/lit/ - Literature

I've never had sexophone.

>>21888245
I'm running away. I've been running away for two years. I barely have anyone to talk to now.

Sometimes I get really down knowing I'll never achieve any sort of success even though writing is my only skill/talent. Knowing that's how 99.9% of all people have lived is somewhat comforting. Everything just feels so damn pointless.

>>21888245
I just want to end it all.
It brings me pain to interact or see other people.

The photographer of this >>21888245 photo is guy named Henri Prestes, he is an oldfag from >>>/p/. Recently he got a photobook publishing deal and is quiet famous on Instagram. That book is a great fuck you to status quo in photography world, he brought back the soulful Pictorialists aesthetics. Although some of his photos are kitschy.

It makes me happy whenever someone from 4chan "make it" for real.

I have given up.

>>21888266
I never write to succeed in the commercial sense, but only to detain certain muses for a longer look. In general, literature is pretty lame compared to instrumental music, of which I must be a muse, since I enjoy it almost too much.

>>21888323
>but only to detain certain muses for a longer look
Nta
Can you please explain this to me?

Sometimes I have these dreams where I'm reliving some unpleasant period in my life and I wake up feeling extremely shitty. They usually take the form of me being back in my cchildhood home when everything fell apart.
Also, in my dream last night, I kept finding full boxes of cigarettes but the cigarettes were all very old and dusty and crumble as I pick them up.

the relationship between signifier ad signified... is, ultimately, a sexual relationship.....

>>21888349
>Also, in my dream last night, I kept finding full boxes of cigarettes but the cigarettes were all very old and dusty and crumble as I pick them up.
Kino.

Can I use this in my short film?

Rent a little sister

>>21888273
It makes me happy to read that, or consider how rich the world is with rabbit-holes like it. Of course it's folly to live entirely in the archives, but there's no doing without them when it comes to enjoyment of the natural world.

>>21888264
>>21888269
>>21888279
literally me

An unlimited supply of 35 millimeter film

>>21888360
Sure, just list me in the credits
>anonymousniggercrusher42069

>>21888367
I am my worst enemy. I don't let myself enjoy things. I don't let myself hold prospects. I commit violence to my emotions on a daily basis; I am emotionally destitute as a result. Nothing makes me happy anymore, I wish I was like the Roman God Janus, but my face is eternally facing the past because that's where I live. My future feels like a well-worn out road which I don't wish travel.

>>21888398
Time to become a romantic aesthete
>captcha: MPG DG

I'm going to be honest. I'm a bit of a black sheep here. The thing is that I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I have no direction unlike you guys. I just despair all the time about how impactless my life is, how I just wake up every day and do the same thing at a computer all day. I think they call it "Waithood" or something, but yea, this is who I am. I know you guys probably can't related, but I just felt like I had to vent my frustrations about my life.

>>21888406
Maybe, but I'm just a mid-wit with almost no ability to express myself apart from moments where I am hovering between conscious & unconscious right before I fall asleep and by then it is lost forever.

>>21888337
Suppose you were a natural when it comes to storytelling or description, and sound so good that hardly anyone cares, or notices, whether you're good-looking or not. Or imagine that you work in a regional mall with a set of attractive young women and men good at gossip as they are are at conversation about mid-century architecture, regional accents, art famous enough to hang in museums, styles of corporate management, the temperaments of statesmen and statecraft, all without trying hard. Most people are idiots, and, as a matter of fact, most of them look terrible, with a few Falstaffian exceptions.

>>21888443
>I express myself poorly
This is going to make unusual situations even more unusual. Lean into it, book yourself an event where you have to do something emotional (concert, theatre, weird hippy group therapies, a cult) and force both yourself and others to deal with the consequences, then write us a novel about it.
Disclaimer: not my problem if you join the cult

Had to leave the store today because I got paranoid that everyone was looking at me and was disgusted or laughing at me.

Why did God punish me? Im not saying that Im saint but my sins are the very minor ones yet Im being cursed like mass murderer.

>>21888466
They probably have better things to do, like unit pricing.

>>21888470
>This must be what God's eternal wrath feels like
You lack imagination, anon.

you ever feel weird about trying to care? like how maybe people in the midst of massive collapse must look almost comical complaining about minor municipal affairs, had they the foresight to realise that none of it would be remembered. feels like we're just awaiting a historical pivot and there's nothing we can really do. but i want to. and i do try. just, feels odd, at times.

Could an American public figure get in trouble in the US if he went to a foreign country with legalized slavery and bought a slave? I can't find any law about it.

>>21888494
Sanction busting will get you fucked by the US and anywhere with slavery is probably under them so... don't even buy a watch there.

>>21888487
>people in the midst of massive collapse must look almost comical complaining about minor municipal affairs.

It depends on what one is complaining about. For instance, true crime documentaries pertain to municipal affairs minor in their statistical impact as they are major when it comes to their effect on communities. This is one of the reasons lawyers far exceed their reputation.

>>21888499
It does look like the countries having legalized slavery also had sanctions on them for slavery.

>>21888499
I checked other countries that basically have slavery but give them minimum rights and call it something else. It looks like a US person could legally have "slaves" in that case, even though in the US it would be illegal.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Foreign_domestic_helpers_in_Hong_Kong

>>21888615
Yeah but if you're looking in China you can just contract a factory and offload the moral and legal problems to your contractors, like Apple does.

How did supporting immigration become such a holy cow among leftists? Aren't you supposed to be against scab labor and things which capitalists do to lower the value of labor and societal cohesion (and therefore class consciousness)?

>>21888615
You're also still going to have to register you spent money in China which is like telling the government about your holiday in Pakistan

>>21888624
They want to open legal taxable immigration.

>>21888410
>I have no direction unlike you guys
Hahahahahahahahahahaha

>>21888647
Shh we were passing for normies with no piss bottles for a minute

So nervous about having sex with this e-celeb. The panic makes me feel like I won’t get it up. Then she’ll just laugh at me behind my back. Panicking everyday dreading it. Thinking it over if I should go or not? I’vs had sex like 3 times before in my life. Twice it went well and thr other time I couldn’t stay hard enough to put it in. It was so embarrassing for me that it made me avoid girls for a long time. Idk I just want this all to be over. Even my life. There’s no point to this all, so silly driving myself mad over this. But if I don’t drive myself mad over this, then what should I go mad for?

How do i get better writing also I should start practicing my cursive again, wiring in block lettering for a long period of time hurts my hand. Not that I can read my block writing anyway

>>21888662
If she's an eceleb of the "positivity" bent then she's probably incapable of acknowledging bad sex.

>>21888662
>having sex
ew
>with an e-celeb
just when I though sex couldn't get any worse...

>>21888681
Maybe the eceleb is his animu waifu who is well known on bookwalker? There's no need to accuse anon of associating with 3dpd like that in his work of fiction.

>>21888662
this is the most fixable fucking problem ever you fucking faggot:
1. Don't care what she thinks or says
2. Don't care about pleasing her
3. If she talks shit later, don't care
4. If your this fucked up about it just cancel on her with no explanation
5. Or you could explain it if you want, I wouldn't though, its none of her business why you canceled outside of letting her know you canceled. She isn't your mom or gf
6. find a woman you love and have sex with her
literally all your problems solved in any way you want.

How is that book/diary called in which some guy wrote down all of his sexual encounters? It wasn't just exciting ones, it was also the boring ones. It was mentioned in Foucault's History of Sexuality but I can't find it right now

>>21888702
iunno about foucault's history of sexuality but I do know in modern culture its usually called "the black book" or "little black book"

>>21888702
Casanova?

