/lit/ - Literature

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SBYO1ZfxxSM

sex with yellow women

I think I might be repulsive to women, but not physically. The problem arises whenever I try and communicate with them, I know that I'm attractive enough to arouse interest in some pretty cute girls, but it goes to shit really quick whenever I try to talk to them verbally or through text. It appears the issue is my very essence.

It didn't used to be this bad, though. I was able to date pretty upper class girls just a few years ago. I know what the variable is, it's that I'm now sober. My shit is way more together in general, now that I'm grooming and washing myself properly, as well as escaping neetdom and by not living a chaotic existence through alcohol and drug abuse, women want nothing to do with me. I don't know what else it could be, other than I've become a dull person.

I'm happy that I've become clean but I really want to do the benis in bagina, fuggg :DD

i want to become an art thief

How would you make friends over 25 years old?

>>20041036
friends are not real. the idea that you should have friends is a modern invention. in fact, nothing wastes more time than having friends. having friends does the equivalent to your brain as jerking off to porn roughly 5 times per day.

>>20041036
All my best friends I met by accident while doing hobbies

But I'm a sperg so all my hobbies are just book related and most of my friends I either met working at the library, being in the library, or reading at the coffee shop near my uni campus

Funny thing living in this city. When you first experience it, it feels vast, infinite, inexhaustible. Having lived here, or rather been sucked into here for years, now it feels microscopic. Everyone and everything is just right down the street. That person you had an awkward and regrettable hookup with and whose existence you'd both like to forget will show up randomly at a party a year later. The social media spider web captures all gossips, weaves a gossamer cage of hearsay and rumor from which there is no escape and from which no action goes unnoticed. I used to go out but now I have become a recluse. There is no corner without eyes, no room without ears. It is nothing but transience incarnate, crowds of people coming from nowhere and going nowhere.

I'm now firmly convinced that humanity will go extinct eventually. I don't believe in ideas about the death of the universe, but humanity is a failed species. As individuals we can achieve great knowledge and elevate ourselves to the level of gods, but only the most enlightened can fully raise themselves above society and they come only every few thousand years and can never affect any really change on their own. Humanity has just enough intelligence and just enough empathy to achieve the level of growth we have attained but not enough intelligence or empathy to overcome the problems we've created. Humanity will never progress to any kind of marxist utopia or to an evolutionary prime fascist kallipolis. It's too late to destroy the government and too late to purge the governments of corruption and turn them into a force for good. We had our chance to institute eugenics and raise humanity to the level of consciousness necessary to organize society into something healthy that can guarantee its own future, but the wealthy and powerful in America and Britain and such destroyed every state that attempted to do so. Communism can't be achieved because it ends in the USSR and North Korea. Anarchism can't be achieved because the control of the government over the people is too solidified. Fascism is achieved, but only in its authoritarian principle by china, lacking the transcendent ideals fostered in it by the western tradition that could only come alive in a European fascist state. The chance to utilize technology as a tool has passed, technology is now used as a weapon by the wealthy and is merely an inescapable virus for the masses, and this sick form of technology has created an unstoppable feedback loop that we no longer have the chance to escape. Destroying technology is also pointless because we ultimately need technology in order to survive in the long term or else we will become like the countless extinct species who put their lives in the hands of nature. People with short term thinking say it doesn't matter if we go extinct after billions of years when the sun explodes, that this doesn't make life now any less meaningful. No, perhaps it doesn't make life now any less meaningful, assuming your life is spent in pursuit of selfish desires and vacuity. If you tap into any nobler parts of yourself, you will realize that the desire for survival and peace is not just for yourself but is by humans extended outwards to others and we desire an eternal peace. One who has lived a peaceful life can only truly die peacefully if he knows he has secured peace in the world. So, it's over. Humanity should just serve as an example for the species that does succeed, we will create a fossil record that fills a page in their history books for the education of their youth. That is all we can hope for at this point. So we might as well give up on all ideals of justice or love and any hope for the future and simply live the life of one who is about to die.

