/lit/ - Literature

(You) are always on my mind

I was thinking about writing a novella about the subject of dating older women as a young man in our times, do you think it's an interesting subject? And was there a similar book i the past?

>>18869054
I want a job. I am sick of studying and not working. Being a mechanic would be satisfying than being an academic.

>>18869072
While having a degree adds a bit of presitge to your name I've also become disillusioned by academia. The unnecessary toil people who go through to become PhD students to Professor seems like you're not only gambling with your money but with your time as well.

I SAID
at least i can say niggers and kikes without police coming to my door. even if i dont mean it. thats more freedom that other places. and im not really hurting anyone am i.

>>18869054
Butterfag must live stream his 41%

today i feel peculiarly weird.
boss gave me a task that i dunno how to complete ( im a programmer)
also, i've lost interest in movies and music for a while now
my loneliness has reached fascinating levels.
literally only thing i like to do is to sleep and then to be half conscious of my dream im having for the last hour of sleep, then to think about that dream ending for the whole morning and think about what is the meaning of my dream, then for the rest of the day i wait for night so i can sleep again

>>18869151
you do realize it's an actual female, don't you, newfag?

>>18869261
Write What's On Your Mind Alternative thread

>>18869068
"Will O' the Wisp" by Rochelle covers a similar topic in parts: a prettyboy who doesn't experience love but takes advantage of women; then loss of youth.

I have had intrusive suicidal thoughts my whole life. I've never seriously acted on them. I've never really felt like doing it. Recently however I am thinking about it more commitedly, and now find myself thinking about actually doing it; the aftermath; when and where and how. Strangest of all, with these thoughts comes a sense of calm, like I have a new option at my disposal previously held to be impossible. I feel as if it is a possible path for my life as much as certain degrees or career path, or more so as an alternative to any of these.
Basically anons I'm saying I'm going to do it one day, and that every day I feel this way more.

>>18870410
Yes it is an option, but a bad option, kind of like deciding working at a call center is a good career path for the rest of your life. If you're at a point where you're having a hard time choosing a career or degree, just know that life is not entirely about working. You should choose a job you find tolerable at the moment, find some hobby or sport you like doing daily or can train daily for then start looking at your options. You sound stagnant and uninspired, fix those first broski.

>>18870410
why did you bump this you motherfucker, it was on page 10

>>18870448
Thanks anon

I am having trouble deciding if I should read Renaissance epics from the Italians and French and English or if I should read Song of Achilles.

>>18870606
Read the renaissance epics. Which ones do you have in mind? Dante, Ariosto, Milton?

I wanna fly, fly high. When you see the crows flying, compare them to the poor caged birds that have forgotten to fly,crows are much better, being a Crow is good enough for me

>>18869212
Pfff sure

>>18870700
yeah, a middle aged lesbian, no less.

>>18870606
Read the renaissance epics

>>18870715
Thanks I pictured the smell

>>18869054
>I think most mental health disorders are bullshit and retards go along with it to make money by giving kids cocaine, you could assign anyone a mental disorder
>I think everyone is stupid, like at least 75% of people are sheep who just go with the flow and don't care about freedom or know basic fiscal responsibility
>It depresses me that people don't read books these days, or pretty much anything longer than 4 sentences.
>I think logical fallacies were made up to make anyone's argument on anything appear to be weak, I think you can twist everything into a logical fallacy, hence they're bullshit. The slippery slope is real for sure.
>I think people who have read and know actual history and took the time to read the books are ostracized or blackballed for saying stuff like it is and the real truth because the cope is too much for people to handle
>I think the politics and hopelessness of having significant change of virtually any industry from publishing to gas/energy to banking are becoming too much for people to bear and making us all apathetic

>>18870771
>>It depresses me that people don't read books these days, or pretty much anything longer than 4 sentences.
I thought people do reads books just not the type /lit/ likes?

can you brainlets please stop posting in this thread and post in the other one that's up? any time now a dumb janny will arrive and delete one or both.
that one has way more replies at this point

>>18870821
This one was created first.

>>18870810
A very small percentage of people, and I would guess mostly older. The newer generations coming up can't even watch an entire episode of a tv show without needing another stimuli

>>18870836
What are you talking about? /lit/ always complains about people not reading proper “literature” and other shit.

>>18870892
this is my first time on this board

Burt Lancaster

Well, I was spending my time; browsing incels(co), incel’s subreddit, and incel’s thread here; in 4Chan. They (incels) have been speaking with confidence that the reason why they are being unlovable to women as men is biological determinism only.

Incel’s premises : Women only want men who was born biologically perfect. Men whose face is handsome with combination of strong jaw, hot lips, and sharp eyes. These are characteristics of versatile and strong men who can produce babies and protect his spouse in circumstance moment (just like prehistoric era).

We (incels) wasn’t born biologically perfect. We have No strong jaw and so on and so on.

Conclusion : therefore women don’t want us.

At first you must be interested with their premises and agreed with their conclusion. They seems so coherent. And in empirical basis, incels' philosophy seems true and relatable; women get fucked by chad. Simple.

But what we have seen as simple isn’t as it is.

We are living in modern world, not prehistoric era. Everything has changed, including the way women choice a men as partner. Biological characteristics aren’t the only concern. “State authority protect me and I can work by myself alone to survive. Why I really need men with strong physical characteristic to protect me? Why I really need men for merely money things?” Said women. I guess.

So here’s the things; by saying words such “women don’t want us because women only want chad” can be seen as apriorism statement. An statement which consist of merely premature projection toward empirical phenomena. You cherry picked data; A, B, C, and D are chads and all of them have fucked girls multiply times. Conclusion: therefore women only want chad.

All of you were denying the fact that E, F, G, and H aren’t chads and they have fucked many girls too.

For example :

There is women who married Stephen Hawking. Is Stephen hawking considered as chad? He can’t even stand for himself—literally. Therefore incel’s proposition just get falsified by simple example phenomena.

Not all women merely want chad with strong jaw, sharp eyes, etc. So don’t overgeneralize something. Women are seeing others Variables too in men including intelligence (like what happened to Hawking).

Incel’s philosophy is falsifiable because we have so many evidences and coherent arguments to proof it wrong.

Incels are consistent with biological determinism so they are free from taking responsibility for themselves.

>>18869054
Op is a faggot

>>18869054
The power that's given to "nigger" resembles that of the truth.

>>18869212
>actual female
No

>>18870771
>think logical fallacies were made up to make anyone's argument on anything appear to be weak, I think you can twist everything into a logical fallacy, hence they're bullshit. The slippery slope is real for sure.
They happen naturally, but you're probably talking about the more specific phenomenon of people finding the Wikipedia list of logical fallacies and using it to do massive pwnage on the internets look mom. I'll let you in on a little secret, anon; anytime one of those come by, use this trap card
>Fallacies of means are not fallacies of conclusions.
It means
>It doesn't matter if I called you a cock sucking bitch and misconstrued your argument, I'm still right and you're still a cocksucker.
You're welcome.

>>18871064
yeah

>>18870253
>Will O' the Wisp" by Rochelle
Severely underrated.

>>18869203
>also, i've lost interest in movies and music for a while now
Never understood Movies, Always found them boring and trite and they make me fall asleep.

