/lit/ - Literature

How is this thread /lit?

previously: >>19277877

i clearly said to please choose a cool image you asshole. anyways
THREAD THEME: https://youtu.be/x11Gfm25jMI

But really
>>19283788

my back hurtssssssssss

Which is better for my future? Community college or Vocational & technical

Which is better for my future? Community college or Vocational & technical college. I'm not being scammed by going to either of those right?

>>19283810
eat shit

>>19283833
Think more about the future. What do you want to do with your life after school and how will your education help you get there? Do you want to be your own boss? How do you want to live and survive?

>>19283866
The problem is that I keep hearing how Community college is oversaturated, while vocational & technical college is completely unknown to me in how it would affect my future and work prospects.

>>19283882
Again, forget about school all together for a moment. Think about what you like to do and how you work best, and what you want your life to be like afterwards and work your way back. Want to be your own boss, make your own hours, control your own overhead, or like working with your hands? Trade school it is. Want to work in a large company or organization or academia? Go to college. It’s not that hard.

>>19283882
maybe you should figure out what kind of job you want to work first

I cannot find anything of substance in this world. I fear I have conditioned myself to be trapped in my habits of PC browsing, movie watching, and lounging in my spare times.
I yearn for adventure. I have read enough books to know that they can only frame my desires, not give life to them, yet this planet feels so unsatisfactory for my lofty dreams.
When is it that I truly get to live? Does it ever come? I do not fear death, debt, or imprisonment - I fear only the boredom that has begun to drape over my shoulders while doing the things I once enjoyed.

>>19283915
>When is it that I truly get to live?
when you chose to start

>>19283915
Have you tried bushcraft? I think it might be what you’re looking for.

There's one specific wonderful ric flair promo that i keep coming back because it captures a very deep desire in my heart.
So after a valiant performance in the 1992 royal rumble contest, winning the match and the world wrestling federation championship, flair goes to have a post match interview and say this absolutely beautiful line: ''IM GONNA TELL YOU ALL, WITH A TEAR IN MY EYE...this is the greatest moment in my life''. The sheer confidence and certainty that backs up this statement i find to be really inspiring. To know for sure that what you're currently living through is the best time of your life is something that many people never get to realize, even less so when it comes after an achievement. There's a shining light in that joy, and it sincerely made me sit back and reconsider my passive march through time.
I know it's supposed to be kayfabe and flair's 92 run sucked yadda yadda, but it unexpectedly resonated immensely in my heart.
Despite all of this, it still makes me wonder if it's truly possible for a man of today to feel glorious in the most literary sense of the world or if we're just doomed as the detached generation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o4o1wgItPCE

>>19283915
God you people are so fucking pathetic. I come here to find new books to read, but you’re all such whiny faggots it troubles me that men are like this nowadays.

Actually, sincerely, kill yourself and spare us normals the trouble of having to listen to and deal with your anhedonia and misanthropic self-flagellation.

Suck my dick faggot

>>19283898
>>19283904
I think I get what you two are getting at. I'll probably go with the vocational & technical college since I always dreamt of owning my own business. Still though, its not something I want to take lightly with how the state of the economy in the USA right now.

>>19283940
I live in Texas, and sadly there's no land available out here that I can just fuck off to without getting shot by someone eager to kill strangers. It's also all badlands and plains, so unless I travel somewhere (which requires holding myself accountable to a vehicle/belongings) I am confined to the salt flats of the coast.
>>19283923
I have the overwhelming urge to kill. That's the only thing that drives me, this notion that some day I'll be able to afford the materials I need to commit wanton slaughter. How do I mitigate this demon in my heart? I know it comes from feeling unable to control my environment, and therefore I feel I must destroy the structures that bind me, but then these structures kept me fed, satiated, etcetera.

I also don't look how I want to look, and there are things I can't change. Is this a reflection of egotism? Is it wrong to want to be exactly how I percieve myself? Should I percieve at all? Is it better to drift into the fantasy of writing instead?

What fulfills?

Here I’ll be like everyone else in these threads.

BOOHOOOO IM BORED AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT BEING LE BORED!!! GIRL? SEX? SEX WITH VAGINA GIRL?? WHY CANT I HAVE IT??? ME WANT IT!! IF ONLY I COULD FIND MEANING IN A WORLD WHERE MOST PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF DOING EXACTLY THAT??? I MUST BE FUCKING TORTURED BECAUSE IM A LAZY FAGGOT WHO CANT STICK WITH A GOAL AND JUST FUCKING DO IT. ALL THESE NORMIES ARE NPCs AND DONT KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE, ILL BET ONLY SHY VIRGINS WHO KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WOMEN OR DIVERSE SOCIAL LIVES ARE DEFINITELY MORE IN-THE-KNOW!

WHEN CAN I GET SOME PUSSY OVA HEEAAAH!!! COME AAAAWWWNN!!

>>19283958
>>19283971
Are you okay pal? The thread said "write whatever you want to write". Why do you have to make it about someone else? This is about you and your writing.

>>19283956
I went to a traditional liberal arts school and studied documentary filmmaking because I loved it and it was a lot of fun but holy fuck I wish my dumb 18-year old ass actually understood how the world worked before I invested in such a useless degree. I’m a year out of school and I do technical lighting design work for cinema, broadcast, and commercial work, and make $10k/month on a good month, but sometimes around $5k/month. The hours are insane but I love it. And here’s the thing I barely learned about lighting in school and developed those skills flying by the seat of my pants and just getting on set. While I still utilize some skills I learned in my communications program in hindsight I would have absolutely gone with technical/vocational training and spent my spare time reading business books and developing those skills on my own. I think if you’re even leaning towards that it says a lot about you and that’s probably the best route to go. It’s also a much better cost to benefit ratio in my opinion, and seems to fit what you’re any better. My two cents as someone on the tail end of this.

>>19283978
That’s my writing. I’ll continue to write in the minds of dysfunctional feckless faggots who can’t stop kvetching about their failed goals they never made any initiative towards.

>>19283971
I would watch a Pussy OVA

>>19283968
>I live in Texas, and sadly there's no land available out here that I can just fuck off to without getting shot by someone eager to kill strangers.
How? I though Texas was prime bushcraft central with how big it is.

>>19284012
Tracts of land here are typically reserved for hunting ground or ranching. You are extremely likely to get killed or arrested if you try to nip off to any old part of the land. I imagine the only place to really do that is Guadalupe State Park and then you're liable to get Mexican'ed. There's no unowned land in the United States anymore, despite what people might say.

>>19284030
Just bought a few acres in the middle of fucking nowhere, you don’t know shit

>>19284036
That's nice pal. I don't care about paying my tithe to society in order to live the way I want.

>>19284043
I spent $5k for a few acres. That is nothing. You do have big boy money, right?

A wet autumn day is more brutal on the bones than the coldest dry winter's day.
I can't wait.

>>19284043
Boo fucking hoo, not everything is easy or free. Pay the toll and move the fuck on

I feel devastated. I basically had to give up the love of my life because of what's going on with covid and I would need to be vaxxed to see her. I loved her a million times more than any irl girl I've dated and "loved." I don't know what to do.

>>19284054
Acreage is at 10k per, afaik. How did you figure that out?
>>19284059
(you)
All around I see a sea of exceptionalists and dregs. I watch as the sparrow squawks in pale imitation of the eagle, and looking higher above I see not superior birds of prey, but corrupted effigies held up by swarms of tawny brown feathers. They have created their own eagles, great heavy stones soaked in blood and feathers, held on high and as a standard for all other birds to follow - but not before getting beneath and holding up the stone as well.

