/lit/ - Literature

>>16630730
>Have you had your iron checked? When my levels of iron in blood were really low, it took enormous effort to do simplest tasks. Once they were back to normal, I get things done with ease.
I don't know that I've tested it recently but I've been turned down from donating blood in the past due to having high iron in my blood so I'd be surprised if that were the case. I also had a lot of bloodowork done a couple months ago and they didn't say anything was amiss (again I'm not certain what they ordered actually looked at things like Iron).

I finished my first book of the year yesterday. I listened to like a bazallion non-fiction audiobooks n shit, but that was the first piece of literature I sat down and read cover to cover.

This is all there is. All those dreams and fantasies are simply ways of coping with the complete dissatisfaction you find from every day life.

It doesn't matter if this is the result of a coddled childhood or misunderstandings with the way the world works; you're stuck here, and everything they promised life was worth living for will only ever be mediocre in actuality.

The teeming masses of the mindless, the insufferably normal who take everything for granted will dictate who and what you become. There will be no grand appreciation for a misunderstood genius, no reconciliation and apology for the alienation you have and will always suffer. No, you will always be different; their joys and their success are ashes in your mouth, the forbidden fruit shrivels even as you touch it, rotting away into the uncaring wind.

Years in the future, with your youth like a withered flower about to fall from the stem, you might have a woman and you might not. Either way, even if the onus if your existence is fulfilled, you'll only reach a slightly more appreciable state of apathy. You weren't built for this world and even if it doesn't succeed in bricking you into your head and starving you of all feeling, you will never have what they have; you will never reach their state of profound melody with all that we are.

Sneezing is probably my favourite bodily function.

I noticed my dreams are populated by imagery that is not mine,in the sense that I experienced it,it is mostly stuff from movies,videos etc.
Also,is butterfly the Sapphos of contemporaneity?

>>16633099
It is a cruel thing that man cannot even truly cry. Not in the childish, womanish way that releases frivolous emotions. We can only swallow our pain.

>>16634316
When a man cries, something is truly misplaced.

holy shit those sex haver gang ads are funny af but i dont dare click on it someone find out what it is

Could heroin chic have a renaissance or did feminists close that door forever?

>>16633099
The gulls, the gulls, the gulls. I pray to thee. I pray to the perch. I pray to the straw. Reform him. The neon glow, yellowed jaundice. And its eyes. So wide. Unblinking. Blink my dear. And they blinked. But they were happy. The curtains fell but there was no applause. But the gulls, the gulls, the gulls. Who has the gall to tell him? To tell him the truth. To ensure that he knows all his words are lies and all his truths... He buried his head in the sand yet his ears still protruded from it like mole rats. Take my hand dear. Follow me into the ocean and we shall be baptised. The redeemer we will find but he does not redeem. Petty squabbles you told me on a January so long ago. My hands were sickly from the sweetness and I saw them watching. The gulls. Gilded was that afternoon. And now I lay here. You call me decadent. Of course I am. I am the most decadent of the decadents. Sickly and distended and my eye is still jaundiced.

>>16634664
It wasn't feminism that killed that look it was rap music videos

All i want from life is a girl with black bangs... this isnt fair bros

Why is 4chan telling me to have sex? ):

https://youtu.be/D3SpDJ2hups?t=375

>>16633099
The Jomon way of life seems to have been pretty comfortable.

>>16634889
You're a facken fag mate.

anyone watching the debate? biden was ranting like "omg where is thing guy coming from?! does anybody know where this guy comes from?!" trump just goes "queens". lmao trump is a once in a lifetime guy, you have to just enjoy being alive for this shit.

>>16635094
yeah I hate trump but he demolished biden

>>16633099
....fuck niggers...
...those damn jews...
...i wonder if if a lighting hit a nigger he would becone white...

>>16634148
Life is what you make it :)

Trump did pretty well

Billie Eilish looks like a man's foot

God I want a cute girl to beat me up.

>>16633099
We are so primitive when compared to our descendants. They will look at us the way we look at the Mesopotamians. Our existence will seem trite, our struggles elementary. Think how much more complex we will be by the time we get to Mars, or when quantum teleportation is a thing. Our 'scifi' would be out of date to such people. What philosophical quandaries would they have when our consciousness is destroyed everytime we teleport from Earth to the Moon? We will be a world of 100 billion people, and there will be asteroid mining, and we will all live in skyscrapers or 10 miles underground. Every degenerate fantasy we can imagine with our primitive brains would be tried and magnified 100,000,000 times. Jeff Bezos would be seen as we see a Bronze Age king: good for his time but a mere peasant by the standards of Tomorrow. There will be 100,000,000 Shakespeare's at any given time; 1,000,000,000 Picasso's. We will all be connected through the Neuralink. The Great Debate of Tomorrow will be whether to fully assimilate with the Collective Conscious or to sustain our individuality. I have seen all these things and more. I'm so fucking bored of today's sci-fi.

>>16633099
Back in the day before the internet, how did people who were agnostic cope? They didn’t have any social media websites to rot on.

>>16636008
They did everyone a favor and killed themselves.

>>16634664
It's up there with meth-chique anon

>>16634889
But why would she want you?

>>16635536
join your local Brazilian Jiu Jitsu association

Last night I had a dream where I went to a bookstore and found the book I have been searching for, but there were only beaten up mass market paperback copies of it.

>>16635160
duh

last 34 days i have gotten 3-5 hours of sleep a day

Best site to download pdf or epub that's not ftp or torrent?

Is there a website that can tell me whether a book is abridged or not? Not really looking to know for a specific book, it would just be handy in general when buying used books

When I started reading The Hound of Death and other stories by Agatha Christie, I didn't expect it would be so enjoyable, since it's such an obscure work dabbling in supernatural. I mean, I've already read her other story with otherworldly events, featuring Mr. Quin, but that one was more theatrical and the whole supernatural thing was just a flavor in a standard detective story, this one focuses entirely on weird events.

SEX SEX SEX SEX
with 2d girls

>>16636589
based coomposter

*inhales* Ok so im a khv but it doesnt really bother me that much like Id rather just be alone my whole life than have premarital sex anyway but it does kind of feel like a cope because I know girls think Im gross (yeah im 20 btw) and Ive come to terms with it but it still kind of stings sometimes, like most people manage to have a relationship with someone else and here I am beating off to hentai and trashposting schizo rants on /lit/ but sometimes I imagine a fantasy world where I actually had a set of testicles and I talked to that girl in my english class who was a couple inches taller than me and who took her religion so seriously that when the drama club she was in was going to do a production with a gay couple she quit, like I try to follow the Word but I easily go astray and follow my vices, and I fold like a cheap suitcase when it comes to what feels good and what's right, but I've met almost no one with that kind of conviction outside my own church and honestly (kinda cringe here) if I had a perfect life I would have married her and worked hard to make her happy (lmao sounding like a simp) and now I can't even write about something important to me without this dumb post ironic detachment because I'm ashamed of being genuine even to anonymous strangers online, and when someone asks me basic icebreaker questions it feels like someone is trying to dig something out of me with a shovel but there's not really a reason for it, maybe I was traumatized as a kid or something but I don't remember anyway, and it really doesnt help me to know one way or the other I mean Im still stuck in this half serious half detached state where I can joke or act like a retard in front of a crowd but cant act normally in conversation to save my life I mean both my brother and my cousin have autism so maybe I have it a little too? Its possible but self diagnosing is useless too. Ive recently had multiple dreams about someone disfiguring my body and replacing limbs with artificial reconstructions, I never feel afraid or anything in these dreams but its weird to dream of it so often. And now Im caught between my desire for the truth, to see if maybe le orthodogs were really right about Christ and the Trinity, and I want to know, I want to dive into it, but also I stopped going to church a year ago because I felt just total shame and guilt when I went like I was just wasting everyones time, and I'm scared of disappointing my family when I leave the church we've been in for generations, I don't want to do that to my parents because I would hate to hurt them in any way, but maybe they would accept it anyway but I tremble at the idea of taking a single step in that direction, so I read and post online and do basically nothing else, but sometimes in the shower or in bed after my regular one-in-three-months crying session I make disjointed prayers asking for mercy, repeating mark 9:24 over and over, thinking about how Im almost definitely going to Hell for all I did, and

Scraped
My cunt my hands
Raped
Scared

Abortion.

