/lit/ - Literature

I’m extremely unhappy with my current life and I blame my parents, especially my father for a lot of it. My issues with him sparked a several year odyssey which in the end turned out to be counterproductive. So much if my life lost and I’ll never forgive him for that. My feelings toward the rest of my family are complicated at best.

I'll never forgive my family for throwing away my one year supply of HRT like it was nothing when it meant everything for me.

>>17950348
Holy shit you need to be careful around your family. It's very sad and my heart goes out to you.

Isn't it supposed to be 'write what's on your mind'?

>>17950348
Shitty family's the worst. I hope you'll find somewhere where you can freely be yourself soon, anon.

>>17950348
based family

>>17950364
Writing is irl

>>17950348
You will thank them some day.

>>17950348
Your family genuinely cares about your well-being. They're trying to save you, they love you enough that they wouldn't just sit there watching and saying "whatever, let him do what he wants" as they saw you completely destroy yourself.

Stop being an ungrateful bastard. You should be thankful to them.

>>17950358
>>17950379
trannies pls go

Stop giving the tranny internet attention, that's what made it how it is to begin with.

>>17950266
Its good you could identify what happened to you. Feel it, let it go. You got the rest of your life to live; don't let it be a shitty one.

>>17950323
ITs very important to processs what happened and what is happening, but its also very important to not lie into a victim mentality about it. Time to take responsibility for everything that is happening to you in the moment. It'll be hard because the pain of the past but make responsibility the ideal you aim for.

>>17950266
>>17950348
>this is who posts on /lit/
Go ANYWHERE else please, you retarded kids.

>>17951879
This isn’t >>>/pol/ you figgot. We support LGB*T*QIA+ people on this board. All your ideology does is make people miserable. It’s good for people to accept themselves as they are and it’s good to have a community that accepts them. Keep being a retarded transphobe all you want soon they will be accepted by society and you will not be. When society thinks your a disgusting piece of shit you will learn their pain and their suffering.

>>17951923
i love how this image shows just how much TRAs have taken over every lgb space. The only tranny sub on that list is “contrapoints”

>>17951877
Thanks but I’ve already processed it and no, I don’t believe I’m responsible. Obviously, I’m as a responsible for my reaction as a young impressionable person can be but the role of a parent is to be a parent. To the extent they fail to meet the expectations of that role, they are responsible for it. The ideal is gone and I will probably die soon enough anyway. That’s by my own hand. I’m responsible for that and that’s enough.

>>17951944
You're absolutely correct, you're only responsible for the actions you act out now. Even the ones that may be determined by your lack of parents. For example, say my father beat me, and then I am aggressive to other people. Though I am not responsible for my fathers actions and I shouldn't take the Blame for it, I need to accept my responsibility in the aggression that I now have and control it etc. Thats what I meant.

>>17951923
>we support LGB*T*QIA+ people on this board
i'm not in the mood for shitposting today, fren. and, if you aren't shitposting, please get off this board. you are a fool for trying to push a unified consensus here. you are a fool for believing reality is a unified consensus.

>>17951944
>The ideal is gone
Btw I don't beleive that. You may wanna be someone but I don't think w know who were supposed to be. I certainly had no idea who I was supposed to be and Im digging the shit out of it over who I thought. And its just getting started.

>>17951667
no :3c

>>17951944
>>17952161
Yea I guess Im trying to say, I know what its like have my parents fail me and I can see how its affected my relationships etc. and that does make me feel like I've missed out. But I've also found things that I just never would if I were that person who was maintaining or excelling at social interactions.

>>17950348
>tranny
>anime image
everytime.