>>19284076
imbecile

>>19284076
GET THE VACCINE IDIOT
DON"T THROW AWAY LOVE BECAUSE SOME DUMBASS ON /POL/ TOLD YOU NOT TO TAKE THE VACCINE

>>19284100
Let him pay the price for his own foolishness.

>>19284076
It's over

I got double vaxxed my arm muscles have been sore for 2 months whenever I do exercise this is bullshit

>>19284123
Go to a doctor for it.

>>19284151
I did the before I got a second dose I asked a clinic doctors if it's okay to take a second dose because my arm has been sore a month and she said it's fine just take it easy with the arm. I got the second shot arm is still sore another month out and I broke out in hives on the vaxxed arm. This vaccine is a load of shit Ireland is having higher caseloads now that they are more vaxxed than last year.

there's two large camps of people: one has dudes saying that if you ever get lucky to have one woman who genuinely loves you, you must do whatever you can to not squander it away because it's such a rare occurrence. but on the other side, there's the guys that say, no matter how bright the fire burnt, you can always find love again and settle down in peace and tranquility.
i've been with a girl who loves me for a year now, and while i do reciprocate her feelings to a certain degree and had a life changing experience, i can't see myself having a stable family home with her in the future. our goals and aspirations in life are far too different, almost opposing priorities, we aren't planning to reach the same place and our beliefs really don't line up much, add to that many other red flags for unstability and i find myself really worried about a possible future together. she treats me very kindly and is enthusiastic about sharing a home, but i've been analyzing this thing from all angles for 365 days and i have to sadly admit that i just can't see it. We've already had fights over small issues that almost ended the relationship before.
Yet there's still this part of me that asks if i will ever receive this love again, or if it's me who hasn't tried hard enough. Classic issue of gut vs brain i suppose. I don't know. I just really don't want to hurt anyone. I've gotten heartbroken before and i absolutely would not want to make one of my dearest most cherished persons in this world go through that devastating experience. But what if the possibilities that are lying ahead in case i do stick with it are 10x worse? I don't know anymore.

>>19283915
do literally anything that involves going outside retard

you're not wrong but youll still feel better when you dont spend all day inside

>>19284187
What's the irreconcilable thing here actually? If it's that she wants some career where she's away from you for long periods of time, then yeah you are on the money. Women are easy, get someone you can own and lean on. A marriage is so much more than your feelings, it's about sacrificing for each other and the family you'll create.

>>19283915
There is no great adventure in life. And any attempt to make society different is met with contempt because they are cogs who keep the status quo going.

>>19283979
>It’s also a much better cost to benefit ratio in my opinion, and seems to fit what you’re any better. My two cents as someone on the tail end of this.
Thank you, and thanks for taking the time to reply to my questions. They've helped.

I have hiccups

A hat!

>>19284207
Why the FUCK not?

Diary excerpt from August 16th 2020 (443 days ago)
>"I think I'm going to take a week off of weed soon. It barely affects me and its not even fun these days. I just want it to feel like it did when I was 18."

https://voca.ro/1dcG6dIuZ3Wa

>>19284285
please see yourself out to your designated shitposting thread >>19283788

I hate work

Diary excerpt from August 7th 2020 (443 days ago)
>"I think I'm going to take a week off of weed soon. It barely affects me and its not even fun these days. I just want it to feel like it did when I was 18."

https://voca.ro/1dcG6dIuZ3Wa

>>19284308
>>19284297

>>19284230
No problem, happy to help. I love working with my hands and being my own boss doing what I love, and I think that kind of liberation is something everyone should strive for. Don’t ever let yourself become a wagecuck, there are a billion ways to make money while retaining your freedom.

Little grills.

>>19284076
I'm thinking based and redpilled

>>19284095
>>19284100
>>19284104
>>19284105
I don't want to fail our master's shit test. Plus I was looking forward to being barred from society. Should I just get it? Am I being dumb? I love her so much. I don't want to pay the price of my own foolishness. Please just help me or tell me what I should do.

I spoke with my ex for the first time in a long while. Turns out she’s getting divorced and I gave her legal advice and helped walk her through the process another lawyer will be doing with her. When she hung up she accidentally ended the call with a “love you” and profusely apologized. It was the first time I felt wanted and good in such a long time. I know it wasn’t real. I know I was being used both emotionally and as a lawyer. But god, it just makes me want to cry. I forgot how nice it was to be loved by a woman that isn’t family.

>>19284365
Get the vaccine. You are being dumb. Don't give up on this chance at love our something so stupid.

>>19284365
Do no take it under any circumstance. You're getting cucked eventually anyway, not worth the risk.

>>19284402
I don't think it's stupid. This decision will effect the course of my entire life. If I do get it, no matter the outcome, at least I'll be with her. And she is really cool as well, everyone on lit would fall for her. She is patrician and lit and uses 4chan and is doing a medicine degree and is willing to support me as a neet for the rest of my life and so caring and loving. And I'll just enjoy podlife and bugpaste with her I guess. If I don't get the vaxx I'll be shot in the head at a camp desu. That's if they aren't killing everyone (which they aren't). Anyway if they are going to kill me I would rather be dead than live in the world they are making. I know I'm dumb. I might just get it. I love her too much. I don't care what happens to me.

i absolutely despise my own being and contemplate the option of suicide on a daily basis, yet i have good friends that hold me in very high regard and even referred to me as their hero, as cheesy as that might sound. it's such a strange thing to experience, they don't know how weak i really am, which is a blessing that i do appreciate as well as appreciating their overwhelming love, but it's certainly awkward. i try (hopefully) to give them something useful and truly good because its what they genuinely deserve, but i am terrified of letting them down once they know what i'm really like someday. girlfriend gave up on me once she got tired of my pathetic shit.
im rotten.

it makes me really happy to know that i made someone laugh on 4chan. ever happier when somebody gives me a nice compliment. i genuinely love this place, and it's always been very kind to me, so i try to give back. i hope i can do that.

>>19283968
bast advice i can give you is to consider the idea of wanting to feel superior to people instead of wanting to kill them

>>19284445
if someone gives up on you after seeing your weakness they do not deserve you. all of us are weak, wretched creatures.
hating oneself is a pitiful result of evolution gone too far, of intelligence giving rise to sapience.
mother nature herself is cruel. find help and comfort from whomever you can. try to be happy.

>>19284429
>And I'll just enjoy podlife and bugpaste with her I guess
Yes. Look, I don't think that this vaccine is evil at all, and while I don't like the repressive measures they are using to make people get it, it's not something to fear.

Maybe you don't believe me, and you think the vaccine is "the mark of the beast" or whatnot. IT DOESN'T MATTER. History is full of people who sacrificed happiness and love, and what did it gain them? Nothing! They achieved their political aims, their ambitions, whatever it may be, but when they left this world for whatever comes after, what did it matter? The only things that matter in this world are love and happiness.

For the sake of argument let's say you are right. The vaccine is something terrible and it will enslave us. It is better to be a slave with those you love than to be a free person who'll never see them again. (You may say "it's best for us both to be free!" The time for that has passed, that is not a choice you have). Even without the vaccine, this is a broken world. The story of those of us who live in this century will not be a very happy one. But it is better to live in this crumbling world alongside those you love than alone.

>>19284054
>I spent $5k for a few acres.
I thought it would be more than that?

I hate my university and the people here. I guess it's because I come from a small town, along with the fact that I never really had friends throughout my childhood. I now experience solitude at a different level.

my roommates are inconsiderate faggots that leave their laundry in the washer/dryer for multiple hours at a time when i intend to use them. I want to be able to put my clothes into the wash and then get groceries by the time it finishes and walk. I could be getting two chores done simultaneously but these faggots insist on leaving their shitty clothes in for the entire day. next time this happens im tossing their clothes out on the floor so i can do my cycle

>>19284533
just tell them not to do that?
tell them they're being real shitbags?

