/lit/ - Literature

How hard is it for a 23 yo man with no higher education and virtually no character to get a decent paying job?

There's absolutely no reason to live, we're all going to die in a probably painful way and everyone will forget about us soon after. It'll be as if we never even existed on the first place. Life is pointless and most people just keep working and breathing because they're alike to animals and too dumb to eve realise this.

>>21893142
If you have some gifted skill, like mechanic, or just a gift for gab, you won't have too much trouble. If you're a quiet sort, as I assume many /lit/ anons are, you'll have a harder time of it. Find some hustle, some niche, you'll like

>>21893144
Shut up. There's millions of reasons to choose from. The idea that there's one and From On High, is a relatively recent one to infect humanity. It's a shitty way to live. Get over it and make something of yourself.

>>21893182
>There's millions of reasons to choose from.
>Bro just make up a reason to live lol
People having to choose a reason to live just shows that there isn't any reason to live at all. They fool themselves into making up something which is also pointless and without meaning to feel better, but it seems to me that it isn't working as mental illness is in an all time high and basically everyone is using antidepressants so they can bare the day-to-day life.
My point stands. Either you become an animal and don't think about it too much or you just fool yourself into making up a bullshit excuse to live a painful life.

>>21893142
How close are you to a stock exchange?

>>21893144
>being an animal is bad so I won't be one
How's that going for you?

>>21893237
>make up a reason
Or choose the ones laying around. You don't even have to make one up. Many are plainly there. Like an apple on a tree.
>People having to choose a reason to live just shows that there isn't any reason to live at all
I already addressed this nonsense. It's a sick idea that there should be one. Some monotheism drilled this into our heads is it? It's been wrong all this time and you can't seem to pull your deformed mind away from it.
>Aaaaaa. No! I would rather become a scared animal!
Then be a lemming and go

>>21893135
I miss the Latin generals or maybe those were on the history board... its hard to remember.

I want to die because living with my anxiety daily is hell. I don’t know who I am and don’t know what I want (other than to die). Anyone else ever hit rock bottom and got out of it? How?

>>21893326
don't smoke so much weed dude. you think it's helping but it's actually what's causing it.

>>21893330
I don’t at all.

>>21893326
What are you anxious about and how often do you exercise?

>>21893135
Having to take call for work two nights a week is horrible when you have an alcohol dependency.

>>21893362
I’m anxious over the fact that I don’t think my life is worth living. I don’t see any point to any of this. I don’t care about humans or myself. I have to work and pretend I care about other people. I have to pretend I care about art, politics, or something really silly like sports. It’s exhausting. I end up crying at night praying and wishing that I can finally like something. Anything. It doesn’t have to be a person. I’m not asking to fall in love or something. It can be something really simple to like, like water. But I just need to like something to continue. It’s just a living hell.
>exercise
Lol. I’ve always been athletic growing up. Used to exercise years ago. Saw no benefit from it whatsoever. I need to find God or kill myself. That’s basically it. I will for sure fail at finding God. Every human has failed thus far. My chances are grim.

I feel regret

>>21893458
Youre on lit, do you not like literature?

>>21893528
No. Not since I was 21-23 years old. I’m 33 now. I’ve continued to read out of necessity, trying to find an answer. Not for enjoyment since.

>>21893458
>I'm lying to myself and everyone and getting unfit
Well, let me know what God says about that when you find him.

>>21893569
What? I’m not unfit at all.

>>21893538
Its hard to try productive shit when youre discouraged but yano reading can be bad for your mental health too, try meditating instead. Go on dopamine fasts. If you dont eat for 3 days youll look forward to food. If it werent for literature and alcohol Id probably have clocked out long ago. But you gatta purge that shit sometimes. But as pointless as life may seem, if you were satisfied with the moment, that would not bother you. We arent naturally discouraged by death to the point of impotence. That only happens when your life is unsatisfactory. You likely simply have a depression problem. Could come from trauma, drug or alcohol abuse, or just genetics. I dont believe much in pharma and generally dont suggest drug use but my wife completely recovered from her suicidal longing upon taking LSD.

>>21893580
What's your current mile time?

>>21893135
Ordered these to be my house shoes.

Spent $160 on them lol

>>21893600
>if you were satisfied with the moment, that would not bother you.
I wish I knew how to again. It hasn’t worked in a decade at least. I guess I can’t seem to forgive as well. I don’t forgive myself or humans in general. Or God for that matter. I don’t understand how people can continue. I really don’t. I used to be able to like things that were more abstract and far removed from humans to cope. But it was still a cope. It all became too abstract for me to care. I also can’t find a reason to even need all of this. It’s so absurd it becomes worthless.

>>21893632
>house shoes.
Wearing shoes indoors is so weird. Order some slippers if it's cold. But if the terrane in your home is that graveled and/or sticky, you need to clean it.
Nice colors

>>21893608
Idk, I used to be able to run a mile in 8min easily. I figure I can do the same. I haven’t gained weight since college.

>>21893651
Yeah I normally wear slippers or uggboots. Just been slowly upgrading.

Slippers wore out so I got birkenstocks.

My uggboots are worn out so I got those lmao

>>21893649
Your brain chemistry changes as you get older. you might be destined to be miserable at this age but it could get better. Sorry youre going through this man, I know the feeling I guess it just comes in indulations for me and luckily hasnt stuck permanently. Rn im miserable but I know Ill come out of it. I feel for people who are stuck in it. I hope you find something that helps. It could be a love interest, could be a drug. Some times I go months in the gym every day then suddenly its gone and I cant possibly face the crowd for a year, for instance. We are totally at the will of our emotions. Just have to try and see that emotions arent reality. Theyre just emotions. You are seeing the world negatively and you cant help it. That doesnt mean its hopeless though. Hood luck man.

>>21893669
fagshoe wearing motherfucker

>>21893669
Why are you wearing sneakers indoors?
Fucking weird

>>21893654
Yeah you're lying to yourself

>>21893673
Thanks man. It’s just been so long I truly can’t believe I’ve made it this far without ending it already. I’ve held off for so long. I can honestly say it hasn’t been worth it. Maybe it’s just inevitable for me. There really is only so much a man can withstand. Sorry for venting like a complete faggot and thanks again.

>>21893702
do you have money? friends, girls, family etc?

>>21893704
I have money and family and friends who love me to death. I haven’t been with a girl since I was 23. So a decade. But I can’t even get it up anymore.

>>21893715
Have you told anyone about your situation?
Were you ever really happy?

Why am I so horny lately? Did they put something in the water? I never used to be able to coom twice a day everyday. Porn is also incredibly boring now, so I end up wasting hours in order to coom. Maybe I should have the real deal but I'm just a virgin incel kek

>>21893738
My immediate family knows. I’ve tried a cocktail of psych meds too and they didn’t help at all.
I was happy in my teens and in college for the most part. Always popular in school. Still had non normie hobbies in high school but I still fit in always. I’m lucky i’m attractive and people said i’m easy to talk too. I’ve never been socially anxious but an introvert for sure. I was pretty much a happy normie for the most part.

I'm building my house on sand.

>>21893763
have sex

>>21893763
it's cuz it's spring dude

I masturbated to pornographic audio. It's over for me.