>Ashkenazi Jews have an unusual ability profile as well as higher than average IQ. They have high verbal and mathematical scores, while their visuospatial abilities are typically somewhat lower, by about one half a standard deviation, than the European average (Levinson, 1977; Levinson and Block, 1977). Han Eysenck (Eysenck, 1995) noted “The correlation between verbal and performance tests is about 0.77 in the general population, but only 0.31 among Jewish children. Differences of 10-20 points have been found in samples of Jewish children; there is no other group that shows anything like this size difference.” The Ashkenazi pattern of success is what one would expect from this ability distribution-great success in mathematics and literature, more typical results in representational painting, sculpture, and architecture.
Do Ashkenazi kings do it better, /lit/?

>>20040896
I am
stressed
lonely
horny
behind
This keeps happening to me. A month of progress for a half year of stagnation. I don't do anything fulfilling. The day-to-day is not enough anymore, generally it hasn't been for 4 years at least. Actually probably longer, though I was successful enough back then to think it was. Maybe I'm just lazy and coping. But I can't bring myself to work hard or struggle with anything that doesn't interest me anymore.

>>20040924
>>20041010
I really want to steal the mona lisa and burn that trash painting. And then bang a North Korean chick

>>20040896
How many years has it been since the human race hurled its great question into the vast unanswered chaos beyond the blank of their world? Since we challenged the trillion mile roads between here and nowhere, and flung our great seeds out into time? And where are they going, set out to chart destiny? What will be waiting when they get there? And is it worse to imagine that it will be Nothing or Something? Will we just be adrift and waiting until stardeath destroys us all and galactic fire wipes the slate free?
--No, but one ship found something, maybe at the edge of the universe's farthest disc; who can say?. In an unassumed corner of space and time, they drifted into a columnal place, a far-off pocket somehow unwashed by the heat of any near star. And yet light illuminated, there it was--the Great Mystery stood unrevealed beyond the pilots' radiation-sealed visor. The Ultimate Man. A perfect reconstruction of a human body in anatomical position, colossal & suspended in the starless blank. In two dimensions like a map of humanity itself, plotted down an unseen axis. It seemed to wave there subtly, like a flag blown by some interstellar wind. Its outline sparkled with a spectral incandescence. The architects were vanished or invisible, dead or gone. The pilots hung in their seats over emptiness and found that they had tears on their cheeks. They tasted themselves and the salt was sweet. Light-years away a star-flare winked in the quilted fabric somewhere outside the ship.

Woops posted in the dying thread.

I'm eating burger rings over at the nurburgring
watching kings swerve over curbs in the other racers slip streams

Catch my mixtape

bump

are you too far gone once you decide to feel rage at normal things

>>20040896
I simultaneously want to die in a war and am also terrified of the prospect.

The thought of fighting for a cause greater than mine in a period of so much alienation is enticing, but my gf will b sad

Of course the west is not gonna get involved in the russo-ukraine shit, but it's nice to dream/hurts to fear

>>20042257
Just stop acting like the god of rage or whatever and calm the fuck down. You aren’t the Hulk.
Get a handle on the emotional problems you have.

>>20042288
sounds like something a woman would say

>>20042314
Like your mother?
Not listening to your mother gets dudes n all sorts of trouble

>>20042283
they're already getting involved like the retards they are, just not in a direct military way, not yet.
I get the feeling someone somewhere, who's someone, really wants ww3 for some reason

>>20042283
If you want to die in a war so much you do know you can volunteer to go to Ukraine right? Stupid bitch.

>>20042314
No, but the dumb shit you said sounds like something a teenager in his Dark Sasuke phase would say.

I don't believe in causes greater than myself and I don't want to die in war. I want to expire contently after a long life of unremitting sensual pleasure.

>>20042348
I looked into it, they're only taking people with some degree of combat experience, which i have none

If you ever felt like dehumanizing the mentally challenged, I have a thought for you. Imagine if you came to all your friends and family with your painful memories and all of the pain you encountered before you met with them, but they all think you are making up your pain. That your pain is is nonexistent and all a fabrication in your mind. The trick here is I am everyone you meet in this scenario, so I could be a psychiatrist who you meet who tells you your painful breakup with your girlfriend was all just made up in your head. That your girlfriend never existed to begin with. Now imagine that with every memory you have. All your memories you keep on being told are false and not real. You're just a silly little boy playing with his toys while the grown ups are doing real things. Sounds painful doesn't it? What if you encountered real painful things like death and rape and this was thrown on you? Would you really like living such a life? A wonderful life is great, but even if it is wonderful would it be able to handle the humanity and denial I encounter in your world?