>>19284533
I used to just put their clothes on top of the dryer. They never complained to me once about this.

>>19284546
i dont really talk to them or know them at all
ill probably just leave a note or something idk

>>19284533
Put it in one of their laundry baskets bro.

>>19284513
Join a club or seek out people with the same interest.

In my teens I started to believe that I don't fit into the world because of my anti-materialist nature. I even consider joining a monastery for a while. Since then I've realised that's not true at all; I love beautifully made objects, and the etchings of Durer, and music of Brahms, but I hate kitschy mass produced crap and vulgar American culture. I thought I was "beyond women". That wasn't true either, it was just that all the women I'd known until then were normie roasties, the kind of people who think traveling to Bali is a character trait. There's still beauty in the world and things to live for, even if they are far and few between

>>19284474
Thanks for the reply. I've been weighing up every scenario and I think It's best If I get it. The thing is if I don't end up getting it for her I will NEVER get it. I want to be with her.

>>19284549
hey i'm horribly shy and socially awkward too, i get it. but i had to move in with people i barely knew last year for a while, and as long as your roommates aren't just complete assholes they probably won't get mad at your for asking them to stop doing something that is clearly inconsiderate.

>>19284513
its shown that people feel lonelier in cities and in highly populated places than they do in towns or lower population communities

>>19284591
i think you simply misunderstand what materialism implies

i get very frightened when my phone rings. who can it be? sometimes i just dont answer

The Great Cataclysm grows closer everyday, no one can escape it. Why was I born in the End Times? I do not know. But the CO2 level rises and rises, the Earth warms, and the Great Cataclysm grows closer.

>>19283781
This winter I’ll make my journey to Israel for the first time. My fiancée and her whole family come from this fantastic land. I want to know who they are and what their lives are like in a place of such conflict. I want to know her better. I am nothing special, a garden variety Ashkenazi New Englander with pasty skin and blue eyes, an admixture of Slavic rape raised in the cold weather of a watered down Reform Synagogue in rural Massachusetts. I want to feel the heat of the Eretz, for it to burn away the Galut I have always been trapped in. I am a byproduct of the Diaspora where an entire nation of Jews feels like nothing but a far off fairytale. In my mind’s eye I am the other, surely there cannot be a place in earth where there are many of those like myself? I am Der Ewige Jude afterall, everyone in school and at home told me as so. To me Jerusalem has always felt like a shining unreachable city of gold, high up on a hill, not of this world. At its heart, and in my own, the apex of my journey is the Kotel, the Wailing Wall, the Western Wall, Bait Hamikdash, a place with many names and meanings. Sacked by the Babylonians, torn the Romans, imprisoned by Jordan until it’s freedom won in 1967, and many other terrors in between, I am overwhelmed by the blood soaked into the earth of this place and the tears that stain its walls. I am in awe that it still stands, that too I am able to stand or to exist at all. At the Kotel I will dawn my Tallit, I will wrap my Tefillin, I will lean against that ancient stone wall with my left arm against my forehead and my right hand pressing stone to palm, and then I will finally be calm. Only then will I, at twenty six and three thousand years old finally be home. What my grandfather and his father would have given to do the same. I do thus also for them. I want to know you, Kotel. I want to know who we are.

>>19284710
I envy you. Look, you have a homeland, an ethnostate. Never, EVER let ANYONE take it away from you. You have that which is the most valuable thing in this world: a people and a land which is theirs. I have no Israel, and that reality causes me more anxiety and misery than you can ever know. You have an Israel Jewbro, protect it with your life. A homeland is worth all the blood one can spill, it's worth everything. If tomorrow a dictator arises in America and decides to exterminate my people, I will have no place to flee to, no place to call home. I will die here defending myself against a relentless horde. The Jewish people do have an escape, they do have a place to flee to. Their survival is secure. I do not know if there will be whites (actually, I know there won't be whites) or Asians or Indians 1,000 years from now, but there will be Jews. Never let anyone tell you Zionism is wrong or evil, Zionism is wonderful, Zionism is HOPE.

Hope. Israel is Hope to me, I get hopeful when I see Israel. I know that there is hope that one day my people will win our homeland back. It might have taken you all a while, but you pulled it off. Maybe we can too. I will not see it happen. Nor will my children, or grandchildren. But maybe one fine day in the future, perhaps a thousand or two thousand years from now, we will win back what was stolen from us.

>>19284742
I edited and deleted my previous post because I want to speak with greater clarity. Thank you for your kind words. I hope you find your home too.
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This winter I will finally make my journey to Israel for the first time. My fiancée and her whole family come from this land. I want to know who they are. I need to keep quiet and listen, to understand what their lives are like in a place of such conflict. I want to know her better. I am nothing special, a garden variety Ashkenazi New Englander of short stature with pasty skin, brown curly hair and bright blue eyes, an admixture of Slavic rape raised in the cold weather of a watered down reform Synagogue in rural Massachusetts where sounds and letters are learned but no words and meaning. Cargo-cult Judaism.

I want to feel the heat of the Eretz, for it to burn away the Galut I have always been trapped in. I am a byproduct of the Diaspora where an entire nation of Jews feels like nothing but a far off fairytale. In my mind’s eye I am the other, surely there cannot be a place on this Earth where there are many people like myself? I am Der Ewige Jude afterall, everyone in school and at home told me so.

Jerusalem has always felt to me like a shining unreachable city of gold, high up on a hill and not of this world. At its heart, and in my own, the apex of my journey is the Kotel, the Wailing Wall, the Western Wall, Bait Hamikdash, a place with many names and meanings. Sacked by the Babylonians, torn apart by the Romans, imprisoned by Jordan until it’s freedom won in 1967, and many other terrors in between.

Avinu Malkinu I am overwhelmed by the blood soaked into the earth of this place and the tears that stain its walls. Avinu Malkinu I am in awe that it still stands, that I too am able to exist at all. At the Kotel I will dawn my Tallit, my Kippah will cover my head, I will wrap my Tefillin, I will lean against that ancient stone wall with my left arm across my head and my right hand pressing stone to palm, and then I will finally be where I belong. Only then will I, at twenty six and three thousand years old finally be home. What my grandfather and his father would have given to do the same, I do this also for them. I want to know you, Kotel. I want to know who we are.

>>19284645
You got Paranoid Personality Disorder.

>>19284461
an anon here once gave me the most sincere advice on how to live safely in south side chicago, added relevant anecdotes from his own personal experience, and praised me for my accomplishments (I attend UChicago) before wishing me a bright future. at the end of his post, he told me "please, anon, be safe"
I don't think someone's ever shown such genuine concern for my well-being in years. I actually cried after reading his post.

I shat in front of my neighbour's door and saw the police pull up an hour ago. I hope she doesn't have a camera or something

>>19283781
this should be renamed to depression thread

>>19284849
You actually cried? I don’t believe people online when they say they cried. You actually had tears drip down your face?

Are you all mentally unstable? Stay the fuck away from me, crying as a man is reserved for a friend/family member dying or getting severely sick/injured, your home burning down, your dog dying, or getting shot/losing a limb.

>>19284891
You think that because you’re probably some insensitive anglo/american who thinks withholding tears in a measure of masculinity

>>19284876
I hope she does

>>19284891
here's your (you)

>>19284880
Why?