>>21888687
wtf is a bookwalker?
>There's no need to accuse anon of associating with 3dpd like that in his work of fiction.
I wouldn't even write myself having fictional sex.

>>21888709
Naaah, I don't think it was Casanova, I would remember that. I also don't think Casanova wrote about all of his experiences, did he?

>>21888677
>eceleb of the "positivity" bent
Not sure what that is? She seems sweet and kind but is the opposite of me. I told her this and she says she doesn’t care. She says she “thinks it’s cute that i’m shy”. She’s super attracted to me physically for sure.

>>21888714
>wtf is a bookwalker
jfc are you a normie from the early 2010s?

>>21888718
she'll probably think its cute that your so shy that you can't get up. Your jumping at mind ghosts dude...

Brrrr. I was cold for a moment. I was almost about to acknowledge I chose my own loneliness and that I deserve everything that has ever happened to me. You won't catch me this time and I am innocent of all accusations, sorry, world!

>>21888719
>jfc are you a normie from the early 2010s?
I actually read books? I know, shocking that someone on /lit/ actually reads. If its a manga distributor, that is probably why. I gave up anime and manga years ago when it started frying my brain.

>>21888715
He got about fifty years through his life so it's not all but it's also like 4000 pages

Just took a mid-day nap. Had a shockingly vivid dream about a race war. I was surprised because I'm not a /pol/ type by any stretch of the imagination, but it was such a clear dream that I kind of want to write it down and share it. I don't know if this thread is even the place to post what would amounts to a short story if I do that.

>>21888736
loneliness =/= solitude
Also nice schizo post, almost thought I was on /x/ for a minute.

>>21888697
>I can’t help caring, especially because she is semi-famous or whatever
>again ideally I would want to
>she wouldn’t talk shit to my face, but it would be behind in her mind laughing at me. Makes me feel like a cringe loser
>if I cancel, i’ll feel like a coward, which i clearly am. That will haut me and hurt me for sure. Im only getting older, regret are mounting
>i tried to cancel before but she is super persistent, she won’t let me off the hook
>duh but who could be so lucky?

>>21888728
yea hopefully. But I hate feeling like a fucking charity case. It’s going to hurt me hard and then I’ll just avoid her for good because I can’t just keep failing repeatedly.

>>21888738
>I actually read books? I know, shocking that someone on /lit/ actually reads
The fact you think that made you weird and the assumptions you make about others is giving distinct normie tries to be quirky vibes.

>>21888742
Aaaah, I found it! It's 'My Secret Life' by some anonymous guy who was later called "Walter".

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Secret_Life_(memoir)

>>21888760
>I'd like to not know kind people
Maybe talk to her about your masochism.

>>21888768
Nice I'd forgotten that even existed

>>21888746
>>I can’t help caring, especially because she is semi-famous or whatever
ngmi
>>again ideally I would want to
just do it, don't be too much of a dickhead. I'm not advising you to be mean but if she throws something like that at you just tell her "I don't care."
>>she wouldn’t talk shit to my face, but it would be behind in her mind laughing at me. Makes me feel like a cringe loser
Who cares, she is cringe incarnate and your about to have sex with it. She could have the worst opinion of me in the world and all I have to say is "your an e-celeb, your opinions don't matter. Your barely human." and I've won.
>>if I cancel, i’ll feel like a coward, which i clearly am. That will haut me and hurt me for sure. Im only getting older, regret are mounting
Well look up how to not be a coward? Also if not having sex is going to "haunt you" you might want to re-evaluate your life and values.
>>i tried to cancel before but she is super persistent, she won’t let me off the hook
>letting her dictate your actions
ngmi
>>duh but who could be so lucky?
Not many and it seems less and less every year. Thank God that I don't have to deal with women and sex.
>>21888765
>The fact you think that made you weird and the assumptions you make about others is giving distinct normie tries to be quirky vibes.
Thanks I haven't heard a compliment all week

>>21888769
No it’s not that, but how long can she be kind if I just keep failing? She’ll eventually give up and laugh and I’ll feel like some loser charity case that she tried but couldn’t help. Add to the fact she’s semi-popular, it feels pathetic.

>>21888760
>yea hopefully. But I hate feeling like a fucking charity case. It’s going to hurt me hard and then I’ll just avoid her for good because I can’t just keep failing repeatedly.
Then just don't fuck her?

>>21888785
It's gone from normie trying to be quirky to femcel pretty quick in here. Congrats, you might be degenerate in the most barren sense.

>>21888796
>No I will make her change her mind about being a kind person
I really think you should discuss it and get her consent first but cool

>>21888798
>It's gone from normie trying to be quirky to femcel pretty quick in here.
>thinks i'm quirky
>thinks i'm a femcel
>thinks i'm a girl
Anon, you might just be gay. Has that crossed your mind?

>>21888808
>femcel homophobia as a reason men won't like her
I called you unfuckable if you thought that was another compliment.

>>21888813
>still thinks I'm a girl
yeah it is because I'm not gay

>>21888818
>this woman logic
Kek. Yeah it's the gay mafia killing your curb appeal definitely not anything else.

>>21888825
>implying implications
if we are gonna do this can you at least be funny and original?

>>21888785
>Who cares, she is cringe incarnate and your about to have sex with it. She could have the worst opinion of me in the world and all I have to say is "your an e-celeb, your opinions don't matter. Your barely human." and I've won.
Even if I thought this, I would still care about what I thought of myself.
>a person who gets nervous trying to sleep with a girl who is practically begging for it.
What a mentally ill coward I am. I always figured I was ngmi, but having these experiences reminding me that i’m not, feels like a knife to the chest.

>>21888828
You'd have to stop sounding like a copy paste passive aggressive girl for that to work. You're not really a good straight man in any sense is about the only theme we're going to get out of that material.

>>21888797
>Then just don't fuck her?
Then what am I doing with my life? I can’t even function as a normal human. I’m getting older anon. Opportunities to connect with girls don’t come everyday for me. Should I just avoid every girl forever and die alone?

>>21888832
>Even if I thought this, I would still care about what I thought of myself.
you should but care about what you think of yourself but I think you care too much about how other people see you.

>>21888838
>Should I just avoid every girl forever and die alone?
Well, if you're that afraid of laughing girls.jpeg then, yeah.

>>21888835
please reread
>>21888828
and try again
>>21888838
>Should I just avoid every girl forever and die alone?
Iunno, but it sure does sound like you need to sit down alone and figure your shit out.

>>21888835
Anon... I feel like you missed it, but the other Anon subtly implied that the reason he sounds gay isn't because of how he writes but because of how you read...

>>21888273
Thanks for this post. I was literally about to ask if OP knows where the photo is from. I browsed /p/ for a while, even bought an old camera, and took some photos, but eventually gave up lugging the thing around. For some reason, I can't stick to any hobbies besides /lit/erature.

disintegration is what awaits us

>>21888843
>you care too much about how other people see you.
I admittedly do, but honestly what’s most important is how I perceive myself. If I fail and she is super supportive and clearly doesn’t care and thinks “i’m cute”, this all would still bother me. Because I don’t want to fail. I don’t want to be the guy that fails in this situation. I know i’m the guy that fails in this situation because I’m admittedly a mentally ill weak willed man. That part stings the most. I don’t want more experiences that reinforce that feeling in me. But if I don’t try, i’ll never succeed. And if I can succeed consistently, maybe my will would strengthen. Idk. I’m clearly fucked up.

