/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.10950513]

write whats on your mind

[Anonymous No.10950515]

incredibly gay

[Anonymous No.10950522]

>>10950515
not you btw, just treating this as a ctrl+v thread

[Anonymous No.10950523]

>>10950515
its ok i accept you for who you are

[Anonymous No.10950541]

>>10950513
what the fuck should I do? I have no real goals or dreams and "the real world" just feels foreign and absurd. I've wasted so much time...

[Anonymous No.10950554]

GOD BLESS USED BOOKSTORES

[Anonymous No.10950619]

>>10950541
become a chef on cruises

[Anonymous No.10950631]

>>10950513
im drinking some nice beer rn

but i really miss girardfag

>>10950541
lmao snap (probably my fave pepe)

i cant tell you what to do, but having no real goals or dreams is the first step towards accepting the world as it is. not that you shouldnt strive, but casting off the yoke of having to fulfill some kind of destiny (which is something all young adults feel they have to do) can actually be pretty fulfilling and liberating, and not at all the nihilistic spiral most people expect it to be.

the real world is also foreign and absurd, but that doesnt mean it isnt worth your time. in fact, if you can find something that isn't foreign and isn't absurd, yet is still worth your time, i'll literally eat my shoe

[Anonymous No.10950638]

the white man is oppressing me, the collective white man.

[Anonymous No.10950647]

>>10950619
no, but thank you
>>10950631
thanks anon, that is actually comforting.

[Anonymous No.10950653]

>>10950647
np dude, we're all gonna make it

[Anonymous No.10950857]

I'm so fucked

[Anonymous No.10950887]

Girl I'm starting a relationship with is so gull of dreams and hopes, she's starting her own business and earns pretty well. I'm a hopeless twat with no future and no money.

[Anonymous No.10950918]

Imagine being a woman and actually being able to be proud of the desire men feel for your flesh and holes. Get up right now and go start posing your fat man ass in front of a mirror, your man ass cheeks that are only slightly different from a woman's because of different hormone secretions from a gland in your torso, really spread and lift your thighs and cheeks apart so the mirror can get a good look at your hot taint and shit hole where your turds come out of, and think: If I were a woman, this would be great, this would be all I need to do. I'd be all done being a "good human" already! My HOLES give me worth, and the FAT DEPOSITS around them are just icing on the cake. No matter what else I do, no matter what I create, think to yourself as you keep your ass cheeks spread apart and your anus hole visible, this hole, this hole I have for shitting, and the sweaty flesh mounds surrounding it, is responsible for 90% of the attention I will receive in my life whether I realize it or not. Lift your ball sack and flop it around and mush it with your finger and think, there but for the grace of god goes a set of labia that would entitle me never to have to create anything or develop a personality. Stick your finger in your HOLE and imagine dozens, hundreds of men cheering you on and saying that's a great thing to do and you're a cool and interesting person for doing it. Imagine asking them, are you saying I'm cool and interesting just because I put my finger in my HOLE for you? And they say, no, you really are objectively interesting and cool, it's only a coincidence that I'm here to anonymously view you fingering your HOLE. Now prove you're smart, prove that you have a personality worth sharing with another human, by trusting those men as they tell you that they value you and not just your holes. Remember to squish the fat around, the fat that is unconsciously generated by your body and your hormonal profile and has nothing to do with anything you intentionally choose or strive to do with your soul, but simply sits there limply waiting for a man to give you money so that he can touch it. Now you're cool. You're a woman. Good job. You won the Cool and Interesting Person Award again. You win it every day! I bet it's because you have a personality and not because of your HOLES. Keep showing those HOLES to men. Wear clothes that imply you have holes ready to go at any moment. Wear clothes that squish together and heighten and firm up and make more visible all the parts that men love, all the parts that if surveyed men would say "These are the 10 best body parts on a woman," but remember, it's only a COINCIDENCE that you spend two hours a day and several thousand dollars a year on clothing and makeup and devices specifically tailored to display those body parts. It's only a coincidence. You love to do it. It makes you feel good, so you chose to do it. It's not because men give you attention for it. You are't just your holes and fat.

[Anonymous No.10950991]

>>10950918
saved.

[Anonymous No.10950996]

I know the why, I trying to figure out the how and I still can't do anything.

It's been a few years now.

[Anonymous No.10950998]

Just now?
An idea coming from nowhere is just the same as if it was born inside you. She didn't understand the impulse to slither into his sheets when he was away, but without second thoughts, or indeed first thoughts, she did it. What she did next also came naturally. Maybe she could smell him. Maybe she wanted him to smell her. It was all very primal, like when she spit into his drink. That whim, likewise, came from nowhere and everywhere at the same time. Anything she hoped to accomplish with these actions was completely lost to her.
Then they would nearly collide around a corner. So close, as to be conscious of each other's breath. He'll smile, she'll blush. Staring into her eyes in such a way that she is rendered incapable of looking away, or even moving. Like frightened prey, she stands hollow, petrified, exhilarated as he, eyes fixed as if forever, reaches down to her hand, lifts it gingerly, and slips her aghast fingertips between the lips of his predatory grin. It's entirely possible that she becomes a puddle in that moment. Humiliated, exhilarated, she'll close her eyes. When they open again, he is gone, a phantom, a ghost. But her fingers are wet, and she wonders if she will ever speak of this moment to anyone, ever. She wonders if she believes it even happened.

[Anonymous No.10951011]

I want to revolt against the publishing industry. Some other anon posted an email from an agent who said that while he liked anon's work, it was "too depressing" to publish. What the fuck?

[Anonymous No.10951021]

Goddamn some autechre albums are complete wank

[Anonymous No.10951038]

>>10950513
The other day I went to the bookstore. I am a Jew, not ashamed, but not a publicly spoken Jew, mainly because there are not a lot of Jews where I live. Half of the racks were filled with self-help, money-driven cultish books. The other half were teenage novels, fantasy and veganism. No history on sight. Wandering through the halls, I found a miserable bookshelf with a sign on it. "Universal History". One book about the Romans. Two books about Egypt, however esoteric. Seven books, told lavish stories about the Second world war. The rest was about Nazis, Auschwitz, Hitler and so on. You couldn't find a word about the French Revolution, about the First World War, about Napoleon, about the Tudors, about anything. Not even America. And I felt sadness deep in my soul. People were not interested in the history of progress, the history of humanity. They were interested in the history of hate.

[Anonymous No.10951071]

>>10951011
Fucking industry is dying. The gatekeepers of taste know their days are numbered.

[Anonymous No.10951078]

>>10950513
Obama is a stupid nigger.

[Anonymous No.10951117]

I recommend showering in the dark.

[Anonymous No.10951120]

My creative writing degree was a fucking waste.

[Anonymous No.10951123]

I want pussy for free

[Anonymous No.10951153]

I have enough things that motivate and even made me go through walls socially and professionally but I struggle to hold them. My mind tends to just forget about them from time to time.

[Anonymous No.10951154]

>>10950631
Living the NEET life for sometime now, and I doubt I will resolve myself to fix it anytime soon; the more time I spend in my head the more I see my inadequacy; being a conscientious and unproductive makes an illcontent mind. I didn't goto any prestigious university, nor could I; many things will always be beyond my person, hindsight or not.
Slowly I've become less of, what a politician would call, a consumer; next to no television, very little care for social-media activity, and material needs gone.
Events in my life have caused me to never develop fully emotionally; gaining habits seem outside of me, empty of impulse -little drive or will- to even shape a dream, any dream, to run to.
I have made 'progress' of a kind I suppose in that I am somewhat more disciplined, in a way; go to the gym, read more, eat better, and even less porno, if you would believe a NEET. However I don't know, yet, if this charge into discipline is not -rather than will to improve- some distraction from boredom, that great sickness that has plagued me, that body-wagon that carried me to this emotionless pit. It runs so deep; O' through skin and bone so deep, that I am not unhappy or illcontent that I have said -or maybe described to you- I feel nothing but the unsteady feeling of wandering a piece of Ash bark might get ride on a river.

[Anonymous No.10951155]

>>10950515
Gay ass twink
>>10950513
lol, gonna switch my major from Math to Automotive Technology because the latter can earn as much as the former with the right connections, and I'll become the best amateur writer once I retire.
And God bless the community college I am attending.

[Anonymous No.10951196]

>>10951123
it's never free..

[Anonymous No.10951233]

YOU AIN GOT NO LIFE

[Anonymous No.10951384]

I wanted to switch to fruits. Ate eight popsicles. Wanna have more. I lack something. I lack more fruity popsicles. My life is a joke.

[Anonymous No.10951449]

I think I might have a chance to support my girlfriend and I on a job doing technical writing since I can do it from St. Petersburg and Moscow both, but getting her to Georgia for a US Visa and to the US is still going to be a pain in the ass. Sometimes miss home and I feel humiliated that my Russian isn't fluent enough to have good conversations with her friends, but I love her, so we'll get by. Maybe I'll even get to go to graduate school for urban planning like I dreamed

[Anonymous No.10951459]

I would rather have written than write

[Anonymous No.10951507]

I used to wish for tragedy. Growing up I was always looking up to people, whether from movies, games, or books. I never had a role model irl. Batman, Snake, Gatsby, etc. And the link between them all was they suffered through tragedy. I guess I thought it made them interesting. I would sometimes think that if one of my parents or siblings were to die, or if I were to get in a bad car accident or a mugging, it would make me more interesting. I wanted drama in my life because mine was so ordinary. I wanted to be like the people I idolized. I wanted to be the kid people talked about in school because his parents had just died.

It seems so weird to think back on now. I don't really feel shame over it, I was a kid at the time and didn't really realize that I probably wouldn't like it if it were my reality.