>>19284945
You wouldn’t like her, she’s an absolute tyrant and treats the building like her personal fiefdom. Every week she comes up with some new retarded rule. She even hates animals, if you feed the stray cats you have to pay a fine.

>>19283781
Gaining reading as a hobby has made me even more unapproachable to normies in public, which I'm fine with.
But my desire to leave the house is now almost completely gone.

Oh how fleeting life is. One of my earliest memories is when, as a very small child, I climbed to the top of my parent's car at the time, and I rested spread out from the back in a pose similar to the creation of snow angels.

And yet, on that day it was neither too hot nor too cold, and from the top of that car I saw above clouds scroll past the beginning credits during my childhood. I had not one idea of the dreadful life ahead -- what mattered at that time, at that moment, was simply the moment. A moment now frozen within me, as I recall later that night warm home-cooked food and cartoons that lulled me to sleep.

Can one ever live in the moment as they once did like a child? Then again, if we so easily could, then such memoriesn would lose value. Nonetheless I yearn to experience it again, for my life these days have been of deep unmoving clouds, endlessly weeping, drowning below, and from a promising child with potential to a disturbed adult who had squandered their talents, their youth, their innocence.

I think back to my childhood at the top of that car, and my end to below one at this rate. From there can the end credits roll, and pause to finish.

>>19285002
I assumed reading would help me since everyone i know are artsy types and ive changed so much i cant relate to anyone anymore, so maybe my love of reading might be a good thing to bridge that gap, but then all my closer friends moved away, then covid happened, and now i dont think i have a way to even test that hypothesis because ive become so isolated

>>19285031
>Then again, if we so easily could, then such memories would lose value.
i think this idea, applied to just about anything, is the most important thing people need to understand about the human condition, especially these days when life moves so fast

>>19284945
Hey the paramedics are on their way, apparently you need genital removal surgery again

>>19284076
Why do you need to get vaxxed to see her? Is this her request because she is pro-vaccine? If so don't do it, the vaccine is more important to her than you and this should make you think of what kind of person she is... Never make decisions based on naive sentiments.

Can someone justify compound interest to me?
I get that people should be paid for the amount of time that they can't use their money (simple interest) but interest upon interest seems contrived to favor the lender--how does one justify it?
Also: How and when do people decide to charge compound interest instead of simple interest?
Thanks a million!

>>19285091
>how does one justify it?
Judaism, atheism

>>19285055
I'm the girl. It's not my request. We live in different countries and they're mandating it for entry here. I can't travel to him regularly either because of medical school. The distance has been difficult and he's expressed that he doesn't want to pursue it if we can't physically be together so ;-;

>>19285093
Prod-chads have been charging interest for years and it's why we're so successful. Seethe.

>>19284891
>You actually cried?
tears welled up in my eyes I suppose. I didn't outright cry you insufferable cunt. now leave me alone.

>>19285134
Only after being mandatory to take the vaccine for basic needs like going to food stores or work, he should consider taking the vaccine. Now is not the case. If you love him and you are vaxxed, go to his country after you finish your school or during vacations or whatever.

>>19284934
He would be based then.
>>19284891
This is correct. I also cry because I'm mentally ill and go into panic attacks after contemplating my deep failures for a while, lmao.

>>19285157
I finish school in 7 years anon and we don't have extended breaks. There are a few opportunities where I could see him, but he's not willing to wait and feels like they aren't enough to justify toiling through long distance, which is fair.

>>19285146
sounds like you really have your priorities in order

>>19285169
Yep! Read the bible, work, make money, praise the lord, go to heaven.
Reprobates may seethe but it's really just that simple.

>>19285165
cringe, imagine taking the vaccine

>>19283790
first word

>>19285177
im pretty sure you dont actually read the bible given that it is quite explicitly against usury

>>19285208
Nowhere in the bible is there a blanket ban on charging interest; just restrictions on loaning practices (no one likes a loan shark of course) and instructions to give to the poor without expectations of a return (charity). You really are retarded aren't you? You've never read the bible, none of your kind has; but, let me guess, you idol and Mary worship don't you :\

>>19284207
You can still make your own, to the chance you'll become a legend for centuries

>>19285252
Not him but I know all about the Bible's statements on usury and depending on what you want to pick and choose you can justify usury in any sort of semantic way i.e. Deuteronomy. And the Church's history with moderately accepting forms usury is fairly complicated. But I can almost guarantee that your business doesn't fit any of the exceptions the Church ever made towards usurers prior to the modern era. I can go into citations but I really don't think that's the point.
Just be honest with yourself and admit you have to make minor concessions of your values, or those of the Bible and Church dogma, in order to make money. That's life. We all have to sell out in one way or another. Unless you work in some exceptional industry, in which case do share.

>>19285252
do you only charge interest to foreigners? if not, then you are in violation of the bible and gods law

Do fags ever have a moment of clairvoyance and realise what they're doing is clearly wrong and abominable fully independently of morals?

>>19285351
Foreigners? not in particular...Goys? yes :)

>>19283781
Dilate, paedophile tranny.

Julia Louis Dreyfus as Elaine Benes is probably the best tv acting ever after Jason Alexander as Larry David.

>>19285438
I feel like my life already ended.
And I wish I had a life similar to my fathers.
I'm extremely young.

>>19284308
we should not be your life.
you should also not be my life.

>>19284076
something is desperately wrong in this picture

>>19285625
Why?

How much whiskey make you feel drunk? I had one cup and feel quite drunk now

Worse BTFO in history.

>>19285924
Worst*

Fucked a hot chick yesterday. She came up to me and was like "ur shirt is cute" . And I was like "psch, yeah I guess" and put my hand round her waist and then we kissed then went back to my place and fucked mouthstyle asstyle pussystyle all the styles and she looked like a a glazed snickerdoodle when I was done lol

pic related is me wearing the shirt

>>19285884
you're losing the love of your life in order to anti-vax? I'm vaxxed, it's not a thing. if you really are then this is the crudest form of insanity

I want to work with my hands but I have ulnar tunnel and don't make enough money to get the surgery to fix it

I have a very hard time maintaining my relationships despite being good at making friends and talking to people, I just don't as about them often if I don't see them on a daily basis, how do people manage to check on everyone they know on a regular basis?
the distance just kind of creeps in and I find myself not having replied to a message from 8 months ago, trying to talk to those people then just becomes awkward.

>>19286267
>as about them
ask*

>>19286267
How many friends are we talking about? And are you all in the same general area, like no more than a few hours away max, or are you all over the country/world?

in a certain autistic sense of language it is most logical to describe trannies as "male women", "female boys" and so on in accordance with the prevailing view of sex and gender in a western context. For some reason they take offense to this

Why do some rich people enjoy pretending to be poor?

>>19286294
pretending to be poor as in they're just minimalist and you know they're loaded or they're actively trying to hide their wealth from their friends?

>>19283781
I'm am graduating college in 6 months with a master's in physics and bachelor's in electronics and I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
I don't think I've genuinely enjoyed what I've studied at all and I think I've lost my sense of curiosity and my eagerness to learn somewhere along the way. So to escape all of this I spend most of time lurking in /v/ and /lit/. I know I need to change my life but I don't know where to start and even if I knew what to do, I'm not sure that I can motivate myself to do what I need to do. This is just a desperate rant hoping that some anon here could give me some insight on what I could be doing with my life.

>>19286345
could be worse bro you could be graduating in marine biology in a month with no plans and an expiring lease
I'm going to be a homeless masters student lmao

>>19286362
Become dolphin. Put that degree to work.

>>19286362
Could be worse, you could be me.

