/lit/ - Literature

I need to read more, and therefore I must go do so now

>>19666900
Butters can you start an onlyfans please

Please let this be the year where I get a gf

Boobies,
Breats in other words,
The glands of life for babe,
And for mine own hearth,
Sucking at the teat,
I,
34 years of age,
Feed upon thy milk

Black lives don't matter because no lives matter

Life is a waste of time

I'll make a tip jar or something and donate it to charity. This will probably work by the end of this year:
I won't curse anymore
I will quit smoking too
And that is it. I don't care about anything else.

>>19666921
Time will progress regardless of life, so I do not see why it would be a waste of time.

>>19666921
Life matters to life. Learn to improve your experiential trip through it and it will matter to you again.

>>19666919
what shd i do to make sure i don't come out with stuff like this when im 34

>>19666921
time doesn't exist

w-what are you guys drinking tonight?

>>19667051
drinking is a sin

why doesn't /lit/ get cool stuff like /a/'s sticky right now?

>>19667051
cocaine

>>19667033
I'm not 34

>>19667070
god i wish. i couldnt get any in time.
i swear to god the inhuman war crimes i would commit to acquire some snow right now...i dont even want to think about it

>>19667051
wish i had some edibles but I'm in the middle of a 90day break like xi jinping of weed smoking, my brother in moderation

>>19667051
Green tea with christmas spices

my dear friends, tonight I drink
drink with me, dear friends

I’ve come to resent my brother a lot.

>>19667051
Crown royal to bring my claim to the throne of Mephistopheles.

>>19667051
water

>>19667051
vodjka
>>19667096
god do i wish i could smoke some weed right now. but we must continue. we must make it brother.
were going to make it.
cheers

To lit,
Whether anon or tripfag, within the threads of anonymous posts are the expressions of consciousness and non-consciousness restriction free (or at least as free as the trust that it is free). For the writer or consumer of the written, this place is a gold mine and a putrid landfill, a fertile field for growth and the toxic manure of what is discarded. /Lit/ is a graveyard and a nursery of stories.
If one is brave enough to look into this heart of darkness, one can find what is, what will be, what was, what is desired, what is feared, and even what is missing by its inability to be made from what is present, all in its magnificent and abominable beauty. I hope the writers on this board realize its value and will continue to contribute. I cannot count the times when writers block or lack of imagination take over, coming here has helped, albeit at the cost of procrastination.

I thank you anons for your honest contributions — your “honest bullshit.” For your rage and your ignorance and your stupidity as well as your discovery of paths in my ignorance I could never imagine, I am deeply grateful.

However, I am mostly thankful that this journey will never be reduced to just “the friends I meet along the way” because I have no fucking idea who you are and if I met you, would probably shoot you in the face.

Happy New Year

>>19667203
Ha! Cheers! To death we climb! Hahaha!

This year I'm gonna:

-Read 52 books. Got two kids, a full-time job, and I do freelance translation, so a lot of them will have to be novellas. Still, gonna try to work in a decent-sized novel every now and then.
-Read less 4chan.
-Write my absurd detective novel. Just being honest with myself, this is probably the item on my list most likely to go unfinished, but we'll see.
-Run a sub-20 5k. I'm already down to 26.5 after a couple months of running so I think this is definitely doable.
-Meditate every day. Will do as many hour-long sessions as I can, but many times this will probably come down to 10-20 minutes every day. Not great, but even just 10 minutes right before bed triggers crazy vivid dreams, so I know it's still effective.

I've already got a list of books I wanna read for the book challenge, but if any of you anons know some great books on the shorter side, I'd love some more suggestions. Happy New Year, fellas.

>>19667141
do you see yourself in him?

>>19667203
I raise my glass to that

God, I want a daughter

>>19667356
KEK me too, I don't want to deal with some miniature version of my father or me. I used to be the fucking devil, so was my father. I don't want to risk having children.

>>19666900
I hope I don't die alone. I am good enough to meet people but fuck getting in some weird ass poly shit. I'll live good and work on my upper body, German, and real life shit. Happy I got a big enough dick for a girl to complain about me hitting that cervix; unhappy that she be getting dicked all the time. I'm old enough and good enough to find someone better. It's my time

Just got back from the fucking club yeh, and I've never seen so many ugly women in my life. The new years must really bring out all the clapped cunts cos fucking hell lads. Ended up getting too drunk and just insulting all of them. Except this one Spanish fuckin 32 year old that was banging, started having a chat to her about Catalonia and that, then went back in to have a lil dance with her, even tho I'm the stiffest donny that God's ever created, now I'm back home trying to re-hydrate like ya get me.

>>19667362
I would be a bad parent. Too obsessive that they don't become my special flavor of fuckup. But yes, for those general reasons, I want a daughter.

A son can attack the world head on. A daughter should be protected from it.
There is no risk. Even if they're a fuckup, they're your fuckup. The risk is the regret of not having them. The reward is having your little fuckups running around, fucking up the world

>>19667294
Good luck friend

Fuggin sucks that the holiday season is over. We get Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years all back to back and then just NOTHING for months on end. When's the next fun thing to look forward to? 4th of July? Fuck that gay holiday. Next 6 months are gonna be a snooze. I'm gonna get drunk and play some Witcher, cheers and happy New Year, faggots.

>>19667399
Thus the mill continues the grind, more wheat my good man, lest we run dry and resort to plucking the sky!

>>19667399
Yes, me too, I'm trying to "spare my kids" the trouble of being my kids.

>>19667424
A special occasion is not special if there are many of them. Christmas is a unique opportunity to embrace your family and become more grateful. It would be great if we could have more such opportunities but unfortunately we would view it as normalcy and be worse off for it

Right now is new year, i just want to improve at literally all and being hapy, damn i wish i had the curiosity to read but idk what is the thing that makes me so lazy to read, any tip please?

>>19667427
KEK truly the one Jeremiah missed, an honest man within the city!

>>19667443
Read Moby Dick, seek the white whale

>>19667427
but there isn't a greater guilty pleasure than to see little fuckup clones of yourself running around and being damage multipliers against this world. Don't let the world rob you of that. Don't forget, the world is no virgin. She is a filthy whore that loves getting fucked

>>19667443
the laziness is that you can't think beyond a single sentence anymore. Your brain has become wired to work in short burst and you can only derive pleasure from instant gratification. To read and truly understand is a mental workout that many are losing thanks to the cancer of "modernity"

>>19667424
>When's the next fun thing to look forward to?
Tomorrow and the day after that.
It's always a holiday in my mind. You don't need any faggot calendar telling you otherwise

>>19667452
I'm just scared of messing up everything, because it is another person. I can barely take care of myself and my dogs. I don't think this is something that I should be considering now.

I want to read more (on my way to another novel already), finish college (close to this), and get a job which pays a decent amount. I am also working my way to fitness slowly with cardio for 30 mins a day on average --I'm not too far off from my fitness goal. I am in the progress of finding a therapist. I want to make new friends this year. I do not have too many.

To all those out there who want a loving partner--you can do it!

I thought I would be alone for a long time, but then I met someone who became my boyfriend. Sometimes change is needed... (I have a lot of childhood trauma and some from previous recent experiences) hence why I am seeking therapy. I want to become a better person.

Happy new year!

Happy New Year everyone.

