/lit/ - Literature

>>20969962
Things are looking up.

reply to me with sneed or else

>>20969979
or else ?

i'm going to quit eating dollar store burritos after the last one in the freezer.

>>20969962
suffer and perish

Im going to be a 30 year old wizard in a few days.

>>20970160
Do you have some sort of handicap or something?
How do you reach 30 without at least fucking a whore

>>20970157
I shan't

>>20970160
Just talk to some girls and one will no doubt fuck you soon enough. They’re easy and horny, all they need is some attention and before you know it you’re getting your ass eaten (even though she has a simp bf).

Where are you on this chart /lit/?

>>20970243
Squinting

>>20970243
lowest of the low

>>20970243
How does a slime mould have autism?

>>20970278
I assume the labels were added by some ESL

are there any good /lit/ discords? I joined one once but left because it had too many gays in it.

another day without the
>Cypria
>Aethiopis
>Little Iliad
>Iliupersis
>Nostoi
>Telegony

The thread got deleted but this was a response I had to an anon who asked where/from which thinkers does modern leftist ideology have its roots:

I think it starts with some of the Stoics, whose work was later repurposed by existentialists like Simone de Beauvoir and postmodernists like Foucault.

Existentialism basically says that you are not a human being just because you exist as a member of the species, you must BECOME a human being through your active participation in existence. The Stoics (as I understand) believed that we were ripped from the divine, briefly imprisoned in earthly bodies to achieve temperance and gain self-control, and returned back to the God-Soul of the cosmos upon the release of death. Because this existentialism considers the body as part of the experience, I think it allows for material realities like biology etc. to have their place.

But existentialists like de Beauvoir are atheists, so their conclusion is different. You are not a God-given soul in a God-given body, you are just an evolutionary accident of consciousness trapped in a biological mass. There is no cosmic human nature that we all share as human beings, only a human *condition*, a constant tension between transcendence - our need to create ourselves in order to achieve true humanity - and immanence - the biological reality of our fleshy prisons, which we as consciousnesses are still cruelly subservient to. Be Beauvoir says we must invent our own meanings to reach transcendence. We are not created, we must create ourselves, and failure to do this, to lapse into immanence, is a moral failing.

I think this is where postmodernism - poorly defined (I've yet to read Foucault himself so take this with a grain of salt) as a skepticism towards metanarratives as fictions to be deconstructed - comes in: what is meaning, anyway? What is creativity? Because de Beauvoir started the discussion by effectively separating the mind from the body while simultaneously rejecting the metanarrative of religion, postmodernism, with its attitude of deconstruction, compliments it well. Meaning is to be discovered by deconstructing the notion of meaning. Identity is to be discovered by deconstructing the notion of identity. Reality itself (remember you are just a consciousness trapped in a body), truth, creativity, hierarchies, science, men, women, etc. etc., destroy these and remake yourself from the pieces. The utopia is already here, buried somewhere in the marble: we just have to chip, chip, chip away until we find it.

Or something like that. I'm a retard too so read the Stoics, the existentialists and the postmodernists to find out for yourself.

>>20970219
why not though

>>20970337
>leftist thought starts with stoics

>>20970337
Leftist thought starts with Thersites. It's about being a little bitch seething and whining about everything because you're too scared of life, too weak to do anything, and too cowardly to kill yourself.

the world is in decay, there is no progress anymore, there is no escaping doom and extintion this time
it feels good

Thinking of hiring a hooker

No use singular 'they'! Singular they bad!

>>20970317
Im down to make one then can just merge if we find another heterosexual one

>>20970337
Leftism is trying to get free of institutional coercion and repression. You can get pedantic and say it's young men trying to get free of their parents, but as a political thing it IS the historically documented tendency of people who flee from states or any other early civilizational project. The natural propensity to wander as the ancestors did. You see it in the Epic of Gilgamesh. His Tarzan hippie friend Enkidu has to be lured in by the trapping of the then modern state, a prostitute. But it doesn't work for everyone and history is full of tales of the "barbarians" and nomads that resist empires and other sedentary life.
Flash forward to nowadays and we have the more genuine anarchist strains of socialism trending to "primitivism" and the statist Marxist-Leninist sorts failing to offer anything so different or revolutionary from the modern western version of the same thing. It looks about to collapse fairly soon. Good riddance. "Leftism" aches for freedom and sanity. "Leftism" was the most traditional of them all

>>20970392
>another retard who doesn't know there are 2 axes on the political axis

>>20970382
Do it and drop link here

>>20970403
The general "right" are always pro-institution. They're stunted by states babying them or religions that mold their spirituality. They need father figures to tell them whaat to do. They do have a gentler version that isn't quite so bad, and that's the family loving sort. They want their family close by. It defines them. When you find one of those that also distrusts the state and a church you have a rather admirable sort of right-winger. But on the whole it is the "right" that are the soldiers for "civilization" and social confinement and coddling.

>>20970438
>The general "right" are always pro-institution.
Bro you're just retarded.

>>20970438
Sneed

>>20969962
i love cuckolding so i get really close to wymen w boyfriends and listen to them about how good they fuck em.
in their head im just a beta friend but in my mind we in a romantic nonsexual relationship where she cucks me

>>20970485
You seem like a good person to ask, where do i start with Marx?

>>20970433

https://discord.gg/dMCjHsJ6

>>20970493
kek

>>20967983
Hey femanon I'm also a mid 20s loser. Lets get married

>>20970179
Im very likely an autistic person. Things like flirting or courting completely flies over my head.
>>20970239
I have nothing to say to them nor I have any achievements to brag.

The prevalence of stories that go like "I got terminally ill and while dying my wife/husband cheated on me" is really depressing.

>>20970591
Humans are scum.

>>20969962
I want a smooth fat girl :/

I'm happy, and I enjoy my life. I used to be sad when I was a nihilistic teenager.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xDFXI7cmcA

I stay at home for long periods of time, thinking to myself "Maybe I should go outside and see others." And so I go outside, and the feeling returns to me with great intensity: Oh how I loathe othet people and wish I was at home!

>>20970649
You must be over 18 to post here

Uhh... why did the delivery person stop at an apartment complex on the way to bring my food?

>>20970571
I don't date losers sorry

>>20970658
gay reply

I should've spend the last 3 years working for the government, or some big corporation.

>>20970752
yeah i was living a slacker life scraping by on part time gigs, but after i finally took a full time job i'm like man if i had done this a decade ago i'd have a hella swole 401k rn. my roth still lookin' nice, but now i have two retirement vehicles. now i'm lookin' around see who wanna give me a mortgage to cop a comfy lil' condo.

