/lit/ - Literature

THREAD THEME: https://youtu.be/PmrkY-EZy74

>>19218545
Thread Theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-jZHMX-CJ0

>>19218551
Ah. Beat me to it lmfao

>>19218545
Thread is too early, you fag. This shit is a race to the fucking bottom I swear.

>>19215210
>My dad and his wife

The entire story told right here.

Tell me what you hoped to say on your birthday
Secrets that we held that day will be kept straight
Everyone will be dismayed if your promise breaks
But you'll be back again to say who you want next
Lights and music are on my mind
Be my baby one more time
Lights and music are on my mind
Be my baby one more time

>>19218565
Let it alone and go talk in the old. There’s the link.

>>19218565
Always has been for the past few months. Don't know why schizos are attracted to generals.

>>19218545
These threads are now turning over in about 12 hours I see

>>19218570
How do you figure

>>19218574
It doesn't work that way. Just leave the one up until the bump limit

>>19218581
Schizos are rushing to make new threads for that dopamine.

>>19218586
Divorced dad, boomer, treats his family poorly. I've seen so many of these cases and I've got so many friends fucked in the head by their shitty parents refusing to treat or respect the most important people in their life like they would any other human.

Parts of me wants to make her regret it

>>19218545
I should be prepping my class for tomorrow, but I'm on here with you faggots instead.
If any cute NatSoc boys wanna chat, drop your discord.

>>19218593
Go play Minecraft, Dragonball

>>19218602
you should be prepping your ass for hot gay sex instead.

Can someone tell me why that schizo trannie butterfly seethes at dragonball?

>>19218621
It was filtered by Dragonball. Don't know how, but then again, I ain't mentally ill.

>>19218621
He’s too young to be hanging out on 4chan and we all know it.

they're removing all chat from League of Legends. I just don't understand what is happening. Have we really got to the point where people are so fragile that they can't even talk to their opponent in a competitive setting?

>>19218545
That was a meh movie

>>19218637
The elites stand to gain from a bitterly divided workforce.

>>19218646
take your trip off you stupid cunt

>>19218637
Its not about preserving fragile people. Its about censorship and control. The free exchange of information needs to be impossible. Communities, even if only online, cannot exist. People must atomized and alone

>>19218651
It cannot. It seeks attention. It starves for it.

>>19218595
My case is much more nuanced than that. Thank God I was raised by my dad rather than my mom

>>19218651
The elites stand to gain from a bitterly divided workforce.

>>19218621
"dragon ball" is an amalgamation of every anon who shit on her attempts to highjack these threads

we're dealing with someone so deprived and desperate that they spend day in and out tripfagging on an anonymous image board, often avatarfagging too, and even posting real life lewd photos of themselves just to to center the spotlight on themselves in order to feel good about themselves. a real sick puppy. "dragonball" comes from the fact that some weeb made an edition of this general using a dragon ball image, and butters tried to make her own thread (and failed) so she showed up in the dragon ball thread and started spitting venom and unleashing her anger over the fact that people were not paying her their dues and migrating to her thread

>>19218687
Butterfly is so fucking hot, would make a wife and treat her like a queen or a nasty bitch, depending on how I feel.

>>19218665
Sorry about your nutcase mom, man.

>>19218687
He’s an obvious child I can see in plainly in many of his posts. That’s all. Don’t post this picture PLEASE

>a dragon ball image
Hehehe. He made dozens.
Also, I’m not at all sore about any deleted threads. Don’t care. Find something else to talk about, please.

>>19218737
>>19218719
>tee hee stop talking about me silly boys
gif related. stop relentlessly shitting up this board and this general and maybe people will stop talking about you and everyone can post in peace

>>19218719
>>19218737
Butters, can I ask you something?

Everyone talk about the importance of abortion for women but what about abortion for transmen huh?
Why yes I am male and I want to kill the parasite inside me right now doc. It's is sir, chud.

>>19218783
I hate the antichrist

>>19218783
I genuinely can't bring myself to care about trans issues. Let them have what they want for now. When climate change causes society to collapse, trans rights will be the first thing to stop mattering.

>>19218783

y-you kind of smell...

like a baka~

I find it difficult to take beautiful people seriously, men and women. They've clearly lived easy lives. I can appreciate their beauty, it's not a bad thing. But they have nothing to say to me.

I'm bout to take a pill of allegra and a solid cup of coffee. I hope it cancels out.

>>19218977
Checked
Even beautiful people have a cross to bear.

>>19218977
Beautiful people wouldn't be talking to you anyway, anon.

>>19219025
for one thing, the fact that they are probably well aware that everyone feels this way about them probably has a bigger impact on their lives than one might think. im just guessing though lmao

>>19218977
I get what you mean. I know quite a bit of people who'd be considered beautiful, as they have done things like modeling and or have a large social media following. Only occasionally will I find one or two who have something interesting to share or speak. The rest are either boring or are so engrossed with their internal affairs that it's all they know.

you may not believe me when i say this, but frankly i don't blame you either. But when you are asleep, your dreams are merely the waking moments of another person as a spectator. This was revealed to me when by chance i came stumbled upon myself in my own dream

>>19218581
Used to be 2-3 days back in 2018, usually several hours between thread creation, some were archived before hitting bump limit... those days were comfy
Started turning to shit in 2020 then animefag and other schizos fighting to start new threads
Nothing good ever lasts. It will only get worse.

I feel chronic pain in my dick. How do I cope with it without fapping?

>>19218977
I used to feel some kind of awe and admiration for them since when I was a kid. Now I feel jealousy more.

>>19218719
Can you post a more recent picture of yourself?

>>19219275
See a doctor.

I'm going to ask my coworker on a date and hope that it doesn't end in tragedy.

>>19218999
Fuck, the allegra won. It was much stronger.

>>19219419
I did yesterday, but he told me to come back in 2 weeks because I got vaxxed in the same day

If this anon
>>19217162
is still around, "Bus ist weg" means the bus is gone, as in you missed it/it left without you. "Eck ist weg", on the other hand, means that the corner itself is gone. The joke is that pollacks will steal anything and everything.

>>19219425
wtf does allegra do

>>19219465
Side effects is drowsiness.

Christian Bale could probably play a pretty good Tsar Nicholas or Dostoevsky.

