/lit/ - Literature

>>16820311

It is obvious by now that a group of human beings is incapable of acting in any way consistent with any coherent moral code or system of justice. It is therefor self evident that the first responsibility of a group is to dissolve and that the first responsibility of an individual is to dissolve existing groups and to prevent the formation of new groups.

>>16820325
Dude, groups - especially institutionalized ones like states - are much more likely to coherently act according to a moral code than individuals.

>>16820325
groupthink is strong with this one.

I'm just distracting myself until I'm outta here

>>16820349

Groups consist of individuals, so.... the basis of your argument is quite obviously flawed.

i wonder how many words i write per day on 4chan. i collected my posts today and stopped at a thousand words.
i just farted.

I wish to channel the energy of this here pongo

>>16820368
Did you ever have statistics? Groups aren't what you think they are.

>>16820311
I did the whole make it til you fake it thing. I became this confident guy who didn't hold back what he was thinking - asked a girl on a date and lavished her with compliments and flattery, something I've never been very good at doing. But now we're officially dating and I've somewhat faked my way into a relationship. I wasn't lying when I said all those things, but maybe I wasn't fully anticipating the consequences of my words. Well... hopefully if I fake being happy in the relationship long enough that will come to fruition too.

>>16820381

not an argument, herr leibniz

>>16820325
based
>>16820349
go outside

>>16820311
I bought another book today that I want to read, but I probably won't because of reasons. Oh well, another for the catalog.

Online I sometimes tell people I'm suicidal or some other sad shit in order to get attention an be comforted. I was thinking of hiring an escort and telling her I was sexually abused as a child, try to make myself cry, hoping she will comfort me in a motherly way. I am actually depressed as shit, but the reasons are too nebulous, sprawling, doesn't have the same oomph.

>>16820375
el monkap

My butthole itches i need different toilet paper

>>16820461
I was thinking it was less of a clap and more of a hurrah but I guess I can't say

>>16820465
https://www.myrenova.com/t/shop_sexy_paper

>>16820465
>he uses toilet paper
sub 80iq confirmed

if your flatulence/creative output is noticed, that is victory; anything else is failure

people suffer for a thousand different reasons. but suffering itself is one and the same. it sits in man's chest like the city of rome. on hundreds of streets life collects its suffering there, like wealth.

It makes me a bit sad that people on here are unironically racist. Without the anonymity and facelessness that this medium provides, they would hate me.

I wish to be free of myself

I am very worried about the state of Christianity in my country; and even more worried about its spiritual future.
Australia

>>16820588
same desu, but for many people much of that animosity melts away when they have to interact with people in the real world

>>16820595
What specifically do you not like about yourself?

Being black sucks, I fucking hate niggers and other races hate me too.

>>16820588

If it makes you feel any better, I hate you for your self-pity and myopia and I don't care about skin pigmentation memes at all :3

That Pascal was right, we inundate ourselves with distraction because we willfully run away from the one thing that follows us everywhere. My lack of motivation is ultimately a heightened tolerance to the things that once gave me a distraction from myself. I can sense that residual doubt which lingers indefinitely, and this very post is yet another ruse to turn my gaze outward

>>16820610
Hiding their true rancid hearts isn’t melting away
>but I was only trolling!
Yeah. Maybe.

>>16820611
catch

>>16820647
I'd say that's one part of it, but sometime's people's vitriol don't reflect how they truly feel, it's just an expression of some other anxiety.

>>16820657
True.
I want to believe that of course. I didn’t like what I became while anonymous. Feel much better this way.

Got back from an evening run along my local beach, feeling demoralized after feeling my shin splints making a return and seeing many happy couples holding hands
Read a few pages of Gravity's Rainbow but it was mostly about Slothrop and Katje having kinky sex in the casino and I had to put it down. Ended up calling my dealer and slamming half a g of 2CB whilst listening to video game soundtrack sea shanties (Specifically FAITHFUL SAILOR BOY, PILLARS OF ETERNITY 2: DEADFIRE) (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4VsPAZUMkw&list=PLOeu7iL2t9S6dj5Nm8kEaGl7l1Fr0SMYn&index=4)) and throwing darts from a sitting position on the couch (feet kicked up on coffee table), most falling far short and lodging in the dry wall (I will need to patch these if I want to get my damage deposit back in full)
A month from now marks my two year anniversary of being unemployed

>>16820387
You're not faking anything. You're just afraid to live up to your ideal self. You seem to be doing just fine. Being your ideal self takes work.. it seems thats what you're more afraid of.

>>16820770
Even the darkest times are an opportunity to prove how resilient the mind can be. I actually enjoy the down parts of the wave nowadays.. they still hurt.. but I've come to associate them with growth

>>16820311
It was a good day

>>16820770
nice, I've been really into shanties recently, mainly the ones from AC Black Flag. this one is cool. Hero of Our Time is also great

>>16820770
Stupidly based

It's weird how everything important and natural in life is taken care of some subconscious mechanism of pre-selection. I'm a night owl, and according to my mother I was even as an infant. As I review my closest friends, I find that at least 3/4 are also habitual midnight oil burners. Similarly anyone who I have gotten romantically the farthest with has had a comparable socioeconomic background and has other compatibilities none of which I initially inspected and checked off as if it were a checkbox when first meeting them. The innate structure of causality chooses everything for us: the more you look everything over, the more free will is outed as an illusion. I'm just not sure what is more frightful: free will or unfree will. You can make a solid case either way.

There is more I want to say than I can say. Mania is the urge to fill a raindrop with an ocean.

>>16820770
>slamming half a g of 2CB
50mg got me tripping balls, can't imagine 500

>>16820780
not the anon you were responding to but
> You're just afraid to live up to your ideal self
I have been putting off some essays to write and my academic career to fix since May. I just can't do it. Maybe you are right about this, maybe it's more widespread and that no one talks about it. I just become paralyzed if I ever have to think or do anything to do with it. I don't even know if there's anything left to salvage. I've failed out of university twice and I don't know if I can even go back.

>>16820619
but what is that one thing that follows us everywhere? what you describe resonates with me

>>16820846
Reading your response instantly brings me to the connection of uniqueness. I feel the pain in you thinking you're not good enough or you can't go back to school. What you don't realize is everything you go through gives you a unique perspective noone else has. Sure similar to some.. but not exactly what has happened to you. Just because a path has shit holes in it doesn't mean its not going the right way.

>>16820832
The only way to de-facto trump determinism is to rise above biology and sociology. Relinquish people. Embrace art. I've never met a true artist who was predictable.

the poem itself is the first lie. poetry as an institution - the illusion that because it is important to me, it ought be important to you - that’s the big collective one. and hell, hats off to the godfathers. i’m sure glad i wasn’t the ape-man who had to try and sell it. think of him, out there, frail and a little loony-headed, making cave drawings or gibberish pairings of rudimentary language, and trying to convince those single minded red blooded still more animal than man creatures not to bash his head in but actually pay him money for the bullshit. it’s insane. it’s a laugh. the audacity! the strength it must have taken to stand up tall and own his weakness before these brutes. how did he ever pull it off? he didn’t. not directly. he did it via union. through all the usual channels. through the other weak among him sure, the other poets where they might have been certainly, but most of all through the women. the ones who took pity on him. the ones whose sensitivities were more in line with him. the ones who stayed at home all day and watched the labors of the pointless work he did. the ones he fucked while the alpha was out on the hunt. the ones who used him the fag-ape with a specialty as a tool against their men, as a producer of jealousy a means of motivation. you know so-and-so’s been doing quite well for himself drawing on cave-walls and that’s nothing alpha ape can do. he hates the painter all the more. but cannot bash his head in for the community at large has already accepted him. of course there were casualties. had to be a few generations of amature artists forced to create only in private, only in the wee small moments in between the hunts, and moreover, who got their heads bashed in. a moment of silence then, for those first among us. pioneers, pussy snatchers, cons.

>>16820651
>more than 5,000 mammals inhabit this planet, yet Homo sapiens are the only life forms with permanent breasts
why?

>>16820906
>I've never met a true artist who was predictable.
Maybe for musicians or other wily characters. Writers on the contrary are notoriously habitual people, many if not most of whom lead or more accurately follow a life of criminal dreariness. It's not about showing yourself off, it's about making a product. It doesn't matter how you do it.
In any case every enfant terrible or wildflower of a person is still just as determined. The description of what determines them is just a little more verbose and elaborate than the clockwork type.

>>16820939
Man was created in the image of God, and God enjoys some fine bahongas

>>16820940
>predictability
I wasn't referring to the lifestyle habits of the artists, but rather, the art itself, the product of the imagination, which is the only thing that separates the so-called cognoscenti from the hegemonic ranks of proles and capitalists.

>>16820932
whence arrives this pastarooni?

ARRRRGHHHGAGAGRGARGARGGAHAGRARRRGGGHHHHHHH I AM THE FUCKING CHANGE, i AM THE FUCKING EXPERIENCE, I AM THE I AM, EVERY MOMENT THAT I AM.

>>16820939
That might have to do with how we live, human breasts do tend to grow and deflate based on body weight and hormones, though it's only in pregnancy that the change is actually quite noticeable. We also seem to be the only specie where breasts have seductive role, probably because we are standing up and therefore no longer presenting the butt so much. [in this moment some anons remember that one manga and smile to themselves]

I had my first hookup a few days ago and now the chick isn't responding to my text. The sex was thoroughly disappointing for me. Feelings of nervousness and self-consciousness gave way to wallowing angst and ennui. I feel like my life force is being wasted. I'm 26 and I have an MFA. I can't even read a book of poems or finish writing a poem anymore. Instead I'm stuck on the workweek carousel and chasing skank like a fucking prole. Someone respond to me and tell me how to live.

>>16820972
under the onset of sleeping medication

good night

>>16820876
>Just because a path has shit holes in it doesn't mean its not going the right way.
I suppose if I was a true ascetic I'd know that nothing hurts me if my mind is intact or something, that Diogenes was making a real point when he maintained poverty with some sort of philosophical acuity. Yet I can't help but be bothered about it. I have legitimately fucked things up, I once had great prospects and now here I am. A spiral downward is still downward, we try to cope and say it's all in the past, it's the bumps in the right path but how can I preach this when it is not in the past, I still live with these consequences, these habits that got me here in the first place. How are they just bumps -- I have not heard of someone in my position, someone who ended up in a decent place. I can flip through any number of boards here and read of any number of losers whose lives are profoundly miserable, shit job, shit environment, unfulfilling life. I had opportunities to improve my spot in the world, and I shit them out in a fit of immaturity. even for those who are golden -- those fulfilled, with good education and training, who are virtuous and apply themselves -- even they cannot find a livelihood in this world, or fulfillment. And I am supposed to believe I am at the top of the pecking order somehow, that I will gain these things when others can't?

