me and I see a hollow exercise. A pantomime of conceit and vanity. And my life, like one long sore stretching back into the roaring hell tunnel of the past, seems like something utterly incidental to this whole charade.

[Anonymous No.11848152]

It'll be at least 3 years until I can start studying at a university, I'll be 25 by then. I've wasted my best years being a depressed loner, my people skills are abyssmal.
At least I'm doing well in School at the moment. I wish I had someone who I could share genuine closeness to, but everytime I feel like it could be a certain person I become distant.

The only reason I'm interested in writing and literature is the fear of dying and becoming completely forgotten, but I guess thats everyones fate eventually. Such is life.

[Anonymous No.11848185]

I've started reading the bible. I don't know why. I read one of the Dalai Lama's books and it was alright, I've got Seneca and Xenophon lined up after it but I've never heard of these dudes so I'm not sure what I'm in for.

>>11846601
This makes me indignant. I was thinking about this today how it offends me that I'm internally alright with homosexuality and that to not accept trans people is conflicting with how I was raised but then I understand that we've hit the slippery slope running and now degeneracy is becoming wide-spread as is to happen to most empires before they fall.

[Anonymous No.11848213]

I wish it was easier to press four-leafed clovers neatly.

[Anonymous No.11848240]

>>11847146
how?

[Anonymous No.11848285]

>>11848152
Just do it. Next time you start becoming distant, flip that cloistered energy around and open up instead. It's pretty liberating.

[Anonymous No.11848338]

This is the last stage of American Culture. I want post empire lit similiar to the decadent movement; I want lit that helps me cope with a society of degenerates. I've seen girls fuck guys for drugs, people get robbed on the street for their designer belts which are only replica, listened to music about buying unaffordable products and fucking, seen transgendered children hailed as heroes, and people believe the most insane conspiracy theories. Culture is retro, fuck retro, but there is some forward progress in art, but it is simple and degenerate.

[Anonymous No.11848436]

>>11847123
It's useful as an organizational tool, but not much else.

[Anonymous No.11848519]

I used to be an atheist and not really worry about death.

When I started learning more, I became an agnostic. And now death terrifies me, the fact that it's unknown is awful.

My grandpa is close to death, and I worry what's on the other side. I dunno

[Anonymous No.11848538]

I realize that I was never bullied in high school because I was insane back then. My friend told me of a time when some black kid was giving me shit and i threatened to put a gun to his head and make a tunnel through his temple.
My anger issues have since been rectified but being a little terrorist back then is something i must have chose to forget.
>>11848519
Why worry is you'll never know until it happens? It's not like anyone will give you a real answer about the afterlife

[Anonymous No.11848548]

>>11848519
Often it takes a difficult experience or a near death one for people to realize the spirit that is within them. It is easy for those who live sheltered and comfortable lives to ignore the questions of death and existence beyond simply because it is out of sight and out of mind. There is nothing inherently wrong with this; better to come to the realization sooner rather than have it be too late. Nonetheless, faith is more of a process than something instantaneous.

I remember reading that many Soviet soldiers who were firm atheists and revolutionaries converted to Orthodoxy in secret after returning home from WW2 because of their experiences.

[Anonymous No.11848549]

>>11848538
>Why worry is you'll never know until it happens? It's not like anyone will give you a real answer about the afterlife

It's sort of like a cosmic horror type thing, like If I told you someone would shove a a crab up your dick.

[Anonymous No.11848553]

>>11848519
Is it the "you don't believe in my love so you get eternal damnation" that's getting to you?

Can't blame you either way, it's the unknown that gets to most people from the most stubborn atheist to the most devout Christian, it can get to people sometimes. Seeing someone so close to death can be a very sobering experience. Use it to your benefit to know that he is passing on from his vessel that time has deteriorated.

The more time you try to prepare or worry about what will (or will not) come next, you're doing your current life a disservice.

[Anonymous No.11848557]

>>11847123
>Otherwise I liked this book
>1 star

[Anonymous No.11848560]

>>11848553
It's not the "you don't believe in my love so you get eternal damnation" as much as the "It's just a prank bro enjoy hell". Like I worry that what's next is worse.

[Anonymous No.11848566]

>>11848538
>anime poster
>mentally ill
checks out

[Anonymous No.11848573]

>>11848549
I see how that would be scary, but if a hobo told me that someone was going to shove a crab up my dick then i really wouldn't pay it much mind. How would he know?
It's inevitably does place some urgency to life, but without it you would just sit around with your thumb up your ass, Just like how animals eat, shit, and play until a death they never see coming.
>>11848566
well i've gotten better, and paintings don't have the same memeability that anime does

[Anonymous No.11848605]

>>11848573
>but if a hobo told me that someone was going to shove a crab up my dick then i really wouldn't pay it much mind.

so this... is the power of atheist thought...

holy...

i want more...

[Anonymous No.11848609]

>>11847560
lmao dis nigga just ruined his life with a single drunk text

[Anonymous No.11848613]

Any time! Any moment! When you want to act! When you want to change! The instant
you think that marks the starting line!!

[Anonymous No.11848615]

I don't fucking get poetry. Not that I don't understand it or that I hate it or that I don't appreciate a good poem just that I can't seem to make one for the life of me. Every time I need to make one it just feels like a shower of thoughts and ramblings. I don't feel happy or proud when making something like that. I want my work to be coherent and not feel like it is just a serious of angst and random bullshit.

[Anonymous No.11848627]

>>11848605
Well there's no tangible reason why i should fear the possibility of a crab being inserted into my urethra as it is just speculation. Just like how a priest can say i will go to hell but i will not know for sure until i die.
Also i'm not atheist, i just don't ponder over questions that have no answers

[Anonymous No.11848629]

>>11848560
Instead of worry, you should find peace in seeing your grandfather fulfill his last stage of his life. It's the next step not just for you, but for every living being on this planet. Considering it's so inevitable, if it is worse, you have the wisdom of your past life to get you through it.

[Anonymous No.11848638]

>>11848627
>i just don't ponder over questions that have no answers
Pretty life denying stance. Many things in life have no "answer" and yet we are here and must live our lives. I think one grows out of this phase as they experience more things and age. One cannot truly remain an agnostic.

[Anonymous No.11848648]

>>11845109
Pantheism is the truth.
Whatever the governing forces of the universe are, whatever force instructs molecules to form DNA and arrange matter in a way that results in you, can be called god. Your ESSENCE is your DNA's mission, which precedes your situational EXISTENCE. The faulty premises of "existence precedes essence", "I think therefore I am" can only reach nihilism as a conclusion.

[Anonymous No.11848654]

>>11848629
Yeah, I think your're right.

[Anonymous No.11848662]

>>11848638
Maybe, it's still very early in my life (20) so i might not be the best person to consult on death as it is very far from what i am too expect.
However, being as carefree as i am does make life easier. Death is just a fact of life, as is gravity. I will never cry at night about not being able to sore through the skies so why should i fear something that is impossible to deny? rather, you should look for ways to make the most of your time, life trying your hand at writing so that when you die maybe your name will live on

[Anonymous No.11848675]

>>11848638
I guess that's the scary thing, I don't really know how to have faith. Most people I know are super atheist.