>>21888845
>Well, if you're that afraid of laughing girls.jpeg
More concerned about me laughing at myself.

>>21888245
checkem

>>21888245
ok this time

>>21888888

>>21888848
>sound like you need to sit down alone and figure your shit out.
Yea, but who doesn’t on 4channel? Are there really well adjusted happy people here?

>>21888848
>going to autogenerate repetitive passive aggressive sexless woman facebook snark forever while hoping other people make up the originality portion of the conversation
>desperate for the last word because she thinks that's a conversational victory for her because, well, woman logic
I'll give it to you but you wouldn't get any nonoko no nookie jokes I make on the way out

>>21888859
The girl anon is the one making the gay comments. The anon saying it's a girl hasn't called it gay once. I think the girl anon should post her tits so we can all prove we're not gay.

>>21888888
Congrats on the sextuplets

>>21888862
One of the best albums tbf, but I'd prefer Wish really

The smell of mowed lawns and fresh orange juice soothes my chudrage.

>>21888888
based

>>21888905
That's my point, if you go back to the original post:
>have you considered that your gay?
He is saying he sounds like a girl because you read like a gay...

>>21888938
country or bust, suburbs suck.

>>21888978
Yeah girl anon called anon a faggot. I don't see why that stops her posting tits and timestamp though.

>>21888986
>Yeah girl anon called anon a faggot
yeah because he reads in a gay way.
>I don't see why that stops her posting tits and timestamp though.
Why would you want to see a nude tranny?

>>21888990
Why not? Anon's right it sounds like a girl or tranny faggot who can't in2 banter but that means it has great tits to survive without contributing anything valuable. People aren't nodding at dumb bitches because of their ideas.

>>21888885
>>21888888
grim

>>21888996
>Anon's right it sounds like a girl or tranny faggot who can't in2 banter
It's probably just an underaged b& chunibyo edgelord who thought he was doing epic pwnage by acting like his jimmies weren't rustled by anyone questioning his underage manhood when they clearly very much were/are. Pretty sure you're talking with the anon in question

>>21888996
...What...?

>>21889015
There are only 2 anons in here right now and I think we know how is who regardless of what we pretend.

>>21889015
Yeah I know but it definitely types like a dumb adult girl or faggot more than a teenager.
>>21889016
Post tits.

I met someone once because I was fishing in the middle of the night and she was on a walk because she couldn't sleep. I said "how are you?" and we ended up talking until the sun came up. But I never got her name or number. But crazily, I ran into her again the next night. So we ended up becoming really close friends and eventually dating. But it's funny to me because that's so contingent. So many things had to go just right, and that random event had a profound effect on my life, in a not so obvious way.

>>21889039
Did you catch any fish?

>>21889045
A decent sized snook

>>21889048
You able to fish squid down there? Night fishing always reminds me of squid.

You guys ever pay close attention to when you get emotional, and try to use logic to calm yourself down? It's like emotion is seeing the world through distorted sunglasses, and even though you try to be reasonable, it still feels like the world is on fire thanks to your emotions and you can't help but give in to the emotion.

Maybe this is what the buddhists were talking about. Normally, it's accepted we have to use a combo of logic and willpower to stop ourselves from acting crazy when emotional, but maybe the buddhist approach was the correct one all along

>>21888273
Just followed him on there. Thanks anon

>>21889069
I'm not sure, snook has stopped biting hours before but I kept going because I didn't really have anything better to do. Only serious night fishing I've done down here is for shark and rays.

>>21889076
That is literally yoga, you are differentiating your inner space and realizing that "you" are not your feelings, impulses, instincts, associations, or anything else, and that you don't "have to" do anything that your core doesn't consciously decide to do.

You should read the first two chapters of Meditations on the Tarot by Tomberg.

I'm about to miss the deadline for two College assignments. I just can't bring myself to do anything anymore. I haven't had any friends or even people I talk to regularly for the past five years. My family is constantly in a bad mood and it seems like every time they talk to me it's just to yell at me about something. I really don't know what to do anymore. I honestly preferred it when I was working at a warehouse. It wasn't a very good job and it didn't pay well but at least I had a consistent schedule.

How do I fix my shit?

>>21889079
Not a big fan of shark, but rays are great eating. It's not great here for shark fishing though so maybe I'd get into it if we had more. Is it all sea fishing you do?

>>21889096
Get the degree so you don't get stuck with your family forever. Much easier to emigrate and start over with a degree, even a shit degree.

>>21889102
That and also inshore saltwater. I don't live in Florida anymore though, I'm on Camp Lejeune now. Part of those not-so-obvious effects.

>>21889106
What would I even do? Everything just seems so pointless to me.

>>21889112
You could probably get some good longfin squid there.

>>21889139
Anything, everything, just one thing. It's your life bro, you're going to have to make the call on that.

>>21889089
Thanks for the rec.

This kind of idea is at the forefront of all Buddhist stuff, but I never took it that seriously. Realizing that this may be the only good way to control our emotions (since willpower is a finite resource) is weird.

Trying to use logic to calm down emotion, feels basically like lying to yourself as a cope to lessen the pain of reality. By nature, it can't work in all instances, since you won't always have an excuse. Sometimes, some really horrible shit happens in life and there's no excuse in the world you can use to make the pain go away. Maybe we'd all be wiser off getting started on the Buddhist approach now, since intense suffering in life is inevitable, so we better learn to deal with it when it happens.

>>21888743
Fuck it, was so weirdly vivid and detailed that I just had to write it down. Kind of shaken up by the shit by subconscious comes up with. This plot is verbatim what I dreamed down to the specific details. Very surprised with myself. (Plot also feels a little too juvenile and edgy to me, but shit, that's how the dream went.)

erudition is my only desire, but my poor genetics and upbringing have rendered its achievement a chimeric dream, leaving me with only two options: suicide or accepting my stupidity and giving up. the latter option would be the less selfish one, but i’m significantly more inclined to the former because i don’t see any other reason to live. whatever. maybe i should just cope by becoming an alcoholic/drug addict

>>21888785
>Not many and it seems less and less every year. Thank God that I don't have to deal with women and sex.
Why don’t you have to deal with women?

>holding in 500 farts for 2 hours because i have a shit also loaded in the cannon
>come home sit on toilet
>shitlet the size of a baby carrot comes out
>fart for 65 seconds
>no more shit
FUCK YOU

>>21889214
>Why don’t you have to deal with women?
I don't date.

>>21889156
>Trying to use logic to calm down emotion, feels basically like lying to yourself as a cope to lessen the pain of reality. By nature, it can't work in all instances, since you won't always have an excuse.
It does feels like that, but only because you are trying to channel yourself to ignore your emotions and proceed with logical reasoning. Whenever I feel like I'm burning, I imagine myself from an outsider perspective. I'm not ignoring my emotions, I'm accepting them, accepting the shitty situation and trying to find new solutions. Seeing my reflection in the mirror also quenches the fire pretty quickly. When your brain is screaming "Fucking hell, this is so unjust!", just agree with it. "Yes, it's fucking unjust. But look at yourself, you really look like you need an ice cream momento right now.". Do yourself a favor and be your own friend, stop burying your emotions and desping yourself like a retard. Go to sleep, get yourself something positive to get you out of the negative thought-feedback loop. Transform them into something else.

>>21889030
lame

>>21889313
How old are you? Do you plan on having a family ever?

