/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.11018071]

Write what's on your mind.

[Anonymous No.11018080]

>>11018071
Been thinkin’ too hard about apples, that’s how it always starts. Crunch crunch eat my lunch. An apple a day keeps the physician at bay, that’s what started my obsession with apples. Apple slices, apple sauce, apple a la mode, anything. I’d eat them to the core. Apples apples. Yum yum. And although I have been alone my entire life, I have always had apples by my side, so that I could eat them when I am hungry, or, as a good friend of mine from Chile once proclaimed: The best place to put an apple is up your ass. Shove it so far up that the worn can tickle your prostrate. I gently shove my one inch penis into the apple and cover its seeds with my seed before pulling out and taking a bite. Apples apples. I wish I had more money for apples

[Anonymous No.11018098]

The central goal of capitalism is to grow, to increase exponentially in all regards. This system worked beautifully (in some aspects) for the past few centuries, but we are reaching the boiling point and if a new system is not instilled within the next 200 years capitalism will either crumble or consume all except the uber wealthy in its quest for resources and money.

[Anonymous No.11018131]

>>11018071
>Jacques-Louis David
patrician taste OP

[Anonymous No.11018147]

>>11018131
I really don't get how he went from a rad jacobin to a napoleonboo in a single lifetime

[Anonymous No.11018223]

Escapism is a symptom of societal repression, not a cause.

[Anonymous No.11018278]

>>11018147
what are the differences?

[Anonymous No.11018326]

It's amazing how frequently my mind attempts (often successfully) to undermine it's own supposed desires.

[Anonymous No.11018331]

I'm elated and I don't know why. It's a nice change from being downhearted and not knowing why.

[Anonymous No.11018361]

>>11018071
Well thanks to your image Deathconsciousness is on my mind
https://youtu.be/sBxQR1lcbSo

[Anonymous No.11018397]

>>11018361
The unnatural world comes next

[Anonymous No.11018464]

I just came to the realization last night of how easy and free you can write and speak if you prase it like a poem or sing to a beat.
Why are we not taught this in school, is there something they don't want us to know? It seems too easy.
I deduced this formula, if you'd like to call it that, from not only reading the psalms and other poems but singing also by singing "Irish drinking songs" and just switching the words out quickly, trying to find a way to tie it all up, like a black velvet band.
All anxiety I once had about not being able to convey precisely how I feel has kept me from so much in life. This newfound freedom is like secret or magik power that has been passed down from time immemorial, only to be lost to a double-think mentality.
I've written "proses" to three lost friends of mine who I thought I had driven away never to be found again. Each of these people, two girls too, responded so genuinely they seemed to know exactly what I meant.

[Anonymous No.11018471]

>>11018071
I'm on a master quest, I want the whole world to see. I'm gonna be the very best, because all I've got to do is believe in me.

[Anonymous No.11018483]

>>11018080
52 BILLY APPLE
*2 minutes, 33 seconds* 1962.
Painted bronze, c. 5 and one half inches high.
>The artist took his name from
>his subject matter,
>although he has since
>turned from his apple obsession
>to making neon rainbows.

[Anonymous No.11018495]

I feel as if i'm merely observing my life pass by rather than actually living it

[Anonymous No.11018513]

>>11018471
:)

[Anonymous No.11018514]

>>11018495
yeah it's called having working eyes nigga ahahhahaa holy fuck lmao

[Anonymous No.11018525]

>>11018147
Technically none, Napoléon was not a man of politics and both Jaboins and later French patriots had their forces made up of sans-culottes/conscripts who were willing to fight well-trained soldiers for France.

[Anonymous No.11018530]

>>11018525
meant for >>11018278

[Anonymous No.11018547]

>>11018495
I've read this exact string of words atleast two dozen times on this website over the years, not even just on /lit/.

[Anonymous No.11018554]

>>11018547
I hear It's even worse if you go outside.

[Anonymous No.11018559]

>>11018071
Why is life so god-damned boring when you act responsibly? I have, previously, cleaned up my act for a couple years at a time - stopped drinking, stopped making reckless decisions, but I hate my life when I am like that. It's no fun. I prefer the chaos. I prefer me as I am now. What is wrong with me. It's as if I've eating 'the apple' and now I can't undo it.

[Anonymous No.11018561]

>>11018464
post example of proses fag

[Anonymous No.11018568]

>>11018547
the cursing in that image is gross

[Anonymous No.11018573]

I fucked up my life, if I can find a way to not be useless I might be able to make a comeback.

[Anonymous No.11018583]

>>11018561
Hey Kat how ya been?
Ive been thinking a lot these past few months about all I've experienced and I can finally say with confidence what has been in my head for so long. Theres thoughts in my head and I understand them to be true, but to pour them out on paper or in word had always been so difficult for me to do. In my cell I would sing and I realised that when put to a slight rhyme, rhythm, meter, or beat these word flow out like old wine matured for human consumption and enjoyment. The Irish were on to something, "her eyes they shone like diamonds" is a song I knew among others that when I sang I could just replace the words and I'd find myself saying so true how I feel and what I mean.
I guess I just wanted to say that what you taught me as well, the few lessons I knew you wanted so hard to teach, I did listen, though maybe ignorantly at first, but when left to ponder what you really meant I an see now why they label us "crazys"
This world is hard, we are not strong alone, through God and his Son I find the peace to finally say what I know should be said. Truth, understanding, hard realities designed by Him for no other reason but to have us appreciate what were given and learn by mistakes.
I said "Ignorance is bliss" and you told me "no, its not, thats what you're lead to believe, but true bliss comes from understanding"
I can never thank you enough for everything you had shown me, and continue to through the v-logs. I wish nothing more than to show my support and in anyway I can I would like to repay you.

Kat is a guy.

[Anonymous No.11018587]

>>11018098
cringe

[Anonymous No.11018594]

>>11018131
Every time I see this picture I think of the Monty Python skit where Graham Chapman blows his nose on his stomach.

[Anonymous No.11018611]

>>11018594
>ahhhh
>*shushushushushush*

I heard it

[Anonymous No.11018624]

>>11018071
i don't get morphology. is there a comprehensive guide or site with details on specific languages, or is it only tidbit shit from google? gone to several university libs and they only have tard-tier theory of morphology.

[Anonymous No.11018637]

>>11018568
ur gross, bitch

[Anonymous No.11018650]

>>11018637
>this artists ink blowing art
All I can picture when I see these was how when we did this activity in art class at school, the future nerdy twink art boy fucking loved these and made about eight of them.

[Anonymous No.11018651]

>>11018583
I fucked a gril named kat, she had nice tits.
Bit too low on the ambition though, she was a stoner for far too long.

[Anonymous No.11018658]

>>11018650
Turns out one of those nerdy twink fuckbois made that painting. How unreal.
>How surreal.

[Anonymous No.11018664]

>>11018583
This is too genuine for me to handle right now I'm going to need you to delete this.

FUck I haven't even CONSIDERED being that open with another human being in almost a decade now.

Also Kat sounds pretty cool if he helped you while you were struggling with faith.

[Anonymous No.11018681]

>>11018651
>and such is the way of Kat(herine)s and men

>>11018658
N.T.?

>>11018664
Having your world fall apart and be reduced to a *gross* cell definitely puts into perspective how much you take for granted. I would have eaten Pedro's dirty nail clippings for a month just to have a pen and paper (like he ever bites them off hahahaha)

[Anonymous No.11018698]

yo what FUCK happened to the thread on AAVE i wrote up a like semi-long slightly sincere reply to that shit only to get "specified thread does not existed" man fuck the mods

[Anonymous No.11018704]

>>11018698
yo, chill man, just start a new thread.
on reddit

[Anonymous No.11018709]

>>11018071
im sick of being a brainlet. i daydream about what life would be like with a 145 IQ (whatever you may say about IQ as a measure of intelligence). But I watch guys like Gregory Sadler and just wonder what it would be like to have his intelligence and also his drive and will to learn more and more -- yet the humility to offer his time to youtube. whereas im an insecure, monolingual brainlet that tries to act smarter than i am, and i have no real drive besides an innate intellectual curiosity. basically i hate myself.

[Anonymous No.11018710]

is it any way I can recreate my father as a tulpa?

[Anonymous No.11018726]

ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS

[Anonymous No.11018732]

>>11018709
I think you spend too much time on /lit/.

[Anonymous No.11018873]

>>11018651
Same here! Except she was fairly driven and played the cello.

[Anonymous No.11018874]

Anyone else ever fucked an elephant? The first time was scary, I'll admit, but asserting my dominance over that gray beast was a high like no other. The trick is to get a good grip on its tail and swing to and fro with your erect dick stabbing its elephant labia. Truly an erotic experience. Would recommend.

[Anonymous No.11018941]

I've just realized I either have to undo a huge portion of my editing or basically re-write my entire story scene-by scene for the sole purpose of having my antagonist's evilness sneak up on the readers

I just want to be done with editing

[Anonymous No.11018971]

>>11018941
but think of all the
>HOLY.
Do it for the reader, anon.

[Anonymous No.11019015]

>>11018971
Two issues with that

>1. The impact is dampened by the fact that it doesn't hit the reader all at once
>2. I just want to have a publishable novel already so I can be done with this like I was supposed to months ago

[Anonymous No.11019024]

>>11019015
>1. HOLY. can be felt long after the story is finished.
>2.You're not doing it right.

[Anonymous No.11019044]

You know, it's funny: Pope Francis and Trump are dissimilar in a lot of ways, but in other ways they're very alike. One big way is that, by their actions, they're supercharging their own opposition. Trump has leftists and Democrats incredibly fired up, and they have a lot of energy headed into recent elections. At the same time, Pope Francis' more open, Vatican 2-type actions have given enormous energy to traditionalists and hardliners. Again, the two men are so different, but they both seem to have given a huge boost to their opposition.

[Anonymous No.11019064]

>>11019044
>tradioninal Catholocism when?
I'm getting tired of being questioned as to why I abstain from meat on Fridays
>you know that's *just* for lent right?

[Anonymous No.11019216]

I’ll do it tomorrow. These words are my masters, they are above me, like a perpetual sun, always shining thier their dark light on me. I can’t escape their judgment, like a disappointed father that has given up hope, no longer willing to make an attempt to teach me discipline. Ashamed at my cowardice, laughing at my conformity. At nights I dream of days I want to live, the places I want to see and the people I want to meet, no, they would want to meet me, the me that accomplishes all that I dream of. They would want to meet him much more than I. I have nothing but contempt for the me of my dreams. The only thing I am good at is sabotaging his work, putting a halt to his progress. God forbid he does something with his life and leave me behind. What would I do without myself?

[Anonymous No.11019231]

>>11019044
>blue wave in next elections

that god debunked recently, polls show support for trump rising, step out of the liberal bubble and read brietbart or the_donald and see how retarded democrats look to most americans, these new starbucks protests are gonna kill the dems in november if they keep going lmao

[Anonymous No.11019237]

>>11018587
I'm sure anon is still young.