>>16636749

>>16636589
>with 2d girls
Funny way to write 'your hand'.

it's a shame that the ultimate battleground of ideas is politics, given that politics is so rotten

>>16636180

That happened to me over the course of a year. My brain is now rotting.

what if all human beings are always speaking with all the beauty they can muster. sentences are always formed for maximum effect I think, at least while there is energy to do so. Sure you might say some people don't care what people think: then this is the aesthetic they have chosen or been borne into. Words carry meaning, and their composition and emphases help give life to that meaning. What if all human beings are poets. Maybe that is why humans always crave the new in the arts, we are so fucking tired of hearing the same hackneyed poetry over and over. But that does not diminish the intention of the poet is what I'm saying. Every time a human being is moved to speak they are just that: moved!

last two digits are the percentage probability that I am hypomanic

these new shitty ads some anon paid for are great

convince me not to sleep with my ex lads, i'm so lonely... easy pussy too, if i texted her right now she'd probably be here within an hour, maybe bring food aswell :(

I dont know what i want
I dont know who am i
The future is bleak
Only ignorance keeps me alive
No idea what to do

>>16633099
i can think of no trait combination more insufferable than my combination of above-average verbal iq and zero executive function.
no executive function, low verbal iq: everyone's life is easy. "do this" "no" "why" "can't" "why not" "just can't"
high verbal iq, executive function intact: everyone's life is easy. "do this" "[a fucking essay]" *does it* "thank you"
but no, we live in the world where i can give you 3 essays about the possible reasons i can't do something, which clearly take more energy than just doing the task. but because i'm giving off a lot of "reasonable" reasons i can't do something, the other person is encouraged to give reasonable solutions to those problems. but all of the "reasonable" reasons are really just hypothetical, subsidiary to the executive function thing.

hell, even the style of this post right now invites a response that's basically "get some executive function". but a much better response would be "shut up. just stop talking."

>>16638135
At least you're not retarded like me.
I can't do shit right even after they explain it to me.
Work is hell.

>>16638135
shut up

>>16638302
This post demonstrates both a high verbal IQ and executive function

Hermits and reclusive people are cowards. And i am one of them. I don't feel qualified to deal with people anymore. I love them, i really do, but there's so much that is wrong which shouldn't be accepted. I cannot bear to see it. From inside and out, i am weak. That lifestyle is the closest thing close to solace that isn't suicide.

The more I think about it, the less nostalgiafagging makes sense to me.
You just got old and cynical, because back then you were a kid and now you're an adult.
Also, it seems no one actually looks back fondly on memories of spending time with their family or going on a picnic or something.
It seems that people that harp about the "good old times" on this website always seem to do so by saying books/movies/music/videogames/etc. were better back in their day.
Like, what kind of consumerist cuck do you have to be to feel nostalgic about corporate products? There's still there, they're still available, if not in physical copies then you can be sure some loyal fan uploaded it to the net.
Also, you probably had shit taste when you were a kid. Try to actually go back to your favorite stuff from that time and you'll quickly realize that it wasn't as good as you remember it.
Have some fucking self awareness for christ's sake.

>>16635160
what the fuck is that thing

>>16633099
i dont own a pan and i want to eat non raw egg so i found a can of tuna bt apparently if i use it as a pot it will give me alzheimer's

>>16634182
Agreed

>>16633099
i dont own a pan and i want to eat non raw egg so i found a can of tuna bt apparently if i use it as a pot it will give me alzheimer's

>>16638726
4chan wasn't a corporate product back then. It was a teenager's plagiarized website

i just watched the video for mesmerize by ducksauce, now that is some pomo shit, id link it up but im not 100 percent sure its safe for work

wondering if I should give up on the idea of ever finding a wife. and if so, what I should do with life. I think I have some kind of responsibility to my family to at least stay alive.

I made a break through and what someone to talk to but don’t know who. I don’t want to pay a therapist. I’m sure the right one could help me but it’s more likely you won’t find a good one.

>>16638726
No my younger self had much better taste
There was significantly less attachment to corporations, quality assessments made on the fly as opposed to trying to predict based on past performance
Learning the world leaves you open

>>16639413
You can just schizopost on here if you can't find/don't want to pay a therapist

>Want to run a self-serve ad on /lit/
>Don't want to give Hitoshimoot money
Fuck.

>>16639256
Im not joking, Im just worried the can's bottom will give out and blow up the stove or plastic will leech into the egg

>>16638693
Yeah you are weak and a coward but it has nothing to do with you being a pseudo recluse wanna be hermit faggot retard

Someone posted a Neo-Agent Smith comparison a few months ago about them being symbolic of two kinds of Gnosis either here or on /x/. Can't find due to poster's peculiar grammar and using /retarded/ /slashes/ /for/ /no/ /reason/ and/or the search functions of the archives being shitty. Most likely was the Theology wojak poster or the medium poster on /x/, which are probably the same poster, incidentally. Someone find it and paste it already.

>>16633099
It’s kind of sad that I can only experience contemporary art through a screen

>>16639662
Use someone else’s money

>>16639681

Never mind, I found it. I wrongly remembered it containing the word "Gnosis" rather than "Gnosticism". Had to ctrl+f through 18 pages of /x/ on moe. Worth it.

>https://archived.moe/x/thread/25116229/#25118157
>Report: we must think the subject which patches over the discontinuities in the real as the understanding contained in the image of bodies constituted in space... that bodies are the "holes" of space, and time is another direction in space... the Demiurge is not an entity, or a principle, he is the loneliest of fathers because he is all-space, all-emptiness. he is a crystalline code that reproduces its own sameness endlessly. recall in the Matrix that Neo and Smith awaken together: Neo (Nous) awakens the Faustian intellect in/as Smith, each represents a "kind" of gnosticism, the condition of possibility for both of them is the literal lucidity of consciousness, the intellect: in other words, the subject emerges as a rupture in his coordinating field (remember: Smith is a machine but he hates the Matrix, the stink of soma: he wants to escape as passionately as any true gnostic): because he emerges as a rupture, that he represents an enclosure, an enfolding or topological torsion of space: a "sink" in which the global syntax breaks down and bottoms out into the living pneumatic field burning beneath the crust of the CTMU. the point is this: there are laws to reality, and when those laws become too complex to process (as in the complexity of a human brain), those laws "crash" and the vacuum that opens is the self as heuristic fiction. a consequence of bodies, of the localization of perception. Ialdabaoth is extension in an unextended background, pneuma are unextended loci in the matrix of extension. Smith is a child of Saklas in that he is reality reproduced as intellect as teleological crystal. Neo is just the One: the pure spontaneity of enunciation. thus, space is the condition of evil: the community of being/bodies.

It is normal to not be racist but extremely sexist?

Where do I get started with the Postmodernists? What about Modernism are they reacting to? Some of it I have gleaned over time but what I really want is a fuckin reference so that I don't get lost trying to wade through all the signal and noise.

There is definitely a petty, vindictive, visceral pleasure in reporting a post you don't like, checking back later and seeing it gone.

i dont even understand how this is possible

Peace, Joy, Bliss.
And justice for all.

I support abortion because I wish my mother ripped me from the womb before this petty existence could poison me.

Lads it's almost two in the morning and I can't fall asleep because I've got the fucking trumpets from the final standoff in The Good, The Bad & The Ugly and 80's Polish rock songs playing in my head and its all gassing me up too much too go to sleep. How can I fall asleep in the next ten minutes?