>>21888245
I am tired all the time every inch of my body hurts

>>21889327
32 and no

Fuck what your friends say buy a gucci purse with your welfare check and go twerk in the alley where the hotter homeless guys play dice

You need to stop thinking about life as a submarine and start thinking about a submarine as your future workplace

I went on a date with a bigtitty arthoe with a nose ring today and unloaded redpills on her. I told her that the book industry is run by filthy kikes and that they only publish tranny garbage to indoctrinate the goycattle and that this is why all modern books are trash. Then I told her that all the YA goyslop she reads is mass produced by jews to brainwash her. When I brought her back to my place and when she saw my bookshelf full of big-brained right wing philosophers like Hegel, Evola, Plato, Guenon and Peterson, she was so impressed that she swallowed my giant load after we fucked.

>>21889399
Pretty standard fare bud now do it 20 more times before june

>>21889399
A nice story but we all know the farthest you can get an art hoe on date #1 is admitting she hates troons, she won't start being racist until fully dating

>>21889076
It's pretty cool when a part of you actively realizes you're being a fucking moron right as you're speaking and yet you persist in acting that way. When I was depressed, that happened constantly.

>>21889374
I’m the same age as you. You’re content with that?

>>21889424
>You’re content with that?
Yeah, your not?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OshSr-CqLiE

>>21889429
No, I’m honestly not content with anything really. I’m pretty sure I just want to die when I think really hard about it.

>>21889437
Comfy! Any idea what anime that pic is from?

>>21889315
This is a good perspective. Viewing yourself from the 3rd person, like some outside observer, really does help. Hard to put into words, but it feels like you can view reality again, as it really exists, instead of burning up from the thoughts in your head. Probably a good idea to practice it

>>21888245
One of the features I especially dislike about public discourse today is how figures fixate on how their enemies are trying to silence them. Sometimes these claims have merit, and I will agree with them, but so many across the political spectrum today complain about being silenced that it just comes across as whiny. More time is wasted fixating on the excesses of the other side, that could be spent constructing a deep substantive argument in favor of your own.
In this state of polarization the two sides come to resemble each other in their totalizing rhetoric.
I don't know. Just come out and boldly state what it is you believe or want. I dislike how everyone tries to play this finger pointing game to hedge what it is they actually believe and make themselves into the victim.
Every group seeks to create a conformity or unanimity of opinion/belief within their own group. Why pretend otherwise?

>>21889413
>It's pretty cool when a part of you actively realizes you're being a fucking moron right as you're speaking and yet you persist in acting that way
I try to detach myself from emotions in an argument, but I've definitely experienced that ashamed feeling afterwards when I realize I was in some kind of aroused state where I was seeing a threat that wasn't there & not truly listening to the other person. That's always embarrassing.

Well, let me see... I've been reading a lot of William Burroughs lately. He's always been one of my favorite writers. He has such a unique and visionary style. He's also very funny and very dark at the same time. I've also been watching a lot of David Lynch films. He's another genius in my opinion. He creates these surreal and disturbing worlds that fascinate me, and I'm always really drawn to that sort of thing in all works of art across mediums.

>>21889413
That's mental illness in a nutshell.

Imagine this: For some reason, you get the sudden feeling there is a lion in your basement. Naturally, you know that's fucking insane. But, somehow it feels like one is there anyway. When you hear the heating unit in your house kick on, it sounds like a lion's roar, and when you feel footsteps from another room, you think "It must be that fucking lion". So you tell your father, and he takes you down to the basement. You check every corner of the basement -- no lion. You breathe a massive sigh of relief, and leave the basement. For a while, all is well... and then you feel the footsteps again. The fucking lion is there now. You knew it all along.

Of course it doesn't make any sense. Your brain is just perceiving stuff wrong. But logic doesn't really help, because deep down all humans go off intuition and sense, not logic. This might sound like I'm describing schizophrenia, but it applies to a whole range of mental illness like depression, bipolar, anorexia, body dysmorphia, etc. The suicidal person does not think straight because he cannot *feel* straight

>>21889652
The suicidal person thinks straight and feels straight. That’s the tragedy.

Is it possible to cry and have sex at the same time?

>>21889684
The thinking follows the feeling.
Where the bow aims, the arrow flies.

>>21889652
No such thing as thinking or feeling straight.
Also no such thing as """""mental illness"""""

How do I reach the vag hole with penis and without slipping. I’m not that small, im 5.5-6 inches long. Am I doing something wrong?

>>21888245
Leggere tra le righe. Comprendere i nessi. Commettere un delitto: un passo in avanti...

>>21889002
>The tryhard "become" vs the effortless "is"

>>21889739
The feeling follows the thinking

>>21888485
Im not saying its an eternal wrath, just a heavy punishment to me.

>>21889652
>l-l-le mental illness!!!!
Do redditors really? Do you even know what a mental illness is or maybe you believe everyone here is a tranny? Only on reddit and tiktok can you find people proud to have mental illnesses. People are literally proud to be retarded and social outcasts.

>>21888980
college town for best of all worlds: high culture, freshly mowed lawns, and a rope swing by the bend in the river.

>>21889950
?

Happy Easter, /lit/bros.

Daily reminder to all incels who have been psyopped and gaslit by their entire societies for years, it is not your fault, things were not always this way, these are abnormal times and you are valid king

>>21889970
Happy Easter

>>21889980
>Women are dating older men
I'm reasonably certain things _have_ always been that way.

>>21889980
just cuz they're single doesn't mean they're not fucking. my old roommate was single and he fucked a lot. he mostly played fortnite, but sometimes he'd take a break to fuck and smoke weed. i'm not exactly sure what he did for money.

my neighborhood is getting gentrified, so this weekend we decided to try this new yuppie burger place. bruh, wagyu burgers are next level. you dudes need to hurry up and finish your stem masters so you can eat this shit all the time. that shit is sooo fucking good.

Noticed it was my birthday 10 past midnight. Thought about it and emotions just swelled up in me and I just spent the last 20 min crying. It’s been a rough year and I don’t know how i’ve made it.

>>21890005
happy birthday anon, may the next year be better than the last one.

>>21890005
happy birthday

>>21889980
Lol. Time to seize the means of reproduction

I want to go back in time to marry a nice submissive girl in a technologically simpler world.

>>21889193
You don't have to become erudite. I don't think you should force yourself into something you're not. Just enjoy looking at art and reading literature like me with occasional despair by the Noonday Devils.

>>21890011
>>21890038
Thanks bros

>>21890005
I wish I could cry. I'm too dead inside for that.

>>21888245
I have once again drunk too much coffee and browsed /lit/ for 8 hours straight till my eyes hurt.
I am once again horny.
I sometimes wish we could create a new body. Drained of all fluids, plastic tubes in the place of veins, and laminated skin. No tears or sweat, No hair. No nail clippings. Every single hidden or obscured pore would be open to view. Nothing would escape . It would be a perfect closed system, no input or output. A body where we could finally be clean, and rid of any excess or waste. No secretive secretions of any kind. And most of all no genitalia whether protruding or intruding.

How the hell does anyone decide what kind of job they want?

>already feel devastated about being a wizard
>still read up threads where normies say that its over if you're past 22
I just cannot stop rubbing salt into my wounds despite it hurting like hell already.

>>21888888

I like... reading.

>>21890161
>past 22
thats just retarded teenagers who think 20 is old

>>21890192
Im talking about ability to have social and sexual interactions not general age. I also want intimacy and closeness yet the only solution (that Im given) is just to hooker and pay for play-and-pretend activity.