Whether you love me or hate me or don't care for me at all, id like to thank you all for you have steered my life in a better direction whether you tried to or didn't. There is still a long way to go but I'm on a better path now which is good. I know I might confuse you sometimes but I promise this will all make sense someday, hopefully this year.
Cheers.

https://youtu.be/CdqoNKCCt7A

>>19667475
Believe it or not, raising a kid is not that far from raising a dog. Don't get overly stressed from it. It's a wonderful experience that they want to take away from you and replace with degeneracy

uuuuh
>tfw no gf

>>19667051
whiskey
I am blessed

>>19667465
My greatest pleasure is watching the calendar burn in the new year's bonfire

>>19667503
I hope you burn the 2021 and 2022 ones
every day is what you make of it. The faggot calendar is designed to keep a man confined and down. A minute can be an eternity

>>19667507
Aye, the fluxion-within-the-manifold, the-manifold-within! A second /is an infinity

>>19667513
hah, you see? I am applying your knowledge and wisdom from the previous thread

>>19667522
Glad to see, to be is to be free, to be free is to be thee, burn all yon calendars and bring the infinite to being. An infinity in seed, sow thy fields and reap more than me!

REMINDER

I haven’t had the will to get up from bed all day. At 12:30am I heard my parents downstairs say “should we go up and say happy new year?”

fated oaths and vows;
doomed were the plights;
manifested at the bow;
of the year’s first midnight;

as our timeglasses shift;
as the desert stays sedentary;
the midnights seem swift;
the dunes wait interminably;

and when our timeglasses quell;
and when our midnights aren’t celebrated;
finally the desert will halt its dwell;
and the dunes will wave invigorated;

and the oaths were never fulfilled;
and the vows never came to light;
and hence i’m forlorn, against my will;
alone, on my last midnight.

first of the 365 poems im gonna be writing throughout 2022

>>19666900
i want to lick a vagina

>>19667051
Hot chocolate :)

I just broke in the new year by sobbing. I feel like I've been losing in life again despite my best efforts. Life seems like a game where there more you win, the better you feel. And the more you lose, the worse you feel. That's all I see anymore. And the problem is that I don't care about any of it. At least not enough to actually get good enough at it. What's the point anyways?

I really really enjoy question and answer books

theres oen shot left in my bottle...so little yet so much...i dont tbhink im gonna make it

>>19667687
Study mathematics, their books are exactly like that.

we're in a post-truth age, lad. we all must be diligent in guarding against false facts and disinformation. don't trust a word i say
i might come across as a low iq monger but don't let appearances fool you, i'm probably a governmetn agent. not even i know at this point. furthermore, we can't even trust taht the air we breath isn't transmitting our spoken thoughts to those in reception range

a little food for thought (for worry!)
i'm sorry that i have to break this news to you, good bye.
"honey is a badger's best friend." is this a secret code i'm meant to send to my mkultra handler without even my own knowing? who knows. maybe. maybe i took a sudden inspiration to say that because of my olsen twins programming

how many of our frineds do we really know? are they alive anymore? why do you think so many 'celebrities' died this year, HELLO!?!?!?!? oh wait, did we have a year leave us AGAIN? sorry, how many have we got left? wake up, who's counting!

I'm gonna start journaling again. Should I do it on docs or physical notebook this time?

>>19667652
this one time i was fugging an asian milf and she was giving the best head i started begging to eat her pussy

>>19667820
rub your clitoris on the pages of a magazine and then burn it before you send it to anyone

it's the right thing to do when the ghosts of our past keep pressing from our chests. when you feel hard and heavy, you do this. like an old camp light still burning after so long

https://youtu.be/lARhekRY4q8

E’erybody dance nao!

>>19667816
Lol

>>19667726
I DId it . Its al;l over now

>>19667830
/x/ is down the road buddy

>>19667851
The tracks don't end here, just a stop and then you're in to the other side it goes on and on. Stay well, don't overdo it, happy New years I hope you get to it.

>>19667872
no no you arent understanding. the tracks ended. i finished the bottle. theres no overdoing or anything else tyoure talking about. its already over. the show is over.
I finished the bottle.

>puppy nibbles on my fingers while I play with it
>suddenly am afraid of getting rabies
Why the fuck am I like this?

Holy Lord, it's next year already. It's gonna be a good one, I feel.

>>19667951
I see, Shakespeare, walk about the stage, say a few lines, a tale told by an idiot, right? The show is over, but the show must go on, welcome to Macbeth, I see the forest advancing and yet I draw my sword anyhow.

Tell me /lit/, what comes first - a love for oneself preceding a love of existence, or a love of existence preceding love of oneself?
I debated this with my ex after she cheated on me and I can't reconcile it in my head

>>19668022
Neither, love of existence is love of oneself, and vice versa. Existence and I are the same, hence Being is a Becoming. The two are the same and parallel axii.

>1st day in the 2022
>piece of tooth just broke off
already starting on a good note, I see

>>19668022
This is a massive question. Jesus Christ. Every time I think I come up with an answer I shoot it down. To me they are almost inseperable. Also, what a horrible situation. Hope you get your things straight.

it's called /lit/ not /writ/

>>19667994
Bro

>>19668167
Bro

I graduated high school 6 years ago and am still feeling uncontrollable rage over being forced to go through the public education system. Almost everything I learned was either useless or taught so inefficiently it was bordering on useless. I always wanted to drop out of high school but just pushed through it because my parents constantly shrieked at me that I’d be worthless without a degree. I only learned about GED’s later. I did the bare minimum and ended up with horrible grades and little chance at an academic future despite having an IQ of 135. I don’t think I’m super intelligent but I feel like I easily could have been if I was actually properly intellectually stimulated instead of put down every day and forced to stare at the clock for hours through boredom that literally brought tears to my eyes.

I have flashbacks and nightmares about getting humiliated in class, not knowing the answer to questions, getting yelled at by teachers or picked on, and not having done my homework or waited until the last minute to do a big project. What makes it worse is in hindsight I know it was all worthless.

I would have been so much better off if I could have just worked a part time job from as early an age as possible, self educated with the masterpieces of science and literature, and maybe had a tutor or two. I would have easily finished all the curriculum in a fraction of the time and graduated with a decent amount of cash already saved up. I remember I had one class in middle school that I accidentally didn’t go to for the first 1.5 months and when I got there the teacher just gave me a pdf with all the content they did until then and told me to try and catch up. I went through the whole pdf before that class day was even over and asked for the rest. He explained that not only had I caught up but I actually finished everything for that month as well because I was supposed to stop earlier. Of course I was then forced to stare at the wall for the rest of that month, and the rest of the class continued to be content I could have completed inside of a week stretched out for an entire year.

>>19668223
I cannot think of a single thing that was worthwhile. Don’t even get me started on the garbage cafeteria food. In every area where I did the “right thing” and listened to the adults I paid for it. Don’t fight back with your bullies, well it just got worse and I destroyed any self respect I had. Always be on time, I would be exhausted and regularly fall asleep in class. Forcing myself to get up when I feel like passing out every morning to go to a place I hate on repeat has probably done some serious psych harm to me. I had a friend who was the exact opposite, always refusing to go, always skipping, always fighting, and he ended up getting expelled and doing some homeschool thing. Everyone was saying he’s screwed etc. wrong, his life is fucking great. He actually learned what he was interested in, has a huge amount of memories and experiences traveling, had amazing girlfriends and has a great one now. I am not jealous or angry at him or anything just bitter it didn’t happen to me. Frankly I don’t even need that, if I could start fresh with none of the endless psychological trauma school inflicted on me but I would have to trade everything I learned or did in school I would do it in a heart beat. I could relearn everything from scratch inside of a year while working full time if I was so inclined.