>>17950266
whats your favorite soap opera

Modern society treats men like garbage.
No matter what the Doomer blackpilled incels say, men weren't always seen as disposable cogs.
There was a basic respect and dignity accorded to them in ancient societies. Hunters and warriors were accorded reverence because of the extremely valuable contributions they made for their civilizations.
No such thing happens today, men and masculinity has been systematically attacked, starting from boyhood.
I don't blame niggers for being violent, they are fucked over by socioeconimic factors that have nothing to do with white supremacy or whatever other bullshit the woketards cook up.
Fact is men who are excluded from social, political and economic participation are going to develop anti-social tendencies, and for blacks that have been marginalized for so long (they were on track to making something of themselves before the 60s), choosing to be a criminal is a rational choice. I don't care about Uncle Toms they put on tv and the token affirmative action students they enroll in Harvard to make their pamphlets look "diverse", the vast majority of blacks are an underclass living in ghettos because the assholes on top rob them of opportunities.
The same happened with white men throughout history, the German Peasants' Revolt, Spartacus, et al are examples of what happens when men get treated like garbage by society.
Right now, you either become a violent criminal like blacks or you drop out like white men are doing because they are too pacified by drugs, porn, videogames, whatever.
The only other option is to give up your dignity and masculinity to become a soicuck who gets treated like a second-class citizen with the occasional bone tossed their way in the form of consoomer products.

>>17952175
I don’t disagree with you aside from the basic idea of where we go from here. What’s yours is yours and what’s mine is mine. Those can’t overlap.

>>17951923
>r/BisexualTeens
Could they make it anymore obvious that this is a grooming subreddit?

>>17952246
Broke: it's a race struggle
Woke: It's a class struggle
Bespoke: It's a sex struggle

>>17952256
Absolutely. Only you can go from where you are to where you're supposed to be.

>>17952076
It does though. Our favorite book (Moby Dick) is by a gay author and is about homosexuality. The only board more pro lgbt than us is /lgbt/.

>>17952356
>our favorite book
Moby Dick was somewhere around 14th place, and I can't recall Melville being gay. He lived on an island where there were gays, but he wasn't gay himself.

Your constant attempt to portray this entire board as a unified entity is amusing, and shows how insecure you are about your beliefs. Instead of standing up for them, you rely on the false narrative that the "masses" of this board support you.

>>17951879
Pretty sure most trannyposting is ironic

>>17952246
Based incel cuck

>>17950266
you sound like a bitch

>>17950266
>All of you fucked up the best years of my life
The best years of your life is now. There's only so much you can blame on your parents... especially on a mother that had to be out and about.

>>17952419
This is the one without the /pol/ brigadiers but I would say that the bible was also probably voted highly by them. And Melville was clearly gay for Hawthorn.

Should I read Spring Snow by Mishima or Demons by Dostoyevsky next? I've spent the last two minutes thinking about it.

>>17950348
Guaranteed replies

>>17953076
Spring snow is an excellent book if you love romantic prose

>>17950226
Also wierdly op your childhood in respect to your grandma was almost the same as mishimas to the point I'm not sure if you're taking the piss

>>17953076
Probably

>>17952356
>the only board more pro lgbt than us is /lgbt/
I got good news and bad news

>>17951923
The trans hype is already dieing. Accept your defeat. The internet is not even real, freak.

I often have violent intrusive thoughts when I read. They always come to torment me, but almost only when reading.

>>17950348
That's horrible! Ignore these transphobic "people".

>>17950348
You should leave your family

>>17950266
ugly people reproducing is like pissing in the gene pool

>>17950266
This makes me so hard ngl

>>17950348
You will thank them one day

>>17950266
I want to kill myself. I feel crippled, alienated, and stuck in a post-communist phase where the only people I felt I could trust were basically devolving into a terrorist cell and my other friends are now living such bland, yet meaningful lives (or have cut themselves off from me) to where I no no longer feel I can reach out to anyone. I haven't talked to my profs in God knows how long (i guess they filtered me), and grad school applications are coming due. I didn't sign up for the term (again) and I'm not as near graduation as I've been telling everyone. I need a new phone, a new apartment, a new life, but I'm so crippled by debt, insecurity, and a damn near suicidal aversion to getting some wagecuck job that I think I'd rather die than live a normal life.
I had so much potential, anons, and I blew it on my own arrogant self pitty. I might an hero

>>17955411
This

>>17955442
My God this thread is arousing

We are all prostitutes as we sell our bodies to capitalists in exchange for money. We are also all camwhores as we live under mass surveillance.