Modern life. We were not supposed to live like this. Our way of living is utterly different to the environment our brain evolved to live. This way of living is unnatural. I won't let anyone have moral superiority over me. I am better than all of you. When I kill myself, laugh at me. But I will also be laughing at you.

>>21890161
Anon, its kinda pathetic you are destroying yourself over not having sex. I recommend you just let it go and start to find meaning in your life. Sex usually follows success, with that being said. Sex is not everything like modern society tells you. It took me till my 30s to kind of shake the outdated ideal that society thrusts down our throats. I found that a lot of my ruminating about not being up to society's standards was just a lack of me doing things that were important to me. Some people its their hobbies (I think its hedonistic and childish but those kinds of people seem the most "okay" with being alone outside of workaholics/people with a passion that drives them.) for others its their work, personal projects, self-improvement. Find what works for you and just dive down into it, everything else is just society spooks. That being said I'm also highly introverted so it was relatively easy for me to shut out society. Best advice I can give you is to start to "weed" your friend group of toxic people or people who you either don't like spending time with.

>>21889980
I dont understand that number. How can 2/3rds of men be single while only 1/3rd of women are?
>inb4 they're dating older men
Well then we'd expect to see a higher rate of single older women
>men are dating 2 or more women
The way the questions are phrased dont support that hypothesis

>>21889982
Then why is the number of single older women even lower? The numbers dont add up

i can't tell esls from bots

>>21890198
>you cant have friends or girlfriend past 22
Again, thats just teenagers being retarded

>>21890205
I dont really think about being completely pure sexless person all the time but I cant completely ignore it when Im around other people. I do miss a way of cope.

I really think going to the wrong university ruined my life.

>>21890249
same, unironically

>>21890285
What could possibly be ironic about that statement

The faggot jannie just keeps deleting threads full of interesting discussions and exchanges because he decides one day, on a whim, that this particular topic is not literary enough, while on other days allowing them to reach 315+ posts (almost always when those very same topics do not result in any effortposts whatsoever but is just a shit-fiesta).

Why does he do it (for free)? I can get half-assing it and being inconsistent for that reason, but if that is the case, how is it that he can be inconsistent in the worst way possible with clinical precision?

>>21890294
everything can be said ironically anon....

the left has gone insane

>>21890294
You are on a basketweaving forum where the natural attitude is irreverence, meta-irony of the nth order, and fifteen layers of deceit of both self and others. Hence, "unironically" is used to signal earnestness as a privative of this topological natural attitude.

If i could go back, I would take the bluepill.

>>21890306
the worst thing about looking "over the aisle" is that you realize that both sides complain about the same things, and I'm not talking about current issues, I mean that they both complain that the media is biased against them, that they both suffer from being the favored side in politics, that the other side is allowed to get away with so much more. What's worse is if you actually looking the things they complain about, nearly 90% of it is stuff you won't remember 3 to 6 months from now and when you elect an official its near 100% certain that they will vote in self-interest or vote for something you don't like. Its just a weird outrage machine that is upset that it has no real control over the Nation itself.
I still recommend consuming the opposite side's viewpoint though, its kinda eye opening how similar both sides are and it prevents you from falling into outrage traps or being ideologically manipulated.

>>21890321
>that they both suffer from being the favored side in politics,
that they both suffer from being the LESS favored side in politics

>>21890321
the left... has gone insane

>>21890208
There are women who think they are in a relationship, but the man just sees them as an occasional fuck toy. So you could filed that under biases reporting or something.

But then you def have older men scooping up younger women. Polyamorous and polygamous dynamics are increasing. A lot of men willing to go timeshare on a pussy, and a very few men getting a lot of pussy. Lesbianism rising with LGBT along with women falling into a bunch of random bullshit identity generator meme personae like non-binary.

Lots of little things are eating away at it.

>>21890306
Not really, no, I just still think that a progressive tax system, where very rich people end up paying something like 70% tax of their last earned dollar above something like a million, in order to fund tax-paid education and healthcare, among other public welfare goods, is a more just distribution of wealth, than when a few very rich fags horde it all for themselves and spend it on degeneracy or making the world an even more gay and soulless place. This fundamentally and essentially leftist impulse can even be couched in terms of nationalism or communitarianism (that can be of a conservative flavor if you prefer), with reasoning along the lines of "I want a decent and respectable life for all of my countrymen, and believe that the rich among us should carry a part of that responsibility proportional to the blessings and wealth living in this country has bestowed on them".

What's insane about that? Or is this another one of those instances where you take "leftism" to mean "being in favor of men chopping off their dicks and putting on makeup"? Because in that case, I can't reallly contribute, I'm a leftist but I don't give a fuck about genital mutilation.

>>21890208
multiple women thinking they are dating a man when she is just in a rotation. Or women knowing they are in a rotation and being 100% okay with that. It you go look up STD and AIDs stats you'll notice that on the male side nearly nothing has changed while on the female side it has nearly doubled. There is a reason why a lot of men are disgusted by the true body count that women have, I don't know if its naturalistic or societal but avoiding loose women imo is a healthy way to live life, financially and health-wise.

>>21890330
>the left
>gone insane
pick two

My best friend when I was 13/14 was pedophile I would chat with on skype

>>21890330
>healthcare, among other public welfare goods,
I don't know if you mean just healthcare or socialized healthcare, but we will never get socialized healthcare until we either leave NATO or force member states to pay. Even then the people in power are not concerned at all about their constituents so they will most likely why they don't do anything about it. Its real politick power the US can use against other foreign nations. This is also the reason why people either want to overthrow the system or collapse it. There is no political will to fix NATO and give American's socialized healthcare because it will harm America's rapidly falling status in the World, and the Deep State public servants who are unelected and run the machinery of the country won't allow that. I guess the upside is even though we are crumbling so are our enemies.

>>21890340
The way the questions phrasing in on the bottom of this image. Maybe women are just retarded and dont know how to answer questions

>>21890357
It still makes sense since women like to communally live more than men do, there is also the sugar baby phenomenon or just temporary live-in girl friends, so it still makes sense to me, unless women are all banging each other while living together.

>>21890346
Uh-huh, OK.

>>21890353
I mean socialized healthcare. As for your belief that the budget for that can be exclusively found in NATO members pulling their fair share, that's just plain wrong (although you are absolutely correct that other NATO members should pull their weight and stop being freeloaders).
There are hundreds of ways to finance socialized healthcare, my favored among them being a higher tax on the rich, as mentioned - combined with a number of other policies, such as some kind of trade protectionism, putting a tariff on imported goods that could just as well be produced domestically instead of in China. This has would have added benefits: making it less profitable to outsource production for the domestic market would incentivize bringing manufacturing back, securing good bluecollar jobs. Furthermore, it would ensure that we are no longer crippling ourselves to ensure good manufacturing jobs for our geopolitical rival, just so shareholders can get higher profits from lower labor costs in China.
But that's just ways to finance it. There are hundreds of ways.
The dynamic effects that socialized healthcare will entail on economic productivity and the level of happiness and security people feel on a day to day basis cannot be overstated. It would be immense. Healthier people are happier and work harder and create more wealth. It's such a no-brainer that one of the most urgent and fundamental goals of a nation is securing the health of its citizens, because that is the precondition of prosperity.
America has too much individualism, too much fuck-you-got-mine attitude. Much of the right is mired in it. Many liberals are too. Richfags do not want to pay high taxes so the poor plebs can have healthcare, because the richfags care about themselves first and foremost. But even a rich man cannot have a good life in a profoundly sick nation. The communitarians are 100% right.