>>16821001
>I had opportunities to improve my spot in the world, and I shit them out in a fit of immaturity
What did you do, rape? Call someone a nigger?

>>16821021
not that bad I guess

>>16820939
male and female are symbiotic species at peak, excreting "offspring"/fecal matter as fuel for the next generation. further down they prey on each other in a parasitic cunt for muscle type bargain. meanwhile here is the in between.

>>16821035
also not pictured - the sem that I got wiped because I wasn't going to 3/4 classes by the end of it

>>16820992
dammit, someone respond

>>16821063
never had sex nor do I know how to make the most of life. tho how long ago did you send the text?

>>16821071
this morning

>>16821075
time in hours faggot I don't know where you live
what did you say?

>>16821063
>>16821075
it's all about how you feel about yourself, girls sense it if you hate yourself or constantly have angsty thoughts or feelings, it really doesn't matter that much how the sex been, work on yourself bro and fix the thoughts in your head and learn to love yourself first and foremost

>>16821081
I said, what are you doing tonight? That was 13 hours ago

>>16821089
This. Like I’ve said. Start by loving yourself.
And that sounded like a meaningless quickie, dude. Sounds like you should just let her go.

>>16821092
1. cast aside those feelings of nervousness and self-consciousness. it helps if you don't think so much about the girl. there were times in your life when you did not feel so nervous or self-conscious. pick a time and see if you can emulate why that was, for your own sake if anything.
2. when you are more assured of yourself and giving less fucks, feel free to message again and say what you mean but with your newfound confidence. hell address the ghosting, you've an MFA I'm sure you can be coherently eccentric. something like "Damn ghosted already? can you at least a google review?" as long as it's sufficiently stupid

>>16821112
chuckled, thanks for the tips breh
>>16821089
been "working on myself" for years, all it merits is that girls compliment my outfits and ass. sadly, does nothing for the writing and motivation

>>16820992
Sorry to say, 23-30 is just monumentally depressing. Keep your head up bucko

It's tough being
a water drop.

All you know
is to move forward.
Always move,
or you will be lost.

Fall on the leaves,
on the ground,
on her hair,
kiss her lips.

Slide down,
join the others,
in a mad race
down the gutter.

Wait, which one are you?
All look the same.
Many drops of water
playing the same game.

>>16820846
The one thing that follows you everywhere is the director of the movie you call your life. Put more drily, it's the background of being. It's like that mysterious feeling of quiet that comes over you in the moments before sleep. Distraction doesn't satisfy this curiosity, nor does seeking it outright. When you look for it, you get turned away from it; like a dog chasing its tail. It's hard to find the metaphorical sweet spot where you can hang freely in its empty grasp. I've been gnawing on it for years with nothing to show for it but wrinkles and dark rings around my eyes.

>>16821167
I understand what you mean, and it's very spot on. Thanks anon. I wish you luck in your efforts to overcome or just understand these residual doubts.

I have written, and am currently editing, a work which I believe will fire the hearts of many, and fill people with happiness.

That's what I believe. Is it true? Am I right? Or am I just deluding myself? I think the work is true and good and beautiful, and that it is filled with great power and memorable characters. And some of the early reports I have gotten back from people who have been reading it are encouraging. But the true test is to come. Can I get it published? And, even if it is published, what will the vast majority of people who read it think?

>>16821187
And the same to you. I'm just trying to make use of the potential I know I have and I'm just waiting for that shell to crack. I hope others in my position can do the same.

>>16820992
What was the reason to go down the road you're in?
What's your job right now?
Keep cool about sex. Everybody enjoys it differently.

>>16821194
make it marektable. quality alone doesn't sell. no sales, no readers. simple as.

() is a symbol representing cunt as portal to next

>>16821201
In college people told me I was a good writer, so I continued on that path. I do love writing (or, at least, for a long time I thought I did). I work at a restaurant.

>>16821204
I say fuck it, anything's marketable, a quick look around will provide ample evidence for that.
Write the book first, then focus on the slogans

>>16821238
good luck. think about getting a day job in a lit-related industry though.

>>16820311
What's the name of the film?

>>16821328
Looks like Parnell (Clark Gable film about the Irish revolutionary of the same name).

So now I was actually sitting in the train and felt the slow acceleration in my chest and saw the train station gliding by through the frost-fogged window - when I noticed the warm touch of a hand on my left knee.

It was an elderly woman with greyish brown curls who smiled as if a joking question was on her soft lips - but she stayed silent.

I felt the touch of her hand, her look and her smile, even the color of her hair like an assault on my inner man and pushed her hand aside with the greatest possible coldness, clenching my pushing hand into a fist and crossing my legs fast at the first opportunity - just as my penis began to stiffen.

gonna self-publish some time in the first half of next year, which typesetting/font should i use? also does anyone want to illustrate it for free?

>posted a thread on /lit/
>noticed later that there's a grammar mistake in it

>>16820992
Thats how your first time always going to be. Be glad you got it out the way so when you actually fuck someone you care about, you can sufficiently blow her back out without losing your wood and becoming a nervous wreck 1/4th of the way through.

>>16820311
i wish that were me.

>>16820619
Hey where does he say that? I need to read it because i really feel that way and im so tired of myself, i want to get better

every mistake improves me
I am going to make it

it seems to me that I am either ruining or saving my lfe. maybe that's a bit dramatic, but it seems that way. not in choosing between two mind you, either could be the result of the one choice I am making

Aggressive panhandler shoves random person onto the subway tracks while rocking a fly tracksuit and fro? Damn, de Blasio bringing the 80s back! Hey, it's what all you hip dudes from Wisconsin always wanted when you moved here in 2014 right?

>>16822412
You can't save your life neither ruin it. You make decisions and live with them and make the best of them. There is no turn back, you'll never know what your life would be if you'd had decided differently. The only way to ruin your life is to make no decisions.

>>16821401
Why would you neglect an opportunity for a handjob just like that? You know what she wanted, and you're not a fag when you got hard. Why?

I had to give up my name for some administrative formality and I was struck by how little it felt like it was my name anymore. Oh right, that is my name, I am this person. As if the prolonged isolation and disconnection had almost caused me to forget my own name.

Kinda want to start smoking. It can't be that bad for you if it's only once in a while, yeah?

Sure!
I can't change. It's just not possible. I know that it can't happen and it hurts me to know how i can change. Infact i know precisely what I have to do, when I have to do it and i never forget why i have to do it but somehow through some fucked up,sometimes external but mostly internal, reasons and i hate it that it's technically possible and that it seems easy but it's not easy cause as far as I'm concerned it may be simple doesn't mean it's easy and just because it's hard doesn't mean it can't be impossible cause not only i have to do what i have to do but also i have to do it under a time limit which is definitely not in my favor.
So fuck it might as well just talk to bunch of ne'erdowells on some fucking message board who don't and shouldn't care because i don't care about them. I certainly don't care about me.

After everything I've read and all the people I've talked to regarding women, I came to one conclusion. You should, and must, not care about them. Caring about a woman puts you in a disadvantage. It makes you appear submissive. The moment you care about a girl you've lost it, for she will see you as the dog you are. Alas, I must break away from the chains of romanticism and see relationships for what they really are.

i want to break NNN today

>>16823929
I failed on the fifth. How did you survive for so long?

>>16823944
just did it i guess
slightly hyped today cause i got to drive like almost 100 kms it's making me want to jerk off out of excitement
caffeine might be exaggerating it

>>16820325
What's this philosophical stance called?

>>16824021
Onanism.

Do not think that I take pleasure in telling you my crimes. The only reason at all why I take up the pen and entrust the unspeakable to paper - and thus also to you, dear Sir or Madam - the only reason is my unwavering faith in the existence of heaven and my materialistic understanding of confession.

>>16820611
My habits, my carelessness. With the fortunate place I find myself in, I want to be a good student. I see hope and affection in the eyes of my professors when I invest myself completely. But I am distracted and demanded of. I say yes to things I shouldn't.
I so easily lose sight of my ambitions. I am so lucky to be in a corner of academia that sits on the outter edge of the machine, and yet I am letting everyone down. If I narrowed my focus and freed myself of myself, I could do a lot.

>>16820311
The years have melted away a familiarity forged by many lifetimes. My essence is gone and the years are empty. Pray I find a magician to return life to its natural splendor.

>>16820992
get a teaching credential and get a rewarding job

God I'm so lonely and horny

Gods ways are... I don't even know what. Winding? Strongly confusing? I feel, have felt for some time, that I should just go with it. It's getting harder. But not impossible yet.

>>16824253
call up an old friend / school mate, just say you wondered what he's up to this global crisis

>mfw the man booker prize is awarded this evening
>mfw nobody on /lit/ cares

>>16823586
Incorrect. I have smoked an average of one cigarette per month for the past 4 years. My cardiovascular capacities have markedly decreased, despite remaining active and building muscle.

>>16824513
>most prestigious prize for a british novel
>winner: the very first novel by some literally-who? faggot that lives in NYC and makes clothes
this is why

>>16820375
based

I became a Netflix watching, (in vain) Tinder using, Spotify listening, image board browsing, twitch chat reading, couch lazing, sport neglecting, alcohol drinking, pornhub indulging, hentai degenerating, caricature of a man. And I have never felt better in my life.

The nice guy is a product of the pre-2000s West: he is the bastard son of feminism, almighty female figures, and of a middle class that did not realize it was heading to a social meat grinder. He is the dream figure of feminism, imbued with any neutering, misandric conditioning feminists have crafted. He just doesn’t please the natural instincts of female nature.

No courage. No warrior values. No migrant invaders yet. No pickup and game know-how, no knowledge at all about identities, as he was raised in a world supposed to drop all identities, whether sexual, racial, or national, below the altar of the career-minded abstract individual. No felt need to level up your life. No masculine solidarity either of course.

Nothing but the almightiness of mom, the media, the educators, and hope that college and hard work will pay. This is how otherwise healthy and pro-social young fellows end up in debt and late virgins.

>>16820311
The doctrine of vita activa asserts that, in order to truly get to the point of active, desirable life, you first need to embody the vital spark, cultivate it, allow it to mold you, to allocate the forces residing in your inner world, to make, brake and reshape the deep-structures of your interior, so as to heighten your self-consciousness of and receptiveness to the effects of this vital impetus' inner logic, which then allows you to manifest it into the outside world, to exteriorize this spark as an objective reality, which anyone can affirm and take part in.