>>19219493
They should make a movie of The Master of St Petersburg with him as dosto

I'm sick of memes, irony, internet people. Gigachad perfectly illustrates the degeneration of a meme into a purely formalistic template where the thing you approve = BASED. The cross-pollination between 4chan and mainstream culture has definitely intensified over the pandemic. Feels like there's a push (not necessarily intentional) to colonize the entirety of the web with imperialistic liberal ideology; places professing dissenting ideas are nudged away from "polite society". Saw a twitter thread a while ago where a tranny claimed that trans women are biological women and its followers were posting in agreement; any sane person entering the thread was countered by one of the trannies by telling them that they must have failed biology class in school. There's something about the syntax of social media and memes and the way people utilize them to reinforce their ideological bubbles

some shit happened with my therapist. I think generally she decided to preassure me. It's possible she has thought I've been lying, which to my knowledge I have not although a lot of memories are pretty old and hazy. It's more like I remember that I have always remembered it like this, rather than remembering the actual event. She seemed more or less actively uncaring and callous. But the thing is the conversation turned onto my religion, and she said some things that I found quite offensive. very offensive. it's one thing fucking with my life in general but she basically expressed contempt for the whole thing. If she has contempt for my entire way of life, this is a problem. do not think she planned to talk about that, I brought it up, I had noticed little things here and there. I should have asked her sooner. So I think she kind of ended up saying something very problematic. This was on monday, I slept well that night, but I literally didn't sleep at all this night, and at 8 in the morning I texted her asking if there was a particular reason she was having a bad day at work on monday, and if not that I had lost confidence in her. I told her to tell me what was going on with her or just cancel the whole partnership (she had told me she overslept on monday, so I thought maybe something personal was going on and I felt she needed to meet me person to person to show basic respect). Her excuse was not good, but she did not cancel the partnership, she left that to me. I did tell her outright in my text that I needed this to be resolved now because I couldn't sleep until it was resolved, and I have to fucking sleep, I'm bipolar, this is the shit that gets people like me. I don't know what to do now. I kind of need her I think, but at the same time if she is going to semi-strategically aggrevate me to the point that it puts me in danger, and she's gonna disrespect my way of life, obviously I have to leave. I think I will ask soon whether or not she thinks its appropriate that she treats someone religious. There's no rush really. I'm in a kind of a NEET lull at the moment, I can afford to just dick around for a day, so I guess I'll try to kill a day super-tired.

It really seems like I should not work with her, but I am pretty sure there are a lot of unresolved things left to do and I don't want to start over, I've seen her for a while. The issue is that I am a muslim in a western country. Westerners are not terribly fond of muslims or our social mores. She's a christian, that's why I stuck around, but I've gathered that she knows very little about the gospels, I know a hell of a lot more than her.

>>19218977
there's a pity in how they're treated. eternally superficial cycle. but everyone has a spot for a reason.

>>19219612
it's successful social engineering in all honesty. that's what buzzwords and, at this point, buzz-speech structure is. it kills any and all good discussion. i feel it when i switch from speaking with people in english to talking in my native language with folks from home. there's a very clear sensation of everything being more natural, of a steady stream of information going on because it hasn't been that corrupted (i hope), it's an authentic exchange, as opposed to whatever internet-speak has devolved into now.
thought killers. i hope we're saved from them some day.

They call me the xi jin ping of smoking weed

>>19219663
She sounds really unprofessional. I think you need to start looking for another therapist.

do you think most people in any given profession are hacks? What percentage would you give?

>>19219859
based. i just smoked some weed earlier.

>>19219944
Anywhere from 20% to 80%. In high risk construction work its around 20%, maybe less. And for example in most STEM fields, around 80%.

>>19218545
should I convert to Islam?

>>19219962
That's up to you.

The more I think about it the more I realize that all these draconian measures in response to the pandemic were just a pretext for the ruling elite of western states to obtain a Chinese-style authoritarian grip on the populace. It provides the underpinnings of the totalitarian infrastructure that the coming troubles will demand to be entertained, because centralized power is often a response to hardship, as states seek to tighten up the reins of control to better manage a more disciplined society.
All the signs of a genuine dystopia are there. It's as if I blinked and woke up in this world.

>>19219978
>a Chinese-style authoritarian grip on the populace
ugh, if only

>>19219185
I think I remember threads making it 5 days back then.

Might lose my job over this draconian virus testing requirement. I guess “remote” doesn’t actually mean “remote”.

Working in academia was a mistake

>>19219978
From here on out, politics is about power plays with no pretensions or illusions. If you think this is bad, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet.

>>19219423
Don't shit where you eat.

>>19218737
Dragon ball?

More like dragon these balls on your face LMAO

>>19219984
The correct term is "inverted totalitarianism" so it isn't as conventional as Chinese style control, it is a bit less monolithic and is distributed between various mega-cap corporate statelets (Amazon, Google, Facebook, Apple, etc) and a more traditional political power elite in finance and government. China is more centralized, although this inverted form expresses authoritarianism along similar lines , it obscures the imbalance of power through a mirage of pseudo-democratic institutions.

>>19220060
I know it can and most likely will get a lot worse, but this flavor of dystopia is particularly insidious for how much of a slow burn it is. Gone is all the drama of being shipped off to a prison camp for thought crime. Instead, you are just castigated by the digital mob, or you are told to "socially distance" and stay home and turn your own house into the prison. This kind of dystopia turns you into an alienated atomized social cell who takes care of the business of their own oppression for their overlord's own benefit. Instead of guards watching over you from watchtowers, it's advertisement trackers and digital surveillance capitalism. It's more bloodless than overt boot-stomping authoritarianism, hence its inverted nature. But it's just as crushing to the human spirit.

>>19220113
I think you’ll have ample time to eat your words. You think it’s insidious? Again, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet.

My failure turns me on

>>19218999
Lmao I feel this anon

Allergy season sux

>>19220166
What the hell dude I'm not disagreeing with you. I'm just saying this kind of situation is different from Sovietism

women are never your friend

>>19220070
I fucking kekked

>>19220211
Again, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet.

>>19218570
You really should move out, seems that both you and them are unhappy with the current arrangement. Move to a cheaper area, move in with a friend, do whatever you need to do. I guarantee you will be happier.