>>16640601
Listen to the first couple of songs on Dark Side of the Moon. Don't listen to the rest of it, otherwise it will induce a boredom induced coma.

>>16640601
quit being a pretentious retard

I. Departure

Every harvest, successful or not, was an excuse for father's indulgence in liquor. From the barn – my bedroom of choice on that and many other nights – one could hear laughter, soon followed by shouting and commotion as glasses became empty. What was I to do? It's not like I could stop it. As a malnourished youth aged 10, whose scrawny frame was that of a child seemingly two years younger, it felt pointless to intervene. It wasn't fear of death that stiffened me, but an overwhelming sense of powerlessness as the racket of knuckles bashing against walls turned into pounding of flesh. As I laid over a makeshift straw bed, deafening quietness finally ensued, allowing for a dreamless sleep.
The rooster's call announced first light on that creepily calm dawn. Father wasn't out to wake me as he usually did by slamming the barn door, rattling the chains that I wounded around the handles in an attempt to avoid his drunken presence. Oftentimes he would have to bash it open to wake me from a stupor, whenever I looted his stash a night prior craving abashedly for approval and serene slumber. After getting up and dressed, I loosened the chains, opening the barn door and letting in a gust of morning wind and the first embers of sunlight. As I walked down the beaten path and felt cold earth beneath my feet, I saw that both the porch and kitchen lights were on, yet the animals still weren't tended to. In my approach towards the house, when all I could hear was the wooden porch creaking from my light first step, I realized that it has never been this quiet, holding my breath in response. It seemed like it took aeons between that first step and pushing open the agape front door. A scent of rusted iron filled my nostrils, and two figures were made clear: mother, limp on the ground beside the dining table, laying in a mixture of dried dark and fresh scarlet blood; and father, sitting on his rocking chair, empty bottle in hand, his resolute eyes piercing through mine.
Father still drew breath, but his desolate stance indicated that he was in even worse shape than Mother – who at least seemed serene under sweet oblivion. His bloodied hands shook, and the thudding of his wedding ring against the hollow liquor bottle resonated across our kitchen. Still struck by his gaze, comprised of guilt, wrath and shame, shadowed only by a quivering, drooling mouth, I heard a faint utter – "Look at what you did. Look at her." – as he pointed at her lifeless shape still grasping his empty medicine, as if it was an extension of his limb. "You're not mine. She knew that would anger me. I struck her too hard". Breaking contact as his eyes watered while clutching the chair arm, he cried – "But when her knees shook I could only think of you. ".

Like a cub whose mother never taught how to avert danger, I remained motionless when he lunged towards me.

Two hunters, a foreigner in employ of the king and the other poaching on royal lands, encounter each other over a buck slain by the poacher. Rather than wield his authority, the royal huntsman offers they split the meat 70/30 and to decide the lion's share recipient over a contest from his homeland. I'm trying to come up with an interesting or quirky contest with an emphasis on doing something stupid while also relying on genuine nerves or willpower.

>Dragon!
>Put five matches between your lips and light them. With the smoke in your eyes and nostrils, try to hit a target as many times as you can without dropping any matches. The flames creeping toward your mouth creates a natural time limit.

>Idiot's Chess
>Take turns kicking the other person in the shin with your own shin. The loser is the first to give up. Very popular among soldiers.

>Reaper's Handshake
>Take turns flipping a knife in the air and trying to catch it with bare hands. Loser is the first to drop it. Catching it by the blade is legal, you just can't drop it.

>out of money
>1 day worth of food
>multiple exams next week
uh oh lads
at least I have a few cigs left

I hate to say it, but whenever I read about a random assault or violent crime in the news I always correctly guess the "ethnicity" shall we say of the perpetrator.

>>16640783
Idiots chess is based
Reapers handshake is too easy

Two thousand years from the pyramids to Herodotus, two thousand years from Herodotus to us.
I wish I could be alive two thousand years from now

train train I love my station

you guys suck

I had a series of dreams in which I was lying down just as I was in bed, but in very inconvenient places like the middle of the road. I was unable to move my body. I was not visibly tied down, but instead I was just too tired or weak to do anything.

ok here's the deal
>me
>37
>unironically went mgtow in 2013
>want to give dating another try
>look ok for my age
where the fuck do i go? is tinder a good place for old guys? i feel like everything changed so much.

Thunder! snarls the Raging God

Cant handle my dumb group of friends sometimes man. No amount of conversation or attempts to get them out of their cyclical self-destruction is ever enough. I hate feeling like the only healthy person around while my ego keeps count and barks at me uring me to just tell them to fuck off completely. It just irks me how irrelevant they're interests are to me and how their concern for the future is dampened by their comfort.

Not like it matters but Biden got assfucked in the last debate

When I finally die, before her god sends me to the pit of eternal fire and anguish.

i hope i can shove my head through one of the pearly gates and holler to the heavens that i now love her more than myself

which as you know is quite a proclamation for a man like me

Sometimes women look at me and figure that they gotta snatch me up
That my blank gaze is one of extreme pensiveness
They figure me a genius and think that my thoughts are incredibly profound and they will lead to a big yellow Cadillac
Fuck him he's a kike
Fuck her she's a nigger fucker and will shit out charcoal babes
That's all is it, Thats who I am

I'm perfectly content to drink by myself. I'm aware it's regarded as sad and dismal, a habit for defeated old men. I don't see it that way. It allows me to process stubbornly suppressed emotions. It gives them a quickness. The burn of liquor gets the ice floe moving again, breaks it up.

>>16637704
stds

>>16641532
You'd be better off with a paid service like eHarmony or something. As they say, at your age the odds are good but the goods are odd.

>>16639859
Most incels are non-white

Just used uber eats for the first time. A punjabi rode over a mountain on a bicycle to give me a big mac and I had to give him directions over phone when the terrain became too rough and he started traveling on foot. This shit is fucked

I'm incredibly tired. My body is suffering constantly, I need to see a doctor but I haven't in at least 8 years. Soon I'll have proper insurance though, and then I can go get myself checked. A friend recommended me a new medication for my condition as well. If I start working my new job I'm cautiously optimistic that my health will recover and I will get to see my family again. I want to see them all, and the dogs and my cat. She won't remember me but I think she will still love me.

>>16638726
There was more variety and less constant soiposting. Rage comic era was a serious decline and that has eventually lead to the current plague of Wojak and frogposters. The trolling and everything else was the same but at least there was more variety and no /pol/.

You probably don't even remember the days of no /pol/.

>>16639662
Do it anyway. I want to see your ad, killlakill anon.

>>16642143
lol

>>16642160
You live on a mountain? That's pretty cool.

>>16642195
Yeah it’s pretty nice, don’t have a car so calves and quads get bigger every day

I had a nap that felt like someone knocked me out. But the dream I had felt a little bittersweet. Gonna greentext even if no one cares.
>on a hotel area with a bunch of guys on a trip
>we were planning on going to the bathhouse
>bathhouse ends up being closed due to some technical issue
>some say fuck it and go somewhere else
>I have the urge to wash myself so I go to the pool area and use public showers to at least rinse myself
>while bathing I realise I don't have any shampoo so I was a little lost
>some hot milf on the edge of the pool calls me out if I wanted a shampoo
>gladly accept it
>instead of handing it to me she lathers my head with shampoo
>feel warm and fuzzy inside
>after washing myself I invite her for a cup of coffee
>she accepts and we go enjoy the rest of the day and evening in the end
>we're at her hotel door
>she invites me inside for coffee
>take the hint and go in
>we make out and fuck
>after sex, lying on the bed both naked exhaused
>she says "I don't mean to lie but I'm not really by myself, I have a kid"
>I replied to her suprised I guessed that
>I then asked her isn't this basically cheating against your husband
>Mentioning her husband makes her melancholic
>Ask her what's wrong
>She explained that it's been years since her husband died of a sickness
>Felt a little guilty asking about it
>She mentions she doesn't expect me to stay but the fact that I spent the night with her was more than enough
>Spend the rest of the night at her room
>Morning comes and I leave a note
>"Maybe not now, but in due time we'll meet again"
>Leave and then I suddenly wake up

>>16642340
>>16642160
Reminds me of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEGKcOFJZWI

almost every I need I keep having these sex dreams and everytime I wake up having jizzed in my underwear. In every dream the girl is different

almost every night I keep having these sex dreams and every time I wake up having jizzed in my underwear. In every dream the girl is different

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just needed to get that out

>>16641834
Thanks for the image.