[Anonymous No.11848680]

>>11848662
Gravity doesn't shove crabs up your dick

[Anonymous No.11848693]

>>11848680
Well if you have enough time and set up it will shove a crab in your dick, but i digress
Seeing death as a painful experience is your problem anon, you perceive it to be a tragic fate or a punchline to the set-up that is life. Stop assuming death is bad. If there is an afterlife, a higher power that has been know to be benevolent will reward good deeds. Thus don't be an asshole and you are golden. Or, if there is no afterlife and after death you cease to exist, then you won't even notice you are dead. Eternity will be but a second to you.

[Anonymous No.11848697]

>>11845264
be a Chad national socialist

[Anonymous No.11848737]

Does getting better through therapy (CBT) require being dumb? Have any of you had positive experiences with shrinks?

[Anonymous No.11848739]

>ywn be a hard boiled dectective in a psuedo-prohibition era setting, telling dames to calm their hysterics on your rotary phone

[Anonymous No.11848746]

>>11848739
i liked china town too anon

[Anonymous No.11848972]

There are two of these threads and neither is good. Nothing here is good.

[Anonymous No.11849095]

When do you just give up on a hopeless drunk? Constantly have to tell him you are going to make us lose our fucking house with this shit and that hes killing himself and wasting the precious little money he barely scrapes by to make it work.

[Anonymous No.11849107]

>>11848737
being smart and having any mental illness symptoms is a pretty rough combo because it means you'll always automatically assume you can't get help that'll be better than what you think of on your own, but that doesn't eliminate therapy as a possibility, just makes it harder for you to find a therapist that'll work well with you

[Anonymous No.11849118]

I have given in to nofap, and in 4 days I feel like shit. Shit as in: unable to think about anything other than sex, but I'm starting to sleep at earlier hours out of boredom. I've started to notice my loneliness again.
I almost gave in last night in a "one last time" sort of deal and had my dick out all ready to go. Broke down crying because I realized just how fucked I am if I can't even will myself to stop.
I'm just going to read and browse lit every night.

[Anonymous No.11849123]

>>11848972
What would be good?

[Anonymous No.11849132]

I'm considering contacting a friend of mine I haven't seen in two years exclusively because there's a chance that it will lead to them inviting our mutual friend visiting town who I've been in love with for 7 years.

[Anonymous No.11849134]

>>11849118
Keep yourself busy with stuff that matters, make some friends

[Anonymous No.11849145]

>>11847992
I've always hated dignifying depression with poetic images like some black hole or whatever. Depression is me just sitting around in numb nothingness against a blank white wall. It's me running away from intamacy and confrontation. It's me in a box.

[Anonymous No.11849164]

>>11849132
just slide into the mutual friend's DMs ffs. if you're too scared to do that, it means you two definitely don't have enough in common to hit anything off

[Anonymous No.11849295]

>Don't know what I want to do
>Fuck it I'll do business I guess
>Take business class
>Hate it
>Finally decide what I want to do
>Can't drop business class anymore
>Can't add a class on towards my major progression
>Stagnant this semester, making no progress to getting the fuck out of college
If only I had figured it out two weeks earlier

[Anonymous No.11849317]

I have a question. Was James Joyce British? Considering Ireland is part of Britain.

[Anonymous No.11849321]

>>11845109
Just graduated from university, but don't feel like adventuring into the next step of my life. Want to continue into grad school, but I am not ready for committing myself into studying just one subject while staying in just one city for two whole years. My friends are still finishing their bachelors, but they are taking their time and actually creating bonds with other people. For the last two months I have just been reading and meditating, life seems going nowhere.

[Anonymous No.11849358]

I met someone I really liked but they fuck around too much. Doesn't matter, I'm probably going to kill myself soon enough.

[Anonymous No.11849476]

>don't actually read much because I got things to do
>just want to shove my phone full of ebooks I'll probably forget about
>don't know where to find them anyways or whats good
>makes me want to collect them even more

[Anonymous No.11849494]

Met an 18 year old coworker. I'm 20. She wants to smash? Should I?
I haven't fucked in a long time and she's incredibly attractive. I don't want to be judged for it though.

[Anonymous No.11849529]

I lie to people on the internet. I do it so I don't feel so bad. I occupy a different space. It's lonely on the top. I put so much pressure on my self. I set the bar so high. I'm tired, burnt out. I can't continually pull these amazing things off. I was only trying to overcome something horrible.
This girl was only fucking me to get to my grant. It's a reward from an old foundation. I gave a speech there last fall. Fitzgerald says that life starts over in the Fall. There is a relief. There is something that begins dying then. Our relationship has been dying for a long time now. I do not feel relief. I do not feel reborn. She took the money out of the bank account. Then, drove off to Arlington with Dameery. Winter lasts much longer into the next year than you expect. You think, oh, December, the heart of the cold. Not so. I get snow all the way into April. I found out we were pregnant a week ago. I took her to the clinic. We had the procedure. She had a brave face, but I cried in the August rain. We played Frank Ocean on the way home.

[Anonymous No.11849999]

I woke up around eight very hungover, drank some water and immediately threw it back up. It's 1:30 now and I've managed to keep a few sips down, so hopefully I won't die of dehydration.

[Anonymous No.11850006]

this anime website is the bestfriend i never had

you'll always be here for me. you always listen.

[Anonymous No.11850018]

>>11845121
how can your country be shittier than italy

[Anonymous No.11850122]

>>11849494
2 years is peanuts. Go for it.

[Anonymous No.11850181]

>>11848638
One does not need answers in order to live.

[Anonymous No.11850185]

>>11848697
>be a square circle

[Anonymous No.11850550]

first reply decides if i buy that game im on the fence about getting

[Anonymous No.11850554]

>>11850550
Maybe.

[Anonymous No.11850579]

>>11850554
you want stabbed?

[Anonymous No.11850596]

they call him GRRM cause thats the sound he makes when he shoves food down his cakehole

[Anonymous No.11851010]

>>11849494
yes

[Anonymous No.11851026]

>>11849494
why would you be judged for this?

[Anonymous No.11851168]

good idea or shit idea?

>as characters travel from country to country the local robber barons they encounter are rumored to be vampires/hags/demons by the superstitious locals
>it's left ambiguous whether these accusations are true, or whether the oddly youthful noble who cuts the throats of servant girls really just sunburns easily

[Anonymous No.11851385]

>>11849494
Follow the righteous path. Renounce the flesh. Only then will you find clarity.

[Anonymous No.11851719]

>>11850550
Is it crosscode?

[Anonymous No.11851740]

>>11849494
>>11851385
Follow the righteous path. Renounce minding the judgement of others. Only then will you find clarity.

[Anonymous No.11851781]

Saw my ex in Panera the other day, she didn't see me
why the fuck are women so womanly, it's so fucking dumb
If I could make a female clone of me with identical personality I would fug and marry that bitch in a heartbeat and I'm not a particularly good or attractive person. It's really true, when trap technology is perfected, men will make better women than women.

