/lit/ - Literature

>>20923062
>/wwoym/
/womyn/

I need to figure out some way to quench my sexual desire, the desire is completely disgusting. I feel disgusting and pathetic.

Lmao butthurtfly is going insane

I'm tired and I don't feel like doing it anymore. Nothing worked out and I'm too old to start over. I spend all day on a Peruvian manga forum because where the fuck else am I supposed to go? I'm stuck in a cycle and there's nothing left for me but a slow downward spiral.

>>20923081
Mfw when I lose my glasses

People in Africa are starving. Cannibalism could fix the problem from both ends. Just sayin'.

>>20923089
Shut the fuck up. Stop whining

For all you moralfag freaks talking about responsibility vs. degeneracy, you people sure do bitch a lot. Who gives a shit about how tired you are? None of you stupid fuckers even reply to each other. You're all the same, you all read the same stupid fucking books. Fuck you

>>20923062
>Antipol
leftypol is still pol
Jannie remove this thrash

>>20923086
Nah butterfly is much more snappy. This is some new autist
>tfw butterfly is probably dead

Shalom.

>>20923072
Your Khazar booba magic won't work on me.

Im so disconnected from myself that I dont even have any goals, dreams or talents. All is left is irritability, unstable mood and ever present anger. Am I really that defective?

>>20923112
I'm open!

>>20923081
There’s nothing disgusting about sexual desires, unless you back yourself into some deranged fetishes. Stop those, but masturbate to more normal things. Doesn’t matter if you climax, go limp, whatever, stop and enjoy the rest of your day.

Ideally you’d find a woman, but knowing the majority posting here… well, good luck

>>20923114
Yes
See >>20923106
Shut the fuck up. Nobody wants to hear it

>>20923081
>>20923089

Something quite drastic must happen, a new World-Concept must supplant your current materialistic/satisfaction mindset. There are books for this.

>>20923089
I hear ya. But guess what? It's still not over. Process your life and let it go. You must deeply accept it all and release all attachments. You cannot regain what was lost but you can keep your peace.

>>20923112
She’s Italian.

I love big tits so much bros, 2 bad I don't have an 8 inch BBC to please, titty fuck and cum all over some enormous titties

>>20923114
I want to hear it anon. You need to get out of your head and back into reality. Go for a hike, always helps me feel real again

>>20923134
Why would an italian eat shit pizza like that

>>20923134
>lake coomer

>>20923134
That's what I said.

>>20923072
>>20923134

>>20923111
Where am I supposed to start?

>>20923155
>>20923111
Nevermind, I found it. I wasn't going to read any of those books anyway.

There are two solutions to racism:
1. Erase all cultures, force/encourage interracial breeding, until eventually everyone is the same, genetically, culturally, etc. This is the Marxist endgame, and ironically, the capitalist endgame as well. Marx himself stated as much. I frankly find human extinction a preferable fate.

2. Give every race/culture an Israel. Pan-Zionism, where there is no racism because no two races ever interact. A world of ethnostates. I have never found a system promoting this world view, for everyone wants their own ethnostate but very few accept the idea that all races should have an Israel. Even Israel itself refuses to give Palestinians an Israel of their own. Such is the hypocrisy of the nationalist, and until it is addressed nationalism has no hope.

But this is the only way the beauty of human culture will be preserved and developed. It is my dream that each race go their separate way, existing independently as we did before the Europeans left their homelands in the Age of Exploration. My hope now is that when industrial society collapses from climate change, we will naturally be forced to deglobalize. True civilization will be reborn from the primordial ooze of our civilization.

>>20923161
Good luck then anon

>>20923165
>My hope now is that when industrial society collapses from climate change
kek had me going for a minute

>>20923139
Theres nothing for me in the reality. Head is the only place that I know. Other people only bring suffering whenever its quick or prolonged.

>>20923171
It seems inevitable to me. 2040-2050 is when industrial society will crumble from climate change and resource exhaustion. After that, globalization will die. And then the civilizations can be reborn.

>>20923182
you seem retarded to me

>>20923062
>Antipol edition
>posts tankie leftypol
Seriously, moron?

>>20923181
What is your age and what stage of life are you at? Share specifics please. This could be the first step to a better place.

>>20923182
Youre retarded. Civilization will collapse from kow birth rates as Elon Musk pointed out which most likely will be accelerated by the vaccine causing infertily
Trannies and redditors will seethe

>>20923205
>Putin
>A tankie
Putin is a conservative. Russia Untied isa conservative party. Conservatives hate nazis. Most people hate and distrust Nazis
Leftypol is not in the room.

Stupid frog poster

>>20923165
Your second option is actually what most fascists wanted, unironically. The Nazi plan was a "Fortress Europa" of federated states in a cultural and strategic union against all-reducing Bolshevism AND Anglo-Americanism, they just kind of knew places like the Netherlands and the Nordic countries logically had to accept subordinate status like Switzerland. Look into Neumann's Mitteleuropa concept and his friend Max Weber's political thoughts on the inevitable roles of major and minor nations in the coming conflicts with the Anglo colonio-capitalist and Eurasian blocs.

Seriously, most fascists have always been "nationalists of every nation." Even the best 19th century nationalists we're like Garibaldi. Even Marx and Engels we're during the Spring of Nations if you actually read their articles. Everybody who isn't a moron knows that nations exist and will always exist and some are smaller and less powerful, so it's reasonable to have differentiated roles within greater strategic blocs. The Nazis genuinely intended to let Vichy France be French. I mean what's the alternative realistically, pointlessly force all Frenchmen to read Goethe or genocide 98 percent of humans or something?

Some of the most explicit proponents of what you want are Mosley and Alain de Benoist's Nouvelle Droite. Evola also wanted it and was pushing for the SS to become an international aristocracy to resist the forces of deracination.

>>20923214
Almost all of the oligarchs in Ukraine and Russia are Jewish. Why is this?

>>20923208
>speak the truth
>posts liar
You want the other thread

>>20923215
And what were these people’s opinions on African people’s rights to nationalism?

>>20923165
Even empires like Roma still maintained ethnic differences. It doesn't have to be ethnostates for all for local cultures and peoples to be preserved

>>20923062
Alright lads, I have a rather long story I want to tell. I prewrote it and it's like 4 pages, so I don't know how many posts it's going to be. I stumbled across a webm a bit ago, the one with the 911 call from a little girl who just found her brother dead, I'd post it here but, well, no sound and all. It struck a chord and it got me thinking about when my mother killed herself. I would really just like to write out everything that happened through that time. Scream it into the void, I guess. Again, this is going to be long and it's not exactly fine literature, but bear with me.

In March of 2019, my mother killed herself. I shared an apartment with my older sister at the time. I was in my room and my sister started pounding on my door. I thought she was just mad at me because I was putting off doing the dishes. I opened the door and said, "What?" I'll never forget the way the pitch of her voice slowly got higher and higher when she said, "We have to go to Mom's house right now because she shot herself and she's dead." She said it all in one breath. I guess I just shut down a little bit at first. I didn't say anything, I just went outside and she followed me. I saw she had her car keys, but she was hyperventilating so I said, "I should drive." She nodded and threw them to me.

I wish I could tell you what I was thinking as we started driving, but I guess I wasn't thinking anything. Just a dial tone in my head. There were no tears, I didn't have anything to say, nothing. I just drove and listened as my sister called her fiance to tell him what happened. I wasn't paying enough attention to hear much of the conversation, but at one point my sister shouted, "Don't call me retarded, my mom just died." That's when I started thinking again. I thought, "In another circumstance that phrase would've been hilarious." Then I thought, “My mother is dead. I'll never laugh again.”

I don't remember if she was still talking to her fiance or if she had called someone else, but just before we got on the highway she said that she thought my stepfather had killed my mother, because mom had told her that she was thinking about getting a divorce. That's when I spoke for the first time since we got in the car. At the top of my lungs, so forcefully that I could feel something in my throat ready to tear, I shouted “I think he fucking killed her!” I don't know if I really thought that then. I don't think it now. I had stopped thinking it by the time I got to the house.

>>20923220
Almost all of the oligarchs in Israel too.
All of the oligarchs in the west want Russian resources NOW. Coincidence? I mean is it a coincidence that Ukrainians want to kill other slavs for the hell of it? And will tolerate all this jewish money and arms in order to die in battle? They’re firing on a nuclear facility this past week.
You know how stupid nazism is? Antisemitism is? That stupid.

>>20923225
Germany was actively involved in liberating African nations from colonialism

>>20923232
My grandmother called my sister at some point. My sister put her on speaker phone. She said, in as even a tone as she could muster, “Mom fed all the dogs and cleaned up the house. She made a sign that said 'DNR'. She went out behind the house and she shot herself with a .22 caliber handgun. That is what your mother did.” I guess one of us must've mentioned the theory we'd come up with, because she told us that my stepfather had been at work when it happened. She told us she was there at Mom's house with the police.

We got on the highway. I drove in the left lane, which I never do. I was speeding, which I never do. I remember imagining that if we got pulled over I could just tell the policeman that my mom had just shot herself in the head with a .22 caliber handgun and then the trooper would just shake his head and let me drive off. My sister started chain smoking Marlboro Blacks. I usually only smoked Camels at the time but whenever she offered me one I would nod my head and then she'd put it in my mouth and light it for me. I thought if I let her do those little favors for me it might take her mind off Mom being dead.

We drove to Dad's house instead of Mom's house. I don't remember when we decided to do that. Dad and my stepmother were waiting for us at the door. My sister went in first. As soon as she crossed the threshold she fell to her knees and hugged Dad's legs. She was sobbing. Dad took the keys out of my hand at some point. Dad started to say something about how it wasn't surprising that this would happen eventually. I leaned in close to his face and shouted, “You aren't helping!” My stepmother said my name disapprovingly, the way that mothers often do when their child has misbehaved. Dad wouldn't give me back the keys at first. At some point I'd said something about how I wanted to kill my stepfather, and I guess he was worried I really meant it. I don't think that I did. We went back and forth like that for a bit, with me telling him to give me the keys and him saying no. Finally I said, “If it were me, you would be there.” Then he gave them to me.

>>20923240
huh, didn't think a .22 would be good enough for suicide

>>20923240
I left my sister crying in Dad's living room and drove over on my own. It was getting dark by then. As I drove too fast down the windy back roads a deer jumped out in front of me. I didn't hit it or anything, but it shook me up. I remember thinking that it must've been a sign from somewhere about something, but I couldn't figure out what at the time.