>>16642194
>I want to see your ad, killlakill anon.
Okay, but i'll need to make some OC first. Before i go any further with it, i want to know if these two figures are clearly recognisable.

Crime is an interesting thing to think about. It's exciting, sometimes sad, sometimes funny, sometimes impressive. Researching criminals in real life and famous fiction, you start to realize how much a man could get away with if they'd only shut the fuck up and keep the details in their head. It's hard not to fantasize about how you'd try to pull off a crime efficiently after seeing some retard screw it up and get mocked by comedians on TruTV. And it's almost frustrating that you can't really simulate it for the fun of it. GTA is actually pretty fucking terrible at letting you be a criminal on your own terms.

>>16641090
I wonder which one of those two things will be around longer

For the past month I've had my family members giving me advice on being more social and talking to people. It's not like I've had any problem talking to people but I'm usually reserved when I'm alone. Do my family think I'm autistic or something?

>>16642066
you say that like anon won't be odd by now

I learned forgiveness from an iranian
You can't catch the thief. No matter how hard you interrogate yourself, the thief will not step forward. You will never know "why" you did something, and the only thing you do when you chase yourself is put yourself through torture. It won't make sense, and the only lesson you can learn is that if you can forgive yourself, even though you don't understand, then you can forgive others. The only good thing to come from self-loathing is the realisation that it is useless. The thief will not step forward.

In the end there are only two reasons to act, shrouded in so many sensations and words. The only two human beings that were allowed to only have one reason to act, to have completely pure religion from birth, are Mary and Jesus, peace be upon them. All the rest of us will have to manage loving the world and God all at once. We will all choose poorly at times. But know that that is all it is: it is the heart choosing the world. Why it does this is truly unknowable. All that can be done is to forgive it.

>>16635100
what happened?

>>16642822
who built the cages joe

I know scripts for children's cartoons have to be simplified, but one would expect at least some quality that doesn't make french police absolute retards, arresting a man under accusation of being Lupin just because he read Lupin's card out loud. Okay, the man is actually Grognard, Lupin's associate, so it would be somewhat of a victory if they didn't fail to recognize him, despite seeing him before. Truly a dream come true for criminal world.


Before anyone says anything, I don't actually have a habit of watching cartoons, I just use Arsene Lupin/Night Hood as comfy intermezzo between reading and bad news from the world.

>>16633099
I'm drawing a map for my shitty genre fiction story.
I fucking love it.

Also, I'm big mad about how shit /sffg/ covers have gotten.

>>16643094
what does it look like?

>>16633099
A couple of weeks ago I posted in here how I was drinking way too much and that I was scared about it, and a couple anons were really nice and supportive.

I wanted to thank those anons and tell them that I'm drinking a lot less, and I'm doing a lot better now. Thank you very much, anons. You're good people.

>>16633099
I started College some time ago and I feel like shit in this system. I hate it, I hate working, and I hate life. I'm getting closer to suicide but the only thing that stops me right now is fear. I'm afraid of dying, afraid of living, and I hate it.
Other than that, I feel like writing a vampire urban fantasy story, something like VTM.

>>16642835
akshually, it turns it james biden, joe biden's brother, was the contractor who built the cages! lmao joe biden is the democrat dick cheney, truly despicable bastard who should be nowhere near the presidency

>>16643101
Like a big dragon. I thought about how people make pictures out of countries, and figured it would be better than just scribbling on a page and hoping it doesn't look like shit. So I drew a fucked up looking dragon, and broke it up into pieces until it didn't look like a dragon anymore.
It's a sloppy copy right now, and I'm scribbling notes about trade routes and cities and import/export goods, etc, etc. I tried to do the whole topography lines and it worked okay, but not great.
I'm looking for tracing paper, because I want to have overlaying climate and environment maps, but transparent paper in a2 size is expensive. Thinking about making a stylized map, too, a la pic related.

Hello, it's Chris again. Here's two facts about me:

I'm a professional reject. I've been rejected in front of a door. I've been rejected in a park. I've been rejected in a classroom. I've been rejected online many times. I've been rejected in a hotel. I've been rejected on an airplane. I've been rejected on an airport. I've been rejected on a train station. I've been rejected on a sports ground.

I'm also a professional rejecter. I have rejected someone in a public building. I have rejected someone in a college dorm room. I have rejected someone in an open office space. I have rejected many people online.

People are complex. Fears and lies and hate are common. I wonder who I am looking for. I wonder if there could be anyone looking for me. There's some kind of synchrony, some kind of feeling of coincidence with a few people. But it's rare. And so far it has never been fully mutual.

>>16642005
condoms

>>16640579

>>16640059

I’m pretty socially retarded. Don’t understand what to talk about with college girls because they’re like space aliens to me. They sometimes mistake my retardation for aloofness, but I don’t even desire sex anymore. If any of you have found /lit/ gfs, please tell me where to find one before I lose touch with reality and morph into a space alien

I'm a iittle tipsy, should I draw, write or play?

ich werde ein paar bücher von reclam-verlag kaufen

i found a post that said the following:

"people keep talking about reversions to the mean like they’re new

“the networked world is reinventing careers” no, ibm aptitude tests and meritocratic aspirations were the anomaly, wasta is the norm

“far-right authoritarianism is on the rise globally” no, the progressive platform was the anomaly, what you’re seeing is the cold war apparatus being slated for demolition. we had to do a lot of things that violated our deeply held principles in order to win the war, but we won, and now people are realizing that their deeply held principles are being violated without a wartime strategic goal to justify it"

what the fuck does any of this really mean? can someone explain this to me or try to interpret it? or give out your thoughts?

>>16644457
It's somewhat wrong, but it's not hard to understand. They're saying most of the things people believed to be "progress" last century were just changes that resulted from being in cold war conditions. Now that the cold war is over we will return to standard conditions. This is certainly true in economics. There's no reason to coddle the working class now that the revolutionary bomb has been defused. I don't agree with the part about "wasta" since the pure capitalism of 19th century America saw countless first generation fortunes rise. If anything the "big government" of the cold war era led to more wasta stuff for example the Bidens or Cheneys. The fact that they use the term wasta though leads me to believe this poster is not from the west. Ironic as well, since our support of "traditional" Islamic extremism was just to use them as a proxy to fight communism such as having the CIA set up Bin Laden to fight communism in Afghanistan etc.

>>16644391
Write something, drunken ramblings have more potential to be fun.

>>16644457
One consequence of communism that gets overlooked is that the federal government let the mob completely dominated organized labor for generations, and then once the USSR collapsed the mob was rooted out and smashed within a decade after they served no more purpose. Not to say some of our east coast cities don't still have active mafia, but it's not going to be like the 70s again.

>>16637704
masturbate now and and think about the consequences in post nut clarity

having a rather magical night. feel like i've learned a lot

I want to hug my therapist

>>16637704
i wouldnt

can't wait to present the culmination of years of effort to a group of people who won't even understand or care about it

Zero is the largest number of all. It's bigger than infinity.

>>16644882
one is bigger than zero

>>16644870
your image, i can't understand it

>>16644882
>implying such a thing as non-being

>>16644899
I mean metaphorically speaking. ;) Zero holds up the numerical firmament.