>>19220113
>Instead, you are just castigated by the digital mob
You do realize you don't have to post every thought that springs to mind, right? Especially not where normies can see it.

Another day sweeping streets.

i think i have Toxoplasmosis

>>19220365
Shouldn't have eaten all that cat shit, bro

>>19218545
Dog has been humping my leg on and off for an hour. He wont fuck off. Help.

>>19220113
>Amazon, Google, Facebook, Apple
these aren't "statelets" and they don't have anywhere near the power that the US state has

>>19220365

>>19220303
Its way too expensive and I dont make enough

>>19219962
no

>>19219859
this is how it starts.....dont go down this path man im telling you...you dont want this...
you dont want this.

Just had a terrible breakup with the cute cashier in my local super market. She always smiles when she greets me, but today, for some inexplicable reason, she didn't. It's not like she was in a bad mood, so the only conclusion is that she hates me.
What we had will never be the same. From now on, I will be shopping later in the evening after her shift is over. Sucks, because she was my main source of affection and social validation.

>>19219978
You just figured that out?

>>19220313
This thread is literally called "Write Whats On Your Mind'

>>19220594
>tfw you realize you've reached an age or a state of dilapidation where young women no longer look at you, but rather avoid eye contact
to be fair you care less and less too, so it evens out

>>19219663
Thats what you get for having a therapist

>monopoly means exclusive economic control of the supply
>polyopoly isn't a word to mean control by many even though poly means "many" and is grammatically valid

>>19220625
true. ogilopoly is a thing as well.

>>19220423
A state is not a statelet. The only thing not making them as powerful as a medium-sized country is that they can't have their own private military and police forces.

>>19220658
But ogliopoly isn't as silly as polyopoly

>>19220365
do u have AIDS

>>19220801
i saw this once when i was dozing off on a percocet

>>19219978
We have been going in that direction for 20 years.

>>19219978
>pandemic
remember 9/11 and patriot act

these threads any good?

>>19220984
at first you come in to fuck around, then gradually you realize were all one big family in here

Despair.

>>19221007
https://youtu.be/-Dayas2Q4CY

>>19221012
I liked it, thank you for sharing.

lol

I sometimes see 'the decline of westerns art' threads here and on other boards mocking post modern and modernist art. But what kind of art should be made instead then?

>>19219663
Get a different therapist, I've met many of those types and they are barely literate in the context of their own religion let alone ours.

I'm currently taking a shit.
No, leaving one.
Leaving one!
Help me niggerman!!!!

real shit only …
https://youtu.be/jEEfHOdhJJY

>>19220457
Change it to bacon of hope

>>19221237
https://youtu.be/Wdbb4OqbiZs

>>19221308
comfy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLO7r4eOE8o
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ugi9nORhqrQ

>>19218687
Manface

>>19221447
Angle, resolution, no makeup, and strain from stretching.
Just not trying to attract you. But I suppose this means you’re going to save it for reposting.

>>19221478
Is that you?
You have wide nostrils

can't get over my ex from a billion years ago baka desu senpai

>>19218545
I'm just confused, I don't know what I'm doing. Can you guys recommend me anything that will make me no longer be in an existential crisis, and help me be at peace? I'm also conflicted about being a faggot. Is it ok to just accept it or should I reject it as if it were a demon? I've been abstaining from anything sexual regardless just cause it interferes with some goals. I just don't want to suffer after I pass because of being a faggot.

>>19221501
How old are you?
I convinced myself I was bi when I was about 17/18 because I couldn't get a gf at that time.
Ended up going on a date and even kissing another kid. Woke up the next morning to the biggest shot of regret I've ever felt.
It was like waking up from a very realistic dream. I can only imagine how my life would have turned out if I told anyone about what i thought I was. Imagine telling my parents. When you cross that bridge it's hard to go back to normal.

These days it's hard for a regular guy to have an identity. Being gay instantly gives you one and I think that explains why there is an increase.
How sure are you that you're gay? Do you have no sexual feelings towards women? I find that the hardest to believe when people say they're gay.

>>19221478
Why do you have to be so damn annoying? If I knew you I'd get into a relationship and make you very attached to me, so I could dump you and never speak to you again.

>>19221483
That’s Benee. I guess you have tiny nostrils.

>>19221489
I had/have someone like that. The hurt echoes back sometimes. You have to really try to get over it. Your love is best served elsewhere, man.

>>19221530
Wow, silly spite.

>>19221533
Oh, I thought you posted that to disprove the man face accusation.

>>19221533
>Your love is best served elsewhere, man.
ye..

>>19221542
read this

>>19221521
>How old are you?
18
>How sure are you that you're gay? Do you have no sexual feelings towards women?
I used to like women much more, wouldn't say I've lost all care for them but I don't care as much. I like men, not any of course but I feel attracted to some, and have wanted to do gay shit. All get off to now is also gay shit, like imagining being a cute femboy and getting manhandled. If I must I can go further into detail about all of it, but it will get very faggy.

>>19221651
Don't know about the manhandled stuff but I did look like a twink when I was 18, emo look as well.
Going off my experience I would urge you to at least not go open with it until you're absolutely sure. Have you had success with women? My fear is that people go the easy route (gay) over the tough one which is going after women.

I remember getting multiple people messaging me a day from grindr while tinder was an absolute dud. This is in part because young men are not as sought after women as they are by gay men.

Try and figure out why you have leaned more towards faggotry lately, if it's because of convenience or fear of women then it's a good sign you're not actually gay. You can always experiment, I have to an extent and am always happy I kept it personal.

>>19221651
>If I must I can go further into detail about all of it, but it will get very faggy
do it

I am being watched. When I walk around the CU Boulder campus I constantly catch peoples eyes lingering on me. I don't know why this is happening. It wasn't always like this. The narcissus in me thinks that I'm an emanating some type of raw indifference that is translating to a sexual magnetism, but my schizophrenic side thinks I'm being gang stalked some ubiquitous entity that is inhabiting people as I pass them by. But why is he making it so obvious? You aren't scaring me. I stare right back. Cowards.

>>19221706
Don't be silly now.

>>19221720
Why are they looking at meeeeeee. im going to ask one today. of course they will deny it.

