/lit/ - Literature

[Anonymous No.10694025]

Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.10694074]

Drunk again. Drunk again, what a surprise. Drunk for the umpteenth day in row. Makes no difference. The God of my childhood is yelling at me for wasting away. I say well what do you want? You made my brain in such a way that I fell guilty about everything even when I'm not in the wrong. So what? I didn't have a choice to be born so if I want to die my own way then I'll do it like your second favorite drunk did. I mean Frankie singing "My Way". My old Italian uncles know that inside and out, they're sketchy on the New Testament. So you didn't do so well.

"He didn't fly so good!"

I don't either. I'm just a slab at this point. I'm nominally better than those people whose bones keep growing through life so they die as calcifications. Nice word there. Nice invented word. Passible. Root word, suffix. Who cares. I'm dying. I want to die. I will die. I have the whole rest of forever to be dead, what's my rush? Look at yourself, always the idiot talking to yourself in the corner. Tomorrow morning you smile and sell idiots things they don't need. Look at yourself. I don't even fulfill a real function. I write em real pretty.

Love me. You want affirmation. Idiot. What's the indication of borderline personality disroder? Praise me. I want praise. Idiot. I'm an idiot. I want to wake up and be somebody else but it won't ever happen. Ellison. "Keep this nigger boy running", Good story. Everybody hates you. Use it or die. Keep drinking. Shorten your life

[Anonymous No.10694088]

Could go for a baguette rn ngl tbqphwyf

[Anonymous No.10694092]

>>10694025
I feel as if my life was a complete mistake. Both my older sisters are doctors who got scholarships to whatever college they wanted, graduating at the top of their class. My parents are both hard working and head strong in the face of adversity. But I’m so dumb College freshman who although got into a really good school, had to go into debt to attend it. I can’t get a single job because no one will hire me, and I’m the laziest in the family. I don’t think I was meant to be a part of this world.

[Anonymous No.10694108]

>>10694092
Bail man. Just say fuck the lemons and bail.

Go to some second world backpacker poverty tourism country and tend bar at a second rate hotel or club. Drink, sample the local women, and write.

[Anonymous No.10694121]

>>10694108
Well I don’t just want to drop off the map like I died. I am thinking of taking a year off after college to go somewhere though, hell maybe I’ll join the army and do a tour. I just want to find out what I’m supposed to do

[Anonymous No.10694123]

the early replies in these threads always get replies but I have nothing to say really

[Anonymous No.10694125]

>>10694123

Announcing that you're uncomfortable saying anything is what? Better or worse than saying anything to begin with?

[Anonymous No.10694133]

I want to write a novella (I don't care about length for a first try) but I doubt my stamina and I don't know if I can make it sufficiently literary. I feel like I have things to say but I don't want to embarrass myself, you know?

[Anonymous No.10694136]

>>10694125

I don't think it's either and I'm not uncomfortable as such but only devoid of any insights worth discussing. I have tinnitus, my vision is getting worse and there's probably other sorts of decay going on in my gut and my brain. Makes me a bit depressed desu.

[Anonymous No.10694139]

>>10694025
alone on valentines once again

[Anonymous No.10694146]

I have little reason to wonder at the place my life has led me. My choices, my morals, my selfishness, I have crafted this world for myself, and surprisingly, I am not unsatisfied.
I am not alone, I have family and a beloved, I have time to read, to cook, to ponder.

I want to create, however. I have memories, ideas, I have a pure idea sitting in the chamber of my pistolhead. It is sitting with paragraphs freshly slicked onto faux moleskine pages just beside me. I know it will be my first foray into a serious work, and have its plot fashioned well, strong themes, and a pleasant simplicity.
I just won't pull the trigger and devote myself to it. I want to create, but I feel some ruminations are still needed.

I have begun to wonder if my waiting, my sloth has overtaken me. I have grown accustomed to waiting for opportunity, and now that it has risen, I am dashing it for fear that I won't have the comfortable tension of waiting any longer. That once the locomotion of my soul begins, I will no longer be able to rest. That this is the last chance to breathe I will ever own.

What a fool I am.

[Anonymous No.10694153]

>>10694133
I know the feeling. I think you just have to write it and read it and thrash at it until it's erudite enough. Either that or stop aiming for something unattainable. Just because you know of the best literature, doesn't mean you have to create that. To hell with it. If nothing else, at least you committed to something so you could fail. Failure is the reward of effort, failure is the mana of creation.

[Anonymous No.10694160]

>>10694153
Yeah I've thought about that
My favorite authors are Joyce (an unattainable level of prose) and Dostoevsky (an unattainable level of character psychology) so I'm really feeling that anxiety of influence shit that Bloom talks about

[Anonymous No.10694167]

>>10694133

Chances are the first draft (and the whole thing) will be pretty poor. But that's just something you need to get out of the way. It's about as embarassing as an obese person exercising, that is to say, certainly feels that way but really it isn't.

[Anonymous No.10694168]

Communism is so fucking stupid. You can't just give a farmer and a Doctor the same benefits for their labor. And if you give more compensation to one over the other than you are merely creating a different upper class above the common laborer.
Automated labor won't fix this, because the repairman of a Doctorbot 3000 still won't be on the same level as say a lawyer or politician who will likely never be replaced even in the distant future.

[Anonymous No.10694179]

>>10694133
If you have some idea you're really find of, don't try it as a first attempt. Go back to it after you've other things so you can tackle the idea with both experience and passion.

[Anonymous No.10694193]

>>10694179
This is novel advice. Thank you. I've an idea that I really want to do justice but don't know if I'm ready yet.

[Anonymous No.10694233]

So much I want to do, so little time. Never could I visit all the world's cities in my lifetime. Or, perhaps I could, but it would have to be my undying passion, the one cause for my existence. It would be extremely difficult for me to persue my exploration whilst being a renounced painter, or a musician.

One of the greatest jokes of all, is that we're born into such a fantastic world with a surplus of places to explore, billions of people with their own stories to exchange with, and trillions of experiences, but with a limited amount of time. Like giving a bowl of ice cream to a child, only to snatch it out of their hands after a singular bite. And they only got to try one flavor.

Basically, I'm a fucking brainlet and it's hard for me to accept that I will die without getting to take in the entire world.

[Anonymous No.10694249]

>>10694168
projection

[Anonymous No.10694262]

I'd like to create music and post it on the internet, but the existing venues of soundcloud and bandcamp are too professional. Most people there want to make it big, but I just want to put things out casually for anyone who might enjoy it. Do you think Youtube is a good idea?

[Anonymous No.10694269]

Who knew making a bet with the Devil would feel so good. I can't wait.

[Anonymous No.10694312]

Is anyone else overly concerned that they have narcissistic tendencies?

[Anonymous No.10694327]

>>10694312
I can't be a narcissist, I'm the best.

[Anonymous No.10694340]

>>10694312
An interesting and short anecdote for you, my therapist recently diagnosed me with narcissist disorder, or whatever they call it, (this same man complained of his wife cheating on him and asked me for advice at length, taking up the entire meetings, even going so far as to take out a bow fire starter he had made in some outdoors survival class) and after leaving his attempt at practice, my wife went to a more expensive therapist nearby. she apparently told her therapist about me, and mentioned my experience with my therapist, and immediately said "so he has narcissistic tendencies?". apparently being your therapist's therapist is narcissistic.

[Anonymous No.10694350]

>>10694025
I want fuck a Japanese girl

[Anonymous No.10694373]

>>10694025
I met the girl of my dreams. She fell for me. Not as hard as I had fell for her, but at least she put up with my acne plagued nigger mug shot of a face. I got comfortable. I got comfortable and when she asked me: "I'm afraid you like me more than I like you". I said, "you're definitely right". She doesn't like that, she insinuates. It's unattractive. She's not some phantom /r9k/ stacy of a woman, but I just wanted someone to relax around. I just wanna cuddle. I just wanna hug. I've shown you so much of me. And it's unattractive.

You're the best to me, but I just write the worst of you on "Write what's on your mind" threads.
I love you, I'm sorry.

[Anonymous No.10694382]

>>10694074
>>10694092
>>10694123
>>10694139
>>10694146
>>10694233
>>10694373
There's something very cathartic about these threads

[Anonymous No.10694385]

>>10694312

[Anonymous No.10694386]

>>10694262
Youtube is good, I think mu might also suit you

[Anonymous No.10694389]

>>10694373
If you give more than she gives, she'll think you'll take more than she takes.

[Anonymous No.10694391]

Why can't I stop thinking about her? It's been five whole years since I even last laid physical eyes on her. She still gets me. I still think about her.

What fucking gives? She's cursed me.

[Anonymous No.10694394]

>>10694025
I get my hair cut today

[Anonymous No.10694398]

>>10694269
t. charlatan

[Anonymous No.10694401]

>>10694025
>wake up feeling pretty good
>walk to class
>friend sees me and snaps me a pic of me walking
>remember i'm disgusting

[Anonymous No.10694403]

>>10694386
I posted my stuff in the soundcloud thread on /mu/, but from the looks of it, they're one big in-group that exists mainly to promote each other's stuff, and despite giving a lot of feedback I got no replies on my own work. Also, it hurts my soul seeing the state of /mu/ nowadays, so I'd rather not post stuff at all than force myself to go there again. Kinda sucks that there's no good space on 4chan for just posting tunes you come up with, but oh well.

[Anonymous No.10694405]

>>10694312
I know that I have them, but I am more or less at peace with them, because they function as psychological coping mechanisms that allow me to sustain my meandering and disappointing life.