>>16644920
>None of math is possible without zero
>Math does not describe reality

>>16644921
one is bigger than zero

>>16644944
all numbers are bigger than zero, even negative numbers, because all non-zero numbers are something

>>16640632
Does it keep going?

I was on the tramway and when it stopped i didn't hang on and i bumped into a girl she seemed hurt and i was afraid i broke something and when i apologized she looked so mad and left so now i'm really embarrassed

I don't normally blogpost but i figured someone would find it funny

>>16644944
>>16644957
Zero is more important, captain autism. You're on a literature board and you don't get metaphors?

>>16645080
>being called captain autismo
I don't know why this brings me joy

>>16645092
:)

>>16645059
Why be embarrassed? You didn't do it on purpose.
Mistakes happen, if you want to call it that.

>>16644921
>set theorist

>>16645080
how have you not realised i'm on the wind up by now

>>16641998
Are you me?

>>16642390
I read it

>>16645145
And now warm night, once Arctic day,
Each breath came dagger-keen;
Two bergs of glinting ice were they,
The broad moon sailed between;
There swam the grey whales, tailed and finned.
Their life went by upon the wind
As though it had not been.

>>16645103 Her and her friend were fucking furious and everybody looked at me weird after that so i got off the next stop and called an uber

3005 by childish gambino is super

>>16645208
Alright, don't be too hard on yourself though, shit happens.

we'll never see orson welles' don quixote film
w the scene where he sees his story in the cinema - described as the most beautiful six minutes in the history of cinema

>>16645059
if it's any consolation that could easily be a kingsley amis-type interlude in a middle chapter of your novel. especially the part about everyone looking furious

a bottle of scotch (that i didn't order) came w my tesco direct yesterday & i'm drinking it now feeling p nice

I have some pretty wonky self-destructive thoughts. Like I think "I wish someone would dig a hole, put me in it and then forget about me"

>>16641998
If I when my wife is sleeping
and the baby and Kathleen
are sleeping
and the sun is a flame-white disc
in silken mists
above shining trees,—
if I in my north room
dance naked, grotesquely
before my mirror
waving my shirt round my head
and singing softly to myself:
“I am lonely, lonely.
I was born to be lonely,
I am best so!”
If I admire my arms, my face,
my shoulders, flanks, buttocks
against the yellow drawn shades,—

Who shall say I am not
the happy genius of my household?

>>16645241
IM gonna say it: Orson Welles was a much better actor than director.
On a related note: I just finished Trier’s Antichrist. Extremely pretentious, don’t think I’ll watch the rest of his movies

>>16645292
can't really be mad about that since i think he's received something less than his due as an actor. but he was so incredible as a director. i adore him. something in his films produce the illusion that it was made specially for me, however well i know that it wasn't
& if i were n refn i think i would commit suicide or emigrate, rather than live in a country where i was publicly graded one step down from von trier.

everyones embarrassed abt listening to lofi like biggie remixes (etc) on yt but you oughtn't be it's like the english & scottish border ballads that all take on a melancholy tone when read slowly

Literature was invented in 1832 by Jean Literature. He was sitting under an apple tree when an apple fell upon his head. He looked at it and said, "This isn't an apple at all! This is just a word! The word apple!" He fell to his knees, weeping and pounding his fist against the dirt. The gendarime took him to the asylum. There he wrote the first book, which sold so well that he was able to post crazy person bail and go back to sitting under fruit trees.

When asked why he didn't write another one, he explained that it had been the worst thing he had ever done to himself and would rather have lost his legs in the war again. He passed away a year later sitting under a coconut tree, and today authors across the world dishonor his memory by writing books to prove what a pussy he was, only to realize the horrible truth:

they are, indeed, all words. And it's terrible.

There is definitely something to be written about the astonishing success of Thai Sweet Chilli Sensations over the last 15 years

>>16645429
very good post anon
now without words
asasdasd adsasdasdasd asdasd asasdasd

need crit

>>16645490
your cousin is lit as fuck, post more

Can a critique of hegemony ever escape the suspicion that it might conceal a desire for hegemony on the part of the author or their views?

>>16645911
I think if the rebelling party is genuinely religious then yes, otherwise probably not

>>16645911
this thought makes me sick

It's astounding how desensitized everyone has become about covid. It's now at a critical point according to the WHO where it could reach uncontainable exponential growth. With half a million cases daily and a global average of 7 days before doubling and with 10 weeks left in the year, by my calculation 3.5 billion people would be infected by the end of the year, or roughly 1/2 the world's population. That's assuming all things are kept equal and there aren't more preventive measures taken and not taking into account regional variations of the doubling rate.

That means 14 million worldwide deaths , nearly the amount of deaths during WW1.

Ah well. At the end of the day that's a drop in the bucket. Can't be helped. Nbd.

I'm sleeping more hours every day. I've slept about 14 hours total so far today (incl. last night's sleep). I just wake up, get bored, and go back to bed.

i still remeber that post i made on /tv/ in 2016

>>16646026
that doesn't sound healthy anon. do you have any underlying conditions?

>>16646051
I've been depressed for a few years. Sometimes I just can't stay motivated to do anything at all.

>>16646026
what time do you wake up? for some reason waking up in the middle of the night (my sleep schedules gross) feels amazing to me

>>16646059
are you seeing anyone? might sound stupid but I was told that at least getting any amount of sunlight every day is a good goal. even if it's just sticking your hand out the window for a minute or two

think the kids turned out fine

>>16646081
sound advice

>>16646074
I go to bed at 2 and wake up at 10 most nights. Last month I was doing 1 to 9 and it was slightly better I think, so perhaps scaling it back is a good idea, at least if this chart too is anything to go by.
https://podio.com/site/creative-routines
>>16646081
They're still trying to get me to take meds but like a lot of people they only make my body feel worse and improve none of the symptoms, so I just want to stop taking them. I could go exercising each day but the energy concerns and motivation issues tend to kill that habit before long. I dunno, it seems unsolvable for the time being.

>>16646125
it's good that you're in contact at least, gives some structure. hopefully your contact is good too, my experiences have varied, but I think it's always worthwhile, at least while there is nothing else to do. Let them know about the meds, I think they basically have a list and start with the ones with the least possible side-effects and work their way down until something works. exercise and all of that, I think is gonna make sense when it makes sense and can't be rushed.

>quickly google and read about a subject I knew nothing about on wikipedia
>post about it here as if I were a knowledgeable scholar

>>16646151
>>16646125
it should be noted though that side effects are extremely personal and vary greatly, so they are making generalisations when they prioritize. it may well be that for you the next item on the list gives no side effects. psychiatry is very imprecise, you try until something works out.

>>16646176
kingsley amis did that more or less in his novels https://youtu.be/vG5KdlL335U?t=443

>>16646176
I see you too are an expertly specialist in the current topic at hand

i'm in love with myself how do i remedy this?

when i'm really drunk having a piss and i'm falling backwards and grab onto the little ledge around the door i think about the people who climb the totem pole off the australian coast and hold onto little ledges with their fingertips for their life and realise i'll never understand

If you reading this right now you are my fucking freind until the end of 2020. At the end of 2020 you can escape if you want but until the end of 2020 you are my fucking freind

>>16633099
Bros, what if the best work of literature of all time has been lost, and we'll never get to see it

The dishwasher in my house beeps continuously without stopping every 30 seconds until you open it for no other reason than to drive me into a psychotic frenzy when I am resting on the couch.

>>16646417
fuck up your life to the point where you can't recognize yourself

>>16645154
Thanks anon. Have a great day.

>>16646842
the people involved in the design of that dishwasher's function hold a personal grudge against you
what have you done?

Can any 4chan OGs explain to me the difference between the bump order and last reply Sort By options are? Switching between them changes virtually nothing in the render display.

I miss smoking meth with my father. Good times.

>>16646958
Bought their product apparently.