[Anonymous No.11851786]

>>11851781
Gay

[Anonymous No.11851793]

>>11845264
Be a normie socialist. You'll be more useful to me.

[Anonymous No.11851796]

made a thread for it
>>11851794
inb4 assblasted subbies

[Anonymous No.11851802]

>>11851786
it's not gay if she has XX chromosomes and a natural vagina and ovaries anon
I wouldn't mind being a woman myself, either. I could still be straight, and dating a man would be so much easier than dating a woman. I can't make myself court the idea of being a gay man, or fucking a modern day trap. That shit's way too gay.

[Anonymous No.11851813]

>>11848519
I think that when I die I'll be so focused on the actual content of the experience that I won't have time to consider what comes immediately after it. I hope that there is not a life after death, because it would invalidate all that had been done here on Earth.

[Anonymous No.11851820]

>>11851802
Gay and in extreme denial about it

[Anonymous No.11851821]

>>11848737
DBT worked wonders for me. My therapist didn't feed me any shit about how good life is. She just told me to accept the situation and helped me navigate the immediate structural issues plaguing my life.

[Anonymous No.11851844]

>>11851820
not sure how straight sex between two people of opposite sexes is gay, but if it helps you to dismiss the hard issues rather than explore them to the full extent of their ramifications then ok
crispr gf is the future

[Anonymous No.11851962]

I can't let go of the resentment I have towards my mother for making me undergo psychiatric treatment when I was a teenager

It's wreaking havoc on my mental health and I'm pretty sure being angry all the time contributed to me developing chronic stomach pain

[Anonymous No.11852160]

>>11851844
Not him but you know, genetic engineering or not, entertaining the idea of being a woman to fuck men is a bit gay (or at least in the "lgbt" spectrum, I don't know how the kids call these things nowadays). It's ok though

[Anonymous No.11852329]

>>11845109
Probably just lost my job because of anger issues, is this the time to embrace the /lit/ lifestyle?

[Anonymous No.11852353]

>>11852329
Time to neet it up fren

[Anonymous No.11852605]

>>11849118
no fap is stupid. fapping is fun.

[Anonymous No.11852661]

>>11845109
I suddenly want some chocolate milk.

[Anonymous No.11852665]

>>11845283
Now, THIS guy has sexdaily!

[Anonymous No.11852666]

>>11852353
That’s what I’m thinking. I almost hope I get fucking fired, I’ve been doing this job 6 years and while it’s not “bad” since it pays well and has good benefits, I have wanted to quit for years and fuck off for a while to live innawoods, be a bum, starving artist, whatever. But of course I have a long streak of good luck in bad situations so I’m sure i’ll have the privilege to keep this job and stagnate in alcoholism.

[Anonymous No.11852695]

>>11848519
watch atheist videos to make you an atheist again. Watch Atheist Experience's take on how the church scares people into being slaves via myths regarding death.

[Anonymous No.11852701]

>>11849476
Read what interests you. Look into the benefits of reading and read solely for those.

[Anonymous No.11852737]

why hasn't Spain made any contribution of value to modern Western literature?

[Anonymous No.11852759]

>>11852737
>innocent Moors
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Jews
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Tainos
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Maya
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Mapuches
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Incas
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Moriscos
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Dutchmen
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Frenchmen
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Sardinians
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Frenchmen again
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent liberals
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Latin Americans
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Basques
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Americans
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent Moroccans
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent priests
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent trade unionists
SÍ KILLEM
>innocent world wars
SÍ WEASEL OUT OF EM
>innocent Moroccans again
SÍ KILLEM

[Anonymous No.11852766]

I came to a realization that I will never be famous, but I also don't want to be famous. Being famous sounds like shit, but many people dream of fame. I just want to live a normal life.

[Anonymous No.11852778]

>>11852759
Sounds like my kind of dudes tbqhwyfampai

[Anonymous No.11852829]

I've been sitting at work the past hour doing fucking nothing waiting for this tutor to finish up with a kid so I can go home and practice some damn music. The 8 hour work day is a joke, I could have done everything I did today in 4, I literally spent half the time dicking around.

[Anonymous No.11852858]

>>11845109
I'm regretting not studying for my accounting test. I regret jerking it to gay porn. I should probably feed my dog.

[Anonymous No.11852949]

I think I added too much water to my dough, it better not fuck me

[Anonymous No.11852973]

A few days ago in my physics class, the professor was working out a problem. I was not really paying attention to what was going on since I already know this level of physics, but at some point the force in the x-direction (still in the mass*acceleration form) was set equal to the applied force. Glancing over at the board, I couldn't help but see that it said m*a_x = F_app (underscores here denote subscript). Of course, that reads aloud as "max fap". It was definitely the funniest thing to happen in the past week or so.

[Anonymous No.11853059]

woah I just covered one nostril with a finger and then blew air out my nose and it sounded just like night-vision goggles turning on

[Anonymous No.11853121]

I'm on my last year of my major and I realized I don't want to work in the field at all. Dropping out would be stupid so I'm thinking of finishing it and then finding something else to do.
Coming to university has also made me realize a few things about myself. Mainly that if I'm left to my own devices I won't really be pushing to make any friends, and I don't like it. 4 years and no meaningful friendships to show for it. Friends are too much work, and apart from in my first year I didn't find anyone I was on the same wavelength with. Social situations sound nice on paper but they make me anxious and often I fail to fully express myself which just makes me hate myself more for it.

[Anonymous No.11853375]

>>11853121
I'm sort of the same. One year of college left and I didn't do much in the way of making friends, which is okay for me. I never felt like I was missing out or losing anything by just NOT going to parties. I did have a society for my major which I joined and eventually became president of, so that keeps me social to a point, but I'm at a social for them now and it's late and I want to go home. Soon, I hope.

[Anonymous No.11853402]

>>11853059
fuck you I just tried this and ended up with snot on my shirt

[Anonymous No.11853416]

>>11853121

My advice is not to drop out, nor graduate on time. Just start applying for internships. The majority of internships are on the government take, meaning they can't get subsidized unless you are currently enrolled at university. It doesn't matter if you're taking 1 credit a semester, you can get greenlit while a highly qualified graduate's resume will be thrown in the trash, simple as that.

You will soon find that the substance of your degree matters less than arcane bureaucratic nonsense, welcome to the real world. You can always still drop out once you get the job too.

[Anonymous No.11853421]

>>11845867
If you're going sea swimming wear a full length suit. Whatever about the coral, wearing clothes gives you spf30 and jellyfish sting protection

[Anonymous No.11853459]

>>11852759
All worth it for Goya

[Anonymous No.11853687]

Just got unbanned. Hell yeah
It’s been a rough 2 days /lit/

[Anonymous No.11853726]

I hate what I've become. Used to be the smartest kid in class, read lots of books, enthusiastic about life. Then starting with high school it all went to shit. Nothing made sense any more, I became addicted to vidya, and books no longer held any charm for me. Writing was my escape, but even now, it doesn't hold my interest.

Just wish I knew the way out...wish I could find salvation in literature like I once did.