[Anonymous No.10951526]

>>10951459
Care to extrapolate?

[Anonymous No.10951565]

Getting a gf and having sex it really feels sometimes like an impossible task. In my short life, I was conditioned so much that these aspects that now they seems like something so unreal, like reaching the end of some kind of postmodern odissey. I'm not as naive as it seems, trust me, I do know how much is dangerous and unsatisfactory the sex/romance world is, but anyway for my mind it feels like some kind of bizarre, yet unreachable promise land. I'm not a robot, I'm not a monster, I'm not a villain but still, I feel like I'm doomed to fail everytime, while others sometimes win. Am I in purgatory? Sometimes everything smells like fake Prada purses. Seeing a psychologist helps but it still feels like he's a mere product of the bizzarre simulation I'm living in. Better go to sleep now, bizzarre dreams of alternate realities that I can hardly remember await me.

[Anonymous No.10951569]

I want more letterboxd followers but the letterbox general on /tv/ is terrible

[Anonymous No.10951626]

>>10951565
This is a self fulfilling project you are bringing to yourself.

[Anonymous No.10951660]

>>10951569
What is your username?

[Anonymous No.10951673]

>>10951660
yaysay

[Anonymous No.10951721]

my body moves impulsively and habitually towards hell, constantly undermining my lofty desires and goals, which likely wouldn't make me happy if i achieved them anyway.

[Anonymous No.10951725]

>>10951123
I want money for nothing

[Anonymous No.10951746]

I went to a restaurant to pick up food and made small-talk (sort of) with the girl who got it for me as she was doing the cash register stuff. She had a name-tag that said "(TRAINING") after her name so I asked her how the training was going and she was actually pretty honest about not liking the job but needing to do it. It made me feel a little bad, honestly.

I am working as a favour to a friend (and will soon quit because I hate it) but I don't even have to, and my colleagues need their jobs and that. It's depressing in a way, you know? They're good guys and to see them struggling hurts me. I can't do anything about it, though, and that hurts a bit more. I don't want to say it's pity or anything because that's a bit insulting, no? I empathise with them, though.

The girl was cute and we shared a small laugh when I said I could never work in a restaurant. Then we parted ways. I kind of hope I see her again if I go there because I actually admired her honesty about the question when she could have just been completely fake and positive. It was nice. A nice interaction.

[Anonymous No.10951769]

>>10950513
Humans are debased, and do not deserve the treasury of potencies that they all possess locked within their little post-animal cortices

[Anonymous No.10951803]

Last July my coworker lost a son to a heroin overdose. Two days ago his other son died of a heroin overdose. His only sons, both dead from opioids, both taken away from him only months apart. His hair literally turned from black to gray after his first son died. I'm worried about what will happen to him now. It's all like some terrible Greek tragedy.

[Anonymous No.10951889]

>>10951746
>go back
>talk to her again
>if it goes well ask her to get coffee with you

>>10951803
That's pretty horrible anon, maybe see if you can get your coworkers to support him in some way.

[Anonymous No.10952048]

>>10951803
thats just awful. enough to break a man.

[Anonymous No.10952051]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIVde5QDYnE

[Anonymous No.10952073]

>>10951725
and your kicks for free

[Anonymous No.10952096]

as much as i love college im excited to get out there and find what im passionate about

[Anonymous No.10952105]

>>10950513
My social anxiety has virtually disappeared overnight. A few days ago, I thought "What if I attempt to engage with people during conversation instead of shrinking back?", and immediately I hit the same level of calmness as everyone else in public. Tonight, it went even better. Rather than basing all my action on some pre-conceived image of how I'd like to be, I simply acted on my emotions, and viewed everyone else as a potential friend instead of another species. As a result, a huge weight lifted from my shoulders, and a part of the world clicked into place. Granted, the apathy hasn't eased up, but this is a big step in the right direction, and gives me a lot of confidence for returning to university in the Fall.

[Anonymous No.10952166]

>have to do my assignments and work on a project
>just wanna talk to my gf

she's not actually my gf yet tho

[Anonymous No.10952203]

I have absolutely no one to talk to about what I am really passionate about. My friend just told me that he doesnt want to hear about classical history (my major) or the books I read.
Sure I have /lit/ but its different to be able to talk to a friend. Makes me feel a bit isolated and sad.

[Anonymous No.10952211]

fuck I think I was being too obstinate, this sweet trip album isn't complete garbage. I still have 6 beers left so I am good for a few more hours of shitposting. I hope I don't pass out and piss myself again. How many pushups have I dont today? 40? Still need to knock out 60. At least I got the crunches done. The crunches are the worse. But I need my exercise. Ever since I lost my job and friends I don't get much of it. Funny gesture getting my prescription filled, I told them I wouldn't take it anymore and I've been off it for a week. Anyway time to do pushups, I owe it to myself.

[Anonymous No.10952218]

>>10952211
Do an actual routine instead of whatever meme pushup routine you're doing. Check out /r/bodyweightfitness, it's actually really good despite being on lebbit.

[Anonymous No.10952222]

>>10952218
if it can be done with zero gear I'll check it out

[Anonymous No.10952225]

I live as a dog.

[Anonymous No.10952243]

>>10952096
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

[Anonymous No.10952313]

>id hanging around my neck shows me with a big toothy smile cheek to cheek
>girl im with sees it
>"You can almost tell you're dead inside Anon."

i love her so fucking much brehs

[Anonymous No.10952342]

Why can't the gubbment just give me gibbs so I can live my empty life in seclusion. There needs to be a gibbs program for the undriven and aimless in life who are content to wallow in NEETdom and self-loathing until they passively waste away. I promise I won't take up much space or money just enough for an internet connection and hot pocket money every month.

[Anonymous No.10952358]

>>10952313 dude if she is formal with you enough to make that pithy a comment and you habbent tapped it yet what are you doing

[Anonymous No.10952364]

>>10952222
not him, but I do bodyweight fitness as well. You just have to buy a set of rings (I got for 35 dollars on ebay) and a pull up bar, unless you have a place to hang them.

For anyone reading this, it's immensely worth it, I used to lift traditionally and I save more time/money this way, as well as feeling more fit and aware of my body.
The recommended routine takes me about 40 minutes, I do it every other day. Then I run a 5k, my workout routine totals an hour on these days. By god is it worth it

[Anonymous No.10952368]

>>10952342
go get your leg blown off in afghanistan or something

[Anonymous No.10952375]

I think may have written a good poem today. I have a good feeling about it, anyway, and I did when I was writing it, also.

[Anonymous No.10952376]

My mood is so fucking unstable. A few days ago I was incredibly depressed, laying on the floor and listening to edgy music. Now I'm feeling pretty OK, reading, writing, tending my responsibilities, etc. Nothing has actually changed in my condition, and it's making me paranoid. Like I'm going to remember all of a sudden that how lonely I am and how impossibly fucked the world is and I'll start feeling sad again. But for now I feel pleasantly alright.

[Anonymous No.10952387]

>>10952376
i've been over the moon for a week and now i cant get out of bed to make food.

[Anonymous No.10952395]

>>10952364
how does this routine compare to 100 pushups and crunches every day? I mean besides not affecting different muscle groups

[Anonymous No.10952414]

>>10952376
same with me. I'm working on starting a stricter routine, including meditation (can't tell if it helps), and working out (definitely helps).

I was on lexapro in january. It helped this feeling, but at the cost of not feeling like myself at all. Wellbutrin was better but I'm allergic

[Anonymous No.10952528]

>>10952395
you'll see more improvements, there's nearly endless possibilities, and it's much harder. You'll suck major ass in the beginning and it'll take you over a year to progress through all of the possible alterations/complications on the routine. You'll probably feel the difference immediately, but after about three months you'll already look and feel completely different.

100 pushups and crunches each day isn't useless. I actually started there, but I did figure out a better variation on it after a while, pushups and abs alternating days:

do as many as you can in 30 seconds or until failure, start with 30 seconds rest in between, decrease as that becomes easy.
30 seconds one leg pushup
30 seconds other leg
30s wide arm pushup
30s forget the name of this, put one hand fingertips down by your side, the other in normal position but fingertips pointed inward.
30s other side
30s diamond pushup
30s tricep pushup
30s one arm side-pushup
30s other side

for abs, start doing poses before crunches as soon as possible, starting with a goal of 30s each

plank
sideplank both sides
superman
reverse plank
hollow hold

then do your crunches
get a 8-10 pound medicine ball to increase challenge then ad reps of:
russian twist
v up
toe touchers

[Anonymous No.10952541]

>>10951011
Great books by unknown writers get denied simply because most agents have no idea what the fuck they are doing and don’t want to take a chance on anyone. They want it to look like they discovered someone without actually taking any risk. Look up the great books that were denied multiple times for publication. Dubliners for example got multiple rejections. You just have to roll the dice and keep shopping it around to different publishers, how do you think publishing houses get in bidding wars over novels? The writer sends it to multiple places and once they get one offer they go back to the houses that were unsure and say, “so-and-so offered me this, if you can’t top that then you’re not getting my book.” And then the fear of losing something that other people recognized as good makes the bidding war start.

90% of agents don’t know shit about what’s really the best, they just filter out the obviously shit stuff with grammar mistakes and cliches.