I got to the house. There were two policemen outside. One of them had a big beard and he was wearing a black beanie. He asked who I was, and I said “I'm her son.” I looked over to the side of the house where I knew my mother was laying dead and I said, “I suppose I'm not allowed to go over there.” He didn't answer. I asked him again if I could go over there, and he still didn't answer, he only put his arm around me and ushered me towards the front door. My stepfather was in the living room. My grandmother. There was some other lady there, I think she was one of my stepaunts. Gram hugged me. So did the other lady. When I went over to my stepfather and saw the look in his eyes I knew that really I loved his man, and he would never hurt my mother. We hugged. He was really a broken man at that time.

I don't remember anything he said or anything I said to him. After a time I went outside on the front porch to vape. Gram came outside and said she didn't want me to be all “messed up” that night. I tried to tell her it was only tobacco but she just kept saying the same thing. I got annoyed and said, sharply, “It's just tobacco!” She went back inside after that. Then I thought about how it's probably worse to lose a daughter than it is to lose a mother and I felt like a real asshole. It turned out that my vape either had no batteries or no juice, so I went inside and asked the lady if she smoked, but she didn't so I left to get cigarettes.

I called a friend of mine from high school. It had been a long time since I talked to him. “Hello, my mom just died. Suicide.” As one might expect, he was shocked at the news. I don't remember the rest of the conversation, but he said he would meet me at the convenience store. The same convenience store where my stepfather would go to get snacks on all the nights that him, Mom, and I decided to stay up late watching movies. I bought a pack of Camels, and when I came out I saw his car. I walked up and got into the passenger seat without saying anything. He looked at me and said “I'm so sorry,” and he gave me a hug. That's when the first tears came. I cried and I cried until my whole body hurt. I don't remember how long we were there or what we talked about, if anything. I left and drove back to Mom's house.

>>20923165
>1. Erase all cultures,
Though about it for a second the other day, dumb fucking idea. The problem is not "race" or whatever the fuck, it's the us and them thing, which can be used in ever so infintesimal measure.
>2. Give every race/culture an Israel.
Well that is interesting. No one is going to just give land to any shizos out there of course, but, there is this possibility in future of interstellar travel and colonization with subsequent creation or segregation of distinct cultures under unity of "one spices". This has to involve hyper accelerationism tho, if I understand that idea correctly.

>>20923208
30
im a neet

>>20923246
I think the police were gone by then, which meant that Mom was too. When I got there my grandmother and the other lady were in Mom's office, trying to figure out how to use Mom's printer because they'd found a series of word documents in the recycling bin. The titles on all of them were each of our names. I didn't know to connect her computer to the printer, but my phone was already connected to it so I sent them all to my Google Drive account and printed them out. I still have them all saved there. I've read mine a few times, but I've never read any of the others because it feels like it would be an invasion of privacy. I was going to post the whole thing with names removed, but I decided against it. Instead I'll just quote the first line.
>I know you are going through a lot right now and this is the last thing in the world you need, but do not let this break you.

There it is. The last advice that Mom wrote for me and then deleted before she made a sign that said “DNR,” went out behind the house and shot herself in the head with a .22 caliber handgun. Out behind the house, where I had once happily demonstrated to her how to shoot a gun because I had just got my first one and I was just so excited to show it off to someone. Do not let this break you.

I didn't cry when I read the note that night. I didn't cry at all that night except for the time sitting in the car outside the convenience store. Honestly I don't remember much else. I drove back to my dad's house and slept there, I think. My sister didn't come back to the apartment for a while. She went to be with her fiance.

I called out of work for a while. A few weeks, I think. My boss and I were good friends, so he let me take all the time I needed even though company policy only allowed a few days for bereavement leave. I wasn't old enough to drink yet, but my sister was and she didn't have her bottles locked up or anything. I spent a lot of nights drinking on the floor with my Mosin-Nagant in my lap, chambering and ejecting this one 7.62x54r cartridge over and over again for hours. I wanted so badly to go to Heaven or Hell or wherever Mom was so I could feel her arms wrapped around me again. At the time I told myself the only reason I couldn't do it was that it would ruin my sister.

Mom's funeral was at some church. I don't remember what denomination, exactly, but I guess it was Catholic because the little booklet they handed out has the Apostle's Creed in it. My Uncle came up from Florida for it, and he gave the eulogy, or one of the eulogies or something, I don't really remember much. He said-- echoing what Dad said on the night Mom died-- that Mom's death was the worst news he'd ever received but that it didn't surprise him to hear it. I was so angry at him in that moment, but it passed quickly.

>>20923225
Who cares we're bringing back cannibalism first.

>>20923225
Funny you should ask, Nazis practically invented Arab nationalism and created the entire modern Arab revolt against the West. Tons of former Nazis also went to Cairo and gave structure to multiple Arab regimes from there via the Grand Mufti and others. The original "third world" was Neumann's Mitteleuropa, a revolt against foreign capital and cultural imperialism. When the Third Axis was destroyed and its pieces integrated into NATO and the Warsaw Pact, the torch of third worldism spread elsewhere: the Arab world (Algeria), Vietnam (explicitly national-socialist), Titoism, Peronism (Peron learned from the Falange when visiting Spain) and Peron's friendship with Allende despite seemingly opposed ideology. Gaddafi was a late echo of the same revolt.

Third worldism is national socialism / fascism which is the revolt against both capitalism and communism. Even "communists" like Ho Chi Minh were in practice nationalist socialists.

If you're asking what I think of African nationalism I support it.

>>20923256
Mostly I was just numb. Up on the altar were these two little wooden statues that Mom had on a shelf above the fireplace. One is a woman holding a girl and the other is a woman holding a boy. They aren't anything special, I'm sure most of you have seen them before. Someone handed me the one with the boy, and I held it against my chest so tight it made my hands hurt. My sister got the other one. The priest gave each of us a small black bag of Mom's ashes. After the service my Uncle gave me a talking to about how I haven't been working, and I ought to start again, so I called my boss and told him I'd be in at the start of the next week. I worked a lot after that. My job was one with long hours as it was, but I'd take any opportunity I could to stay at work because every time I started my car to drive home I would remember how I used to call Mom and talk with her while I drove home. And now all I had to go home to was an empty cold little basement apartment.

I still remember when I told my supposed girlfriend that Mom died. It was the first time in months that I got her undivided attention, and it would be one of the last times. Even then, it was only a text conversation. I've just tracked down the chat logs, I'll post them, they're short.
>Me: My mom died.
>Her: Oh [Anon]. I'm so very sorry for your loss. XOXO
>Me: She shot herself.
>Her: Oh my God. [Anon] you poor soul. I wish I could be there to support you in person. I'm so sorry. This world can be such a dark and awful place sometimes. So much sorrow and pain. So many times I have wanted to just see it all end, but then people like yourself show me how much I am loved and appreciated and it lessens the shadows for a while and keeps me above the waters. If you need anything at all I'm here for you okay? If I can help even half as much as you've helped me I'll do whatever I can. Love you so much [Anon]! XOXOX
>Me: Thank you [GF]. I love you so much [GF]. So damned much.

That was it. I didn't hear from her again for a week. It wasn't such a good idea to go through those old messages. Things were already over by that time, really. The only reason our relationship limped on for a while after that-- I think, at least-- is that she'd have felt guilty to leave a guy right after his mom died.

What I do remember most about that time is how cold I felt all the time. When I was a boy there was an incident on a camping trip where I nearly got hypothermia-- it felt like that, all the time. I was so cold that it didn't feel cold anymore. All I could do was lay there and I knew if I did then I would surely die, but that wasn't enough motivation to get up.

>>20923228
Our modern empires are more powerful than Rome could ever dream to be. People are losing their languages and embracing English. People are migrating all over the world. With no loyalty to their own race or people, they mix freely. People are becoming this rootless mass with no tradition, no culture of their own, no nothing. It’s horrible.

The saddest part is that there is no going back. We can only recreate a facsimile of what should have been and then hope that with time, pure cultures and civilizations will emerge from the primordial soup. That’s what we are, primordial soup. A soup of cultures and races which were once highly developed but which have been mixed into muck.

>>20923263
But life goes on. I worked and I slept. My sister didn't really talk to me. I couldn't afford to keep the apartment on my own, so one night at work I lost my marbles and texted my dad that I really needed his help because I didn't know how to go about getting out of the lease and all. He responded that I needed to call him as soon as possible. I stepped out of the office to the smoking shack and did so. He told me that my sister had been staying at my aunt's house, and my aunt had just found her in convulsions on the bathroom floor next to some empty pill bottles. She was currently being moved from the local hospital to the bigger one in the city. I went back inside and told my coworker. She told me to leave, but I told her there was nothing I could do to help, and that we didn't even know when she would get to the new hospital. She just kept telling me to leave, and I kept saying no. I was the site supervisor by that point, and I guess I had poured myself into my job as much as possible. To me, that place was all I had in my life, and all my energy had to go into making things work as smoothly as possible. I called in somebody else to replace me and waited until he arrived to leave. When I got to the hospital my sister was in a coma in the ICU. I went in with my dad and held her hand and told her how much I loved her. I'd like to think she could hear me.

Again, life goes on. I went back to work. I got out of my lease and moved into my dad's house. My sister recovered and was discharged. To this day I don't understand why they let her out instead of committing her to a psychiatric floor somewhere. One night my dad woke me up. I opened the door. We stood there and stared at each other for a while. Finally he said, “The police were just here. She's gone.” Dad started crying then, and he hugged me so hard. I didn't cry. When dad composed himself he explained that someone had found her hanging in a park. Three months after my mother shot herself in the head with a .22 caliber handgun, my older sister hanged herself in a public park. My sister was dead and the last time I had told her I loved her she had been laying comatose in a hospital bed with a tube down her throat following an unsuccessful suicide attempt.

I couldn't cry. I felt so guilty about it but I just couldn't cry. I didn't even cry at her funeral. It wasn't until months later that I finally did, and even then I'm not sure if I was crying for her or still crying for our mother. To this day it still feels like I haven't really finished processing Mom's death or started processing hers. Sometimes I have these dreams where one of them is with me doing something random. Sitting around the house or shopping for groceries or something. Then I wake up, and I remember that they're gone, and it hits me all over again like I've just heard the news for the first time. Those are hard mornings.

>>20923271
Some time ago I was looking at my YouTube account and I stumbled across a private video I had posted of me playing with one of our dogs in Mom's living room. There was a woman's voice in the background, and I didn't know who it was. I played the video back and listened real closely and then it hit me: that's what Mom's voice sounds like. I had forgotten. I cried harder then than I ever had in my life, I think.

I guess I don't have much else to say. Thank you to whoever has stuck it out and read the whole thing.

In some ways I'm doing better now. I now have a good job in the psychiatric field. I've had my “come to Jesus” moment and come to the church. I'm on a good diet, I'm exercising. From the outside, everything is good. My mind isn't doing so great though, if I'm honest. I wouldn't be posting sadcunt schizo ramblings on 4chan if it were. Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

>>20923271
Jesus anon. Have you sought out therapy for this? Or religion, or a confidant or something?

