/lit/ - Literature

>be me
>met this really cute girl and we've been chatting for a while
>feel like things are hitting off and that I'm finally going to get my first girlfriend at 26 (better late than never right bros?)
>having a philosophical conversation
>she says she believes in God
>I suddenly feel a heavy feeling of disappointment and disgust
>I ask her why she would believe in such a stupid fairytale
>she looks shocked and had the audacity to say "What exactly do you mean by that?"
>I stop walking and just look at her while holding back tears
>she says in such a fake way that it's been nice but she has to go
>realize I'm messing up my only chance of losing my virginity
>I wanted to grab her by the arm as she leaves because that's what cool men do in many of my favorite movies
>accidentally grab her too hard and beg her not to leave
>she tries slapping my arm away like the weak whore she is
>I decide to bite her fingers to atleast get some sort of a taste of a woman in my life
>she screams for help and calls ME the psycho?? and then some fucking mudslime simp tries to catch me to cockblock me because he probably thinks he's a chad
>run as fast as I can (I knew my running classes would pay off someday
>go back home and release tears of frustration because I couldn't handle this much longer
>a few weeks later after watching Jordan Peterson to understand females better and to improve myself
>feeling much better and actually have hope again
>decide to have a quick check on her Instagram
>she recently posted a few selfies of her hanging out with that fucking Arab-looking piece of shit who chased me down
>lose all hope and take the black-pill for good this time

Bros.. she's white with these gorgeous light brown sparkling eyes and so beautiful yet she's hanging out with that stupid fucking douchebag? I genuinely want to kill myself. I cannot even explain the rage.

Any books for this feel?