[Anonymous No.11019264]

I was born in the wrong generation

[Anonymous No.11019270]

>>11019264

>saaame

[Anonymous No.11019289]

>>11019264
same. the internet and social media were a mistake. a bit ironic i know but that's life. we would be better off without it.

[Anonymous No.11019303]

>>11019289
if i was born 50 years ago i would literally be uneducated and working in a factory 40 hours a week and have a significantly higher standard of living

[Anonymous No.11019305]

>>11019289
I feel like without the internet we could have been forced into becoming well-adjusted human beings.

[Anonymous No.11019338]

>>11019305
>well-adjusted human beings.
that's not really as much of an issue for me since i am pretty normie. i just find the banality of modern neoliberal life to be dreadful. there are little meaningful adventures to be found, no great wars worth fighting. i know i romanticize the past but i do envy those who don't have to endure our mundane existences. first world problems i know.

[Anonymous No.11019342]

>>11019338
>lamenting no great wars worth fighting

thats exactly the kind of shit fags where saying before ww1 and then they all died getting gassed in the trenches, which will hopefully happen to you once ww3 pops off in syria

[Anonymous No.11019354]

I'm terminally unlikable. I lived most of my life content to not put effort into developing any significant social bonds and got by on some kind of too-cool persona and shitty jokes. When I was living like that, I had tons of friends. But the past couple years I've had a massive change of heart toward authenticity and sincerity and decided to actually put some effort into being social and now not a single fucking person likes me. I don't spill my heart out entirely and I remain really positive and receptive to the other person but everyone seems to hate that.

Nobody ever messages me back, and everyone irl seems happy to chat for a tiny bit but would never want to spend time with me outside of classes. I'm laid back and non-demanding of people responding, but nobody ever does. Not a single person cares enough to continue a conversation, other than the occasional month-delayed pity response. And with people irl nobody seems to ever want to take the initiative to be more than light acquaintances.

At first I thought maybe I've just been writing and talking like a sperg now that I try to be as authentic as possible, but even if I go back to writing or talking like a retard, nobody seems receptive to anything beyond stupid jokes and banal pleasantries. I get the distinct sense that everyone dreads me being around and I'm just about ready to go back to being an apathetic loser with no drive for anything authentic or outside myself. At least I was happier then

[Anonymous No.11019363]

>>11019342
>thats exactly the kind of shit fags where saying before ww1
except ww1 is exactly the opposite of what i'm saying. ww1 was not worth fighting at all because it lead to the destruction of the old world and subsequently to the rest of the horrors of the 20th century including communism and fascism. the next war could be worth fighting though, assuming it is one to topple the current order and restore the Europe we once knew. What do I know though, I'm just a university student.

[Anonymous No.11019368]

>>11019354
yeah i always feel weird when people like me as if i have tricked them somehow like a little guilt

[Anonymous No.11019392]

I am only now beginning to notice women.

[Anonymous No.11019393]

I'm pretty lonely. I really want to approach this girl in my English class, but can't muster up the courage to do it. I know you're supposed to just not give a fuck, but I can't help it. I try tinder, but it doesn't help because they either lose interest or just don't respond. It's not my biggest focus, but seeing everyone else on campus hanging out, or talking to women is just occasionally reminds me that I'm lonely as fuck.

[Anonymous No.11019407]

>>11018071
What's on your mind.

[Anonymous No.11019415]

>>11019289
Not just the internet, TV, movies, and video games are just as bad. If anything the internet is a symptom not a cause

[Anonymous No.11019425]

>>11019393
You don't want a women willing to put herself on tinder, and women shouldn't want a man who is willing to use tinder.

[Anonymous No.11019446]

Ive never had a true friend in my life that wasnt acting on their behalf and by proxy as a make-do caretaker. If luck exists I have none of it, if love exists its never reciprocated in equal measure by both parties. Ive worked hard most of my life for it to go unnoticed or under appreciated, any mistake is highlighted too the point where it almost becomes a defining factor. To be the opposite of all this feels disengenuine to my character and I dont even know if I long for it and I dont know if what i have now is what I ever wanted but im convinced otherwise.

[Anonymous No.11019449]

>>11019425
You're not wrong, but I'm trying to get better at talking to them. I'm not ugly, but 90 percent of the time I talk to women they just lose interest, either because I'm not forward enough or they aren't interested in the things I'm interested in.

[Anonymous No.11019461]

>>11019231
>step out of the liberal bubble and read brietbart or the_donald
Step out of one echo chamber and into another, that’s the ticket!

[Anonymous No.11019463]

>>11019449
>your not wrong

whenever i hear that phrase i think of that "cum therapy" hypno where the narrator goes "i'm here to help confused girls like you. are you surprised that i called you a girl? you're a sissy girl, i could tell from the start. i'm not wrong am i?"

[Anonymous No.11019465]

>>11019461
if you read both echo chambers the bullshit cancels out and you get a grip on reality, and right now sorry to say the rightwing echo chamber is more sane than the wacky liberal shit

[Anonymous No.11019483]

I've noticed a common thread in my life, in which something good happens with a bang, but after there is only a whisper

I recently got with a girl, we've been close friends for awhile but especially close the past 4 months or so. It was entirely platonic until a few weekends ago when I went over to her house and we got together, spent the night twice, looked into each others eyes lovingly, maintained constant skin contact, kissed goodbye, the whole shebang
And now I haven't seen her since, we've had brief moments of flattery towards each other soon after it happened but not much lately, except she threw in an I love you but the context confused me so idk how to feel about it. We've spoken on the phone late at night but never really addressed anything. Pretty much has gone back to how it was before. We've both been busy and it's hard to tell when we'll see each other next, and if we do how we'll behave

It sucks, we got along very well, especially in person. Texting is texting but man, in person she fills me with great warmth, no longer feel lonely, and not even an absence of loneliness but a presence of feeling something special about the fact that I'm alive

[Anonymous No.11019487]

>>11018098
You should really start thinking by yourself and stop repeating anything that sounds mildly truthful.

[Anonymous No.11019490]

>>11019483
I wish you nothing but pain and bad health.

[Anonymous No.11019500]

>>11019483
>she threw in an I love you
You have the upper hand

[Anonymous No.11019501]

>>11019483
better hit it fast before someone else gives her the dick she needs, cuz then ur gonna feel real shitty

[Anonymous No.11019529]

>>11019501
THis, unironically.
No man has ever fallen in love head over heels for a girl when they first meet. The second she starts getting into that honeymoon love-y dove-y phase, guys will call it quits, but this is a huge mistake. Ride the waves, feel it out, but it really seems you two share something so don't just throw it away without trying. You can never go back to "just friends", so take a risk, anon.

[Anonymous No.11019540]

>>11019490
Thanks
>>11019500
Yeah but she said "hahahahah I love you" in response to me talking about my dislike of social media

[Anonymous No.11019559]

>>11019540
>Yeah but she said "hahahahah I love you" in response to me talking about my dislike of social media

[Anonymous No.11019567]

>>11019540
ah, disregard.
I'd guess she uses "literally" to negate all her hyperboles too.

[Anonymous No.11019579]

>>11019540
How did this confuse you? It's obviously platonic r*tard

[Anonymous No.11019596]

>>11019579
Because this was just a few days after I spent the night in her bed making out and she said we belong together, met for a reason, are in love, etc

[Anonymous No.11019614]

>>11019596
Ok then again how are you confused

[Anonymous No.11019626]

>>11019614
Idk I'm just retarded I think
There just hasn't really been anything since, perhaps I'm overthinking it cause we've been busy and because I just overthink everything.
I'm wary to initiate any type of conversation about us over text cause she's a shit texter and takes forever to respond, but at the same time I don't know when we'll next see each other so maybe if I don't initiate something there may be a worse outcome

[Anonymous No.11019670]

>>11018525
>>11018278

Napoleon was a conservative reaction to the Jacobins. The revolution was brought on by a clique of liberal-minded nobles agitating ultimately for a constitutional monarchy, but after the execution of Louis and the Terror they had been totally alienated from the revolution. The Jacobins worked to put an end to nobility and organized religion, the source of their power. First the Thermidorean Reaction and then Napoleon's coup were efforts on their part to seize control of the country and co-opt the vigor of the sans-culotte, directing it outwards towards the ancien regimes of Europe rather than inward as Robespierre had done.

[Anonymous No.11019710]

Come thro' the heather, around him gather,
Ye're a' the welcomer early;
Around him cling wi' a' your kin;
For wha'll be King but Charlie?
>FO WHA'LL BE KING BUT CHARLIE

Jacobites get my blood pumped

[Anonymous No.11019715]

This thread is complaints of existence from people who have too much freedom, too much luxury. This thread is complaints about insecurity, about being afraid, not to be turned down, but being so vulnerable you might feel ashamed to be accepted. The ego protection involved here is the beginnings of lifelong unhealthy narcissism, unhealthy because your superior self is never tested. This thread is suggestions to accept a job working for others, always for others, never motivation to become an entrepreneur, never to accept both a responsible path and a health amount of risk. You always hear people here on the way to some job or other people with jobs they hate, and no one recommends starting a business. There is never anyone in these threads that promotes self-reliance, never anyone who gives you the advice to learn how to evaluate and accept risks. Yet this is the path to success. This thread is complaints about society, about degeneracy, about faithlessness, and no of you ever do more than say to bow your head to a statue, to a sacred place, to a people. You listen to people complain about the world as though these transitions where just a part of life, that the complaints have always been the same, that humanity has the answers. But no one here says to you that these answer are unacceptable, that life is unacceptable, that conditions are unacceptable, that what is gone is not yours to assume, but what is yours, namely this world, must be. That this world is unacceptable seems frightening maybe because this phrase implies ethical beliefs, is still not as frightening as all your advice, all your feigned composer, all your nihilistic laughter and joking. I sense the weakness, I smell the fear, I'm agitated by your well-spoken, learned significance, your youthful, playful radiance. I hate your humanity from the sense of my animality, I hate with my sympathy for all that you should live and insects die, that children be born and animals be slaughtered, that each humane action, that each testament to empathy should end in justice, revenge, punishment. That a day that the gods live again and all is forbidden is my illusion I vanish behind, a coward fleeing from himself, his humanity, wrecking himself on whim, shattering himself into a thousand prayers, each spoken to give faith for a moment of silence that I might be brave enough to rely on my common sense, my ability to think, to be richer as the dragon coiled around a tree, feasting on the ripe fruit, ready at a moment to act, to do, to be conscious once more than I am only human, that my body will fail me one day, that I need others, that I want, and want only what my wants leads me to further want. I'm not given over to hope, I'm surviving, and I will not trade security and prosperity for this sense of a mockgod forever. I shall participate as I have done throughout the centuries and then I shall move on to the next, but I shall not speak about the universe conspiring with me, I will not say this.