[Anonymous No.10952550]

George had been in limbo for the past few months. George has lacked the drive to pursue fulfillment thanks to feminism. To put it quite simply, George is a sexist prick. Has been, and perhaps will be for the rest of his life. It did not help that Stacy, a seat ahead of him, decided to flaunt her femininity.
About Stacey- why? What drives her and all women to act childish yet demand to be respected. George can't cope with how strong his distaste for women is. Perhaps it stems from Mother never providing chicken tendies. Stacey has the eyes of a woman who would quell George's access to the tendies. George's grandfather bickered for these women's rights and here they are in 2018, flashing lights in his eyes while he waits for his damn chicken tendies. George is sure that Stacy will ultimately amount to transmuting society into a cesspool for the elite to feminize George Junior. George at this very moment considered defecting to the Russians in order to help prop up an institution where his frail masculinity has a runway to thrive, where he can wait for his chicken tendies in peace.
Chicken tendies will subdue George's jejune sexism for now, but the compulsion to choke Stacy lies resting thanks to his red-hot anguish towards the Matriarchy.

[Anonymous No.10952552]

>>10952211
>Still need to knock out 60
you aren't doing pushups right dude. you only need to do like 30 max a day

[Anonymous No.10952570]

>>10951889

Why would I ask her to get coffee with me? I'm not interested in her like that. I just admire her honesty, straightforwardness, and think she is aesthetically pleasing. I also don't like coffee.

[Anonymous No.10952571]

>>10952528
nice okay now this is something

>>10952552
something wrong with pushing the body the machine?

[Anonymous No.10952585]

>>10951120
lmao get wrekt, jason

[Anonymous No.10952605]

>>10950513
How the fuck do people live? I can't figure it out. I just want to be happy and good to the people I do and should love. Why is it this difficult? Why do I not have a personality? I feel perpetual alienation, from others and myself. What is love? What is friendship? I know these things but think like I don't. My words are weightless like my presence.

This is all my fault

[Anonymous No.10952621]

As the nights straggle on, facing them now like a future entrapment that will take all my wits to unfurl myself from—some viscous sinew folding over my luminescent slice of space and time, forcing myself further aloft from me, to look down upon a motley of self-imposed fervour, pushing me towards the higher antechambers of isolation, where upon I can sit and record the flecks of dust in morning rays as they pass incessantly, day-by-day, noting only the change of the colour of the sky in the thin air.

[Anonymous No.10952654]

>>10952358
>you habbent tapped it yet what are you doing

gonna ask her out soon and then fuck her to oblivion until she leaves in august to another state

she told me she left in a few months and i felt like shit i just met her too what the fuck man

[Anonymous No.10952718]

I am noise

[Anonymous No.10952739]

>>10950918
Sweet Jesus Christ, we're hitting levels of ressentiment that shouldn't even be possible, someone get the Ubermensch Police Squad in here ASAP

[Anonymous No.10952802]

>>10952570
Sorry anon, force of habit from posting in a place filled with lonely shut-ins

[Anonymous No.10952828]

>>10952739
you don't know what ressentiment means

[Anonymous No.10952836]

>>10950513
>My knee hurts
>I really pissed Erin off last night. Not sure what to do about that now
>I should just find a job in another city, and get my life back on track, but I don't want to start from scratch with friends again. I like the ones I have now, but there's nothing for me in this place.
>I should become a cop. That'd be fun. Too bad I may or may not have a dodgy military record that's going to bite me in the ass the second I apply for any type of government position.

[Anonymous No.10952853]

>>10952802

I'm probably going to go back and make sure I get her next time. Hopefully she will be out of training and doing well. I will also probably give her $20 for gratuity.

I am a privileged shit that doesn't even really have to work with no real need for money so I hoard it all like Thrain because there's barely anything I want to spend it on. I'm miserable in my job but promised by current boss I wouldn't leave until I had another (since my hiring apparently started the landslide of getting people to help her son who was doing everything unfairly and suffering) and I'm willing to take a pay cut just to get out. Money is stupid anyway. I'd rather give mine to a good cause.

[Anonymous No.10952857]

I feel like I'm purposefully holding myself back from getting close to qts. Every time I crush on a girl, which is already a rare occurrence, I'll almost immediately start finding flaws about them and building up an idea of how disastrous a relationship would be with them to the point where I lose interest. It seems like a coping mechanism for wanting to avoid rejection, but I think I might just have some ridiculous standards that I can't get rid of. It seems like everyone else is so willing to date a girl based off of pretty feeble reasons and are willing to overlook a lot of flaws, but I demotivate myself from pursuing them when I inevitably find things that aren't compatible with me. Am I just being a picky faggot and should just go for it anyway?

[Anonymous No.10952868]

>>10951878
>>10952379
I slightly disagree with this reading of the right. I think it's sound, but saying "societal value X is not accepted because it's perceived to be a trojan horse leading to societal value Y" without explaining why societal value Y is disliked is just kicking the can down the road.

Suppose you're in a grocery store picking out your favorite kind of juice, but, you're allergic to everything but orange juice. If you tell your friends "Orange juice is my hands down favorite kind of juice--" they're going to point out that it's really just the only thing you're physically able to drink. Maybe they'd be more convinced if there were at least two kinds of juice you can drink, Grape and Orange, but they're still going to tell you you've got a rather small sample space. Had you lacked those allergies, you might have liked a different flavor more.

Consider the implications this reasoning carries when applied to the selection of life partners and the effects sexuality has on said selection. If you're a straight married male, it's entirely possible that there could have been a partner who you would have loved more if you were gay or bisexual. It's a fact that you carry this epistemic uncertainty with you. You might want to say that your sexuality is an essential property and that there isn't even a possibility, but the fact that animals can change roles on a whim suggests that it's just coincidental.

This explains why god-giveness/predestination always comes up, why Gays discriminate against Bisexuals instead of the reverse (LGBT+ is obviously written in order of importance), etc; when a person see someone else exercise a freedom the person themselves doesn't have, they get mad about it. It's fag envy.

[Anonymous No.10952870]

>>10952853
Sometimes I don't have enough money to eat. I kinda wish I was you.

[Anonymous No.10952875]

>>10950918
now THAT'S what i call REDPILLED!

[Anonymous No.10952879]

>>10951384
it must be cuz i just laffed

[Anonymous No.10952884]

>>10952870

Don't. My life is shit. I have constant identity problems because I have mental issues. I dropped out of college because my ex-girlfriend broke up with me. I'm unused to being around others despite knowing how to interact with them so sometimes it's awkward to have to deal with those I jokingly call commoners, though I do it well apparently because people like me for some reason. Probably because they don't see the fact that I throw tantrums like a manchild when I get overwhelmed.

[Anonymous No.10952900]

>>10950513
I am 27

[Anonymous No.10952942]

Audiobook version, senpaitachi.
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0shIU32QdMM

[Anonymous No.10952943]

Is it better to focus on living a satisfying life, or dying satisfied
Dust or ashes, etc etc
I've been really ambitious all my life, and now that I'm finally in the position to do something I'm tempted to throw in the towel and veg out.
Fuck man, idk

[Anonymous No.10952962]

>>10952225
Diogenes?

[Anonymous No.10952964]

>>10950513
an ever increasing disdain for all freaks and disingenuous people.

[Anonymous No.10952989]

>gf wont reply to me until i finish my hw

i just want to talk to her

[Anonymous No.10953001]

>>10952989
based mommy gf

[Anonymous No.10953015]

>>10952857
I think I do the same thing. I've been picky my whole life in choosing who I date or even have a sexual relationship with. Always find a way to talk myself out of making that next step even if it's pretty obvious they're into me. Funny thing is I conceptualize what relationships would be like with a ton of qts I meet, but always find flaws or hiccups like you said that convince me to leave her alone. Right now I'm just trying to find some qt friends to be casual around and maybe that'll help me settle myself down.

[Anonymous No.10953217]

>tfw no hipster gf to see the new wes anderson movie and make out to on avery island with after

[Anonymous No.10953272]

>>10952828
I think that's /lit/'s favorite word. You guys post it all the time.

[Anonymous No.10953298]

>>10953272
if you don't understand why, you probably should just leave desu

[Anonymous No.10953597]

I wasted the last four years of my life in almost every possible way. haven't read a book in as much time.

I'm 23 now and I see fags on this board talk about how they'll kill themselves if they don't get published by time they're 24.

Can someone explain to me why people talk about writing like it's an athletes game? why would age ever matter

[Anonymous No.10953614]

>>10953597
How much time one gets to spend in 'muh' glory of post publishing, it's mostly a proving ground of intellectual elitism for pseuds who worship authors.

[Anonymous No.10953631]

>>10953015
I feel you man. There's a really cute girl who's obviously into me, and I got to the point of asking for her number and hanging out with her a bit out of class, but right as I was building up the courage to ask her out I started finding little flaws about her that would make a relationship difficult and now I'm starting to lose interest in her. At this rate I'll be alone forever and it'll be completely my own fault.

[Anonymous No.10953647]

>>10950541

[Anonymous No.10953652]

>>10952989
>>10953001
This but unironically

[Anonymous No.10953666]

>>10952203
>he’s passionate about something
>he has a friend
Check out this prince with all his riches

[Anonymous No.10953791]

>>10951626
In other words? English isn't my first language

[Anonymous No.10953874]

>>10950918
WOW!

[Anonymous No.10953995]

Sometimes I worry that I'll never be people completely open to other people, even to those close to me. I have very close friends but even with them I am reserved, closed up.
I carry all these fears very close to my heart but god knows I'll never let anyone in on them. I'm just going around as this stoic guy making jokes.
Do I just read literature because it's the only way I can have authentic human contact? Is there anything wrong with that?

[Anonymous No.10954017]

>>10950513
>write whats on your mind

When is something genuinely shocking and when is it edgy?