[Anonymous No.11853740]

>>11853687
I get banned all the time for starting Andrea Dworkin threads
not sure why really

[Anonymous No.11853765]

>>11853740
lit has somehow never banned me, which is some sort of miracle. the only board that banned me is pol because I started a thread saying that everyone on the board was my brother and i loved them, which was deleted, and then i made another thread saying the same thing and telling the mods i loved them even though they had sinned against me

[Anonymous No.11854133]

I fucked up and tried to fuck a girl while she was opening up to me about the difficulties she experienced as a child. All because I'm too scared to actually reciprocate to people and truthfully establish some semblance of closeness. I realize that for the past five years I've been nothing, but a walking lie and that specific experience finally opened my mind to it all. It's too late for anything to flourish any longer between the two of us, but I want to apologize and thank her with all my heart- I'm sorry I couldn't be myself when that's all you really wanted. Here's a message for you: you'll figure it all out because you know what needs to be done, stop letting fear hold you back- even if no one else does, I know you can do it. Goodbye

[Anonymous No.11854142]

I'm almost 30. No kids, no house, haven't travelled anywhere, I haven't even read many books. Basically a very unaccomplished person to say the least.

The NPC thing is a dumb meme but at the same time I feel like so many of my actions are automatic. I feel like I've been riding some wave for the last 15 years and I haven't taken anything into my own hands. Both girlfriends I've had are women that have pursued me. Even most of my interactions online are merely meme regurgitation as if the meme is using me rather than the other way around.

I'm not really sure what to do about it. My life seems to have been a series of automatic actions for the purpose of mere contentment, but not much else. I've thought about asceticism, and I think it would help to an extent but that's not all.

I know life isn't some Grand movie where I'm the protagonist (that dumb joe Rogan quote comes to mind) but surely it shouldn't be like this. It's like I can't make any real decisions so I yield to whatever comes my way.

Been feeling pretty blue about it lately.

[Anonymous No.11854181]

All these uppity liberals will scream their lungs out to be saved when the shit hits the fan but will just be left to the people they defended so much.

[Anonymous No.11854234]

I thought this said write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.11854478]

The nice thing about being sick is the appreciation it gives you for the mundane. I was throwing up constantly yesterday and was so fucking happy to just be able to drink a glass of water this morning without immediately retching it all back up. Maybe I'll even be able to eat something, fuck wouldn't that be nice.

[Anonymous No.11854484]

>>11854478
Get better soon anon. Wish I could make you a nice meal.

[Anonymous No.11854494]

i posted a bunch of shit in the other identical thread which is now on page 3

[Anonymous No.11854506]

Should be working
but hate working here so looking at chan.
Really want to punch a co worker in his bully face but adult so won't.

[Anonymous No.11854547]

>>11854142
It sounds like you're riding this wave because you're afraid of what taking a different turn might take you. Take challenges and committing to them is what you need to get you out of that rut you sunk yourself into. You yield because you're afraid of the risk and consequences of making decisions one way or another. Do you really want your live the rest of your life sitting on the fence?

[Anonymous No.11854566]

>tfw been traveling for seven weeks
I think I'm ready to go home lads.

[Anonymous No.11854572]

Thread looks interesting but I can't be bothered to think of anything clever so this post will have to do

[Anonymous No.11854575]

I finally got a bit of time off after a couple of very busy workweeks but every time I sit down I feel like I'm wasting time.

[Anonymous No.11854581]

>>11854575
You should be happy just resting bro

[Anonymous No.11854990]

I've realized the emptiness of the typical normie life I have been striving for for the past several years. Now I want to synthesize it with the "authenticity" (if you'll forgive my use of that word) of the autisto-sensitive /lit/ lifestyle to create something beautiful.

[Anonymous No.11855847]

I got nothing and no one, except for writing, and I'm terrible at it.

[Anonymous No.11855852]

My friends won't talk to me anymore and I don't know what I did wrong. I just wanna die desu.

[Anonymous No.11855871]

Why are Americans such corporate cucks? Do you retards like not having quality, free time? Healthy food? Good education that doesn't bankrupt you? Healthcare that doesn't bankrupt you? Why do Americans defend their absolutely pathetic shithole of a country? Is it the propaganda that is anally drilled into them from birth? Are they all just unfathomably stupid?

I don't understand.

[Anonymous No.11855875]

>>11855871
Why are Europeans so obsessed with America.

Rent free in your minds, baka.

[Anonymous No.11855888]

>>11855875

Because Americans are a blight upon the planet.

[Anonymous No.11855908]

I don’t even have energy left to masturbate. Still, I do not have taken a headache out of the office which compels me to bed and into darkness. The algorithm of my streaming service seems to assess my situation right and proposes a nature documentary as the right thing to do between doing more and doing nothing at all. A female scientist stands in an ice desert and pushes the button on a remote control. A drill head begins to rotate and settles on the surface, where it sinks slowly under roaring and whirls up a cloud of ice and dust. The drill core is uncovered and examined in the laboratory. Many different layers are visible along the long narrow roll. Each has its own coloration and is more or less sharply distinguishable from the neighboring parts. The scientist seems to know their meaning. It’s amazing what the scientist can read from the drill core. She is able to analyze whole earth ages. What if someone pushed a drill into my existence ... What would my drill core look like? What would be recognizable in the colorful layers of a few decades of personhood? An outline of life consisting of a random selection of things consumed. Amniotic fluid, air, district heating, breast milk, parsnips pap, diapers, protection cream, nursery rhymes. Potatoes, cow's milk, escalopes in the shape of a T-rex, colorful bears of pork gelatin, carbonated drinks. Rap, Pop, Electronic music, 8 Bit, 16 Bit, Vinyl, Magnetic Tape, Digital, Polyphonic. An Alpha, data volume, images, videos, terrabytes, graphics card power, kilowatt hours, taurine drinks, gasoline, one hundred and ten decibels, fog, beer with cola, rubbers, lube, cold water, paracetamol. News, Ties, Hair Gel, Beta Blocker, Holiday, An Omega, Acute Counseling, SUV, Hyaluron Cream, Wine Spritzer. Reading glasses, rheumatism ointment, supper at five o'clock, Schlager music, recorded, diapers, protection cream, wet shaving, comfort, one hundred and ten kilos of load capacity, nothing. Then consumption changes direction. I will be a consumer good for roundworms, fungi and bacteria, soil.
https://kosmonautboy.wordpress.com/layersoflife/

[Anonymous No.11855913]

>>11855871
It's a combination of that and just complete ignorance of what the rest of the first world is like. I like to think I didn't fall for all the mutt memes, but I was still shocked after living in Europe for a few months and seeing how...well? A lot of things worked compared to burgerland. Functional public transit alone is just incredible. Potable water coming from public fountains is great. Grocery stores are infinitely higher quality. The democracies may only be semi-functioning but they're still leagues ahead of the US political system.

I'd say that culturally euro's seem to actually realize the importance of a strong community and broader society at large, while american's are still stuck in the individualism meme. You can laugh at the eurocommies all you want but they do seem to actually care about their fellow citizens and understand that no man is an island, especially in the 21st century.

There are negatives of course before anyone accuses me of being a euroshill. Stop making me pay for fucking tapwater you apes. Paid bathrooms are a blight as well, and don't get me started on everyone fucking smoking 24/7.