I remember when I first had a dream of bashing one of my teachers head in. I was not a violent child and was very sensitive so it was shocking but I got pushed to that point. I would rather have spent all the time I spent in school in jail, I guarantee I would have learned more if I had access to the library and been much more psychologically intact provided the other inmates didn’t beat or rape me.

>>19668230
If I listed every thing bad that seriously got to me I would fill an additional 3 replies. Even the actual school buildings and supplies were run down, sparse, and crappy. One time a teacher convinced me to give them most of the school supplies I bought because she said the whole class with “share”. Later when I needed basic stuff like a pencil she refused to give it to me and would literally laugh in my face and then mark me poorly when I couldn’t do the assignment.

I don’t want to sound like I have a huge ego and think I would conquer the world or something but I know for a fact my potential was way higher than what I’m hitting after 12 years of this bullshit.

>>19668244
What does your life look right now?

>>19668022
kek, if I got asked stupid shit like this i'd leave you too

>>19668262
Not great. I’m trying to get a minimum wage job and possibly learning a trade and living as a hardcore minimalist, than after I’ve saved up a decent amount of cash becoming a Buddhist monk or something and living as an aesthetic until I croak. I’ve given up really any aspiration involving people or the world in any form and essentially any actual ambition, whatever ability I had to do that I already feel like it’s decaying.

I'm never going to be able to write anything. Feelsbadman

>>19668244
I can understand your frustration. Genuinely meaningless suffering imposed on you either by institutions or individuals will drive you mad and keep you ignorant and useless. I know this all too well myself. Right now I live in poverty pretty much. I have $200 a month after I pay my rent. I would much rather be in this situation that I am in that I am in than to be thwarted by some senseless person. I have found genuine interests, the only thing stopping me from engaging fully is my financial situation. As gay as it sounds when you are in this situation, try to just accept where you are. Let it go that your time has been wasted, that you have not developed fully as a person. Just as developmental milestones are easy to catch up to later in life, so is your latent potential, as long as you stay on a true course. I understand that this is hard when you have an IQ in the mid 130's. My IQ is about a standard deviation lower, and I have asperger's, so it is perhaps easier for me to accept that I am probably not destined to have a high status occupation. Apologies if this is of no use. I am very tired

There is a star in the sky
Guiding my way with its light
And in the glow of the moon
Know my deliverance will come soon

>>19668332
Thanks, I definitely agree, in a sense I’m just torturing myself with the memories all over again rather than just ignoring them and pretending it never happened. Maybe that’s why I’m drawn to Buddhism.

Now they are deleting word play threads. Those have always been my favorite threads on /lit/.

>>19666900
eternal life is the free gift of God with no strings attached. if you want to receive it and have the absolute 100% assurance of going to heaven, watch this gospel video to the end.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpOv_kvk4M8

you don't have to go to hell for your sins /lit/

>>19668470
Going to Hell or at least spending considerable time in purgatory is my redemption. That, and living a more virtuous life than I previously have. I embrace any punishment I may receive for I know I have wronged

>>19667542
What kind of white trash has kids at 25 on purpose

It would be nice to have a newsletter or something of the good threads here. Obviosuly almost every one is terrible and finding the good just involves a tedious process of selection

Reading widely is brilliant because it forms your life's work. Once you read the classics whether literature or philosophy, you come to develop an appreciation for good things when they come. It's allowed me to read upon a lineage of thinkers that have now largely formed my world view. I'll return to these people time to time but now I've got some sinew formed around my soul and ready to live.

I unironically read on the shitter

>>19669035
I do it ironically

>>19666900
this sikcunt changed my life

boiled potatoes, with the peel still on them (but well cleaned)
olive oil
salt
white pepper

this was dinner.
it was
delicious

>>19667483
I think you'll like this pattern.

>>19667814
I really do wish I was good at math man.

>>19668363
You mean those threads where pepepe or wowesmejack shit in a word or phrase?
Those blow so hard. So sick of seeing that shit. They’re off topic. Always have been.

Seriously, being contrarian is all good and well for a funny 4chan joke, but it’s starting to get disturbing. I unironically don’t fucking recognise this place these days. When did it stop being ironic anti science, and become genuine brainwashed science deniers? When did it stop being ironic retard racists, and become actual militant retard racists? Seriously, for fucks sake it’s not a meme anymore, people are dying. The world economy has fucking collapsed and capitalism is leading us into a plutocracy, oh, and the earth is fucking dying. Now is not the time to be convincing people not to save themselves from a horrible disease because you think it makes you cool and not a “normie”.

You guys for better or worse influence the internet now. Time to grow up, time to get responsible, and for the sake of dumbass republicans and delusional schizophrenic morons here, tell the fucking truth without a veneer of irony, you insecure fucktards.

Let people know they can trust the scientists who have your best interests in mind. End this disease. Spread reason, not religion. Please for fucks sake grow up, bottom line is the vaccine is extremely safe and it works 100% against the deadly virus.

>>19669694
you will never be a woman

>>19668030
This. Once you stop existing, neither are there for you. You are existence.

Didn't reporting threads used to autohide them too?

People like to mourn the "centralization of the internet", the idea that over time, various forums and sites have died out and been replaced by FB/Twitter/Discord/Reddit/etc. Certainly to some extent this is true. But I think the reality isn't quite so grim. People use small forums all the time. Even tiny hobbyist forums are alive and well, with new members joining.

I found a small forum recently. It's a hobby site, dedicated to a particular faction in a discontinued (albeit popular) game. It's still alive! People are joining, people are making posts and having fun. The internet is alive and well, if you know where to look.

>>19669812
Depending on the moderator who deletes the picture/thread. Sometimes it’s just a warning.
But then there’s the cheaters who ban evade.

>>19669824
The problem is the power the giants have

>>19669812
It still does

>>19669893
>>19669812
Blurry eyed. I read “autoban”

If you’re inside the thread you report, it doesn’t hide them. There could also be some wonky glitch.

>>19667542
>MY CAREER'S MY ENTIRE LIFE

Sometimes I wonder if we (white men) can ever recover from what is hapenning to us right now. Our women are turning into bbc whores and many of our kind from the younger generations are turning into twinks/femboys and also bbc whores. Is this the end of the white man's world?

>>19668796
Kill yourself tranny

bros I know this is just some wikipedia reader tier philosophy but hear me out:
what if every thing that is not a smiple particle is not real, every single thing beyond that is emergent and a construct of the mind. Space and time and free will and all subjective experience really. now I realized I can't explain what is emerging is. like how a family emerges out of a male and female, and a town emerges out of a number of families and so on. towns and countries especially feel like they have souls of their own and we're just cells acting on our impulses without realizing that they kind of make sense when you look from further up (on city/country scale), but I can't get past anything emerging out of anything, I feel like if I just follow these thoughts I might figure out something worth while.

>>19669969
>Our women are turning into bbc whores
Kike propaganda, you're not white and you'll end up in an oven

Weed is so much better than alcohol holy fuck I hate being hungover

>>19669983
bottom left just proves my point

>>19670108

I'm tired.
Trying to learn stuff but I can't realy focus.
Ah shit am I ever tired.

They're gonna call me from the hospital in a couple of days. It's a routine thing, I would have been called in but they're doing it over the phone because of corona. I'm worried. It's a psych thing. I have flipped out, actually, but I'm not worried. Based on the standards of society it looks like a great cause for worry. But the standards are set to meet production quotas, and I can afford not to meet production quotas.

God I fucking miss her like crazy.

