/lit/ - Literature

I'm the first to reply. What does that say about me?

Im watching my life pass by.

Yall niggas gay as fuck.

My balls smell like the spice they put on crabs when they serve them.

>women

>>20491921
You shouldn't use food as masturbating aid.

>>20491912
It means you haven’t yet listened to the video. Please do.

>>20491930
No thank you.

>>20491934
It’s important for you all to hear

>>20491939
Summarize it in one sentence instead. I have zoomer brain.

big titty goth gf soon

>>20491908
are you using the last post subjects as inspiration for the new thread titles? I noticed this covered Women then Greece in the last two. Of which both posts happened to be mine :D

I wonder if we'll roll lucky a third time.

>>20491966
>Of which both posts happened to be mine :D
This, so much this.
Give me your Reddit username so I can give you my free award!

>>20491966
ed.oh wait, greece wasn't even in that last thread. i'm multitasking with morning coffee. pls excuse me.

>>20491969
its DylanRoof1488 but don't judge me by the girly anime avatar on my profile page

>there are biological females ITT
WTF

>>20491979
pretty sure there are none though

>>20491960
seconded
>>20491939
You don't know that. You don't know me: let me introduce myself I'm extremely lazy and selfish and will not watch a video unless it's clear why and how it will directly benefit me. And right now I have four things on my mind:
1. Finding more opportunities to monetize my artistic skills such that I can spend all my time working on my technique
2. Determining which project is going to best marry my aesthetic ambitions with my professional ones
3. Finding a pseud art-ho gf
4. The fact that now that it's winter, and raining, I'm poasting on this shithole site again. Mainly because I can't answer point 2, and haven't succeeded in point 3 since as another anon in a previous thread pointed out: gf's are time sinks

>>20491960
Your zoomer drain has been balkanized and it’s on purpose. Listen for about ten minutes. Let him tell you his story

>>20491985
The general crowd of anonymous lit posters does need to hear it. You admit to being just such a person.

>>20491979
You already posted this at least once. Do they frighten you?

>>20491985
>it's winter
You're in the Southern Hemisphere so your opinion is of no value at all.
Also it's not even winter because it's not June 21st yet.

>>20491997
Female hands wrote this.

>>20492005
So?

Female hands typed this.

i want goth female hands around my dick

>>20491908
out of laziness i decided to record myself rambling my head off instead of putting in the effort of organizing them into letters and writing them into my diary, and holy shit was it a (slightly) scary experience. i started throwing out ideas and hypotheticals related to a project that is very near and dear to my heart, and i quickly lost myself in the flood, with a bunch of uncontrolled occurences: talking in a hushed yet shaky voice instead of my usually obnoxious rural drawl, and doing it way too quickly ; jumping from one topic to the next in miliseconds ; sudden changes in tone, where i'd go from worry into an animalistic rage and almost screaming about fuckin steaks of all things for no reason whatsoever ; walking back and forth for an hour ; rhetorical questions, lots of em ; and the one that scared me the most was an instance where i was blabbering so incoherently that i couldn't even make out what i was saying at all once i listened to the recording myself, sounding like i was possessed by a sumerian demon for a few seconds, before returning to the jittering once again.
i was sounding like a complete schizo trying to make sense of my fringe project with numerous references to it being my little baby and my masterpiece and sticking it to ''them''. none of this was premeditated, i was simply out of my head. i kept going in and out of a state of awareness, as in being aware of how absurd i was then dropping back into madness.
mind you that i've been straight edge for all of my life and there is, to my knowledge, no history of severe mental illness in my family outside of the typical depression and whatnot.
what in the world did this experience mean? is this the famous state of hilarity that poets like to wax about?

>>20492005
This is truly going deep if you see women everywhere. Next thing you'll be posting about trying to hump a floor lamp because you thought some fashion model broke into your house.

>>20491992
Why do they need to hear it? What specific topic does it concern, what specific result can we expect to see from it? And if you are unspecific or speak in grand platitudes or resort to a non-conclusive "you just have to see it for yourself" then I will know there is nothing of worth in it.

I feel that I am vastly superior to everyone else around me

He posted what?? Another Guenon thread? Jesus fucking christ, seven guenon threads on the catalogue and the motherfucker still chooses to make another guenon thread...I already got my guys spamming "pbuh" and "ywnbaw" but as things are going might as well just make some marxist or frogpost bait threads and see if we can some easy (yous)...

>>20492000
Does anyone's "opinion" have value ever? Then again what is value? I mean if we consider an opinion to be a subjective judgement which might be contrasted to a demonstrable fact, then when does a opinion ever contain any value?
>Also it's not even winter because it's not June 21st yet.
That is a demonstrable fact, yes

>>20492024
I'm going to throw out a batshit insane theory: but did you maybe get lightheaded because you're not used to speaking at length like that, and you lost your breath?
>i was sounding like a complete schizo trying to make sense of my fringe project with numerous references to it being my little baby and my masterpiece and sticking it to ''them''. none of this was premeditated
Do you feel this way, even unconciously, the rest of the time. Do you feel an antagonism to a nebulous "them" or even a specific one?

>>20492037
>>20491985
you sound like an unsufferable 17 years old faggot.

>>20492043
I see, and why should I care what you think?

>>20491979
/lit/ is now a tacofest. the quality will not change.

hello

>>20492042
it has been a sleepless night, but no i am fairly used to speaking at length in a relatively calm and pleasant manner, sometimes to friends or online acquaintances and even to my own.
As for "them", it really depends on the context. It's not nebulous, it's just flexible. For example, i was using that term at one point to refer to certain people in my field that i genuinely don't like and feel that they have done more harm than good to what we work in. If I was talking about another subject, i would be antagonistic towards another group. That's fairly normal practice from what I gather.

Made some really good pasta and now listening to some rachmaninoff but whenever I listen to classical music I get in a very miserable state and can only think about how lonely I am. How do you cope with being lonely, bros?

>>20491997
I dont like them in my safe space.

>>20492056
hello

>>20492059
>As for "them", it really depends on the context. It's not nebulous, it's just flexible.
Ahh okay, I was just trying to figure out if you were dealing with an overwhelming victim mentality and I think the fact who "them" referred to changed based on your tangent makes me think that's not the case.
>That's fairly normal practice from what I gather.
Yes, I think I misinterpreted your post.