>>20970672
To bring someone else their food dummy

>>20970672
so his homies could nut in it

>>20969962
I want to start a literature club at my university, what should I put on the poster so that women don't show up?

>>20970649
Same, I think that I want friends and then I listen to someone my age form a sentence and decide I hate people. I only get along with my professors and people 10-20 years older

>>20970767
You're probably right. I'm dumb and forgot they can do multiple orders because they've never done that for me before (probably because I ordered McDonald's for the first time which probably has constant orders).

It's upsetting that the
>i'm a tranny btw
first posts died down. They were superior to "A thread died for this" (lame and boring; no one cares about threads dying) and "Just read the book" variations

>>20970821
That's transphobic.

>>20970493
the jewish question and the german ideology (unironically the anon youre replying to)

If I hold hand with nothing
It means nothing is holding my hand
But if the concept of nothing is something
Doesn't it mean that the concept of nothing can be everything I want it to be?
What if the concept of nothing was a cute 22 year-old blonde girl called Mallory? Would it then mean that Mallory is holding my hand at the moment I'm writing this?
Would it then mean I'm not alone anymore?
What does Mallory likes in life?
How is she holding on?

>>20970448
No, you just have inclinations of the general left.
They're just words and what I was describing has been going on since before the Bronze Age. Nothing to be afraid of.

>>20970609
Stop fetishizing girls and get to know one.

i'm suddenly quite depressed. i think it's cuz i saw a self-published author shilling her book at a random street fair today. not that i want to be an author, but i do try to work on tech side projects which are ultimately just as pointless and futile as self-publishing a book.

I've prayed for a sign, and I've received nothing. I'm a fool to have believed.

it seems like a lot of drug dealers are just sad second hand panhandlers. there are couple meth heads who work the intersection in my neighborhood begging for money. they when they get some money, they go and buy some meth from the guy who loiters on the corner regularly to sell to them. this guy can't be getting rich since all the revenue is just coming from panhandling cars stopped at a light and on top of that his product has some wholesale cost. the cops usually don't do anything to those guys, but every couple years they swoop down and pinch everybody. so this guy is getting little bits of begged change every day and then after few years will end up in prison for twice as many years. why bother? are people higher up in the distribution forcing him to do it somehow? it seems like he has a worse deal that the users who at least get to spend the day tweaking.

>>20970767
>singular they
How can you call anyone else dumb

>>20967962
Freaked out femanon. Been there done that. Just relax. Don't be too hard on yourself. As we age we mellow out. Take your time learning the stuff you love and eventually pick up and head in that direction.

Hey, general advice for everyone too I guess.

>>20970337
none of this has anything to do with leftism. stop being retarded and read marx, lenin, etc

>>20971031
Femanon, don't listen to this guy. Lets go to vegas, get a shotgun wedding, and pop out lots of babies while you're still able to

>>20970160
It's not that special. I've had a plethora of pussy and lovers and it's genuinely not worth the hassle. I'm 26 and have been a volcel for the past 4 years. It's nowhere near gratifying enough to justify the immense time and energy that's required of you, there will always be strings and they are stringy like you wouldn't believe.

>>20971035
>stop being retarded
>read marx, lenin, etc
Which one?????

Why should I decide to struggle to get a chance of developing my aptitudes when rich kids are born into wealth and have all the time in the world to develop theirs? Why should I even choose to exists knowing that I was born on the losing side?
I'll have to spend years toiling, hating it, wasting time on stupid shit, dealing with stupid shit of stupid people while rich kids are effortlessly winning all thought-out their lives? They are loved, they have all the comforts, they will be put in history as great artists, musicians, entrepreneurs just by the virtue of having been born into wealth. Most artists, in a general sense, especially musicians, are rich kids who never had to waste time at a job. Most successful people are a result of success, they were born into it, while I was born to toil away my years for some fucking droplets of time that I can dedicate to my passions. Why shouldn't I kill myself knowing that I will never achieve my full potential simply because of my starting conditions? If there's nothing – oh well who cares, the "I" certainly won't lol, save myself some suffering. If I'm stuck in the cycle of rebirth, why don't I just end it here and give it another try? If such thing as a "soul" exists, it would make sense for it to retain its qualities but not its memories upon death. A new cycle will start and maybe this time I'll get lucky. I don't consider heaven and hell as anything more than the constructs born out of human fear, so fuck em.

>>20970334
Have you checked the local library?

>>20971037
That could be an option she's into. I dunno.
No need to be rude.

I'm tired, it's over
what's wrong with me? what did I do to deserve this? who did I do wrong to? what crimes did I commit? fuck this, fuck all of this, I feel guilty and I don't even know what the hell I did

Zoomers are the most castrated, conformist, piety signalling, no balls, womanly, soft, moralfaggot generation in history.
These are the people who will be influencing society.
A generation of effeminate, sentimental, soulless, boring, pathetic faggots.
https://youtu.be/buOQT0yroxA
https://youtu.be/wKcNRHU1N6E
https://youtu.be/rmNk2CfYvWA

>>20971075
A punishment without a crime, many such cases. Personally, makes me feel like I'm entitled to a crime, too bad I don't actually want to commit any.
It all comes from the question of the origin of evil, and fuck whoever created it. Be it lonely gods in their pursuit to distill a partner for themselves through suffering or jester gods who enjoy watching you suffer, like sadists playing a video game, fuck gods, man, they are having a laugh for sure. Makes me wonder sometimes why I should choose to provide them with entertainment, too bad all and everything that I do will bring it to them. If you choose to kill yourself they'll surely find it funny, after all, they've been pushing you to it for all this time. Choose to persevere? Imagine how much they'll enjoy playing with you while struggle to find your "happiness". The entire thing is so stupid, and there is nothing I can do to fuck them over. So stupid. I hope those cowards will at least let me meet them after I die so I could kick the shit out them, before heading to hell, or whatever place they choose to send me to, its whatever, life itself is no different from hell, constant suffering, why should I be afraid of endless torture, people eventually get used to anything. Even pain inflicted for ages will eventually make you numb to it. The entire concept of hell if stupid anyway, those fuckers probably got something we can't twist our stupid monkey brain around. It is all so stupid. Fuck them. GOD, I hate the creators of all THIS STUPID SHIT.

>>20971096
You found a living meme, what a retard (yes, you too)

>>20970239
Why would I want my ass eaten? I just want to pound those fun bags

>>20971192
ya some chick poked my taint with her finger while giving me head and even though i thought i as already at full hardness i got even harder that i thought possible but it was still kind of awkward like what the hell is she doing and where the hell did she learn that. she did say she had taken intro to human sexuality last semester so maybe that was it.

none of u pseuds are gonna talk about that dude who beat magnus carlsen last week to great controversy?