I would rather drop acid than have sex.

As a degenerate giga-coomer, I find it quite interesting that I am suffering from the very same aesthetic ennui and malaise as the decadent aesthetes of fin-de-siecle Europe. Jean de Esseintes of Huysmanns seminal work A rebours withdraws to his country cottage to experiment with sensual impressions, covering a galapagos turtle in plates of gold and gemstones and letting it walk slowly through a dimly lit room to achieve just the je ne sais quoi play of light he desires from the organic contraption, and is frustrated when it fails to tickle his fancy and his itch time and time again.

This is completely analogus to my ventures as a coomer - I find a video of one of my favorites, Krissy Lynn or Nicole Aniston, forcing a man to lick their assholes, in some of their very rare femdom appearances - but lo, the male actor, who is to be a mute and mostly invisible prop, in both instances, is Deviant Kade - that horrifying, snivelling, noisy little faggot who always drowns out the soft moans of the goddess whose asshole is being licked with his absolutely atrocious running commentary, in his rage-inducing faggot lisp, completely ruining the entire scene, which was, from a distance, perfect.
I find a femdom studio with videos of moderately attractive women farting into the mouth of a tied down man - perfect, or so it would seem, until I realize that this male prop who should be invisible screams, literally screams out in terror and pain and RETCHES - ACTUALLY RETCHES - when he receives the gassy blessings from the derriere of the goddess, raping my ears an drowning out all eroticism and sensuality from the scenario.
I find an amateur video of a masked man kneeling in front of a woman sitting on the toilet, defecating. It is silent. Perhaps this is it. The woman tells him, in the most delightful girlish and playful voice, that it is soon time for him to clean her asshole. This may be it, this may be it.. the man is quiet, he merely nods! Yes! This is it! The woman stands up, turns around, spreads her cheeks and presents her poopy butthole for the eager mouth of her slave - but no! The consistency of the feces left around her ass is all wrong, too chunky, not the soft smear befitting for a lady.

So you see, the plight of the coomer is just like the plight of de Esseintes - I am sitting in my dimly lit room, frustrated, awating the right play of light that never arrives. In a manner, this lack of resolution is emblematic of life itself, which always frustrates our desires for perfection, at least, as Heidegger made clear, until death.

>>21890428
It's not either or anon, and both in combination with a woman you love is probably one of the greatest things in the world.

>>21890220
22 is fine in my book but Im much older than that.

>>21890198
>>21890441
>I also want intimacy and closeness yet the only solution (that Im given) is just to hooker and pay for play-and-pretend activity.
Really? That's the only solution?
You've ever tried hitting shamelessly on a 3/10? They're usually so grateful and receptive.

>>21889089
>That is literally yoga, you are differentiating
I hope you noticed how dumb this sounds after you posted it. Yoga literally means "union", and in the next phrase you state that it is differentiating.

>>21890452
>being khv
>hitting girls

>>21890321
The left, and the right, are both just 2 weeks away from winning forever, and just 2 weeks away from losing forever. So you need to ACT NOW, and tell everybody you know to ACT NOW, or it will be TOO LATE to ACT NOW.
It is this perpetual merry-go round of ACT NOW-ing to prevent the apocalypse.

I wasn't really interested in her anyway but maybe if I had said that instead of my passive disinterest when dating it wouldn't have eft such a sour taste in my mouth when she called it quits

>>21889959
Depends on the college town. I live in one it’s most about what kind of people the campus attracts. If it’s Berkeley, CA you might want to get the heck out of dodge.

>>21890490
Actually I’ve been there before

I am a ying-yang of fear and boredom.

Boil the kettle. Scrape the 2 day old burnt Chicken skin off the Cast Iron Pan, why do I always burn Chicken drum sticks? Fill the pan with hot water, let it soak with some detergent. Lamb chops tonight, meat costs too fucking much. Open the fridge fast so the smell of all the used milk cartons I'm too lazy to deal with doesn't reach my nostrils. I'll do it tomorrow I tell myself, I won't. Scrub the pan, gas on, let the water burn off. Chops on, in oil, same as always, delicious.

Chads actually don't have kids, seriously go outside and look at the people who are pushing strollers. The men look like the most beaten down pathetic and meek specimens around. Do women only reward obsequiousness or what is going on?

>>21890691
Often you are looking at Post-Chads. There is a range within the category of Chad. A 25 yr old Chad in his absolute prime blasting through 3 tinder hookups a night is not the same thing as Chad who was 25 in 2006, got married at some point, had a kid, let himself go and entered a mid-life crisis.

Time is the ultimate Chad. It conquers all.

>>21890695

Chadrophy

>>21890691
Most people, even Chads, go through life kinda half-awake. Chads are either formed by accident, by circumstance (good looks, social connections that work for them, money), or (the least likely) made after years of hard work on themselves and/or good mentors. Outside of that I'm not really that surprised that many chads turn into what most people would call "beta cucks" over time. All that time fucking women and doing social stuff kind of turns off any introspection you would have had happen. Academics always like to stress studying but always like to gloss over the fact that some of the most intelligent people, inventive, and wise, spend an inordinate amount of time by themselves working on one specific problem. So I can 100% believe that these Chads can and are sleep walking into normalcy thinking that its normal and how life goes. But you are right in that most Chads will not settle, why settle when you can get the milk for free and you can pick whoever you want? They will end up with mating strategies close to the female mating strategy when it comes to selecting partners and if they wait around they have nothing to lose other than family and societal pressure to have kids.

I don't think I can be around her because its like looking into a mirror, and I don't know if I can face myself yet

Whoever posted Slugs of Love by Little Dragon a couple generals back, I listened to it and its not an awful song but I didn't like it. However I do like what this anon posted:
>>21889437

>>21890715
In Ancient Greece and Rome they though that mirrors were evil. Well, not evil but they promoted vanity so were only "suppose" to be used for utilitarian reasons, like looking to see if something is on your face. Depending on who you talked too and what philosophy school they followed they would even claim that minor preening before a social engagement or business meeting would be an act of vanity. With that being said, you should generally confront your fears. Unless your a girl, if your a girl iunno what advice I could give you because women seem to be so arbitrary these days that I doubt any of my advice would be useful.

What you really need to know is that I have been dishonest with you and sanctimonious with you for about as long as you've known me. I believe you do know this already, probably, on some level. Domineering too, I've been that also, apart from all the things I've done, such as rape you and cheat on you and torment and harass you.

I don't see beauty. I see the absence of flaws.

>>21888662
It’s just performance anxiety and it’s perfectly normal. I’m usually shit the first time I sleep with a new person. Pop some boner pills to help out and get good at eating pussy. You’re building it up too much in your mind.

>>21888245
I don't feel like dating anymore. My romantic life has been at its lowest point ever for the past year. I chose all of this, so why am I always thinking about m'y exes?

Fuck writing, I'ma start paintin'.

>>21890923
do calligraphy its the best of both worlds.

Are these threads basically just for sad boys to talk about how they're sad that they're not getting pussy?
Seems to be the majority of what is going on here. You guys OK?