Ok so I have to sound normal enough. I don't really think there's a problem, I can't see how this goes wrong. I just feel like they'll question me, and I'll snap and say "Just ask me what you have to ask so you can keep prescribing pills", at which point they could worry more. The thing is I've never even met this doctor. They switch jobs at a furious pace. I don't want to lie. But I have flipped out. I am NEETing I guess, intentionally, with no idea how it is supposed to end but no real hurry. I am NEETing, which started in September. In October I cut off virtually all relationships. Not all contact though, I can talk to people but they can't talk to me. I'm tired of people and still our relationships matter greatly to me. So it's time for them to listen when and how I want and they can go fuck themselves. I've been processing a bunch of old trauma. It strikes me that I probably have real trauma, life and death stuff, pertaining to all kinds of angles, people... well nearly dying, really, left and right. It's all... well it's fucked. I'm fucked. Ruined.
Oh boy.

Just give me my fucking lithium, Eva or whatever the fuck your name is. I'll make due. You wouldn't deny a BP lithium, right?!

>>19670135
I know I sound like a fag. this thread is a judgement-free judgement-full zone. I'm pouring it, childish and dumb as it is.

>>19670156
Don't worry anon I'm not going to read that shit

>realize that I have massive neuroticism going on
>everything I do just fuels it
Its just sad that there's nothing I can do.

>>19667203
tl;dr

>>19670235
>sad that there's nothing I can do.
Who told you that?

If we think of the social coin of women, offered in a relationship, the foremost coin would be that of sex.

So what does a man offer in exchange?
A man's social coin is the relationship itself. Biology incentivizes a man to leave a women who has birthed his child to find another woman to birth him another child.

Thus a situation of mutually assured destruction came about.
"I will not have sex with you if you will not stay and help me with this child."

Today, sex is cheap. With the advent of birth control, omen have found they can have sex without the physical burden of a nine month pregnancy and a life-or-death battle to give birth.

Now what happens in a currency market when one currency, or "coin" suddenly floods the market en masse?
The answer is that currency suffers inflation.
And in consequence, the other currencies, or "coins" must by necessity suffer deflation.

What are the implications of the deflation of the currency that is a relationship?

"Ma'am! Stand up with your hands in the air!" one of the voices screamed. It was then that I realized that my dream and the real world had intertwined and that I was back in the for sale house in Nevada and the living room where I lay was full of police officers with their guns drawn, screaming at me. There seemed to be high powered flashlights aimed at me from everywhere. One of the officers yanked me into the air and placed my hands flat against the wall. I leaned there in horror as the realization of what was happening entered my sleepy brain. I had been caught trespassing in the house. The officer crudely searched me spending what seemed like an unprofessional amount of time groping my tits and ass to make sure nothing was hidden there. The little dress had ridden up during the search and now my thong-clad ass was completely on display to the room full of officers. I heard laughter as my hands were cuffed tightly behind my back.

"Were you turning tricks in here, sweetheart?" Asked the officer.

"No." was all that came out of my mouth. I was shocked and more desperate than ever before but couldn't think of what to say. The dress was bunched up just below my fingers and I tried in vain to push the dress down. However, it was so tight fitting that once it had rolled up above my bubble ass there was no way it was going down until I had both of my hands free to drag it there. I couldn't see below my huge breasts but the front of my panties were completely in view too and they must have a nice view of my little camel toe in the tightly fitting front.
"I'm not a prostitute, officer." I squeaked in my high falsetto. "I had nowhere to go and no money. I just needed a place to sleep." The tears starting coming down my cheeks in bunches.

"They all start crying when they get caught don't they?" Another officer said laughing. "Come on little whore we are taking you in."

Still not bothering to pull my dress down he started to pull me towards the door. "You have the right to remain silent..." He began as I stumbled along still not used to the heels, I realized that my pussy was completely wet. It actually felt like my panties were drenched and that I was leaking. The arousal was intense. Especially, when I realized that the other officers were staring at my almost completely naked ass as it swayed and bounced in my struggle to stay with the quickly moving officer.

He finished my Miranda rights as he pulled me outside of the house and I saw with dismay that dozens of neighbors were in the streets and adjacent yards watching. I was sobbing now as I started to beg the officer. "Please, sir, could you pull my dress down?"

"Is that what you call it? A dress? That thing hardly would qualify as even lingerie." He snapped. He had a evil look on his face as he opened the door to the police car and started to push me in.

My will feels paralyzed. I dont even know what i want. Or how to find out what i want.

>>19670264
Everything is a symptom. Even this post just confirms the condition.

>>19670280
The implication is meaningless if your premise is wrong

I had done everything right, all the signs were green, she found me eloquent, cultured, interesting and intelligent, she came of her own accord to sit at my table to talk face to face at dinners, we had gone for walks together several times and I even managed to make her laugh. I am neither too ugly nor too small, everything was fine but she friendzoned me like all the others before me. The only girl my age who ever seemed worthy of love.

oh god im hung over

summer pls come
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S98Re80tFvg

First poem of the new year! Hope we all write a ton this year.

Writhing Vestige

Thou the vestige of vestiges vanity is but a blessed bridge to a crest ridge span as thee,
For the hosts of the goblins and ghosts and gaunt creatures aghast that haunt thy mask are thy features,
They lure the quick and their sick to the slime of the emulous suchness of devilish horror,
And this writhing skein that binds the signs demurs me my hiding fain that would blind my mind thither.

Soon as the moon wan and aboon as a rune hewn on high has strewn colors on my cloth the boons
Stained as the skin’s hue lets when your pus runs rife with the red which has come like the rust creeping threat
Batters my breath with a bate like a baboon’s chatter doth fret the straight with his babbling swoon,
Surely those holy and meet only need know the spasm of nectar and know not of chasms.

>>19670459
make a gesture. you got nothing to lose. it's possible she'll understand you think she's special.

>>19669282
i do like this pattern. how did you make it?

>>19670459
did you atleast kiss her?

>>19670420
Take up a self disciplinary practice. Meditation or tai chi or something. Unsubscribe from the internet for a while. Focus your life a little and relax.

>>19670752
I'm glad. I didn't. I think I found it when I was googling for a profile pic for facebook. I just wanted to respond with some pic, went through my folder and that's the one. Have a good year, Xi.

>>19669969
If it's any comfort, literally every race is like this. You seethe about BBC porn, but plenty of Black chicks spend their days fantasizing about White cock. Asian and Indian men jerk it to the idea of being sissified. Everyone is a degenerate anon.

>>19670421
That is true. I'm being reductive, but where do you find fallacy?

Does anyone have that christian reading chart? the one with theology on the left, spirituality in middle, and one other thing on I cant remember on the right

I think pornography for me is a way to larp that I am wanted. I think it has a lot more to do with feeling wanted than it does any orgasm or really any sexual desire.

>>19670821

>>19670826
thank you anon

>>19670823
Sex is just a bonus to erotic love. The filial connection is always stronger and more important.
Cuddling>screwing

>>19670780
ah cool. have a good year as well.
in exchange i will offer you some shitty glitch art that i used to make

I ranked everything I read last year

>>19670841
I'm gonna save this and spook the shit out of you with it in a year

>>19670841
i used to make glitch art specifically by fucking around with the color profiles of images that i downloaded off of wikimedia commons, it produced some pretty stuff. i think i've lost them for good now though

>>19670851
You might like The Dresden Files.

oh, fuckin hell, my sister took it upon herself to take the rest of my hangover cure. Jesus Christ who shows up at someones house then eats/drinks their food without asking and even finishes it and leaves nothing. i dont care if there wasnt much left you stupid bitch that means you dont take any, not that you take the rest. fuck

>>19670857
ok
>>19670869
that one is just shitty photoshop warping and shit i think but i used to fuck around with actual databending of photos aswell. pretty fun to do.
the process i would use is so strange: if you import a .bmp file into Audacity as raw data and then edit parts of the processed sound, you get weird effects when converting the raw data back to an image.
i just did a quick and shitty one as an example. you really need to experiment to start getting desired effects and stuff but overall its a pretty fun to do

heres some tutorials if you are interested:
https://youtu.be/4iSe5qy8VwY
https://youtu.be/srPbcY0ibNk
https://youtu.be/BNIPukGJkw0

>>19670851
have you read the legends thrawn trilogy?