[Anonymous No.10694433]

>>10694403
BLIFFY WITH THE STIFFY, NIGGA

you're just mad u cant produce a banger lmao

[Anonymous No.10694435]

>>10694391
Y'know, even if I never had a chance, I'm still happy I got to meet her. I think men love women in a way women can't love men, or any other person can love. I think I'd put it above even familial love. There's just something so enchanting about falling in deeply in love with a girl. It's not like other types of desires. Not just the sexual or the ideal. It's like you can't even believe they exist at all. You can't believe it but they're still there. Isn't that the most wonderful way to live?

[Anonymous No.10694443]

>>10694433
Honestly don't know what you mean. I'm not calling you guys shit or anything - it's just not what I'm looking for.

[Anonymous No.10694459]

I found this song after not hearing it in years and I Can't. Stop. Listening. To. It.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JB_fNVOPzyM

[Anonymous No.10694462]

>>10694025
I've always considered myself to be intelligent but recently I've realized I live a very directionless life. Reading Lovecraft and understanding just how much of history and language he understood made me feel like a brainlet. I've always been proud of my intelligence and knowledge, but everything I know is only surface level. I know almost nothing about the specifics of world history and geography because I went to a ghetto public school and accepted being better than everyone around me instead of spending my time actually bettering myself. Now I'm a 22-year-old college dropout with no specific interests or worthwhile ideas.

[Anonymous No.10694476]

>>10694435
>>10694433 isnt the guy you originally responded to. There must be some underground music website, I know obscure black metal artists also do shit like this. You should ask around on rate your music

[Anonymous No.10694513]

>>10694389
what, elaborate please

[Anonymous No.10694530]

But is it so bad to want to solve things. Only if you do it when there is nothing to solve. But how do I know when there is and there isn't? If I move around like an animal looking for food... That's not like it should be is it? I don't wanna be reduced. Waiting for myself to show up. I gotta take the risk. But if I gotta, I already lost.

[Anonymous No.10694532]

>>10694513
It's pretty easy. Commitment and paying up your debts.

[Anonymous No.10694535]

>>10694476
I gave their forums a look-over, but found nothing. Looks like soundcloud, bandcamp, or youtube are the only options. Oh well.

[Anonymous No.10694536]

>>10694530
I feel rejected. I'm so so tired of it.

[Anonymous No.10694583]

How am I supposed to be able to differentiate between a knight of faith and somebody who is just insane? I worry I'm too much of a brainlet to understand Johannes

[Anonymous No.10694588]

Most my posts don't get (You)s but knowing some people will read this comforts me a little.
I've applied for med since it's been a long term dream of mine and I was rejected by all the unis I got interviews for. I'd accepted that I didn't get a spot and moved on. Then last Friday one of the called me up and asked if I still wanted a spot. He told me I'm on the waiting list and will get a call the next (current now) week.
Well it's half way through the week and I'm pretty sure it's not happening. It's a real kick in the gut.

Not only that but just waiting for something that won't happen makes me feel empty. I'm not working towards anything, I'm not seeing friends or socialising. I'm just staying at home, existing until this damn week is over. I'm afraid this empty feeling won't stop once the week is over.

[Anonymous No.10694606]

>>10694588
Christ, that's hard man. I wish you the best

[Anonymous No.10694609]

>>10694588
Did you get the chance to do an intermediate year to show your ability at university?
Weird they'd put so much emphasis on high school if not, since it's such a poor indicator for motivated people at shit schools.

[Anonymous No.10694615]

this song is objectively beautiful
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUBfexhpYQU

[Anonymous No.10694624]

I cannot tell if my actions will do them good. I can't tell if what's my sorrow now, will soon be their happiness. I can't tell if I should be quiet or not, when I wish to speak.

>>10694583
AFAIK, you can't until the deed is done, because the religious stage supercedes but does not contradict the ethical stage, so it's a sort of Heideggerian thing in which the thing is only perceivable because it's not perceivable, and the seemingly inevitable contradiction, absurdly doesn't happen.

Makes me think if the religious stage isn't underneath the other two all the time, rather than being something one progresses unto.

http://www.wussu.com/laotzu/laotzu48.html

>>10694588
Supportive (You)

[Anonymous No.10694637]

>>10694609
In Australia there's an undergraduate and postgraduate path of getting into med. Undergraduate has a number of requirements, not just high school.
At this point I'm going to do something else and attempt postgrad. It's not the end of the world but the whole getting rejected after putting in so much effort for exams is demoralising, especially since I was off the mark by one percentile for most unis and got interviews for the others.

>>10694606
>>10694624
Thanks, appreciate it.

[Anonymous No.10694644]

>>10694637
It's gonna be a long trip, hope it works out in the end. I've been in studies for 7 cumulative years now with the under and postgrad combined, it's fine.

[Anonymous No.10694648]

>>10694624
Careful with those (you)s someone might just speed by there and confuse it for them then you got a whole crowd of soy boys rushing in thinking it's them you're signaling and then what are you going to do you can start with making your damn bed but you know what I mean

[Anonymous No.10694659]

>>10694648
I don't care. The world is sad enough as it is.

[Anonymous No.10694663]

>>10694659
yeah well (You) (You) (You) you know everybody's going to be reading this exchange to get themselves to see why it wasn't really them as a humble brag and it's a virtue signal already

[Anonymous No.10694669]

>>10694663
Virtue people is for people who want to be honest. I just don't give a fuck anymore.

[Anonymous No.10694676]

i'm never going to get a real job so i have no choice but to write my own apps and try to sell them but that is basically impossible not to mention i have no fucking money so i have to do my own design work too and marketing and every fucking thing, i just have a low grade feeling of stress running through my body basically at all times, the cold truth is if you don't get into an elite college you will never ever escape poverty

[Anonymous No.10694677]

>>10694663
The future is coming too soon.

[Anonymous No.10694684]

>>10694676
start forex trading, faggot

t. /biz/ fag

[Anonymous No.10694688]

>>10694684
too speculative bro

[Anonymous No.10694696]

I did something horrible several years ago that i dont fully regret. There was this man i was into and he was into me. We went on a camping trip with a group of friends and one night we ended up near a cliff. There was a full moon out and we hwd s bottle of wine; we were just laying there after a meal of sandwhiches and fruit, looking up at tge stars drinking from our glasses. I forget what he said but he made me laugh, like really hard and I remember clearly putting feet up and wrapping the blanket around my self and just looking at him sideways, sort of in a coy manner.

That’s when Sisco showed up. I liked Sisco as a friend but not as anything else, at the time i had just lost myself in my friends eyes. But Sisco cane up, joking as he always did and accidently kicked our bottle over, spilling its entire contents on the rocks and rolling over the cliff crashing twenty feet below us. My friend got up and pushed him. He was drunk. Sisco pushed him back and they started wrestling.

I didn’t know how i felt about it. I loved him but at the same time Sisco was stronger snd the competitin of it turned me on in a deeper level. It quickly got out of hand and to my horror my friend rolled over and and got pushed over the cliff.

I looked down and saw that he had amnaged to grab on to a beanch sticking out of the cliff about three feet below me. Before i could say anything Sisco was on me. He pulled my skirt up and stuck himself deep in me as i watched my friend and my love hanging my a branch. “We have to helo him” i said, barely managing to say that before letting out a moan. Snd he hekpt fucking me and i was powerless. Then i daw my love’s had give out and watched him fall twenty feet. He screamed in horror but Sisco going in and out of me made me feel safe. I watched him hit the ground and for the next five minutes we stared into each other’s eyes—he was alive, i knew it—before Sisco came inside me and gave me the biggest orgasm ive ever had in my life. We went back afterwards and waited an hour, pretending that the man who trusted me more than anyone in the world had fallen on his own. We told no one. Sisco snd I are now married and we have three wonderful children. I know some people would like to hear that karma caught up to me but the truth is that my husband makes a solid 130k a year and our life is nearly perfect. I never felt guilty but i did miss my feiend for a few weeks. Eventually the pain, and i worked ar this, faded and i was able to live my life, set goals for myself, and look after my wonderful family. I no longer miss him and i never felt guilty. That ws the best orgasm ive ever had. I dont know how i feel about that.

[Anonymous No.10694701]

>>10694684
t. I have $400 and started with $200 since I invested the last 78 hours into bitcoin

[Anonymous No.10694703]

>>10694696
>t. fat basement anon writes his domination fantasy

fag

[Anonymous No.10694705]

>>10694688
not at all
i know neets who make a living watching /pol/ all day, getting news fast, and making trades using logic on how news will affect certain markets

[Anonymous No.10694708]

>>10694701
where u trade ur btc at?

[Anonymous No.10694725]

do u think tonight's audible daily deal will help me get gf?

it's only $2.95

[Anonymous No.10694745]

I was going to write something but all of you have in some shape or another already expressed my innermost thinkings. So I guess all that's on my mind is thanks, /lit/. You articulated what I couldn't.
May we roll through life's depression together safely.

[Anonymous No.10694871]

>>10694745
Consider yourself witnessed.

[Anonymous No.10694878]

I've been a degenerate since I was a teenager. Video game and internet addiction have been constants in my life for almost 10 years now. I've wasted so much time in my life and maintained the whole pathetic routine with laughter at memes/television and a comfortable family support network. I read theory and philosophy and imagine myself a great thinker who's different from everyone else but really the only thing about me that's somewhat different is my superficial set of 'tastes'. But what the fuck does that matter? I'm lazy and egotistical like everyone else. I just don't post about it on social media. I've started thinking lately that if I don't do something soon I'm going to stop giving a shit altogether and just give up and burn my books. I don't know how to act in the world.

[Anonymous No.10694885]

i can't call my cat because his name is Nigger-Man

[Anonymous No.10694889]

>>10694025
Op is a gay frog

[Anonymous No.10694914]

>>10694878
You are just one more in 4chan. Almost all of us are exactly like you.