>>20042351
only teenagers feel irritation and rage?

>>20042359
>Nah. We have enough human shields. Experience only.

Kek I gave up an incredible opportunity on a gamble and lost big time. I Inside Llewyn Davis'd myself.

>>20042393
That sucks. Maybe you'll get it next time.

>email sent
Now to dehumanize the mentally challenged.

>>20042372
Do not hypocritically twist my words. Anger is a natural human emotion, HOWEVER randomly feeling "rage at normal things" like you have said is definitely a symptom of teenage crisis and/or mental illness.

>>20042403
No.

>>20042359
Damn! Then how about you join the US military, or the military wherever you live, instead of sitting here on your ass? You do know that it is possible and needed? Bitches on 4chan be like
>I WANT TO DIE IN A WAR >:(
Then don't leave their room.

>>20041036
>>20041085
Actually kinda true but not as extreme as that. Have a family. Have clients (in the latin sense). Have peers. Have colleagues etc, have a counsel. But friendship is largely a waste of time. You don't want to be the wisest person in the room or how can you grow.

>>20042409
where the FUCK are my GODDAMN KEYS
the JEWS are at it again I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD THIS IS THE FINAL STRAW
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH
oh there they are lol never mind :)

>>20042283
I'm gonna join the military or at least try to.
How do you like this quote lit? "One crowded hour of glorious life / is worth an age without a name". - Thomas Osbert Mordaunt

Also, what are your thoughts about ancestor veneration. Been thinking about it a lot. Reading King's book about the Roman afterlife. Interesting stuff.

Yes! I will die for glory. In heroic battle. Up to my knees in civilian blood.

>>20042446
B-b-but Gigachad, you haven't left your bedroom in seven years.

>>20042409
well i don't think they're normal but i've been told they're normal
these days i see condescension, deceit and scorn in literally every interaction
in my younger days i would just loose confidence over it but these days im able to see that it's a bit manipulative
anyway things tend to make associations i guess i just don't like it here

>>20040896
A remarkable document has emerged, worthy of the best Russian literature,: https://thesaker.is/the-opinion-of-a-professional-about-the-special-operation-in-ukraine-must-read/

>>20040896
If the meaning of life is located within the unique understanding enforced upon one another when young leading to the flowering of such a misguided comprehension of meaning then is the fact that I shall be commiting to the end of my life near the place I was born so inconsequentially misgotten that I am wholly missing my true meaning by a moment wherein existential idealisations no longer tear the fabric of my being but simply my mind until the moment has passed and the meaning has faded and I am gone?

I found out today that there's a fraction of an inheritance from decades ago, only enough to buy a car, not massive, in my name. A certain family member has never told me about this. If I ask them about it will feign innocence "Oh, didn't I tell you? Yes its yours". I don't know how to feel about this? On the one hand I feel an incredible relief just knowing it is there. I don't need it urgently but now so many problems and insurmountable dilemmas dissolved now. I feel a peace growing over me. I can see the dawn creeping over the horizon.
On the other hand I feel almost a kind of a betrayal. Imagine if I felt this relief instead of the anxiety, depression, hopelessness I felt for years if they had of just told me?
This person would never steal this money from me. However concealing this from me falls into a pattern of control this person exhibits. Almost an abusive control.
The logical thing is: "quit your bitchin' and be grateful."

Does free will exist?

>>20042916
That's a man

>>20042257
No, its when you don't have the energy to be angry anymore

>>20041140
voting democrat accomplishes nothing, there is no difference between the republican and democrat party besides cultural wedge issues. We had 8 years of Obama and he didnt do shit about climate change, Biden isnt doing anything either. They are all beholden to the same lobbyist interests the republicans are.