>>18869111
checked my nigger

>>18869054
I didn't sleep well at all, last night. This may have been because I was thinking about my new "self-betterment" routine. I thought about why I was doing it, what I wanted to attain in doing it. I suppose I want to better myself to the point where I feel comfortable in speaking to attractive girls. However, I fear that as I better myself, girls my age debase themselves further and further. For every day I spend exercising and practicing guitar, girls spend the same getting older and more jaded and more used by strange men. By the time I (hopefully) achieve my hard-earned prime (good health and body, well-rounded set of skills, stable job, artistic achievement, &c.), probably around the age of 26 (I'd hope), the women of 26 will be paunchy and cellulite-covered and wrinkled; they'll lack all purity and innocence and have heads filled with vile influence; they'll have known hundreds of strange men, they'll have past and sorrily lost lovers whom I cannot compete with, and they'll see me as their last chance at starting a family before infertility. I don't feel I am yet prepared to explain precisely why I find qualities of purity and innocence and virginity important in women; however, I can feel it to be true (my work, then, lies in making the unconscious of my mind conscious). At the moment, though, in my sorry state, I can only sit and feel bad about everything.

>boss wants us to reconfigure every single laptop across every school in the district, totaling 2300+ laptops
>that means configuring a switch and dozens of power/ethernet cables at each school
>while also putting all the rooms back together
>when school starts in 2 weeks
Shoot me in the fucking temple

I had a shower when the day is about to reach peak humidity, and rest there for a few hours until the rain comes. I'm breathing in warm water. I think this is what fish feel like when their owner cheaps out on their tank thermostat and it slowly boils them overnight.

>>18871315
Holy shit, do they really expect you to finish the job within two weeks?

>used to work high pay, high stress sales job
>quit mid way through 2020 when masks were required
>wanted to wait out all the covid bs before looking for new work
>eternal medical state is being put in place, masking will never end, most places are now or will soon require you to get injected with experimental mRNA shot
Luckily I live well below my means and have decent saving, so I can literally earn nothing for ~2 years before going homeless. I know I should probably be doing something, but can't find the motivation. Even before the covid shit, I wasn't exactly thrilled to work my ass of for a system that hates and wants to slowly genocide people like me, who's values are evil and at odds with mine and which has no soul and seeks to destroy any community or institution that isn't strictly materialist and egalitarian.

How do I know that what I'm writing is interesting to other people too?
I like/love (maybe not 100% of the time) what I write be it fantasy stories or some rambling philosophy.
I can assure you that what I write is coherent enough and not just schizo stuff.

I wrote a gay little fantasy story once and got about 10k views, that should be evidence enough that some do like my work, right?

Should I just not give a shit and carry on?

I have always considered myself to be a person of sound mind and stable mood. This year made me realize what a bitch I truly am.

I was supposed to study abroad for my 5th year of law but I came back early due to covid and never returned. I started to isolate myself and to skip online classes. I spent my days in my room in the dark lurking on this god forsaken website and lying to my parents about how I was doing. After a while I was contacted by friends worrying about me so I started getting out of my room again but I was still flunking out, unable to even open my e-mails or start a single assignment. I can't keep lying or evading this forever. I am not sure if I even want to study law anymore, or if I even wanted to do it in the first place. My current situation is unclear and I can't project myself into the future. I am in a limbo I created for myself because I am a piece of shit pussy.

At night I imagine scenarios that allow me to escape the burdens of life. At first it began as self serving power fantasies, disgusting me at the thought of my own shallowness. I then started to think life would be better as an animal, free from complex thought. Even an animal became too much as I imagined myself as a tree or a rock. Finally I didn't want to exist at all.

Sometimes I imagine a meteor destroying my city so I can die along with my family without feeling guiIty of hurting them by taking my own life. Sometimes it is a sickness or an accident. Sometimes I die a hero fighting terrorists. I have fantasized about waking up at 3am and walking to the beach before slipping into the abyss and never coming back. I even went so far as to tie a noose or holding a knife to my throat and was pleasantly surprised when my heart began to race, reminding me that I didn't really want to die.

Why does life have to be complicated ? Why must I be so weak ?

>>18871921
could be worse, anon, you could be a hs dropout

>>18871952
Yes, this is true. There is always someone less fortunate.

>>18871677
>I wasn't exactly thrilled to work my ass of for a system that hates and wants to slowly genocide people like me, who's values are evil and at odds with mine and which has no soul and seeks to destroy any community or institution that isn't strictly materialist and egalitarian.
What system is this, and where do I sign up?

>>18872326
The one you’re living in.

>>18872346
The system I live in is anti-egalitarian and nearly all based in half-assed emotional drivel guised as spirituality, all artificially charged via a constant barrage of fear of "the other", whatever boogeyman it maybe. Maybe it's because I live in the US, but I've traveled quite a bit and have only seen different extremes of the same pattern.

Where did the first straight line come from?

>>18870606
don't read dead white males

I'm writing a story and the prologue is a duel of succession between a boy and his uncle. They are in charge of a large swaith of land in an empire because they were the first to turn on their king. The empire is showing signs of collapse (the "immortal godking" emperor who founded it has died), and the lesser noblemen are starting to rise up.
Originally, I wanted the nephew to be pro-empire and the uncle to be pro-restorationist. The nephew loses the duel either way. But now I'm starting to think of having the nephew be pro-restorationist and the uncle start out as pro-empire, only for him to begin to change his ways after being sent to put down the rebellion in his own lands. Or at least, that's the story on the surface. The truth is that the uncle was part of a secret restoration plot, but it will only work in a few years when the crucial fantasy plot device happens and the last living royal of their defunct kingdom can be rescued and put on the throne. The conspiracy is thus putting down the more feeble rebellions because a plan has been in the works for years in anticipation of the "immortal" emperor's death.

I just struggle with it because I think it makes more sense for the younger generation to be less loyal to the empire and in fact be more rebellious, unless I establish that the imperial propaganda machine is really strong, or something to that effect.

>>18872700
Human made? Ropes used to mark land in early neolithical societies.

>>18872883
That's cool, you said it is fantasy, but is it set in a medieval world?
What if you put that story in a Saudi Arabia like country in our times? Or maybe a western setting (but that would require more creativity).
Or maybe just a futuristic setting like LOGH or Code Geass.

>>18873014
I've been worldbuilding for the sake of worldbuilding for more than a decade, before I even wanted to write it as a book. It originally was set as a story where non-modern humans were abducted by aliens and put on another planet as part of an elaborate petri dish to make psychics, but the normal humans (who are the majority) just calls them wizards, and the aliens gods. I never really established what the "era" setting is but I was moving it more towards either a Roman antiquity kind of deal with Republics, Monarchies and Empires, but I did want to have some simple gunpowder and big navies so the alternative era would be something like the Age of Discovery. I'll have to decide what I do with it. Thanks for asking.

>>18873236
>I've been worldbuilding for the sake of worldbuilding for more than a decade
Why? Why the emphasis on worldbuilding? Why not focus on character or plot?

I had to get a covid test recently to avoid isolating for a week. It was the first time I’ve ever done a test and the first time really having to interact with “covid”. I’ve tried to avoid it for the nearly 2 years it’s been around for multiple reasons really mainly hating the idea of consistent blockades in life due to covid.

But now since I took the decision to get a test to make it convenient for myself. I feel like I have betrayed my self for my own convience. I hate the idea of a testing system being a permanent feature in our society and now I feel guilty on myself for possibly accelerating this.

My confidence has seemingly taken a dip and I think this is due to the fact that I know myself that I did an action I did not want to do simply out of convenience.

It sorta questioned my own resolve and morality on things so I think I’ve shaken myself up a bit.