[Anonymous No.11019725]

the importance of blogging
living free
talking about literature
i can just do it
sleezy local bars
ameteur rock bands with teenage drummers
as low as it gets
a dive bar a dive bar
programming, listening to electro, doing weed
listening to a jordan peterson podcast
writing some short stories
yeah yeah yeah yeah
terence mckenna was funny, but wrong on almost every specific issue he discussed
brian eno, saint pepsi, popol vuh

[Anonymous No.11019760]

>>11019725
Ironically bad, I hope.
You can never be too sure.

[Anonymous No.11019875]

>>11019715
this.
*echoes back*

[Anonymous No.11020135]

>>11019715
>"Morning Jim, Where you headed?"
>"Wagecuck job, and yourself Allan?"
>"Oh, just opening up shop"
>"Shop? What do you mean, you own a store"
>It's more of a "business", I'm kind of an, ehh how do you say, entrepreneur."
>Since fucking when Allen? Last I heard you lived in a basement and shitpost on /lit/
>Well. see, that's the beauty of it Jimbo, A wonderful, well-spoken anon gave me the idea to sell my shitposts.
>Sell. Shitposts? But how?
>Easy as pie my wagecuckie friend, first just destroy your entire ego a-
>huh?
>yeh. You've been to /x, it's all they talk about. That and how to fug spirits. The succubus shitposts are a hot seller closer to All Hallows Eve. Next step is easy, you denounce God for putting you on Earth, because what an asshole right? giving us water and oxygen. Fucker should have stuck my ass in space.
>Gotcha, go on next step, please I insist.
>Oh no that's it. To hear anymore of this will cost $6.95, because from here on out I just shitpost about how great man is and doesn't need anything but himself and a way to make money.

"I shall not speak about the universe conspiring with me" for me
t. Actual Christian theology

[Anonymous No.11020147]

>>11018071
nothing but an empty echo chamber does my mind occupy
and I hear nothing but faint whispers that say
"its smells like shit in here"

[Anonymous No.11020159]

>>11020135
kek

[Anonymous No.11020183]

>>11018071
ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS ARROWHEADS

[Anonymous No.11020198]

>>11020147
posting from the county lock-up I see.

[Anonymous No.11020205]

>>11018071
apparently deathconsciousness is very popular now

[Anonymous No.11020245]

>>11020205
>Heaven

[Anonymous No.11020274]

should i buy all of joseph goebbels diaries for $800? it's about 13k pages and they're not being printed anymore

might be a waste of money but they could raise in value too and i might sell them for a few thousand bucks in a few decades

also i wanna read them the only ones you can get nowadays are excerpts that are about 20% of the total text

[Anonymous No.11020280]

>>11020274
You could buy half of the entire western canon for 800 bucks if you spent your money intelligently.

[Anonymous No.11020297]

>>11020280
thanks for that useful information

[Anonymous No.11020312]

>>11020274
>also i wanna read them
Why on earth would you like to do that?

[Anonymous No.11020324]

>>11020274
Invest in Gold!
Novel idea, implying that it won't be illegal to own in a few years time. Investing is wise, though and books seem a new medium try out this trade.

>>11020280
Or a decent home library

>>11020297
*smiles all around*

>>11020312
Maybe learn how this guy when from looking like owo to oh.

[Anonymous No.11020433]

>>11018071
I feel that I have entrenched myself in the toxic mindset of constant cynicism and hopelessness - as a child brought up in a religious family, I viewed the world in a more spiritual manner - I found comfort in the presence of figures such as God and Jesus, and was assured that whatever happened in the world was meant to be - and this was something I gracefully accepted, where I would then move on to other creative and childish endeavours.

Now, I trudge through life with bitter resentment and skepticism. I question things around me less out of genuine curiosity or will to make improvements, and more out of some juvenile hatred towards the climate of things - a desire to destroy everything I don't agree with. Along with the adoption of the use of irony to mask this feeling - heck, even use as a means of humour - I believe that I have become less happy with things.

This is something I've observed widely, in fact - the act of genuine optimism or excitement of something has been swept aside in favour of snarky remarks and sarcastic views on life. Why is it this way? Is it because we are aware of how easy dreams are to crush?

I am aware that now, I am afraid to dream - afraid of being smited and having everything crushed. But I believe this fear is, in a way, already crushing me.

I would like to dare to dream again.

[Anonymous No.11020446]

>>11020433
Read Critique of cynical reason anon

[Anonymous No.11020587]

>>11019393
In a similar situation anon. In truth I’m not trying at all but it still hurts because I know I’d never be able to do it anyway.

[Anonymous No.11020592]

>>11019463
Trying to get off that shit right now, been in my life for too long.

[Anonymous No.11020620]

>>11019715
I liked the beginning part then it felt like you got off track. Good ideas though. I don’t mind working for someone else if it’s a job I believe in or respect. But I agree with your general advice. Interesting part about the faithfulness as well.

[Anonymous No.11020663]

I'm the anon that always wants to quit his shitty job in the mall and on Friday I think I'm going to. I was at work this morning and my boss was told I was recycling. Crazy, I know. Wanting to help the environment instead of just throwing people's shit into the trash bin I would take it home and put it in my own recycling bin. Apparently, since I'm on company time, I can get fired for that. It doesn't matter if it takes the exact same amount of time to put it in the garbage as it does in my bag I take there for that reason. It doesn't matter. I can get fired for it, so I have to stop. Well, I'm stopping. I'm not going to work for that shitty company anymore. They don't give a shit about us. No company does. We're all just fucking minions. I'm done with it.

I'm going to do my own thing after I take a few days to rest and return to not being miserable, and then I'm going to start my own thing. Fuck working for other people.

[Anonymous No.11020684]

I wrote a 30 page love letter to the world with simple but rare ideas on how to deal with knowledge, language, technology and political debate in the XXI century. I want to send it anonymously to politicians, professors, journalists, bloggers, youtubers, influential people.

It's not in English btw, but will translate in the future.

[Anonymous No.11020772]

>>11019465
this

[Anonymous No.11020876]

I crave violence, to inflict and receive pain.
The feeling of hot blood dripping onto me, the crazed eyes of a being thought to be civilized, the tearing of flesh between my teeth, the wet snapping and popping of bone underneath the skin and meat, I want to experience these things, to be gifted and gift others with it
I might just be going through a phase or something

[Anonymous No.11021254]

Life is very strange and it seems that everyone knows me from somewhere...but im not sure where, and i can never place if it is paranoia or something actual. my friends are acting weird as well and well fuck...all of my art is suffering right now because of it. I want a quiet calm life, but i keep encountering obstacles from those that don't want me to succeed. shit is kinda fucked, but otherwise some things are absolutely laughable and i can call myself smart for figuring out the games that are being played, because even i have to admit they are pretty clever

[Anonymous No.11021360]

>>11020684
post the first page here anon

[Anonymous No.11021381]

I just spend all day not writing. Rate my guilt /lit/

>>11020876
try to watch The Piano Teacher

[Anonymous No.11021552]

Desperately in need of something stronger than weed, everyone is starting to look suspiciously similar to Tom Noonan. If I can snatch up my boy's dexedrine I can tweak out for a day until one person is completely indistinguishable from the next.

can't fucking wait.

[Anonymous No.11021628]

>>11018071
Where does this neo-plationist get off reintroducing the idealist dualism?

[Anonymous No.11021657]

Anyone here read poetry? Know any good resources for finding new authors? Reading through some of Robert Frosts poems and thoroughly enjoying them. First time reading poetry for pleasure

[Anonymous No.11022006]

>>11018071

I don't think I think like I should.

When I read a book (or watch a film or listen to music or try to appreciate much of anything, tbqh), I don't truly feel much of any impact. I can be as gung-ho to read the book as possible, but as I read I catch myself skimming, skipping lines or paragraphs, missing details (sometimes vital), and altogether experiencing a disjointed, crude version of whatever story I'm attempting to digest.

The only times I can really read a book (watch a movie, listen to music, etc.) and feel like I'm actually appreciating it, reading it thoroughly, feeling some connection or emotion to it, is while under the influence of something or another: alcohol, amphetamines, etc.

I'm not entirely sure how to rectify this. On a larger scale I believe it permeates my interaction with life in general and is the cause of much anxiety and depression on my part. It feels as if to solve the problem I'll have to retrain the way my brain has operated since I was a child.

[Anonymous No.11022126]

>>11022006
I had a similar issue. Find my eyes darting across the page and missing words and it just feels like a text to speech program. One thing I’ve found helps is actively trying to picture what’s happening. In a story there has to be some descriptor of something. While reading make that picture real in your mind, it doesn’t matter if it’s right or wrong or you add in extra or what you think something they didn’t describe might look like. I read a bit slower now but I don’t find myself skipping or skimming anything because everything is important to the picture in my head. I’ve applied this to all kinds of reading, poetry, philosophy, nonfiction. Even if something is described, almost everything and anything can have some image to describe it. Hopefully it works for you like it’s worked for me. I finally enjoy reading again.

[Anonymous No.11022159]

Trying to juggle simulationism, liberal christianity, chaos magick, and panpsychism. It's kind of hard, especially since I can't find time to read as much as I would like, and since nobody will talk to me about it since I come across as insane.

[Anonymous No.11022242]

>>11018071

By browsing this board I feel that I am getting more and more estranged from the real world. It all began in a year of great loneliness and depression. Now I'm fairly ok, I have nice friends, I am fairly attractive, I can talk in public and flirt with girls. I may be a bit quiet, usually, but nothing abnormal. With a little effort, I could have a perfectly happy and normal life. I just keep coming back here, though, to insult/get insulted by people who do not read nor have any idea on how books work most of the time. Sometimes I spend hours, even entire mornings on this board instead of doing my university work. Moreover, I feel like this place is a toxic echo-chamber of pessimistic ideas and deranged sexuality. Lately I realized I am now uninterested in any girl that doesn't look like a lit qt and that I expect anons green text stories about picking up lit qts (or failing to do so) to become real. But my absolute lowest point was when, last week, I started to make a vocal imitation of Grug to mock people in real life. I didn't even mean to it, it just came out automatically.
How do I get out of here? I want to be ok again.

[Anonymous No.11022299]

>>11020587
At least there's always shitposting on lit h-ha

[Anonymous No.11022326]

>>11022242
Get out? Buddy do you not remember the slogan of the site? Just be glad you're on one of the better boards.
>did you seriously make a gurg voice?

[Anonymous No.11022333]

>>11022299
A-And get sick digits
>checked my dude

[Anonymous No.11022344]

>>11022242
Leave and never come back, this website is literally crack. I've been here on this same board for 10 hours today and I've learned nothing, NOTHING. LEAvE

[Anonymous No.11022354]

>>11018071
i realized most of you are 18 year old’s with 105 iq’s and that the older posters avoid this board most of the week because of /pol/ and leddit, i also realized libs, ancaps, cons, commies and fascists are subhuman and i dont want to help u anymore

[Anonymous No.11022356]

>>11022333
>c h e c k e d

[Anonymous No.11022363]

>>11022344
This is a literature board, shouldn't you go read some literature then?