If your an actual smart person you know its too late, you have become an extreme doomer, and you know its worse than they tell you.

climate change and resource depletion are whats going to do humanity in

>>20042916
Sometimes. A wagecuck who can't influence other people's opinions may be capable of having independent thought, but lacks the capacity to act on it. Do they have free will? I say no.
People always get confused by questions of determinism and 'chemicals in the brain'. Who cares?
Free will can only exist where agency exists. Not all agency implies free will, but all free will implies agency.

>>20042916

Over time, I have come to feel this is a moot question. If it does not exist: do I not have to live as though it did? I still must act and take responsibility for my actions, even if they arise from something that I do not control.

>>20042916
Is it possible to choose between two options? Or were you always going to choose one over the other?

>>20043073
>take responsibility
why would you take responsibility for something you do not control?

Is it ethical to work in a casino?

how do i rekindle my creativity?

>>20043914
I should say, that I plan to be a card dealer at choctaw while I go to college, I am Indian so I get priority for a job. Then when I get my masters in mathematics I could work there with the experience I gained.
Im just worried if its ethical or not

>>20043921
what kindled it before?

>>20043945
No idea.
Lost it after primary school.

The worst part about work isn’t the work itself. It’s the attitudes and environment. It’s the fact that it feels totally meaningless and unimportant, and the fact everyone tries so hard to be all cheery and interested, despite that fact that it’s meaningless. Even office work can be tolerable if the environment is serious, the aim important. I often wonder if people like detectives at least feel like their jobs are serious and important. Mine just feels silly, like an utter waste of precious life. I don’t know if I take myself to seriously or if I’m right to feel this way, but either way that is my feeling on it.

I also tend to think that this workplace attitude isn’t common outside of the United States.

>>20041140
>Dude China is fascist because theyhave an authoritarian government lmao
You are one of those lesser people holding humanity back

My job which should be a blessing has become hell because I got fat as shit over the last few years so now it makes my feet and shins and knees and back ache. What have I done to myself

>>20044009
And you're a bootlicking faggot.

>>20044030
ah yes truly a scathing and original meaningless platitude

>>20040896
I'm still unsure on what type of career i should go for. I want to work from home and get paid well. I don't need to get paid good instantly, I would be happy if it was just work from home with an Okay pay to get thru the month and pay rent. Thinking of becoming a graphic designer but don't really know where to start. I hate interacting with others personally/physically, I prefer to interact digitally. Thinking of mom. Hope she makes it.

being stalked and harassed is something i wouldnt wish on even my worst enemy

>>20043932
Yes. Take every cent of US dollars you can legally get a hold of from that land without granting them rights to it.

>>20043982
It is common here in Germany just the way you described it. Also that depends a lot on the type of work and what kind of people you are working with. Maybe a lot of the people you are working with thought that careerpath is the right thing for them and when they realized it was not they still went for it and now they are stuck with a job that doesn't fulfill them and just live out their unhapiness by deluding themselves and telling themselves that it could be worse. Living the first world dream baby.

big dicks will rule the world

>>20044188
I used to be stalked by this girl after i told her that she isn't for me on the second meeting. Those were some of the worst two months of my life. She instantly found out where i live and sent me pics of my house on the same day i told her that i think she isn't for me. I even was man enough to meet with her and tell her personally rather than thru text cuz i knew right away the first time we met that this wouldn't work. Fuck.

>>20044223
I ain't rulin' shit.

>>20043953
I feel like I'm creative whenever I want to entertain someone else. When I go for a walk with someone and search the world for interesting objects, views, ideas.

The designation of "ship of Theseus" to the ship is not the ship itself. How is it a paradox? Names aren't real and exist only in our minds.

>>20044317
>Renaming a boat is fine
Cursed

>>20042438
Don't do it. Don't do it. There are no heroic charges. There are no do or die moments. There are no defend this town until help arrives. There are no conquering of enemies. There are no rescue missions or high value target elimination projects. Everyday you will be treated like a child. Hurry up and wait is a joke to you now, but in a few months it will be your life. For four years. You won't actually perform the job you signed up to do. No. You will run in the morning, eat poorly made food, then mop concrete or work on a vehicle all day. Or you will literally do nothing all day. Then at 6pm you will get released back to your barracks room. You will shower, do some laundry and eat more shitty food at the dfac. Then you drink yourself to sleep. And wake up to do it all over again. There are no women around military bases. And civilian women aren't impressed with your uniform or service. Every weekend you will have a safety briefing where your CO warns you not to beat your wife or rape anyone or drink and drive. Or you get pulled in for staff duty and don't have a weekend. Every month or so you'll do SHARP and EO training. And for about three to four months straight you train in the field. Which sounds fun but it's not. You're not actually doing drills. You're cold, wearing dirty clothes, smelling of unwashed balls and feet while waiting for the 10 minutes of training.