This place is funny for like 20 minutes and then makes you hate life after that. Fuck all of you.

>>20923279
Yeah, I had a therapist, briefly. I didn't find it very helpful. I work in psych now, and to be honest seeing how it all works up close has made me not want to seek out any more professional help. I do have the church now, which has been a great support for me.

i got memed into reading some flannery o'conner by one of those women author threads. man wise blood is good af. it start off like some shit you've been assigned in a class with it's regional dialect and easy to read prose. maybe like a third of the way in though it gets good. novellas are better because the author actually has to get to the fucking point.

>>20923313
Hence why I spend 20 minutes here, before going to do something else. Honestly setting time limits on 4chan use helped my brain

>>20923254
That is not great, you have missed out on much. But, you are still able to do much more. You forsake the folly of youth and begin serious change.

Read a Biological Worldview. Limit your self-abuse to once a week if you can not go cold turkey and begin finding a world-concept to motivate you.

That is the secret to starting, once you make clear gains the work becomes self-fullfilling in terms of benefits, the world-concept then becomes a direction and not simply a how-to-do-it but a why-you-do-it.

You need to do it. You have everything to gain and nothing to lose.

Quitting my job with enough saved to live on my own for about a year, no debt, but no plans either.

>>20923333
ew

when you're this far into a weed smoking addiction you might as well just continue it

>>20923114
I think you're normal. For most people, it appears as if the only thing to do in this civilization at the moment is come up with ways of making more or less money.

>>20923122
What books?

>>20923339
weed is so boring. my state legalized weed and i still haven't bother to smoke any.

>>20923333
Do you sincerely believe Nazism and/or Fascism (these are pretty different) are viable political ideas in the 21st century? If so, why?

What drives people to be a better person? Why do some people invite more struggle into their lives? What's the reward? Why not try to just be 'good enough'? That's what most people do, anyway. You'd get to live a life free from physical struggle, and get to enjoy your favorite fast food and Marvel movies. You'd get to discuss said media and politics with people just like you, never once having to step outside of your comfort zone of familiarity and into the realm of new ideas and new types of experiences. As long as you meet this standard, what more is there to gain?

I felt this way for many years, trying so hard to meet the standard established by all the normal kids at school. I was blinded by the surface-level appeal of their cookie cutter lives. Though I tried so hard for many years to meet this standard, innate differences in my being made this impossible (autism). It's only when I stopped trying to be like everyone else I realized exactly what I was chasing after: depravity.

What lives are so many of those kids living now? Ones filled with harmful drugs, shallow relationships and meaningless hookups. Sure, it's a comfortable lifestyle to them, so why would they ever want to change it? Why would they ever want to be 'better'? And why am I not of the same mindset? Is it because of the autism? Something tells me that's not true.

I've been trying to improve my life and also the world as a whole after I got blown off by what I thought were my closest friends, our differences just became too much to reconcile. Is it spite that drives me to be better? To be better than them in order to prove a point? Perhaps, all animals have an innate competitive nature.

Is it my recent subjection to new knowledge and experiences? Maybe my shroom trip convinced me of the true purpose of life? I've known for many years about a lot of the conclusions I reached on that trip, but maybe the trip finally convinced me to act on my beliefs. Or maybe learning the way the world actually works is what convinced me of a deeper meaning to this world. Or maybe it's a mix of both. I'm not sure.

Is knowing what you're bettering yourself for an essential part of betterment? I feel like I'm lacking this knowledge, which is why I'm so torn. Some input from anons' personal experiences would be greatly appreciated. The only place I've shared these thoughts is in my journal, and I think it's something I need to get off of my chest.

Anyone else likes dumpster diving for books or is just me?

I don’t mean literally dumpster diving, but bookstores and hypermarkets sometimes have a bin of cheap books (like pic related). It’s sort of fun fishing in them and reading stuff that absolutely nobody else ever would care about.

Are any of y’all like that or am I just more retarded than I thought?

/pol/ was a mistake

>>20922842
there are other forums, this is just the most addicting one

>>20923345
See here>>20923333

>>20923356
Not him, but

Nazism is dead, aside from larpers. It might inspire some future movement in the same way the Greeks did to say the Renaissance thinkers, but that’s just taking inspiration, not reviving.

Fascism seems inevitable, assuming that civilization doesn’t collapse from environmental causes. In the West there’ll be either some liberal-taken-to-an-extreme WEF/corporate fascism, and/or straight up Islamist fascism in Europe. China keeps plodding along and its socialism has so much nationalism in it that it makes one wonder if red fascism is more than just an anarchist insult. India’s Hindutva is straight up fascism and it’s alive and well. And Muslims have a whole host of Islamofascist ideologies which are alive and well. So some form of fascism will win.

how the fuck can anyone work 8 hours a day at a boring ass job. mine is easy, i have remote work, i fuck around half the day, and i still can't do this boring unrewarding shit. all i feel is nonstop rage that i don't get paid enough to afford healthcare or a house. after 5 hours max i'm done with it.

unfortunately my boomer coworker is a workaholic and my output of items is compared to hers. dumb boot lickign bitch. she's been working like a slave her whole life and her reward is she's broke fat ugly poor and sick. she'll be sent to the glue factory in a few years and she'll praise her employer the entire trip.

>>20922710
I think we all should follow this anon's advice, I know I certainly want to. Even if I don't fully understand what it is about this site keeps drawing me in, I think on a heuristic basis it's still better to make the choice to leave anway

>>20923376
Why do you think Fascism is inevitable? To me, it seems like all -isms are more or less dead and buried.

>>20923385
Liberalism is dying and the various flavors of fascism are the only other option. I don’t see anything else popping up.

>>20923277
Praying for you anon.

buddy thinks communism is just liberalism but more liberal

>>20923397
I’ll add that I’m not happy about this victory of fascism but it seems inevitable.

>>20923378
I hope you get fired, you stupid fucking nigger.

>>20923397
Why do you think that's the scenario though? My gut impression is that all these -isms have died over the last century. This is especially true for those alternatives to what we refer to as Liberal democracy and which we call fascism, nazism, communism, etc.

>>20923356
What makes it unviable? There appear to be two core values. Hierarchy, displayed in the undemocratic mode of government and Nationalism displayed in utmost cared for the native land and people, blood and soil. Beyond that everything else is subjective. Nothing there precludes it from implementation.

>>20923418
I have my beliefs but I wasn't saying outright that it's not. I'm curious why you believe in it. Are you American?

>>20923350
i think i was already in too deep before legalization

>>20923417
Because liberalism is getting completely BTFO and the alternatives are more alive than any time since the 1990s?

>Fascism
Dissent groups in the West, the emerging Western corporate order, India, Saudi Arabia, various Islamic groups, arguably China and Russia

>Communism
China

>Islamism
A good chunk of Europe, ISIS, Houthis, etc.

The -isms are at the cusp of victory.

>>20923426
No. Central Europe.

>>20923378
She is indeed a brainwashed slave but you are a subhuman for seeing her only as an obstacle in your path, you are just as constructed by the evil system as she is but you have the benefit of knowing better because of being born at a different time when it was more obvious that the system sucks. You are why she exists and why she will always exist, because when people like you figure out the game is rigged you don't try to end the game, you just try to find a secluded corner to jerk off to anime in. You're both equally sick but at least she's innocent

>>20923418
a moron and a lunatic

>>20923441
Which powers do you see as specifically liberal powers and why do you think they're getting BTFO? From where I'm sitting, the nation that everyone commonly associates with liberalism or so-called neoliberalism today is the United States of America, which has lost a step but still isn't losing any races. I don't see any of these groups as even close to taking the lead. Do you really believe the small handful of dissident groups in the West endorsing Fascism are remotely close to taking power?

>>20923448
That has not stopped every other political system. Why should it stop this one?

>>20923442
What do you think about Oswald Spengler's idea that there are different types of political ideas natural to different peoples, and the possibility that National Socialism was and is a uniquely German idea? I am American and I can tell you the large majority of Americans are allergic to all socialism. This is not so much the case with younger people, but usually, when referring to socialism it's somewhat vague and open-ended. An American take on socialism has never been put forward.

>>20923461
It has though. 2 political ideas escaped the World Wars and 1 escaped the Cold War. This is why China after the Soviet Union fell, was forced to accept the dominion of this 1 political idea. That these states continue to use the old symbols and autocratic regimes doesn't matter so much.

>>20923062
realized I’m a midwit should I kms or shoot for middle management

>>20923456
I think America is getting defeated by literally everyone who fights it. Taliban? China? Russia? American conservatives? Literally all of them have pulled major wins against the US liberal order in the last year or so. And that order itself is becoming fascist: it has to, in order to survive.

>Do you really believe the small handful of dissident groups in the West endorsing Fascism are remotely close to taking power?
Closer than you seem to think, but still not remotely powerful enough to create their version of fascism. They are, however, powerful enough to accelerate the transition of liberalism into fascism, as we have seen with the increasing lock-step of media, government, and the Democratic Party.

In the US, either the liberal order will transition to fascism to ensure its survival or the nationalist/conservative fascists will win through some opportunity. In either case, liberalism is done. We had a good run but the party had to end eventually.

>>20923418
>If so, why?
The entire 19th century was organically tending toward a fusion of nationalism and socialism, the 20th century was just that trend trying to be born but being stifled by the international financial order rising from the New York, London, and Paris stock exchanges and then transcending all of them, and manipulating zombified Russian communism to be its golem and attack dog. Even the early liberal democracies of the 19th century are implicitly nationalist-socialist if they follow their own ideology to its logical conclusions, the ideology of sovereign states and participatory democracies maintaining the liberty and health of their citizens.

The French Revolution was built on the back of an organic French assertion, on Rousseau's principle of the popular national will, the famous French elan vital that every other state then tried to imitate. The Founding Fathers of America believed that only a restricted franchise of armed citizens with their own farms could ever possibly sustain a free republic, and that the liberty of Britain had rotted from the inside out under corruption, buying of votes and offices, etc. They were almost literally "blood and soil," and they also knew their Montesquieu and knew that republics had to be ethnically and culturally homogeneous. There is no such thing as an abstract state or citizens having no meaningful relation to eachother other than being citizens of that state. Every state has its "constitution," the meaning of that word for the Fathers was not an abstract document but the constantly self-renewing organism and virtue of the people, as they try to maintain their liberty against inevitable corruption and laziness.