[Anonymous No.11022375]

>>11022344
truth

[Anonymous No.11022389]

>>11018874
>The trick is to get a good grip on its tail and swing to and fro
Nice picture, made me smile

[Anonymous No.11022395]

Do any of you have experience with depersonalization/derealization? It's very interesting. I currently feel a mild form of it, so that I always detached from my surroundings. In other words, healthy people act within the world, but I act 'to' it, and hope that my actions look normal. Someone online described healing himself as getting back on the same wavelength as everyone else, and that's a really good analogy. More extreme cases of dp/dr are supposedly kind of terrifying, in that you look in the mirror and see someone else. Have any of you had this? What would you say?

>>11022333
Nice trips

[Anonymous No.11022417]

>>11022395
do less lsd, that helped for me

[Anonymous No.11022424]

>>11022363
That's exactly what I meant. I can't even read anymore because I keep coming here to insult you retards. Goddammit I'm addicted to the feeling of feeling superior to other human beings. LEAVE

[Anonymous No.11022428]

>>11021657
If you enjoy Frost, I recommend Thoreau's poems. I have a Signet pubs. version of Walden that included his essay Civil Disobedience and an entire poem section in the back.

[Anonymous No.11022434]

>>11022424
You realize that doesn't make sense right?

[Anonymous No.11022438]

>>11022333
Those 3's

[Anonymous No.11022453]

>>11022417
Never tried it honestly, it's a genetic thing for me. My family tree is filled with nuts.

[Anonymous No.11022978]

>>11022428
Thanks! I’ll check him out

[Anonymous No.11022993]

>>11021657
https://youtu.be/be-JYAmHMGQ
close your eyes

[Anonymous No.11023124]

Would be setting down an hour a day to read, be a good thing, with the purpose of getting back into reading, improving my writing etc.?
Like Im organising my days strictly now and leisure time is strict, so I wouldnt want to feel like Im wasting an hour of my day.

[Anonymous No.11023160]

>>11018080
Apples tastes like juicy crunchy flower leafs floating in the water drip dropping from my dull carnivore gums. Eyes drop dripping, old age has finally caught up on my now skinny bones, beating my nicotine lounges for my last breath of oxygen - light throwing itself in the window against my white bed-sheets and face. Slowly my body goes limp and then numb: first the toes and feet which i could hardly move in the first place, then the knees and fingers, arms and stomach, all the pain leaves my body which now feels like a larger and larger balloon - now the shoulder, neck, the eye now a blur limply staring at the sun. My heart feels so incredibly warm with love for everyone - i got no more to store for myself no anger anymore. The brain goes limp. No vision anymore. No hearing, smell or thought - only a long continuous breath and then

[Anonymous No.11023257]

Was an extremely warm start to Spring today and walking across campus I saw hundreds of other students lounging around on the grass slopes in the sun with one another, chatting and drinking and laughing and playing music. Walking past all this on my own and remembering that I didn't know any of them and had made no real connection to any part of my experience at uni made me feel genuine embarrassment. Even though no one would know me as a complete loser and no one was looking at me I just felt a raw and stinging embarrassment at the state of myself.

[Anonymous No.11023337]

I'm a suburbanite working a menial plug-pulling job at an IT company. I've lost a lot of weight recently and became much more attractive, nigh model tier (honestly). Thing is though I'm extremely fashion unconscious and would like to better myself in that regard.
Judging by the position I'm in though, I'm better off just continuing to do all my shopping at Kohls and focus on matching colors, aren't I? It's just complicated because I don't want to be too much of a tryhard but I don't want to look ridiculous either.

[Anonymous No.11023367]

I'm a suburbanite working a menial plug-pulling job at an IT company. I've lost a lot of weight recently and became much more attractive, nigh model tier (honestly). Thing is though I'm extremely fashion unconscious and would like to better myself in that regard.
Judging by the position I'm in though, I'm better off just continuing to do all my shopping at Kohls and focus on matching colors, aren't I? It's just complicated because I don't want to be too much of a tryhard but I don't want to look ridiculous either.
I'd ask this on /fa/ if there was a general advice thread but I couldn't seem to find one

[Anonymous No.11023504]

>>11022326

I did the voice I image Grug has. Which is like between the imitation of a retarded guy and a caveman. I did it while mocking an intellectual during a conversation with a friend. I quoted something he said on an interview with a Grug voice, contracting my facial muscles to look like grug, in my head imagining a Grug caricature of the aforementioned intellectual.

[Anonymous No.11024193]

If there was any justice in this world, I would be allowed to kill my birth parents for they did to me. Anyone that looks at me only sees the little boy no one wants. The fact that they both not only still walk this earth, but have people that love and respect them sickens me.

[Anonymous No.11024207]

>>11024193
Did they molest you/fuck your ass?

[Anonymous No.11024216]

>>11024207
No

[Anonymous No.11024223]

>>11018071
I feel the top of the roof come off, kill everybody there. And I'm watching all the stars burn out, trying to pretend that I care.
But I didn't. No one ever does. And I won't. No one ever will. Can't you see it's all flown out of my hands?
And our clothes are all too often ripped, and our teeth are all too often gnashed. And it lasts as long as it possibly can.
And I just don't accept this. I just don't accept this at all.
Faces sweaty, arms, and legs, what a glorious set of stairs we make.
We kill everyone with arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads, arrowheads...

[Anonymous No.11024234]

>>11024216
Then shut the fuck up

[Anonymous No.11024268]

>>11024234
this

[Anonymous No.11024314]

>>11024234

And people wonder why I think this species should die off.

[Anonymous No.11024391]

I hate how if you don't fit into a certain mold then there is something wrong with you that needs to be fixed. If you're not the same as everyone else in so many ways then you are an anomaly that must be corrected by whatever means possible. There is no real individuality. Or, at least none that matters. There is only manufactured individuality that must conform to certain things or you are admonished for it.

I sound like an angsty, ranting teenager but I am late 20s and still feel this way.

[Anonymous No.11024403]

>>11020663
Good luck, anon. I'm proud of you.

[Anonymous No.11024407]

>>11018071
Dog is dead now. Still reading The Crossing. Was going to clean up my apartment but I don't feel like doing much.

[Anonymous No.11024413]

anyone
who shatters windows
is bound to get a few
cuts

[Anonymous No.11024421]

>>11018071
The Invisible Man is a fuckin good book man.

[Anonymous No.11024423]

>>11021628
I don't know what you just said but fuck you too buddy.

[Anonymous No.11024424]

>>11024391
There's nothing angsty about this - its always been true.

[Anonymous No.11024429]

>>11024413
That's stupid. Have you ever shattered a window on purpose? Only people who shatter windows by accident have a worse chance of getting cut, otherwise you're just probably standing back and throwing rocks.

[Anonymous No.11024430]

>>11022333
Well done

[Anonymous No.11024436]

I hate time
It constantly moves on with me being able to do anything about it. I will grow old, become out of touch with the world, and die confused.
Every time i think about it i feel like i'll have a panic attack. I have become a victim to nostalgia and this disturbs me greatly. I do not want to age, i want to remain youthful and lively.
>i'm fucking 19 and thinking about this shit, what is happening to me?

[Anonymous No.11024437]

Fuck my go nowhere, pointless, dealing with retarded managers, I'm signing up for the volunteer work and going back to part time

[Anonymous No.11024442]

Manufactured. But is it really manufactured? Indeed, we are "free", and our progenitors before us were "free", but are we really free? If the blacks walk around with chains of past wrongs leaved upon them, what do the Irish, the Poles, and the former serfs walk with? Are those doomed by history doomed by their constitution? If so, God, or at least our genetics, doesn't play fair.

Type on a keyboard.
It's slightly cold outside. Something about loneliness and post-post-irony vomited into a site older than some of the people on it. "Emotions are so boring, so cliche, etc."

And he will major in Computer Science, for he did not feel passionate enough for an English degree and teaching wasn't his thing. And oh, the places he will go, the things he will see, the people he will come to know (and hate)? There's nothing to complain about. But ah, there's something missing, the lack, et. al.

he stopped thinking about the why a long time ago
only now does it reach him on lonelier nights awake in a bed anxious to be asleep
and wittgenstein and nietzche float through his head with his shitty board experiences
and the dreams where something bad happens and i can feel myself running
i wake up the next day with a greater need for caffeine

[Anonymous No.11024445]

>>11024436
not^

[Anonymous No.11024451]

>>11024436
Find genie. Give self eternal youth.

[Anonymous No.11024465]

>>11024403

Thank you, anon. I'm depressed to say that after sleeping on it a bit I'm kind of hesitant in my decision. I haven't quit yet (I'm off for two days so I don't really even want to go there to quit) and I don't know if I want to quit during the weekend where it's the roughest for everyone. If I don't pull it off like a bandage though I will be in that cycle of wanting to quit but then finding reasons not to.

It's very conflicting in my brain right now, honestly.

[Anonymous No.11024534]

>friend calls me crying saying he needs me to help him with his essay
>already denied him weeks ago telling him that I have no knowledge of global trade policy
>The other person he asked promised they would write his essay but ghosted him today, two days before it is due
>Get to his house and he cons me into doing his essay
>Get home and remember that I know nothing about global trade policy and its impact on child labor, nor can I learn everything I need to know in order to write it
>Tell him that
>Keeps hounding me and telling me how fucked he is
>Tells me I'm the only person he knows that ever comes through
>Refuses to pay for a an expensive writing service
>Feel bad for the guy even though he put me in a terrible position and wasted my whole day reading about economics way above my level (...spent like an hour reading a fifty page Krugman paper...)

Why am I such a schmuck and why do "friends" do this?

[Anonymous No.11024604]

>>11024534
Cause no one told him plainly No. Nor did you get angry with him for manipulating you. Both people who tried to help and didn't, meaning you, are bad friends. That kind of weakness is unkind to the other person. Your supporting a bad habit. Grow the fuck up and confront people when it's best for them. You sound like a fucking liberal.

[Anonymous No.11024625]

>you are bad friends
No no, his friend is a bad "friend" he can't seem to take no as an answer and most likely a dickhead. Don't write his essay anon, let him fail and deal with his responsibility himself. If he can't, or for some reason blames you, cut him out of your life

[Anonymous No.11024635]

>>11024234
>Did they molest your ass
>No.
>Then shut the fuck up

best prose in thread, by far and away.

[Anonymous No.11024663]

>>11020663
This is unbelievably honorable I hope it is true, I understand the plight but didn't know what to do. I worked in a nursery, so you'd think they would care, but beyond the compost pile was the garbage that is where all of our other waste goes. Paper, only paper is all I ever threw out. Scraps, bags, pieces of plastic. Nothing of no reusable value ever went into most of out bins.
An idea I see in your little lines that for me will work just fine. I'll start bringing a bag to my new nursery and take home pounds of paper to help save one tree.