>>21893784
Those damned rabbis and their (((springtime)))

I should’ve known you’d never agree to speak with me. I know I need to try to accept it but I feel like I can’t. It’s never going to stop hurting.

you left me here to die. why should I ever forgive any of you? I'm now ready to burn in hell a suicide for betraying my family. I'm not the bully. You're all the bully. You stabbed me in the back, talking shit. And you laughed at my face, mocking me. Pretend friends. I'm not real, and I should die, because I'm just your image of hate, castration, perversion, complex trauma that even a system of healthcare oppresses (intentionally, which, it needs reform (just like the church?)). I'm apostate of bigotry, including all your lies, your beautiful lies which are not my truth, I fell for. And what a fall is that? Malice and contempt it is for me, in the seven hells I will be eternal glanced blindness. (regardless of whether I suicide or not, Hail Satan)
This glimpse even a father does murder in his crucifix of crows.
Fuck Everything.
The grave is, but timeless impermanence.
Wash me in the showers of gilgamesh that I am never solidified again.
But no! O, I hear that from psyche afar, defy the truth that which you are (I am), is not a lie (this truth), but this arisen machination torn asunder.
How could I forgive if I truly have been deceived?
Then, to you psyche, I demand death, or to be Lord over death. And so, I now notice that this forgiveness, absolved, liquidation of irreconcilable shackle is not rebuttable, there is no taking back death, yeah that is the breach of forgivable damnation in it's freedom. The circuit of hungry ghosts and fed demons await me, or, shall it not be our immolated will? Your opprobrium against me like a derailing train and scars stoked up with agony by the one, parceled self?
I now point at abortion. If I am here, then abortion wasn't something a criteria, I met for.
Yet, there it lays that, abortion is the condition of killing the life within, while I am pro-choice, believe it, or not, deep down, and.. out. So, I'm to believe there is life and joy to remain. I do feel your presence, omen bringers- doomsayers and dreadnoughts. It is your spirit that simply remains, I command you, self, now, banish the spirit ominous, for our fortitude. But this spirit, this fortitude in wait, is not the end nor the origin of life, that is long expired and I'm ready to gaze, deeply, darkly, into that darkness, longingly, peering with glares back at me, this long psychotic dream that is this decade. As we shall not even begin, we may exit unborn or do enter the upheaval of Earth.

Solely entranced by the dulcet tones of her voice painting a picture of me disrobing an imaginary woman aroused within me enough to ejaculate loudly "kawaii!"

not a twitter person but this one's pretty good if you want daily nogs misbehavin videos
https://twitter.com/ClownWorld_

no nvm the ones i was linked to were flukes it's mostly him shilling merchandise and tiktok trannies

>>21893788
I did this once to homestuck audio porn when I was 14 and realized the earphones were unplugged after, mother never brought it up thank god

oof

Please don’t let it end like this please don’t leave me like this

>>21893836
Very well, it instead ends like this, and I will instead leave you like this.
Consider this matter closed.

idk why i can't concentrate for shit i wonder if it's sth i ate this weekend

>>21893920
no no no no no don’t please

I was born smack dab in the middle of retardville USA with a poor raising consisting of the most very basic instructions on how to wipe my ass and walk properly and brush my hair for a job. I am so resentful of people who were born into literate families and actual cities/areas with opportunities for economic and intellectual advancement beyond construction. Inb4 >dude that makes you so cool man, you should just keep hating people. It’s not a matter of choice or edgy political stances which change with wind based on the coolest quotes one can find. I, from the deepest pits of my being, hate every single professor, engineer, literati, editor, director, politician, journalist, and scientist that has ever lived and descended from the ivory halls of academia. Their entire life is propped up by the Industry of Death, and — a much more sickening revelation that came to me upon befriending the grandson to one of the countries foremost captains of industry in earlier times — they don’t feel the smallest tinge of remorse about it. More often than not they are the fullest adherents to the bourgeois narrative of self-made capitalism, in a psychic whirlpool of doublethink so deeply entrenched into the core of their self-image that to fully confront it would be to destroy the entire narcissistic worldview that they have conjured in order maintain their air of regality. This kid admitted to having de-facto slaves in his family’s industry as late in history as the 1960s and, in the same breath, attributed their unfortunate state to their upbringing and irresponsibleness. Mind you, defacto tenements of hereditary slaves, why?: lacking moral character. The worst part of my punishment is returning home to retardville to see the retards drinking in each new marvel movie with the same reverence for the Death cult that a nice 2000 calorie blizzard inspires in a hypertensive. I am completely and utterly blackpilled and am merely waiting for the nukes to drop now.

>average /lit/ poster
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLxVzCH9bA8

It has been interesting to see how mainstream (liberal) historiography moved from arguing that it was the only "camp" on the "market of historiography" that was doing "objective(ish)" and "professional" work to them arguing that actually the role of the historian is to judge the past, separate the good from evil, and to weave a tale of moral education out of the past. The idea of history necessarily having to possess a didactic quality to it would have made "professional" historians laugh in the past decades, but nowadays it's considered dangerously close to extremism to argue relativistic positions while didacticism is expected.

Some are sure to see that as a kind of decline in professionalism and I guess it kind of is but I think there's also room to argue that it's just saying the quiet part out loud. History was never about anything else but making judgments and weaving didactic tales in accordance with personal tastes, political expectations, and even things as banal as intellectual fashions floating around in the murky waters of historiography. At least the mask is off now, I guess. Historiography will continue being the bitch of power, whatever power may mean a decade, a century, or a millennium from now on.

>>21894012
Thanks. There's some videos narrated by a cute girl voice on this channel. I'm going to pretend she's my gf as I listen to it in the background.

please just answer me please don’t leave me like I’m this I can’t stand it I can’t get calm please I just don’t want it to hurt anymore I can’t do yjos

>>21894036
Consider yourself answered.

>>21894039
please are you really him please tell me

>>21894043
I'm me. You're you. We're we.

>>21894045
Please stop don’t fuck with my head I cabt get calm at all never never never

>>21893142
Wow fren how similar we are.

>>21894055
I am Spartacus.

>>21894055
Do you doubt what I said? Let me speak my mind in peace. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Yeah but whatever, Marines are just fucking weird
>how do you make a pancake
>And then one of them goes
>you boil the egg
>And then you 'wait, that's not how you...'
>One of those fuckers clocked it
>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH
>and it has something to do with the Confederacy and 'cordi-Nates' or something
>and afterwards they sing 'He's got an egg up his ASSHOLE - He's got an egg up his ASSHOLE - He's got an egg up his ASSHOLE - and the chick about to hatch

Like wtf, I don't need this shit in my life

>>21894036
Butt hole. NOW!

>>21894068
Sounds like me and my sister when we used to live together.

Mother in law lent me this read, told me to text when I finished.
I got through maybe 50 pages and I fucking hate it, it's melodramatic and not up my alley at all, feels like dragging myself through broken glass but I gotta finish it because I want her to like me. AUGH. I shouldn't have agreed to take it, I never like these kind of pop sob books. Wasting 4 hours to read this shit so I can text "Hey thanks for the recommendation! I love it" maybe I'll just sparknotes it

>>21894093
Just say "it's not my thing." I've never been dishonest about that sort of thing. It's not hard. You don't have to go into detail.

>>21893135
i used to smoke crack but now Jesus is my rock

>>21894096
She already thinks I'm standoffish and cold (I am just shy but it comes off badly) I'm not going to put icing on the cake by telling her I don't like her taste in books, it'll definitely read wrong like I'm being a dick

I'm not meant for this world

>>21894123
how so?

the left has gone insane

how big of a red flag is it if she posts selfies nearly every day? This girl is cute enough to be getting 'validation' on and offline and seems to come from a decent intact family but still posts a picture of her face nearly everyday on her story. from my previous experiences generally girls who are shitty at 'communicating' (aka ghost, don't reply, actively try to make people jealous) do this as a way to bait people into talking to them even after they've been shitty 'friends'.

>>21894161
*to the right

Yes, as predicted. Their façade was well known by the real left for a long time.

>>21894175
yeah, yeah...the left that can be spoken of is not the real left, real communism has never been tried, etc.