When you get out, you won't be able to find a job. Your service doesn't count for anything, it doesn't translate to real world skills. Also at best, no one actually gives a fuck about military service, at worst they think you're a fringy right wing ptsd ridden stranger or they feel emasculated because they didn't serve and treat you oddly. So you go to college for a bachelors degree. Except they only pay for 36months despite the public lies. Also, you're four years older than the other freshman and have a jaded outlook on life. You'll likely be an alcoholic and possibly a smoker. No one but other veterans will be able to relate to you but you won't really want to hang out with other jaded broken men. Civilians won't get the lingo that you try and force yourself to stop using. Civilians don't get sleeping in the cold for months for training. They don't get the MRE shits. They don't get the death by powerpoint and the long dreaded SHARP/EO training briefs. So you'll be alone. Remembering the close friends you made and lost and the time wasted. And you'll remember that one time a veteran told you not to do it. And deep down you'll wish you listened.

The immediate reaction of the suicidal to any inconvenience, however minor, is “I wouldn’t have to deal with this if I killed myself.”

In a way, this is a helpful coping mechanism. Having this option in the back of one’s head at all times, knowing there’s a way out if things get too difficult, makes day-to-day tasks easier to handle. However, “intentionally drove car off of bridge after spilling coffee” is a pretty embarrassing obituary and a stupid reason to end one’s own life.

Didn’t have to deal with cleaning it up, though.

There's something about the foggy mountains of south east asia that fills me with suicidal despair. The steamy jungles and fields that always look barren. The melding of rural farmland and modern cities. Those cities filled with sleek skyscrapers illuminated in darkness and lean upright well behaved people. The formality of their graciousness. The quiet empty seas that lap onto rocky shores barren of people and animals. The unrelenting secret that you will never be truly welcome or truly understand these regions. That you will always be a stranger and all your interactions are a detriment to the people and land.

>>20044416
What if I do it anyway?

>>20044464
For what gain?

>>20044478
Chevy Camaro with 25% APR

>>20044450
Have you been there?

These threads are like 95% blogposting now. You guys should post less and read more.

>>20044486
top kek got me to chuckle

>>20044493
Yes. I did four years in the Army. it's a waste of time. asides from getting blown up and damaging an internal organ, I gained nothing. the only only only only way to make it worth while is the following:

Go Navy or Air Force or Coast Guard ROTC for a big degree probably something STEM related. You attend whatever civilian college in a uniform. Once you graduate, you owe that branch several years of service as an officer. That is the only fucking useful method of joining the military. Everything else leaves you weary and broken. Ask in the K enlistment forums. Look up US Army WTF moments. Ask there. Literally ask any veteran in real life. And they will all agree with me.

A park bench. Where did it come from? Who ordered it? Who built it? Who transported it? Who assembled it? Who invented the park bench? Who invented the equipment used to build it? The lines of tradition are immeasurable. They stretch out in all directions. How far back in time do they go? The power saw used to cut the timber would not have been invented without the saw, and the saw not without the axe, and the axe not without the hand axe. When did a person first look at a tree and understand it as a raw material? Every thing radiates like a star. And then: the hidden possibilities, the futures... There is nothing inhuman in this world.

I’m having a complete mental breakdown and am scared. How do i get out of this? Should i take drugs? Help i’m scared.

Anyhow the problem it would seem to be that the recollection of events was bothersome. I would own the whole day away. And I still wouldn't seem happy. Listen, I'm collected, but not happy. I quit. And I started something else. That's what will it be. That what you will not forget. You will remember. The painful times. The un-events of everyday life. Fuck it all. Practical. Speak and let go. Dreams.