>>19666900
Whatever happened to /fil/ francophone? Did the mods decide it was off topic or something

>>19671005
sometimes an image online will have bad encoding that shows up all fucked if you open it with a proper desktop image display program. that's how i naturally figured out you can just fuck with the data to produce
basically how it works is, image formats like JPEG and PNG have compression algorithms that handle converting raw RGB or whatever into their own color space
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Color_space
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Color_management#Color_transformation
this color space is what's stored in the file before an image rendering algorithm converts it back into raw RGB
purely just fucking around with this process is how i glitched shit up
my favourite was just isolating and combining CMYK, like in picrel which isn't mine

Animals are antisemitic.

>>19666918
So why do you post a tranny then if you want a girl

>>19671314
fly away bird you don't need to care them v_v

>>19671357
What makes you think she's a tranny?

I am in a rut. The thought of getting out of the rut is terrifying but I also hate being in the rut.

As you grow older you have to confront the fact that you only have one life and the amount that you can feasibly achieve in that lifetime is severely limited. When you are young you are full of potential and ambition and dreams, but you can't pursue all of them at once so you have to make sacrifices. Perhaps you tell yourself that you'll get around to those other dreams later in life, but then you approach middle age and realise you never did and then you have a midlife crisis. I don't know how you avoid this trap or if it is possible. I've spent most of my life somehow assuming that I might one day win the lottery ticket that launches me into a truly exceptional life, but as the years pass it becomes abundantly clear that I am destined for the normal life that 99.99% of the population also enjoys. This is the quiet tragedy of pretty much everybody's life, but it is what it is so there's no point complaining I think.

>>19666921

Your desire for sex and recognition will keep leading you back. Why not kill yourself right now? For most us, life is like 4chan. You'll always come back, perhaps even if you die lmao

>>19666900
i had a good day today
for the first time in quite a while
thank the Lord for this very pleasant day

It’s myself whom I resent the most.

>>19671374
it's an infamous transgender constantly posted on /fit/

>>19666900
------------ Floriana Requiem ---------

Yesterday I took the land yacht out and found
By chance, a crossroad

Among these huge exurban farmsteads

Beautiful as dreams of the final imperium, a place of unspeakable tranquility,
Suave as brotherly love sensations usually are.

Convenient and attractive beyond all use or necessity
Tremendous treelines of walnuts, oaks, hickories sprawl along it, as if some

Artist of human magnificence had made it so.

I just made the most effortless transition from the figurative to the literal, it flowed so naturally that they seemed the same. Then the computer just shutdown, no warning or reason to be found, just turned off. I can not figure out how I did it, I keep trying, writing and rewriting, moving things around but that transition eludes me. Fuck.

Wow guys, just WOW. QUITE TH...
whoops haha, left my caps lock on... Quite the incident just occurred at Applebee's (of all places) tonight... And to me! (Of all people). I ordered their steak as I remember it being quite good, although I do have a faint memory of a consistent overcooking that happens when I order their steaks (although that could have been chili's instead of Applebee's, I'm not too sure really) I made sure to order it medium rare (I usually order medium) to offset this contingency. Well hold on now cause the kicker, climax, whatever you wanna call it is coming up.... Are you ready? The waiter (blonde lass, probably 5'9, 48 years old.) Brings out my steak.... And boy it's looking good.... Just wow really, served on this steaming black stone plate which rests inside this wood tray, I'm just ready to really dig/tear into this hunk o meat... Right? I mean who can blame me.... LOL!!!! Well here it is folks, I ask the lass. Get this... For some steak sauce, yup yup yup, just some steak sauce, no biggie right? Well....THERE WAS ALREADY STEAK SAUCE ON THE TABLE! YES, YOU GOT THAT RIGHT, THERE WAS ALREADY STEAK SAUCE JUST SITTING RIGHT THERE PEACEFULLY LIKE A FROG.... SHE JUST GRABBED IT UP AND PUT IT NEXT TO ME. HAAAHAAH WOW, STUPID OL ME. Well ain't that just a grand tale... Heh, tell your grandkids that one right!!.... Well hope you enjoyed, , SIGNING OUT!!!!!!.

I confronted a friend after witnessing physical abuse from his girlfriend. I was worried about throwing away a friendship for nothing, but he was open and we talked. I don’t know what will happen, but I made the effort for him.

Look out for your friends. Don’t think you can’t make a difference. Men suffer in silence.

>>19671527
no they don't they constantly complain in WWOYM threads

I'm reading Londonfrog's collected works and don't understand, why the retail job when he has a STEM degree?

>>19666900
I feel so blessed that I was born a male and not a female. Not shitposting or something, just feeling good rn.

>>19671643
he lives in ldn

I think that most things that people complain about are blown out of proportion but the one thing that makes me privately incensed is the normalisation of obesity in Western countries. When I see ads with overweight models (not just chubby, but actually overweight) I feel so despondent. It has nothing to do with feeling attracted or unattracted to them, but the fact that we have shifted to a state of normalising such excess is ridiculous. It's so obviously bad but you can't talk about it otherwise you sound like a boor.

>>19671464
------------ Florina Requiem -----------
II
I take all unrequited loves lightly as the effect of orange impatiens beds on perfect lawns.
Measuring everything, you would suppose, by atmosphere,
Burgundy maples, calamondin oranges--

Fiery cumulus decor on a glittering navy sky, as a patrician house on a high hill burns down.

Yet, I'd be dead as lunar dust, if it not for you, Sultan,
Whose heart is vivid as can be--

Inexplicably abundant, the sweetest thing it's possible to experience.

honestly, I think wearing a condom feels better than raw.

There's times I wish /lit/ was allowed to discuss fanfiction. It doesn't really have a home on the other boards; not fanfiction as a whole, anyway. I've written more than a little of it myself, and I find it somewhat fascinating as a concept. It's essentially like what happened with the "Matter of Britain," the tales of King Arthur and the knights of the Round Table. From an original set of stories, other stories have grown, not written by the original writer/creator. Where before you had a single work by a single set of creators, now you have numerous works by many, all kind of working in concert to form a great body of fiction.

Sure, most fanfics suck, but the idea of them is still interesting. And every now and then you stumble on one that's well-written.

>>19671795
I'm reading volume 3 of his collected works and he writes that he failed over 50 graduate job interviews, while also describing about half a dozen failed retail job interviews, then continuing with running gags about his last binge and reading books for pseud cred. Sounds kinda unrealistic.

>>19671989
Londonfrog isn't real, he's a character the author has cooked up. None of his misadventures actually happened. None of what he relates on /lit/ is actually true. He's doing a Borges-type thing.

>>19671953
------------ Florina Requiem -----------
III
Planetary grids are weirdly effortless as the sun's intense disc,
And so I can't feelingly see the agony
Underneath skylines.

its tough being a deeply romantic humanities brained feeling type that is smart enough to realize and integrate stem truths in order to ruin anything personally meaningful

>>19671969
I remember the first like 10 times I had sex I was really bad at it / couldn't sustain a boner / couldn't cum etc. It made me really self-conscious and I thought I sucked at sex. It turns out the condoms I was using just sucked and when I switched to a better / thinner brand all those problems went away and the sex felt amazing. I was so pissed off at myself for not thinking to switch brands sooner.