Political ideologies are an on/off thing, not a spectrum. People who believe otherwise are either people who do not take the core logic and premises of their ideologies to their logical conclusions (usually because they simply didn't think about it that terribly hard), or otherwise people who are afraid that the ideology on whose back they reached their comfortable destination will be the same ideology that robs them of what they got out of it, like in the case of women and troons. They liked and supported liberalism when it provided advantage after advantage to them, but have since started to become ncreasingly reactionary after they started to feel the ground slipping from under them. But the relationship between christianity and the "metaphysical left" are quite similar, the catholic church liked acting metaphyiscally left when it helped them against the old pagan elite of the late empire, but they have also become the pillar of reaction against modern libs who in turn put them in the same position as they once put the pagans. I guess one could also conclude from all this that political ideologies are like clothes one wears, wearing a different one to different occassions, depending on whatever is most advantageous and appropriate at a particular moment. But that would mean admitting that political ideologies are mere masks for underlying tribalistic group concerns, which is a conclusion I don't think the overwhelming majority of people are ready to swallow.

I am pregnant and the hormones are making me sad and agitated. I tried to read some of the book I borrow and I got too fucking depressed and couldnt get any pleasure from it. Video games and TV aren't working either, its like I can't get any dopamine hits off anything, everything is just the same flat feeling. Hope this goes away soon, my friend said the early part is where the emotions are the worst.

>>21894106
Based

>>21893996
You sound cool honestly

>>21893806
Can you write this more normal so I can tell what you're talking about

I am an abused monkey in a cage

>>21893135
I want to study literature more profoundly and I don't know why. I've already watched a few hours of college lectures and read books on art history, and I can easily get charts from /mu/; but literature is just inaccesible and it's taking away from my enjoyment of books. Sure, it's nice to go through the story and have the repertoire, but I wish I had more insight on the themes or even how critics analyse them.

>>21894182
>the left that can be spoken of
They can both be spoken of, it's just one isn't allowed on tv and you won't want to hear from them either by the eye rolling you're giving me.

The point is these are not species of animal. A dog meowing etc. This is more a football player playing baseball. He isn't a football player while he's not actually playing football, is he?

Westerns are supposedly the American mythology, but what about people who live in the east?

>>21894252
Uhh...mafia movies, navel-gazing political novels written by upper-middle class new york jews, you know, that sort of thing.

"Funny, with little bit of wit, a genuine laughter, and an honest opinion, I have men wrapped around my finger.
My appearance is plain, but in a world in poverty of something unscripted I just realized the unfortunate silver lining, my sarcasm has broken the iciness of social interaction and released a warm embrace that is more addictive than heroin. I thank my past self for reading to pass the time, because now I have a power that cannot be bought and broken as it was build by memories."

-Excerpt from my non-existent book.

Writing here because it was the only place that came to mind.

over the winter for the past 5 or so months, as the air was desert-dry in my region, I collected every cumshot from masturbating in a stemless wine goblet which sits in my den. I live alone and this doesn't pose a problem, and I'm otherwise hygienic and keep my apartment clean and dust-free, but usually things pile up and I put them back in place every month or so.

I hid the glass when I had some people over and remembered where it was after several days, but background aside, I was intrigued and persisted because the mixture somehow fermented and no longer smelled anything like cum, or even bad at all, after the first week. Instead it turned a rich brown chocolate color, seemed almost to caramelize, and has been emitting a continuous sweet caramel / fruit scent for the entire period I've been collecting and adding to it. It's definitely mold-free and doesn't seem to have any bacteria growing in it either, probably because the air has been so dry inside during the winter.

Semen being rich in protein and sugar as well as bioactive enzymes, I suspect a browning reaction of some kind is responsible. Enzymatic browning is responsible for the desirable improvements in taste and aroma of coffee, cocoa, tea, and dried fruit. However, warmer weather is bringing higher humidity, and I fear the condensed essence will soon begin to grow mold. I'm brainstorming what to do with it, because just throwing it out at this point seems like a waste.

>>21894325
distill it

>>21894325
drink it

>maya/samsara is an illusion and you have to remember that you are actually brahman in order to escape it
Why does Brahman cast an illusion over itself/enter into samsara?
>well you see it's because it's in its nature to/it's also an illusion/you are not enlightened yet so you can't see why/this is only for brahmins to know
If it's in its nature or part of some eternal 'cycle' then what is the point of realizing Brahman/escaping samsara? If it's also an illusion then where do the illusions end? If only brahmins may know such things, how can one then defend a doctrine in which all things including caste and race are illusory?

I won’t lie; this filtered me.

My mind's a luxurious place:

"In my mind, I can smell, roses. Bouquet of thousand roses. It's laid out at the foot of my chaise. It's cushion embroider with gold threads, weaved swirls and swirls of floral motif. I was resting after the afterparty. I put down my glass on the carpet. Someone will take it away later. Hnmm. I looked up at the cornices, how geometry designed this aesthetic luxury. The crystal chandelier hung, the vibrant orange light made me high, the cool atmosphere made me feel so damn lucky, my satin dress made me feel desirable. Oh how could this last forever, this youth, this beauty, this comfort? Chocolates from England, the packaging worth more than your shirt. I have the boxes thrown away. Every pattern on it designed to excite the ones who can afford it, it was their source of bread and butter after all.
Ah, after this, what shall I do? I want to read. That means I got to get out of this dress, it's itchy to wear because of the damn back zip, but it's so nice. I rose up from the chaise, feeling a little woozy, my diamond earrings traced my neck - it's cold and dainty like my mother's hands. I stepped on my dress and almost hit the mahogany table.
I pulled up the hem a little, so I don't kill myself.
I walked barefoot through the hall. It was always the same since I was a child, only the pictures and cornices are always dusted. The painting of the ducks, the bouquet of sunflowers, the smiling picture of my father's grandfather, proud it workman's clothing. The library, my favorite place. Oh, the latest books wrapped in brown paper. Fits perfectly in my hands, the messages within it as if it's only for me. Penguin books!"

-Excerpt from my non-existent book.

Got another noise complaint for reciting Shakespeare...

Korea is more corporation than country

people accuse the new super mario bros movie of being feminist because the princess is more competent than mario, but that seems more crypto-monarchist to me as it lends legitimacy to her rule and makes one question the wisdom of allowing a bunch of plumbers to elect the a country's leadership.

>>21893135
I’m a national solipsist

>>21894691
the whole world is this way, welcome to the global dystopia

I’ve failed my family. I’ve failed myself. I want to die.

>>21894929
Nowhere moreso than Korea.

When I was walking in a somewhat criminal, poor neighborhood full of tall blocks, I suddenly had this great feeling, this deep sense of belonging and being home. I didn't even care if the people around me didn't like me, I felt at home, I was happy. I don't know why. I would never want to live surrounded by unpredictable dangerous low IQ retards, yet I felt home, despite knowing I couldn't relate to anyone there. I don't know why. My enthusiasm came back, I felt like a true extravert, I just came back to life and felt like a kid, just wanting to run around and move. I don't know what happened in my unconscious, but there is something I need to understand. Maybe it was just because it felt so dense, urban and full of life and action there. Maybe it's because it was imperfect so there is no stigma against me I have no idea. Of course I want to live a productive, safe life and do what really matters, I just need to understand why I had these strong feelings and get the underlying thing

>>21894117
At least finish the book if you are going to say if you didn't like it. You can even say you didn't like it but still talk about it.

>>21894958
Yeah Korea really did just supplant its traditional culture to be Hollywood on steroids. I still find Koreans that will ree at me about it but I guess I would too if I was Korean. I have never been to the country either so I might be insanely bias because of the Human RIghts abuse Docs that I've watched about their Kpop industry. Its kinda based how the whole country collectively slapped down the feminists though.