As for me, I just took a massive, brutal shit after two weeks of constipation. I had to get a rubber glove and push it down the drain while flushing and repeat that some 3-4 times. The entire drain outtake was completely saturated with my colossal turd and I could only flush something like 20% per flush, had to break it down bit by bit with my hand.
First time I ever took a picture of my shit, but I deleted it again after seeing it, because stupidly, I didn't include anything for scale, so you couldn't really tell what a monumental feat of human exertion this turd was, but I'm telling you, it was the size of my forearm.
The very persistent anti-natalist sadfag poster does make me think about anti-natalism once in a while, but then I take a shit like that and realize that the pleasure of relief after taking such a shit will basically just always outrank all the sadness of his entire life in any utilitarian calculus that I'd want to accept. Sort of like the Nozickean cookie monster, but with turds instead.

>>21890994
It's a slippery slope... won't someone please think of the children....

What should people who hate themselves read or do?

>>21890994
Iunno why lament the past? Just be happy its in the past... I think the reason why we has so many sadposters is that school teaches only "academic stuff" aka what is on the standardized testing. How your suppose to live was up to the parents, and with the advent of TV, video games, and the internet the Boomers forsook their own obligations to their kids by working more or doing more stuff out of pleasure like sitting in front of a tv and vegging out. The Xers and Millennials are now doing that but way earlier and are shocked when their kids turn out retarded. Best thing I can come up with is once you have a kid you need to be attentive and active in their lives constantly or they will end up just self-imploding or repeating the cycle of neglect (I don't mean that in a legal sense but more in a "art of living" kind of way.). Parents not having a strong identity to pass to their Kids leaves the kids open to radical ideologies and potentially just ruining their lives. This is why philosophy on how to live a good life is practical and important. Its also why the Black community in America exploded first once the family broke down and why the White community in America is now exploding.

>>21888245
I'm nearly thirty, and I'd rather sleep than coom.

>>21888888
holy checked

>>21891041
They should talk to God about it. God loves them, God will love them. They should read Qur'an. That's my opinion. Or they could go to the Grand Canyon, sun-down. (or listen to Woody Guthrie) (that's Bob Dylans opinion, as far as I gather

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnWXunQhLXY))

(but I'd go with the Qur'an desu senpai)

i finna dab on deez niggas dat keep hollerin across the street

>>21891053
interesting read.

>>21891093
What if they’re prone to talking to God but coming out of it feeling like God doesn’t care or listen.

I have discovered the path to heaven.
"The kingdom of heaven is within you."
It is only a matter of time now.

P.s. If you what to know the secret God was a moral idealist, who demands absolute devotion to purity of heart. No sinning whatsoever. You must dedicate your life to service of man/the poor and give away all your wealth. Meditate constantly upon the love of God and you should be gifted His Spirit.
Walking in the steps of Jesus.

>>21891105
I'd keep trying, I think, God willing. And reading, and learning. It's good to learn about the Prophets, peace and blessings be upon them all; what they've gone through, who they were, what they did.

>>21891093
I'd argue he is a pretty convincing theologian. But who knows, really, lmao.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FYfALIiLsUo

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2U1SJorwK4
woah, praga khan really hits different post-pandemic

I'm drunk and I'm in love, which is like being double drunk, or being double in love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJ10NHdU11Y

I will never stop giggling at the word "teledildonics".

>>21891216
Dial 'D' for Dildo

Most people don't like thinking. Even smart people don't like it.
Most people just want to find the "correct" flowchart to run problems through. Smart people generally end up with more complex flowcharts, but are still stuck overtaxing heuristics beyond their usefulness because it is easier.

>>21891298
My time at university has very often made me overthink whether it wouldn't just be easier to have some manual handcrafting job. I don't get that people say that students are constantly partying and fucking. I see my girlfriend maybe once a week and I can't even go to the gym because I'm stuck for two months now (actually, all semester long) doing presentations and term papers... I'm on the final stretch of my last term paper now but sometimes I still lose the power. I want it to be over as soon as possible. I want to fucking enjoy life and I am already in some sort of mid life crisis, thinking that all I've done with my life so far is studying... Since elementary school, I've always been the A grade student. I am fucking DONE! I have a very good score so far but I actually don't even care about it. I actually am more worried about my lecturers and professors having a bad view on me if I hand in a shitty paper...

>>21891298
>most people don’t want to think
I don’t see anything wrong with this. It just puts more responsibility on people who can create thoughts and set trends. The people who “think for thmeselves” instead of discerning which ideas to follow tend to be psychotic conspiracy theorists.

>>21890428
I would rather drop acid then have sex.

>>21891420
I would rather drop acid then have sex.

I want to break up with my gf. I don't find her attractive anymore and her mannerisms annoy me. We don't agree on much either, but she is very caring and kind.

the birds outside of my window are emitting the agonized screeches that i’ll never be able to release

>>21891116
I’m a Christian, but I’ll take the advice as if we were the same.

>>21891053
I have a sense that things could be different for me if only I had been more restless and made different decisions, and that’s tough to accept because currently things are very hard to accept.

Where can I best find non-English books to download? It's relatively easy to find English books or books from other major languages, but if I'm looking for Greek books for example. Or are the piracy communities just too small to find much from there? I know that there technically are e-books of those books I'm looking for, so they must be somewhere, right?

Dostoevsky indirectly introduced me to cuckoldry, and it is the best thing that happened to me. It all started when the narrator in The Notes from Underground says he wouldn't slap someone back if he was slapped in public out of the blue for no reason. He talks about how he wouldn't take revenge. He says he would do something really awful thing and then go to some dark place in the city and think about it over and over again till he found pleasure in it.
I kept thinking about this for a week. Till this period, there was nothing sexual about it. I would just imagine hundreds of people pointing their fingers at me and laugh. It gave a weird sense of relief and freed me from fear of being judged.
This somehow became more sexual, and I fantasize about getting cucked all day long.

>>21891836
christ man stop watching porn

>>21888526
the decline feels steep enough to make what i once thought important seem trivial. i'm not a blackpiller or whathaveyou, but shit seems a bit fucked.

>>21891836
Well what are you waiting for, get a girlfriend so i can fuck her?

>>21890691
I've no idea why there is this insistence that everyone is a loser who hates their lives except for a mythical Chad, that not even the ones who use Chad as a category to understand the world seem to actually believe in as anything more than some platonic ideal without even a semblance of correlate in reality.

If you want the based and redpilled and enlightened fedora-tipping answer, T-levels plummet with fatherhood, presumably because high T makes you a terrible father to an infant or toddler.

If you want the common sense answer, having a baby of stroller age means you've likely haven't had more than 180 minutes of consecutive sleep for anywhere from 6-36 months.

>me listening to Sting alone so I can just enjoy it without fear of being called gay
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dOjFcx3GJHg

>>21891927
>But I mean the truth behind that one is that that riff is that I just actually came up with that motif as an exercise for myself, just as a warm-up exercise based on sixth chords. And it's like that takes inspiration from, kind of from Chopin-type chords, piano chords. I was just messing around with that, kind of like the way John McLaughlin would write chord sequences. He wasn't really articulating the third so much — it's much more about the sixth is what, like, tells you what it is. And so I was just having fun with that and what I think about it is when I hear rappers and an artist using that riff, I'm kind of smiling at myself, first of all thinking that unbeknownst to them they're actually playing classical music from Europe
Dominic Miller absolutely fucking dabbing on shitty sample-rappers with REAL WESTERN CIVILIZATION MUSIC

Leave me alone. I don't want to party, I don't want to get hoes, I don't want to get wasted, I don't want to smoke, I don't want to go out, I don't want to use Tinder, I don't want to hang out, I don't want to meet people, I don't want to go see anything, I don't want anything to do with anything involving the terms Chad, based, cringe, redpilled, sigma, grindset, shawty, baddie, Stacy, smash, plow, bone, turnt, et cetera, I don't want to be involved with fucking anyone and anything at all. I want to find the truth and nothing else.