>>19672112
Eh? Explain. For me STEM has deepened the value of the humanities, not conflicted with it.

>>19672014
That's what I suspected. Interesting, but also somehow disappointing I guess, if really true. The initial interest began with the assumption of him being real. Once he becomes fictional it's a little too banal to be compelling as a literary character.

I am parasitic in creative nature. This sounds bad, but hear me out.

I am able to contribute to shared settings or fanfictions with ease and prolificness. I cannot do so with my own ideas. I think on some level, I lack the true creative spark, and instead I have an ember which needs another's heat to truly be lit.

>>19672253
You basically are the east asian stereotype of being the improver of an already existing structure

Whenever I try to work on my mental health it feels like I'm making progress at first, and everything seems so simple and manageable. Then I realize how deep the rabbit hole goes, and forget what I wanted to accomplish in the first place. The thought of opening up to a therapist terrifies me, but maybe I'm in over my head with this.

>>19667483
Cheers.
And have a good year

>>19672297
No. Don’t go insane by yourself. Seek out help.

>>19672143
The first time I used a condom i didn't put it on right at it kind of puffed up like a balloon and when I tried to fix it it popped. I'm lucky I didn't burst a blood vessel or something. Thanks for reading my blog.

For 2022 I woke up and thought, "I should make an Excel spreadsheet for every video game I play this year and try to beat as many as possible"
Then I realized it would be way better to do that but with books, so I might do that instead
I wish I could do a spreadsheet for games + spreadsheet for books + practice artwork, but realistically only 2 of those will stick at most

>>19672463
I keep buying games on Steam that look fun but then I play once and don't enjoy.

>>19666900
Liberal arts dudes talk fellate each other talking about shit like the human condition.
STEM dudes are about getting shit done.

>>19672514
>fellate each other
hot, have sex, STEMcel

What’s on my mind? A feeling of profound alienation, and disenchantment. It’s a feeling of disappointment and a sense that, by now, something should’ve come together. I’ve long since started asking myself why I should sustain a life where I feel only detached disappointment and this now all I think about.

>>19672508
Yeah I got a fuck ton of games on Steam that I either haven't played or played less than an hour and just never touched it again

I enjoy leaving comments on porn videos - only of amateurs. Usually videos with few views. It makes me feel strong. It feels intimate. Especially when they respond. Sometimes I'll even message them. I never though I'd be one of the men to make an account on Pornhub. I'd never go that far, I said, what kind of guy leaves comments on porn videos? Yet here I am. I feel no shame. Yet I am building feelings of being desired out of pixels, parasociality.

Seek ye first the kingdom of God - and all these things will be added unto you. The root of alienation is fear. I cling - the pleasure I have. I must hold onto it. The little sense of identity - it must be preserved. I am afraid to be annihilated once I give those up. Who am I then? Can I survive every night just lying there, thinking, waiting for the melatonin to kick in?

Vocation. A vocation is a call that you cannot avoid. Why am I avoiding what my entire life has silently ebbed and flowed from - the Church? The desire for, I dunno, normality. I'll just get a new job! I'll talk to girls, I'll use porn, no no I'll lift! I'll study hard and graduate! Then in trial I again see the house I am building on sand. My yoke is easy and my burden is light. Do I believe that? It's hard to be a god. The call filters back in, silently. Me? a holy roller? me, religious?

Be not conformed to this world. Slowly I realize that I never have been. Praying over my dying grandmother. I shall not lack ... I shall not lack. Thy will be done. Thy will be done in Boost Mobile and drycleaner strip malls. Thy will be done at the stop light, next to the graffitied lot. Thy will be done in the hospital, beeping machines, tattooed nurses. Thy will be done in DMVs with uncleaned windows, in parking lots covered in winter salt which stains your jeans. Thy will be done in dirty Old Navy changing rooms. Thy will be done when I clip my fingernails, when I take Excedrin, when I need to buy new mouthwash. Incarnate in my life. Make all things new.

>>19672445
First time I used a condom it was too tight because I didn't know what size I was and it cut off circulation to my dick and the whole thing turned purple.

It sucks getting older. The girls are getting fatter and the boys are losing their hair. I am vain, so what.

>>19672603
were you being modest?

>>19672689
Yes, I got a medium because I assumed my dick was average sized. I don't have a pornstar dick or anything but I guess I need a large. The way they grade them is obviously designed to flatter you anyhow so you can't really trust them.

Dead branch, reindeer antler
this is winter, its winter and
Grass coats itself in a crystalline pomade
Powdered sugar floats down plains
Flurries, flurry, hooraw, hooray

I just got over my vitriolic misogyny today then I went and read the story of Pelleas and Ettarre in Tennyson's Idylls of the King and now I hate women again.

>>19672878
read Forbidden Colours but make sure you read it to the end

>>19672878
Stop being so weak and loveless

>>19672883
Will it make me more or less misogynistic?
>>19672888
Suck my fat gorilla cock

>>19672891
it will make you more misogynistic at first until you get to the end when it will cure you of your misogyny

>>19672894
Thanks

My dog is going to turn 13 soon. He is already struggling with walking, now he's constantly peeing and his skin is chaffing. He doesn't look haggard but there's the look of frailness he has whenever he moves about. Maybe his time is coming, I don't wanna see him go.

>>19672908
13 is a long, good life. Don't drag out his suffering. Have him put down.

Has there been a rise in bdsm culture in the past couple of years? I may be biased because I spend lots of time in the music/art scenes but I've noticed lots of people are adopting the fashion and language recently. Is it a offshoot of gay culture?

There are days I think the entire planet would be better off if Los Angeles was firebombed. Just napalm the city. Raze it to the ground. It wouldn't be hard given how flammable its surrounding terrain is. What has it ever given the world but wickedness, corruption, and filth? It's an evil city.

>>19673152
I love LA :(
Lived there for two years, it was awesome

>>19673152
Just leave. No one wants you there.
Though you’ll feel the same about any place you land. Just fire bomb your own head, you evil gremlin

>>19673152
That's silly

>>19673152
Some say the end is near
Some say we'll see Armageddon soon
I certainly hope we will
I sure could use a vacation from this
Bullshit three-ring
Circus sideshow of
Freaks
Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call L.A.
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away
Any fucking time, any fucking day
Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay

I'm so hungry I'm going delirious. I don't know how mfers fast.

Im trying to understand whos the culprit in my natal chart - Saturn, Mars, Moon or 8th house. I still feel like theres something Im missing.

>>19673322
Having eaten well enough the day before, and not doing a hell of a lot all day. Are you vegetarian maybe?

>>19673322
make sure you get plenty of electrolytes in you if you're gonna be fasting brother

My mom told me yesterday that my sister is pregnant, and then that she didn't want anyone else to be told. My mom breached her trust and privacy by telling me, and then treated my sister in this really callous way, as if it's no big deal. Because my mom didn't think it was a big deal, she overrode my sister's desire for privacy. I hold privacy to be pretty sacred in all its forms. I'm a pretty sensitive guy, so this upset me a lot. It made me wonder how she's beached my privacy when I've told her things in confidence just because she didn't think it was a big deal.

And because my mom's husband died last year of cancer—to the day—I don't feel like I can really call her out on it.