>>21895095
Don't overlook the influence and power of Samsung. But yes it is particularly apparent in their media.

>>21894325

>>21893135
I had a strange dream last night. In it, I had been arguing with a non-existent 'wife' for a while, and somehow we ended up sitting on a bed, angry. Suddenly my 'son' jumped up with us and tried to play, and my heart melted. My 'wife' and I gave in to make 'our son' happy, and in turn we made up. The three of us joked, laughed, and played.
Nothing was perfect; my 'wife' was overweight, with disorderly teeth, we had a rocky relationship, our home was small, but I loved her in entirety, and everything about her. Before waking up and realizing it was all a dream, I hugged my 'wife' and 'child'. Seeing your child smile and laugh, feeling a loved one in your arms; the feeling in the dream was of absolute completeness.
As someone with a steadily worsening illness, I will never be able to experience any of this. Still, I know what would make life complete: just love.

I want to be the American the Japanese think I am.

>>21895348
何と言ったの

>>21895348
>>21895355
何を* jfmsu

>>21894234
What book? What video games/TV? Maybe you just picked the wrong stuff.

>>21895279
The first woman I'd ever fallen in love with was not mentally well but neither was I at the time. When I think about our relationship now, and the way that I've always conceptualized any relationship I've had with another person - romantic or otherwise - is as a psychic space that exists between us, it's clear to me that I was some kind of stabilizing agent, a support beam holding her from collapsing in on herself. I had a dream about us as a married couple, a big house, nice wooden floors, somewhere in the woods in the northwest, expensive, just like her mother's. In which I'm putting our daughter to bed, she's still a very young girl and is being acclimated to having her own bedroom, even if she's not going to bed by herself she's waking up by herself and that's a good start. But then my girlfriend comes home from work and starts having some kind of episode and I have to leave our daughter to instead comfort her. Even in the dream, which at some point reveals itself to me as a dream, as I'm holding her I realize that if I was to stay with her no other relationship in my life could ever come before it at any time, it was just not something that she was capable of and we broke up soon after.

I'm locked up in a ball. How is psychology meant to do anything when I can no longer even believe words are meaningful? Anything I say to a psychologist, or even any other person, is entirely devoid of reality. Words are puffs of inflected air. I am a ball of nerves, infected by a love which is spited by its own external manifestations, stabbed and prodded by the unceasing exigencies of a world which is totally cold. I don't know where to go except to remain here. I don't know what to do except to remain doing nothing. There is such a strong force pushing outwards that the only remaining direction is to collapse inwards and expunge, eviscerate my own innards. This post means nothing, it's an empty shell of digital air. All of the people you meet are empty shells of desire. All of the words you hear and utter are vacuous nothings. The look in their eyes is the gaping of a mouth preparing to consume you.

all things are nothing to me

>>21894916
>that seems more crypto-monarchist to me as it lends legitimacy to her rule and makes one question the wisdom of allowing a bunch of plumbers to elect the a country's leadership.
>makes one question the wisdom of allowing a bunch of plumbers to elect the a country's leadership.
Yeah that didn't work out too good for Nixon

>>21894916
why did they crown her princess instead of queen?

>>21895440
Because if they make her queen they'd have to change her name to quince

Most of the times I dream, I am aware of my dreaming. The other night I had two dreams.
One was what people call a sleep paralysis demon: I was in my bed, in my own room exactly as if I were awake, except that I couldn't move and a black spectre came from the door and started pulling my feet. I felt my heart race but I knew it was a dream, so I thought: stop this you stupid monster, let me have a good dream instead. Then I woke up and slept again, only to find myself in the same dream. That's what happens if you are not awake for enough time, the mind doesn't clear up. So I woke up once again and kept my eyes open for a time. Then went to sleep and had my second dream.
Again I was in my own appartment, just as if I were awake. But something in the air told me I was dreaming; maybe it was the way I moved effortlessly, without walking, more like gliding. Knowing it was all a dream I started to imagine there was a girls' sleep party on the appartment next to me. I went out, opened their door and there they were, looking at me. I said "I'm here to rape all of you, and you are going to like it. You do not exist, you're products of my mind". I fucked the girls, then jumped out of the window. I didn't fall downwards, but sideways, on the appartment building wall. I walked down to my own window and got into my appartment again. I woke up.
I raped them again in a later dream.

>>21893144
Read Ecclesiastes.
>Vanity of vanities,” says the Preacher; “Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.”
>What does man gain from all his labor in which he labors under the sun?
>One generation goes, and another generation comes; but the earth remains forever.
>The sun also rises, and the sun goes down, and hurries to its place where it rises.
>The wind goes toward the south, and turns around to the north. It turns around continually as it goes, and the wind returns again to its courses.
>All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full. To the place where the rivers flow, there they flow again.
>All things are full of weariness beyond uttering. The eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.
>That which has been is that which shall be, and that which has been done is that which shall be done; and there is no new thing under the sun.
>Is there a thing of which it may be said, “Behold, this is new?” It has been long ago, in the ages which were before us.
>There is no memory of the former; neither shall there be any memory of the latter that are to come, among those that shall come after.

>>21895355
>>21895362
I'm not reading what you're saying, but tangentially related to kanji existing.
I homophonically translated my name into kanji recently for fun, and found that it meant either something like a spirit/ghost or to be discouraged/depressed by meaning of the characters being for spirit and emptiness or darkness/occultness..

>>21895509
woah man, you're like the epic depressed ghost guy or something

>>21895509
>>21895585
Sorry, that was uncalled for.
I hope we can still be friends.

>>21895625
We can, it's okay. I'm not obsessing over it, just something that was on my mind when I saw kanji in the thread and felt like mentioning to get out my head.
I know it sounds cringe or like I'm lamenting myself in some way, I'm not really though and I found it more humorous than anything.
More fascinating to me was the way the different kanji combined together to create multiple meanings, with the one for emptiness also being used as reduced, combining it with the first character for spirit/energy becoming something like "discouraged" by way of being "reduced spirit".

>>21895370
Book was antkind, game was don't starve and binding of isaac, TV show was alive. I usually really enjoy these things, I already read half the novel and I was enjoying it, I've never gotten bored with them before but now it's the same feeling as looking at a wall. Just absolutely nothing. It's so flat feeling it's kind of weird. I am not horrifically sad, just faintly sad and very bored and nothing is really evoking much in me.
My friend said this happened in her early months and for a while after giving birth, so it's just part of the process I guess, but I want this to be over soon. She recommended st. John's wort so I'll try that

>>21895830
do some journaling or some really half-assed painting. I like to take water colors and do that weird abstract color blobbing thing. Maybe that will help.

Why the fuck do BIC pens leak so much? Is it cause they are cheep pieces of shit or is it cause I'm pressing too hard?

Why yes I do enjoy "Brown Shoes Don't Make It" by Frank Zappa. For the satire? It's nice but for me, It's the description of having sex with a nasty 13 years old girl

If you live alone it's extra important to chew your food.

Had sex three times and feel like I’ve gotten worse at it. Will I be terrible the fourth time? I really want to impress this girl. I talked up a big game but i’ve never even went down on a girl before. Is she expecting me to? Wtf do I do? My usual routine is kiss and finger then just fuck. Is it over. Will I embarrass myself? She’s much younger but she’s definitely had more sex than me. How should I feel bros? Tips? Help!

>>21896254
The richer you are the more likely you are to die choking. If you make it past 20 mill, beware of pen caps.

>>21896261
just be yourself
if it becomes a longer term thing youll be able to give her anything she wants sexually anyhow

>>21896261
Follow your dick, not your brain.
Give yourself over to passionate embrace, stop thinking so much.
Embrace her, violate her, caress her, salivate over her, and rejoice in her.