[Anonymous No.10954083]

>>10950513
frasier is so comfy. i binge watched the entire series about six months ago and it's starting to feel like that time again. the only part that bugs me is kelsey grammar got make-out scenes written into the show with pretty much every attractive woman who gets on

[Anonymous No.10954092]

>>10954017
I'd say something is edgy when it's forced, when it tries to appear shocking instead of being genuinely shocking. It's similiar to the difference between kitsch and good art.

[Anonymous No.10954214]

I read The Picture of Dorian Grey for the first time about 6 months ago. It was one of the first real literary novels I've read after really getting into reading. I enjoyed it very much.

But since then I've read multiple other books, better books. Now that I'm rereading it, I find myself being much more critical of it. I'm not amazed by the quality as I was the first time because I've adapted to reading works of quality. So now that I have a different, more learned mindset towards writting I can pick out flaws and be much more ciritcal. And it's ruining my enjoyment of it. I still love the story but I completely disagree with most of the content.

Why is this so? What changed between then and now? Have others experienced something similar? Tell me about it.

[Anonymous No.10954317]

>>10954083
Frasier is top tier comfy. I've watched the series like 6 times over the past few years.

Also Kelsey grammar has been married like 3 times all to model tier women.

[Anonymous No.10954327]

>>10954214
because the middle part is shit and henry isnt as cool the second time around

[Anonymous No.10954351]

>>10953995
This desu

Even with my gf of 3 years I still find myself not being open with her. I'm worse with my family, even when I was young and not self aware, I found myself never discussing personal matters with them.

You can never regret things you don't say.

[Anonymous No.10954364]

>>10953791
>think you can't get a gf
>act in a way that prevents you from having a gf because of it
>don't get a gf
>"i knew it all along"

[Anonymous No.10954421]

>>10954351
Nice to hear that there's at least two of us.

I always wondered how I got this way, I've got no big childhood trauma or anything. Other than that, maybe my mom who over-worries and exudes that anxiousness into her environment.
Maybe I've just got a sensitive nature? Do you have anything causal? Have you talked with your girl about it?

[Anonymous No.10954503]

>>10954421
i'm like this aswell and my mom over worries. i never tell her anything major in my life since she worries more about it than i do.

[Anonymous No.10954715]

>>10954214
Say in bullet points (with expansion of points if you want and can) some specific things and examples you don't like/flaws

[Anonymous No.10954792]

>>10950513
>went to the bookstores, just this afternoon
>saw a qt lurking in classics section
>I never ever personally knew someone that actually read classic
>'there's literally only less than 200 ppl in my country that read classics, especially the ones in English' I thought
>it's totally harmless to say hi
>got a little closer next to her
>she turned herself to poem section, holding Lang Leav in her hand
>disappointment ensues

[Anonymous No.10954799]

>>10954792
>less than 200 ppl in my country that read classics
>bookstore has a classics section

[Anonymous No.10954835]

>>10954421
The only thing I can think of why I am is by watching my older brother.

My whole life he has always told our parents everything. He talks with them about his daily life, his gf's, his sex life, fears, hopes and dreams. I have never understood why someone would do that. It always felt inappropriate and unnecessary. Even when I was very young it would disgusting me, that he would be so open.

To reinforce it my parents were always the type to reply in a patronizing way that defeated the point of saying anything in the first place. They would never have actual conversations about anything.

So I guess at a young age I just learned your better off keeping thoughts and feelings to yourself rather than show them to people.

There's probably a lot more too it but that's all I can think of.

[Anonymous No.10954844]

>>10950918
Incredible

[Anonymous No.10954875]

>>10952376
>>10952387
The funk gets everyone, niggers, so you're in good company.

[Anonymous No.10954889]

>>10954799
I could be wrong you know. Almost everyone I know that read, read YA. I mean for the whole 26 years of my life, I never met not one person who is not philistine, covering their preference in films, music, or fiction and literature.

We do have a good writers and poets, but the discussion about their works (in my native language) only exist in the academic circle and monthly literary journal.

To make things worse, a few young milennial started an independent literary movement that decided to be against the nationally established classic works. The movement gained a huge momentum, almost 10 new publishing company were successfully established and operating, to publish mostly fedora tipping, edgy fictions.

I really don't mind if whatever that they're publishing has actually any real literary merit, but it's not. In their own word, they completely dismissed classics works by the our national laureates by calling it boring, and inaccessible, to the press.

[Anonymous No.10954954]

>>10954889
Where do you live anon?

>The movement gained a huge momentum, almost 10 new publishing company were successfully established and operating, to publish mostly fedora tipping, edgy fictions.
At least you _have_ a literary movement. Do you write? If you do you should try to ingratiate yourself, even if you dislike what they publish. Change from within.

[Anonymous No.10954967]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNUnr6tb0JI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jE162op5DzA

[Anonymous No.10954997]

I really don't know how could someone live in a big city and stay mentally sane. Cities and technology are where the neurosis come from. Happy, urban people just have Stockholm syndrom

[Anonymous No.10955036]

>>10954835
Jung said something along the lines of:
>The first part of your life you spend building up a mask and the second part you spend tearing it down
I definitely feel like I can trace back a lot of my behavior from this and that point in my childhood.

The question is though, so if my parents acted like x which caused y in me, do I ever confront them with that? Does blaming them solve anything? I still love them and I'm sure they did their best in spite of themselves. Ultimately I'll have to change myself myself.

[Anonymous No.10955081]

Days are long, but worse times have this man seen. For me, my own struggle has been huge, even if it was a grain of sand in a vast desert. But such struggle resides in the past, for new walls have appeared that i must overcome to do what i want. I'm not exacly ambicious, neither i want to live a simple life, quite the contradiction. Plan for the future but live for the present, never stop swimming in this swamp or the waters will draw you down, deep in this muddy water and soft sand, the comfortable life seems good when you are tired, but the the shore won't make you drown. I will once again go back swiming, before it is too late. One must keep swiming to his destination, but the weather is a whim being, not an evil one, the new island you might end to is a new discovery one your anger has been extinguished.

I just wrote what i had in my head, so was my grain of sand in this little island, i will once again swim, until next time lit.

[Anonymous No.10955117]

I can't decide if I should devote myself to prose or poetry.

[Anonymous No.10955123]

>>10954889
desu my experience is a lot of people start reading classics in their 40s/50s/60s.

[Anonymous No.10955146]

>>10950513
I'm not gonna finish "Do android dream of electric sheep" its so fucking boring.

[Anonymous No.10955147]

>>10954997
I'll admit that city life is not for everyone, but just fuck off. Ooh technology is bad, lemme post about it on the internet from my phone

[Anonymous No.10955151]

>>10954835
my parents are like that, i can just blab to them for hours as if im shitposting on 4chan and no matter how wildly optimistic or obnoxiously negative it is they will just sort of go along with it, but i find even tho i never get negative feedback from them its way better to stay silent, saying all your inner thoughts to people always leaves you feeling exposed and weird, and yeah, talking to anyone who isn't my parents opens me up to the regret of saying something i shouldnt have said for whatever reason, be it stupid, autistic, prideful, corny, whatever

[Anonymous No.10955153]

My latest attempt to become independent failed miserably. This is my most egregious failure yet. Compared to dropping out of school, quitting my only job, and making bad investments causing me to lose what wealth I had, this final failure makes those seem trivial in comparison. I feel guilty for the hopelessness I had after leaving college. Nothing can compare to the utter dread of reality now. I honestly can't imagine myself going on to fail again. Maybe I haven't tried everything but I've tried enough. And I failed.

[Anonymous No.10955161]

>>10955147
city life is only bad if you're a paranoid narcissist who thinks anyone gives a shit about you, really no one notices you, but there will always be people around you and near you so if you're the self-conscious paranoid type it will fuck with you, on the other hand in smalls town everybody really does know who you are and gossip about what you do, so in reality the urban paranoiacs fears are true in rural life, ironic!

[Anonymous No.10955166]

>>10955153
>dropped out of college and blew his last bucks on crypto

brooo why u did that? come on dude get it together

[Anonymous No.10955179]

i started typing and my nextdoor roommate banged on the wall, this dude has a party literally every night, but i can't click my mouse, yeah ok

[Anonymous No.10955203]

>see an absolutely moronic post
>write out an angry reply arguing against it
>solve captcha, about to his post
>hesitate a second
>hit the X and close the reply box
It's easier this way.

[Anonymous No.10955209]

>>10955117
either neither or both

[Anonymous No.10955211]

>>10955203
dude i have done that so many times, but not enough

[Anonymous No.10955213]

>>10955166
>brooo why u did that? come on dude get it together
Obviously I can't get it together. I literally could not go back to university if I wanted to. I still owe them money and even then I have misdemeanors which would probably prevent me from coming in by default. I'm done dude. My future is nothing.

[Anonymous No.10955222]

>>10955213
dude most schools will let u in with even a felony, i remember doing a "drugs in america" class (which was dank af) and one dude was clearly an ex-con but nobody wanted to embarrass him by asking why a 40 year old muscle black guy with tats was in the class, but we all hoped he would spill the beans one day during discussion...

the only school i ever say that axed if u got a felony is one of those overpriced catholic colleges (so much for helping the poor masses i guess) although a felony will def. screw your financial aid so u better have some bux and/or private loans

[Anonymous No.10955230]

>>10955213
>owing student loans but no degree

nightmare situation dude

[Anonymous No.10955246]

>>10955230
>>10955213
Move to eastern europe.

[Anonymous No.10955295]

>>10955230
That's the least of my problems but life really is a nightmare. I live in a Kafka novel, but my problems are my own doing. I'll stop posting because this is pitiful.