Yesterday evening, when I was on the beach, I saw a woman who struck me as absolutely gorgeous. I usually don't stare at many women but I caught myself staring then. She was probably twice my age, probably even older than my mother, but she moved with such grace and had an aura about her I could feel. My friends and I sat not too far away, but I decided to face the opposite way as to not let her see me look at her, yet about halfway through my meal I see her get up and stand only a few paces from our table; staring out towards the sea as the sun kissed her already sun kissed skin and the wind ran through her curly hair. The yellowing sky made the perfect backdrop for her profile, it highlighted her sloped forehead, down to her nose that came to a dainty little point, and her smile lit up the beach even more than the setting sun.
For the past day, I've been fantasizing about her being my partner. I'm only 20 and she looked to be in her mid 40s, and the thought of an older more mature woman is a craving I haven't had in years. I think about how I can be everything she need and she can be everything I need.
I wish I looked at her more. The entire picture of her is fading from my memory.


That kike Freud was right, God damn him. My mother and I have never had a very stable relationship.

>>18873646
>I'm only 20 and she looked to be in her mid 40s, and the thought of an older more mature woman is a craving I haven't had in years.
yucky, anon

>>18873560
I guess it's inaccurate to only call it worldbuilding. There's a sporadic focus on different characters and the overarching plots that I have developed in my head. There's three main plots to the story that I plan to tell from multiple first person PoVs. The first two I've fleshed out the most, but they're also the bulk of the story. The 3rd plot is from a single PoV, and is immediately independent of the rest of the story having taken place on another continent, but it's crucial for the third act. I've had the "rival family" living rent-free in my head for the last couple of years and have been developing the main characters of that family (so much that I want them to be the focus of the prologue), including an autistic amount of time on a nephew that's going to die in the prologue he's introduced in, but his death is going to be a catalyst on his cousin, the daughter of the uncle who slays him.
Overall, it's still disorganized as hell and actually writing things down is helping, but it also makes me aware of even more problems. Mostly with the massive plot hole that is "if the ultimate antagonists are hyper advanced aliens and intelligent enough to genetically alter species and basically give them superpowers, what are their protective measures in case their experiments go awry, and what gives the lab rats an iota of a chance at succeeding in overthrowing their masters?" And I don't wanna just say "hubris."

>>18873726
It's pure, anon. Looking for a mother figure to fill in is a tale as old as time.

>the only apparent categories in the phenomenal world are appearance and observer
>rhetoric is the act of generating an appearance to be observed in order to accomplish a certain goal
>the entire apparent reality can be reduced to various acts of rhetoric as observer responds to appearances

What the fuck.

>>18869054
Can someone recommend me a short story to read before sleep?

>>18873984
The Barber by Flannery O'Connor

>>18874021
Thanks!

>>18869103
This is ultimately dropped out, im sorry but I cant do it especially since anything I’d want to do in college requires me to deal with academia. Good luck on your journey anon if you continue

a short tune recorded to and from a Sanyo portable cassette recorder.
https://vocaroo.com/19y6ZEyOv7Wg

>>18873834
Which philosophy espouse this?

Free speech on the internet ruined this world.any fucking idiot can say their idiotic statement and it will be a subject of thousands of people treating it like a fact or trying to dispute it

>>18874532
Enjoy it while it lasts.

it is time to smoke weed.

>>18874603
*google has sent you to the gulag*

Do girls get turned off by guys who are particularly "intense"? I've had a girl call me intense before, and I think it's part of why we stopped talking when she initially seemed really into me. Can women detect that sort of thing, and does it repel them? I'm otherwise pretty handsome and I've been told I'm charming.

Studying medicine killed my joy of reading.

>>18874654
you are a misogynists and she can tell

Unsolicited schizo thought of the day: the nonsensical brand names for medications are in actuality spells to enfeeble those who take them.

>>18874654
It depends on the context. If you’re extremely attractive then intense is exciting. If you’re not extremely attractive then it can just be scary, even boring.

where am i

>>18871870
If you like it, there’s a good chance there’s other people who like it too. It’s really a question that creators subject to markets have to face. You can ebucuon it as “what I like but no one else likes” and “what I don’t like but everyone else likes” on opposite ends of the spectrum. The creator will just have to figure out a way to merge those two end points or find the point on that spectrum they want to inhabit. Starting from “I like this so others probably do too” is not a bad starting point.

>>18874663
Why? I always find medical textbooks fascinating.

i have to quit my job. i used to like it. then the turn your home into your office so clients are in your house shit of the pandemic made me really dislike it. now going back to the office and being forced to shout through a mask all day even though everyone is vaxxed, and still have my boss to do all the extra shit i picked up during work from home? and they're not giving raises even though inflation is sky high? that is a big fucking nope. i don't have anything else lined up, but i do have like 6 months of cash in the bank.

>>18874654
>handsome
>charming
>posts a creepy as shit anime pic
doubt

>>18875027
This. Creepy as heck

why the FUCK is it so hot god damn it

but i should never think of spring

>>18874633
You know, I always wanted to smoke weed if only to see what's the big deal about it.

>>18875073
dont do it

I met several of my high school friends a few days ago. It was a good experience, and I was happy to meet them. But at the same time I was sort of sad. I realized I haven't been as happy as I was back in high school ever since. I don't know why. I have money now, and a job. I went to college, and while I wasn't a genius, I did okay. The only thing missing from my life is a woman, but I didn't have one in high school either. Maybe it was the social interaction. Outside of family and coworkers, it's pretty much the first time in 4 years I spoke to a real friend.

>>18875097
Why?

>>18872385
>fear of "the other"
This is the organic attitude of man because humans are tribal.
However, the only thing I see in media today is promotion of love of the other. Forced diversity and racemixing in advertisements, movies, TV shows, corporate PR, the fucking olympics. Nearly always portraying non-whites as more moral and intelligent then whites. Where are you seeing "fear of the other" except for organic comments from real humans online? The only people group that is otherized and dehumanized in mainstream media is white men (the dumb sisterfucking redneck, the angry tiny-penis Trump voter, the brutal soulless capitalist WASP, the evil mechanical killing-machine German, etc.).

I don't know how the fuck im gonna do it all but I have to. And if I don't falter I will have become a much better man

>>18875143
hard to explain. its fun but comes at a cost.
it becomes a love hate relationship if you get too far into it.

>>18875162
I can empathize with you and I do think the whites are being screwed over, but I am a little weary of the way you guys blame the other for what is an intra-white problem. Plenty of whites vote against their interests each election (last I checked, something like 30-50% of whites vote Democrat). Figure out how to vote as a bloc. Literally every other race does it and benefits. Frankly, I think it will happen in you grandchildrens' time. Being a minority does wonders for intra-racial unity, and I can tell you from personal experience that it is better to be a part of a united minority than it is to be a disunited majority.

>>18875191
I agree that, while other groups like jews have made things worse, it is the inherent weakness and pathological altruism of bleeding heart whites that has lead to this situation. They share some blame, and healthy whites share blame for being cowards and not convincing/forcing the weak ones to get in line.
“A country has the Jews it deserves. Just as mosquitoes can thrive and settle only in swamps, likewise the former can only thrive in the swamps of our sins.” -Corneliu Codreanu
>Being a minority does wonders for intra-racial unity
I do hope so, but South Africa proves that white delusion can still exist when they're a minority.

>>18869054
I’m planning to write a compilation of short stories and sell it at 2 dlls in Amazon, then doing as Gardner advertising it here

>>18869054
I am so tired. I am not good enough. What's the point of living if I am just consuming resources without excelling?

>>18875207
>I do hope so, but South Africa proves that white delusion can still exist when they're a minority.
Well to be blunt whites are pretty retarded when it comes to acting in their self-interest, but even they must eventually pay heed to reality. Give it 50 years.

>>18875229
What's the point in excelling?
We all die the same whether we "excel" or not.
What's important is trying to live in a way that is both virtuous and causes yourself happiness.

>>18875229
You sound depressed anon. They have meds for that you know.