One way to characterize the vital spark is by saying that it is a process of expanded expression of life. This doesn’t necessarily imply that the imperative for pursuing the unencumbered expression or realization of the vital spark amounts to a mere accumulation of life in the form of either growing or maintaining its vitality or lengthening its duration. What is implied by it is rather the accumulation of its intensity and its dynamism, the transcendence of previous modes of life expressions and earlier restrictions and limitation.

gone through a necessary but greatly taxing crisis of faith. it did not culminate in any readily applicable answers, but was still probably an adjustment towards what is true. I will have to be very patient. Mere days ago I felt I walked on clouds, now I'm in the gutter. it's worse being here now that I know what it was like, but there is nothing to do be patient.

PROFUSMA : THE SETTING
Originally, there was only the Dark Mother. The Great Plenuum and the Source of all things. A nothingnesss but at the same time such a fullness. Pure possibility and limitless potential. An eternity of total silence passes when suddenly...
An anomaly takes shape. Given enough time, even the most unlikely of events tend to occur eventually. The quietness is broken, and a sound emerges. The Latent becomes the Actual. The Great Mystery breathes for the first time and Reality is transformed. Whether or not there is a Sacred Architect weaving the web of creation personally is uncertain as the legends that are told often contradict one another.

Types of beings
1) An Aeon is a vast and immeasurable mind that subsists on the monadic plane. Pure and infinite awareness without a trace of physical limitation. A circle whose center is everywhere and circumference is nowhere. Their Para-Nirvana is the path of ultimate bliss. They are omniscient and omnipresent beings, but can do little else besides think and communicate telepathically. It is the Aeons who serve as guides to our protagonist...
2) A Celestial is a being whose essence is expansive energy. A self-aware pillar of cosmic fire. Taken individually, they are a surge of radiant space, a perpetual flow. Together they form a collective spirit... Each within all and all within each. A reflecting network of countless tissues of beaming radiance. They only see themselves, the one substance : energy. They are completely nescient of the rest of the universe but in their own way they are perceiving everything directly as it is.
3) A Titan is an entity composed entirely out of Akashic Information. The Akashic Record or Cosmic Archive, is a grand abstraction. It contains knowledge of every thing that could ever exist. The Archive has no need for refreshing or updating information, as everything is already stored there eternally.
The first Titan (Alpha Prime), is the archetypal soul (the blue-print for a self-conscious sentient) which immediately awoke at the dawn of time, and found internal freedom. On the First Day, from him there sprang forth the next generation of Titans, and eventually from them, countless other generations.
The Titans themselves are immortal deities. Using a self-generated Avatar, they create and rule above their own virtual simulations, artificial realities with mentally imposed laws. Titans visit each others simulations, are capable of romantic/sexual relations and sometimes they commit barbaric acts against one another(even though raw information can not be completely destroyed or lost).

>>16824633
have sex

>>16825059

4) Gaia - The material plane taken as a whole. A synthetic unity which we know as our universe. A spontaneously emerging feedback loop that is acausal in nature. A classic chicken-or-egg situation : Where would one be without the other?
Gaia is the masterpiece which sits at the center of creation. The Elegant Taste of Form and Function. The "Architect" really spoke through her excellent craftsmanship. Gaia has it all : Innate Harmony , Flourishing Complexity, Driven by Purpose and an Over-arching Order.
Gaia's end goal is the mass production of souls and reaping the benefits of cyclical reincarnation. The whole system is an efficient clockwork. With a rapidly accelerating, ever-expanding continuum, this baby is already going as fast as she can! She can't try any harder!

5) Sprytes - Basically, the generic soulful entity of Gaia. As soon as any configuration of matter reaches a specific threshold of intricacy, a spryte is made. The golden standard is that the system must be informed of its own informational processing. A pattern of self-reflexivity : the camera lense is directed back on the agent.
After the critical point, the consciousness imbues the matter with its aura, entwining it all together so that a part may communicate with the whole instantaneously. The aura both contains and is embedded within all the constituents.
The involution of matter is the evolution of the spryte. Although the most common spryte is animalistic, there are nature spirits such as plant, crystal and plasma intelligences at work.
6) Animals - Life springs into action!
So on and so forth, the species diversify and when a body suitable for using tools emerges, the last step of evolution occurs : a swift increase in intellectual ability.
7) Sapiens - A step above the wild creatures, Sapiens are self-cognizant creatures with a penchant for immortality. Each habitable planet generally produces a single species of Sapiens, but when considering all of the worlds, they come in a wonderful diversity.
There are humanoids, dryads, pixies, dinosoids and more... all capable of communicating with and traveling to one another. It is within the realm of possibility that a Sapien can learn how to utilize might and magic. There are many schools of combat and magic while the greatest battle mages draw upon a broad wisdom of various.

>>16825079
8) Spectres - Lost souls, deceased sentient beings who due to happenstance mistakes have missed out on the next incarnation. They wander aimlessly until their residual energy runs out. Sometimes they are rescued by Nightshades.
9) Nightshades - The Abyss is a fluctuating sea of dark energy. The ebb and flow facilitates the transmigration of souls. Individuals journey through the Abyss with the use of rifts and wormholes.
Each spryte has a shadow aspect, a dark guardian who guides it to its destination. When a spryte is separated from its shadow aspect, the shadow aspect becomes a free spryte itself. These liberated shadow aspects are called nightshades.
A nightshade's shape is liquid smoke. They often materialize suddenly and just as quickly disappear into a thin haze. Sometimes they become malicious and can possess a creature, taking control of their body. Enormous hordes can inhabit a single person if they are foolish enough to let their guard down.
10) Goreghouls - A walking nightmare. A nightshade who has become warped by its addiction to feeding on chaotic energies. They can even inject another with their own chaotic energy to consume that. They reproduce through temptation, bringing fresh nightshades to tread down the path.
Goreghouls can enter the material plane by infecting a person. The figure of the Goreghoul slowly grows like a cancerous tumor within and caustically enters the world at the cost of the life of its host.
They built the Tree of Torment, a horrifying aberration. The wicked thing keeps a person alive t just to sap a persons energy also inflicting mental destruction upon a soul. Their victims just hang there suffering for millennia. It is too dangerous to go there, and the only hope one has for escape rests upon the shoulders of the condemned.

I can't stop thinking about him. It feels as if my mind is spilling over. I want to tell him how I feel but the feeling of being pitied or judged by the rejection would crush me.

>>16825252
You will never be a woman.

>tfw the democrats' own creation, the black permanent underclass designed to remain DNC welfare slaves and needy mouths for all eternity, is probably its biggest weakness since it also supplied the footsoldiers for committing fraud
>tfw generations of depressing the black population culturally and intellectually comes back to bite you in the ass
>tfw you can't say anything because you're the "anti-racist" party
>tfw thousands of corrupt democrat officials are biting their nails about whether one of their black serfs at the bottom of the chain of command, some fat black lady working in a post office somewhere, interpreted "do a fraud" as "FUCK WHITEY Y'ALL WE GOT DIS" and did too much of a fraud

Hahahaha

>>16825338
>fraud
>fraud
>fraud
>fraud
still no evidence breh. first it was poll watchers. then it was Dominion. next it will be ____. just kill yourself now and avoid the crushing despair of dwindled cope

>>16825386
If you doubt that Democrats commit fraud on a regular basis you are the one coping. Google it instead of getting your political horizons from what you remember trending on social media since your early teens a few years ago, and you will find decades of complaints that it is normalized and accepted.

Trump losing or winning doesn't matter anymore. He already triggered a constitutional crisis and a legitimacy crisis in one by simply not being recognized by the system for long enough. The only thing that would have upset me is if he listened to cuckold "Republicans" and "been presidential" by conceding. Instead he chose to ride it all the way to the end.

The best part is that the process catalyses itself from here on out. Spaced-out zoomers on SSRIs like you will line up to die for Biden while he stacks his cabinet with lobbyists and Ocasio-Cortez while she congratulates him for it:
https://twitter.com/AOC/status/1326703751701389312
and the country will polarize even further. Trumpism won, the paleocons got their wish 20 years after they thought all hope was lost, the MARs rose up and achieved self-consciousness and hatred of the elites right at the moment when the world is about to nosedive into recession and unpopular austerity social engineering bullshit at the hands of rich dorks who can't even stop their own kids from becoming trannies.

>>16820780
These are kind and encouraging words anon, thank you - I'll think on this

>>16825436
>fraud
>google it
No thanks. Burden of evidence, &c.

>>16825491
It doesn't annoy me if you're a retard. I didn't have any hope of convincing you, I was talking past you to anybody else who might be interested.

You'd know this if your poisoned retard brain didn't conceive every human exchange as an epic gotcha fight in the comments section of some streamer's unboxing video. Continue being a retard by all means.

>>16825436
>don't use social media bro, they deceive you
>use google instead
>google's first link are either social medias or collaborative website like wikipedia who also deny there was fraud

>you live in a world where 70% of marriages end in divorces that take 20min and can be done over the phone while also certain coutries have banned paternity tests
>people still ask me while i'am not looking for "the one" as a man

>>16825541
actually, you don't have any hope of convincing anyone, since your entire "argument" consists of asserting your conclusion

>>16820371
I'm currently archiving the sixth volume of my magnum opus, My Collected 4chan Posts.

>>16825604
Yeah it sucks. My ideal scenario is marrying a women, having a couple of children, and then her dying in a tragic accident leaving me to raise the children alone.

I want a good job that brings me stability. I'm tired of not knowing if at the end of my degree I'll be able to work in the field I would like to or whether I'll have to flip burgers for the rest of my life

>>16821132
>23-30 is monumentally depressing
>22, monumentally depressed for years
AAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>16820770
I'd get a beer with anon

You want to know why there is no racial solidarity amongst whites?
That's because the Aryan spirit is inherently meritocratic.
Picture a white owned business in need of a position as a coder. There's two applicants: a white guy with a highschool diploma and an Asian guy with a bachelor's. The business is going to choose the Asian because he is better qualified. The white guy isn't going to receive the position just because he has the same skin color as the business owner.
This is why European societies have flourished in comparison to tribalistic or nepotistic societies. Contrast the Arabs and their abysmal military performance in recent times. This is due to the fact that the generals who get promoted are brothers or cousins of the top brass. Promotion is therefore based not on merit, but familial relation. Hence why their militaries are so incompetent.
Now while the Aryan spirit might be meritocratic, it's also really naive.
Whites presuppose that we live in a meritocratic society when this is obviously not the case. They believe that everyone is "playing by the rules" when the other races are not.
You can clearly see this with Jews: unlike whites, they promote their own, at the expense of more talented gentiles. This can be seen in Hollywood, journalism, etc.
This is bad for society. Nepotism and tribalism don't select based on merit, and hence performance suffers. It leads to stagnation in the arts for example, as the endless sequels, remakes and reboots in film. The same tired themes of race and gender are rehashed in the publishing industry, for it is not on merit, but rather race or sex that an author gets published or not.
Whites have to wake up. It goes against our meritocratic instincts but they are going to have to start favoring their own because the other races are not going to play by the rules. But maybe they won't.
The Aryan spirit is too fair and noble for its own good

opinions on rape?