[Anonymous No.10955442]

>>10951038
You should be proud, kike

[Anonymous No.10955482]

my roommate just left, this could be the perfect time to masturbate, or it could be a ruse and his gf is sleeping in late, hmmm should i risk it

[Anonymous No.10955505]

>>10955482
I seen this one on redtube, just go and do it in the living room, it'll work out fine

[Anonymous No.10955652]

>>10955147
Dont be so aggressive mate, it's a post in a "write what's on your mind" thread not a damn manifesto. The point was that cities and technology are alienating, and u know it

[Anonymous No.10955656]

>>10950887
lucky fucker

[Anonymous No.10955658]

>>10952942
wtf I listened to the whole thing

[Anonymous No.10955659]

>>10955652
>The point was that cities and technology are alienating
not if you have lots of friends
>inb4 I have never had real friends therefore noone else really knows anyone or has real friends

[Anonymous No.10955685]

>>10950513
Here's some options for you
>>>/lgbt/
>>>/r9k/
>>/lit/erally the fuck out of this planet you confused cretin.

[Anonymous No.10955692]

>>10950541
Same for me.
I have no desires. I barely have any emotions. Everyone in my life has a goal. People, as kids, had a dream car as their lifes goal. I never did. My sister keeps trying to help me. She told me what my options are for things I could do at our community college so I would do something. I don't want to.
The only thing worse than death is a pointless life.

[Anonymous No.10955730]

>>10955659
I have satisfying friendships and I get laid; I'm not a kissless virgin frogposter if that's what my posts implied. What I do feel is that these relationships are mediated by technology and the urban landscape in an unfulfilling way, but that's not the only aspect of alienation

[Anonymous No.10955732]

>>10955658
Why?

[Anonymous No.10955748]

>>10955692

>>10950631

[Anonymous No.10955752]

>>10955748
I've read that post four times.

[Anonymous No.10955796]

>>10952942
>that's actually a pretty good point

as I followed that comment with you, I kinda knew that you would react to it like you did

it's 8:20 >>10951038

[Anonymous No.10955846]

>>10951038
>>10955442

[Anonymous No.10955901]

>>10954364
Thank you. Actually I'm trying my best but it's still useless

[Anonymous No.10955932]

i think im in love with a girl
but she just ended a long term relationship so i know its not real

[Anonymous No.10955938]

I woke up, on the floor as usual, and found my drunken self had left me half of a piss warm beer. As I put my headphones in to listen to The Lemon Pipers I thought, "Here is a true Samaritan".

[Anonymous No.10955941]

I wish Barnes & Noble would turn the fucking mulatto music off so I could write some more.

[Anonymous No.10956185]

I'm trying to synthesize the virtues of an eclectic range of writings that I only partially understand and largely disagree with because I was told I'm supposed to read what I disagree with, and I have no idea how successful I am because I've just been shitposting about it on twitter and 4chan and everyone just ignores me.

[Anonymous No.10956213]

>>10956185
what do you believe? what are your goals?

[Anonymous No.10956282]

>meet cute girl
>fantasize about said girl
>eventually date girl
>as i get to know her, realize that she's not the impossibly perfect girl i fantasized about
>lose interest
>eventually ignore her, leaving her behind in a state of confusion and sadness
>two months later, repeat

why am i like this

how do i change

[Anonymous No.10956329]

>>10956213

I began just trying to capture a range of ideas for artistic purposes. Now my goal is to figure out how ecologies of thought work to prevent the periodic ecological collapses that occur, which I believe the internet is at risk of exacerbating, and to promote growth of ideas and quality of discourse. I'm a chaos magician of sorts, my beliefs aren't really fixed.

[Anonymous No.10956388]

I am so fucked.

>>10956282
You have standards and people failed to meet them. The issue isn't that you don't like them, it's that you're a spineless faggot who ignores them and causes confusion and sadness rather than being blunt.

>Hey, I had fun with you, but I don't think we're compatible. Thanks for everything, I wish you the best.

However, do keep in mind that relationships DO require work and effort from both parties. You don't have to abandon every relationship the moment someone doesn't live up to your fantasy; your perfect gf could be deeply flawed at the moment, and may grow into the person you want her to be over time. Do you think that /you're/ the perfect man she wants? Do you fit /her/ criteria Anon?

[Anonymous No.10956413]

I'm done with people
throughout the 100s of friends I've had not one of them have been actually good
everyone left me

[Anonymous No.10956532]

I'm eating pasta all'pesto so fast 'm almost drinking'em... I'm drooling abundantly while I'm swallowing each single part of that corpulent mass of bread, wine, garlic, basilic and guts... As a poor creature trying to imitate my lord Jesus Christ I'll not indulge myself ignoring this thirst of mine.... My body shall become a temple, as well as it should have become a desert long time ago... My insides praise me, they want become starvation so they'll revere their poor impecunious creator, the one-guy I'll never forgive - there have to be a sun, and it has to burn for his own justice. I feel it from the bowels, a whole gang of bloaks glow at me, vicarious, greedy and disquieting, right from the gloomy corner of my own stomach. where they lurk.. I hear them whispering in the dark where they belong... till they reach the state for which they aspired, their sole purpose... stand out against everything, against nothing, at the same time, at no time, as flatulence, and as rebellion I'll never cease to eat cuz I'm an italian godgather and I seem more likely to do so, but what a feast!


I actually made pasta all'pesto

[Anonymous No.10956578]

>>10956413
Have you been good to them?

[Anonymous No.10956605]

>>10955730
>What I do feel is that these relationships are mediated by technology and the urban landscape in an unfulfilling way
Care to elaborate?

I do not understand what people mean when they say technology is alienating, and I see it everywhere

[Anonymous No.10956635]

>be excited about a book
>start reading it
>discover new book
>want to read it but I'm reading one right now
>continue reading the first one
>discover a third book

what the fuck

[Anonymous No.10956643]

>>10956635
relatable. usually discover about 10 books per single book that i actually read.

[Anonymous No.10956678]

>>10956605
they need a scapegoat, life drifts relationships apart naturally, I have currently like a hundred of them half-broken, people get jobs, move to another city/country and once you realize what's happening you see them only once a year or once in five years or never, It's part of the reason why I try to cherish every moment and actually write that message on fb that no one likes to write, but no matter how hard you try, you will occasionally experience this too >>10956413 (I'm not the anon who wrote it), but I think it's a fantastic situation to be in, because it shows that you are capable of caring, if you can hold that without blaming them for it, that's even better

[Anonymous No.10956711]

>>10956643
Is it psychological? Does it raise the question of "Do I think that what I don't have is better than what I have?"

I don't know. It might be!

[Anonymous No.10957063]

>>10950513
Fuck living in the city,this shit eats your soul. I want to move to a rural small town, live a simple life ,grown my own food, consume only the necessary and bang some well raised rural girl and make some little pricks to take care of me when i'm old.

[Anonymous No.10957068]

Phronemophobia is the final evolution of my OCD.

[Anonymous No.10957139]

>>10953631
Hey anon, don't let her flaws you're seeing now push you away. Try just staying where you are for a little while and maybe you'll learn to see past those flaws, find beauty in those flaws, or understand why you feel you can't get over them and end up changing your mind because you were wrong to begin with. Or maybe nothing changes for a while and it will never work out, but you have a friend for now. See where it goes.

[Anonymous No.10957275]

>>10956413
If you are one of the few people who can live a solitary life, go for it, DO NOT hesitate. Sadly most people are not "equipped" to live this way and loneliness fucks their brains deeply in the long term.

[Anonymous No.10957302]

>>10956605
It's something that I find hard to express, and it will sound like an old man's rant but it shouldn't be dismissed just because of that.
First I'd say that when a technology appears, it suppress the human capacity it is supposed to enhance by replacing it in some way (for example writing and afterwards print suppressed the impressive oral memory people had before, which can still be seen in some foreign tribes). One of the technologies that has the biggest impact on our day to day lives is communication technology and it has to have an impact on the way our relationships work. Also they inherently mediate the relationships, that are thus losing authenticity. Something mediated can't be the real thing. I'm writing this while going home drunk so I don't know if I'm coherent. I'm gonna read some Jacques Ellul soon, maybe I'll be able to put better words on this

>>10956678
I'm talking about relationships, not when they end. But yeah it's good to cherish every moment

[Anonymous No.10957314]

>>10957063
I want the same thing, anon. FUCK industrial society.

[Anonymous No.10957332]

I am envious of people who can have a functional relationship with themselves. Criticisim of myself comes crashing down in my head every time I do what feels like the wrong thing.
I am gripped by shame. I feel it in my bones. I feel like mine is a soul if ever there was one that is undeserving of any love.
Meanwhile, I despise others more. I feel immensely superior to my peers and don’t wish to waste another second on their inferiority.

Books for this feel?

[Anonymous No.10957415]

Im smarter than everyone Ive met and it hurts.

[Anonymous No.10957448]

Some shitty edgy stuff

Light came over the sky this morning
No sun shone its shine.
The reddish grey of dust and smoke
Muddled with earthly despair.

That despair I share in the twilight
And the day and night.
That urge of murderous glee
To pierce the heart of me.

A gruesome kill would occur
Bleed out body.
My entrails torn from casing
Like sausage bursting.

A bursting to stop the hurting
Where I can mix my worth
Into the crying and fragile Earth
So the dust stops swirling.

Oh how swell it would be
To be free from this Hell.
Accept the dark and let the sun shine,
To stop, break and defeat me.

[Anonymous No.10957523]

If I became the owner of 4chan, I would immediately do three things.

1. delete /pol/
2. delete /mlp/
3. repeal Global Rule 15

Then I'd just sit back and watch the carnage.