>>20971212
Boring e-celeb gossip?

>>20970705
You enjoy getting pounded by 6' 5" CEO Bodybuilders I can tell

>>20970773
"Penis required"

>>20971042
I've had six or seven exes and its just too much. The cheating, the backstabbing, I can't take it

>>20971212
Yeah idk hans is a psycho jew kid so from the start i dont trust him
He screams and swears like a lunatic on twitch
He was seething in the interview
The kid is messed up
He even admitted to cheating online several times
But
Carlsen is still silent so its all still just a speculation

>>20971096
You're describing millennials though.

>>20971277
the fag in the videos is a zoomer

>>20971212
Who beat who about what?

>>20970894
>Stop fetishizing girls and get to know one

I'm too embarrassed to be seen associating with one :/ but ever since einhit my 30s I find smooth fatties with good faces so hot

>>20971292

But millennials are far more worthy of that anon's vitriol than zoomers. Remember, millennials coined the word "adulting" for a reason.

>>20971295
the sinquefield cup bro

Just had a waking dream in front of the screen.
Looking into a seemingly fallow pool lit up white what I thought was the sky but turned out to not be reflection at all. A short drop to a sunlit meadow. Leaning in at it, thinking a little film of water later and I could be there... just then I heard a voice say "Don't do it. That's the long drop" The long drop meaning the eternity of death.

The long drop. Ha

>>20971340
>fallow
SHAllow

smoking weed and watching farming videos on youtube
https://youtu.be/hBcuXEQ-BQ8
https://youtu.be/Yu_EB__3WTA
https://youtu.be/FzSfasCsyxM

>>20969979
sneed please don't sneed sneed sneed

>>20971461
What marklar

>>20971425
weed's legal in my state but i don't think there's a 24 hour weed store in my area otherwise i would blaze some trees and no i'm not buying weed from some guy who also sells meth and fentanyl in a park somewhere

>>20969962
Last night I had a really nice dream of a girlfriend I had in 2018. I was completely over her of course, but it was the kind of thing where it was so vivid, waking up was like breaking up all over again.
It was nice, not anything sexual. I felt the tenderness of affection again, she was the last girl I had feelings for. She's also really attractive, I made the mistake of checking out her instagram again to really remind myself of how lonely I am.

>>20970365
Singular they has been around since Shakespeare.
Stop letting your (rightful) disgust of trannies and alt-genders impact your use of English language.
But yeah all those incidents are better served with another word

>>20971303
Bro stop posting this in every thread. I saw you shitting up fph on fit too.

>>20971494
would you not smoke weed if it was illegal in your state?

>>20971583
i have in the past but at this point i just don't care enough. like if alcohol was suddenly illegal and i had to go to some mob run speak easy to drink a beer, i'd just do something else.

>>20971307
I don't associate with my own generation because of their "redditisms"

The best gen to hang out with is Gen X, hands down

>>20971096
Just murder them

if everyone's just going to be an asshole to me all the fucking time then maybe I should stop trying to have my own fun and start ruining theirs. They seem to enjoy it, why shouldn't I?

screw it. New life goal: drive as many people to suicide as possible. If the world's going to try to destroy me, I'll destroy it back

>>20971566
They're so fucking hot though and all that's on my mind :/

i think i'm going to reinstall counterstrike i just want to do something fun for once

I don't get it. I don't get why the world keeps punishing me just for trying. I'm not trying to hurt people. I'm not trying to ruin other people's experiences. I just want to create things, and instead of getting reward for my effort and my creativity I get abused and mocked and shit on. What does it always come back to this Why is everyone else treated better than I am?

>>20971904
you probably made cringe. try creating something that doesn't suck.

>>20971908
why though? what reason should I have to try? We have this myth throughout society that things get better if you put in the effort. If you practice the things important to you, even when they bring you suffering, you improve and will suffer less. My experience has been the opposite though. The more I try the more regret having made the effort and the worse I feel.

I hate this world. I hate what it puts me through. I hate the people who make it unlivable. I hate that I'm just as bad, that i always manage to disappoint myself and that each attempt to achieve something accomplishes a little less than the attempt before it, even though doing it took twice as much effort as the last time. I hate that the things that used to give me pleasure have become hollow, boring and downright depressing. I hate that nobody understands my problems and that nobody has any answers. I hate that the answers I seek in myself don't lead me anywhere. It's just one bad lead after another until I've given up hope

i want to kill myself. I've wanted to kill myself for years and yet I hold back because there's someone I don't want to hurt. Every day my life gets worse and still I hold on. For what I don't know

>>20971923
Idk dude, if this feels post is the worst you can imagine happening in your life, you probably lack imagination to think of anything not cringe. Siding with >>20971908 in your personal blog post

>>20971758
what happened?

>>20971931
this is literally the place to post what's on your mind you fucking cunt!

>>20971938
Yeah and I'm thinking you're cringeworthy

>>20971056
Even if you truly believed in rebirth, you'd have been blind all the same.
Who cares about being rich or getting the best education? Possessions in the material world are nothing. Rich people might have a lot of money but they're spiritually and morally dead. They won't ever be happy because their core values are centered around money and possessions (that they will inevitably lose one day). Being poor is a blessing because we can just live and not care about the material world aside from basic necessities. You don't need a porshe to be proud of something, you don't need to go to expensive parties to have fun... you don't need any of that shit. Working sucks but helping people by working an honest job holds meaning. Just uninstall instagram and live a normal life.

I really hope it's not true that you are by 25 who you're always going to be, but I've not seen or heard of anyone remarkable who wasn't on the path already by 25.

>>20970219
i shart

I'm afraid my brother will kill himself.

spent my day doing degenerate things and I regret it all, and for the most part, i didn't even enjoy it much. now its bed time and I'm going to be up all night thinking about literature and God and all sorts of nice things and regretting that i didn't just sit down and read all day

>>20969962
Things are looking up.

>>20971958
What a weird statement. I'm 23 now. I am entirely adifferent person from who I was at 18. Maybe at 30 Ill be transformed just as much. Why not?

>>20972013
Lol both of my brothers have tried. One of them tried twice and the other countless times. Its a miracle the second one is still alive lmao

Bros Im such a wreck bros

Bros

Damn how the fuck do you have time for anything with a 9-5 job? Especially if you take in to account commuting back and forth to your home and office?