>>16646951
impossible. no?

anons, have you had a good hot bath recently? i’m not asking if you’ve bathed, i’m asking if you’ve taken a bath, specifically. if not, and if you don’t mind them, you should. it’s so cozy bros. steam your sinuses and soak a while, maybe even pour some soap under the faucet to make bubbles.

>>16646960
The difference is that bump order takes sage into account while last reply ignores it. Sage is a very old feature created in 1999 for the site 2channel which allows a user to post in a thread without bringing it to the first page. In 4chan, since threads die naturally by falling off page 10, this means bumping a thread will prolong its lifespan. To limit this for bandwidth and loading time reasons, threads autosage after a certain reply count so it becomes impossible to bump them. Sorting by bump order then is literally seeing the threads in order of when they will archive at that point in time.

The question then is why does sage exist at all outside of autosage? The reason is, when BBS/image boards were a lot slower, you could choose to sage a thread when you know it would get more replies eventually. By doing this, other threads got more attention and had a chance to get an audience, so every thread had a chance to develop conversation. Nowadays when boards are much faster and everyone uses the catalog though, it's kind of redundant, and even 2channel has since mostly stopped paying attention to it.

>>16646980

>>16646978
possible. a human will do anything to forget who they are, if it's fucked enough.

Example - if you confine yourself to a gulag, and do hard labor for 16 hours a day, you will be very quick to fall out of love with everything in this life minus the blackness of a dreamless slumber that offers temporary reprieve from existence. How deeply in love with yourself do you think you are, exactly?

>>16647011
being a fag is undeniably /lit/ though

>>16646980
i've heard washing yourself in v hot water is not the way to go and actually a tepid shower/bath is much better

>>16646980
Haven't had a bath since primary school. I have been autistically promising myself that the next bath I will take is in a Japanese hotspring. Was going to go this year.
I like the idea of long baths but I don't think I deserve them. I like the idea of drawing a bath. It's a pleasant term.

>>16647016
you can escape the gulag and walk to india. you can never escape yourself. re your q: more than anything rn

>>16647031
is it because it dries you out? that’s ehat i’m reading. i moisturize after i bathe in any case but i’ll look into it. are there any other health risks? i know hot baths are bad for pregnant women but are they bad for everyone else, too? i get very sore so i’ll be sad if i have to give up live-boiling myself in the interest of health.

>>16647042
there is no escape from gulags
that fantasy is reserved for movies and novels

>>16647035
https://youtu.be/0T0c4TaHSrg?t=144

>>16647035
i hope you can have your dream hot spring bath soon. i’m sorry you don’t feel deserving of a nice bath, anon. if i could bully you into taking a bath i would.

>>16647054
we all should be enjoying mudbaths to remoisturize, much like pigs and other lower lifeforms

>>16647054
oh it could be. i've not done the research just what i've heard & maybe read in a gq article. i doubt it's really unhealthy bc odysseus in the odyssey has a bath where he boils a cauldron of water and jumps in.
it's not practical anyway is it cos you can't wash your face/hair with hot water i know that

>>16647066
Thank you. I appreciate the kindness and positive sentiment

>>16647055
maybe a gulag is just what the doctor ordered then eh

>>16647085
>>16647066
>>16647035
>>16646980
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHEOguxiUsY

>>16647078
this is why you put a little cup to the side of the bathtub, so you can fill it with tepid water to wash your hair and rinse your face at the end of the bath. i clean my face outside of the tub anyways. baths aren’t very practical at all but they’re nice if you have a book and a drink and some time to kill.

>>16647005
Fascinating. So it's legacy code and 4chan is far too ghetto for a redesign. Thank you for your instructive post. You are a sage yourself!

>>16641899
I feel this but without the misplaced egotism. I hate women but they won't leave me alone. Help.

>>16647104
fair play actually.
at uni i know a lad who rented a hotel room for a day to have a bath cos student accomodation only has showers

>>16647086
I would hope that no type of doctor orders gulags. They are fairly unpleasant places.

I suppose it's funny you say that. Typically self proclaimed doctors of the mind are the ones ordering gulags

>>16647104
you could even have a shower after your bath. A very quick one to wash off the soapy water and have a final cleanse.

>>16646712
my dairy desu

>>16647176
yes! i do this sometimes, or i will briefly shower before if i feel particularly filthy.

>>16647154
i lived in a dormitory for a year because my school required it and only having a shower psychically broke me. smart guy.

>>16647189
>or i will briefly shower before if i feel particularly filthy.
this has always bothered me somewhat. preshowering of any sort, when the purpose of the main activity, is cleansing. I have always enjoyed soaking off my filth. It's almost like a baptism every time. In the sense that you don't pre baptize yourself to prepare for a baptism.

I am drinking Stolichnaya and wondering if the evening would be any different if I was drinking something else.

>>16647199
that makes sense but for me baths are very indulgent and my goal is to relax. cleansing is a secondary objective. that said i do not pre-shower much because more often than not i’m not grimy enough to justify it. i think very hot water taps into some feeling of ritual purity about bathing for me, though, so i see where you are coming from. i just do not want to stew in visible dirt.

>>16647214
>just do not want to stew in visible dirt.
that's an interesting point we differ on. I do understand your stance.

>>16646125
you are fortunate you can sleep

>>16647221
i think i have similar tendencies, just not as they relate to baths. i like the sting of hydrogen peroxide on a wound because it feels like bacteria dying even though it is just an enzyme reaction breaking up the H2O2 compound.

>>16644882
zero is the only value of relevance

>>16647255
yes. In general, I like to simplify a lot of things in my life into these binary states.
For example, if I clean my dwelling, I consider it clean today and dirty yesterday. It bothers me if I think it's still partially dirty today, as I have made the best effort to clean it. It is therefore clean, and there is no need to think further past a non binary state.
There's rest, reassurance, and peace if you apply this mental structure to things. Pursuit of perfect truth is mental torture and a path leading to guaranteed insanity.

>>16647167
spose you're right abt that. there's probably something to be said abt psychiatrists vis a vis stalinists. after all stalin went after the intelligentsia. all the professors in ukraine were shot.

>>16647275
people that can lob ideas are more dangerous than people that can lob rocks

>>16646980
I have the good fortune of house sitting for a wealthy acquaintance with a lux bathtub, but I feel no inclination to luxuriate within its sumptuous confines. Once a pleb always a pleb I'm afraid.

>>16646980
>Marat was assassinated by Charlotte Corday, a Girondin sympathizer, while taking a medicinal bath for his debilitating skin condition. ... Corday was executed four days later for his assassination, on 17 July 1793. In death, Marat became an icon to the Jacobins as a revolutionary martyr: "O heart of Jesus!

>>16647308
you should engorge in the experience.
open a bottle of something expensive. consume foodstuffs. overutilize THEIR resources.
pretend you are that wealthy acquaintance, for that duration of their absence, otherwise it all goes to waste.

>>16647315
he didn't bathe so good

>>16647285
true, the main responsibility for the last disasters of the last century lies not so much in the problems as in the solutions. people thinking certain thoughts.

Wow, the WSJ comments are totally overrun by Biden shills when normally it's like 80% Republican stuff. The Dems know they're getting killed in early voting which was supposed to be their strong point, and with all the Hunter Biden pornos flooding out of that Taiwanese website, oh boy.

>>16646980
I don't have a bath in my house. There is a nearby river but I doubt the wealthy boomers that own houses across the road from it would approve

>>16646980
You are a faggot or a woman

Drunkeness is KIND OF SLOWNESS. EXISTENNCE HAPPENS MORE DELIBERATLY nd mistakes multiply.Should Ifeel bad about wha t I'm posting? errors or not I gurantee what I'm sayi ng supplies atleast one person with solace. If I can do that, all my atruggles arw worth it. My life then means more than my life Hot take over here

>>16647978
Based drunkposter.