[Anonymous No.10957564]

My sister had another mental break a few days ago. She was responding so well to the medication, but for whatever reason she snapped. Started headbutting the wall. Put two dents in the drywall. My parents are acting like it can always be swept under the rug, like usual. They don't have long on this planet and what happens then? There is no more welfare state, no real round the clock care for even people like my sister. She isn't able to take care of herself and it's made worse by my whole family's dumb fucking hostility to DA GUBMINT and ELITIST doctors, instead they give her medical marijuana extracts and other nu-age cures. I'll have to take over as her caretaker because means-testing bullshit and her hostility to hospitals means it's either I care for her or consign her to the streets.

I feel trapped, I want to move away and start a new life but what happens when I do that and my parents lose the ability to take care of my sister? I feel like such an idiot wasting most of my twenties on politics and image boards and arguing with other idiots. I realize now that 99% of politics is pointless, it's like trying to stop a hurricane from coming ashore. You're better off securing your own property and taking shelter to preserve your own life.

[Anonymous No.10957624]

>>10957564
How old is she? How is your relation with her? do you talk? Can she understand things? Did you ask her what happened or what went wrong? Is she normal at all? What is he diagnosis?

[Anonymous No.10957638]

I want to write fiction and I want people genuinely enjoy it.

I used to read fiction and figured I could do better.
I read fiction now and figure I can never do better than this.

Have authors gotten better? Have I gotten worse? Or do I just read better authors now?

I think if I ever do successfully publish, itll be some YA trash and I'll never really respect myself.

[Anonymous No.10957656]

>>10957314
Few people realize this,its better for us I guess.

[Anonymous No.10957676]

>>10950513
sometimes I remember how fucking dark it can be out there at night walking the footpaths. The stars above can be seen and I remember some of the constellations I pointed out to her as I held her my arms that warm Spring night two years ago. She thought I was amazing then, she said it again when I left me, the amazing failure she didn't love anymore.

[Anonymous No.10957680]

>>10957638
Just make a pen name and start writing. Also send your work to your peers to read and give feedback on.

[Anonymous No.10957683]

I've got a sudden itch for writing but have never written creatively. Where do I go to hang out with other shitty amateurs

[Anonymous No.10957702]

>>10955213
Go work on a farm or something. Or a fishing/crabbing boat.

[Anonymous No.10957705]

>>10950513
I don't deserve a gf

[Anonymous No.10957719]

I hate other people so much. I sincerely wish for the death of every person everywhere. I seethe with animosity at the idea of some wrinkled grandma on the other side of the planet playing with her mongrel grandchildren. Please, whatever powers govern the world, kill them.

[Anonymous No.10957724]

>>10957415
You aren't smarter than me, bitch.

[Anonymous No.10957728]

>>10950513
sometimes i'm really hopeless. I want to be brave and go through hard times unbroken, but I just don't know what it takes to do it. I mean, you can't just sit and wait for time to pass, you have to come with solutions. And sometimes they just aren't there.

[Anonymous No.10957730]

>>10957564
Tie her up and keep her in the basement.

[Anonymous No.10957754]

>>10952376
Blogposting update: Sadness has returned. It's cold and awful outside. I miss my old friends. I miss my crush. I miss life being simple and primarily revolving around social interaction. I don't care about the useless work I'm supposed to be doing. I want to hug someone.

[Anonymous No.10957852]

>>10957063
>>10957314
>>10957656
have you boys actually done farmwork or do you just idealise what's far away enough from your real life to look pretty?

[Anonymous No.10957870]

>>10957415
you're fat, curly-headed, and a university student with autism. You probably just don't give people the opportunity to showcase their intelligence, because all your encounters are surface level and awkward...

You feel as if you deserve other people's showcasing of their intellect, but you just throw at them narcissistic desire and thin conversation.

You actually might be retarded, anon.

[Anonymous No.10957909]

[Anonymous No.10957912]

I've been so bleak lately. Or rather, in yet another spell of struggle; used to be for want of pleasure, now it's for want of reason. I have accepted that there is no destiny for common man, no grandeur adventure. Perhaps a goal to make money, and others want to be happy, or want a job teaching blind kids or designing cars. I live in a basement and had to pay my mother's speeding ticket that she put off since December. My introduction to a multi level marketing business left me drunk of delight not too far from the thought that I could be financially free by 24, and own an FD rx7. A couple clicks told me it was a scam, and I would be a robot burning money. Nowadays the same people I've looked at and thought were going nowhere suddenly seemed so mobile in their plans, and I'm not owning that car just yet, or my own house by 24, or security for my dad who has a civil engineering degree and now works part time at Giant. However, I did re-weigh myself at the gym today after boxing. Lost a couple of pounds since I weighed myself 3 days ago, was it sodium fluctuation, or some dietary change, I thought. My goal is to make it to ottermode by summer. Hiking and bouldering is another goal too, and my friend might take me sometime, it's been looking sunny today.

[Anonymous No.10957928]

Being good at academic work, getting high grades, means fuck-all.
I hate these idiots who believe they're geniuses because they can get high marks.

You can teach a dog to jump through rings, but it's still a dog...

[Anonymous No.10957929]

>>10957852
Its certainly no heaven, heavy work,most of the day on the field, fixing something etc etc.But if you do it right and with a plan and goal in mind its far more worthy than spending your days in a cubicle or whatever cityjob slaving away your days. Its certainly more rewarding than any other job you can have if you're in the right mindset.Not for everyone of course.

[Anonymous No.10957984]

[Anonymous No.10958003]

>>10957139
Thanks anon, your advice has made me feel a lot better. I've been rushing things with her because I feel like that's the "right" way to do things, but you've made a good case for taking things slow and it's exactly what I needed to hear. I appreciate you.

[Anonymous No.10958009]

>>10956329
Why do you need to know you are successful, and what good does progress do you other than to show you where to align yourself next, align your memethoughtfeels with your rationalidentity, that dual booting workstation in front of your Awareness.

Getting success is needing the meritocratic fix. Success is worthless to one who sets goals and achieves them without the end having more worth than the end itself. Especially for your "chaos" magician beliefs, the addition of variables is preset to stability, or homeostasis. You cannot therefore render anything more than smaller and smaller successes.

A pathway that is important remains important even when travelling another route. This is how to read a map. The mountain is as similar as it is dissimilar, you have climbed this mountain and this is not that mountain but another that you can climb in the same manner or in some other manner different than before, but only so much different. Some amount of the first is imprinted on the second, something which I'd like to visualise as a white sheet pressed against a tablet and a coal pencil reveals the environmentsysbols (though not yet made symbols) with the coal dust as depth, (a verisimilitude, uncanny, but only in shape). Then page after page is added to the sheet alone, well maybe not alone, but maybe sometimes touching the world. Maybe sometimes the page only touches the raised chalk layer.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_a6WxymM1A8

A way of thinking.

The basis>>10956185

[Anonymous No.10958043]

>>10958003
I'm glad it helped. Good luck out there.

[Anonymous No.10958044]

>not once, but twice
or
>not once but twice
i can't get a straight answer

[Anonymous No.10958066]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cre3ZMa2dbc
this subtle little (idk, 16th or 32nd of a second) hesitation at 30:02 - 30:03 is the difference between greatness and mediocrity

you can hear one of the earlier of that phrase: 29:52 - 29:55 without it

[Anonymous No.10958081]

Nasim will be a martyr, a heroine, and a model for more than my sole actions.

God bless, God wills.

[Anonymous No.10958083]

>>10957870
fuck I was already having shitty epiphanies all day and now I just fucking bingo bango'd the entire checklist like i had tourettes.
actually have autism
No longer have a car or my own place and now live again with my parents not in school, working at a movie theater, It's time for me isn't it?

[Anonymous No.10958104]

>>10957870
>don’t give people an opportunity to showcase their intelligence
>smart people aren’t as obvious as whores are
>you can’t read people’s intelligence by listening to them speak
>you’re bad
>bad and autist smell evil ugly fat bad
>normies good strong smart always good just need time to not be stupid
>curly headed
is this supposed to be coherent or resembling reality?

[Anonymous No.10958149]

>>10958083
>working at a movie theater
an artsy one?

[Anonymous No.10958155]

[Anonymous No.10958159]

[Anonymous No.10958165]

Trying to figure out why educated and read people can en masse spew completely retarded bs, and not only be proud of it, but often actually appear to believe it. There's fairly obvious red line running across cultures and the world that separates different opinions from blatant retardation - then how come the retards have then somehow mustered such a skill at expressing themselves, that it leaves me feeling dumb half the time? Has fear really done such a number on otherwise potentially smart people, that they've free-willingly committed partial cognitive suicide? But what is a person with a limited capacity called? ..thoughts, but apparently mostly in the shape of questions

[Anonymous No.10958166]

[Anonymous No.10958178]

>>10958165
the status quo is the strongest master

[Anonymous No.10958197]

>>10958104
>you can’t read people’s intelligence by listening to them speak

Believe it or not, but not everyone is as insecure as you, so much that they go around pontificating with a Joyce-tier vocabulary for people they'll never get to know.
People are intelligent at many things. Maybe they have good mental memory, and can sparse out sizes of tools in an instant, making repairs a breeze. Maybe they have perfect pitch.

Stop eating chocolate and go fuck your faggot dog again, tubby.

[Anonymous No.10958218]

[Anonymous No.10958221]

[Anonymous No.10958231]

>>10958083
nah just make changes

realizing you're nothing is a natural part of growing up.

[Anonymous No.10958232]

Things are better. I miss my mom.