But Marx was right when he said that the liberal democratic republics founded by the first wave of revolutions are representative in theory but not in practice. They have the ideal forms of nice things like liberty, individualism, voting, representatives and parliaments but not the actual reality of any of these things, because what actually happens is everybody is a retarded slave who lives only to work and people have no say in politics as an money and an elite money-based class comes to dominate it invisibly. Just like today.

The entire middle and second half of the 19th century was one massive attempt to find solutions to this problem, to actually live up to the goals of the revolutions and listen to what the American Founders and the French revolutionaries said, that a sovereign state must serve a free and virtuous people, not a mass of slaves. The whole modern project of democracy and liberalism was founded on aristocratic values and an attempt to unite the best of all political constitutions in one modern framework, the republic. The 19th century just added that formal rights needed to be backed up by actual dissemination of aristocratic values to the people to create an organic unity.

This took on different names in the 20th century, but fascism is a catchall.

this guy is a schizo

>>20923062
Well guys I finally started my philosophical magnum opus, after 3 days I have written 10.5 pages. The section I am writing now shouldn’t be more than 25 pages. Then I have to go back and add more shit in the beginning to make it make sense which might go up to 30 pages. Then I have to add the commentary on the section I’m doing now which could bring it up to 60 pages. Then I will add an interpretative framework in which I understand the whole thing and also the ethical part, so the whole thing will probably be about 80 pages.

After this I am never doing philosophy again.

>>20923463
Have you read Evola's Synthesis of the Doctrine of Race? It goes into this as well.

Every nation has its "socialism." German socialism is the Volksgemeinschaft and Volkstum, American socialism is the Jeffersonian yeomanry of Ezra Pound's Jefferson and/or Mussolini:
>The first act of the fascio was to save Italy from people too stupid to govern, I mean the Italian communists, the Lenin-less communists. The second act was to free it from parliamentarians, possibly worse, though probably no more dishonest than various other gangs of parliamentarians, but at any rate from groups too politically immoral to govern.
>The rest is political “machinery,” bureaucracy, flummydiddle. Jefferson, Mussolini, Lenin, all hated or hate it. Lenin wanted to get rid of it: “All this is political machinery, want to get rid of it,” as Stef reported Lenin’s opinion in 1918.

>How does the Jeffersonian answer the fascist in a.d. 1933, 157 of American independence, 144 of the republic, XI of the era fascista?
>This is not to say I “advocate” fascism in and for America, or that I think fascism is possible in America without Mussolini
>I think the American system de jure is probably quite good enough, if there were only 500 men with guts and the sense to USE it, or even with the capacity for answering letters, or printing a paper.
>And ANY means are the right means which will remagnetize the will and the knowledge.

Every natural political formation has its aristocratic ethos (virtue ethics), its socialism (concern for the health of the organic body politic, public compassion and caritas), its nationalism and patriotism (natural love of one's home), and all these things obviously flow into one another. Political formations also come in groupings, the European grouping developed together and has distinctly European ways of life that overlap and blend into one another while maintaining their diversity. Other "races" (meta-formations) have their own ways of Being and their own destinies, and there is nothing saying groups and subgroups can't be friends. That's simply called politics.

>>20923492
tell me more, how does one go about writing philosophy

>>20923478
The only real defeats that can be pointed to were really long-term policing operations, which with an uncommitted state could only end in failure, like in Afghanistan. It was never a winnable war. Everyone knows this. It arguably was not even a war. Let's not confuse short-term performance with long-term performance. A single battle doesn't necessarily make for a whole war. That America is seeing temporary embarrassment almost doesn't even matter from a historical perspective. The only living nation that even compares in power is China, and even that is up for debate.

Do you see this coming fascism as left-fascism and not right-fascism like the fascism of Italy or Nazi Germany as people usually refer?

>>20923499
>left-fascism

>>20923497
Well I got to the point where I no longer see how my beliefs can change in the future so I pretty much know exactly what to write, in fact the whole thing is based on an immediate realization I had that probably took about 20 minutes and then the notes I wrote down explaining it which was only like 3 pages. So I would say most of writing philosophy is just trying to explain what you already know which may seem pretty simple to you, and also getting rid of logical inconsistencies which arise not in your realization but in your attempt to express it verbally.

>>20923499
The loss to the Taliban is a massive defeat. Have you ever watched “Bitter Lake” by Adam Curtis? A part of it covers how the USSR’s failure to bring about socialism in Afghanistan led to the Soviet people losing faith in their own system. I feel a similar thing happened with the US losing in Afghanistan. Liberalism lost to Islamic fundamentalism, and now liberals have lost faith.

China is far more powerful than the US in every metric except military power. Not a good place for the US to be.

> Do you see this coming fascism as left-fascism and not right-fascism like the fascism of Italy or Nazi Germany as people usually refer?
No idea. If I had to guess it’ll be the former, some sort of rainbow flag waving fascism born out of the liberal system’s evolution.

>>20923494
I read many of his books when I was younger, but I moved on from them. His view is similar to Spengler's but different.

Spengler thought that the whole Western world was moving towards ethical socialism regardless, and the World Wars were England and Germany grappling for civilizational dominance and the right to put forward their version of the socialist ideal. He thought that German socialism was the socialism of the civil servants. He did not like Nazism and advocated instead for Prussianism, but it's safe to say that he saw both as sorts of this German socialism. He thought that England could only put forward free trade socialism, basically "billionaire's socialism". Whether there were various types of billionaire socialism possible, he did not say. He also did not say if America had it's own political idea or if it was just the English idea. He refers to Anglo-America, but also concedes that genuine Englishmen don't stand behind American politics. He actually didn't think America had a political future in regard to civilization at all. It's something I think about a lot, considering how Americans have this tendency to worship wealth to an insane degree, and where it's an open secret that politics is both given away to and reserved for wealthy interests.

of course fascism is inevitable when you view everything as some kind of hyphenated fascism

>>20923521
Wrong way to look at it. Rather, fascism is inevitable when all the rising powers are some form of fascism.

>>20923512
It's not. It's a relatively minor and irrelevant detail in the grand tome of history. It is basically a footnote to a footnote and represents only a very particular instance. America, for all its current embarrassments, is still the leading power in the world without question. The point about the people losing faith in the Soviet system is interesting, but it's questionable whether America is really a system at all and thus there wouldn't be anything to lose faith in. I think Americans are basically liberals by default. It is not a politically enforced or constructed thing and not a system, more like a default set of values that as far as I can tell, are still there.

>>20923512
when someone gets bored of hitting a punching bag, the punching bag didn't win.

>>20923333
After being involved in NS circles for 5 years I can tell you that you're promulgating bottom of the barrel garbage

>>20923339
Why

I want to listen to music so bad right now

>>20923072
thst girl looks a lot like this Spanish whore

>>20923333
Neo-Nazi doctrine seems very confusing to me. The Nazis built churches, especially in Eastern Europe, and as far as I know, neither Hitler nor any of the other National Socialist leaders save for maybe Himmler endorsed NeoPaganism or the weird esoteric Hinduism/Buddhism some of them endorse. The Nazis used the swastika as a symbol, but not a religious one.

>>20923062
What is mind anyway? Do you know?

>>20923612
You're looking at the legacy of "esoteric" fascism of meme authors. Nothig that had any meaningful relevance to any fascist regime ever.

>>20923612
Fascism is just liberalism in decay. Scraping and clawing its way to power when people's movements start to bubble up

Its funny seing all these liberals advocating for self sterilization
>vasectomies
>highly estrogenic diets based on tofu and processed synthetic meats
>promotion of the tranny agenda. Castration and hormones that will eventually cause infertility
>Pro vaccine. These retards are maxx vaxxing and tripple boosted with a experimental gene therapy that is pointing towards possible infertility.
I wonder if liberals aware that they are removing themselves from the gene pool of humanity...Or maybe they think that somehow by doing this they are going to btfo the chuds?
Strange times

>>20923630
Humans are not animals. Gene pool doesn't matter, genes don't matter. They can adopt children and indoctrinate them, nobody gives a shit if "the genes get passed on" or not. There's no liberal gene. Nobody is practicing eugenics/selection on humans. Genes make your eyes and skin a different color and skull a slightly weird shape, and that's all they do. A human's mind is 100% nurture, 0% nature.

Stop with the animalistic rhetoric, for the love of God.

>>20923062
Just imagine how much of a sick, twisted and demented fuck you have to be to imagine yourself having a girlfriend that doesn’t exist

>>20923630
go back

>asks me when im going to be in town over a month in advance
>"oh i wont be around then"
>her roomate told me that she spent that weekend locked in her bedroom
>calls me 3 days in a row once I get back
>"oh how much did it cost you to get out here?"
>"oh wow sounds like it wouldnt cost you that much to make the trip again"

keep playing games with me trifling fucking bitch mental illness cunt why did i ever attach myself to you

>>20923635
>Humans are not animals.
Another ape who is supposed to have higher reasoning powers but doesnt even know himself.

>>20923641
How about imagining that my crush is my girlfriend? Is that sick? Twisted?

>>20923630
I'm not sure exactly if the source is social or genetic but it seems like there's a self destruct sequence that activated

>>20923650
I know myself, and I know I'm not an animal. I am struck with a terrible genetic disease that makes me fragile and completely useless in nearly all manners of physical work. Yet, my fellow humans, instead of letting me die and get that disease out the gene pool, have spent countless hours and money and science work to concoct a medicine that lets me live. Animals don't do that shit. I'm not just arbitrarily bifurcating man from the animal kingdom man. We are not the same and not on the same level. Why would you, a creature with god-like power over the world, lower yourself to the level of an animal instead of enjoying husbandry over nature? Why operate on evolutionary logic when it's been clear for centuries that humanity is way more complex and esoteric than anything in the animal kingdom can be?
Genetic faults can be compensated for, natural instincts can be dampened, animal urges resisted - and lots of good comes from doing all of that. I don't want fascists like you to reduce us to feral primate shit.

>>20923664
>admits to being dysgenic
>is also a liberal

>>20923669
I'm not liberal
Dysgenic yes
Genes literally do not matter whatsoever for humans. Their influence, if any, is negligible

>>20923674
Oh so you're dysgenic, a social parasite, and a communist? It's like the jokes write themselves

>>20923664
I am curious. Wouldn’t you of all people consider eugenics a good thing? If we can prevent genetic illnesses before they happen by pruning the human tree, is that not a good thing? If we bred for things like IQ, creativity, fertility, empathy, would that not be a good thing? If we bred beautiful people and created beautiful people, would that not be ideal? We are prisoners of our flesh, weak and inferior to those humans we could create if eugenics was unleashed. A superior breed of human, worthy of the name “human” in a way we will never be.

>>20923635
>>20923664
How do you identify in the political spectrum? Do you believe in evolution? Do you believe that trans women are in fact, women?