[Anonymous No.11024708]

>>11024625
That he already didn't do this, that both didn't do this already is why he's a bad friend.

[Anonymous No.11024728]

>>11024604
Well worded and needed, message received.

[Anonymous No.11024733]

>>11024663

It's true and depressing. I figured maybe if it didn't interfere in my work what did it matter? We get done before time 99% of the time anyway and sit around. What does it matter if I took a few additional minutes to put something in another fucking bag instead of one that went to the dump. By the way, if you have RECYCLING and TRASH on your bins it's lying to the public when both go to the same place. Fucking liars.

I understand they own me (disgustingly) when I work for them but seriously what does it matter if the job is done? I quite literally complete all my tasks and have at least an hour to spare, and that's when we're understaffed by four people. They want to casually threaten to fire me too? And complain that things never get done when it's three (sometimes four) of us doing it and doing it well? Fuck them. It doesn't matter how well we do it the general, stupid consumerists that buy shit at the mall will fuck it up again. Same shit every single day. They don't give a shit and I am tired of picking up after them. The only thing they do is spend money on expensive shit they don't need and I have to clean up their fucking mess and get bitched at for recycling.

Fuck.

They even know I am passionate about the environment (I went to school for it) but still don't care. It just makes me angry. I didn't really care if they didn't do it whilst I wasn't there but when I am there I have them at least give me their bottles and stuff to take home. It bothers me.

[Anonymous No.11024753]

Lo peor de estar enfermo es que no estás sano, o sea, nuestro propósito en la vida es estar sano, siempre sano. El único momento en que nos damos el lujo de estar enfermos, y es que lo necesitamos de repente, estar enfermo, perder la lucidez, es cuando nos emborrachamos, cuando nos deshidratamos y se nos seca el mate y nos desinhibimos. La marihuana para mi es algo parecido, pero más cercano a una catarsis, a una sanación. Cuando fumo me sale la creatividad inconcebible por otros medios, pero también los demonios y la ansiedad y un montón de mierda que a muchos no le da. Pero a mí sí. Pero también me sano. Me sano cuando se me pasa el efecto y si antes me sentía un siete de diez ahora me siento un ocho o un nueve, nunca diez porque se me secan los ojos y amanezco casi cansado de tanto manipular datos. Con esos datos me gusta escribir, como lo estoy haciendo ahora. Me gustaría ser experto en algo o tener la certeza absoluta en algo para escribir un ensayo. Nunca he escrito un ensayo. Ni siquiera estoy cien por ciento seguro de qué es pero quisiera escribir uno. Un ensayo. Podría ser experto en hablar mierda pero de eso ya hay el mundo entero. Todos deberían escribir un ensayo acerca de hablar mierda, todos a su manera. Con horrores ortopédicos, con signos esdrújulos, con metaplasmos y diástoles tenuistriatas. En todos los idiomas: indoeuropeos, centroafricanos, ainu, mapudungun, quechua, feroés, entre tantos. Quien lo desee, podría inventar un idioma mientras eswritruajnë das svit et vrero si desean pueden llamar a un editor que los moldee. Eso habla mucho de las personas. Mi jefe fue una persona moldeada. Digo fue porque ya no es mi jefe. Renuncié. Eso es lo que hacen las empresas, la sociedad, incluso las relaciones de pareja, te moldean, te cortan el pelo, te sacan los aros, te hacen escuchar otra música. No lo notas, porque pasan años. Por eso me gustaría encontrar una lámpara mágica y pedirle al genio que me permita darme una vida lo más austera posible, pero sin estrés ni preocupaciones. Nada de que la bencina, que las deudas, que la inconformidad. No. Nada de eso. Viviría en el sur, en el bosque, eso sí, con una mujer a quién amar, que seamos distintos pero iguales, blanco y negro, azul y amarillo, uña y mugre. No tener que ser un engrane aceitoso que vuelve a casa solo para comer pan con mantequilla y beber café con azúcar refinada y que prende la tele para ver farándula. Con esta ya me despido. Esmeradamente como el embustero de Esopus. Deberíamos repartir toda la riqueza del mundo y farreárnosla. Hacer el amor todos con todos hasta explotar en lefa y gonorrea y buscar la muerte de manera colectiva, total, el mundo se va acabar. Y tampoco vamos a morir de inmediato. Probablemente viviríamos más, y felices. En ciento cincuenta años vamos a estar todos muertos, el amor de tu vida va ser polvo y huesitos, tu enemigo que odias va ser polvo y huesitos, tu hijo recién nacido va ser polvo y, tu padre...

[Anonymous No.11024775]

>>11024728
? You're not me

[Anonymous No.11024782]

Just picked up Brave New World and read several chapters. Honestly I want to finish the entire book right now, but this also reminds me of why I stopped reading (years ago) in the first place. I feel like I can exist in one of two dimensions. Either I'm isolated from everyone else, from reality, by whisking myself off into some fictitious universe. With it's ever more complex characters and plot... Or I'm here on earth. I plant myself firmly within "it", standing squarely in the middle of the real world. Grounded, I make sure I eat properly, get my 8 hrs of sleep, laugh and smile at the proper times during conversation and obsess over what are ultimately materialistic goals. I'm tired of feeling so foreign; as if I'm stuck behind a pane of water, sandwiched between glass. Fiction and non-fiction alike just remind me that I feel more comfortable not participating in reality, and it sucks. I haven't connected with anyone... I have never connected with anyone...

[Anonymous No.11024833]

>>11022395
I've experienced mild chronic derealization pretty much all my life. It's a consequence of constant hyper self awareness and a projection of your behaviour and decisions into the future, while observing your past. "Living" within all three time planes at once really fucks with your perception of the "present moment".
I've also had some pretty intense episodes of derealization in my life, besides the chronic feeling I live with. It's extremely uncomfortable, and has only once, given me a very short anxiety attack.

I'll tell you this much... I have never met anyone that has understood ***me*** - that is, my character, my being, my perception, my philosophy, etc - and I suspect I never will. I feel alien.

[Anonymous No.11024851]

>>11024733
>They even know I am passionate about the environment (I went to school for it)
What did you study, I ask unironically. You sound quite intelligent and I'm curious what drives you.
The whole thing about "They sign your check, just do as they say" Is the mentality that got us *here* today. Stand up for what's right, civil of course, that is that HDThoreau would want.

[Anonymous No.11024855]

>>11024775
>implying that all information that's passed is intended solely for the ignorant mass it's thrown at.

[Anonymous No.11024887]

>>11018071
I know there is a goal, and I think I know the way to reach it, but I still want to die every day, even though the goal-in-sight is divinity. Aaaaahhhhh£

[Anonymous No.11024919]

>>11024753
Quality shitpost, compadre!

[Anonymous No.11024953]

>>11024753
queue?
I only speak English 'n love

[Anonymous No.11024955]

I'm a much more social and outgoing person when I'm drinking and if I can't make the sober version of myself behave in such a way I might as well become an alcoholic.

[Anonymous No.11024974]

>>11024955
nah thats not a good route i used to be that way, id hang out with some chicks at night drunk and we'd be having all kinds of fun laughing and flirting and shit, and then they'd come by the next day when i'm sober tryna link up with me and i'm just like full autism mode like "hello, yes i remember you, what do you want?" and then they will awkwardly leave, its like bitch if ya wanted the dick last night was your chance dont try to come back then next morning when u wake up horny ho

[Anonymous No.11024994]

>>11018098
Think of capitalism this way perhaps.
Capitalists want to gain capital. This could be money, fossil fuels or some other natural resource. But have you considered the most valuable resource for human beings? The well-being of humans is their most valuable capital. Since well-being leads to a more peacful and productive living space for all of us. Not capitalism is the problem. It's just the economic system.
The things that go wrong atm in the world are of ideological/psychological/biological sources.
If you want to cure the cancer of this world read the austrian economics school, depth-psychologie and willhelm reich.

[Anonymous No.11025001]

>>11018223
True dat

[Anonymous No.11025016]

>>11024994
>Not capitalism is the problem. It's just the economic system.
commies btfo
spooks btfo

[Anonymous No.11025028]

I somehow ended up digging deep into psychologie and and human's social and cognitice behaviour as well. First ans foremost i think it is just my temperament and archetypal destiny to become an intellectual but on the other hand I sometimes strive to hard for perfectiom and beat myself down if i fail to reach my inhuman goals.
Luckily I found a way to cope with that through REBT. Look it up. It might help you aswell.
From the many books I've read since the last 2 years I can slowly begin to construct a cause I want to commit my life to. It's obviously to help people with the knowledge i seek out.
I think that humans need to know themselfes mich better and to achieve full maturity they need to learn to think, feel and communicate rationally and as effectice as possible.
My goal is to institutionalize some kind of curriculum that teaches kids how to be proper humans that can think for themselfes and take they freedoms and obligations seriously for theor own sake. In the best case I can found a private school when Im 50 or something like that.

[Anonymous No.11025029]

Lately I've been thinking about my personal nature. I like to see people do well, but at the same time I really love bringing other people down. Its really enjoyable even though I know its wrong. I think its some fucked up power thing, but idk. I just have been thinking about the fact that I'm kinda a bad person, and even though I restrict myself the default is bringing people down or getting angry. Anyone else know this feel?

[Anonymous No.11025038]

>>11025029
probably because you're a fucking loser aka a hater aka crab nigga, are you african american by chance?

[Anonymous No.11025054]

>>11025028
Me again.
I also thought hard and long about starting a youtube channell and speaking my truth there but I think that is a devilish shortcut to at least the inpression of fame and reach.
I might start to post book reviews of books I deem helpfull or profound but thats about it.
I also started writing on a sci fi comic series but am too scared/busy to continue.
I wonder if choosing clinical psychologie as a stable source of income is a safe route to avoid higher risk which might in turn lead to higher reward. That's just my perfectionism I guess. Weighting every option to a feather in such a neurotic manner has to make me stressed out baka. I'll just accept the way I chose for now and will follow my gutfeelings.

As you might have guessed I'm somewhat neurotic(who isn't in this society?) but much worse I am very lonely since most of the people around me can't have conversations on such a highly intellectual level as me. That is not a problem per se but my goal is to further my developement and i son't see how to further that by talking to my anyone about celebs and netflix shows or by taking drugs.
Thug life keep it up /lit/ and don't kill yourself please. It would only mark your cowardice

[Anonymous No.11025057]

>>11025038
But those things aren't true.

[Anonymous No.11025073]

>>11025029
Try to not down yourseld for your wrongdoings. Try to develope unconditioal self acceptance (USA) since your mere existance grants you the right to a good live no matter your past, present or future actions.

Try to explore your feelings over anger and so on to try and find a way to communicate them in a way that might help others to avoid triggering them if possible or if there is a real cause to them live them out.
Look up creative aggression techniques by georges bache (i believe). He taught ways to integrate aggression into healthy rituals and behaviour since it has been repressed in our society. Feeling your being able of assertive yet non destructive but rather creative agression opems up many doors to a fulfilled and confident life. Also look up REBT for optimizing your thinking and emotions

[Anonymous No.11025111]

Note to self: Posts with images are more likely to receive a reply.