>>16647978
You better not use your hangover as an excuse not to read tomorrow

How can anywone withstand a trouncing after slayer has put paid to it. Slayer is decidely anti fascist despite what it hast to deal with and despite what half its music has voiciferousky opposed.
One of few bands of all time that I claim to be a fanboy over/ It's the metal band Slayer, one of the greatest and most warlike rock bands of al time. I feel rare and distinguished for caring this much about rock music in this day and age. I stand ready ready to strangle anyone who disagrees with me.

>>16647978
Drink water and eat food

Don't drink more alcohol. You have more in your system already than you think.

Take care of yourself anon, past a certain point you stop feeling good from alcohol and it just becomes something you have to do.

>>16633099
>"Someone has to add color to this dull and monochrome world"
Indeed. Happy 21st birthday Zero!

When are we gonna start having dreams in which people are wearing masks?

II find myself listening to adorbs and comfy anime music from my childhood like uri on ice while meanwhile listening to unforgiving pulverizing metal. If only there was some combo between them. I feel sad that to survive I must abandon comfy anime music for metal. ---I realize I sound absurd but, I have such beautiful memories of jrpgs as a kid...and if I cannot express them here there is nowhere to express them.
https://open.spotify.com/track/5tr1bCo0XRU3ZciXahlTKm?si=KrpK--HETveP4IeAXrtWUg

I don't even know if i am doxing myself with this link but I am trying to revive the comfiness that I remember from ages past...

I’m think about hitting up Sasha. She’s cute enough and probably a good fuck. I know she’s a virgin; I like teaching virgins - they’re malleable. She’s always liked me. She’s a shy girl and I could always tell she was attracted to me, physically and emotionally. For some reason, it’s easier to tell when a shy girl likes you than when outgoing girl likes you. They daydream about you, ponder you. They fantasize situations with you and them. The cute look, and the quick look away. Another look back, and a stiff face to stifle the eruption of emotions. They’re inherently more romantic, shy girls are. Their love is more passive, but nuanced. It flows like a Mozart serenade.

The thing is though, I broke up with Cara a few months ago. Cara and Sasha aren’t really friends. They’re acquaintances, connected by Amy, Cara’s best friend (undeniably her best friend). I imagine what Cara would say to me if I dated Sasha: “You just wanted to make me jealous didn’t you?” Of course Cara knows Sasha likes me. Sasha gets teased about it quite a lot, and Cara enjoyed being the girl who did date me. Cara once told me (twice actually, she forgot she had the second time. The second time I pretended she hadn’t told me the first time) that Sasha liked me, building it up and all like it was a surprise. I flatly told her I knew this already. I’ve always known. She scoffed at me and rolled her eyes. Oh yeah what makes you so sure. I just know, I always know, like a sixth sense. My intuition is strong. I value it like a blacksmith values his hammer.

The truth is though, I really don’t know if sasha digs me anymore. I mean, I haven’t seen the girl in almost 6 months. Haven’t talked to her in I don’t even know how long. But, I never actually did talk to her, but that didn’t stop her from liking me. I’m so tired of being stuck in my house all day. Quarantine was fine with me at first, but now that I’m doing a full semester of college online and I can’t even interact with people outside my friends and family, I’m losing it. The lack of a girlfriend only exaggerates this. A girlfriend would be good for me. It’s nice to have a gal around. I need that kinda thing ya know, more than most people. Ironically my personality only pushes people away from me. Maybe that’s exactly why I need more.

I'm not sure how much longer I can function in society, especially in terms of romance: all love and lust has been emptied out, save for masturbation, and, with that, there's a lurking inhumanity in my actions --- each action I commit to exists in the same vein as an alien pondering over the traits of Man. I cannot describe those I'm friends with in at least three adjectives, because their bonds and attachments to my identity are stronger than my connection to them or even myself. What was originally a state of bitterness a year ago has transformed into a total disconnection with my environment, yet the clock ticks forward with a dispassionate life

Gustav wants to visit his father in the nursing home. The nursing home is divided into an old people's home and an madhouse. The two parts cannot be distinguished. Gustav is baffled by the receptionist. Equipped with an illegible site plan, he wanders through labyrinthine corridors. Eventually he finds the room in which his father is supposed to lie. There in bed lies a completely different man, who immediately begins a conversation with Gustav. They come to the subject of fathers and sons. Gustav departs. On the way to the reception desk, where he wants to find out the correct room number, he meets a doctor and questions him about his father's condition. The doctor reports on his great gymnastic and athletic progress and the connection between body and mind. The inner man is a kind of muscular movement. A squeaky red rubber ball plays a considerable role in the salvation of the soul. The father has gotten so healthy, he is hardly recognisable, both inward and outward. The doctor bends snappily into a patient's room. Gustav is surprised at the doctor's speech. Standing unexpectedly in front of the receptionist, he learns that the man in his father's room was actually his father.

>>16644870
your image, I can understand it

>>16633099
I long for death

At what point does being upstanding turn into being a simp? Seems like new culture punishes respect and rewards indecency

Cuando calienta el sol aquí en la playa
Siento tu cuerpo vibrar cerca de mí
Es tu palpitar, es tu cara, es tu pelo
Son tus besos, me estremezco, oh, oh, oh

>>16648892
https://youtu.be/x7XEcs9EkZs

>>16648512
schizoid bro

Reality and fiction are blurred. I lose count of the hours that flow by me. I try to ride the wave but I can't find the water.

they flesh out they flesh in
I see her I see him

>>16648512
>>16648901
That was some pretty description. I think you just put a label to the narrative phenomena you couldn't understand.

I watched house of a thousand corpses, it was shit. I watched secret window, also shit. Movies are shit. Books have ruined me on movies.

I'm terribly slow in reading The Picture of Dorian Grey, and all because my mind can't help but imagine characters suddenly getting naked to have passionate gay sex. Maybe if I didn't know Wilde was gay... oh who am I kidding, the way his characters talk just screams about it.

>>16649330
There would probably be an audience for that kind of fanfiction

>>16649339
Knowing internet, the audience is most likely already reading that kind of fanfiction in at least ten different versions.

>>16649032
Try watching movies that got more than a 6 on IMDB, you tasteless chud. House of a Thousand Corpses? You thought a movie directed by Rob Zombie was going to be good?

>>16649032
>robert zombie
>steve king novella adaptation
Dunno what you were expecting from those two

Bruh, is this where that el goblino americano or whatever meme came from? Look at this fuckin' dude!

>>16649330
How are you finding it? I thought it was an interesting concept that kind of went nowhere because it just timeskipped anything of much interest happening. Ended up feeling both shorter than it could have been and longer than it needed to be to say what it said.

Oh shit, commie pope going to raise up the first african american cardinal! pope francis farming them woke points!

>>16649673
Commie Pope? More like False Pope.

>>16634148
I have quite similar thoughts

>>16649581
I haven't got very far, but from what I did read it is interesting. Descriptions can be quite colorful, but still stay short enough to not be annoying. Characterization is spot on.
I can't say if I would recommend it or not, have to read all the way to the end for that.

There are certain hangovers that feel criminally stupid, and there are others that feel warm and hearty. This morning is a good hangover, I feel I have learned something and the night's cringe was a necessary sacrifice. A greasy, slick breakfast of pig and egg and a rare cigarette will fix everything and put me on course for absolution. Take back everything I said or say it better than my sloppy ass ever could.

>>16649330
read that whole book when i was 16 without knowing or picking up on the fact wilde was gay

>>16649955
And never did you find anything peculiar in the fact women are presented as annoying, a necessary evil so to speak, while interaction between male characters is actually quite romantic?

The reason there are no alien visitors is that all advanced civilizations discover the dharma and cease those sorts of endeavors.