>>17955411
Stop spouting bullshit! They ruined her life!

>>17955442
I think I need a little more context? Post-communist? Terrorist cell?

I would love to read books all day everyday but my ADHD already makes reading for 15min a chore.

It makes me sad and I absolutely hate it.

>>17955460
This comment is emotionally confusing

>>17955500
Like idk if I'm a communist anymore. It has too many moral presuppositions that are never justified, and no one ever seemd to be taking about the same thing when they say"capitalism". Idk

>>17955501
For you

>>17955534
So... you grew up I guess

>>17952181
Anime didn't use to have this connotation. I'll never forgive these fucking freaks for stealing MY cuture.

i will never forgive life for being so short, give me more time.I have the whole cake before me and i know i will only have the time to eat a small piece.
andi won't have the time to savour the taste unless i want to get only a mouthful.Fuck.

>>17955626
Feels more like I gave up

>>17950379
"being himself" is exactly what he does not want to do

>>17955707
You will feel a lot better if you learn why you were a fool to be a communist in the first place

>>17950266
boys make the best kind of children women make great currency

>>17955733
I don't know that I was a fool to be a communist. It just seems like an incomplete ideology

>>17950266
I want to die so bad, I hate my life!

>>17955442
>people I felt I could trust were basically devolving into a terrorist cell and my other friends are now living such bland, yet meaningful lives (or have cut themselves off from me)
Boy, do i have a book for you

>>17955778
Yeah I read that a while ago. I'm just not sure where to go from there

>>17955767
the problem is that the missing piece of the puzzle has already been explored and it turns out it kind of defeats the entire initial purpose

>>17955791
What do you mean by that? What puzzle piece am I missing?
>Inb4 history of soviet union

I have no talent. I wish I was an artist but I am instead suited for autistic routine work

>>17955784
just my take as someone wasn't a full on communist but was perhaps going down that same path and ended up falling out with my beliefs and entered a long period of feeling very much adrift and confused, I think the way to go from here is to break down your attachment to the idea of communism and explore what it is about it that drew you in, and essentially, what it is that TRULY matters to you, what you are truly looking for from life, and deeply consider things like your own conscious and subconscious motivations and whether your intentions are "pure" so to speak, and if you can once again come to a conclusion about what it is you want and what it is you believe is right, try and approach these things with a renewed and broadened perspective and open mind that is not bound by whatever preconceived notions you had before, considering why your previous beliefs were insufficient, and try and approach new and more grounded ideas that may help work towards that which truly matters to you

hope that makes sense/helps

>>17955859
It helps/makes sense. It's a basic epistemological problem, in regards to moral justifications. I hadn't justified my beliefs, and so the moral propositions were ungrounded. I gotta go back to the drawing board

>>17955798
to use a metaphor, its been my experience that communism is like a perfect machine that has a certain logical structure and makes sense regarding its goals, but when you build that machine, it doesn't work because the designer failed to take into consideration something fundamental like gravity or some such thing, and when you try to then account for gravity, the machine has been altered beyond its original use. communism fails because it does not survive contact with the infinite complexities of reality, the revolution wins, and now complete and utter power rests with the revolution, now what? how do you take complete and utter control of private property, fairly redistribute it, and rebuild society from the ground up and keep the food and necessities coming, the counter revolutionaries in check, manage national defense, all while ensuring class divisions are eliminated? the answer to this, the missing piece, that every revolutionary has come to terms with, is that you dont, some sort of centralized power structure is absolutely needed to administer such colossal undertakings on the scale of entire nations, and the moment this happens, the dream of egalitarianism and the elimination of class distinctions is buried and dead.