[Anonymous No.11855923]

>>11855913
Also what the fuck do you guys have against ice cubes?

[Anonymous No.11855926]

>>11851026
She's a junior in High School and I'm a sophomore in college. It's kind of weird. But I did it anyways. Last night I invited her over and we chilled. It's never been this natural for me before. It just felt so effortless.
She kind of has a shitty personality. She's just the stereotypical Protestant blonde hair blue eyed goy.

[Anonymous No.11855929]

>>11855875
Maybe because europeans founded the U.S. and mutts are actively trying to destroy anything once positive about it.

[Anonymous No.11856002]

>>11854547
I think your analysis is reasonable. It's been shocking to realize how many big "decisions" I've made were hardly decisions at all, but merely a reaction to social pressures and circumstance.

[Anonymous No.11856013]

>>11854547
>>11856002

Also, thank you for your input.

[Anonymous No.11856104]

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[Anonymous No.11856325]

Narrative games will be the next major form of art, but no one had made a good one yet

[Anonymous No.11856348]

>>11855871
You can't have nice things when you're 56% white.

[Anonymous No.11856433]

This morning I had a dream my father who I never got along with (he passed away a year and a half ago) was dragging me to hell while I was furiously chanting Psalm 23.

[Anonymous No.11856440]

How can I expect anyone to take me seriously when I'm made out of cum?

[Anonymous No.11856471]

I need a steady supply of real life female models to draw.
Where the fug do i find them?

[Anonymous No.11856479]

>>11845445

Grow up

[Anonymous No.11856506]

>>11847560
you are retarded. dont do it anon. the last 4 months were the hard part, you are near overcoming the thot. If you crawl for her you will lose her respect instantly, and once a woman loses her respect for you is more than over and you add the hurt of your pride to the mix. Trust me, i have lost a couple relationships by crawling and forgiving them. it doesnt matter how much you think she is worth, practically all girls will totallly lose the interest for a man without pride.

[Anonymous No.11856563]

>>11856471
Maybe try practicing 30 sec to 1 min gestures. You can practice at a park or cafe when you see a qt

[Anonymous No.11856704]

>>11855929
>Europeans founded the US
Oh boy take my (You)

[Anonymous No.11856911]

even though my life has always been shit there was always a part of me that held out hope that things would eventually get better and for a while they did. but this has coincided with the world in general just going to shit and all progress that i have made towards overcoming my mental health problems has been undone and i feel more disillusioned and anxious and helpless than ever before.

knowing that i can end it all by killing myself is my only comfort and even that doesn't always work.

[Anonymous No.11856921]

>>11856563
i probably should
still i would also like a qt i can return to when i need more time.

[Anonymous No.11856977]

>>11856433
Wrong Psalm brother you want number 50

[Anonymous No.11857042]

As I was reading Storm of Steel today in the bus on my way home, another passenger started making conversation with me. He was an old guy, who asked me what I was reading. After responding we started discussing about how making a short period of military service obligatory for the entire young male population could benefit or harm a nation.

[Anonymous No.11857223]

>>11856348

Yeah you have to be 99% white but also 99% sharia law muslims like Sweden to be good but also a communist shithole.

[Anonymous No.11857326]

>>11857042
Immense benefit imo.
There are people in my life who lack even the slightest idea of discipline due to poor parenting/ or being too financially comfortable. Military service after highschool would at least expose some of these kids to living with discipline.

[Anonymous No.11857393]

>>11857042
There should be some non-military version if proper national service were ever to come back. I don't know what form that would take but I think that purely military service would instantly turn away the support of most people, young and old.
Maybe police service or something? Not sure.

[Anonymous No.11857415]

>>11857393
Maybe make it so that you have to do some sort of community service job before you can graduate?

[Anonymous No.11857474]

>>11846601
I sometimes think the same, but I'm also a virgin, it could be bitter grapes. Maybe I am just jealous and thats the way its supposed to be?

[Anonymous No.11857932]

>>11854566

How do you afford this? Did you pre-plan your lodgings? How do this

[Anonymous No.11857939]

>>11855926

She's 18 and a junior in high school? Anon it's not the age difference you should be concerned about it's that she's actually retarded

[Anonymous No.11857946]

>>11857393
>>11857415
Here in germanistan you had the choice between military and "communal service", basically helping the elderly.

[Anonymous No.11857955]

>>11857326
bootlicker

[Anonymous No.11857965]

>>11857946
Same thing we had here in Spain. My father chose to help the community; my mother got a real job in the meantime. Obligatory military service or "the mili" as we call it here, surprisingly helped a lot of women to get jobs before their male peers.

[Anonymous No.11857991]

>>11857955
it is always and only the biggest faggots that use this word

[Anonymous No.11858018]

/lit/ I need your help! I'm currently reading a book on Management theory and there is a section about gender equality on Organizational boards. There is this company that has repeatedly invested money and time in making the board 100%, and they have repeatedly failed at it.

My professor (who wrote the book) is talking about how this is a "problem" that needs to be dealt with. They should keep trying.

My problem is this: HOW can you observe a phenomenon, not having ANY explanation to the cause of it and STILL come to the conclusion that this is a problem that needs to be dealt with? Regardless of your political and ideological stance, how can you define it as a problem without knowing the underling cause?

This type of reasoning must be flawed, am I right? What is this type of reasoning called in Philosophical terms /lit/? I was thinking about writing to my professor, but I need help.

[Anonymous No.11858026]

Always with categories. It's all I can really focus on. Categories of waking and sleeping, light and dark, happiness and sadness. It isn't as if I can define each gradation, only that they can be felt and their differences identified in hindsight. Each moment is categorized by blink, by breath. Even these are categories in and of themselves, existing in various qualitative states from beginning to completion.

How does one approach writing a story along these lines? A story about categories may as well be a manual of some sort. The more I think about the books I've read, the more I believe they all existed as manuals, albeit poorly written ones. Ulysses is a manual. Pynchon writes manuals. They're all manuals, lists of descriptions and instructions of how to categorize ideas and people and places. Fuck.

[Anonymous No.11858067]

>>11858026
Write vignettes, collect them to a book.

[Anonymous No.11858650]

A few girls like me, but I am too much of an autist to know what to do about it. I have never experienced this sort of thing before.

[Anonymous No.11858770]

>>11858018
The only proper argument for forced equality is to oppose it. It's a fundamentally unsound notion to base practical business decisions on externalities such as the gender and racial composition of personnel.

A gender is not a qualification. While there should be no bias against hiring women, if it doesn't shake out that you get artificially equal ratios of men and women on your company that isn't a problem.

Some jobs women just don't want. How many garbage collectors or plumbers are women?

[Anonymous No.11858807]

I've been thrown a loop by someone for so long, pretending to be a friend. How easy it is for someone to control a conversation by just talking about YOU and flexing their chest. They are talking about me? No, deflect, it's your fault. My loans? No, where's your money for rent. My half? No, where's your plan. Your plan? That's my plan. Oh shit a 3rd person.. Uhhh I don't know man, why are we talking about this. They're gone. WTF was that man, look out for my self image!
Marijuana is trash and dumb to smoke. He will rot there. He doesn't deserve the truth anymore. It's like he would beg the truth and go out of his way to make it false at every turn, because self-criticism is poison and it's easier to bring others down than to raise yourself up. I'm gone.