>>20492063
>safe space
That sounds like female hands typed this...

>>20492011
>So?
Females only read garbage.
>>20492026
Its evident that youre a female by the lack of coherence in what you just wrote. Were you trying to be funny?

"WOMEN could be here", he thought, "I've never been in this thread before. There could be WOMEN anywhere". The glare of his screen felt good against his greasy face. "I HATE WOMEN" he thought. Running Up That Hill reverberated his entire basement room, making it pulsate even as the 9$ energy drink circulated through his partly obstructed veins and washed away his (merited) fear of biological females on the internet. "With an electric scooter, you can go anywhere you want" he said to himself, out loud.

ITT: we are the little grill

>>20492061
listen to Radiohead instead

>>20492089
>t. female

>>20492095
no

>>20492084
Ohhh baby, I dont know if I can handle that big meat of yours. Im just a small grill and thats a quarter pounder beef steak your packing.

>>20492098
...we can share my sandwich anontama

>>20490291
Thank you for the bait, it made me curious to search for this story and I found the The Death of Peregrine. It was fun to read!

nigga this history shit is lowkey fire fr fr, on god the only thing missing is some thicc hoe with some fat ass to rest on my huge dick while we listen to this audibook shit. Why audiobook? Nigga I cant reaad!

>>20492024
enlightenment can be a scary thing anon

>>20492029
Your education, your demeanor. It’s really quite inspiring. But as I said before, listen to about ten minutes for a hook.
I’m just not interested in transcribing it for a board made up of people who don’t like to read much. So consume the information audibly and enjoy

I compared a passage I always loved from One Hundred Years of Solitude between the French translation and the English translation. It's so much better in French it's not even funny.

It made me wonder which one is the closest to the Spanish original. A quick (sorry) Google Translate gives me the impression that the English version is actually quite closer to the Spanish one.

I'm very ambivalent about this. Should a translator just translate as close to source as possible or take some amount of freedom in making the translation "better"? Like the French version is better in some choice of words and kind use some more fancy or literary way of saying things all while keeping the core meaning, which sound very nice. But if the author wrote it in a simpler way, shouldn't it have been translated like that?

Sometimes I cant tell if I'm browsing /lit/, /his/ or /x/.

>>20492166
What's the passage?

>>20492082
Kek

>>20492166
What was the link for the AI image generator?

>>20492186
https://huggingface.co/spaces/dalle-mini/dalle-mini

>>20492188
Thanks

>>20492175
It was /b/ all along.

>>20492179

>Spanish
Meme le tomó la mano y se dejé llevar. La última vez que Fernanda la vio, tratando de igualar su paso con el de la novicia, acababa de cerrarse detrás de ella el rastrillo de hierro de la clausura. Todavía pensaba en Mauricio Babilonia, en su olor de aceite y su ámbito de mariposas, y seguiría pensando en él todos los días de su vida, hasta la remota madrugada de otoño en que muriera de vejez, con sus nombres cambiados y sin haber dicho nunca una palabra, en un tenebroso hospital de Cracovia.

>English
Meme took her hand and let herself be led. The last time that Fernanda saw her, trying to keep up with the novice, the iron grating of the cloister had just closed behind her. She was still thinking about Mauricio Babilonia, his smell of grease, and his halo of butterflies, and she would keep on thinking about him for all the days of her life until the remote autumn morning when she died of old age, with her name changed and her head shaved and without ever having spoken a word, in a gloomy hospital in Cracow.

>French
Meme lui prit la main et se laissa conduire. Fernanda l’aperçut pour la dernière fois, tâchant de régler son pas sur celui de la novice, alors que venait de se refermer sur elle la herse de fer du cloître. Elle pensait encore à Mauricio Babilonia, à son odeur d’huile et aux papillons qui l’environnaient, et elle continuerait d’y penser chaque jour de sa vie jusqu’à cette aube d’un automne encore éloigné où elle mourrait de vieillesse, sous une autre identité que la sienne et sans avoir prononcé une parole, dans quelque ténébreux hospice de Cracovie.

Example, that very last sentence.
>en un tenebroso hospital de Cracovia
Instead of saying "un", they used "quelque", which would be the equivalent of "in some hospital". Means the same as "un" but is kind of fancier. Well not fancier, it somehow implies like... more, but I can't easily explain it.

They also translated "hospital" to "hospice", which actually has the same meaning as in English, that is a place where old people that are often sick or in loss of autonomy go. It's pretty different from just a normal medical hospital, which would have been "hôpital".

The name thing also.
>con sus nombres cambiados
The Spanish text clearly says "with her name changed", but in French they said "under an other identity than her own". Again, the same core meaning, but just, more. It's not just her name, it's her whole identity.

The verb tenses in French and English are also very different, but I really can't comment on that since I know nothing of verb tenses in Spanish.

>>20491962
Holy fuck this.

https://youtu.be/yJpJ8REjvqo
Buenas noches, /lit/

Is it normal to be obsessed with another girl despite having a girlfriend you love? My brain tells me no but my heart tells me yes.

I will fuck her one day. I will feel perpetually cucked my entire life if I don't.

>>20492241
It's not normal, it means you are possessive and that what you feel for your girlfriend isn't love. Seek help.

>Islam is a dangerous religion, and has been from the moment it appeared. Fortunately, it is doomed. On one hand, because God does not exist, and even if someone is an idiot, he will eventually realize that. In the long run, the truth will triumph. On the other hand, Islam is undermined from the inside by capitalism. We can only hope that it will triumph rapidly. Materialism is a lesser evil. Its values are contemptible, but nevertheless less destructive, less cruel than those of Islam

>>20492246
Gigacope.

Im thinking about ending things.