If you've read demons, there is a little titbit where dostoyevsky calls this out long before it became reality with the character Shigalyov and his quest to create the perfect system with which he "started with the original idea of unlimited freedom, but ended in unlimited tyranny"

>literature board
>can't put commas after a vocative
Should have spent those soap opera afternoons reading a book or two, retard.

>>17955936
This is really well put. It reminds me of what Chomsky had said about predictions of the red bureaucracy.

Thanks for the good post anon

>>17953054
>gr not in the top ten
not taking that list seriously

>>17951923
Kys shitstain

>>17950266
I put my entire life savings in Dogecoin.

>>17955640
Just transition already

>>17956125
Just shoot yourself already how about that?

I want to become a NEET. Is that doable in America in 2021?

>>17956136
lol why are you so mad about a joke bro

>>17956160
No one here is your "bro", faggot.
You will never be a woman.

if you're looking for a sign, this is it

>>17956175
seethe lmao

>>17956202
Yes, you certainly are in deep seethe right now as one can clearly tell by your desperate posts.
Oh, and another fact: your parents will use your real name on your grave when you commit suicide. Remember it.

>>17956235
Damn you told me

>>17956271
Yes, i did.

>>17956284
Imagine being this angry over trans people existing.
Free mental real estate.

>>17956370
>claims to be making a joke
>admits to being a tranny a few posts later
Like pottery. You faggots are as easy to spot as a shit stain on a white robe.

You won't have success in grooming a single person here on this site. Give up. Sooner or later you're gonna be joining the ever growing 41% whether you want it or not.

>>17956398
first hint should've been when they said they're on hrt you genius lol

lol when did this thread format become an OG /r9k/ simulator? This is pathetic and not /lit/ related. 4channel is not your diary, tranny spergs.

once an addict
always an addict

>>17956457
these threads have been shit for a long time

>>17956398
Literally seething over someone existing.
How pathetic and boring must your life be to warrant this?
Honestly, you can just post the acronym HRT and people like you will have their night ruined.

>>17956482
not him but when trannies keep shitting up communities with their hornyposting and attention whoring it wears on you, idk if I notice it on /lit/ that much though

>>17956499
Yeah, I get that. The issue is that everyone is still treating it like it's something special. Ironically, the sooner people accept it and let people live their lives the sooner it will get out of everyone's faces.

>>17956447
>implying only two people can be on a reply chain in an anonymous imageboard
Are you this stupid or unironically admitting to be a samefag? Can't tell which one would be worse really.
By the way, calling in your discord to this thread will do you no good. We all are aware of these tricks, it's just pathetic. Everybody knows you have mental breakdowns and cry yourself to sleep every night like the pathetic freaks you deep inside know you are, as so do your internet """friends""".

>itt

>>17956512
>Anyone who disagrees with me is a tranny from discord
Ah, yes. You seem very mentally stable yourself.

>>17956525
>literally admits to being one
Pretending to be retarded won't do you any good here. We can tell.

>>17956533

>>17956533
Man, you must spend a lot of time talking, thinking, and researching trannies to be able to find them so easily.
Really makes you think, huh?

>>17956546
As has been said before, you don't need a lot of skill to notice a shit stain on a white cloth.

>>17956554
It's almost as if people make it easy to bait these kinds of reactions.

>>17950266

Andrew from 90 day fiance is such a douche and he had this really hot French chick and just blew her off and that guy is never getting laid again. And he's fighting David the Penguin and are all these guys on Instagram? Yes they are. This show is just one big ad for Instagram celebs. All the Russians like each others' posts. And Stephanie is fucking crazy maybe some NEET should get on that marriage train for the money. I should be reading Dostoyevsky but hell what's the real meaning of life? Drama, and I need to know whether this weird farm kid marries the Russian stripper he imported. Guess OP shouldn't have asked what was on my mind if he didn't want to hear it. I know he's not thinking about his bitch Grandma he's thinking about Marvel movies or Nick Fuentes or something. I'm thinking about drinking and also maybe watching some 1960's Batman which is actually really funny when drunk. Also sneed and also one day I will really read F. Gardner instead of just shilling for him. But that day will not be today. Stream of consciousness out.