>>16825604
>live in a world where 70% of marriages end in divorces
Luxembourg? It's the only country with anywhere near that percentage (65%)
>take 20min and can be done over the phone while also certain coutries have banned paternity tests
French Luxembourg?

>>16826153
Better in theory than in practice.

>>16826201
as victim or perpetrator?

>>16826153
Very effective in literature but not such a great thing in real life.

>>16820566
That was enjoyable to read

>>16824513
Most of the nominees were debuts. The tiny bit of modern literature /lit/ does read is new books written by authors that have been writing for decades and have built up a reputation, it never had a chance to gain traction here.

>>16826230
Both.

I'm going to be President of the United States one day.

>>16826060
Seriously? This has to be a bait post

Passed 2 important hurdles on an application. If I get this I will be set for life. All that's left is 2 30 min interviews.

2 years ago I was on the verge of suicide. Now I have a glimmer of hope for the first time in my life.

>>16826456
Using your post as a jumping off point; These online "personality tests" you sometimes submit to apply to a job online should be 100% illegal.

They're literally only designed to catch in a "lie" with vague and often contradictory questions. Many times the questions are designed so both make you sound bad to a potential employer- how can I be sure any of my answers mattered at all and I wasn't already denied to lack of work experience or not being a "diverse" hire?

It's bullshit and hiring practices need to be transparent.

>>16826456
can you describe the job? why are you attracted to it? what would it do for you?

>>16826499
IQ tests are banned, but we have this pattern/numeric/verbal test here anyway which is in no way an IQ test :^)

>>16826503
It's a study program, not a job.
>>16826499
White collar jobs have easier application processes than wageslave positions. I've gotten jobs with a single phonecall in white collar. Back in the days I was applying to unskilled it was an hour-long personality test, a totally-not-an-iq-test, a 40 minute job to paste my resume into their little boxes, an a 20 minute "ethics" test. it's pretty fucked.

>>16826566
>it's a study program, not a job
>If I get this I will be set for life
forgive me, but you seem to be contradicting yourself, unless you are entering a prestigious medical school

>>16826581
Not medicine but it is prestigious.

Nothing clever like foster wallace. I thought I could join the army. The goal was t oescape. The feeling was of passion being powered by torrents of rage. I don't look at the page. but I think of women and grabbing them by the spine and shaking them like a shifting shuttle. I don't look at the screen, listen to inchoherent rambling from a gnostic streamer. Bukowski said dont try; he meant play the key board like a piano, or you gay, faggot, laught! And it ends the subconscious stream that writing is, editing is worth nothing, it is like doing a test withoiut a time limt. No paragraphs no lines not corrections just fight and see how hard you are, can you hit the right keys ?! if you cant theres sometihg nup !!!.

By far the biggest harm inflicted upon people (mentally) when it comes to biology is the use and proliferation of the term "Species". While the term has objective merit, the reality is that species is less of a real "thing" and more of a set "box" in which a roughly categorized group of individual organisms, each of which is wholly unique, is labelled due to ability to interbreed.

>>16820371
nice

>>16820434
Hey bud, have acoke

>>16820566
Very good, I see kek approves, I'm unsurprised

>>16820588
Sorry nig

>>16826153

The way I scratch my incisors after a whiskey binge sounds like the virgin breaks of fresh wrapping paper. (I wish I had more whiskey).

>>16824021

I hadn't named it yet, but for now lets go with hikikomoriartyism.

>>16820311
The weird schizodragon horseshit that the current 4chan ad banner is linking me to has inspired me to take out a 4chan banner ad for my own weird schizodragon horseshit. Hopefully this chains together and 4chan ads become about nothing but schizodragon horseshit from now on.

>>16820311
I already broke up with my girlfriend a few months ago. We still love each other so we never really stopped talking. There's a myriad of reasons why we broke up but one of them is because I have been in a dark place for a year or so and didn't want her to suffer from my own sufferings. Anyway, today she told me that it couldn't continu like this; she won't be able to go on with her life if we keep things like this and she asked me wether we are getting back together or we each go our own way. I decided to be honest and I told her that it breaks my heart but as of now I am too weak to share my life with someone. I still want to hope that like in a movie we will be back together one day when life will be easier, but I'm rational enough to know that it was the final nail in the coffin.

>>16824021
Jewry?

>>16821163
verse 3 and 4 are good

I feel like I should break up with my gf. This was revealed to me in a dream several months ago. The dream had imagery from Gravity's Rainbow and was very ambiguous but that was the one thought on my mind when I woke up. I let her move in with me and that ruined our relationship, no more staying up late because we'd miss eachother the next day, no more asking eachother how the past few days were. Our young love is gone. I still love her but I don't want to totally fall out of love with her, she loves me and i don't want that to change. I don't want things to get bad. I miss what we had and it probably won't ever come back :(.

>>16824166
>If I narrowed my focus and freed myself of myself, I could do a lot.
See? You already know what to do.

>>16827190
So? Just move out and return to a separate living situation. What's that? You can't? If you can't, then breaking up with her right now is an objectively pretty terrible idea.

I just coomed to loli hentai.

>>16827275
I live in a place that was/is very much my own. She was living with her parents, who live pretty close, beforehand. It would be hard to just kick her out but that's what I'd have to do.

>>16827354

In other words you're a simp and she's been extracting free rent from you. How long?

>>16827337
The janny is going to call the FBI now.
Delete it and don’t “coomed” to it again.

Niggers thong my anus, mother fucking cunts, are any of this real. I am really just tipping anything that comes to my mind. SHIT FUCK CRAP WHAT FUCKING HELL WE LIVE IN. LIFE REALLY SUX. HOW COME GOD LEAVE ME ALL ALONE IN THIS HELL FORBIDDEN PLACE. ALL ALONE I DIDN'T DESERVE NONE OF THIS. NOT THE BAD THINGS. NOR THE GOOD THINGS. Gosh, I guess life is like that song from that band that I don't remember right now, I remember the name of the song, marquee moon, I can probably sing it.
It was dark
the rain falling down
I was there standing
just standing under the marquee moon
then a Cadillac came by
he said hey boy, get in
so I got in,
So I asked, how can you stand life in the hive?
He said, hey listen junior
Just don't be so happy, and for havens sake, don't you be so sad.
the the cadillac, stopped
I got our, the cadillac when to hell
lightning struck it self

Or something like this, I don't really remember, but I really like this song, when my wife left me I really enjoyed listening to television, Oh, so here it is the name of the band. Gosh fucking whore, I hate her so much, I wish she was dead rotten under a bridge, no I take it back, I don't want to see her ever again. I really wish she was dead rotting under a bridge, but I don't want it. Fucking human mind twisted and fucked up we are made to survive not to be good or kind. I hate been a human, it is so fucking confusing you feel so much things, I wish I was a Buddhist monk, I wish I didn't feel anything. Maybe they feel everything, but they don't care, our they manage to just get past thought their human nature. I hate been a human, I don't want to be here, I wish I was dead, I don't know why god left me here all alone in this living hell, I just want to die every single day of my fucking life was hell, it isn't that I am a looser or anything, I am a winner, I have achieved so many things in life, but been here is living hell, I can't stand other humans, I can't stand myself, I always have to do things I don't want to, I wish I could just sit and o nothing. when I sit and do nothing I also can't enjoy it, because I feel like I am been a bun, that I should produce something, so I am in this always endless hell where I need to be productive, I wish I could just be here and be nothing, and do nothings, I wish I didn't needed to spent so many hours studding and reading and writing and pushing myself so hard to achieve things, I wish I could just be, and that it would be ok, I wish I could be free from everything, my culture, my human nature, my bacterial flora and even if it exist my soul, I wish I could just be and not need to do or be anything. I wish I was free from this body, from this soul, from this planet, I wish I was dead.

>>16827404
Death really looks like freedom to me, looks like the only way of been out of this miserable world of pain, I wish I could just be and not be worried about my future, or my past. When I look at Buddhists monks they are able to be alive, but they are truly dead, but they are alive, I wish I could be a Buddhist monk, or at least have the serenity and acceptance of life like a Buddhist monk. Maybe Buddhist monks feel everything I feel but then are able to accept those things, I wish I was more than a Buddhist monk, that I didn't needed to accept those human things, I wish I could just not feel those things, maybe I wish a I was a robot, a machine or something. When I take Ritalin is so good, I feel like a robot, it is like nothings matters, It is so good, I wish I had some Ritalin right now, writing this was sort of tiresome, I never did something like this, after some time is like my brain is plugged to my fingers and the keyboard, this is really cool, I am feeling good right now, I never did this, I have to try this more times, it is really therapeutic, I am felling really good right now, thanks anon, thanks a lot for giving me this opportunity to just write anything that is in my mind, this was really good, I hope no one read this, this is sort of really personal, but I am going to publish it so maybe, one day I can read this again. bey anons.

>>16827360
Since the beginning of the pandemic. I think this too had been a source of stress in our relationship. She sees that I pay for most things and worries that she doesn't do enough for me. Then she feels bad about it, feels bad for feeling bad about it, and doesn't do anything with herself and feels trapped in a sense.

>>16827461

lmfao no.
You're experiencing a classic simp symptom; you are projecting your decent values on to her. I can promise you that the only thing she values is the illusion of convenience, which you currently provide.

>>16827425
>>16827404
Gosh I really need some Ritalin to start to play life in the easy mode again, been more than 5 years last time I took it, I am going to a psychologist for sure get me some Ritalin, going to snort a hell of that shit and do the things I need to do, I fucking love to blank and fine with Ritalin, but I can't write when I take it, but I sure can code, it so fucking good, I need Ritalin.

>>16827461
make that bitch get a job. Or kick her out, tell her you need your personal space. It's the truth aint it? If she gets angry and threatens to break up, problem solved man.

>>16827674

He doesn't even need to be that heavyhanded about it. Just "forget" to buy her favorite foods or whatever and she'll flake almost immediately, unless she is utterly desperate - in which case you have a free hand.

the fact that i will one day die and my consciousness will flicker off like a light switch terrifies me. even the act of going to sleep scares me deeply, the act of non-experience, of one second being, and the next second not being, often makes me not want to sleep at all.

>>16824021
Suicidism because without groups humans would just die. That's why we evolved from tribes.
>>16820419 is a complete retard that probably never goes outside and is just oh so smart because he watches /pol/ gifs. Without groups there was no internet, running water, electricity, in short everything we have that we take as a given. Hermits are fine, but self-sufficiency is close to impossible. 99% of people would just die by themselves.