[Anonymous No.10694939]

Why is it so difficult for men to be loyal? If only my husband knew how much he wounds my soul with his weakness towards women.

He has shown to be unfaithful and still he demands me to trust him. How? Why? All I wanted to do is to make him happy. I give my all and I receive harm in return. And I must remain silent .

[Anonymous No.10694946]

>>10694878

[Anonymous No.10695000]

should i drop my stem meme degree for my true passion, music

[Anonymous No.10695005]

>>10695000
no

[Anonymous No.10695013]

>>10694939
our cocks fuck us up constantly
shit's a curse
internet porn doesn't help either

[Anonymous No.10695016]

>>10694588
You resemble my predicament at the moment rather accurately. Best of luck Anon, keep your chin up and control your feels - do not let the feels control you

[Anonymous No.10695053]

Ciabatta is superior to badguette

[Anonymous No.10695066]

I find it obnoxious to maintain the absurd level of correspondence with people which is now expected, especially women so I think I might take up wh*ring
It doesn't bother me at all right now save for the fact that I may regret it in the future when I'm an old man and I have fucking nothing

[Anonymous No.10695084]

Sometimes I feel like I'm not a real human... For example I felt like a ghost today. I was totally ignored by my classmates at Uni. It's like being disconnected or something, It's really a weird feeling

[Anonymous No.10695087]

>>10694025
I'm writing genre fiction right now, and I'm having fun, but would it establish a precedent if it's the first book I publish? I'm working on non-genre fiction too. Should I use two different pseudonyms in the beginning?

[Anonymous No.10695182]

Why do people decide to live mediocre? Don't they want something to reminisce on when they can't choose how to live anymore? Even intense self-destruction and suffering must be a better use of your time, you're at least doing something.

[Anonymous No.10695202]

>>10695066
You don't have to maintain anything if you actually like the person, you obese autist.

[Anonymous No.10695208]

>>10695202
t. whipped normie

[Anonymous No.10695217]

>>10695208
>pseud that thinks he's too great for the world.
You're not. You're a loser that can't even form friendships.

[Anonymous No.10695225]

made my emo sadboi sonnet into a love poem in blank verse about a new girl whom I enjoy very much

Basking in the quiet, sorrow-filled room
Where the morning light flecks in, and my
Eyes are as red as the looming dawn, shutting
To convey secrets to no one, hidden.
Your face, refined to a soft smile, floats and
Formulates in the turbid mess that is
My finger-smudged, unlit laptop plane;
Driving away portents of perdition.
Guide me through affectionless, tired days
That used to fill this ill-lighted life, and
Free me from all ensnarement so that all
I wish before me is receiving you:
Where your ashen skin and grey eyes coddle
My hardened sinew and burning marrow.
You alone, my love, my hierophant,
To send life back into my barren hopes.

[Anonymous No.10695290]

I worked 65 hours last week and have now discovered that I have tomorrow AND Friday off. I have no life since I work it away constantly. What are some /lit/ things to do?

[Anonymous No.10695297]

>>10695290
do nothing but browse 4chan both tomorrow and friday

[Anonymous No.10695311]

>>10695297
Maybe I will, friend

[Anonymous No.10695325]

I can not maintain any consistent relation to the world, to my friends, to the woman that supposedly loves me, to writing, to literature, even to things like noon or afternoon or evening. The more things I am in contact with, the more chaotic it seems to become.
Everything changes, my attitudes most of all. It feels hopeless to expect any sort of consistency from anything. I'm failing in my studies, my relationship, in writing anything beyond autistic short fiction, in maintaining relationships to people that are close to me.

What am I to do? I have the constant urge to just give it all up and isolate myself.

[Anonymous No.10695331]

>>10694878

[Anonymous No.10695335]

>>10695325
It's called being depressed. Seek help. In God or medication.

[Anonymous No.10695347]

>>10695335
depression is a moral good

[Anonymous No.10695351]

I long for death but my family needs me but I'm such a mess that I'm more an inconvenience than anything. I don't know where to go from here. I can't kill myself but I can't fix myself.

[Anonymous No.10695359]

>>10695347
It can be, but staying there forever isn't. You're supposed to climb out greater.

[Anonymous No.10695366]

>>10694878
iktfb

[Anonymous No.10695371]

>>10695359
But how?

[Anonymous No.10695377]

I resent my girlfriend but when I can never succesfully break up with her. She always managed to soften it, delay it, to make me hopeful again, before it all goes back to shit

[Anonymous No.10695394]

Scouters are a form of power-knowledge that constitutes the subject as quantified extension by juxtaposing a scalar quantity to its power level, in effect creating power as numerical, creating the subject as a function of number. The apparatus for measuring the actualization of potential becomes the essence of potential itself, and chi becomes a matter for engineers and calculators. The gaze of the scouter, which covers the eye, becomes the true, the scientific eye, the gaze which one must take into oneself as one's own if one wishes to serve in Frieza's army. In our scientific age we have forgotten how to train.

[Anonymous No.10695396]

>>10695371
For me, it was redefining the world from meaningless to meaningful by accepting Christianity.

[Anonymous No.10695400]

>>10695394
powerlevels are proven unreliable horseshit

[Anonymous No.10695401]

>>10695377
Why do you resent her?

[Anonymous No.10695405]

>>10695396
It's hopeless, then

[Anonymous No.10695439]

>>10695401
She has a million male friends, all of whom obviously want her in a romantic way. She interacts with them constantly or plays dumb games with them to either provoke me or, when she feels like that's appropriate, placate and flatter me.
Physical intimacy is completely gone from the relationship, which she seems to matter-of-factly, almost bullishly accept. Gets even more bizarre considering her promises of endless and true love when there's a fight between us. When it comes to as much as me kissing her in a way that she thinks is sexual, she instantly stops me and gets defensive.
We don't really share any interest, or don't anymore.
She's attention-demanding, she saps all of my energy.
She has recently gotten back into contact with her Ex (who's even more of a retard than her), he now takes every little opportunity to get her attention. Hell, he invited her to his grandma's funeral, where they currently are getting drunk.
Frankly, it feels like she's become a tyrant. She can still be very affectionate and funny, but at this point it feels like a farce.

[Anonymous No.10695449]

>>10695439
Nuke her

[Anonymous No.10695459]

>>10695449
no access to nuclear weapons

[Anonymous No.10695469]

>>10695449
>>10695459
Feels like I'm being unfair to her, but these are also the honest the reasons why I resent her, when I do (I don't always)

[Anonymous No.10695489]

>>10694025
Back when I used to smoke, I'd go outside every day for long walks. I would go out with friends and meet new people. I would do all of that because I needed a cigarette and those were great excuses to smoke. Now, I stay home for weeks at a time. What the fuck is wrong with me?

[Anonymous No.10695513]

I want to start micropublishing poetry but I don't know where to get material other than shilling on /lit/, which VERY occasionally produces something good. I could advertise elsewhere online but I don't want to get inundated with facebook-tier content. My other option would be to go put flyers or something out around the city, but I don't know if that would work, or even where in the city would be best to put them.

[Anonymous No.10695530]

The owl make a swift movement over my window, that winged bird entered my room as the rain outside started to get heavier.

As the wise bird stood on the arm of my sofa, I quickly realized that it's sharp claws could probably hurt my precious furniture.

So I gained some bravery and made a quick and crazy movement with both arms, trying to scare the wise owl, little did I know that the ceilling fan was on and immediately the blades hit my fingers, causing a small contusion, I yelled a curse, as the owl remained there, humble and superb.

[Anonymous No.10695568]

>>10694025
My life is in shambles. I honestly cant see myself living for another year: probably will an hero this summer. cheers

[Anonymous No.10695681]

>>10695568
Why?

[Anonymous No.10695684]

Damn, everyone on /lit/ is depressed and confused.

What brings you happiness, /lit/?

[Anonymous No.10695687]

>>10695439
>She has a million male friends
Why did you get with her in the first place? Any women worth keeping won't have any male friends, unless he is a homosexual and they will know perfectly well why it should be like that. Just on this issue alone she should be discarded. Never mind all the other stuff like her ex.
You need to grow a pair of balls and just end it.

[Anonymous No.10695688]

>>10695684
God, creation and innocence. They all feel so distant.

[Anonymous No.10695698]

>>10695469
No, you're not being unfair, you're being insane to yourself. If my gf went out with guys or her ex bf she'd get dropped in an instant. Luckily it will never come to that because she understands that men and women can't be friends without a sexual element. I have only guy friends and she has girl friends, except for her childhood gay friend. Works perfectly for us.

[Anonymous No.10695700]

I owe myself a cup of tea and a bit of alcohol.
The last two days weren't too bad.

[Anonymous No.10695708]

>>10695439
How long have you been together?

[Anonymous No.10695726]

>>10695708
almost a year now, with one 3-week break in between

[Anonymous No.10695732]

I do everything that I can just to avoid people

[Anonymous No.10695736]

>>10695684
creating art, nice weather, romping around with friends

[Anonymous No.10695746]

>>10695684
God, dogs, any kind of pets and tenderness

[Anonymous No.10695767]

>>10695684
To feel happy, I need 10-15 free days.
In the first days, I sleep enough and relax, then I get to work and do translations, writing, transcription and photo editing.

[Anonymous No.10695779]

>>10695726
Yeah this isn't a serious relationship. Take it as a learning experience and find another.

[Anonymous No.10695839]

>>10695779
Why is it not? Can't it be steered in a better direction?

[Anonymous No.10695845]

>>10695568
i feel u my dude

[Anonymous No.10695853]

>>10695779
She's socialising with her ex and doesn't seem to think there's anything wrong with it.