>>20492293
terrible book

>>20492295
theres a book?

gg

>>20492298
and it SUCKS

>>20492201
>more, but I can't easily explain it.
I think this is kind of cultural. Un doesn't get used in a dismissive sense in french. You need to use quelque to get that "some" vibe, but it's present in un in Spanish anyway. Hospital also is culture thing, in Spanish speaking countries (and a lot of other countries) it means something closer to "clinic" rather than what the French hôpital would mean- even the long stay hôpital has more of campus or even compound implication of a larger organisation, and the shack that passes for a hospital in Spanish speaking areas wouldn't be considered the same thing. Hospice is to reduce the building's imposition to something less institutionalised.
The last one is because if you put in "with her name changed" in french, it's a longass clause, and if you use other phrases it sounds really weird. French also doesn't pick up on the Spanish naming convention by which you have names and not a name. Identity not your own solves those problems.
I think the translator did a good job but the problem is that a language has a lot of assumptions built in about what the standard size shape and meaning of a concept is- if you say suburb in french, generally it will conjure up a very different and far more violent image than if you say it in English where it will be more sleepy and low-rise and boring.
A really obvious example between French and English this reminds me of is that a nom de guerre/nom de plume. You can use nom de plume in french, but it's borrowed from English use. Guerre sticks in the English mind as "war" in a way they can't get over, while in french it's just the way you say pseudonym, so English invented nom de plume to get it closer to the idea that was already in English of "pen name". For a pseudonym not used in war or writing though, they use neither phrase and go with pseudonym or alias. In french you can use nom de guerre in a much broader sense without thinking of war, despite French speakers understanding the guerre part much more easily than your standard English speaker.

big dicks will rule the world

not to sound like an after-school special but I think I finally may have just understood the meaning of something like
>for as long as you don't forgive them, they still have power over you
at 31 years of age.

around 30% of personal problems can probably be made 10x easier by learning to ask better questions, this generally means tying problems to specific events rather than vague feelings. For example "I am too lazy" becomes "I have left the dishes in the sink for three days so far".
however the lion's share of problems are issues of execution, most people who aren't severely depressed can make the choice to clean the dishes, so too can all the other specific things that are hanging around as reminders that they are "lazy". If you do enough of them then you'll start to question your original judgement "I'm so lazy... wait, I cleaned the dishes after I got home from work, dropped my girlfriend off at work, did the groceries, and just rotated the tires on my car. Am I lazy?"
All these tasks are relatively straightforward, you don't need to be a genius to do them, however what if your personal problem involves something a bit more complicated?
>My girlfriend wants to move in with me in the next couple of months, but I don't want to renew my lease here and want to move to the other side of town where there's better work opportunities. I am happy to live with her, but only once I find a new place, but I don't know if she wants to go too far away from where I am now because of her job. I'm also afraid of telling her this because she'll probably misinterpret as me not wanting her to move in ever
or
>I have been out of work for a long time and my father has offered me to loan me (and probably even tell me to 'keep it' once sufficient time has passed) the money to buy a small mobile franchise, however since he has made this offer I have been offered a job through a friend which will pay okay. The problem is I've researched this franchise and I'll be lucky to break even. I don't want to offend my father and I feel bad taking his money, especially if he doesn't expect me to pay it back because it feels like it would be a waste when I could have a much more secure income. I don't want to offend my friend either.
Relationships, be they familial, romantic, professional, or platonic are always much more complicated, and while the principle of section it into smaller problems will help somewhat, the fundamental problem is that there is no immediate solution or even a compromise solution that is apparent. This accounts for over half of personal problems, it is quite simply not knowing what can in fact be done about it that won't absolutely fucking suck.
The girlfriend thing can be broken into separate problems of communication (how far is she willing to move? Why does she want it to be 'now'?) and employment (where would I work? Could she get a new job?) and real-estate (What kind of places are available for rent there?) but rectifying them in a non-catastrophic solution could be difficult unless all handled well.
Of course... she could just move in and then move out with him to the new place BUT I'm not smart enough to think of an example that is enough of a dilemma

>>20492406
if you hate them that means they have won
>from the words of Confucius

>>20492406
>>20492414
Rent free is more concise

>>20492414
>>20492416
yea I'm a very slow learner.

soon it will be on your mind too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uHQZNNajxOk

AAAAAAAAAAH MOON IN ARIES AND MARS IN CANCER ARE LITERALLY THE SHITTIEST POSITIONS. WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE IT BOTH? HEAVENS KNOW, IM MISERABLE NOW.

>>20492313
Good post, thanks for the explanations on Spanish things.

For "with her name changed", yeah translating it literally kind of sounds unnatural in French. They could have used "ayant changé son nom" or something like that, but I like what they chose.

>>20492468
The stars just fucking hate you this week.

>>20492468
what is your favorite sex position anon?

>>20491908
Good morning sirs

My girlfriend just told me she was "hypnotized" and touched herself at the command of someone online, but "broke out" before cumming.

How do I break up with the bitch and ruin her life in the worst way possible?

Can everything be described by mathematical objects? Is there anything else needed?

>>20492628
How would you describe what you're experiencing right now, reading these words, as mathematical objects?

>>20491908

ARE THERE ANY GIRLS IN HERE THAT LIKE MY FAVORITE BAND "The Shins"

>>20492589
i never had sex

they really do treat life like i play rpg games

>>20492634
Through integrated information system. I can’t feasibly compute it.

>>20492654
How long would it normally take for someone to write something like this? I ask because I think I write slow.

Finally.

I have started the sought after scribbling journey of my ideals. My inner forms and thoughts becoming realized.

Yet far from the final.

Carefully treading along white pages, reaching their end, again and again. Working my way down the rows of nothingness. Filling them with splendor. By white space the content framed.

The text itself yearns for a grand finale.

What are my creation but a reflection of my own mind and my bookshelf? No. That cannot be it. The words that penetrated my head, fertilized, takes on a life of itself.

I both digest and excrete. a fine ally to myself.

More and more I’m drawn towards american country culture. The music is good, they have their own mythos and their culture seems distinct from the ones present on the suburban hellscapes of all their major cities. Their values are cool too, especially the ones related to being self sufficient. I don’t know why someone would make fun of rednecks for being able to hunt/cultivate their own food and fix their house, car and domestic appliances. Hell, I hope to at some point be able to do half as much. They also put a lot of importance on family, which I find refreshing.
I even want to try my hands at their recipes at some point, since stuff like pulled pork looks delicious.
Anyway, it’s a solitary interest of mine, since - even though a lot of people in my country idolise the US - they are completely ignorant of anything besides what reaches them through social media and pop culture, both of which are usually pretty biased against country life.
I feel like that Kenichi Smith meme for wanting to learn about the history of these places and pick up hobbies such as playing the banjo and fixing things, but these interests seem cool to me.

