/lit/ - Literature

>>14867670
i was in the psych ward so it wasnt exactly a ~choice~ per se but i did this for a couple weeks and found it super valuable. nothing to distract me, nowhere to go for second opinions, i had a lot of time to just take in what i was reading and think about it. definitely worth doing for at least a week or so

>>14867670
You are left with your own thoughts.
Do take care.

>>14867687
But you're left with the thoughts of the person who wrote the book you're reading.

>>14867708
You’re left with the thoughts of all the authors you choose to read and your own.
Interactive tv (internet) is just a distraction. Rewarding in some ways, but it takes you away from concentration on much else.

>>14867679
I am curious, how did you get yourself into a psych ward?

>>14867687
>"I'll never forget you."
Spook.

>>14867670
You will realize that the internet was never the issue and that you are just a brainlet who is not capable of reading as a primary activity.

>>14867679
>>14867736
seconded. are psych wards quiet or comfy in general?
asking for a friend...

>>14867748
I am humble enough to recognise my life-long physiological and psychological conditioning by the significant power of 21st century technology.

Computers have ruined my life. I'm 30, I remember starting out "surfing the web" when I was 10 around the year 2000 and that shit never stopped, just moved from place to place and interest to interest. I've learned some things, even met some people because of it, but it is not worth it. When I was around 20 and moved out I purposedly left my computer at my parent's house. It was good and it worked. But then I needed for professional reasons and had to bring it back. I've spent most of my life behind a screen, more so than sleeping or anything else. Otherwise I have a normal life, I've dated and even lived with someone, have some friends, moved from job to job, alright. That being said, I wonder where would I be if I had spent this time making real connections or even more connected with nature or in silence. The internet gave me permanent anxiety. I hate it and if I had the choice I'd flip the switch to return technology to the 90s era. "Dude just plug off", maybe I will but it's quite hard, I love it too, it's an addiction. I'm afraid too many people has it. If we survive to 2060 people will look back and think we are absolutely crazy about how we spend our time.

That's basically how I lived as a kid (from 8 till 14) until I got my first computer/Internet access.

It made me realize I don't enjoy reading books, I enjoy consooming information and entertainment, and a computer is thousands of times better at providing it than limited books I had to pick from in the library.

It did a dent on my attention span, though. Simpler times that greatly helped me with language skills.

>>14867670
I actually did this for an entire year. It was a nice mix of reading and exercise during the summer, but holy fuck was I miserable during the winter. Of course, a lot of problems I had at the time were personal. I dunno, OP, I'd give it a try.

>>14867736
>>14867788
i threatened to kms! usually if you do that they'll put you in for a while.
and honestly it depends on the ward you go to but mine was up in maine and it was super quiet + comfy, other patients were nice and not scary except for like two, group therapy was interesting, they made me grilled cheese for lunch every day. drawbacks were they woke me up at the crack of fucking dawn to take my blood once and they still woke me up every day at like 8 when they werent taking my blood. also we were only allowed to go outside once a week but given this sites userbase i dont forsee that being an issue. 10/10 would go back if i had another mental breakdown.

>>14867882
self reply, ymmv depending on what state youre in. i did outpatient in california (bay area) for like a month afterward my time in maine and it was overcrowded and way less useful than the two-ish weeks i did in the wilderness. i brought myself in the first time so i had a little more choice as to where i went, if you get 5150'd its kind of up to them what facility you get put in, might not be a cozy one.

>>14867882
>>14867898
i was almost attacked by a huge schizophrenic mexican in a psych ward, he got brain damage in prison and is permanently going in and out of facilities, i do not recommend because you might meet him, he is like 6'4 and thinks everyone around him is insulting him in spanish lol then he screams at you "what the fuck you say weyyy?" and gets into a fighting stance until he is restrained by faculty, he shit pretty hard on what would've otherwise been a nice experience by constantly trying to fight everyone hahah

>>14867882
>>14867898
thanks for replying anon

>>14867788
Depends. If you are actually going through an episode of psychosis the psych ward sucks. Mania and being trapped in a ward are not a good combination. Antipsychotic meds are horrible. Not only do they zombify you, I and many others, get a side effect of akathasia. Akathasia is like an inner restlessness for your whole body. You cannot get comfortable.

I'd also have weird internal Alice in wonderland sensations trying to fall asleep. That's the best description I can give of feeling like my body was expanding to fill the entire room and then shrinking down to a pinpoint. A strange and slow oscillation between the two.

The solution to your symptoms is always more medication. Apparently my caretakers thought Ambien would beat manic insomnia. Well they were wrong and I ended up having the most insane unending visual hallucination trip of my life. It wasn't fun because the visuals were always at the corners of my vision or manifesting in the darkness. Have you seen annihilation? I was hallucinating that everywhere. I'm convinced that creature design was based out of Ambien hallucinations.

All in all, fuck the psych ward. I've said it before and I'll say it again that jail is much more comfy. No mandatory group sessions in jail, just books, food, gambling, exercise, and light conversation.

Did it for a year. Reading speed, comprehension, and recall ability all improved. After a while, I was able to read ~200 pages per day and comfortably retain the content of each. Giving up the Internet is hard to do in the modern world, though, unless you're already provided for adequately (in my case, this entailed NEETdom, which not all of us have the luxury of maintaing).

>>14868004
that helps dispel some illusions I may have had.
thank you for sharing your experiences bros.

No internet only works if you're self sustained and don't have obligations (work, family, friends, societal pressures)
Most of the time I'm not even on the internet but at work, in transit, in between stuff, I can't concentrate reading when I get distracted by shit every 5 fucking minutes. That's where the internet comes in ,for better or worse. It's to fill those few minutes of time in between shit. But when I do have proper time, I spend it reading and exercising.

>>14868004
yeah -- im the psych ward anon from above and my experience is definitely not universal; i was lucky to have gone to the facility i ended up at and my symptoms were on the more manageable side/were compatible with institutionalization. i have major depressive disorder (they were trying to figure out if it was bpd but my symptoms didnt present as mania in the DSM way, so mdd was my diagnosis). being in a medical facility necessitates a certain forfeiture of yr autonomy and its definitely not for everyone, but if you dont get too restless and legitimately need help, it could be worth looking into.

>>14868004
I could always knock myself out with liquor when I was manic so that id at least sleep like 4 hours

>>14868004
>Akathasia
>The alice in wonderland thing
>vision corner and low luminosity hallucinations

whenever I m in a bad place in my head i get this shit, mild versions of those i guess since i learned to live with it. does the alice in wonderland thing have a name tho ? does the combination of those things say sth about your psychological profile ? always nice to name things, thanks for sharing.

>>14867823
I fucking know you, I'm 20 and my internet addiction is delaying achievements in my life. The problem is that you don't think you have a real issue.

We can change, let's fucking do it. Life can be great if we just live

A great clarification and exhalation of your cluttered thought space, as if storm clouds lifted to reveal a pristine spotless sunny sky.

>>14867670
youd feel fucking great and read a lot which would also make you feel great

>>14867725
ok boomer

>>14868004
>visuals were always at the corner of my vision
I had HPPD like this after acid. Had to cut my long hair since I kept thinking spiders were attacking me as it rested on my face. Luckily that shit subsided after awhile. Really makes you appreciate sobriety.

>>14867670
Due to my occupation, there are long periods during which I can't access a computer. I can still read, but find myself missing the internet because it has a synergistic effect on any intellectual activity.

>>14868004
I recommend to anons with psychotic symptoms to try anti depressants like zoloft