It's annoying me that I cant find someone to talk about 'In praise of older women'

>>19286345
>>19286362
I graduated with a degree in finance and the only jobs I could land are accounting related due to my lack of nepotism.
the harsh truth I realized once I got into the workforce is how big of an advantage computer science graduates have, I literally had to learn programming just to land my job among the competition.
I genuinely think if you do not have any connections that could guarantee you a job in your field then any other degree than computer science is just a waste of time.

> job goes remote
> boss decides he wants to have monthly luncheons with everyone
It’s not really remote then is it? All because you want to get lunch…

Honestly, what is wrong with these fucking people? When did this sort of ridiculousness become the norm?

>>19286345
I’ll spare you the pain and tell you upfront that you’ll never want to do any job and no job will give you meaning or fulfillment. What you should do is try to find something you can tolerate.

I have no idea where my life is going. It feels like i'm waiting for that moment when everything will make sense. It might never come. I try to cope with philosophy but it seems i'm too dumb to get any deeper insight by using it.

>>19286442
Same.

>>19286442
Life is an experience, not a riddle.

>>19286455
Maybe for you it's an experience.

>>19286442
I honestly only wake up and go to work so I can afford my hobbies, I don't think there's any point pondering about where my life is headed, I'll go wherever the current takes me, and if I end up dying tomorrow then that's that.
deep down I have this wish of dying young, like say once I turn 30, simply because I can't see myself having a family & raising kids, I just don't want to end up an old man in his 70s with nothing but books and albums, waiting to die alone.

Would it be wrong to date a girl just for company and sex? There's this girl that I have a fondness for and she asked me out properly which I rejected. I think I could get things going again but I guess I blew it because I knew I would have to dump her sooner rather than later so I stopped the relationship there. She's a family girl and told her parents about me already which concerned me even more since we were only a few dates in. I guess all these things wouldn't have been an issue if I truly loved her. Being a luke warm Christian played a part in it as well. This is the second time something similar has happened. I actually carried in through with the first girl but I liked that girl even less and I couldn't be bothered with her after she didn't want to watch Alita:Battle angel with me at the cinemas. I really want to shag these girls but maddeningly they're too innocent. I guess I'm being forced to be a better man by the women I attract but I really want to shag. Pity!

>>19286442
i found direction by looking deep inside, maybe meditation could help you out in the way it helped me

>>19286492
have you tried prostitutes?

>>19286496
this might be the dumbest question in the thread but how to properly meditate?

>>19286470
You can sit on you ass and weigh pros and cons until you are an incontinent 90 yr old, or you can go and live.
It is good to look before leaping, but you have to make the jump eventually. Besides there are certain "insights" that can't be arrived at discursively or theoretically and dwell wholly within the domain of experience.

>>19286501
I think if I'm going to fuck whores I'll just commit myself in a relationship even if it feels unerring.

i hate my wife

>>19286507
There are multiple different styles. Easiest for beginners is just picking an object of focus, usually the breath, and returning focus to it when the mind strays.
If you are an ADHD zoomer walking meditation can be a beneficial practice to undertake prior to doing it sitting.

>>19286529
>Besides there are certain "insights" that can't be arrived at discursively or theoretically and dwell wholly within the domain of experience.
Such as?

>>19286549
Ponder the irony of your question.

>>19286570
Irony is all i have.

>>19286540
Can I have her pls

>>19286542
Are you supposed to get any visions during it?

>>19283781
I have nothing to do today and I am very alone.

>>19285617
i want this to be over just as much as you do

>>19286610
It isn't uncommon to experience all manner of sensation, you are not meant to either fight or get lost in them however, rather return to the object of focus. I believe 'visions' play a role in some advanced Tibetan stuff, but for you all you need to do is bring it back to your breath or whatever.

I have never had vivid visions myself, but a sensation I did experience not too long ago was that of immense weight. Like all the gravity of the world was pushing down on me. I have hear of people who have had auditory sensations too.

>>19286507
Kind of hard to explain, I'll just recommend you /lit/'s(and my own) tome of choice when it comes to meditation. It's basically controlled introspection that evolves into an active awareness of yourself in an attempt to let you be conscious of what is inside you at all times. It is about understanding yourself and gaining control of yourself through that understanding.

>>19286442
This was me for the last 10 years at least. I’ve reconciled that it will never come. Things will never just click.

I feel like something very catastrophic on a global scale will happen soon, but I don’t know exactly when or what. There’s just too much that seems to be going wrong.
>Inflation
>Global Warming
>Fertility Crisis
>Pollution
>AI
When will the happening happen?

>>19286691
>>19286757
Interesting, i'll look into it. I'm probably looking a meditation technique similar to Jungs active imagination, which seems completely opposite of classic meditation.

I don't understand why pandemics at the scale of covid aren't happening on a yearly basis, I mean there are 7 billion people on earth, someone is bound to be eating some disgusting plague ridden shit in a third world country at any given moment.

>>19286856
The requirements for a Pandemic are not the same as the requirements for a disease to be simply bad. It needs to be infections, deadly, and have an incubation period long enough for the infected to actually spread it to others.
If a disease kills too fast it limits its range of infection, and just as importantly draws attention to itself which means authorities can take action swiftly to manage it. This is why there is an Ebola outbreak every couple of years but it only wipes out a couple of African villages in most cases.

german is such a fucking ugly gay stupid fucking language holy shit I wish I picked french AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>19287031
French is pretty bad
t.fluent in it

Darubegastertunatiolapertossavibemanklerastioplatera

>>19287042
i know i know all languages have their difficulties its just that learning them in an academic environment takes all joy out of them and I wanted to vent, don't take my post too seriously

when will it end

I want to leave a huge scar on this world, what's the most realistic way of doing so? I am not smart enough to cure cancer nor charismatic enough to lead a revolution.

Marxism-Leninism provides people the instruments to create a true nationalism, a nationalism free of the burdens of capitalism, which erodes culture and the nation. The Chinese have married Marxism-Leninism with nationalism and they have become great. I suspect many other nations will be following their footsteps in the future. Some will call it fascism but it is not so. It is the rejection of fascism, an ideology sees imperialism as something to celebrate. Nationalist Marxism-Leninism is anti-imperialist and thus anti-fascist.

Words to an End

Endless, I climb your stairs
Endlessly long, you take me to the greatest Path.

Path of feeling
High above all,

We Endlessly dance
The violins and piano play behind us

An Endless journey
You and me

>>19287135
Impregnate as many women as possible. Like that French guy who went to Africa.

my neighbour has started playing the violin and so far it's quite nice

>>19287135
assassinate someone important enough, that would surely shift our timeline on a drastic degree

>>19287135
Create something in the fields of art or science so valuable it changes our perception of the world.

>>19287159
I doubt this would make him notorious, thinking back even though everyone knows how WW1 started I doubt many would be able to name the Serb lad who killed Ferdinand.

>>19287150
Absolutely based.
One of my sexual fetishes is to set up a breeding harem in order to create the Superior Master Race. I’m of pure Dutch-German descent and I guess it’s my duty to breed with as many women all around the world to “aryanise” them.

>>19287224
>>19287150
That's not leaving a huge scar on the world

I regret my degree and my career so fucking much.

>>19287233
Atleast you're not a street sweeper with a stem degree like me.

>>19287231
Today it is estimated that 16 million living men are descendent from Genghis Kahn. Will you leave a new high score, or is it game over for you gene pool?

>>19287108
go for a walk

it really is quite remarkable that humans have modesty

>>19287150
Didn't that guy get some of those women killed by publishing those photos of them? A true degenerate.

any good audiobook suggestions? i have 3 credits i need to spend before i can cancel my audible

Women are just whores and there's literally nothing to be done about it.