[Anonymous No.10695866]

>>10695853
For the first few weeks of it she was still together with him, she left him for me.

[Anonymous No.10695876]

>https://www.nytimes.com/2018/02/13/business/media/quinn-norton-new-york-times.html

>mfw the nytimes hires a gen-x/millenial to write op-eds about internet culture in a desperate attempt to stay relevant
>mfw they have to fire xir six hours later for troll tweets calling ppl fags

even tho life is shit sometimes u have to stop and enjoy the precious little moments

[Anonymous No.10695890]

>>10695853
I'm not very experienced with this

[Anonymous No.10695899]

>>10695853
>>10695866
>>10695890

fuck off with this normie larping u samefag

[Anonymous No.10695914]

>>10695684
MDMA

[Anonymous No.10695925]

>>10695899
pls
It's not larping. I genuinely don't know what to do. If I break up with her I'll be utterly alone

[Anonymous No.10695935]

>>10695925
No girls have shown interest in you before?
Bruh, if you can get one gf, you can get another. This one is making you miserable. But do what you think is best.
First, get her to stop seeing men and and her ex.
>>10695899
Shut up, you jealous loser.

[Anonymous No.10695938]

>>10695925
i had something like that except she broke up with me, and it was weird for a day or two like being totally alone just myself and the internet, but then i got used to it again, then later she tried to contact me and it's like nope too late, maybe she had during those 2-3 days when i wasn't used to being alone again i would have cared, but now i'm just like nope

[Anonymous No.10695950]

>>10695935
>Shut up, you jealous loser.

guy clinging to failing cuck relationship calling others losers

ok buddy, take it to r9k no one cares

[Anonymous No.10695961]

>>10695950
I'm not that guy, you fucking sperg. You quoted me for some reason, even though I'm the one telling him he needs to leave that girl.

[Anonymous No.10696030]

>>10695938
that sounds sad anyways

[Anonymous No.10696043]

>>10696030
ya but it rly wasn't as sad as it sounds, i wasn't that into her, and then she flipped out over some stupid little thing, and i was like well shit if she's that erratic then there was no way this was going to last anyways so no loss, then later she's all "oh hi" i'm like yeah...no.

[Anonymous No.10696096]

>>10695935
Impossible

[Anonymous No.10696240]

im breaking up with her I think

[Anonymous No.10696265]

>>10694878

I didn't need to see this, anon

[Anonymous No.10696287]

>>10695513
>image
It would be nice to live there.

[Anonymous No.10696312]

Hegel's notion of Spirit (i.e. immediate experience being abstracted into abbreviated forms of thinking which scaffold the cultural world / children learning through games notions adults toiled over to make explicit) is empirical and
does a better job explaining what Schelling, Freud and Jung set out to demarcate by their claims regarding the unconscious.

The being of nature humans partake in and share identity with is explicit; Hegel is to Schelling (and his intellectual heirs) in this respect as Aristotle was to Sophocles.

[Anonymous No.10696314]

>>10694025

My novel:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B079SSP8X2

[Anonymous No.10696377]

dear /lit/ bros,
22M got a degree in music but I saw that I was headed down a path that would be along the lines of "32, DMA in music, adjunct professor at small schools"

I don't give a shit about anything that can make some real money, but I've decided to swallow my pride and do something with some guaranteed $. What's a good path for that

[Anonymous No.10696455]

>>10696287
It's the Gardner museum in Boston, nobody lived there, but Isabella Gardner did work there. Her office is still setup as a part of the museum. It's a really amazing place, the picture is actually an atrium in the center of the building. There's a great contrast in the winter between the harsh, cold weather outside and the cozy courtyard on the inside.

[Anonymous No.10696465]

>>10694878
You only want recognition.

[Anonymous No.10696476]

I'm thinking of starting a startup so I can get rich and just be done with work after a few years. I have a brilliant idea that will revolutionize publishing. Work is justincompatible with writing, unless you have a patron.

[Anonymous No.10696490]

>>10696455
That's interesting. Would never have guessed what it looks like on the inside from looking at the building.
Imagine how cozy it would be to actually sit down there early in the morning with a cup of coffee, with not a soul around.

[Anonymous No.10696494]

>>10696476
>I have a brilliant idea that will revolutionize <industry>!
Said thousands of twenty-somethings before moving to Frisco to work 80 hour weeks on their meme idea before eventually running out of cash and taking a normal job, all while living in a one bedroom apartment with three roommates.

[Anonymous No.10696499]

>>10695335
Im in the same state as him. I know its not normal but i cant think myself out of it.

[Anonymous No.10696524]

Tfw no french bf to walk down Montmatre with. No bf to read Proust to... or cook for, or take a bath with after a long day of walking together, taking in france, and eachother.

[Anonymous No.10696551]

>>10694025

I am waiting for the excuse to kill myself that I need. It feels weird to be contemplating suicide after finding spirituality but it also makes it less distressing so that's good.

[Anonymous No.10696559]

>>10694025
what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.10696642]

>>10695000
no. no. no. i wish i had a stem meme degree and i'm broke af

[Anonymous No.10696665]

>>10695000
don't, at the very least your stem meme degree will signal to employers that you're not a total brainlet

[Anonymous No.10696891]

>>10696314
>https://www.amazon.com/dp/B079SSP8X2

how do u publish under a pseud-onym? i always wanted to spam out some god awful shit and see if i can make a couple bucks but i'd hate to have my real name attached to some shit that's half-assed

[Anonymous No.10696914]

>>10696314
Have you sold any?

[Anonymous No.10696931]

>>10694025
Lesbians licking each other immensely in the eyes of God--his shame recognized by the subtle persistence of the human experience.
We are left with the autism--that is humanity--to build up houses that are built on sand.
The Jews scathe and connive for their efforts of being in first contact with Him.
We must rejoice in the fact that we are still here amidst the notion that both time and ourselves combat our efforts of civilization.
White Power.

[Anonymous No.10696965]

pussy
sex
shagging
fucking
vagina
vaginal mucus
the waxy discharge of autonomy
mons pubis
saliva
sweat
shit
piss
grunting
groaning
moaning
curry
midgets
mums tits
my dogs nose
shooting people I don't like in the face

[Anonymous No.10696969]

>>10696931
this is very depressing

and self deprecating in a way

[Anonymous No.10697995]

The new medicine I’m taking is messing me up. The day was fine but I feel like the after effects are horrible. I’m filled with this sensation of dread, anger, and pairnoia the only thing I can do to soften it is to squeeze my arm and pull my hair. I need to switch back to my previous prescription or else I’m going to rip my skin off at this rate.

[Anonymous No.10698027]

>>10696524
faggot. you better be a woman

[Anonymous No.10698287]

>>10694025
i feel like playing a game, not sure which one, i just want to get lost in something for a few hours

[Anonymous No.10698324]

do u think the latest gunman will have a dank manifesto?

[Anonymous No.10698327]

>>10696455
I hate and I love you

Why do I do this perhaps you ask

I do not know

And that’s what tortures me

[Anonymous No.10698334]

>>10698324
maybe, the last couple didn't have shit and see as it's valentines day he probably planned it for this occasion

[Anonymous No.10698338]

>>10695684
art, video games and my sister

[Anonymous No.10698343]

I'm never honest with people because I don't trust my own thoughts. I don't trust that I am capable of putting two and two together as no matter what I put together there will be people who agree with me and people who disagree with me and I am unable to discern who's correct. I don't know how to get out of this thinking.

[Anonymous No.10698605]

i was planning on getting in a fap when all my normie roommates go out to fuck their gfs for valentines day, but they're still here, wtf

[Anonymous No.10698659]

Pitching stories to magazines is fucking annoying. You write a pitch that they might not even care about, leave you hanging for weeks, and won't even give you a consolation e-mail back saying "Sorry, but your article or your pitch sucks, so we won't be taking you". At least bother to give me the satisfaction of knowing it's over, instead of leaving me in limbo.

[Anonymous No.10698869]

>>10694878
haha what a dick! Must suck to be as much of a pretentious asshole as you!
Good thing I'm not one!

[Anonymous No.10698888]

There are times when I long for a girlfriend who corresponds to my fetishes. But then I wonder what would happen if I actually got one. Would I be able to have a genuine romantic relationship with her, or would the degree to which she checks off the boxes of things I fap to prevent that? Would I be able to relate to her as a human being, or would I get hung up on her as the incarnation of my masturbatory fantasies? In short, could I stop myself from totally objectifying her?

[Anonymous No.10698922]

>>10698343
Imagine being Lao Yang in this scene and having to be all like "damn, Democratic Republic of the Congo, you fuckin' fine, all sexy with your natural resources and horrific lazy ass unproductive workforce. I would totally invest in you, both personally and as my government" when all he really wants to do is go back to Tianjin and eat a Pomeranian. Like seriously imagine having to be Lao Yang and not only live in that ashtray while those monkey truck drivers insult your race, the favorable government policy barely concealing the resentment and corruption and just live there, day after day, hour after hour, while they slack off from work. Not only having to tolerate their subhuman lifestyle but their haughty attitude as everyone on the site tells them they've STILL GOT IT and DAMN, SWAMBUTU BOZELE WORKS LIKE *THAT*?? because they're not the ones who have to live there and watch these ape-like chimp faces contort into a confused grimace when you ask them where their hardhat is. You've been working with nothing but a healthy stream of efficient insect-like slaves and whores thrown out by their peasant families for being female for your ENTIRE CAREER coming straight out of the boonies in Sichuan. You've never even seen anything this tiresome before, and now you swear you can taste the beet liquor that has stained their uniforms as they adjust them and writhe suggestively at you, smugly assured that you are enjoying the opportunity to get paid to sit there and revel in their "motivated" (for that is what they call themselves) performance, the performance they didn't work at all to achieve with their Chinese overseers in the previous months. And then the foreman calls for another load of gravel, and you know you could shoot every single person on this site before Eddie could reach you, but you sit there and endure, because you're fucking Lao Yang. You're not going to ruin your government's investments over this. Just bear it. Hide your face and bear it.