I am getting ready to run into a brick wall. I've told everyone in my life I'm hoping to go to graduate school, and while that's true there's basically a 0 percent chance I'm accepted. I've already had one paper denied publication, and while I have two more in the works it feels hopeless. Being a brainlet is hard, and a life alone working minimum wage jobs makes me want to stick a shotgun in my mouth... so I guess I should act like there is a future, even if there isn't one.

>>18875169
I'll just have to take your word for it.

Getting mugged off by my girl. Think she's going to end it tonight. Fed up and want to be with God

>>18875276
Do they work?

>>18875590
You will be upset until you realise, there are better girls out there. i promise you bro. it's hard to realise when you are in a relationship, but there are actual GEMS out there, that will really love you, and wont mug you off. i promise you

>>18875166
>become a much better man
How does one become a better man to begin with? Every time I ask this question, I get different answers.

>>18874688
It's actually to avoid trademark disputes and to aim for brand recognition above their competitors and the generic. You can see this in the difference between UK and US users of the same drug. In the UK, "Panadol" might be more recognized than the generic "paracetamol", but the US generic for the same thing "acetaminophen" doesn't exist for the UK.
Even where they are aware of the alternative name, they often don't link it with the drug in question: you could probably get many UK internet users who have heard of Ambien and its side effects from the US, who believe it to be a powerful drug; when they find out that it's zolpidem, the same drug Stilnoct is made from, they start to believe Americans are light weights for the placebo effect.

>>18869068
I’ll be surprised if you actually do it considering that no one here actually writes.

Watched the new evangelion movie. It was sad yet hopeful.

>>18875162
>This is the organic attitude of man because humans are tribal.
And all the media does is play that up. Even among the sliver of media you're alluding to, it's fear of the "racist", and the rest of the media has no issues playing things up along racial and communal lines. There's no egalitarianism, just you're lucky enough to be born this color or unlucky enough to be born that color, here or there, look at these poor violent white or black fuckers over here, look at those SNAFU towel heads over there. ...and the fact that you're complaining about the Olympics being "diverse" just shows they've sold you your boogeyman well. The media makes all its cash on creating artificial divisions and playing them up, doing everything possible to make both sides of any given issue as angry as possible.

>>18876817
>Watched the new evangelion movie
Those are still being made? I thought they stop producing them.

>>18877498
Yeah, it's been 9 years between the current and previous one.

readin in transliterated books ..and learning german with cheap ass chinese fake toys https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgeXyxhahhI

>>18869054
Future Trunks is a goat

Im a disappointment and burden to my parents. I wish i could be a different person.

>>18878161
Same. A shame they butchered him in super.

>>18869263
tits or gtfo

ive been 4channing since 2pm. sometimes i wonder how many days ive wasted on here...

I'm equally at home with both liberalism and Nazism. Maybe a slight preference towards liberalism but I don't really care much.

I have started to dislike democracy because it serves to preserve the status quo, which currently is, in my opinion, culturally dead.
I don't find democracy inherently bad, but when it serves to protect a status quo which directly works against man's purpose I find it to be less than ideal.

>>18869054
When I was much younger, probably between 7 and 13 years of age, my grandmother passed away at around 65. Normally, our family lives much longer, but things happen I suppose.

When I went to see her, she was pale and ears seemed larger with that wasting away face she had. I felt she could die any moment. I was scared to see this and left the room making it, I think, rather obvious to her that I was frightened. As I left, she called out to me. I don't know how well she was able to speak or anything, but she called out to me with some ambiguous "wait" sound, but it was too late and I had left.
I immediately felt guilt. After that night, I would never see her again.

Now as an adult, I still feel some of this guilt and fear how I could guarantee I wouldn't experience such a situation if I were lucky enough to pass away in a hospital. What if there were pre-teens at my deathbed? Would they be able to see me as a sick person? Would I be left alone and feared as a putrid harbinger of mortality? I saw her like she was half-corpse.


Now I recall it, that wasn't even the part that I least like. See, I've always been the sort of person to think that one shouldn't give up on things. I've always been determined. I never liked to stop solving a thing. I have a lot of respect for how the Norse wrote their gods reacting to Ragnarok and I never like to think in absolutes.
But this wasn't a good time for that kind of mentality. I told a group of grieving people maybe she could get better and that you don't ever know. My father didn't understand this and thought I didn't understand what was going on, so he took me aside and tried to explain things to me. Meanwhile, I see my uncle and fathers reactions to my comments...

I could see how this mentality could breed conflict in a person's mind and drive them insane as they work hopeless to save a dying person. I don't think that way... but to think that I might burden people this way there's few things that feel worse.

I never once saw any of my grandparents, who are all now passed, on their deathbed. I procrastinated speaking with my (one; the other was dead. I had only a "step"-grandfather on one side) grandfather, I just never really was around my mother's mother.

Then there's my grandfather, who my parents kept trying to get me to see. To think I could've heard my grandfather talk about WW2... I hate that I never saw him in time. I think I didn't feel prepared.

Granted, I think I handled that one better. I did see him one last time even though I didn't get to really talk with him about all this stuff I was too shy to discuss with him. He was holding my grandmother's hand. There was clearly fear under the surface, but he was strong about it all and a smile.

I really wish that I am able to react better to people being on their deathbed better as an adult.

>>18878921
lol I've spend 12 hours a day on here before

>>18879558
My grandmother, incidentally, died much later. I think I was in my teenage years then. He lived into his 80s, I believe. My grandmother lived into her 90s.

You really do want to die before your spouse or close to that, if you even have one which I don't know that I ever will or not. Old age from what I've seen is really a bitch and I don't mean the real real obvious stuff like illness or impending doom. I mean, when I saw my 90+ 'step-grandfather', if you will, (who by the way was in overall good health until his death for an old man about to die at any moment) look at my sister there was such a profound sadness about him. You could tell my sister reminded him of grandma.

Can you even imagine? It feels like its always the spouse. That person who was always there. That always seems to be the worst part of it.

Even my grandmother, though she felt freer in many ways after my grandfather passed, seemed so different.

>>18879558
>>18879626
She went into what I basically found to be a deep, lonely, state of depression. She always liked me for some reason, even though I was so quiet and shy. Even though we never really talked, for some reason she always seemed to have this respect or love for me that I never understood.

>inb4 stupid, easy incest jokes deflating my posts.

can someone tell me a funny joke

>>18879709
you know what really gets my goat?

>>18879709
>>18879741
el chupacabra

>>18879709
Who is Can Someone? HAH get it, son?

>>18879757
haha i actually giggled thank you

im so fucking bored of video games but i dislike creating art, guess im gonna have to get a job

>>18879750
lol

do NOT try using logic or reason on your 3rd generation European parents.

>>18880114
Who would be stupid enough to do that?

>>18880114
This just sounds weirdly specific.

>>18869054
Petite blonde trainer at the gym. Erection. Not close enough. Need to coom.

>>18880114
my amerimutt family hates logic too, they get angry that i speak in a monotone voice and i don’t engage in small talk, my facts literally hurts their feelings

So I've written page 129 now. I had to take a nap on my lunch break at work since I was dead tired. Bleh. Gonna try and do more tonight to make up for it.
My social media shenanigans only really amount to this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyEBeHvNJvE
There is no game plan for once I actually get her attention. Someone posted a topic for her on pol and I saw it while checking the news. See, I'm kind of worried.
I can say whatever I want, but the truth will come out if she investigates enough. I can forgive some of it, she's not American, she just flat out doesn't know any better but my boss would probably laugh and tell her that I was handing out knives to my co workers just in case any protesters came into the store. (We had police outside). I also don't give a shit about that vaxx crap and have enough money to middle finger anyone who tries to coerce me.
I live near Atlanta. Most black people didn't care about BLM, especially the ones over 30. We just worked like normal. That shit's gonna come up at some point.
I have no idea how to tell a woman that not only do I not give a shit, neither do the people she thinks she's playing guardian for. I'm gonna fuck it up bros. Woooooooooo.