I love feeling
Right now im feeling a feeling i cant describe
Feels good

>>16634148
Fuck it dude, imma find some sort of meaning.... Im going to go to the gym, im going to learn langueges and im going to unite the world
somehow we are going to find out the meaning of life

>>16634148
Incredibly cringe, please be under-20

>sleeping last night, had a dream about books on a shelf, i was picking them up and reading their titles
>vividly see the author and title of one of them
>was bothering me, actually forced myself to wake up and go write it down so i could google it in the morning to see if it exists
>wrote "victoria gaston deux les peaux, the long march to happiness"
>don't speak french, going to assume my brain shat out french-sounding nonsense
>googled it, doesn't exist

what the fuck is wrong with my brain?

>>16640632
Your writing style is too confusing and rambly, like you're trying to emulate Cormac McCarthy but lack prose skills.

Lately I fantasize about not waking up.
I hate going to work, wish I was a NEET.

I think we should bring back a sort of literary test in the form of critical thinking and political knowledge, translated into every modern language so there's no "western bias" or whatever the fuck. I don't care if your a trump boomer from some podunk town or BLM looter, I don't want our entire political system to pander to your retardation.

>>16633099
Not much.

>>16633099
Is it ok to absolutely hate my first draft? I'm willing to put in effort, but what I'm putting onto the blank page just feels so pretentious and awful. I'm hoping that a revision or two will make me like my work, but I'm worried I'll always be dissatisfied.

>>16636180
I've been doing something similar, with 10+ hours of sleep Friday night keeping me sane. School + writing + socializing is quite difficult to juggle.

>>16633099
Si seulement nous Avions le courage des OIseaux

>>16637045
nothing like hypomania, my last episode was in July and I only crashed because I gave myself serotonin syndrome chugging OTC meds
anyway I think what you're describing is how I imagine speech will be like in Heaven, but rather than use our unity to rebel against God, we'll use it for worship. Every word will have its idea transmitted in a beautiful manner, its full meaning to the speaker being received by the listener.

>>16651794
the first draft is always shit, most genius writers destroyed their first real work in dissatisfaction if it can ease your mind

>>16652067
It does, slightly. My friend who is published says that he does several entire rewrites because the first draft is so awful, but I still feel odd. I checked out YA novels a few weeks ago, since my little sister was shopping at a used bookstore, and I was appalled at what was able to be published. Thing is, I'm not writing for popularity or success, but for myself. I probably could get published, but it wouldn't be good enough in my own mind.
I hate being like this. Most people I know would be content with just having the title of "author" by their name.

Im starting to get worried that i might not see cloned mammoths in my lifetime

I'm a fish
Swimming in alcohol
Because a very bad lich
Caught me to enact its evil plans
Will someone save me
From this plight
What a surprise, wow
Just as I said that
I can swear I saw a boy looking through the window
I wish I could drown so I could stop him
The poor bastard's neck is going to get cut
The lich will indulge in his blood and carve his heart out
What should I do?
I'm just a fish
Not a roc
What do I see now?
Some sort of gate, floating in the alcohol
Pillars engraved with snakebirds and fire
I am going to die
And so is the boy
It's decided
Just a leap short from becoming a roc
Alas, this is not water
And I'm just a fish
I just wish I could drown
In my own guts and die
I'll then become a dish
To distract that fucking lich

Attempting to read Capital again has finally driven the point home: there is nothing productive in reading books that just reaffirm the things that already make me miserable. I need to read something that'll make me not want to end it all for once.

>>16652204
Try reading a real economics textbook instead.

>>16642496
are you the same drawfag who did this? looks similar

>>16642496
are they greek people

Someone please explain this trend of women claiming to be "witches". Did being an arthoe just become too gauche?

>>16650583
Isn't that sad, then? That interplanatery contact would never be a thing.

>>16652425
Aye
>>16652477
Which Greek people?

I just had a chilling thought. During the last debate Biden was talking like "Covid IS a pre-existing condition!" when they were talking about healthcare. So, wait. Are insurance companies going to try to crank your premiums because you got the coof? It'd a fucking coronavirus not aids, how can they justify that? At least with Trump my premiums have been going down each year, unlike with Obama where I went from silver plan at first down to the shittiest bronze because it kept getting more and more expensive every damn year. Biden must not win.

A spirtitual akwakening is what im here for
I'm sitting here trying now very consciously to cope with how my interpretation of reality is based entirely
on my mind. My brain. I want to understand my place in the universe. I want to understand why I'm alive and what
my consciousness is. Recording now. My impluse to wipe my eye. I didn't make the choice to take that action.
It was a preprogrammed action that is outside of my control. Putting myself on display to avoid a wasted hour,
a petty, absurd avoidance for the guilt of my now past impluses. Every mode of thinking must have a very advanced
chemical pathway to it. We use these pathways in combination to some malformed inquisitive way of thinking that allows
us to even begin to question our own consciousness. We, who are the extreme rarity of creatures to reach this level
of cognition to question our extensential beings. I get it. I modes of thinking do mot include one for ectensential questioning.
Our cognition is made for evolutionary tasks. Hunting required cognition. Talking required cognition. We built up our level of
intelligence. Thats why I'm here. Because people millions of years ago increased their inteligence. "People". Let me have a breakdown.
I'm now going to browse 4chan jp while listening to breakcore because to belong to a hypothetical group of strangers on the internet
is how broken retards like me meet the social quota for our desire to belong a large group. Jesus christ. I'm serious. I can feel
the pathway in my brain to make me cry about missed social quotas and senses of belonging to a larger group turn on. I putting myself on
display. Breaking my desire to feel like I'm competent and allowing myself to know that I'm a loser. It's important.

I'm going to inspire myself to learn japanese now. I'm going to use to the drugs in my system to watch footage of japan
and become obsessed with the language. I'm using this trip to help myself in the future. I'm such a a thinker ahead.

>>16633099
>think about going for a /nightwalk/ since I'm in the mood for one
>remember that there's a very real chance of running into a roving band (or two) of aggressive, mugging gypsies out there
>end up deciding to stay in

I-It's a faggy thing to do a-anyways.

>>16652944
so crates
and
ary sto stl?

>>16633099
We're getting raided by a dude posting webms of a girl messily eating ice cream! :(

>>16652944
why are so many people on lit avatarfagging now why have the mods abandoned us to this hell

>>16654318
The Reddit/Twitter crowd is overrunning the place both due to the US elections and as part of the natural decay of the board.

Ah I'm so bad and stupid! Rarghh argh WAGHHH!

people whose only exposure to poetry is rap should not write poetry - it becomes immediately obvious when your verse is contaminated with superficial and obvious rhymes and are riddled with vulgar cliches

oh shit, i almost forgot, the audible daily deal is a book about dopamine, it's only $2.95, might as well cop it

>>16654636
Rap has more complex meter and better rhymes than poetry. Poetry has different sets of constraints which allow for more investigation into richer areas of human experiences but there's some rap songs which, while they attempt this, fall short due to the mediums constraints and perhaps the general lack of character amongst moderns.

How to cope with anxiety? Specifically health related. Ever sensation is somehow interpreted as "I'm going to die now" and sometimes it turns into a full blown panic.

Been getting worse lately

>>16652571
Thanks to pop-culture, they are confusing witch with self-confident, rebellious woman that is essentially a feminist with magical powers coming from nature.
Which is the opposite from what witches originally were considered to be - weak, bitter people that ask the Devil (a man) for help to ruin those more fortunate than them.

atrophied companionship

When I read someone compare a current event and a past event I give it some thought. When I read someone comparing a current event to a pop culture incident (movie, tv show, etc) I want that person to die.

>>16655149
I bet you think comparisons with the fall of the roman empire are titillating

>>16655149
I'd rather people compare politicians to Voldemort instead of Hitler

>>16650583
exploration of the unknown is a perfectly rational dharma, methinks

>>16655258
They're both exhausting now.

Lads, I just finished reading "Feeding The Ghost" by Fred D'Aguiar. Great book but man, that ending though. Chapter 13 was sad as fuck.