[Anonymous No.10698958]

I don't know how to deal with the tedium of my own life, so I engage in self-destructive behaviors to "mix things up". In the end, it never helps.

[Anonymous No.10699018]

Foolish Games should be renamed Slut and Douchbag.

[Anonymous No.10699033]

>>10699018
never heard of it, is it a pleb thing?

[Anonymous No.10699125]

I'm tired and I don't think I can be tired for much longer

[Anonymous No.10699331]

holy fucking shit
i love my genes
all the assholes i went to high school with are starting to age like shit. One kid literally looks like Bam Margera now, all fat and puffy and balding.

I still look 18 lmao

[Anonymous No.10699341]

>>10699331
it seems good at first but then when you start hitting it off with some hot 22 year old u have to have the talk and reveal that u are like 40 and just live a 25 year olds lifestyle cuz u fucked ur career by doing dumb degrees

[Anonymous No.10699709]

>>10699341
what degree did you take? lmao

[Anonymous No.10699867]

There was a post I read a while back, either on /r9k/ or on /adv/ about someone posting about how they lost the vision in their left eye, and reading it made me feel so fucking awful, and I feel just as bad remembering it. They were an asshole to others, had an asshole friend, and the two got into a fight in gym class and he said he just remembers getting up with his eye bleeding and his classmates telling him that the other boy just jammed it with his thumb. He spoke about the consequences it had, and despite his attempts to hide it, you could tell he was miserable about it. He kept saying it didn't affect him, but the way he typed it out just struck me so badly. I wish I could read it again.

[Anonymous No.10699874]

dude, i just watched a thing on consumer tier infrared cameras...if want to nofap urself just realize anyone can see you wackin it through your walls with an ir camera, even worse if it's on a drone, i guess u can counter it by cranking the heat up to like 90 degrees, but then the cops gonna think u growin weed

human civ peaked around 1770s, after that tech became oppressive and it's only getting worse

[Anonymous No.10699880]

>>10699867
well everything posted on 4chan is on the internet for all eternity, so go scour the archives

[Anonymous No.10699882]

>>10699867
The system of german idealism will be complete
>>160540555

[Anonymous No.10699888]

>>10699874
now i'm noided to even casually scratch my nuts while scrollin

[Anonymous No.10699889]

>>10699882
fuck off KB your content has waned in its potency my dear

[Anonymous No.10699890]

>>10694025
KANT BOT WAS RIGHT
>>160540555

[Anonymous No.10699893]

>>10699874

[Anonymous No.10699908]

>>10699893
what if your neighbor just posts infrared pics on instragram everytime u jackin and then tweets ur boss/professor/mom about it

[Anonymous No.10699913]

>>10699908
post pictures of him jerkin it back. who doesn't jerk off? it's embarrassing, sure, but it's not a big deal, honestly. not every place is as prude as the states. besides, your neighbor is the guy "who filmed some dude jerking it in his own home, what a weirdo"

[Anonymous No.10699918]

>>10699913
wut if u go in for a self-facial? too gay?

[Anonymous No.10699924]

>>10699918
a little bit, yeah

[Anonymous No.10699925]

Mistakes and sins can't really be forgiven, they can only be ignored or forgotten. You can never prove that another person has forgiven you, if it may even be possible, so the most one can do is trust them and have faith and risk failure,

[Anonymous No.10699933]

>>10699867
Gonna go ahead and expand on this:

I'm so fucking miserable lads. I'm failing three classes in my last year of high school, and I haven't stopped accumulating absences and tardies. I want to leave my job already, but I don't have the money I need yet. No friends. Everyone my age is misanthropic, whiny, and not immature in the same way I am. Their immaturity is different from mine. Didn't apply to college. Didn't take my SAT. Didn't get any community hours. In 4 months, I'll lose the opportunity to have consistent socialization with people my age, and within my social class. It's going to get worse after that. I'm going to be alone. I used to dream of leaving it all behind, and moving from place to place, never settling down, and now the thought of leaving this region terrifies me. I don't know what happened. I don't know why I want a wife and kids now.

I can't vent on /adv/ or /r9k/ because I can't post on either one for some reason. /adv/ never lets me post, and /r9k/ just gives me a "Posting from your IP region/ISP is blocked." message. This is probably the best thing that happen to anyone who actually visited those boards, but I miss having a place to vent, which is exactly why I'm making this post. Can't even discuss literature here because I don't have any time to read anymore.

I don't know what I'm going to do. This essay is going to be worth a huge portion of my grade, and I'm so fucking stuck on writing it, even though I could pass so easily if I just wrote something mediocre. I keep taking naps and I only end up waking up feeling more tired. Nothing helps.

>>10699880
I looked through the archives, can't find the posts. I don't remember where it was posted, and searching up key words didn't locate the posts either. It was on a thread about people posting what events drastically altered their lives, I think.

[Anonymous No.10699935]

>>10699933
>last year in high school

tard or underage? u decide!

[Anonymous No.10699936]

LIBIDO

[Anonymous No.10699941]

>>10699935
>18 year olds can't be in high school

Stop posting. Don't reply to my posts ever again. Don't reply to anyone's posts ever again. Thank you.

[Anonymous No.10699987]

>>10699941
Go away, faggot. Boohooo you're failing high school!! Ahhh the end of the world

[Anonymous No.10699989]

>>10699867
Well, now I want to say a prayer for him. I'll say one for you, too, Anon.

[Anonymous No.10699996]

ok i'm giving up /lit/ for lent, see u fags at easter

[Anonymous No.10699998]

>>10699933
>be me
>high IQ sperg who had enough credits to graduate when I was 15
>decide to stay another 4 more years lmao
>all because i get government bux for just being in school because native blood
>be NEET af for a few years
>school work is easy as piss
>am 18 so i can sign myself out whenever i want
>fuck hot teen bitches and no bats an eye
>dank all day

just stay an extra year, you dramatic faggot.

[Anonymous No.10700003]

>>10699933
just do ur fucking work, anon
it's called work for a reason
you're not some deep nigga
cut the shit and just do it
do not think
you little bitch

[Anonymous No.10700025]

>>10699987
>suddenly wasting all the work you did for a specialized degree
>completely giving up on any future after high school
>isolating yourself and losing the chance to form relationships with anyone
>this is nothing to be concerned about

Go ahead faggot, I wanna hear what you think is worth complaining about.

>>10699989
Reading his posts made me feel sick. There was nothing but misery and pain. He said he had learned his lesson and began treating people kinder afterwards, but I don't know if that's something he'll ever recover from.

>>10699998
>in school
>neet

you're retarded

>DUDE FUCKING AND DRINKING LMAO

Literally everyone experiences these during high school. If this is the only reason you stayed, I don't know what to tell you.

>>10700003
I don't want to do it. I want to leave now and just start doing what I want to do. Fuck that picture too. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth, even if I can relate to some squares.

[Anonymous No.10700030]

>>10700025
>in school
>literally had half days and with literally no home work

You're also a semantic little faggot who hates fun. Stop pretending to be smarter than you are.

[Anonymous No.10700035]

>>10700025
Wow.
Dude, you're a little bore who whines about everything. Holy shit, lighten the fuck up. You're 18 for fuck's sake.

I'd hate to spend a single minute in your company.

[Anonymous No.10700040]

>>10700030
and also I spent a lot of my abundant free time honing my writing skills.. which paid off, considering I'm 3x published with a National Award.

Why are you so caught up in what everyone else expects of you?

[Anonymous No.10700042]

>tfw a bunch of ideas
>tfw passion for people
>tfw no one wants to by my friend

[Anonymous No.10700048]

>>10700025
>I know! Instead of fixing things, I'll sit here and just think about how everything is wrong!

You're fucking doomed, kid. I don't know what to tell ya!

[Anonymous No.10700049]

>>10699933
You sound depressed. Read existentialism, particularly Nietzsche, I'm absolutely serious. High-schoolers have plenty of fucking time, especially 2nd semester seniors. Track every hour, stop trying to "feel" better via games/TV/weed/food/sleep, find time to sit down and read either Beyond Good and Evil or Camus' The Myth of Sisyphus. If I can take 18 hours and find time for Saussure you can certainly do that. And if you're wondering what the point of it all is, don't assume any answer, because you can't comprehend anything of the sort at this point. Albeit we cannot do anything with philosophy, but might not philosophy do something with us?

[Anonymous No.10700053]

There's something incredibly soothing about singing. Next time you guys find yourself alone, try singing deep from the diaphragm and playing around with your voice. It's really nice, almost therapeutic even.

[Anonymous No.10700055]

>>10700025
>I don't want to do it. I want to leave now and just start doing what I want to do.

You're not special. Life doesn't owe you want you want to do.
You've contradicted yourself so many times, giving me the impression you like the comfort of being sad and sorry for yourself, that you'll cling on like a naive baby to it and bat away anything that could serve you.

I'd recommend the following: therapy, talk to your fuckin parents, grow up, stop being a fag

[Anonymous No.10700058]

>>10700030
>>10700040
Also I don't think you understand what a few years of free rent, budgeting, and part-time work/full time in the summer can give you.