[Anonymous No.11858823]

>>11845109
I want answers already, not more questions.

[Anonymous No.11859488]

I want to write a post-apocalyptic fantasy novel taking place on the American west coast, tracing the journeys of one man in a survey of northern tribes on the behalf of a more civilized empire based out of California.

Something like a mix between a historical narrative (think Roman explorations of Gaul/Britain, particularly Caesar, albeit without the army), and a traditional fantasy book.

Too generic?

[Anonymous No.11859527]

>>11845109
I'm thinking about Elizabeth desu

[Anonymous No.11859562]

>>11856440
That's really lewd, anon. Wew.

[Anonymous No.11859564]

>>11849295
lol retard

[Anonymous No.11859628]

>>11857932
Step one: luck into well-paying job with flexible hours
Step two: have no expenses because autist who still lives with parents

[Anonymous No.11859676]

It is too late. I should sleep.

[Anonymous No.11859688]

>>11859676
p sure it's morning right now anon

[Anonymous No.11859689]

>>11859488
my impression of this would be mostly colored by what you feel like California is actually like, and also how you would treat the fantasy elements.

[Anonymous No.11860076]

is it weird to fantasize about being an attractive lesbian woman?

[Anonymous No.11860094]

I just want my life to be comfy. What books should I read to help accomplish this?

[Anonymous No.11860846]

>drink so much I have to be hospitalized
>literally feel like I'm dying
>three days after being released now
>the mere thought of alcohol makes me physically distressed
Did I just fucking clockwork orange myself?

[Anonymous No.11861589]

>>11859689
It's post-post-apocalyptic. By fantasy I mean that there would be occurrences that the characters certainly consider 'magical', of course, who's to say it's not the mundane technology of today

[Anonymous No.11861593]

>>11860846
I still can't drink whisky after giving myself alcohol poisoning with it 7 years ago.
The smell of it alone (as well as every other barrel-aged spirit) makes me feel like I need to puke.

[Anonymous No.11861604]

>>11856471
post adverts on college campuses/art schools

[Anonymous No.11861621]

Thinking about breaking up with my gf. she's too clingy and simpleminded.

[Anonymous No.11861810]

I want to get into poetry and I don't know how. I don't even know who to read. I lack knowledge even in the basics, but I also can't read books for beginners because they put me off. I like to learn by figuring out what everything means and starting with hard stuff. So what's a good book on poetry? Ideally one that gives poems and then explains how to judge them and how they're written.

[Anonymous No.11861839]

>>11855871
I wonder about this as well. Going by all these Alt-Right channels on YouTube and just the general atmosphere of conservatism in America, it's like they're almost proud to be slaves.
"LOL EUROKEK SOCIALIST, FUCK OFF WITH YOUR ONE MONTH VACATIONS AND HIGHER WAGES."
I mean, I would understand it if this were coming from rich people that needed to have this kind of attitude to keep their class safe, but it's usually coming from literal white trash that can't even afford the simplest pleasures in life.
I guess no matter how edgy whites in America become, even if it means looking towards the fucking Nazis for inspiration, will never shake off their Puritan roots.

[Anonymous No.11861856]

>>11857326
And this needs to be achieved with military service because... why? Ever considered that it could just be that both schools and parents are shit?
Forced military service is a fucking abomination. If you need it to get your young male population in line, you're probably raising retards.

[Anonymous No.11861870]

>>11861839
The American mindset is built on the worship of wealth

[Anonymous No.11861883]

>>11852759
And yet, Spain is a total shithole that's only kept afloat for the mere fact that it's the Florida of Europe and the place where all Nordics move to once they retire.
Truly an outstanding culture and civilization.

[Anonymous No.11861904]

>>11861621
Just do it, you'll both be better off

>>11861810
Start by reading the Romantics; they're accessible but still have plenty of depth. I have a huge Penguin anthology of Romantic poetry that has a good introduction and endnotes, but not the line-by-line analysis you probably want

[Anonymous No.11861905]

>>11861870
How? Weren't most of the original Americans either seeking refuge from religious persecution or sent off there because they were inbred subhumans?
And really, all people and all 2nd rate nations without a history worship wealth. America isn't exactly different in that sense from Brazil or any other shithole.

[Anonymous No.11861910]

>>11861810
this imagine inspires misogyny in me.

[Anonymous No.11861916]

>>11860846
>>11861593
lucky lads

[Anonymous No.11861918]

>>11861910
There's a whole set. Look up April Hylia.
>>11861904
What's it called, anon? Maybe I can find it.

[Anonymous No.11861962]

>>11845109
>mind what's on your right
There's nothing to my right except the wall, and it's 7 feet away.

[Anonymous No.11861976]

>>11861918
>There's a whole set. Look up April Hylia.
i don't want to see it, looks like a distasteful jezebel

[Anonymous No.11861980]

>>11861976
You aren't wrong. But you are gonna see it.

[Anonymous No.11861992]

>>11859488
Reminds me of Fallout; I'd read it.
You could try being more ambitious, though. Have that main lead who explores the area as a bit of an audience surrogate and then develop a bunch of other characters of different origins and interests who meet occasionally.

[Anonymous No.11861993]

>>11861839
>>11861870
Temporarily embarrassed millionaires and all that. Dream on Bubba!

American culture has always been a fractious thing. It's to the country's demerit that its only unifying culture is that of consumerism, and perhaps, less strongly, patriotism. We all recognize a good brand of booze or the choice type of breakfast cereal but we can't agree on what we should teach our kids.

The soul needs to live on more than just products and advertisements. That's what the country needs, more of its chaotic yet spirited soul.

[Anonymous No.11862022]

>>11861993
Not that anon, but I absolutely agree. Even though I'm not American, American culture spreads its tentacles all over the world; sometimes I feel that Europe and South America echo the States after a few years or months.
How should we go about encouraging those values of unity and personal value over products?

[Anonymous No.11862029]

>>11861980
>>11861918
where can i find this set?

[Anonymous No.11862039]

>>11862029
I don't remember where I got it. But I've post what else there is. It's not that big.

[Anonymous No.11862045]

>>11862039

[Anonymous No.11862049]

>>11862039
that ass just won't quit, shame about her face

[Anonymous No.11862055]

>>11862045

[Anonymous No.11862059]

>>11862055
>>11862049
Yes, I was going to avoid posting her face.

[Anonymous No.11862060]

I'm paranoid about borrowing books from the library because I'm a slow reader and I just know that I'll either have to return them before I'm done with them, or else I'll speed read them and not enjoy them just to fit their time quota.

[Anonymous No.11862062]

>>11862059
This is about all unless anyone wants me to ruin it by posting her face.

[Anonymous No.11862067]

>>11862039
>>11862045
>>11862055

>tatoo
Disgusting

[Anonymous No.11862070]

>>11862062
I gotchu senpai

[Anonymous No.11862073]

>>11862070
C'mon, don't go out of your way to make her look worse.