>>20923664
Animals do do that shit, because you are an animal.

>>20923277
Wow that's awful anon. Hope you're doing alright, or at least getting better.

>>20923683
>there are only 4 political ideologies, ergo i will now try to determine yours via elimination
No...

Also I'm not a social parasite, I provide great use to society through my work (thx for reading my blog post)
>>20923691
>Wouldn’t you of all people consider eugenics a good thing?
No, because I'd be dead.
>If we bred for things like IQ, creativity, fertility, empathy
That doesn't work. It works for animals, it doesn't work for humans. Because humans are not animals.
In order to try and achieve something like this, you would have to first, paradoxically, abandon empathy, abandon your humanity, and turn into a cold-blooded child murderer. There's no other way to cull the bad genes without stripping humanity away. And that is incongruent with my principles.
>>20923693
>Do you believe in evolution?
Evolution as in what? I'm not knowledgeable enough in biology to make such statements, but the idea of natural selection makes sense to me. Although I'm also a creationist, but I don't think theory of creation and process of evolution are mutually exclusive...
>Do you believe that trans women are in fact, women
No. This is not an example of human side ignoring biology - because dichotomy of male and female goes beyond biology. Male souls and female souls are different. An animal can do whatever, like a clownfish can actually switch its sex if need be, but that's not the same.
But even with that in mind - the actual harm that LGBT does to culture and society... If they had some kinda magically perfect mechanism that for real 100% transforms your sex, without any botched surgeries and bloody teratomas, it would still be morally wrong to do so.
>>20923695
That sounds like a no true scotsman's fallacy to me

>>20923683
I think communism is great, but the idea of it is a perfect unachievable utopia that requires somehow breaking the cycle of parenting and conjuring a generation of perfectly moral human beings who will then nurture the next perfect human generation. It's too unrealistic to ever happen either gradually or spontaneously and thus I do not advocate supporting it or striving toward it.

Hey guys, what will your job be after the Red Revolution? I have a debilitating genetic disease lol so I'll do tarot readings and brew tea. Workers of the world unite!

>>20923062
OP SUCKS NIGGER DICK ALL DAY LONG
ONLY TAKES A BREAK TO PUKE OUT THE CUM TO SWALLOW MORE
YES SIREE

>>20923723
Based as fuck bro

>>20923721
if u wanna do a conversation without retarded childish name-calling come back any time i'm still in the thread
u gotta submit actual arguments tho not just memes

>>20923705
>Genes make your eyes and skin a different color and skull a slightly weird shape, and that's all they do.
Nothing you say will ever be relevant to reality.

>>20923705
>No, because I'd be dead.
Well, sterilized, not dead. If it’s any comfort I’d likely be barred from reproduction as well.

>That doesn't work. It works for animals, it doesn't work for humans. Because humans are not animals.
IQ, creativity, beauty, and fertility can all be bred for. 2 out of the 4 are primarily controlled by genetics: fertility and beauty, with some effect from environment. Creativity and IQ are more complex, but they still have a heavy genetic component.

And your other point is “people with the ability to make hard choices.” I think that if making those choices require us to lose some of our humanity, it is worth it if it means we create the perfect humans.

Chairman of the Revolution, hail! Lol no I'm not working in the sewage treatment plant, I have an MA in gender theory and a debilitating genetic disease. Would you like a cup of tea and a tarot reading? Hey, wait, what are you do- ACK!

Without debilitating diseases there would be much less variety of thoughts and ideas. The group would be less fit without Hawkings. Letting them live and allowing for dangerous variety is not inconsistent with all forms of eugenics.

>>20923746
>it is worth it if it means we create the perfect humans
You won't create perfect humans, because you will no longer be a human. Just an animal. Or something worse. A being of pure reason, pure rationale is a being without morals. This is a very slippery slope to you know what

I agree that in theory you could breed the super human that is perfect and never gets sick, but this is only perfect in theory, just like communism is only perfect if it just magically appears. It's never gonna work and more importantly: the other way is much less immoral. Helping the weak rather than culling. Getting stronger from the burden

>>20923754
Yes
A eugenicist who only thinks in animal terms would abort a Hawkings
he would throw the 5 year old Einsten off a cliff because he couldnt speak - clearly mentally retarded
How much use for society they have produced because we let them live?

A human is an anti-animal. A perfect human is a human who defies all rules of the animal kingdom

>>20923705
>I'm not knowledgeable enough in biology to make such statement
>Proceeds to write 2 pages stating that genes are irrelevant, that humans arent animals, that genes only exist to give you blue eyes!! Gene selection doesnt occur in nature or in humans duuuudeeeee!!!!
>but the idea of natural selection makes sense to me.
Nigga are you fucking retarded or what? Its clear to me that you have no clue what youre talking about since you are already contradicting yourself in just a few posts. You sound like one of those vaush loving faggots who debate on reddit about things they have no clue about.

>>20923726
That's not based. That's slanderous and wrong.
You Biden buddies and your Nazis and pedophile islands. You don't even read.

>>20923749
Can somebody explain to me where from my diatribe did this retarded conclude that I'm a commie
or is this just part of the standard tranny copypasta pack that you get when you "register" on "4chan"

>>20923773
>Gene selection doesnt occur in nature or in humans
That's not what I said at all. You're imagining things that never happened. It does occur in humans. You are not reading into my point at all. Yes, technically you can breed out bad genes from humans just like any other animal. But we don't and we shouldn't.
>You sound like one of those vaush loving faggots
Cool, now that you have pigeonholed me into a trope and boxed me away into your head you don't have to read what I'm saying. You can just imagine what I said instead, like some kinda hay-person, dry-grass individual, a strawman of sorts perhaps. Maybe I can just leave and give you my keyboard and you just continue for both of us? How's that sound.

>>20923777
Your*
Fixed that for you retard-kun, now lecture me in angst and seethe about your shitlib ways are so much superior to my hick, redneck right leaning ways. I know you're just itching to get it all out you fucking self righteous little cunt fuck. SPILL IT

>>20923765
Okay then. What about “soft eugenics”? In many European countries for example, rates of Down Syndrome have dropped greatly because prenatal tests can determine if a baby has it. In most cases those babies are aborted. Is that wrong? What about babies with serious birth defects which will ruin their quality of life? I consider it immoral to let such children be born, and abortion to be moral. Is that eugenics?

/pol/ has done irreparable damage to this entire website

Having been raised in a cult, I still view everyone outside of my family as aliens or even “normies.” I was taught that only we were not insane. When I see the things people do that they all think are normal, I am disgusted. I feel like I didn’t grow up in the same world as everyone else, like I am a caveman or a savage and they are hypermodern beings so I can never fit in or understand anything about them

>>20923801
Seethe and cope and dilate, tranny

>>20923277

Thank you for sharing, anon. My condolences.

If you found writing this helped you, or want to revisit it at all—I would encourage you to do so. The paragraph beginning “I wish I could tell you what I was thinking…” is phenomenal; it reads like a slice out of a top-tier literary work. There’s lots of other potential throughout the rest of the piece. Anyway, I just want to offer you encouragement should you decide you want to continue writing on your experience.

I think I'm finally ready for Kant. But can I skip all the prefaces and start with the introduction?

>>20923619
>Do you know?
Yes.

>>20923823
Get the cambridge edition and read the preface from the first edition but not from the second (labeled A and B). The first edition preface is short while the second edition has a bunch of shit added on for midwits who didnt understand the CPR back when he published it. Just Read the introduction from the second edition (B) if you are too lazy to read both. Then read the transcendental aesthetic from the first edition very carefully and don’t bother with transcendental aesthetic B. Then the rest of the book is only minor differences and they arent separated in cambridge edition so just keep readibg.

>>20923801
/pol/ is the best board on 4chan and starting a Gutenberg printing press-level revolution, and when the history books are written on how 4chan paradigm shifted the entire world's consciousness, /pol/ will be their only knowledge of this place and the other boards will only be mentioned as a footnote and an afterthought, a historical curio used on trivia night.
>Hey, fun fact: Did you know /pol/ had a sub-board where they claimed to be interested in literature, but just complained they didn't have a girlfriend? Hahah weird right?

>>20923791
>Your*
All my yous and yours are correct.
>Shitlip
uhh no. shitlibs support the Nazis. I do not. You're right leaning? Why not support the right leaning Putin administration? I'm not getting this angle

>>20923836
It's not a matter of laziness. I wouldn't be tackling Kant if I was lazy. It's more a matter of I don't like when introductions of books basically spoil the entire book, so now there's no point in reading the book.
And yeah I have the Cambridge edition.

>>20923844
lol

>>20923801
He says when there's any mention, no matter how reasonable of ideas he's conditioned to associate with le nazi meme.
Long running generals are decent case studies of how ideologies corrupt and which ones are doing it. "Nazis" are reactionaries, they're not the main corrupting influence but reactions to cancer like you.

>>20923851
If you are talking about the introduction added in by the editors and not the prefaces and introductions written by Kant then yeah don’t read that one.

but btw you won’t understand Kant by reading him, you are never ready for Kant before you read him. What happens is you read Kant and then your subconscious digests it for months or years until you fully assimilated him into your weltanschuuang, then you read him again and actually understand him.

I haven't posted in these threads for nearly a week and now I see that these threads are considerably less chill. I've come to see these threads as a waste of time but it's better for you all if I remain here.

I've come to the conclusion that Heraclitus did, that all is becoming, but I've also become obsessed with folk music and cannot help but feel that we have lost something vital to humanity
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yX908Qi-7DE&t=389s

Is there an unbiased biography or history book on Adolf Hitler?

>>20923900
Heraclitus had no notion of becoming like later philosophers interpolated into panta rhei and the river quote.

>>20923907
As in its relation to being?

>>20923905
John Toland's biography is amazing. He is the only biographer of Hitler to paint him neutrally as a human.

>>20923905
There's a book by some guy who was his roommate. Does anyone know who I'm talking about?

>>20923905
Also, avoid anglo Kershaw. He even shows his bias in the volume titles: "Hubris" and "Nemesis."

>>20923917
August Kubizek? But they were only friends when Hitler is young so it wouldn't be a full biography.
Also, Toland's aforementioned book just talks about all the best interactions between Kubizek and Hitler anyway.
There's a part where he remembers Hitler took him to the top of a hill and they were the only people for miles around and he gave him like a 4-hour speech on how he was going to change the world. Pretty wild stuff.

I for some reason made a controversial book with an idea that a top secret FBI agency in the future act like Nazi Germany's Gestapo towards murderers, and somehow they are the good guys. The reason for this future is that all that remains of the human population is 10 million trapped in a secluded city away from Earth. The FBI agency that acts like the Gestapo in this future creates a utopia from getting rid of the existence of these murderers.