[Anonymous No.10700066]

>>10700025
>>isolating yourself and losing the chance to form relationships with anyone

Are you legitimately autistic? You do know you can make friends with people not your own age? and people outside of school?

what the fuck, anon?

[Anonymous No.10700071]

Sometimes I wish I would have learnt my mother tongue properly so I could write in it because I definitely cannot do it in English or my 3rd or 4th languages.

[Anonymous No.10700075]

>>10700030
>Stop pretending to be smarter than you are.

I'm not you daft cunt. You're projecting your experience on me thinking I'm supposed to relate to your neetbux story and comfortably cruise through high school.

>>10700035
liden up :DD jusd dond feel bad :DD subres yuor feefees :DD


>>10700040
What would you have been doing if you didn't want to be a writer? What would you have been doing if you didn't know what you wanted to do at all? When did I mention ANYTHING about what """"other people expect of me""""". I'm failing to meet MY expectations, and that's a large part of why I'm upset.

>>10700048
>ranting in a few posts to purge yourself of discomfort and uncertainty is the same as not doing anything at all

Okay man.

>>10700055
This is bro-tier advice. I'm not asking why life is unfair, or arguing I'm a special snowflake, especially when the first thing I said in >>10699933 is that, I myself, am immature. Contradicting yourself is a clear sign of not knowing how you feel, not some aspect of being comfortable with feeling bad for yourself. Fuck off, and take your unsolicited advice with you.

>>10700066
I could be friends with the people at my school too, if I just put the effort. This isn't because of a lack of opportunity, this is purely a lack of effort on my part. I'm telling you that I'm not doing X, and your first instinct is,

>Well have you tried doing X? Maybe if you X, then you'd X.

[Anonymous No.10700079]

>>10699933
Also, find psychoactive drugs and take them in a safe environment if the opportunity is there

You only really need a few trips and you'll be gucci. It's important to understand hanging up the phone once you get the message

[Anonymous No.10700083]

>>10700075
you're probably gonna suicide desu
I was depressed too but I didn't project this hard lol

[Anonymous No.10700093]

>>10700083
I started thinking about that, and realized if I continued this path I could easily be tempted into having suicidal thoughts.

Please greentext where I'm projecting. Please, explain how I'm projecting. I'm LITERALLY begging you to show me where I projected.

[Anonymous No.10700101]

>>10700079
This doesn't sound like good advice man. I don't want to do this.

[Anonymous No.10700109]

>>10700075
Jesus, kid...

Really, stop taking yourself so fucking seriously.
What ridiculous pressure you're putting on yourself.
If you're depressed, take some fucking time. You won't last in university with this work ethic and "fuck you," attitude.

[Anonymous No.10700116]

>>10700101
Then don't do it. It only works if you want it to

[Anonymous No.10700121]

>>10700075
well just fucking fail this year of school and go back next year then

what do you want others to tell you? I told you that story to get the point across that staying in high school for longer isn't bad at all, in fact it's probably wiser than sending 18 year olds off to collect debt with a vague idea of what they want to do.
You seem like a huge asshole desu

[Anonymous No.10700125]

>>10700109
I didn't say I was going to college. Why do you continue to respond to my posts when you so blatantly didn't even read them? I'm not asking for your help. I don't want your advice. I only wanted to share what was on my mind, before going back to my everyday life.

[Anonymous No.10700127]

>>10700125
>suddenly wasting all the work you did for a specialized degree


Didn't you type this out? Are you retarded?

[Anonymous No.10700132]

>>10700125
>>10700127
ah ok this guy is probably some 40 year old incel LARPing and mixing up his story as some pathetic 18 year old, since it falls in line with this own self-worth, yet still being a fantasy of regaining lost time.

[Anonymous No.10700144]

>>10700121
>what do you want others to tell you?

Absolutely nothing. I explicitly stated that I only wanted to vent, and now that everyone gave me advice I didn't ask for and just show backlash after I reminding them I didn't ask for their help, I'm the asshole?

>>10699989 was literally the only good post.

>in fact it's probably wiser than sending 18 year olds off to collect debt with a vague idea of what they want to do.

I didn't say I was going to do this though.

>>10700127
It's a special high school diploma that let you graduate without needing the credits that the regular diploma calls for. If I fuck this diploma up, I'd have to take the other credits I was exempt from taking in the first place.

>>10700132
Nobody would do this. This doesn't make any sense.

[Anonymous No.10700150]

>>10700144
>Nobody would do this. This doesn't make any sense.
desu I would

[Anonymous No.10700152]

>>10700144
I had sympathy for you at the start... since you said you tried to post on /adv/, I assumed you were asking for some.

You just sound like some snot-nosed faggot who will backtrack and contradict yourself.
Seriously, fuck you, kid. I actually hope you feel worse now.

[Anonymous No.10700156]

>>10700144
>says he tried to post on /adv/ and /r9k/
>comes here in a thread were anons give advice
>hurrrrr i wasn't asking for advice! you're just all being mean to me! let me be the little romantic depressive that I want to be!

were you fucked by your uncle or some shit? what gives? you're fucked in the head, kid.

[Anonymous No.10700168]

>>10700152
It's just 4chan. Why are you taking it so seriously? Lighten up mate.

>>10700152
>>10700156
/adv/ has Get It Off Your Chest Threads. These threads on /lit/ aren't for advice, they're just for sharing what's on your mind. Why are you letting a high schooler upset you so much?

[Anonymous No.10700169]

>>10700144
the only thing people ITT tried to do was empathize with you and share their experiences, tell jokes, and just be the jovial 4chan shitposters that we are, and you just batted it away like some little ingrate.

you're right, no one has to waste anymore of their time trying with you.

[Anonymous No.10700170]

>>10700168
I can tell you're going to die a very lonely man.

Goodnight, idiot.

[Anonymous No.10700172]

>>10694025
I don't know if I'm introverted or just can't do shallow conversation. I'll talk your ear off about "deep" topics, but god if you mention the weather I become an anxious puddle. I miss actually talking to people.

[Anonymous No.10700175]

>>10700172
Sounds like the active but odd characteristic of Asperger's

Did you eat a lot of sugar as a kid?

[Anonymous No.10700176]

>>10700169
If you don't like my posts, then don't reply to them. This isn't a difficult concept to grasp.

>>10700170
>Goodnight, b-baka!

(You)

[Anonymous No.10700178]

>>10700176
kill yourself

[Anonymous No.10700181]

>>10700175
No more then the average North American kid.

[Anonymous No.10700182]

>>10700176
>gets completely reamed by anons
>has to cling to shit that 12 year olds do "dont like it, don't look, i didn't even say that, why are you so mad?"

[Anonymous No.10700183]

>>10700178

[Anonymous No.10700186]

>>10700181
I read an article recently that showed a correlation between sugar consumption and developing an Autistic spectrum disorder in life.

[Anonymous No.10700187]

>>10700182
>being told to not worry so much about your classes is getting reamed

Okay man.

[Anonymous No.10700190]

>>10700187
no, everyone just calling you a faggot with made up problems who lies

i bet you're ugly too lmao

[Anonymous No.10700191]

>>10700093
The finicky thing about depression (which I'm guessing is the case due to your excessive sleeping and lack of motivation) is the nature of feelings being really easy to forget about. I don't remember how it "felt" to be depressed, it doesn't have direct, material properties I can identify; all I know is that I scarcely did much, and it was very difficult to think about anything, though my state I validated by digging through abstraction until I posited statements like "nothing matters", "life is reductive" etc. What's consequential of this memory gap is that it will lead to the lack of empathy we can see in the thread. It's hard to comprehend on terms of streams of consciousness. No one enjoys being a depressed teenager, if there are others that once were such, then they may be projecting that disdain atm

What is important isn't where you're projecting but why. The source of why you do anything surely corresponds to the whole. I don't know what all that is but it takes a long time, it takes a certain quality and quantity of thinking, answering "the why" is hard, but it's fulfilling.
I would invite you to consider for future purposes, in the following order of best to worst:

0. Stop denial. It's common to see frustration from intellectually minded people to admit they don't know something, or identifying the source of their resentment. Try reading about your "shadow" if you can swallow Jung. Also, you can consider an idea without accepting it.

1. Psychologist. I'm very skeptical of meds but that's my experience.

2. Do not EVER go to rehab if you can take a wilderness therapy course instead. Rehab clinics are absolute garbage

3. This: >>10700049 I'd start with Robert Solomon: Existentialism, at least the introduction. Gives a short summary of a wide array of philosophers without all the brick-layered dredge

4. Lament to your parents. If the family is dysfunctional, don't bother.

5. >>10700079 ehh

[Anonymous No.10700195]

>>10700187
>giving a shit about high school

you don't even read. why are you even posting here? you clearly know nothing about life. were you really sheltered as a kid?

[Anonymous No.10700199]

>>10700186
Lmao, my dude I'm not on the spectrum, I just can't do small talk. And small talk is how relationships start. Im terrible at it and it's making me lonely as hell in this new environment I'm in.

[Anonymous No.10700200]

>>10700199
You never know!

[Anonymous No.10700202]

>>10700191
Do you guys really find existentialism helpful? I never went through it properly, but Myth of Sisyphus left me feeling very "ehh".

[Anonymous No.10700205]

>>10700199
maybe you might actually have to read some self help books on smalltalk

[Anonymous No.10700212]

>>10700202
just fucking read crime and punishment, realize you're being a little shit, and listen to jordan peterson like the fucking helpless halfwit you are then.

[Anonymous No.10700216]

>>10700049
>>10700191
These are the only actual posts I'm willing to consider as advice, even if it is advice I didn't want. It's kind, it's empathetic, but I just didn't come here hoping to resolve my problems. I just wanted to (attempt to) express how I felt.