Then, to boot, I forgot that yesterday was my girlfriend's movie night with her friends and that we wouldn't be able to spend our evening together like we normally do. I took some time to run errands, which is fine and what I needed to do, but she got upset about it and I did some more dumb shit that added fuel to the fire. It was a very complicated day, and I don't really do complicated. I'm mad at my mom and I'm mad at myself.

>>19673322
I'm good at controling hunger with fasting, the thing that gets me is how fast my heart beats. When I fast my heart feels like it's going to blow and it makes me scared as someone from a family with a long history of heart disease.

Do women have worse taste in books?

>>19673390
Is this a philosophical question?
Which women?
What are your favorite books?

>>19673375
>I hold privacy to be pretty sacred in all its forms
Same

>>19673375
>Then, to boot, I forgot that yesterday was my girlfriend's movie night with her friends and that we wouldn't be able to spend our evening together like we normally do. I took some time to run errands, which is fine and what I needed to do, but she got upset about it and I did some more dumb shit that added fuel to the fir
I do not get it. How does you running errands affect your girlfriend's movie night.

>>19672514
STEM dudes are just boring bugmen.
>t. STEM dude

>>19666900
Business is booming, but what does that mean?
Look under the skirt of this institution, and you'll see
The industrial revolution and its consequences have been a disaster for the human race

>>19673501
----------------- Florina Requiem ---------------
IV

Weather like this makes me think of Bryan smoking his way up Longs Peak.

Even from beyond the grave of drives augmented by
Liquor and hydraulics responsive

To a touch light as conversant orangs or altostratus
I think of him every day, still, since I remember everything without
The slightest movement of will, ever dismissive of my idiot sisters as he was of his.

Sartorial splendor suits me like private conservatories
And public libraries do, Seneca on a tear
Saying whatever he sees

The instant he sees it, his imagination drifting downstream like estuaries.
He never saw the Pleiades through heavy lenses
From the porch of green

Grids where music of infinite spaciousness plays.

>>19671980
It's allowed, but nobody reads it. At most some people in sffg read webnovels.

Not doing well. New place, no friends, shitty living situation. Not eating well. Not sleeping well. Hardly doing either. Had a six pack, tall boys, every night and smoke like a chimney. I got a donut an egg sausage sandwich, black coffee today. It's 3am and I'm outside smoking, writing this on my phone.
I don't feel connected to my family anymore. It's a drag to listen to they're life updates. They're good people.
I don't feel connected to myself. I don't think I'm a good person. I don't feel like I person. A ghost to myself. Under water, it feels like I can't break through the surface.
I only think about myself. The shadow in me. Something went wrong. New job and good things in the works, will travel, will make people proud. But I feel like I'm insane. A mad job into the night.
No touch, fake personality, afraid to make anything real. Went on a walk and just touched the bark of the trees, watched the birds over the lagoon. The breeze over the bay was quiet and I felt peace. Only numinous sensation I can feel.
I lead a pitiful life. Disgusting to know it's secrets. Black ichor instead of thoughts. An ugly daze.
Help is not on it's way. I signed up for this, to stand alone. Even my dreams are pointless. Tasteless fog.

Spoiler for the spelling and grammar.
Pic unrelated.

ah my new years resolution was to not drink for a week or two. fucked up and had a few beers tonight. this is going to be more difficult than i expected
https://youtu.be/2osPHc3rfGQ

>>19673567
Helps when there’s no beer in the house
https://youtu.be/T5tFCH0pAG0

>>19670554
I like whatever this rhyming scheme is, if that's what it's called. Especially like the last line too

>>19673561
its a dark night for you.

My wish is to be content. I sometimes forget, overlook, think otherwise or just don’t know that certain feelings gain the upper hand. Which leads to me fighting them, happy or sad, just to prevent getting in a worse state.
I don’t want to accept that I might have a mental illness and if I do I want to solve it myself, out of spite to the very few people that made me, left me feeling worthless.
It isn’t easy and when others become involved I can get too attached, so much so that I fear any potential rejection and try to keep them at a cordial distance.
Sometimes they slip through which usually fizzles out due to my isolation or when it doesn’t, wreaks havoc in my mind.
I hope that one day I can be content.

>be me
>Go to r9k like I usually do
>Just people jerking off
>Just bait
>Heres my opinion on gays
>DAE think women bad?
>Cope tranny
>Have you heard about black people?
>Pedos good anime bad ethot said thing new movie has women see it's on Twitter
>Cope seethe dilate mushroom wojack cringe based
>Meth hookers goth girls femboys BBC you're a cuck
>Just smoked a fattie I'm British gay over 25 never held hands losing weight is dumb Chad has strong chin
>Be me
>Depressed
>So are you
>Faggot life is easy
>Meds now don't wear mask develish in Walmart today clean up on aisle 6 wagie
>Teleports behind you
>/d/
>We're the Nazis good uncle Ted based caths dunked on Sonic see it's on twitter
>Christian Weston Chandler is in jail
>Feeling cute post bussy
>Too scared to ride the bus
>Mom died nowhere to go am NEET

I really fucked myself with drugs and booze over christmas / new year. I didn't even do anything particularly hard but two days later and I still feel so fucked. I am sure it is only temporary but I thought one sleep would fix me hopefully this next sleep will fix me. My brain has left the building and I feel faint.

Is it true that multiple things about economics are not really well understood at all, and that the different major conceptual models we have of economics right now all rest on some assumptions that might be wrong? I kinda got this impression.

------------ Floriana Requiem---------
V

My mom dispatched a taxi to take us home.
We went too far, as it were, on our prankish expedition.

Three apple trees in an ideal August park
Or was it July, suggest the vinous richesse of species,
Each like a person, each too peculiar to be anything but lovable.

The charm of their desultory fruit
Reminds me a little of the subterranean infrastructure
We toured as careless boys, as if encyclopedic dead mall video can suggest

The stuff great cities are made of, how serene
Their dominance of contingency

Really is, solid as constellations, permanent as human wishing.

>>19666900
I feel like I'm living such a bad life
- All my close friends are abroad or in different cities
- Everyone is getting promotions or working in big companies or studying at fucking Harvard
- Everyone's getting paid more than me
- Everyone's getting married
- My gf is a inactive bitch who doesn't have a job even at 26. She isn't doing anything to get a job or support herself.
- My body is in constant pain
- I've gone from 80 kgs to 100+ kgs in the last year
- Due to the pain and physical discomfot, my mind cannot function at high levels. It's a pain to do anything.

My 2021 was miserable. And I doubt my 2022 will be better. I'm in such an unhappy state of mind.

It's NOT okay to leave things unexplained

>>19673865
Yes it is and I won't explain why

I rest in a bed full of bedbugs that also reeks of feet. I've been holding my shit in cause the bathroom has no door, no seat, no running water. My chest hurts so bad I can't sleep. I'm afraid the neighbour, some relative of this family, is planning something nefarious (he is a jobless drunk, an abusive parasite who comes to this house full of meek, weak willed people and eats and gets drunk and doesn't even say thanks) because he is an ex-cop so he probably has dangerous friends, bit thats literally what I think of every single person I meet so I dont take myself too seriously.
I came here because I love my girlfriend. I love her so much I dont have the heart to tell her I dont like visiting her parents (even if they love me and treat me well) and I love her so much I have to lie to myself that I can overlook all these little things I dont like about her family and her (god knows she overlooks a lot of things she doesnt like about me). I dont know hoe much longer I can keep this up, but I like to pretend it's going to last forever. I keep pretending 20 years down the line I will love her so much Im not going to cheat on her or feel regret.
I dont have a car, I live in constant paranoid fear, I have the best girl in the world but I cant take how much and how often she farts and I wish she looked hotter.
Two choices: accept that this is my life, this is what I have to work with and take it all in and do the best I can to make things better, or escape into porn and for one and a half hours chat it up with some pervert that Im fucking a cartoon horse, my mother or old high school crushes.