>>21896309
It will never be a long term thing. I just want to not be embarrassing and want her to like it.
>>21896315
I wish I could be like this but I’m almost never in the moment and am in my own head.

>>21896358
turn off brain stop being self conscious go monkey mode

>>21896358
>It will never be a long term thing. I just want to not be embarrassing and want her to like it.

who gives a fuck then, she won't be in your life why does she matter. it's a learning experience

>>21896358
>I wish I could be like this but I’m almost never in the moment and am in my own head.
A little bit of alcohol can go a long way, my brother in suffering the consequences of an overactive superego.
There's a fine line to walk though to make sure you don't get whisky-dick.

>>21896365
Lol HOW?
>>21896406
It will hurt my ego and be super embarrassing for me. I don’t care if no one else know. I’ll feel like a failure.
>>21896422
Yea if I get drunk, there’s no way I can keep it up.

This is all really going to be embarrassing for me when I literally freeze in her bedroom like some cringe autist after getting her wet with my texts. There’s gotta be an easy way to be a chad here.

>>21893135
It's over

>>21896450
>Yea if I get drunk, there’s no way I can keep it up.
Which is why I said, "A little bit." Your goal would be to get buzzed, not fully drunk.
Anyways, if you're too fearful to do that, then my other suggestion is to do a short strength AND cardio workout beforehand. Not so much that you are too tired to fuck, but enough that you get a pump going and have amped yourself up a bit. Being a little tired from that isn't bad on its own too, since it can let you try and have your mind slow/quiet down a bit, but you don't want to be so tired that you can't smash.

>>21896461
She’s not of legal drinking age lol so I definitely won’t drink around her.
>run right before you fuck
This all sounds so autistic and not practical. Just thinking of me doing that so I can have sex like a normal person makes me panic.

>>21896226
Do you also like that one Oingo Boingo song?

I'm glad I switched back to reading physical books. It's much easier to focus on them and I feel deep sense of satisfaction when I look at the shelf with completed ones.

>>21896450
>I’ll feel like a failure.
If you spend your life avoiding this feeling you will end up a complete loser.

>>21896547
Guess that’s where I am.

>>21896567
Learning how to recover isn't going to happen without failure, and you can never be good at anything without the risk of being bad at it.

>>21896567
don't worry anon I suck at fucking too

>>21896578
So what do I do? Embarrass myself and have it sting me for the rest of my life. Or cancel on her and just say i’m gay.

>>21896615
Embarrass yourself and don't let it sting for the rest of your life.

>>21896452
It never began.

>>21896643
I wish it never began for me. It’s less embarrassing than feeling like you still have hope.

>>21896623
If I am going to inevitably embarrass myself, maybe I should choose a nerdy girl instead of the girl that wants to sleep with me. She’s pretty popular.

Our understanding of history is a mass hallucination that we share with others.

My daughter said "shut the up."

>>21893135
I had this vivid dream last night, where my girlfriend and I hanged out. It was fun, and I remember saying something like "I haven't laughed like that in a while," to which she responded "Ah? Happy me, then! Since when?" and I tried to think but suddenly everything became muddled. I couldn't remember. In fact, I couldn't remember her name. By that point, I couldn't hear what she had to say as I was focusing on remembering what her name was. My mind was slowly being extracted from the dream and it threw me into a panic as I knew I would definitely forget all of it upon waking up. I turned to her and asked what her name was, but I couldn't hear the response. It was on the tip of my tongue, and it felt like my brain knew the answer but couldn't transmit it to my conscious self. I was in great distress and woke up with a name I knew for sure I had made up on the spot because it didn't feel like it was hers.

It was Lea but it know it is a fake name and I don't know any Lea. Back to square one I guess. It's when I start having dreams like these that I know I miss human intimacy real bad.

I'm worried I hate all my friends. Everyone I know seems to be getting dumber and more hateful over time. Seems likely it's actually me, projecting, but I wouldn't know what to do about that one either.

>>21896809
Sounds like Kimi no Na Wa

>>21896836
Ah, I'm in the same boat. I just stop talking to them or avoid certain subjects completely whenever I feel irritated or begin thinking they must be fucking dumb. I'm running away from the feeling of displeasure and while it works sometimes, I cannot say it is a definite solution. Maybe hang out with people that aren't TikTok-dumb or rich people who seem to be the only ones to have their shit together.

>>21896657
You're probably not gonna embarrass yourself as much as you think. And most people don't stoop so low as to share embarrassing sex stories about other people and name names if that's what you're worried about.

Today was a great day full of joyous surprises.
Now, time to go to bed. Goodbye.

I’m so bored. I’m 30 and have basically nothing going on in my life.

>>21896468
I didn't say "right before you fuck", did I?
Neither did I say to drink "around her".
Again, you're overthinking things and getting in your own way here, buddy,

>>21896919
go on an adventure then

>>21896932
Travel you mean?

>>21896919
>I’m 30 and have basically nothing going on in my life.
You remind me of me when I was in my late teens, go learn a new skill to get a better job or learn something better. I'm 32 and the best thing I did besides giving up my friends was self-improvement. I can speak and read latin, I can weld, I can farm, I can dig wells and set up irrigation systems. Find something you always wanted to do and go do it. There no longer bored

>>21893320
Are you thinking the classical language threads? They were on here. As for Latin exclusively I swear we had some here at one time like you are alluding to.

>>21896935
mean for >>21896898

>>21896935
Is this a humble brag? Nobody in their 30s is like you in your teens.

>>21896941
what the actual fuck... I'm not even drunk, did anon delete the post?

>>21896943
no, the anon I'm apparently too retarded to respond too said he was in his 30s and was bored and had nothing to live for. I'm not bragging as much as giving advice and some background on myself to support my advice.

What use is trying to save a society that is unshakably desperate to die? What did this society ever do for me anyway that would warrant a sense of duty towards it, towards an effort at trying to steer it off the course of suicide?

A year has passed and not a single call from her. I guess I don't matter that much. I want to erase all my social media, stop talking to everonye and change countries. I just want to disappear.

All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.

Human nature is so made that only what is unusual and infrequent excites wonder or is regarded as of value. We make no wonder of the rising and the setting of the sun which we see every day; and yet there is nothing in the universe more beautiful, or worthy of wonder. When, however, an eclipse of the sun takes place, everyone is amazed - because it happens rarely.

>>21893142
>>21893144
Really wish you guys would just kill yourselves. Not everyone is a miserable incel or tranny and in fucking sick of listening to you whine about how horrible life is. Just be a fucking man and suck it up or an hero. I don’t feel bad for you, you are getting an ounce of pity from me and if anyone was smart they wouldn’t give it to you either.

>>21896998
>pepe cat
well that is new at least...

>>21896998
Only the second poster deserves your post

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-state-our-unions/202208/whats-behind-the-rise-lonely-single-men
This article is so condescending. Basically saying that young men are single and lonely because they're not good enough for today's enlightened woman. The only suggestion offered is getting therapy. I really dont want to hate women, but boy is it so easy to hate women.

i need help. i can no longer read any book, post, or anything else without skimreading. i can take down a 3k word chapter in 2 minutes. i understand what i read. but i can no longer enjoy anything. it's just annoying. now i skimread, and if the sentence or words or fragments i read weren't meaty enough, i get agitated that it's all empty fluff and they need to get to the fucking point or be less shitty. i dont care about boring conversations between boring characters or what some retarded twat had for lunch or what retarded outfit she has stuffed her fat ass into. i am ruined.

authors think they're soooooo damned poignant and every detail is soooooo finely crafted but they're not and it isn't. it's just noise, retarded packaging, trash, filler.