0. I don't have a problem with admitting I don't know something. I'm not intellectualy minded either, I'm average at most.

1. This one I'm sketchy about. I have too much pride. The only reason I can freely talk about this now is because I'm completely, and utterly anonymous. I don't want anyone to see me like this, and that's a big reason as to why I'm so hesitant to open up to actual, living, breathing beings I interact with in real life.

2. I don't do drugs man. I don't know about wilderness therapy courses though.

4. Not dysfunctional, just grew up under different circumstances. Different cultures, different upbringings. My mom lived a normal adolescence, there's only so much she can offer.

>>10700195
>accusing an 18 year old of knowing nothing about life

cant believe i never thought of it like this before ): how could i have been so foolish :( i completely retract my previous statements on having an understanding of how life works anon ):

>>10700212
He's not the 18 year old who derailed the thread mate, you're replying to the wrong poster.

[Anonymous No.10700219]

>>10700202
People will say a lot though I didn't get much from Sisyphus, it felt kind of idle

The one I mentioned is a bit expensive but if you can find it in a bookstore the first few pages may or may not resonate with you
https://global.oup.com/academic/product/existentialism-9780195174632?cc=us&lang=en&

[Anonymous No.10700224]

>>10700216
Dude, there are 18 year olds who actually have it together... you know, like orphans... and all those people who have it worse than you. you know?

[Anonymous No.10700225]

>>10700216
>I don't have a problem with admitting I don't know something
...
>anonymously
This negates what was previously said. Why would anyone care about admitting something anonymously?

[Anonymous No.10700226]

>>10700224
What does that have to do with me?

[Anonymous No.10700228]

>>10700225
Admitting you don't know something and admitting you need help are two different things.

[Anonymous No.10700230]

>>10700226
That's exactly you're problem. You're too cloistered. You think you're not a part of the world. You seem ungrateful for all the good luck you've had thus far.

[Anonymous No.10700232]

>>10700230
your*
sweaty phone fingers

[Anonymous No.10700236]

>>10700216
Psychologists by law can not share anything you tell them, and they don't give a shit regardless. You can tell them you enjoy women shitting on your face and they won't care.

The only line though, is if you tell them you're going to hurt or kill someone/yourself, but that's not really too important.

Admitting this is horribly hard. I didn't see one until I snorted my entire zaleplon medication and tried to drive.

[Anonymous No.10700238]

>>10700230
And? Am I supposed to not feel bad about one thing, just because I have parents who are alive? That's not how it works senpai.

This type of thinking is exactly the crux of what was so wrong with every other poster who replied to me. If I feel bad, I'm not going to pretend that I don't and force myself into seeing the good when I can't even see it. "Just cheer up" is terrible advice. There's nothing wrong with wallowing in sadness for a bit, just to get it out of your system rather than pushing it aside and never acknowledging it exists.

[Anonymous No.10700239]

I saw this thread, and thought back to all the writing I used to do. For a moment, I got excited and wondered what kind of short story I could put out; but excitement doesn't count as a muse, even if it might attract one.

I hadn't written, well, my version of writing anyway in a long time. I wondered if so much time writing chronological, sterile reports had not snuffed out my ability to write well, but changed the hue of the flame. Even as I write this, I'm wondering why not use the easier term "color;" I'm concerned about being to wordy. Long winded too. I'm even doing it now, and maybe you're still here with me (thanks).

Anyway, with nothing to write I salvaged the opportunity to do something I haven't done in a long time using that old technique of "just write, even if you can't write." Great, a fucking blog post.

I hope my taxes return soon. I hope for a lot to come soon. Impatient or desperate I'm quickly losing my interest in the difference.

Fuck.

[Anonymous No.10700240]

>>10700216
>this motherfucker had a normal childhood, with a normal family

nigga wtf you don't have any problems
nigga i was slinging rock and fending off junkies with folding knives when I was 15

you literally have the whole world before you

[Anonymous No.10700242]

>>10700205
I'm already exercising things I've learned in therapy. But reading something does always have something more... Sticky about the information within.

[Anonymous No.10700244]

>>10700228
Yes, but you do need help. Going it alone in your circumstance doesn't seem realistic

[Anonymous No.10700259]

>>10700238
You spent an entire night lamenting to strangers about your essay. You could've have been cataloging all the good things you're thankful for, to try and make yourself feel better. You're just doing this to yourself.

>There's nothing wrong with wallowing in sadness for a bit, just to get it out of your system rather than pushing it aside and never acknowledging it exists.
Everyone I know who says this has a terrible life. They just accept it whenever, and they stop their entire life at the whim of their emotions.
Struggle is absolutely eternal. Learn to cope with it and actively make things better.

> Am I supposed to not feel bad about one thing, just because I have parents who are alive?
This is so fucking stupid, and disgusting, and immature. Yes, you should, otherwise you're a fucking asshole who just wants people to feel sorry for him.

[Anonymous No.10700267]

>>10700240
Just because they're not dysfunctional doesn't mean I had a normal upbringing. Moving around constantly, leaving behind your home in a country that's gone to shit, having to sleep in a one room apartment with other people, and never having enough money to afford clothes, supplies, or other amenities; just because I had a loving mother doesn't mean all aspects of my childhood were great. I'm sorry your life was an episode of The Wire (TM) but if I had lead a normal, healthy life, I wouldn't be posting here now.

>>10700259
Why should those orphans feel bad about not having parents though? They know that there's orphans in WHEELCHAIRS right? They should just be grateful their legs still work, if you ask me.

[Anonymous No.10700271]

>>10700267
my god, kid... i know you think your illogical, depressive, reductionist talk is clever... but it's just so fucking petty and sad.

you deserve all the bad things you get desu

[Anonymous No.10700273]

>>10700271
I don't want your help. Stop. You're not helping. You're wasting your time. I don't know how much clearer I can make it.

[Anonymous No.10700274]

>>10700259
>> Am I supposed to not feel bad about one thing, just because I have parents who are alive?
>This is so fucking stupid, and disgusting, and immature. Yes, you should, otherwise you're a fucking asshole who just wants people to feel sorry for him.
I want to punch in the throat.
You're wrong. Obviously pain is pain. By your logic, you should be able to feel happy, because other people have it better.

[Anonymous No.10700278]

>>10700274
>>10700273

When did /lit/ become full to the brim of defeatist cucks?

Really, toughen up you little faggot fucks.
The guy is just trying to get you to think positively by contrasting the awful with it.
Of course you immature soyboys would take personal offense to it.

[Anonymous No.10700282]

>>10700274
It's not even an ontological statement, you fucking asshole.
>hey maybe just think for a second of the good
>FUCK YOU HOW DARE YOU GET IN BETWEEN ME AND MY PAIN HOW DARE YOU

[Anonymous No.10700284]

Depression isn't real. You're all babies with made up illnesses.

[Anonymous No.10700291]

Yikes! people sure do love to take ownership over your stupid little problems. They're emotions, not a fucking pet.

[Anonymous No.10700295]

>>10700244
>>10700236
>>10700191

I'm turning in. If thread dies: if you/your mom can't afford a shrink, and you like your mom, TELL HER YOUR ABOUT YOUR SHIT. Or, READ THIS OR SOMETHING LIKE IT: https://global.oup.com/academic/product/existentialism-9780195174632?cc=us&lang=en&

Suicide is the stupidest thing you can ever do. Stop gaming.

[Anonymous No.10700301]

>>10700278
>trying

LOOOOL

No one trying ANYTHING. There's no real effort. Do you really think anyone here cares whether or not I get better? No one ITT will remember this discussion a week from now.

I don't want HIS help, I wanted to VENT. I don't care if it was irrational, illogical, or contradictory. I spoke purely out of emotion. It wasn't supposed to make sense. Once I get over this, I can step back and look at it critically, without letting my feelings influence what I do.

There's absolutely no reason my post should have garnered the responses it did, when not once did I ask for anyone else's input.

>>10700282
Why would I need to think of the good, if I want to focus on the bad? How can I fix the bad without admitting it's not there?

[Anonymous No.10700310]

>>10700301
>if I want to focus on the bad?
because you might literally become a clinical depressive if you keep that up. you're spending far too much time digging yourself into a hole, man.

[Anonymous No.10700318]

>>10700301
you're literally the type that would find Jordan Peterson extremely helpful desu

go watch some of his stuff

[Anonymous No.10700336]

>>10700318
I've already looked at his videos. The self help is okay, but they're still not going to help me what career I should fall into, or whether or not I should leave this state.

Stayed up too late famalam. 5:20 AM. I have school in 2 hours, and work in 10 hours. This was fun. Let's do it again sometime.

[Anonymous No.10700441]

>>10700278
>>10700282
you're misconstruing the point of my post . I'm too tired to get too deep into this, but I'm a real positive person. A lot of bad shit has happened to me, but I try my damndest to be optimistic, and I have "You have to be willing to get happy about nothing" hanging over my bed, and I try really fucking hard to live by that.

But your fucking opinion that people should just "suck it up because it's not that bad" is super fucking destructive. People process pain different, people are affected by pain differently, and the fact that people are actively dissuaded from both reacting to and sharing their pain has fostered a culture in which we do not seek help, and criticize people for doing so.

So shove it up your ass.

[Anonymous No.10700444]

>>10694092
clean your room

[Anonymous No.10700451]

>>10700444
leave

[Anonymous No.10700452]

>>10700451
no you

[Anonymous No.10700456]

>>10700441
aww
tell me again how this big bad world doesn't care about people's feelings

[Anonymous No.10700470]

>All these people believing pain is real

[Anonymous No.10700476]

>>10695325
Go to the gym.