>>18880198
>they get angry that i speak in a monotone voice and don't engage in small talk
we are living the same life.

>>18880328
Do people here not know how to talk to girls

>>18880328
This one is different. I'm trying to communicate on twitter so I can't message her first. All I can do is post publicly and try to interest her enough for a private conversation.
It is kinda a pain in the ass because I can't just shoot my shot and get a yes or no and move on with my life. I gotta just mess around.
It's not all bad. I can make my page I'm using into a book page for my art and novels, but I'm kinda in limbo at the moment. I may never establish a line of communication, but trying and failing is better than not trying imo.

>>18880948
I just replied to myself instead of this message. I am both dum and very very tired. Good job me.

>>18869054
penis cock and cum

Test

i got this giant scab that is crisping up like a potato chip from the sun and im so stoked to pull it in a couple days. i hope this thing stays together until then. later anons.

Went to dinner with a friend tonight, we ran into a pack of first year girls. He's popular and social enough that we introduced ourselves and they asked me my name too. It felt weird to how smoothly it went, I basically never socialized until recently but they're treating me like a normal college guy. But is it really normal to chat with a decent looking group of girls out of nowhere like that? Idk, he is gay so I'm sure that makes it easier to hang out with girls, but him being my friend also kinda elevates my social standing and suddenly you're not invisible to these girls, it's really crazy.

Now I'm just thinking about how to work on this from here. Maybe I start exercising, brush up on my social skills, lose 20 pounds, and try to go to some parties. Maybe I can actually become a normalfag now. That would be crazy if it happens. I've probably never been closer to that than now

Why do I get tingly all over when I meditate?

>>18869054
I only read the valley of diamond story from the Sinbad the Sailor stories. I feel like I didn’t read enough. I did go on a hike with a friend though so overall it’s a wash of a day.
I will now go make a banana vanilla ice cream protein shake.

>>18881325
The social evidence is a huge boost. If you have social proof of a friend like that you're going to have an easier time in general.

>>18880114
It's so odd to me that there are people out there like this.

>Lyndon B. Johnson never read a book in his life, ends up becoming one of America's greatest presidents.

>George W. Bush was famous for holding contests with Karl Rove to see who could read more books in a year (they'd each get well past 200), still ends up becoming one of the worst presidents in US history.

The best Youtube philosophy channel I've ever found is made by an anti-right wing tranny and these are the people who should repulse me but damn the videos are so good - clever, insightful, great production quality, etc. compared to any "right wing" Youtube personality or thinker

>>18880154
Same but the petite blonde trainer is a guy

>>18881591
Right and left wing is a scam and a meme. Unironically it's a conspiracy. Life is not the mcdonalds menu where you can just be handed a pre-made set of values. You can have "right wing" opinions on something and "left wing" opinions on something else. Why is it not more common? It's all so fucking outdated

>>18874654
Yes. You need to be subtle and come across as distant instead of sperging out and being too open, oversharing, or coming across as too strong/desperate

My mind

>>18870971
The premise is completely true and you just don't consider the "Alpha fux, beta bux" strategy of most women - which actually reaffirms the whole idea. Your whole "logical" and "empirical" analysis comes across as an overly gaudy and pretentious, even if it wasn't retarded. You sound like an INTP btw

>>18881681
No he is right and you are retarded, also
>believing in astrology

>>18881603
No I agree. The true struggle is transnational uber elites and the common goyim. I didn't mean to sound edgy and I don't worship right wing personalities. The point is this person was created as if all my least favorite traits and values combined into a fucking Voltron robot, yet they're more brilliant and erudite than any other political or social commentator I've seen. Perhaps I'm contradicting myself by placing them in the reductive left/right wing dichotomy and I'm poisoned by the conspiracy while I pretend to be aware of it - but that was the simplest way to describe them.

>>18881684
>calling Jungian archetypes astrology
Let me guess you've never read Jung? I hope you're samefagging or 12. Let me elaborate if you can't see how retarded he is: Women are attracted to these characteristics, not exclusively but overwhelmingly. The people they marry after having sex with these people is based on social factors like income, stable job, etc. So sure, personality traits and non-biological factors can lure a girl in, but if you think his argument proves the argument wrong you're just as retarded or coming from /r9k/. This fucker uses a spaced out autistic rant and Stephen fucking Hawking as evidence against the premise to "proof it wrong" and you think he's intelligent. This is the caliber of person you're agreeing with.

Why is everything so consistently disappointing?

>>18881738
Lmao fucking retard I'm saying the MBTI is astrology. Fucking idiot. Tl;dr

>>18881467
George W Bush was a retard. All the people behind the Iraq War and every fuck up in American political history were well-educated, came from Ivy League backgrounds, and probably read more books than your average poster on /lit/. This isn't a book reading contest.
I'll admit Bush is overly judged by his verbal gaffes but perhaps the best metaphor for his failed judgment was when he saw the live footage of Iraq being invaded and asked his aides "Why aren't the Iraqi people cheering for us?"
LBJ was a political genius. I don't know where you're getting this "never read a book in his life" fact but Robert Caro's four-volume "The Years of Lyndon Johnson" will give you immense respect for him and his intellect. I only read the first volume as part of a history class but he's one of the most complex and interesting presidents in American history. And deeply misunderstood, as your post suggests
>ends up becoming one of America's greatest presidents.
He was a great president, yes, but his domestic policy was overshadowed by Vietnam.

>>18881766
Nigger I know what you're saying. I'm saying that Jungian archetypes have actual merit and astrology doesn't. And comparing them means you haven't Jung or jack shit about psychology.
>tl:dr
Imagine reading and agreeing with his post and saying mine is too long to read.

>reading historical biography
>huh i think i'll take a break, kinda bored with this shit right now
>skip to the next chapter to see the bullet points
>"his attitude towards sex"
>ohHHhhhh NEVERMIND!!!! gotta keep reading!!
Kek I am so predictable

the world is only going to continue to get worse. I don't know why I keep bothering

the family dog was on the couch and he looked like snoopy kek he was smiling too :,)

>>18881043
>this messag
What message did you mean to reply to? I think you just replied to yourself. Your original post (which I think is this one >>18880328 if I'm assuming correctly) sounds a little scattered too and hard to follow as well but I enjoy the sincereposting posting even if you're tired and not trying to be mean fren.

>>18881850
Replied to yourself again*
Clearly I'm tired too. Sleep well anon

>>18881761
You have too much hope.

>>18881433
Pent up sexual feelings.

>>18881657
What about it.

she left me
it was the kind of leaving where she just disappeared without a word, too

that was my first try for this sort of thing and I can't imagine I want to give it anymore shots

>>18871952
Hey that's me. I don't think there's anything worse.

>>18881445
Yeah definitely, even if you don't make a bunch of new friends that way, you'll still be invited to lots of events. I still kinda worry because I know my body doesn't look great. I have a wide and long torso, I'm 175cm, I have anterior pelvic tilt and forward head postural problems, and I have some noticeable body fat from the side. That all holds me back, but I think I still have a shot. You just have to be okay with putting your personality out there for judgment, and also not being boring.

Still, there's one other issue: I have no social media. I hope no one asks me for my insta or anything because if they do it could be awkward.