>>20492589
mine is peepee in poopoo

girlfriend and I have only had sex once a month for a few years now. I’ve brought up this is an issue numerous times and nothing has changed. what do? relationship is good in almost every other way. but, it’s so bad I almost don’t even want to have sex with her now given how uninterested she’s shown herself to be.

>>20492740
>for a few years now
that's a long time

>>20492740
What's her explanation?

How do I get people to like me? I try talking to people on discord but I always just get ignored. I don't have any irl friends either. What's wrong with me? I always try to be kind, understanding, trusting... could it be that I'm a manipulative cunt who only feels like he's a good person? I try to evaluate myself objectively. I don't think I'm that bad

>>20492740
Maybe something is interfering with her sex drive? It could be all sorts of issues, including stress and low self-esteem. The most you can do is try and have an honest conversation about it every now and then. Or maybe google causes and see if you recognize some symptoms.

>>20492760
>I try talking to people on discord but I always just get ignored.
Do you have any previous relationship with them?
How do you open?

>>20492750
together fivish years, it’s only been an issue the past two or three I would say (on and off, except for the past year)

>>20492756
>>20492771
More or less, she says mental health and self-esteem, and I believe it (she’s not cheating or anything). I also know I’m not as “touchy” as I could be (and probably used to be), which is probably important for her to be in the mood. The problem is that it’s a vicious cycle—she doesn’t ever want to, so I feel distant, which makes her not want to, etc.

We used to a lot more and when we do it’s always good, plus our relationship is pretty good in every other way. Plus we’re close with each others’ families, supported each other through grad school, etc. This has really been getting me down though and I’ve been thinking about ending it, especially since it doesn’t seem to be getting better. Feeling pretty lost and hopeless, honestly.

>>20492801
what have you tried so far?

>>20492720
I think it’s all superficial.

Do we not have the same possibilities in regard to writing that were available to previously?

Poetry is long dead and the written novel appears to be dying. There is very little interest.

>>20492807
I bring it up once in a while, try to explain how it makes me feel and it’s just not about sex, she tries to explain her end and vaguely gestures at mental health/self-esteem while being genuinely sympathetic, things are better for a bit, and then back to nothing. I really don’t know what else to do. I’m only in my mid to late 20’s, I feel like my life shouldn’t be like this yet.

>>20492823
>I feel like my life shouldn’t be like this yet.
I think this is holywood conditioning. life is odd most of the time, there isn't really anything to compare to, you get what you get.

why self-esteem? what does this have to do with it? why is it a problem?

>>20492831
That’s fair. I’m trying not to wallow or “woe is me” too much, I just want things to work out and have a more fulfilling relationship. Honestly me libido isn’t that high either, but there’s definitely a mismatch.

She basically says she’s not in the mood that often, and when she isn’t it’s a self-esteem thing—not feeling “sexy” enough, which I understand. For her part, she does try to initiate when she’s in the mood; it’s just once every few weeks/a month. I’ve basically stopped trying since I feel like I’m forcing myself on her, which isn’t very erotic for me.

my country is going downhill and everyone is fighting for it

>>20492843
>not feeling “sexy” enough, which I understand
why? to both of the above. why wouldn't she and why do you understand that she doesn't?

>>20492853
what country?

I wanted to buy cigarettes on the way home but stopped myself. Now I'm home and I really want a cigarette.

looking for a manga to read

>>20492810
You mean the culture itself or how I relate to it? If it’s the latter, of course it’s superficial. I’ve never even been to these places. The aspects of their lifestyle that manage to reach me just seem interesting and fun.

>>20492861
eSwatini :/

>>20492866
the authorities of my country advice anyone in eSwatini to lay low and avoid crowds. we're very developed, this is probably good advice anon.

>>20492859
It makes that she doesn't want to because she has issues with her mental health (namely depression), which is pretty reasonable to think effects your libido--especially if a side effect is feeling unattractive, lowering your self-esteem, etc. I don't think there's really an external cause and I'm pretty supportive in all the right ways. I also understand because I don't always feel like having sex either, and I've said no before for similar reasons at times. So I see where she's coming from, but the issue is that it's almost all of the time. Even if she's "in the right," I'm still not happy in the relationship. So what does one do?

>>20492801
>I also know I’m not as “touchy” as I could be
Do you think that might have affected her self-esteem?
>she says mental health and self-esteem
So does she not enjoy it any more? Has she put on weight? Is she under stress? You say you believe it, so I'm going to assume that they are legitimate explanations but without knowing what exactly that is doing to cause her not to want to have sex, it's hard to understand.

>>20492884
I think her lack of libido happened before my tendency to be slightly more distant, so that's the direction of causation. But I also think it's also become a vicious cycle at this point, to some degree.

She does enjoy it when we do it--because she wants to then, it seems. The problem is all the time she doesn't want to. There really haven't been significant outward changes like weigh gain, acute mental health crises, etc. I "understand it" more in the sense that it's in line with her character as I've seen it over the years--neurotic, low self-esteem, depression, sometimes uncomfortable with intimacy, etc. It's just that, for a long time, we were still having regular sex despite all that. So, the change in that arena without any real apparent external cause leads me to think it's something with me or our relationship, but I can't see what. Hence, being unhappy in the relationship and wanting to end it. She says it's nothing to do with me or "us" and I believe her, but at the same time I can't think of any other explanation. We have good communication so I really think she'd tell me if I could be doing something differently or she was unhappy with our relationship.

>>20492877
very tough situation. I think it can be an enormous strain on a relationship if one party needs the other like that for a long time, like I assume she needs your support in all of this. Because you have every right to need her too, but it ends up being put on hold. Are you attempting any treatments? I think it would be very unfortunate if the two of you would have to fall on going through depression, which is probably more or less out of your hands and against which you're really on the same side, but where the strain of it gets to be too much. On the other hand at some point I don't think anyone could blame you, but it's very sad and I wish for the two of you it doesn't end like that. You're gonna have to see how much time you can give. Otherwise I can only think of things like "reigniting the spark" like going on a trip or something. Changing the environment. But if she really struggles with all of that that is unlikely to be a solution. Just know that all things change. If she has those problems then they came from somewhere unseen and they will pass, sooner or later. All things change. But no one could blame you.