[Anonymous No.10700540]

>>10700470

[Anonymous No.10700555]

>>10700066
Not him but, I was somewhat like him in some aspects, but I got out of my head and changing for the better(getting more things done/no self-loathing/pity anymore), but I can't make friends outside of work / college forced group work.
It all happened when I moved to the U.S, I tried to make friends but I got culture shocked by how terrible people can be, last time I spoke to a stranger willingly was like 2 years ago. I am anxious of social interactions now, how do I get over it, I feel like you need a reason to talk to someone and If I just strike up a random convo people would be like the fuck is wrong with this guy, why is he talking to me,etc..
making friends was so much easier where I'm from, but I don't want to stay in my country and end up a farmer.
any advice on making friends?

[Anonymous No.10700591]

>>10700555
i just act like an asshole and people think i'm cool

[Anonymous No.10700604]

I just accidentally poked myself in the eyeball.

[Anonymous No.10700626]

A person cannot make good or bad actions, right or wrong, just actions.Good and bad is a spook. The social norms and values, laws and rules create whats good and bad, but simply their not a part of the human instincts, it's a creation of the state of the powerful man.
Therefore, there are no right or wrong, no good or bad actions.

Get it.

[Anonymous No.10700664]

Although my grandmother did an apprenticeship in the camp, she never joined the BDM always telling the group in the camp she was part of the group up in the city and vice versa

[Anonymous No.10700690]

>>10694312
Ive been aware that I have narcissistic tendencies since I was around 16. Ever since then I've tried to learn how to use them. Use your selfishness and lack of shame for lying, use it anon. No one will be able to stop you.

[Anonymous No.10700701]

>>10694385
I never hit bingo

get fucked ur chart is shit

[Anonymous No.10701802]

I'm curious about renowned philosophers like Kant and Schopenhauer, but it's off-putting how rarely people describe their significance in plain language, and even rarer that they appear to have gained from it. I've only studied a little of Buddhism and Daoism, but I can concretely say what I learned and how it's helped me. To be honest, though, Western philosophy feels more a like departure from reality into an unnatural complex of ideas, where some situational truth may be discovered by a logical process, but is so heavily mired in language and abstraction that it really says nothing at all. And the very idea of an ultimate truth as some kind of final goal leaves a bad taste in my mouth. What happens then? Will we know how to live? Will anything at all change other than how we perceive our actions? How will this be different from other periods in time when people felt they finally understood life?

Do you get what I mean? This isn't a true criticism - I'm just confused.

[Anonymous No.10702045]

L Ron Hubbard was one fuckin crazy piece of shit.

[Anonymous No.10702125]

Atheists are so fucking insufferable holy shit. "Hey the Christian philosophic tradition is really rich and-"
>lolololol muh magic sky daddy why don't you read a physics text you sheep!
I'm not even religious what the fuck. I want to covert just so I'm not on the same "side" as these brainlets. I know there are sane atheists but they don't go around loudly proclaiming their atheism so I don't encounter them.

[Anonymous No.10702223]

300th for anne frank best waifu

[Anonymous No.10702391]

I suddenly realized I don't really care if I'm here tomorrow, which then suddenly made me slightly depressed. I'd like to care. Don't really have anything to look forward to on a day to day basis

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2raJZREHKaY&pbj

[Anonymous No.10702398]

>>10702391
G E N T L E I N D I F F E R E N C E

[Anonymous No.10702506]

>>10694878
I gave up videogames a long time ago but reading has replaced it in a completely identical way. At first I was so proud to be a Reader I thought as long as I devoted myself to Literature and bore its many burdens I could not go wrong. Now I realize reading is hardly any different from videogames at all. True learning is not facilitated by reading alone. It is a superficial game. I do nothing but read and browse the internet, and occasionally work.

I have fallen prey to the schemes of marketers. I once thought myself some liberated intellectual now I realize the marketers have simply plugged me into a more fitting demographic. My thoughts are not my own, half are consciously borrowed, half are given to me by the marketers. I am a cog in the ugliest machine and all I can pride myself in is a fraction of a fraction of self awareness.

Most days I think about dying, sometimes when I am reading a really good novel I do not, but it never lasts long. There is always the hangover where I see my life in all its worthlessness. I have never really grown up. It is in the end no different from if I had just sat around playing videogames. I am completely insignificant. I want to be something more. But is that even my own thought? Or is that a marketer's narcissism speaking through me? We are being pulled in so many different directions at once by so many institutions it is impossible it seems to have a thought all your own, to not be playing into someone else's agenda. What can one do? Even this individualism for individualism's sake is propaganda. The modern man's options are cultural consumption, narcissistic self-improvement, and futile identity play. Maybe these were always the only options. I can delude myself and devote myself to something but why bother? I do not want to be a nihilist, but it seems to me intractable.

Ideas develop faster as communications accelerate. 4chan has grouped together enough like minded losers to write a collective manifesto on defeatism.

[Anonymous No.10702524]

>>10694025
Okay
I love wide hips

[Anonymous No.10702526]

>Retards next door blasting reggaeton.
>Neighbours talking loudly while watching tv at full volume.
>Muffled Soda Estereo sounds in the distance.
>Some cunt's baby has been crying for like an hour now.
Can't even focus on my reading for more than an hour because of this bullshit. Is this why there are no relevant southamericans thinkers?

[Anonymous No.10702529]

I want to go into a creative pursuit and tell a story, although I don't know if I want to be the writer or the actor.

I want to make a story about a crusader having come home from a crusade with PTSD, suffering delusions in a church with corrupt monks, ramping up to him slaughtering everyone in the church believing they are all secretly saracen spies or something else absurd.

I don't even know how to being making a story let alone writing one in a good way.

[Anonymous No.10702534]

>>10702506
That's what you get for reading mindless entertaining books instead of the classics.

[Anonymous No.10702539]

>>10702529
Oh and btw I don't have anything against religion and I quite admire some of the themes of Catholicism, I think it would just be interesting to portray PTSD and the dark realities of people of power in an different context than the norm.

[Anonymous No.10702565]

I'm really sad and lonely. Can you please give me a hug, anons?

[Anonymous No.10702571]

>>10702529
Your idea sounds like it would fit right into the format of a greek tragedy, I'd recommend reading, re-reading and studying Aeschylus, Sophocles and Eurypides for as long as it takes you to develop their way of thinking and then write your masterpiece.

[Anonymous No.10702578]

>>10702534
I read almost exclusively the classics.

[Anonymous No.10702595]

>>10702506
>I can devote myself to something but why bother
that is how you BECOME

[Anonymous No.10702607]

>>10702578
>Read exclusively the classics.
>Still unable to form your own clear thoughts.
>Hasn't attained the clearness of mind and introspection only achievable by carefully observing the heights and depths of humanity's wisest.
You've wasted your time, start again but this time do it right. I would suggest starting with the greeks.

[Anonymous No.10702636]

>>10702607
You're young still. You're where I once was. You'll fall too when you see what your learning has brought you, when you see who your authors were, when you see what these depths of human knowledge really mean.

[Anonymous No.10702848]

>>10702506
Don't read fiction

[Anonymous No.10702857]

>>10702506
>like minded losers to write a collective manifesto on defeatism
These, unfortunately, are the people who are capable of writing very compelling philosophical/literary/psychological/social theories. In full maturity your weaknesses become your strengths

[Anonymous No.10702876]

>>10702565
No, fuck off loser. :^)

[Anonymous No.10702892]

>>10702565
*hugs*

[Anonymous No.10702893]

>>10702876

[Anonymous No.10702903]

>>10702893
sorry
*hugs*

[Anonymous No.10702946]

>>10702892
>>10702903
t-thenks anons

[Anonymous No.10702976]

>>10702946
One anon, just me. I'm very sad too.

[Anonymous No.10703023]

>>10702976
im a sad boi

[Anonymous No.10703036]

>>10702976
Really sorry to hear that
*hugs back*
>tfw I'm so lonely I literally have to go on [s4s] to have someone pretend they love me and care for me.

[Anonymous No.10703053]

>>10703036
you're doremi poster from [s4s]?

[Anonymous No.10703096]

>>10703053
no i poste mostof tiem in doge treados
but tenks to doremiposter i hab a yuge polder ov doremipics!

[Anonymous No.10703100]

I think some of the most traumatic things a child can hear are the mutterings of their parents in the car on the ride to school.

[Anonymous No.10703182]

>>10694878
>>10702506
do you anons not find comfort in reflections like these? you have found an awareness that most people don't have, why not use it? instead of dwelling in these 'hangovers', why not make some changes in your lives?

[Anonymous No.10703237]

>>10702857
That thought is the only real thing keeping me going, the delusion that my suffering is noble and that in the end I'll be infinitely greater than those who live easily. I'm pretty sure I'll end up Van Gogh'ing myself though, except whatever art I produce will be utter garbage compared to his.

[Anonymous No.10703298]

>>10703100
Thinking back about my childhood, I was pretty traumatized
>Almost drowned, saved by random man before my father reached me
>Betrayed and humiliated by best friend and closest compatriot
>Father screamed in my face until I cried that I was a "fucking degenerate cybercriminal piece of shit" for jailbreaking my iPod. Said he would disown me if I did anything like that again. I was 11 or 12.
>Kid in the outdoor club I was died in a car crash
>My elementary school friend group, who I was super close with, only let me hang around them in middle school so I could be the butt of their jokes
>Mother snapped once and said she regretted choosing having children over her scientific career

Should I get therapy?

[Anonymous No.10703911]

Social convention seems like lies and affectation to me. Am I autistic or enlightened?

[Anonymous No.10704185]

>>10702526
Soda Stereo are awesome, and I'm not from South America. But I sympathize.