>>18882753
you mean there's nothing worse than being a hs dropout? I think you lack imagination

Life is a lottery. I am a machine with zero control over my life, only the illusion of it. I have latent potential (as we all do) but I am unable to manifest anything from it due to a damaged cognition. It's like having a computer with a powerful CPU and shitloads of RAM but the operating system is so fucked you can't even open a Word document. Beyond an average intellect and fully functioning limbs, the ability to FOCUS is everything. I do not have that ability. Self-awareness is a terrible curse. I constantly think about God but have no belief system and see the absurdity of it all. If there is any Gnosis to be achieved, I have neither the intellect nor the patience to realise it. My intuition tells me death is not the end. Whatever. If you gave me the choice now between true enlightenment or millions in the bank and lots of pussy, I'd take the latter. This world is a madhouse beyond words. God forgive me for my wasted.

>>18883269
I mean in the sense that the bar is already so low the other things should hardly even be worth counting. My competition would be people who never even went to school in the first place, or some kind of fucked-up abused feral child case.

Writhing on my bed, in a state of psychosis, awoken by nap dreams of making love to supple young twinks...

>>18883362
Me too anon

>>18882744
Who left you?

>>18884629
a woman I had been good friends with for a while, and with whom I shared some pseudo-romantic undertones (I know what you're thinking but she initiated)
anyway it's done now and I don't think it's worth trying for something like that ever again

>>18883181
>Still, there's one other issue: I have no social media. I hope no one asks me for my insta or anything because if they do it could be awkward.
In my experience, if you don't make a big deal out of not having social media, nobody cares. When people ask me why I'm not on social media I just say I don't like it and they don't press the issue.

Did warosu stop archiving images? What the fuck? archived.moe doesn't keep images either. Any archive that does?

Riding the bus without earphones for the first time in a long time. Pretty strange. I was actually getting some reading done, except now im not, now im 4channing. Anyways.
Whens the last time you rode the bus without earphones?

Jesus was a footfag. Based.

>>18885400
>Did warosu stop archiving images?
yeah, but only recently. Old threads still have their images.

>>18885348
That's cool. What do you do for contact info then? Just put your number into their contacts? I've done that twice so far but it seems a little personal so idk

What is the consensus on the defition of porn addition? Jerking it off 3-4 times a day? I've read somewhere that I will lead a more healthy life if I stop watching porn, but I'm not sure if I'm addicted in the first place.

>>18885870
When you depend on it to get off, or otherwise find real sex to be lacking, maybe? I jerk off anywhere from once every few days to once every few months so I'm basically borderline asexual and doubt I'm a good measure of healthy comparison. I also don't use porn at all

I hate women.

>>18885870
Well going by other addictions it has to negatively impact you, so for example:
>makes your dick stop working
>taking away time from other activities
>gives you unadvisable fetishes
>makes you not like normal sex

So, I finally went and got actual editing software and I've never been so happy to be able to do actual transitions. I also managed to find two decent-sounding horror books online for, like, £3 each because they were on sale.

>>18885745
But old threads in the future won't

I think if you don’t have a handful of national classics from your own country which really speak to you, you’re just shit out of luck.

Friday night hitting the pub alone because the cute bartender is the one person I have regular conversations with. She listens to me and is always kinda flirty, but she has a bf. I know she does it for the recurrent money, but I have no one else to go to. I never once tought I would hit such a pathetic point in my life.

It feels silly now but at one point, some two years ago, this meme was enough to change my entire life.

>>18886300
Sometimes I feel kids in my country get turned off our national classics because they're forced to read them at totally inadequate ages. If for some reason they actually like the books, they're treated like freak faggot nerds by their peers (somewhat rightfully).
Once they turn like 19 and start to sort of actually understand fiction, they're so sick of our literature that they'd rather read John Green or Bukowski or whoever the fuck.

can't stop thinking about rory

>>18886500
>gnosticist
The word is "gnostic" you stain

>>18887000
I didn't make the meme, sorry.

Fuck Windows 10 man what is this shit? I bought a new computer with it preinstalled so this is my first time dealing with it. I set the active hours but apparently that doesn't mean shit because it decides on its own to restart and install a massive update during the little free time I have during the day. Why the fuck does an OS need to restart in order to update anyways? This is so trash.

Who is closer to Achilles, Homer or Alexander?

If you are reading this comment your parents will die within 5 years. To undo this curse you need to copy this and paste it in 2 otherthreads

>>18887062
You really think posting this has any effect on whether your parents die

>>18887056
Homer, and by that I mean Simpson.

Read Dead Redemption 2 might be a better story than Blood Meridian

I had a dream about me being the Jesus figure in the coming rapture
I had captured the attention of people by being a character akin to those in movies

Intelligent, courageous, foresight, larger than life
My attitude about sex and love being the focal point of emulation by the world.
Always an underlying context to my actions that spoke of a greater awareness

Something about dots connecting the universe together

I just want credit for saving the world

>tfw time will never end
>time will literally NEVER end
That's it, that's fucking it, I can't stand this existance anymore

It's Friday night I'm 30 and single and high and alone in my apartment stretching upside down while listening to french ASMR with the lights off and telling anonymous strangers about it.

>>18887283
>stretching upside down
envy inducing anon.

>>18887238
Time is an illusion. An invention. When we try and describe time quantitatively for convenience, we delude ourselves into thinking it's something real. There is no time, everything just happens.

> 28
> done nothing remarkable with my life
> not even written much
> published nothing
It’s slowly sinking in how this is a sentence to mediocrity for life. I only hope I get to die early.

>>18881854
Thank you fren. It's okay. I generally enjoy being honest over being otherwise because well, we're anonymous. Nobody's gonna sniff me out on a literature board of all places.
I did sleep good though! I went to bed after watching a streamer play Mario Kart, and I got to page 130 in my book.
I know people like to pick about it but you know what? Writing is very solitary and lonely. Lemme enjoy my anime voice actors in peace.
My dad brought some friends over from out of state because one of their husbands died in a scuba diving accident while they were on vacation and they recognize me from a funeral I went to not too long ago and I am very familiar with the afterlife due to my writing so a lot of times I act as kind of a spiritual advisor as to what comes next for the deceased.
Do I have any certification or priesthood or something? No. Zilch but people still come to me. Maybe I'll open up a shrine and sell funeral rite services to people if the sun ever sets on my day job. Why would someone come from out of state to see me...for this? All I can really do is treat it with the utmost respect but I'm really not a man of the cloth.
I came to slay gods but I'm turning into male Reimu. Just lemme put out a donation box. (I don't drink tho.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVtTNN8jJXU

>>18869054
I hate casual windows 10

>>18887795
Until you're 35 you have no right buddy

That's 7 years you have to do smth

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>>18887898
>trying to misconstrue the lawyer's point
It's not a battle you're winning; he wrote to explicitly and repeatedly spread his ideology. All you're doing is saying you're illiterate or psychotic, not stylish.

Ayo d'ya kno any good text to speech program I can't fucking read to save ma life

I'm very tired of people thinking I'm a damn unemotional robot just because I studied engineering; that I can't reflect about anything in life just because I took some math and physics courses. It's just silly.
Why are people so obsessed with degrees in this shithole jesus christ.

>>18888050
Start gifting them Flatland

>>18887914
Name 1 author who wasn’t a writer before 35

I suppose I would rather kill my self than live a life of ordinary mediocrity. But how to know that until it’s in retrospect? I suppose the smartest thing to do is just get a head start.

>>18888171
Why? Why can't you improve yourself?

>>18888339
Anon wants to be loved for beeing humself, who is a lazy bastard who thinks everyone who is highly skilled was just born that way.

>>18888339
I don’t know. Why can’t I? I just don’t seem to be able to.

>>18888342
Projection?

>>18888350
Work harder.