>>19287410
false. you're the one with the whore mentality and you are just projecting it onto them.

>>19287410
It is no accident that women are targeted so heavily by propaganda. Women determine the future of a civilization. If current decline is reversed it will because a woman stood up and said enough was enough, and women followed her. Do not call them whores anon, they have suffered far worse than we men have, even though they do not realize it.

Anyone else feel like their single biggest impediment to writing is their job?

>>19287410
My mom and grandma are very nice women and they love me a lot, so no they are not whores

I used to write a lot of prose, but after I learned music and instruments. The only writing I do now is lyrical for songs. I actually go decently far along a book I was writing. I was at 90 or so pages I think, but I'm fine with how things turned out , just a shift of passion really

I'm not smart enough to get through and remember vital aspects of The history of western philosophy

Is it possible to walk up to pretty girls in cafes or bookstores and talk to them? Is it advisable?

>>19287482
Why do you want to that in the first place?

>>19287146
>and they have become great
lol, most of their people work in sweatshops, their standards and regulations for everything are fucking horribly and straight up deadly, their treatment of animals and nature somehow manages to be more abhorrent than the west

china and marxist Leninism is fucking nothing compared to national socialism. at least you arent one of those retards who tries to conflate the two. honestly i think its better and more moral to live in an imperial nation than one that so conquers its own people like china

Agreed

>>19287494
not if you are a sub 8 male

>>19287410
its just a lot of them

>>19287135
I'd like to disfigure this world
I want it as dust and leave it submerged
I'll build ruins so vast of vastness unheard
Storm the sun into glaciers. Mark this word:
I'll follow through my plans and schemes
I'll start with you and end with me

>>19284076
sigma male moment

>>19284429
What the fuck are you talking about? Are you deranged? Listen, just take a breather, take the shot, and go after your true love. Forget any shit of new world order or whatever and just be happy and enjoy life you retard

>>19287494
Only if you're confident in yourself

>>19287494
yeah

fuck you. you guys dont even know me. you dont even know me at all

>>19287609
I live in your walls

I ate way too much way too fast

>>19287651
bugman.
do you have an orifice of some sort? if so, please come out

I miss him so much /b/ros

>>19287663
shut the fuck up retard

Spent 25 minutes trying to disassemble an electric pasta maker after enjoying thoroughly eggy pasta. Probably be obliged to watch television now.

I would really just like to get back to reading an interpretation of Max Stirner's dialectical egoism by Welsh and buying more army surplus. I found an entire LBE set at home that I'm never going to use for anything but it was still a pleasant surprise.

>>19283781
rapture1, the faggot from the Pykewater library died. Why wasn't there a sticky?

>>19285948
kek

>>19287793
THIS GUY COULDN'T DISSASEMBLE AN ELECTRIC PASTA MAKER

>>19284429
>bugpaste
>podlife
>anti-vaxx
Is 4chan becoming mainstream like Facebook? This place has developed it's own culture for better or worse, and some anons embrace it completely despite how fucking delusional they come off as. I thought this kind of delusion was fenced off to /pol/ but I guess not. If I took an equally ridiculous thought or idea and posted it on Reddit, anons would foam at the mouth at how "Reddit" they sound.

Not sure how my idea is coming across here, but I think you should stay off 4chan for awhile and re-evaluate where you draw your life perspectives from. You seem very impressionable to the bible circulated here.

You're either exaggerating your feelings for the girl or you're 18.

>>19283810
This thread is all but dead, yet it seems one anon just keeps bumping it. For what?

>>19287841
>bible
Should be bile lol

>>19284445
this is imposter syndrome my friend, I don't know what the cure is, I've experiencing the exact same problem right now. All I've learned so far is that it's best I keep myself shut in order to not set up new expectations, and be productive. They see something in you, maybe it's not your actions but the values you demonstrated. I literally have friends that jokingly refer to me as a chad, but it's far from the truth, I'm pathetic I don't even have my drivers license yet,I hate how in my town it's the only means of transport. fuck American city planning

>>19287672
He was the best
https://youtu.be/KWJdyJU8av8

wat

>>19288015
what is their motive

>>19287830
THIS GUY ASSUMED I DIDN'T DISASSEMBLE IT IN THE END

>>19288054
your trip is off bro. what were you up to? be honest

>>19288065
>>19288067
no no no no you arent going to hide from this by deleting it.
your trip was off. what the fuck were you up to?

>>19288054

It appears more and more likely that the United States is headed towards a total collapse. Given this, I am beginning to plan an exit scenario. Europe is obviously a lost cause. India and MENA are climate change time bombs. East Asia is unfriendly to outsiders and I’d like to be as far away from China as possible anyway. LatAm will be screwed when America falls. This leaves us with Africa. North Africa will be screwed because of climate change. South Africa will probably genocide all non-Blacks sooner or later, so that’s a no-go. I’m thinking East Africa, in particular Rwanda. It seems like a prosperous place with ambitions of being the African Singapore. When the USA collapses, I’m going to head that way.

It’s funny. I have never been to Africa, but when I was seven or eight I got the feeling that I would die on that continent.

>inb4 THIS GUY COULDN'T EVEN KEEP HIS TRIP ON TO POST

Don't even try, I know all the moves. I deal the cards here, not you. I know what you're going to post before you even think it. I call the shots on this board, ME. I say what goes. The game is mine, I own this board. [circa +11] years and no-one better than me has posted anything. You don't get to [circa +11] years without pissing a few people off. Enemies? Yeah, I've had some. Caracalla, Satan. Who's here now? Them? No. Not one. No-one's left standing. I outlasted them all. They don't tell you that when you start posting on this board, do they? This is what absolute and total power looks like. Pure, horrifying force. Did I forget to leave my tripcode on? Who knows. Does that guy look like an asshole who assumed I didn't actually manage to dissamble my or someone else's electric pasta maker in the end? I don't want to say but I'm pretty confident everyone on this board knows the answer to that. Don't blame me, I didn't pull the trigger on that one. That's on you, my overconfident friend.

>>19288174
What about Russia? Global warming will actually make Russia more habitable

>>19288205
Everyone will be trying to flee to Russia, it will be a bloodbath there.

>>19288218
Won’t the same thing happened to Rwanda? It’s surrounded by some of the worst shitholes in the world

>>19288236
….
Crap.
We are so screwed desu. Why couldn’t we have had good leaders in America? Instead we got conmen.

>>19287135
Kill a PM or President (in GTA)

>finished work week on Friday evening
>go for short walk after driving around
>go to gym and lift weights (high volume)
>wake up on Saturday morning
>day spent playing vidya, reading, drinking coffee, then exercising
>day passes quickly, have a McDonald's binge at the end (tyb double big mac)
>wake up on Sunday at noon
>do one small chore and eat food and somehow it's 5 pm
>go for short walk, short time at gym, then day is over
>woke up this morning
>started work
>nothing to do except sit in pointless meetings with my camera off
>finish work
>go for short walk, then drink coffee in car, went to gym, now browsing internet before reading and sleep while eating carby food

One of my habits is to lie in my bed during the cold light of Sunday morning and watch a video or two on the Abroad in Japan YouTube channel. The comfiness of Japan and the sense of wonder and adventure are more pleasant than the aimlessness that comes with thinking about how best to spend the Sunday.

I have been contemplating my pathetic ugly beta autistness more lately. There was a qt on a zoom call and it was so demoralised to know she had been passed around like a slab of meat by Chads and would find the sight of me totally pathetic.