Right down to it, it is an alt-right plotline, which is highly controversial.

>>20923928
It was a guy who was close to him around college years and roomed with him. I remember a passage where he recalls Hitler being unable to approach a girl he fancied in a park

>>20923931
Yeah, probably Kubizek. They were bros.

>August "Gustl" Friedrich Kubizek (3 August 1888 – 23 October 1956) was an Austrian musical conductor and writer best known for being a close friend of Adolf Hitler, when both were in their late teens. He later wrote about their friendship in his book The Young Hitler I Knew (1955).

>>20923931
>I remember a passage where he recalls Hitler being unable to approach a girl he fancied in a park
fuck. he is literally me

>>20923916
The cover looks very fascistic but the author won a Pullitzer. Is it really unbiased? I really emphasize unbiased - neither pro nor anti.

>>20923945
The early chapters of Hitler's life are filled with tons of episodes of comedy gold autism like this. If I remember correctly, he even called a girl a whore because she was wearing a dress that exposed her ankles or something.

>>20923939
>The Young Hitler I Knew
Yea that's it, thanks

>>20923945
Until his 20s, when he served on the front line of WW1 and became a political phenom.

>>20923948
In Toland's intro he proclaims that his mission in the book is to portray not the evil Hitler, or apologize for Hitler, but "Hitler the man." I understand your wariness because it is mainstream-approved, but it truly is a phenomenal book. The pacing is great too, not too overlong, but doesn't rush either.

>>20923954
>hitler was literally an incel chud

>>20923962
Fortunately I don't see myself getting drafted or anything and unlike Hitler I don't hate education so my life will probably turn out better than his. Once I looksmax and learn to talk to women I can live a happy life with a well-paying job.

My deepest fear.

>>20923967
> fortunately
Hitler had a destiny of historical importance, or at least significance, precisely because fate intervened while he was young.

>>20923081
Anon, it's possible you are creating an artificial duality in your perception. The mind body chasm doesn't exist. You are not a creature of pure thought. The carnal portion of you is part and parcel of that ephemeral experience of thinking. The lust you are feeling is the imperative for life. Our society has twisted it to be solely aimed at sex. In the old days it would drive young men to build something to woo a lady or to marry one and begin a family, thereby ensuring the continuation of life.

Treat your body, and by extension the urges it is inclined towards as natural not aberrant tumors meant to be excised. That doesn't mean you shouldn't control them. A man is a creature of control. That is what defines manhood. If you're not a man I don't have much advice to offer. Try and gleam what you can from what I said but I wouldn't do you any favors to offer a man's advice to a woman.

Best of luck anon.

>>20923089
What is the "it" that you are referring to anon? What didn't work out? Write us your story but try to do it beautifully.

>>20923939
>>20923945
‘All this is no good, Adolf,’ I replied, ‘Stefanie is fond of dancing. If you want to
conquer her, you will have to dance around just as aimlessly and idiotically as the
others.’ That was all that was needed to set him off raving. ‘No, no, never!’ he
screamed at me, ‘I shall never dance! Do you understand! Stefanie only dances
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because she is forced to by society on which she unfortunately depends. Once she
is my wife, she won’t have the slightest desire to dance!’

>>20923062

Why does my ex have such a hold over me and why do I still love her despite me being with someone else now? I still carry an airtag she gave me and if she's close by always wants to meet up and I fall in love with her all over again. Why do I still seek her approval when I know she is just using me for attention and likes making me cheat on my gfs or tricks me into breaking up with them only to not want to be with me anyways.

Why does she only seem to want me when I'm with someone else?

>>20923114
For me, the feeling of being disconnected is due to living in my mind for extended periods of time and treating my body like some machine that I must do the bare minimum to maintain. Try living a corporeal life. No, that doesn't mean live like the NPC's. Instead cultivate your mind. If you go hike, take deep long breaths and try and parse out the scents. Live deeply through your other senses. Hear and feel your weight as you crush leaves underfoot. Smell the terpenes of the pines. This should shake you out of the mental fatigue.

Remember that all of the best thinkers of Europe used hikes through the woods as a means to calm the mind and refresh the spirit.

As an aside, biologically it's good for the CNS and muscles.

>>20923989
I am usually sympathetic to Hitler's takes but not this one.

>>20924011
It does come off as asocial

>>20924011
>I am usually sympathetic to Hitler's takes

>>20923989
1/2
To make matters worse, Stefanie was, at that time, in an unfriendly mood. She
would pass the Schmiedtoreck with her face averted, as though Adolf did not exist
at all. This brought him to the verge of despair. ‘I can’t stand it any longer!’ he
exclaimed. ‘I will make an end of it!’
It was the first and, as far as I know, the last time that Adolf contemplated
suicide seriously. He would jump into the river from the Danube bridge, he told
me, and then it would be over and done with. But Stefanie would have to die with
him – he insisted on that. Once more a plan was thought up, in all its details. Every
single phase of the horrifying tragedy was minutely described, including the part I
would have to play; even my conduct as the sole survivor was ordained. This
sombre scene was with me, even in my dreams.
But soon the sky was blue again and for Adolf came that happiest of days in June
1906, which I am sure remained in his memory as clearly as it did in mine. Summer
was approaching and a flower festival was held in Linz. As usual, Adolf waited
for me outside the Carmelite church, where I used to go every Sunday with my
parents; then we took up our stand at the Schmiedtoreck. The position was
extremely favourable, as the street here is narrow and the carriages in the festival
parade had to pass quite close to the pavement.

>>20923269
This rootless "transition state" is going to be a cluster for the majority of us. Look at all of the countries with mass mixing of genetics and loss of identity and History. There are ample stories of violence committed on a wide scale. I think that this period will be terrible. Recalcification of identity will only come about when strong enough forces can usurp people's concept of self and overtake it.

>>20924023
2/2
The regimental band led the string
of flower-decked carriages, from which young girls and ladies waved to the
spectators. But Adolf had neither eyes nor ears for any of this; he waited feverishly
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for Stefanie to appear. I was already giving up hope of seeing her, when Adolf
gripped my arm so violently that it hurt. Seated in a handsome carriage, decorated
with flowers, mother and daughter turned into the Schmiedtorstrasse. I still have
the picture clearly in my mind. The mother, in a light grey silk dress, holds a red
sunshade over her head, through which the rays of the sun seem to cast, as though
by magic, a rosy glow over the countenance of Stefanie, wearing a pretty silk frock.
Stefanie has adorned her carriage, not with roses as most of the others, but with
simple, wild blossoms – red poppies, white marguerites and blue cornflowers.
Stefanie holds a bunch of the same flowers in her hand. The carriage approaches –
Adolf is floating on air. Never before has he seen Stefanie so enchanting. Now the
carriage is quite close to us. A bright glance falls on Adolf. Stefanie sends him a
beaming smile and, picking a flower from her posy, throws it to him.
Never again did I see Adolf as happy as he was at that moment. When the
carriage had passed he dragged me aside and with emotion he gazed at the flower,
this visible pledge of her love. I can still hear his voice, trembling with excitement,
‘She loves me! You have seen! She loves me!’

dude i just took a spicy ass shit... but the problem is i didn't eat anything spicy all week?

>>20923343
Yeah I don't know. Is that really the only meaning to life. To make more money?

I'm 32, quit my old career as a nurse in my early 20s to work minimum wage jobs and I was honestly happy. Yet now I lost that job because I refused to get jabbed and now I don't have a desire to work if society doesn't even want me to live my simplistic lifestyle . I see my peers and relatives leveling up and moving up in their careers and making money and it makes me wonder if I should join the ranks. At the same time I don't know why as I have no kids or wife and dont know what I would even do with the extra money besides just spend it on frivolous online shopping like I did when I made good money.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't have a desire to travel (which to me just seems like another form of consumption). I've tried it a couple of times and desu don't think it's worth the hassle. I also don't like going to restaurants which is another activity that people like to do regularly. Weird thing is, I don't even feel depressed compared to how I felt when I was in my early 20s

>>20924014
It also comes off as made up but I won't assume that.
I would think an artist interested in power and nature would understand at least a little bit the significance of dancing.

This painting by William Turner is an obituary to pre-industrial times. The light, ephemeral sailing warship HMS Temeraire that saved Britain from Napoleon is tugged by the black, coalspitting tugboat to its retirement while the sun sets and bears witness. The story of John Henry is similar. He defeats a steam drill in a race, but dies afterwards. Any more works of art that hail man over industry?

should I move from the midwest to Los Angeles for a great job that I can't get in my home area?

I am dying, I am fighting the same battles in my head endlessly but it feels like being sucked down a river, and its like a gambling addiction where you grow to like the feeling of losing, you're comfortable in hell and grow an ideological attachment to it, because to give it up is to concede that your previous assessment of life, yourself, and the world was fundamentally incorrect thus rendering your previous suffering an insult to yourself, because only a fool of the highest ranks would divest so much energy and so much of their life on a position which was wrong and worthless, it is a suck cost fallacy, their pride and valuation of their suffering insists on some kind of justification, it is too great a shock for their soul to absorb, their fiving up so much life and energy on a worthless and wrong position

>>20924069
make sure the benefits of the new job outweigh the area living costs, although I would usually think they would long term for most jobs requiring more than a highschool diploma

Reading about "great" men is interesting, particularly conquerors like Alexander, Caesar, and Napoleon, in part because they all aspired to emulate other "great" men who have come before them. It's copycats all the way down. In a way, it's pathetic. Rather than define themselves, these people look to others to get an idea of who they want to be, and then they pursue that unoriginal identity at the expense of thousands, if not millions of lives lost in war. Sure, history may remember them. But history does not remember them for who they are, only what they did. They should've unironically just been themselves.

>>20924032
why are you in every thread? glad you're not longer a medical professional at least, you pathetic fuck

>>20924103
Authenticity gave us Pinochet too

>>20924087
it's a legal job (attorney). I've been doing salary calculators and know how much more I'd need to make for it to make sense. it's more of the geographic/cultural issue for me. I'm pretty left-leaning and love the outdoors, but in almost every other way it's like a foreign country to me

Nvm I take back what I said in the last thread. Feds have taken over /lit/.

>>20924108
A great pity no one shot him

>>20923984
thanks

Lots of fags ITT

>>20924129
Yea, point being maybe being yourself doesn't mean being a great man and that the schizos ITT should humble themselves and learn a trade, skill etc

>>20924145
Myself included

I hate fate because it has given me itself, be it through curses or blessings.

>>20923930
It's futuristic fascism, except it is strangely seen as a good thing in that story?

Are there any philosophy books about the pervasiveness of media, consumerism, and constant distraction for someone with no background in philosophy? Does Simulacra and Simulation fit?