Guys I’ve spent the last 7 hours going down a research time sinkhole reading about edible nuts. Cashews, almonds, peanuts, you name it and I’ve probably read a study about it in the last 24 hours.
I may sound like I am ranting but guys you need to go out and buy almonds or cashews or pistachios or something today/tomorrow. Nuts are the healthiest shit on the planet they will extend your lifespan. They aren’t expensive when you consider how calorie dense they are, cheaper than fast food for sure. You guys go out and make sure to eat nuts daily, mix it up and try different ones, learn what you like. Oven toasted glazed nuts, wow. Easy and cheap and healthy there is no reason not to try it.

I am of the mind that every off-handed mention of conspiracy, magic, hidden technique, or other arcane knowledge in Pynchon's works is absolute truth disguised by "lol so wacky!".

>>18869054
I struggle to have intellectual discussions with girls, especially when they are younger than me, because I feel like I have entered the mansplaining zone. I'm a rambler by nature and take way too long to make my point, and like to contradict others. Safe to say I'm a shitty conversationalist. One time someone told me that I have no grasp for the 'flow of conversation', and that I should talk about banal things like what's on the table rather than what kind of music we like. I think he just disliked me, though. Well, most people can't see the egg on their own face unless someone is brutally honest enough to say so, so I appreciate him for that at the very least. Maybe I'm just low-T and overly neurotic. A year at the gym would probably make me a singleminded man, with the added benefit of ridding me of twig arms.

I'm six beers deep and eating crackers, sitting alone in my room like I have every night for weeks, and I bet she's already found someone new and I'm both jealous and sorry for her.

I saw a thread yesterday on something about starting with the greeks, but condensed. Unfortunately I'm super fucking sick, went to sleep and it got archived. But what caught my eye is OP saying he'd read Russell's history of philosophy and no one bothered to warn him: Russell is an awful historian of philosophy, don't get baited philbros, read Guthrie or Johansen. Later on you could read Hegel's history of philosophy (not philosophy of history) as it goes quite in depth and even covers some greek schools that aren't covered in almost any historical overview (e.g. the Cyrenaics and the Cynics)

>>18888675
which kind of crackers? dip the crackers in some sauce, maximize your taste buds.

Have you ever jacked off (intentionally or otherwise) and immediately feel the regret? That you wished you should have jacked off to something better?

>>18889126
>it goes quite in depth and even covers some greek schools that aren't covered in almost any historical overview (e.g. the Cyrenaics and the Cynics)
Imagine having to write about all this shit without even having access to the internet.

God is a dumb fucking dog
The holy virgin mary is a fat slampig

>got my final results for my masters
>my grades has been all B to B+ throughout
Welp. At least, I passed. I was hoping for an A at the last semester.

>>18889456
is that copypasta from r/atheism

>>18889456
OwO that's kinda rude isn't it anon

>>18889466
bery bood bob banon :) bongratulations

I’ve got to get out of my parent’s house but signing a lease now would throw an enormous wrench in my plans.

gotta wonder how all these filters are affecting young girls. some dysphoria shit, has to be fucking them up completely. we can rest in the grave my brothers and sisters.

>>18890169
Why would signing a lease throw an enormous wrench in your plans

>>18890232
Apparently plastic surgeons are getting patients asking to be made to look like what the filter does to their face.

Everyone is a free thinker intellectual revolutionary until it comes down to naming the Jew. Then everyone goes silent.

>>18890883
who is the jew?

>>18890759
Is that even legal?

>>18889126
>starting with the greeks
Has anyone here actually read the greeks?

>>18888093
Julius Caesar is enough?

>chronic headaches
>always take tylenol
>not very effective
>finally try ibuprofen
>much more effective
Figuring out what headaches you get is important. I get migraines which require both acetaminophen and ibuprofen (Excedrin) but I also get inflamed sinuses, so ibuprofen clears them right up. Know the structure of your sinuses behind your face and you will probably find out something about your chronic headaches bros.

Excedrin is a miracle cure for migraines. Drink lots of water to flush your sinuses out and prevent local infections that become inflammation.

>>18889134
Just some saltines. Plain saltines are divine but sometimes I'll pop some cheese on there.

>>18891081
For the ones who aren't dodgy it's not legal or ethical. For the ones that give no fucks it's probably payday. Look up Oli London's car wreck of a face in his quest to become a different race, or that Venus Angelic girl who convinced someone to give her weight loss surgery when she was already underweight.

>>18890751
Because I’m trying to save money and move away but if I sign a lease not only will I not be able to save money but I’ll be locked into staying here for another year at least.

>>18891313
>Venus Angelic girl
>In May 2016, Palermo travelled to the Republic of Korea, where she underwent weight-loss surgery, despite only weighing 53 kg (117 lb) at the time of the procedure. Palermo claims she contacted over 50 doctors around the world until she found one willing to proceed with the surgery. After the surgery, her weight at one point dropped to 38 kg (84 lb), and she was admitted to hospital, being treated with stomach medication and an IV drip.
What the fuck.

>>18890883
>>18890916
seconding this, who is it?? pls do tell

What would you make of a 41 yr old woman who is a literal 10/10, the kind you'd see on the street and you'd remember it for days, who is engaged with a 5'5 guy with a funny nose, has no children, her best friend is another woman at least 5 years younger than her (also unmarried), and also spends her free time watching shows like Big Brother and then commenting on them on twitter?
Also I've been deeply in love with her for years, but since she was engaged she's been extremely cold to me. Although I think her previous kindness was only a facade so as to not hurt my feelings. I've never said anything about it but I think it shows and she's known it for at least the past 2 years.
It's so saddening

>>18891951
Move on, anon.

>>18869054
Fuck economics I prefer to be a construction worker

Is there truly anything worse, than knowing exactly what is wrong with your life, knowing exactly what needs to be done; yet for some reason unable to execute it (espite the fact that it is entirely possible)?

>>18892005
Not knowing any of it and still being unable to execute anything worthwhile at all

>>18876817
Funny that you say that, because I thought it was quite happy, well the ending was, I mean it’s like a positive (kinda) feel good (kinda) remake of End of Evangelion, which is hopeful but depressing

fucking "aromantics" on reddit complaining about "aphobes". nigga what the fuck you talking about at most on earth there are maybe 6 aphobes total

I've been working on a setting where everything has a spirit representing its true essence, a bit like a mix between Shintoism and Platonic ideals, with the smaller the thing that the spirit represents, the weaker it is, with most weaker spirits being non sapient (for instance, only the largest and oldest, or at least otherwise significant, trees would have a sapient spirit, just for starters).

I was thinking that magic would involve manipulating this spiritual underlayer of reality to achieve a supernatural effect. It would have started out as just trying to do things to get the attention of powerful spirits in certain ways, which would eventually evolve into directly making deals of mutual benefit with spirits, like offering something to the spirit of some fields to help ensure a plentiful harvest. Then someone would eventually find a way to directly manipulate spiritual energies through arcane means and rituals, getting an effect without a middleman (it probably helps if one has some spirit ancestry, since more powerful spirits can take on truly physical forms separate from their source, and I'm certain that the first to use magic this way had a spirit as a parent). The third method I was thinking of would have someone either merge with and/or consume a spirit via either a particular deal or a ritual, effectively making them part spirit and giving them some of their powers. What do you think? Can you think of any other ways to use magic, or any pros/cons to the three methods I listed above, please?

How do you find some happiness in today modern World? Seem like everything is Hedonism, escapism or both.