I may have the chance to search jobs soon and I really don't know if it's worth the risk. I'd earn more money but I'd have to go in the office and it would require energy. My current job is incredibly low stress. I am close to becoming a lower middle manager at my current job and it would be a psychological boost to hold the whip hand over normieclones that find me pathetic (I don't want to crack it, just hold it).

There are no books I care about. I started a long history book and I think it was a mistake. I restarted a contemporary novel recently, which I had given up on, but gave up on it after less than 1 page rather than grind towards completion. I felt proud of myself for that. I finished a vidya a few weeks ago and I didn't do the grindy post-game content.

>>19288261
>was so demoralised to know she had been passed around like a slab of meat by Chads and would find the sight of me totally pathetic.
You have to stop thinking this way desu

>>19283781
cute belly

i think im going to try and gain 20 pounds

>>19288261
Have sex with hookers. Seriously it will change your life. Also lift weights and read good books (nothing written after the year 1900)

>>19288305

I can squat 4 plate and I've had sex with hookers and I've read books written before 1900.

>>19287410
This guy admitting his mom is a whore ahahaha

>>19286294
No one can feel bad for you or respect you if you are rich

>>19288313
Then what's your problem? Quit crying, faggot.

>>19288244
Look into North-East India. The people who live there are mostly mongoloids but they're Christians and have a history of tolerating Whites. There are still Anglo-Indians who live in Darjeeling as well. The only con is it's very close to China

>>19288360
>India
There is a significant chance that the Hindus will genocide everyone else one of these days. India is not a place you want to be.

>>19283781
I just bought melatonin because my doctor told me it could help against my insomnia. But I am wondering if taking melatonin hinder my natural ability to fall asleep?
If I consume some regularly will I become incapable of sleeping without it?
>inb4 do not take it every day
Which interval should I be taking it?

>>19283781
I feel like I no longer have any aesthetic sensibility.

>>19285165
>I finish school in 7 years
The fuck do you mean NIGGA
Are you 11 years old?
Or is this some weird foreign education system where you go to school for 20 years?
Or do you say "school" to mean uni or college?
I NEED ANSWERS

>>19288508
Get some exercise during the day and you'll be tired at night.

>>19288588
MD/PhD program

anglo literature is garbage and cancer
the world would be paradise if england never existed

>>19288508
There are plenty of places on the internet where those questions can be answered anon, just not on this board.

>>19288451
If you are white just wear a shirt that says INDIA #1 across the Batman logo and they will love you forever and die for you if you asked. Safety Guaranteed.

>>19288606
Faggot the thread is "write whats on your mind" Anything goes

>>19288588
Why wouldn't you refer to college as school?

>>19288601
The quality of mercy is not strained.
It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven
Upon the place beneath. It is twice blessed:
It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
'Tis mightiest in the mightiest. It becomes
The thronèd monarch better than his crown.
His scepter shows the force of temporal power,
The attribute to awe and majesty
Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings,
But mercy is above this sceptered sway.
It is enthronèd in the hearts of kings.
It is an attribute to God himself.
And earthly power doth then show likest God’s
When mercy seasons justice. Therefore, Jew, Though justice be thy plea, consider this-
That in the course of justice none of us
Should see salvation. We do pray for mercy,
And that same prayer doth teach us all to render
The deeds of mercy. I have spoke thus much
To mitigate the justice of thy plea,
Which if thou follow, this strict court of Venice
Must needs give sentence 'gainst the merchant there.

>>19288508
Don't take it'll give you fucked up dreams.

>>19285091
>Can someone justify compound interest to me?
We didn't finish the solution and here is our punishment as the collective of humanity in opposition to the usurers.

>>19288600
I dreamt about doing this at one point, but the path was just too damn long.

People change? So long as they are still alive to be able to change. On the other hand, the person you die as is the person you are forever.

>>19288703
yeah, but I don't mind being in school vs practicing, and we're paid (on top of free med school) so it's nice

I am not a fish.

I've rediscovered my love for reading but still feel angst over the wasted years. How much further I'd be ahead in so many areas if I'd applied myself. I realize agonizing over it is pointless but it's not so easy to ignore.

It would be different for me to go through this life not fucking up as consistently as I do. I have fallen from every good grace I've been allotted. and dismissed the rest in arrogance or laziness of will. To feel relevant at anything other than failure, would be it's most rare offering from this world.

>>19288934
Keep that regret in the back of your mind every time you want to avoid reading for a few days and you will do just fine.

why does my shit always have to smear around the sides of the bowl and make a huge mess

>>19284076
>>19284095
>>19284100
>>19284105
>>19284354
>>19284402
>>19284407
>>19284474
>>19285055
>>19286161
>>19287545
>>19287557
>>19287841
>>19287855
Soooo just get the vaxx?

>>19289276
Guy is retarded.

I want to learn many foreign languages. I obviously cannot learn them all and I don’t know how to narrow or prioritize.

>>19283790
>how is writing /lit/
Nigger tier iq

>>19283781
I feel as if the whole world was falling over me. At some point I thought they would go away, but every day, the suicidal thought keep coming back, more often and worse each day.
I feel weak. I feel old. I feel wasted. Even my room is filled with dust, flies and spiders, as if it was a tomb. I'm a corpse.
All of my friends seem to have turned their backs on me. Every time I try talking to them, they do not seem to understand. They take everything I say as a joke, or as if I was just being "weird".
I'm doing worse than ever academically.
I'm skinnier than ever before. Despite feeling hungry, I just do not want to eat.
I've been consuming more caffeine than usual.
I forget things very quickly, I'm unable to concentrate in the simplest activities, I can't keep a conversation anymore.
Even writing or music, which were things I used to feel passionate about some years ago, feel pointless now.

>>19289276
why is this bitch with you anyways? is she disfigured or something?

>>19289276
yes

>>19289411
I know the feel. I jump from language to language, but I never end up settling down to learn one. I do know English, Spanish, and Punjabi. Lately I am thinking about focusing on improving my Punjabi and then learning another Indian language. Maybe Hindi because it's relatively close to Punjabi. Maybe something like Tamil, I dunno.

>>19289500
Unvaxxed bulls are in high demand.

>>19283781
the knife is at the american throat and our century is ending, and i could not be happier.

maybe now politics of strength can materialize in this capitalist, conservative hellscape. hopefully the liberal ideologies of yesterday can be phased out by the turn of the decade.

if only

I accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior

>>19289743
Fuck that guy. I had this favorite blanket in my house and one day my mom decided to throw it out for no real reason. I loved that blanket. A real higher power would never allow such horrible things to happen. I think about that blanket often.

>>19289770
Well God allows bad things to happen otherwise good things would have no meaning.

What is so hard to understand? I talk about things that seem so obvious to me, yet people around me do not seem to understand. They even tell me that I'm crazy, that I'm making up imaginary enemies, or shit like that. I'm just saying things that seem so obvious, I do not know how others do not understand them.

>>19289836
Butthurt anonymous does this to me all day every day.

>>19289780
That’s still a shit answer

>>19289869
STILL mad about that thread

>>19283833
Vocational do electrical trades or cyber security.

>>19287150
>>19287308
who

>>19289880
Wha? No, threads in general, dumb dumb

>>19287474
How do you write lyrics

gonna need a haircut soon. i like growing my hair out a bit but theres a point when it feels like a parasite sitting on top of me. touching my ears/ becoming a mullet is when it becomes a problem.

I hate how she moves around these parties in the same way as me. Draining the attention of people all around her, waiting for a clever word or phrase and on its arrival remaining insatiable. It's strange watching her perform what I refused to recognize in my own actions as plays to dominate those around. Some years ago the act of refusal would cause severe bouts of psychic pain (which I'm sure she is in) but which slowly yielded as I gave up a 'childs' world. I hate it because I've become fatally attached to an unfettered mystery for which the only solution is for me to be more bold and end her (individuality). It must happen soon because the gnaw has become ceaseless.
>inb4 you sound like a fag
Fuck you.