If I were in your place I'd pray a lot. I get that's not what everyone does, but that's what I'd do. Good luck.

>>20492927
Thanks for the kind words anon. I really appreciate it. I've been trying to tell myself similar things but hearing it from another person helps a lot. I'll be thinking about what you said.

>>20492865
The culture itself. I think there may have been a time where it was a way of life but now it’s just identification with particular things.

Are manga and comics inherently childish?

What is the point of enlightenment or whatever if you live in a world that is fundamentally incompatible with the realisations that come with enlightenment. I mean I guess that is the whole point, that you transcend the need for mortal society. But I love my family and friends and a life without them doesn't seem worth living. Well, I guess I'm still a far ways away hey.

I realised I'm basically a character from a Michel Houellebecq novel.

>>20492896
It takes two to tango, so while it's a vicious cycle and from your telling it is her who has changed not you, you could try to break the cycle
>So, the change in that arena without any real apparent external cause leads me to think it's something with me or our relationship, but I can't see what
And that may be the case, people can become incompatible without it really being any one person's fault. I tend to think bad communication does make that drift or increasing incompatibility compound, at least in my limited experience in relationships, but it sounds like you two have been pretty open and honest with each other.
Is there anything else external to sex which you feel unsatisfied with?

>>20492935
Visual media are not inherently more childish than written media, but 99% if not 100% of manga and comics are childish in nature.

>>20492947
You and everyone on this site, well done.

>>20492955
Not really, everything else is great. That's part of what makes this so shitty.

I try my best, but I really feel like I've exhausted my communication remedies at this point--any more and I'm essentially nagging her. The last time I told her I wasn't happy and this wasn't working for me and that I didn't expect things to change, so went about as far as I could without breaking things off. That's kind of why I feel like I'm at the end of my rope.

>>20492956
>99% if not 100% of manga and comics are childish in nature.
elaborate on this

>>20492956
Where my khhvirgins at? 28 here.

>>20492624
Just ghost the shit out of her. It will drive her insane. Get with another girl as soon as possible even if you don't particularly care for the bitch just to make your soon to be excited seethe. Don't worry she'll get over it once she finds her next cock.

>>20492965
right here.
30 khhv

>>20492963
I think he means the medium isn’t necessarily childish but for whatever reason it’s used to childish ends. I can agree but think he is way over-exaggerating with 99%.

Will we ever see more great novelists or are the few that we have now the last cohort?

>>20492961
I'm sorry that it's gotten to that point my man, I didn't mean to imply you weren't communicating. The opposite in fact, it sounds like you guys have been quite honest either each other. It is pretty shitty, and I can see why it just doesn't make sense to you.

>>20492979
of course we will. stop being a retarded doomer

>tfw literally did fuckall today

>>20491908
I woke up with blurred vision today and it hasn't cleared. Is this the end bros?

What are some books without love?

>>20492965
I'm a khv but my cope is that I'm from a very culturally conservative country so most unmarried men my age aren't getting regular sex.

>>20493107
This is only the beginning…. Of spring. If they hurt try some eyedrops

>>20492024
i tried doing this and it was strange. i like how much easier it is to focus on one thing when you're talking about it out loud. when did this conspiracy against talking to oneself start?

I was busy with work from 05:30 to 17:20 today again.
This is unacceptable. I was seething while driving my coworker home

>>20492965
33 here.

Ive spent all year desperately trying to feel something. Now I feel like shit. I hate having feelings

>>20493389
welding engineer anon?

>>20492965
maybe i am, maybe i'm not

>>20493390
You got to be real weird to get to 33 khv
My brohter is a legit autist who has no hobbies outside of gaming. I'm pretty sure he never had a friend outside of xbox live.
He landed some poon last year and now has a gf. He was khv up until 30 (outside of paying a whore in his 20s)

>>20493401
It is me. I thought yesterday was bad but traffic was fucked today. Also I need to make a playlist for the ride back too. Radio is just too awful and half the time don't play music.

>>20492056
Henlo

>>20493408
literally all it takes is strong social anxiety

>>20493408
I was recently diagnosed with Aspergers. And I don't have friends outside of a small internet community originally built around video games.

>>20493437
My brother barely said anything at school. He got bullied.
He had no friends. He was a true incel yet even he managed by pure will to score some ass.
All it takes is taking some action.

>>20493438
Which means there's hope for you.
I mean I'll be honest, he didn't score a 8/10 but he did get a gf

>>20492084

>>20493031
Sure doesn’t seem that way.

>>20493408
Luck is the most powerful force.

You guys obsess over women too much, they aren't worth it.

>>20493479
What a valuable opinion mr. sex haver.

>>20493482
I've went volcel years ago, you'd too after gaining some experience with women born after 1990.

>>20493466
You're ngmi

None of my coworkers read books or speak a language other than English. They don’t know a world beyond their little cliques. At night, I dream that I’m a dragon that lays waste to imbeciles and illiterates.

>>20493389
Clean it up, wagie

>>20493536
7 more weeks and I'll join you.
Will probably sleep all week the first week i quit my job

>>20491988
The definitive book about the Balkanization of the brain.

Bros Ive figured out how to lose weight. Just be super fucking stressed out and you wont eat.

>>20493643
Fasting works great. Fuck diets, just don't eat

>>20493643
but I eat even more under stress.

>>20493650
Are you never so stressed that your stomach is a knot?

>>20493529
just deal with the fact that most peopple are idiots and you'll be ok

>>20493667
maybe under very extreme stress but the food is usually the stress reliever.

Movement is the nature of all things.
The essence of things is what lies between.

Everything comes together, while things fall apart.
The many become one, and are increased by one as one among many.
The cosmos weaves.

A creator is as much created by the act of creating as a creation.
There is no creator, and no creation, instead co-creativity between the many.

The entire universe dies and is reborn in the present moment.
The ash of the past endures, while the future allures.

Life is a wager by an organism about the possibility of success.
To seek the unknown is the ultimate life-affirming act.

>tfw you fall in love with a girl from a youtube video

>>20493650
Try drinking more water as substitute.

>>20493798
I drink but not water. 3 0.5l cans of energy drink today.

>>20493819
I'd be careful with that, energy drinks can contribute to gaining weight because they often contain a lot of sugar.