I'M OUT OF FUCKING ALCOHOL FUCK AAAAAAAA

>>20972320
I work 13 hour days, 14 with commutes.

I'm 28 and never worked a day in my life, but I live in my parents' basement.

>>20972358
Youre living the good life bro

>>20972339
Just buy more.

>>20972348
So what the fuck do you do? Besides shitposting on 4chan.

>>20969962
Talking to a girl a couple of years older (36, I'm 33). And she is literally boomer tier with technology. As in doesn't know how to use Netflix or streaming services (I don't believe in using this, ive torrented since highschool) but literally pays for our equivalent of cable tv. And records and watches movies/shows she's interested in and watches them later in the week

Am I being absurd for feeling very turned off by this? I just find it so strange especially for someone her age.

>>20970243
Pretending this is on an x y axis with values 0-10: x 5, y 0.

I'm looking for a quote. I'm not sure if it was from the start of a movie or something else.
All I know is it was something about revolution being a human right. Or revolution being the most important human right. Something along those lines.
Any /lit/ bros here that could help me out?

I love going to the gym w my little brother!

>>20971953
I'm afraid you didn't catch my drift, anon.
I've never mention in my post that I give material things a priority over spiritual, or that I care at all about "education", the point is that, despite the stereotype of a "rich kid" you are describing, that is of course a stereotype for a reason, many of the "rich kids", I find, are actually closer to regular young men and women, who are usually just much more intelligent and talented than people of a lower class – it's just a law of nature, progress accumulates.
> They won't ever be happy because their core values are centered around money and possessions
They don't have to worry about struggling for possessions of any kind, so they don't give them any meaning and pursue their aptitudes without a care for what they are going to eat the next day.
Any time you open a wikipedia page of some prominent painter, writer, musician, whatever, unironically check their "early life" section. You'll most of the time find that their father was some high ranking member of society and their mother was from an influential family(this is especially true of all artists until 19-20th century), if not, then most of the time they at least had a functioning family – something that was always rare, but much more so in out time.
(Think of ANY "great" person right now and look up their biography, you might find exceptions, but most likely you'll find that their early life had all the things I've described above and other things that ensure success in one's life)
So my original question could be reinterpreted as:
Why should I care about struggling to develop my talents if, having been born into a place/family that didn't have an idea about what "progress" is, I can hardly ever achieve – in any timeframe that actually matters – the great things I otherwise strive for, simply because of a chance. You could make a point about becoming a parent for the next generation who I, knowing the importance of progress, could raise to be that great person I aspire to be, but, judge me as you may, I'm not interested in manifesting my will through the lives of others, I'd rather be great myself, and because I don't have any conditions for that I will have to endure all this stupid anguish of mundane toil, SIMPLY BECAUSE OF A CHANCE! Obviously this thought alone isn't enough for me to choose to end things, but it plays its role, a significant one.

And I'm sorry, I won't address the rest of your post:
> luxury
> honest job holds meaning
> instagram
as it just seems like either cope or implications of implications I never made or intended.

>>20972817
I love going to the brothel with my big dick!

if ants were conscious, can you imagine any single one truly conceives of how useless they are on their own as an individual, in contrast to all of ant-society? do you really think you can conceive how little you matter?

3 days
the dishes pile up
dust on my floor
my coffee is cold
lightgrey clouds cover the sky
Life is a prison, and we are all here to serve our time

>>20969962
So the Kiwifarms got nuked. This sets a really fucked up precedent. I wasn't willing to admit it before, but free speech is dead.

Is there any trick or technique to improve reading comprehension so you're actually retaining the information you're reading instead of just glazing over it?

>>20969962
Is pair bonding real? I've been telling my fwb that I love her and when on mushrooms I keep making these goofy professions of love to her which she's finding so funny. Like now I always kiss her on the palms and told her how I'm never going to do that to another girl and how palm kisses are just for her. She says cos she was my first that I'm pair bonded to her and that im never going to feel this again with another girl and that she basically owns me and wants to teach me sex. Is this true lol? I'm fucking scared but it's so fun. I can't even end things with her, she just laughs at me when I try and accuses me of lying and not meaning it which I always end up admitting is true then next minute we are messing around lol

The sun is out
It's not supposed to be
Call the police

>>20973186
Your brains are rotted from drugs.

>>20973186
Yes it's real. You already posted this before and you were already told it's a huge mistake to get involved with a manipulative slut for your first time.

>>20973195
I hope it's not american police, I don't want all life on Earth to cease just because police shot the sun.

I think alcohol fucked up my ability to connect with other people. Not that there was a whole lot of it to begin with.

I recently began visiting a mental health clinic but after just those few days alone it is becoming more and more apparent that my life is on a trajectory that will end in suicide. There's no doubt in my mind that I'll end my life at 30 years of age at the latest. Hopefully sooner. I hate this existence and while conversations with a therapist are cathartic and bring relief, they offer no cure for my malaise. I am nobody. Save for my 7 remaining family members, nobody will miss me or even know that I am gone. What is there to live for? I do not know.

Our only real motivations are sex and survival. Every other desire basically comes from delusions about fantasy worlds, delusions about what kind of pleasure you will achieve, like the food never tastes as good as the fatass thinks it will before he succumbs to the desire. If you stop believing in delusional worlds where the porn will somehow satisfy you and masturbating will actually be worth it, then the only motivations that will be left are sex and survival. You don't even need the "power process" bullshit, if your survival is secure you can basically have total contentedness provided you stop torturing yourself with fantasies. REAL sex is probably the only desire that isn't for a fantasy, i.e. it is as satisfying as you imagine. Even if heroin or whatever feels better than sex, you will never be satisfied by it.

I was called a leftoid, a rightoid, a westoid, why is everyone so mean to me?

>>20972729
Dazai in The Setting Sun?
>This I want to believe implicitly: Man was made for love and revolution.

>>20973366
because you're a leftoid retard. kys tranny

>>20973402
What makes me a leftoid?

corn meal is so delicious

bust size

>>20973355
Are you 15 years old and just found out about Schopenhauer?

>>20973408
you complain about people being mean instead of taking it like a man

>>20973429
No, what i said has nothing to do with pessimism, which is retarded.

>>20973433
>taking it like a man
That sounds gay. So it's true fascists are homosexuals.

On the shoulders of an empire
Another spoke on the hub
Reveling in the righteous fire
Beloved by God and Beelzebub

>>20973434
What you described is literally Schopenhauer's idea of the will to life. If you associate Schopenhauer solely with pessimism you clearly lack entry level knowledge of philosophy, once again proving that /wwoym/ is filled with people who don't even care about anything related to literature and just come to this board to whine about their pathetic lives.
Please read the entire western canon before posting newfag

>>20973451
i stopped reading philosophy after Kant because he gave me the tools to solve metaphysics so i apologize for my ignorance.