[Anonymous No.10958236]

>>10958149
>an artsy one?
no I'm a minimum wage popcorn shuffler.
I wish I was lying

[Anonymous No.10958252]

>>10958178
I like that, I think its accurate. But sq should bring about questions not just plain feelz. Why do we feel the masters leash rather than questioning it? Emotions running uncontrollably rampant is enough to tune anyone into limited mindset. Why do we feel instead of thinking, and then persuade ourselves and those around us, that we did actually think, when no actual thinking - beyond thinking that we thought - took place?

[Anonymous No.10958254]

>>10958236
thats dope man, at least you get to talk to all the qts, and popcorn smells good, and you can probably sneak some? get discount tickets ever? cheer up lad, its gonna be alright

[Anonymous No.10958264]

>>10958252
I dont get what you mean by this: calling these people dumb:
>somehow mustered such a skill at expressing themselves, that it leaves me feeling dumb half the time?

You are saying, you think they are dumb, you think they are so dumb, they make you feel dumb? what did you mean by this?

[Anonymous No.10958273]

>>10958252
youre gonna have to be more specific with examples: I would agree that thoughts can be presented with undeniable validity

[Anonymous No.10958276]

[Anonymous No.10958282]

>>10958276
Stop posting, you fucking ephebophile.

[Anonymous No.10958294]

>>10958236
>>10958254
Too pure for me, anon. I'll dedicate the bottom of this bottle to you my friend.

[Anonymous No.10958307]

I feel like everyone is always laughing at me or making fun of me
I feel like I am unable to keep friends
I feel like I am very insensitive to other people's emotions

Overall I feel defunct, dejected, and better off not in some peoples lives


although on the bright side I found out someone I know likes linux and 4chan, so I might become friends with them

[Anonymous No.10958313]

Forget Faggots

[Anonymous No.10958323]

>>10951021
elseq or Confield? I think Tri Repetae is easily one of the greatest records ever made.

[Anonymous No.10958325]

>>10958264
I mean there are some things with so intrinsic truth value that even someone as autistic as me can get it, yet one so often gets to read beautiful literary pieces explaining views so aborted from reason that it just leaves one flabbergasted. There is a disconnect between apparent smarts, that given effort, practice, capacity, should imply some smarts, yet the essence of what's being said has nothing to do with smarts and everything to do with neurotransmitters having a blast over at the more primitive parts of the brain.

[Anonymous No.10958340]

>>10958294
Learning of one's own character foibles is always a good thing, anon. It humbles you, and should inspire you to navigate this craziness with a little more consideration for how you'll affect others.

I honestly feel like if everyone had these epiphanies of how minuscule they are, the world would be a much better place; people would understand each other a little better, try to instill some good, if possible, at least.

[Anonymous No.10958360]

>>10958340
For real... how many times in humanity have we, collectively, recognized a remarkable mind, and collectively supported him/her?

Takes a lot to recognize the potential of others, while everyone is respectively in their own domain of self-fulfillment.

[Anonymous No.10958399]

>>10958282
projecting? Not everyone who finds a pretty shell at the beach wants to fuck it

[Anonymous No.10958404]

>>10958399
who fucks shells? what?

[Anonymous No.10958429]

[Anonymous No.10958432]

>>10958404

[Anonymous No.10958462]

hell ya new unknown mortal orchestra album finally officially released, shit goes ham af so far

[Anonymous No.10958473]

>>10951038
>The rest was about Nazis, Auschwitz, Hitler and so on.
It's your New Covenant. You reap what you sow.

>>10950918
>Now you're cool. You're a woman. Good job.
Patrick Bateman AI is really good. Nice going.

[Anonymous No.10958476]

>>10958294
every day you're shufflin'

don't worry anon if you stay there two more years you might get projectionist

[Anonymous No.10958477]

>>10958340
>Learning of one's own character foibles is always a good thing, anon. It humbles you, and should inspire you to navigate this craziness with a little more consideration for how you'll affect others. Agreed.

>I honestly feel like if everyone had these epiphanies of how minuscule they are, the world would be a much better place; people would understand each other a little better, try to instill some good, if possible, at least.
To be honest my personal epiphanies today were not due to how minuscule I am in relation to the universe, but how minuscule I am compared to society and the social circles that reside within it. I seek validation in areas of a zeitgeist I neither understand or are able to comprehend the ability to empathize with "it". Like anecdotally everyone has some rough idea of their next 5 years to some degree but my entire life I've never felt anything worth focusing on, always little things like sports or games where I can momentarily fixate and focus until I get to a point I feel proficient over others. Grinding in games until I'm at a ranked where I'm suppose to feel accomplished but yet I'm not. I just want something that I'm passionate about that can contribute to something or someone or at least make me feel that way, y'know? I've tried the do two years and GEs until you figure it out but it just made me spiral out harder when I couldn't. ah fuck it the absolute irony of overthinking nirvana is too {spoiler]autistic[/spoiler] even for me.

[Anonymous No.10958494]

T E M E T
N O S C E

personally i'm pretty thrilled with how great being older and wiser has turned out. i know what i want to do with my life, i have one career behind me, career goals in front, and free college or seminary if that doesn't work out. and best of all I know I don't want to get married or have kids unless I meet someone REALLY fucking special but I'm not sure they exist so best not to worry about it.

[Anonymous No.10958505]

>>10958477
you ever think about culinary school? Maybe try to work aboard cruises?

[Anonymous No.10958515]

i'm too hot to waste anymore time trying to be straight, i'm just too autistic to get pussy, i'm not even attracted to women anymore, like when i was younger i would always have crushes and shit and occasionally get laid, but i am not interested in any women at all, women are just not fun, i want to enjoy being good looking and have fun, and women and enjoyment do not mix, i feel a little bad cuz i kinda led this chick to think i want to marry her but lets be real she should have known i was a fucking fag when i want to hold her in my arms after fucking lmao, idk man im just not into straight shit anymore

[Anonymous No.10958519]

post your trap pic i'll rate

[Anonymous No.10958529]

>>10958515
Wanna be my gay sex slave? I'm a good writer.
You'll be my fag-muse.

[Anonymous No.10958532]

>>10958232
I miss my mom too,she actually really loved me.

[Anonymous No.10958536]

>>10958529
do u live in nyc? are you hot? do you have money?

[Anonymous No.10958539]

I’m not as attractive as I thought I was. and I’ve always thought I was smarter and better than I am because my mom told me I’m special, even though I’ve never won anything or had many friends

[Anonymous No.10958545]

>>10958539
lmao holy fuck sometimes I'm grateful my childhood was a fucking boxing match where I was homeless periodically... because when I see sheltered lumps like you tell everyone that you discovered your parents lied to you this late, it fucking makes me lose faith in humanity.

Grow up, baby.

[Anonymous No.10958560]

>>10958545
>degenerate not-into-straight-shit-anymore literal whore trolling for johns on /lit/ wannabe nyc-er being mean to random anons

be nice.

[Anonymous No.10958564]

>>10950918
you aren't allowed to be this woke friendo

>>10958515
i feel this B, girls are gay and gross.

they're all slobs too, the "women are cleaner than men" meme is so fake

[Anonymous No.10958597]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uY1XXgCPJs

[Anonymous No.10958599]

>>10958560
i already live in nyc, the point is if i wanted to have to chill with broke people or pay people's way i would just keep on the pussy treadmill, the point is to get with other people with resources and taste and do interesting things

[Anonymous No.10958608]

>>10958505
Its not the first time i've noticed you give this exact advice to someone in trouble today on /lit/,although it may sound nice ,people may get hurt. You see my uncle got to get out off this same kinda gig because the heat was causing problems to his bones and hunrting him.This is just my anecdotal evidence though,but retards may get burned cooking some soup or stabbing a fellow worker with a fork in the eye accidentally,things happen man.Better be careful when giving this kind of advice man, stay safe.

[Anonymous No.10958611]

>>10958560
What?
You just told us all your selfish, narcissistic existence was falling apart now.
And you also think being homeless means you have to sell your body? Did you watch that Gus Van Sant movie or some shit? lmao

way to be a sheltered baby, as judgmental as all the rest.

[Anonymous No.10958625]

>>10958611
thats not the same guy u god damn brainlet jesus christ

[Anonymous No.10958627]

>>10958611
I don’t know what growing up means. does it involve not being selfish and narcissistic?

[Anonymous No.10958631]

>>10958608
Cooking is a fall back for a lot of people who don't know what they're doing with their life desu

Most failure hobbyist artists I know got into cooking lmao

They learn how to cook a steak alright, then put pretentious garnishes on it, then add a little line or two from a sauce thingy across it, in some stack, in the middle of a plate that is 85% white porcelain, the other 15% being the actual portion... take an instagram pic, because you think women like men who cook, and boom!

[Anonymous No.10958634]

>>10958627
ugly fucks try to make u feel guilty for being beautiful by calling u "narcissistic" dont buy into the slave morality bullshit

[Anonymous No.10958635]

>>10958634
but the guy said he wasn't as attractive as he claims

I bet he's chubby with a completely average face.

I, on the other hand, am a solid 8/10.

[Anonymous No.10958638]

>>10958631
most people go to culinary school because they're too retarded to do regular school, "i just want to cook why do i have to know how to write an essay" idk fag how are you supposed to raise capital to open a restaurant if you write like a toddler

[Anonymous No.10958642]

>>10958599
are you a writer?

[Anonymous No.10958643]

>>10958635
thats not the same guy, there are more than two people on 4chan genius

[Anonymous No.10958648]

[Anonymous No.10958649]

>>10958635
I’m not chubby. I’m at least average looking

[Anonymous No.10958651]

>>10958643
yea i was talking about this guy >>10958539

[Anonymous No.10958653]

>>10958642
fuck no wanting to be a writer is corny shit for chicks

[Anonymous No.10958659]

>>10958653
>anon tried something, wasn't good at it, so now it's "gay," or "for girls."