I watched a few docs about sewage workers and how the whole system works. Later that day I saw some edgy TikTok post with all these 4chan buzzwords and you know.. the mentality and live of these competent, funny and honest workers.. that was a huge contrast for me. It made me realize how lame, childish and vapid online zoomer culture is.. the whole narcissism as well..

>>20044884
Read book

i hate having to be this way. If there was anything for an option provided, I would have responded with it. I try to convince myself this wasnt the right thing to do. Like I should have complied and cashed in. I think about the ones who dont have a voice to fight against their oppression and traps designed to dissuade and defeat them. I dont know if I have made an impact in the long run. I dont if I should have tried. I cant find my way through this.

>>20045115
this

>>20043921
go into nature
distance yourself from the thought processes youve habituated

>>20045115
>>20045163
wtf I can’t possibly sit and concentrate on a book. I tried reading and got through 20 pages and didn’t understand a thing. I’m panicking.

>>20044884
Unironically call a suicide hotline. Not only is it a great place to vent but they can point you in the right direction for getting help/therapy/drugs etc

I considered myself fast on the keyboard, but then I played The Typing of the Dead and realized how slow I am. Now I'm practicing to get faster. I also never knew what those bumps on the F and J keys were for until now (maybe my teacher explained this in the computer course I did when I was a kid, I don't remember).

If you want to practice too:
https://www.keybr.com/

Women being bogged has become so normalized that it's freaking me out. Every actress in every show, every movie actress, every porn girl, every other young woman with a few hundred bucks to blow. I can't unsee boggedface. It's fucking everywhere.

>>20045609
What is bogged?

>>20045573
>help/therapy/drugs
i’ve been there before. therapy hasn’t helped and psych meds haven’t either. idk i’m just really scared because this doesn’t seem to be passing on it’s own. I wish someone would just knock me unconscious. Every second is so unbearable. I can’t seem to get any grounding on anything. I feel like i’m falling and i can’t grasp anything.

I always feel so emotional when I list to the "Time" soundtrack of the movie Inception. I don't think any other piece of movie soundtrack gets me like that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxabLA7UQ9k

I suck at almost everything i do. Even at the simplest of things that i should have known by now. I feel like i never reached a certain plateau or stability in my mind from which to take off to new directions.
Even if i am just too retarded or something like that i see dumb people with basic practical skills, wants, drives and energy all the time while im walking around like a reanimated corpse without purpose.

>>20045627
plastic surgery

>>20044317
Yes it was an arbitrary concept in the first place.

>>20044317
Yea but at which point did it lose its likeness?

Throughout my life I have only encountered three types of people: people who think they got it all together, people who think they are above it all, and people who try and fail.

>>20045664
Try this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Whuf6C_T8tc

>>20045664
It's more somber, but I really enjoy Max Richter's On the Nature of Daylight. Used in the film Arrival.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVN1B-tUpgs

>>20044416
This about you. Not me. I've already studied at uni. I'm gonna do officer training. And I'm it doing because I have a responsibility to my country and my forefathers.

You sir, sound like some faggoty, yanky, individualist. No wonder you countrymen dont have the balls to lead the west against the eastern tyrannies if this is the average sample.

>>20044449
Who is Cioran?

>>20044449
This is pretty good

>>20044009
china is obviously fascist. You are aware that 2/3 of industry was owned by the state of fascist italy? China has achieved the highest level of autarky and self determination of any modern nation, utilizing the authoritarian principle of fascism.

>>20044024
Get an exercise bike or elliptical
Do Yoga
Plan your meals
You get sugar once a week
Eat clean

You will be thin in a matter of months.

'randomly' decided on the magus after finishing proust. now pondering the virtues of voluntary castration.

>>20044317
>Names aren't real and exist only in our minds.
At what point does the name and the concept of the ship in our mind change and separate into a homonym for two (or more) different points on the same continuum of ideas in our mind?
>>20045609
It's very weird when conventionally 'high status' women are now substantially less desirable than more 'attainable' women. Not that I like using those terms in the first place.
>>20044504
Read what exactly? Or perhaps a better question: what is a beneficial method of determining which books I read at the expense of other books?