Recent developments in the natural sciences have cast doubt on a deterministic universe, but in the domain of human activity still we remain bound to the laws of cause and effect. Might it be, then, that the aggregate of us all is but a function in some space of incalculably great dimensions -- tracing out a path parameterized simply by time? All that is politics, all drama, hatred, rivalry, all the scheming and speculating on the course we take, is but the first derivative at our present moment; an infinitesimal snapshot of our trajectory, inclined to change, divert, and redirect past the tangential horizons which swallows up all our preoccupation. What is history then but the integral? Accumulating ever onward, the sum of this Great Worldfunction in time, and ever with that lost, unrecoverable but omnipresent constant C.

> Why are you an anarchist/atheist?
Asked the frog, to keep the thread derailing.

Because religion and state law deification are fictions and I refuse to cooperate with that madness.
But honestly, I am forced to cooperate with much of it, still.

>>19289869
It's the right answer. Even Taoism say the same thing Tall and Short, Empty and Full, Good and Evil. Only exist in relation to each other.

>>19290137
hell is real

>>19290175
So this is why real life fathers write down bizarre instructions booklets for their two year olds and then turn them loose into the yard with the elements. Shutting the door to never speak to them again. Balance.
I like Daoism from a philosophic perspective. Abrahamic faith is bullshit

>>19289411
Prioritize by just randomly picking one and sticking with it. Being indecisive is a waste of your time.

>>19290189
Hell is a life misspent

>>19283957
Based

keep fucking fidgeting my lower back since god knows when and it's gotten sore as shit over time

>>19290209
crack it

>>19290193
What is that referring to?

>>19283781
this board is hella slow at this time, my shitposting hour :(d8hpj

whoever makes the next thread please choose a cool image

>>19290225
>d8hpj
???

>>19290237
captcha

>>19290209
Go to a chiropractor for your back.

>>19290137
state law seems pretty non-fiction for people in prisons or at the other end of the barrel of a gun

>>19290241
Thought it was some sort of code.

>>19290031
You a man? Never understood the appeal of having long hair as a man.

>>19290025
By writing.

>>19290114
And we should care why?

New thread
>>19290259

>>19290241
ive decided to leave them in when i fuck up as a penitence

>>19290261
Cool image.

>>19290272
Liar

>>19290261
Cool image.

>>19285438
>what they're doing is clearly wrong and abominable
Do you feel this way about homosexuals regardless of sex, or just homosexual men?

>>19290601
̴̛̹̩͙̼͒̚̚>̴̼̼̠͙̐̀Y̸̪̕ỏ̴͓͐u̸̼̾̋ ̸̧͙̖̤̊̓w̶̩͍͊̕̕i̵̛͓̳͓̱l̸̰̟̃l̴̬̟͆͛̚͘ ̵̟̐̉̂s̴̨͑̓ủ̴̝̹̓̋f̸̼̳̰̥́̽͘f̵̙͎̱̿e̶̳̋̍̒ṙ̸̰̪̙̆̓̄ ̷̠̟̩̺̀s̴͍͆͒u̸̧̪̠̝̽f̷͉̺̑f̶̹̥̀͗͝į̵̛̃̚̕ċ̸̙̤͐̕î̶͕͇̋̂͠ĕ̷̢̑̈n̷͚̖̼̆t̸̝̟͑l̵̢̮̺̘̎̇́́y̸̨͎̻͋͗ ̶̛̥̱̣̒̋̔f̴͕̠̳̓̀̋̾ͅō̸̳͉̌ȑ̵̥̟̑̚ ̶̗͍̗̺͂͑y̸͍̠̥̘̿̽̿͆o̴͙̎̈́̑̇ǔ̶̦̱̟̍̓̂͜ ̸͈̬̼̟̔̍͝w̴̯̖̾̈̀ē̶̮͖̘͒͋͜ȑ̵͇̬̊́̏e̷͍̪̽͒ ̵̡͇̖̃͆̌b̸̧̠̪̪̾̂͛ȏ̴̘͈ŕ̴̫̤̈́̒̓n̵͓̼͛̋̂̄ ̶̱̺̘̄̀̈͂i̸̧̠͊̒͗͌n̸̪͊͊̏t̷̰̦̖̂ỏ̷̺͝ ̸̹̝̻̦͌̎a̷̭͗̈́ ̴͇̫͖̑̍͛͐ẅ̶̡̖̞͍́͗̚o̴͕̣͈͉͗̍r̷̹̣͍͚̍̂͛̈l̸̼̘̮͗̉d̶̢̺͙̰̈́̇͆ ̵̭̗͗̽͌o̶̝͋̄͆͜f̴̨̻͂ ̴̞͎̠̊ḍ̸͈̇̈́̈́̆à̷̪̂͑r̴̩̦̍̄̃̾k̷̨̛̜̥̈̑͌n̸͍̮̳̾̿e̴̙̪͗̕͠s̸̼͙̪͠s̵͚̭͔̱̆́̚.̴̳̏̏ ̷̬͉́̆́̈́Ȳ̸̺̰͐̎̓o̴̭̪̩̾̏ú̶͉̜̪̒ ̴͕̟̫̆̃̐͐a̸͈̠͠r̶̛̮͘è̶̺͚̞̝͗͂ ̸̣̎͋ḩ̸̖̤͋͋ã̶̧̗͉͠ẗ̵̤̩͎́͂̔̚e̴̮͕͒̒d̵̻̙̀́͘ ̷̪̰̬̂̎a̵̖̔n̷̹̋͛͋d̷͇̝̓͗ ̸̨̙͆̀̈́d̶͔͓͙̆́é̸͇̏͆ś̶͙̞̝̍͠e̴̬͕͘r̶͍̱̭̈́͋͠v̷̘͔̭͌̆e̷͕̯̘͔̚ ̷̡͔̭̓͝e̶͕̳̔̌t̵̙͖̭̊͌͝e̴͔̽̓̚r̷̨̰̮͋͆ń̷̪̝͠á̵͇̳̩̈́͊ľ̵͈͔͈ͅ ̴̯̬̣̞́̒p̷̦̞͇̚ư̶̪̩̊̚ǹ̷̡i̴͙̓͘s̷͕̻̋̕̕h̸̠̪̫͑̿͗̀m̶̙̺̐e̷̳̮͆̒͘ṅ̵͔̱̞ͅt̶͔̙̜̺͘͝.̸̫̣̇̑͊̚

I'm so miserable working in sales but I don't know what else I can do to make money and be fulfilled.

>>19291040
Crime. It is different every day, and there is nothing like the feeling of getting away with it.

are you happy now?
are you feeling down?
ryhms are shit, i've never been good with ryhms.
blablablablablabalabalalabalbalablablalabla

>>19290601
obviously the act

Merezhkovsky was a chad

>>19289900
what's up loser

>>19283781
I’m a Muslim with Christian blood and a Jewish heart, it pumps Hinduism to my Buddhist mind and generates a Sikh vision. I breathe Zoroastrian and think Bahai. My feelings are Yezidi and my dreams are spiritual. When I sleep I’m non-religious, and when I wake up... I’m human.

>>19287176
>I am not smart enough

>>19290219
In real life there is no house with an absentee father hiding in it. There is only the backyard. And the two year olds wrote the instruction book, which is why it makes no sense to the nine year olds of today.
All Abrahamic faith is bullshit.