>>19673935
>I cant take how much and how often she farts
LOL

------------ Florina Requiem ---------
VI

Spectacle terrifying as Castle Bravo
Or eerie as Pripyat apartments pigeons nest in
Look and feel nothing like these miraculously comfortable fields.

Someone has anticipated almost everything,
Someone with a mind lovely
As the North Loop

Or Japanese cameras.

Someone also contrived a mausoleum so Remote and anonymous in feeling
I wonder who tends the soaring wall of

Arborvitae stands
Aside its snowy weight of marble,

The moons a skull
i think its grinning
the room is full of people
i think its spinnin

>>19673400
I don't read.

>/lit/ will tell you it's always been this bad

>>19674008
better than the poems in the poetry general

>>19674079
>The only reason to live is to become an ultimate consumer

>>19674079
What's wrong with Cardi B

>>19671418
the only thing you need is to realize that while your assessment could well be correct, God still loves you more than you could possibly understand. We're all absolute dogshit anon. We're redeemed by our hope in Him, and the hope is well founded. That's my advice to you.

>>19671480
>SIGNING OUT!!!!!!
I lost.

>>19672697
you have a beautiful modesty.

>>19673743
I'm under the same impression. there's a real "what we think we can measure"-bias, I think. Although, what the fuck do I know.

it's quite shocking when you remember that the moon is an Enormous rock that just fucking hangs there.

>>19671480
lol

>>19674322
so deep bro :-)

>>19674332
isn't it kind of the opposite of deep though. I mean it's right fucking there. It's a rock man. You can just look at it.

>>19674363
wow :-)

>>19674366
why are you being such a fag

bro we live on a rock lmao this is like so crazy :o like think about it... a rock... wow.... damn...!!

>>19674366
it floats. it fucking floats. no strings

it HECKING FLOATS i HECKING LOVE SCIENCE

I'm scared that I will lose what I have right now. I'm scared I will be unable to take the responsibility. I'm scared I will not fulfill the transition my life takes right now. I'm scared I will disappoint her.

>>19674393
>I will not fulfill the transition
Tranny

>>19674397
I forgot this place is infected with this shit. I meant that my life changed from having no job and doing nothing for years to having a gf a job and prospects for the future.

>>19674416
It's not worthy anon, remember the 40%

>>19674425
What's the 40 %?

>>19674429
>>19669787

>>19674429
Disregard that retard, he's probably American. We're just starting to wake up. Nonzero possibility that he's even a Quebecker, since the west coast isn't up yet. He's just shitposting.
>>19674393
We all feel fear, anon. It's the rational response to the possibility of losing something you really, really care about. Don't give into it. Don't let it drive your actions beyond your control. The true strength is in recognizing and accepting your fear. You allow it to exist as something beyond your control. Then, you refuse to allow it more than its presence. You act according to your values and in pursuit of what you want, rather than allowing it to drive your actions in response to what you're afraid of losing.

>>19674443
Well, he's not that far off. I did actually want to "transition" before finding my current gf. Life is just so scary sometimes.

>>19666919
i laughed hard, holy smokes

>>19672014
How do u know that

>>19674443
Actually good advice, I'll try my best.

I would like to print this and hang it up as a poster so I can take a look at it every morning. Does anyone have a HQ version?

its called /lit/ not /writ/

fear that there is nothing out there for me.

>>19674990
Will do, chickie

I feel overwhelmed by melancholy and indifferent but more than anything, it’s the sense that I’ve totally failed to this point to put together any semblance of vocation, or career, or ambition at all and nothing in my past is suggestive of future success in any arena at all. There’s nothing unique, ambitious, or even coherent about me outwardly even though my inward soul craves something “more” so deeply that I can hardly bare it. My mind is filled with calculations of the past, the present, which all inevitably result in a disappointing future. I heard someone once say that depression feels like the future has been cancelled. Yeah, it’s something like that. Destiny has abandoned me.

>>19671374
Because I know him

Chinese is mass formation go.
How loyal are U.S. allies and enemies to their destiny? It's really symptoms. We control the symptoms. That's why. I think many of them are wildcards and have limiting factors yet to be accounted for.

>>19675061
lol

I'm european and I'm so tired of this tumor that grew in our countries of "trap culture": rap culture grew rotten to the core in 30 years, became trap and then it was regurgitated in Europe, were it bloomed like the worst kind of infesting plant. Rock and Punk music were detrimental to a certain extent, but at least they had some important messages and were overall good examples of well done music. While trap hasn't a single merit and prey on the minds of simpler and younger people that are exposed to it. Even mainstream Pop and House music from the 00s and 10s was better than this crap obsessed with money, sluts, drugs, horrendous clothing and similar shit...

>>19673611
>femboys BBC
Based!

>>19675253
Kek as if it's the problem that is affecting European culture right now

>>19675253
It was exactly the same back then. I fucking hate nostalgia and what it does to people's brains

>>19675287
Well, there may be other problems, but this one affects the minds of young people, the most valuable thing we have. With a new generation of zombies which future we have?
>>19675304
Back then when? Give me some examples

>>19675315
>but this one affects the minds of young people
Buddy the entire internet is cancer for young people. No one cares about your negro music offshoots, Europe needs fascism the sooner the better, not a different music genre.

>>19675315
I am not going to listen to bad music for you. Media was never "better", you are just old.

Fallout: New Vegas

>>19675339
>Media was never "better",
Yes it was, you're just retarded.

>>19675351

>>19675376
Nice meme retard

>>19675351
Not me lmao
>>19675326
Of course, this is indeed another problem. But these two aren't mutually exclusive, but instead they make each other worse

>>19675386
Wow that sure showed me

big dick

A month or two ago it was all over the news that inflation is getting a little out of hand, and I was talking about it with a guy before a lecture. His native language isn't English, and as a part of the conversation he wanted to look up one of those animated diagrams that show inflation over time. So he brings up youtube, and types in "inflation animation".
In the split second between him typing in the characters and lifting his pinky finger towards the enter key, I couldn't decide whether or not to tell him to rephrase the query, because I didn't want to explain why I knew what the result was going to be.
So, I didn't warn him, and his screen was immediately flooded with fetish porn. While the videos themselves were probably age restricted that didn't stop youtube from rendering the thumbnails. We were sitting in the front of the lecture hall. It took him a few seconds to realize what was happening, and a somebody behind us asked "man, what the fuck is that". His hands were visibly shaking as he scurried to close the tab, but by that point a bunch of people had seen his screen. Poor guy spent the rest of the lecture a little jittery.

had a dream I entered an abandoned coastal home and a dog jumped through the window. it bit me but had no teeth.

>>19675652
Sex dream. You scared of women.

>>19675575
Kek

>>19675687
Any reasoning? I did go to sleep thinking about a girl. I'd come to realize that I only ever feel sexual attraction to her when feelings of hate and pain flood me. I replayed memories of us 'flirting' and it was all attempts to inflict pain on each other.

to whoever makes the next thread: choose a cool image please. you dont have much time. think fast

LAST

New thread
>>19675870

new [cooler] thread: >>19675869

>>19674393
let her know you're afraid you'll fuck up. she'll be nice, she'll feel prescious and you'll feel reassured. it's gonna be alright anon. you'll do fine.

>>19675376
wait people wear their hair like that again? are we nostalgic for my childhood now?

>>19675575
this made me smile