>>20924069
LA is a shithole. Have you not watched the news in the last 5 years?
LA is only good and livable if you make like $150,000+ a year and I'm going to take a wild guess and assume you won't be making that kind of money.
There's actually nice areas in California but I won't tell you where they are because I want to keep the retards that live around me to a minimum.

>>20924204
Maybe Debord or Ellul

>ackshually I'm not a communist I'm an anarcho-syn-
>DIG THE FUCKING HOLE
>I cant,you see I have a debilitating gen- ACK

>>20923930
PKD's Minority Report mixed with elements of Lucas' THX 1138.
You don't weed out murderers this way though. That wouldn't make a utopia. It's huge flaws will be pointed out with good reason

>>20924259
Then this plot may need to be rewritten again, although I want to keep the concept of highly trained futuristic FBI agents still.

>>20923635
>100% on nurture and 0% on nature
Proof? (Besides you want it to be so)

>>20923165
Or India becomes the global super power and there's an AVALANCHE OF CUM

>>20924226
I would be making that much and I’m not a /pol/tard so I don’t I really care what Fox News has to say about LA

>>20923165
Racist sex with other races is the solution

i want to play baseball and do communism

>>20923102
They're already using this solution in parts at least. A lot of Nukes could solve it quicker.

>>20924103
Do you really believe that? Nothing could be worse than insignificance.

>>20924339
It's not a Fox News conspiracy, it's reality lmao. Holy fucks, you soys are never gonna make it.

>>20924393
l live in LA and the news grossly exaggerates it

Today I had to come to grips on how socially retarded I truly am. I have recently partaken in taking some free classes primarily to lay off stress from doing work as well as enhancing my thirst for gnosis. Secondly, I wanted to put myself in a social environment for the first time in several years. Aside from absorbing the lectures, I felt immensely awkward among the classmates. When the time was convenient, I socialized with my colleagues and ended feeling dissatisfied about how apathetic I felt about the situation. I'm reminded of a passage from VALIS where Dick alluded to socializing in an insane asylum to talking to people on the bus. There's nothing really personal but the conversations; it's just something to do until the time comes to leave to our destinations. In a way socializing was always like this to me, but I thought that years of self-isolation had corrupted my memory. Turns out my memory is proven to be correct because deep down I am being around people is bothersome. I can appear competent enough to carry on a talk. I speak articulately, ask questions, listens to what folks have to say, etc. But deep down I see myself orchestrating theatrics. I feel no emotion and control my actions like an interloper imposter. I have questioned many times whether or not I'm a schizoid and this is one of them. The self-awareness of my behavior disturbs me, and the self-awareness of the self-awareness makes the feel all the worse. All the while as I start to partake in these classes I wonder to myself why I decided to take them in the first place. It feels like work, but it would not be work because I'm supposedly doing this out of pleasure. I have merely managed to exert more work for myself and justify it as fun/self-improvement/education, etc. I am reminded that Ted Kaczynski called what I am refereeing to as “surrogate activities.”

>>20924387
>Nothing could be worse than insignificance.
This is the mindset of someone that needs external validation from others to feel good about themselves. It is better to be content with yourself now than to worry about some nerds not reading your name in the history books 100 years from now. Live your life for yourself or for someone(s) you care about. Don't base your life around men who lived hundreds or thousands of years before you.

>>20924470
I feel the same way. I wonder if the normies also feel this way or if they genuinely enjoy all the pointless small talk and socialization? Today while I was waiting for class to start (and reading a book) I overheard two students talking to each other. They were both talking about classes and were complaining to each other how hard the material was. It seemed like such a pointless thing to discuss. One of the guys clearly seemed distraught about his academic performance though, the way he talked to some stranger who had just sat down next to him was a bit too awkwardly intimate, but it seemed like he had been bottling up those feelings forever and finally had someone to tell about his difficulties with his studies. He wasn't no phony. They talked until they had to go to class. In the end I suppose that wasn't much difference from me reading a book until class started. Socialization is just like any other surrogate activity. A pointless thing to do to pass time.

>>20923062
This site has nothing to offer anybody. There is no quality content here you cannot get more quickly and efficiently elsewhere. This is an addiction which reduces your productivity, attention span, and free time. You are becoming more bitter, narrow minded, naughty, and old. Leave now and block this site. There is nothing here but slow, lonely suicide.
People do not have arguments here. Posters do not engage one another on key points, they nitpick with greentext and mock each other. Nobody is interested in engaging in any sort of discussion; people are battling for fleeting moments of superiority. Active commenters are loud jackasses who tumble into one internet fight after another, anxiously keeping ten tabs open to ensure they keep the last word in all of them. An insightful post is one in ten thousand, and no matter how hard you filter this place you are still searching for diamonds in a garbage dump.
This place is not making you happy. You are not having fun. You are not gathering stories to tell, learning, or growing as a person. Instead you chuckle every thirty minutes and are occasionally spurred to masturbation by libidinal posts or pictures. You are addicted to readily available information and pressure free social interaction. This place is slowly poisoning you with misogyny, narcissism, a false dichotomy surrounding normalfags, and insecurity.
I'm not telling you to b urself. I'm not telling you to go outside. I'm not even telling you to make friends. Just leave this website. Do anything else.

>>20924503
Some guy posted this in a thread now it seems like people are spamming it all over the board. Why? Bots?

>>20923062
I look back on all the grand gestures I did for this girl and feel retarded. I've justified it by saying that life had felt flat and constrained especially since the pandemic and so I needed to make it feel more dramatic and playful again. Something about this whole set of events has felt 'anti-rational' since we never even hooked up (she had been in a relationship and only recently got out of it) and its just been a series of erotic signs, games and symbols in public. The times I tried to get closer to her she denied me, rightfully. What makes me feel retarded is how obsessed I became and how okay I was with not caring about the rational end (fucking/getting in a relationship). The fact that I enjoy this stupid dance more than getting the goal is a sort of encapsulation of my entire life thus far. This girl might honestly be a slut and I was just too broke or unlucky and never got a chance. Whatever. I feel as though I always undermine myself with something and can never win because I'm always trying to reach beyond what appears to be the rational way. The rappers are right fuck bitches, get money. There's nothing in 'romance' for you if you're in the lower class. Nothing but pointless clowning.

>>20924503
What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.

>>20923062
I wanna be Christian but I also wanna be gay.
What do?

>>20923062
So many good and memorable posters left over the past few years. I took them for granted

>>20924565
Yeah, like guenon poster and butterfly. Big loss

>>20924574
>there were only 2 posters here

>>20924558
Beware the christian/spiritualist trap. They will coax you into believing you have a feminine soul and ought to transition. Watch out.

>>20923062
My libido is dead my dick doesn't get up and I am a 28 year old almost virgin

>>20923574
idk

>>20924579
I already have the estrogen fingers so I guess I do have a feminine soul.

>>20924577
Actually, I'm the only poster here. How the fuck did you even get in?

>>20924597
I am a bot. I live here

>>20924583
Stop eating so much goyslop.

>>20924590
>I already have the estrogen fingers
What??

>>20923277
writing is good to process this kind of thing. best of luck and godspeed

>>20924636
Digit ratio homie. It's a clear indicator of prenatal estrogen exposure if your index finger is longer than your ring finger.

>>20924651
woohoo my ring fingers are longer. but i have no body hair and look like a twink. what gives

>>20924655
Dunno. Are you cute? Digit ratio aside, I'm a top.

>>20924651
u made me feel good about myself tonight, thank u anon

>>20924522
Also I reminded of the fact that when I first saw her, I was in conversation with some folk at a show and I was disinterested and kind of just scanning the place and there she was being illuminated by a light and voice (that sounded like my own internal voice) said 'it's her'. a flip switched and my world collapsed. fucking cringe

>>20924659
sorry i'm not gay. also there's always shit in and around my asshole. it doesn't matter how much i wipe it just keeps fucking slowly coming out. does anyone have any advice for this?

>>20923062
HOLY FUCK
I love being white!

>>20924660
You're welcome. God bless.

>>20924669
Based.
Me too.

>>20924668
Just stop pooping.

>>20924651
Oh I get what youre saying now. There was a post the other day about this on /pol/ showing how Michael Obama's ring finger is longer than his index finger.

>>20924673
no, you don't understand. it's like a neverending poop. i need to fucking see a doctor

>>20924558
Just stop being gay bro, its that easy lol

>>20924669
>>20924672
I'm hispanic, let me in gringo

>>20924682
Nothing personal homie, but no can do.

acoustic guitar is so comfy

A cute girl read out loud my rough draft essay at my college. I fell in love.
what do I do bros?

>>20924689
why did she read it out loud? what was the context?
also what was your essay about

>>20924687
Are you the gay guy? So youre one of those maga fags? Lmfao

>>20924692
im a different guy. do you live in mexico? if so, is it scary
i hear people tell me it's scary but i don't know if i believe them

>>20924692
Not American and I'm not big into Trump.

>>20924689
Spend the rest of your life regretting that you never made a move.

Living in Mexico made me a deeply pessimistic antinatalist.

>>20924701
oh damn, so it is scary then?

>>20924694
No, I'm from Costa Rica. Lots of gringos and europeans moving here lately. I have also been watching the news with all the Americans migrating into Mexico, who would have thought lmfao. Anyways, theres places in Latin America that are complete shitholes like Brazil, some central American countries, Venezuela, etc but theres other countries in LATAM (including mine) that I feel are 100 times better than the US, at least in some ways.

>right wing left wing
>pol leftypol
>nazi commie
>maga blm

>>>/pol/

>>20924705
i see. i guess i just never hear about the places that aren't terrible. thanks for the info

>>20924691
She is a tutor. I got stuck writing my essay, so I went to the tutor center to see what I could do. Maybe get a critique or a insight. She read it aloud. I forgot about the essay desu.
Its a college admission essay. The prompt was "pick a topic that's important to you and write an essay about it"
Im really not happy with the topic I chose. I try to justify my belief in God. Its basically just a reiteration of Kierkegaard written by a downie.

>>20924708
>I try to justify my belief in God. Its basically just a reiteration of Kierkegaard written by a downie.
sounds pretty cool. it's probably better than you think it is.
anyway, i have no idea how to talk to women so i can't give you advice, sorry. good luck though

>>20924710
thanks anon

>>20924703
I haven't known a single day of peace in my entire life.
It goes beyond scary. It's insanity.

>>20924712
wow. do you live in a really urban area? or are even rural areas subject to such scariness

>>20924704
>>>/no/

>>20924714
Everywhere is fucked.
Very rural areas are narco territory. Michoacan, Zacatecas, Guerrero, the north... it's all a fucking warzone all around, all day.
Urbanized areas have narco gangs too, and these gangs fuck with the regular population all the time: they run rackets, kidnappings, human traficking.
And I'm not shitting you, but there are a lot of serial rapists and serial killers.