[Anonymous No.11025131]

>>11025111
Thanks for the tipp

[Anonymous No.11025182]

>>11024782
>I haven't connected with anyone... I have never connected with anyone...
Interpersonal relationships are an integral part of being a human, dont miss out on that before you leave this plane. My advice is to create a sense of urgency for yourself. You have one life, carpe diem etc. Light a fire under your ass, before you know it you're going to be 80 on your deathbed
I get that you're sad but being sad about it isn't going to fix the problem. I feel foreign too, but if you meet enough people you will find ones you will click with

[Anonymous No.11025195]

>>11025028
I see what you mean
In order to be free of his own limitations, man must learn how to communicate properly. To have such good ideas sitting around in your head will do no benefit unless he can express them fluently. When I was younger I found myself under great anxiety because when I would try to relate my ideas to others, they would fall short of the intended purpose. There is nothing more frustrating than trying to say something only to find yourself without the means to do it. I believe this is why people today claim to have so many mental disorders. They know in their minds what is true and undeniable, yet can't for the life of them spit them out and make complete sense. We also now lack critical reading skills beyond those imposed by teachers will "what does the stained glass mean here" and kids will attest "absolutely nothing, it's just to sound nice". We are all ignorant beyond belief, each and every generation, but truly we have not seen this type since before the invention of the printing press. Instant gratification, spewing out new-speak "same, omg, desu, ok" have replaced entire essays for the sake of precious time. When will we learn not to waste(or horde needlessly) the essence of life?

[Anonymous No.11025198]

>>11023124
>would setting aside time to read help me get back into reading?

[Anonymous No.11025204]

ITT

[Anonymous No.11025208]

I really wish I had friends like Dave Masters and Gordon Finch. I so desperately want to have a decent conversation. I hate being trapped in my own head

[Anonymous No.11025209]

>>11025195
Damn are we soulmates?
Do you believe there is a way to teach humans to be the master of their own fait? I do

[Anonymous No.11025228]

>>11018131
I think I just saved it from another wwoym

[Anonymous No.11025230]

>>11025204
FUUUUUCK DELETE THIS NOOOOOOOW

[Anonymous No.11025236]

>>11019264
play this at my funeral

[Anonymous No.11025246]

>>11024955
>>11024974
I'm the exact same. Flirty and fun and spontaneous when I'm drunk, but when sober I'm a dry weirdo that's irritated by everything.

[Anonymous No.11025252]

>>11025209
Could very well be, oh Brother of mine.
Yes, within reason, you make yourself get up, don't you?

[Anonymous No.11025257]

>>11025073
>REBT > CBT
Thanks anon.

[Anonymous No.11025331]

>>11025028
>REBT
>>11025257
Why mindfulness and not this? Seems much more practical for real day to day application. Going to do some more research but I'm sure it will prove to be of much value.

[Anonymous No.11025341]

>>11018071
Inverse qualitative relationship between subtlety of posts and hour of posting (americlap time)

[Anonymous No.11025358]

>>11018071
I'm friggin' hammered right now. I'm taking a little break from studying before i head back to the books!

[Anonymous No.11025436]

>>11018071
I'm freakin' book'd right now. I'm taking a break from alcoholism before I head back to the booze.

[Anonymous No.11025447]

>>11024833
Try mushrooms if you can. They helped me with this

[Anonymous No.11025475]

I don't want to go to work

[Anonymous No.11025646]

>>11025257
It's my lifes purpose to bring these things to the light of as many people as possible so I am very content that you will look at it

[Anonymous No.11025653]

>>11025331
I believe mindfulnes is just a buzz word for rational thinking and emoting.
Have you read waking up by sam harris?

[Anonymous No.11025656]

>>11025475
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6ZVEMzvZIY

[Anonymous No.11025657]

>>11025252
Woah... That send shivers down my spine.
Look up NewThinkingAllowed if you love ideas

[Anonymous No.11025704]

My dear friend: It is with considerable guilt but great relief that I admit to myself that I don't like you. You outwardly portray all of the qualities I find honorable in a man, and when I first met you I looked to you as somewhat of a role-model. You're intelligent, well-read, athletic, sociable, conscientious, and people respect you; yet whenever I'm around you, I can't shake the feeling that all of this is entirely motivated by vanity. Above all else, it's your laugh that made me change the way I see you. I've never distrusted someone's laugh until I met you. You laugh after nearly everything you say, even if what was said isn't remotely funny. It comes off as though you're trying to remind everyone in your vicinity just how "cheerful and positive a guy you are," and it brings into question a lot more about your personality.It's possible I'm just really jaded, or maybe I'm projecting onto you. In either case, it doesn't explain how unsettled I feel when I hear you laugh.

[Anonymous No.11025717]

>>11018071
What is power but an illusion we all agreed upon?

[Anonymous No.11025771]

>>11025704
Do you plan on confronting your friend directly?
I highly recommend it but if you do be cautious not to damn yourself or him. If you are interested in the technical necessities for functioning human relationships you can read up on carl rogers.
He viewed the human relationship as a place of total acceptance(which means not judging the person but the deeds of that person but still accepting both), empathie and congruence.
I believe you can fix whatever bothers the both of you. And if not with him then without him you deserve a meaningful and content life

[Anonymous No.11025898]

>>11018071
She

[Anonymous No.11025912]

>>11025898
oh no

[Anonymous No.11025929]

>Philosophers I could beat in a fight
Sartre
Schopenhaur (easy)
Spinoza
Kant
Wittgenstein
Kierkegaard
Derrida
>Philosophers I'm not sure I could beat in a fight
Camus
Nietzsche
Heidegger
>Philosophers who could beat me in a fight
Socrates
Plato
Aristotle
Seneca
Hegel
Descartes
Aquinas

[Anonymous No.11025933]

>>11019354

Post a picture. There has to be something you're missing.

[Anonymous No.11025938]

>>11025717


>>11025929
Being this arrogant and narcissistic isn't healthy

[Anonymous No.11025947]

>>11022006
>>11022126

Same. Especially for audiobooks when I'm doing mundane things around the house. Unless I'm picturing how the scene looks, I will lose focus and think about something else.

I've been having to rewind a lot more lately, but I've been enjoying the "journey" of books more now than just being able to say I finished a book

[Anonymous No.11025950]

>>11019354
Same here.
My conclusion is that people are mentally surpressed by society and thus have, over a period of thousands of years forgot how to lead healthy and living relationships. That's how i got into psychologie. I was searching for the reason why i couldn't bond with regular people and I found that it was neither my fault nor exactly theirs. Although I liked to blame them for not revolting against society I know recognize that this is very very hard seeing it in my own developement.

[Anonymous No.11025977]

>>11019354
Been there big time. T B H you're probably just insecure, people pick up on projections and act based on that , if you think you're either terrible or great then people will treat you accordingly (you do find some people who will see straight through this, and they're lovely). After years of pondering "what the fuck is wrong with me?", I came to find that there was no substantial answer to that question, and the only problem was the question itself. You seem like a cool, honest guy, keep trying and you'll find some people who are on your wavelength. It worked out for me in the long run.

[Anonymous No.11025986]

>>11025929
Nietzsche had syphilis so you could beat him up too

[Anonymous No.11025992]

The greatest men to ever live were these three: Julius Caesar, Napoleon Bonaparte, and Joseph Stalin.

[Anonymous No.11026035]

>>11025992
We don't know the names of the greatest men who ever lived

[Anonymous No.11026066]

Retailers and fast food multinationals should be burnt to the ground across the country

[Anonymous No.11026081]

>>11019393
>>11023257
You two should meet up.

[Anonymous No.11026090]

>>11026035
If we do not know their names, then clearly they were not great enough

[Anonymous No.11026135]

i worked out the other day and wore workout clothes i hadnt worn since last fall and now my ass is itchy, it must have had some long dormant fungus in it, wtf

[Anonymous No.11026319]

>>11020663
>I think I’m going to
You won’t

[Anonymous No.11026344]

>>11022006
>toxicomane
>surprised he doesn’t feel as good as when he’s under influence

[Anonymous No.11026402]

>>11023367
Easy shopping list for a poor anon who wants basic tips on how to not look dumb

Just get some low dr martens, or airforce or vans, etc
A light blue Levi’s plain, be sure it’s not longer than large (like 30/30 or 33/33...)
Wear with White h&m t-shirts
Then full plain black Levi’s
Wear with white or black h&m t-shirts

Now try not going full black, you have to add one piece of colour, most of the colours will work, like a brown jacket or a red wool shirt

When you have the basics, you can start building from there, now you can go cheap for the basics not for the rest, best is to find classic pieces of clothing in thrift shop, like a Levi’s jeans jacket (don’t wear it with the blue jeans)
The easiest is always to search for classics, with the least amount of details (like you wouldn’t want straps on the shoulders of your jacket) and the least amount of colours (1 colours by item, 2 or 3 by fits)
Colours are really important, they have to go well together, find palettes, be sure they go well with your skin
Then it has to fits, but you don’t want to be full tight or full baggy, generally go with a kind of slim pant, and a slightly more baggy whatever you wear on the upside

When you have your closet full of plain, simple, classic (and kind of boring), you can start to build something good

Or at least you won’t look autistic

Be aware of the accessories too, never too much, two is good, a bag and a watch or a beanie and gloves, etc.
Be sure to buy them all black it’d be easier to pair with
Good luck

[Anonymous No.11026443]

>>11024733
>what doesn’t it matter
It’s not in the protocol, it’s different, maybe it’ll eventually leads to more complicated issues, maybe people will notice and headlines will be “x’s staff must recycle trash, company won’t”, short answer is different behaviour makes boss sweaty

What I don’t understand is why you’re still working there, people like you can’t work for people like them, you should have understood that by now

[Anonymous No.11026467]

>>11024955
Yeah I stopped drinking for 2 months now and I begin to get my confidence back, it’s like I’m drunk all the time now, minus the awkwardness of being a druntard
You should not drink more but less

[Anonymous No.11026820]

>>11025992
swap stalin with alexander the great and it's 100% correct.

[Anonymous No.11026837]

>>11026090
You dense fuck look at the state of humanity. If the greatest men had already touched the face of earth they haven't done shit. Also I think anon referred to.the ordinary men that do their work with dilligence and responsibility to uphold our morals and society which makes them the greatest of all men without being public heros

[Anonymous No.11026927]

>>11025182
Thanks for the advice anon. It's not that I don't try, I'm actually very actively social *because* I know it's a numbers game. The more people you interact with, the higher possiblity you'll click with one... I'm just ruminating on how exhausting it is, really. It's a bummer to find a YouTuber, a writer, a philosopher, or a fictional character, etc. that you connect with better than anybody you've met so far in your own life... The odds feel so stacked against us atypical-thinkers to bump into others we can identify with, and find solace in. Know what I mean?