>>21893632
>americans wear shoes in the house

>>21897091
House slippers are an asian thing

>>21894234
>I am pregnant
fucking why? your teeth can fall out, you can get a heart attack, you will be incontinent for life, your uterus can prolapse right out your vagina at any moment for the rest of your life, and your pussy can rip open into a monohole and never be the same again. why does anyone do this to themselves. a cocaine habit would be healthier AND cheaper. is it really worth it just to have a little slave you can boss around for a few years and take your anger out on?

>>21897076
There's a saying where I'm from that goes something like "if a duck cannot swim, it is not the water that is being dumb". If your society is so unappealing to young men that they don't consider it worth their labour then you might have societal problem on your hands rather than a young men problem. Especially given how low the standards of most young men are nowadays, if you can't please them at least enough that they are willing to work for you, you really fucked something up.

>>21896998
being pitied is actually disgusting, at least for me
especially if the person giving the pity is woman, BIG NO

>>21897104
>pls be as scared of the extremes of pregnancy as me
Why are you doing that to the pregnant lady? Do you ask people getting in their car to not die one of the most common accidental deaths?

>>21896898
No I’m worried about my ego. Even if she never tells anyone, it doesn’t matter, I know. I’ll disappoint myself.

>>21897104
not sure if fetishist or some anti-natal weirdo

>>21897104
Why do you hate children

Holy shit I want to be in a position where I don't need to work so bad

>>21897168
Yes. yes i do

>>21897191
Have you installed guardrails on your bed yet?

How the fuck can people listen to music while working or studying? There's hundreds or nights where I would try to study or work while having music in the background and I would end up just listening to music for hours and hours. I'm so smallbrained It took me years to finally stop trying to do stuff while listening to music.

>>21897235
Classical is easy to do, more ambient music too.
Anything else drives me mad

I had the opportunities to do some pretty cool things when I was younger, but I didn’t stick with any of them. I regret that. I wish I had a more exciting, interesting life.

>>21897076
I dont think that's what the article says. It says the reason for the disparity is because women don't want to date down financially, and because women are outperforming men on college they're getting better jobs and earning better incomes. Men are falling behind income wise, so high-earning women are uninterested in them. It also says there's more single young men than women, so it sounds like the women are dating older men. The article suggests therapy, but I dont know what other options you want it to suggest, you can't force women to date a section of the population they don't want to.

This old woman was stalking me at my wagie job. I feel so creeped out

>>21897347
What did she do?

>>21895830
Sounds like my life desu

>>21897364
She was super creepy. Kept staring at me, giving me very personal compliments, and telling me very personal information. Wouldnt leave me alone even when I was obviously uncomfortable.

>>21897389
Was she stalking you? This sounds like she was just trying to flirt

You’re a selfish coward and a cold robotic autist. I predict that someday you’re going to end up just like your father, and you know exactly what I mean by that. I wish I’d never met you. Your new haircut looks terrible, by the way. That’s all.

>>21896261
Could be worse. I've only been with prostitutes, thrice, and failed to actually put it in. Was fun otherwise though. I think I'm just nervous but I'm getting my T levels checked with a test I happened to walk by at Target looking for something completely different. Maybe I need to exercise more. I have been lately but it's probably not enough.

>>21897393
She cornered me and wouldn't let me go. She was super creepy and then started telling me about her abusive dad. I am so fucking concerned that she's gonna come back

>>21897342
The exact opposite is true in my country. Uneducated men are paid far more than women who go through the entire university process and end up with a large amount of debt, working at a computer or some other post-bachelor job. These women still refuse to date the men earning significantly more than them without a degree, because the jobs are not considered "reputable", etc. But how is it reputable to waste time and money at a university if all you're looking for is a high-paying job?

Everyday after work I read while I listen to a Symphony I havent heard yet, then I watch a film, either Russian, French or Italian. I hate having responsibilities and a job and having to cram my interests into 3 hours of the day. I want to learn a language too but I know that will be the final step to completely burn me out.

Why are whites overrepresented among school shooters when compared to the percentage of students they make up nowadays in the american school system? What is the sociological explanation for their overrepresentation among school shooters in general?

>>21897466
They dont.

>>21897466
I mean, they aren't

>>21897450
Fucking stop, okay? You’ve already won. No need to salt the wound anymore.

Autism empowers me to see the world differently, enabling me to delve deeper into the mysteries of life and create works of art that transcend the ordinary.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negative_capability#Lyacos:_Negative_capability_and_the_social_outcasts

>>21897488
No, stop this incel shit. Being harassed by old creepy women is not pleasant

>>21897451
I dont know Im just saying what the article said. What country are you in?

>>21897492
How old was she

>>21897471
>>21897478
denial

>>21897466
Low iq retard

>>21897497
more denial

>>21897493
I know, and I'm rebutting your rebuttal to the original anon's statement, which still appears true to me. The income aspect is secondary. This is from Australia. What I am referring to is trades + many mining sector jobs which often do not require higher education.

>>21897500
I dont know what do you propose the solution be. They aren't interested in those men, so what

>>21897494
Couldnt tell. Looked like she's been drinking and smoking heavily for 40 years at least

Something I've been thinking about is that values, like the symbols on a map, allow you to create assumptions which simplify your reality. This is necessary to understand a reality which is impossibly complex. Look at engineers; their work is often preceded by a series of assumptions that constrain their model of a system into something which can be understood.

Your assumptions interface with your reason through assumptions and thereby the percieved validity in your assumptions reinforces or degrades your values.

Another tangent would be the emergence of woke/ ethical AI: This relies on ethical principles but serves the purpose of values. However a maior weakness to ethical AI is that these ethical tenets seem to constrain the entire perception of reality, instead of just the symbolic representation/ model. Which means that ethical AI has the potential to become EXTREMELY DANGEROUS via flawed ideological "ethics". I'm also worried about this becoming an issue as AI is used to optimize advertising, news media, entertainment media: it has the potential to create content which is absolutely indoctrinating, lacking the failures that led to people slipping through the brainwashing schemes of the USSR and PRC.

Idk guys I cant be the only one. Its fucking scary how we pretend that AI can still be totally objective despite absolutely adhering to a flawed ethical model

>>21897497
>>21897471
>>21897478
I'm not american but a couple months ago there was an event in my country where some student got caught trying to perpetrate a school rampage and I was listening to a youtube video debating it where one of the guests said that it's basically a problem of angry young white men. That guy is a very dogmatic libtard who basically just says whatever american libs say or think about a particular matter but when I thought of it there were comparatively few school shooters that I know of that weren't white or white-ish.

>>21897492
It still doesn't sound like she's stalking you. I don't know, if she's giving you compliments you don't like or telling you about her abusive dad tell her she's making you uncomfortable. Or just stonewall her and refuse to talk.

Do you masturbate before you have sex with a girl for the first time so you can last longer?

>>21897532
nah, if i don't last long that's not my problem. I know anyway that I'll last long enough in average though it may fluctuate

>>21897532
that is the common way to last longer for guys, sex for a man who doesn't want his reputation in bed ruined tends to be a one sided ordeal of holding back trying to make the woman come without coming yourself
if you're either a top gay/bisexual or a straight man who cares about your reputation in bed sex is going to be nothing but bragging rights and a tiresome ordeal for you, you have sex with the aim to pleasure her so you can have sex in the future and end up not enjoying the sex at all because it all becomes a athletic performance of holding back

>>21897515
Thats because the media doesnt report on school shootings that arent white males. The plurality are niggers bringing a gun to school and shooting some other niggers.

in my country it is illegal to report the ethnicity of the criminal unless they're white because it "encourages violence against minorities" to report if the rapist was a refugee

In my country, niggers.

it is almost like the whole western world is allowing nigs to nog just to keep the under classes too busy in a race war to realize class war

I want to say that every decision of God is arbitrary, because no matter what ideas spawning in a vacuum inherently come from nothing, but i guess im considering nothing to be the "base" for existence rather than something. My concept of creation as it stands is to be formed from nothing, yet if everything is created with a purpose, nothing can be formed from nothing. In this way, randomness is a means of defeating God, the act of something being created without intent. Nothing except my own pain counts for anything and im beginning to think that's the point. What im trying to say is, i tried so hard, and got so far, but in the end, it doesn't even matter.

you're mistaking your own process of generating meaning and understanding from nothing as the act of creation of some higher being, you're the creative nothing who observes and interacts with things and forms their opinions / adopts stances on interpretations of that external world

>>21897545
So just have my rep ruined?