>>20973460
Yeah? What's your metaphysics?

>>20973466
i posted it multiple times on this board but people are too lazy to read it even though it's only about 5,000 words. you guys are basically bugmen each infected with his own mind virus, be it from Nietzsche, Plato, Marx, or whatever. you aren't ready to receive the secret knowledge even though it is basic common sense. In fact, you already know my entire metaphysics from instinct, you just don't realize it. My metaphysics is not actually a structure that builds anything, I merely point out what is already there, the only thing stopping you from arriving at truth is thinking there is something there which isn't. In fact, since my metaphysics is true, it describes the world, and is therefore in practice everywhere and by every human automatically. you are already practicing my metaphysics just be reading my post. So I will just have to keep my wisdom to myself.

>>20973482
Yeah you're right I got bored by the second sentence. You sound like a self-indulgent narcissist

>>20972127
You are still growing into adulthood at 23 but you won't be at 33.

>>20971958
>I've not seen or heard of anyone remarkable who wasn't on the path already by 25.
Then you're ignorant

>>20973523
>You sound like a self-indulgent narcissist
I myself accomplished nothing since it is the belief in accomplishment that prevents you from realizing the truth.

>>20973539
>I myself accomplished nothing
No shit

When I Chuck I become fuck.
Fuck is the seed from which I sneed.
https://youtu.be/njD-3OgB-vQ

Waking up without a hangover is unironically doing wonders for my creativity.
Sam Adams non alcoholic IPA is a very tasty and fun alternative. Fuck hangovers frfr.

I looked at the morning window for far too long and now I am blind.

>>20973591
Oh Mole. Put your sunglasses on and come out of your hole

>>20972358
based

Man sociology can be a drag sometimes but I told myself I'd be committed until the most recent text

>>20969962
>trying to read a chinese novel
>everyone has a dozen fucking names that they use interchangeably

>>20970243
God is a slime mold

>>20973798
sociology seems cool in theory but the lack of rigor and blatant leftism of it make it too frustrating to take seriously now. sometimes people end up poor for reasons that are not a conspiracy by rich guys, but you wouldn't know that from any of the sociology textbooks i've seen assigned to to people in intro classes.

Oh god I just woke up from a nice dream in which Audrey Hepburn sang me a cute song and sat on my lap and talked to me about various things including how she wanted to help me better myself. I dont think I will ever emotionally recover from this one.

something in my diet has been giving me loose stools and i can't figure out what it is. i think it might be these organic muffins at work. they use real sugar and probably some kind of alternative theoretically healthy ingredients compared to mass produced shit but that in practice is making my ass spray fecal matter.

>>20973939
Lucky you. I have the opposite problem. It feels like I've been shitting rocks for weeks, and it fucking hurts.

>>20970958
>every couple years
My only question is, why haven't you left said neighborhood yet?
I understand if you don't have any family living with you, and you have the means to protect yourself. The rent is probably cheap.

>>20973963
i found eating a some cashews every day helps with that also reduced my fatigue idk why but i was surprised.

>>20973995
i'll try that, thanks

>>20973987
meth heads don't bother the locals, they just panhandle the cars stopped at the light. likewise the drug dealers only shoot each other and even that is rare. the place is getting gentrified fast too. there are construction noises from every direction as more luxury rentals block out the sky which i actually find kind of comfy like being in some cramped old european city back in the day rather than some sprawling american metropolis.

I only heard her story when she died. She and her husband were like royalty in their small town because they had a big boat. The boat sank and he drowned. She became a destitute single mother with tuberculosis, a dependent of the state. My grandfather grew up in projects.
https://youtu.be/O5b7tgkdFH0

Tomorrow will be
sculpting of flesh and bone.
Today I shitpost

>>20973932
I tend to stick to politically neutral sociology but C. Wright Mills is alright for a lefty

>>20974132
i don't mean any "founders of discursivity" level dudes just like those shitty generic sociology 101 textbooks that are written by a committee.

>>20971096
Why do people act
that diversity hiring
is just a big spook?

>>20971096
They look jewish

>>20974051
Why do people fetishize gentrification?

>>20971096
>click on the link
>recommends books
Why do faggots do this? Even reading charts I see posted, I doubt most of the people there actually read the books.
Then this dude is saying that you got to read a bunch of books exploring the complicated socioeconomic structures of black people. WHY can't you just say what is in those books: I'm not gonna go read 300 pages on a topic I do not give a shit about

>>20974151
Oh yeah well I read specific authors

>>20971056
I've struggled with this too Anon. I've come to the conclusion that if you're not rich, you need to be willing to die for your art. This means that you need to be willing to be homeless so you can focus on reading, and then writing. The nice thing about being a writer is that it requires so little in terms of materials, but if you want to be more than that it's really the same. Freedom requires destitution, on our part. If you aren't willing to do that, then I'm not sure what to tell you. Is it fair? Who cares.

Cormac McCarthy spent his life in destitution. He wrote for two hours every day.

>>20971566
A fellow /fit/ man
who educates his mental.
A toast to us both

>>20974171
>fetishize gentrification
Anon you're not on Twitter

>>20971904
Who is abusing and mocking you?

>>20974171
not everyone wants to live in a shithole

>>20974171
because people who actually have educations and jobs replace people who waste around all day using and selling drugs? because people with grown up cars that aren't loud as hell replace childish hooptie rides with ear splitting stereos? because the food desert of hohos and sugary drink gets replaced by fresh fruit and vegetables?

>>20974187
Twitter users are a bigger plague on this board than redditors

>>20974249
i dont think there is a difference at this point

>>20974260
Redditors think puns are funny and Twitterfags think negro lingo is cool.

I was writing a short story about a man that changes the world with questionable means. Mostly as an exercise with utilizing themes. And it's alright I guess but I've lost interest. I'm still trying to find what it is I really want to write about. I have some leads on other ideas so I'll try those out.

>>20974268
That describes 4nonymous to a T

>>20974280
Newfag

>>20974287
Been here long enough to know it’s true, Newcuck

>The first is death’s irreversibility. Once your body is dead, it cannot ever be alive again. Kids under 3 don’t understand this idea; they’ll talk about dead people as if they went on a trip or took a nap, or will hold open the possibility that dead things can come back to life with the help of water, food, medicine, or magic. Children begin to grasp death’s finality around age 4. In one typical study, researchers found that 10 percent of 3-year-olds understand irreversibility, compared with 58 percent of 4-year-olds.