[Anonymous No.11862075]

>>11862070
>>11862073
what in the fuck
BEGONE THOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

[Anonymous No.11862080]

>>11862075
Don't be silly, anon, we should go out on a date. i doubt you look much better than I do, r-r-right?...

[Anonymous No.11862084]

>>11862080
I'm a male, thot. How do you even compare that, in a numeral scale that is utterly silly?

[Anonymous No.11862089]

>>11862084
You need to lighten up, anon... Let's have some fun together < 3.

[Anonymous No.11862107]

I just want to find a shy virgin like myself to marry and have kids with, we could stay in playing video games and reading and talking about science and history and anime and all that shit, the problem is I'm male
I've been trying on-line dating for months now but I haven't gotten a single response
I was into a girl at work but I found out she's a lot younger than I am and in a relationship
I tried going to a coffee shop and some guy swooped in and enraptured the only woman there who wasn't ancient within 3 minutes of me getting there, and no other women who came in actually sat down
I'm trying to do stuff on kik and it's kind of getting somewhere but IDK
I've signed up for some meetup groups, should've looked and tried to sign up for events and go to them, there were two today that might've been good, but I looked ahead and there are some more that might be doable and decent in the coming months
I have a job and a car but it was still hard to get up to the point of messaging people or een giving them a like, now it's easy but again no one responds
to top it all off I'm a "boomer" now
it's just all so frustrating

[Anonymous No.11862125]

>>11846592
I think actually fucking someone's armpit would get rid of it, because it can't be that great, but you might miss it afterwards
if you just want to lick them then I'm not sure there's any help for you besides disengaging from sexuality long enough for vanilla to be exciting

[Anonymous No.11862141]

>>11846601
I feel you on prostitution but I don't see it much at all
as far as fucking random people, I think it's a shame and it's frustrating and it's really made it hard to find someone I want (someone that would wait until marriage, not even so much for religious reasons as the risks involved in fucking randoms), but it doesn't make me that angry

[Anonymous No.11862159]

>>11847123
>(grrrr)
what is she, 12?

[Anonymous No.11862163]

>>11861993
>We all recognize a good brand of booze or the choice type of breakfast cereal
but you lads suck at that as well.

[Anonymous No.11862164]

>>11846592

Cum VERY hard to it VERY often.

[Anonymous No.11862182]

>>11847209

1. Buy immersion blender and spice grinder

2. Make own hummus loaded with peanuts

3. Eat nothing else

[Anonymous No.11862199]

>>11862125
Are armpits not vanilla? I always thought they were a fairly common fetish. I've known plenty of girls who were into backs and arms and armpits.

[Anonymous No.11862201]

第4章
不要讓我開始肆虐的T Girl詛咒。他媽的地獄我愛T女孩,即使他們的乳房是塑料的。這是唯一阻止我從他媽的Roxy回來的東西,她的乳房太假了。雖然我隨時都會蹂躪她的混蛋;)Roxy請打電話給我,我的號碼是6665557777。

CH。五
參孫走向一般商店,看到一個陌生男子。

CH。 6
我看到這個傢伙......他在商店裡......一手拿著他的陰莖,另一手拿著多香果奶酪。他在他的陰莖上揉著奶酪,盯著在熟食櫃檯工作的胖女人。男人的眼睛睜得更大,整個地板上都散落著塞曼和奶酪的混合物。 “哦上帝”他尖叫道。真該死的那個該死的......我希望他在戴著我媽媽臉上的面具的同時說“晚餐準備好了!”時,我會把那個俗氣暨趴在臉上。 “我說這是多麼瘋狂,我需要更多的LSD?”所以我去找店員並要求一些LSD。 “喲婊子,哪裡是我的非法郵票?”
“他們都是我的屁股和狗屎,你想進入一些數據。”我幾乎說不,但我無法抗拒那個精緻的肥胖屁股。我慢慢地從她的屁股中吸出了標籤。我處於腐敗和肆虐之間。我父親總是告訴我“兒子,無論你是四分之一桅杆,半桅杆還是全桅杆,你仍然很難。永遠不要浪費一個傻瓜!“所以我把手伸進我的褲子裡,然後像我的生活所依賴的那樣猛地甩開......好吧,它確實如此,打賭我們以後會這樣做。
一旦我更加努力,我就把我的陰莖甩出來並將它塞進她的陰部。這是乾燥和縫合,仍然不是我曾經有過的最糟糕的設置。我在那個婊子身邊,就像在炎熱的炎熱夏日里,人群在人行道上用過的安全套蜂擁而至。我的上帝我真他媽他媽... Ugggghhhhooooooooohhhhhhhhffpppphhh。然後我踢了她的膝蓋,她喊道。她跪倒在地,我的臉上全是白色,厚重的。她在磚牆上撞了一下頭,睜開頭,把腦袋倒在地上。我抓住她的大腦,用自己的液體浸濕自己。

[Anonymous No.11862205]

>>11862201
第7章
突然他變得麻木了。 “哦,上帝為什麼?!”他說。他看到他沒有液體揉搓他的陰莖,所以他從窗戶跑出來並用螺栓固定在街道上。他的臉上滿是汗水和seman哦,上帝,他意識到他的精靈是從他的皮膚裡出來的。因此,他得到了他可信賴的垃圾勺,從他的皮膚上舀出了那個塞子並將它滴在街上。卡利古拉跪了下來,把它舔了起來。
“聖潔他媽的地獄!”他高聲喊道:“這狗屎真是太棒了!”但他總是吃完了。他需要protien。臉上有粘膩的感覺。但主要是protien。當他擊敗時,路燈打倒了他。參孫看到卡利古拉在路燈下抽搐了一下。 “所以,我看到你在那邊享受著自己。”Caligula感到震驚,他被抓住了,但這只會使他的陰莖變硬。
薩姆森糾正了卡利古拉的球。他呻吟著,呻吟著,但那隻是薩姆森不敬虔的手淫的開始。 Jizz向冷混凝土射擊,Samson跪下並舔了起來。 “耶穌他媽的,這很討厭......”但無論如何他都舔了舔。卡利古拉的暨令人作嘔。神聖的耶穌肛門很棒。

第8章
有時候,Caligula會想要將花生醬全部放在他的陰莖上並讓他的狗舔一下,讓他在這個過程中暨。不幸的是,他對狗精靈過敏。這就是為什麼他總是穿著由乳膠製成的全身套裝,配有平台高跟鞋和一個老式的WWI時代防毒面具和乾暨。我討厭女人,我希望她們不會說話。特別是女權主義者,因為沒有人喜歡糞便gobblers的陪伴。一群該死的兒童食肉動物。應該屠殺每一個femanazi。

第9章:參孫的鬥爭
從5歲起,參孫總是厭惡女性。每當有機會,參孫總是宣稱自己對女性權利和女權主義者的仇恨。參孫也討厭灌木叢。喬治和女人的叢林,我都明白為什麼。他試圖在灌木叢中瘋狂,他不能把它舔出來。酒吧和jizz感覺到他的嘴,他開始在她的pube中哭泣。