>>21897567
Cant i hate both niggers and bankers

>>21897584
women gossip so if you ruin your reputation with one woman they will gossip to their friends and those friends will spread the gossip around to other women in their nebulous network and sooner or later your entire name becomes no good, they can also do this just because you didn't look hot enough one day and they're bored

>>21897588
naturally you can, most people do hate both nigs and jews they just made it illegal to say so out loud in some places

>>21897576
>generating meaning and understanding from nothing
>nothing

If nothing exists, are our eyes real?

>>21897595
“I am not nothing in the sense of emptiness, but I am the creative nothing, the nothing out of which I myself as creator create everything.”

― Max Stirner, The Ego and Its Own

did you sleep through high school?

>>21897600
What high school teaches Stirner

>>21897604
nordic high schools and any other high school worth their salt should teach you about greeks, kierkegaard, stirner, engels, camus etc big boys of history
what did they teach you in high school, how teachers are underpaid and how you should become a radicalized marxist that should go to gender studies?

>>21897567
Id really like to believe people are obsessed with black people because of the jews, and lil nas x's "industry baby" kind of proves this, but i genuinely just think hip-hop is a new religion, I wish i understood why.

I think I'm racist against Asian people. I feel weirdly guilty about it, and I'm not racist against anyone else, but I dated two Asian guys and they were the fucking worst in the same exact same way. Very sexist and egotistical, assumed they were smarter than me, and were just generally judgemental. I've noticed a lot of Asian guys like this. I took dating asian men off the table entirely.
I dont think I mind Asian women as much, I think they are nice sometimes and others are mean, but I guess that is all women. The mean ones are also unusually egotistical though.
I actually feel really bad about it, and I try not to judge them immediately but the asian men almost always prove me right. I find myself subconciously avoiding them. I think maybe how they are bit more homogenous in looks, they can be more homogenous in attitude. Am I a dick? I treat them the same otherwise. I think it's mostly Chinese men too, I went to Japan and then the men and women were very nice there, did not fall under the stereotype.

Why does alcohol have to be so much better than the healthier alternatives like weed? Every night for the past few months I've been relying on these bottles of vodka I keep buying to get to sleep. I don't even drink all that much, but each time it's like being wrapped in a warm, fuzzy blanket, all of my nerve endings in my legs, arms, are blunted and made fuzzy, and most importantly, even my mind becomes utterly pacified and grateful. It's like I'm receiving the most tender and loving hug from the only woman I love all over my body in every spot, even inside my own head. I don't have to worry about how my limbs are positioned, the posture I'm in as I drift off to sleep, it all takes care of itself. No other drug has had this effect on me, it is so peaceful and loving. I haven't tried heroine but it must be like this, just significantly more intense.

>>21897600
That's deep shit bro, my point about creating something from nothing still stands tho.

>>21897619
You make it sound so nice... I don't get the same feeling, it usually makes me dizzy and anxious but if I was that kind of drunk I'd absolutely be an alcoholic.

>>21897613
i think the reason people are obsessed with blacks (at least white people) is because they are low impulse control pests at least when they go full nig mode, why they are like that is because local drug lords have a incentive to make local kids believe the police are out to get them and jewish media has a incentive to paint them as innocent victims that din do nuffin because apparently blacks like to think that shooting up a liquor store and getting arrested is a injustice on them instead of accepting that maybe opening fire on police officers is something that warrants return fire from said officers
hip-hop is just music, as for what type of hip-hop gets funding can be argued that they purposefully support artist that glorify money, women, violence and the drug life, why? because pasty boomers love hearing some young folks glorify their coke head lifestyles of olden times
>>21897616
>they were very sexist and egotistical
women are not equal to men so makes sense
>assumed they were smarter than me
statistically speaking it is highly likely that they were
>>21897619
alcoholism
>>21897621
read up about the asian word for "nothing"(mu), they define it different from emptiness too and i think that's kind of where western philosophers also went with it

>>21897616
There should be a bell curve meme for being racist

>>21897610
First of all, existentialists are hardly the big boys of history, but yes my high school's standards were really shit and it's actually considered a top tier public high school.

>>21897619
Raises your cortisol levels apparently, so I think it just makes me more anxious and socially awkward when I'm sober. Pretty counter-intuitive for me so I'm taking a break. It seemed to make a difference so I guess it worked.

>>21897619
Marijuana causes long term psychological damage. Yes, alcohol makes you retarded, but marijuana makes you retarded, schizo, and gay.

>>21897610
They taught me english teachers are based

>>21897619
>haven't tried heroine
heroin* that was a Freudian slip not a spelling mistake

>>21893776
if only it were as easy as writing such two words

>>21897635
big boys of history in terms of philosophy, even outside of philosophy just speaking of history albert camus sparked off absurdism, stirner popularized anarchism / made it well known outside of the negative connotations, the big boys in philosophy usually had a huge effect on the general mentality of the era and gave way for ideas that otherwise might not have come so early
hell without the philosophers we would probably be wage slaving away in horrible working conditions barely keeping any fruits of our labor while being convinced by our overlords that it is fair and we would live in a orwellian dystopia where government spies on every citizen to make sure no radicals shake the status quo
but that would be a silly world to live in, there is no way any self respecting human beings of proper education would allow it to get to such a point, right?

>>21897589
Scary.

>>21897628
It's hip-hop bro, trust me, it even precedes bbc, ive said this before but the soul of hip-hop almost predicates bbc.

>>21897514
Gaga goo goo

>>21897490
>negative capability

>>21897653
Could you please use punctuation so I can follow more clearly? Thanks.

>>21897658
they do it to each other, they do it to everyone, the closest thing to average female mentality is some petty countesses and baronesses scheming and plotting with 0 true loyalty to each other, the same lady they were giggling with outside yesterday talking shit about mindy might turn into the topic of gossip when sindy comes around and then karen and you might gossip about both of them and make up a rumor just because you're bored idiots
>>21897660
did you mean *predates? also not sure why talking about hip-hop music brought british broadcasting corporations to your mind but okay
>>21897662
it's not the fault of punctuation that you are unable to follow basic concepts like high school philosophy

>>21897466
Society

>>21897660
>>negative capability
What's your reply supposed to mean?

Yeas pass and still can't get my head around about why would anyone become a regular in kiwifarms.
I bullied people online in my teenage years and still, kiwifarms is just way too fucking gay.

>>21897670
I wish your high schools focused more on grammar than Camus

>>21897635
Let me guess: Boston Latin School

>>21897670
No i meant predicate, i brought up bbc because there seems to be a common theme there of black worship there is fairly prevalent among zoomers, like, it's genuinely saddening how much power a black person has to change for example a discord call, they're like the women of race. My point is hip-hop has tapped into an expression of whatever this is on a level that it practically embodies the entire notion.

>>21897684
I honestly think lolcow milkers are a step above nazis, at least in how smart they are. The reigning supreme is still brap posters though.