>>19221732
Yeah, perhaps that's what you should do.

>>19221546
I normal nostrils. I’m tempted to post a pic, but you see how people are around here

>>19221588
How’s this go?

>>19221706
https://voca.ro/12CxYuDO3DTo

>>19221741
You're tempted, not because you want to prove me wrong but because you want to attract even more attention.

>>19221745
why does this sound like my voice wtf is going on

>>19221750
As you can see, the opposite is true.

>>19221755
Are you Dutch?

>>19221757
I have no idea

>>19221741
it has a blurb

>>19221741
Post your nostrils or forever be known as man nostrils

>>19221778
No no..
It's wide nostrils and man face

>>19218545
Just saw this. I am unironically on a watchlist, aren't I?

>>19221790
Dont flatter yourself. They have much more important targets to watch

>>19221778
It’s all relative

>>19221795
Thank fuck. I'm not even trying to be an edgelord, I hardly ever visit amazon. I think I followed a link to one of the books that one of the twitterfags that get shilled here had written, and this is what the algorithm makes of it.

>>19221790
>On Resistance to Evil by Force - Ivan Ilyin
>Rhodesian SAS Combat Manual
you don’t get put on a watchlist for reading losers

>>19221799
But thats an old pic

Each day as evening starts to set
The ache builds in her chest
She knows that she must go to bed
And try to get some rest
She hugs her tearstained pillow close
When no one is around
And cries for one she loved and lost
And screams without a sound
Others see her in the day
And think she's doing well
But every day as evening sets
She enters her own hell
Time hasn't healed her pain at all
Or quieted her fears
So every night, alone in bed
She sheds those silent tears

>>19221676
>Going off my experience I would urge you to at least not go open with it until you're absolutely sure.
Wasn't planning on it.
>Have you had success with women? My fear is that people go the easy route (gay) over the tough one which is going after women.
I haven't, but it's not why I'm like this.
>>19221688
I've done girly poses in the mirror before, took faggy selfies, put shit in my ass, always imagined doing what was done by, and being in the possition of femboys, traps, sissies, etc, since I first discovered them, and have thought of a lot of faggot shit, I've talked like a faggot saying shit involving "daddy" while horny. I thought that I became a faggot from watching to much porn but I've been told before that there's no fucking way I could be like this if I wasn't a legit raging faggot. I was less masculine than others my age early on, and my mother had me at like 35, which results in lower test in the womb I've heard. I did think I might have been bisexual for a moment at 12 but I imediately thought I was just being a retard then. Could I have just been a repressed fag in denial before?

>>19221803
If you really want to know if you're on a list, try getting on a plane

>>19221807
They haven’t gotten any bigger or smaller, anon.
Just imagine a few grey strands of hair at the ears.

starting to think watching torrented movies on a laptop isn’t the best way to appreciate the art form
>>19221823
i was always effeminate, never thought about it much although sometimes i’d catch men ogling at me, which led to thoughts of secretly being a girl somehow. started to think of myself as a bifag in high school, then finally took the leap into self-discovery around 17
i don’t think it’s acceptable at all to be repressed past the age of 18 t b h. after that point, you’re just a terrible moron imo

>>19221851
I dont believe you. You have man nostrils

>>19221863

>>19219937
>>19221202
>please never stop to see magical therapist lords, please

>>19221823
Ah you're just a degenerate then. Have fun with the gay lifestyle, I hear it's exciting.

>>19221860
It all goes back to my existential crisis, maybe I'm just a retard, but I know I didn't use to be.

>>19221745
>>19221706
https://vocaroo.com/13DogfxolCI4
obligatory drama edit

https://youtu.be/Um8jnwid9to
https://youtu.be/ZeITxqrAOws

I love books aesthetically, everything about them, but I can't convince myself to sit down and read.

>>19221895
>Have fun with the gay lifestyle, I hear it's exciting.
Comes off as sarcastic though I don't know what you'd mean if so. Whatever the case I'm going to entirely avoid it because, as I said before, it only serves to interfere with my goals, plus, I haven't put anything up there in months, only looked at porn, and even then I've cut down. I'm less of a degenerate than before.

>>19221799
wow it really didnt take long for you to drop thje act and start straight up spaming pictures of yourself and officially turning this into butters general

Despite knowing that I look average at best, I am under the constant delusion that every other woman that I meet finds me attractive and that they stare at me in secret. Anyone else?

>>19222093
I used to be like that when I was a kid but I've aged somewhat poorly due to my own actions

>>19221823
You've been perverted by porn and are now being groomed by fags.

A streamer that i used to watch from time to time, died in a car crash at 25. Hes gone, just like that. Was it all meant to be or just another victim of lifes unpredictability?

'Ate all upper middle class folk
Simple as

>>19222116
Death is the most predictable thing you child

>>19221823
I've done the same things as you (and had similar fantasies) but that sort of thing kinda went away with the passing of time. At one point I was almost sure I was bisexual but I noticed that being around men didn't cause me any type of sexual stimulus, unlike being around women. To this day I'm still not quite sure what those fantasies meant and why I had them, maybe it was some sort of elaborate fetish that I sublated into something else.

>>19222113
If that's the case how do I go about fixing myself?

>>19222129
What about the time of death?

>>19222139
irrelevant

working with insurance is the most soul crushing thing I've ever done. actually prefer my childhood 8 hour fire and brimstone Sundays over this shit

>>19222136
Its my belief that viewing porn as a child is equivalent to being molested. You need to go through a grieving process and accept that you experienced some kind of trauma. From there on you need to be actively aware of your behaviors and dispositions and what their influences are. Begin emulating normal masculine roles and condition yourself back to default.

>>19222155
>Begin emulating normal masculine roles and condition yourself back to default.
Alright, no harm in it, thanks Anon.