>>16821470
I forgive you

>>16820606
Join the Chinese Protestant Church Murray, It's growing fast.

>>16820311
I am thinking about stealing these verses for my annual poetry jerk-each-other-off-meetup

I dislike antinatalists but can't help myself thinking like them often

I finally understand Wittgenstein! I managed to fap to logical symbols.

Self-pity is the depressed and weak man's form of narcissism.

>>16820311
I am beginning to think I should stop smoking weed. Maybe it's because of the current year, but these days I only smoke so that I can either not be bored or feel happy for once that day. I used to think it was helping my writing, and it does sometime still make it easy to think clearly about it, but rarer and rarer now.

I find the central tenets of Buddhism to be stupid and no amount of trying to rid myself of that opinion has worked. I've even read some book on the metaphysics of Buddhist philosophy, and while it's exceptionally interesting, it does nothing to cure me of the thought that
>all life is suffering and we must have it cease
is thing devoid of all meaning. It's legitimately nihilistic in the sense that it poses no greater questions about life or the world. No matter what, that is the most ultimate truth for Buddhists.

>>16829455
Let me guess, you live in the first world and your family is middle/upper-middle class. Do you really believe you know anything about suffering? Leave your sheltered life as the Buddha did and live in a shitty country a few years. Then we would see if you still go on anime boards to say how stupid Buddhism is.

>>16820311
my gf is gay

>>16829468
>Let me guess, you live in the first world and your family is middle/upper-middle class
Wrong on both accounts. And also irrelevant to the question.
>Do you really believe you know anything about suffering?
So Buddhism is only meant for people that have had incredibly misfortunate lives? Sounds like a pretty shitty religion to operate on for an entire civilization.
>Leave your sheltered life
Why would I? I rather enjoy my life and I have no desire to live as a fucking bum. If these are seriously your arguments then you don't even have anything.
> to say how stupid Buddhism is
I was pretty clear about what part of it was stupid and you've said nothing by way of defense. I already granted that there are many things in Buddhism (or that civilization, at least) that are interesting, like their theory of language.
Cope more or come up with proper arguments. I don't recall Buddhism being exclusively made for the poor, the sick, and the infirm.

>>16827843
Has this fear of death/lack of sleep gotten to the point that its affecting your life? In that case, you should seek some people to talk to about it. A friend you trust works, or more professional help if you need it and can access it.

Talking with someone can help even if you're just generally worried about death or have been having pessimistic thoughts. Turn to people who can support you.

>>16829473
Did she break up with you before or after coming out?

>>16829488
I wasn't trying to be argumentative though, you mistook my post. I don't really care enough to convince you. I would only note that the Buddha himself was a prince who left his luxurious life to experience suffering first hand. Suffering is universal, even if you aren't perceptive of it.

>>16829504
Suffering being universal and it having to be lowered is a very different thing from basing your entire worldview around that fact. Christianity (and probably most big religions) recognize human suffering as a serious problem and argue to diminish it. But there is more to it than that. They do try to answer bigger questions, even if the answer is usually bad and incredibly dated (like why anything exists at all, what is the meaning of life, etc).
Buddhism doesn't even attempt to engage with these topics from everything I've read. I'll grant you, there are literally thousands of texts out there that I could read and thousands more that I don't have access to, but from my limited reading that I specifically chose to find answers on this issue, I've never found one thing that detailed how Buddhists were concerned with questions like why is there something rather than nothing and what is the ultimate meaning of life. In fact, it appears that most weren't too preoccupied with that at all since life itself was illusory to them as is human individuality, and even consciousness in some cases.

>>16827843
>the fact that i will one day die and my consciousness will flicker off like a light switch terrifies me. even the act of going to sleep scares me deeply, the act of non-experience, of one second being, and the next second not being, often makes me not want to sleep at all.
Why fear the bliss of death, when it's something you cannot feel once dead? I'm not saying KYS to escape your fear, mind you, I'm saying your fear is unfounded. You are fearing being afraid of an experience, you, by definition, can never have.

It's the pain beforehand you'll get to experience, so by all means, do everything you can to avoid that, do everything possible to stay alive, to be there for your loved ones, if nothing else, but what lays beyond - if you truly believe it is nothing, then unlike life, which is either ending in a quick pain or slow rotting decay of neglect, it's nothing to fear.

Death isn't the thing to fear nor is the related loss of oneself, for the dead cannot fear and have nothing left to lose - that's life. Life is what you need to be afraid of, not death.

>matter is the act of acting like matter matters

>>16829556
Thinking of being alive forever is way worse than not existing. I can't imagine anyone thinking differently. Like, yeah, maybe it would be nice not to get old and to just get to tap out whenever you want. But between aging and dying and living forever, the first is based, the second is hell.
People have forgotten the lessons of old sci-fi.

The great niggerfication is in progress. All we have to do is wait.

There was this girl. Gorgeous, sharp, ambitious. I met her through work. We went for drinks one night. She liked me some, I liked her a whole lot. She had a boyfriend. I ran into her two or three more times.

We did not stay in touch. It's been almost a year since I last saw her. Suddenly I'm thinking about her, about a book she recommended me, about how I may never see her again and get my shot. I don't know her situation now. We barely knew one another. But I found her on Facebook. I want to message her but I can't imagine it going right.

>>16829593
Yo, wanna drink wine and talk about the book you told me about. How 'bout it?

>>16829573
Exactly. Those who are alive inevitably value being alive on some level, or they would not be. That's just inherent to all things living. But if you believe there is no existence beyond, those who are dead, don't act at all, don't feel at all, save in the imaginations and memories of the living.

The fear thus ultimately lies in the loss of control, the inability to act, rather than state of experiencing death itself, which, under this belief system, is not possible.

>>16829582
Yes, belief in reincarnation is terrifying on the surface, but also merciful, in that you don't remember being alive forever, unless you're really ready to.

>>16829602
I am afraid I will have to do some version of this.

It's a big city, a big world. Waiting will not bring her back around to me. I guess at least if I try and fail I can put it to bed with closure.

>>16829607
>belief in reincarnation is terrifying on the surface
Good thing reincarnation isn't real.

>>16826257
you're already potus as you are he as we are as we are me as we are all together

>>16829607
>>16829588
>in that you don't remember being alive forever, unless you're really ready to.
Don't ask me how you know when you're ready to remember, I'm not the fucking Buddha, as basic mara should make obvious, so I'm sure as I'm living in hell am not ready to remember. Just doing the best I can with what I got, and valuing life, and everyone alive, best I can in the process.

>>16826933
I came to the same conclusion a while back. I thought that the larger the group, the higher the probability that the group will accept the necessity in things like violence "in the name of the group-interest". I'm sure there are more factors though, like the group probably has to be integrated in the way the members conduct their living and ensure necessary resources. A global guild of WH40k players are probably not going to commit a genocide in the name of ensuring resources for plastic. it is possible that the arabs have it right when they hold onto tribal affiliations. these are not exactly peaceful afaik, but they are at least still human rather than mechanical hivemind.

>>16827354
maybe if you asked her how she thinks it's working, and when she says "why, what do you think?" you list those things you just said, and that you miss them without bringing up any radical contingency plans. Being like "I don't know man you gotta go" is gonna hurt her, and it might be unnecessary. Maybe she agrees with you that things changed. Maybe if you go at that "problem" together you can find a way forward together. Just tell her how you feel. Leave the plans for later. You can't fairly plan both your lives on your own

>>16829632
Never a good idea to jump into the abyss, even with eyes wide open, but at least you know the hell you are about to experience. Who knows, its fires may reforge you both in such a way you both come out for the better, I've seen it happen enough times... But only provided either of you has any love left to give, or knows how to get that which you both lack. (Which may or may not involve, children.)

But, speaking from personal experience of having won that particular battle, make sure she's entirely broken up with her boyfriend first. That's a battle that's worse for the victor than the loser, even if the loser will likely never feel that way. (Though, sometimes, I like to think he does, and realizes what a bullet I helped him dodge.)

>>16820939
dunno

>>16827695
>>16827674
>>16827478
if we assume anon has a heart, then this is not useful information. if anon has turned to stone, like these anons have, then sure, but if he wants to live this will do him no good

>>16829659
I believe there are three forms of reincarnation
there is reincarnation between the moments
one moment begets another
there is reincarnation within the life of man
God tells a story that sways the heart of a man
and there is reincarnation after the death of a man
what a man has made stands before God

>>16820325
>>16828293
>Hermits are fine, but self-sufficiency is close to impossible. 99% of people would just die by themselves.
Except now we're all hermits, thanks to rona-chan.

Maybe it's time for each member of each group to admit they all exist in separate worlds, all of their own, they are all, ultimately, each alone, and it's thus better for those worlds to work together to support one another in the arms of their overlapping vision, rather than try to run off into corners of their own, burning any alien hand that touches them, as part of their feverish dance.

If these worlds exercised their universally shared ability to see their own world through any other world's lense, it really shouldn't be that hard. But that's an effort in itself, and burning things is just so damned much fun, and makes for such pretty fires... and sadly, attracts flesh eating moths like nothing else.

Manufactured discord leads to mutual destruction, but at least the dance is pretty.

>>16829764
>Good thing reincarnation isn't real.
the key is that reincarnation means "being again brought into flesh". There can be no doubt that reincarnation is real.

>>16829659
Yeah, but none of this is, we're talking about fear of the unknown.

>>16829781
...And that which is by definition, unknowable.

>>16829719
Thanks Jordan

>>16829794
I can only dream of being the poet Kermit the Frog was, but Jordan is a bit too angry for my tastes.

Well, in general existence is preferable to non-existence.
Pleasure is preferable to displeasure. (I suppose non-existence is preferable to eternal displeasure).
Greater pleasure is preferable to lesser pleasure.

Human being-ness optimized.

>>16829794
>>16829798
(Just in case):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PESYQ6TGwhQ

>>16829817
>your room should tell you to behave like a civilized human being
>in your room
jesus christ man

>>16829812
Long term pleasure is always greater than short term pleasure, but life isn't worth living without the short term pleasures, being the common pitfall in that formula, but also yet another reason to value existence over non-existence.

>>16829827
You carry your room with you.

>>16829798
Well your advice doesn't help me any. My problem is she has stuck with me, but we had so little a relationship in the first place to revive.

I don't see how children even enter into it...

>>16829872
As Kermit-Jordan would say, I have neither all the information nor all the answers, I can only serve as a rubber ducky for other people's problems through my own limited experience and limited observation.

But my experience says, if it's taken, don't stick your dick in that. You might win her, but that might be the worst thing for you - and you probably won't be the last to pawn her off.