There's a guy who goes to my church who is a legit, diagnosed Schizophrenic and I guess he's taken to posting on Facebook as some kind of catharsis. I feel guilty though as I really really enjoy seeing his posts; it's like some morbid insight into a broken mind. He was mentioning 'wanting to meet Reece and Paris' for a great many of these posts and I was wondering who they could possibly be, and this morning seems he put one out mentioning specifically 'marrying Reece Witherspoon and Paris Hilton'. The action of seeing this line of thought complete to me was so satisfying, maybe because it seems there is almost no genuine presentation of humanity online or in-person anymore; schizoposting is the closest I seem to come to catching a glimpse of raw, genuine personhood. But then again it seems he's less of a person than some kind of polyphonic entity. I shouldn't enjoy this exercise in humiliation, watching another man publicly unravel, but I do.

>>18892312
>How do you find some happiness in today modern World? Seem like everything is Hedonism, escapism or both.
Pick up a new hobby/passion/goal. Doesn't have to be /lit/ exclusive.

>>18892346
This. I’ve picked up hiking and bird watching. Seems fun and great.

>>18889208
Plenty of times. At times, I wonder if I masturbate because need to, or because I've done it so much, it became a routine.

>>18892403
>I only sleep after I masturbate.
I genuinely struggle to sleep if I don’t do it. Don’t know if I fucked myself up.

>>18891630
If you only looked at her Wikipedia page, there's a whole other fucked up rabbit hole that led her to that point
www.youtube.com/watch?v=AnzCiGLbRQ0
If you think zoomers are bad, there's a generation coming up whose parents all make their money that way. It's going to be like battle of the Truman Show clones, only directed by Cronenberg.

I just finished the Illiad but there was no Trojan horse? Priam went to Achilles and asked for 12 days to mourn Hector and Achilles said yes and the book ended.

>>18892454
Holy fuck, parents like this deserve to be killed. What the fuck.

>>18892467
Yup, you just gained a pleb liar detector.

>>18892467
It’s in the Aeneid

>>18892454
I fear for the future of Humanity.

I’ve been thinking about what would happen in the event of some sort of winding down or global cataclysm that sent humanity into a new chapter of something resembling more closely that of the ancient or pre-ancient past than the modern present. Assuming geography stays approximately the same, it’s reasonable to believe the peoples of Europe, Asia, and Africa would resemble that of their ancient pasta. What would happen to new worlders? The indigenous people are wiped out. Given enough time would say, an Anglo-Saxon settler of North America come to look like that the North American Indians that were there due to his environment?

>>18890883
>>18890916
>>18891835

>>18892454
How is this not child abuse?

>>18892583
Because I think France is the only country which gives kids rights over their image distribution. Everywhere else, if your mom wants to make a buck off your baby pictures, that's her money.

>>18892583
It is.
Using and exploiting children is technically not allowed under terms of service.

>>18892640
No, it just gets your comments turned off because people worked out pedos were timestamping for child nudity or photoshoppable captures and eventually youtube had to come up with something.

>>18892638
>>18892640
This shit ain't right.

>>18869054
what if we're living through the milennia long dialectical synthesis of christianity and paganism?

>>18892750
Do you not know the history of Christianity.

>>18892750
We’re not. Aspects of paganism were retained in the medieval church already. You’re living through the millenia of complete rejection of God and gods. Don’t mistake confused atheism for genuine polytheism.

I’m going to start 2-3 YouTube channels, each containing lectures on French, Japanese, and possibly English literature respectively.

>>18892811
Why?

>>18892817
I figure it’s a sort of freelance version of teaching each formally.

>>18892811
Hope you succeed and share it here.

>>18892724
>>18892657
>>18892583
Welcome to the bright new future of social media! What could be more wholesome than family vlogging together? Skip to 5:55 to get angry
www.youtube.com/watch?v=YxuL4Yx4hNI

Just had a lovely conversation with my mother. We've come along way and I am glad we made amends and both grew as people. Reminder to talk to your loved ones if you are reading this. One phone call can make someone's month. Call up the granny no one talks to or send your lonely uncle a letter. Try to remember something about them and show that they still matter. Even if they're surly you are probably making a big splash in their soul.

>>18892853
How the fuck is this shit now ban yet.

My Early Life section on Wikipedia would be immensely boring. I realize how that’s it’s a death sentence for a writer.

>>18892862
Money

>>18892869
This shit is barely legal pedophilia. You're telling me people aren't upset about this shit?

>>18892775
>>18892783
learn the difference between syncretism and synthesis before you dare to challenge me, plebs

>>18892877
That leaf is the only straight male I've seen that knows about it. There's shittonnes of videos by gay men and women saying, This is child porn, and the family showing their kids in playboy bunny costumes or whatever claim they are being bullied and trolled by people with sick minds.

>>18892887
Anon, you're just plain wrong.

>>18892877
>>18892893
Reminds me of that Russian YouTube channel that had little girls getting massages in skimpy uniform. Don’t know what happened to that channel but shit.

>>18892877
>>18892893
I think it's because the people who would find girly shit channels are the only ones who get recommended those videos for legit reasons. With their higher weighted male following though, the algorithm probably recommends those videos more to pedo males.

>>18892896
you do not have the intellect to make such a claim

>>18892913
Neither do you.

>>18892904
>I think it's because the people who would find girly shit channels are the only ones who get recommended those videos for legit reasons
Why have them in the first place that’s my question.

>>18892893
>and the family showing their kids in playboy bunny costumes or whatever claim they are being bullied and trolled by people with sick minds.
Holy fuck its like that gay kid that pole dance in the pride parade.

>>18892926
They’re normalizing child sexuality. Like that Netflix movie with the little girl masturbating.

>>18892917
you do not have the intellect to make such a claim

No one really talks about it, but depression changes your relationship with food in weird ways. For me, a few things have happened. For one, almost all food tastes like cardboard now (My sense of smell barely works too). Second, the pleasure I get from eating has been cut to like 1/10th of what it used to be. Eating still feels good kinda, but it's like being blue-balled because you can't realistically eat enough food to satisfy your appetite. Like I want to get 5 or 6 more plates since I would still enjoy eating it, but I would just vomit all the food up because that's an insane portion. Also, while I've been like this a few years, somehow I'm not fat. Technically I'm on the line between healthy weight and fat, but that hasn't changed at all in 3+ years. Lastly, my diet is still garbage. Even though the junk food I eat tastes like garbage, healthy food tastes like absolutely nothing. So I continue to eat junk.

I could write an entire book about the ways depression has spoiled my life, but would anyone want to read that? Maybe as just a morbid curiosity sort of thing it would be worth a read

>>18892938
Cuties? Didn't that get a pushback though.

>>18892926
That’s the one.

>>18892947
>>18892942

>>18892939
Neither do you.

>>18892941
Eating food for comfort is unhealthy though.

>>18892939
Nigga you’re plain wrong simple as.

>>18892960
its been known already

>>18892919
Money.

New thread
>>18892968

>>18892955
>>18892962

>>18892941
It has always had the opposite effect on me. When I'm very depressed I eat less and less to the point where I take a sliver of satisfaction in deliberately starving myself to where my stomach hurts and my head gets dizzy. One time when I was probably at my worst I would have maybe a handful of nuts in a whole day for probably three consecutive weeks.

>>18892901
This shit blew up a few years ago, that's why lots of channels got their comments taken off and demonetized. Obviously it didn't stop because YouTube was like
>We shut down 50 channels!
when there's whole fucking genres of this shit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mnTCYsbKfw

>watching Last Chance U
>learning about testoterone men
>good shit
>last day of school
>everybody's celebrating
>this one player walks around with two sheets of toilet paper
>school administrator asks why
>"cus I AM the shit"
my sides dude

>>18892988
That almost sounds like anorexia but it's definitely depression. Sucks. I wish I could find a way to get thin though even in this state.

>>18889126
Would starting with the Hegel directly be a bad idea?