>>19221823
Watching porn from your early childhood has given you brain damage. The shame you feel is telling you that what you're doing is not what you really want. Not only porn is proven by research to be a slippery slope toward more and more deviant behavior, but
>I've been told before that there's no fucking way I could be like this if I wasn't a legit raging faggot.
You're also definitely being groomed as >>19222113 says, gays get a high from corrupting straight youths because they're all degenerate evil pederasts. I've had to do with a fag friendly clique when I was a teen and this older gay man immediately started grooming me because I was the kind of mentally fragile person that he could influence. Thankfully I had enough prejudice that I realized what he was doing before I did anything regrettable. While I broke off the clique he was moving on to other "ephebes", and he went on to say candidly that there's no sweeter thing than turning straight young boys gay. I confronted him at a later time about all the shit he was talking about at the time and he legit pretended that he never said any of it and tried gaslighting me as if I had made that up. These are the people who are signaling you through the ether.

>>19221501
maybe it will help, maybe it wont, maybey it will help other anons.
I started fapping to traps for years because of this website to the point where after a while I couldn't get off to anything else, and i honestly couldn't figure out why because i still found women more attractive and was repulsed by men and the idea of anal, especially with a man
after some reflection and soul searching i figured it out, basically I was doing it because of a mixture of extreme sexual frustration causing women to make me more frustrated than horny, and then there was the fact that i didnt want to view women as whores and sex objects, thats not really the world i want to live in as a strong believer in traditional family and morality, so in this case the porn made me more sad than horny. in the end this realization helped me cope and ive not only stopped fapping to traps, but i dont even get off to hard core porn in general and can only really appreciate solo women, with a few exceptions here and there
hope that helps someone

I've noticed that italian poetry tends to rely on the feelings of the poets and their life at the time the poem was written instead of anylizing just the text.

knowing how a poet lived and felt when they were writing verses makes me wish i could have a talk with them about their views on life, god and other stuff.

>>19222196
>>19222263
Thanks Anons.

>>19219937
>>19221202
it strikes me that her office is located very close to a site of a significant terrorist attack. it is somewhere between plausible and likely that she heard the screams. I have texted her that I want to end our time together, but if this is the reason for her islamophobia I have to forgive her for that. I don't have any trauma like that, I don't imagine she thought this would come up in her work. It seems unprofessional not to realize, but it does seem entirely human.

At a table in restaurant with some people I knew, I had the feeling that someone was missing, as if someone else was talking and eating with us prior and suddenly vanished. This left a strong impression on me and I kept thinking about it for several days.
Recently I came to the idea that I often felt this "lacking" presence. When I'm in a social situation I'll suddenly realize I was wrongly thinking, for one hour or more at times, that there was one more of us in the room.
This other is there when I'm most immersed in my surroundings. Strangely, I think I do most things around people for this other. Because you see, he's judging my every actions and emotions. In a way when I'm trying to say things to impress people, it's not directly them that I'm trying to impress but it's this other that I'm trying to sway or at least not disappoint.
I know this other is not a real person, it's my psyche playing a trick to fit me into the ideal of myself. Maybe I found out what the uber-ich was.

This other, this uber-ich if given a voice, should do a wonderful narrator for the story I'm writing.
He will present the story as stolen to someone, not really explaining who he is and how he knew this someone. He will appear and disappear as the story needs and always keep a eye on the character and his weaknesses. He will present himself as loving deeply the character and as a help to him but will only hinder him in his journey.
I hope he will do a wonderful medium between the reader and the character.

i know discord trannification is a meme but ive been seeing lots of IRL examples of high IQ, creative ppl start dressing more and more feminine. the reason i bring up discord is because this is the exact profile of people i've seen on discord who are trans. obviously discord isn't doing this but its become a hub of this profile and thinking about the meaning behind this is divinely disturbing.

starting to really realize humanism is a meme invoked by cockroaches who would stomp your face in at any given chance

starting to really realize the idea of some shared humanity is a meme invoked by cockroaches who would stomp your face in at any given chance

>>19222537
I dress very effeminately. I'm not trans I just like it. Why let femoids have all the fun?

>>19222537
So, like Žižek is dressing in silk blouses and pumps now?

>>19222637
>Žižek
>of high IQ, creative

>>19222537
Discord trannies are real. Ive looked into some of their cults and have witnessed lonely, misfit, autists get trooned out

whatever's between spring and summer is heaven to me

>>19222677
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sd4l7MOug40

I went to college for three years before using coronachan as an excuse to drop out. In all that time I did not have a single positive memory or experience. There is not a single redeeming quality to the whole time. I am worse off in every possible way for having gone

>>19222744
Same except I took multiple semesters off so I'm still technically a year 3
Probably going to drop out soon though. But hey at least faulkner dropped out year 3 too

>>19222537
transitioning is literally an IQ grinder

t. troon

>>19222774
>A parallel development, compounding the commitment of cultural modernity to imperative sterility, has been the efflorescence of LGBTQXYZ sexual identity politics. Following the decisive progressive victory in the cause of gay marriage, something like a Cambrian Explosion in non-traditional sexual and gender orientations has occurred, turbo-charging the pre-existing feminist critique of normative reproductive sexuality. Here, too, the affinity with profound modernistic inclinations is unmistakable, in a process of introjected brand and niche specialization. The tendency – often supported as an explicit political strategy – is to invert the terms of marginalization, by drowning the reproductive family unit within a hyper-inflated menu of socio-libidinal positions. Fertility is increasingly identified as a conservative eccentricity, legitimately targeted by partisan political warfare. Intense backlash has been among the results (providing fertile ground for the post-conciliatory ‘far right’).
>Nick Land, 2017
https://jacobitemag.com/2017/06/20/modernitys-fertility-problem/

Just stop caring. Untether yourself.

>>19222755
Well best of luck to you but I certainly wont be a Faulkner. I'm just really pissed at how everything went as bad as possible. It could not have been worse if I tried. It really seemed like the aangry hand of God came down on me and aranged everything in such a way that there was no possibility of anything being other than shitty. It really fucked with me hard and my life is ruined for it. I'm so fucking angry

Is goodreads looking a little different to anyone else?

sometimes i think maybe the weed is smoking me...

>>19222537
Social contagion is definitely real. We know that its real for things like suicide, of course it's real for 'eggs' too.

>>19222836
Hey man listen, just keep on truckin. I dropped out of college and my life has only improved since.

PART 1/2

Setting: I sit at the island in my kitchen. The sun is just dipping below the trees that surround my home. Orange light casts across the quartz surface that supports my laptop. The whiskey bottle beside me is alight with hues of orange, but longing for more continents. Cool air laps at my feet as is pours in from the open kitchen windows. My wife is giving our son a bath upstairs. I can hear his laughs over the music that plays in my ears.