Otherwise, by all means, make a relationship. Likely neither of you is the person you were then, if you're either both young, or this has been going on a long time, or some combination thereof. If you had some chemistry when you were younger, that's a fair base to work with, but not one you need to depend on. That was just a taste, getting to know her for the long haul is the meal.

But I have this sneaky suspicion you have some other reason not to trust her not to mangle your soul...

>>16829607
>Yes, belief in reincarnation is terrifying on the surface
I think you have it backwards. Most of the people I've come across who believe in it seem to have a very shallow understanding of its implications, hence think that it is a pleasant thing. On the surface, it is merciful/comforting, and terrifying when fully grasped. Very much like with those spiritualists who think that the statement "all is one" is somehow a comforting truth, when in fact it's the opposite.

>>16829659
>>16829781
If we can imagine it, and think of no sufficient reason why it couldn't be thusly, we ought to concern ourselves with it as if it were the case, despite it being inherently an unknown/unknowable issue.

>>16829918
Though it might be worth remember, after the execution, it turned out Anna Pavlova didn't do half what she was accused of. The only thing we all know for sure is, "Damn, that woman knew how to die."

...Oh, wait, that was Mata Hari. But you see what I am getting at. She may not be what his first meeting has painted her as, and he knows that. So it maybe, like all the death conversation that got mixed up in here, he is only fearing the unknown. No need to shoot that relationship and avoid it like death itself, based on a lack of information, or thinking about someone else entirely, who doesn't really exist anymore.

But I maybe talking about another situation entirely. Rubber Ducky is John Snow.

>>16830014
>If we can imagine it, and think of no sufficient reason why it couldn't be thusly, we ought to concern ourselves with it as if it were the case, despite it being inherently an unknown/unknowable issue.
Well, in this case, we have one person suggesting you can't experience anything after death. Death, therefor, cannot be a horrifying experience. It's only horrifying, while you are alive. It's not death you fear, it's life.

The reincarnation terror, on the other hand, is expressing a belief system where the most terrifying thing is knowing you always have been and always will be alive, with the fear-fatal caveat, that you never experience that, because you do not remember, barring the capacity to somehow absorb that memory (generally how the model goes, at least, I suppose there are alternatives).

We've not yet touched on eternal hellfire. But unlike that, these are both experiences that, by definition, you cannot have, and thus have no reason to fear... Unlike, well, all the suffering you can experience while you are still alive.

empathy, compassion and introspective abilities are the only things I have. I can look at a person and get awkward around them, not because of them, but because I know what they are feeling and I am trying to help them pass the situation. I see no escape from this, I don't feel real, not because of the internet use or brain frying. But, because of this thing of mine to look at everything from a 3rd perspective. Why did they laugh at that? why are they going there? why am I thinking this? Why am I thinking I am thinking this? Call it a curse or a gift, idk, I hate and love it at the same time. I love how people don't give a fuck and keep on going without a thought. Some part of me wants that.
I might start reading philosophy, seems like something I would like.

>>16830094
We all live through masks and costumes we've cobbled together ourselves based on those we've seen around us, rarely revealing our true selves, even to ourselves. Some of us have more masks than others, some of us have fancier costumes than others, some seem to wear their true hearts on the sleeves of their costumes, but we're all living 3rd person as a result. It's not just you, it's everyone you talk to. Souls in a material world and all that Sting jazz, but it is just as true in the purely materialistic psychology of a soulless world, as you can never truly see the soul, being forever a preverbal and proverbial blind spot you must always communicate with indirectly, whether it exists or not. We're are all, ultimately, philosophical zombies, playing at being human.

Thus, when we fall in love, it's a result of the artwork in the mask the other person crafted, not of the unknowable soul behind it. Every artist, however, inevitably leaves some of their "soul" in their work, and that, is what we eventually fall in love with, regardless of how frightening the mask. Even if we may never truly see beyond one another's masks, we instinctively appreciate the work (or at least admire the audacity of it, on some level or other).

And if you still really want to start reading philosophy about the paradox of all this pain, caused by the fact that no two human beings can ever truly understand each other directly, when coupled with the fact that, by the very core of human nature, they will always attempt to do so, be the target of understanding present or not (or even physically exist, as we apply this to characters as well as people - that's why we love a good story)... Rather than just accepting that run on sentence as a fact of life... Know that I'm really just paraphrasing the Masks of God by Joseph Campbell.

In any case, "do no harm shall be the whole of the law" is harder than it sounds, when it's your own personal law, and you consider your own presence harmful. Invariably, however, it's not as harmful as you think, and cannot be, if not doing harm is your primary concern. So long as you also remember that the path to hell can be paved with good intentions.

Just had the most mental dream. Was with my uncle who looked like charlie sheen and he snorted a bunch of coke and took me to walmart. The car was going incredibly quickly, and right after I'd show any fear in my face he'd make a beep sound like the road runner and turn his head 90 degrees then turn it back just as quickly and go "you scared!?". I woke up pretty soon after

>>16830283
We all have daddy issues. Some of us get weird in bed, some of us become Batman.

>>16830291
It must stem from a problem I had as a kid. My father was addicted to pain meds and once in a while he'd go into a fit of rage that terrified my young self. The first time this happened, I was around 6 or 7, and it started because my sister and I played around with a canister of keyboard cleaner of his without permission. During that car ride it felt like I would nearly die. Well, I became numb to it over time. I dissociated feelings first from my dad, then everything else, and now once in a while I have very odd dreams related to him (another where he was tortured) and I have no doubt it's all related. Kinda unsure what to do about this. Perhaps it would resolve itself on a Buddhist retreat, or perhaps I should try hallucinogens. It seems pretty deep seated.

I just looked back on my childhood, and remembered I was straight up suicidal when I was 14 due to family problems (mostly an abusive parent). I don't think it's normal for kids to be that way. I wonder how much that contributed to the fuck up I am today.

>>16821470
I would have deleted the thread after finding this out no matter how many replies it had.

I've gotten a solid 5 hours of sleep in the last 3 days, and I feel kind of jittery right now, but it honestly feels kind of good. Most days I feel almost sedated going through them, but now I feel like my mind and body are truly one. Am I going full schiz?

>>16820311
Finally managed to get a fuckin job lads, after over six months of doing absolutely fuck all with myself. I don't really care that it's fucking below peasant tier work, and that I'm going to be starting at 6:30 in the fuckin morning, I'm just happy I won't be rotting in my room all day, literally I haven't read a book in about a month and a half, stopped writing completely, haven't seen any of the films that I wanted to watch so much in the past, and since the gym got shut down again I've not left my bed apart from to wash and eat. Hopefully this'll kick-start me back up again and I'll be back to enjoying all the things I did before.

>>16830283
amazing

>>16830094
I've been like you and it was exhausting. All that reflecting made it hard to impossible for me to interact appropriately, to a point where I was mostly mute. Now I don't give a fuck and keep on going as you call it. How? Overcome doubt, embrace instincts, and love yourself. Once you gain inherent self worth you don't need to ask yourself why others are like they are, as you are okay anyway. Is it better? Depends on what you esteem important. For me it took away my awkwardness and anxiety in social interactions thus it was completely worth it.

The ad:
>Dating A Gorgeous Slavic Will Make Your Loneliness Flee
But how did they know I'm... Oh.

>>16830468
This is exactly why a lot of people drink at social events - so they don't have to give a fuck.

It's not the best solution, but it works, short term, and lets you move onto other things you may have otherwise missed out on. Which, given how short life is and how hard some of these issues can be to resolve, is often still better than going full identity analysis, breakdown, and rebuild... But like the alcohol, it will catch up with you, eventually, it just takes a lot longer.

Honestly anons, I love this thread. I think you guys have a really good sense of how humans work, and that probably came out from our readings, I feel good that there is a place where I can go to speak to people I feel have a higher sense of emotions e humans feelings. Thanks a lot for existing, I enjoy your guys existence.

>>16830580
?

having been out of commission for many years now due to mental illness, it frightens me to think what it will be like to actually have a job again. The last time I did anything full-time was 7 years ago. I have been in some work-prep programs. I am currently back in uni, studying at half-pace, but it is nothing like having a job. nothing like going to an office even 4 hours a day. It worries me greatly. basically 7 years of shitposting. What will my re-integration be like? I have become somewhat of an island over the years. and will I ever be financially stable enough to have a family? can I offer that to a woman? I am speaking to one now, but she could only be a wife if she can accept poverty, and I suspect few would.

God knows best, he will see to it all. Like Jacob, peace be upon him, I know that God will see to it all, but I still speak to myself to soothe myself.

>>16830659
>better than going full identity analysis, breakdown, and rebuild
I'm done with that. I went through years of depersonalization, suicidal depression, living in my head and dreaming while isolating and reclusing myself from everyone and sitting anxiety ridden in my room. The world was horror to me, I completely disregarded my own self worth, thought that everyone is more worth than me and lost sense of reality. I also read some typical pessimistic literature, you can guess what my thoughts would be like combined with total self hate and sense of hopelessness and alienation etc. I'm done. I wrote 300 pages of lunatic thoughts and I finally found a way out of all that mess. The key for me was to get rid of it all while first going through it to the very extreme. Fuck that shit, fuck psycho analysis, fuck identity questions, fuck introspection, fuck doubts. It's all for nothing, really.

>>16829715

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but you are utterly delusional. Dude's gf defaulted on her end of the social contract. She failed to maintain her position in the world and failed to contribute an equal share. In the absence of equality the only possible relationship is a power dynamic. QED.

>>16830867
it may be that the time has come to rage against this fate of mine

I actually kind of miss Tumblr, the Tumblr from a decade or so ago. Sure, it was a breeding ground for much bad ideology, but at one point it was still a distinct culture unto itself, with distinct sensibilities. Now it's just one tentacle of the brutish, lifeless, monoculture blob that is Woke.

>>16830424
But you couldn't delete threads anymore

>>16824021
Anti organization, or AntiOrg if you will.

>>16820311
I feel like a piece of shit

>>16831489
what for?

Just beat up my gf, choked her and punched her in the back
I hate being angry, just because a random ex texted me on whatsapp fuck this gay earth

I think Democrats will ride this one out. They knew and understood how to manipulate their golems. The dems know about their slave support base than the republicans knew theirs.

For example they will dangle the possibility of the Biden administration forgiving off the student loan debt, only for it to turn out just the first $10,000 are forgiven for a student, and only students from the current point onwards.
But the young dems support base would still take this as a victory. They will take that small victory and use it as an argument for why their dem masters should stay as the rulers. I've seen this played out so many times, like when a redditor pulled out a WaPo article or a snopes data in a debate with a heavily downvoted commenter in a news thread.
Those dems. They sure know how to throw their mutts a bone

>>16831621
pray. ask her for forgiveness and leave. seek therapy or anger management sessions.