>>21897686
i wish your school would have focused more on philosophy so you wouldn't have to learn basic concepts online in a /lit/ thread
>>21897695
>black worship is prevalent among zoomers
where the hell did you get that info from boomer, from one of your data farming providers?
>black people can loudly yap in phone calls and change the topic
so can a crackhead who starts yelling about the jews and how aliens are putting pinecones up his ears to make him tuned to the moons radiation
>hip hop has tapped
my jewish friends you and niggers haven't tapped into anything outside of being assholes and getting away with it by washing each others asses and making it illegal to criticize you, history will teach you why pressure cooking issues is not a good way to avoid them

>>21897622
I'd prefer it if I didn't have to be an alcoholic. All I really want is my woman, a family, and a farm or some plot of land to make things work.
>>21897641
Alcohol causes many long term health problems, and the withdrawal effects are very severe if I become properly addicted. If I'm not addicted already.
>>21897640
The effect it has on my mind and nerves allows me to totally ignore the stressful effects it is actually having on my body. I can usually feel my heart rate increase, but it the psychological effect is the opposite.

>>21897709
Yes, VERY basic concepts. Fascinating stuff anon, you got it all worked out.

>>21894325
God damn bro you are a fucking poet. I cant even try to write with you right now.

>>21897726
name one european union country where any snot nosed high schooler can't give you the skinny on people so widely known as stirner or camus

hell they might even give you a lesson on tolstoi or dostoyevsky

>>21897730
I know one snot nosed high schooler who never learned how to use the comma.

>>21897600
I like the misattributed Unabomber opening statement

>>21897735
well you'll make your life better with the use of comma while ill make mine better by not sleeping in class when something actually interesting is being taught for once
>>21897736
are you a bot?

>>21897738
It would be good for you finally graduate high school. Stay in school, kiddo.

>>21897740
okay boomer

>>21897709
>where the hell did you get that info from boomer
Im a zoomer, and my generation worships rappers, you must not be american.

story as a means of education is the reason your modern movie and entertainment is so shit and filled with garbage messages, leo tolstoi and dostoyevsky are the reason that idea bled to the western world and they've been using it ever since star trek, only thing that changed is they became more blatant and hamhanded with it because they suck at writing and the downward spiral of nepotism finally started to effect their skills
>>21897746
yeah i am not, i'm from a nordic country and in here zoomers don't worship rappers they just ride around on scooter things, drink energy drink and make localized memes for shits and giggles

>>21897738
>are you a bot?
I'm sorry but as a Large Language Model I cannot answer that statement.

>>21897751
skynet is real
skynet israel

I want to learn two languages (russian and Spanish) but I don’t know if I should learn Spanish or Russian first. On the one hand, the sooner I start Russian the sooner I’ll learn it. On the other, in the time it takes, I could probably learn both Spanish and another language like Portuguese that would x10 my reading ability. What do anons think? I’m genuinely stuck here.

depends
if you want to learn spanish / portuguese for tourism learn those
if you want to learn spanish or russian so you can read a obscure book pick the one that has a more interesting premise
if you just want to learn them for shits and giggles pick either

Girl just told me ”sex is just sex”, “who cares”? What do I do? Sleep with her? Or go ballistic and chud out?

>>21897836
you have to be 18 to post on this website, also why are you asking a bunch of random people online if you're horny enough to fuck her or not?

>>21897838
It’s disgusting me in a horny way. What should I do?

>>21897841
just wear a condom, fuck her and then wallow in self pity that your animal instincts were more important than your tegridy to find that unicorn of a woman that doesn't sleep around like a village prostitute

>>21897845
Yea basically this. I’m so let down. She’s so cute bros…

>>21897836
>with me it's like a grand unification of two souls, lost wanderers meeting at the edge of the water, to share in something greater than they could ever experience without one another, you've probably just never loved anyone you fucked.

Then you take a drag of a refreshing and well endowed marlboro cigarette, the thinking man's choice.

>>21894325
Kind of reminds me of when I had a cum sock and after a bit of continual use without washing it began to smell like maple syrup.

>>21897419
>I predict that someday you’re going to end up just like your father, and you know exactly what I mean by that
I don't. Please enlighten me.

>>21893135

What's their fkn problem? Lol

https://www.gamesindustry.biz/adl-criticizes-fortnite-call-of-duty-for-lax-stance-on-holocaust-denial

you can tell spring is in the air cuz we're getting more r9k type posts than usual

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdGLsMfJMy0
mood

My roommate (military) is such a stupid nigger he gags himself nearly to the point of vomiting multiple times whenever he brushes his teeth.

There cant be a future with rotten past.

>>21893135
I think everyone who disagrees with me should be killed

>>21898829
I disagree

>>21894175
There is no real “left”

>>21898832
Ok, prepare to die

>>21898722
My ex roommate liked to spit everywhere it was fucking gross

>>21898841
He's scrubbing his tongue, as you should too

>>21898836
Ok, I dont mind dying.

Mourning these misspent months. I want one thing for myself and am called toward another.

I'm planning on writing a piece of fiction that really feels like the brain of a paranoid schizophrenic. Now, naturally I get plenty of source material from my own thought process, but a little bit of material to take inspiration from (plagiarize) goes a long way. So where do I go on the internet to really immerse myself in some real juicy schizobrain mindstream?

>>21899360
the life of Terry A. Davis

>>21899360
You get some really inspired shit on 4channel occasionally but it's like 1 post in 10000

>>21898036
If you’re him then you should know what I mean. If you don’t know, then you’re not him.

is it possible to reverse damage done to brain (by constant cooming and spending hundreds of hours in pc games) with reading
or should i just kill myself ?

>>21899433
You should turn off the internet for a while. Hang out with friends more, get a girlfriend. You’ll be fine. Don’t be afraid of masturbation, just don’t do it all the time. Set the goals, make them.

My entire life I’ve been utterly plain and normal. Unremarkable. I’ve always hated that about myself and wanted to be someone else. It’s too late for that now.

>>21899521
>utterly plain and normal.
in what way?

>>21899521
What kind of books are you even reading?

Literature is full of stories about the common man doing something to set himself apart. You could even self insert with a common-woman-turned-uncommon story if you liked.
Real life isn’t like a book, but it can instruct and inspire as good as a “holy book” if you have a mind to.

>>21899528
Like just average, just nothing interesting, no good, no bad.

>>21899577
describe your average life

>>21899569
Totally disagree. Literature deals with the remarkable, and is most often written by the remarkable.

>>21899579
Went to school, had a normal student job, graduated, got an office job, never got in trouble, never had particular success in anything, no major character flaws, etc. I have actually had other people tell me I’m extremely normal.

>>21899582
I’m not going to crunch the numbers, but it is so filled with stories about the common man. From mythology to pomo.
This Great Man narrative of history is poisonous and makes the wagies and neets sulky.
Read any Nietzsche? Pick yourself up and meet your destiny. Even if it’s a small thing. Even if you have to make it collectively.
In the end, all of mankind will burn out in the darkness of space as if nothing had happened.

Nouveau

>>21899604
>>21899604
>>21899604

>>21899597
By definition thinks remarked on are remarkable. A common man doing common things is found nowhere in fiction.

>>21899617
>A common man doing common things is found nowhere in fiction.
Probably in the pomo stories, but that’s not the point. The point is that you should use the stories to inspire your actions. Go ahead and love up to your aspirations. Stop sulking about being average or forever-alone. Address whatever issues and conquer. I’ve seen these people in those motorized wheelchairs around my neighborhood. They probably hate their lives sometimes, but somehow manage get their heads right enough to take on their little lives.

a little disgusted.
i booked a flight to reach my ex gf who escorts (i dont have a problem with it, never had) so i can fuck her and she sent me a video of her sucking another guy's dick.
i thought that i could like that but.. no, definitely no