This should be a beautiful fall evening. A view and atmosphere that should evoke such joy in me. But it feels like I’m looking at a candle that was in closet storage. It’s wick cool and a wick that has lost a desire to dance with the flame of yesterday. I feel like I am slowly sinking into depression. Which is ironic given my occupation. Therapist. I spend all day fixing the problems of other’s. Helping them navigate their ship in a direction that brings them joy. Yet, I sit in my home, listening to my son practice his ‘ABC’s’ with the woman of my dreams. And all I can think about its, time. Or lack of it’s actual existence. Time is a construct. Nothing more and certainly nothing less. We all are given so little of it. It slips between my hands everyday. Just last month I was on vacation. I took a picture of the day we arrived. No specific commemoration, just they day we arrived at the condo. I look at that picture everyday since. Each day feels like it is accelerating the time from that even to the present. Memories in my life flutter down like snow. I remember trying to get my wife pregnant. The pain we felt when we had to undergo treatment. The nights holding onto the idea of a child. Now he is here. He talks and walks. He thins out leaving his chunky infant body behind. He defies, challenges, assures. He. Is. Life. Brooding, giggling, loving, anger, sadness, tears. All of it. I made it. It is me. It is her. It is all of time. Peaking at a point it what we consider a linear movement through space. But it isn’t really. I’m not here. You, reading these pathetic words, don’t exist. We say we do, but we aren’t really here. Just give it some. Time. T-I-M-E. Something we created. Something we agree exists, is our own downfall. It erases who we are. Everything. I’ll be dead a lot longer than I could ever hope to be alive. So, is this pain worth it? The pain of going in everyday and helping others achieve more. Hearing my son laugh today, knowing in a flash of neuron fires, he will hate me as a teenager, then move out, and die himself.

>>19223171
PART 2/2

I am the anon who just a few weeks write on one of these threads about my dog dying. I think about him often. Daily in fact. But even time takes that from me. Each day I look at the same picture of him. Each day he is less my dog. The first thing my wife and I every raised. A dog that kept us company in a space that he hated, far from people we knew and loved. Yet, he loved unconditionally. His deterioration from animal to pile of ashes only further affirms the lack of existence that I now walk. He isn’t here any longer than he was. His atoms now burned to their core elements vibrate in a box a few feet away. Yet, mud from my backyard would be teeming with more life than that ugly blue tin.

If this crush of my psyche continues, I’ll be lucky to make it to old age.

The stars now mock through my window, time for more whiskey. Maybe this will slow time just a little. Just for tonight.

If you made it this far thanks for reading my ramblings. This weighs on my mind daily.

Are we running out of lithium?
Batteries are getting super expensive.

>>19223255
Everything is getting super expensive

>>19223268
I know that the current shortages are caused by corona and not climate, but I do think this is the way that the vast majority of first worlders are going to experience the "climate crisis". Despite what twitter libs cry about their houses wont be underwater or up in flames, but climate changes will make more and more things hard to find or too expensive to be feasible. Things will get more expensive, your quality of life will go back to how it was pre-post war economic boom. We will all have to learn to live more simply and endure more extreme weather. Perhaps these changes will trigger social unrest and maybe more authoritarian responses, like we are seeing now, but otherwise life will mostly be normal.

>>19223313
Are you the same guy always posting about climate change in this general

>>19223325
nope

We are the NPCs
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats' feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar

Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;

Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death's other kingdom
Remember us - if at all - not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the NPCs

>>19218545
I'm Napoleon.
I was born for greatness.
No one will stop me attaining my destiny, not even myself.

am I a schizo or are we slaves to the antichrist

>>19223416
Those arent mutually exclusive

im gonna go smoke weed with my friend. ill see you guys later

>>19218545
What will we say now? Philokalos heightened by obsessive ratiocination, it's smooth and continuous and the desire does not dissipate when you destroy your tendency to dissipate it out of your own will. It's the result of neurotic phantasms you thought you were a machine and you thought you had nothing to do with it, but you can't change what you are. Applying existential weight to your drama is called, being a bitch, but that doesn't lessen the feeling, not admiration, or love, or even desire, but it pulls mercilessly on your heart and breath.

Just had a date with a girl 9 years my junior. She really likes reading. Hates tv. Definitely a lefty but all young women are. We'll have a second date. I'm somewhat nervous that when I bring her back she'll look at my books and quickly observe there are virtually zero female authors. I'm considering picking up one or two just to avoid that awkwardness, this time and potentially in the future. But she was pretty cool. One of the better first dates I've been on. She had good opinions on the merits of contemporary literature to counter mine in favor of classics. I'll be curious to see where this leads.

I live in a historic apartment building in a town north of Boston and fucking tourists keep on taking pictures of my building while i'm trying to lay in bed drunk fapping

>>19223679
I know a dude who decided to date a girl who is dumb as a box of rocks. She has literally zero opinions and is easily entertained. I suspect thats the right move

>>19223325
Hey, that's me

>>19223313
It's the Great Cataclysm. I don't see how modern technology can survive in a world where climate change tears apart the global supply chains.

>>19223711
So when yet another decade passes and literally nothing changes will you accept that climate change is a load of shit

>>19223123
Then don't smoke. Is bad for your brain.

>>19223716
If civilization still exists by 2050 I will be astonished. If it still exists by 2060 and hasn't collapsed because of climate change, I will be thinking heavily. If Europe isn't majority African/Arab (because of climate refugees) by 2050, I will be stunned. If Hong Kong, Miami, and the Netherlands are still above water by 2070, I will remember this thread and I will admit I was hoodwinked.

>>19218977
Uhhhh I’m a hot chick with fat fucking tits and I’ve had my butthole Plummed against my will many times.

I'm tired. I'm tired of being a no good retard, tired of being ugly, tired of this lovelessness, tired of university, tired of being a bad believer. Even basic shit like taking a bath feels hard to me now.

I think ego isn't necessarily evil and important for one's self-worth and self-esteem. Without the "ego" you won't be able to set a standard for yourself and will fall onto a deep end. People may be mistaking 'ego' with hubris instead. Which is of course, really bad.