>>16831621
you need to leave her and not be with anyone for a long time. if she goes after you with the law, then submit.

>>16830094
INFP icon.

It would have been nice to go to world war 2. Sure, there's a decent chance you'll die, but upon returning you'll be hailed as a hero, it will be easy to get a job in any industry because the entire world has been gutted and is beginning anew, and on top of that you can probably fuck any woman you want considering the dearth of men your age.

You're an American male born in 1922. You go to war from 22-24, return and land some 20 year old hottie, use your war hero status as leverage for your career, retire at the age of 55, and die in 1997 at the peak of American civilization.

We missed out bros.

>>16832099
you would have tested unfit for service and gotten bullied by the chads when they all got home

>>16832176
Didn't they pretty much take anyone?

>>16832176
Actually I would have gone and you would have been turned away on account of your penis and balls being declared clinically too small for service

>>16832099
Ehh, I just want civilization to keep getting better. Wouldn't it hurt seeing everything go to shit around you?

>>16832396
i would have been on the japanese side, where it is a manner of distinction to have small dick and balls, and would have had a loving wife and infant child back home to think of protecting and died honorably at 25 by crashing my plane into pearl harbor never having to feel the tyranny of age

>>16820349
Dude,

>>16825095
>They built the Tree of Torment, a horrifying aberration. The wicked thing keeps a person alive t just to sap a persons energy also inflicting mental destruction upon a soul. Their victims just hang there suffering for millennia. It is too dangerous to go there, and the only hope one has for escape rests upon the shoulders of the condemned.
Sounds a lot like Hyperion.

>>16825077
He's right though, and trying to disregard what he wrote with such a low-effort reply only reflects badly on you.

>>16830454
What's the job, Anon?

>>16821163
I like this, and I normally don't go for this style of poetry. Good job, anon!

>>16831465
I didn't know that.
Why would mootwo remove this feature?
To make jannies feel more important in their volunteering?

Female anus too close to the vagina

Hi,

I've been with a few women in my life and one thing I've noticed is that the female anus is incredibly close to the vagina, in fact they're barely an inch apart.

I'm not sure about other guys - but doesn't this disturb you? It feels like a design flaw in women actually - like they're supposed to be so feminine and beautiful yet this ghastly little oversight is ruining everything.

Somehow it feels to me that women should be more aware of this flaw and it should affect their confidence. Whenever I see a so-called beautiful woman walking down the street so care-free thinking she's all that I just remember her anus is only 1 inch away from her pussy and laugh her into oblivion.

Women: please accept that they're too close together, let it negatively affect your confidence and so make yourselves more readily available sexually as a result. After all, we're having to sleep with a creature whose ANUS is only 1 inch away from the vagina - you should not make this difficult. It's unappetizing enough as it is. We're doing you a favour.

Men: do not let women forget this flaw, and do not forgive them for it. Remind them of it constantly less they get inflated egos and think they're all that

They're just too close together, sorry, but its true.

>>16832496

more likely you would have died of malaria while squatting in mud on some shithole island after raping and bayoneting a bunch of Chinese, Malaysian, and Philipino children, which is what most Japanese military personnel did during WW2

>>16833084
do you want balls between them or what?
like empty sacks, just like men got useless nipples?
what are you? fucking dumb?
it's like evolution gives you alternative penetration holes with pregnancy options and you file a complaint.

i just went out to the food store and on the way back i was walking down the road and i slipped on some wet gravel (it's been raining all day today, it only just stopped)
i made a noise like hnnhchchcchhnn and fell on my hands and knees
the things i bought all fell out of the bag and slid around the road. i had to pick them all up and they were wet from the road.
i grazed my elbow a little bit but otherwise i was unhurt. i had a quick shower when i got home because my hands and legs were dirty. i dried off my stuff and put it away while i was still naked after the shower. fortunately nothing was damaged.
nobody saw any of this. the road was deserted and nobody saw me fall or pick my stuff up or walk home with my dirty knees. nobody else is at home at the moment. if anyone had seen me i would probably have been quite embarrassed.
anyway now you know.

>>16833208
[headpats]

who is praying
and much ghastlier still
>for whos sake?

>>16833208
I'm sorry your things went in the water.

>>16833084
once a girl has a guy to the point where he is willing to put his dick in her she no longer needs to be attractive

>>16833051
fuckin parcel/mail sorter

>>16830929
It's true, internalized introspection and staring at your navel can only take you so far - and probably not much further than that 300 pages and lifetime of horror brought you.

But the solution that so many of us take at a certain age, is to block "external introspection", not seeing the views of others from their view as valid, because it's too painful for us to allow ourselves to give a shit.

Like any self-imposed personal growth block, eventually, it catches up with us, but like many others, it's also a defense mechanism that has a purpose and is there for a reason, and both a weapon and shield one needs to hone, before one can realize how to put it aside.

>>16833084
the based vagina purist

>>16833163
the degenerate pooper lover

>>16833540
meh, could have been much worse.

>>16833084
>>16833390
Oh my, the fixation!

Consider it a physical reminder that, if you can't love the worst of her, you can't love the best of her.

...and think of all the pain, suffering, humiliation, and mind-boggling levels of submission she has to go through to enjoy having that long-necked snail in an army helmet inside her. All and all, it's a fair trade, that forces you both to go a bit beyond the physical to enjoy, even if that's all either or both of you are really after.

Man’s insatiable appetite for novelty is both the blessing which brings in previously unimaginable innovations and the source of his undoing that births gaping metaphysical holes.

There are storehouses of ideas and practices that have been mostly discarded by humanity not so much for their faults or failures but because something newer came along.

Tragically, some of the most useful and illuminating have been relegated to dusty books and specialized academic discussions and stripped of their popular appeal and practical application. Many times when they reappear in contemporary cultural consciousness, it is in some distorted and unfaithful version, possibly unrecognizable to their original proponents.

>>16833908
Yeh it definitely could have tbf. I'm happy with it anyways, and as long as I'll have something to do for the entire shift then I'll be happy with the actual work too. Maybe there'll even be some heavy stuff to pick up that I can count as a little bit of exercise now that the gyms are shut. Like my last job was probably a better one on paper, but it was literally fucking half an hour of doing stuff and then eight and a half hours of standing in one place doing fuck all apart from arguing with seniles. I don't really care that much about money, and I barely spent like £30 a month on myself even when I was working, but the pay is decent, especially for an 18 year old. My mums already started some fucking jewry and wants me to start paying her out the arse so she can impress her boyfriend with expensive cheeses or some shit. I suppose it'll at least have me prepared for when I move out and have to pay rent for myself. But yeh, overall I'm very happy with it, though I'm definitely not looking forward to having to wake up at five in the morning Tuesday through Saturday, at least my body is sort of prepared for it as I already had to do that for two years in college.

>>16833084
I love girl anuses.

I wish to carry all the pain of my loved ones for them, nothing in this life makes me feel more alive. Even though I can't set them free of it all, I'll do my best.

Love you guys too, thanks for being there for me when I needed it the most, /lit/. All the best.

My toe really hurts. I want something to happen for a change. I want big exciting plans that don’t get made but happen anyways. I want to walk into a room of strangers and say the perfect thing to make the room laugh. I want to fuck a girl I’ve never met beforehand.

>>16834439

RICE

The fact remains: If I continue at my current trajectory, I will never be happy. This isn't a feeling, but a result of induction from experience and a sequence of logic. Let me try to break it down. Since about 2013, something has altered my physical and mental perception of the world from the foundation up. Since beginning 7 years ago, none of them have let up once they started, and as there are too many to list, I'll limit myself to the important ones.
I never feel loneliness.
I don't have a libido.
I don't enjoy hanging out with people.
I don't really feel emotions.
I don't have dreams.
All food tastes like cardboard.
All music is pure noise.
All games, films, shows fail to hold my interest.
All new hobbies are only temporary and soon become dull.
Medication has virtually no effect on me.
The only thing that temporarily livens me up is hope.
But hope is thin. Where can one find hope, if this is all life is? I keep reading but it doesn't change anything. Reading, the most fulfilling hobby left, can't solve this problem. I won't have anyone tell me this is normal, since I remember a time before any of the above was true. It has simply changed, and shows no signs of reversal. I wonder if I will ever find some way back.

>>16834827

There are a few tried and trued methods;

1. Live for others. Just go start volunteering at shelters or whatever
2. Meth
3. Heroine

>>16834845
I might try real drugs at this point because, you know, I've tried everything else. Had my first full glass of wine this month to see if it might do anything, but it didn't, and I didn't feel any drunkenness. Being totally pragmatic here, a few drugs here and there must be at least worth a try just to see if it they might do anything.

>>16834827
Maybe instead of trying to find hope, you try to find ways to create it. You read a lot, which is all well and good, but have you tried writing?

>>16834979
I'm sorry if I failed to convey it properly, but all of the above is meant to be taken very literally: I'm not disillusioned, not unhappy, not filled with ennui. I've just lost the means to live a fulfilling life. Even if society were a utopia it wouldn't change much, likewise if it were hell on earth it would be for me only a bad dream. I'm still considering writing since it's such a great pursuit, even one of the best, but literature is a supplement to lifeーnot a substitute for itーand I would really like to know what it is like to live before I am dead.

>>16834973

Try volunteer work first. Give it a good long try and see if anything snaps in to place.

If not, start your drug trials with LSD or shrooms. They supposedly help with the type of mindstate you describe.

>>16820311
I still have the burning hope scalding my reason and grilling my mind into the foolish idea called love. I told myself never tk love again, but meeting someone who just wants to love and live has brought me to my knees and I can only ask God for his mercy. The pain will come, the disappointment will twist the knife, and I know I am ready for it. I can only pray that this will not be my last chance to make a woman smile. She is lovely, clever, respectable and respectful. If this be a test, I am ready to endure what He wills. I only have faith that He has a plan for me. I'm not a Christian.

>>16834994
Well don't knock it until you try it - worst case scenario you waste some time making a bunch of other people feel good while doing nothing for yourself - and it's safer that bungee jumping and less self defeating than the hedonistic hamster wheel of sex and drugs.

Also, exploring yourself through your characters might help you figure out what your emotional blockage is really be about.

Though it sounds like all you really may need is a new source of emotional energy - and that usually means (gah) meeting new people.

>>16835041
>Though it sounds like all you really may need is a new source of emotional energy - and that usually means (gah) meeting new people.