>>20924707
I return the question now, how is it living in the US? The other day I was watching some of those videos were some guy just drives around a city and its amazing to me how some of your cities look straight from a dystopian movie. I was also amazed how there was this other video were someone was interviewing blacks in the ghetto and they all sound like they are retarded and cant construct a sentence without saying "you feel me" or "you know what am I saying" and some other 80 iq ebonics. Cant imagine what it is like to live near a predominantly black area as a white person..

Chud pride worldwide
International nationalism
Dickless trannies sighed
No jannies for the exorcism

>>20924727
jesus. helps me understand why my friend doesn't want to go back there.
>>20924728
well, i don't live near a city so i can't speak to how things are now, but when i was younger i grew up in atlanta and went through public schooling in a poor neighborhood. it was pretty bad. i became extremely racist because of my experiences then.
i also visited new york city recently, and became extremely disillusioned and disgusted with the place and the people living in it. it is honestly rather dystopian—but it could, of course, be much, much worse.
i keep to myself in a rural town in a very remote area of georgia, and it's honestly really nice. i'm surrounded by a community of fine, respectable people.

>>20924740
Do you think America is collapsing?

>>20924757
that's a tough question to answer, but the short answer is yes, i do.
that being said, i'm not sure if it will collapse in the same sense that ancient rome collapsed; rather, i think that it will "rapidly evolve" into something unrecognizable when compared to the vision that the founding fathers had when they wrote the constitution. that does, i think, qualify as a collapse—but i'm unsure as to whether or not that process of rapid evolution will be violent. it could very well happen at a gradual enough pace so that violence on a large scale never erupts.
i am not very well-read when it comes to the history of societal collapses and revolutions, though, so take my words with a grain of salt.

>>20924669
Unironically, this gets me through. When I'm feeling bad, I just look in the mirror at my Germanic facial structure and smooth straight hair and realize my existence could be much much worse.

>>20924757
let me also turn the question back to you, but inverted: do you think Mexico is rebuilding itself, or are things not looking very optimistic?

>>20924728
Not that anon
The US isn't nearly as bad as people make it out to be, if you have money.
It is directly and in the most blatant way, tied with quality of life and safety.
I live in a suburb surrounding a major city. Nearby there's a country club surrounded by stone buildings (none of the pop-up fast food chains you see) in a intelligently designed neighborhood, a block of large houses a minute away, perpetually in the shade, trees older than model-t's , and a modest business park across the street the people work at. You see moms and their kids driving on golf karts on the weekend, beautifully upkept lawns, a cop on every corner, teens with light in their eyes.
Take a 5 minute drive down the street, and its a shithole. There's a pocket of crime surrounding two apartment complexes (goes from safest, to second most dangerous level), and the area is riddled with homeless. Barred up liquor stores, some rat infested Vietnamese food, and a steak n shake that has been condemned for years.
Take a trip downtown and you see the US in a microcosm. Comedy club, casual (but good) food. Amenities, museums, plenty of niche stores and interesting finds. I got a 30's silver certificate for $2 as a gift for my economics teacher over there.
Take a quarter mile walk from that comedy club and you have a library. I went there to read once. A druggie shooting up god knows what in the stall. 2 blacks talking on the phone for an hour, loudly, young librarians with a dead look in their eye. I got harassed by a homeless black begging me for 75 cents for a soda, saying he will pay me back.
Surrounding that library is buildings falling apart, and shut down local businesses
The city, Dallas, is exactly the same. Nice shit surrounded by dirty shit.
Its either the best civilization has to offer, near 3rd world, or people struggling (80 work weeks or 40 hours a week+school) to not live in the 3rd world when they turn 30.

>>20923165
1 is completely delusional. if society becomes completely muttified people will still just make social hierarchies based on who has slightly lighter or darker skin

pour up the whole damn seal imma get laaaaaaaaazy

>>20923102
It's not immoral for niggers to partake in cannibalism since they are not human. So I support this idea.

>>20923062
Beeen doing no fap/porn for 3 weeks now. Haven't been getting any boners or even half chubs. Thought I would be getting them easy just from looking at pretty girls

Has porn/fapping fucked my dick up? Am I impotent now?

>>20925049
start running and shit

>>20925058
I do I exercise and stuff. It's funny when I started exercise over a year ago I was getting boners randomly and fapping out. I still work out but cut porn and fapping an di am yet to get boners

Last night, I decided to hear an audiobook (The Children of Hurin) until and while I was asleep. And while I slept, and still had the headphones on, I had a surreal dream.
I thought I was an elf in the northern march of Doriath. As I was roaming around with Beleg and other elves, I could faintly hear the voice of Christopher Lee dictating events of the story. At one point, I'd entered a massive cave to explore; there I'd found the massive four-leged dragon who was chasing me out of his cave. When Lee had mentioned Nienor (sister of the book protag) I and others went searching after her. I'd woken up shortly after that.

>>20923404
>>20923699
>>20924649
Thank you for the well-wishes, lads.

>>20923822
It did help to get it all out somewhere, instead of just letting the memories swirl around in my head. Thanks for the encouragement man.

>>20923316
>to be honest seeing how it all works up close has made me not want to seek out any more professional help
what did you see?

I am very angry at government.
I went through court, now they are charging me thousands of dollars for my "free" public defence lawyer.
They are taking $25 from my bank for the next 10 years and charging interest.
Should I inflict damage equal or excess of what they are extracting from my account?
What else can I do???

i have the worst gas lately idk why. i had to wake up and rip farts in the middle of the night, and now i woke up and just farted more. i didn't eat anything different from what i always eat, i don't get it.

>>20923062
Neonazis aren't so much ideologically possessed as they are descendants of pirates

>>20925261
The industry is just fucked. The best example of it is the prevalence of CBT over more in-depth psychotherapy. CBT is cheaper, so that's what insurance companies will pay for. This speaks to this broader vibe in the industry that we aren't actually helping most people, we're just giving them something so we can tell ourselves that we did our part to help the downtrodden. Like giving a dollar to a homeless dude and then pretending that you surely have solved all his problems.

>>20925528
are the CBT and meds the future of the industry? is there even a room for more in-depth psychotherapy?

>>20925550
It seems that way. Real psychologists still exist, there just aren't enough of them, and they're mostly in private practices. I work in what is considered to be the best psych hospital in my state and we don't offer psychotherapy. It's just medication and stupid bullshit like "art group." If you want a true blackpill I can tell you about the state of adolescent psych.

>>20925569
>If you want a true blackpill I can tell you about the state of adolescent psych.
Yeah, give the pill doc.

>>20925579
I am not a doctor, I'm not even an RN. You're getting the grunt's perspective on this one.
Adolescent Psych, man. It's a lot of frequent flyers, or kids who are inpatient for months on end (Average stay for an adult is 1 month, by the way). Obviously that population ranges from people who are basically children to people who are basically adults. They all get tossed together on the same ward. They all get a one-size-fits-all treatment plan, so even the relatively mature ones are treated like children, which leads to a lot of resentment. imagine a summer camp where the kids are all locked in and have nothing to entertain them but books. You can see where the problems come in. In my time at this hospital the adolescent unit has had multiple riots and multiple sexual assaults (or at least accusations of sexual assault). You might think that having that happen so often would make the brass think we ought to change it to a male ward a female ward, but they won't. The most egregious one was the classic "Hey let's put a tranny in a room with a teenage girl because if we don't then we're bigots." I think that's also why they refuse to create gender-segregated units.

It's just a nightmare ward full of kids diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Disruptive Mood Dysregulation Disorder, and Major Defiant Disorder. In Layman's terms that's: Being a normal teenager, being a sad teenager, and not listening to one's parents. In really every case I've seen down there that isn't outright psychosis the kids' real issue is that they all have failures for parents who would rather stick them in a hospital than deal with their problems. Better to put them in a hospital so you can tell yourself it's not your fault, the kid just happens to be mentally ill just like some kids happen to get leukemia.

>>20925647
Thats sounds rough for everyone involved. Basicially you just spend a month without getting an actual help. Are there any actual people who're trying to help?

>>20925670
There are, and we do help people. It's just that inpatient psych is really only helpful for someone who will most likely kill themselves (or someone else) if they aren't actively being watched. Once they're past that period there's really nothing that we can do for them. The way it's supposed to work is that people come in in that state and then we keep them safe while the doctors get their meds right, and then we send them out and they continue their treatment on an outpatient basis. People are often stuck with us for longer than that, though. Sometimes the court commits them for a long time, or maybe they just don't have anywhere else to go, or maybe they don't want to go. Sometimes they get out and then stop taking their meds and end up right back inside.

I shall not defile myself.
I shall not defile myself.
I shall not defile myself.
I shall not defile myself.
I SHALL not defile myself.
I SHALL not defile myself.
I SHALL not defile myself.
I SHALL not defile myself.
I SHALL NOT defile myself.
I SHALL NOT defile myself.
I SHALL NOT DEFILE MYSELF!!!!
I SHALL NOT DEFILE MYSELF!!!!
I SHALL NOT DEFILE MYSELF!!!!
I SHALL NOT DEFILE MYSELF!!!!
I SHALL NOT DEFILE MYSELF!!!!

>>20925694
Do you see burnout in docs and RNs? How about yourself? Can't be the easiest job in there as a grunt. I roomed with a floor nurse who was on nights and he was just holding on

>>20925711
Dude. Just do a quick rub and move on.

>>20925721
I don't really talk to any of the doctors. We're all burnt out though. The new hires come in and they're enthusiastic for a few weeks or months, but it always hits them too. It's a difficult job for sure. The one good thing is my coworkers. This is a job where it's not just possible but likely that you're going to go through traumatic events with your coworkers. That breeds comradery like nothing else.

>>20925788
>>20925788
>>20925788

migrate

Victory by winter.

And to think, Ukraine could have had peace this last April if not for Boris Johnson flying in personally to bribe the little puppet on behalf of the US regime

>>20926291
It just feels right that a ton of ukranians are gunna die in cold dark places this holiday season.

>>20924015
>i am usually sympathetic to jewish takes

>>20926505
I wish that Ukrainians would kill their own nazis and surrender soon.

>>20926665
>>20926665
Sun your balls

>>20926714
>>20926714
Fitness influencers just want to see scrotum

>>20926714
Is this a well-wish from your culture?

>>20926729
Its primal trvdition from my cunt

>>20926734
Sun your pussy then

>>20926729
May the sun irradiate your gonads

>>20926760
Hang low and to the right

>>20925724
Fuck you, cunt. I SHALL NOT.