>>19223767

What the hell is a hot chick doing here on 4chan?

>>19223788
at least you have something to tire you
i've been out of school since the start of may and out of work since mid-august and in the void of quite literally nothing to do, no shekelberg manager to scream at me nor spooky midterms on the horizon
i can't remember my dreams, assuming they ever occured in the first place, my internal monologue never continues for more than two sentences, when trying to write i make so many retarded typos it feels like i have early onset dementia at 20 going 21
i am going to buy a car with the neetbux that remain and just drive. i don't know where, i don't know how long. i think i'll stop in utah for some reason. god help me, where is my mind?

>>19223855
>i am going to buy a car with the neetbux that remain and just drive
uhhh have you looked at the used car market lately? good luck with that.

>>19218977
only if they lean into their looks. people can't help it if they look good, but being vain about it is a choice.

>>19223865
i 4x'd with a $1k investment in SHIB and there are subaru outbacks with around 150k miles for around 3.5k in my corner of suburbia, i'll be fine
and even if i had to withdraw my entire crypto portfolio i'd fucking do anything to bring my fucking cognition back holy shit it's nothing but FOG

>>19218813
once you leave past a couple climate change deadlines you'll stop caring about that too. first it was 2000, then it was 2012, then it was 2020, if you're too young for those, i guess your next chance is like 2035. of course the actual science says the temperature might go up like 2 degrees by 2100 if we don'r switch to electric cars by then, but the hardcore climate freaks will tell you the planet is going to end in 10 years.

>>19223729
Oh boy that's a long way to go.

>>19223855
I drive

>>19223878
So is it still worth buying crpyto?

thoughts on erotic roleplay as an exercise for prose?

Another girl I was kinda interested in turned out to be a lesbian in a relationship. What's up with my taste in women? Not all of them are tall bitches.

>>19223909
Whats up with tall chicks being dykes

>>19223904
with the exception of BTC and (this is a stretch) ETH it's quite literally a decentralized online gambling ring in my experience, so play in at your own risk
>>19223899
give me a book recommendation for my literary rest stop visits

>>19223171
I sit at the island in my kitchen. Sunlight drips below the tree line, casting small silhouettes across the quartz surface that supports my laptop, spilling over a whiskey bottle that subdivides the silhouettes even further, into tiny tendrils of bronze and saffron. Cool air pours in from the kitchen window. I can hear my wife giving our son a bath out back.

Bro is she a pedophile? You have some dark shit here.

>>19223908
Some of the best writing I ever did was in a medieval feminization ERP. I lost them, but I had saved all the chat logs, they were that good.

>>19223927
The Haunting of Hill House has a nice chapter about the main character just driving and daydreaming about her life on the road as she runs away from her problems

>>19223936
discord or on something like /trash/?
i used to go nuts on the likes of /vp/ roleplaying as a recently transformed and impregnated glaceon until the bans became increasingly lengthy and frequent

>>19223729
I don't deny this. There is a resources crisis coming sooner rather than later - food, energy, water etc. which will lead to a lot of deaths, but I have to imagine it will mostly effect the over-populated poor countries and then the already weak and old. I do think climate refugees from those places is the biggest realistic threat to the first world though. Not because I hate refugees but just because of the infrastructure strain that will put on everything.

It's weird to think about all this happening when we are already in our twilight years. Perhaps we will be the old cunts that will be left out to dry?

>>19223936
>>19223954
Do you feel no shame

>>19223954
Discord

>>19223998
No, why would I? I have done nothing more than enjoy a sexual fantasy with another man or woman of age who consented to our interaction.

>>19223998
yes
does it stop me? no
>>19224013
post tag

>>19223908
Some of my best writing was erotic roleplay. In fact just erotic fiction in general was some of my best writing. I know that great writing comes from strong emotions, I suppose my better writing was inspired by lust. I've since sought to not give in to lust, and my writing hasn't come back to me.

>>19223936
>medieval feminization
I'm okay with feminization and crossdressing, but any time before the modern era seems weird to me. How can you be a convincing girl without modern makeup and grooming? I'm curious.

>>19224026
>post tag
What are you into?

>>19224037
A healthy dose of suspense of disbelief does wonders

>>19224037
there was some infographic on /lgbt/ about how some byzantine homos drank pregnant horse piss or something complete with a weathered stone statue of a tranny or whatever the fuck but im guessing it's some nero/sporus deal here
>>19224049
pic related

>>19223931
Yes my wife bathing our child means she a pedo. I think you’ve been her too long anon.

>>19224034
you know what maybe i should tell my dad i hate him or trainhop to the other side of the country just to feel literally anything else but tfw no gf or tranny impulses

Christians of the early and medieval church were real men. They were strong and bold and tough.
They were nothing like these castrated, balless, modern American protestants. These spineless, milquetoast cowards who roll over for their enemies. Makes me sick.

>>19224113
I've thought about joining the merchant marines for the same goal.

>>19224159
what sort of things did you write about?
also, the merchant what now?

>>19224179
>merchant
shit nevermind it just came to me

>>19224159

Phbbt. Joiner.

Does anybody know how to search rentry.co? I lost some links to some pastes I wrote on it and basically nothing from it shows up in search engines.

>>19224159
Merchant marine right now would be a fate worse than hell. They've all been stuck off shore in a state of months long limbo. But then again, I guess most people have been stuck inside anyway so what's the difference?

In any case, that would all be over by the time you actually joined up. Just be prepared for 95% of your coworkers to be Filipinos.

>>19224365
filipinos are nice, please leave them alone.

>>19224179
Merchant navy, like being a sailor on a cargo ship or along those lines. And I'd rather not discuss my coomer fics, I'm doing my best to leave that mess behind me.
>>19224187
What?

>>19224365
>Merchant marine right now would be a fate worse than hell
Oh I know. I can dream though.

>>19224372
I love pinoys man, they would make great coworkers - I was just pointing it out

i am angry. Angry about managing and juggling responsibilities i've accepted in the past that while resulted in a lot of benefit for me, also comes with still unresolved headaches. Life is so goddamned complex when I just want to stay home and work on my hobbies

I'm mad. I want riots, fire, bloodshed, death, beheadings, senseless tragedies, and grim reckonings. This world must be cleansed by the fires of indiscriminate retribution. Rich and poor alike.