I just started college (again) and still haven't met anyone I feel comfortable with. I'm constantly placating to other people's preferred communication style – the superficiality of it all – without being able to use my own. I like to be open, candid and real. I like to discuss philosophical concepts and personal opinion in a casual, non-pretentious, way; just taking things as they come and feeling alright in the present moment, if I can manage it.
Ever notice how so many default to negativity? God, how people constantly complain! What's wrong!? I just want to reach out and embrace them, beam as much acceptance and the feeling of "it's alright, you're okay" at them and into them as possible. It's just sad and lonely, but I want to help nonetheless... Hopefully I'll find my kind soon.

[Anonymous No.11027050]

>>11026467
>it’s like I’m drunk all the time now
Isn't sobriety the most freeing choice of all?

[Anonymous No.11027337]

They say that happiness comes from appreciating what you have, so perhaps I'll feel less depressed if I do something creative. If I just get something out there, it'll be a little better, I think.

[Anonymous No.11027381]

>>11026467
this is not true to reality.

[Anonymous No.11027624]

For a lot of people I'm probably annoying and draining. If I let myself get carried away by that it can feel pretty awful. On reflection, though, I stop caring. I will try to be more agreeable to them. I will try to be less grating. But I'm not going to make a herculean effort. In the end I don't need them, so it's alright that they don't need me either.

[Anonymous No.11027635]

>>11018709
it shouldnt matter how much better others are you should still strive to better yourself, intelligence always leads to arrogance

[Anonymous No.11027711]

>>11019231
>>11020772
>>11019465
hahahaa you boys sound so butthurt, that anon wasnt even saying anything negative about trump just noticing a similar parallel between two influential world leaders. But you had to get defensive about it and make it out to be something it isnt. Have the polls rose after the syrian strikes? After he betrayed his base a second time? Even his most fervent supporters abandoned him (ann coulter, alex jones). Fucking laughable, you are the ones who need to get a grip on reality, Trump is a total insider now, he flipped his agenda, Obama flipped his agenda, and bush flipped his agenda. Everything Trump talked up to being was for nothing.

[Anonymous No.11028391]

>>11023257
It really just hits you all of a sudden and you feel shit.

[Anonymous No.11028472]

>>11028391
Yeah. It creeps up on you because its surprisingly easy to just take things one day at a time then all of a sudden you realise that your life is very different from what its 'supposed' to be but you still have no concrete idea of how to really do anything about it.

[Anonymous No.11028487]

>>11028472
there’s nothing you can do, they’ve all bonded already. if you are in upper division courses its over, they’ll always view you as anomalous and threatening for being alone for so long. im actively shunned when engaged by people my age for having not been in the midst of all that already. the socially poor get poorer with time. highschool-college is a critical transition where having roommates, pledging or being inculcated into a close-knit clique is important. no one cares you don’t have friends, and they’ll only ever insult you by pushing you towards insufferable strivers in clubs and people at bars who don’t give a fuck about you, and are there to relax and see their current companions. there is no way out. i cling to the few companions i have now knowing ill likely be totally abandoned by the time i get my professional life in order. makes you want to die doesn’t it?

[Anonymous No.11028510]

I wonder if I broke something along the way.

I've spent more time inside my own head than most, experimenting with how to actually change the way I think.
And I wonder if maybe understanding some things just isn't good, or maybe I came to wrong conclusions, or stopped short of actual understanding.

It may be trite, but that's why I'll keep it to myself, excepting a few online strangers.
I hope that's a good idea.

[Anonymous No.11028526]

>>11019392
Imagine how many you must have run over on accident by now.

[Anonymous No.11028536]

>>11028487
This fatalism isn't good anon. Sure there are pre-established relationships, but that doesn't mean you can't make new connections. I know it can be difficult, but people make new connections as adults all the time. You can do it friend.

[Anonymous No.11028539]

>>11028487
>the socially poor get poorer with time
I agree with this part definitely. Once you've missed one step in the natural progression of your social life then it just becomes impossible to keep pace with everyone else. Not sure I've felt people icing me out as you've described because it feels more like a problem with myself than with them. Its just become impossible to make any real connection with others for the time being, although I think you and I will both end up alone by the time our 'professional lives' really begin.

Its a horrible claustrophobic feeling because once you've lost that framework of friendships or a real social life it becomes unfathomable that you could ever just build one up again from scratch. The idea of a return or an eventual engagement in the normie lifestyle is a myth that many people on 4chan tell themselves in order to go on living their lives.

[Anonymous No.11028573]

>>11028487
You sound like a virgin lamenting that you've never had sex.
Once you get older you'll understand better and give less of a shit.

Don't believe me?
Think back to yourself from before now and all the things you believed
Think about how trite and incorrect you were about those things.
That's going to keep happening for the rest of your life.

[Anonymous No.11028609]

I've lived in Cambridge all my life, and it was while I was reading M.R James last night I realised that years ago, I threw away the chance to study literature at the University. If I believe that hard work pays off and that anyone can do anything, then why did I never consider that I could do anything? I've never cared about getting a degree in Literature, and I was a B grade student in school, but maybe I could've actually done it, maybe I actually had the potential to study my absolute hardest and achieve what I had the potential to do. It's a silly thought and something not worth considering.

If we all have potential then that means that we're constantly discarding it. It means I threw away the chance to study in the place many of the writers I love did. Not that it was ever desired, but still, I'm melancholy about it.

[Anonymous No.11028632]

>>11028487
Just detach yourself from your will to form connections, you won't find them anywhere. Read Nietzsche, get redpilled and "rise above the herd"
Really not trying to be an edgy teen when I say this btw, I just feel like friendships for the sake of having friends are overrated and as some anons rightly observed earlier, nobody cares about actually being a friend to anyone anymore, they just wanna have "fun"
Moreover, most of the "fun" activities imply index-pointing and shaming "cringy" randoms, namely, those who, just like you, are socially inept-which is no better than directly bullying those people, it's just what the mediocres do to support their garbage ineptitudes and "get a high", because they're easy targets and working on yourself is hard
Sorry for not having made my point strongly enough, I truly think you heard all this before but it serves to reenforce it because if you did, you haven't acted in concordance

[Anonymous No.11028686]

>>11028487
been feeling this way too.
Got moved away from the few friends I had in sophomore year of highschool, was alone at my new school, went to college near my old highschool and was alone, and my old friends still keep up sometimes but I get to be social an average of like 10 times a year.

I don't really have a "friend group", just a few friends I see individually every now and then. I love them - far better than nothing too - but I can't help but want for more. I want to be one of those people that has like, four mutual friends, and they all hang out together a couple times a month at least, and legitimately have fun.

[Anonymous No.11028701]

>>11028686
Might I add, some of those friends are too busy being professionals or studying hard to have time for friendly relations. I'd get it if they just said so, but they go as far as to act above friendship with plebs like me because they have a gf and a salary job. I've been calling them busyfags.

[Anonymous No.11029197]

>>11018568
I agree Anon. Take er easy

[Anonymous No.11029224]

but there is nothing on my mind...

[Anonymous No.11029226]

>>11022438
Where's the 'stache?

[Anonymous No.11029269]

I've been stuck in a rut for a bout 6 months that I feel like I'm lying to myself about getting out of. I've kept putting out job applications but they're not going anywhere. It makes me feel like there's some invisible "it" factor to peoples' personality that everybody has got but me, like everyone in the world has had a third arm all this time and I've never noticed, and as the only man with two arms I've been passed up for work due to my disability.
I've gotten back into writing, but all I can muster is doing incoherent automatic writing in Google Docs (because I don't want to spend money on renewing office) which makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something but isn't actually going to provide anything to my material life.

I want to ship myself out east to Dalhousie to do an English master's, but I graduated my Bachelors with honours, and I can't get any work either with tv stations or ad companies as it stands and I don't see how a master's would help me further beyond satisfying my desire to eat up more knowledge. So far the only people who've expressed genuine interest in my talents are companies that pay you to make essays from whole cloth that wealthy Chinese students pass off as their own to pass their mandatory liberal arts credits.

[Anonymous No.11029278]

>>11018071
I have to stop procrastinating. Too many pathways to memorize in too little time. One out of two days gone. I'm fucked. I'm going to go shower and start

[Anonymous No.11029290]

>>11029269
That's what you get for not going into STEM niBBa

[Anonymous No.11029308]

It seems I can be happy alone, with thoughts, dream-scapes, inventions of mind

If I could only work out a food situation
Purchase some cheap plot of land, and grow food, and be off the grid
I don't need all this stuff, when it comes down to it. A natural place, my creative mind, the sun, the wind, crickets, birds, these are more than sufficient.

I want so little, and I have to engage with the game just to gain so little back.

[Anonymous No.11029346]

>>11029308
>Wants little is unhappy getting little back.
Make up your mind senpai

[Anonymous No.11029361]

>>11029346
I havent gotten anything back

[Anonymous No.11029366]

>Quit drinking 7 months ago after binge drinking everyday for 3.5 years.
>Drink seven beers over 5 hours last week
>Best I have felt in years
>Drink 4 or 5 beers a couple days this week
>Even the mildly intoxicated state is significantly better than normal life
>Drinking seems to be the only thing that makes me feel genuinely happy
I feel like I'm doomed to live a life of empty boredom or drink myself to death in my early 40's.

[Anonymous No.11029374]

Soylent actually makes me angry, like it disgusts me at a fundamental level. It's everything I hate about our society, packaged and _sold_ to people who are _proud_ to consume it. What the fuck?

[Anonymous No.11029381]

>>11029374
I'm really getting tired of this soy-posting bullshit \
Soy is in many things, it's almost unavoidable

[Anonymous No.11029395]

>>11029381
I don't even care about the fucking soy meme, it's the idea. If it was made out of liquified meat I'd hate it just as much.

[Anonymous No.11029415]

Why are people so often so confidently wrong? Like they'll be completely wrong about something and they'll talk down to you about how they're right and you're wrong, and then you easily prove they are actually wrong and you are actually right, and they don't learn anything from it and the process repeats itself a few days later.

[Anonymous No.11029518]

>>11018071
Days are like sitcom reruns. Bad sitcoms too, where none of the jokes are funny and the people in it are unlikeable and you want to punch their faces in. Everyday I smile and say hi and greet people and talk school-related things like assignments no one really cares about nor knows when they're due. They do the same, too, and we compliment each other like, "Nice shoes," or, "Nice shirt," though none of us give any thought to them. It's like a script. The city air smells foul and the cars are too loud, but I like the volume of people there, it's comfortable. Something about being like a sardine in a tin can gifts unto me a sensation of calm glazing over my eyes - glazes them shut. I walk around constantly trying not to puke my lunch back up but because of this I've lost a good deal of weight and I look better.