>The other two aspects of death are learned a bit later, usually between age 5 and 7. One, dubbed ‘nonfunctionality’, is the idea that a dead body can no longer do things that a living body can do. Before this is grasped, kids will affirmatively answer questions like, Can a dead person feel? or If someone died, could he still eat? Can he move? Can he dream?

>Then there’s death’s most befuddling attribute, at least for me: its universality. Every living thing dies, every plant, every animal, every person. Each one of us will someday expire. Interestingly, before children learn this, many believe that there are certain groups of people who are protected from death, like teachers, parents, and themselves. “Without a doubt, most children understand that some people die before they understand that they themselves will die,” the review authors write. And even children who understand that they will one day perish “have a tendency to say that their death will occur only in the remote future when they get old.”

>>20974378
Coming to terms with death sucks. Fucking Adam just had to put that on us.

>>20974397
Well Christ came and undid that if you didn't get the NT memo

>>20974397
>>20974411
What the fuck are you talking about? You believe in that garden of Eden shit and you haven’t come to terms with death.

>>20974411
Yeah I know, but the very tangible reality that I am going to die kind of overwhelms my far off hope that Jesus will bring me back. Even worse still I cant even feel that tiny shred of hope for just about everyone i know because all of them are atheists

>>20974417
Sucks for y'all

What is actually a depression? Is it even curable?

>>20974517
Economic or your mood?

I'm going to kill myself soon

>>20974527
Mood one. Is it because the lack of faith?

>>20974665
Bingo

I wonder if Luther, Calvin, Knox, etc. are all in hell because they led so many people away from salvation only because of their unbounded arrogance.

>>20974643
same, I can't take it anymore

>>20974746
Take what? Muh no gf?

>>20974746
see you on the other side anon. soon we'll finally be free

>>20974763
>damning hinself to the opression of the eternal void
>free

>>20974793
>eternal void
>aka complete tranquility and utter paradise
yes

How do I get more (You)s?

Getting a flight to America 2moro. Hate airports and customs and all that shit

>>20974665
No. It’s more chemical. Develop a direction, find a purpose. Eat right and exercise. Surround yourself with friends, surface level and close ones are all good.
Some select few are fine alone, but it’s sad to be that way 24/7/365

>>20974943
append cute women to your posts

There's no cure for my sadness, no balm for my despair.

>>20975034
I played OSRS a few months ago after not playing the game for 10 years. It's not nearly the same experience unfortunately. I decided to just bot for a couple months in the background for no particular reason and actually got several 99s and hundreds of millions gp before I stopped playing.

Hell is telling God what to do
The healing hand will burn
Reaches out despite of you
Hoping you learn

>>20975025

>>20974762
things going wrong, not exactly gf but it is part of it too

>>20975034
runescape is comfy

>>20975034
comfy pic but like how is raining with a clear sky?

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEORxpfQMTA
jane's addiction underrated band

>>20975142
dude now i'm getting PARANOID pitchfork just reviewed that album today 34 years after the fact. that is so weird. it got a 9.3.

I was a man of action and I’ve always wanted to be a man of action, but recently I’ve been a man of thought and theories. An intellectual is the one thing I’ve never wanted to be.

Through the passages of time I have surely wondered,

Where is the greatest place to have sex

>>20973090
>market decides the financial downsides of hosting kiwifarms isn't worth it
>free speech is dead

so start a new one if you care so much, pussy

>>20975205
i think cloudflare drops those sites when the ddos they're taking gets so huge even they can't mitigate it anymore, then they try to play it off like it's some moral decision. i never went on kiwifarms while it was up, but in the aftermath i browse some archived threads and it to my surprise it wasn't the total /pol/ shitshow i was expecting but actually something adjacent to investigative journalism on influential public figures

>>20975205
>just build your own internet infrastructure
We're at a point where corporations will blacklist you from literally everything because some groomer tranny cried on twitter.

>>20975229
/pol/ absolutely despises kiwifarms and calls it leftist. Lefties hate kiwifarms and calls is fascist. KF isnt partisan at all. They just laugh at retards and all the retards in the world take it personally.

>>20975249
i think it's great they were muckraking social media influencers

I honestly have enough material to write a book but I'm going to wait at least 10 more years

Anyone wanna tie me up and molest me?

>>20975398
are you a little girl? if so, I do.

>Funko Pop! shoplifter knocks out 77-year-old woman while fleeing NYC Barnes & Noble
reddit moment?

I'm quitting my job tomorrow and I'm at a loss regarding what to do next. I have enough money to last up to 2 years, so I've considered taking 1 year to just write and see if I could at least get some articles published somewhere for money. I don't think that's going to get me where I want to go long-term though. It seems like the things that will get me where I want to go long-term are ships that sailed a long time ago.

>>20975229
>drops those sites when the ddos they're taking gets so huge even they can't mitigate it anymore, then they try to play it off like it's some moral decision
This is the most reasonable approach. That's why it's being called an alt right site, and nobody has had to explain what a lolcow is. Internet archive taking it down makes no sense whatsoever, and I'm surprised a lolcow's lawyer hasn't got mad about that, because while lots of lolcows who weren't legally abused might want all evidence gone, if you got doxxed or wanted proof of a crime committed through the forum against you, erasing the evidence might not be great for you and might make the process more expensive.

everything seems insurmoutable, all challenges impossible to beat, all paths lead to either walls and barriers I can't see a way to surpass or doubts and uncertaintie, more likely leading to doom than not
the future is dark and sinister, I wasted all the chances life gave me and condemned myself, I did so many things wrong and everything around me decays and worsens, hope becomes weaker
I'm a dumb idiot in an insignificant town in a shithole thirld world country, prices are rising, crime was already rampant, now it is skyrocketting, the government is broken and filled with corruption, our culture is dead and rotten, one of the worst educational systems in the world with a population that doesn't give a shit to it anyways, the economy is dwindling, in crisis for almost 10 years, and on top of that we have elections this year, the population is divided, hatred and fear dominate their hearts and minds and the options are either the bad, the horrible or the worse for all positions.

Sorry for the long text, I already wrote a ton of depressing stuff on these threads already, sometimes I feel like an emo teenager, but I just needed to put this out of my head. Writing is therapeutical.

I refuse to look up kiwifarms because I'm bored of this and I don't want to be up to date with gamergate #432534

>>20973381
No, but thank you. It was definitely a longer quote. Maybe 2 or 3 sentences.