>>17956566
Do baiting shitposters get unironically so upset they spend an entire thread crying about "muh transphobes" despite getting mercilessly shat upon every time they make a post? Lol, that'd have to be one very persistent shitposter.
>but you are also replying
i'll stop when you do. It's fun to bash weaklings online.

Just out of curiosity: did you unironically think you would find empathy on this site? Did you think you would be able to groom someone or give a "little push" by "ironically" telling someone to become a tranny? Did you expect people to suck your dick unconditionally like they do on reddit?

>>17956598
>Do baiting shitposters get unironically so upset they spend an entire thread crying about "muh transphobes" despite getting mercilessly shat upon every time they make a post? Lol, that'd have to be one very persistent shitposter.
>>but you are also replying
>i'll stop when you do. It's fun to bash weaklings online.
>Just out of curiosity: did you unironically think you would find empathy on this site? Did you think you would be able to groom someone or give a "little push" by "ironically" telling someone to become a tranny? Did you expect people to suck your dick unconditionally like they do on reddit?

>>17956608
Hahahaha classic meme response. It's boring but this is how you know someone is literally shaking behind their keyboard.

>>17956636
>this is how you know someone is literally shaking behind their keyboard.

>>17950266
>grey folds, helicopter-tiger mothering

>>17951923
‘We’ are not alike; speak for your hubristic, presumptuous self, sodomite

>‘We’ are not alike; speak for your hubristic, presumptuous self, sodomite

>Hahahaha classic meme response. It's boring but this is how you know someone is literally shaking behind their keyboard.

>>17950266
>>17950323
>>17956122
Move on. Take what you can. Become who you want to become or get as close to it as you can. Achieve as much of your goals as you can.

The past may hurt, but you must keep moving forward! Your time is limited.

>>17950364
Yeah there's still a traditional "write" version one up right now actually. The civil war between that one anti-anime schizo and a couple seething animefags got so bad it's torn apart the united "WWOYM" into two separate versions. It's a shame because these used to be comfy. I blame both sides.

>>17956598
>>17956636
Imagine responding to an anonymous post with a reply 3x it's length only to claim the "literally shaking" meme.

>>17956471
guilty as charged
>>17956457
/lit/ is another flavor of /r9k/ like most boards (some more than others obviously) and this thread is the refuge for the that contingent. I'll admit it's gotten worse though.

>>17956762
>The civil war between that one anti-anime schizo and a couple seething animefags got so bad it's torn apart the united "WWOYM" into two separate versions.
Quick rundown?

i just wanna see her again bros

>>17956783
its funny, my love for other women and my anxiety about moving beyond friendship used to torture me, now Ive been alone for so long I realized I cant say that I have feelings for anyone, now im just tormented by the idea and driven to lust

>>17956505
>Just normalize mental illness and degeneracy bro and you won't even notice after a while.
Sure, but that's like the opposite of what we want lol.

>>17956678

God this entire thread and all it is is some tranny fighting with some chud about who is worse, neither of them have any thoughts and the whole point of the thread was to type your thoughts, I hope the OP's grandma locks the tranny in a basement just for posting the dumb chud pics. This is why I don't like trannies, weird BPD bullshit and then some endless dumb fight and neither of them are even funny about it. Like if you hate trannies then desoul them with some surgery pics and if you are a tranny at least do something other than I know you are but what am I. Guess there's nothing you can do, oh well could be reading book shill posts or an actual book but instead I'm typing out my thoughts. Hopefully these dumbfucks have more interesting thoughts than I do but it's pretty clear they don't.

>>17956800
According to your logic, shouldn't they just die out thanks to 41%?
Do you really think someone who would become a tranny won't just be another degenerate?