[Anonymous No.10958662]

>>10957870
>you're fat, curly-headed, and a university student with autism.
Wrong Im in shape, not autistic, straight hair.
> You probably just don't give people the opportunity to showcase their intelligence, because all your encounters are surface level and awkward...
Wrong, Im very kind and charismatic.
>You feel as if you deserve other people's showcasing of their intellect, but you just throw at them narcissistic desire and thin conversation.
Wrong again, I try to have actual topics about what they like and their hobbies, and I also talk about out my own life.


>>10957724
Perhaps but I doubt it

[Anonymous No.10958665]

>>10958599
>do interesting things
overrated

[Anonymous No.10958667]

>>10958662
stop lying, loser
i caught you. fess up.

[Anonymous No.10958676]

>>10958659

wanting to be a writer is the most plebeian shit, there is no commitment required or barrier to entry, any loser with a pencil and piece of paper can fancy himself a "writer" kys my dude

[Anonymous No.10958682]

>>10958676
There's a lot of commitment involved. And a lot of barriers too.

I'm sorry you think self-published wankers are real writers, anon.

[Anonymous No.10958687]

>>10958676
what do you want to be? no saying youre wrong, just curious

[Anonymous No.10958690]

>>10958631
I see where you're coming from,most people are retards, like people who buy paintings. They go to these "art galleries" or "art expositions" then some smartass keeps making lobby in some kind of way to agrandize or make the stuff they're selling seem like it is worth big money, then retards that in the first place are retards for only going to these places are now double retards seduced into buying these worthless shit on a canvas,its all preety stupid,people, I mean, fall for this shit that easily just cause you wanna impress some cunts or yourself with your "great taste and sublime eye for peculiar pieces or art".Bad decisions everywhere,dogshit people in a dogshit world.

[Anonymous No.10958694]

>>10958687
what makes you think i want to "be" something? isnt that kind of bourgeois

[Anonymous No.10958701]

>>10958690
>this much ressentiment over not being able to buy art

hey man maybe star wars action figures are more your thing

[Anonymous No.10958705]

>>10958690
what are your hobbies and interests?

[Anonymous No.10958706]

>>10958690
fuck off, nick

[Anonymous No.10958707]

>>10958690
>dogshit people in a dogshit world.

ionno is it that bad? for almost 4 billion years the main cause of death was getting eaten by some bigger meaner animal than u, now we have safe warm houses and i dont have to wipe my ass with my left hand after i take a shit. i didn't figure out how to make any of this shit work. did you, misanthrofag?

[Anonymous No.10958709]

>>10958705
probably some ridiculous "masculine" crap, but nothing actually challenging like combat sports or climbing mountains, just wanky shit like idk whatever pol kids do

[Anonymous No.10958714]

>>10958709
He probably listens to Pantera and neoclassical or something fucking gay like that

Tuff punx guys who are actually soyboys are the worst.
What's with metalheads and daddy issues anyway?

[Anonymous No.10958716]

>>10958706

is that why i can never get gf? cuz i dont call chicks names like "babe" or "sweetie" oh well too late now

[Anonymous No.10958721]

>>10958706
No posting while obviously a girl. Make it less obvious, learn to simulate fitting in, or fuck off back to the "Hot Memes for [your university] Teens" Facebook page.

[Anonymous No.10958730]

>>10958714
oh ya pantera is the ultimate "performative masculinity" shit for soys larping as guys with high test, also soys love powerlifting because that requires no self discipline they can still eat their high calorie bullshit and sit on the couch all day but for like 10 minutes a week they do some reps and think thats manly

[Anonymous No.10958768]

>>10958706
not that anon but hey fuck you there's nothing wrong with tool, additive-free tobacco, or a coupla MILLAHS

[Anonymous No.10958771]

>>10958768
>health food cigarettes

lmao what

[Anonymous No.10958775]

>>10958771
american spirit is just dried tobacco in a paper. i don't smoke cigs but do use a pipe occasionally. much less harmful than menthol shit or whatever

[Anonymous No.10958779]

A few unrelated things:
I'm becoming increasingly paranoid and have dreams of people backstabbing me, laughably outlandish dreams of bombs dropping near my house, and a fear of people trying to break into my house (most likely caused by past trauma when my house was broken into when I was young)

Only amusement I find is through the arts and culture -- paintings and such. Despite being decently artistically inclined (thanks, Dad), I'm also very computational and will most likely pursue a career in Computer Engineering/Science as those jobs pay the most. I don't envision myself working a desk job coding for some tech-giant company though -- it's too closed, I need a job where I can express who I am and not be another tech nerd that accomplishes nothing.

This is my second encounter with her. I met her at the local ice cream parlor where she works. God I'm a hopeless romantic I can't bring myself to talk to her from fear of embarrassment. She's so pretty with her corduroy, plaid hat and her ponytail. Sorry if this is word vomit I'm exhausted and needed to get this off my mind

[Anonymous No.10959026]

I just put together a crossword puzzle with a theme ("not quite palindromes"). It's 3:06AM. Shit took me 6 hours but I want to submit it to the NYT tomorrow.

I wanted to create crossword puzzles when I was younger. Or mazes. Or something like that. But I gave up on it because my sister was the artistic one, and I was the "smart" one. Her art is great- she's in art school now, I'm finishing up my Master's in education (math). Still, I wish I could've at least given it a shot when I was younger.

Anyway, if it's published, I'll get $300 for it. It just occurred to me that the edTPA is also $300. So it's not a total loss.

[Anonymous No.10959030]

>>10959026
wait, u put together a crossword by hand? im going to assume these days they just use a machine learning algorithm to whip those up

[Anonymous No.10959487]

We do nothing but laugh at the same pains that trouble us. When one seeks true meaning and states these questions they appear idiotic and, ironically, meaningless. I have lived most of my adult life believing that there is no meaning to life and that it's alright, I don't need a meaning to know that I want to make those I appreciate happy and proud. But this way of seeing life has its obstacles, as I have experienced them first-hand. I am unhappy. I feel alone and empty.
My problems are meaningless but meaningful, for life is nothing but a series of contradictions.
Basic and obvious statements.
Stop.
One day I'll cry and the next I'll just cringe at myself.
I'm not even good at writing, I can't put into words what I feel. I am just seeking for a way to express myself.
Help.

[Anonymous No.10959653]

>>10957870
what do I do if that pic is me

[Anonymous No.10959662]

the main thing on my mind is: how do i respond to a girl sending me selfies

she's done it three times now. i just respond to the caption on the selfie and try to start a conversation that way. the conversations we have IRL are fun, but the social media ones are really shit. should i compliment her pic? should i send a selfie too? how long should i wait before responding?

worrying about this shit feels about the same as existential death anxiety desu. i got out of a depressed social isolation rut and i guess im happier now but it's hard to tell sometimes. like, i was infatuated with an aussie girl for about a month and the stress/anxiety for interactions with her wasnt far below when i had a breakdown alone in my room a few years ago. when i hear a phone buzz i still tend to assume that it's someone else's.

feels like i will always be stressed and anxious regardless of the state of my life. lifewise im probably doing better than most of the people in this thread, in that i have friends, engaging well-paid career prospects, and rewarding hobbies, but inside i feel similar to when i had no friends, was severly underweight, and spent most of my time playing videogames and watching anime. it's like i have most of the same thought processes as before but they've all shifted into this new socialised setting - 'socially adjusted' has more meaning than i thought it did. people like my personality and think im funny/interesting but i still get stuck in old overthinking cycles that keep me up for hours, making me not want to socialise, making me want to regress. im certain it's vestigal of the selective mutism i had as a child, but i dont know what to do about it other than drink a lot. another worry is convincing people im not an alcoholic.

i wrote this stanza and like it a lot:
the air whirls - absorb it
my dress sequined with stars
as i twirl, they orbit
emit, and hide my scars

[Anonymous No.10959678]

>>10959662
>being this fucking autistic

Just b urself dude

[Anonymous No.10959686]

>>10959678
but being this autistic is part of being myself
this has always been how i go through social interactions

[Anonymous No.10959702]

>>10959686
>"youre cute :)"

There. It makes you seem interested without being too threatening. Bitches love smileys.

[Anonymous No.10959713]

>>10959702
this idea is excellent. i will do this next time.

[Anonymous No.10959732]

>>10952884
You from an aristocratic family, or just rich?

[Anonymous No.10959759]

>>10955901
He must've meant 'prophecy' when he said 'project'.

[Anonymous No.10959779]

>>10957523
lol

[Anonymous No.10959800]

>>10957928
>contemporaraneously
is that intentional, you think?

[Anonymous No.10959831]

>>10959653
that pic is all of us

[Anonymous No.10959906]

>>10957929
In first world countries we're at a point where you can choose to do neither back breaking farm labour nor cubicle work though.

If you go on NEETbux you're basically a Greek citizen with an underclass of wageslaves providing for you.

[Anonymous No.10959947]

>>10959906
How many neetbux do people actually receive? Also it doesn't it run out after a while? I swear there was a thread a while ago where a bunch of NEETs confided that they were going to kill themselves once they government stopped paying up.

[Anonymous No.10959965]

My one true love. All of my thoughts are of her.

[Anonymous No.10960710]

>>10951154
lmao sometimes I’m glad my childhood was a fucking boxing match... being periodically homeless. when I see people like you whining about how powerless you are to fix yourself it makes me lose my faith in humanity. lmao

Grow up, baby

[Anonymous No.10961144]

>>10959947
All depends on the country and how good/dedicated you are at remaining a NEET.

[Anonymous No.10961417]

I just want a relationship to last for once-of any kind. Romantic or friendship