>>20975205
you fucking moron, I shouldn't have to, because Null already did

>>20975601
It's an eceleb gossip site. Basically "we have TMZ at home"

What’s that ? I’m a materialistic gold digger ? Okay, then go find a girl who isn’t. Oh wait, that’s right. You won’t because girls who aren’t are ugly and you’re a beauty-digger. If I have to be vilified for liking a man for his wallet, men should vilified for wanting a woman for her looks

why're you all so unhappy all the time

>>20975820
I'm not.

>>20975820
I'm very unhappy with the decisions I've made, how my life turned out, and how things are.

>>20975824
i came to the conclusion based on the lack of comfy posts. it's mostly bitter argumentation or sad blogposts in these wwoym threads—on the surface, it seems like most anons here have some pretty heavy shit weighing on their minds

>>20975835
i'm sorry to hear that, mate

this is a letter penned by melville. can any of you guys read this? how can anyone read this? it just looks like scribbles

Nothing satisfies the appetite for sex. I had my chance to escape hell, to love and be loved. I fucked it up, and now I am on the wheel of lust, running with nothing to nowhere. And what an empty, debased fixture in my mind... I am retarded and pathetic.

>>20975876
what happened, bro?

>>20975876
It's probably not so bad as it seems.

i've had walkin on the sun stuck in my head for about a week straight

i wonder what the ratio between lurkers and posters is on this board

I'm really interested in why Spengler thought Socialism is and will be for us what Stoicism was for the Romans or Confucianism for the later Chinese. It seems to me that if such a thing were to exist, it could just as well be Existentialism.

Tell me about regular 20 something year old men.

i really dont understand why people fall for philosophies that makes them miserable.

why be a nihilist if it makes life feel bleak, directionless, and generally less appealing? why look up to men who themselves were miserable instead of looking up to people who were happy and fulfilled like hugh heffner and john lennon? why be an angry righty guy meanwhile lefties are dancing in the street in a state of ecstasy?

is your choice in philosophy not really a choice? that's about the only thing that would make sense to me.

Think there's any correlation between certain facial bone structures and IQ?

>>20975959
i think it's most likely that those guys already feel bleak and don't feel confident that they can stop, so they opt for a sophisticated-seeming coping mechanism to justify their thinking patterns

>>20975959
I think Nihilists generally do not believe they chose Nihilism, but rather that they arrived there and have failed thus far to overcome it. I think if you've ever sort of had an unfulfilling social life, or worked a 9 to 5 cubicle office job, or just failed to really identify any sort of meaningful drive or purpose, you can sympathize with this.

>>20975876
Is this the first time you're on this cycle? How do you think it relates to what happened? How long ago was it?

>>20975964
very obviously yes and you already know what answer you're going to get if you ran this through some machine learning algorithm with several hundred thousand photos matched with IQ scores

>>20975967
>>20975979
using it as a coping mechanism is what's so interesting to me since cope is usually used to make dealing with something more bearable, but nihilism in particular seems to do the opposite of that for it's believers. i guess they're opting to feel correct rather than happy, but i dont think i've seen anyone be more fulfilled as a nihilism since they have no ideals to live up to. idk.

anyways, do you think it's the hopelessness that they're in that prevents them from choosing a different philosophy or maybe that no philosophy stands out because they're hopeless?

>>20976010
But it's not a coping mechanism. It's more like the absence of anything, including a coping mechanism. It's like depression. Generally, depressed people can't wake up and choose not to be depressed. They see things as they are, and it's as they are that is depressing to them, and what keeps them stuck there is their failing to overcome it. Nihilism is like that. Nihilists fail to see what it is that would enable them to overcome nihilism, and so they remain nihilists.

It's like being stuck in a dark room and not being able to find the light switch, and then you're asking why they don't just turn on the lights and leave the room. They can't find the switch to turn on the lights, and they can't find the switch because it's dark.

why can't i zoom images wth is this

Mentally I've been shit because I've been stressed for like 4 days because my dad fell through a bathroom floor he was working on and cut his leg

>>20976063
I think it's absolutely a coping mechanism since it projects their dark state onto everything and eases the burden of having to improve themselves and find the light that will guide them to happiness. It suggests that there is no light to be found and that darkness is the natural state of the world. I understand that it's reflective of their mind state and the lack of fight that they have, but that doesn't legitimize the belief.

That being said, I could see how this metaphor could be expanded to include many ideologies that make people unfulfilled, and I guess the factor that separates those that stay and those leave is their optimism. It's as if life itself is a test of optimism.

>>20976140
I got that on an image too. Must be a site-wide problem

>>20976182
But you have all these assumptions as a given which for a nihilist are precisely not a given. What does it mean for someone who thinks life is meaningless to "improve themselves"? What is improvement? The life they see is fundamentally valueless so there is no such thing as improving. In general, I don't think nihhilists stay in the dark room because they're not willing to walk out, but because they can't find the light switch, like I said. That's not a cope. It's more like a failure.

>>20969962
My brain is split into opposites. Depressed but more drive than the average person. Haven't had anyone to talk to in years but I isolate myself from people on purpose. Hate myself but simultaneously think I am better and smarter than all of them. Very sensitive but cold. I don't know what it is about my life that made me split like this, but I hate being a living walking contradiction

about to smoke weed hahaha
https://youtu.be/C8LkV-yoZBg

>>20974185
Cheers!

>>20969962
Why are you not a Kantian?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0H1QdYy93c

>>20976242
I think that improvement, at the very least, is anything that makes them come out of misery and directionless.
Nihilists don't live in a vacuum where they are totally unexposed to happiness and fulfillment. I think that they maintain that belief through a rejection of happiness. Their path to Nihilism isn't immediate. It's a decline from a happy, optimistic child to a nihilistic adult that can't find anything to be happy about.

If we want to believe that nihilism is reflective of someone's mental state, that has to be with the understanding that very little people, if not, no one comes out the womb depressed, so it's a place they've been brought to and they refuse to leave.

>>20976254
I feel nauseous, I'm on the verge of throwing up from thinking about how long I've been lonely for. I spent two years hospitalized and isolated from society and just remained that way by choice, something in me snapped and rejected people. How many times I have wanted to say something to someone and I never can, not even good morning to a stranger or something other than what is required of me. God I feel so sick thinking about it, I'm too young to be this isolated and avoidant of others. I just turned 20 and it's been years since I've had a friend, 7 years and 3 without talking to people at all.