Not that guy, but that is the dumbest thing I have read in my entire life.

my diary desu (since jan 2016) is 1,052,583 words long - i am approaching proust at 1,267,069 words and will probably pass him within a year

>>16835004
>I only have faith that He has a plan for me. I'm not a Christian.
You have a plan for yourself. Just beware, much like that of any god, this plan may involve having your soul shattered against the jagged jaws of love with a neigh infinite amount of pain for you and those around you, as like any good author, we tend to be subconsciously more concerned with the excitement in the story than the wellbeing of its characters. ...and like most characters, I suspect you're already at the point that if you met your author, you'd beat his ass.

>>16835041
>other people are a source of emotional energy, anon!

t. emotional vampire

I have an aesthetic theory for the beauty of humans. It starts with a few assumptions and builds up based upon those. First, humanity is divinely fashioned in contrast to the animals. 2) The beauty of the face and figure is equivalent at the highest level. 3) The beauty of man and woman is equivalent at the highest level.
So then a broad spectrum is produced, and the previous statements hold true at the median as well.
This means that the beauty of an average joe's face, is equivalent to the beauty of a female super model's physique (slim with small breasts).
I think many people misinterpret the forms, not giving them their due credit and sometimes even inflating their worth.
I think I have something here, is all.

>>16835061
It's sad, but true. Sometimes recharging emotional batteries means leaving our comfort zone and seeing the world through a point of view you've never seen before. Which is why a lot of writers take to doing a lot of traveling.

You can only get so far living exclusively in your own head, and eventually, your heart will run out of things to eat in your self imposed emotional prison.

>>16835072
Little secret: We are all emotional vampires. ...and while it sometimes seems there's only so much love to go around, the hunt itself tends to generate more than we can eat.

>>16833084
it’s so you can eat her asshole once you’re done eating her pussy. how did you miss that you god damn gibbon

>>16835087
>>16835101

your roastie is showing

>>16835041
>>16835061
>Though it sounds like all you really may need is a new source of emotional energy - and that usually means (gah) meeting new people.
It feels like I am still failing to convey the extent of the problem, and I think this might fall under the range of issues Wittgenstein associates with language games. To be clear, I am not saying this means you are not intelligent enough to understand the situation, but that the tools life hands us in relating to other people fail us in this circumstance. My ability to even connect emotionally with other people is totally gone. It can't happen. I've tried it, I know what it's supposed to feel like, I used to have friends as a kid. It's not possible anymore, and I'm utterly certain of this. That's why my focus in the OP isn't to brainstorm new ideas of reaching out, but to alter my physiological state to make it more receptive to external phenomena. Because as things are, it just doesn't work.

>>16835115
Well, I'm not denying I've been quite the slut over the years, if that's what you're at. Doesn't, however, make any of it any less true. Sure, there's always infinite love in God, but all that sorta love does is bounce around in your own head, mirroring yourself back at you. Hell is other people, but so is life.

>>16835101

Little secret: I wouldn't share that around ever again, because if it were true it would be entirely moral justification for mass murder on any scale. I can provide references if you want them.

>>16835139

Yes, I get it. You're thinking about the problem without perfect information. I suggest The Talent Code as relevant reading. You might be able to break out of the place you are in by making new myelin structures in your brain, which requires - at the minimum - new routines in your daily life.

>>16835139
Well, we've tried the medication, so we can assume the mirror neurons are working (if it isn't, in fact, what broke them), and you're just refusing to use them for some reason.

But before we assume the problem is physical, and send you off to have an MRI, when was the last time you had a real deep conversation with another human being, and how did it go - and when was the last time you tried to write? As, given where you are, I find it odd if you hadn't yet. Basically, trying to figure out if you hit your head, or if this is a self made damnation.

>>16835164
>I wouldn't share that around ever again, because if it were true it would be entirely moral justification for mass murder on any scale. I can provide references if you want them.
Oh please, I'd love to add to my collection.

>>16835178

Hobbes

Saving money for a comfortable death. Desu.

>>16835179
If you mean Leviathan, sadly, already in there.

I mean he's not wrong, even if any single philosophy taken to its ultimate end is ultimately destructive, but there's fixed factors that instead of that world, give us this one, that'll always come into play, no matter how many societies and governments may rise and fall. (At least until we start genetically engineering ourselves, or some similar post-human sci-fi shit.)

Not that there aren't plenty of examples of societies in history who have imploded on themselves as he describes, in their efforts to remove those very mechanisms... But cultural natural selection and all - what doesn't work, doesn't survive. On good days, mankind stops flinging shit at each other, on bad days, it starts sacrificing people for sport.

>>16835227

try compressing your doublethink to singlethink. Per you; everyone is a vampire. Per you: Hobbes is not wrong.

>>16835242
Like all of my species, I'm entirely capable of holding conflicting concepts in my head, and like most, do so willingly, but I fail to see the conflict here.

>>16835164
>This brilliantly written book is one of the most impactful I have read this year. Author Daniel Coyle has done an outstanding job of taking research into myelin, a substance that insulates nerve cells, and turning that scientific breakthrough knowledge into a prescription for achieving greatness in a variety of fields, from music to athletics to business.
What's this got to do with things?
>>16835174
>when was the last time you had a real deep conversation with another human being, and how did it go - and when was the last time you tried to write?
Haven't really written since I have nothing much to write about beyond 4chan. As for real deep conversations, I had one with a friend of my mother's about issues with modern technology and it ended up with me convincing her to read McLuhan. It wasn't enjoyable to talk in itself though. I am a bit curious where those suggestions come from.

>>16835287
>What's this got to do with things?

Myelination. It's why you are who you are.

>>16835263

You weren't meant to see any conflict. The precepts are perfectly compatible, and they endorse genocide at a minimum.

>>16835287
>I am a bit curious where those suggestions come from.
Just personal experience from being paralyzed in null mode for longer than I felt comfortable with, or otherwise countering the internal fire dying in my old age.

>It wasn't enjoyable to talk in itself though.
Sounds like you at least enjoyed the result of the talk (ie. the book), if not the conversation itself, and that's more than some people have. And at least you aren't terrified of talking - just. maybe tired of it? As you can't say you're not getting anything out of it. Sometimes you just have to put the work in until something clicks, rather than assuming it'll never work ahead of time. Does risk the fake it until you make it scenario, but there are worse options that lead to worse things, and you seem to be eying some of them rather intently.

I'm so fucking depressed and tired of trying to be loved

>>16835306
>You weren't meant to see any conflict. The precepts are perfectly compatible, and they endorse genocide at a minimum.
Well, history would suggest mankind's very existence apparently periodically endorses genocide, so that's hardly surprising. Consequence of the existence of collections of vampires who want it all played by the rules that benefit them and theirs most - as most people do, or otherwise seeking to manipulate these tendencies to maximum effect towards that end. We're all emotional vampires, but sometimes a collective of us will suck so much blood they collapse into a singularity, and the resulting black hole tends to kill a whole lot of people before it loses its fire or is otherwise forcibly extinguished.

Not a consequence of a particular belief in a particular model of human interaction, just a consequence of its actual existence, and just as often, denial of it.

>>16835371
Then quit trying and concentrate instead on being loving. Get good enough at it, and the previous effort of trying to be loved will resolve itself, just, maybe not in the way you expected.

>>16835403

It seems like you believe no admission can damage you

>>16835431
I've come to accept all my failings and those of my fellow men, and am always trying to find new ones and the reasons behind them... But maybe you could be more specific about this damage you wish to do?

>>16835490

Sure. How am I supposed to do that?

I just don't know anymore.

>>16835526
observe, orient, decide, act

>>16835514
Suffice to say I'm confused as to how you believe you are attacking me, as I'm not seeing any resulting damage from simply being called human, beyond that which is already there. ...So maybe we're just talking past each other as a result of my misunderstanding the point of contention? I mean, if you just need me to say genocide is wrong, sure, but I'm not going to say it isn't something my fellow men don't sometimes tragically drive themselves to do.

>>16835560

Do you feel like you are under attack?
It seems like might be comfortable with who you are.

>>16835593
>It seems like might be comfortable with who you are.
T-thank you?

I am fairly, but always being room for improvement means there's always room for self doubt, and thus I'm always looking for a new flaw as well as picking at the scabs of all the existing ones in my tireless attempts to optimize... Nonetheless...

>It seems like you believe no admission can damage you
With my admission being the more or less universally accepted, "Humanity sucks sometimes." ...that response made me curious.

>>16835685
you're like some kind of normie judge holden
you are the face of evil. you don't know or care. everyone recognizes you for what you are.

>>16835717
Sounds like a universal fear to me. The angelic beast behind the mask - those black eyes peering through.

I'm fairly amenable, and can't hardly imagine myself going on a scalping spree outside of a video game or other shared fantasy of violence. I, indeed, take great pains to do as little harm as possible, even at my absolute worst, even if I must separate myself from someone I love to do so. I realize my natural pessimism is simply depressing, so I try to make up for it, by poking fun at it, or flipping it positive, demonstrating how flimsy the depressing thought really is to my afflicted audience.

But yes, I only interact with the world through my masks, as I know not what that beast that is either. I only see his same eyes mirrored in yours, and the reflection fascinates me.

But sometimes, it turns out those black eyes are not that of some horrific beast, but simply those of a fellow lost kitten.

i just ripped a fart that echoed down through my bedsprings

very based and redpilled if i say so mysefl

>>16830727
Yo. This is the first time in my almost wizardry times of being that someone said thanks for me existing. You are the man we need. You are my hero. You are the one.

>>16836213
>>16830727
both these posts warmed my heart. now enough faggot shit

>>16829455
>[Buddhism] is thing devoid of all meaning. It's legitimately nihilistic in the sense that it poses no greater questions about life or the world. No matter what, that is the most ultimate truth for Buddhists.
I think the western view of Buddhism focuses too much on the ultimate end, as they equate Nirvana with Heaven.

It's largely practiced as an aesthetic religion, but always remember: the happy Buddha, is the fat Buddha. Yes, ultimately, through countless reincarnations, you're supposed to reach enlightenment with a soul and mind so still and so silent, it can see the universe from the seat of god... But in the meantime, you're living through one of those however many millions of reincarnations, experiencing life, for the sake of experiencing life, your soul learning all it can along the way.

It's just, for some of those 'greater questions' to be answered, you have to "let go". It's a bit like the Douglas Adams 42 syndrome - the ultimate answer and the ultimate question cannot exist in the same universe, and some answers can only come without words.

So still your mind, calm your shit, center yourself, see the bigger picture. That much, at least, is sound advice. The grand state of the Buddha, is supposed to be an unobtainable one for a reason: It's about the journey, not the destination.

Not that it's necessarily my favorite religion, but there's worse, and if it looks like a death cult, rather than a affirmation of life - well, every religion does, if you focus on the right parts of it.