>>20493835
I'm already a fatass so that's not a problem. I had to drink my stress away. If I'd be a brave person, I'd take drugs and not cowards way like food, alcohol or cigarettes.

>>20493769

my brain has been balkanized

>>20492024
I go for nature walks and record myself speaking. I find my best thoughts come out when I'm walking and I can find it very hard to find them again when I go to sit down to write.

Am I really going to move continents and learn chinese for a woman

>>20493769
I fell in love with a tiktok girl. She was supposed tomove to my area for university but then covid happened

>>20493769
>tfw you develop a crush on your friend’s ex girlfriend that you only saw a couple of times years ago and have no contact whatsoever
We would hit it off, I am sure of it after continuously stalking her twitter feed.
She looks a lot like that cheerleader from the new season of Stranger Things, even ships the character with Eddie. Fuck, I could be Eddie. Funny sperg with a heart of gold is practically my life role.
>>20494002
Sounds delusional.Almost as much as me.

>>20491908
need to find the perpetual long, sell it to the military, trademark that shit, buy a fuck ton of bonds and sit on my ass until the end of time, collecting art probably.

>>20494002
Dude gook girls will move to western countries and speak perfect english for you

>>20494006
>>20494016
yeah but i want her to be my wife

AbeBooks has sent me a second copy of the book i ordered out of fear that the first copy is lost in transit. My only hope is that both copies get delivered to me so that I can at least feel like I won this battle. But the truth is they still have the upper hand. They have my money, my book, and the shipping info, which they are still not giving me. I am left with nothing. My life is in shambles. I haven't been eating or showering much. A lightbulb in my room went out and I am too lazy to replace it. The other day my boss told me I looked like shit and sent me home out of pity. HR is counting it as a sick day.

I am left a husk of man and it is all because of AbeBooks.

>>20494037
I feel sorry for AbeBooks, those poor people can get some real schizos for customers.

>>20494024
>>20494006 here, do you think I don’t want a hot and smart redhead christian wife that finds me funny and has a thing for nerds?
>>20494037
I love you, Abe anon, and hope you find your peace and your book.

>>20494053
yeah but im already in a year long relationship with this woman unlike you and your imaginary wife

>>20494044
I just want what I payed for and a proper experience as a customer. I am not a schizo.

>>20494063
Kek, fair enough. Good luck in China, anon.

>>20494071
thanks, I have 8 months to become at least conversationally fluent in chinese

>>20494037
Anon the book got lost by a retard letter carrier. They corrected the problem by sending a new one.

>>20494024
She can be your wife in whichever western country you live in. I know tons of chinese immigrant women who married white dudes. Not a single one of the white dudes speaks a lick of ching chong. I too will marry a chinese immigrant and no way in fucking hell I'll learn her bing bong language

test

>>20494084
im not white

>>20494098
What are you? The chinese might not like you in their country

Moved to Brisbane last year and got a girlfriend back in November.

I've slept naked ever since we started spending most nights together. It's just nice sharing your bodies with each other, - being able to freely touch whatever bits you want.

It's now a very cold Winter. And apparently I line at which I stop prioritising sex past is an eight degree night.

>>20494108
Moroccan + Italian

>>20492965
30

>>20494119
Look anon, I dropped the Nordisicm autism years ago. You're probably white enough. Why not have her move to Italy with you? You will probably hate living in china

>>20494119
based and moorpilled

>>20494115
Please suck her titties for me.
I miss than since being single

>still no nymphomaniac /x/ gf with huge tits and ass.

>>20494157
My brother in Christ...

>>20494129
I'm an American from an extremely poor background and she is from a quite wealthy Chinese family. I went to a shitty state school and am soon to finish my Master's degree at a top 5 school for maths here in the US and she went from China to MIT. I really don't have much of anything here and she is set on going back home, so either I follow or I eat shit and hope to find another woman in the next 5 or so years before I become too old to find anyone my age that is of value as I'm not super into the idea of marrying a much younger woman.

When you have gf and you both sleep in the same bed how do you stop yourself from unconsciously farting all night? Theres some nights depending on what I eat that I cant stop farting and I cant imagine how awkward I would feel farting nexting to my gf

>>20494174
You just have to get over the embarrassment and let it loose.

>>20494174
she loves you
she doesnt care

>>20494174
If you fart oncontrollably you're weird.
Do not listen to this anon: >>20494176
My last relationship lasted about a year and not once did she fart, or at least i did not notice.
As for me I sneaked them in here and there. only once getting caught when she suddenly pulled the blanket off us and she got hit with a smell.

Letting loose is just gross, I want a woman who at least tries to hide stuff like that from me.
Unless you have a giant impressive fart loaded, then I'd let rip

>>20494156
will do, anon.
it's like 5am here so we're gonna go to bed now

>>20494157
yes but I do now. and that's the main thing

>>20491908
I keep wasting money on harlequin dolls. I can't stop.

>>20494174
My problem is that I move around a lot and kick in my sleep

last night for the first time in my life I dreamt I was a father

>>20494189
The relationship that will last includes both people involved starting to feel so comfortable around each other that normal body functions are not cause of major awkwardness. Of course really loud, awfully smelly fart will always be gross, but he can get over that by being a bit more careful about his diet.
Your ex-girlfriend did fart from time to time, it's just how digestion works, she was probably so scared of your opinion that she hid it better than you did. Keeping it in can cause major discomfort, bloating, and some if it may be absorbed into bloodstream and exhaled. Some sources claim it could cause inflammation of the colon, but there is not enough proof, which is however not reason to take risks.

>>20491908
Nice pic

Does being a woman make me a bad person

>>20494235
Look, I'm not interested in you justifying your fart fetish.
It's common decency to not fart when someone is around. I imagine you meeting your gfs parents and just letting one rip right? Do you also tell the lie that otherwise it would be absorbed in your bloodstream?

It's about manners. She wasn't scared since she had no issue burping kind of loudly from time to time (which I also disapproved of). It's just rude to fart out loud. Anyone can fuck up but don't pretend like burping farting and other gross stuff should be normalized.

>>20494242
Yes but you can remedy it by posting feet

No but women don't really have a firm essence and sense of their place in the world right now so it's hard to be a woman

>>20494174
Stop eating gluten if you're allergic

>>20494249
anon was talking about farting in private, during sleep, the whole conversation is about it, it says more about you if you immediately think about fetishes and farting in front of guests.