>>20976337
I think they would agree that would be the only improvement, but it's one thing to say that in the abstract and another thing to identify what that is specifically. Nihilism is not fundamentally an absence of happiness. It's an absence of meaning. If one fails to identify value in anything, one can still feel emotions like happiness and joy, but one nonetheless feels that all of this in the end is meaningless.

I can't remember a time when a girl willingly touched me, or saw me as a man rather than a classmate, coworker, or acquaintance. I feel like I have more in common with furniture or wallpaper than with other people when I actually socialize. At least the pretend-socializing that happens at work has that thin veneer of politeness and a sketch of kindness stretched over everybody so I can act like people really mean it when they ask how I am or what I did over the weekend.
I don't blame anyone for it. I wouldn't want to hang out with me either. I guess deep down I had some vague hope that I would meet someone who would magically care about me even if I was an unsociable autist with nothing to really offer anyone, and it took way too long for it to finally die. It's still depressing to think about - for the vast majority of the human race, close relationships are common and most have many over the course of their lives, so never experiencing that kind of thing makes me feel like some kind of alien creature wearing a human costume.

>>20969962
The covid vaccine program was a failure

Although it might be the best we have, we need to admit that it's a dud and that working aged people of even average health never required it. The mandates were wrong and people were unnecessarily fired over it, especially now that no one even expects you to get boosters even though they've explicitly said you needed them because "the vaccine wears off and needs a top up for the new strains". How is it rational to not let Novak Djokovic to not play tennis, but players who got only 2 doses from well over a year ago are allowed to play?

It's irrational to even believe you could have gotten a vaccine right the first time let alone one that was relatively rushed and whipped up in such a short time.

>>20976393
I came here tonight to vent after not visiting 4chan for months and I see a post like this, essentially exactly what I am feeling and experiencing. I know we are all here to scream into the void but Its so unfortunate that we dont go any further than that, I wish I could be friends with some of you who are in the same boat as me. I am this anon>>20976388
>>20976254 QUite possibly o the verge of a mental breakdown so I dont know how coherent Im being, I do not sound likem yself but at least Im speaking from the heart tonight

>>20969962
Been doing semen retention. Still fuck girl multiple times and just cool off then start again.

She was on top and tell her to stop but she decides to ride me out despite telling her to stop multiple times. She literally grabbed onto the bed head to make it hard to push her off then before I knew it, it was too late. I don't know bros, I feel really awful over it but she found the whole thing funny. In trying not be a pussy over it but I feel really hurt over it

Posting OC
I beg of you kind sers, please don't laugh at me

After his latest conquest of puss strange,
Chad set about his life to rearrange:
"Hot women are fine,
But I'm done with dimes;
Not looking to pick up loose change."

>>20975816
I'll love you for who you are, even if you're ugly. Also, I'm broke [/spoiler

>>20975955
>Go to college
>go to part time job
>go to gym/sport
>go to gf
>get drunk with friends on weekend

>>20976010
It's just sour grapes mentality bro
>my life sucks
>psshhh whatever, life just sucks anyway

>>20976388
How do you feel nauseous? That doesn't make sense.

>>20976583
How do normies manage all this? I tried when I was in my early 20s and it's so draining.

>>20976513
Kek you were raped

>>20976598
I dont know, I'm not a normie.

>>20974268
Nobody uses puns, stop trying to punt fake news

>>20974416
Yea exactly. Death as in "god judges you and you go to Heaven and Hell" is pussy shit. Death as in eternal void, that's the scary part

>>20975820
The issue of man
Is we're all dissatisfied.
Men are not angels

>>20976598
>college
Piss easy classes.
>part time job
You set your hours. You can pick when you work: so if you can only work 5 hours you work 5 hours
>gym
1-2 hours MWF, and half an hour Tuesdays and Thursdays
>go to gf
>get drunk with friends
I never had these so I cannot comment on them. I once had dates but I hated her

>>20975959
Nihilism isn't emo depression it's saying that "nothing inherently has meaning: I will forge my own meaning". The ubermensch came from nihilism, which is all about empowerment, as the famous story of the relive life.
But yes faggots co-oped this to be a cope for shit life

>>20975959
1) What makes you feel good =/= reality

2) I'm a righty guy, and I'm not angry at all. Most righty guys I know are pretty happy, with families and homes.

>>20975878
I've become subhuman.
>>20975884
No, but then the banal nature of it worsens the pain.
>>20975981
Cycle? This is a transfiguration. It's been a few years, but there's no going back. What organ let me love once was cut from my body and the wound cauterized.

New but there's no rush. Take your time.
>>20976672
>>20976672
>>20976672

>>20976677
Anon. You have to wait till 310

>>20976687
>he doesn't know

>>20976687
Now do you know?

>>20976687
Okay we can start now

>>20976674
If you know how to suffer, you suffer less. I don't know you, but it sounds like you're amplifying your pain—perhaps inadvertently—as a form of self harm. You might be doing that for a lot of reasons, I don't know; maybe you're subconsciously punishing yourself for some perceived fault or sin; maybe you feel powerless in your life and using that as a means of enacting your will over something meaningful (your own well-being); could be anything. Maybe I'm wrong, but I've known a few people that said similar things and I can tell you from experience that nothing good comes from that way of thinking (of course, that is part of the appeal, as far as I understand)

>>20976674
How did you fuck it up? Is it possible for you to try to make things right and ask forgiveness? What makes you say that there’s no going back?

>>20975876
> what an empty, debased fixture in my mind

What does this mean?

>>20976674
You’ll probably never read this, since the thread is dying, but your post was memorable to me and I wanted to share something.

I once spent many months heartbroken over a man who could not return my feelings. After some time, I indirectly found out (how I can’t really explain) that he struggled with sexual perversion, and seemed to have a serious complex about it. Perhaps I should have been repulsed, but I wasn’t. I empathized with him— it seemed like a sort of compulsive behaviour that he used to soothe his inner feelings of emptiness; feelings which I could relate to. It made me feel deeply sad on his behalf, and increased my desire to show him care and affection and understanding. I wanted to be with him even more, because it seemed as though he really needed me. Ultimately he pushed me away, and I’ll never fully know the reasons for that. But I miss him even now, and I would forgive him unreservedly if he ever reached out to me again. Anyway, I suppose my point is that everyone struggles with some kind of vice, and there is always the possibility of love and forgiveness, if only you’re willing to try. I don’t know you, but maybe the one who you missed your chance with would feel the same way as I do, and would be more understanding than you might think. I truly believe that, whatever has happened, you still deserve to give and receive love. It’s never too late.

>>394981762

Jesus

>>20977437
What?

>>484585884858
Jesus

>>20975876
okay coomer