>>21891927
shape of my DDDDDDIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK

You'd think with time breakups would become easier to handle but so far this hasn't been the case for me. Women can be quite heartless and retarded, I would like to put them all into a meat grinder.

>>21892056
I've been spared of breakups by never having any relationship.

>>21892056
stupid cunt didn't realize I'd give her the world if she'd stop being so scared

Dewr friends and family, I am leaving now. I am going to dematerialize. You will not be able to find my body; it will no longer exist in the way yours do. Don't be worried or sad; I am not dead or beyond reach - I have become immaterial, and if you call for me I can always hear you. You may not see me, but I am with you.
I am doing this because the answers to my questions can't be found in time and space. Eventually, when I find the answers I need, I may return.

I know you won't care but I miss you dearly.

>>21892161
Who?

LO! LISTEN WELL! YOU WILL DESPAIR! RIGHT NOW! DESPAIR NOW AND THENCEFORTH! GO ON AND DESPAIR RIGHT THIS INSTANT!

I want to speak what's on my chest but I feel like no one ever listens or cares. I will only vomit my brain if there's anyone here who actually gives a shit about what has my mind in a grip

Why are fat nerds wearing pic related always somehow turn out to be arrogant dickheads if they aren't already die-hard, condescending atheists? It's like their life sucks so much they have to cope by tricking themselves into thinking they are smarter than everyone else

>>21892282
write a journal and give time once a week to re-read what you wrote, problems solved.

>>21892284
>judging someone on what they wear
not cool anon, you should be better than them cause they do the exact same thing.

>>21892284
Its just a phase everyone goes through, some people see clothes as utilitarian others see it as a way of expressing themselves artistically.

>>21892324
fuck you are you trying to get me even more depressed?

>>21891818
>but if I'm looking for Greek books for example.
Modern greek? Libgen fiction.

>>21892340
No? Why would you tell someone all of your weaknesses so they can use it against you later if they wanted too?

>>21892345
Nah, they don't have that much actually. I was just checking out some rather recent publications and they don't have much. While I can find basically every English and many German books that were published last year or so, I can hardly find anything Greek.
But yes, I mean modern Greek. Maybe Greek piracy isn't that spread (except for downloads ofc).

Is it weird that I like to take my shirt of while shitting

>>21892284
Whats wrong with baggy jeans? I hate tight jeans. They suffocate my balls.

>>21891956
Why do you think you can't find truth in engaging with the world? What makes you think you'll find truth sitting in a dark room all day? Truth is all around you. Reality is immanent truth. Go out and see it

>>21892500
Seek therapy.

>>21892528
:(

>>21892500
no, that’s the advantage of an individual bathroom

>>21892500
It's the most normal thing. I get COMPLETELY naked when shitting.

I'm going through a difficult time. I hope to prevail and move on with my life.

One really does gain fundamental insight into the realities of our world when one bears a crucible.

I have an unshakeable conviction, however, that if we do our best, we will achieve excellence.

>>21892548
Why completely naked?

>>21892549
we're all gonna make it brah

>>21892635
Indeed, we will. God bless you and your family, anon.

Emily this is Justine, I know what you did with Mike last tuesday; the security cameras were on.
Don't turn up for work tomorrow and I won't ruin your life.

>>21888245
I'm going to create a dating app profile today, match with some 4/10 girl of questionable ethnicity, take her out to a fancy dinner, kiss her goodnight, visit the brothel on the way home, then never call her again. Lifes pretty good tbqh.

>>21892625
Feels better.

>>21892665
>visit the brothel on the way home
I've thought about doing this a few times but sex is so much more fulfilling when you make love. Very few better feelings in the world than nutting inside a girl you have passion for while making out with her.

>>21892670
Not even socks on?

>>21892329
I'm targeting an archetype, not nerds in general.
>>21892337
Still not relevant to the fact that they are mostly dickheads and feel obligated to seethe and make sure everyone knows they're the smartest one whenever someone is taking the lead in a group.
>>21892507
wear chinos, they're stylish AND comfortable you baka

berleezy is my favorite youtube let's player

>>21892697
I don't wear socks in the house in the first place, I walk around in slippers.

>>21892779
Do you have house slippers and bathroom slippers?

>>21892705
>chinos
Those look extremely gay. I'll stick with blue jeans

>>21892793
>blue jeans
this is extremely gay. blue jeans will make you fat and gay and you will develop a love for zip hoodies. I can smell your caveman odor from there and I'm 100% sure you look like Mark Zuckerberg IRL.

>>21892793
>>21892807
you should really look into chinos. I'm currently working at a hospital and everyone who is not an IT worker is wearing polos and chinos. this is what real adults wear

>>21892625
I also shit naked because I don't want microparticles of shit on my clothes. I also take a shower or use baby wipes if I can't take one after I wiped my ass.

>>21892807
I like zip hoodies, I just wish they made the hoods extra huge like a monk hood.

>>21892812
>ugly synthetic chinos
I'll stick to sweatpants, thanks.

My Chinese friend thinks Asians are oppressed in the west even though they're more successful than white people. How do I communicate this without losing a friend?

>>21892548
Based. Fully naked plus using a bidet afterwards is the only way to go.

>>21892837
you stop being friends with retards or your avoid the subject completely

>>21892837
Tell him hate crimes don't real. Red pill him about how you would be as successful if you were born in Rwanda as a Tutsi during the genocide because your position in society is definitely not based on your circumstances of birth.

>>21892837
He is probably a pinkie so I wouldn't bother and if he is a pinkie then everything you've told him is being logged and tracked.

I have some quality of life questions:

Why is the bidet almost nonexistent in America?

Why is circumcision still considered a valid medical procedure for the average infant?

Why have Westernized Muslims not yet become sexually liberated in their self-expression and artistic endeavors?

>>21892865
>Why is the bidet almost nonexistent in America?
because americans are nasty
>Why is circumcision still considered a valid medical procedure for the average infant?
because it prevents the apparition of foreskin diseases and prevents people from being nasty pigs
>Why have Westernized Muslims not yet become sexually liberated in their self-expression and artistic endeavors?
because they have seen how "sexually liberated" people in the west fare, and that is not an enviable position. westerners really do think their ways of life are better when they sport the highest divorce, depression and suicide rates in the whole world. no one fetchisizes and envies mental illnesses like you do.

>>21892865
>Why is the bidet almost nonexistent in America?
money
>Why is circumcision still considered a valid medical procedure for the average infant?
it isn't anymore and it isn't government funded but the Eugenics movement in the 60s or 80s teamed up with the Christian Front and basically solidified it as a traditional American practice if your a Christian.
>Why have Westernized Muslims not yet become sexually liberated in their self-expression and artistic endeavors?
Some are some aren't, really depends on the person and the family. I've seen my fair share of arab tits and/or girls without hijabs one day then girls in traditional muslim garb when their family is visiting them or they are gong to the Mosque.

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>>21892500
I DON'T LIKE THIS THING

AND HERE'S WHAT I'M DOING WITH IT

>>21892865
Majority of american born muslims support gay marriage

>>21892807
Blue jeans are chad and masculine. I only wear flannel overshirts with them. You are an urban dwelling homosexual and should seppeku immediately

>>21892812
>real adults
You mean urban dwelling metro sexuals