>>20494257
>women don't really have a firm essence and sense of their place in the world right now
Does anyone though?

>>20494291
Yes, men cope with the collapse of institutionally and socially available forms of healthy masculinity by retreating into Männerbünde. Even depressed and dislocated men still have thousands of years of symbols and primal forms of association and communal meaning to fall back on. Women are strung awkwardly between the period when they were retarded infantilized domestics, and the modern period where they are told the lie that they are just like men and should be able to conform to male institutions and social forms perfectly. Ten thousand years of social development separates men from paleolithic hunter-rapists. Women are in the same position vis-a-vis their own primal femininity as the first men to start farming and trying to figure out forms of social life that don't revolve around skull piles and rape.

I need an art hoe gf whos into the occult bros.

>>20494257
In all of my years in 4chan I never bothered learning how to hide the text for spoilers or whatever. How do I do it?

>>20494349
Hope you have a time machine that goes at least as far back as Edwardian otherwise you're getting pothead mixed race astrology girl who doesn't shave her body

a gun with no bullets is still a gun

I’m going to be graduating from nursing school soon. I know I want to move out of Massachusetts, but I have no idea where I want to move to. I know I want somewhere that’s more populous and doesn’t have harsh winters, but that’s about it. Does anyone have any recommendations for cities/states I might be interested in?

>>20494283
What whole conversation? Literally just his post.
In my first reply I said:
>Letting loose is just gross, I want a woman who at least tries to hide stuff like that from me.
If this is too uptight for you then you're a weirdo.

>>20494358
ctrl+s

>>20494379
Dont you enjoy smelling your own farts?

>>20494379
I'm beginning to understand why she broke up with you.

>>20494386
Snarky reply. Get lost fartboy

>>20494384
Sometimes. I do not enjoy smelling other peoples farts and think it rude to fart noticable among other people.

>>20494367
Southern California

>>20494435
Good god why would you advise anyone go to that soon to be Mexican failed state. So they can spend 50 years dealing with government red tape and spend 5000% over budget to do anything with their own land and property, while paying 5000% more taxes for 10% of the basic services they'd enjoy in a real state?

I spit on California, FUCK California

>>20494442
SoCal is comfy. i love it here.

>>20494435
California is widely recognized as the best state for nurses, but I have absolutely no interest in moving to California. Easily the most spiritually desolate state in the country.

>>20494367
what made you to choose nursing?

>>20494463
It's all about who you surround yourself with. I know a bunch of great conservative guys I get on great with. I live in a gentrified area and escape into the mountains or desert when I want to get away.
You dont have to be some slum dweller surrounded by homos. Besides, if you want to escape frigid winters you have basically no other option.

I adore Russian culture so much its unreal. Their classical composers like Tchaikovsky, Shostakovich, Rachmaninoff, Prokofiev, etc.

I kneel to the Eurasian master race

>>20494472
I've always liked medicine. I loaded my course schedule with biology, chemistry, anatomy, and so on in high school. I even took part in a four year biomedical program. I also like the idea that it's not a bullshit office job that you might get stuck working if you enter any of the other high paying fields. You actually do something meaningful and help people. As for why I chose nursing in particular out of all the medical professions, it has a good work/life balance, flexibility, and lots of opportunities. You can work whatever hours you want because hospitals are open 24/7, you can travel around by taking travel contracts and work in any part of the country you want for a few months while making two to three times as much as you would taking a permanent job at a local hospital, you can get a graduate degree and become a nurse practitioner to gain more autonomy and make more money, etc.

>>20494538
Arent you afraid of dealing with demented people?

>>20494560
No. Mental illness runs in my family, so I've seen it before I ever even applied to nursing. Plus, I'm 6'2" and very broad, so people in general are less likely to start something with me.

>>20494567
I could never do such job. All the best for you.

>>20494578
Thank you, anon

How did the author know I'm anon...

It's been 13 years since I've met the love of my life and fucked it up.
First few anniversaries I've smoked the green copium.
Next few ones I thought I was over it.
Then there was some seemingly healthy nostalgia, and now it's the 13th summer since that time.
Can't even say that I've lost her since I've never had her, but it really hurts this time.
Can't even read the stories I've written about her, because I've burned them a few years ago.

>>20494538
are you currently working in a hospital? Best wishes anon
Also this >>20494578

>>20494598
No, I haven't graduated yet. I still have a few months.

time to choose

>>20492033

>>20492241
It's normal, your nature is to conquer. The only reasonable thing to be done is for you to extensively study and emulate prolific cult leaders and build a massive haram of women spiritually devoted to you.

>>20494607
Give me crowbar.

I want to buy a copy of Incubus by Ray Russel but even the paperbacks are absurdly expensive

>do you have a gf?
>do you have any friends?
no
I havent seen my normie friends in years and dont want to see them ever again if im being honest so no, I currently have no friends

>>20492468
I want to get into this but I don't know my time of birth nor does my third world country record it. I fucking hate being british

>>20494567
>I'm 6'2"
Oh shit bro I was going to recommend you get a Saudi contract and make bank doing nothing for a rich lady but those are only open to women for obvious reasons. Sometimes they come up for kids and accept males but it's pretty rare. About half the nurses I know did that and bought their house and basically only pick up quiet night shifts half the month

>>20492624
>>20492966
This. Ghosting is as eloquent and brutal as it gets.

what's the name of that doc who performs disastrous gender affirmation surgeries? asian fella i think, they mention him in a couple of those depressing reddit screencaps of people who had their peepees surgically evolved

>>20494697
Only Asian tranny doctor's name I know is suporn because it sounds hilarious. Don't know if he's good or not

>>20494329
Why would women not have socially developed through the development of civilization if men did? Being infantilized domestics wasn’t what hunter gatherer women did either.

So basically, you need to either find something you feel good enough about doing that it doesn’t feel like working or you need to do something that pays you enough to not have to work very much.

>>20494746
Not him but the whole infantilism and always at home thing for women is about mostly middle and some upper class women. When women talk about the right to work what they're talking about is middle class women's rights, and usually it only starts happening when middle class women lose the right to treat lower class women as slaves and have to pay them respect and money.