>>19224433
>>19224425
Hello fellow angry person :3

>>19224425
>Life is so goddamned complex when I just want to stay home and work on my hobbies
literally me

>>19224433
Did we get this last year?

>>19224433
>indiscriminate
But, it’s obviously the oligarchy. This whole virus shitshow is big pharma. I just had a dark thought that they shouldn’t be dragged into court. They have all this money, but I don’t want it. I want them dragged out to their poor and submerged in them.
The poor need a second shot at life, anon.

>>19224452
>dragged out to their pool* and submerged

Its nice to read a book in an open air cafe.

>>19221478
>just not trying to attract you
>replies at all, making a bunch of excuses to boot

>>19218545
Is our favorite AYYY starring in 17th-century Big-Dress romances now?

Can she see The Wall from there?

ngl, i miss her

>>19218545
satan tango longest film ive seen in my life time

>>19218687
If she died tomorrow no one here would miss her. You might notice in a week that you haven't seen her shitting up threads and wonder how long the good luck will hold out. But that's it.

Will anyone IRL miss her? I'm sure she's alienated her family with her narcissism. Apparently she just picks up fat chicks on whatever lesbians use for Tinder, so no real relationships there, either.

Truly a lost soul. Pebble in the pond without a ripple.

>>19224771
I have a theory that Butters has a son (both middle-aged lesbians I know irl have sons). He would miss her.

>>19224780
That poor sonofabitch.

If you're right she would have pushed him out somewhere between '95 and 2005.

So I guess he's lucky in a way. Still would have been relatively normal. If he'd been born this decade she'd have given him estradiol and cut his cock off.

>>19224780
This also explains why she never finished college.

>>19224780
it makes me upset to think about how much damage a POS dyke single mother like that could do to a growing boy,

>>19224751
i watch'd the whole 8 hour, totally time wasting film and i'v learned only one thing is; life is far too short and far too precious to spend anymore time on trash like this.

I love how butters took the trip off, but literally just couldn't help herself and HAD to at least namefag, then just went right back to tripfagging within hours.

Honestly the worst thing about growing acceptance towards homosexuals has nothing to do with morality or anything but with the normalisation of their fucking annoying hyperactive campy bullshit. Not all gay guys but a very loud obnoxious type that brings their loud fucking obnoxious slay queen energy into every corporate environment. I'm just a chill dude but if you don't act like a fucking hyper over the top drama queen around them it's like you spat on their mother.

>>19224858
Because an asshole had to go around trolling. That was you, was it?

>>19224899
I'm gay and I agree with you, pathic sodomites are intolerable. However, you are also gay for belonging to a corporate environment in the first place

>went to a cafe twice to meet the cute barista I met before
>twice she isn't there
Such is life.

>>19224903
wow yea trolling did it, blame trolling!

>>19224800
They always think they're the best mother in the world. In reality they're awful.

>>19224899
Another reason that "has nothing to do with morality" is the huge public health risk they pose. The levels of disease they carry and pass around is an order of magnitude higher than the general population.

And then there's their 50%+ pederasty rate.

When a lifestyle and set of ethics compounds so many bad outcomes, morality just becomes a practical shorthand for addressing the whole problem.

>>19220035
Tired of the politics or just not getting paid enough?

>>19224899
There are so many more normal gay men out there than the gay man you are explaining. Maybe 1 - 2 out of the 10 gay people I know are faggy like that.
The whole queer feminine pride thing came from the stonewall riots which was full of drag kweens and sexual perverts, which is what we celebrate now days.

>normal gay men

>>19225134
The fact you find that image normal says a lot abut you.

I don't find homosexuality normal at all.

I find homosexuality normal

i might be getting drugged

The lifting of the veil of Maya and the subsequent banishment of the banality of existence is necessarily a transient phenomenon, for as soon as the veil is lifted it endeavors immediately and forcefully to reassert itself, just as the blood rushes to clot an opening in the skin. The will endeavors to gain in both lower and higher intellects an ideality through which relations between individual objects and the whole itself may be understood. This is how the vanity of the will asserts itself in consciousness, by insisting on systematization which are on the one hand necessary for a continuation of life itself, but on the other hand act as the primary antagonist of sublime experience. Only on rare and fleeting occasions do we observe those sublime experiences which defy classification, but as quickly as they come they are integrated into our subjective vision of the system of reality and rendered commonplace. The easiest example to point to is that of music: a new song permits of a full appreciation of its sublimity, but upon subsequent listening it becomes commonplace and diluted. The more subsequent experiences we encounter, the more comprehensive our systems become, so that even fresh experiences contain so many traces of what has already been encountered and compartmentalized that they themselves impart less and less of the sublime as time marches on. This is why the dreamlike age of childhood is so giddy, and why the lot of aged men is so banal and toilsome.

i used to be a romantic and i suppose i still am to some degree, but i dont believe in love anymore. It just feels like every relationship is doomed to fail, either because the honeymoon phase wears off, or people just drift apart. I just cannot develop any hope for love anymore, knowing it will eventually just fall apart. And it doesnt help that im basically an anti-social schizoid who's disgusted by sex.

>I find homosexuality normal

>some friend notices that I'm near their vicinity
>they tell me they'll come meet up in an hour
>i wait for an hour and they never appear
Why bother saying you wanna meet? For fucks sake.

>>19225213
A/S/L?

>>19225230
Late 20s dude, thats it

>>19225192
you find normal whatever some jew on the metaphorical television tells you is normal

>>19225236
No, I just respect every living human being. Stop living such a bitter life. It will do wonders on your mental health

poo

>>19225269
But if they blame others for their unhappiness then they always have an excuse, and a perception that absolves them of responsibility. Those darn Jews controlling every aspect of their life :(

>>19225134
Is the appeal of faggotry just a fetish for corrupting the self and others?

>>19224939
Wow yea. How new are you around here?

>>19224903
You have man nostrils

>>19226184
That’s a cat

>>19226255
Oh I thoufht it was weird how hairy you were. I just assumed it was a feminist thing about shaving

I just pood but I feel like I still have poo inside me

>>19225514
>>19225514
>>19225514