[Anonymous No.11029544]

>>11029415
>Like they'll be completely wrong about something
this made me wince, please refrain from posting here until you learn that talking and inscribing your thoughts into the written word are not the same and that unlike your pleb professors, hyper agreeable sociopathic friends and family, store clerks and grills on tindr we do not have to tolerate your insolent disrespect for good form.

[Anonymous No.11029624]

>>11029226
Oh hello Brother Anon487632487 It seems you're remembering something that, well, Is just wrong. What "'stache" do you mean; a natural disguiser? Big Brother had always been cut clean.

[Anonymous No.11029795]

>>11029544

I would like for you to suck my dick. Please.

[Anonymous No.11030058]

aww shit 30 minutes until new albums on apple music, what will come out today, better be sth sick

[Anon No.11030194]

As a Christian, I must confess for those who do not know, to masturbate, smoke, and have a little vice is nothing that is inherently wrong. This is where your freedom of choice comes in because enjoying is not a sin; gluttony is. I'm taking a girl out on a date, she has fallen for me because I've shown her His light, I don't wish to make a fool of myself on first impressions, so I'll jerk off a night or two before to release stress. All for a reason, my son. Cigarettes cause cancer, but really what can't here in the 21st century, so to incense my body and send unconscious prayers up, just like Native Americans thought. "A life without some vice is not life at all" is a quote I first heard in this great movie here, the lesson it's taught is so simple yet lost. All is Quiet on the Great Western Front.

[Anonymous No.11030210]

>>11030194
I would say that gluttony itself and not the pleasure is the vice
but yea, this post is spot-on

[Anonymous No.11030217]

Usually, I get so lonely I can’t sleep. Tonight I’m so happy I can’t sleep. Fuck!

[Anon No.11030230]

>>11030210
yeah, thank you.

[Anon No.11030277]

>>11030217
I've had insomnia since Lent ended. Been thinking a lot and it's really quite strange, I'm just so afraid to fall asleep. Last night was the first time since Easter I actually went and tried to sleep normally. I wasn't afraid anymore but my mind just keeps going. I need some meditation techniques. I believe the Lord answered my prayers and gave me what I needed for being so steadfast during the Lenten season, but Father this power is so great my monkey brain just can't make it slow down! Show me the way to use this productively, my fibula is fractured and I need my rest!

[Anonymous No.11030297]

>>11030217
Tonight I feel off. There's a dash of anxiety swinging wildly inside my gut, and I'm jumpy as hell. I want to calm down but nothing I have eases my nerves. I think sleeping is going to be hard tonight. Well, harder than usual.

[Anonymous No.11030313]

>>11030277
What is going on here?
>>11030297
I'm jumpy as hell, I should be feeling good and tired. It's been a long day. I got my first truck, and my friend in the army mailed me back, and it made me really happy. I got my driver's license yesterday. I love my truck so much

[Anonymous No.11030315]

Someday I'll find her
And I'm still reminded
Maybe she's best in dreams
She's still the best I've seen

[Anonymous No.11030325]

Where do I start on Tolkien's nonfiction/literary theory? I'm working on an essay on his usage of fairy tale/mythological structure as a vehicle for Christian/anti-modernist/naturalist messages. Right now I only have On Faerie Stories and his letters but I need more primary sources.

[Anonymous No.11030326]

>>11030315
why did you feel the need to write a shit poem?

[Anon No.11030355]

>>11030313
Revelations? perhaps. The end of the World, no science tells us *when and how* that will happen. Maybe just the death of some really big ego, a shift, demons expulsions in Christ Jesus' name. I really don't know, but God makes this world tough to *weed* out the weak, and the meek shall inherit the Earth

[Anon No.11030366]

>>11030315
I sent her a text today.
Worded it so well I myself nearly flew from my chair, but sadly I have no confidence she's seen it, and less so that I'll get a reply.
But, it did help me realize, that I really don't need her, just had to get stuff off my chest. I hope she is okay and that I didn't upset her. J- I love you, well maybe loved, but when we said "long time" as a joke, I took it to heart. I'm still Y-, just no longer yours.

[Anon No.11030377]

>>11030355
>>11030366
I don't want to say it, so I trust you could see if you took the time to think that maybe synchronicity is not just some ploy to make people feel worthy, that they are actual Miracles no matter how small.

[Anon No.11030387]

>>11030355
>>11030366
>>11030377
I feel His power in me! Is this what it's like, to be a true disciple of Yours? My Lord how I can thank you I know what to do, just speak freely and teach what I know to be true through You. Peace, my Brothers. Give Gloy unto Him!

[Anonymous No.11030391]

I think I realized that I should read more not because i’ll remember important lessons learned or quotable lines that I can whip out when I need to but instead, I am a easily moldable man that assumes the speech and often attitude of whomever happens to be talking to me in real life or through books.

Reading perpetuates a personality of imitation and if i’m doomed to always be what I last interacted with, i’d rather be a great mind.

[Anon No.11030399]

>>11030387
Evil doth reign in confidence so deserved, Even simple misspellings can ruin the game. Treat your language with respect, just as any other great creation, and you shall see true power beyond courage.

[Anonymous No.11030406]

>at university today in lecture hall
>sitting waiting for lecture to start
>stand up to let girl past
>my arm is hanging loose but in front of me
>she begins to slide past
>her bum touches my knuckles
>she feels her ass bump over each one of my knuckles like centreline rumble strips through the lycra pants she's wearing
It was a great moment, friends.

[Anon No.11030409]

>>11030399
Amen Amen I say unto Ye, repent now while you can and feel true Glory.

[Anonymous No.11030414]

idk what the fuck you guys are talking about with this christian shit

[Anonymous No.11030419]

Why do I love Madonna so much more than modern pop sluts? There is literally no difference, am I just a subconscious racist?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6p-lDYPR2P8

[Angie No.11030426]

>>11030391
hmmmmmmm

[Anonymous No.11030447]

>>11030414
That's quite alright my son, for it is not for fish to know why men breath or for men to question the flight of the birds. Flowers grow, birds eat, don't worry about it, now, just put your trust in God.

[Anonymous No.11030474]

>>11030447
I've been on the internet for most my life and dealt with a lot of assholes and had flame wars and whatever, but I've never wanted to reach into the screen and kill anybody for it. Not as much as I do now. Where do you live? I'm going to fucking kill you.

[Anonymous No.11030491]

>>11030474
You're right, my human error, brother anon. Forgive me, please.

[Anonymous No.11030503]

No one here seems to be writing what was on their mind, instead they all either seem to post memes or prose they think will impress /lit/

[angie No.11030505]

>>11030491
dude it's okay, I'm sorry for lashing out at you. Idk why that kinda talk makes me so angry. Maybe I am an angry flawed person. I am reading through Buddhists texts right now and it makes a lot of sense. But I've always disliked christianity idk

[Anonymous No.11030518]

>>11030505
I don't claim to know all but my own experience and to say "my son" was something I picked up in jail before being introduced to His truth. It's to keep my meter going in my head you know. It's so easy to say and carries such power only fathers and Priests can use such a term.
I say a "Hare Krishna" before my rosary prayer in order to base myself back into this natural world and call on all saints, Christian or not, so I may venerate them and allow them to intercede on my behalf.
What have you learned from the Buddhists texts sofar anon?

[angie No.11030551]

>>11030518
I haven't learned so much, I read the miracle of mindfulness and along with charles bukowski (Solipsistic writing) have found a greater clarity in my young adult life. I am noticing a lot more contradictions in myself and working towards...idk what. I am reading In The Heart of the Buddha's teaching right now, I'm gonna stay for a short time at a local monastery soon. I hope to learn a thing or two there

My friends and my friend's grandma talk to me about christianity a lot, I know vaguely of it. My best friend just wrote me from the army and sent me some pages from the bible. I sorta like what I am seeing but christianity just doesn't become me

I have to go to bed soon but thanks for interacting with me. Forgive my bashfulness

[Anonymous No.11030620]

>>11030391
Imagine if you will an experiment in which, because of this mirroring that happens to you, you take up interactions within natural settings, you go to the forest for long periods or you simply walk for days on a trail, allowing your personality to come into contact with only the earth. Does your personality mere rely on the attitudes that you last encountered, do you perpetuate a personality of imitation forever? I ask because this question has occurred to me during these experiments on myself, and what I have found is that this is an ability that is useful, but that being mindful of this ability I can avoid being led to feel or act as I don't wish to. I researched this a bit and it turns out that it is quiet a common characteristic of good politicians, to adapt to the social group or be open to some event, some work. You should not think of this as being doomed unless you feel manipulated towards feeling in a manner you don't want to, or thinking in a manner you don't want to. The core of you can remain, and it may be an aesthetic that holds you together, but that aesthetic can also be rationalized and understood, your values can be purely aesthetically held in place as an identity, and also be rational. I know your experience and I think it is very common and you will adjust to the identity solidification stage eventually and then not feel empty or without control. You just lack some tools right now. Good luck. This places preys on people like you.

[angie No.11030628]

>>11030620
I feel this way, is the book related?

[Anonymous No.11030635]

>>11028487
I had a group of friends at college, a big one, we would accept anyone, you just have to be acquainted with one of us then be presented to the group and boom, kind of a loser club, was a lot of fun, sometime you just have to make one friend that have have a lot of friends

[Anonymous No.11030663]

>Thought I was going to fail economics
>Just got my results, A-
feels GOOD bros

[Anonymous No.11030701]

I don't think people dislike social incompetents, but more that they're ambivalent to them. Honestly, it's probably refreshing for some people to not have to deal with any baggage from past relations. And they'll often look past awkward speech and anxiety if you show that you've got good intentions. I'm still friendless, but that's what I've learned so far, though your mileage may vary.

[Anonymous No.11030716]

>>11018098
> none of that was real communism lmao

You are on /lit/ but it dont seem like youve read much at all

[Anonymous No.11030777]

>>11018223
True true

A society to love and be loved by us something not available in these times

[Anonymous No.11030801]

>>11030663
Nice!

[Anonymous No.11030846]

>>11028632
>I just feel like friendships for the sake of having friends are overrated
I agree with this.
I find that the best type of friends, at least from past experience, are the ones made when there is some sort of mutual goal
(e.g. Friends in high school having the mutual goal of finishing secondary education with good scores, or joining a band with the mutual goal of creating good music, or even making acquaintances for potential business opportunities).

Anything other than that seems like a complete waste of time.

[Anonymous No.11030882]

>>11025208
literally this. i haven't had a conversation with any substance for as long as i can remember. If someone thinks they're telling me something important they only reword something that i told them or they heard somewhere else. i have the same conversation 50 times a day and its all so repetitive. i have the same conversation 50 times a day and its all so repetitive. i have the same conversation 50 times a day and its all so repetitive.

[Anonymous No.11031058]

I want to reread this thread

>>/lit/thread/S10936047#p10936324

[Anonymous No.11031135]

>>11031058
go for it bud

[Anonymous No.11031276]

>>11030297
I was right. I couldn't fall asleep. Almost 4:30 now. The day is going to suck.