第10章
卡利古拉向學齡兒童出售甲基苯甲酸,騷擾了狗和貓。我愛我的屁股。巨大的陰莖在我的嘴裡,從他的陰莖狀附屬物滴入我的嘴裡。

[Anonymous No.11862214]

>>11848737
therapy helped me and I always considered myself smart, actually that was part of the problem

[Anonymous No.11862215]

>>11862199
Maybe it's a fetish for girls. A lot of girls like big hands and forearms as well but I can't imagine any guy saying "Ayo girl show me dem forearms aww yeah"

[Anonymous No.11862225]

>>11849358
I've been in both situations, albeit not at the same time (fuck these loose women; I'll KYS myself)
there's other stuff to focus on that's good

[Anonymous No.11862234]

>>11849529
you should keep writing, this but with a bit more polish (not too much) would really be something

[Anonymous No.11862250]

>>11853059
>>11853402

/lit/ - 2018

[Anonymous No.11862308]

>>11854990
I've been aiming at that (albeit under different words) for years
made some progress and it's good but >tfw is really hitting me hard now

[Anonymous No.11862325]

Does anyone know how to choose 100 random books published in the 18-21st century. Completly random, no best sellers list, no newly published, just any way to get list 100 random books.

[Anonymous No.11862329]

>>11855871
isolation, relatively high wealth, and leftovers from propaganda from the Cold War and arguably previous conflicts
it all makes sense, but it still really bothers me how both liberals and conservatives just eat this shit up, and almost everything outside of that is too extreme and too small to have much influence-- not that conservatives and liberals haven't become extreme themselves, but living a spartan sort of life, and a lot of the things that are directly or indirectly associated with it, is just too big of a turn for most people, and that's sad

[Anonymous No.11862346]

>cute popeyes worker gave me 6 chicken wings instead 5

[Anonymous No.11862392]

>>11861839
they've never known anything better, and they either feel they don't need it so fuck trying to give it to them let alone anyone else, or they feel they'll get it some day and they want to feel like they earned it and feel like it's special, which for them necessitates hard work which ties back to--
the other reason: the Protestant work ethic
work hard your entire life, don't complain, ask God to forgive your weakness, ask your fellow man for nothing, and die content in the fact that you made something with your own two hands
I'm exaggerating it obviously but that basic standpoint really is common in many areas of the country, and it's a large part of what conservatives here keep hearkening back to (except in recent decades even they are losing the thread)
personally I think there's value there but it's also kind of bullshit, for some obvious reasons (e.g. it doesn't breed confidence or trust or even familiarity outside of a narrow scope) but also because it's implicitly a place of superiority but very much comes along with pride, and pride is what gives you a big head, which ties back to--
the basic feeling behind all of this: pride
Americans are a proud people, and I wish that wasn't so true-- not because I don't love this country, quite the opposite, I like it here and I want it to continue to be a good place
pride leads men astray like nothing else, and if you're not careful it can in fact bring down indomitable institutions like family bonds and community ties and once-prospering companies and even whole towns
pic sort of related

[Anonymous No.11862405]

>>11861905
yeah but by the time we had our revolution there was a pretty cemented upper class already
you know that factoid people like to throw around about the founding fathers being slave owners? the part people overlook is that slaves are fucking expensive
most of the founding fathers were either rich or politically powerful, and of course often both

[Anonymous No.11862408]

>>11852695
No I watched those, they just don't convince me anymore.

[Anonymous No.11862444]

>>11856911
it's alright, the troubles will continue on without you, that's why you should stay and enjoy the crash
that sounds like a joke and it is, but it's also serious

[Anonymous No.11862470]

>>11862060
same desu senpai

[Anonymous No.11862471]

Buddhism has neutralized in me the desire to become somebody of importance, so that I pass from day to day much the same, at peace with my surroundings yet all the while looking for something more. What is it I want? This time on 4chan hardly satisfies anymore.

[Anonymous No.11862479]

>>11862471
U shud go fuk btches

[Anonymous No.11862491]

>>11860076
I hope not
really though more than that, on occasion (rare occasions, probably a few times a year) I unironically wish to be the little girl
all cute and praised and with anything, feminine or masculine, ahead of me
anything, including a better chance or at least another chance at school, including a fuller and broader choice of a partner, and eventually including the ability to produce a new life myself

[Anonymous No.11862504]

I was going to post a pic of something that is to my right, and there are a few objects that I could've found an image for and posted a pic.

But then I realized that I would have to choose one of them. So I considered which one I should choose, but I wondered why should I consider which one I should choose? And I realized that I wanted to choose one that would get me the most (you)s aka the most attention. Or at least the one that was the most interesting.

And then I thought about what I'm doing, that I'm thinking about posting a pic of something to my right, and I realized that I am free to post any of these objects, and none of them will get me any (you)s or attention.

And then I had a thought that I'm thinking about this (posting a pic of an object to my right in order to get some attention) and I realized that I have these thoughts all the time, just random attention seeking thoughts, but I usually don't act upon them.

And I realized how difficult it would be to effectively communicate all of my thoughts to another person, but that I crave communicating my thoughts to other people. I want attention and I want people to see me and know me and think the same thoughts I am thinking.

And I speculate that this is the reason why people write shit. Attention seeking. They want people to think their thoughts. It is basically a form of mind fucking. The mind-penis (writer) being inserted into the willing mind-pussy (reader).

And then at the end of me writing this I realized that I am essentially doing this to the people reading what I am writing. I am essentially fucking your mind-pussy right now. And I feel good.

[Anonymous No.11862545]

>>11847992
>muh sad poet

[Anonymous No.11862547]

>>11848338
No it isn't

[Anonymous No.11862563]

>>11848615
Make it express a certain feeling instead of a certain thought.

[Anonymous No.11862577]

>>11848648
External pantheistic determinist transfatalist gang

[Anonymous No.11862650]

>>11856325
someones never played saya no uta

[Anonymous No.11862665]

I have anxiety about how little I know and how few skills I've acquired in my life. I feel completely useless and dumb!

[Anonymous No.11862676]

>>11862665
how old are you?

[Anonymous No.11862762]

>>11862676
27

[Anonymous No.11862830]

>>11862762
what's your educational status? do you have a job or decent job prospects?

[Anonymous No.11862947]

>>11862830
I have a stem degree I never "used" in the job market. I feel like I've forgotten everything. I work in an office. A low, but not minimum, wage job. No long term prospects.

[Anonymous No.11863072]

>tfw laffy taffy won't come off of wrapper, so I eat both and then spit out the wrapper
it's a good feeling

[Anonymous No.11863185]

>>11862504
rocky start but ends up solid
I'd cut down on the "and" and "and then" beginnings but definitely leave some in, and get to the conclusion section a bit faster

[Anonymous No.11863219]

>>11862504
>The mind-penis (writer) being inserted into the willing mind-pussy (reader)

[Anonymous No.11863553]

what's with the pedo posting on /tv/.
fucking useless mods and jannies

[Anonymous No.11863623]

An NPC awakens after accidentally bringing a trap home

[Anonymous No.11863671]

>>11847992
There is something: that something is power.