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[Anonymous No.11427812]

>be me
>raised catholic
>private school
>ritalin
>gifted and talented
>good at liberal arts
>disregarded math after geometry
>smart but lazy
>pothead
>in love with the greeks
>went to good university
>majored in philosophy
>found a qt gf
>suffered schizophrenic break from reality
>went to psych ward
>lost friends
>lost gf
>thought jews were trying to kill me
>believed in gangstalking and mkultra
>realized I was delusional after getting on medicine
>now have no meaning in life
Books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.11427822]

American Psycho.

[Anonymous No.11427826]

did it really come out of nowhere like that? like, do you have no theories on what might have precipitated it?

[Anonymous No.11427837]

>>11427826
>did it really come out of nowhere?
>>pothead
>>mkultra
>>11427822
Read that in high school. Also: Psychotic not psychopathic.

[Anonymous No.11427841]

>>11427826
he got probably "mkultra"ed into it

[Anonymous No.11427843]

>>11427841
>t. secret agent

[Anonymous No.11427862]

>>11427826
brb -- typing up theoria

[Anonymous No.11427871]

>>11427826
it all started with a bit of hegel. pos. mortal kombat. lacan, nick land, zizek, badiou, deleuze, crowley, spare, caroll, hine. wittgenstein and heidegger. sloterdijk. agamben. eliade, evola, and guenon. LSD DMT PCP MDMA NO2 DOM DPT 4-ACO-DMT THC.

[Anonymous No.11427874]

>be me
>raised agnostic
>public school
>risperdol
>gifted and talented but only for a year
>good at nothing
>always disregarded math
>smart but lazy (?)
>don't do drugs
>NEET since graduating highschool due to mental illness
>foreveralone virgin
>have always felt disconnected from reality
>never had friends
>don't actually believe in any conspiratard shit but severe OCD causes me to fixate on said conspiratard shit, rendering me a shut-in
>medication or therapy cannot fix my fundamentally obsessive-compulsive/schizoaffective(?) nature
>have always had no meaning in life
Books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.11427876]

>hegel

[Anonymous No.11427877]

>>11427874

[Anonymous No.11427880]

>>11427874
Smoke weed and fuck stoner sluts off tinder. Sow dem wild oats.

[Anonymous No.11427897]

>>11427880
Schizophrenics can't smoke weed dood, dont be foolish

[Anonymous No.11427906]

>>11427897
if they take cbd’s and neurotransmitter supporting supps, get sleep and stick to low doses yes they can. all of you sud be thrown in volcanos btw, this board is disgracefully boring and uninsightful now

[Anonymous No.11427920]

>>11427826
Marijuana is known to enhance the likelihood of psychotic disorders in those with a genetic predisposition.

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/link-between-adolescent-pot-smoking-and-psychosis-strengthens/

[Anonymous No.11427921]

>>11427906
Well this thread's a nice change of pace. Psychotic posters are the least boring posters on all of 4chan.

[Anonymous No.11427926]

Can you explain how you believed you got mkultra’d? I mean it sounds like it takes a process to get to that point

[Anonymous No.11427927]

>>11427877
thx. this was in my backlog, now it'll probably be the next thing I read

[Anonymous No.11427932]

>>11427926
Sometimes you gotta become gnostic and read VALIS

[Anonymous No.11427933]

>>11427812
Also, my sympathies anon. I have been hospitalized 3 times for bipolar mania after smoking weed. Schizophrenia is a truly difficult challenge to overcome and I wish you all the best.

[Anonymous No.11427935]

>>11427926
>trusting a schizo to think they got ultra'd

[Anonymous No.11427937]

>>11427926
But mostly it involves thumbprints of acid with rainbow family

[Anonymous No.11427946]

>>11427933
They said my schizophrenia had bipolar characteristics. Schizoaffective. Mostly due to mania and inability to sleep. Wish you well as well.