>>20494717
ahh that's it

>>20494697
You mean Jess Ting from I Am Jazz or Marci Bowers from the same show?

>>20491997
hehe funny cats

>>20491997
Yes

The only female author I have in my library is H.P Blavatsky

I really wish there was great war going on that can give my life meaning even if it means I have to know suffer beyond my imagination.

>>20494859
Volunteer for Ukraine

I've pretty much given up on an idea of a girlfriend or a relationship in this shitty town

I HEAR YOU GOT A SIX INCH GUARANTEE

10 years ago if you said UFOs where real you would have been called a schizo or a lunatic by the fedora tipping science community because there was no proof but now since scientists are starting to investigate and write about this its going to become socially acceptable by the normie crowd to talk about UFOs. Personally, I think its high level glowie technology....just think how pic related was created almost 70 years ago by the CIA, imagine the technology they have right now SHIT IS INSANE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YebZyAzLZuc

>>20494914
UFOs are bullshit and crap made by the government to distract people from the real problem related things

>>20494900
Phoenix, AZ?

>>20494914
>scientists are starting to investigate and write about this
No they aren't. Pentagon fags are not scientists.

>>20494929
nah, small town in western part of kazakhstan

>>20494932
greeting from kazakhstan
>>20494926
>UFOs are bullshit and crap made by the government
thats literally what I said, retard

>>20494950
Don't be rude

>>20494037
I've been following your arc for a while now, sir. Hang in there. Stay steadfast under such trials.

>>20494157
Just keep posting frogs, I'm sure one day a gf will manifest in your room. Don't try anything else.

>>20494504
Then why did you post this retarded schizo
you know we all make fun of him over here in Russia, right? He's a lolcow, like idk Alex Jones to americans

>tfw russian but not from russia

>>20494962
sorry anon, youre 100% right. I apologize.

>>20494964
my health is deteriorating rapidly. i have friends asking why ive been acting weird and not responding to texts. they wouldn't understand...

>>20494990
What did you even order? What's the book

>>20494990
At least you haven't been scammed for dough like I have been

>>20494978
>we
who is we?

>>20494997
Russians

>>20494994
DON'T REVEAL IT

we'll see when he gets it

>>20494969
>ironic and passive agressive
you sound like a female

>>20494997
Me and my imaginary friends

>>20495005
I was born by a female

A primitive mural on the wall
To fortify your grim resolve
Amid the glitz of a shopping mall
Another grain of indigent salt
for the sea

Good night to these wretched forms
Oh, them gray eyes on the subway
So long before you were born
You were always
To be a dagger floating
Straight to their heart

>>20494987
interesting, where are you from?

>>20494987
Then you're not Russian. You must come home.
Your nationality is not your genes (despite what racists may have you believe, genes don't matter for anything besides insignificant things like eye color)
Your nationality is where you live.
If you live in America, you will over just a few years become American.

>>20495036
If I live in detroit will I become and inner city african american?

>>20495036
>french speaking nigerians who live in France are french because they JUST ARE, OK?!

>>20495047
If they fully adopt French culture, preferably from childhood, speak French language and everything that that implies - then yes, it doesn't make any difference that their skin is dark and their skulls are differently shaped.
You're delusional if you claim otherwise.

However I know where you're going with this so yes, if immigrants come in like they do and DON'T assimilate with the local culture, and instead conserve their own, then of course they aren't French.

>>20495044
You may become a wigger, yes. It's all the matter of how far do you go with assimilation.
Genes play no part in this. Racist tend to grossly overestimate the importance of genes compared to other factors like upbringing, class, culture, etc

Soon there will be a new thread and we'll fill it up and have a good time. After that one there will be another and so on.

One day we'll all be dead.

>>20495071
>One day we'll all be dead.
And that's great.
Imagine how much we'd procrastinate if we were immortal. Literally nothing would get done. I wouldn't even go to the bathroom.

>>20495071
introspective frogposter

>>20495058
Why should identity preclude race?

>>20495069
You didn't answer my question. If I move to Israel, do I possess the shared history and Identity of the Jewish people? If I move to Detroit do I share in the history of slavery? Should I be awarded reparations for the collective suffering of "my people", which as you know, is not a race but an idea?

>>20495069
The very word "wigger" even deflected the idea that I would become one of them. I would be, apparently, and outsider. A "wigger" but not truly a part of the African American community.

next thread please

>>20495132
After this post

someone make the next thread

>>20495147
Shouldnt we wait til were on page 5

>>20495156
no. im going to make it if you dont

NEW THREAD
>>20495159
>>20495159
>>20495159

>>20494762
No because chances are there’s nothing you will feel good about doing that you also can do.

>>20495117
>>20495126
No, because even if you free yourself of racism, the people you move in with will not.

Even if you theoretically completely 100% adopt and inherit culture of the niggers/israelites, they will still decline you on the basis of your race. They will call you "snowflake" or they will demand your proof of Jewish ancestry, because they place importance on the genetics even though in practical sense it's a meaningless token.

But this isn't the only reason they will reject an outsider like you. It's one of the lesser ones. The greater reason is because adopting a different culture is an impossible task that takes generations of assimilation. If your Russian ancestor fled Russia in 1917, and ever since then failed to preserve Russian culture, then the kids of his kids will not be Russian, because the genes don't preserve those things, people do.

The melanin in the skin and jaw shape isn't what separates white americans from black americans. Culture does. Culture stems from history, obviously only black africans were brought in by slaves by white european colonizers, nobody is denying that. Race does correlate with culture/nationality because of where people come from

But I've seen people put way too much importance on the genes themselves while ignoring all other factors that define identity. Obsessed with genes, with "pure blood", etc. Like, if you've lived in a foreign country for generations, but also happen to have a Russian ancestor somewhere up the line, what does it matter if you failed to preserve the culture? You're not Russian

>>20492801
easy, you flirt with other girls in front of her. basically all the lust has fizzled out and now see can't un-see you as the comfy teddy bear and not the hungry wolf. you have to move yourself away from the comfort category. also if this is the case and she at least a 7+ she's definitely cheated.

>>>/pol/381522608

You guys..../pol/ is talking about F. Gardner again

>>20495176
Not culturally Russian. Still Russian.