>>17956841
Are you confusing me with someone else?
I never brought up that statistic and only made the one post you are replying to.
I have no idea if 41% is even real or if it's just a meme statistic, it sounds a bit exaggerated to me tho.
Anyway, point is, I don't want little kids growing up into trannies.
Society should just go back to discouraging this kind of thing.

>>17956598
>Just out of curiosity: did you unironically think you would find empathy on this site?

>>17956875

God they're still doing it? Like are those really their thoughts, about whether trannies are ok or kids should be trannies or speedrunning or whatever? I'm thinking about popcorn I'm about to eat and probably I should stop typing out my thoughts to these dummies and just eat it but really I'll be improving their lives if they stop for ten seconds and realize their gender identity is a pointless waste of time and no one is fucking either of them. And should I watch Bloodline or see if the new Invincible series is good? I don't know but either way I'm laying on the couch not worrying about this doomer bullshit. I had a nightmare last night about a haunted hotel and I was fucking stupid enough to go back in with the ghosts to get my shit and check out, but all I had was spare clothes so like wtf why was I bothering when ghosts were in there? And some hot emo chick was following me around and she turned into a black cat which sucked but hey, it's a haunted hotel. Those are way more interesting thoughts than some tranny fight and I'm not even trying. I think I'll watch Bloodline.

>>17956794
i get you, I was like that for years. recently kicked off with this girl but things are going so slowly; every day between seeing her feels like it lasts forever...
i know I'm lucky, lots of lonely people out there. just so tired of not having another person in my life that i don't know what to think now that there is one.

>>17956777
Nice trips. Iirc it started when one anon began making new WWOYM threads with anime pics even though previous ones weren't even close to hitting the bump limit. He did it for over a week and pretty much ran this general. Some got annoyed but things still went on as normal until one schizo went out of his way to start new WWOYM threads even earlier than the original animefag out of spite and told people to ignore the anime ones.

His attack against that anon sent other animefags (offended over being criticized out over their fetishistic sickness) into an autistic fit of starting more early WWOYM threads. Now there've been two competing ones up at once for at least a month including now. I think we're all used to it and post on whichever we see first but it's been an ongoing schism. Now for the first time one of the animefags is using "Type what's on your mind" to distinguish his. It's an ongoing cycle of militant autism and I can't tell how many people are driving it but this general is never consistent anymore.

>>17956915
Trannies have become the caricature of mentally ill leftists who proudly display degeneracy. To /pol/ types it's like the symbol of the sickness of globohomo reaching higher stages - Biden's tranny nominee to run the health department and gender conversion of pre-pubescent kids being obvious signs. Think of the "tranny/you will never be a man" and "incel/have sex" posts as being a sort of dichotomy. Sane users don't genuinely think all leftists are trannies the same way they don't call people faggots thinking they're gay, but it's the easiest punching bag.

It's so tiresome. You should enjoy your popcorn watch the new invincible series I've heard it's really good.

I’m getting those little dreams in my head again. I thought they were gone but they’re back. I realize I can never make anything original yet I intensely want to create things. I already know I won’t get the satisfaction that I feel I will get when I write, yet I still want to do it. I can consume as much content as I desire yet it won’t ever parallel to creations I won’t ever truly experience. Funny thing fictions. I always enjoy it somewhere but the in-enjoyment becomes enjoyments itself. Then am I supposed to not be happy. Why the fuck do I want to sell myself? Why would anyone want to sell themselves but yet I know everybody wants to. It’s in they way people speak. We’re all just talking about memories of many many images of forged artwork. It always gets dizzying yet it’s the dizziness of the whole world and yet still it’s completely fucking meaningless but I can never get enough of it. Everybody thinks they’re on camera and everybody thinks they’re impenetrable but anybody that’s been on camera thinks they look stupid. It’s just fucking farce but it’s always serious. My brain is always going to get stupider. Time doesn’t move back. I can always re-read though, re-write too. Editing gets cut in everywhere. Nothings not edited so there’s always going to be unknowns. We’ve all been here before and we’re all going to get here again. Best to at least make note.

>>17956972
I truly hate this board sometimes.